This confirms those words that one brokie said, that Heath would kick his own ass for this terrible accident, for him having been imprudent.
Today I told to Ali (MyPrivateJack) that I was stunned reading that inform, ‘cause it was saying that was not the amount of pills but the mix of them what killed him. And I was so shocked ‘cause I do the same the whole time. I have very horrible pains several times a month (long story) and I can’t stand that…..so I use to take so many pills….and I use to mix several kinds of them. My mother and friends are always really mad at me for that….but until today I never saw the danger. I could have been him, many of us could have been him. I think Linda was so right when she said that how easy it is to take to many prescription drugs. People know the dangers of illegal drugs but too many think that if you have prescription drugs it's okay. It’s so easy to find death when you try to sleep or to calm pain with pills that doctor gave you. You don’t have to be a junkie to die ‘cause of drugs.
I know I must be feeling quite better knowing that all this was only a tragic accident, but in a way I can not explain I feel really worse, ‘cause that show me even more clearly that he wanted to live. I’ve never had doubts about that, but to think about all those dreams he had, all the love he wanted to give, makes me deeply sad now I know that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true, to see his baby Matilda, simply to live.
And now I can’t stand the idea that maybe he’s so sad and angry wherever he is, ‘cause he wanted so bad to live and a tragic mistake of his ruined it all. Oh my, he was so perfectionist in all his works and, you see, one only mistake and……
That so sad and just unfair. I know Heath, I’m mad too, I’m broken too. :\'( :\'(