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Not sure where to put this so feel free to move it. I just heard Heath Ledger died! Is this true?
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The actor Heath Ledger was found dead in a Manhattan apartment on Tuesday afternoon, the New York City police said.
The police said Mr. Ledger, 28, was discovered facedown in bed in an apartment at 421 Broome Street in SoHo. Police officials said that a bottle of prescription sleeping pills were found on a nearby night table, but that they did not know whether they played a role in Mr. Ledger’s death.
Mr. Ledger, the star of “Brokeback Mountain” and other films, was discovered by a housekeeper and a masseuse, the police said. The housekeeper had been in the apartment for some time before Mr. Ledger’s body was discovered, and she let the masseuse in when she at the apartment for a 3:31 p.m. appointment with Mr. Ledger, the police said. They said they did not know when Mr. Ledger scheduled the appointment.
When Mr. Ledger did not respond to a knock on the bedroom door, the housekeeper and the masseuse opened the bedroom and found Mr. Ledger unconscious. They shook him, but he did not respond. They immediately called the authorities and moved Mr. Ledger to the floor, the police said.
“There was no indication of a disturbance,” Deputy Police Commissioner Paul J. Browne said. He said officers who checked the apartment found other prescription medications it in the bathroom. He said that there was no sign that Mr. Ledger had been drinking and that no illegal drugs were found in the apartment.
Ellen Borakove, a spokeswoman for the city’s chief medical examiner, said that investigators were on the scene on Tuesday afternoon and that an autopsy would be performed on Wednesday to determine the cause of death. His body was removed from the apartment at 6:30 p.m.
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I just saw this on the NYTimes webpage. At 3:31PM this afternoon .
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http://cityroom.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/01/22/actor-heath-ledger-is-found-dead/
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Actor Heath Ledger Is Found Dead
By Sewell Chan
The actor Heath Ledger was found dead this afternoon in an apartment building at 421 Broome Street in SoHo, according to the New York City police. Mr. Ledger was 28.
At 3:31 p.m., a masseuse arrived at Apartment 5A in the building for an appointment with Mr. Ledger, the police said. The masseuse was let in to the home by a housekeeper, who then knocked on the door of Mr. Ledger’s bedroom. When no one answered, the housekeeper and the masseuse opened the bedroom and found Mr. Ledger unconscious. They shook him, but he did not respond. They immediately called the authorities. The police said they did not suspect foul play and said they found pills near body.
Mr. Ledger, a native of Perth, Australia, won acclaim for his role as a co-star in “Brokeback Mountain”, a 2005 film. The film, based on a short story by Annie Proulx about two cowboys who fall in love, won critical acclaim. Reviewing the film in The New York Times, the critic Stephen Holden wrote, “Mr. Ledger magically and mysteriously disappears beneath the skin of his lean, sinewy character. It is a great screen performance, as good as the best of Marlon Brando and Sean Penn.”
Mr. Ledger met the actress Michelle Williams while filming ‘’Brokeback Mountain.” The two actors fell into a very public romance. They had a daughter, Matilda Rose, who was born on Oct. 28, 2005. They moved to Brooklyn, but then separated last year.
Calls by The New York Times to Mara Buxbaum, a publicist for Mr. Ledger, and Steve Alexander, the actor’s agent, were not immediately returned this afternoon.
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He is now one for the ages.
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Five minutes ago, we learned that Heath has died. I do not know what to say. But let us just gather here.
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I am still in shocked, I don't know what to say as well... :\'(
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I just can't freakin' believe it. I am numb. This is devastating.
:(
--J.
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Heath Ledger has been found dead in a SoHo apartment in New York City. Details are still coming in. I came here thinking that someone would have further insight as to what happened. I am in tears. Extremely upset. I can't believe it!! Someone please tell me this is a nightmare.
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I am still trying to wrap my mind around this horrible tragedy. I can't believe he's gone.
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I just heard that they found him dead in his NYC apartment. They still don't know what happened. All I read so far is that they don't suspect foul play and there were pills near his body. He's not even 30 years old and his baby is not even 3. His career was on the rise and he just finished filming the new batman movie. Surely he didn't kill himself! Accidental overdose maybe?
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I can tell you that I was watching BBM on TV here when I heard those shocking news,
he is now in the alley, after departing from Jack.... at least here he is still alive...OMG!!!!!!!!!!
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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What can we do for the memory of this great artist, aside from prayers and condolences?
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What can we do for the memory of this great artist, aside from prayers and condolences?
I have no idea Thomas. I'm too numb to think right now :-\\
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I am in tears.
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It was said that it's drug related...WTF!! :(
It's a nightmare..so young and talented ,all his life ahead of him!
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Stunned, shocked and devatated. Such a tragic loss and waste of life and talent. My heart goes out to his family and friends, especially little Matilda :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I feel like I lost a family member. I am not up for watching the movie for a bit.
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Reports say sleeping pills were found near his body. Surely it has to have been a tragic accident - he had so much to live for, not least little Tildy.
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I feel like I lost a family member. I am not up for watching the movie for a bit.
It was on TV 15 minutes before I heard the news, and now I'm here reading ,crying, and still the movie is on... :\'(
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I'm stunned. This is not possible. :\'(
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I heard this on the radio on my way home from work; I almost crashed the car. I can't believe it, I just can't believe it...I'm hysterical right now, my husband is trying to comfort me...
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http://ap.google.com/article/ALeqM5jpzdve6RF9k9My1ItZGj3eRprEEwD8UB6JT81
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Heath Ledger Found Dead in NYC at Age 28
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NEW YORK (AP) — Heath Ledger was found dead Tuesday at a downtown Manhattan residence, and police said drugs may have been a factor. He was 28. NYPD spokesman Paul Browne said Ledger had an appointment for a massage at the Manhattan apartment believed to be his home. The housekeeper who went to let him know the masseuse had arrived found him dead at 3:26 p.m.
The Australian-born actor was nominated for an Oscar for "Brokeback Mountain," where he met his wife, actress Michelle Williams, in 2005. Ledger and Williams had lived in Brooklyn and had a daughter, Matilda, until they split up last year.
Ledger was to appear as the Joker this year in "The Dark Night," a sequel to 2005's "Batman Begins." He's had starring roles in "A Knight's Tale" and "The Patriot," and played the suicidal son of Billy Bob Thornton in "Monster's Ball."
Ledger grew up in Perth, and began doing amateur theater at age 10. At 16, he moved to Sydney to pursue an acting career, quickly landing TV movie roles and guest spots on Australian television.
After several independent films and a starring role in the short-lived Fox TV series "Roar," Ledger moved to Los Angeles and costarred in "10 Things I Hate About You," a teen comedy reworking of "The Taming of the Shrew."
Offers for other teen flicks came his way, but Ledger turned them down, preferring to remain idle than sign on for projects he didn't like.
"It wasn't a hard decision for me," Ledger told the Associated Press in 2001. "It was hard for everyone else around me to understand. Agents were like, `You're crazy,' my parents were like, `Come on, you have to eat.'"
His latest role was in "I'm Not There," in which he played one of the many incarnations of Bob Dylan — as did Cate Blanchett, whose performance in that film earned an Oscar nomination Tuesday for best supporting actress.
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What a terrible news Seb told me some minutes ago. Heart Ledger died today. He was still so young. I can't find any word to say :\'(
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Half an hour ago, I didn't know, and now I feel absolutely gutted. What shall we do without him :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I am just trying to make sense of it all....
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http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2008/01/23/1201024937592.html
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Heath Ledger dead
Ian Munro
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Academy Award nominee Heath Ledger, 28, has died of a possible drug overdose involving sleeping pills in New York, police have confirmed.
He was found dead in his bed at his apartment on Broome Street, Soho in Manhattan by his housekeeper at 3.35pm local time, the TMZ website said.
A police spokesman told smh.com.au the cause of death was unknown, despite the presence of drugs.
"We don't have that (the cause of death) yet. The matter is still under investigation," the spokesman said.
He was pronouced dead at 3.45pm (0745 AEDT) by a medical examiner who went to the apartment.
US television network NBC reported his body was found surrounded by pills.
The New York Times is reporting that Ledger was discovered by a masseuse who arrived at his apartment for an appointment.
The masseuse was let in to the home by a housekeeper, who then knocked on the door of Ledger's bedroom, The New York Times reported.
When no one answered, the housekeeper and the masseuse opened the bedroom and found Ledger unconscious.
They shook him, but he did not respond. They immediately called the authorities. The police said they did not suspect foul play.
The housekeeper went to tell Ledger the masseuse had arrived and found him dead about 3.30pm New York time (0730 AEDT), AP said.
Law enforcement sources told TMZ they believe the death was not the result of a crime.
Ledger was an Oscar nominee for his role in Brokeback Mountain and had numerous other screen credits.
His breakthrough role was the Australian movie Two Hands, directed by Gregor Jordan and in another movie from the same year, 10 Things I Hate about You, he established himself as an up and coming star.
Ledger had a difficult relationship with some sections of the media.
In 2004 he allegedly spat at and assaulted a photographer in Sydney. The retaliation was during the premier to Brokeback Mountain when photographers squirted him with water on the red carpet.
Ledger was born in Perth, Western Australia.
The Perth-born actor had a two-year-old Matilda, with former fiancee and Brokeback Mountain co-star Michelle Williams.
He was the son of Sally Ledger Bell, a French teacher, and Kim Ledger, a race car driver and mining engineer.
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I'm shaking and crying like crazy here, I feel like dying myself. God I love this man he can't be dead he can't be!!!!!!!!!
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My whole insides are twisted, I just logged on to the internet and saw the news and came straight here. Shocked to the core.
What can we say and do, it's like a good friend . :ghug:
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I got a call at work around 4:45 pm. I let out such a loud 'WHAT?!" that I'm surprised that my boss didn't come running. I started to shake and cry. I just can't believe this. :\'( :\'( My mind is still in 'NO, NO, NO, NO" mode. :\'( :\'( I didn't find a lot of details online. I can't process this. My brain just can't comprehend this. I already talked to a few Brokies on the phone. This is a time when I wish we were closer in proximity. I have too many thoughts running in my mind none of which make much sense right now. Geez it's on the scroll bar of the news right now. I can't believe this is true. I feel so sick right now. :\'(
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I'm shacking, i'm speechless, and i'm on the verge of tears. When my mom told me, my stomach just dropped, I....he, he can't be dead... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I can't even begin to deal with this right now. RIP Heath, you were loved by many and we will all miss you dearly. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Finished or unfinished, he will live in every one of them, for as long as people love cinema.
http://www.news.com.au/heraldsun/story/0,21985,23095502-2902,00.html
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Death of Heath Ledger throws films into disarray
Article from: The Associated Press
January 23, 2008 12:00am
HEATH Ledger's shocking demise is not only a terrible loss for his daughter Matilda, his Perth-based family and his many fans, it also throws into disarray two movies.
Ledger was in production with the next instalment in the Batman series, The Dark Knight, in which he was starring opposite Christian Bale as a macabre joker.
Early photos from the set suggest Ledger was taking the series into a new darker chapter.
Also on Ledger's slate was the new Terry Gilliam film, The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus, about a travelling theatre company. It was due to start filming in London shortly.
Ledger was one of Australia's true international acting stars. His American breakthrough role came with the teen hit 10 Things I Hate About You, but real global respect came with his Oscar nominated turn in the moving gay cowboy drama Brokeback Mountain.
He met his now ex-partner Michelle Williams on the set of the film. The pair had a baby, Matilda, but broke of their engagement and split recently.
Gossip has since linked him with troubled young actor and party girl Lindsay Lohan.
Ledger had a troubled relationship with the media in his home town of Sydney. Paparazzi photographers squirted Ledger and Williams with water pistols at the premiere of Brokeback Mountain.
He later angrily denied reports he had spat on the photographers.
"It was just silly and unnecessary. It really hurt our feelings and it hurt my feelings to suddenly have a quick title above my name now, that we're a gang of spitters,'' he told the Herald Sun later.
But he said he regretted flicking the finger at photographers.
"Pulling finger signs at photographers, it's not representing who I am, it's representing the panic that occurs when you turn around and there's a camera staring in at you. You see red, or I do.
"I'm a young guy and I've grown up with this in the younger years when you're more passionate and protective and you're more explosive during that time of your life and it felt like a natural reaction for me.
"I didn't feel that I was rebelling against anything. Obviously it's not the most polite way of dealing with things, but I didn't feel they were being polite. I forget that when I do that I'm not pulling a finger sign at a guy holding a camera, I'm pulling a finger sign in a newspaper that everyone reads.''
Ledger later sold his Sydney dream house, claiming the paparazzi had driven him out, and moved to Brooklyn in New York where he lived with Williams and Matilda before the split.
Ledger can be seen in cinemas now in the Bob Dylan biopic I'm Not There.
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I can't stop crying.
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I got a call at work around 4:45 pm. I let out such a loud 'WHAT?!" that I'm surprised that my boss didn't come running. I started to shake and cry. I just can't believe this. :\'( :\'( My mind is still in 'NO, NO, NO, NO" mode. :\'( :\'( I didn't find a lot of details online. I can't process this. My brain just can't comprehend this. I already talked to a few Brokies on the phone. This is a time when I wish we were closer in proximity. I have too many thoughts running in my mind none of which make much sense right now. Geez it's on the scroll bar of the news right now. I can't believe this is true. I feel so sick right now. :\'(
Michelle, you so wanted to see him at the premiere of TDK in NYC. I hope that somehow, the public would be allowed to express their condolences. Perhaps a memorial service in NYC?
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G'bye Heath. We barely knew ye . . . .
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I'll have to see if there will be a memorial service or something. I was talking with Barb before..crap the story is on cnn right now. Jordan just came in and hugged me. She just asked me if he's the guy on the poster from my movie :\'( :\'( :\'( I can't believe this. I just can't. i talked to Barb before and she is as incoherent as I am.
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I am in tears.
I'm too...so saddened, so saddened :\'(
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I got a call at work around 4:45 pm. I let out such a loud 'WHAT?!" that I'm surprised that my boss didn't come running. I started to shake and cry. I just can't believe this. :\'( :\'( My mind is still in 'NO, NO, NO, NO" mode. :\'( :\'( I didn't find a lot of details online. I can't process this. My brain just can't comprehend this. I already talked to a few Brokies on the phone. This is a time when I wish we were closer in proximity. I have too many thoughts running in my mind none of which make much sense right now. Geez it's on the scroll bar of the news right now. I can't believe this is true. I feel so sick right now. :\'(
I know, it's like he's been taken from us.
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I'm just so devastated. I cant believe this is true, I really cant. Heath cant be dead, he was so young and so beautiful and what about Matilda, he loved that little girl. God, I just cant deal with this....
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Michelle, Barb, guys I think all of us are inconsolable just now. My mum and sister just called me as it's on the news. They know I love this movie and these guys, so if we are feeling like this then his family must be so bad. I hope we can all send them out some love and prayers for a wonderful, son, father and incredible actor.
His performance in BBM showed us a star and this horrendous event has produced another legend. God...I feel I'm saying all the wrong things and just rambling. It's a nightmare.
I love all of you and I'm thinking of you all my friends.
:\'( :\'( :ghug:
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If there is any consolation for us here, it is that we know he is now an Immortal in the world of Art and Cinema.
He shall be remembered, long after so many other Oscar nominees and winners have been hopelessly, so hopelessly, forgotten.
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:ghug: to everyone. I know they really don't suffice right now.
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i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch BBM again, my stomach is in a knot, its brought back all the feelings of hurt.
if i watch the film again i'll cry from start to finish, i don't think i can do that. Its like my best friend has died. is that stupid? I didn't know him, but that film moved me so much.
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Michelle, Barb, guys I think all of us are inconsolable just now. My mum and sister just called me as it's on the news. They know I love this movie and these guys, so if we are feeling like this then his family must be so bad. I hope we can all send them out some love and prayers for a wonderful, son, father and incredible actor.
His performance in BBM showed us a star and this horrendous event has produced another legend. God...I feel I'm saying all the wrong things and just rambling. It's a nightmare.
I love all of you and I'm thinking of you all my friends.
:\'( :\'( :ghug:
Tom you said it all beautifully. :ghug:
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I´ve just known the horrible news,almost by chance before going to sleep;please,tell me that´s not true, that here in Spain the pieces of news arrive late and bad...It can´t be true,God¡.It´s as if the tragedy of Ennis and Jack repite itself in real life;but now this is not an story whose end we can change with a fic...It´s true and I can´t believe it¡.
I won´t be able to see BBM again;it´d be too awful to me...
What can we do now?
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I know this will be taken the wrong way, but am too shaken to not say it. We had warning. Go to page 432 of the photos section, showing
Heath in London. Please, PLEASE, look closer at those where he looked sad. We still do not know the cause of death, but in those pictures
were an inexpressible sadness, and deeper than just a bad mood. I did post that I was worried, and now am suffering even more because
somebody should have seen that, around him, and done anything and everything possible. If it turns out to be true that he was depressed,
it only goes to say he was too good for this world. For all the glamor, and the success, he really was sensitive, shy, easily hurt.
I did worry, from those pictures and the disarray of his web site, and other warning signs, but never expected this. This is a terrible tragedy.
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I can't stop crying for him
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What are we to do?
We celebrate his life, as much as we continue to honor him in death.
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i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch BBM again, my stomach is in a knot, its brought back all the feelings of hurt.
if i watch the film again i'll cry from start to finish, i don't think i can do that. Its like my best friend has died. is that stupid? I didn't know him, but that film moved me so much.
No, it is not stupid. I was hysterical when I heard the news - screaming, crying - my husband thought I'd lost my mind. I just can't fully comprehend this. It's like a bad dream! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I can believe it ...I am so so so shocked (t)
I am just speechless....
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I feel like I've lost a family member... :\'( :\'(
Just talked to Keren(she is devastated) and told her that he will be remembered like all this immortal actors that died young,
and I thought of James Dean...
RIP HEATH!
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Dear BBM family, how I wish I could be with you to comfort you and give you hugs.
Words can not express my sadness. If there will be any comfort, it is to know that Jack and Ennis are forever together in heaven.
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I feel like I've lost a family member... :\'( :\'(
Just talked to Keren(she is devastated) and told her that he will be remembered like all this immortal actors that died young,
and I thought of James Dean...
Exactly. As the Poet has said:
But now you may stare as you like and there's nothing to scan;
And brushing your elbow unguessed-at and not to be told
They carry back bright to the coiner the mintage of man,
The lads that will die in their glory and never be old.
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I am completely devastated!
RIP Heath (poor Matilda)
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This has really shaken me so much. I am on edge and feel like I am going to crack up.
I have to give thanks publically to this man though. He, Jake, Ang and the rest have made the last couple of years much more bearable for me and millions of like minded souls. that is a wonderful legacy for which I for one will love the man forever.
I'm trying to see reason in this, but can't. :ghug:
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I just don't know what to do right now. I'm weaving back and forth from, he needs to be remembered to wanting to not acknowledge any of this, and by any of this I mean BBM too. The last time something like this happened I completely ignore anything that had to do with it for six months and I cannot do that this time, but I feel myself going there and I need to be as strong as possible to not let it happen. I can't act like none of this happened just to make things easier on me, but it's how I react to things. I hope that the wonderful friends I have made here will help me cope in a positive way, as I will help them. We're a family here and I think the difference here is that all of you know how I am feeling and we will be there for each other. I treasure you all so much.
Hope that makes even a little bit of sense.
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I feel like I've lost a family member... :\'( :\'(
Just talked to Keren(she is devastated) and told her that he will be remembered like all this immortal actors that died young,
and I thought of James Dean...
RIP HEATH!
I quote !!!
But why have our Hereos to pass off so quickly...it is too unfair :-\\
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Dear BBM family, how I wish I could be with you to comfort you and give you hugs.
Words can not express my sadness. If there will be any comfort, it is to know that Jack and Ennis are forever together in heaven.
Thank you, Ethan.
Heath, go with God.
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i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch BBM again, my stomach is in a knot, its brought back all the feelings of hurt.
if i watch the film again i'll cry from start to finish, i don't think i can do that. Its like my best friend has died. is that stupid? I didn't know him, but that film moved me so much.
No it's not, I told my mom the same thing and she said to be "Lis, it's not stupid. You loved his films and knew much about him, it was almost like you really did know him"
I don't know what to do....I wanted to meet him one day, tell him what an amazing actor he is...i know i've said this already but I can't believe it...
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FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS
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Good-bye, Heath.
Requiem Eternam.
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If there is any consolation for us here, it is that we know he is now an Immortal in the world of Art and Cinema.
He shall be remembered, long after so many other Oscar nominees and winners have been hopelessly, so hopelessly, forgotten.
May he rest in peace... We will forever remember him
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I'm shaking and crying like crazy here, I feel like dying myself. God I love this man he can't be dead he can't be!!!!!!!!!
keren, if we love him, we will stay true to his memory. We shall continue to celebrate him. Beauty cannot die.
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OMG I just can't believe it! I'm in a state of shock! :\'(
He was my age, so young... This so unfair!
But I know he will always be in our hearts. He will be a legend.
This is not much but here is my tribute to him, the best way I can express it:
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This is so terrible, I can't believe, I just can't. I wish I could cry, if that would make me feel better, but I can't even do that...Now it just hurts so much...
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May he rest in peace... We will forever remember him
We must remember him. It is the least we could do.
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The news still hasn't completely sunk in... it seems unreal that he's gone. Life can be so fleeting :\'(
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RIP Heath!
Love you! forever in our hearts
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OMG I just can't believe it! I'm in a state of shock! :\'(
He was my age, so young... This so unfair!
But I know he will always be in our hearts. He will be a legend.
This is not much but here is my tribute to him, the best way I can express it:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Thanks pierralex for the beautiful banner.
In the core of our hearts, Heath is alive. In the core of our hearts, he will never die.
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I thought it was a cruel joke at first. I have been crying the past hour and am still shaking, I can't believe it!
RIP Heath, I love you so much!
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This is so terrible, I can't believe, I just can't. I wish I could cry, if that would make me feel better, but I can't even do that...Now it just hurts so much...
I'm the same, I want to scream and bawl my eyes out, but I'm all fuzzy headed and out of kilter at this. I want this to be untrue but know it's not. I think I'll die when I hear what Ang has to say. Such a beautiful soul.
Seb, the tribute is beautiful my friend and I thank you for it from my heart. :ghug:
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I just found out the news, and I was in shock. :\'(
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Friends, in the coming days, think of how best we can honor Heath's memory.
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I just can't believe this. I just came home and read the BBC news site.
I am in tears. I feel so sad that such a young, talented actor with so much ahead of him would apparently take his own life.
It's just too tragic for words...
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A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last.
~~Charlie Daniels
(written en route to the funeral for his friend, Ronnie Van Zant of the band, Lynyrd Skynyrd.)
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Hi,
I've only posted in the Oxford thread yet so propably most of won't know only from LJ where I post my fanfiction. But I hope it's ok to be here...
Anyway I'm sitting here at home and can't stop crying. I saw the news on the German TV about one hour ago and since then I'm in a state of shock.
I feel as if BBM came forcefully back to me - but now the other way round.
This is so unbelievable sad - I'm so devastated because I really can't understand one thing: didn't anybody in his near surrounding see how bad he must have felt?
In the German news they are talking about suicide...
Didn't anybody see it?
Goddam - this is such a tragedy... I'm beyond words...
And I feel so utterly, utterly sorry for his daughter. Jesus - what a nightmare....
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He is now one for the ages.
I am distressed for you, my brother Jonathan;
very pleasant have you been to me;
your love to me was wonderful.
passing the love of women.
2 Samuel 1:26
Requiescat in pace.
Dona nobis pacem.
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I'm shocked..I can't think anything... :\'( I can't believe it......
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What a sad new!! I was really in shock when i read this i couldn't believe this! this is really sad I can't think right
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Hi,
I've only posted in the Oxford thread yet so propably most of won't know only from LJ where I post my fanfiction. But I hope it's ok to be here...
It is ok for everyone to be here
I know we keep getting the Exceeded the CPU quota message, but please be patient, it is good that we are together now
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And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a Candle in the Wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rains set in...
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did
God Bless Ya Heath, Go in Peace.
Sadly, I'm reminded of the last scene as he stares out of the window across the windswept field, lonely, distant, and not knowing where to go...
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I :^^) you all...
we have to be strong my friends
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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We can just be thankful. I do not know how else to endure such loss. We will just have to "stand it" and remember.
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I was in the office, half listening to the radio, when they mention some actor died, and than they mentioned his name. I was stunned, I couldn't move. But God you guys don't know how I wanted to get out of there, and come home to you.
Heath's death hit me like when Lennon died. I still can't express all I feel about the lost of this young beautiful actor, and his promise and potential of being one of the greats. All I can do is say a prayer for him.
I can't say any more than that.
Except I love all of you.
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Hello all. :ghug:
Michelle is right. I'm still in shock, as are most of you. :-\\
I'm so glad we can come together here to share our :ghug: and our heartfelt wishes for Heath to be at peace and for his family to get through this. :\'( :\'(
Thomas, I agree that a tribute of some sort would be appropriate.
I wish I could say something to help us heal. The Charlie Daniels poem was beautiful. :\'( <^(
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I can't stop crying, I can't. This is the worst nightmare, I'm totally devastated. How am I going to be able to watch the movie again? :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
This is too horrible for words, it can't be happening. He was so young, so beautiful, so talented. He has a loving family, a little girl. I was looking forward to seeing him in more films, he was going to win the Oscar some day... :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm inconsolable right now. It hurts so much I can't stand it.
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I simply can't believe it. I'm shocked, I'm crying my heart out....how could this have happened?!?!
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I just can't believe it.
I can't wrap my mind around it.
Rest in peace.
:ghug: to everyone here.
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Requiescat in pace.
Dona nobis pacem.
pro eo quod laboravit anima eius videbit et saturabitur in scientia sua iustificabit ipse iustus servus meus multos et iniquitates eorum ipse portabit
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My friend just called me about it because she knows I love Brokeback Mountain. I said I was ok cuz she didn't know how big a fan I was, but now I just can't help but cry :\'(
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I can't stop crying, I can't. This is the worst nightmare, I'm totally devastated. How am I going to be able to watch the movie again? :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
This is too horrible for words, it can't be happening. He was so young, so beautiful, so talented. He has a loving family, a little girl. I was looking forward to seeing him in more films, he was going to win the Oscar some day... :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm inconsolable right now. It hurts so much I can't stand it.
keren, I know how much you loved him.
We can't stop now.
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I would like to pay my condolences to his family .. such a great loss to them...too...
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Will be in our memory forever.
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http://www.sfgate.com/flat/archive/2008/01/22/chronicle/archive/2008/01/22/DDG6UJRN4.html?tsp=1
San Francisco paper did a good tribute here. Well written by the local critic.
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A brief candle; both ends burning
An endless mile; a bus wheel turning
A friend to share the lonesome times
A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last.
~~Charlie Daniels
(written en route to the funeral for his friend, Ronnie Van Zant of the band, Lynyrd Skynyrd.)
Oh my. That got me started crying all over again. :\'(
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It always hurts me when young talented life is wasted. When Brad Renfro died a few days ago I was saddened as he was a great wee actor as well, but with Heath I feel I shared every minute with him on screen and so many points of view, laughs thrills hopes ( for the Oscar) with all of you that it seems to mean so much more.
I just grieve for all the great characters he still had in him, that I'll now never see. I grieve for Matilda and all those who loved him and I grieve for us as well.
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This is a terrible shock for everyone; my sympathies go out to his family, and specially to the daughter who is going to grow up without a father.
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Why him, God? Why Heath? :( My boyfriend just called to tell me and I switched over to CNN Headline news right then. :\'( I can't believe it. Our Ennis is gone. No, it can't be so.
"You gave us hope, you gave us someone to love.
You lit up our lives in your short time here, our friend,
And the images of you will be in our hearts forever.
You made up believe that someone was out there
Who knew how we feel on so many levels and when
We saw you explore those feelings, our spirits soared
And our collective heart cheered. You touched us.
And we will never forget what you gave to us, as
A community and as a world. We loved you and we can
Only pray that you knew how much you touched us and
How much we all loved you and wanted to be beside you.
So you'll now be on that Brokeback Mountain we all dream
About, your spirit will ride the quiet peaks and we'll be right
There with you. Rest easy, our friend. We will always love you.
Heath, I swear...." :\'(
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Replay: Ennis, tearful, lonely in a remote trailer, suffering a love lost; Heath, tearful and loney in a NYC Soho apt, suffering a love lost of Michelle and Matilda; this is so tragic and painful
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http://www.sfgate.com/flat/archive/2008/01/22/chronicle/archive/2008/01/22/DDG6UJRN4.html?tsp=1
San Francisco paper did a good tribute here. Well written by the local critic.
Thanks. Please let me quote this from the end of the article.
"There's no way to make sense of this. No way to end an appreciation like this on an uplift when the news is so sad. If there's something positive to be said, it's that the best work Ledger left behind will last forever, and the rest is already forgotten."
:ghug: to everyone and my sincerest condolences to his family.
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My poor child,my heath; you´ll be always with me,always.
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A friend from overseas sent me a poster of him as Ennis for Christmas, I took it to a frame shop yesterday... I have to go pick it up Monday, I better send someone else, I'm not sure I'll manage :-\\
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:\'( :\'( :\'(
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http://www.sfgate.com/flat/archive/2008/01/22/chronicle/archive/2008/01/22/DDG6UJRN4.html?tsp=1
San Francisco paper did a good tribute here. Well written by the local critic.
Beautiful.
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Wonderful quote, Ethan, from a beautiful tribute. Thank you.
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The internet is going crazy with the news and all sites seem to be in agreement that we have lost an incredible talent. Some of the information out there is very upsetting though. I just saw footage of them putting him in the ambulance and it's left me cold. It's like I saw it so now I know it's true.
This is so bad I have to be here yet I have to go.
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Ennis del Mar was a fictional character ... we know that.
Heath Ledger was a real man ... we know that.
Heath Ledger, actor, breathed life into a hero I didn't even know existed before his amazing performance/role in Brokeback Mountain.
Still the hero of my life, Ennis del Mar.
Thank you, Mr. Ledger. What ever happened to you, it's wrong.
May I suggest a synchronized toast to Mr. Ledger?
I'm so glad this web-site exists, otherwise I'd have no place to share my grief. Thanks all.
*toast* ... TO MR HEATH LEDGER.
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http://www.usatoday.com/life/people/2008-01-22-heath-ledger-timeline_N.htm
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A Heath Ledger timeline
Highlights in the life of actor Heath Ledger:
April 4, 1979: Heath Ledger is born in Perth, Australia. At 16, quits high school, moves to Sydney and pursues his first movie parts; later relocates to Hollywood.
1999: He breaks out as a surly outsider in the teen romantic comedy 10 Things I Hate About You, starring Julia Stiles.
2000: Stars in the big-ticket drama The Patriot, co-starring Mel Gibson.
•While filming his next project in Prague, he meets actress Heather Graham. The two date for about a year.
2001: After starring in the romantic adventure comedy A Knight's Tale, he is nominated for Teen Choice and MTV Movie awards.
•Plays Billy Bob Thornton's conflicted, suicidal son in Monster's Ball.
2004: In April, Naomi Watts and Ledger call it quits after two low-key years together; they met while shooting 2003's Ned Kelly.
•He hooks up with Michelle Williams while shooting Brokeback Mountain with her in the summer and fall.
2005: Stars in the drama Brokeback Mountain as Jake Gyllenhaal's tortured lover; earns his first Oscar nomination for the role.
• Daughter Matilda Rose is born Oct. 28.
2006: In March, he and Williams walk the red carpet together at the Academy Awards. Neither wins in their respective categories, actor and supporting actress.
2007: In September, Williams and Ledger break up quietly after three years together.
•In November, the drama I'm Not There opens; Ledger plays one of Bob Dylan's many incarnations.
•In December, photos of Ledger as The Joker from Christopher Nolan's highly anticipated Batman flick Dark Knight hit the Internet.
2008: The last photos of Ledger emerge from London, where he was in costume shooting The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus.
•On Jan. 22, his body is found with sleeping pills nearby in a New York apartment. Police do not suspect foul play.
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OMG! I just heard it ten minutes ago, I was working the whole evening.
I am totally out of words, I just cant believe it! he cannot be dead. there were new pics of him from the imaginarium just two days ago, and i watched candy last night!
I don't know what to say and I can hardly see my keyboard because I can't stop crying.
Oh God
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i watched candy last night!
Oh God
Me as well!! I can't believe it...he had his whole life ahead of him :\'(
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I simply cannot comprehend that he is no longer with us. I am in a state of shock and disbelieve. How can this have happened.
My heart goes out to his family, especially his daughter.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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Heath,
Thank you for being a part of our lives.
Good Bye
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Regardless of how or why - I am heart broken. I simply don't want to believe it.
Now it seems as tho' Ennis has also died. I know that doesn't make sense - but that is how it feels right now.
And although I have only been here a few times - I knew others here would know how this feels.
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My whole insides are twisted, I just logged on to the internet and saw the news and came straight here. Shocked to the core.
Mine are too. I've only just got out of bed and I came to check my e-mail ...
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I've been sitting here for hours trying to think of something brilliant to say -- something that will put it all in perspective for everyone, including myself. The truth of the matter is, I'm hurt, angry and downright devastated. It's just not fair for someone so young with such a promising career to die.
I was in tears the first time I saw Brokeback and absolutely inconsolable the second, third, tenth time...
...and it was mainly due to Heath's performance. I was upset when Heath did not win the academy award and threw a pillow at the TV. But I knew in my heart that his time would come. He was an amazing actor and would get that much deserved award one day. And that award would be, in part, for Ennis. It's too late now.
The Brokeback forums helped many people through the trauma of the movie and I have no doubt that we will be able to help each other through this tragedy. There are many good people here. We'll mourn and heal together.
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*toast* ... TO MR HEATH LEDGER.
Ditto that!!!
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My friend Anna, a new Heath fan just called me 10 minutes ago, and she was speechless...All i said was 'He had so much ahead of him, I can't believe it"...thats all i can say, and for his daughter. I give my prayers to her as well, having to deal with the split of her parents and now the death of her father.
I just watched the song "Angel" with BBM and I couldn't help but cry more... :\'(
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Posthumous BEST ACTOR Award to Heath Ledger for his role as Ennis del Mar in Brokeback Mountain ... it's ONLY right!
How loud can we be? :c)
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beautiful hpv <^( :\'(
thanks
:ghug: to all
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Jerasjr--you found the right poem---it's all there. None of my so-called friends are any help, right now, here in Norfolk. Am unable to think
very well. Always kept it to myself, in this forum, I had the greatest sense Heath was someone more than what was showing, and he meant
a great deal to me, not as a celeb. or for BBM, but for himself. Felt that way ever since I saw the interview with him on the DVD--saw there
a person searching to find himself, and very much in need of reassurance and being appreciated for who he was, aside from his career.
Am almost to the point of bitterness, because he should have known, he was loved for himself by so very many. This is a hurting that isn't going
to go away for a long, long time. This is just the first few hours of grieving. Everybody else, hurting so bad, keep the faith. We will never
forget him.
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I must go home and have silence. My surroundings appear pitch black for me right now.
Who knows the depths of sadness of the heart?
What can one make of it, except to recall the words of the Poet:
Come, said my soul,
Such verses for my body let us write, (for we are one),
That should i after death invisibly return,
Or, long, long hence, in other spheres,
There to some group of mates the chants resuming,
(tallying earth's soil, trees, winds, tumultuous waves,)
Ever with pleas'd smile i may keep on,
Ever and ever yet the verses owning--as, first, i here and now,
Signing for soul and body, set to them my name
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Look what he created in Ennis, look how the movie changed things, look what he left us.
And now we've lost him, and learnt that with the same shock that he read of Jack's death.
"No man is an island, entire of itself. Any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind.And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee."
And tonight for Heath.
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And tonight, I think a part of each of us here died with him...
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i just turned on my computer i am shocked.
my thoughts are with his family.
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I had gone to bed, but a thought managed to forme in my head while I was in bed and I just have to say it
Ennis is still alive at the end of the film and will forever be in our hearts. Heath has passed away but will also stay in our hearts forever. And it is partly because of Heath that we are all here, that we have become friends, that we can meet and hug and laugh and be happy, that we can find solace in harsh and difficult times. So I am beginning to feel a sense of joy. A gratitute towards Heath, that will always be with me.
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I just saw in the news them putting his body into the ambulence...it has all now become real to me...even though I don't wanna believe it... :\'(
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I don't think I was so into the "person" Heath Ledger, so much as the Ennis he was to all of us. I still can't get my mind around his not being here anymore. So many feelings are whirling around in my head; I don't think I've felt a loss like this since John Kennedy was shot. Emptiness. Like part of me died. At least we have each other--Brokies--to voice our tragedy without being laughed at. GODDAM!!!!
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I can't breath easily....
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.............I can't stop my tears..........
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This is not true, i won't believe this. :\'( . He brought Ennis to life, the biggest inspiration of our life. its so sad and painful. i'm crying my heart out. its the same feelings when Jack died. shocked inside out. i was going to bed to sleep but i don't think i could sleep for a week now. feels like going back into the closet again.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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.............I can't stop my tears..........
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I watched BBM for the upteenth time last night, I made my daily visit to the forum this morning, and tonight, well, I feel this pain, but can't cry. I wish I could cry, maybe this pain would go away, and leave me be.
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I have quickly skimmed the posts but can't bring myself to read anything, its all too sad. :\'(
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I looked up in IMDB.com they already added the death date there...
http://imdb.com/name/nm0005132/
Date of Birth: 4 April 1979, Perth, Western Australia, Australia
Date of Death: 22 January 2008, Manhattan, New York, USA
Still can't believe it!
It's near 3am and I can't sleep either...its just to hard to digest ...!!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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OMG! I just heard it ten minutes ago, I was working the whole evening.
I am totally out of words, I just cant believe it! he cannot be dead. there were new pics of him from the imaginarium just two days ago, and i watched candy last night!
I don't know what to say and I can hardly see my keyboard because I can't stop crying.
Oh God
Hanna :ghug: :ghug:
This is one of the most tragic days of my life... :\'( :\'( :\'( I need you guys, I really need you. I'm still in total shock.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
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He is now one for the ages.
"How are the mighty fallen
in the midst of the battle!
"Jonathan lies slain upon thy high places.
I am distressed for you, my brother
Jonathan;
very pleasant have you been to me;
your love to me was wonderful,
passing the love of women.
2 Samuel 25 & 26
Requiescat in pace.
Dona nobis pacem.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
That is a very nice idea, ethan! :ghug: :\'(
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
:ghug: Ethan.
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I just can't believe this!! :(
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Five minutes ago, we learned that Heath has died. I do not know what to say. But let us just gather here.
I just woke uo to find messages that Heath was dead.
I hadn't been on the boards for months til a day or two ago.
May he rest in peace--
He walks with the angels now.,.
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Must go to bed, but I don't think I will sleep tonight. I don't know how I will concentrate tomorrow.
Ethan honey, as always you know just what to do. Thank you for your gesture and I hope you take all of our love with you.
Goodnight my Brokie Beaus and Belles, I may be back.
:ghug: :( :( :(
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This is so tragic. The world has lost one of the most wonderful actors of all time. Rest in peace, Heath.
Del_Marvelous
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I haven't posted on this forum for many months, but BBM is and always will be in my heart, in part because Ennis reminds me so much of someone who also yearned for love, yet could not allow himself to have it...my brother. The coroner called to tell me he was dead, a suicide from an overdose of pills, on January 22, 1999. This is truly a terrible day.
RIP Heath, thank you so much. You will live forever.
camom
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you, Ethan :ghug:
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thanks Ethan!
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you so much, Ethan.
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I was talking about his latest role as The Joker with a friend yesterday.. I can't believe he's gone!!
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
He will be greatly missed :\'(
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Ethan, what a wonderful gesture! I know you will take with you all of our love. Thank you for doing this on behalf of all of us.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you Ethan
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Hanna :ghug: :ghug:
This is one of the most tragic days of my life... :\'( :\'( :\'( I need you guys, I really need you. I'm still in total shock.
We're in this together. I wish I could hug you in person. :ghug:
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We all share in the shock and solemn grief at the knowledge of our beloved Heath Ledger's sudden passing. Heath Ledger's extraordinary personality and massive artistic talent will live on in our hearts. He will be immortalised in our hearts, in our memories, in our affections. We send our condolence to his loved ones- his parents, and of-course his daughter Matilda Rose and Michelle Williams. Obviously all who knew will feel his loss tremendously. He will be greatly missed.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts.
We--all of us--will be with you in this measure of our tribute.
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Thanks all. It will be the least I can do. :ghug: :ghug:
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
OMG ethan that is going to be so hard, wish I could be there for support. :ghug:
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
It's a great idea!
If you can tell us the time you'll be there, I might also be then with you in spirit!
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And tonight, I think a part of each of us here died with him...
So true, Thomas. So true. :(
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This is shocking and a terrible tragedy... i'm not an active member in this fansite but i'm such a big fan of the movie, i can't believe he is gone!
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:\'( :\'( :\'(
I was coming to class when a friend showed me the yahoo homepage I'm really sad and in shock never thought this could happen. Hope his family are ok and full of comfort.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you so much for that, this means a lot.
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Am sorry to post again about the warning signals, that something was wrong, but those warning signals only go to show there was so much
more there, beneath the celebrity glitter. There was the report of a fan seeing him in a bad part of Brooklyn, and talking to him and that got
me to thinking-what was he doing in that part of town? And then his fan club sites were falling into disarray, as if he no longer cared, and then
I spoke up, in this forum, about those pictures from London. Not as strongly as I wanted to, for fear of criticism, but a close look at several
of those photos showed intense suffering, if you looked closely. Celebs smile for the cameras. He was lost in some haze, of deep pain, and as
I said in the post, I was worried. That was pg. 432 of the photos and I think there, you can see---something had a grip on him.
That these warning signals may have been there, only doubles the grief for me, for it means he really was---kind, sensitive, loving, and greatly
in need of being loved for himself. I may be losing some Brokie friends over saying there were warning signs, it all wasn't Disneyland for him, but
I grieve the real man, not the celebrity and believe most, or even all of you feel the same way on that.
Tonight, it isn't BBM, or Ennis Del Mar, or even "Heath Ledger"-----it's Heath that we lost. The Heath from Perth, Australia, who found his way
over here, through his career. And am so bitter, so very bitter, at the thought he may have died not knowing he really was loved, for himself.
Won't say any more on that. Goes nowhere. But we'll find a way to keep him with us. After the shock and the tears, I know we'll find a way
to heal, gradually, but also to never let him drift off into just a memory. He's got to stay with us....here.
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Heath's spirit will live with us, as long as we can ride...
Thank you Ethan, everyone of us will appreciate your gesture!
I just wish we could send our condolences to his family as well...
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Heath's spirit will live with us, as long as we can ride...
Thank you Ethan, everyone of us will appreciate your gesture!
I just wish we could send our condolences to his family as well...
Aurora, :ghug: :ghug: we will think of a way to properly pay our tribute to Mr. Ledger and send our condolences.
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Gorgeous, jer :ghug:
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This is absolutely devastating. It's really sad. I still can't even believe it. He was a great actor. I was at work when I heard it and couldn't get over it. I haven't been on here a while and I knew that I needed to go to this site as soon as I got home. It's a sad day.
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we came here originally crying, trying desperately to make sense of what we had just seen on screen.....and found a community of the like-minded, of the fine, good people of this world......and now we come again crying, seeking solace in our far-flung community, world-wide actually......James Dean, River Phoenix, and now Heath Ledger......the gods giveth, the gods taketh away.....whether suicide, or drug overdose....doesn't matter really....he is gone......and we mourn....oh how we mourn......and will continue to mourn....the characters, the roles he could've had, would have created....all lost now......Batman is a must see now.....tho not as we imagined it.....i prefer to remember him as Cassanova, which i saw after BBM......so carefree, so light, so lovely....so having fun.....oh my golden boy, yu have broken my heart.
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you Ethan, I couldn't go past there tonight on my way to my own apartment, took the long way home.
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Oh boy. My heart goes out to him, his family and loved ones.
I haven't posted in quite some time but my first reaction when I heard the news was to come here. I know how loved he is here and of his work.
this is so incredibly sad. My sister lived in Brooklyn and often saw them around. I am by outside NYC myself - so in Soho a lot too. :(
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Thanks to many of you who stop by to offer your support and share your love. It means a lot to this community.
Thank you Ethan, I couldn't go past there tonight on my way to my own apartment, took the long way home.
I know. It will be hard for me but it is the least I can do.
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ETHAN, please take some pictures when you get there tomorrow with the flowers... we'll appreciate to see some images, thanks!
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Another most appropriate thought:
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. ~From a headstone in Ireland
So true!!
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Heidi and I are devastated and in shock. I can't even find words. Such a loss, such a waste.
My thoughts are with his family and friends and especially his mini-me, Matilda.
Wonder what Jake is thinking right now. My thoughts are with him too.
Just heartbreaking news. Can't even believe it.
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:\'( :\'( it is 17.46 pacific time and I just heard the news form my friend who is from Perth, Australia.
I am shocked, this morning I had thoughts about how life is so fragile and how fortunate it was to live in these times, the poem I had posted yesterday was a reminder of my cry for love lost, and today love has died with my hopes of what this human being offered and had in store for many of us in a not so long distance.
I feel shattered, and I know the same applies to all of us, this is truly a devastating day
Why one earth must we always have those we love taken away
this BBM all over again
~) ~) ~)
I can't stop crying, why on earth i dont get it?
sorry
I just went to this link to light up a CANDLE for HEATH LEDGER :^^)
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you, Ethan. Our hearts will be there with you.
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I really doesn't seem possible. Heath's performance meant so much to so many of us. I wish there could have been something we could have done for him.
Why does the news say he had pnuemonia? What does that have to do with anything?
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I can't believe it! I have been busy with lots of things and had been feeling myself a very bad brokie for not checking in here!
There's nothing I can say except to thank you, Ethan for your wonderful thoughtful idea to express all our love and sorrow over this, and to say that the only thing that makes this at all bearable is knowing all of you are here and we can be united in our love and admiration and sharing our sense of loss...
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Yes, thank you, Ethan for your idea.
I'm still in shock. I can't believe he's gone. :\'(
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My best toughts are for Matilda, it's to young to loose your father :\'(
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Mine are too Pierre. That little girl lost her daddy. :\'(
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I only watched BBM for the first time 2 months ago. What a revelation the movie was, what a revelation Heath Ledger was. I had BBM fever for like a month, had trouble sleeping for days. I'm afraid to watch the end of the movie b/c it depresses the hell out of me. I can only watch the beginning, to see the beauty. How beautiful was Heath in that movie. Like a teen, and I'm certainly not near that age anymore! I started seeking out all the movies this guy was in. What a talent. Monster's Ball, Brothers Grimm, even A Knight's Tale. Seeing the previews for The Dark Knight, I was blown away by him and looked forward to watching although I really don't care for batman movies.
How shocking, it's like I barely "knew" this guy and now he's gone. In interviews, he seemed so sweet, a bit shy. How others described him, Jake Gyllenhal "Heath is sensitive" drew me to him even more. To think of how many more great roles he had in him, what a waste. Yet, I can't help but feel in his short life he accomplished more than well...I have. To have helped create something as powerful and beautiful as BBM that has touched so many people...
So young, so beautiful, I don't think any actor's death has touched me so. Just like BBM, Heath's death leaves me aching with what could have been.
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:\'( :\'( it is 17.46 pacific time and I just heard the news form my friend who is from Perth, Australia.
I am shocked, this morning I had thoughts about how life is so fragile and how fortunate it was to live in these times, the poem I had posted yesterday was a reminder of my cry for love lost, and today love has died with my hopes of what this human being offered and had in store for many of us in a not so long distance.
I feel shattered, and I know the same applies to all of us, this is truly a devastating day
Why one earth must we always have those we love taken away
this BBM all over again
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I can't stop crying, why on earth i dont get it?
sorry
I just went to this link to light up a CANDLE for HEATH LEDGER :^^)
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng
Is there a group to link us all together? Where it asks to associate are candle?
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I just found out within the last 15 minutes. I'm so stunned and speechless. :\'(
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From the :light a candle
that's mine
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/message.cfm?l=eng&cid=5189254
and all the Heath candles
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=heath
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From the :light a candle
that's mine
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/message.cfm?l=eng&cid=5189254
and all the Heath candles
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=heath
Thank you, hpv. Will light mine right now :^^)
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I can hardly believe this. I feel so incredibly sad about Heath's death. He was such a sensitive and vulnerable person. Makes me want to cry.
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I just lit my candle, R.I.P. Heath!! :\'(
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I lit mine too. What a lovely site. :\'( <^(
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I lit mine too. :\'(
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I don't even know what to say. I am so sad :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
R.I.P. Heath
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Watching CNN thisafternoon the news came to me like being kicked in the stomach. I couldn't believe what my eyes were telling me.
All I could say at that moment was HOW... and WHY?
Later it was revealed that pills were involved..... so sad. I'm in total shock. :\'(
Some time has elapsed. I have talked to several Brokie pals. We all are asking the question: Are we demanding too much from our stars and heroes that they feel they need to turn to drugs to fill our hunger for them and their wonderful acting?
Sadly, I'm afraid the answer is yes! I could go on, but not now.
Heath, my friend, rest in peace. I will miss your smiling face.
Jake, when you read this, and I hope you do... Please take time off, lots of it for R & R before you do another film. We love what you do on the screen and knowing another project will be coming down the pipe... in time. I need to know you are OK and will be with us for a long long time.
.........HEATH, I SWEAR.........
Mickey 9:24
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hpv, the candles are a beautiful sight - a wonderful site
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they were just talking about him on the news .. such a tragedy! I'm in shock!
may he rest in peace!
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I've been watching CNN too. I just don't want to believe it.
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Is there a group to link us all together? Where it asks to associate are candle?
I don't know maybe you can seach and find out if we could create one?
I just watched Come what may clip by ravebous and still in chock and too much tears to chat
catch you later
so sorry
search for the GROUP " HEATH " 18 candles and 6 country so far
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:ghug: Jarrad. Me neither. :\'(
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Why does the news say he had pnuemonia? What does that have to do with anything?
It is possible that the prescription sleeping pills combined with the pneumonia could have caused his death.
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frenchcda :ghug:
CSC, I feel the same way.
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:ghug: Jarrad. Me neither. :\'(
It's just not real. You know how I felt about him.
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It's just not real. You know how I felt about him.
Yep. :ghug:
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I lit a candle also.
RIP, Heath. You will live in our hearts forever....
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Heath Ledger on screen
Audio slideshow: Garry Maddox
A flash player is required
http://www.smh.com.au/multimedia/2008/entertainment/heath-ledger-retrospective/start.html
Farewell Heath :\'(
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It is possible that the prescription sleeping pills combined with the pneumonia could have caused his death.
You're right. I really hope that this was accidental. I would hate to find out that he really wanted to end his life. I'm thinking about Matilda right now too.
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why are they keeping showing him in this black bag?!
I hope he didn't take his own life too .. Ennis and Jack is never going to happen again :(
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Oh my God!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
i'm without words just now. This can't be happening. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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To be an actor is to touch the boundries where we are most afraid to go. To be an actor is to push beyond the zone of comfort and show what we least want to see. Heath Ledger was able to do that and to touch our hearts and souls. He made the deepest and in the end the greatest sacrifice. Thank you friend, thank you. May you play with the angels now and be at peace.
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I sit here grieving for a man I did not even know. Yet, in a way I did, as all who were touched by Brokeback Mountain, by his Ennis. My life will be forever changed.
There are no words that can make sense of, or give comfort to because Heath is dead.
Good night, sweet prince. May flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
B
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http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/23/movies/23ledger.html?hp
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And I have to go to work, how can I be able to do that??? :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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To be an actor is to touch the boundries where we are most afraid to go. To be an actor is to push beyond the zone of comfort and show what we least want to see. Heath Ledger was able to do that and to touch our hearts and souls. He made the deepest and in the end the greatest sacrifice. Thank you friend, thank you. May you play with the angels now and be at peace.
Beautiful :ghug: :\'(
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why are they keeping showing him in this black bag?!
I hope he didn't take his own life too .. Ennis and Jack is never going to happen again :(
sweetlilg it is good to see you here again....I just wish it were under better circumstances. :\'(
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and all the Heath candles
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=heath
I just lit mine.
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This is so hard to cope with ...
http://www.news.com.au/ (http://www.news.com.au/)
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sweetlilg it is good to see you here again....I just wish it were under better circumstances. :\'(
likewise CSC! :\'( :\'(
God.. this was too soon!
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I was shock, and sad when I saw this news in Yahoo... I'm really sad... this is really sad... May he rest in peace. We all love you Heath.
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This is so hard to cope with ...
http://www.news.com.au/ (http://www.news.com.au/)
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Too hard for all of us. :\'(
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likewise CSC! :\'( :\'(
God.. this was too soon!
I couldn't agree more. God please let me wake up and this is just a bad dream.
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I am so incredibly sad and so completely shocked about this that I am at a loss of words. I keep thinking maybe it is not real. It is going to be so hard for me to watch BBM for a very long time. It brings another element of sadness into a movie that still bring sadness to me. Heath was incredible. He brought us Ennis.
Jack
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When I heard the news
from the office jokester
that you died of drug overdose
I would not, could not believe it
I held back the urge
to google you
to find out for sure
Too afraid, to find the truth
Whatever the cause, your death
reminds me of someone else
not unlike the friend I miss so much
but also Marilyn Monroe, at the height of her career
Some may compare you to others, but to me
Marilyn and you are a pair of shining stars
breaking new ground where others see not
Being your own role model, when others see only the pretty face
She was smart as well as gorgeous
You have character and intelligence, as much as good looks
What ever the cause that took you from this earth
You can rest assured that your work, your legacy, will remain forever.
Candle in the Wind, it is just as appropriate for you, as it is for Marilyn:
[modified without permission]
Goodbye my good friend
Though I never knew you at all
You had the grace to hold yourself
While those around you crawled
They crawled out of the woodwork
And they whispered into your brain
They set you on the treadmill
And they made you change your game
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a fan
Your candle burned out far too soon
Your legend will be told
Loneliness was tough
The toughest role you ever played
Hollywood created a superstar
And pain was the price you paid
Even when you died
Oh the press still hounded you
All the papers had to say
Was that Heath committed suicide
Goodbye my good friend
From the man who loved you from afar
Who sees you as something as more than sexual
More than just a movie star
With love....
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Beautiful Andrew and as a fellow Marilyn fan I have a deep appreciation for this. Two candles in the wind. :\'(
:ghug: to you sweetie
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Candle in the Wind, it is just as appropriate for you, as it is for Marilyn:
[modified without permission]
Goodbye my good friend
Though I never knew you at all
You had the grace to hold yourself
While those around you crawled
They crawled out of the woodwork
And they whispered into your brain
They set you on the treadmill
And they made you change your game
And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in
And I would have liked to have known you
But I was just a fan
Your candle burned out far too soon
Your legend will be told
Loneliness was tough
The toughest role you ever played
Hollywood created a superstar
And pain was the price you paid
Even when you died
Oh the press still hounded you
All the papers had to say
Was that Heath committed suicide
Goodbye my good friend
From the man who loved you from afar
Who sees you as something as more than sexual
More than just a movie star
With love....
Was thinking the same thing man. :\'( :ghug:
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Dear Friends
Let's not be sad. Mr. Ledger gave life to a character who united so many of us. Let's never forget that. We are all more alive - in many ways - because we had a hero in whom to belive.
Tragic, definitely. And sad, too.
The greatest sadness is that Mr. Ledger might not have known how profoundly he was loved and admired.
Perhaps this is OUR moment to let those whom we love KNOW how much they are loved.
No matter what, Ennis del Mar will never die ... and we have Mr. Heath Ledger to thank for that.
Light your candles, raise your glasses, and never forget.
Best ....
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Dear Friends
Let's not be sad. Mr. Ledger gave life to a character who united so many of us. Let's never forget that. We are all more alive - in many ways - because we had a hero in whom to belive.
Tragic, definitely. And sad, too.
The greatest sadness is that Mr. Ledger might not have known how profoundly he was loved and admired.
Perhaps this is OUR moment to let those whom we love KNOW how much they are loved.
No matter what, Ennis del Mar will never die ... and we have Mr. Heath Ledger to thank for that.
Light your candles, raise your glasses, and never forget.
Best ....
Than you Jax. Here's a toast for what Heath gave us and for all we have recieved. :cr)
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Thank you GuyinJax. Well said.
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Rick I loved your poem about actors. I have some poems I will probably post tomorrow. I haven't felt this bad since my parents died and that was in 1992 (Dad) and 1996 (Mom) I never thought I would get so attached to two fine actors like Heath and Jake and I just didn't realize the depth of love had for Heath. I admired him so much not only as an actor but as a person. And it would have been an honor to have met him but alias that is not to be.
I feel bad for his family, my heart goes out to them and to his little girl matilda. I know she was the apple of his eye.
:ghug: to all
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:c) :cr) :\'(
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Thank you guy in Jax I will raise my glass to Heath :cr)
Wherever you are Heath know that you done good! Cowboy. You will always be in our hearts
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Rick I loved your poem about actors. I have some poems I will probably post tomorrow. I haven't felt this bad since my parents died and that was in 1992 (Dad) and 1996 (Mom) I never thought I would get so attached to two fine actors like Heath and Jake and I just didn't realize the depth of love had for Heath. I admired him so much not only as an actor but as a person. And it would have been an honor to have met him but alias that is not to be.
I feel bad for his family, my heart goes out to them and to his little girl matilda. I know she was the apple of his eye.
:ghug: to all
Thank you trekfan, my statements were from the heart as one who has studied acting. He gave his all and in the end I think it consumed him, as it can. We may never know.
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He Is Not Dead
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
And left us dreaming how very fair
It needs must be, since he lingers there.
And you - oh, you, who the wildest yearn
For an old-time step, and the glad return,
Think of him faring on, as dear
In the love of There as the love of Here.
Think of him still as the same. I say,
He is not dead - he is just away.
(James Whitcomb Riley)
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And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a Candle in the Wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rains set in...
Your candle burned out long before
Your legend ever did
God Bless Ya Heath, Go in Peace.
Sadly, I'm reminded of the last scene as he stares out of the window across the windswept field, lonely, distant, and not knowing where to go...
CC, you have me in tears now... I swear, I thought of this song immediately when I heard the news...
kathy
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Somehow this Poem keeps coming back to me;
Funeral Blues
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
W. H. Auden
OMG, tears running down my face... But this is so beautiful. Thank you, J.
kathy
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He Is Not Dead
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
And left us dreaming how very fair
It needs must be, since he lingers there.
And you - oh, you, who the wildest yearn
For an old-time step, and the glad return,
Think of him faring on, as dear
In the love of There as the love of Here.
Think of him still as the same. I say,
He is not dead - he is just away.
(James Whitcomb Riley)
Thank you FlwrChild. This explains why I am not in tears yet.
I feel very very sad, but in a way, I don't feel that Heath is dead. He is just away, doing another movie, another location shoot. He is the cowboy who rides into the sunset...
Now I understand, why some people said Elvis is still alive.
I can believe that Heath is still alive, in my heart, although I know that's not true, in my head. My tears believe my heart, not my head. I guess not having a television today is a good thing. I'd be a wreck. It's like the movie, I waited a year and a half before I dared to watch it. I don't know when this news will finally sink in.
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For anyone who didn't see it, "Nightline" on ABC led off the first 15 minutes on Heath's death. There is mixed news. One report, that he
had pneumonia, which may have been a factor. But they also reported there had been rumors of drug use, and that his friends had said he had
been "distressed" in the last month or so, not himself. There is a report that he had two prescriptions for anti-anxiety, near him, but no report
of alcohol or illegal drugs.
They described him as one of the best actors for many years, with a bright future, showed several movie clips, and ended with the scene
from BBM, where he says to Jack--"I guess I'll be seeing you around."
His step-father in Australia described him as generous and decent and the best person on the face of the earth. There was also a mention that
his clothing had gotten messy recently and that he had looked ragged and unkempt, but that this, they said could have been just from an artistic
nature. Might also have been called for in the role he was playing.
Am unable to get past this, and deeply shaken, but am passing along the news for those who might not have seen it.
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Thank you Tony. The family gave a beautiful statement. I hope the press will give them room to grieve.
I have also seen a lot of speculation in the press as to cause of death and personal issues he might have had. I wish they would refrain from such speculation and simply wait for the legitimate reports to come in. I'm glad that we have not seen any of that here and I know that we'll all be waiting respectfully for any reliable information as it comes in.
Thank you all for letting me be with you tonight as we process this most shocking and sad news. :ghug:
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I haven't posted on this forum for many months, but BBM is and always will be in my heart, in part because Ennis reminds me so much of someone who also yearned for love, yet could not allow himself to have it...my brother. The coroner called to tell me he was dead, a suicide from an overdose of pills, on January 22, 1999. This is truly a terrible day.
RIP Heath, thank you so much. You will live forever.
camom
How immeasurably more sad for you, camom, January 22, your brother...
kathy
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OH MY GOD!
I tried to come on earlier to cry with u guys, but the server was down or something.. so yeah, i found out around 5, my friend texted me... so i went to class for 3 hours and came back.. so basically..
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( !!! SO SAD! I can't believe it, what a loss to the world - such a talent..
Heath Ledger, you will be missed but always remembered, especially by us brokies. Thank you for giving us the gift of bringing to life the character of Ennis Del Mar which has touched so many of hearts. R.I.P. %) :\'(
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Someone posted this link on Brokebackslash.
It's a condolence book.
Hey everyone, just thought I'd let you know that a Guest book has been set up at the San Francisco Chronicle's website for Heath.
http://www.legacy.com/SFGate/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=101716459
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I only watched BBM for the first time 2 months ago. What a revelation the movie was, what a revelation Heath Ledger was. I had BBM fever for like a month, had trouble sleeping for days. I'm afraid to watch the end of the movie b/c it depresses the hell out of me. I can only watch the beginning, to see the beauty. How beautiful was Heath in that movie. Like a teen, and I'm certainly not near that age anymore! I started seeking out all the movies this guy was in. What a talent. Monster's Ball, Brothers Grimm, even A Knight's Tale. Seeing the previews for The Dark Knight, I was blown away by him and looked forward to watching although I really don't care for batman movies.
How shocking, it's like I barely "knew" this guy and now he's gone. In interviews, he seemed so sweet, a bit shy. How others described him, Jake Gyllenhal "Heath is sensitive" drew me to him even more. To think of how many more great roles he had in him, what a waste. Yet, I can't help but feel in his short life he accomplished more than well...I have. To have helped create something as powerful and beautiful as BBM that has touched so many people...
So young, so beautiful, I don't think any actor's death has touched me so. Just like BBM, Heath's death leaves me aching with what could have been.
Beautiful words, and how I feel, too...
kathy
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Frankie :ghug:
Michelle, thank you for posting that link. :^^)
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I'm shocked and deeply saddened, this is such a tragedy.
I haven't really been a Heath fan for a long time, it was only a few years ago that I discovered just how amazingly handsome and versatile he was as an actor. I remember watching him for the first time in "The Patriot" back in middle school, American history class. All of us girls were swooning over the extremely hot blonde son of Mel Gibson's character.
I will miss him. This hurts soo much because I never thought that someone I had admired and crushed on for so long could be gone so suddenly.
Heath, where ever you are, thank you so much for the brilliant work you gave the world. Thank you especially for your portrayal of Ennis Del Mar, a man after my own heart.
~Jazzie aka Twisted Darko
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:ghug: Frankie
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When my sister told me earlier, I was in shock. It's scary... I loved him so much! And when she told me, I first think about this forum I used to come alot. Still going nice :)
They said it is drugs... I wonder what is the real thing. What a weird feeling, Heath Ledger was like an gay cowboy icon for me...
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:ghug: Jazzie
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:ghug: Jazzie
:ghug: To you as well FlwrChild
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I recently joined this board but I have been a fan of Heath since I since Brokeback Mountain over a year ago. He was a great talent and well truly be missed. He will forever be immortalized in his work. My heart goes out to his family.
-Adah
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I’m still in shock. One hour ago I wake up and turned on my radio and then I heard it. I can’t belive it. I want to explain my feelings but I can’t in English right now. Every time I search for the english words I start crying. Now I’m sitting at work and don’t know how to get over this day.
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So those who claim suicide should read what the Australian news reported today
Ledger 'taking US version of Stilnox'
SMH January 23, 2008 - 2:00PM
Edmund Tadros and Kate Benson
The sleeping tablets that actor Heath Ledger was reportedly taking in the months leading up to his death might have combined with his reported pneumonia to fatal effect.
Ledger was reported to be taking a sleeping tablet called Ambien, which is marketed as Stilnox in Australia and has been at the centre of controversy because it can make people act bizarrely in their sleep.
Two months ago Australia's medicines regulator, the Therapeutic Goods Administration, updated its warnings on the drug after alarming reports that consumers were walking, eating, driving and having sexual intercourse in their sleep.
The updated warning now also mentions less common side-effects such as "rage reactions, worsened insomnia, confusion, agitation, hallucinations and other forms of unwanted behaviour".
A national drug reactions hotline fielded 500 calls from Stilnox users who reported odd behaviours from crashing cars to falling from balconies after popping a pill.
One patient gained 23 kilograms over seven months after unknowingly eating from the refrigerator while asleep. Another patient woke up with a paintbrush in her hand after painting the front door.
The manufacturer Sanofi-Aventis has said it was difficult to establish whether these behaviours were triggered by the drug, or were "spontaneous" or caused by an underlying condition.
Although he couldn't comment specifically on the case, general practitioner John Gullotta spoke in general about the effect this class of drugs can have on the body.
"In general, pneumonia can be a fatal condition if it progresses and it hasn't got better," Dr Gullotta, who is also the chairman of the therapeutic committee of the Australian Medical Association, said.
"Sometimes sleeping tablets can add to that and can cause respiratory problems. The class of sleeping tablet can dampen down breathing. It all depends how many [the person] takes and the dosage."
In an interview with The New York Times in November, Ledger admitted his role as the Joker in the upcoming film, The Dark Knight, had made him feel so stressed he was unable to sleep.
"Last week I probably slept an average of two hours a night," he said. "I couldn't stop thinking. My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going," Ledger said.
He told the interviewer he had taken one Ambien tablet, but it had failed to work so he took another, fell into a deep stupor, then woke an hour later feeling agitated.
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How do you light the candle, I have the web page but can't find what to do.
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How do you light the candle, I have the web page but can't find what to do.
Click on an unlit candle it will guide you as to what to do :ghug:
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This article killed me even more
http://www.afterelton.com/blog/michaeljensen/heaths-death-like-body-blow?&comment=32467
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I'm in shock i can't believe he is gone. I've been watching CNN most the night, they've had some nice tributes. Everytime i think i'm all cried out i see something and the waterworks start again. :\'( :\'(
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Me too Maggie. :\'(
:ghug: to everyone here.
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:ghug: everyone :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: to you all :ghug: :ghug:
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It's like a vigil, here, tonight. I wish I could be in New York, like Ethan, to put flowers outside that building. Two friends finally came through
for me here in Norfolk, and called, and let me bleed. But I actually got disoriented and at 11 p.m., thought it was 9 p.m., and that's a little scary.
Can't stay with the vigil here, but probably won't be able to sleep well either, if at all. Will stay up a little longer, and then try for sleep.
All of this seems like out of some bad dream, that just couldn't be possible. And Heath's step-father did make a second statement that Heath
was the kindest man on the face of the earth. That just about did me in.
Went to his MySpace site, which is already shutting down, for one last look at those childhood pictures, which told so much about his character.
He was a sweet little boy, showing the gentle kindness that later was often mentioned.
Supposedly, we will do better after sleep. But for me, the passage of a day will just make it all the more final. It helps a little that the outside
world has taken note of his passing, but none of them can ever really understand our grief, for we were inside the family.
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The best I read so far from Newspapers
this is from the San Francisco Chronicle
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2008/01/22/DDG6UJRN4.DTL
Mick LaSalle, Chronicle Movie Critic
(01-22) 15:26 PST -- On a seemingly routine Tuesday afternoon, word came that Heath Ledger was found dead. The 28-year-old actor best known for his Oscar-nominated role as a gay cowboy in "Brokeback Mountain" was found dead in a downtown New York apartment. Apparently, a masseuse showed up for an appointment, was led in by a housekeeper, and Ledger was found unconscious. The police found pills near his body.
In a little while, perhaps before you read this, the rest of the details will become known. Was it an accident? Was it suicide? Was there an unknown history of drug abuse? The answers to these questions will become part of the legend, and Heath Ledger will be enlisted into that ghoulish gallery of movie stars who, for one reason or another, died a good half-century ahead of schedule.
But before that happens - before the false hand-wringing begins on the nightly entertainment shows - before the interviews with ex-girlfriends reveal unknown truths that are probably false - and before the grave diggers show up with their microphones and cameras and their heads that can't furrow in fake grief because of all the botox injections - it might be worthwhile to take a moment to remember why exactly this particular 28-year-old rates an obituary in every major newspaper on the planet today.
Like few who ever lived, much less lived to be 28, Heath Ledger left behind moments and images that were guaranteed even Tuesday - even a week ago, when he was presumably healthy and had the world before him - to outlive his mortal life. When I got the news, I immediately flashed on one of them.
In "Brokeback Mountain," having said goodbye to Jake Gyllenhaal after their summer together - which is the only thing they'll ever have in their lives, and they seem to know it - he walks stoically away, then enters the frame as he passes an alley. In the background is the sky. Limitless. He stops, enters the alley and becomes a silhouette. He puts his head against the wall and sobs, struggling to hide his face with his hat. He curses. He punches the wall. He yells angrily at someone who passes by and stops to look. And two seconds later we see him in close-up, looking boyish and yet somehow like the world has just closed up, standing at the altar getting married.
"Brokeback Mountain" also was where he met actress Michelle Williams, with whom he had a daughter, Matilda, and lived with until the two split up last year.
This year, Ledger was seen in "I'm Not There," where he played one of the Bob Dylans and had just finished filming a sequel for "Batman Begins" in which he plays the Joker.
Unlike most of his contemporaries, Ledger had an old-fashioned manliness - the kind that seems to have fled America and gone south in recent years, as far south as Australia. (He was born there, in Perth, in 1979.) But unlike most of the old-fashioned manly stars of America's macho period, Ledger was at his best playing men in turmoil, men in trouble, men suffering from deep wounds to the spirit. At 28, he had 25 prime casting years ahead of him. Just to be selfish for a minute, think of how that talent may have grown.
The Hollywood of today doesn't nurture acting talent. That is, it doesn't look for roles that explore the actors' soul. But even accepting that, just by chance and the law of averages, just with a little dumb luck, Ledger should have had two or three or five or six more films in his life that challenged him the way "Brokeback Mountain" challenged him. I think that would have been Ledger's career, from here on out: A combination of OK movies in which he played men who were as magnificent as he looked. And better movies, in which he played men whose imposing physical presence and locked-down stoicism were a façade for an emotional life of desperation and helplessness.
Instead of looking forward, we're forced to look back - to the fragile young man he played in "Monster's Ball," who shoots himself in a fit of anguish. Or to "Casanova" and those scenes when the great seducer discovers his capacity to love one woman. Or to movies like "Ned Kelly," those ones with nothing much to recommend them besides what I once called Ledger's "big-slab-of-a-guy magnetism."
There's no way to make sense of this. No way to end an appreciation like this on an uplift when the news is so sad. If there's something positive to be said, it's that the best work Ledger left behind will last forever, and the rest is already forgotten.
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It is so sad to wake up and find this still true :(
I am gald though that you are all gathering here, it is not good to be alone now
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Hi Tony, i can't sleep yet, to many things running through my head. My heart hurts for our loss. I'm so so sad. :\'( :\'( :\'(
It's like a vigil, here, tonight. I wish I could be in New York, like Ethan, to put flowers outside that building. Two friends finally came through
for me here in Norfolk, and called, and let me bleed. But I actually got disoriented and at 11 p.m., thought it was 9 p.m., and that's a little scary.
Can't stay with the vigil here, but probably won't be able to sleep well either, if at all. Will stay up a little longer, and then try for sleep.
All of this seems like out of some bad dream, that just couldn't be possible. And Heath's step-father did make a second statement that Heath
was the kindest man on the face of the earth. That just about did me in.
Went to his MySpace site, which is already shutting down, for one last look at those childhood pictures, which told so much about his character.
He was a sweet little boy, showing the gentle kindness that later was often mentioned.
Supposedly, we will do better after sleep. But for me, the passage of a day will just make it all the more final. It helps a little that the outside
world has taken note of his passing, but none of them can ever really understand our grief, for we were inside the family. My God, how we loved
him. Everybody keep helping each other. Time will pass, but we will never forget. He was family.
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Thanks for posting chameau that is a good one.
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I wanted to thank everyone for gathering here and expressing their love for Heath, as well as your :\'( shock and sorrow. It does help.
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Something I am proud about, not once have the news reports here in Australia referred to Heath in BBM as a gay cowboy.
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I wanted to thank everyone for gathering here and expressing their love for Heath, as well as your :\'( shock and sorrow. It does help.
Thank you, HLJG. Yes it does help. The world mourns.
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I am truly aghast for just yesterday I was stating to someone how life was precious, yet there lies a difference between a sets of thoughts I was pondering about during my conversation,
one being about suicide and its implication and the difference in
the second matter in the desire to die due to an uncontrollable knowledge of knowing were love reside
and the only doorway to this place comes trough death in itself.
I have not told anyone here but I have tried to take my own life a while back..
but in my abyss I realized or was brought to acknowledge a pact I had done and could not unbreak.
that which is to accept what comes without doubts
so must I live for the sake of living until I can reach my abode duly called unconditional love.
I made an about face and found the reason for my urges
which where not to commit suicide but had the eternal wish to die,
big difference,
for I have seen what no man claim to have seen and lived to feel it.
thus I write poetry to release my anxiety,
the problem is when I put on paper some of my poems its like they become a premonition in themselves.
IE: I wrote a poem about the grief one feels when a friend is so far, the next day my friend found out he had cancer
next I wrote about how it would feel to loose my mother, she died a week later
lastly but not least yesterday I posted a poem about what is felt like if LOVE was gone forever
today Heath Ledger died.
Last summer I started to have visions that perturbed me because of what I saw and felt had tendency to come to life.
it may sound strange,
but I find this all somewhat not coincidental
when I see the picture with the poem and the result soon thereafter,
It troubles me in asking myself Am I a bad person to see and feel these things,
I have purposely became a recluse for the danger of what I feel when I am around people.
or is this just a fluke,
it makes me so sad to keep having to deal with these unwanted precursors flaunting in my heart at any given moments, I know I am not psychotic ,
I had these Edgar Cayce moments since I was four,
but put them on the back burner, now they haunt me
I juts wonder
lost in grief filled with wailing sorrows
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It has been a wonderful haven, as it always is, to be able to come here and mourn together, exchanging our own version of hugs and tears. :ghug: I'm grateful to everyone who has stopped in.
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I'm in shock i can't believe he is gone. I've been watching CNN most the night, they've had some nice tributes. Everytime i think i'm all cried out i see something and the waterworks start again. :\'( :\'(
I wish I could watch, but I haven't wanted to. Normally, that is exactly what I do, gather around the world's hearth, the TV, to share something like this. But I'm here at our hearth, instead. Now I just want to go to bed...
kathy
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Somebody tell me to go to bed...i can't seem to do it on my own. i'm to sad....all i can do is read about this tragic event. :\'(
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Somebody tell me to go to bed...i can't seem to do it on my own. i'm to sad....all i can do is read about this tragic event. :\'(
Same here :ghug:
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Something I am proud about, not once have the news reports here in Australia referred to Heath in BBM as a gay cowboy.
Here in Germany it’s the other way. Everything I read or heard this morning they always pointed out “known as the actor of a gay cowboy in BBM”. Mostly no metion of other films. Like he never did another film. Even if I just discoverd Heath in BBM I find it distastful.
It really helps to come her and see that I'm not alone with my pain.
Thanks :ghug:
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Frenchcda, thanks for the latest news update from Australia, that Heath was taking Ambien for inability to sleep. Maybe that is what I saw
in those photos from London that had me so worried---he was exhausted. And who can survive on 2-3 hours of sleep? Chameau is very right,
there will be stories that never end, and most of them false, but that the real truth is that he left behind immeasurable beauty. Am going to lay down.
Whatever the news is tomorrow, I will always be bitter that no one around him saw that fatigue and stepped in. I can't help this bitterness,
because I don't believe--some things are meant to be. Not this one. Not ever. My only consolation is the rest of you, each of you, for having
loved him so. Every one of you carries part of that light that he brought into the world, just by being himself. A good and decent man.
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Go to bed Maggie.... someone will be here when you get back :) :ghug:
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I keep reading and it's all the same reports. Not sure what i am waiting for...maybe to read that there's been a mistake and he's not dead?? Such weird feeling i am having...i can't remember anything like this before. None of my "hometown friends" have any idea how i feel. I'm glad i have you all to post my thoughts and feelings to. again hugs to all :ghug:
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Here in Germany it’s the other way. Everything I read or heard this morning they always pointed out “known as the actor of a gay cowboy in BBM”. Mostly no metion of other films. Like he never did another film. Even if I just discoverd Heath in BBM I find it distastful.
It really helps to come her and see that I'm not alone with my pain.
Thanks :ghug:
Annika, :ghug: you are not alone. What ever the world may say or do outside, this is a valley of peace and friendship. You are welcome here, because you share our love for Brokeback Mountain, and everyone who helped to make it, especially Heath Ledger. He is a legend now.
:ghug:
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I keep reading and it's all the same reports. Not sure what i am waiting for...maybe to read that there's been a mistake and he's not dead?? Such weird feeling i am having...i can't remember anything like this before. None of my "hometown friends" have any idea how i feel. I'm glad i have you all to post my thoughts and feelings to. again hugs to all :ghug:
I'm the same but the news has changed, it doesn't seem real. No one here understands either. Have been talking to a friend from Sydney who is very upset though. We are going to catch up next week.
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Frenchcda, thanks for the latest news update from Australia, that Heath was taking Ambien for inability to sleep. Maybe that is what I saw
in those photos from London that had me so worried---he was exhausted. And who can survive on 2-3 hours of sleep? Chameau is very right,
there will be stories that never end, and most of them false, but that the real truth is that he left behind immeasurable beauty. Am going to lay down.
Whatever the news is tomorrow, I will always be bitter that no one around him saw that fatigue and stepped in. I can't help this bitterness,
because I don't believe--some things are meant to be. Not this one. Not ever. My only consolation is the rest of you, each of you, for having
loved him so. Every one of you carries part of that light that he brought into the world, just by being himself. A good and decent man.
Frenchcda, thank you, for the post. It made me realize how much I fought against the idea that Heath would contemplate suicide. Once I read your post, I was relieved (if that's possible today) that the death was accidental.
Tony, I understand your bitterness, and I sympathize with those closest to Heath, who must be in anguish with guilt for not stepping up and took charge of the man. But I also hope that you will find peace, knowing that whatever the reasons, destiny now placed Heath in heaven, a bright star in the company of the best of the best. He will be a legend surpassing many others, at least in my heart, he is the only legend.
Peace, friends,
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Even though I am still in a state of disbelief, it is comforting to read every single post.
These posts mean so much to each one of us and I am sure to Heath Ledger too. Thanks and :ghug:
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Hi Asali, I'm glad to hear someone else mention that no one understands. I have sat here for hours with my laptop on my lap on myspace and on here, just to be able to express what i am feeling. I think i am going to go to bed now...i'll be back tomorrow. Hope to talk to some of you then. It's been a long tearful day. to you all %)
I'm the same but the news has changed, it doesn't seem real. No one here understands either. Have been talking to a friend from Sydney who is very upset though. We are going to catch up next week.
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Good-night Maggie. Rest well. :^^)
Time for me to turn in as well. :ghug: to all Brokies everywhere, and anyone who loves and misses Heath.
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'Night.
I want to just turn back the clock and fly to NY and bang on his door
way before 3pm today!
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If only....
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Hard to go to bed isn't it? I don't want to go to the kitchen.
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And tonight, I think a part of each of us here died with him...
it has thomas.
i have only heard it an hour ago.
but i am devastated. i am lost.
my condoleances to the family.
but also to us, to this place. we have lost.
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Oh tizi :ghug: It's been such a long day.
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tizi, :ghug: to you.
It is sad to see many of you waking up with such tragic news and many of us can't sleep.
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I am glad we are all able to gather here
It is hard to know what to think and write
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I woke up this morning hoping to find out this had all just been a nightmare...and I find that it is, only it's still happening, even with the lights on :-\\
I still feel immensely sad, but my sadness is turning to anger a little as well. Why is life so cruel as to take someone so young, so vibrant, so talented...with so much to give and so much to live for? Someone with a beautiful daughter that he clearly doted on and who certainly adored her daddy? Someone who at such a tender age had already given the world an incredible gift with his performance as Ennis and who no doubt had many more such gifts to give? It's just not right.
As one of the many tributes said, Heath's Ennis would have gone down in the annals as an awesome performance and lived on long after his death even if he'd still been with us when he was 100. It's a tragedy that it now outlives him barely two years after the world first realised his talent.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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Just got up for work after a crappy night trying to get some sleep, but just lying there thinking of all of this. Immediately came here to read all the posts.
So glad all of my friends old and new are here, as always, for each other. I know everyone will ask me about this at work and I'm wondering about going in at all.
:ghug: Thanks everyone ...again...for pulling me through a difficult time
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Hard to go to bed isn't it? I don't want to go to the kitchen.
Yes, it is! And now tizi and NoReins are here and I just want to dish out more :ghug:
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Just got up for work after a crappy night trying to get some sleep, but just lying there thinking of all of this. Immediately came here to read all the posts.
So glad all of my friends old and new are here, as always, for each other. I know everyone will ask me about this at work and I'm wondering about going in at all.
:ghug: Thanks everyone ...again...for pulling me through a difficult time
We all have each other and understand what we're going through, it is so wonderful to have this place. Tom :ghug:
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Tom & NoReins. :ghug:
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tizi, :ghug: to you.
It is sad to see many of you waking up with such tragic news and many of us can't sleep.
it is.
you know, i am at work, and i can't stop crying, and i don't know how i will be able to get through this day. i cannot stay here with you, and i feel so alone...
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i don't know how i will be able to get through this day. i cannot stay here with you, and i feel so alone...
just get through it, and then we are all here for you when you come back :ghug:
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just get through it, and then we are all here for you when you come back :ghug:
Exactly. Hang in there. You're not alone. :^^)
:ghug: to you too Tom.
Sleepy girl turning in. What a wonderful group of people taking care of each otehr like this. I really am awfully lucky. Good-night all.
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I don't feel like working either but maybe it's better we do normal things...
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I don't feel like working either but maybe it's better we do normal things...
I think so...
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Just heard the news on the radio, why O why,so :(
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I don't feel like working either but maybe it's better we do normal things...
can't right now. just heard it an hour ago.
what do i tell my co-workers? i lost a friend?
yes. that is what happened.
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They just showed a 15 minute tribute to Heath on the tv and the final clips were the sum up of his career with quotes from him and playing the Wings :\'(
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Just heard the news on the radio, why O why,so :(
johnboy :ghug:
tizi you can say you've been notified of a friends death, they don't need to know any more than that.
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i... really dont know what to think.
i mean.. Steve Irwin was such a shock, then Peter Brock just a week later.. and now this.
I've always been a Ledger fan and I always believed he was one of Australia's best. He always will be and there is nothing else i am able to say about this...
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For some reason I've always felt that Heath Ledger was an extremely fragile person even though he had a lot of strength and integrity. He seemed too vulnerable for the film industry. Maybe that was his genius: to be able to get to the point artistically and career-wise to be able to express that vulnerability so publicly. When I first saw BBM I really couldn't believe how he was exposing himself to the world. That in itself seems to be his greatest legacy.
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johnboy :ghug:
tizi you can say you've been notified of a friends death, they don't need to know any more than that.
yes. i will have to because. my tears won't stop. and i can't take off.
i will try though to come here as often as possible, i need you all here :ghug:
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I'm numb. What a terrible loss.
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I will be around for hours yet I'm sure tizi
deathlydee and jeffreymarc it is such a sad day to welcome you both :ghug:
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I waited for three hours in the cold last November to see him in London. It was at a premiere of "I'm Not There." He never showed. I'd have gladly waited three days. He was that kind of star. How could this have happened?
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I'm shaking and crying like crazy here, I feel like dying myself. God I love this man he can't be dead he can't be!!!!!!!!!
Darling Keren, and all you other brokies,
I have just woken up and am still numb. Came right to ennisjack, after months of abstinence. Don't know what to say...
monicita
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God ! I just read that ! I'm shocked !
It's.. horrible ! I don't have any words for this
it's a heavy loss
He was such a great actor and I never believed something like this could happen to him
in fact you don't even think something like this could happen for any actor...
I discovered it by the worst way : insanities on one of my vid...
this is not a good day
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No need for words monicita and irkaiel :ghug:
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Thank you, dearest Asali. Will have a cup of tea and see whether I can make mores sense of the world afterwards. This reminds me of the one other actor's death I cried over and couldn't believe had happened: River Phoenix.
How must Michellle Williams feel? Horrible to think of.
monicita
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Oh Heath, Heath.........
I don't have words, I'm shocked, I can't believe this and at the same time I'm trembling in pain, my tears are falling silently.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
I feel so terribly bad.
I try to think he is now in a better place than what this our planet Earth is. He is in safe now, surrounded by eternal love and light.
In our hearts he remains to be forever young.
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.. and everybody comes back, people who haven't been here forever..
just to be together.. :ghug:
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Carmilla :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I came to work and heard that devastating news. Can't focus on work. And two days ago, unawarily, I was so happy watching BBM...
Thank you all that you're here.
Hope that Michelle Williams has someone supporting.
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Just found this on "afterelton.com". Shakespeare's sonnet No. 28 (written to a man):
How can I then return in happy plight,
That am debarre'd the benefit of rest?
When day's oppression is not eas'd by night,
But day by night and night by day oppress'd,
And each, though enemies to either's reign,
Do in consent shake hands to torture me,
The one by toil, the other to complain
How far I toil, still farther off from thee.
I tell the day, to please him thou art bright,
And dost him grace when clouds do blot the heaven:
So flatter I the swart-complexion'd night,
When sparkling stars twire not thou gild'st the even.
But day doth daily draw my sorrows longer,
And night doth nightly make grief's length seem stronger.
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I didn't know last night. I've just woken up and found out this news. I can't believe it. I can't stop crying. Oh Heath. I just can't believe it.
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rosie.. :ghug:
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Rosie sweetie :ghug:
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I've just found it now, at work...Oh my....I can't stop crying.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
I can't believe it, I can't, I can't.....
My heart is broken in a million pieces....How can I work now? How can I think or breathe? I'm totally devastated.
Oh my, why Heath? I can't believe it.....It hurts like hell.....
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It´s the day after here in Barcelona.All the radios and tv channels have already given the news;they´ve showed scenes from his best known movies,saying that he was a young actor with a splendourous future.But,I´m sorry,forgive them,because it´s a shame for me that in Catalunya television a speaker has said by finishing the news that: "Fame and money do sometimes that people can stand it,they´re not able to live with this burden".Fortunately,the program´s director told him as answer:-"Yes,but a flat in Manhattan in winter can make you feel terribly lonely...I mean that we don´t know what happenned to him really,it´s to say that...".-"Yes-answered the other-,he splitted from his partner few time ago,but had a daughter...Well,time will tell us what happenned,yes.".I´ve felt almost offended¡.
I went to bed crying and I´ve woken up crying.When I´ve gone to work,a mate who is a real Brokie-he told me about the movie before I saw it and always has news and pictures and stuff...-didn´t know still the news.I´ve told him and he finished crying too.We´ve told the others fellows that a friend of us has died.They have given us their condolences,and now we´re very sad,very,very sad.He tells me to write to you by telling he´s by your side at these moments.Thank you.
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Oh Ali....friend..
Poor Heath, feeling so alone....
I just wanna die too... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Tammy,friend,you´re not alone,we mustn´t be alone.We must be together in his memory. :ghug: <^(
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Heath would want us all alive to carry on sharing his talent with everyone.
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oh dear... :ghug:
we have to be here now and strong and.. happy, yes to be here and have this wonderful family we can be with and help us carry our grief.. :ghug:
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Yes,Tizi,I know you´re right,but it´s so difficult to carry on now...My co-worker is still crying and more still when I translate to him your posts; they´ve told us to go home to be "with our friend´s family",that they do our part...
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I woke up hoping it was a bad dream. then I heard Heath's dad confirming his death and it was then I knew it was true. But I dont want to believe it. Heath was such a beautiful, talented person, how could this have happened? My stomach is in knots, I want to cry so badly but I'm in work. Wish I could go home but I cant....why did this have to happen to someone so young and so beautiful. It isnt right. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I woke up hoping it was a bad dream. then I heard Heath's dad confirming his death and it was then I knew it was true. But I dont want to believe it. Heath was such a beautiful, talented person, how could this have happened? My stomach is in knots, I want to cry so badly but I'm in work. Wish I could go home but I cant....why did this have to happen to someone so young and so beautiful. It isnt right. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
oh christie the same here for me... :ghug:
i told them i lost a friend.. but they are staring to whisper behind my back that it was probably my lover because i can't stop crying..
and yes, i lost a love.
we all have.
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it's 4:21 AM here and I can't go to bed .. I feel like I lost a member of my own family! I didn't know I loved him that much until today.. Oh God.. I'm still in shock! I can't seem to get over this.. he's gone too soon :\'(
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I can't stop thinking about it....
And also I'm thinking so much about Jake and Michelle.....They must be just shattered right now....I know that.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Christie :ghug:
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oh christie the same here for me... :ghug:
i told them i lost a friend.. but they are staring to whisper behind my back that it was probably my lover because i can't stop crying..
and yes, i lost a love.
we all have.
Don't let the gossip get to you, no matter who you have lost they should be more understanding. :ghug:
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I was totally stunned when I picked up the paper this morning. My journey to work passed in a blur of numbness.
His poor family, and his little girl. My heart goes out to them.
:ghug: to you all.
Karen x
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That is targedy. I just read it. Poor Heath, he must have been really unhappy. He looked so desperate lately.
I love you, heath, you are so beautiful, i will always love you.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I am in shock, and I am so sad :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I don't know waht to say :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I am crying.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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To me, the most devastating thought is that, in one way or another, he probably did kill himself. Most probably by not taking good enough care of himself (lack of sleep, pneumonia, and maybe not seeking help, either psychological or physical). I am not saying he did it on purpose. It just reminds me of Ennis, the man who could not listen to his deepest feelings. Does anybody understand what I mean?
I mean no disrespect. I once was in that situation myself for a few months, where for sheer misery and the lack of sleep that caused (which induces a kind of stupor even when you are awake) I sometimes either wished I was dead or just didn't feel anything much and could not care about what was happening to me. Add pneumonia on top of that and those weird sleeping pills he seems to have taken, which make people do crazy things in their sleep (why are they even being sold if that is the case?).
Love to you all,
monicita
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I'm stop thinking about it....
And also I'm thinking so much about Jake and Michelle.....They must be just shattered right now....I know that.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Yes,the first persons I thought about were,his family apart, Michelle,the baby and Jake.I think she's having an awful time because,no matter what happenned between then,he was her daughter's father,and that's forever.And Jake was a good friend of his and godfather of Matilda,so he must be devastated.Poor Heath¡I can't still believe it...
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Dear Heath,
May your soul rest in heaven. I consider it a privilege and pleasure to have come to know your work and you. You brought joy and hope to tens of thousands. Perhaps this is all part of the plan, not that I like it but one I will have to accept. Thank you again.
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It just reminds me of Ennis, the man who could not listen to his deepest feelings. Does anybody understand what I mean?
Love to you all,
monicita
Yes I can understand what you are saying, the comparisons are really tragic :\'(
Sorry to hear of your problems :ghug:
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Monicita, I understand what you were trying to say. That's what so eerie about the film was how I could see aspects of each of the actors in the characters they portrayed. It was like they left part of themselves on the screen.
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Thank you, Romeo and Asali!
Asali, that was a long time ago and it turned out all right in the end. I just want to tell all those who are so heartbroken about his death now that the most important thing is to go on caring about yourself! I mean this literally: be careful in the streets (I almost got run over several times, when I was in the state I described above), eat something (even when you are not hungry), try to get some sleeps (careful with the sleeping pills though).
Tell people about your sorrow and share with other brokies
love,
monicita
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monicita thank you for your caring words.. i need them more than food and sleep.. :ghug:
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Thank you monicita; and I really hope you´re allright already.Yes,I think good caring words,company and someone who trust in is what we really need now. :ghug: %)
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Thank you, Romeo and Asali!
Asali, that was a long time ago and it turned out all right in the end. I just want to tell all those who are so heartbroken about his death now that the most important thing is to go on caring about yourself! I mean this literally: be careful in the streets (I almost got run over several times, when I was in the state I described above), eat something (even when you are not hungry), try to get some sleeps (careful with the sleeping pills though).
Tell people about your sorrow and share with other brokies
love,
monicita
I haven't slept in 26 hours.. I feel so bad about Heath that I know I won't be able to make it through the night.. but I'm gonna listen to you and try to get some sleep.. thanks for ur concern!
love u all :ghug:
*good night Heath* :\'(
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I am devastated and oh, just so sad. Brokeback Mountain wasn't supposed to end this way. Now there will never be Brokeback Mountain 2. Forever in our hearts, Heath. We will always remember you.
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..Rest in peace Heat
.Thank
:\'(
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Thank you, Romeo and Asali!
Asali, that was a long time ago and it turned out all right in the end. I just want to tell all those who are so heartbroken about his death now that the most important thing is to go on caring about yourself! I mean this literally: be careful in the streets (I almost got run over several times, when I was in the state I described above), eat something (even when you are not hungry), try to get some sleeps (careful with the sleeping pills though).
Tell people about your sorrow and share with other brokies
love,
monicita
I know you're right Mona but I just can't seem to do that. I haven't slept all night, I can't eat a thing and right now I don't care if I get dehydrated from crying so much. All I can think about is that Heath is gone and I don't care much about myself right now. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I woke up hoping it was a bad dream. then I heard Heath's dad confirming his death and it was then I knew it was true. But I dont want to believe it. Heath was such a beautiful, talented person, how could this have happened? My stomach is in knots, I want to cry so badly but I'm in work. Wish I could go home but I cant....why did this have to happen to someone so young and so beautiful. It isnt right. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug:
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I know you're right Mona but I just can't seem to do that. I haven't slept all night, I can't eat a thing and right now I don't care if I get dehydrated from crying so much. All I can think about is that Heath is gone and I don't care much about myself right now. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren,dear,it´s terrible what has happenned,but your life must go on.It´ll be difficult for all of us,but we must do it when the first shock has diminished.Please,promise me you´ll take care of yourself,keep calm and take a rest...For your family and in Heath´s memory.We debt it to him. :^^)
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I know you're right Mona but I just can't seem to do that. I haven't slept all night, I can't eat a thing and right now I don't care if I get dehydrated from crying so much. All I can think about is that Heath is gone and I don't care much about myself right now. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
keren dear... :ghug:
please, try to get some rest, drink something.. please..
we all need you, you know that. and we have to carry on, we have to continue to talk about him, and we have to continue to stick together..
you are needed here :ghug:
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keren dear... :ghug:
please, try to get some rest, drink something.. please..
we all need you, you know that. and we have to carry on, we have to continue to talk about him, and we have to continue to stick together..
you are needed here :ghug:
such lovely words Tizi, and so true. We will never forget him here, we will always talk about him, because I cant imagine there being a day when I didnt. and yes, we have to stick together.
Keren, honey, you know we are here for you. Like tizi said, please try to drink and eat something I cant bear to think of you not thinking about yourself....
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Friends
We have each other, and from anger at what happen to the incredible sadness it's all valid, but we still have each other. Those who might said unkind things, post unkind things, well guys, their creeps everywhere, but don't waste time, emotions on "people" like that.
I remember when I was young, and John Lennon died, I was devastated, I was at the "Dakota" I laid flowers, I mean I cried for weeks, I went with the pain, and it eased, and life went on.
We have each other, and as long as we share our pain, we can be angry, sad, cry, hurt, whatever you feel express it, let it out, we all can get through this, and do it together.
I love you guys.
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:\'( OMG i woke up this morning to the radio telling me the bad news i was gobsmacked (t):\'( my boy/f sed he could feel my heart racing more and tears were in my eyes ..of all the people in the world NOOO Brokeback mountain has been making me smile :) so much recently and helping me feel happier thru the difficult times...now when i think of brokeback its tinged with sadness :-\\ i have only posted one other message on this board as i had just found you all and said hi. When he died i was painting my picture of Jack and Ennis and thats so upsetting. I will finish that pic and dedicate it to him and ill post it on here when i finally finish it.
I think we all need to take comfort in the happiness hes given us all and how he has all touched our lives and we will never forget him thru the amazing brokeback mountain. I wish we could all be together now as i feel so alone and no one understands why i feel so upset. It is, like some have already said, like losing a family member. Thoughts with his family and friends. Love to all the Brokies on here. :ghug:
katie x x x x xx x xx
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Beautiful manhattangirl, we are here for each other thats so true. :ghug:
keren you need to focus on the eau claire trip, we will have Heath in our hearts there. :ghug:
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such lovely words Tizi, and so true. We will never forget him here, we will always talk about him, because I cant imagine there being a day when I didnt. and yes, we have to stick together.
Keren, honey, you know we are here for you. Like tizi said, please try to drink and eat something I cant bear to think of you not thinking about yourself....
Dear Keren, I don't know you very well, but please look after yourself. We need you here on the forum. I know Heath would want us to stick together and be strong, but it's so hard...
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PLANS ARE BEING CONSIDERED
FOR A MEMORIAL TO HEATH LEDGER
TO BE INCLUDED
AT THE MEET IN EAU CLAIRE IN MAY
If you have any suggestions, please pm me with your ideas
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Sounds like a good plan jer O0
I'm off to sleep now everyone, please everyone get food, sleep whatever is needed. :ghug:
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Sounds like a good plan jer O0
I'm off to sleep now everyone, please everyone get food, sleep whatever is needed. :ghug:
thank you so much for beeing here with us this morning.. it was important for me.. :ghug:
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PLANS ARE BEING CONSIDERED
FOR A MEMORIAL TO HEATH LEDGER
TO BE INCLUDED
AT THE MEET IN EAU CLAIRE IN MAY
If you have any suggestions, please pm me with your ideas
I think that is a wonderful idea, I hope that those who arent there can join in in some way too.
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Sounds like a good plan jer O0
I'm off to sleep now everyone, please everyone get food, sleep whatever is needed. :ghug:
Asali, I know how much this news has devastated you, as it has all of us, so please, get some rest. ^f^
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I woke up hoping it was a bad dream. then I heard Heath's dad confirming his death and it was then I knew it was true. But I dont want to believe it. Heath was such a beautiful, talented person, how could this have happened? My stomach is in knots, I want to cry so badly but I'm in work. Wish I could go home but I cant....why did this have to happen to someone so young and so beautiful. It isnt right. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Christie you describle exactly my feeling.
For you and all the other :ghug:
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I was crying so wildly that my boss just sent me to home.....
I have a horrible headache 'cause of so much cry....My eyes are swollen...I don't know what to do....
I read on the newspaper that Heath was so depressed 'cause he still loved Michelle and 'cause he was not happy with his work lately 'cause he thought that he was doing the same all the time with his new characters. He also had health problems.... :\'( :\'(
That's so sad.....
But at the same time I'm so angry 'cause I read too that Heath was seen in NY lately so dirty and messed and smelling so bad and that he had a lot of problems with journalists.
I've read some beautiful things too, like he became a legend thanks to BBM and his acting in BBM was beyond perfect, more powerful than the best Marlon Brandon.
And Ali, I've seen what you posted....that's terrible, disgusting, something sooooooo cruel. How people can be so inhuman? Now my heart is not only broken by sadness but also by anger.
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Like many of you here I am shocked. Living in Europe I woke up to the news. Heath's picture is front cover on the papers. I am wearing a black tie today with the cowboy outfit and Stetson I always wear since BBM.
Its good there is this forum because most people in the "real" world do not understand what we are going through right now.
:\'(
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tpe suggested earlier, to do something to remember him by, so I thought, how about a tribute video on YouTube from our forum ?
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tpe suggested earlier, to do something to remember him by, so I thought, how about a tribute video on YouTube from our forum ?
It seems a beautiful idea for me. Thanks, hpv¡ ^f^
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He is a legend now.
:ghug:
You bet!!
He will be an Icon of youth , beauty and talent ^f^
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It seems a beautiful idea for me. Thanks, hpv¡ ^f^
Thats a good idea.
Also, at get-togethers, I think it would be great to light (Zippo) lighters at the end of the film.
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tpe suggested earlier, to do something to remember him by, so I thought, how about a tribute video on YouTube from our forum ?
very very good.
but please, do not make him an ICON. just what he was is important.
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I read it on yahoo this morning before going to work, im in chock... :\'( what a tragedy.
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Not an icon but a man, a husband and father, an actor. Remember him as he was, " warts and all", to quote Oliver Cromwell's reported instruction to the painter of his portrait.
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We can keep things tastefull here of course. However, like Valantino, James Dean, Marylin Monroe, Glenn Miller, Buddy Holly & Elvis Presley to name but a few - a tragic death guarantees Icon status. He will never grow old.
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PLANS ARE BEING CONSIDERED
FOR A MEMORIAL TO HEATH LEDGER
TO BE INCLUDED
AT THE MEET IN EAU CLAIRE IN MAY
It would be very much appreciated, thank you Jer. :ghug:
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yes. i will have to because. my tears won't stop. and i can't take off.
i will try though to come here as often as possible, i need you all here :ghug:
Be strong and hang on !
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh Ali....friend..
Poor Heath, feeling so alone....
I just wanna die too... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh BT sweetie :\'( :^^) :ghug:
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I didn't know last night. I've just woken up and found out this news. I can't believe it. I can't stop crying. Oh Heath. I just can't believe it.
Rosie :ghug:
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And Christie, Keren, Tizi, Annika and everybody else that I don't personally know :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I have no words to express how utterly sad and heart broken I am for our beautiful Heath. He gave us darling Ennis and for that I will be forever grateful.
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I have no words to describe such a sudden shock of Heath's life ending so soon, a fellow West Australian like myself.
A death without warning, without any seeming reason, is always the hardest to take and accept.
Yet, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. But sometimes, it may take awhile for us to learn of that reason, if we ever do at all. Yet, the reason still exists.
May memory of Heath live on forevermore.
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I was crying so wildly that my boss just sent me to home.....
I have a horrible headache 'cause of so much cry....My eyes are swollen...I don't know what to do....
I read on the newspaper that Heath was so depressed 'cause he still loved Michelle and 'cause he was not happy with his work lately 'cause he thought that he was doing the same all the time with his new characters. He also had health problems.... :\'( :\'(
That's so sad.....
But at the same time I'm so angry 'cause I read too that Heath was seen in NY lately so dirty and messed and smelling so bad and that he had a lot of problems with journalists.
I've read some beautiful things too, like he became a legend thanks to BBM and his acting in BBM was beyond perfect, more powerful than the best Marlon Brandon.
And Ali, I've seen what you posted....that's terrible, disgusting, something sooooooo cruel. How people can be so inhuman? Now my heart is not only broken by sadness but also by anger.
Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
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Oh BT sweetie :\'( :^^) :ghug:
June, Hon, I just want to tear my heart out to stop feeling so terribly sad..... :\'( I'm a real mess right know.....crying like a baby....I'VE CRYING FOR 5 HOURS and still it seems like I can't stop....
Oh Heath, my sweet Heath, you'll be terribly missed.....
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Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
Keren,how are you? It´s a stupid question,I know,because all of us are feeling as if a part of us has died with him.But,tell me,are you feeling a little better? Have you taken a rest and eaten anything? Promise me you´ll do,please;there´s nothing to do if we don´t feel strong enough... :ghug:
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June, Hon, I just want to tear my heart out to stop feeling so terribly sad..... :\'( I'm a real mess right know.....crying like a baby....I'VE CRYING FOR 5 HOURS and still it seems like I can't stop....
Oh Heath, my sweet Heath, you'll be terribly missed.....
Oh you sweet thing *hugs you so tight* Please try and get some rest :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
Keren, my friend, something is wrong with me.....I feel like I've lost someone of my family....It's almost impossible to express with words the pain I feel inside of me.....It's so hard and overwhelming....
How am I supposed to watch BBM again or to read those marvellous fics where Ennis has still Heath's face? How am I supposed to visit the Baby pix thread again without feeling I'm dying?
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And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself.
They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
I ditto every word you said Keren!!! :^^)
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I was crying so wildly that my boss just sent me to home.....
I have a horrible headache 'cause of so much cry....My eyes are swollen...I don't know what to do....
I read on the newspaper that Heath was so depressed 'cause he still loved Michelle and 'cause he was not happy with his work lately 'cause he thought that he was doing the same all the time with his new characters. He also had health problems.... :\'( :\'(
That's so sad.....
But at the same time I'm so angry 'cause I read too that Heath was seen in NY lately so dirty and messed and smelling so bad and that he had a lot of problems with journalists.
I've read some beautiful things too, like he became a legend thanks to BBM and his acting in BBM was beyond perfect, more powerful than the best Marlon Brandon.
And Ali, I've seen what you posted....that's terrible, disgusting, something sooooooo cruel. How people can be so inhuman? Now my heart is not only broken by sadness but also by anger.
It's not important how he left us, he left us. Let's remember what he left behind, a masterpiece that brought us together, and a love that will keep us together.
So Tammy my friend don't let the "bad guys" get you down.
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How am I supposed to watch BBM again or to read those marvellous fics where Ennis has still Heath's face? How am I supposed to visit the Baby pix thread again without feeling I'm dying?
BT :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: My feelings exactly... :\'(
saying that I still urge you to hold on and be strong fro us.. :^^)
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Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
I agree with everything you said Keren. He was beautiful and talented and loved so much.
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Hello my friends. Back again after a few hours sleep. More :ghug: for all those who are just now finding out.
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He Was A Friend of Mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I think of him
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
He died on the road
He died on the road
He just kept on movin'
Never reaped what he could sow
And he was a friend of mine
I stole away and cried
I stole away and cried
'Cause I never had too much money
And I never been quite satisfied
And he was a friend of mine
He never done no wrong
He never done no wrong
A thousand miles from home
And he never harmed no one
And he was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I hear his name
Lord, I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
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http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=BkKK_iZQy5Q
One brokie posted this in SW thread. :\'( :\'(
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He Was A Friend of Mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I think of him
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
He died on the road
He died on the road
He just kept on movin'
Never reaped what he could sow
And he was a friend of mine
I stole away and cried
I stole away and cried
'Cause I never had too much money
And I never been quite satisfied
And he was a friend of mine
He never done no wrong
He never done no wrong
A thousand miles from home
And he never harmed no one
And he was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I hear his name
Lord, I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
I've been playing this song almost non stop since I heard, it makes me think of Jake and how devastated he must be feeling, like we all are, because Heath WAS a friend of ours, even if we didn't know him personally. He brought us all together through his beautiful portrayal of Ennis and will live forever through him and through the friendships born from Brokeback Mountain. Rest In Peace,lil darling :\'(
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I feel sad and empty.
Rest in peace Heath.
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I've been playing this song almost non stop since I heard, it makes me think of Jake and how devastated he must be feeling, like we all are, because Heath WAS a friend of ours, even if we didn't know him personally. He brought us all together through his beautiful portrayal of Ennis and will live forever through him and through the friendships born from Brokeback Mountain. Rest In Peace,lil darling :\'(
Yeah CS, he was a friend of ours...
I'm thinking about Jake too...they were good friends. :\'( :\'(
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I plan to go to the place where Heath passed away tomorrow and lay a bouquet of flower as my tribute for what he had given us.
You all will be in my thoughts. :ghug:
Thank you Ethan. I saw a picture this morning of a makeshift memorial in front of the building where Heath died. It was so moving.
Ethan, could you get him white roses? Or else, white orchids?
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Were they the favorites Heath's flowers Thomas?
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Were they the favorites Heath's flowers Thomas?
I don't know, Tammy. But only the best for Heath...
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Keren, my friend, something is wrong with me.....I feel like I've lost someone of my family....It's almost impossible to express with words the pain I feel inside of me.....It's so hard and overwhelming....
How am I supposed to watch BBM again or to read those marvellous fics where Ennis has still Heath's face? How am I supposed to visit the Baby pix thread again without feeling I'm dying?
There's nothing wrong with you Tammy, I feel like that too. my eyes are red and swollen from crying so much. I think I reached the point where I'm so emotionally and physically exhausted I can't even cry anymore, I'm just numb. It will be so hard to watch the movie again and to post his pictures, I know. I still don't know how to handle all that.
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It was a rough night for sleep. You wake up, and the news is still the same. Doesn't go away.
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Well, only 3 hours sleep. The human mind is a great inventor to comfort one's self against pain, so having said that, will tell what happened.
I slept in the deepest peace, which I did not think possible. I awoke with the impression of a kiss on the forehead, and the outline of a bluebird,
first dark, then fully blue. Was mentally confused until I could form the words-but they were different from the movie- they were- where a
bluebird sings, and they conveyed to me that Heath was at peace. Again, am no fool, and know well how the mind can provide what is needed,
and I thought of that very quickly. But it did happen, and that is how this day has started for me-either the metaphysical or the simple ways
our minds create some comfort when it is most needed. Makes no difference-it was OK to wake up like that, wherever that came from. Nor am
I embarrassed to pass it along. I felt a great sense of peace, and can only hope that doesn't erode through the day.
The workings of the mind.....but they can parallel some other truth--that Heath is at peace, and a gentle, warm, conscious peace.
That's beautiful friend.... :\'( :\'( :\'( I only hope so.
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Is there a group to link us all together? Where it asks to associate are candle?
I used the group initials "ej"
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I don't know maybe you can seach and find out if we could create one?
I just watched Come what may clip by ravebous and still in chock and too much tears to chat
catch you later
so sorry
search for the GROUP " HEATH " 18 candles and 6 country so far
Thanks, frenchcda. I lit a candle under the HEATH group.
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Heath Ledger on screen
Audio slideshow: Garry Maddox
A flash player is required
http://www.smh.com.au/multimedia/2008/entertainment/heath-ledger-retrospective/start.html
Farewell Heath :\'(
So moving.
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They just showed a 15 minute tribute to Heath on the tv and the final clips were the sum up of his career with quotes from him and playing the Wings :\'(
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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How come? I don't believe it, I DON'T BELIEVE IT! Why is he dead... why... if it is an accident I gotta wake him up and blame him from being careless... if it is a murder I gotta wake him up and let him see how I take revenge and kill the murderer... if he attempt suicide I gotta wake him up and slap him hard in the face and scold him...
But he is gone. Forever and ever. I can't wake him up. Nobody can. In the movie it is Jack who's dead, and now you are telling me that in the reality it is Heath who's dead? I don't want to say rest in peace, coz I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE HEATH IS DEAD! I DON'T!
Rest in peace, 'Ennis'...
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Ennis del Mar was a fictional character ... we know that.
Heath Ledger was a real man ... we know that.
Heath Ledger, actor, breathed life into a hero I didn't even know existed before his amazing performance/role in Brokeback Mountain.
Still the hero of my life, Ennis del Mar.
Thank you, Mr. Ledger. What ever happened to you, it's wrong.
May I suggest a synchronized toast to Mr. Ledger?
I'm so glad this web-site exists, otherwise I'd have no place to share my grief. Thanks all.
*toast* ... TO MR HEATH LEDGER.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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Someone posted this link on Brokebackslash.
It's a condolence book.
Hey everyone, just thought I'd let you know that a Guest book has been set up at the San Francisco Chronicle's website for Heath.
http://www.legacy.com/SFGate/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=101716459
I signed.
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How come? I don't believe it, I DON'T BELIEVE IT! Why is he dead... why... if it is an accident I gotta wake him up and blame him from being careless... if it is a murder I gotta wake him up and let him see how I take revenge and kill the murderer... if he attempt suicide I gotta wake him up and slap him hard in the face and scold him...
But he is gone. Forever and ever. I can't wake him up. Nobody can. In the movie it is Jack who's dead, and now you are telling me that in the reality it is Heath who's dead? I don't want to say rest in peace, coz I DON'T WANT TO BELIEVE HEATH IS DEAD! I DON'T!
Rest in peace, 'Ennis'...
Oh my..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Please don't do this to me; I can't stand it no more.
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This article killed me even more
http://www.afterelton.com/blog/michaeljensen/heaths-death-like-body-blow?&comment=32467
The writer speaks for all of us.
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I'm draging ass, I trying to get to work. Is it hitting me. I don't know. I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to cry. I lived with this "thing" that came over me for a year. What's going to happen now?
Man this is stupid, I got to go. tears are falling, this really hurts. I didn't want it to. I tried my best not let it get to me. It just doesn't make sense. I'm sorry,
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Dear Friends,
I need to share something with you.
Some time ago, just before Christmas I went to see a clairvoyant. It was the first time in my life. She told me that somebody is going to die soon and his death will effect me greately, altough he is someone pretty distant to me. Now I know who he was talking about... The words "Heath Ledger is dead" just plays in my head over and over again...
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I woke up this morning, praying it was a bad dream. But it's in all the newspapers. I've already cried here at work; everyone here knows how much I love BBM, and they are trying to comfort me. I still can't believe he's gone. :\'(
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Darling Keren, and all you other brokies,
I have just woken up and am still numb. Came right to ennisjack, after months of abstinence. Don't know what to say...
monicita
We try to say that we loved him.
We love him still.
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More :ghug: to all. This is a difficult time for so many.
The tributes and articles have been so respectful and moving. ^f^
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Our Sweet Heath, our sweet Ennis, we'll miss you forever and you are forever in our hearts :\'(
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BabyTammy, am wide awake now, and am now hurting more because there were actually four warnings, I gave. Mentioned last night,
that I had posted, on pg. 432 of photos, that he looked extremely sad, in the pictures from London, and then one, mid-page. I softened it,
so as not to seem to wrongful, but was seriously worried.
They are now saying he had complained of a sleep disorder after making TDK, and was only getting 2-3 hours of sleep (interview-N.Y. Times)
and was exhausted and emotionally drained. And I warned of that in this forum on page 34 of the Joker thread, but, again, watered it down,
so as not to be offensive. Watered it down, but spoke up, in 2 posts on that page.
But I also e-mailed Heath, as soon as I had the internet, last year, and asked him to look after his emotional and physical health, as I had
read BBM took a lot out of him. No reply. When I was accepted by his staff as an add-on to his MySpace site, they posted my picture (along
with a bunch of other new add-ons) with the message from me that he should get plenty of rest. It's a matter of record, on that site.
So, now, am in great pain, because I gave not one but four warnings, that I sensed something was wrong. And yet I never took it to the
level of extreme warning, for fear of being made fun of. I tried, 4 times, 3 of which can be seen, but I failed to go with my gut instinct, that
this was a sensitive guy who took too much on himself.
Never heard of the Times interview until last night, but it was a direct complaint to the reporter, and maybe even a cry for help. Asking for
someone to see him as more than a celebrity, but as a human being. Knowing I gave 4 warnings gives me even more grief, because 3 of them
were published or posted, and I played the game- I watered them down, afraid of being tagged as out-of-line, and negative.
What's done is done. I loved him enough to notice, but maybe not enough to raise hell and hope someone, anyone would hear. His staff-
anyone. Exhaustion. 2-4 hours of sleep each night. Why didn't the reporter speak up?
Again, what people say- something was meant to be--No. Not this. I will leave off, grieving all the more, that no one close to him stepped in.
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IN LOVING MEMORY
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
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It's all so very sad and a tragic waste of life :\'(
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To me, the most devastating thought is that, in one way or another, he probably did kill himself. Most probably by not taking good enough care of himself (lack of sleep, pneumonia, and maybe not seeking help, either psychological or physical). I am not saying he did it on purpose. It just reminds me of Ennis, the man who could not listen to his deepest feelings. Does anybody understand what I mean?
I mean no disrespect. I once was in that situation myself for a few months, where for sheer misery and the lack of sleep that caused (which induces a kind of stupor even when you are awake) I sometimes either wished I was dead or just didn't feel anything much and could not care about what was happening to me. Add pneumonia on top of that and those weird sleeping pills he seems to have taken, which make people do crazy things in their sleep (why are they even being sold if that is the case?).
Love to you all,
monicita
He had such a grueling schedule, especially on the set of "The Dark Knight", where he had to do a lot of the filming during the late evenings and early morning hours. A life in Art is not an easy thing. To papahrase the Poet Cavafy:
You know the pace of our life - it's fever, it's absolute | devotion to beauty
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BabyTammy, am wide awake now, and am now hurting more because there were actually four warnings, I gave. Mentioned last night,
that I had posted, on pg. 432 of photos, that he looked extremely sad, in the pictures from London, and then one, mid-page. I softened it,
so as not to seem to wrongful, but was seriously worried.
They are now saying he had complained of a sleep disorder after making TDK, and was only getting 2-3 hours of sleep (interview-N.Y. Times)
and was exhausted and emotionally drained. And I warned of that in this forum on page 34 of the Joker thread, but, again, watered it down,
so as not to be offensive. Watered it down, but spoke up, in 2 posts on that page.
But I also e-mailed Heath, as soon as I had the internet, last year, and asked him to look after his emotional and physical health, as I had
read BBM took a lot out of him. No reply. When I was accepted by his staff as an add-on to his MySpace site, they posted my picture (along
with a bunch of other new add-ons) with the message from me that he should get plenty of rest. It's a matter of record, on that site.
So, now, am in great pain, because I gave not one but four warnings, that I sensed something was wrong. And yet I never took it to the
level of extreme warning, for fear of being made fun of. I tried, 4 times, 3 of which can be seen, but I failed to go with my gut instinct, that
this was a sensitive guy who took too much on himself.
Never heard of the Times interview until last night, but it was a direct complaint to the reporter, and maybe even a cry for help. Asking for
someone to see him as more than a celebrity, but as a human being. Knowing I gave 4 warnings gives me even more grief, because 3 of them
were published or posted, and I played the game- I watered them down, afraid of being tagged as out-of-line, and negative.
What's done is done. I loved him enough to notice, but maybe not enough to raise hell and hope someone, anyone would hear. His staff-
anyone. Exhaustion. 2-4 hours of sleep each night. Why didn't the reporter speak up?
Again, what people say- something was meant to be--No. Not this. I will leave off, grieving all the more, that no one close to him stepped in.
Tony I remember well what you said in Baby pix thread......That was true.....He looked so tired and sad....
I'm watching on TV right now the images of him, all covered, the ambulance, people all around....... :\'( :\'( :\'(
My heart aches so bad for him.......
They are saying on TV that Heath was so tired and maybe he had a drepression.....They say that in his late appearance he looked ill.
I'm also watching his father....he's devastated.......
Tony, you loved him enough to notice..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I am devastated and oh, just so sad. Brokeback Mountain wasn't supposed to end this way. Now there will never be Brokeback Mountain 2. Forever in our hearts, Heath. We will always remember you.
There cannot be a Brokeback Mountain 2. Ennis is dead.
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Like many of you here I am shocked. Living in Europe I woke up to the news. Heath's picture is front cover on the papers. I am wearing a black tie today with the cowboy outfit and Stetson I always wear since BBM.
Its good there is this forum because most people in the "real" world do not understand what we are going through right now.
:\'(
I am also wearing black today.
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There cannot be a Brokeback Mountain 2. Ennis is dead.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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tpe suggested earlier, to do something to remember him by, so I thought, how about a tribute video on YouTube from our forum ?
I agree that this is a beautiful idea. We should discuss this and more in geeater detail in the coming hours/days.
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First thing I saw when I turn on my computer and connect to the internet this morning. I thought it was just a dream. Now I wish it was just a dream. I'm so shock and numb that I can barely type. This is a very sad news indeed. Bless his soul. I also feel for his daughter. I hope her and her mother are well.
To Heath: May you rest in peace up there and look after the people you love. If you are reading this, you know how many people love and respect you. You were a great actor for someone so young and never in a million years would we think you'll leave us. Your legacy will live forever.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
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We remeber you always. Our Ennis, happy Ennis.
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
Thank you, Barb :ghug: :ghug: Same to you. :ghug:
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Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
I didn't want to say anything about this, but for a short while yesterday afternoon (US time), Heath's entry in wikipedia was disgustingly desecrated. The mods of that site made sure that it was cleaned up immediately.
There is so much nastiness out there about Heath. We should be careful what to believe and not to believe. In the meantime, we know that we honor him for his his work, his beauty, and his talent. Nobody can take that away from us.
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Almost all Heath pic forums are erased, I can understand why.
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
And we offer them back to you and our best support :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: %)
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We remeber you always. Our Ennis, happy Ennis.
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Anything interesting up there in heaven, Heath?
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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He died on the road
He died on the road
He just kept on movin'
Never reaped what he could sow
And he was a friend of mine
As is.
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
Thanks FlwrChild! We all needed a little of that today! :ghug: To you too and everyone else. :ghug:
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
Thank you a lot :ghug:
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I've been playing this song almost non stop since I heard, it makes me think of Jake and how devastated he must be feeling, like we all are, because Heath WAS a friend of ours, even if we didn't know him personally. He brought us all together through his beautiful portrayal of Ennis and will live forever through him and through the friendships born from Brokeback Mountain. Rest In Peace,lil darling :\'(
As he had done in the past, I suspect Jake will maintain a respectful silence. He is godfather to Heath's child, and I suspect that this has been on his mind the past few hours. I also pray for him.
Both Jake and Maggie were fortunate enough to work with Heath at the height of his powers. I am sure that they both feel the loss very much.
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Anything interesting up there in heaven, Heath?
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh that's so SAD, that makes me cry... That's how I will remeber him... Thank you Twisted for the picture and Ali, that's the face I ment, when we talked in spanish thread...
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My Immortal :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=2i0goXB05EI&feature=related
http://youtube.com/watch?v=jqriISAkIyk
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I'm draging ass, I trying to get to work. Is it hitting me. I don't know. I don't want to feel this way, I don't want to cry. I lived with this "thing" that came over me for a year. What's going to happen now?
Man this is stupid, I got to go. tears are falling, this really hurts. I didn't want it to. I tried my best not let it get to me. It just doesn't make sense. I'm sorry,
No need to say sorry. We are the same.
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I just came across this quite in a news article on CNN.
>>"Heath has touched so many people on so many different levels ..."
So true and appropriate, particularly for this forum. I hope that he knew, at least to some extent, his impact on us, here, in particular, and in the world, in general.
I have nothing to add in regard to the sadness that we are all feeling. It has already been said.
I do want to express my appreciation to everyone involved in this supportive forum. This really is an "anchor" in trying times, particularly this one. Collective thanks to everyone for just being there. I hope that you all realize your positive impact here, in our little community, and in the world in general. Life is short and fragile, so be aware of and appreciate your contributions often. I can only hope that Heath did...
Bob
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My Immortal :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=jqriISAkIyk
..this pain is just too real.. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I don't think it's quite set in yet - I keep hoping this is all a horrible mistake, although I know it's not going to be that way.
I think I finally know exactly what Ennis felt when he got the postcard about Jack's death. Surreal shock and disbelief. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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We'll miss you, Heath. Always. :\'(
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And we offer them back to you and our best support :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: %)
%) back. :ghug:
Hi again Lindsey. :^^)
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Anything interesting up there in heaven, Heath?
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh God... :\'(
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Dear Friends,
I need to share something with you.
Some time ago, just before Christmas I went to see a clairvoyant. It was the first time in my life. She told me that somebody is going to die soon and his death will effect me greately, altough he is someone pretty distant to me. Now I know who he was talking about... The words "Heath Ledger is dead" just plays in my head over and over again...
I too believe in Fate.
But I like to think NOT about what could have been; rather I like to think of what he has given us.
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My Immortal :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=jqriISAkIyk
Thanks,hpv, but I haven´t could see it completely;I begin to cry again,it´s so sad...
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tpe, MG, JT, Twisted, Quills, BabyTammy, Tony, Jack's Key, Aurora, Monicita, Hildapossible, and all the rest (I don't want to miss anyone):
I can only offer more :ghug: :ghug: and my support and commiseration.
Thank you much Barb.
Yesterday was a very bad day for me; a lot of problems at work and some at home and with friends too. A real mightmare. I was broken. But I tried to sleep thinking about how I was going to resolve my problems......I didn't sleep well, but after so much thinking, I've found solutions and new sthrengh to face the day. This was going to be a great day. I was going to talk to my boss to clear a lot of stuff, and also I was going to make up with a friend of mine. I was happy. But then I received a message via cell phone from Ali (MyPrivateJack): I'm so sorry that I have to tell you this: HEATH IS DEAD.
I remained still, without notice that my hands have started to shake. I left everything I was doing and run to the nearest computer. I came here and then I saw it...... :\'( :\'( :\'( Oh my, I saw it, I saw the new banner and then I knew that all was real, Heath was dead and with him my heart too. I thought I was going to vomit.
After so much crying my boss sent me to home. I know I'm a silly girl, but yeah, I can't help being so weak.
This day was going to be beautiful; now is a wreck, I'm a wreck and I think the whole month is going to be a wreck, a total shit for me.
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I don't think it's quite set in yet - I keep hoping this is all a horrible mistake, although I know it's not going to be that way.
I think I finally know exactly what Ennis felt when he got the postcard about Jack's death. Surreal shock and disbelief. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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We'll miss you, Heath. Always. :\'(
You know, that's exactly what I was thinking about this morning. I don't think I'll ever be able to watch that scene again - it was hard enough before but now?
Sorry for the "anything interesting.." thing - it was actually Ethan who posted it first on the Vigil thread and it just seemed fitting, somehow.
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
Now I'm crying like a baby!!!! :\'( :\'( Oh my....My baby Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Good morning all...i too woke up hoping it was just a horrible dream. Unfortunately it was not.
I'm still numb, my heart is heavy, and my eyes ache. :ghug:
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just beautiful, thanks for posting.
This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
OMG...O)MG!!!!! So beautiful and sadd too
Now I'm really crying my eyes out...!!!
"Do not stand at my grave and cry;"...I can't help it....sobbing :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Beautiful poem trekfan. Thank you. :^^)
Tammy, you are not silly or weak. As MissRed said, we are all shocked and stunned, just as Ennis was when he received that postcard. You need time to heal from that very real hurt. :ghug:
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I just read on tmz that someone placed a bouquet of flowers next to the concrete footprint of Matilda near where Heath lived. That poor, poor baby. :\'(
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I know we're all keeping her in our prayers, as well as Heath.
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Rest in peace, dear one. You will live on in your daughter, and in your tremendous body of work with which you left us. You will be in our hearts forever.
I just noticed this is my 2000th post. I wish it could have been at a happier time. :(
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
This is absolutely gorgeous. Thank you so much for sharing :ghug:
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Sleep in heavenly peace Heath
there is no sorrow, no pain, no suffering
there is eternal beauty and calm
You are forever young.
thoughts and prayers are with your family and loved ones
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Hi shazza. That was lovely. ^f^
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
That is beautiful trekfan! Excuse me for a moment... :\'(
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I just read on tmz that someone placed a bouquet of flowers next to the concrete footprint of Matilda near where Heath lived. That poor, poor baby. :\'(
I saw that too. That is just so utterly heartbreaking. I'm still so numb, feeling sick, wanting to cry. wish I was at home, not work. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
That´s nice and,yes,we can have some relief,but maybe tomorrow;today all these beautiful thoughts we share hurt so much...I hope you understand... :^^)
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I saw that too. That is just so utterly heartbreaking. I'm still so numb, feeling sick, wanting to cry. wish I was at home, not work. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh Christie I cried at work and I think I've cried like I were those 4000 members of this forum; I've cried a whole sea, trust me.
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God Bless everyone
today is the day to tell those you love, how much you really do
and to give that extra hug, kiss, kind words to your loved ones
life happens while we are busy doing other things.
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i heard it through the radio-news this morning at work... and i couldn't believe it when i first heard. i still feel like this is all a bad joke.
thanks trekfan for the poem. it had me in tears - but in a good way. (i think)
hugs to you all - i hope we will get through this hard time at some point.
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
trekfan, I have heard this done as a song - am going to see if I can remember by whom and if I have it...
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Last night I went to sleep, almost distant from the world around me. I kept switching channels on the news, back and fourth. I stumbled upon the interview from Charlie Rose. I was shocked to see his face, smiling, talking about it, and his voice...oh, how I wanted to cry but nothing could come out. I put my hands together and prayed that night for him to be safe up in heaven and that his family anf friends will all be ok.
When I awoke this morning, my head was spinning with thoughts saying again and again "Heath Ledger is gone", "No, it is only a dream"...but when I turned on the news, there he was, a man so beautiful, a man who took risk, gone in an instant. I am still numb, still wishing this was only a horrible nightmare...
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God Bless everyone
today is the day to tell those you love, how much you really do
and to give that extra hug, kiss, kind words to your loved ones
life happens while we are busy doing other things.
Gosh, I was just thinking the same thing.
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Plodding on at work all day, but couldn't think of anything but Heath. Kept sneaking to the forum to see how mu BB Buddies were rallying. I'll go home in 45 minutes, it can't come quick enough.
Love to all as usual. I will check in again later.
:ghug: Tom
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Tom :ghug:
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Hello everyone...
I have not visited ennisjack.com in a very very long time. But this is the place to be today to mourn. I have always been more of a Jake fan (in posting here, at least). But there's never been any doubt that Heath was an amazing actor with incredible talent. Every film I saw him in, he just owned it. He chose roles that challenged him and used his best skills, and he made every role believable and memorable. Hollywood has lost a great talent. My heart is breaking for Michelle and Matilda; for Jake; for all his family and friends and fans. Whatever is determined to be the cause of death, I pray that he was at peace. Such a sad shocking end for someone who could have been one of Hollywood's greatest.
"I can't cry hard enough..."
Cindi
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Last night I went to sleep, almost distant from the world around me. I kept switching channels on the news, back and fourth. I stumbled upon the interview from Charlie Rose. I was shocked to see his face, smiling, talking about it, and his voice...oh, how I wanted to cry but nothing could come out. I put my hands together and prayed that night for him to be safe up in heaven and that his family anf friends will all be ok.
When I awoke this morning, my head was spinning with thoughts saying again and again "Heath Ledger is gone", "No, it is only a dream"...but when I turned on the news, there he was, a man so beautiful, a man who took risk, gone in an instant. I am still numb, still wishing this was only a horrible nightmare...
I, too, wish this is all a very bad dream.
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Cara, I am glad you find this the place to be. :ghug: You are not alone here.
I am more of a Jake girl myself, but it doens't matter. Heath was extraordinairy.
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:ghug: Cindi. This is definitely the place to be.
JT, LD, I think it will be a long time waking from this nightmare If only it were a dream. :\'(
Tom, I hope to see you later. :^^)
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Left: the last known picture of Heath, taken on the set of Dr. Parnassus.
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I must go for now my friends..may peace be with you all during this tragic event and the days to come...
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Hello everyone...
I have not visited ennisjack.com in a very very long time. But this is the place to be today to mourn. I have always been more of a Jake fan (in posting here, at least). But there's never been any doubt that Heath was an amazing actor with incredible talent. Every film I saw him in, he just owned it. He chose roles that challenged him and used his best skills, and he made every role believable and memorable. Hollywood has lost a great talent. My heart is breaking for Michelle and Matilda; for Jake; for all his family and friends and fans. Whatever is determined to be the cause of death, I pray that he was at peace. Such a sad shocking end for someone who could have been one of Hollywood's greatest.
"I can't cry hard enough..."
Cindi
Cindi :ghug:
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Cara, I am glad you find this the place to be. :ghug: You are not alone here.
I am more of a Jake girl myself, but it doens't matter. Heath was extraordinairy.
I'm a Jake girl too, as you all know, but you're right, it doesn't matter, I'm a Brokie first and I wouldn't be if it were not for Heath, as well as Jake.
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Thank you for your words,Cindi;that's how we feel today.But as I said in Spanish channels,he will live forever in our hearts and minds and in his movies.That's the best legacy he has given to us and the best way to remember him. :ghug:
Now you going to laugh at me,what we really need today...I'm so awkward and my head is so dumb,that while I was washing the dishes,I cut with a knife.Later on,I put a coffee pot on the fire and,when I catched it to put it in the cup,it spilled over the same hand¡.OMG¡ I haven't burn my hand,but my finger has bleed a little.It seems like a Peter Sellers film¡I´m a little stupid;let's see if I make the house blow...
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers and the following
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
That's beautiful Ethan! Please do it for all of us here. :\'(
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We remeber you always. Our Ennis, happy Ennis.
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OMG-=-Last night I went out on my 3rd floor apartment balcony and closed my eyes. I then replayed this scene from BBM in my mind and smiled to myself.
I then opened my eyes, looked up to heaven, and sent up thanks that heath was a part of my life--and will always be.
I just saw a Yahoo update about Michelle and Matilda, who flew in from Sweden this morning, as well as other things;
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080123/ap_en_mo/obit_ledger
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Some lovely tributes on the BBC website
It is tragic that we have lost one of our nation's finest actors in the prime of his life. Heath Ledger's diverse and challenging roles will be remembered as some of the great performances by an Australian actor.
Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd
I adored him. I don't know how to compare his talent to others but he's touched me deeply as a talent and it's a great loss - losing him at any age would be a loss but it was pretty rough news. I was really shocked by it.
John Travolta
I had such great hope for him. He was just taking off and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss. My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family.
Mel Gibson
What a terrible tragedy. My heart goes out to Heath's family.
Nicole Kidman
I am shocked and very saddened by the news. I deeply respected Heath's work and always admired his continuing development as an artist. My thoughts are with his family and close friends.
Cate Blanchett
I think Tennyson got it right in the poem when he described someone as having died at a young age but burning the candles at both ends, and oh what a beautiful flame he made, that was Heath, what a beautiful flame he made and a great talent.
My heart goes out to everyone in his family and my family. The saddest thing is his daughter whom he just loved
dearly.
Larry Williams - ex-partner Michelle Williams' father
The studio is stunned and devastated by this tragic news. The entertainment community has lost an enormous talent. Heath was a brilliant actor and an exceptional person. Our hearts go out to his family and friends.
Warner Bros president Alan Horn and studio president Jeff Robinov
He made a decision about four years ago to stop being led by producers and managers and to forge his own way. He started working with the most interesting directors. He was so successful at breaking out of the teen idol image.
Neil Armfield, who directed Ledger in his last Australian film, Candy
I worked on the same film and I never met him - we were never on the same set. This is as much news to me as anybody and it affects me in the same way.
Morgan Freeman, co-star in Dark Knight
I went through a similar thing with River Phoenix in the fact that he was so young. It's a real tragedy when someone so talented dies because you don't know on the early part of their career what more they could offer us.
Director Rob Reiner
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Has there been any news about how Jake is doing? I worry about him as well, I know they were close. He is Matilda's godfather, I believe. I read that Michelle is 'devastated' an understatement if ever there was one.
Cindi
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Remember that so many things remain unanswered, and that even in this article, there remains a lot of speculation.
But I am heartened to read the Jake was his friend to the very end. I quote from the full article:
"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused...
Jake, you remained a true friend. I am sure Heath appreciated you.
From: http://www.thisislondon.co.uk/showbiz/article-23433653-details/Family+of+Brokeback+Mountain+star+Heath+Ledger:+'He+didn't+commit+suicide'/article.do
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Family of Brokeback Mountain star Heath Ledger: 'He didn't commit suicide'
Last updated at 15:37pm on 23.01.08
The family of Australian star Heath Ledger has rejected mounting speculation the actor committed suicide in his New York City apartment.
The Brokeback Mountain star was found in dead just after 3pm yesterday after a suspected drug overdose. He was 28.
An intial autopsy carried out by the New York City Medical Examiner was 'inconclusive', according to U.S. reports.
The official investigation was launched after a police spokesperson confirmed sleeping pills - both prescription medication and non-prescription - were found in the vicinity of the actor's body.
In Perth, his home town, Ledger's father Kim read out a statement in which he insisted the death was an accident.
Surrounded by his ex-wife Sally and their sobbing daughter Kate, he said: “We confirm the very tragic, untimely and accidental passing of our dearly loved son, brother and doting father of Matilda.”
He went on to describe his son as "a down to earth, generous, kind-hearted, life-loving and selfless individual who was extremely inspirational to many."
Kim continued: "Heath has touched so many people on so many different levels during his short life that few had the pleasure of truly knowing him."
It has been revealed Ledger made a friend promise to call and “wake me up” hours before his death.
Film director Shekhar Kapur said Ledger had asked him to call the next morning during a conversation on the eve of the tragedy.
Kapur, who directed Ledger in The Four Feathers, telephoned him on Monday after arriving in New York from London.
“I last spoke to him the night before he died. He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body,” he said.
He added: “He was one of the most gentle, the most honest, most caring, and most compassionate persons I had met.”
The actor was found dead at a SoHo, Manhattan residence, where he had been staying on a temporary basis.
Sources told Mail Online today that Ledger had been battling substance abuse problems - including an addiction to heroin - for some time.
"He had a stint in rehab last year when he was treated for heroin," a source told The Daily Mail, adding that Ledger was increasingly introverted at the time of his death.
There are claims the strain of playing the Joker in the new Batman film may have proved too much for the star – in a recent interview he told how the role of a “murderous psychopath” had left him “sleepless and exhausted”. He is also said to have recently suffered pneumonia.
He was only sleeping around two hours a night, with reports speculating his reliance on sleeping pills lead to his "accidental overdose".
A housekeeper at Ledger's New York City apartment made shocking discovery of his body face down on a bed at 3.20pm local time on Tuesday afternoon.
Minutes earlier, the housekeeper had opened the door to a masseuse, who had an appointment with the actor.
The Hollywood website TMZ.com reported that Ledger was in cardiac arrest when emergency services arrived on the scene.
The actor's body was moved to the floor but subsequent attempts to revive him failed and he was pronounced dead at 3.35pm, at the scene.
Police are treating Ledger's death as possible suicide or an accidental drugs overdose.
Officers have blocked anyone from entering the apartment and said a full autopsy will be carried out on Ledger's body on today.
His remains were removed by police in a body bag from the apartment three hours after his death.
Ledger's ex-fiancée Michelle Williams and their two year old daughter Matilda flew from a film set in Sweden to their home in Brooklyn following tragedy.
“You can't begin to imagine the state she's in,” an executive on the film told the Mail Online.
Her father Larry Williams said: “It has just broken everybody's heart in my family. I think Tennyson got it right in the poem he described someone as having died at a young age but burning the candles at both ends. And oh what a beautiful flame he made. That was Heath.”
He said Ledger was devoted to the couple's daughter.
"The saddest thing is his daughter whom he just loved dearly. The Tennyson poem is just so true. His years were few but he left a beautiful legacy."
An insider disclosed that the Oscar nominated star had been battling substance abuse problems during the later part of his life.
Perth-born Ledger took his break-up with Williams last September very badly, according to the source.
"Heath was shattered by his split from Michelle," the source told Mail Online, adding: "He became a recluse. He barely slept he was dealing with terrible mood swings."
Ledger spent the past several months mourning the loss of his relationship with Williams and friends say he had become an introvert, who was headed in a downward spiral.
"Heath totally wanted to be on his own these past few months since he and Michelle split in September," says a source. "She was very much in love with him, but the fact he continued to dabble in drugs kept their relationship from being one she could rely on.
"He adored his daughter Matilda, and when Michelle called it quits, he missed Matilda so much that he was thrown into a deep dark depression.
"Heath was living in New York to be close to his daughter. But he hardly ever ventured out anymore.
"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused, and now it looks as though he may have died of a drug overdose.
"Michelle will be devastated by the news, because she always hoped he would get help and they could manage to work out their relationship for the sake of their daughter.
"Now poor little Matty is left without a father, and Heath has died a senseless death.
"He had so much to live for and he was so talented. He was working on a new film, and he had everything in life to live for. Now, tragically, he has thrown it all away at just 28."
Industry observers spoke last night of the increasingly "unhinged" way that Ledger has carried himself professionally and personally in recent months.
"It's easy to think an actor is just dressing bizarrely and acting weird on the red carpet to try to drum up some interest in themselves. But a picture is fast emerging, through discussions with his friends and work associates, that Heath has really been very out of it for months.
"And he's been battling some pretty serious demons. It's just so incredible that it was allowed to gone on unchecked for so long."
Ledger's former fiancée Williams failed to talk sense into her now deceased former partner.
"She cared for him deeply but his life was unmanageable," said the source. "As much as she wanted to stay together, he was a different person these past couple of years.
"The tragic reality was that he lost his grip on life."
As for Ledger's trip to rehab, the source said: "It was during his filming of The Dark Knight. Heath's addiction was really getting in the way of his ability to act. He went to rehab but left fairly quickly, within a number of days.
"Tragically, he never really faced up to his addictions. Had he done so, he would be alive today."
It was at the Venice Film Festival in September of last year that Ledger first started displaying signs of being floored by his split with Williams and at was then that friends noticed a change of behaviour in him.
After behaving oddly during a press junket at the festival on the Venice Lido all day on September 3rd, Ledger went alone to a party thrown by Italian designer Alberta Ferretti on a yacht moored off the main city at 10pm.
Ledger arrived dressed "as if he was homeless", said a source.
"It looked as if he was if he was trying to make some kind of point. He drifted around the party not talking to anyone for half an hour and then just walked off into the night like a lost soul. It was most odd.
"He and Richard Gere were both special guests at the party. But Heath was just like a ghost. It was obvious something awful had happened to him."
In an interview last November, Ledger spoke of the joy of fatherhood; "Having a child changes every aspect of your life – for the better, of course. The sacrifices are large, but what you get in return is even bigger than the sacrifices you make.
"I feel, in a sense, ready to die because you are living on in your child."
Chief among his celebrity confidants during the final stages of his life was fellow Australian Naomi Watts, who dated Ledger for two years after meeting on the set of Ned Kelly.
Ledger was currently in the middle of filming the Terry Gilliam movie The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus at the time of his death. Last weekend, he was photographed dressed as a clown on set in London.
Born in Perth, Western Australia, to race car driver Kim Ledger and French teacher Sally Bell, the actor left school at age 16 to pursue his acting career in Sydney.
After making his TV debut in children's TV series Clowning Around at the age of 13, Ledger made his first big screen outing in Australian drama Blackrock.
Ledger's breakout Hollywood role came in 1999 teen comedy 10 Things I Hate About You, alongside Julia Stiles and Joseph Gordon-Levitt.
After high-profile roles opposite Mel Gibson in The Patriot and Halle Berry in Monster's Ball, Ledger was firmly established as a leading man in Ang Lee's Brokeback Mountain in 2005.
Ledger was Oscar-nominated for his acclaimed performance as gay cowboy Ennis Del Mar in Brokeback Mountain, but missed out to Philip Seymour Hoffman, who won the Academy Award for Capote.
He can currently be seen in cinemas playing Bob Dylan in I'm Not There alongside Cate Blanchett and Richard Gere.
His performance as The Joker in Batman sequel The Dark Knight has already received a good reception from test audiences. The movie is expected to be a blockbuster when it is released this summer.
Warner Bros. Pictures Group, who produced the Batman movie, has issued a statement: "The studio is stunned and devastated by this tragic news. The entertainment community has lost an enormous talent.
"Heath was a brilliant actor and an exceptional person. Our hearts go out to his family and friends."
As well as his film career, Ledger also had a love for music and started a record company with American musician Ben Harper.
Ledger's demise comes just a week after the sudden death of another young Hollywood star, 25-year-old Brad Renfro. It is believed Renfro died of a suspected drug overdose.
Despite his high-profile relationships with Williams, Watts and Heather Graham, Ledger hated the media attention that came with his fame and had often hit the headlines for altercations with the paparazzi.
As well as his parents and daughter Matilda, Ledger is also survived by his sister Katherine, and half-sisters Olivia Ledger and Ashleigh Bell.
Heath Ledger's filmography
The Dark Knight (2008}
I'm Not There (2007)
Candy (2006)
Brokeback Mountain (2005)
The Brothers Grimm (2005)
Lords of Dogtown (2005)
Ned Kelly (2003)
The Four Feathers (2002)
Monster's Ball (2001)
A Knight's Tale (2001)
The Patriot (2000)
Two Hands (1999)
10 Things I Hate About You (1999)
Paws (1997)
Blackrock (1997)
Clowning Around (1992)
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I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you so much for doing this on our behalf, especially for many of us who are so far away and would have liked to pay our respects. It's such a blessing to be able to take comfort from each other at this time. Thank you all. :ghug:
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Dear Ethan, thanks to have done that : a card from the forum and flowers to Heath :ghug:
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I don't know what to say, I heard it on the radio this morning and I started to cry. I Had to go home from work because I felt so bad. I don't know what to do now, I just sit here and cry :\'(
It's nice to know that I can come on here and express what I'm feeling. Thank you for being here :ghug:
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http://www.showbizspy.com/2008/01/23/heath-ledgers-untimely-death-a-recap/
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Heath Ledger’s untimely death - a recap
By Owen Williams
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Australian movie hunk Heath Ledger died at the age of 28 on Tuesday, he was found unresponsive in his New York apartment at 3:30 p.m. U.S. time.
*He was found naked and unconscious in his bed by his maid, with his room, with sleeping pills strewn around him.
*He was reportedly found at an apartment owned by Mary-Kate Olsen, this was later proved to be not true, and in fact, it turned out that Heath’s masseuse called the bodyguard for the Olsens - because they’re friends and he’s an EMT. The bodyguard was around the block at Ashley’s and he immediately went over. By the time he arrived, the cops were already there.
*Heath’s death was an accident, according to his family who released this statement saying: “Heath’s family confirms the very tragic, untimely and accidental passing of our dearly loved son, brother and doting father of Matilda.
“He was found peacefully asleep in his New York apartment by his housekeeper at 3:30 p.m. U.S. time.
“We would like to thank our friends and everyone around the world for their well wishes and kind thoughts at this time. “Heath has touched so many people on so many different levels during his short life but few had the pleasure of truly knowing him.
“He was a down to earth, generous, kind-hearted, life-loving and selfless individual who was extremely inspirational to many.
“Please now respect our families need to grieve and come to terms with our loss privately.”
*Heath’s friends then revealed that they “saw his death coming,” revealing: “This is terrible and I’m in shock,” a close friend of Ledger’s told Us Weekly. “But to tell you the truth… we saw it coming.”
“Heath has gone though a rough road of trying to get sober,” adds the source.
“Things were very dark,” the source says. “His one joy was Matilda.”
* Lindsay Lohan was reportedly left devastated when she found out about Heath’s untimely death. The two were “very close” for some time.
*Michelle Williams was left devastated” by the death of her former fiancé. Sources told TMZ that “words cannot describe” the pain she is in over the news about the father of her child, Matilda Rose.
Sources say she jumped on plane headed to New York yesterday.
* A host of stars, including Mel Gibson, John Travolta and Nicole Kidman expressed their shock at the actor’s death.
“I had such great hope for him,” says Mel Gibson, a fellow Australian. “He was just taking off and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss. My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family.”
Travolta said: “He is one of my favorite actors. His abilities are rare… it’s a tremendous loss.
“It’s hard to be here celebrating Australia under these circumstances.”
Nicole Kidman last night paid tribute to Heath Ledger, calling his death: “A tragedy.”
The Australian Prime Minister Kevin Rudd even issued a statement on the Perth native’s passing: “It was with great sadness that I have learned of the passing of Heath Ledger,” he said. “It is tragic that we have lost one of our nation’s finest actors in the prime of his life. Heath Ledger’s diverse and challenging roles will be remembered as some of the great performances by an Australian actor.”
Ledger began acting in his native Australia when he was given a choice at school between cooking or drama classes.
Born in Perth in 1979, the blonde haired star had to choose one of the two compulsory classes - either cooking or drama and as Ledger could honestly not see himself in a cooking class, he tried his hand at drama.
He fell in love with acting and when he was 17, he and a friend, decided to pack up, leave school, take a car and drive across the country to Sydney.
However, upon arriving in Sydney with a reported 69 cents to his name, Heath tried everything to get a break.
His first real acting job came in a low budget movie called Blackrock (1997), a largely unimpressive clich?; a teen angst film about one boy’s struggle when he learns his best mate raped a girl.
A succession of small roles followed, including a tiny part in the popular soap Home and Away before he got his big break in a 1999 movie called Two Hands.
Following the acclaim he got for that movie, he was cast in his first US movie - 10 Things I Hate About You opposite Julia Stiles.
After that, it seemed Ledger was being typecast as a teen hunk, which he did not like, so he accepted a role in a very serious war drama The Patriot in 2000 as Mel Gibson’s son.
What followed was a stark inconsistency of roles with Ledger accepting virtually every single character role, anything to avoid being typecast.
Some met with praise, like his short role in Monster’s Ball (2001), but his version of Ned Kelly with Orlando Bloom in 2003 was an absolute flop.
But it was on this movie set that he met Naomi Watts and even though there was nearly a ten year ag e gap the couple began dating.
Ledger’s status as a teen hunk was cemented with his role in A Knight’s Tale alongside a huge British cast including James Purefoy, Rufus Sewell and Paul Bettany.
Roles in The Order, Lords of Dogtown and The Brother’s Grimm alongside Matt Damon followed but it was his Oscar nominated role as a gay cowboy in Brokeback Mountain that really cemented his success in Hollywood.
That pivotal role also saw him fall in love with co-star Michelle Williams and the couple went on to have a daughter together, Mathilda, whose godfather is his Brokeback Mountain co-star Jake Gyllenhaal, before they split last year.
Since then Ledger has starred opposite Sienna Miller in Casanova and Abbie Cornish in Candy.
But it is the role he just finished filming as The Joker in the latest Batman film opposite Christian Bale that had fans really buzzing as he was the first non American to ever play the role.
Despite his career going from strength to strength Ledger always remained a very private actor.
He rarely gave interviews unless they were connected to the latest movie he was promoting and hated speaking about his private life.
So it would surprise many to know that he is one of seven godparents to Elizabeth Hurley’s son Damien or that his parents named him after the main character in Emily Bronte’s Wuthering Heights.
He is also of Irish and Scottish ancestry while most of his wardrobe is designed by his best friend Shem.
He also stayed very close to his roots, living with and constantly staying in touch with another friend and mentor, the Aussie actor Martin Henderson, who appeared in Britney Spears video Toxic.
Ledger was also named by Empire Magazine as one of the 100 Sexiest Movie Stars in the world in 2007.
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
You bet,Ethan. :^^) %)
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The intelligent part of me knows that it's not healthy to repress the truth and to acknowledge my feelings but this HURTS LIKE HELL!! The shock and pain is just too much to bear. I feel like I need to mentally shut down and emotionally block it out to preserve the little bit of sanity I have left. I want to feel numb...
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Una simple búsqueda en internet con tu nombre puesto en el cajetín; busca de nuevas fotos quizás de la última película que has protagonizado como ese Joker mendigo que reta al antiguo Jack vestido con las mejores galas. Y la búsqueda se limitó a un titular en la primera dirección: "Ha sido encontrado muerto esta mañana".
El aturdimiento de las noticias diarias, con las subidas y las bajadas de la bolsa, los accidentes de tráfico, la niebla, el terrorismo y los graciosos de siempre... curiosamente quedaron eclipsadas por esas palabras porque encerraban el final de una vida corta; tu vida de 28 años que no ha podido superar la barrera de la fama y de esa exposición diaria a dimes y diretes.
Ha muerto rodeado de pastillas y empastillado dicen. La voz de los que como yo están en la red de redes por la tarde levantando su livejournal o en foros amigos, se apagó en un lamento, un susurro que se perdió en el viento, un mea culpa interior que se colaba por cada poro de la piel.
Muerte anunciada y querida pensaba hace unos días, lo decía tu aspecto, tu mirada perdida en algún camino desconocido, las rarezas que envolvían tus presentaciones públicas. Me fue fácil asimilar la muerte porque ya hace algunos meses cuando te ví vestido de "gala" para presentar una de tus películas, me dió el pálpito de que la muerte te estaba rondando y que tú estabas coqueando con ella.
"¿Has bailado con la muerte a la luz de la luna?".... curioso, ya estabas bailando hacía mucho tiempo. Porque perdiste el norte o a lo mejor porque nunca lo tuviste; ese era el aspecto que presentabas en tus salidas, queriendo provocar o pidiendo por favor que alguien te invitara al lecho fúnebre.
Ha tenido que ser un relámpago de locura lo que te hace encaminarte a la luz final. Una, dos, tres..... pastillas que te han dado alas para volar. Rubio ángel, joven para morir pero que como alguien dijo, hará un hermoso cadaver.... James Dean que mucho sabía tambien de estos asuntos. Un ángel que busca ese cielo donde puede encontrar a todos que como tú decidieron no luchar, bajarse del coche en marcha y no llegar hasta el final. Bailando con la muerte y llevado de la mano por ella en esos senderos de gloria que ahora te harán eterno por siempre jamás.
Y pensante he pasado algunos minutos mirando tus fotos, esas mismas que he puesto en los foros, en el livejournal, en mi web... qué de palabras técnicas para decir "algo de mi vida"¡. He visto esa mirada perdida, esa boca desafiante, esas posturas desganadas que adornabas con las mayores extravagancias ante los reporteros, ante los críticos, ante el personal amante del cine. Lo pensé hace poco; tendrá un mal final....
Y lo tenía anunciado en la gran película; aunque ha sido tú el que has dejado primero el mundo. Una lucha por saber la verdad, la desgana de lo cotidiano, el sabor de la amargura de no poder como se quiere en verdad. El cielo se ha abierto para un nuevo morador; otro chico de 28 años que dijo no a la vida y que ahora tendrá que aprender a comportarse como todos aquellos que antes decidieron bajarse del mundo sin decir ni siquiera "Para, que me bajo en la siguiente".
Y..... Ennis del Mar. Ahora las montañas reciben a su dueño, ese que reniega de lo que siente; ese que llora la muerte del puto Jack; ese que no tuvo valor para vivir lo que sentía; ese al final llegó a donde quería estar. Montañas de Ennis del Mar que se abren a su paso para recibirle en su seno, para acunar a tan bello hombre, para convertirlo en ángel de luz, para llenar su corazón de esos sentimientos que le atemorizan, para hacer que una mujer llore porque uno de sus chicos ha muerto o se ha dejado matar.
Y Jack, donde esta el puto Jack..... quizás corra montaña abajo, hasta el río.... ese mismo que sirvió para lavar los platos y para ver desnudo a Ennis, mientras lo presentía de reojos..... Ennis donde estás?
Ahora el personaje y el hombre se unen en lasmontañas que se cubren de nieve, las ovejas siguen silenciosas su camino porque saben que el cordero rubio que las atuzaba en el valle ya no las volverá a abandonar... Ennis, Ennis del Mar se ha convertido en ángel, personaje que en realidad ya es y ha querido buscar a Jack..
Ahora más que nunca esas imágenes de una película se vuelven verdad y poco a poco ven a dos hombres por el sendero de las cumbres caminando uno junto al otro. Ya son leyenda, ya son realidad.
Ennis y Jack por fin juntos; pero la muerte ha tenido que visitar una casa para llevarse al hombre que encarnó parte de la leyenda, de la novela, de la historia que existió hace muchos años ya.
Ennis y Jack, realidad y ficción reposan en los valles de BBM.... quien pudiera verles vivir su historia de imposible amor. Quien pudiera decirles que ahora ya son parte de la historia, de la leyenda, de las montañas, del amor real...
R.I.P.
Heath Ledger
co-protagonista de Brokeback Mountain.
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DAMADENEGRO 22-1-2008
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Has there been any news about how Jake is doing? I worry about him as well, I know they were close. He is Matilda's godfather, I believe. I read that Michelle is 'devastated' an understatement if ever there was one.
Cindi
I keep looking and watching for any word from Jake.
I just read that Michelle flew in from Sweden this morning.
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I keep looking and watching for any word from Jake.
I just read that Michelle flew in from Sweden this morning.
I excerpted this from the article above:
"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused...
Unless the press somehow gets a hold of him, I doubt that we will hear Jake comment about this publicly. It's always been Jake's and Heath's way to shun publicity as much as possible. I am sure he and his sister Maggie must be grieving for their friend and co-worker. And we should remember that Matilda is Jake's god-daughter.
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The best I read so far from Newspapers
this is from the San Francisco Chronicle
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2008/01/22/DDG6UJRN4.DTL
Mick LaSalle, Chronicle Movie Critic
(There's no way to make sense of this. No way to end an appreciation like this on an uplift when the news is so sad. If there's something positive to be said, it's that the best work Ledger left behind will last forever, and the rest is already forgotten.
Thank you Pierre. This is so incomprehensible. :\'(
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Ethan, that's so painfully beautiful. 9 hours since I heard it and still I can't stop crying..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
God bless you, ethan. I wish I could be there with you.
I wish I didn't have to be at work today; all I can think about is Heath. :\'(
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Am trying to figure out what more we can do and one thing stands out---providing a permanent home, here, for those who have loved Heath.
The fan sites crashed yesterday, but they cannot continue much longer, anyway. Here, this forum is about BBM, and so there will always be
a section devoted to him here. The administrators and moderators will have to re-work the format of this section, but I hope we will always have
those photos, to remember him by and ways to have some of the same threads but with a different theme. Am hoping very much they will give
us time to adjust and then, I hope very much, a permanent home for every aspect of his life and work. Please, please, leave the photos.
His fan sites can't keep on, as they were about his ongoing career. But here, surely, this can be where he will always be remembered and
we can look for him, each time we log on. Am hoping that is what will be done.
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Tony, I feel certain his candle will always burn here. In what way the format will change, only time will tell. For now, we gather together and remember him, and celebrate him, as a family. :ghug:
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Remember that so many things remain unanswered, and that even in this article, there remains a lot of speculation.
But I am heartened to read the Jake was his friend to the very end. I quote from the full article:
Jake, you remained a true friend. I am sure Heath appreciated you.
I feel a little bit better knowing that Jake was by side through all his problems and he never was alone......though he died alone and that just breaks my heart. And also Jake must be feeling like shit right now, above all, if he wanted Heath to see a doctor.
So thomas, then is it right? was he so depressed? I used to think that Michelle and him no longer loved each other or even that it was him who didn't loved Michelle no more, but OMG I just found out that he was still so much in love with Michelle.....He was a so sweet and loving man. Everytime I saw in Baby pix thread pics where Heath was holding Michelle hands, looking at her like she was the most precious thing in the world, my heart was melted. He was a very good person, a fine man; he knew so well what love is.
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"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused...
God, that's heartbreaking. I can only imagine Jake's pain at hearing the news, knowing that he had seen something like this coming. If only Heath had listened, or someone had been able to force his hand.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Ethan - thank you for doing the tribute on behalf of all of us :^^)
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I hope nothing changes here.
The Happy Birthday thread will be a yearly birth commemoration thread. We shall have an obit thread to remember him by every year -- perhaps this one.
We will celebrate the release of The Dark Knight this summer.
We will follow what becomes of Dr. Parnassus.
We will continue to appreciate his work in the various threads devoted to his roles.
I am thinking of starting a tradition. If Heath were buried here in the US, it would be nice to send flowers to his grave every year on the anniversaries of his birth and death, as I did for Chopin in Paris for a number of years, while I had a friend there who was willing to do it for me.
But I suspect he will be buried in Australia -- possibly Perth.
As with Chopin, I wish that they would bury Heath's body here in the US, and send his heart back to Perth.
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I think we should hold off on speculating about his state of mind. After all, we really don't know anything and there will likely be many conflicting reports before this whole situation is cleared up. He may have been very depressed or he may have been very happy. He may have been overworked or he may simply have been living his life to the fullest. We really don't know. The one thing we do know is that we love him and always will, and that he will be terribly missed. I just hate to think of any of us feeling badly, wondering if he were in trouble, when we're already hurting so much. I wish I had something more to give, but for now I offer as many of these :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: as I can give out.
To all of you: %)
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thank you ethan for taking us with you :ghug:
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thank you ethan for taking us with you :ghug:
yes thank you to bring us to him :ghug:
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I think we should hold off on speculating about his state of mind. After all, we really don't know anything and there will likely be many conflicting reports before this whole situation is cleared up. He may have been very depressed or he may have been very happy. He may have been overworked or he may simply have been living his life to the fullest. We really don't know. The one thing we do know is that we love him and always will, and that he will be terribly missed. I just hate to think of any of us feeling badly, wondering if he were in trouble, when we're already hurting so much. I wish I had something more to give, but for now I offer as many of these :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: as I can give out.
To all of you: %)
The Tabloids had no love of Heath and I have heard alot of speculation on his state of mind. I doubt that Jake has spoken to anyone about Heath's passing and I think it is a matter of them once again jumping to conclusions.
I respectfully request that we hold off on any conclusions as to how he died (until we hear from the medical examiner) and whether he was depressed. He had a little girl who he loved so much. And it has never been mentioned that he had any kind of drug problem. I was listening to CNN, very briefly, and this woman reporter started to compare his death with those of John Beluchi and River Phoenix and Elvis and it made me sick I shut it off.
Heath will forever live in my heart.
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Kapur, who directed Ledger in The Four Feathers, telephoned him on Monday after arriving in New York from London.
“I last spoke to him the night before he died. He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body,” he said.
That's so sad.....
He added: “He was one of the most gentle, the most honest, most caring, and most compassionate persons I had met.”
Beautiful.
Sources told Mail Online today that Ledger had been battling substance abuse problems - including an addiction to heroin - for some time.
"He had a stint in rehab last year when he was treated for heroin," a source told The Daily Mail, adding that Ledger was increasingly introverted at the time of his death.
Is that true Thomas? I can't believe it.
There are claims the strain of playing the Joker in the new Batman film may have proved too much for the star – in a recent interview he told how the role of a “murderous psychopath” had left him “sleepless and exhausted”. He is also said to have recently suffered pneumonia.
He was only sleeping around two hours a night, with reports speculating his reliance on sleeping pills lead to his "accidental overdose".
Poor baby.... :\'( :\'(
An insider disclosed that the Oscar nominated star had been battling substance abuse problems during the later part of his life.
Perth-born Ledger took his break-up with Williams last September very badly, according to the source.
"Heath was shattered by his split from Michelle," the source told Mail Online, adding: "He became a recluse. He barely slept he was dealing with terrible mood swings."
Ledger spent the past several months mourning the loss of his relationship with Williams and friends say he had become an introvert, who was headed in a downward spiral.
"Heath totally wanted to be on his own these past few months since he and Michelle split in September," says a source. "She was very much in love with him, but the fact he continued to dabble in drugs kept their relationship from being one she could rely on.
"He adored his daughter Matilda, and when Michelle called it quits, he missed Matilda so much that he was thrown into a deep dark depression.
"Heath was living in New York to be close to his daughter. But he hardly ever ventured out anymore
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So that's for real....there were drugs.....Oh no, Heath......why you?
So they loved each other; that's so beautiful, but still, they can't stay together.... :\'( :\'( :\'( It's something I've saw before, you know....BBM.
"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused, and now it looks as though he may have died of a drug overdose.
At least there was Jake, he must be beaten right now. Why didn't Heath hear Jake? :\'( :\'( :\'( Drugs are not good.
"It's easy to think an actor is just dressing bizarrely and acting weird on the red carpet to try to drum up some interest in themselves. But a picture is fast emerging, through discussions with his friends and work associates, that Heath has really been very out of it for months.
"And he's been battling some pretty serious demons. It's just so incredible that it was allowed to gone on unchecked for so long."
Oh no.... :\'( :\'(
Ledger's former fiancée Williams failed to talk sense into her now deceased former partner.
"She cared for him deeply but his life was unmanageable," said the source. "As much as she wanted to stay together, he was a different person these past couple of years.
"The tragic reality was that he lost his grip on life."
As for Ledger's trip to rehab, the source said: "It was during his filming of The Dark Knight. Heath's addiction was really getting in the way of his ability to act. He went to rehab but left fairly quickly, within a number of days.
"Tragically, he never really faced up to his addictions. Had he done so, he would be alive today."
It was at the Venice Film Festival in September of last year that Ledger first started displaying signs of being floored by his split with Williams and at was then that friends noticed a change of behaviour in him.
After behaving oddly during a press junket at the festival on the Venice Lido all day on September 3rd, Ledger went alone to a party thrown by Italian designer Alberta Ferretti on a yacht moored off the main city at 10pm.
Ledger arrived dressed "as if he was homeless", said a source.
"It looked as if he was if he was trying to make some kind of point. He drifted around the party not talking to anyone for half an hour and then just walked off into the night like a lost soul. It was most odd.
"He and Richard Gere were both special guests at the party. But Heath was just like a ghost. It was obvious something awful had happened to him."
Thomas tell me that that is not true; tell me that, please....
Well I didn't know anything about his way of living or nothing but I saw differences between his way of dressing when he was with Michelle in the pics Keren posted and the pics these days: a so different man, that's for sure. And Tony saw it well.
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you Ethan. I wish I could be with you too. But we will all be there in spirit.
:ghug:
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Dear all
I have been in shock the whole day, unable to work, barely able to think. And this tragic death comes on the same day of the death anniversary of someone very close to me. The pain is so unbearable it makes the whole thing still unreal to me.
I was sincerely troubled by the way Heath looked in his most recent public appearances, I’ve been genuinely worried about him since news of his split-up with Michelle came out and how that might affect him, as he always came across to me (and to so many others who actually knew him in real life) as a deeply sensitive man, not to mention wary of his celebrity status and the whole Hollywood publicity machine.
I loved him also for the brave professional choices he made in the last few years, for the so many profound statements he made during interviews, for being such an “old soul” in a young man’s body, an incredibly profound, intuitive, humble human being. A rare specimen indeed: his incredible sensitivity, his humbleness, his integrity and other rare qualities most of his colleagues know him for all this transpired from his performances. I’m grateful to have been able to witness his most incredible acting performances during my lifetime. I had such hopes for him as an artist, and for the film industry one day doing him justice and honouring him with more awards than he had got so far. Two years ago he was really short-changed in all major award ceremonies for his BBM performance and I still can’t get over the injustice of it all.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to watch BBM or his other movies ever again. I hope I will, but I know for sure I won’t be able to see them again with the same eyes.
I have no one to mourn Heath with right now in my RL except my online friends, so I would like you all to receive a ((((((((((((((big hug))))))))))))) from me in this very sad day :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Paola
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Seeing all the messages here posted since yesterday, from the forum members (whatever they are big posters or not), just makes me think that Heath is a part of this link which connect us together to each other.
I do hope he had time to realize what he achieved in his life.
And I hope this connexion of people around the world, gathering for unsterstanding, love and compasion will ease his daughter pain one day...
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Tammy sweetie, we don't know anything. Please don't upset yourself with these thoughts right now. I hate to see you so upset. Let's just be together and wait for the answers as they come in. I give you my love and as many of these :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: as you can hang onto. :^^)
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Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
My brother had serious drug problems for years -- don't think that I ever stopped loving him because of it.
The same with Heath. I don't care what the autopsy says or what causes are unearthed in the coming days.
Even without the autopsy, even without final facts as to cause of death or personal problems, I know I love him and his work.
Let this be your anchor, and not anything else that he may or may not have done.
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Thank-you tpe, and FlowerChild, for giving me hope, this will be his home. I did well, when I got up, but not so well now. I never considered
myself a "fan" of Heath's, but more like a friend he didn't know about. And the more that comes out, the more we see how sensitive, decent,
loving, and in need of love, he was. More than we ever knew. Somebody put a card outside that building that said "I never found out anything
bad about you." They never will. Why that person tried, is a mystery. We know more and more, now, he was so very human, and very kind.
It's headed for the 24 hour mark soon, and that, for me, is a wall to get over. A full day, gone.
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pierralex, that was beautifully said. :^^)
Paola, come and join in the group hug here. :ghug: There are many in RL that don't understand, but everyone here does.
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Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
My brother had serious drug problems for years -- don't think that I ever stopped loving him because of it.
The same with Heath. I don't care what the autopsy says or what causes are unearthed in the coming days.
Even without the autopsy, even without final facts as to cause of death or personal problems, I know I love him and his work.
Let this be your anchor, and not anything else that he may or may not have done.
Aww, that's it exactly. And that's all we need to hold onto right now. Thank you. <^(
Hang in there Tony. We'll all get through it together. :^^)
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Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
My brother had serious drug problems for years -- don't think that I ever stopped loving him because of it.
The same with Heath. I don't care what the autopsy says or what causes are unearthed in the coming days.
Even without the autopsy, even without final facts as to cause of death or personal problems, I know I love him and his work.
Let this be your anchor, and not anything else that he may or may not have done.
Well said, Thomas. Nothing changes my feelings for him. Nothing. :ghug:
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Tammy sweetie, we don't know anything. Please don't upset yourself with these thoughts right now. I hate to see you so upset. Let's just be together and wait for the answers as they come in. I give you my love and as many of these :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: as you can hang onto. :^^)
Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
My brother had serious drug problems for years -- don't think that I ever stopped loving him because of it.
The same with Heath. I don't care what the autopsy says or what causes are unearthed in the coming days.
Even without the autopsy, even without final facts as to cause of death or personal problems, I know I love him and his work.
Let this be your anchor, and not anything else that he may or may not have done.
Thank you so much Barb!! You have a big heart. And Thomas, if there were drugs or not, it was never going to change my feelings!!
But Barb, Thomas, I can't help suffer and being worried 'cause what if I was messing 'round his pix saying stupid things like he was so hot and hell and while he had problems, he was so sad and broken? What about it, huh? I'll feel like the most superficial and disgusting person in the whole world, saying dumbass things about him and his beauty when he was suffering so bad.... :\'( :\'( My poor baby....
Don't you see it? I need to know that he was not in pain, that he died in peace!!!
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Aww, that's it exactly. And that's all we need to hold onto right now. Thank you. <^(
Hang in there Tony. We'll all get through it together. :^^)
Exactly I will remember him as the fine actor and human being he was.
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But Barb, Thomas, I can't help suffer and being worried 'cause what if I was messing 'round his pix saying stupid things like he was so hot and hell and while he had problems, he was so sad and broken? What about it, huh? I'll feel like the most superficial and disgusting person in the whole world, saying dumbass things about him and his beauty when he was suffering so bad.... :\'( :\'( My poor baby....
Don't you see it? I need to know that he was not in pain, that he died in peace!!!
We said those things because we did honestly adore him. Adoration takes on many levels, some of them superficial. But it doesn't change the way we really feel inside.
If there is a possible tragedy here, perhaps it was Heath never fully realized how much he was loved. Or even if he did have an inkling, perhaps he didn't draw strength from it.
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I don't believe that death is an ending. That our loved ones live on, certainly within our hearts.
I wanted to share this poem by Dylan Thomas with you all.
And Death Shall Have No Dominion
And death shall have no dominion.
Dead mean naked they shall be one
With the man in the wind and the west moon;
When their bones are picked clean and the clen bones gone,
They shall have stars at elbow and foot;
Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sink through the sea they shall rise again;
Though lovers be lost love shall not;
And death shall have no dominion.
And death shall have no dominion.
Under the windings of the sea
They lying long shall not die windily;
Twisting on racks when sinews give way,
Strapped to a wheel, yet they shall not break;
Faith in their hands shall snap in two,
And the unicorn evils run them through;
Split all ends up they shan't crack;
And death shall have no dominion.
And death shall have no dominion.
No more may gulls cry at their ears
Or waves break loud on the seashores;
Where blew a flower may a flower no more
Lift its head to the blows of the rain;
Through they be mad and dead as nails,
Heads of the characters hammer through daisies;
Break in the sun till the sun breaks down,
And death shall have no dominion.
Dylan Thomas
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Heath, you will be sorely missed! Thanks for using your incredibly talented skills to portray such compelling and real characters! I will miss your presence, and all that could have been :\'( There aren't enough of these smileyfaces to represent my feelings.
Thanks to everyone here for showing me that others also will truly miss our "Ennis Delmar" :c)
And thanks Ethan for those cards. It comforts some to know someone else can demonstrate our love.
Right now, I'll just go back to remembering, dreaming and crying.
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From: http://www.slate.com/id/2182669/nav/tap3/
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10 Things I Loved About Heath Ledger
What made him irreplaceable.
By Dana Stevens
Posted Wednesday, Jan. 23, 2008, at 1:09 PM ET
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Heath Ledger in Brokeback Mountain
Obituaries—especially obituaries for the young, beautiful, and unexpectedly dead—are a hopeless genre to write. The deadline is, by definition, past, and you know you've already been scooped countless times. So rather than research a tribute to Heath Ledger by watching the ghoulish three-minute-long video of Ledger's body being wheeled out on a gurney, or clicking through photos of his 2-year-old daughter (just three months older than mine), I stayed up most of the night watching and re-watching a few of his movies. I wanted to understand, without resorting to gushy and imprecise phrases like "most promising actor of his generation," the particular quality he had that will be missing from movies now. There are plenty of promising actors in his generation, but there's no one who can do that Heath Ledger thing. What was it, exactly?
For one thing, there was the novelty of a guy that effortlessly good-looking—who in his or her right mind wouldn't want to get next to Heath Ledger?—gravitating to eccentric, even flamboyant, character roles. In Lords of Dogtown (2005) Ledger plays not one of the blond skate rats but Skip Engblom, the middle-aged and perpetually drunk surf-shop owner who coaches the skateboarding team to greatness. This scruffy, inspirational sports picture, a fictionalized remake of the skateboarding documentary Dogtown and Z-Boys, can barely contain Ledger's gonzo performance. He's fresh from Val Kilmer College, comically unhinged and unprecedentedly ugly. Late in the movie, after the Z-Boys skate their way to juicy endorsement deals and desert Skip one by one, he hurls surfboards off the roof of his store in a self-destructive rage, then sprawls on the roof's edge, guzzling from a bottle of whiskey while the crowd below gasps for fear he'll throw himself off. Hard to watch on the night he presumably died of an overdose? A little bit.
Then again, so was the sheerly goofy scene from the 1999 romantic comedy 10 Things I Hate About You, in which a 19-year-old Ledger belts out "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" to Julia Stiles over the school PA system during soccer practice. This is Ledger in straight-up teen-heartthrob mode—throwing paintballs, going to the prom—but, once again, he doesn't quite fit in the movie. It's not that he's ill at ease in the role, quite the contrary. His graceful physicality and loose-limbed charm point up the artificiality of the whole proceedings and make the rest of the actors look stiffly conventional. Like Brando and James Dean—actors to whom he's no doubt now being compared, and whom he was clearly referencing as the tormented movie star in I'm Not There—Ledger was an actor whose sheer physical charisma seemed at times to jut out from the surface of his movies.
But then there's Brokeback Mountain, a movie in which Ledger belongs so completely that, in the end, the movie belongs to him. That's not to discount Jake Gyllenhaal's fine performance as the volatile, openly needy Jack Twist. But it's the recalcitrance of Ennis Del Mar, Ledger's more deeply closeted cowboy, that drives the story forward. Brokeback Mountain isn't just about the impossibility of two men loving each other; it's about the impossibility of anyone loving this particular man. Not only Jack Twist, but Ennis' wife (Michelle Williams, who fell in love with Ledger during the filming) and a dime-a-dance bar girl (Linda Cardellini) all hack away unsuccessfully at Ennis' shell. I remember, when Brokeback came out, two friends telling me separately that the flinty, secretly tender, intermittently rageful Ennis reminded them painfully of their own shut-down fathers. An impressive achievement for an actor who was 26 at the time.
I'm Not There, last year's addiction drama Candy, and the tantalizingly creepy trailer for this summer's The Dark Knight all suggest that Ledger was learning to choose roles that took advantage of that peculiar quality he had of seeming at once larger than life and inwardly focused. In the years to come, I'm sure there'll be movies that make audiences think, damn, Heath Ledger could have nailed that role. So I won't opine on how sad it is that a gifted young man, someone's father and someone's son, lost his life at the threshold of a great career. I'll just say that the movies themselves will miss Heath Ledger.
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Thank you so much Barb!! You have a big heart. And Thomas, if there were drugs or not, it was never going to change my feelings!!
But Barb, Thomas, I can't help suffer and being worried 'cause what if I was messing 'round his pix saying stupid things like he was so hot and hell and while he had problems, he was so sad and broken? What about it, huh? I'll feel like the most superficial and disgusting person in the whole world, saying dumbass things about him and his beauty when he was suffering so bad.... :\'( :\'( My poor baby....
Don't you see it? I need to know that he was not in pain, that he died in peace!!!
In my heart, I believe this is true. :ghug:
And as Thomas says, adoration takes on many levels. All of your silliness was a part of your affection and admiration of Heath and that can only be a good thing. :^^)
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BabyTammy, don't ever think you were superficial for loving those photos. I used to kid you about them, but I loved them, too. It's just that
I saw several that didn't look right, and the news has firmed up---he was exhausted and couldn't sleep, and that's probably what I saw, although
I did worry it ran deeper. As far as anything "bad" about him, whatever was the cause of death (and it is important that we know- it is our right),
there could never be anything "bad" there. He was human, and he was never known to be spiteful or harsh and so, therefore, they will never
find anything of that kind.
Tpe, my mind is not working well, but if you said you hoped he knew, at least a little, how much he was loved, am sure he did. But the worst
tragedy, yes, would be if he didn't, or could not bring himself to believe it was for himself, not as a celebrity. It's still that 24 hour mark that has
me up against a wall. The news reports said he was in a coma, or unconscious, around 3 P.M., and died soon after that. After that 24 hours
has passed, for me, it's like there's no turning back, and he's really gone.
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I think I'm so broken 'cause for me Heath will be Ennis Del Mar forever. I've cried rivers for Jack during the last two years, but in a very strange way I feel that today I'm crying not only for Heath but also for Ennis. It was horrible, a true nightmare to have Jack dead, but now is painfully unbearable to have Ennis too. Where is then hope? BBM always gave me hope, letting me know that always it is possible to change and have a better life. But now, I just cannot separate the movie and Heath. I don't think it is possible to feel that message anymore now at all. I don't know how it will be possible to find hope in BBM knowing that Heath is gone.
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you Ethan. :ghug:
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Too young to leave us ... hope heaven brings him the relief he looked for :(
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Baby Tammy, I understand completely where you're coming from. I too feel as though we have lost both Heath and Ennis. There are no words to describe the grief I am still feeling today.
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And tonight, I think a part of each of us here died with him...
you bet
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There are so many pages to read through - does anyone know if Jake has made a comment?
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Tony ,Thomas and Barb, thank you so much!! I love you. But I'm still feeling so bad.....
Tony and Barb, you know both some little things about my story, about my aunt and so. She died so alone. Heath too, and my heart doesn't stand to think about that utterly sad way of die. Alone. And when I thought about my aunt I used to wonder if she had been scared, if she had been cold, and then pain was just too much. Now I feel the same, I wonder if he was cold, if he was scared, if he felt something....and I just wanted myself to be there, holding his hands, I don't know what the hell......, helping, or saying something sweet or just hugging him. I don't want people to die alone. No more dusty roads, no more dark rooms....
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Ethan sent me this picture on my cellphone, he just took it front of Heath's flat :\'(
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:\'( :\'( :\'( I hope many more will come to show how much he was loved
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thank you cham for bringing it to us... :ghug:
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I think I'm so broken 'cause for me Heath will be Ennis Del Mar forever. I've cried rivers for Jack during the last two years, but in a very strange way I feel that today I'm crying not only for Heath but also for Ennis. It was horrible, a true nightmare to have Jack dead, but now is painfully unbearable to have Ennis too. Where is then hope? BBM always gave me hope, letting me know that always it is possible to change and have a better life. But now, I just cannot separate the movie and Heath. I don't think it is possible to feel that message anymore now at all. I don't know how it will be possible to find hope in BBM knowing that Heath is gone.
Yes,Tammy,Heath will be Ennis Del Mar forever,but the bitter contradiction is that Ennis really stays, and Heath is who has gone...But I think that the message in BBM remains the same than before this tragedy,I think really it's greater than then.Why? Simply because we have learned from it that we must fight for what we want,never hanging on,always going ahead,no matter how many problems we find.And seeing life's fragility must encourage us to fight in this way more than ever.I don't know how the other Brokies see it,but it's really how I feel,still feel even if Heath has gone-or precisely for this reason...-. :ghug:
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I havnt been on here for a couple of months but it was the first place i thought about
when i heard about heaths death such a loss.
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There are so many pages to read through - does anyone know if Jake has made a comment?
The only reference about Jake is from a UK article.
"His close friend and Brokeback co-star, Jake Gyllenhaal has been worried about him for months. And he knew Heath was sinking further into a depression. Jake is Matilda's godfather, and he and Heath had become really close since they did the film Brokeback together.
"Jake wanted Heath to get help, but he refused...
As I said, unless the press corners Jake, he will probably NOT make a public statement, especially when there are so many things left unaswered as of now. But I don't doubt he is very much informed as to the events, given that Maggie is in NYC, and the fact that he is Matilda's godfather.
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I want to hug my friends, cry with them x
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Ethan sent me this picture on my cellphone, he just took it front of Heath's flat :\'(
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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I want to hug my friends, cry with them x
Froggy, it's a catastrophe.
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The only reference about Jake is from a UK article.
As I said, unless the press corners Jake, he will probably NOT make a public statement, especially when there are so many things left unaswered as of now. But I don't doubt he is very much informed as to the events, given that Maggie is in NYC, and the fact that he is Matilda's godfather.
And above all, Jake was a great friend of Heath.
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A Spanish song says that something dies in your soul when a friend is gone...Our souls today and for many time will be uncomplete,almost ill. A great hug for everybody in the distance,that sometimes is the better place to feel love and friendship. :ghug: %) all.
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I can't work, I can't learn - I only can cry and read everything about Heath. I don't believe thah he died. And how he died - it' so many unanswered questions... So sad, so tragic. I don't understand it. :(
I hardly ever pray, but today I pray for Heath's soul.
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Ethan sent me this picture on my cellphone, he just took it front of Heath's flat :\'(
Thanks for sharing Pierre. This is making me cry.
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From: http://www.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/Movies/01/23/remembering.ledger.irpt/
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I-Reporters recall meeting kind, handsome Heath Ledger
(CNN) -- CNN.com reader Kristy O'Connor took a prenatal yoga class with Heath Ledger and Michelle Williams and says she was "in awe of his devotion and attention to Michelle." Reader Dena Michnowih says she came across Ledger in Brooklyn, New York, teaching his young daughter Matilda her right from her left, and was enchanted.
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Heath Ledger is pictured with crew of the 2005 film "Lords of Dogtown" and members of the Zephyr skating team.
CNN.com asked readers to share their memories of Ledger, who was found dead in a New York apartment Tuesday, January 22. Famous for his roles in the films, "The Patriot" and "Lords of Dogtown," Ledger was widely acclaimed for his portrayal of the homosexual cowboy Enis del Mar in 2005's "Brokeback Mountain." CNN.com readers describe meeting Ledger in person, and call him humble and kind. Below are a selection of their responses, some of which have been edited for length and clarity.
Donal Logue of Los Angeles, California
I met Heath eight years ago while working on "The Patriot." He became a star while we were sequestered away in a small town in South Carolina based on the strength of the dailies going back to Los Angeles. Heath was a fantastically kind and sweet young man. He surrounded himself with his friends from Australia and never forgot any of us he ever worked with. I last saw him in Australia when he called my name on a Melbourne street and introduced me to Michelle, his (then) pregnant [girlfriend].
I have great memories of going for runs with him or watching a bootleg copy of a Parker and Stone's musical called "Cannibal! The Musical of the Donner Party Tragedy." Heath must have been in a place of great pain and sadness to be split from his wife and child. He was sensitive and unfairly victimized in his native country by the unfortunate Australian custom called the "tall poppy syndrome" in which an Australian, the second he or she achieves global success, is immediately and arbitrarily accused of losing all of their humanity. Not true. He was a sweet person, and less importantly, an unbelievaby talented actor. Maybe the best of his generation.
Dan Bova of Larchmont, New York
Once when I was driving in Brooklyn, I got a flat tire. As I was jacking up my car, this deep voice from behind me said, "Need a hand?" It was Heath Ledger. I couldn't believe it. He helped jack up my car and change the tire. He was really good with tools!
R. of Perth, Western Australia
I grew up with Heath around the speedway racing circuit. I remember the night he was a little boy and his Dad was racing speed cars at Claremont Speedway (my dad was in the race, too). His dad was coming 3rd then in the final corner, the two lead cars spun out and Heath's dad Kim took the lead and won the State Title race. Heath was standing a couple of rows in front of me with his mum and sister and they were all so excited, jumping up and down and cheering. He was about as happy as a little boy could be watching his dad become a champion. I remember that night because in the years that followed, I saw his parents marriage break up and it was like there was this moment in his childhood of pure joy that I witnessed.
Later Heath would pit crew for Graham Jones, and I crewed for my dad and brother. Heath and I were both the youngest on our crews so that meant our job was to take the fiberglass bonnets over to the hoses and wash the mud off after each race really dirty work but he managed to stay cleaner than the rest of us.
Crystal Davis of Toronto, Ontario
I met Heath in L.A. at a mall a year or so ago. I was staring at him working up the nerve to ask for an autograph. He saw me, started laughing and walked towards me. He said I was white as an "egg" and asked if he could do anything. I said, No thanks ... yes I forgot to ask for the autograph. He touched my shoulder and told me to take it easy and walked away. He looked back several times and smiled. What a great memory I have of him. My prayers go out to his family and friends.
Dena Michnowich of Glen Cove, New York
I was walking in the lower east side of Manhattan one day and I noticed a really cute man holding his little daughter on his shoulders. She looked just like him. He told her that they had to make a right and asked her to point them in the right direction, which she did. I soon realized that it was Heath Ledger and I got really excited. I was walking right up to them as they were waiting to cross the street. When I got close, I waved and he smiled at me. He was so handsome I got the chills. I could also sense that he had a very sweet spirit. It was a very special moment for me. I'm so sad to hear that he died.
Leanne Scorzoni of Staten Island, New York
I worked as a nanny for a number of years in Manhattan, and I ended up having a toddler class with my charge and Heath, Michelle and baby Matilda. The couple was so polite and laid back at first I didn't recognize who they were. They were genuinely interested in their child, her development, and treating the rest of us (including staff) with respect. He will be sorely missed.
Michael Williams of Perth, Western Australia
I met Heath Ledger many years ago while I was working at a local fast food outlet here in Perth Western Australia. He came through to order and I was amazed at how polite, kind and friendly he was. He stopped to sign autographs while he waited knowing that to the people asking him he was somewhat of a hero. He did all this with the great Australian attitude that he had and a smile on his face, he was one superstar that took stardom well and in his stride, I for one feel thankful that I have met this great person.
I send my deepest sympathy to his family and say to them that you do not mourn his passing alone; the people of Perth share your grief.
Tracy Kimball of Rock Hill, South Carolina
I met Heath Ledger in 1999 while he was filming "The Patriot" in South Carolina. I was a reporter for a daily newspaper there and he was at a press conference about the movie at Historic Brattonsville, a Revolutionary-era plantation. He was so very kind and was more than happy to sign my newspaper. The media was flocking around Mel Gibson, but seeing a new young and dashingly gorgeous guy standing off to himself, I approached him and asked for his autograph. He flashed that smile, grabbed my pen and used my back to sign the newspaper I was holding.
We had a conversation, but I don't remember it because I was so enamored. I had never heard of him before because the only American movie he had filmed was "Ten Things I Hate About You," which I had not yet seen. I went back to the paper where I worked and wrote a story about the new hot Aussie star that would surely become hugely successful in America. His death really saddens me. He was such a talented actor and a new dad. Having a child the same age as his daughter, it makes me even sadder to think of her missing her father.
Amanda Olmstead of Penticton, British Columbia
I met Heath when he was filming "Brokeback Mountain" in my hometown of Fort Macleod. He was a down to earth man with amazing talent. His portrayal of Ennis del Mar was life-changing for many of my friends. I am truly saddened by his death.
Kristy O'Connor of Sydney, Australia
My heart goes out to Heath's family and little Matilda, I met Heath one time at a prenatal yoga class in Sydney with Michelle and was in awe of his devotion and attention to her. He was a true gentleman and I'm sure an amazing father. To make assumptions as to how or why he died is to bring more pain to an already devastated family.
Adrian K. of Perth, Western Australia
I met Heath one night on the town in Perth. The one-degree of separation rule in Perth made him a friend of a friend. We had a brief and quiet chat. What struck me was his calm in the face of his monstrous burgeoning celebrity. With both of his feet planted firmly on the ground, he seemed to be facing the publicity with stoic resolve. Goodnight, Heath. You were a good bloke.
"A sad fan" in Chicago, Illinois
I was an extra in the movie "Dark Knight," which filmed in Chicago this past summer. I spend an entire weekend on set with Heath. He was rather quiet most of the time between takes, but seemed to be a nice, likeable guy. It was great to watch him work, as he was very committed to his craft. His death is a great loss.
Kelly Fishburne of West Palm Beach, Florida
I met Heath Ledger while working in Atlanta. We both were taking a CNN tour. He was silly, smiling all the time and we spoke about horses and riding lessons. He was also talking about the movie the Patriot he filmed with Mel Gibson. He had to do lots of riding. He was down to earth and so very talkative. Just a normal guy, hanging out. A real gentleman.
Jessi Lee of Central, South Carolina
I really enjoyed Heath's acting. His best movie was my favorite movie of 2005, "Lords Of Dogtown." Heath played the somewhat obnoxious Skip Engblom, but thinking of all the other actors who could have taken the roll, I don't think anyone could have done it better.
Even two of the original Zephyr shop boys themselves. Tony Alva & Stacy Peralta, said when Heath came in & did the voice he would use in the film, it was like hearing Skip from the past.
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I don't know what to do, all I do Is cry, I can't belive this is happening :\'( :\'(
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I can't help thinking that it is as if Ennis had died too, after Jack.
I know it is Heath, I know Ennis and Jack will remain in my heart forever, as Heath, but still I have this odd feeling... and it hurts.
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I can't help thinking that it is as if Ennis had died too, after Jack.
I know it is Heath, I know Ennis and Jack will remain in my heart forever, as Heath, but still I have this odd feeling... and it hurts.
I have that feeling too :\'(
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A Spanish song says that something dies in your soul when a friend is gone...Our souls today and for many time will be uncomplete,almost ill. A great hug for everybody in the distance,that sometimes is the better place to feel love and friendship. :ghug: %) all.
I feet that's true and what Thomas said was true too. Today a part of our soul dies with him, but the other part will always live with him.
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The Dana Stevens piece sums up Heath's contributions as a great up and coming movie star, something we all are aware of. She doesn't touch upon his greatness as a man. As all brokies know, he was both a great actor and a great human being -- both of whom will be greatly missed by us all. I wish I knew how to quit crying!
I can only hope his family has the chance to read this thread someday. It would make them very proud to know in what esteem so many people hold their son/brother/father. God bless our lovely boy!
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Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
Well said Thomas, that is not most important. There was and will remain the marvellous one in Brokeback Mountain :ghug:
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For those who wish to see a vid of the makeshift memorial to Heath, go to:
http://www.ketknbc.com/home/ticker/14077182.html
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Memorial grows outside Ledger's apartment
By Lacy Ledford
KETK News
Story Created: Jan 23, 2008 at 12:59 PM CST
Story Updated: Jan 23, 2008 at 12:59 PM CST
NEW YORK - Today a makeshift memorial is growing on the sidewalk outside Heath Ledger's apartment. People are leaving flowers, cards, candles and other mementos to honor the late actor.
28-year-old Ledger was found dead inside his apartment Tuesday afternoon. More tests will be needed to determine what caused his death. The New York medical examiner's office says an autopsy is
inconclusive.
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I can't help thinking that it is as if Ennis had died too, after Jack.
I know it is Heath, I know Ennis and Jack will remain in my heart forever, as Heath, but still I have this odd feeling... and it hurts.
You're not alone. It's as if the movie and reality blend in together. I feel great sadness and emptiness at the same time. It's making me sick.
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Heath is a part of this link which connect us together to each other.
I do hope he had time to realize what he achieved in his life.
And I hope this connexion of people around the world, gathering for unsterstanding, love and compasion will ease his daughter pain one day...
I agree with you Seb O0 He is a link between all of us :ghug:
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Crystal Davis of Toronto, Ontario
I met Heath in L.A. at a mall a year or so ago. I was staring at him working up the nerve to ask for an autograph. He saw me, started laughing and walked towards me. He said I was white as an "egg" and asked if he could do anything. I said, No thanks ... yes I forgot to ask for the autograph. He touched my shoulder and told me to take it easy and walked away. He looked back several times and smiled. What a great memory I have of him. My prayers go out to his family and friends.
Kristy O'Connor of Sydney, Australia
My heart goes out to Heath's family and little Matilda, I met Heath one time at a prenatal yoga class in Sydney with Michelle and was in awe of his devotion and attention to her. He was a true gentleman and I'm sure an amazing father. To make assumptions as to how or why he died is to bring more pain to an already devastated family.
Dan Bova of Larchmont, New York
Once when I was driving in Brooklyn, I got a flat tire. As I was jacking up my car, this deep voice from behind me said, "Need a hand?" It was Heath Ledger. I couldn't believe it. He helped jack up my car and change the tire. He was really good with tools!
:\'( :\'( :\'( He was indeed a so sweet, loving and caring gentleman.
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So many more posts since I was here last night, haven't had time to read them all.
For all brokies :ghug:
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Thank God Heath completed TDK. But I fear for Parnassus. They should find a way...
http://www.dose.ca/movies/story.html?id=1d3054c4-ae5b-4935-a11d-b4ff66c35943&k=88776
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Heath Ledger's Death to Affect Dark Knight, Terry Gilliam Film
Ben Carrozza
Published: Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Heath Ledger's sudden and tragic death on Tuesday (Jan. 22) will have varying effects on his final two film projects.
According to AintItCoolNews.com, Ledger had completed all work on the upcoming Batman Begins sequel, The Dark Knight, where he played the villainous Joker. Site founder Harry Knowles, citing a "source involved in post-production" on the Christopher Nolan film, wrote, "Heath's post work was complete. He had indeed finished it."
While Ledger's work on The Dark Knight itself was complete, it was assumed his role in its marketing campaign would have increased in significance as the film's July 18 release approached. Much of the movie's marketing has revolved around the Joker, from cryptic websites that revealed exclusive photos of Ledger as the character, to Joker-themed posters and guerilla marketing.
"The Joker character is dealing with chaos and life and death and a lot of dark themes," Variety quoted a studio insider as saying. "Everyone is going to interpret every line out of his mouth in a different way now."
Warner Bros. executives and spokespeople have yet to comment on how Ledger's death will affect the film.
"The studio is stunned and devastated by this tragic news," Alan Horn, president-COO, Warner Bros. and Jeff Robinov, president, Warner Bros. Pictures Group said in a joint statement. "Heath was a brilliant actor and an exceptional person."
The future of The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus, the film Ledger was working on at the time of his death, is in greater turmoil.
The Terry Gilliam-directed independent film had wrapped its London shoot on Jan. 19 and was preparing to begin production in Vancouver, where they were due to film until March. The film's producers have yet to release a statement on whether or not they plan to continue without Ledger.
Ledger's involvement in Imaginarium was reportedly key to the film's financing.
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I hope nothing changes here.
I am thinking of starting a tradition. If Heath were buried here in the US, it would be nice to send flowers to his grave every year on the anniversaries of his birth and death, as I did for Chopin in Paris for a number of years, while I had a friend there who was willing to do it for me.
I hope too dear Thomas, nothing changes, but the things are growing ^f^
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Good NYtimes piece on him
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/24/movies/24appr.html?hp
You know I know this is about Heath and not Ennis but I was just thinking about the sensitivity and artistry that went into that performance. How careful it was, how respectful.
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http://www.thelondonpaper.com/cs/Satellite/london/news/article/1157150372082?packedargs=suffix%3DArticleController
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Michelle Williams flies in to New York as celebrity tributes pour in
Wednesday, 23 January 2008
Heath Ledger's former fiancee was due to arrive in New York as his death continues to cause shock-waves around the world.
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Hollywood stars including Nicole Kidman and Cate Blanchett, the Australian Prime Minister and friends including Helena Christensen have led the tributes flooding in today.
Heath was found dead in a New York apartment yesterday afternoon after a suspected overdose.
Today his devastated family said he would never have committed suicide and his death was an accident.
His former fiancée Michelle Williams quit a film set in Sweden and flew to New York with their daughter, after hearing about his death.
"She's devastated," said a source close to the 27 year old Dawson's Creek star and mother of Heath's two-year-old daughter Matilda.
"I can't believe Matilda is going to grow up without a dad, without knowing her father and that Michelle will have to deal with having a daughter without a father," the source told People magazine.
Australia mourns
Nicole Kidman and Cate Blanchett led tributes which poured in for Heath Ledger today.
They said the Aussie star, who was found dead in a New York apartment last night after a suspected overdose, was a dreadful loss for someone with so much potential.
Helena Christensen on way to flat
Model Helena Christensen, who was close to the star, was on her way to meet him at his apartment when she heard the news of his death.
She had left a message on his phone just before she learned he was dead. "I am just beyond sad at this point, and shocked," she told Women's Wear Daily."I was on my way over to pay him a visit when I found out."
Nicole Kidman said: “What a terrible tragedy. My heart goes out to Heath’s family.”
Naomi Watts, one of Kidman’s closest friends, dated Ledger for two years from 2002. She is reportedly shattered and has cancelled all publicity for an upcoming film.
Blanchett, who co-starred with Ledger in the Oscar-nominated Bob Dylan biopic, I'm Not There, said she was “shocked and saddened” by the news.
She added: “I deeply respect Heath’s work and always admired his continuing development as an artist. My thoughts are with his family and close friends.”
His death has been a major blow to Australia where new Prime Minister Kevin Rudd who described him as one of the country's "finest actors".
Other Australian stars also spoke to their sadness.
Mel Gibson said: “I had such great hope for him.”
“He was just taking off and to lose his life at such a young age is a tragic loss. My thoughts and prayers are with him and his family.”
Geoffrey Rush, who starred with Ledger in the Australian film Candy, said the actor’s passing was a “tragedy”. He said: “This is such a sad event. I admired Heath enormously.”
He added: “He was such a sensitive and committed and daring actor. This is truly a tragedy. I send my condolences to his family and friends and colleagues.”
He was in the prime of his life
Rudd said: “It was with great sadness that I have learned of the passing of Heath Ledger. It is tragic that we have lost one of our nation’s finest actors in the prime of his life. Heath Ledger’s diverse and challenging roles will be remembered as some of the great performances by an Australian actor.”
Rose Byrne, a Hollywood contemporary of Ledger’s who co-starred in Two Hands, said she would “never forget his spirit”.
She added: “Heath was an enigmatic, wonderful and endlessly generous friend and colleague.
“His passing is deeply tragic and my thoughts and love go out to his friends and family in Perth and in New York.”
Former headmaster
Headmaster Robert Zordan, of Guildford Grammar School, where the star attended said: "One of the great things about him as a person was that with all the stardom and with all the lights that were focused on him, it was with a degree of humility and loyalty that he remained very, very closely in touch with many of his peers from his particular year group.
“I know for example that when his friends from schooldays were in New York he would be a very, very generous and loyal host, often putting them up in his own home.
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Sorry guys, I can't read the posts, this is too distressing. My poor, poor Heath, I can't stand to think about it anymore :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Sorry guys, I can't read the posts, this is too distressing. My poor, poor Heath, I can't stand to think about it anymore :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Good NYtimes piece on him
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/24/movies/24appr.html?hp
You know I know this is about Heath and not Ennis but I was just thinking about the sensitivity and artistry that went into that performance. How careful it was, how respectful.
Yes, I planned to post it this morning, but somehow forgot... Thanks so much Toadily!
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Ethan sent me this picture on my cellphone, he just took it front of Heath's flat :\'(
Thank you Cham to post that pic... I pray for him, I am so sad :\'( :\'( as you my dear .
Ethan represents us :ghug:
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If ever the Motion Picture Academy of Arts and Sciences would award Best Actor posthumously, it should be this year, and it should go to Heath Ledger, who should have won it in 2006. :clap: :c) :cr)
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What is hitting me so bad is that everything I read is full of "was" or "had". That is so new, so strange and so sad.
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If ever the Motion Picture Academy of Arts and Sciences would award Best Actor posthumously, it should be this year, and it should go to Heath Ledger, who should have won it in 2006. :clap: :c) :cr)
He didn't?
I don't care what that "Academy" says. He was Best Actor for 2006 in my book.
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He didn't?
I don't care what that "Academy" says. He was Best Actor for 2006 in my book.
Yeah Thomas, he "was" the best actor. :\'( :\'(
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I'm still finding it hard to deal with the fact that Heath is dead. The words just dont make sense. How could he die so young with so much to live for?
I've been reading all the comments and they have helped me enormously to know that there are people all over the world who are feeling what I'm feeling and this is a wonderful place to come to, to try and deal with the loss of a wonderful man. :ghug:
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http://blog.canoe.ca/canoedossier/2008/01/23/the_last_time_i_saw_heath
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The Last Time I Saw Heath
Jan 23, 2008
Veteran Sun columnist and reviewer Jane Stevenson kindly agreed to contribute this moving recollection of her last encounter with the late Heath Ledger to the Canoe Dossier.
Interviewing Heath Ledger at a press conference for the non-linear Bob Dylan bio-pic, I’m Not There, last November in New York City you couldn’t have told me he’d been dead three short months later.
Although I’d heard the young Aussie wasn’t what we in the biz call “press friendly,” he turned out to be a funny, thoughtful, articulate and playful interview subject even if his movie star handsomeness was a bit scruffy looking on this particular day.Sandwiched between I’m Not There director Todd Haynes and co-stars Marcus Carl Franklin and Canadian Bruce Greenwood, behind a podium in a conference room at The Regency Hotel on a sunny Sunday in The Big Apple, perhaps there was safety in numbers, or he was pleased with the film,
or just having a good day. Who knows?
Ledger even played with his reputation as a non-cooperative interview subject following Haynes’ opening lengthy explanation that you didn’t have to be a Dylan fan to appreciate the movie.
“I agree,” Ledger said quietly into a microphone in front of him to laughs before elaborating. “It is a movie, it’s not a quiz, there is no Q&A after, and quite frankly I think the less you know the better off you’re going to be because you’re not going to be straining yourself and trying to digest line of dialogue.” said Ledger. “Just kind of strap yourself in and enjoy the ride.”
Now the big question is was Ledger enjoying his ride in life.
On this day he seemed to be, even chiding a reporter in the front row with his eyes closed.“Wake up!” Ledger yelled to more laughs from the 50 or so reporters assembled. “I know I’m boring but give me a break.”
The general perception - and I don’t pretend to be an expert in his personal life - was that he was sad following the breakup of his relationship to his Brokeback Mountain co-star Michelle Williams, the mother of his now two-year-daughter Matilda, just a few months earlier in September.
But when someone asked him how he related to his I’m Not There character as a dad, he quipped: “The same as if I wasn’t a dad.”
With a reputation as a “serious actor” who thoroughly immersed himself in his roles, he also proved to be a magnanimous about the acting talents of his co-stars, particularly the astonishing performance of fellow Aussie Cate Blanchett as “electric-era” Dylan, who earned an Oscar nomination on the same day as Ledger’s lifeless, naked body was discovered in a Soho loft. “I sucked,” he joked of his own portrayal at the press conference.
In an interview at the Toronto International Film Festival last September, Haynes told me of Ledger’s lack of ego, picking up a best actress award on Blanchett’s behalf at the Venice Film Festival. “Heath stayed in Venice for the award ceremony just to stick around, just to support the film,” said Haynes. “He read (Cate’s) thank-you speech. She wasn’t able to come at all, so he accepted the award for her.”
The bottom line seems to Ledger was kind.
And, apparently, really into music.One of the surprising things in all the Tuesday night coverage of Ledger’s life was that he was a business partner with musician Ben Harper.“Music - I mean on so many levels it has affected my life and still continues to,” Ledger said at the press conference.“Music, particularly, the voice singing, songwriter’s, poets, Dylan, whoever, to me, it’s such a pure expression or song from the soul that it likes deeply connects to mine and it’s always been a key that kind of unlocked or enabled me to express anger or pains of any sort, so it’s always been a wonderful excuse, or a door-opener for me, in terms of being able to express creatively and personally.
“I was definitely a fan of Dylan,” he added later in the press conference. ”But I think Dylan was definitely someone I had scheduled somewhat in the future, down the line, to become obsessed by ‘cause I do get obsessed with people, musicians and artists, but I think Todd prematurely invited me into this obsession on this film.”
Turns out to be a good thing Haynes did.
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http://network.nationalpost.com/np/blogs/fullcomment/archive/2008/01/23/jonathan-kay-on-the-passing-of-heath-ledger-and-the-unsettling-brilliance-of-his-signature-2005-performance-in-brokeback-mountain.aspx
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Jonathan Kay on the passing of Heath Ledger — and the unsettling brilliance of his signature 2005 performance in Brokeback Mountain
Posted: January 23, 2008, 1:38 PM by Jonathan Kay
"I tell ya there... there were these two old guys ranched up together, down home. Earl and Rich. And they was the joke of town, even though they were pretty tough ol' birds. Anyway they... they found Earl dead in an irrigation ditch."
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Brokeback Mountain, Heath Ledger's masterpiece, has been Youtubed, South Parked, Family Guyed and Saturday Night Lived so many times, that it is sometimes difficult to recall what an astonishingly good film it was. Had Brokeback been the only film he'd ever made, we would still properly be mourning the loss of one of the world's great actors.
Brokeback is too often pigeon-holed as a gay love story. (Wikipedia describes it as "an Academy Award-winning 2005 romantic drama film that depicts the complex romantic and sexual relationship between two men in the American West from 1963 to 1983.") But the homosexuality in the movie was incidental to a larger theme: the random cruelty of the human condition, a condition that allows outside forces to destroy the lives of even the toughest men.
In the case of Ennis del Mar (Ledger) and Jack Twist (Jake Gyllenhaal), the force that destroyed them was in their genes: They were gay men living in a homophobic world. When they were true to their love, they lived in a tiny snowglobe of ecstasy. But everywhere else, they were lonely men living a lie.
Some of the most exquisite vignettes from the movie come when those two world collide. Three years after seeing the movie, I still remember the brief scene when Jack shows up for seasonal work at Brokeback — hoping to see Ennis again — and is turned away in humiliating fashion by the rancher who knew their secret. ("You boys sure found a way to make the time pass up there. Twist, you guys wasn't gettin' paid to leave the dogs babysittin' the sheep while you stem the rose.") Outwardly, these men are the very embodiment of western ruggedness — especially Ennis, whose bar-fight brutality escalates in accordance with the shame he feels about his sexuality. But inside, they are train wrecks. And Ang Lee deserved the Best Director awards he got for letting that wreckage play out without any sort of deus ex machina or romantic Hollywood gloss.
But the wreckage in the film is not really about gay love, or even love itself. It is about powerlessness. Fiddle with the plot, and it would be easy for artists of equal caliber to make essentially the same film about men addicted to alcohol, or drugs, or gambling, or suffering illness, or who fall hopelessly in love with the wrong woman. When Jack famously says to Ennis " I wish I knew how to quit you," the you could be anything.
This is why so many people who aren't gay, and care nothing for Western vistas and cowboy flicks, were so affected by Brokeback. None of us have control of our lives. The movie is about whatever uncontrollable force we stay up at night worrying about. As in every great film, we read ourselves into it.
In my particular case, Brokeback became a film about failed fatherhood. Both Ennis and Jack marry and have kids. Jack manages to cobble together an outwardly respectable middle-class family life, even as his marriage deteriorates into a business relationship. But Ennis can't manage the act, and his life spirals into poverty and dysfunctionality as he throws everything away for the few chances he gets be with Jack. In one scene — the one that will leap into my mind every time I think of Ledger's acting career — Ennis barges into the grocery store where his wife has taken a job to make ends meet. He's got the kids with him, and tells his wife Cassie she's got to mind them so he can go off on one of his short-notice "fishing trips" with Jack. He shoves the bewildered kids at his wife and then takes off. Everything about him shows that he knows that what he's doing is wrong, irresponsible, bizarre — but he can't fight it any more than a heroin junkie can fight the needle.
It's a wrenching scene that plays to every man's worst fears about his own abilities as a father. Will he do right by his wife and children — provide for them, stick around, be a role model — come what may? Or will forces outside of his control — or controllable only with a willpower he cannot muster — conspire to make him a failure? That's the scene that broke me. And it did so because Ledger was a brilliant enough actor to sell it.
The circumstances of Ledger's death this week are murky. We don't know yet whether he committed suicide with sleeping pills, or merely took too many of them, in the wrong combination, by accident. But the interviews he gave in late 2007 suggest a tormented man — to the point he could barely sleep. I don't want to psychoanalyze a man I don't know, or proffer facile analogies between his own life and that of his signature screen character. But when I heard the news of Ledger's death, my mind immediately reached to Ennis' grim outlook on life. However, successful, or happy, or tough a lot of us may be on the outside, there is always — always — a vulnerability within that threatens to drag us down.
In Ledger's case, whatever it was took with it not only a man many decades too young to die, but an extraordinary actor who rendered one of the truly great screen acting performances of his generation.
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I can't help thinking that it is as if Ennis had died too, after Jack.
I know it is Heath, I know Ennis and Jack will remain in my heart forever, as Heath, but still I have this odd feeling... and it hurts.
i feel the same too :-\\ god all day its all i can think about and after i found out at about 6.30am this morning i even dreamt of being with sum other people and us all being upset about it! :\'( i cant get it out my head. :-\\ Past few weeks ive been enjoying the happiness and joy brokeback mountain gives me, feeling it run thru my veins, but now all i feel is sadness. :\'( I pray that the sadness will reduce soon and that i and everyone else, will feel what Heath would have wanted us to feel, happiness,proudness and love for him, his work and our fav movie of ours ...from that film his memory will live on in our hearts and Jack and Ennis will always be forever in our hearts as the film is forever whatever happens. Love and hugs to everyone at this difficult sad time :ghug:
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:^^) :t) thanks tpe for that you posted it sums up alot and very relavant for us on this site. its a good piece of writing
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I'm still struggling with this, God help me...a part of me wants to scream, "This isn't true!"
I am just sick over this. I'm so thankful I have this place and the LiveJournal community to go to. You all have really helped keep me sane.
He's been gone 24 hours now... :\'(
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I want to hug my friends, cry with them x
And us with you Princess. :ghug:
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He was our KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR!
The love he shared with us will never diminish but only grow stronger with time.
God Bless and Comfort his Friends, Family, and Fans, in this time of Sorrow.
Heath ... You left us far too soon.
You will live forever in our hearts.
Be at Peace, Dear One.
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In Ledger's case, whatever it was took with it not only a man many decades too young to die, but an extraordinary actor who rendered one of the truly great screen acting performances of his generation.
That's a pretty awesome - and extremely accurate - epitaph.
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Yeah, it's now been over 24 hours, and it's said our minds mark those passages, just like the first year anniversary after losing someone, is the
worst. Got over that wall, but now I remember, the last poem I did, and have only put 4 on the poetry thread, it was about Jack coming for
Ennis, while he was asleep in his bed, but heading for death. It was doggerel, not very fancy, but it just hit me that's how it happened with
our beloved Heath. Jack was taking Ennis home, in his sleep, and now some angel took Heath peacefully away from us, while he slept. I wish I
had never written it. Especially the lines:
keep on a-sleepin', but I'm here,
your lover, knowing, drawing near.
I hope whatever angel came for Heath let him look back to see us, loving him as he was, as he really was, a good and decent soul.
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He didn't?
I don't care what that "Academy" says. He was Best Actor for 2006 in my book.
No, he didn't win. He was nominated. It was an artistic crime. AND it can be, and should be, corrected. The Academy ought to be feeling like the umpire who got the call wrong at home plate. WE were all in the stands and saw what really happened.
Heath Ledger for Best Actor in a Drama, 2006, awarded posthumously.
... sorry, fellow Brokies ... don't mean to be preachy ... I don't like injustice.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8-exr9WpEc&feature=related
just found this video which is like a memorial to Heath, if you feel like you can watch it its a nice montage of pics and clips of him
GOD I WISH THIS WAS JUST A DREAM (well nightmare)and id wake up in a minute...... :\'(
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I'm sorry, I can't read anymore... my mind just can't comprehend the fact that he's gone.
I'm going to sleep thinking about him, and crying for him. This is just too much for me to bare.
Goodbye my sweet prince charming. Rest in peace.
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I'm sorry, I can't read anymore... my mind just can't comprehend the fact that he's gone.
I'm going to sleep thinking about him, and crying for him. This is just too much for me to bare.
Goodbye my sweet prince charming. Rest in peace.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh God, sweet prince, now I am tearing up at work and I have to hide...
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MES BROKIES...
" BAD NEWS "...
" HEALTH / ENNIS... I SWEAR !!!!! "
Chevauche bien sur BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN... JAKE / JACK et Ns, Ns T'Accompagnons, TJRS !
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The first public statement from someone in BBM:
http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,23100481-5001021,00.html
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Ang Lee mourns Heath Ledger, fans leave flowers, candles
January 24, 2008 07:30am
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Ang Lee ... director of Brokeback Mountain, has described working with Heath as one of the purest joys of his life.
ACCLAIMED director Ang Lee has mourned the death of Heath Ledger, saying working with the Australian-born actor was ''one of the purest joys of my life.''
Ledger costarred with Jake Gyllenhaal in Lee's Oscar-winning movie "Brokeback Mountain." He played Ennis Del Mar in the gay romance about two ranch hands who carried on a secret love affair.
"Working with Heath was one of the purest joys of my life. He brought to the role of Ennis more than any of us could have imagined - a thirst for life, for love, and for truth, and a vulnerability that made everyone who knew him love him. His death is heartbreaking," Lee said in an email to The Associated Press.
Ledger's performance in "Brokeback Mountain" earned him a best actor Oscar nomination. Lee garnered the best director award for the film.
The 28-year-old actor was found dead yesterday by his housekeeper and masseuse in New York City - lying naked and face-down at the foot of his bed, with prescription sleeping pills nearby, police said.
An initial autopsy on the actor was inconclusive.
Meanwhile fans of Ledger have left flowers and candles outside the New York apartment building where the body of the Oscar-nominated Australian star was found with sleeping pills nearby.
Authorities said the death yesterday of the 28-year-old actor was a possible overdose, but it could be a further 10 days before the results of toxicology tests are known.
Shocked fans set up the makeshift memorial hours after Ledger's body was found.
One note said, "I couldn't find anything bad about you."
Khaled Ali, 41, a stage manager for a Broadway show, dropped off a candle outside the downtown SoHo building on his way to work. He said he and his fellow cast members were devastated by the news of Ledger's death.
"I felt a connection with him as an actor, as a fellow in the theatre community," he said.
"With Brokeback Mountain he touched me personally in telling the story of my community. It was very touching."
Ledger split last year with Michelle Williams, who played his wife on the set of Brokeback Mountain. The two had a daughter, the now two-year-old Matilda, and had lived together in Brooklyn's Boerum Hill neighbourhood.
Ledger was a widely recognised figure in his Manhattan neighbourhood, where Michelle Vella said she frequently saw him carrying Matilda on his shoulders, or having ice cream with her.
"It's a shock; he's so young," said Taren Dolbashian, who also had seen Ledger with his daughter.
"He always seems so happy."
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I'm sorry, I can't read anymore... my mind just can't comprehend the fact that he's gone.
I'm going to sleep thinking about him, and crying for him. This is just too much for me to bare.
Goodbye my sweet prince charming. Rest in peace.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
my dear one.. try to rest, and please please.. we are with you in our thoughts... :ghug:
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I hope whatever angel came for Heath let him look back to see us, loving him as he was, as he really was, a good and decent soul.
That's so heartbreaking Tony. Swear to God I can't see what I'm writing 'cause I'm blind with my tears.
13 hours in front of my laptop; I've not eaten; I could vomit if I try it. I've cried the whole day, I'm still crying so bad. My head and eyes ache. I'm really sick. I'm not gonna sleep, that's for sure. I feel all dizzy and so tired. Something beautiful has died inside of me.
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It's the stories about Heath with Matilda that make me cry the most, she's lost a daddy who loved her so much. I can't bear this, the pain doesn't seem to be going away. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I'm sorry, I can't read anymore... my mind just can't comprehend the fact that he's gone.
I'm going to sleep thinking about him, and crying for him. This is just too much for me to bare.
Goodbye my sweet prince charming. Rest in peace.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh darlin, I know, I can't accept he's gone either. Why did he have to go? Why? I don't understand any of it. It's all so pointless. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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It's the stories about Heath with Matilda that make me cry the most, she's lost a daddy who loved her so much. I can't bear this, the pain doesn't seem to be going away. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
i know exactly what you mean.
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BabyTammy, me too. Have only had 3 hours sleep and don't know what to do. Wait for that kiss on the forehead, my loving friend, for it will
be there. If Heath ever skimmed through this forum, and he must have, for he had a curious mind, he would have spotted you SO quick, and
loved you. Be sure of that. Get some rest when you can.
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Good NYtimes piece on him
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/24/movies/24appr.html?hp
You know I know this is about Heath and not Ennis but I was just thinking about the sensitivity and artistry that went into that performance. How careful it was, how respectful.
What a wonderful article, a fine tribute to Heath. I'm going to keep a printed copy of this, to go with the Heath memos I've saved since early in BBM's release. :(
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He's been gone 24 hours now... :\'(
24 hours too long....
I have a really weird feeling I can't describe, I can't believe he's actually gone, I keep randomly breaking into tears, I've been a wreck at school today.
All the actors/singers with outward problems that have been splashed all over the papers for months, and yet it is Heath, so quiet, polite and mild-mannered, to die. It doesn't make sense.
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I can't sleep, every time I close my eyes I see him. He can't be gone, he just can't be :\'(
this is one of the worst days of my life
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All the actors/singers with outward problems that have been splashed all over the papers for months, and yet it is Heath, so quiet, polite and mild-mannered, to die. It doesn't make sense.
I know it really doesn't seem fair. :\'(
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I didn't want to say anything about this, but for a short while yesterday afternoon (US time), Heath's entry in wikipedia was disgustingly desecrated. The mods of that site made sure that it was cleaned up immediately.
There is so much nastiness out there about Heath. We should be careful what to believe and not to believe. In the meantime, we know that we honor him for his his work, his beauty, and his talent. Nobody can take that away from us.
I am glad to have you braver souls than I scouting the news out there. I just can't do it. I don't want to come across something like this that you saw, Thomas, except by all of you here who I love telling me about it. Like that ignorant "Christian" church group. Which actually doesn't bother me per se. Those people full of self-righteous vitriol will only get it back on themselves. It does not even touch a hair on Heath's gorgeous head nor all those who love him.
kathy
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Anything interesting up there in heaven, Heath?
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh god, now you've done it, NR. :\'(
kathy
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First thing I saw when I turn on my computer and connect to the internet this morning. I thought it was just a dream. Now I wish it was just a dream. I'm so shock and numb that I can barely type. This is a very sad news indeed. Bless his soul. I also feel for his daughter. I hope her and her mother are well.
To Heath: May you rest in peace up there and look after the people you love. If you are reading this, you know how many people love and respect you. You were a great actor for someone so young and never in a million years would we think you'll leave us. Your legacy will live forever.
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Good to hear from you, JT. I was wondering about you...
kathy
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BabyTammy, me too. Have only had 3 hours sleep and don't know what to do. Wait for that kiss on the forehead, my loving friend, for it will
be there. If Heath ever skimmed through this forum, and he must have, for he had a curious mind, he would have spotted you SO quick, and
loved you. Be sure of that. Get some rest when you can.
Oh Tony..... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
You got me in tears again, my dear friend. You're so good and a beautiful person.
I really want to rest but I just can't; my mind doesn't want to stop thinking, and my heart doesn't want to stop feeling sadness.
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
I was looking for the poem I put on my mom's memorial card to share here also. It was similar to this, if not this, perhaps. (It was long ago, I don't exactly remember.) This is so beautiful. Thank you, TF...
kathy
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Rest in peace, you dear man. You will live on in our hearts.
My thoughts and prayers go out to his family, especially Michelle and sweet little Matilda. May God give them the strength to get through this difficult time.
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The only reference about Jake is from a UK article.
As I said, unless the press corners Jake, he will probably NOT make a public statement, especially when there are so many things left unaswered as of now. But I don't doubt he is very much informed as to the events, given that Maggie is in NYC, and the fact that he is Matilda's godfather.
I had no idea that he was depressed. We have friends in Brooklyn and NYC who would see him and said recently how sad he looked. I assumed from his breakup.
That breaks my heart that he was sad and died alone. :(
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^^I think that's what makes it even sadder, that he was alone when he passed.
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^^I think that's what makes it even sadder, that he was alone when he passed.
That's what is upsetting me the more I think of it, I can hardly stand it.
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The first public statement from someone in BBM:
http://www.news.com.au/dailytelegraph/story/0,22049,23100481-5001021,00.html
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["Working with Heath was one of the purest joys of my life. He brought to the role of Ennis more than any of us could have imagined - a thirst for life, for love, and for truth, and a vulnerability that made everyone who knew him love him. His death is heartbreaking," Lee said in an email to The Associated Press.
What Ang Lee said about Heath was so beautiful and incredibly poignant - Heath's thirst for life, for love and for truth. Ang showed such deep understanding and love for Heath. Makes me weep. :\'( :\'(
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I hope Heath knew how much his portrayal of Ennis touched so many people. Personally, it changed my life. I send up a huge Thank You to Heath for giving us Ennis. It's devastating to think of sweet little Matilda (mini-Heath is what I call her) without her Daddy. Breaks my heart.
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That's what is upsetting me the more I think of it, I can hardly stand it.
Christie, it's horrid. But I am trying to believe what his Dad said, that he died peacefully in his sleep. :ghug:
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If I Had Only Known
If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only know
I'd never hear your voice again
You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away
If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you knew my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would've shown
If I had only known
I think it´s a song by Trisha Yearwood,a kind of requiem.Whatever it be,it´s suitable for this situation.
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Christie, it's horrid. But I am trying to believe what his Dad said, that he died peacefully in his sleep. :ghug:
I'd like to believe that but at the foot of his bed and face down and naked? I hope it was quick. :(
Sigh. This is just horrible. He didn't deserve this. I'm angry and disgustingly sad that he made a horrible mistake with those medications.
I feel for his little girl so much. he was a wonderful father that she should have had.
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I'm still stunned. :\'(
I don't know if this has been posted already:
A Soulful Talent: Cherishing Heath Ledger
http://movies.msn.com/movies/article.aspx?news=294218>1=7701 (http://movies.msn.com/movies/article.aspx?news=294218>1=7701)
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I'm gonna try to rest something...I'm here since this early morning and now it's 11:15 pm. I know in a so few hours I'll be back again; I doubt I can sleep. This day has been a painful nightmare. I wish I knew how to quit thinking about you my sweet baby Heath. :\'(
I decided I hate the world.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain took 7 years to make.
I hate that Jack Twist died.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain didn't win best picture.
I hate that Heath didn't win best actor.
I hate that Australian Paparazzi attacked Heath with water guns.
I hate that Heath was forced to sell his home.
I hate that even after the efforts of Brokeback Mountain the Gay and Lesbian community is still being victimized.
I hate that Heath Ledger died.
I hate what his family and friends is going though.
I hate that Matilda will never meet her Dad.
I hate the paramedics couldn't revive him.
I hate knowing Heath died alone in his bed.
I hate the last image I will always have of Heath being chucked in the back of a car in a black morbid body bag.
I hate the 22nd of January
I hate waking up to the first day without Heath.
I hate crying.
But most of all I hate knowing I'll never see Heath in another film.
I hate a world without Heath.
I hate.
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I'd like to believe that but at the foot of his bed and face down and naked? I hope it was quick. :(
Sigh. This is just horrible. He didn't deserve this. I'm angry and disgustingly sad that he made a horrible mistake with those medications.
I feel for his little girl so much. he was a wonderful father that she should have had.
Masetane,I really hope and am almost sure that it was quick.He didn't hardly realise what happenned and that's a relief for us-an stupid and poor relief I wouldn't like to have,but relief at the end-.
Friends,I go to sleep if I can.It has been a hard day and I'm tired with this strange tiredness that comes from the emotional side,not for the physical one.Good night everybody;take care¡ :ghug:
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Oh Tammy you expressed yourself well :ghug: We must remember all the good moments that Heath gave us and his movies will live forever. Another :ghug:
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Friends, it does not matter to me whether or not Heath died due to an intentional overdose, or whether or not he had drug problems.
My brother had serious drug problems for years -- don't think that I ever stopped loving him because of it.
The same with Heath. I don't care what the autopsy says or what causes are unearthed in the coming days.
Even without the autopsy, even without final facts as to cause of death or personal problems, I know I love him and his work.
Let this be your anchor, and not anything else that he may or may not have done.
Good thoughts, Thomas. You know I also have the drugs experience, and I do not label Heath's use (or not) of drugs as "bad." Unfortunately, his health and safety were put in jeopardy, but I love Heath in the whole of him, everything.
While we're at it, hey, Christie, let's have a sweet laugh about those big feet in his goofy shoes that turn us on, shall we?
kathy
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We said those things because we did honestly adore him. Adoration takes on many levels, some of them superficial. But it doesn't change the way we really feel inside.
If there is a possible tragedy here, perhaps it was Heath never fully realized how much he was loved. Or even if he did have an inkling, perhaps he didn't draw strength from it.
This is probably true, in a person like him. I don't love speculating -- I mean, not based on what is said out there, but based on my imagining for myself his state of mind. If I do, I can get too carried away and torture myself.
So for me, I want to think of him as not in psychological or emotional pain per se, at the end. Just exhausted. Self-aware enough to know his own innate proclivities, to know to what extent he brings his crazed state of mind on himself, the way he is with his acting. Smart enough to know he's not going to do anyone any good by escaping with drugs. Then, an unfortunate choice of ingesting something his body couldn't take at that point.
I think that by getting a massage, he could likely have been aiming to deal with his exhausted state in a more holistic way, so he wouldn't need the sleeping meds.
Maybe he was happy. Maybe he was looking forward to Michelle and Mathilda coming home, and when he would see his girls...
Maybe I'm just grasping at straws...
kathy
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We talk a lot about Jack's and Ennis's fragilness, flaws, inperfections, and vulnerablities now its real life coming into our world. I know we will had and will have the same compassion, love and caring for Heath Ledger, the man, the human being, as we do for Ennis.
I won't give a damn about what is found, or not found. All I know is that he is gone and it's our loss. And when it all said and done, a little of him will be in all of us here.
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A moving tribute by the wonderful A. O. Scott:
http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/24/movies/24appr.html?_r=1&oref=slogin
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An Actor Whose Work Will Outlast the Frenzy
By A. O. SCOTT
Published: January 24, 2008
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Focus Features
Heath Ledger as Ennis Del Mar in "Brokeback Mountain."
The defining performance of Heath Ledger’s tragically foreshortened career — more or less equivalent to what Jim Stark in “Rebel Without a Cause” was for James Dean — will surely be the role of Ennis Del Mar in “Brokeback Mountain.”
A portrait of inarticulate love and thwarted desire, Ennis is a rich, complicated character succinctly sketched in Annie Proulx’s original short story and brought to heartbreaking life by the film’s screenwriters, Diana Ossana and Larry McMurtry; by its director, Ang Lee; and above all by Mr. Ledger himself.
Outwardly, Ennis presents a familiar image of rough-hewn Western masculinity, and the longing that surges under his taciturn demeanor does not so much contradict this image as help to explain it. Ennis’s love for Jack Twist, whom he meets tending sheep on a Wyoming mountaintop in the early 1960s, takes Ennis by surprise and throws him permanently off balance. His lifelong silence, the film suggests, is less a sign of strength than of cowardice, a crippling inability to acknowledge or communicate the truth of his own feelings.
What made the performance so remarkable was that Mr. Ledger, without betraying Ennis’s dignity or his reserve, was nonetheless able to convey that truth to the audience. This kind of sensitivity — the ability to signal an inner emotional state without overtly showing it — is what distinguishes great screen acting from movie-star posing. And while Mr. Ledger was handsome enough, and famous enough, to be called a movie star, he was serious enough, and smart enough, to be suspicious of deploying his charisma too easily or cheaply.
In retrospect the best thing that happened to him — the lucky break for his admirers, at any rate —may have been his disinclination to realize his apparent movie-star potential. He was the most likable of the young things in the “Taming of the Shrew”-derived teenage comedy “10 Things I Hate About You,” with his curly hair, high forehead and the permanent intimation of a smirk on his thin-lipped, angled mouth. And as often happens with young actors in Hollywood, his good looks and easy charm looked like a ticket to the commercial big time. Dutifully, but also with sparks of playful, eager energy, he played period golden boys in “The Patriot” and “A Knight’s Tale,” a misbegotten (but not entirely unenjoyable) entry in the ever-silly costume-action genre.
It is hard to know exactly when Mr. Ledger discovered his range, and set about trying to explore it, but it is clear that he covered a lot of ground in a very short time. He had a taste for portraying troubled, brooding, self-destructive young men, it’s true — the anguished third-generation prison guard in “Monster’s Ball,” the heroin addict in “Candy,” the unhappy film star in “I’m Not There,” in addition to Ennis — but the temptation to blend their fates with Mr. Ledger’s own should be resisted at all costs. Those roles should be seen less as expressions of some imagined inner torment than as evidence of resourcefulness, creative restlessness and wit.
Those same characteristics are abundantly evident in less well-known movies that should not be overlooked. Mr. Ledger was hilarious and eccentric in Catherine Hardwicke’s “Lords of Dogtown,” playing a shaggy old-timer on the Venice Beach surf-and skateboard scene, and affably mischievous in Terry Gilliam’s “Brothers Grimm,” alongside Matt Damon.
Ennis Del Mar is complemented and complicated by Casanova, whom Mr. Ledger played in Lasse Hallstrom’s unfairly neglected biopic-as-sex-farce, which came and went too quickly in late 2005, during the ascendancy of “Brokeback Mountain.” It’s not just that the flamboyantly heterosexual Casanova is Ennis Del Mar’s opposite in obvious ways. He is also a creature of pure whimsy, a lighter-than-air confection of licentiousness and gallantry.
Which is not to say that Mr. Ledger’s performance is frivolous. Rather it required intelligence, restraint and a tricky lightness of touch. Mr. Ledger had an unusual ability to mix lightness and gravity, an emotional nimbleness he displayed most fully in Todd Haynes’s “I’m Not There.” Of the six avatars of Bob Dylan in that film, his, an actor named Robbie Clark, is the most remote from Mr. Dylan’s various personae and closest to the prosaic world of love, fame and ambition. Robbie starts out full of youthful energy, heedless and in love, and finds himself a decade later adrift and disappointed, robbed of the happiness that early success had seemed to promise.
Again, it’s important to warn against looking in that film or any other for clues or portents. It seems to me that Mr. Ledger, in his choice of roles, was motivated above all by curiosity, and perhaps also by an impatience with the predictability and caution that can settle around the shoulders of talented young stars. In heroic roles like “A Knight’s Tale” or “Ned Kelly” he often seems bored, which may be why he so eagerly seized the chance to play the sociopathic Joker in “The Dark Knight,” the next installment in the “Batman” franchise.
The dismaying sense of loss and waste at Mr. Ledger’s death at 28 comes not only because he was so young, but also because his talent was large and as yet largely unmapped. It seems inevitable that he will now be inscribed in the cult of the beautiful stars who died too young, alongside James Dean, Montgomery Clift and Marilyn Monroe. Even before his death he had been ensnared in a pathological gossip culture that chews up the private lives of celebrities, and Tuesday’s news unleashed the usual rituals of media cannibalism.
Mr. Ledger’s work will outlast the frenzy. But there should have been more. Instead of being preserved as a young star eclipsed in his prime, he should have had time to outgrow his early promise and become the strange, surprising, era-defining actor he always had the potential to be.
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I won't give a damn about what is found, or not found. All I know is that he is gone and it's our loss. And when it all said and done, a little of him will be in all of us here.
Beautifully said Manhattangirl.
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Beautifully said Manhattangirl.
I share the same feeling :\'(
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Just want to say thank you to all of you for your comments. My head's still in a mess, I can't think of anything worthwhile to say. I've been listening to the songs from the BBM soundtrack all day, because I need to feel close to Heath, through Ennis. All these songs used to tear me up inside thinking of poor Ennis trying to make sense of a world without Jack, and now that's all turned on its head and we're trying to make sense of a world without Heath, our Ennis :\'( I don't know if I'll ever be able to make sense of it, but it means so much to know I'm not alone. Thank you all for being here :ghug:
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Everyone has a personal way of handling grief. Some weep, some shout, some go grim and silent, and each reaction is valid and appropriate.
For me, I write. It's how I handle most of the emotions that assault me in my life. I write, between bouts of weeping and shouting.
So here is my method for venting, and I hope it does not offend anyone. It's all I know how to do.
In Mourning
It was just another Tuesday,
And it was raining somewhere.
The clouds were dark and roiling,
And the coffee water, boiling.
Were you so forgotten there?
Did you stand there at the window?
Were there children in the rain?
Did you hear their playful song,
Rising bright and sweet and strong?
Were you overcome with pain?
The sun must be shining somewhere,
In this place where you are not.
All the golden promise lost,
Can we even know the cost?
Find the why, the how, the what?
While the night is full of wonder,
Liquid silver pools of light,
For each single one that fails,
A spark of primal brilliance pales,
Takes one candle from the night.
And we sit here in the silence,
In the place where you belong,
Speaking softly of good-byes,
Recalling tender sable eyes
And sweet laughter like a song.
Now the world is growing darker
And the night is growing cold,
And the empty silence lingers
Wrapping hearts with icy fingers.
As the funeral bell is tolled.
So the prince has left the stage;
Strangers watch him go and sigh.
And the world spins right along,
But there is no mourning song,
Save the one that weeps “Good-bye.”
FINI
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It's such a strange feeling, this sadness of mine, although I never really knew Heath it feels just like it did when I heard that the first man I went out with 20 years ago had died of Aids. We only lasted a couple of months, but there was a connection and affection. Now all that is left is the overwhelming sense of loss at what could have been. Heath told a story that touched all our lives, now his voice has fallen silent and he will never tell so many more that might have touched others. We must tell his and never forget what he has given us. Thanks Heath for everything, Titus.
"Requiem aeternam dona ei, Domine, et lux perpetua luceat ei. Requiescat in pace. Amen."
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Jake is reportedly on his way to Brooklyn:
http://www.transworldnews.com/NewsStory.aspx?id=34142&cat=2
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Entertainment News
Busy Philipps Grieves With Michelle Williams And Mother
Atlanta, GA 1/23/2008 10:46 PM GMT (FINDITT)
Busy Philipps was spotted exiting the rowhouse of Michelle Williams Wednesday. Phillips reportedly bolted to be by Williams' side in the Brooklyn home she once shared with Heath Ledger.
Williams is visibly disheveled after the death of Ledger, her former fiancee'. Ledger was found dead Tuesday in a New York City apartment.
Williams was in Trollhattan, Sweden when she heard the news. The 27-year-old actress had been shooting scenes for the upcoming film Mammoth.
The autopsy for Ledger was ruled inconclusive. There will be more testing to identify the cause of death.
Williams' mother, Carla, and her best friend, actress Busy Philipps, have been by Williams' side to help her grieve. Phillips is also the godmother to Williams' daughter, Matlida, whom Williams had with Ledger.
Philipps and Williams became friends while the two were on the WB hit "Dawson's Creek" and have remained close since the show ended.
Jake Gyllenhaal and Naomi Watts are also reported to be on their way to Brooklyn to be by Williams' side.
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(((Jake))) I know he will be such a huge support to Michelle and Matilda, my heart goes out to them all.
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Glad to hear that Jake is on his way. They all need to be together to help each other through this.
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I found out yesterday night.. I was completely shocked. I couldn't believe it!!
It's just so surreal. I couldn't sop crying, I admired Heath so much for his work... It'll take som time before I can really understand this.
R.I.P Heath Andrew Ledger
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http://www.guardian.co.uk/australia/story/0,,2245819,00.html
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'It's not fair. It's not right'
Thursday January 24, 2008
The Guardian
The shock felt by so many at the death of Heath Ledger shows how strongly we identify with great actors, says Joe Queenan
'I don't have to believe it if I don't want to," the writer John O'Hara said when he learned that America's greatest songwriter, George Gershwin, was dead at the age of 39. Similar thoughts come to mind with the news that Heath Ledger is no longer among the living. Those of us who followed his career from the beginning, those of us who may have remarked, just this past weekend, that we were looking forward to Ledger's sinister turn as the Joker in the upcoming The Dark Knight in a way we were not looking forward to Jude Law's turn as anyone in anything, are devastated that he will no longer be on hand to divert us, surprise us, inspire us, cheer us. It had not occurred to any of us that he would be leaving so soon; none of his admirers were quite prepared for this turn of events.
Ledger's death illustrates the unusually intimate relationship the public has with movie stars. Movie stars, unlike rock stars, have an appeal that transcends narrow demographic parameters; middle-aged people do not instinctively resent young actors in the way they resent young musicians or young athletes. It is a natural human instinct to want gifted young people to succeed, because talent should be rewarded. But there is even more of a desire to see the young and the gifted succeed if they are charismatic and fabulous-looking, which movie stars usually are and athletes and musicians often are not.
This generation-spanning affection for actors can also be explained by the fact that no matter how reclusive and mysterious the star may be, the public feels that it knows him or her. The public is like a doting parent that spends decades compiling a mental scrapbook in which it meticulously mounts photos of its child's greatest triumphs. When an actor dies young, it is almost as if one's own child had passed away. There is no greater tragedy than for a parent to outlive its children, because the old are supposed to exit the stage before the young. This is why Ledger's death seems not only tragic but morally incorrect. Once again, the universe is not playing by the rules.
When a bit player or an ageing has-been dies, we are saddened but hardly shattered. These people may have amused us from time to time, but their careers were not part of the fabric of our lives. With the Cary Grants and the Audrey Hepburns, with the Brad Pitts and the Julia Roberts, things are different. We welcome their arrival, monitor their progress, revel in their triumphs. But part of the deal is that we expect them to hang around for awhile, not to pull a Jimi Hendrix, a Janis Joplin, a Jim Morrison, a Nick Drake. When an actor dies young, there is more cultural fallout than when a musician checks out early, because there is no way for musicians to grow old gracefully in the way actors can. Rock stars and athletes tend to hang around too long, making fools of themselves, frantically clinging to the last vestiges of youth. Actors simply grow up and play more mature roles. Actors can get old without seeming ridiculous. If we are lucky enough to be exposed to an actor's work when he first starts out, in my case because my 15-year-old daughter originally viewed 10 Things I Hate About You as the defining film of her generation, we start to think of them almost as members of the family. We indulge their fledgling errors (A Knight's Tale, Four Feathers), chide them for squandering their talent (Casanova), beam with pride when they begin to assert themselves (Monster's Ball), and are outraged when they are denied the honours they deserve (the Academy's failure to give Ledger its best actor award for Brokeback Mountain ranks with its most hideous, cowardly decisions ever. Ledger will now be remembered as the victim of an epic miscarriage of justice, giving a truly astounding performance that somehow did not find favour with the grizzled, homophobic slobs who run Hollywood).
For a man not yet 30, Ledger squeezed an awful lot into a short career. By the day of his death, he had already vaulted from a teen heart-throb in 10 Things I Hate About You (a post-adolescent reworking of The Taming of the Shrew) and A Knight's Tale to a performer known as much for his gifts (Monster's Ball), his range (The Brothers Grimm, I'm Not There) and his courage (Brokeback Mountain). Following a similar, though not identical, trajectory to Johnny Depp, who debuted as a teen idol, began to be taken seriously in Ed Wood, started to be taken very seriously after Donnie Brasco, and soon reached the point that he was not only admired but beloved (Pirates of the Caribbean), Ledger had quickly got to the stage of his career where his work was being talked about months before previews of his films had even reached the screen. The excitement and anticipation surrounding The Dark Knight has not focused on Christian Bale, the worthy star; it has swirled around Ledger, the villain. This may be because in taking on the role of Batman, Bale is getting in the ring with Michael Keaton, Val Kilmer and George Clooney, while in taking on the role of the Joker, Ledger is getting in the ring with Jack Nicholson.
Ledger is not the first gifted actor to die long before his time, but not all actors who die long before their time fall into the same category. When the troubled Brad Renfro passed away last week, his best years as an actor were far behind him; his was the classic case of the child star who ceased to be appealing once he ceased to be a child. Much the same can be said about Elvis Presley, a very old 42 when he breathed his last, with any hopes of a serious film career having gone up in smoke years before. John Belushi and Chris Farley, both alumni of Saturday Night Live, died quite young, but the reverberations were slight, as it was not likely that either of them was ever going to become a lord of the stage.
A more appropriate comparison with Ledger is River Phoenix, the beneficiary of a huge cult following after his death at 23. Less obviously gifted than Ledger, and certainly much more cut from the ostentatiously self-destructive James Dean mould, Phoenix was already starting to make his mark as an actor, particularly after his turn as Keanu Reeves' narcoleptic sidekick in My Own Private Idaho (a Pacific northwest reworking of Henry IV). In the end, Ledger's death is more in the category of Dean and Marilyn Monroe, actors who had already made a number of memorable films at the time of their deaths, actors for whom the sky seemed to be the limit. Ironically, their stature grew after their deaths in part because their lives were so brief, their body of work so small, and they didn't stick around long enough to make films like Meet the Fockers. This is the only upside to an untimely demise.
Ledger made one film for which he will undeniably be remembered. When the news of his death was reported on the airwaves, commentators unanimously described him as the groundbreaking young Aussie who played the "gay cowboy" in Brokeback Mountain. This captures the press at its most lavishly cretinous. Brokeback Mountain is no more about gay cowboys than Hamlet is about indecisive, twenty-something Danes. It is about two people who are madly in love but whose lives are destroyed because they cannot be together. They are separated not only by social mores, by marriage, by distance, but by class: Jake Gyllenhaal, buoyed with the emancipation from financial worry he has achieved by marrying into a wealthy family, can do whatever he damn well pleases, whereas Ledger, a cash-strapped day labourer, does not have the money or the social mobility to go where he wants, whenever he wants. Gyllenhaal, a talented actor, does a very nice job in Brokeback Mountain, but Ledger gives a performance that is literally heartbreaking. The harmless pretty boy who once danced down the steps of a football stadium singing Can't Take My Eyes Off of You in 10 Things I Hate About You had now grown into a serious, confident, fully grown man who played against his looks, played against his sexual persuasion, played against cultural stereotypes and delivered a performance for the ages. I know quite a few people who have still not seen Brokeback Mountain, presumably because they find the subject matter off-putting. This is idiotic. Brokeback Mountain is a beautiful story about two people who love one another but live in a hypocritical society that needs a moral overhaul. Romeo and Juliet, anyone?
When I saw The Patriot eight years ago, one element in the story repelled me. Early in the film, the grizzled patriarch Mel Gibson butchers a contingent of Redcoats after his youngest son is capriciously slain by the murderous Jason Isaacs. As the film wends its way toward Isaacs' deadly comeuppance, Ledger, playing Gibson's eldest son, gradually evolves from a boy into a man. Everything is in place for Gibson to die and for Ledger to avenge him, because the whole point of these archetypal tales is to transmit ancestral truths to young people: your father is going to die, so before he dies learn every trick he has up his sleeve, and then raise good children, love your wife and kill the villain. But, because Gibson was a star of greater magnitude than his Australian compatriot, and because Gibson was directing the film, it was the young Ledger, not the middle-aged Gibson, who died. There was something shockingly wrong about this, something that violated the basic laws of drama. Ledger wasn't supposed to die before Gibson died, not in a motion picture, not in real life. It's not fair. It's not right. It's a terrible way to end what was otherwise a very uplifting story.
Death of a star, birth of a cult
How six young actors became legends
James Dean
Dean died aged 24 on September 30 1955, following a car crash on what is now Route 46 in California. He is buried at Park Cemetery in Fairmount, Indiana, though his gravestone has been stolen three times. There is a memorial in Cholame, California, and a stretch of Route 46 was rechristened the James Dean Memorial Highway. A troubled soul, plagued by depression and substance abuse, Dean made few films. The collective memory seems to preserve him as the swaggering, misunderstood Jim Stark in Rebel Without A Cause, and as such he has remained a touchstone for generations of teenagers and an inspiration for plays, films and fashions. His estate still earns $5m a year.
Edie Sedgwick
The subject of many of Andy Warhol's films in the late 60s, Sedgwick died in November 1971, aged 28. Her films were not commercial successes; instead she earned notoriety for hanging out at The Factory in New York and her outlandish fashion sense (leotards and silver hair featured heavily). Her death is believed to have been caused by barbiturates and alcohol. Sedgwick is rumoured to have inspired Bob Dylan's songs Just Like A Woman, Leopard-Skin Pillbox-Hat and Like A Rolling Stone, as well as Femme Fatale by the Velvet Underground, but her lasting legacy has been as a style icon. In 2006, her life was re-examined in the Sienna Miller vehicle Factory Girl.
Jean Harlow
Nicknamed the Platinum Blonde and the Blonde Bombshell, Harlow was one of the great sex symbols of the 30s. She died, aged 26, from renal failure, and is buried in a private room at Forest Lawn Memorial Park, California. A huge star during her lifetime, she was also dogged by scandal - her first husband, Paul Bern, was found dead, prompting whispers of murder and suicide. Today she remains the blueprint for all the platinum blondes who followed in her wake.
Marilyn Monroe
In chemical terms, Monroe died of "acute barbiturate poisoning" on August 5 1962, aged 36. In legal terms, things are murkier. Donald Spoto's 2001 biography makes the case for accidental death; the LA County coroner decided it was "probably suicide" - but the officer who found her asserted murder, as did her first husband, Joe DiMaggio, who believed the Kennedys were responsible. Monroe's image has survived her to such an extent that it seems less a cult and more an indelible part of the culture.
Rudolph Valentino
A reported 100,000 people attempted to attend the funeral of this star of the silent movies, who always knew that "I am merely the canvas on which women paint their dreams". He died at 31 of peritonitis. For years a mysterious woman veiled in black visited his grave on the anniversary of his death, carrying a red rose. Various women claimed to be her; a fan called Vicki Callahan currently fulfils the role.
River Phoenix
The older brother of Joaquin Phoenix, River was only 23 but had already been nominated for a Golden Globe and an Oscar when he overdosed on heroin and cocaine outside the Viper Room in Hollywood on October 31 1993. Johnny Depp, who until 2004 was part-owner of the club, used to close it every Halloween in memory of Phoenix; every year fans still gather on that date to pay tribute. A keen singer-songwriter, it is in music that he is most often remembered - by the Red Hot Chili Peppers, R.E.M. (who dedicated their album Monster to him), and Rufus Wainwright, among many others.
Laura Barton and Aida Edemariam
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Words cannot describe my sadness at his sudden death. The death of an actor usually does not stir up much emotion on my part. From my perspective this not just another passing of a noted actor. We have lost an actor who was part of something very special to all of us who have found our way to this forum. It's certainly no secret how much Heath's performance affected me. As a result I found myself looking forward to his next truly great performance. Although BBM was such a defining moment in his career, I felt there would be more to come. Heath had the goods to give us several more performances that would match what he did in BBM. I was so looking forward to that.
It warms my heart to see how well respected Heath was in this industry. He is truly loved around this forum. It's nice to see that the mass media is reminding the world how special he was....and will always be to me.
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http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/movies/2004141150_heath24.html
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The short, intense career of Heath Ledger
By Moira Macdonald
Seattle Times movie critic
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Heath Ledger, attending the Toronto International Film Festival in September 2006.
Nobody was prepared for the performance Heath Ledger gave in Ang Lee's 2005 drama "Brokeback Mountain" — not even those who had been watching his career for years. As Ennis Del Mar, a taciturn cowboy who finds himself unexpectedly in love with another man in '60s Wyoming, Ledger completely transformed himself: His voice became a gruff, almost painful rasp, chipping off tiny fragments of emotion in as few words as possible. He allowed his love for Jack (Jake Gyllenhaal) to show in flickers: the way he waited eagerly at a window, the way he gazed at Jack as if the world had suddenly become a smaller and better place. "Brokeback Mountain" is a great, tragic love story, and Ledger's quietly heartbreaking performance is one for the ages, heralding a remarkable career for this very young actor.
It's tragic to be talking about the legacy of a young man dead at 28, but that's what many of us are doing this week. Ledger died Tuesday in his New York apartment of what may have been an accidental overdose of prescription medication. (An initial autopsy was inconclusive as to cause of death; more tests will be conducted.) He was in the process of shooting the Terry Gilliam fantasy film "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus" (for which production was shut down this week following the news of Ledger's death). His last screen appearance will likely be the role of the Joker in Christopher Nolan's upcoming Batman movie "The Dark Knight," due in theaters in July.
A native of Perth, Australia, Ledger worked briefly in Australian films and television before arriving in Hollywood when barely out of his teens. He first made an impression in "10 Things I Hate About You," a 1999 teen comedy filmed in Seattle and Tacoma, but the role set up a teen-heartthrob image for him that never quite fit. In the years between his early breakthrough and "Brokeback Mountain," he alternated between handsome leading man (the dusty romance of "The Four Feathers," the goofy adventure of "A Knight's Tale") and supporting character actor (Billy Bob Thornton's abused son in "Monster's Ball," a dweebish fairy-tale brother in "The Brothers Grimm").
Not all the movies were good, but Ledger was never less than interesting; a young man struggling to find where he would fit, trying on different personas for size. And when the Oscar nomination for "Brokeback" opened a few doors, the small roles got smaller and the big roles got much bigger — but still interesting. In Todd Haynes' experimental Bob Dylan film "I'm Not There," Ledger appeared briefly as an actor and father breaking up with his artist wife (echoing his real-life relationship with actress Michelle Williams, whom he met on the set of "Brokeback Mountain").
And his most fascinating work may well be his last: Watch the trailer for "The Dark Knight" and see Ledger, cackling and hissing in eerily smudged clown makeup, creating a villain so charismatic he appears to tuck the movie into his tattered pocket. There's a haunting few seconds in the trailer in which Ledger's Joker leans out of the window of a moving police car, arching backward as if reaching out to the nighttime wind; seeming to revel in the moment, before it's too quickly gone.
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Last time I wrote something on this forum was long time ago... But today, today, it's a different day. A day I never thought could come. I surfed the net here and there for Heath and I saw all those pictures that we all made comments about in the past. Remember? It was so funny 'cause it was a sort of contest trying to find always new pictures to post. Can you now believe that those pictures are over? Forever? I still cant!
I surfed youtube and I found so many tributes to Heath (and some are really touching). A video kept my attention, above all for the song. It says: "Such a lonely day / Should be banned / It's a day that I can't stand / The most loneliest day of my life...". I couldnt keep tears watching those pictures and hearing those words: "And if you go, I wanna go with you / And if you die, I wanna die with you / Take your hand and walk away...". Dont those words recall you something? Ennis, maybe?
I feel stones in my body today: in my brains, in my stomach, in my throat, in my heart. And i cant stop asking myself: "why am i reacting like that? Why are WE all reacting like that? Why the WORLD is reacting like that??". "He was just an actor" seems to be the logical answer. But not in this case. Not when that actor is a shy sweet smiling man of 28 like Heath. Not when that actor gave to that Ennis Del Mar such a depth that lead almost all us here.
Right now I wonder about watching "Brokeback Mountain" again. I wonder about my reactions. I wonder if I cry or not, if those stones come to the surface again or not, if I watch Heath with different eyes. Donno much right now. When these things happen (and touch you so deeply like happening in your real family), everything has a bitter taste of uncertainty.
What i know for sure (dammit!) is that Heath is gone and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! :\'(
(A big big kiss to all those who remember me and I shared thoughts and words and jokes and passion for Heath and BBM with. I hope to talk to you again soon...)
P.S. I give you some links to very nice tribute to Heath on youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gju7WYpay1M&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMR0q4bRDLA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GyeO3JuAbOo&NR=1 (I think Heath would like this one a lot!)
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malawix, I also don't know what it would be like watching BBM right now. I don't think I can do this for the time being. I don't think I would survive even the opening scene.
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You're not alone. It's as if the movie and reality blend in together. I feel great sadness and emptiness at the same time. It's making me sick.
It's just like when we first came here, found a place to share our PBS. Then, it was as if the movie and reality blended in together, too...
Oh, JT, and everyone, I feel that with each word I am reading of your feelings, my painful feelings become less of a burden, and the joyful memories become enhanced. Though I'm not full of joyful memories very much right now, not yet.
The emptieness feeling is of the yawning, stretching-for-the-rest-of-our-lives time ahead of us that will be without Heath Ledger. But then...one day...there will be more of us passed over than still here. Meanwhile, we just carry on.
kathy
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'It's not fair. It's not right'
'I don't have to believe it if I don't want to,"
I don't want to.
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24 hours too long....
I have a really weird feeling I can't describe, I can't believe he's actually gone, I keep randomly breaking into tears, I've been a wreck at school today.
All the actors/singers with outward problems that have been splashed all over the papers for months, and yet it is Heath, so quiet, polite and mild-mannered, to die. It doesn't make sense.
I know what you mean, this feeling. Like why him? I think of all the people, the celebrities, who have been around forever, but we don't get to have Heath get older with us...
kathy
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I was saying that just tonight: "Why him?" It's so unfair.
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MOROSE...
Lay me forever under a calmed sea
Where the night falls
Besides the changing winds that drowned my fears...
Its hidden ways are made into a hush
More cleverly placed, hence my pains its forgotten sorrows...
For this death flowered my grief
More blushing complaints
Gaudiness brazen in shames...
In the hopes to be bless
Where a time to come
Is slandered to dust
Be my wishful flight the same
As the wicked a fool’s decay
That once wore my flesh as its garment,
Now unveiled it headiest gloom
Only to lash away
The very words slithering upon my lips
To claim verses no longer content
To tame a raspiest repose itself
Gone astray in hollowness...
Where mourning a loss.
Lone a mountain it’s cloistered crosses
It safely poised a permanent frost
Above and below shadows upon my grave enthralled in lies...
As my weeping speech withered in nothingness...
What becomes the blood dull and dry?
Carved beneath my sleep
Are the tears of a scarred silence?
Its capricious contempt brooding a claim
Be it in between the past and future
A space at last out of this earth
I uttered a humbled cry
Is to let me see above this shoddy ground
What shady a life allowed a sealing of this place
It be for a lonesome love
To be filled with joy from the grace of breathe
In feeling my soul
So I may rest in truth eternally...
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I had the privilege of meeting Heath twice, he crawled around on his hands and knees signing like mad for us,he and Michelle seemed to be really in love,he was biting his fingernails and she reached over and gently removed his hand from his mouth and he promptly went mute.. she said" He can't talk unless I let go of his hand" I asked him about his gay uncle who had been a rolemodel for his crafting the character of Ennis. "He was tough , he could kick my ar**!" (laughter) . When it came time for him to leave he looked around frantically for Michelle in the crowd, without her he seemed lost. I rushed the stage stuck out my hand and he shook it ,I said "Congratulations on your nomination" He replied with those dancing black ball bearing eyes,and his shy half smile (just like Ennis).. "Thanks mate". I'm holding that autograph now, it is wet with my tears...G'day Heath, I'm glad to have met you. Thanks mate.
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^^What a lovely story; thank you for sharing that! You are fortunate to have met him.
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Last night I could sleep a wink for all the world, I stayed up and watched Brokeback Mountain, a bit maso but it made even more special, however I had not seen the movie in a year, did not think for a moment that it would still affect me as it did it again, buckets and tears of sadness for such an awesome human being.
In the last year since the passing of my mother I started to suffer for insomnia, so at times I take sleeping pills also, however they are not very strong, I could not imagine how awful it must have been for Heath ledger to go trough sleep deprivation to such extreme, unknowingly unaware of the side effects of certain brand of sleeping pills and suddenly fall to sleep and tomorrows has come no more,
I have another brand of pills that are even stronger than the ones I take now and I know if I take more than two I am gone bye bye.
The media is having a field day with this sh***t about Heath saying that he had a drug problem, the guy was exhausted, like most up and coming to a higher standard of stardom in Hollywood they love to see greatness fall from grace and move on to the next victim and raping their memories.
there is even a church group that wants to boycott his funeral in Perth, because of his involvement of his depiction of a gay cowboy in Brokeback Mountain, will hate ever cease to exist, that I know not, however I do know Love is greater than all this animosity prevailing ever so strongly from the far right fag haters of the world
For me I had a dream and hopes to see Heath Ledger in Vancouver for the filming of Imaginarium, his charisma and joie de vivre was contagious,
it truly breaks my heart to realize that he his no more part of this world,
yet in our hearts and in my soul I will carry the hopes he so humbly past onto us.
every time I look at my tattoos I will be reminded of his, how can I ever forget,
Dam Ennis I wish I knew how to quit you!
has much more meaning as " Ain't no reins on this one "
thank you HEATH LEDGER for having lived in my time and in my era,
this has and will be a moment engraved eternally :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I had the privilege of meeting Heath twice, he crawled around on his hands and knees signing like mad for us,he and Michelle seemed to be really in love,he was biting his fingernails and she reached over and gently removed his hand from his mouth and he promptly went mute.. she said" He can't talk unless I let go of his hand" I asked him about his gay uncle who had been a rolemodel for his crafting the character of Ennis. "He was tough , he could kick my ar**!" (laughter) . When it came time for him to leave he looked around frantically for Michelle in the crowd, without her he seemed lost. I rushed the stage stuck out my hand and he shook it ,I said "Congratulations on your nomination" He replied with those dancing black ball bearing eyes,and his shy half smile (just like Ennis).. "Thanks mate". I'm holding that autograph now, it is wet with my tears...G'day Heath, I'm glad to have met you. Thanks mate.
thank you for sharing this wonderful encounter ^f^
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Kathy, that is so exactly right---the time opening up ahead of us from here, without Heath. Have heard 2 new reports on the news that I
will not post in detail, as in each case, the report is from one network, and contradicts all other information. But we should wait & see. The
first suggests a delay in calling for medical help, of maybe 10-20 minutes, with Heath unconscious. The second mentioned another drug, Zoloft,
which can have side effects of insomnia, restlessness, and disorientation. Either of these true, and it's time for some accountability. I know we
are holding off, and should, but if any part of this was from the mistakes of others, we have a right to know, We do.
Well, the first wave, of shock, may be passing. Next, there'll be fatigue. And then a dull ache that won't go away. And then, the years ahead,
without him.
Am going to try for some rest, but I know I'll be back in the middle of the night, unable to sleep. We sort of have to grieve together, as the
outside world will never really understand. Heath was family.
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BTW: I don't give a hoot about what the coroner is going to say, the media has been speculating about this and that and just to attract readership and ratings, Heath Ledger did not take his life, it makes no sense!
he was tired took some sleeping pills and with pneumonia he fell into a deep sleep peacefully. That is my take on it, and it will not change.
All i know with certainty is his life has giving me a profound appreciation of what love is beyond all the world hatred, for his portrayal of Ennis Delmar, he resurrected what we human beings had left in the abyss of your soul too long ignored, and he brought to the surface all heartily
beyond all boundaries
hatred may LURE and yet LOVE RULE
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We sort of have to grieve together, as the
outside world will never really understand. Heath was family
Tony you have spoken so truthfully :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Tammy, my heart is with you. I know how you feel. :ghug:
And don't believe the press, they're only speculating and spreading rumours. Heath loved playing the Joker, he said it's the most fun he's ever had with a character, and he was filming a movie with Terry Gilliam now and he adored Terry and loved working with him, he said himself that Terry was his favorite director. Don't read ugly things that people are saying about him, don't do that to yourself. They don't know him. He was a talented, loving, beautiful human being, that's all that matters.
Amen to that. Tonight is harder than last night. I think the shock is starting to wear off just a tiny bit. I've cried on and off all day and had some sobbing fits before. I'm so glad we are all here to offer each other comfort and to celebrate his life. :ghug:
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Today I am still in shock of what happened today but am also thankful and relieved. I talked to my friend Val today after our big english exam and we soon got on the tpoic of the death of Heath Ledger. What she told me is that her friend Victoria is a big fan, introducing her to his film "Lords of Dogtown". From then, she has seen the Brothers Grimm and wants to see all of BBM which she has not been able to yet. She suggested that sometime this weekend we would commerate Heath by getting together, only friends who know the actor and love his work. Me and Val talked later tonight and have figured around 5 ppl come, watching 3 movies tops, espically BBM and Lords of Dogstown at my house. I'm worried about how I will deal with watching him again but I know it will hopefully help me grieve with his loss. I have also decided to create notebook dedicated to him, showing pictures from his life to his death..I have already gathered 2 from the Newsday newspaper this morning...oh Heath, how I wish all of this was just a long, long nightmare..
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You will be missed so very much by all the Brokies May you rest in Peace.
And you will live inside all our Hearts as long as there is a Jack&Ennis.
Lov ya Always
little jimmy
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For some reason I've always felt that Heath Ledger was an extremely fragile person even though he had a lot of strength and integrity. He seemed too vulnerable for the film industry. Maybe that was his genius: to be able to get to the point artistically and career-wise to be able to express that vulnerability so publicly. When I first saw BBM I really couldn't believe how he was exposing himself to the world. That in itself seems to be his greatest legacy.
I got that impression too. I loved what Ang Lee said today, "a vulnerability that made everyone who knew him love him." I remember Ang Lee saying something about how Heath falling in love with Michelle during BBM was good for him. It sounded like people who talked about Heath felt a need to take care of him and watch out for him. It only made him more endearing. What happened. I was distracted at work all day. Why does Heath Ledger affect me so. I've never felt this way about any actor.
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Frenchcda, thank you for saying love will win. It already has. Those who were ignorant and expressed hate over BBM, they will never be
mourned nor loved as Heath has been. They did not know how to love and will pass away, never having been truly loved. Thank you also for
your beautiful poem. And Cynical21, as well. In writing as you have, there is the proof of victory, that lovers have won, for who would grieve
those of cold hearts?
Michelle, it's going to be a while, before the world seems sane again. We all are keeping a vigil, each in our own way, and even at work,
you were doing the same. Damn, how I wish I could go lay flowers by that building. It's so hard to say good-bye from a distance.
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Thank you so much, Ethan :\'(
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Thank you so much Barb!! You have a big heart. And Thomas, if there were drugs or not, it was never going to change my feelings!!
But Barb, Thomas, I can't help suffer and being worried 'cause what if I was messing 'round his pix saying stupid things like he was so hot and hell and while he had problems, he was so sad and broken? What about it, huh? I'll feel like the most superficial and disgusting person in the whole world, saying dumbass things about him and his beauty when he was suffering so bad.... :\'( :\'( My poor baby....
Don't you see it? I need to know that he was not in pain, that he died in peace!!!
Tammy, sweetie :ghug: I need to know that too. And it may sound stupid or smack of denial on my part but the "official" story I am telling myself is that he went to sleep and went in peace. I need to believe that. No matter what the real official cause is, it's not going to sway the fact of who he was to me;to us. Heath gave me a gift in BBM and that was finding a family here. There would never be a way to repay that-ever. The best thing I can do is honor his memory.
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Heath...we will always remember you - our forever Ennis!
Hope you are happy in heaven...
Rest in peace...T_T
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thanks Ethan ^f^
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It's the stories about Heath with Matilda that make me cry the most, she's lost a daddy who loved her so much. I can't bear this, the pain doesn't seem to be going away. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: I know. Its an ache inside that just doesn't quit. I cried at work. My co-workers were so nice to me and came to check on me a few times. My youngest gave me hugs a few times. My middle daughter asked me how I was feeling today. My brain can't comprehend this at all. I keep waiting to wake up and have it be Tuesday morning again. I keep going in waves of feeling numb and then the tears come hard. I played the BBM soundtrack on the way into work- bad move on my part. :\'( I'm going to NY on Friday to leave a candle and little tribute for Heath.
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Thanks for the pictures Ethan :\'(
I'm going to NY on Friday to leave a candle and little tribute for Heath.
Thanks for doing this, you're brave :ghug:
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ethan thankyou for the pictures :ghug:
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I'm gonna try to rest something...I'm here since this early morning and now it's 11:15 pm. I know in a so few hours I'll be back again; I doubt I can sleep. This day has been a painful nightmare. I wish I knew how to quit thinking about you my sweet baby Heath. :\'(
I decided I hate the world.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain took 7 years to make.
I hate that Jack Twist died.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain didn't win best picture.
I hate that Heath didn't win best actor.
I hate that Australian Paparazzi attacked Heath with water guns.
I hate that Heath was forced to sell his home.
I hate that even after the efforts of Brokeback Mountain the Gay and Lesbian community is still being victimized.
I hate that Heath Ledger died.
I hate what his family and friends is going though.
I hate that Matilda will never meet her Dad.
I hate the paramedics couldn't revive him.
I hate knowing Heath died alone in his bed.
I hate the last image I will always have of Heath being chucked in the back of a car in a black morbid body bag.
I hate the 22nd of January
I hate waking up to the first day without Heath.
I hate crying.
But most of all I hate knowing I'll never see Heath in another film.
I hate a world without Heath.
I hate.
OMG :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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We talk a lot about Jack's and Ennis's fragilness, flaws, inperfections, and vulnerablities now its real life coming into our world. I know we will had and will have the same compassion, love and caring for Heath Ledger, the man, the human being, as we do for Ennis.
I won't give a damn about what is found, or not found. All I know is that he is gone and it's our loss. And when it all said and done, a little of him will be in all of us here.
Amen MG :ghug:
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Ethan, thank you so much for doing that. It really is a wonderful thing. :ghug:
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Oh that is so nice to read that Jake is on his way to be with Michelle. I feel so terrible for all his family and friends.
I was watching the news a lot tonight to get any new info but mostly to see lots of old clips and interviews. I found it so sad to see his body being taken away on that awful stretcher. And is it me or did anyone else thing that they werent' so gentle? He bounced on the curb, when the stretcher hit the back of the ambulance and it did look like they were tossing him in. Made me cry. But I suppose, they were trying to just do it quickly. Funny how you notice odd little things when you are grieving.
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Today I am still in shock of what happened today but am also thankful and relieved. I talked to my friend Val today after our big english exam and we soon got on the tpoic of the death of Heath Ledger. What she told me is that her friend Victoria is a big fan, introducing her to his film "Lords of Dogtown". From then, she has seen the Brothers Grimm and wants to see all of BBM which she has not been able to yet. She suggested that sometime this weekend we would commerate Heath by getting together, only friends who know the actor and love his work. Me and Val talked later tonight and have figured around 5 ppl come, watching 3 movies tops, espically BBM and Lords of Dogstown at my house. I'm worried about how I will deal with watching him again but I know it will hopefully help me grieve with his loss. I have also decided to create notebook dedicated to him, showing pictures from his life to his death..I have already gathered 2 from the Newsday newspaper this morning...oh Heath, how I wish all of this was just a long, long nightmare..
:ghug: Sweetie.
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Ethan, Thank you so much for doing that. I imagine that it was so impossily hard to be there. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: %)
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Thank you so much Ethan!! :ghug: :\'( :ghug:
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God bless you Ethan. I can only imagine how hard it must have been. :ghug: :^^)
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Thank you so much, Ethan!
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Why is it all hitting me right now? It's been a day and now I can't stop the tears. I decided to watch a 10 TIHAU vid on youtube and knowing that I will never see him again in another film, i just started to cry..I wanna believe he's still alive, I'm sorry if I keep posting these random posts..
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You are welcome. :ghug: :ghug: How I wish I didn't have this opportunity. It is the least thing I can do.
Thanks again for giving me the strength. I am proud of this forum for the love and support we have given each other.
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
Ethan
Thank you so much. It's still so difficult to accept that Heath is gone.
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It's still so difficult to accept that Heath is gone.
Oh yes.
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I have not been here in a very long time as my life has been so busy and taken some turns....and I was so glad to see the site was still here like an old friend.
I found out almost immediately about Heath from my best friend. I was training here at my home office and I couldn't go on, I had to call people--just felt the need to reach out. I think this also hit home because I am on some of the same medications as Heath (I have known about his meds for some time--but that's another story)--and I know what it's like to have anxiety and not be able to sleep--I feel his pain, that is fortunately now gone.
Life is short for all of us--just think about all the other people who died at a young age yesterday as well (and every day) but none of them are on TV nor are we speculating about their deaths. I think the "big picture" is what we all need to see; and I think we will. I know a lot of us here have somewhat difficult lives and sometimes life just seems like an endless string of Tuesdays--every day just the same.
Maybe now is the time for us all to try to do something fantastic in our lives? I have an extreme need to do something out of character or maybe a little bit scary (and to me just about everything is scary). Perhaps this horrible tragedy will help us all to live life more to the fullest and maybe stop being so afraid of situations, people, predjudice, etc. If Heath can give just one of us a gift that helps us to live a better life then there is no question that he will look down on the world and be happy.
In sincere love and gratitude,
Christina
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Maybe now is the time for us all to try to do something fantastic in our lives? I have an extreme need to do something out of character or maybe a little bit scary (and to me just about everything is scary). Perhaps this horrible tragedy will help us all to live life more to the fullest and maybe stop being so afraid of situations, people, predjudice, etc. If Heath can give just one of us a gift that helps us to live a better life then there is no question that he will look down on the world and be happy.
In sincere love and gratitude,
Christina
Well said. Thank you, Christina. Wonderful to hear from you. :ghug:
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Everyone has a personal way of handling grief. Some weep, some shout, some go grim and silent, and each reaction is valid and appropriate.
For me, I write. It's how I handle most of the emotions that assault me in my life. I write, between bouts of weeping and shouting.
So here is my method for venting, and I hope it does not offend anyone. It's all I know how to do.
In Mourning
It was just another Tuesday,
And it was raining somewhere.
The clouds were dark and roiling,
And the coffee water, boiling.
Were you so forgotten there?
Did you stand there at the window?
Were there children in the rain?
Did you hear their playful song,
Rising bright and sweet and strong?
Were you overcome with pain?
The sun must be shining somewhere,
In this place where you are not.
All the golden promise lost,
Can we even know the cost?
Find the why, the how, the what?
While the night is full of wonder,
Liquid silver pools of light,
For each single one that fails,
A spark of primal brilliance pales,
Takes one candle from the night.
And we sit here in the silence,
In the place where you belong,
Speaking softly of good-byes,
Recalling tender sable eyes
And sweet laughter like a song.
Now the world is growing darker
And the night is growing cold,
And the empty silence lingers
Wrapping hearts with icy fingers.
As the funeral bell is tolled.
So the prince has left the stage;
Strangers watch him go and sigh.
And the world spins right along,
But there is no mourning song,
Save the one that weeps “Good-bye.”
FINI
Cynical21, your poems are always moving and touching, aiming straight at the core of your theme. No one can find offense at you. They may regret being touched, being moved, but that is the price of sublime beauty. Without pain, we can hardly learn to live.
Thank you for that last stanza. The prince has indeed left the stage. And I suspect, the world will pause a little, yet, to sigh, to mourn, the loss of a great talent, the like we may never see again.
A man of such sensitivity
yet strong in character
and gentle in all his grace
A prince among men
whose vision of the world unseen
shines a beacon for us to follow
A star is born in heaven
whose light will guide us
from here to eternity
I for one will always remember
the prince who played a rogue, a knight, a ranch hand
a patriot, an addict, a son, a father, a man
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If I Had Only Known
If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only know
I'd never hear your voice again
You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away
If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you knew my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would've shown
If I had only known
I think it´s a song by Trisha Yearwood,a kind of requiem.Whatever it be,it´s suitable for this situation.
Gracias, myprivatejack. This is beautiful and appropriate. I was thinking of the same thing, and the song, if tomorrow never comes. If I'd only known, I'd have sent him a Christmas card, a letter, to thank him for the gift of a life changing movie, a role that personify so much meaning, so much love. :\'(
"If Tomorrow Never Comes"
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
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LC :ghug:
Thank you for sharing those beautiful words. And to mpj and Cyn and the gang. I've seen some remarkably comforting things expressed here. :^^)
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^^I think that's what makes it even sadder, that he was alone when he passed.
Me, too -- this is what really gives me a pain in my heart...
kathy
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:ghug: ksxks
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I don't want to.
Froggy, your black avatar... I would say I "like" it, but like isn't really the right word. I feel it, perhaps...
kathy
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Thank you so much, Ethan. We really needed you to do this...
kathy
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This poem was read by the rabbi who officiated at my mom's funeral it gave me some comfort I hope it might offer all of us some at well
Do Not Stand by my Grave and Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye
An early version, printed by others on postcards:
Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
Trekfan, thank you for this. I am going through a very strange mourning process where it is still not sunk in. To me, Heath is still alive, in my heart, in all our loving memories. So your poem is very appropriate for me. I will see him when a bird circle in flight, when I look up into heavens and see the starry night; I will see him in a horseback riding silhouette, or a snowy mountain, or the rustling leaves in an autumn breeze. I cry and grief when I read the many posts from people who had the opportunity to meet him, to know him, like the fella who was changing a tire, and Heath came up to help, or the little lady who starred at Heath in a shopping mall, too awe-struck to ask for an autograph, but earned from Heath those unforgettable smiles, looking back. Hearing these intimate portrayal of the gentle man, the kind man, the loving man we all know so well, but not so well, I feel the pain and loss of his closest friends, of his family, and my grief overwhelms me.
Then I return to reality, and with the loving companionship of everyone here, I face life again, and carry on, as if tomorrow, I can go and see other movies that Heath had made, that I have not seen, and find him as alive as yesterday, last year. I don't know why it is like this with me, that I am not devastated like others, just numbed with sadness, but grateful that he died asleep, and now is in heaven, finally, like Ennis finding the shirts, know truly how much he is loved. I am grateful for this community, to grief alone, in silence, was much worse. This is at least bearable.
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Wonderfully said honey. Thank you. :^^)
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Thank you so much Ethan :ghug:
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It was confirmed today on CTV news that Heath Ledger was to be on Location here in Vancouver, Canada on January 28 for shooting scenes for Imaginarium, that makes his loss even more sad, because it would have been a true possibility to meet with him, as here the actors are more relax and knowing Heath as very approachable with his fans.
it like getting a double dose of deceit topped off with sorrows :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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It was confirmed today on CTV news that Heath Ledger was to be on Location here in Vancouver, Canada on January 28 for shooting scenes for Imaginarium, that makes his loss even more sad, because it would have been a true possibility to meet with him, as here the actors are more relax and knowing Heath as very approachable with his fans.
it like getting a double dose of deceit topped off with sorrows :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
frenchcda, sometimes life is not as we expect it, or want it. As much as I would have loved to have met Heath, I am at peace that Heath died peacefully in his own apartment. He was apparently expecting a visit from one of his friends. I would have hated to have his death, in a strange hotel, and then surrounded by the paparazzi afterwards. This way, the tribute that is now building outside his apartment, is more meaningful. He deserves so much more.
:\'( :ghug:
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Thank you Ethan :ghug:
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Almost 24 hours for me here. It's 7 am in Spain. I slept 4 hours. Yesterday I ate nothing. 14 Hours in front of my laptop. I went to bed exhausted after the whole day crying and I was thinking of Heath, again and again. I've wake up thinking about him. My eyes and head aches so bad. I wanted to think beautiful things about him but when I tried I started to cry so wildly.
I have to go work now, but I don't want, I can't. I'm crying, shaking and I feel I'm going to vomit though I have nothing in my stomach. I feel really beaten and sad and cold and empty.
Today is worse than yesterday. Yesterday I was shocked but today I can see clearly after 24 hours crying: Heath is dead; he's not coming back again. I think I could die right now and I would be no sorry.
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I had the privilege of meeting Heath twice, he crawled around on his hands and knees signing like mad for us,he and Michelle seemed to be really in love,he was biting his fingernails and she reached over and gently removed his hand from his mouth and he promptly went mute.. she said" He can't talk unless I let go of his hand" I asked him about his gay uncle who had been a rolemodel for his crafting the character of Ennis. "He was tough , he could kick my ar**!" (laughter) . When it came time for him to leave he looked around frantically for Michelle in the crowd, without her he seemed lost. I rushed the stage stuck out my hand and he shook it ,I said "Congratulations on your nomination" He replied with those dancing black ball bearing eyes,and his shy half smile (just like Ennis).. "Thanks mate". I'm holding that autograph now, it is wet with my tears...G'day Heath, I'm glad to have met you. Thanks mate.
Oh my..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
He was so sweet and kind. I can't stop crying and I WANT but reading things like this I just simply can't..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Tell you what, I'm gonna die too, gonna die of sadness if I don't find a little tiny thing that make me feel better today.
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Howdy all,
My name is Linda but my friends call me Rory. I'm from The Philadelphia,PA area.
When I heard about Heath's passing My legs litterally gave away and I have no idea how long I sat stunned in the floor of my living room staring at the TV thinkng NO HE CAN'T BE DEAD!HE HAS THE NEW BATMAN MOVIE COMING OUT.
I'm still in shock, I slept for about 1 hour during lunch, couldn't eat, still have a lump in my throat and in the middle of a meeting started to cry silent tears when hears the song by Linda Rhondstat "It's so easy to fall in Love". :\'(
I discovered BBM only in last year when the DVD came out, and watched it every night for almost 2 months. The "pull" and emotion that Jake and Heath showed in their characters really drew me in so much. One of the messages that I got from the movie was that you should not let your happiness pass by no matter what people say or think. If it feels right or good to you, you should persue it with all of your heart, and that's what I did. I persued my love of horses at the age of 45. I took up western riding lessons and am hepling out at a horse farm on my weekends and I love every minute of it. :c) <^(
This will be my first riding competiton season so I am dedicating this season in loving memory of Heath.
I will be traveling to NYC on sunday, weather permitting, to lay a tribute in front of Heath's apartment. If anyone is from this area and would like to join me I would love to meet you. PM me
My heart felt thoughts and prayers go out to Health's family especially to Michelle and Matilda.
TTYS,
Rory
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Ethan - thank you for having the strength to go there and lay that tribute. I can only imagine how hard it must have been.
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the Academy's failure to give Ledger its best actor award for Brokeback Mountain ranks with its most hideous, cowardly decisions ever. Ledger will now be remembered as the victim of an epic miscarriage of justice, giving a truly astounding performance that somehow did not find favour with the grizzled, homophobic slobs who run Hollywood
The best bit from a wonderful tribute. So right.
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You are welcome. :ghug: :ghug: How I wish I didn't have this opportunity. It is the least thing I can do.
Thanks again for giving me the strength. I am proud of this forum for the love and support we have given each other.
thank you again ethan for having us taken with you %) ^f^
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Everyone has a personal way of handling grief. Some weep, some shout, some go grim and silent, and each reaction is valid and appropriate.
For me, I write. It's how I handle most of the emotions that assault me in my life. I write, between bouts of weeping and shouting.
So here is my method for venting, and I hope it does not offend anyone. It's all I know how to do.
In Mourning
It was just another Tuesday,
And it was raining somewhere.
The clouds were dark and roiling,
And the coffee water, boiling.
Were you so forgotten there?
So the prince has left the stage;
Strangers watch him go and sigh.
And the world spins right along,
But there is no mourning song,
Save the one that weeps “Good-bye.”
THAT was oure and amazing ! Thank you dear!!! :\'(
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I wish I knew how to quit thinking about you my sweet baby Heath. :\'(
I decided I hate the world.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain took 7 years to make.
I hate that Jack Twist died.
I hate the fact that Brokeback Mountain didn't win best picture.
I hate that Heath didn't win best actor.
I hate that Australian Paparazzi attacked Heath with water guns.
I hate that Heath was forced to sell his home.
I hate that even after the efforts of Brokeback Mountain the Gay and Lesbian community is still being victimized.
I hate that Heath Ledger died.
I hate what his family and friends is going though.
I hate that Matilda will never meet her Dad.
I hate the paramedics couldn't revive him.
I hate knowing Heath died alone in his bed.
I hate the last image I will always have of Heath being chucked in the back of a car in a black morbid body bag.
I hate the 22nd of January
I hate waking up to the first day without Heath.
I hate crying.
But most of all I hate knowing I'll never see Heath in another film.
I hate a world without Heath.
I hate.
BT. owh, my dear you did show your heart open on the table...it's so hearbraking
and I agree with you... it's the tragic reality at the moment.. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
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The depth of my suffering and grief over Heath Ledger's death caught me by surprise nearly as much as the news itself. It seems that my deepest feelings are unknown to me until something happens to bring them out. I never imagined that BBM and it's makers meant so much to me. I can't find any consolation. Religion and philosophy right now are cruel mockeries. I've got nothing but blackness pouring in. I feel irrational guilt in the situation as if I could have done something to prevent it, and I feel like condemning the whole world for letting it happen.
Manolo
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I've bought all Turkish newspapers,I'm reading and just crying..I can't stop my tears.. :\'(
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2FHeath%2FIMG_29821-1.jpg&hash=5dd5710ede50be0283ff9005744313d1bf1acbb1)
Ethan, Thank you for doing this for us. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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heres the link to tribute on my local radio station
http://www.brmb.co.uk/sectional.asp?id=22655
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OMG! I found this picture from Reuters on the web... do you remember the Toronto picture with Jake, Mississaugared & Tpe?
:\'(
Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FEnnis2%2Freuters.jpg&hash=c7a2cbc331b47f1899f34c9907b09c193a3fc826)
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OMG! I found this picture from Reuters on the web... do you remember the Toronto picture with Jake, Mississaugared & Tpe?
:\'(
Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FEnnis2%2Freuters.jpg&hash=c7a2cbc331b47f1899f34c9907b09c193a3fc826)
Oh my god :\'(
Cham - how are you, bud? :ghug:
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Cathing up my breath, this is the link,the article it's in French from Montreal's La Presse
http://moncinema.cyberpresse.ca/nouvelles-et-critiques/nouvelles/nouvelle-cinema/2753-Autopsie-non-concluante-pour-Heath-Ledger.html
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Oh my god :\'(
Cham - how are you, bud? :ghug:
A mess, why? :\'( Sh*t, it's the same press agency as in Toronto with the Jake's pix.
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god that's us.... i can't believe it!
cham, a big big hug :ghug:
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god that's us.... i can't believe it!
cham, a big big hug :ghug:
This is all for Ethan :ghug:
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A mess, why?
I was just worried 'cos I know how much you loved Heath and Ennis.
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This is all for Ethan :ghug:
:ghug:
for all of us dear, we are here together... and will be.. :ghug:
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Cathing up my breath, this is the link,the article it's in French from Montreal's La Presse
http://moncinema.cyberpresse.ca/nouvelles-et-critiques/nouvelles/nouvelle-cinema/2753-Autopsie-non-concluante-pour-Heath-Ledger.html
OMG. :\'( Cham, :ghug: and to EVERYONE, :ghug:
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Last time I wrote something on this forum was long time ago... But today, today, it's a different day. A day I never thought could come. I surfed the net here and there for Heath and I saw all those pictures that we all made comments about in the past. Remember? It was so funny 'cause it was a sort of contest trying to find always new pictures to post. Can you now believe that those pictures are over? Forever? I still cant!
What i know for sure (dammit!) is that Heath is gone and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! :\'(
(A big big kiss to all those who remember me and I shared thoughts and words and jokes and passion for Heath and BBM with. I hope to talk to you again soon...)
Malavix I missed you, I hear you too , no more new pictures of HEATH!!!What an inconceivable thought. :\'(
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Words cannot describe my sadness at his sudden death.
It warms my heart to see how well respected Heath was in this industry. He is truly loved around this forum. It's nice to see that the mass media is reminding the world how special he was....and will always be to me.
I hear you cowboy..ditto that :^^) :\'( :\'(
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Dear Brokies,
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2FHeath%2FIMG_29821-1.jpg&hash=5dd5710ede50be0283ff9005744313d1bf1acbb1)
Thank you so much Ethan for let us take part in this...it means so much to me! :^^)
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In loving memory , In loving memory of,In loving memory of Heath !!!.
I can not comprehend that this words linking with Heath ... %(
On top of this I'm with a flu that does not go away... so I took a sleeping pill because I haven't slept more then 3 hours since I heard the news.... It did the job, but I woke up to this tragic reality that it's indeed true..
Still I can not believe it. :\'(
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hpv... :ghug:
same for me.. i came here this morning, and opening the forum and seeing heath... all came back.
it is just so good that we can be here together.. :ghug:
take care of yourself - a flu not completely cured can be dangerous.. :ghug:
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The picture in the paper, how wonderful is that, yet I hate the reason for it being there. :\'(
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2FHeath%2FIMG_29821-1.jpg&hash=5dd5710ede50be0283ff9005744313d1bf1acbb1)
I just don't know...
Things really happen fast and don't seem to have any relationship with time until after the fact, which I am finding so hard to swallow.
Ethan, thank you for being such a responsible and loyal lover of that which is infinitely beautiful. We couldn't ask for a better bearer of our hearts. God bless.
:-\\
:\'(
God bless you, Heath.
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I was fighting with myself, whether or not to just not come here again. It's like our world shifted, things are not the same, I tried to watch the BBM, and it wasn't the same, when Heath came on the my screen, I couldn't take it, and turn it off. I was looking forward to seeing him in the new "Batman" flick, wanting to see his take on the Joker, and now I don't think I can watch it without feeling anger, at the lost of such a talented actor.
I was angry yesterday, but now not so much. We, all of us understood what we had and appreciated, we understand what we have and honor it, and now we won't forget him. Heath will never be a footnote, a trivia question, he will alway be to us and to world when they look back one of the greats.
I can understand why he lived in New York, a lot of people think of the crowds, the traffic, the fast pace, but if you wanted to be left alone to live a quiet life, and just be who you are. There no place better than here.
Like everything in life we just have to take this day to day. We'll have bad days and good ones. I know for me, I have this place to come no matter what kind of day I'm having.
Sorry for rambling on this way.
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ramble as much and you need to manhattangirl :ghug:
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manhattengirl you are rambling at all you are expressing your feelings, it needs to be done. :ghug:
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Like everything in life we just have to take this day to day. We'll have bad days and good ones. I know for me, I have this place to come no matter what kind of day I'm having.
Sorry for rambling on this way.
That's the beauty of this place - somewhere to come to laugh or cry, always knowing that there will be someone there to share either emotion with.
Don't apologise for rambling on - it would be far worse to lock your thoughts and emotions away inside.
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Ethan, thanks for taking the hard step of going to Broome Street to leave a tribute for Heath. I can only imagine how hard that must have been for you. I hope you know that we were all there with you. :ghug:
I'm still trying to come to terms with this terrible heartbreak. Reading all the wonderful tributes and memories of Heath help in one way, but in another makes me feel even sadder, because we shouldn't be reading them in this context. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Being here though is a wonderful place to be, knowing that everyone else is feeling what I am feeling. :ghug:
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I dropped away from this forum a while ago, (I used to be aimi15) but have always tried to keep up with the happenings. At the moment there's nowhere else I could possibly be, just reading the tributes is helping, knowing that everyone else feels such loss.
It's a terrible, terrible tragedy and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. I'm thankful he was there though, all be it for such a brief moment.
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Just :ghug: to everyone. I'm glad there is somewhere we can all come. Somewhere we all understand each other. :ghug:
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Just :ghug: to everyone. I'm glad there is somewhere we can all come. Somewhere we all understand each other. :ghug:
It's been that way for over 2 years now - this tragedy has just proved again what an incredible place this is.
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It's been that way for over 2 years now - this tragedy has just proved again what an incredible place this is.
You bet!!
That's what our forum is to me,the place that I can always come in time of joy and in time of sorrow..
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But I suspect he will be buried in Australia -- possibly Perth.
As with Chopin, I wish that they would bury Heath's body here in the US, and send his heart back to Perth.
It is my most honest belief, that Heath needs to be buried here, in Perth. This is his true home, where he was born, where he grew up, and most importantly of all, where his family reside.
It is true of course, that Heath is loved all over the world, so I can well understand your desire, to keep a part of him there in the US with you.
Yet please try and understand, ( but perhaps you already do), that more than any of us, his family need to have their son and brother, home again, to have him rest at last, in a special place, with the knowledge, that he will forever be close, and where they can visit at any time that they wish.
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But I suspect he will be buried in Australia -- possibly Perth.
As with Chopin, I wish that they would bury Heath's body here in the US, and send his heart back to Perth.
It is my most honest belief, that Heath needs to be buried here, in Perth. This is his true home, where he was born, where he grew up, and most importantly of all, where his family reside.
It is true of course, that Heath is loved all over the world, so I can well understand your desire, to keep a part of him there in the US with you.
Yet please try and understand, ( but perhaps you already do), that more than any of us, his family need to have their son and brother, home again, to have him rest at last, in a special place, with the knowledge, that he will forever be close, and where they can visit at any time that they wish.
As much as I understand tpe's desire to keep a part of Heath in the US, I agree that his body needs to be laid to rest in Australia, where his family can take care of him. I think that is the only right thing to do.
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I dropped away from this forum a while ago, (I used to be aimi15) but have always tried to keep up with the happenings. At the moment there's nowhere else I could possibly be, just reading the tributes is helping, knowing that everyone else feels such loss.
It's a terrible, terrible tragedy and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. I'm thankful he was there though, all be it for such a brief moment.
Hi Aimi. Remember me? I'm so glad you came back, so many people are finding there way back to this place, to share with others the grief we all feel. I'm so glad that you felt you had to be here. everyone is trying to be strong for each other, to support and deal with this unbelievable and tragic loss. :ghug:
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失去即是永远
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It's been that way for over 2 years now - this tragedy has just proved again what an incredible place this is.
You are so right, Lindsey and Rosie. I'm so glad to be here, even though I wish we were not going through this. But if I had to be anywhere, I would always want to be here. :ghug:
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You are so right, Lindsey and Rosie. I'm so glad to be here, even though I wish we were not going through this. But if I had to be anywhere, I would always want to be here. :ghug:
Yeah. What is it folks say? It's great to see you - I just wish the circumstances were better :-\\
I totally agree that Heath should be laid to rest in Australia too. His family are there and they need him close to them. And anyway, even though he lived thousands of miles away, Australia was his homeland and it's where his final resting place should be.
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Yeah. What is it folks say? It's great to see you - I just wish the circumstances were better :-\\
I totally agree that Heath should be laid to rest in Australia too. His family are there and they need him close to them. And anyway, even though he lived thousands of miles away, Australia was his homeland and it's where his final resting place should be.
Absolutely. Imagine how his family feel, knowing they weren't there when he died? They would want him to be with them, when he is laid to rest. It's got to be that way.
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You are so right, Lindsey and Rosie. I'm so glad to be here, even though I wish we were not going through this. But if I had to be anywhere, I would always want to be here. :ghug:
I'll just dito that.
I'm still in lost with the English language.
Big hug to everybody :ghug:
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I can see that the pain and loss are as strong as ever for so many of us. We can only hope that with each day it will get a little better and that his family will experience the same healing process.
I am forever grateful for everything he gave us during his life, and forever grateful to have this place to gather together with all of you while we try to come to terms with his death. :ghug:
Thank you, Heath, for sharing yourself with us. And thank you forum family, for sharing yourselves as well. :^^)
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I can see that the pain and loss are as strong as ever for so many of us. We can only hope that with each day it will get a little better and that his family will experience the same healing process.
I am forever grateful for everything he gave us during his life, and forever grateful to have this place to gather together with all of you while we try to come to terms with his death. :ghug:
Thank you, Heath, for sharing yourself with us. And thank you forum family, for sharing yourselves as well. :^^)
Oh Barb, that's just beautiful. And so true. :^^)
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:ghug: christie.
It still feels a little weird going out around people who are walking around like it's just another day, and acting like this news is just another item from the daily file.
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Hi all. second not happy day. I got to work, and my boss asked immediately what's wrong with me, coz I look so sad. I told her, and she understood (Glad of that).
This song came to my mind today, I'll post it here...
Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Susanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to
I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way
Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Been walking my mind to an easy time my back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it'll turn your head around
Well, there's hours of time on the telephone line to talk about things
to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground
Oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now
Thought I'd see you one more time again
There's just a few things coming my way this time around, now
Thought I'd see you, thought I'd see you fire and rain, now
James Taylor
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For me I had a dream and hopes to see Heath Ledger in Vancouver for the filming of Imaginarium...
Indeed, what a missed opportunity.
I myself wanted so much for Heath to sign the BBM pup tent "one of these days", joining his autograph with Ang Lee's, Schamus's, and (at some future date, I hope) Jake's. Now, I know it is not meant to be.
I only caught a glimpse of him from afar here in Chicago last summer, when they were filming the funeral scene for "The Dark Knight". I didn't even know then that it was him until someone pointed him out to me. So close, and yet so far...
What saddens me is the possibility that Parnassus may never see the light of day. It sounds a bit strange and unjustified, but I feel that I've been robbed if such a thing would indeed come to pass.
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
Thank you so much, Ethan.
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Hello, sorry for my poor english, because I am french.
I'd just wanted to say : Heath You miss me.
Love to all
chrichri
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Sorry, : Heath I miss you
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Sorry, : Heath I miss you
We do, we miss you so much.
I saw Heath on the news walking the red carpet, it spun me out because for I moment I forgot and then realised we would never see him do that again.
I was hoping if he came here for the Batman premier to go and watch him on the red carpet. :\'(
I am going to try to sleep :\'(
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I understand Asali, that's so hard...
Try to sleep if you can :(
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Oh that is so nice to read that Jake is on his way to be with Michelle. I feel so terrible for all his family and friends.
I was watching the news a lot tonight to get any new info but mostly to see lots of old clips and interviews. I found it so sad to see his body being taken away on that awful stretcher. And is it me or did anyone else thing that they werent' so gentle? He bounced on the curb, when the stretcher hit the back of the ambulance and it did look like they were tossing him in. Made me cry. But I suppose, they were trying to just do it quickly. Funny how you notice odd little things when you are grieving.
Alas, there are conflicting reports this morning, saying that Jake is being "kept" from leaving by the filming of "Brothers" in New Mexico. The reports do say that he is terribly upset, and that the media has been barred from speaking to him.
Since we really don't know what is afoot, it is probably better to end speculation about Jake's plans until we get confirmation from any of the major papers about this.
Personally I have no doubt that the thing about the media is true -- Jake has always been a private person, not wishing to feed any media circus surrounding Heath's death, and not putting himself in the spotlight during such a trying time. After all, I suspect that this is a PERSONAL loss to him, and who are we to violate this, good fans though we are of BBM?
I also don't doubt that he has contacted the parties most affected. His pain is for their ears only, for the time being. So long as he remains this way, let us respect him in his silence, as we always had.
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I will be traveling to NYC on sunday, weather permitting, to lay a tribute in front of Heath's apartment. If anyone is from this area and would like to join me I would love to meet you. PM me
My heart felt thoughts and prayers go out to Health's family especially to Michelle and Matilda.
TTYS,
Rory
Wonderful, Rory. Remember all of us here when you offer your tribute.
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OMG! I found this picture from Reuters on the web... do you remember the Toronto picture with Jake, Mississaugared & Tpe?
:\'(
Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FEnnis2%2Freuters.jpg&hash=c7a2cbc331b47f1899f34c9907b09c193a3fc826)
I hate not seeing this picture... Accursed office blockers!
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Like many others, I dropped out of actively participating in the forum some time ago. I was battleing depression brought on by the Brokeback aftermath, and I needed to get my life back on track. With your compassion and support, I was able to do so, but here I am back again with all my friends that I miss so much. I, WE, can't let this tragedy bring us back to the depths were so many others want us to be. We accomplished so much because of Brokeback, and the courage of Heath and Jake and Ang to tell our story. I am going to think of this as Ennis and Jack finally getting together to start that little calf-and-cow operation that will give them the sweet life that jack had dreamed of for so long. My heartfelt sympathy to all of you here on the forum. Heath, you will never know how much you touched our lives. Rest in peace dear friend. You did OK, you were loved. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
meandennis
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Cathing up my breath, this is the link,the article it's in French from Montreal's La Presse
http://moncinema.cyberpresse.ca/nouvelles-et-critiques/nouvelles/nouvelle-cinema/2753-Autopsie-non-concluante-pour-Heath-Ledger.html
Thanks Cham. I see the picture now. Wonderful!
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It still feels a little weird going out around people who are walking around like it's just another day, and acting like this news is just another item from the daily file.
That is to remind us all, that life does indeed go on. People die everyday, it is an unavoidable and common occurance. Some grieve for those who are gone, others just carry on regardless, are they doing so, with a form of acceptance of their own mortality? Or in denial of it?
I have not cried for Heath's passing, but that does not mean that it has not saddened me. For it has greatly. Especially as he is from the same part of Australia as myself. Physically Heath has left this world, but there are so many other ways in which he is still here, among us all, and even more so, among his family and friends. It is those ways, in which death cannot fully claim a person. Death cannot steal memories and love, for they shall remain, for as long as there are those who shall remember him, and who shall pass off the memories of Heath onto others.
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But I suspect he will be buried in Australia -- possibly Perth.
As with Chopin, I wish that they would bury Heath's body here in the US, and send his heart back to Perth.
It is my most honest belief, that Heath needs to be buried here, in Perth. This is his true home, where he was born, where he grew up, and most importantly of all, where his family reside.
It is true of course, that Heath is loved all over the world, so I can well understand your desire, to keep a part of him there in the US with you.
Yet please try and understand, ( but perhaps you already do), that more than any of us, his family need to have their son and brother, home again, to have him rest at last, in a special place, with the knowledge, that he will forever be close, and where they can visit at any time that they wish.
Well said. The latest news are indeed saying that he will be buried in Australia. As you have said, it is only right, as much as we want to keep a part of him here.
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Hello everybody. Another sad day. No way to forget, to go beyond all this. Not yet.
Meanwhile, I want you to check this guestbook, online since yesterday...
http://www.legacy.com/SFGate/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=101716459&PageNo=1
A kiss to all. Alex.
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Hi Aimi. Remember me? I'm so glad you came back, so many people are finding there way back to this place, to share with others the grief we all feel. I'm so glad that you felt you had to be here. everyone is trying to be strong for each other, to support and deal with this unbelievable and tragic loss. :ghug:
Hi Christie, of course I remember you. :) God, this is like a horrible nightmare. It difficult knowing quite how to process what's happened, it's such a shock. It's great that the whole fandom is being so supportive of each other, but this fandom has always felt very strongly bonded. :ghug:
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Like many others, I dropped out of actively participating in the forum some time ago. I was battleing depression brought on by the Brokeback aftermath, and I needed to get my life back on track. With your compassion and support, I was able to do so, but here I am back again with all my friends that I miss so much. I, WE, can't let this tragedy bring us back to the depths were so many others want us to be. We accomplished so much because of Brokeback, and the courage of Heath and Jake and Ang to tell our story. I am going to think of this as Ennis and Jack finally getting together to start that little calf-and-cow operation that will give them the sweet life that jack had dreamed of for so long. My heartfelt sympathy to all of you here on the forum. Heath, you will never know how much you touched our lives. Rest in peace dear friend. You did OK, you were loved. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
meandennis
To meandennis and to the "many others": this place is always here for all of you.
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Hi Christie, of course I remember you. :) God, this is like a horrible nightmare. It difficult knowing quite how to process what's happened, it's such a shock. It's great that the whole fandom is being so supportive of each other, but this fandom has always felt very strongly bonded. :ghug:
Good to see you also, Aimi. :) The current circumstances are sad, but seeing old friends at this time is both a comfort and a joy.
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http://www.dailyindia.com/show/210352.php/Ledger-to-be-buried-in-Australia
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Ledger to be buried in Australia
From our ANI Correspondent
New York, Jan 24: Oscar nominated actor Health Ledger will be buried in his hometown of Perth, Australia.
A source at the Frank E. Campbell funeral chapel told the New York Post's Page Six that the funeral house was preparing to ship the 28-year-old's body to his home country as soon as possible.
Michelle Lee, a rep for the Australian consulate, confirmed the report saying: "Our consulate has been in contact with his family and has offered assistance to help fly Heath's body back to Australia."
The Frank E. Campbell funeral chapel has been the final stop for many of the world's most famous names including Jackie Kennedy Onassis, John Lennon, Judy Garland and Luther Vandross.
Ledger passed away on Jan 22 at his New York apartment. His body was found by a masseuse and a housekeeper.
The police have said that there was no signs yet of foul play or suicide. Cops also dismissed reports that illegal drugs were found in the apartment.
A post-mortem conducted overnight on the actor was found to be "inconclusive".
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Good to see you also, Aimi. :) The current circumstances are sad, but seeing old friends at this time is both a comfort and a joy.
It's lovely to know that so many people who are very dear to me are still here. :) It's a terrible time and I'm extremely thankful for the support of the fandom. I have an overwhelming urge to sit and watch BBM again, but I'm afraid it would be too painful. One day at a time...
All my best wishes and hugs to you. I hope you are bearing up. :ghug:
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I found this comment around the net...
"Ennis Del Mar will stay with me the rest of my life and is the reason why I took the foolish death of a total stranger to my heart and had trouble sleeping. BROKEBACK already ruined me because of the ways in which I haven't live my life to the fullest, but I'll be pulling out Santolalla's score today and as I crest the hill down into the still dark city that guitar will very likely carry with it all the sadness in the world. Fuc***' movie stars."
Wanted to share it...
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We have to give ourselves some time, Aimi. As you say, it would be too painful under the current circumstances.
Even if we don't see each other often these days, you know that we have this sense of belonging to this global BBM family. We carry it wherever we are. :)
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I found this comment around the net...
"Ennis Del Mar will stay with me the rest of my life and is the reason why I took the foolish death of a total stranger to my heart and had trouble sleeping. BROKEBACK already ruined me because of the ways in which I haven't live my life to the fullest, but I'll be pulling out Santolalla's score today and as I crest the hill down into the still dark city that guitar will very likely carry with it all the sadness in the world. Fuc***' movie stars."
Wanted to share it...
Thank you for sharing this, malawix. It certainly makes sense to all of us here.
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Mary-Kate Olsen called before Ledger's ambulance
By David Nason and Robert Lusetich January 25, 2008 01:00am
THE frantic moments surrounding the discovery of Heath Ledger's naked body have begun to emerge, with reports that the massage therapist who found him telephoned US celebrity Mary-Kate Olsen twice before calling an ambulance.
As initial autopsy results failed to provide a cause of the 28-year-old actor's death, police confirmed six types of prescription drugs, including a mix of anti-anxiety medication and sleeping pills, were found in his apartment.
The news came as Ledger's former partner, Michelle Williams, flew to New York from Sweden with their daughter, Matilda.
Ledger's masseuse, Diana Wolozin, phoned Olsen twice before ringing 911. In the first call, Olsen told Ms Wolozin to wait while she sent some of her security people to the apartment to find out what was going on.
After failing once more to revive Ledger, the masseuse rang Olsen a second time to say she was going to call 911 for help.
When she did, the 911 operator urged Ms Wolozin to try to revive Ledger but her efforts failed. Paramedics arrived at the same time as Olsen's security guards.
The paramedics moved Ledger to the floor and tried to revive him using a defibrillator and CPR. But he was was pronounced dead at 3.36pm local time.
It could be another 10 days before toxicology tests are able to show the cause of his death.
Police have confirmed that nearly full bottles of the anti-anxiety medications Alprazolam (Xanax), Diazepam (Valium) and Lorazepam (Ativan) were found in his apartment, along with Ambien and Zopiclone (Lunesta) sleeping pills and the sedative Temazepam (Restoril). All the drugs were prescribed to Ledger but rumours of illict drug use have begun to circulate.
In London, The Sun quoted a former Naomi Campbell employee who said they saw Ledger on a cocaine binge with the super model in 2004.
Tests on a rolled-up $US20 bill found by police in Ledger's apartment proved negative when tested for illegal drugs.
The most likely cause of death remains an accidental overdose of the anti-anxiety drugs, which can significantly slow breathing.
Combined with a heavy fluid build-up in his lungs from a bout of pneumonia, the drugs may have been too much for Ledger's weakened body.
As his body was transported to a chapel in New York, his family in Perth began making arrangements for a funeral.
Ledger's father, Kim, was last night planning to travel to the US to bring his son home.
His high school in Perth, Guildford Grammar, has offered to hold a memorial for the movie star but a spokesman said they had not yet received a response from the family.
One of the most reviled hate groups in the US has vowed to disrupt New York and Hollywood memorial services for Heath Ledger, saying the actor was a pervert who mocked God when he played a gay cowboy in Brokeback Mountain.
Film director Shekhar Kapur, who directed Ledger in The Four Feathers, may have been the last person to speak with the actor. Kapur telephoned him on Monday after arriving in New York from London.
"I last spoke to him the night before he died," Kapur said.
"He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body."
Additional reporting: Alana Buckley-Carr
http://www.news.com.au/entertainment/story/0,26278,23104187-10388,00.html (http://www.news.com.au/entertainment/story/0,26278,23104187-10388,00.html)
I would like to know..why on earth was she called before the ambulance service? Would it have made much of a difference, if the Ambo's were called first? :(
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As much as I would love an opportunity to one day kneel beside his grave and express my grief at his passing, I do believe that his burial in Perth is the right thing to do - for him and for his family. Given the unforgiveably ugly rumors about the Wacko Baptist Church and their threats to picket his funeral service, I think it's best that he be taken as far away as possible for such horrors - and I would hope that the Australian authorities would be less 'forgiving' in their attitude toward such abominations than our "policitically correct" enforcement personnel.
Today, more than ever, I simply cannot understand how supposedly rational, normal people can be so filled with hate and cruelty.
Again, rest in peace, Sweet Prince.
CYN
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Hi all. second not happy day. I got to work, and my boss asked immediately what's wrong with me, coz I look so sad. I told her, and she understood (Glad of that).
This song came to my mind today, I'll post it here...
Thought I'd see you one more time again
Oh wow. This song has affected me in the past and certainly does now.
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http://www.dailyindia.com/show/210352.php/Ledger-to-be-buried-in-Australia
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Ledger to be buried in Australia
From our ANI Correspondent
New York, Jan 24: Oscar nominated actor Health Ledger will be buried in his hometown of Perth, Australia.
A source at the Frank E. Campbell funeral chapel told the New York Post's Page Six that the funeral house was preparing to ship the 28-year-old's body to his home country as soon as possible.
Michelle Lee, a rep for the Australian consulate, confirmed the report saying: "Our consulate has been in contact with his family and has offered assistance to help fly Heath's body back to Australia."
The Frank E. Campbell funeral chapel has been the final stop for many of the world's most famous names including Jackie Kennedy Onassis, John Lennon, Judy Garland and Luther Vandross.
Ledger passed away on Jan 22 at his New York apartment. His body was found by a masseuse and a housekeeper.
The police have said that there was no signs yet of foul play or suicide. Cops also dismissed reports that illegal drugs were found in the apartment.
A post-mortem conducted overnight on the actor was found to be "inconclusive".
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I am so so glad this is happening. I think Heath going home is the only right thing to come from this horrible tragedy. His family want to be near him, and I hope that they can find some solace in that. My heart breaks for them. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate country, and have to console yourself with the bravery of minks and muskrats. A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things...
I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life... to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
(Thoreau, Walden)
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Thank you all. Your words are very comforting for the time like this. The forum appreciates that you take time and share your support with us.
This is a gift that BBM and Heath has given us and we are forever grateful. More kisses and hugs to everyone of you. You are all in my thoughts. :ghug:
Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:\'( :\'( cham, thanks for you posting this pix.
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"He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body."
That is really an eerily thought provoking quote..
So many unanswered questions..
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Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your hearth chose, only time?
Who can say why your heart sights,
As your live flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies, only time?
Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....
Who can say if your love groves,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?
Who knows? Only time
Who knows? Only time
- Enya -
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In Loving Memory
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=t13mh5HB_pk
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OMG! I found this picture from Reuters on the web... do you remember the Toronto picture with Jake, Mississaugared & Tpe?
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Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh my.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Like many others, I dropped out of actively participating in the forum some time ago. I was battleing depression brought on by the Brokeback aftermath, and I needed to get my life back on track. With your compassion and support, I was able to do so, but here I am back again with all my friends that I miss so much. I, WE, can't let this tragedy bring us back to the depths were so many others want us to be. We accomplished so much because of Brokeback, and the courage of Heath and Jake and Ang to tell our story. I am going to think of this as Ennis and Jack finally getting together to start that little calf-and-cow operation that will give them the sweet life that jack had dreamed of for so long. My heartfelt sympathy to all of you here on the forum. Heath, you will never know how much you touched our lives. Rest in peace dear friend. You did OK, you were loved. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
meandennis
This is so true meandennis - it is a tragedy, and it has affected us deeply - but the best thing and probably the most imperative thing to do, is to go ahead - to continue making those steps in understanding, to continue spreading that message of love, to share the dreams that have evolved within us - but most of all to continue. For it is in our lives that we can offer the most heartfelt tribute, one that will continue after others have faded.
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Thursday morning, and I still can't believe that he's gone. One positive is that I have this place to go to, to be with people who are grieving just as much as I am. No one in my family seems to understand how I'm feeling. It's as though I've lost a close friend. Never have I felt this way about a famous person's passing before - NEVER. I'm just sick over this.
Anyway, I wrote this poem yesterday and posted it on my LiveJournal:
January 22, 2008
Tell me it's not happening
Tell me it's not real
Tell me I'm not feeling
This anguish that I feel.
Tell me you'll be coming back
And that I need not fear
Tell me you'll return to me
Please say you will, my dear.
The world is now, so suddenly,
A dark and lonely place
I cannot bear to think I'll
No longer see your face.
You shone your light upon us
A beautiful, sweet soul
You gave it all, and poured your heart
Into each and every role.
Now they say that you've gone
I can't believe that's true
For how are we to carry on
Without wonderful you?
Now your soul has flown away
But even as I cry
Within my heart, you will remain
So I'll not say goodbye.
Peace be with you, Mr. Ledger.
Edited to add: Thank you, ethan, for placing that tribute. I wish I could be in NY right now.
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As much as I would love an opportunity to one day kneel beside his grave and express my grief at his passing, I do believe that his burial in Perth is the right thing to do - for him and for his family. Given the unforgiveably ugly rumors about the Wacko Baptist Church and their threats to picket his funeral service, I think it's best that he be taken as far away as possible for such horrors - and I would hope that the Australian authorities would be less 'forgiving' in their attitude toward such abominations than our "policitically correct" enforcement personnel.
Today, more than ever, I simply cannot understand how supposedly rational, normal people can be so filled with hate and cruelty.
Again, rest in peace, Sweet Prince.
CYN
Me neither :\'(
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^^I think that's what makes it even sadder, that he was alone when he passed.
This just totally cuts me up.
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From:
http://www.tmz.com/category/heath-ledger/
Where is Jake Gyllenhaal?
Jake Gyllenhaal has yet to be seen or heard from since the death of his close friend, Heath Ledger -- and people on the set of his new film are working hard to keep it that way.
Gyllenhaal is in New Mexico, currently filming his new movie, "Brothers." We're told there are no plans to shut down production, but Jake is very upset and doesn't want to talk to the media -- so the set has been closed to non-crew members and extra security has been hired.
Jake is the godfather to Heath's daughter, Matilda Rose.
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Thursday morning, and I still can't believe that he's gone. One positive is that I have this place to go to, to be with people who are grieving just as much as I am. No one in my family seems to understand how I'm feeling. It's as though I've lost a close friend. Never have I felt this way about a famous person's passing before - NEVER. I'm just sick over this.
Anyway, I wrote this poem yesterday and posted it on my LiveJournal:
January 22, 2008
Tell me it's not happening
Tell me it's not real
Tell me I'm not feeling
This anguish that I feel.
Tell me you'll be coming back
And that I need not fear
Tell me you'll return to me
Please say you will, my dear.
The world is now, so suddenly,
A dark and lonely place
I cannot bear to think I'll
No longer see your face.
You shone your light upon us
A beautiful, sweet soul
You gave it all, and poured your heart
Into each and every role.
Now they say that you've gone
I can't believe that's true
For how are we to carry on
Without wonderful you?
Now your soul has flown away
But even as I cry
Within my heart, you will remain
So I'll not say goodbye.
Peace be with you, Mr. Ledger.
Edited to add: Thank you, ethan, for placing that tribute. I wish I could be in NY right now.
Oh thats just beautiful and so so sad. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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From:
http://www.tmz.com/category/heath-ledger/
Where is Jake Gyllenhaal?
Jake Gyllenhaal has yet to be seen or heard from since the death of his close friend, Heath Ledger -- and people on the set of his new film are working hard to keep it that way.
Gyllenhaal is in New Mexico, currently filming his new movie, "Brothers." We're told there are no plans to shut down production, but Jake is very upset and doesn't want to talk to the media -- so the set has been closed to non-crew members and extra security has been hired.
Jake is the godfather to Heath's daughter, Matilda Rose.
We all know that Jake will be devastated by this news, as we all are. He will be grieving the loss of a very dear friend. He just hasn't got to do that in public.
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Thomas has given me permission to post a link to a wonderful memorial blog set up by Theresa, who some of you may remember. She used to run Heath Ledger Central which was a fantastic and very well respected site for Heath fans. She was also a good friend to ennisjack, as well as to Heath himself. Please visit if you can.
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/
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Alas, there are conflicting reports this morning, saying that Jake is being "kept" from leaving by the filming of "Brothers" in New Mexico. The reports do say that he is terribly upset, and that the media has been barred from speaking to him.
Since we really don't know what is afoot, it is probably better to end speculation about Jake's plans until we get confirmation from any of the major papers about this.
Personally I have no doubt that the thing about the media is true -- Jake has always been a private person, not wishing to feed any media circus surrounding Heath's death, and not putting himself in the spotlight during such a trying time. After all, I suspect that this is a PERSONAL loss to him, and who are we to violate this, good fans though we are of BBM?
I also don't doubt that he has contacted the parties most affected. His pain is for their ears only, for the time being. So long as he remains this way, let us respect him in his silence, as we always had.
Beautifully well said Thomas. I know for sure he's devastated. He lost a friend. I respect that so I respect his silence. That's the way it has to be: crying with Heath's family and friends and not with media.
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Am still having trouble with the use of the word "fans". I always felt we were family.
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This was posted on the blog that Theresa set up - it's so beautiful I just had to repost it here. I hope Theresa doesn't mind.
Miss Me, But Let Me Go
Author Unknown
When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds. Miss me, but let me go.
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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THANK YOU SO SO MUCH for doing this :^^)
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Thank you for your thoughts and poem, Christie......I, too, can barely come to terms with the loss of our extraordinary actor.....but upon first hearing the news, I shuddered as I realized that my first reaction was heartbreak because Ennis Del Mar, not Heath Ledger, had died after so many years of lonliness without Jack!...that's how intertwined Heath and Ennis are in my imagination! Even now, after seeing so many news reports on TV about the death of Heath Ledger, I feel at the same time the death of Ennis. Maybe that's the bittersweet truth of a great film, of great Art: it becomes more real that its creaters......
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TMZ is now reporting that Heath has been taken to a New York funeral chapel, and there will be a viewing today. How I wish that I could go. :(
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This was posted on the blog that Theresa set up - it's so beautiful I just had to repost it here. I hope Theresa doesn't mind.
Miss Me, But Let Me Go
Author Unknown
When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds. Miss me, but let me go.
It tore me up Lindsey. Its so beautifully heartbreaking. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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This is from Theresa's blog that Christie posted the link to.
OMG.
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A Melbourne artist has released his never-before-seen portrait of Heath Ledger a day after the Australian actor's death.
Docklands-based Vincent Fantauzzo's haunting portrait depicts Ledger as three separate figures, one looking straight on, the others whispering into each of the central figure's ears.
Fantauzzo painted the actor's portrait with the intention of entering it into the prestigious Archibald Prize, Australia's premier portraiture competition.
Ledger, 28, sat for the painter on his final trip back to his native state of Western Australia in December.
The actor was found dead in his Manhattan apartment on Tuesday of what authorities say may be an accidental drug overdose.
Fantauzzo released the image today after receiving approval to do so from Ledger's friends and family.
"Heath was an inspiring and remarkable friend, son, and father," Fantauzzo said of his subject.
"Heath was a very private person, which is one of the reasons I was so honoured that he allowed me to paint him.
Mr Fantauzzo described Ledger as a natural artist's model, who needed no direction to pose for the portrait.
"He was so easy, and professional to work with," Mr Fantauzzo said.
"He didn't need any direction, absolutely focused.
"Once done, he was back to his usual charismatic self."
Mr Fantauzzo expressed his condolences to Ledger's family.
"My thoughts are with his family, and friends who must all be feeling such pain at the moment.
"It's a hard time, a sad time, and i hope we can find a way to focus on the good memories and move forward in a positive direction. We all love Heath dearly."
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
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Police have confirmed that nearly full bottles of the anti-anxiety medications Alprazolam (Xanax), Diazepam (Valium) and Lorazepam (Ativan) were found in his apartment, along with Ambien and Zopiclone (Lunesta) sleeping pills and the sedative Temazepam (Restoril). All the drugs were prescribed to Ledger but rumours of illict drug use have begun to circulate.
The most likely cause of death remains an accidental overdose of the anti-anxiety drugs, which can significantly slow breathing.
Combined with a heavy fluid build-up in his lungs from a bout of pneumonia, the drugs may have been too much for Ledger's weakened body.
My poor baby.... :\'( :\'( :\'( He was so tired....he couldn't stand all those pills and his pneumonia.... :\'( :\'(
And he was sad too....'cause he had anti-anxiety medications.....He being sad just breaks my heart... :\'( :\'(
I would like to know..why on earth was she called before the ambulance service? Would it have made much of a difference, if the Ambo's were called first? :(
Yeah, I was thinking that the whole morning. Damn.
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Thank you all for your support, how we are supporting each other Ethan thank you for going to Heath's apt building and paying your respect for all of us. I wish I could be there too!
thanks Thomas for the news about where Heath will be buried. I figured his family would want him home in Perth. I hope that perhaps someone might put up a memorial somewhere in NY where people could visit and pay their respects for years to come.
I am feeling so torn up right now
Linda
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“I’m a very easy going person in real life,” Heath Ledger told FILMINK while doing press for Brokeback Mountain. “Giving an interview is just a very different situation than being at home and talking to my family and friends. I don’t look at myself as a star or a famous actor. So talking to you makes me feel strange because I feel like I have to design something for the press that I feel is not there. But the last thing I want to be is rude to people. It’s just that I’ve always found it painful, because in a perfect world I would rather not talk about myself."
Oh my, he was a very good man, just sweet, tender, humble, natural....
I only slept 4 hours and woke up in the middle of the night just wanting, NEEDING huge him so hard. I needed to tell him that everything's gonna be OK, but now I realize that I needed him to tell me that everything is Ok.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thank yo so much Ethan for everything you've done.
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
That's such a beautiful idea Ethan. I know it's going to be hard for you both, but remember, we will be with you in spirit. :ghug:
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I've just found a video from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with Ellen remembering Heath. Touching and devastating.
Here: http://www.cineblog.it/post/8748/ellen-degeneres-ricorda-heath-ledger
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I've just found a video from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with Ellen remembering Heath. Touching and devastating.
Here: http://www.cineblog.it/post/8748/ellen-degeneres-ricorda-heath-ledger
Indeed, very moving. That clip was a wonderful thing to remember him by.
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.....but upon first hearing the news, I shuddered as I realized that my first reaction was heartbreak because Ennis Del Mar, not Heath Ledger, had died after so many years of lonliness without Jack!...that's how intertwined Heath and Ennis are in my imagination! Even now, after seeing so many news reports on TV about the death of Heath Ledger, I feel at the same time the death of Ennis. Maybe that's the bittersweet truth of a great film, of great Art: it becomes more real that its creaters......
Just wanted to say that this really describes how I feel. I love Heath because he brought Ennis to life and Ennis, my god, he's a part of my soul. The way Heath captured that character was almost other-worldly.
I pray that this good man is at peace and his loved ones find comfort.
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Ethan - thanks for dropping off flowers and beautiful pics on behalf of this site. I haven't had the stomach to go yet. The papers here in NYC (Post, etc) are so sad. he's still front page. :(
I'm so glad to hear he'll be in Australia to be buried. I'd want my son near me too. My heart aches for his little girl.....I'm sure Heath is so disappointed that he won't be around physically during her life...
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This was posted on the blog that Theresa set up - it's so beautiful I just had to repost it here. I hope Theresa doesn't mind.
Miss Me, But Let Me Go
Author Unknown
When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds. Miss me, but let me go.
Aww.. Lindsey. Thank you for posting that here. It makes me cry..but it is beautiful.
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Heath Ledger: His Last Costar Reflects
Christopher Plummer talks to EW.com about the loss of his castmate from their yet-to-be-completed Terry Gilliam film ''The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus''
By Steve Daly
Steve Daly is a senior writer at EW, and also author of EW.com's Money Shot columnLast week in London, Heath Ledger was busy wrapping up several months of long days and nights he'd spent at often-frigid outdoor locations, filming scenes for The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. But with Ledger's death on Tuesday in New York, the movie has become a reported $30 million question mark, since there were additional weeks of studio-soundstage filming yet to be done in Vancouver.
Imaginarium is a fantasy tale, written and directed by Terry Gilliam, a filmmaker known for his outlandish visual invention (he previously worked with Ledger on 2005's The Brothers Grimm). Christopher Plummer, who's now 78, plays the title character, an eccentric theatrical trouper trapped in a deal with the devil (Tom Waits) that dooms Parnassus's lovely daughter, Valentina (played by British-born model Lily Cole). Ledger was playing Tony, a roguish charlatan who gets mixed up with the troupe and begins a series of through-the-magic-mirror adventures to a strange parallel universe.
Early on Sunday, Jan. 20, Plummer boarded a plane back to New York and went on to his Connecticut home. Ledger took a different London-to-New-York flight and repaired to a SoHo apartment where, two days later, he was found dead. EW spoke with Ledger's final costar about what happened, what the filming was like, and what may or may not become of the last scenes Ledger ever performed.
ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: It seems incomprehensible.
CHRISTOPHER PLUMMER: We're all a bit befuddled at the moment. It's so sad. Heath did have a terrible, lingering bug in London, and he couldn't sleep at all. We all — I thought he'd probably got walking pneumonia, which they seem to think he had. Of course I don't really know, but that's the latest.
Where had you been working?
In and around London. Lots of sinister-looking, horrible locations. Places like Battersea Power Station, where the interior's all open, with huge hanging girders. The light comes in and creates this sort of vast, horrible Valpurgis Night. It's a very sinister building, and it's used sometimes for films. They shot some of [the new] Batman film in there. It's a designated building, protected, so they can't tear it down. It's just standing there gaping at everybody. Very effective. The last few days we were shooting outside a pub. Always outside. Cold as bejesus. You know how damp it gets in London. And at night the temperature drops horribly, and that little breeze gets up. You have to wear tons of stuff.
How much is left undone on the film?
Oh, there's an enormous amount left to do. This is why we were going to Vancouver. All the technical stuff, the green-screen, was to be done in Vancouver. God knows what's going to happen now.
That seems like a pretty substantial blow to the movie.
Of course it is. The film wasn't half made.... It's just terrifying. It had so much going for it, and there was so much new stuff we were all going to put into it to help it along. It was a sort of work of invention, from all hands.... And Terry [Gilliam] has had this experience before, with [The Man Who Killed] Don Quixote, with Johnny Depp.
Which famously fell apart early in the filming.
And here it is again. My heart goes out to him because he's worked so hard to get it off the ground. It just drives you mad thinking about it. I have no idea, and I can't say, really, what's going to happen to the film. We're still in total shock over Heath's death. It's sort of literally unbelievable, because apart from the sleeping, he was in such good form.... There was a sweetness about him. He was a very charming and gentle guy, actually.
ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: Ledger had mentioned in a New York Times interview last fall that he had sleep troubles, and that he'd used sleeping aids to try to cope with that.
CHRISTOPHER PLUMMER: That's interesting, I didn't know that.
Did he ever seem or look tired on the set?
Oh no. Great energy. Always wonderful energy. In fact he did some of his own stunts just before we left London, some jumping and leaping about. Not horrendously dangerous stunts, but physically challenging stunts. Like leaping onto a rising stage from this rather quite high-up spot. He wants to do everything himself? Well that's all right — he's 28 years old. We all did. [Gentle laugh].... Anyway, it's so sad. I think he was just too over-exhausted: 28 years old, you think you can bounce back. But maybe not with heavy pneumonia on your chest.
There was an initial, seemingly groundless wave of speculation that it could be suicide, based on some inaccurate and incomplete reports about sleeping medications he kept in his apartment.
That doesn't make any sense. He was looking forward — he was in such a good, happy mood about the picture. Looking forward to going to Vancouver. He was enjoying the film thoroughly, and I'm here to say so. He was also terribly excited about becoming a director.
Right — he was going to direct a movie about a chess prodigy, called The Queen's Gambit.
I think that's where most of his ambitions would have lain, for the future. That too is such a shame. He thoroughly embraced the profession, and loved it. He wasn't suffering for his art at all. He was enjoying it.
Did he talk about wanting to direct?
He was very friendly with Terry Gilliam. They became very good friends on The Brothers Grimm and consequently bonded. And [on Doctor Parnassus] they would consult and they'd look and he'd watch, and he was fascinated. They were having such fun on this one. He was very inventive, Heath, and very versatile, as indeed many Australian actors are. They have a marvelous ear for accents and for character. He gave some very good ideas and pointers. As we all tried to do, but I think he was very serious about directing. Such a shame. He was so talented in so many areas.
You made a film with Terrence Malick a few years back, The New World — and Heath was at one point going to work with Malick on something called Tree of Life, though recent reports are that Ledger dropped out and Brad Pitt may take the role he would have played.
We never talked about that. You know, I didn't get to know him very well.... There was no time for that, really. You had to take what you got with the weather, and you had to be always on call, standing there waiting for your shot. One could step into a car every now and then and get warm, but shooting at night in a big city, it's not easy.... We were working in such dire conditions in London, outside every night in the cold. Which may have contributed somewhat to [the state of] his health. We were all armed with antibiotics all the time. It wasn't exactly joyous, except that the film itself was fun to do.
ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY: I'm only familiar with the broad strokes of the plot for Doctor Parnassus.
CHRISTOPHER PLUMMER: So were we all. [Laughs] I kept teasing Terry about that all the time. A lot of it is set down [broadly] and then improvised. A lot of the happenings are magical, and wonderfully Gilliam-esque and obscure. It's sort of the Faust story in modern terms. Doctor Parnassus, whom I play, is sort of a modern-day Faust, who sells his soul to the devil — or actually sells his daughter's life, which then must be rescued. It's full of visitations into another world, a rather Narnia-like world. Heath was playing a sort of young mountebank who comes upon the scene. It's rather difficult to describe the plot. It's a sort of wonderful yarn of fantasy, sometimes very funny. Heath [was playing] this young charlatan who's brilliant at fooling people.
And Heath's character would appear in various guises?
Heath was a harlequin in one scene, a tramp in another. His character steals a lot of the costumes that my character's troupe have managed to hang on to, though they're on their last legs. He's rather like a younger version of my character — a magician who takes family on tour and invites the public to go through a mirror into this other world, the Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. How can I describe it? He's an interloper, who of course falls for the daughter. Or the daughter falls for him, I can't quite follow it.
Like Johnny Depp, Heath had a strong reaction early on to being packaged as a ''heartthrob'' and he fought very strongly against that. He didn't want to be pigeonholed and stereotyped and turned into a commodity.
That's quite right. He stuck up for what were the right parts, and that's very commendable. He didn't succumb to any of those cheap temptations, and throwing himself into a huge variety of roles.
Was his daughter or anyone else from his family able to be on the set at all, to come and see him?
No, no, no. Just his driver and his friend from Ireland who was helping him. The last day, the last night [Saturday, Jan. 19] we were all working, and then he flew to New York, as I did, the next day. We weren't on the same plane, but he flew early, and we were looking forward to continuing on.
And you were scheduled to regroup in Vancouver next week?
Yeah. I don't dare say what will happen until we've talked with Terry [Gilliam]. Probably nobody will know until the end of this week what's going to happen. I spoke to Terry yesterday. We're all in shock, but he particularly, of course.... It's just awful. Quite shocking, because it's so incredible. I just left a very laughing, happy fellow, practically a few minutes ago.
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This is all still so very painful and we are all really having a rough time.
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Heath's life is a celebration of the finer qualities of the human spirit.
I am truly thankful for the time he shared with us!
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i'm still so sad.
how can it have been him? nothing prepared us for this tragedy. it is still a shock to think about him being gone.
i just hope he didn't have to suffer and that he is at a wonderful place now where he can look at us and see how much we love him.
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What a loss:
"Right — he was going to direct a movie about a chess prodigy, called The Queen's Gambit."
I think that's where most of his ambitions would have lain, for the future. That too is such a shame. He thoroughly embraced the profession, and loved it. He wasn't suffering for his art at all. He was enjoying it.
http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20173302,00.html?eref=ew
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Sorry Christie, we were probably trying to post the same article at the same time. I modified this post to remove the explicit quote, only taking note of the tantalizing directorial project mentioned.
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I've just found a video from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with Ellen remembering Heath. Touching and devastating.
Here: http://www.cineblog.it/post/8748/ellen-degeneres-ricorda-heath-ledger
Know what I notice - after they fall laughing, the first thing he does when he gets up is to go help Ellen up. What a guy. <^(
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
I can't Thank you enough Michelle and Ethan. I would be so honoured for you to include my message. That I, all the way over in England can be part of that tribute to Heath, means so much to me. I Thank you for it, from the bottom of my heart.
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This is from Theresa's blog that Christie posted the link to.
OMG.
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That is beautiful.
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Know what I notice - after they fall laughing, the first thing he does when he gets up is to go help Ellen up. What a guy. <^(
I noticed that too, what a gentleman he was.
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I noticed that too, what a gentleman he was.
And I noticed that too! It was a very sweet thing. I loved seeing him have so much fun. That made me smile. Just wish there weren't tears that followed. :\'( :\'(
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
Ethan and LuvJackNasty, thank you so much for doing this. It must be very heavy thing to do, going there, where it happened. :ghug: :ghug:
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I still can't read those articles about Heath's death, not even those beautiful and respectfull tributes. My friend sends me short reports of the latest news.
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We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Oh, Ethan, thank you for leaving a piece of all of us there. :ghug:
I saw a picture of this on the web, at one of the news sights I was visiting ... and I just KNEW this was your token from ennisjack. It's beautiful and you're beautiful :ghug:
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Just wanted to say hi..
I still can't believe it, but it feels different than the other two days, but not a bit better. When I heard of it, I was in total shock, not able to react in any way but crying the whole time, saying, No, No! Yesterday it somewhere came to my mind that he's really gone, what totally blow me away, I really thoght I get a nervous breakdown; I just wanted to scream out loud. And waking up today, head and eyes in miserable condition, I just thought, Yes, it's real, it's really in my head now, which makes me feel totally empty and resigned.
I can't deal with it! I saw Heath nearly everyday here in the last two years of my life, searching for pics and news, talked about him with my best friend, who always sent me some pics of him, with my mum, when we visited Ney York (she said, it's no problem not to see him there this time, I could try next time again... That's also something so hard, there will be no next time!!) and also with my boyfriend everyday, he liked him and was excited about the new Batman just like me. We were sitting there when the trailer came out, grinning and saying.. Yeah, just wait for this summer.. He will be the biggest star on earth and he just deserves it.
I will miss him so much, and I hope to find a way for me to get along with his dead, I also hope that the stomachache will end and this emptiness be filled again. And I think of what he gave to me, especially with Brokeback, what that film did to me, and that he is one the reasons why I'm here with all you wonderful people.
Rest in peace, Heath %)
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Oh Ethan, thank you so much :^^) It must have been so hard for you, but I truly appreciate you doing this on behalf of all of us, especially those of us who are so far away physically, but not in spirit. Thank you :ghug:
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This was posted on the blog that Theresa set up - it's so beautiful I just had to repost it here. I hope Theresa doesn't mind.
Miss Me, But Let Me Go
Author Unknown
When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds. Miss me, but let me go.
Oh Lindsay, that's beautiful :\'( Thank you ^f^
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Here in NYC, the Noon news is saying Heath's mom is arriving to bring his body home.
I can't figure out why nearly half an hour goes by before they call 911. I think he was already gone at that point, but why wouldn't you call them first instead of a girlfriend? I guess you never know what to do when you panic sometimes.. :(
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Just to say that I found this beautiful tribute to Heath on Facebook, had me in tears. Hope the link works:
http://hs.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1011189404309&oid=6730544948 (http://hs.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1011189404309&oid=6730544948)
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Here in NYC, the Noon news is saying Heath's mom is arriving to bring his body home.
I can't figure out why nearly half an hour goes by before they call 911. I think he was already gone at that point, but why wouldn't you call them first instead of a girlfriend? I guess you never know what to do when you panic sometimes.. :(
yea, If that story is true I don't know what to think about it. I just hope he didn't feel any pain when be past away. :\'(
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
Oh, thank you both so much :^^) It would mean the world to me to be a part of this and pay tribute to Heath in my own small way.Thank you ^f^
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LuvJackNasty and I will be going to the apartment tomorrow and light a candle.
With your permissions, I'd like print messages from the forum vigil thread along with the candle. If you like to include your message, please light a candle and post. Thanks for helping us together.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12664.0
I've already started to gather them to leave when we go to tomorrow. I also gathered posts from here. If anyone objects to having their words included please pm me.
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Oh, Ethan, thank you for leaving a piece of all of us there. :ghug:
I saw a picture of this on the web, at one of the news sights I was visiting ... and I just KNEW this was your token from ennisjack. It's beautiful and you're beautiful :ghug:
Yes. Thank you very much from me and Ques too.
JFT
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http://edition.cnn.com/2008/SHOWBIZ/Movies/01/24/ledger.films/
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Ledger's death puts last films in a bind
Heath Ledger was subject of "Dark Knight" marketing campaign
Ledger was filming new Terry Gilliam film when he died
Gilliam said Ledger was going to be a fine director
(CNN) -- Before he died, Heath Ledger had two films in production: "The Dark Knight," the latest chapter in the Batman saga, and "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus," the latest film from director Terry Gilliam.
Ledger's death has affected both of them in different ways.
The actor, who died Tuesday of unknown causes at age 28, had finished filming "The Dark Knight" late last year. It's due to be released in July. But marketing of the film, currently in post-production, has been thrown into turmoil, the trade paper Variety notes.
The early push for the film has focused on Ledger's villainous Joker character, including a poster with a shrouded Joker scrawling "Why So Serious?" in blood on misty glass.
The film's studio, Warner Bros., recently restructured its marketing department, Variety reports, after the departure of the executive who helped create the "Dark Knight" campaign. (Warner Bros., like CNN, is a unit of Time Warner.)
The trade paper speculates that the marketing campaign will be changed abruptly.
The studio put out a statement Tuesday saying it was "stunned and devastated" by the news of Ledger's death. "The entertainment community has lost an enormous talent. Heath was a brilliant actor and an exceptional person. Our hearts go out to his family and friends," the statement said.
With the Joker, Ledger was taking on a role that Jack Nicholson had rendered indelibly in 1989's "Batman." But "Dark Knight" director Christopher Nolan said the actor had more than measured up to Nicholson. "To be perfectly honest ... what he's doing is indescribable. He's figured it out," Nolan told the crowd at an August comic book convention in Chicago.
The role as arch villain The Joker disturbed Ledger, according to The Associated Press. He called the character a "psychopathic, mass-murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy."
Although unusual, Ledger's death does not mark the first time a major star has died while a film has been in production.
Perhaps the most famous example is James Dean, who died in September 1955, before post-production on "Giant" had finished. Dean's dialogue in the film's final scene had to be re-recorded, Variety observes, because he had mumbled in the shot. (Dean and director George Stevens famously clashed during filming.)
Dean was nominated for an Oscar for his performance, his second posthumous Oscar nomination after "East of Eden."
Brandon Lee died during filming of 1994's "The Crow," prompting director Alex Proyas to use a stunt double and special effects. Oliver Reed had a heart attack during the making of 2000's "Gladiator"; technology made it possible for director Ridley Scott to use a double as a stand-in with Reed's face computer-generated in.
Gilliam's film, which concerns prime Gilliam material such as a magic mirror, a traveling show, the devil and a rougish character played by Ledger, is more problematic.
The cast had just completed filming in London, which actor Christopher Plummer characterized as "cold as bejesus" to Entertainment Weekly. "You know how damp it gets in London. And at night the temperature drops horribly, and that little breeze gets up. You have to wear tons of stuff," he said.
Plummer said that Ledger had a "terrible, lingering bug in London, and he couldn't sleep at all. We all -- I thought he'd probably got walking pneumonia," he told EW.
Gilliam has had challenges before. During the making of his film "The Man Who Killed Don Quixote," the Monty Python troupe member coped with filming near a NATO shooting range, a flash flood and a star with a herniated disc, a final indignity that prompted financiers to pull the plug.
But nothing approaches Ledger's death. Indeed, part of the reason Gilliam was able to obtain the film's relatively paltry $30 million financing was because of Ledger's agreement to star, according to Variety.
Ledger and Gilliam had become close during the making of Gilliam's "The Brothers Grimm" and Ledger had plans to become a feature director himself, several sources have reported. The actor had directed a handful of music videos, including one for Ben Harper, with whom he formed a record company.
Last month, Gilliam told Variety, "He's going to be a much better director than I will ever be."
Plummer told EW that "Parnassus" had "an enormous amount left to do." After a short break, the cast was going to re-convene in Vancouver, British Columbia, primarily for technical and special-effects work.
"God knows what's going to happen now," Plummer
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http://wcbstv.com/seenon/heath.ledger.timeline.2.636984.html
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Ledger's Death: A Timeline Of Events
Reporting: John Slattery
NEW YORK (CBS) ― Nearly 48 hours into the investigation of actor Heath Ledger's sudden death, police have put together a timeline of the events in the house leading up to the mysterious discovery of his lifeless body.
According to investigators, Ledger's housekeeper arrived at his SoHo apartment on 421 Broome St. at 12:30 on Tuesday.
At 1 p.m., the housekeeper told police she saw Ledger in bed, and reported hearing him snoring.
At 2:45, masseuse Diana Wolozon arrives at the apartment, but says Ledger's bedroom door is closed.
By 3 p.m., Wolozon calls Ledger's cell phone, but he didn't answer.
Ten minutes later, Wolozon says she entered Ledger's bedroom, set up her massage table, approached the unresponsive actor, and shook him. She then called Ledger's friend, actress Mary-Kate Olson in Calfornia, who called private security guards.
Some time after that, Wolozon called Olson again and tells her, "I think he's dead."
Only then, at 3:26 p.m., did Wolozon call 911 and attempt to revive Ledger.
At 3:33, EMS and private security arrived. CPR was administered on Ledger.
At 3:36, Ledger was pronounced dead.
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I've already started to gather them to leave when we go to tomorrow. I also gathered posts from here. If anyone objects to having their words included please pm me.
Thank you so much Ethan and LuvJackNasty. It means so much to all of us who can't be there physically, but you know that all of our thoughts are right there with you...
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Rest in peace, Heath. Your work touched so many.
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http://www.starpulse.com/news/index.php/2008/01/24/pavement_art_becomes_shrine_to_ledger
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Cement art Heath Ledger and his young daughter Matilda created on the sidewalk near his former New York home has become an unlikely shrine to the movie star.
Ledger scribbled 'Matilda' in the wet cement after his two-year-old daughter stepped on the drying pavement in Brooklyn last summer.
Her print was joined by that of a former neighbor's dog, called Hugo.
Neighbor Roger Lang, who lived across the street from the apartment Ledger shared with his ex-fiancee, Matilda's mother Michelle Williams, confirmed the markings were the actors to stunned fans who gathered outside his old home on Wednesday morning.
Lang said. "It was a secret. It was a fun thing. He did it as a surprise for his family."
Fans have since placed carnations on the sidewalk near Ledger's footprint art - as a tribute to the actor.
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Froggy, your black avatar... I would say I "like" it, but like isn't really the right word. I feel it, perhaps...
kathy
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Ethan , once again, thank you so much x
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I think that one of the most moving and beautiful tributes to Heath Ledger was a quote from Ang Lee appearing in an Associated Press report:
"Working with Heath was one of the purest joys of my life," said Ang Lee, who directed Ledger in "Brokeback Mountain." "He brought to the role of Ennis more than any of us could have imagined -- a thirst for life, for love and for truth, and a vulnerability that made everyone who knew him love him. His death is heartbreaking."
I think the grief about Heath Ledger becomes more profound as acceptance sinks in. I tell you that when I first learned of it, I was in total disbelief. Then I felt as if I wanted to be sick. There's always going to be a million questions in my mind. Could he have been saved had someone been in the bedroom with him? Did he try in some way to get help before losing consciousness? Could it have made a difference had 911 been called immediately? Why oh why couldn't he have been more careful about medications? Could it have been pneumonia?
I've been listening to the Brokeback soundtrack. I had to stop because it was so painful. In the context of Heath Ledger's death, listening to and seeing Brokeback again is simply too much to bear right now. The way that Ennis dealt with the loss of Jack was unforgettable. In Annie Proulx' story, Ennis would dream about Jack. All Ennis had left of Jack were the memories that lived inside of him and Jack's precious shirt. My hope is that we live on in the good memory of Heath Ledger and not in the regret. Now we realize fully why Ennis said "Jack, I swear." There are no existing words to measure this loss.
I am sorry to ramble on so. I love you all.
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God, I want so badly to go to NYC right now, just to see the tributes and the little footprint in the cement. I would love to leave work and jump on a train and just go. My mind still refuses to accept that he's gone.
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
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I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you very much Ethan.
Please keep us updated on net, I cant get to new newspapers here in Village on Faroe Islands. So I get all info on net.
Its so sad. :\'(
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http://www.starpulse.com/news/index.php/2008/01/24/pavement_art_becomes_shrine_to_ledger
Pavement Art Becomes Shrine To Ledger
01/24/08 12:36:52
Cement art Heath Ledger and his young daughter Matilda created on the sidewalk near his former New York home has become an unlikely shrine to the movie star.
Ledger scribbled 'Matilda' in the wet cement after his two-year-old daughter stepped on the drying pavement in Brooklyn last summer. Her print was joined by that of a former neighbor's dog, called Hugo.
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Friends, similar warnings have been out since this morning. I post it here just to make sure you are careful when you do searches on news articles about Heath.
There are many people out there who are poised to exploit this outpouring of grief for Heath. Take extra precautions, especially when you don't have a firewall.
http://www.idm.net.au/story.asp?id=9244
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Malicious Websites Plague Ledger Search Results
By Greg McNevin
January 25, 2008: It hasn’t taken long for cyber criminals to launch a range of exploits playing off the death of Heath Ledger, with a myriad of malicious websites already popping up in an attempt to hijack search results and the PC’s of web surfers shocked by the news.
Trend Micro is warning that millions of people around the world searching for information on the Australian star are at risk as malicious websites infiltrate legitimate search engine results.
Discovered by Trend Micro research project manager Ivan Macalintal within hours of the tragic news, the malicious resemble those that plagued Google’s results late last year, turning up when users use search terms such as “heath” and “ledger”.
Like last year, and again recently when malware authors took advantage of the death of Benazir Bhutto, when a bad link is clicked users are automatically redirected to another site that requires them to download a “new version of ActiveX Object.”
This begins a series of redirections that end in the download of different malicious files such as TROJ_RENOS.LZ, and WORM_NUCRP.GEN according to Trend Micro.
“Piggybacking on newsworthy events is not new,” writes Trend Micro’s Bernadette Irinco on the security firms official blog. “In this case, malware authors simply used news of Ledger’s death to jumpstart massive redirections as they know many people are wont to do searches on this hot news item.”
Irinco does note, however, that there seems to be a bigger story behind this particular attack.
“Upon deeper analysis, researchers find reason to believe that these malicious URLs are among those resulting from the suspected hacking of Web servers of a certain Czech hosting provider,” writes Irinco. “Hacked sites residing in these servers carry a malicious JavaScript code, which, when accessed, follow the same redirection algorithm as the Heath Ledger links.”
The firm says it has initiated communication with the Czech CERT, and adds that in the meantime users can use its threat protection to secure themselves.
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This link is highly offensive. I saw it linked on another website and am disgusted by it, but I wanted other fans to see the vile attitudes of some 'people'. Can't these people be put to sleep?
http://www.godhatesamerica.com/
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Thank you for that information tpe. It is unfortunate that such precautions need to be taken.
AnitaSmith, thank you for posting the pic of the cement art. How lovely.
For everyone, just a reminder:
Let us please keep speculation as to Heath’s state of mind and the cause of his death to personal messages or conversations. Again, we really don’t know anything conclusive, and personal opinions as to how he spent his final days and what he was feeling are just that. I am sure that each of us clings to the image that seems accurate to us, and there are likely to be many different variations of those impressions.
What we can do for each other at this time, and have been doing so beautifully these last couple of days, is to continue to lean on and support one another through our grief process, and to remember that this is a place we can always come to celebrate his life, and share our sorrow at his passing.
No censorship is intended here. Rather a sensitivity to the feelings of all our members and visitors, who are taking comfort in the fellowship to be found on this forum and in this thread. And to show respect to Heath, who was an intensely private person, and his family, in honor of his memory.
Thank you for your consideration. :ghug:
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What we can do for each other at this time, and have been doing so beautifully these last couple of days, is to continue to lean on and support one another through our grief process, and to remember that this is a place we can always come to celebrate his life, and share our sorrow at his passing. :ghug:
Thank you so much, FlwrChild. :\'(
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As was already mentioned by some of you...
I wish there was a way to tell him how much Heath meant to us.
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2008/01/24/2008-01-24_heath_ledgers_father_heads_to_ny.html
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Heath Ledger's father heads to NY
By RICH SCHAPIRO and CORKY SIEMASZKO
DAILY NEWS STAFF WRITERS
Thursday, January 24th 2008, 1:17 PM
Heath Ledger's heartbroken father is coming to New York to collect his son's body.
Kim Ledger is expected to fly here tomorrow and begin the painful business of making arrangements to bury the 28-year-old "Brokeback Mountain" star, who was found dead in a SoHo loft on Tuesday.
"He wants to be with his son," said Dominick Capella, director of the Frank E. Campbell funeral home on Madison Ave. "That will take place here."
There has been no decision on whether Ledger will be laid to rest in his native Perth, Australia, or his adopted city of New York.
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My tears are starting again...
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http://www.news.com.au/perthnow/story/0,21598,23101658-948,00.html?from=mostpop
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Hollywood stars to farewell Ledger ahead of Perth burial
January 24, 2008 02:27pm
HOLLYWOOD stars are expected to farewell Heath Ledger at a service in Los Angeles this week ahead of his burial in Perth and a possible memorial service at his school, Guildford Grammar.
The Los Angeles service could take place as early as Saturday Australian time, a source close to the family told The Daily Telegraph.
It is believed tentative plans have been made and supermodel Gemma Ward's mother hinted at "an event in Los Angeles'' which would be attended by Ledger's father, Kim.
"I anticipate (Gemma) will be coming home for the premiere movie The Black Balloon but she will probably attend and even in Los Angeles at the end of the week with (Legder's) father,'' Claire Ward had told The Australian.
However, it is understood that Ledger will be buried in Perth, where he may be farewelled at a memorial service at his old school, the prestigious Guildford Grammar.
The 28-year-old's body is understood to have been transferred to New York's Frank E Campbell funeral chapel after an inconclusive autopsy, ahead of a final trip home to his family in Perth.
A spokesman for the renowned US funeral company confirmed it was handling the arrangements for Ledger's family.
``They have contacted us for the arrangements, I am unable to give any more information,'' he said.
Guildford Grammar School has offered to hold a memorial service for Ledger.
A spokeswoman said the family had not decided whether to accept the offer from the school, where the young Heath Ledger excelled in sport and drama.
The Frank E Campbell funeral chapel's website says it has served heads of state, United Nations ambassadors, dignitaries, royalty, film stars and families from all walks of life.
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OMG! I found this picture from Reuters on the web... do you remember the Toronto picture with Jake, Mississaugared & Tpe?
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Crap, it's us! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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This morning I found the pic on page 7 of Sydney's Daily Telegraph.
This is from Theresa's blog that Christie posted the link to.
OMG.
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A Melbourne artist has released his never-before-seen portrait of Heath Ledger a day after the Australian actor's death.
Docklands-based Vincent Fantauzzo's haunting portrait depicts Ledger as three separate figures, one looking straight on, the others whispering into each of the central figure's ears.
Fantauzzo painted the actor's portrait with the intention of entering it into the prestigious Archibald Prize, Australia's premier portraiture competition.
I saw this on the television last night, I am sure this portrait will win the Archibald Prize it is so beautiful. When it goes on display I will go to the Art Gallery to see it for real.
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http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20173620,00.html
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Uncles: Heath Ledger Was 'Vibrant and Fun-Loving'
THURSDAY JANUARY 24, 2008 01:10 PM EST
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Photo by: Vera Anderson / WireImage
Haydn Ledger, an uncle of the late Heath Ledger, dismisses any suggestion that his "vibrant and fun-loving" nephew might have done anything rash such as take his own life.
"It just wouldn't come into the equation at all," the elder-generation Ledger said on Thursday's CBS The Early Show, speaking from a TV studio in Perth, Australia.
About the news of the death, which he called "a tragic accident," the uncle said, "We only found out yesterday morning, along with everybody else."
Haydn Ledger appeared on the program with another uncle of the actor's, Mike Ledger. Both said Heath had a joy for living. "No family gathering or party ever got going until he was in the room," said Haydn.
Both men also passed on answering a question about Heath's recently being depressed, as has been suggested by some friends of the late leading man. "Inwardly or outwardly, we can't really comment on that," said Haydn.
Mike Ledger said that was a question for Heath's parents to answer "at a period of time to come."
For now, said the uncles, they wished to remember their nephew as "family-orientated" and as the loving father of his 2-year-old daughter, Matilda Rose. To Heath, said Mike Ledger, being a father "meant everything in the world."
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http://media.www.technicianonline.com/media/storage/paper848/news/2008/01/24/ArtsEntertainment/Reflect.On.Life.Not.On.Death-3164613.shtml
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Reflect on life, not on death
Andrew Johnson
Issue date: 1/24/08 Section:
Arts & Entertainment
"I hope they finished filming The Dark Knight."
That was the first thought that entered my head last night when I heard the news that actor Heath Ledger had been found dead his in his New York apartment. I know, I know, I'm a jerk -- a guy dies and the first thing I think of is how it will affect the movie. But I'm not the only one who thought that, it seems. In fact, it seems like people everywhere care more about the circumstances and the effects of his death, rather than the simple fact that he died.
A few recent articles even have headlines like, "Ledger's autopsy inconclusive; details will take 10 days" -- as if to say, "In two weeks, we'll be back with the latest gossip and speculation!"
I guess that's to be expected in a culture where the cult of celebrity is growing larger every day. Americans are obsessed with celebrities, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because they represent success, and wealth -- you know, the American dream. Maybe it's just because we're jealous. Whatever the reason, you've got to wonder why people can tell you the name of Tom and Katie's kid but don't know who won the last political primary.
There is a common perception nowadays that because someone is "famous" we should devote countless hours of attention to their lives, and not just their lives, but their deaths as well. Remember when Anna Nicole Smith died, and how for weeks you couldn't turn to CNN without seeing her face plastered everywhere? I'm not saying it wasn't newsworthy, but surely there were other more important and relevant events happening in the world during that time. What does that say about us as a culture? Is that something good or bad? I don't have an answer, I'm just saying it's something to think about.
A few minutes after the Ledger story broke, I got an IM from a friend telling me that Wikipedia was going bonkers. Users were editing Ledger's entry to include what was then just speculation about how he had died. One minute it said he had died of an intentional heroin overdose.Then you'd hit Refresh, only to find it was now listed as accidental. Some people even edited the entry as a prank, posting that he'd been found wearing his Joker make-up, and other film-related falsities. How respectful.
Hollywood has lost one of its brightest young stars, but rather than simply acknowledge this fact, the media (not to mention the majority of average citizens) immediately jumped all over the story and started implying things that may or may not be true. Heck, it's been two days since he died, and I'm still not sure what really happened. Was it an accident or a suicide? Was it related at all to his work, particularly his new role as a twisted psychopath in the new Batman movie? Was he a drug addict?
What I'm wondering is: does any of that matter?
A talented performer is gone, and the world -- at least from the eyes of a filmgoer -- is worse without him. Perhaps before we jump to conclusions and make investigations and discover the "truth" behind his death, we should take a few minutes to reflect on his life. It's a courtesy usually offered to non-celebrities. Why should the rich and famous be treated any differently?
I remember when I first saw Ledger on screen, in the Mel Gibson war drama The Patriot. It wasn't a breakthrough performance, but it certainly indicated that there were some serious acting chops beneath the pretty face. It would only be a few years later when he'd be nominated for an Academy Award for Brokeback Mountain. And with all the publicity surrounding his new role in The Dark Knight, it seemed like he was on the verge of superstardom. All that, and the main questions being asked now is, "Did the apartment belong to Mary-Kate Olsen?" and, "Is it because he got too immersed in the role of the Joker?"
I wonder if Ledger could see us now, what he'd think about all the uproar. Maybe he'd feel honored we care enough to get so riled up about the details of his death.
But then again, maybe he'd think this was all just a big joke.
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This cant be true ???
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755 (http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755)
Poor Heaths family :\'(
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Oh no =( this is so sad :\'(
Don't know what I can write...
why? :\'(
Heath, I know I never knew you, but as an actor you really touched me.
You were so young, why did you have to die?
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RIP Heath Ledger
:ghug: to everyone who needs it.
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This cant be true ???
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755 (http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755)
Poor Heaths family :\'(
Those people are beyond reproach. Best to just ignore them.
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From finnish newspaper.
http://www.iltasanomat.fi/videot/viihde/1479857
http://www.iltasanomat.fi/videot/viihde/1479927
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http://www.iltasanomat.fi/videot/viihde/1479391
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This cant be true ???
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755 (http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/22813570/?GT1=10755)
Poor Heaths family :\'(
They are a well known group of psychopaths and a cult, they all belong to the same family either by birth or marriage, you get the picture.
They are totally evil and independent from any church or religious organisations. One of the groups on their most hated list is the Catholic church! So you see what I mean.
They love it when we get all worked up about them, because they are so sick they love the confrontation and the publicity it generates.
Indeed, the best way to deal with them is to ignore them completely.
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Friends, as FlwrChild has said, let's try to focus on Heath's life and his achievements. There is so much there to celebrate.
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http://kalgoorlie.yourguide.com.au/detail.asp?class=lifestyle%20news&subclass=innovation&story_id=1169057&category=silicon%20kid
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Heath Ledger's death triggers net meltdown
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Sad unveiling ... his portrait of Ledger by Vincent Fantauzzo was to be entered for the Archibald Prize. Ledger sat for the artist in Perth only last month.
Heath Ledger's shock death caused one of the biggest internet meltdowns since the death of Steve Irwin in 2006, with news sites and search engines experiencing huge traffic spikes.
The 28-year-old Australian actor was found dead on Tuesday in his New York apartment.
Unique browsers on smh.com.au rose almost 250 per cent compared with Tuesday's figures and total page impressions jumped 60 per cent, according to Nielsen NetRatings.
On theage.com.au, unique browsers and page impressions jumped by 75 per cent and 53 per cent, respectively.
On both smh.com.au and theage.com.au more than 60 per cent of total page impressions yesterday went to stories and photo galleries on Ledger.
Yahoo reported that four of the fastest moving search terms on its Buzz index were Ledger related, with searches on the quickest mover, "Heath Ledger", skyrocketing a staggering 110,285 per cent.
"A solid 62 per cent of those searches came from women, and the biggest search traffic came from New York, Arizona, and California," Yahoo said.
The Google "Hot Trends" listing of the 100 fastest rising search terms for January 22 contains 25 relating to Ledger, including seven in the top 10.
Popular searches included Ledger's movies (including Brokeback Mountain and A Knights Tale ; the names of his daughter and former partner (Matilda and Michelle Williams, and his New York city address (421 Broome Street).
Among the searches were many misspellings including Keith Ledger, Keith Fletcher, Heath Leader, Keith Legend and Heath Fletcher.
A number of internet fansites devoted to Ledger melted down not long after word of his death hit the news, but legions of Ledger fans still paid their respects via groups and profiles on Facebook and MySpace.
Yahoo Buzz: top moving search terms
1. Heath Ledger
2. Healthiest Diet
3. Meg Whitman
4. Hal Holbrook
5. Rotten Neighbor Website
6. Top 10 Worst Movies Of 2007
7. Michelle Williams
8. 10 Things I Hate About You
9. Cate Blanchett
10. A Knights Tale
(As of Wednesday, January 23, 2007)
Google Trends: Fastest-rising search term
1. Heath Ledger
2. Keith Ledger
3. Michelle Williams
4. Heath Ledger found dead
5. Rotten Neighbor
6. Kate Voegele
7. Brokeback Mountain
8. Oscar Nominations
9. Matilda Ledger
10. Michelle Williams Heath Ledger
(As of Tuesday, January 22, 2007)
Source:smh.com.au
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I feel like I lost a family member. I am not up for watching the movie for a bit.
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http://www.hollywoodtoday.net/?p=3570
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Heath Ledger Funeral Set for NYC, Death Still a Mystery
Thursday, January 24th, 2008
Ledger’s family makes sad sojourn to New York for their loved one’s funeral
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HOLLYWOOD, CA (Hollywood Today) 1/24/08 – Actor, father, friend and son Heath Ledger, is to have a New York funeral through the Frank E. Campbell funeral home, while Ledger’s bereaved family arrives from Perth, Australia to be by their son’s side and say good bye for the last time.
Ledger was found dead in his rented Soho apartment Tuesday afternoon by his masseuse and declared dead at 3:36 p.m. after paramedics tried to revive him. He was later taken to the morgue for autopsy, which is inconclusive at this time and requires further toxicology and tissue testing before cause of death can be determined.
General manager of Campbell’s George Amado said Thursday to the Associated Press, “The family doesn’t want us to give out any information.” Especially since Ledger found the media to be such a nuisance in his own life and had reportedly caused him some anxiety.
Not surprising as one anti-Gay church is on the lookout for the location so it can demonstrate at the proceedings.
Most of Ledger’s family first heard the news of their son and nephew’s death from the press.
Ledger has an uncle named Neil Bell who lives in California. Bell spoke to People and gave some grave details of Ledger’s death. “I heard about his death in the press, and I called his mother to find out what was happening, and even she didn’t know.” He added, “Heath’s father found out through the press…It’s a pretty devastating way to find out.”
Ledger’s immediate family still resides in Perth, where Ledger recently visited for the holidays, enjoying a little anonymity due to the lack of media presence, in and around his beloved hometown.
Ledger had actually written a thank you letter to the Australian media for leaving him alone while home for the holidays.
Perhaps two-year-old granddaughter Matilda will give Heath’s parents something to smile about as they bury their beloved 28-year-old son. Ex-fiance’ Michelle Williams, mother of Matilda, is also said to be devastated by the death. The couple met on set during the critically acclaimed film “Brokeback Mountain,” where the two acted as husband and wife.
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http://www.kwtx.com/entertainment/headlines/14239882.html
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Heath Ledger Funeral
(January 24, 2008)-- Heath Ledger's funeral has been planned, but so far, no details have been released.
A funeral home spokesman says Ledger's family is expected to arrive in New York tomorrow.
He wouldn't give any more details, saying they would have to come from Ledger's manager.
Ledger's body was taken to the funeral home yesterday, the day after he was found dead in his loft.
The cause of death won't be determined for several days.
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No mention of Jake...I do hope he is able to pay his final respects to his friend.
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Oh my god, to find out from the press that your son/nephew/brother is dead is heartbreaking. I cant imagine how they must have felt. The journey from Australia to the US will be so so hard for them.
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Oh my god, to find out from the press that your son/nephew/brother is dead is heartbreaking. I cant imagine how they must have felt. The journey from Australia to the US will be so so hard for them.
I know.
If it helps them to see the shrine and meet all the many people Heath has touched in NYC (and LA this Saturday, I presume), then perhaps the hardships of the trip would somehow be alleviated.
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http://ap.google.com/article/ALeqM5h_k1n_zmAFHkxYYOBmztTgWLpDIgD8UCFP8O2
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Funeral Arrangements for Ledger Complete
By VERENA DOBNIK – 25 minutes ago
NEW YORK (AP) — Funeral arrangements for Heath Ledger have been completed and his relatives were expected to arrive in New York on Friday, a funeral home spokesman said.
George Amado, the general manager of the Frank E. Campbell funeral home, refused to disclose further details, saying any additional information would have to come from Ledger's manager.
"The family doesn't want us to give out any information," he said Thursday.
The 28-year-old actor's body was taken to the funeral home on Manhattan's Upper East Side on Wednesday, a day after he was found dead in his SoHo loft with bottles of prescription drugs nearby.
An autopsy Wednesday was inconclusive and further test results weren't expected for several days, medical examiner's office spokeswoman Ellen Borakove said. Police have said the Australian-born actor's death may have been caused by a drug overdose and appeared to be accidental.
Ledger's housekeeper and a massage therapist found the "Brokeback Mountain" star dead Tuesday, lying naked and face-down on his bed. Police said no illegal drugs were found in the apartment.
There were six different types of prescription drugs in the apartment, including pills to treat insomnia and anxiety, and an antihistamine, according to two law enforcement officials who spoke on condition of anonymity because the investigation is ongoing. The officials said three of the drugs were prescribed in Europe. Ledger had recently been filming in London.
On Thursday, the makeshift memorial outside Ledger's apartment building had grown to more than 100 bouquets including tulips, daisies, carnations and tropical flowers, along with candles, signs, notes and other memorials. A computer printout of an Australian flag bore the message: "We will always be proud of you, Heath. Rest in peace, mate. You will be missed."
Some of Ledger's friends and relatives said they were baffled by the actor's death because he had appeared to be happy and healthy in the last months of his life.
Haydn Ledger, one of his uncles, said his nephew wouldn't have done anything rash. "It just wouldn't come into the equation at all," he said Thursday in an interview on CBS' "The Early Show."
He and Mike Ledger, another of the actor's uncles, deflected a question about whether their nephew had been depressed, saying that should be left to his parents to address.
Ledger told The New York Times in November that working on the films "The Dark Knight" — his last finished performance — and "I'm Not There" had been stressful, and that he had taken the insomnia medication Ambien to help with sleeplessness.
Police said a housekeeper went into his bedroom to change a light bulb Tuesday and saw him sleeping and heard him snoring around 1 p.m.
"I didn't think anything was wrong," the housekeeper, Teresa Solomon, told the New York Post. She said she was "still shaking" and unable to sleep a day after the actor's death.
At 2:45 p.m., the massage therapist showed up for Ledger's appointment, knocked on his door and got no answer. She later noticed Ledger was unconscious and called actress Mary-Kate Olsen, whose number was programmed into Ledger's cell phone, to seek advice, police said.
Olsen said she would send over her private security. In the ensuing moments, the massage therapist realized that Ledger might be dead, called Olsen again, and then called 911. Paramedics — and Olsen's security people — arrived minutes later.
Before moving to Manhattan, Ledger lived with then-girlfriend Michelle Williams — who played his wife in "Brokeback" — in Brooklyn, and the couple had a daughter, the now 2-year-old Matilda. The couple split last year.
Williams and Matilda returned to their Brooklyn home Wednesday evening from Trollhattan, Sweden. The 27-year-old actress had been there shooting scenes for the upcoming film "Mammoth," said Martin Stromberg, a spokesman for film production company Memfis Film.
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Associated Press writers Tom Hays and Clare Trapasso contributed to this report.
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I really don't know what to say....there's not much to say is it....
Im just really sorry. He was an AMAZING actor.
When it comes to BBM I was always saying to myself, ok, they're just actors who did a great job, don't look at them trough their characters...they're just actors...but now I feel as Ennis is dead too...I don't have any will to watch a movie anymore....gosh....
Im so sorry for him and his family!
RIP Heath :\'( :-\\
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:ghug: I'm sure with time it will get easier, but I have to admit that two days later, I am still unable to process this news and the feelings I am having. So glad we all have each other for comfort.
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Just to say that I found this beautiful tribute to Heath on Facebook, had me in tears. Hope the link works:
http://hs.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1011189404309&oid=6730544948 (http://hs.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1011189404309&oid=6730544948)
Yes, this is very touching and beautiful tribute video. Thank you ande_nem.
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:ghug: Well at the moment I feel it is getting worse; I mean first I was so totally shocked, couldn't hardly believe it, but when time goes by the reality hits full. Of course I'm sure too that time will help.
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:ghug: I'm sure with time it will get easier, but I have to admit that two days later, I am still unable to process this news and the feelings I am having. So glad we all have each other for comfort.
I think the more tributes I read, the harder it is and the more devastated I feel. I dont think it will get easier for a while yet, Heath's family are flying to the US and thats just upsetting me just thinking about it.
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Today has been one of the most horrible days of my life. Working so hard while I was trying to fight tears with all my strength. I lost my battle. My co-workers looked at me like I was crazy, and my boss was totally worried, so finally he asked me for having a talk. He was talking during one hour, and I say “he” ‘cause I was crying the whole time. He thought that I was upset for my mother illness once again, and I preferred it so, ‘cause, how do you tell somebody that you wanna die ‘cause a person you didn’t know has died?
I hate the world today, that crazy world that says that God hates me cause my love for BBM. Here in Spain all the newspapers and TV news were about Heath. I didn’t want to hear anything. I can’t stand this no more. Now I’m more aware of Heath’s dead and I feel I’m like a dead girl, not able to smile, not able to stop crying.
I’m so weak and dizzy now ‘cause today I couldn’t eat, like I couldn’t yesterday. I think that if I try to eat I’m gonna vomit for sure. I felt this "thing" three more times in my life and I know my body well; it needs to be empty right now, concentrates on how to breathe, ‘cause my being is not able to do more things now. I see everything through like a fog, seeming all a very bad dream.
Like I said before, I slept 4 hours and then I woke up suddenly in the middle of the night, wanting, needing to huge Heath so hard. I never felt before in my whole life that powerful and painful need to huge somebody. That was furious, intense and heartrending.
I had to stand up, fighting the shake of my hands; I had to take care of my mother.
I used to wonder how much and for how long one person could cry. I know now that pain can be as unfathomable as pure love, but I’m really afraid of sadness being endless like true love is.
I was devastated in my way to work, looking at those people smiling, talking happily, acting like nothing was happened, and I feel so alone, so tiny and so insignificant.
This morning I had the suffocating necessity to talk about Heath. I wanted everybody to know that he didn’t commit suicide, that he was not a junkie, that he was a fine man. So I talked to two girls at the bus stop, then to the bus driver, then to the receptionist of my company, then to some co-workers and then……then I just lost it. I had a hard, rough argument with a friend of mine. We started to talk about that f***ing bunch of assholes that want to picket Heath funeral….I was angry, real mad at those so cruel people and I started to cry, to shout, my fists balled, just kicking everything I found. I know I was wrong….That didn’t make me feel better.
Later my sister called to give me her condolences. I feel peace ‘cause at last somebody in my little family understood some of my devotion to BBM and cast. But at the same time I felt so weird ‘cause I realize that it seems like if Heath were one person of my family; and indeed it feels so.
Yesterday I saved in my laptop all the brokies comments in this thread, I wanted real bad to forget that day, but I wanted to keep that huge treasure that brokies thoughts are. I wanted to keep all those beautiful, heartbreaking posts to remind me that true love exists and where it is. I cried so much reading all those demonstrations of understanding and friendship. I love all of them, pure poetry to calm the pain. But I remember clearly one especially painful post for me. Yesterday when I heard about Heath's dead, my first thought after the first 10 minutes of overwhelming shock, mouth open, staring the new banner, was Keren. I knew so well that she really loved Heath. Being a Jack/Jake girl, Andrew made love Ennis, but Keren, this sweetheart, made me love Heath. She made me adore his sweet amber eyes, she made me read everything about him, she made me laugh and sigh with her words of devotion, she show me the tender and beautiful heart of a fine man.
So my heart ached for her, and I still feel for her. I was beaten, confused and scared that, at the beginning, I didn’t find this thread; that only lasted two minutes but in that time I went to the Baby pix thread looking for something to make my heart keep beating. And then I saw it…. Then it was when I started to cry and, swear to God, I cried rivers, and still the floodgates are open. There was the most killer and sad post I’ve ever read. That was a lovely pic of Heath and simply only two words, but these little words meant the world to me, ‘cause I knew well what they were saying. They were talking about a deep love, about countless nights dreaming about a prince, about true joy lost in an instant, and finally about the most hard and horrible reality: Heath was dead and the world was a worse place to live.
I’ll never forget those two words.
Yeah, Keren, MY BABY…. :\'( :\'(
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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thank u so much Ethan.. :\'(
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Heath Ledger: His Last Costar Reflects
Christopher Plummer talks to EW.com about the loss of his castmate from their yet-to-be-completed Terry Gilliam film ''The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus''
By Steve Daly
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And you were scheduled to regroup in Vancouver next week?
Yeah. I don't dare say what will happen until we've talked with Terry [Gilliam]. Probably nobody will know until the end of this week what's going to happen. I spoke to Terry yesterday. We're all in shock, but he particularly, of course.... It's just awful. Quite shocking, because it's so incredible. I just left a very laughing, happy fellow, practically a few minutes ago.[/i]
This is wonderful to read, actually, to know how Heath was just a few days ago. His crazy, smart, fascinating joie de vivre! <^(
kathy
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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Dear Ethan,
With a lot of retard,I want to thank you with all my heart what you've done for us.My spirit has been with you,thinking how hard it must have been for you.You're a wonderful person indeed ^f^
And I want also to beg your pardon because I have been too selfish with you and with Heath.But I couldn't stand another day like yesterday,so many hours with so much sadness,so much...I had one day free at work so,bearing in mind that my partner also had one at hers,I went out,far from all this,because I needed it...I know that you also needed but you have stayed here,posting and sharing thoughts and feelings,but I couldn't help anybody if I couldn't help myself before...However,I haven't been able to avoid thinking on him,asking myself all day long WHY?.
I hope you understand me,only a little if it's possible,but everybody have their own ways of overcoming pain and that's has been mine,wrong or not.A coworker of mine who knew what had happenned for me and who ended crying with me,has had his way by seeing the movie and toasting for Heath,wishing he can be in a better place where he has found the peace he had lost here...Everybody and each one of us,then,has their reactions,and I'm an human being.However,I feel ashamed and I beg you forgive me,please. %)
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GOOD-BYE,HEATH,SWEET EYES; YOU´RE NOW AN ANGEL
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This is the latest post on this most wonderful and incredibly poignant memorial blog for Heath. I cried when I saw the picture that accompanied it. I still am. :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/2008/01/newsweek-obituary-for-heath-ledger.html
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Baby Tammy :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:, remember you are not alone! We are here. I wish I could do more. :ghug:
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Yesterday I saved in my laptop all the brokies comments in this thread, I wanted real bad to forget that day, but I wanted to keep that huge treasure that brokies thoughts are. I wanted to keep all those beautiful, heartbreaking posts to remind me that true love exists and where it is. I cried so much reading all those demonstrations of understanding and friendship. I love all of them, pure poetry to calm the pain. But I remember clearly one especially painful post for me. Yesterady when I heard about Heath's dead, my first thought after the first 10 minutes of overwhelming shock, mouth open, staring the new banner, was Keren. I knew so well that she really loved Heath. Being a Jack/Jake girl, Andrew made love Ennis, but Keren, this sweetheart, made me love Heath. She made me adore his sweet amber eyes, she made me read everything about him, she made me laugh and sigh with her words of devotion, she show me the tender and beautiful heart of a fine man.
So my heart ached for her, and I still feel for her. I was beaten, confused and scared that at the beginning I didn’t find this thread; that only last two minutes but in that time I went to Baby pix thread looking for something to make my heart keep beating. And then I saw it…. Then it was when I started to cry and, swear to God, I cried rivers and still the floodgates are open. There was the most killer and sad post I’ve ever read. That was a lovely pic of Heath and simply only two words, but these little words meant the world to me, ‘cause I knew well what they were saying. They were talking about a deep love, about countless nights dreaming about a prince, about true joy lost in an instant, and finally about the most hard and horrible reality: Heath was dead and the world was a worse place to live.
I’ll never forget those two words.
Yeah, Keren, MY BABY…. :\'( :\'(
Oh sweet tammy, I feel your pain, I really do. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Wish I could hug you with my own arms, but just know, that I am thinking of you, and knowing the pain you are going through. Because I'm going through it too.. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: Kathy, Carmilla, christie, sweetlilg, Baby Tammy, speechless, tpe
Tammy honey, c'mere. :ghug: :^^)
I know it's hard, but please don't think Heath is dead so the world is a worse place to be. Try to think that Heath lived, so the world he left behind is a better one. I know it's hard when the people in our families or 'regular lives' don't understand what we're going through, but always remember that we do, and there is always someone here for you, even if the :ghug: we offer are only cyber :ghug:
And I know how difficult your own life has been recently, so I can understand why you would feel discouraged, but I so truly believe in a brighter day for you, and if you will hold on and wait for it, I will hold on and wait with you. :^^)
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I hope you understand me,only a little if it's possible,but everybody have their own ways of overcoming pain and that's has been mine,wrong or not.A coworker of mine who knew what had happenned for me and who ended crying with me,has had his way by seeing the movie and toasting for Heath,wishing he can be in a better place where he has found the peace he had lost here...Everybody and each one of us,then,has their reactions,and I'm an human being.However,I feel ashamed and I beg you forgive me,please. %)
omg myprivatejack :ghug: of course you are human and you need to live your life don't feel ashamed for giving yourself some enjoyment, Heath would want that, we all want that. In fact a friend in Sydney would have loved to do the same thing yesterday but it was not possible, so we are planning a day out next week, we feel we need the break.
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Oh, mpj and Asali snuck in while I was posting. :ghug: :ghug: for you.
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This is the latest post on this most wonderful and incredibly poignant memorial blog for Heath. I cried when I saw the picture that accompanied it. I still am. :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/2008/01/newsweek-obituary-for-heath-ledger.html
They even mention the source - ennisjack.com O0
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I don't know how many of you would like to see this, but here is the entire interview Ellen did with Heath in Feb of 2006. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU&feature=PlayList&p=FCB9E4D00AA05C67&index=11
It was during the Winter Olympics so Ellen had Heath go on a bobsled in front of a green screen. He was so cute and funny. And he was exhausted because he hardly got any sleep with a new baby in the house (Matilda was only 4 months old at the time
Linda :ghug:
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http://www.thewest.com.au/default.aspx?MenuID=22&ContentID=55843
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Family flies to US for star-studded service
25th January 2008, 6:30 WST
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Heath Ledger’s grief-stricken family were last night preparing to fly to the US to attend a memorial service that will include some of Hollywood’s biggest names, according to a close friend of the family.
Amid conflicting reports about the star’s funeral arrangements and when Ledger’s body would be released by police, Perth model Sophie Ward said a funeral would be held in Los Angeles ahead of the 28-year-old star’s journey to his final resting place in Perth.
Ledger’s former school, Guildford Grammar, had also offered to hold a memorial service in its chapel but the family had not yet decided whether to accept the offer yesterday.
“I think we’re going to LA — we might be flying tonight but I’m not sure yet,” Ms Ward said yesterday. “LA is kind of central, between Perth and New York. This is just a funeral service. He’ll probably be buried in Perth.”
The 22-year-old plans to join her younger sister, supermodel Gemma Ward, 20, tomorrow at her home in New York before the pair fly to Los Angeles.
“My sister will probably make a comment at the funeral,” Ward said. “She was definitely a good friend of his (and) I expect she will.”
Ward said her sister, who was romantically linked with Ledger during his recent visit to Perth over Christmas, was crushed by news of Ledger’s sudden death. “Heath was an amazing actor and person and she is very upset. She has lost a very good friend,” she said.
Yesterday, it was revealed Ledger made a friend promise to call and “wake me up” hours before his death. Film director Shekhar Kapur said Ledger had asked him to call the next morning during a conversation on the eve of the tragedy.
Kapur, who directed Ledger in The Four Feathers, telephoned him on Monday after arriving in New York from London.
“I last spoke to him the night before he died. He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body,” he told the Daily Mail.
Supermodel Helena Christensen, 39, was on her way to him when she learnt of his death. She revealed she left a message on his answering machine just moments before his was body was found.
She told US fashion newspaper Women’s Wear Daily: “I am beyond sad at this point, and shocked. I was on my way over to pay him a visit when I found out.” Last night, Kim Ledger said he was too distraught to confirm details of his son’s funeral but previously said the actor’s death was accidental.
KATIE HAMPSON
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omg myprivatejack :ghug: of course you are human and you need to live your life don't feel ashamed for giving yourself some enjoyment, Heath would want that, we all want that. In fact a friend in Sydney would have loved to do the same thing yesterday but it was not possible, so we are planning a day out next week, we feel we need the break.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh,please,Asali,don´t tell me that¡Heath would want that... I feel so bad still¡ Forgive me,please,forgive me...
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I have said before that I greatly admire Daniel Day-Lewis. I admire him even more after this.
http://www.pr-inside.com/tearful-day-lewis-pays-tribute-to-ledger-r404003.htm
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TEARFUL DAY-LEWIS PAYS TRIBUTE TO LEDGER
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Oscar-winning actor DANIEL DAY-LEWIS broke down in tears as he paid tribute to HEATH LEDGER during an appearance on OPRAH WINFREY's talk show on Thursday (24Jan08).
Day-Lewis broke off a chat to promote his new movie There Will Be Blood to express his sorrow at the Australian star's death from a suspected drug overdose at his New York apartment on Tuesday (22Jan08).
The 50-year-old's eyes filled with tears as he struggled to speak of Ledger's career and premature death.
He said, "I hope you don't mind if I speak about this Oprah... I feel very unsettled at the moment. I only just heard the news about Heath Ledger.
"It seems strange to be talking about anything else. There isn't anything to say other than to express one's regret to his family and his friends.
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
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:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh,please,Asali,don´t tell me that¡Heath would want that... I feel so bad still¡ Forgive me,please,forgive me...
:ghug:
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I have said before that I greatly admire Daniel Day-Lewis. I admire him even more after this.
http://www.pr-inside.com/tearful-day-lewis-pays-tribute-to-ledger-r404003.htm
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TEARFUL DAY-LEWIS PAYS TRIBUTE TO LEDGER
Movie & Entertainment News provided by World Entertainment News Network (www.wenn.com)
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Oscar-winning actor DANIEL DAY-LEWIS broke down in tears as he paid tribute to HEATH LEDGER during an appearance on OPRAH WINFREY's talk show on Thursday (24Jan08).
Day-Lewis broke off a chat to promote his new movie There Will Be Blood to express his sorrow at the Australian star's death from a suspected drug overdose at his New York apartment on Tuesday (22Jan08).
The 50-year-old's eyes filled with tears as he struggled to speak of Ledger's career and premature death.
He said, "I hope you don't mind if I speak about this Oprah... I feel very unsettled at the moment. I only just heard the news about Heath Ledger.
"It seems strange to be talking about anything else. There isn't anything to say other than to express one's regret to his family and his friends.
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
I can see why you admire Daniel Day-Lewis, oh wow :ghug: :\'(
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Yesterday I saved in my laptop all the brokies comments in this thread, I wanted real bad to forget that day, but I wanted to keep that huge treasure that brokies thoughts are. I wanted to keep all those beautiful, heartbreaking posts to remind me that true love exists and where it is. I cried so much reading all those demonstrations of understanding and friendship. I love all of them, pure poetry to calm the pain. But I remember clearly one especially painful post for me. Yesterady when I heard about Heath's dead, my first thought after the first 10 minutes of overwhelming shock, mouth open, staring the new banner, was Keren. I knew so well that she really loved Heath. Being a Jack/Jake girl, Andrew made love Ennis, but Keren, this sweetheart, made me love Heath. She made me adore his sweet amber eyes, she made me read everything about him, she made me laugh and sigh with her words of devotion, she show me the tender and beautiful heart of a fine man.
So my heart ached for her, and I still feel for her. I was beaten, confused and scared that at the beginning I didn’t find this thread; that only last two minutes but in that time I went to Baby pix thread looking for something to make my heart keep beating. And then I saw it…. Then it was when I started to cry and, swear to God, I cried rivers and still the floodgates are open. There was the most killer and sad post I’ve ever read. That was a lovely pic of Heath and simply only two words, but these little words meant the world to me, ‘cause I knew well what they were saying. They were talking about a deep love, about countless nights dreaming about a prince, about true joy lost in an instant, and finally about the most hard and horrible reality: Heath was dead and the world was a worse place to live.
I’ll never forget those two words.
Yeah, Keren, MY BABY…. :\'( :\'(
Tammy... :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I can see why you admire Daniel Day-Lewis, oh wow :ghug: :\'(
Thanks Asali. I marvel at what he says here:
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
Sounds familiar?
Truly -- Oscar winner or not -- he speaks for all of us.
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Thanks Asali. I marvel at what he says here:
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
Sounds familiar?
Truly -- Oscar winner or not -- he speaks for all of us.
Really,Daniel is such a nice and kind fellow and a great person. :)
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Thanks Asali. I marvel at what he says here:
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
Sounds familiar?
Truly -- Oscar winner or not -- he speaks for all of us.
What a really nice quote. It sums up a lot of feelings regarding our anticipation of Heath's future projects. So much to look forward to.
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Dear Brokies,
This afternoon I had the privilege to go to the apartment and paid our tribute and respect to Mr. Heath Ledger. As soon as I got off the subway station a few blocks away, my heart was so aching and my tears could not stop. Every step was the hardest I had ever experienced in my life and my body was shaking. Until then when I laid the flowers, I was hit by the reality and realized what had happened.
Thank you for being with me and giving me the strength to do it on behalf of this most wonderful community. My eyes have been dried and then are wet again. I ask myself why we have to go through this? We mourn the death of Jack from the movie and now we mourn the death of Heath from the real life. For them, we are stronger and become better people in honoring Jack and Heath.
We are now even closer to Heath and forever grateful for what he has given us. :\'( :ghug: :ghug: to everyone of you. My heart and thoughts are with you.
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^f^Thankyou so much for laying the things,its so nice that it says the web address on one thing so it lets people know that theres a whole community out here thinking of him. I can imagine it mst have been so emotional to go and pay your respects. I wish i could go (imposs i live in england!) but knowing you have done that for us means SO MUCH #) thankyou so much :^^)x x x x x x
Baby Tammy dont forget we are all feeling the same and i know how you feel,it feels like others dont understand/wont understand but all of us on here understands how youre feeling. Im so glad i know all you out there feel like me and im not alone. Love you all. <^(
Heath...i miss you so much :\'( x
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I have said before that I greatly admire Daniel Day-Lewis. I admire him even more after this.
http://www.pr-inside.com/tearful-day-lewis-pays-tribute-to-ledger-r404003.htm
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TEARFUL DAY-LEWIS PAYS TRIBUTE TO LEDGER
Movie & Entertainment News provided by World Entertainment News Network (www.wenn.com)
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Oscar-winning actor DANIEL DAY-LEWIS broke down in tears as he paid tribute to HEATH LEDGER during an appearance on OPRAH WINFREY's talk show on Thursday (24Jan08).
Day-Lewis broke off a chat to promote his new movie There Will Be Blood to express his sorrow at the Australian star's death from a suspected drug overdose at his New York apartment on Tuesday (22Jan08).
The 50-year-old's eyes filled with tears as he struggled to speak of Ledger's career and premature death.
He said, "I hope you don't mind if I speak about this Oprah... I feel very unsettled at the moment. I only just heard the news about Heath Ledger.
"It seems strange to be talking about anything else. There isn't anything to say other than to express one's regret to his family and his friends.
"I didn't know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much as a person if I had.
"I had already marvelled at some of his work. And looked forward to the work he would do in the future."
Thomas that's really beautiful. Some sweet words to cure my heart after several cruel declarations. Now reading this I know that tonight maybe I could sleep.
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A couple of days have passed, and it's still true. :\'(
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*wails* Oh Heath baby...what happened? Tell me what happened... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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http://www.thewest.com.au/default.aspx?MenuID=22&ContentID=55843
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“I last spoke to him the night before he died. He said he could not see me that night but really wanted to meet me the next day. He made me promise that I would call him in the morning and wake him up. I tried. Little did I know that his soul had already left his body,” he told the Daily Mail.
This part still really makes me wonder...
'course, I'm still in the wanting it all just to be a nightmare phase. :\'(
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A couple of days have passed, and it's still true. :\'(
I know what you mean. I'm still waiting to wake up and find this all a bad dream.
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Hi fellow sad Brokies ...
Last February I was actually in Wyoming. I took a photograph while driving north on Highway 287 from Denver to Laramie. I'd really like to post it somewhere to share with all of you. It's a large, wide-open vista, with a beautiful blue sky. Just looking at it makes me feel lost. But it is, afterall, Wyoming.
Interesting, isn't it? Heath Ledger, an actor, has now gone to stand beside a fictional character he helped to create in our collective memory - I think a fellow Brokie said it in one of the gazillion beautiful posts here (keep posting, everybody, we ALL need it!) ... they (Ledger and del Mar) are now forever linked.
And aren't we lucky we got to know both.
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I'm writing this particular post in a fit of anger and rage ... so excuse my excessive emotional outburst ...
... ok ... here goes ...
... um, the folks from that kookie Kansas Church are threatening to protest an actor's funeral because he portrayed a gay person in a film ...
I guest the questions are obvious, huh? (I love ... loved ... the way Ennis would always punctuate his statements and questions with huh?) ...
1) So are Tom Hanks and Antonio Banderas next?
2) Nothing better to do?
3) If you (freaks from the kookie church) are so tight with God, um, we've all got some questions...
I am focused on Mr. Ledger, his friends and family. But this was on my heart and I wanted to let it go.
Feel free to delete if it's offensive ... thanks for reading and letting me vent.
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I have said before that I greatly admire Daniel Day-Lewis. I admire him even more after this.
http://www.pr-inside.com/tearful-day-lewis-pays-tribute-to-ledger-r404003.htm
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TEARFUL DAY-LEWIS PAYS TRIBUTE TO LEDGER
Here's a link to that video clip:
http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1389981778
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Here's a link to that video clip:
http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1389981778
Oh my, that's really beautiful and touching. I'm so moved now.... :\'( :\'( :\'( What a fine man Daniel Day Lewis is. Love him.
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Heath's life is a celebration of the finer qualities of the human spirit.
I am truly thankful for the time he shared with us!
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Ah, roco what a lovely picture! Right now, I am numb...my mind still refuses to believe that Heath is gone from us.
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I also wanted to say, especially to Baby Tammy: Hang in there, dear. How I wish I could wrap you up in a big hug and maybe ease the pain a little. I keep trying to remember all the good things Heath left us with, not the least of which is his incredible performance as Ennis del Mar. That part of him will live on forever.
I'm still struggling with the reality of all this. But I am thankful beyond words for this place. God bless everyone at ennisjack! :ghug: :^^)
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You guys.
I found out via myspace from a friend that he had overdosed and i didn't think anything of it.
I really just thought he over did it and was in the hospital.
Then my phones going crazy and my mom is running in my room and both my Mom and Dad are yelling at me in the same moment that Heath was....dead.
I totally lost it.
I went out the nezt day and bought BBM because i left my original copy with my Dad.
I was in tears buying it.
I misss my Heath
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It's been more and more painful to watch those Entertainment News Shows, but there was some wonderful reassurance about our beloved
Heath----over 20,000 people have logged on to Facebook to register their grief, and the internet, outside of the search engine's recorded
tidal waves, also had massive interplay between people on sites such as MySpace, so that they were saying this was the biggest surge of
communication since technology wired people so much closer. And it was mostly young people, which means Heath was their man. It also
means only a fraction of the grief and shock was permanently recorded on web sites. We should feel better knowing that there was a massive
response, far past what we saw, and that our love was shared, literally, by millions.
But as to the shifting of these threads, am uneasy, and wondering what the administrators have in mind. One moderator said we are in this
for the long run, and I can only hope that is the intent. We will see the forum go back to steadier times, but grieving is a long, long process,
and am hoping that this site, this one forum, will always have some place we can go, to remember and console each other. It's the third day,
and everyone is so very tired and hurting, it must be even harder on those that run this forum. Again, I hope there will be a place here,
somewhere, permanently, for remembering Heath. Am just.....hoping that will be so.
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:ghug: :ghug: To all of my fellow brokies.
Tammy, sweetie, I wish I could give you a great big hug in person. :ghug:
MPJ- you are allowed to take a few hours from your grief. I have moments where I think I am fine and actually hold a normal conversation with someone and then the next thing I know the tears are flowing hard. Most especially at night. :ghug:
Tony, We will always honor Heath's memory here. There will be a place for him. He may be gone but he is most certainly not, nor will ever be, forgotten. We made a special board for the memory threads is all.
I took my daughter to her therapist (who is also somewhat of a brokie) she cut my daughters session short to spend some time with me. As soon as we were alone she gave me a huge hug and let me cry and talk. She knew I needed it and then she gave me another much needed hug before we were leaving and told me her phone line was always open if I needed to talk to her. Such a sweet woman.
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I went from posting everything I could put me hands on about Heath and his future film Imaginarium, when I was doing another search online for photos of the film sets,
I was so enthralled and flabbergast to what was in reserve for us in 2009,
ecstatic and so so happy,
I even had made a point of trying my darn best to reach my thousand post for Saint Valentine, and then my Friend for Perth, Australia, showed and told me the news.
at first I though this is a joke, however not.
the sad part now is I have read so much vilified statements about his death,
its becoming overwhelming that the media would go on speculating on improbabilities instead of well informed facts,
that the PRESCRIBED medications for sleeping pills where issued in London, the pills were in the bottles not spread on the floor and he was not naked on the floor, it looked like the paparazzi was making it a Marilyn Monroe moment.
at 1pm he was still breathing, at 3,33pm he was dead.
I wish the lies would stop,
like that B***ch who claims that he did cocaine in 2004,
she 's looking for fame on the back of a dead person same applies to the stupid church who wish to boycott his funeral.
its now been two days and I still have moments of outburst of sadness,
and the fact that Johnny Depp has stepped in to fill Heath's role in imaginarium, it doesn't lessen the pain and grief.
I have never heard of Heath Ledger..
before the Vancouver Film festival previewing Brokeback Mountain
as one of the most influential movie about love in its purity
that would out stand the passing of time back in 2005,
now this too has become a tragedy of immeasurable proportion
for showing the world the dominance of hatred and its ugly face,
and for that it allowed the like of ENNIS and JACK to take on a life of their own
to show to all the moguls of hatred
that it may lure many to the side of ignorance
and yet The firm devotion of human kindness resurfaces all heartily
to gives us the key to the most and strongest of rules
against theses fear mongers, that LOVE is SUPREME.
this is still very hard to accept,
in time I can console myself that he has graciously given us some of the most memorable moments on my life, what a gift that was and will always be.
Love conquers all
peace out
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These are pictures of the tribute Ethan left from all us. They were taken by press photographers and were posted all around the planet in newspapers, magazines & the web.
I already posted this one from Reuters when I found it last night
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LJN, that's so nice. ^f^
I have to admit the one thing I haven't had is a real hug from someone in person. A few people called and that was nice, but a warm hugs right now must be very nice. I'm glad for all of you who have that, and in the meantime, I draw comfort from the ones I've been getting here. :ghug:
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I wish I could give you a real hug too FC. :ghug: Hell I wish we could all be together right now.
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LJN, that's so nice. ^f^
I have to admit the one thing I haven't had is a real hug from someone in person. A few people called and that was nice, but a warm hugs right now must be very nice. I'm glad for all of you who have that, and in the meantime, I draw comfort from the ones I've been getting here. :ghug:
Yeah a personal hug would go down well. I have a friend in Sydney who is feeling the same but our arms won't stretch that far and our schedules are conflicting but next week it will happen.
I am getting enough love here for now.:ghug:
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LJN, that's so nice. ^f^
I have to admit the one thing I haven't had is a real hug from someone in person. A few people called and that was nice, but a warm hugs right now must be very nice. I'm glad for all of you who have that, and in the meantime, I draw comfort from the ones I've been getting here. :ghug:
You've just made me even sadder, as I have not had a physical hug, either. Well, sometimes I hug myself. I do. You might try it. It's best when you hold a pillow or something. The thing being, press something close to your heart... Feels so good, when you don't get a hug from someone else. But then, you have your beautiful little boy -- go give him a big hug. At least that...
kathy
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While I think it's a good idea not to speculate on Heath's death or talk about negative subjects this is also a place to maybe find some answers since many of us are constantly searching the Web for articles, etc.
Someone brought it up earlier that the housekeeper and massuse waited almost a full half an hour to call 911. Does this sound familiar? They did the same thing to Anna Nicole. It's almost like everyone is so afraid of the press that they don't want to call 911 and create a media frenzy in case it isn't "serious". This is a terrible shame. There is also some similarities with Princess Di....I know in France they have different ER procedures than we do in the US (in the US it's scoop and run, while in France they try to stabilize them at the scene) but many people said had they taken Di to the hospital sooner and she had an operation to repair her heart (how ironic that she had a broken heart) that she may have lived since the constant CPR made her condition worse. If it were not Diana would they have taken her sooner? I don't know.
I have been friends with a few celebrities, one that has also passed. All I know is that press or no press if I found my friend lying lifeless on the floor or bed 911 would be my first call--not some girl to find out "what to do".
If I have to apologize then I will, but I think I've moved into the "anger" phase of my grieving now. The actions of these two women waiting so long and asking some young girl what to do just has me very ticked off.
Christina
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Thanks for posting this, It's nice to know that Heath was so well liked in Hollywood. :c)
Here's a link to that video clip:
http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1389981778
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Christina
I thought the same thing. I can't believe they called Mary Kate Olsen twice before they called 911. This could haved been a move that cost Heath his life. :\'(
All I know is that press or no press if I found my friend lying lifeless on the floor or bed 911 would be my first call--not some girl to find out "what to do".
Christina
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Christina
I thought the same thing. I can't believe they called Mary Kate Olsen twice before they called 911. This could haved been a move that cost Heath his life. :\'(
I agree, I KNOW we are not supposed to speculate...but a lot can happen in 30 minutes, especially if he indeed did accidentally take too many pills or had a drug interaction. Maybe we will never know?
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Christina
I thought the same thing. I can't believe they called Mary Kate Olsen twice before they called 911. This could haved been a move that cost Heath his life. :\'(
we will never, but what I find hard to digest is why on earth would someone call her, instead of 911, I know here in my Country or IMO I would call 911 first and foremost, before asking advise, sorry I am a bit pissed that this person is she such a dingbat for not having the basic knowledge of what one ought to do when needed to save a life, for the love of God, are all these people surrounding actors and actress all that dumb.
truly this is not the first time this has happened, anyway I ain't going to go on, I finished my grieving now I am angry also
1.00PM snores, 2.45 no answer, 3.00PM she sets up the table and then check and see he's cold, the thought following is mindbogglingly irrational from my side, shouldn't she had first tried to make sure he was awake before setting her table, then she called the Olson twin not once but twice, before calling 911, the private security and ambulance get there 3.33.PM makes me think twice!
BTW: in the local film industry there is talk that the Imaginarium film with Heath ledger was almost to completion, they were coming to Vancouver to do some CGI scenes, maybe I repeat maybe we might get fortunate enough that most of the film could be salvageable , I would be very please to remember is last film as the character that fools you into is magic world trough his mirrors and hand trick and subtle nuances of mischiefs , than of the grotesque demon of the dark Night, but that is not for me to judge, we shall see!
cheer
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I know it's all so frustrating, just to think of the could have beens. But there are so many could have beens. I'm taken as far back as when Jim Henson died. He had pneumonia. One day he felt a little sick, the next he was gone. The thought echoing through everyone's mind, I'm sure (especially his family's) was "If only..." If only they'd realized how sick he was. If only he'd gone to a doctor sooner. If only...
I don't think it falls under the heading of speculating to express this anger and frustration. As long as we don't belabor the issue of details, we should feel free to get these feelings out. I hope you know I share your frustration, as well as your sorrow, over this tragic chain of events that led to the loss of our angel. :ghug:
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LJN, that's so nice. ^f^
I have to admit the one thing I haven't had is a real hug from someone in person. A few people called and that was nice, but a warm hugs right now must be very nice. I'm glad for all of you who have that, and in the meantime, I draw comfort from the ones I've been getting here. :ghug:
I consider all these post to be hugs, FlowerChild. I can't even mention Heath to anyone else because I start crying. Here, I can read all the beautiful posts and cry to my heart's content. Shared tears are hugs, I think. It is good that we have this place so we know how much other people are hurting, too, and missing our man.
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With love to everyone here, to everyone who has posted, to everyone who has just read the posts. To the mods for keeping us imformed and comforting us while grieving themselves. I haven't said much, but believe me I'm with you. :\'( :ghug:
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Here's a link to that video clip:
http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1389981778
I have always liked Daniel Day Lewis. That's now moved into loving him for this.
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Hi Rosie. I'm really in kind of another place in the whole world right now.... :ghug:
Good to see someone else is up and about these parts. I'm just lost in the pieces of why and how, and howw, and howww. :-\\
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we will never, but what I find hard to digest is why on earth would someone call her, instead of 911,
There are so many reasons as to why people react the way they do when they face a crisis. Some people become stone cold and do all the right things and completly break down later, some can't do anything, and some do silly and stupid things. It is human nature to react differently and I don't think it is our place to judge someone we do not know.
Please let us not start with the what ifs and whys.
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I want to echo Rosie, love to everyone here,this place is helping me deal with the devastating and tragic loss of Heath. Still doesn't feel real. Thanks to everyone for being here. :ghug:
This is a lovely tribute to Heath from Adam Sutton, who worked with Heath on Ned Kelly and BBM.
http://video.msn.com/?mkt=en-AU&brand=ninemsn&vid=cee7c897-6e44-4f52-902e-0222f032c553
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:ghug: to you Christie
I just sent an email to a Norwegian gossip mag. They had used the image of "our" things at Heaths appt. The ones Ethan laid down. And I told them how we on this site, through meetings, have become friends in real life. And that I am consoling my friends, and being consoled in return by friends now. :) Wether we have met or not, it is good to be here together.
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It is human nature to react differently and I don't think it is our place to judge someone we do not know.
Please let us not start with the what ifs and whys.
O0 Well said Esme, I totally agree with you. :ghug:
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:ghug: to you Christie
I just sent an email to a Norwegian gossip mag. They had used the image of "our" things at Heaths appt. The ones Ethan laid down. And I told them how we on this site, through meetings, have become friends in real life. And that I am consoling my friends, and being consoled in return by friends now. :) Wether we have met or not, it is good to be here together.
Oh esme. :ghug: I see the tribute Ethan laid down everywhere, and I can't believe that such a beautiful thing that brought us all together has had to be used in this way. It breaks my heart to think of it. But I am glad that I am here, with you all, because it helps me deal with the pain and the grief a little better. :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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I just realised that all those who were at the EGT in London have the same little white cowboy hat and badge that Ethan left at Heath's apartment :-\\ I think it's a comfort, though - just one more thing that ties us all together with the man whose awesome performance led us here.
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How some of us wish we could have been there at that park, and talked to him and maybe have been a help.
Heath died. This is Day 4, and I'm suffering worse than ever.
Dear Toni, I am very touched by your post, please keep courage, we are all afflicted so deeply ! It's a chance that we can support ouselves on this forum :ghug:
Simone
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:ghug: to you Christie
I just sent an email to a Norwegian gossip mag. They had used the image of "our" things at Heaths appt. The ones Ethan laid down. And I told them how we on this site, through meetings, have become friends in real life. And that I am consoling my friends, and being consoled in return by friends now. :) Wether we have met or not, it is good to be here together.
Very nice thing to do Esme, I am so pleased they chose 'our' tribute to spread around the world, I just wish it was being spread about under happier circumstances.
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my god,im crying when I see pics of Ennis and Jack together... :\'(
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Dear Brokies, my hugs are not enough but your words give comfort. Thank you for stopping by and expressing your thoughts. Together we will be strong.
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I am going to Broome Street in a few hours and pay respect to Heath with flowers, a button and a card from the forum
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On the card, I wrote
"Dear Heath, anything interesting up in the heaven? We miss you."
I know you all will be with me. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you Ethan to do that for us all :ghug:
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I just realised that all those who were at the EGT in London have the same little white cowboy hat and badge that Ethan left at Heath's apartment :-\\ I think it's a comfort, though - just one more thing that ties us all together with the man whose awesome performance led us here.
That hadn't occured to me.... I need to go find it when I go home and just have it out for a little while
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my god,im crying when I see pics of Ennis and Jack together... :\'(
Me too dear goblondie and I cryed a lot last wednesday watching Brokeback Mountain on TV :\'(
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I'm not sure if the above image has been posted previously or not.
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Carefree Wind, that made me smile :)
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Hello, Simone---I had deleted the post before you replied. Am so very tired, exhausted, and do not know what the moderators find right
or wrong, so I just took it off.
Will return the part you made reference to, however. There had been a network report about Heath's sleep disorder, and how he had walked
all night, alone, often ending up at Washington Park at daybreak, where he would sometimes join in the chess games. The regulars there said he was
easy to get along with and good company and down-to-earth. But the insomnia had always left him weary.
I would have loved Heath as a friend if he had been a garbage collector, or if his career had failed. He stood out from others, as someone who
loved and needed love, and in his endless personal kindness towards those he could easily have ignored.
It hurts to think of that sleep disorder, and the lonely walks, and yet how he would be so very able to sit down and talk. And so I said I wish
we had been there, in that time period, and been company to him, when he was so very tired. He would not have brushed us off. Any of us.
The deleted sections---nothing terrible, just a question of what to pass along from the news and what to leave alone.
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I'm not sure if the above image has been posted previously or not.
carefree wind, that is really beautiful. :)
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Toni, I have read your post before you have deleted it !
Don't worry :ghug:
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I'm not sure if the above image has been posted previously or not.
That's beautiful. Thanks for making me smile, even it's only for a short moment, in this hard time. :ghug:
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Who is Mary Cate Olsen ? (Sorry to appear stupid).
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Who is Mary Cate Olsen ? (Sorry to appear stupid).
Don't feel stupid, child actress, grown up now, was in TV show "Full House", has twin sister Ashly, (forgive if I spelled the name wrong), Lot of money, not much else to say.
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Carefree Wind - your signature is truly touching. It's from the poem "To an athlete dying young" by A.E.Houseman, isn't it? One of my favourite singer/songwriters - Eric Bogle - put the poem to music on his last CD. I hadn't thought of it before, but it's really fitting here....
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You are all very welcome :ghug:
It's just such a slight ease of heart, having this place to come to, even in this time of profane sadness.
Even though my posts in this thread thus far, have been deviod of much sadness, it is there, just hidden deep inside, as many of my emotions often are. But I do share your pain, and understand it fully.
When Steve Irwin died, yet another wonderful Australian, it felt as if my whole world was falling apart. I hadn't experienced such sadness and shock since the death of my cousin, many years before. I suppose that now with Heath's passing, my emotions are in self defence mode? When I see the news reports, a part of me still can't believe that he is truly gone. But I know that shall pass, and acceptance will take its place.
It is my hope, to be able to visit Heath's place of rest, here in Perth, sometime after his funeral. If this is to happen, then I shall carry with me the thoughts and love that you all share for this most wonderful of men, and lay them there.
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Don't feel stupid, child actress, grown up now, was in TV show "Full House", has twin sister Ashly, (forgive if I spelled the name wrong), Lot of money, not much else to say.
Thank you manhattangirl, why have they called her twice !!! :s)
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I've been watching all Heath's interviews since yesterday and this one really put a smile on my face.. he's laughing and playing just like a little child.. thought I'd share it with u guys!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU (http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU)
I'm gonna miss that smile :\'(
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Thank you manhattangirl, why have they called her twice !!! :s)
Bad judgement calls all around. If they couldn't wake him, 911 should have been first call. I don't understand why they didn't do it. Even if it was hopeless, EMS, (Emergency Medical Service) should have been alerted. Funny how common sense escapes us sometimes.
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A small tribute from Warner Bros.
http://thedarkknight.warnerbros.com/HeathMemorial.html
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Who is Mary Cate Olsen ? (Sorry to appear stupid).
Oh..my dear tita you made me smile for the first time in 4 days.. :^^)
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To everyone here a big ..........
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I think that it started to sink in,and I miss him so much ....
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Oh..my dear tita you made me smile for the first time in 4 days.. :^^)
Happy to read that dear Hpv :ghug: ^f^... You make me smile also with that comment ^f^
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With all due respect to one of the moderators, I think a part of death is *always* to speculate on the "ifs and whys"....sorry to offend anyone. Time for me to take my leave. Trying to find reason for some things in death is a part of the healing process and if that's not allowed here then I don't see the point. (Time to review the stages of grieving). People can only go on for so long crying and being sad, then we must move on to question, be angry, and finally accept.
Anyway, thank you Ethan for being the only person in my life to ever send me a "You bet." postcard several years ago! I know that I will never, ever get one from anyone else and I STILL smile when I see it framed on my desk (I have it in a two sided frame so I can also see the "You bet.")
Best of luck to all in getting through the grieving process. Goodbye to my dear, sweet Heath in this world, but never goodbye to him in my heart.
Christina/Cora
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Carefree Wind - your signature is truly touching. It's from the poem "To an athlete dying young" by A.E.Houseman, isn't it? One of my favourite singer/songwriters - Eric Bogle - put the poem to music on his last CD. I hadn't thought of it before, but it's really fitting here....
Yes NoReins, that is right :) I found the words in my signature, in an article related to Heath today, and wanted to use it in my sig here, as I think it befits the man we know as Heath, all so very well.
I ought to search for the poem in its entirety.
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This is the latest post on this most wonderful and incredibly poignant memorial blog for Heath. I cried when I saw the picture that accompanied it. I still am. :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/2008/01/newsweek-obituary-for-heath-ledger.html
That's so moving thanx.. :\'(
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LETTER TO HEATH
My Heath sweet eyes:
Do you know?I had hardly posted any pictures of you in the thread;my preferences went to Jake-and Jack-.But this doesn't mean that I didn't like you,that I didn't love you.All the contrary.Yeah,in the beginning people noticed how expressive Jake's eyes were;a coworker of mine,( this one who cried with me when I told him the news and who has toasted for you're now in a better place where you're able to find peace while he was seeing BBM) said that He´s got "eyes like a headlight and he tells everything with his look..."But it's not completely true; I've always realised the sweetness of your eyes...
These days I think I've gone over your role in BBM almost scene by scene.And I remember the glance you take to Jack/Jake immediately before he say "Sometimes I miss you so much I can't hardly stand it"; all the love and tenderness in the world is reflected in this glance¡ Or when both of you descend from the mountain at the end of the summer and you are making jokes with his harmonica's sound; being as Ennis was a man of few words and no "I love yous" ,one more time your glance speaks volumes about your feelings...Or when you looked at Jack from the river,hardly a little spot on the mountain's high...You reflected yourself by your glance,in the end always sweet although sometimes wear in a "rough man" disguise.
As regards to your life off-screen,when Jake was given BAFTA award for his role in BBM,after his speech I saw how you clapped him fervently;your eyes seemed wet with emotion and looked at him with tenderness;how proud you seemed of your friend and of the effort both of you had done mentally and psychically.The same kind of look when you looked at Michelle,that reflected how in love you were with her,in the happy times when she loved you and you knew she was yours...The same look you had,much more still,when you looked at Matilda,your baby,who sooner or later will ask for her daddy and nobody will be already able to answer to her that He's working in a new movie...Yes,you had very sweet eyes,and maybe nobody has noticed how much love you had to give and how these eyes reflected this...
My grandmother said that when a beloved person is gone,she or he keeps on looking after us in another space;for this,I'm sure you'll keep on looking after your baby and Michelle,and looking at Jake with proud,and,maybe-only maybe-looking at all of us,who now are feeling a little helpless without your glance...It's difficult for me to write this,not only because I'm crying again;but also because it's not in my own language.But I do believe you'll understand it because it's written...no,not written...IT´S FELT WITH LOVE LANGUAGE.And this needs neither translation nor good grammar...
You bet,Heath,sweet eyes angel;I will always love you.I SWEAR.
:ghug: ALICIA :^^)
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To everyone here a big ..........
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I think that it started to sink in,and I miss him so much ....
The same for you,dear hpv;it´s good we´re able to make us smile each other in such a sad days... :^^)
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With all due respect to one of the moderators, I think a part of death is *always* to speculate on the "ifs and whys"....sorry to offend anyone. Time for me to take my leave. Trying to find reason for some things in death is a part of the healing process and if that's not allowed here then I don't see the point. (Time to review the stages of grieving). People can only go on for so long crying and being sad, then we must move on to question, be angry, and finally accept.
Anyway, thank you Ethan for being the only person in my life to ever send me a "You bet." postcard several years ago! I know that I will never, ever get one from anyone else and I STILL smile when I see it framed on my desk (I have it in a two sided frame so I can also see the "You bet.")
Best of luck to all in getting through the grieving process. Goodbye to my dear, sweet Heath in this world, but never goodbye to him in my heart.
Christina/Cora
Dear Christina, there is no way anyone here is censoring posts, and I hope the moderators will agree with me,only if they are really offensive, so there is no need for you to feel so, you can posts away here all you feelings,and express your grieve and anger..BTW, anyone is entitle to their opinion!
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I've been watching all Heath's interviews since yesterday and this one really put a smile on my face.. he's laughing and playing just like a little child.. thought I'd share it with u guys!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU (http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU)
I'm gonna miss that smile :\'(
that was so good to see again. Thanks for posting. ^f^
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Yes NoReins, that is right :) I found the words in my signature, in an article related to Heath today, and wanted to use it in my sig here, as I think it befits the man we know as Heath, all so very well.
I ought to search for the poem in its entirety.
Here are the words - for you, and anyone else who might see them as fitting
TO AN ATHLETE DYING YOUNG
A E Houseman
The time you won your town the race
We chaired you through the market-place;
Man and boy stood cheering by,
And home we brought you shoulder-high.
To-day, the road all runners come,
Shoulder-high we bring you home,
And set you at your threshold down,
Townsman of a stiller town.
Smart lad, to slip betimes away
From fields were glory does not stay
And early though the laurel grows
It withers quicker than the rose.
Eyes the shady night has shut
Cannot see the record cut,
And silence sounds no worse than cheers
After earth has stopped the ears:
Now you will not swell the rout
Of lads that wore their honours out,
Runners whom renown outran
And the name died before the man.
So set, before its echoes fade,
The fleet foot on the sill of shade,
And hold to the low lintel up
The still-defended challenge-cup.
And round that early-laurelled head
Will flock to gaze the strengthless dead,
And find unwithered on its curls
The garland briefer than a girl's
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There are so many reasons as to why people react the way they do when they face a crisis. Some people become stone cold and do all the right things and completly break down later, some can't do anything, and some do silly and stupid things. It is human nature to react differently and I don't think it is our place to judge someone we do not know.
Please let us not start with the what ifs and whys.
Thank you for your support, but it was already said not to start with the "ifs and whys".
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LETTER TO HEATH
My Heath sweet eyes:.
My grandmother said that when a beloved person is gone,she or he keeps on looking after us in another space;for this,I'm sure you'll keep on looking after your baby and Michelle,and looking at Jake with proud,and,maybe-only maybe-looking at all of us,who now are feeling a little helpless without your glance...It's difficult for me to write this,not only because I'm crying again;but also because it's not in my own language.But I do believe you'll understand it because it's written...no,not written...IT´S FELT WITH LOVE LANGUAGE.And this needs neither translation nor good grammar...
You bet,Heath,sweet eyes angel;I will always love you.I SWEAR.
:ghug: ALICIA :^^)
ALICIA, wow..your letter is too amazing for words!!!True and so full of love :^^)
Smart words from your grandma.
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CoraJack--please don't go. We are, all of us, emotionally exhausted and physically tired. People will disagree more, when tired, but am sure
no one wishes to give hurt feelings.
It will be especially difficult today, if the funeral services are scheduled this day. Then the return to Perth. There's a finality there that
takes away all hope, all that irrational hope, that somehow this all never really happened, and was only a bad dream. There's something cruel
about funerals. When they are over, life is supposed to go on. And, of course it has to, but the heart says--no.
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I consider all these post to be hugs, FlwrChild. I can't even mention Heath to anyone else because I start crying. Here, I can read all the beautiful posts and cry to my heart's content. Shared tears are hugs, I think. It is good that we have this place so we know how much other people are hurting, too, and missing our man.
Very well said!!! It's very comforting to know that I can always come here and be surrounded
by my loving brokies that I know ,feel exactly how I do ,that was my first thought when I heard about this tragedy..
BTW...Welcome and thanks to all the new members that found EnnisJack, and felt that they have to express themselves here
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Carefree Wind, this is a lot to ask, I know, but in time, when you can, could you send photos here of wherever Heath is laid to rest?
Or Asali? It would mean so much to so many of us.
Also, could the moderators or anyone else, keep track, and post when the memorial service is held in New York, so that we could add
our thoughts and prayers at that time?
I guess we can get by without these, if need be. But am saying it again, the finality is supposed to help the healing process, but sometimes,
it does the opposite. Also, I hope we could begin to think of some way to honor Heath's memory when his birthday comes up, in April.
Something. Anything.
Finally, let's all remember, we are different people, with different sensitivities, and it is not unusual to take things the wrong way, especially,
when tired. We are all under the same tent, and yet so very diverse. We do have in common this shared love for that gentle, kind soul.
Let's be good to one another in patience, love, and understanding.
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With all due respect to one of the moderators, I think a part of death is *always* to speculate on the "ifs and whys"....sorry to offend anyone.
You have not, since I am the why and if mod in question. But this forum has a policy that says we do not gossip. And until anything is said publicly, speculations and it's like is falling under that rule.
I as well as many of you would like to know what happened. But we have no right, he was a public figure yes, but he was immensly private. So many of the articles and links to interviews have showed just that. Our no gossip rule have come from wanting to respect the actors private lives. NOt a desire to sensor anyone, and least not now in our grief.
Feel free to speculate all of you, but as FlwrChild have posted earlier, please keep it to private conversations.
And I hope you are not leaving the forum now. :ghug:
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For me, Heath was an someone who broke the rules, and went beyond himself. This kind of heart, this kind of guts is rare, and will always be remembered. I never thought at my age I would be in awe of any one, and especially someone so young. I was of Heath. My hero is John Lennon, I have a picture of him in cube at work. I still have his albums. I never thought I'd feel that way about anyone, but I do now, and now there's two pictures in my cube.
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I'm not sure if the above image has been posted previously or not.
That is beautiful. Thank you.
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LJN, that's so nice. ^f^
I have to admit the one thing I haven't had is a real hug from someone in person. A few people called and that was nice, but a warm hugs right now must be very nice. I'm glad for all of you who have that, and in the meantime, I draw comfort from the ones I've been getting here. :ghug:
I understand. I've gotten a hug from my husband, but he doesn't understand how bad it is. I wish we could all meet and hug one another. :ghug:
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I understand. I've gotten a hug from my husband, but he doesn't understand how bad it is. I wish we could all meet and hug one another. :ghug:
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I understand. I've gotten a hug from my husband, but he doesn't understand how bad it is. I wish we could all meet and hug one another. :ghug:
Me too. In the meantime, I'm glad we can do that here. :ghug:
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No "real" hugs here either. :( BUT i can feel all the group hugs from you all. :t)
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I've been watching all Heath's interviews since yesterday and this one really put a smile on my face.. he's laughing and playing just like a little child.. thought I'd share it with u guys!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU (http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU)
I'm gonna miss that smile :\'(
Oh, I watched this one a few times in the last couple of days... Heath is so adorable there it makes me smile and laugh, but then when it's over it's even more hard to believe that this lively, charming guy is no longer here. :\'(
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
Thanks a lot dear Ethan, I would like to be with you and to light a candle for Heath :ghug: ^f^
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I just realised that all those who were at the EGT in London have the same little white cowboy hat and badge that Ethan left at Heath's apartment :-\\ I think it's a comfort, though - just one more thing that ties us all together with the man whose awesome performance led us here.
I have all my mementos from that day in a box in my wardrobe, I got them out last night after I saw the pix of the hat and badge, and I felt like Ennis with the shirts in his closet :\'( I still have such good memories of that day, none of which would have been possible without Heath. We owe him so much and I know I will never be able to repay that debt to him. I just hope that he knew how much he did for us all, and how grateful we are to him.
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OH Ethan and LJN, Thank you so much. It is a wonderful thing you are doing for us who cannot be there. We are there with you in spirit completely. :ghug:
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
Thank you so much Ethan, I would like to know when will you be there more or less in number of hours from now..2,3,4..??
I'm asking because I want to light a candle here as well ,at he same time,so maybe approximately, please..
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
Ethan and LJN, I can't thank you enough for doing this for us. Being on the other side of the world, it's not possible for me to go and pay my respects in person as I would like to, so for you both to do it on mine, and everyone else's behalf, means so much to me, more than I can ever express with words. Thank you :ghug:
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Thank you Ethan and LJN we will all be with you in spirit and I hope that Heath can feel our love wherever he is
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Linda
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Please don't mention it.
I know distance may set us apart but we are all together. That thought is comforting.
hpv, that is a great idea. Let's all light a candle at a place where you are in honoring Mr. Ledger and celebrating his life.
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Oh, I watched this one a few times in the last couple of days... Heath is so adorable there it makes me smile and laugh, but then when it's over it's even more hard to believe that this lively, charming guy is no longer here. :\'(
I have just now watched this vidéo : I am happy to see Heath laughing and to hear his voice... But it's so sad we'll never see him again :\'(
Thanks for the link
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Please don't mention it.
I know distance may set us apart but we are all together. That thought is comforting.
hpv, that is a great idea. Let's all light a candle at a place where you are in honoring Mr. Ledger and celebrating his life.
Yes indeed, we are all together At what time will you light a candle ? So I'll light one too same time of you.
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Hugs back to you HPV Thank you for offering up yours too
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I cant believe how sad I feel
A great hug to all of you
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I cant believe how sad I feel
So glad to see you, coguaro, in spite of the present circumstances.
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I cant believe how sad I feel
A great hug to all of you
We hear you... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you so much with my whole heart Ethan and Michelle. You’re so brave. I wish I were there with you, I really need it. Brokies owe you a lot. My thoughts will be there with both of you. Love you.
Now I’m so tired….I only want to stay in bed and try to forget for a minute that my sweet eyes baby is gone….
I feel like a train had passed over me so I don’ want to think how Michelle, Jake and Heath’s parents and sisters must be feeling right now. What a terrible nightmare this is!!!
I needed so much to read fics about Ennis and Jack; I loved to watch Jake and Heath pics and to say silly crazy things about them; I adored make jokes about sexy fantasies with Heath and Jake or Ennis and Jack with my Spanish Brokies friends; I liked to save in my laptop beautiful nature pics of Enzo (Mars) and comment almost all of them; I wanted the whole time to read everyone’s post in all the Characters, Quotes and Scenes threads. And now I don’t want to do any of that, I CAN’T, and I don’t know when I’m going to be able to do some of that again, ‘cause the most sad days in my life have cut my wings, my ability to dream, leaving me so empty and shattered, a tiny shadow of the happy girl I tried to be.
I used to live as if I were to live forever, not worrying much about things unresolved and words unspoken, ‘cause there will be “enough time”. My mother always said to me that I have to think that nothing is forever, but sometimes that was so difficult for a free and dreamer spirit like I was. But, ah, how life can change in only a minute, which takes the body of a fine man in stop breathing. And maybe you never will be the same again.
On Monday my work became a hell; I found out that my boss and some co- workers were a liars, very bad people, telling bad things about me when I loved them. So I thought I was going to have to quit my job. On Tuesday my best brokie friend and I had a bitter argument ‘cause of our jealousies and insecurities, so I thought I have lost a friend. On Wednesday my whole world crash down when I heard about Heath’s dead, and I became the ghost I’m now. So my mother was right: Work, friends, illusions, dreams, beautiful things, nothing lasts forever, and you can loose them all in just a second.
How is possible that the death of a man I never met has ruined my life? Well, it’s simple. This forum was the only place in the whole world where I could be myself, where people understood me, where I found that I’m not crazy for loving so much BBM. Here there was reassurance. Here I could dream. But now…
As many brokies know, my life is being so hard lately, and I’ve always had a huge need to love and being loved, and I really need to think that people is good, that world is a nice place and I and the ones I love will be happy. ‘Cause of that I was always “dreaming”, building in my mind and in my soul a better places for everyone, thinking that “all” is possible if you want it with all your heart. Ennis and Jack, my brokies friends, everything here helped me so much to go on, helped me to keep dreaming; and a huge sweet part of those dreams was Heath. Now my castle of dreams has an empty room and I don’t know what to do to fill it. It’s like when you was a child and you had a magic place that made you feel special and happy every time you was there, like a cute tiny house in a tree in your garden, like a dusty warm attic where you used to hide your treasures, like a dazzling carousel, with precious lights, brilliant mirrors and many beautiful horses. You have the black one, the white one, the blue one, the brown one and so on. You love your little piece of heaven, but of all those marvellous figures you adore the amber one. But then, one day, suddenly, you go to your carrousel and your favourite horse is broken, dirty and shattered. You feel like the most miserable child in the f**ing dark world. Of course you still have so many little horses, wonderful in their amazing colours, and they are there only for you, waiting for you playing with them. You still loved them, but you don’t want to play no more, ‘cause, without your favourite friend, now the lights are no longer precious for you and the mirrors are not brilliant no more, and the carousel seems so sad, a cold place that you didn’t know that it could exist. And you don’t want to stay there ‘cause you don’t know what to do, and you only want to cry, go home and dream about your amber favourite one, ‘cause you think if you dream so hard about him, maybe you could made him come back. But then, right then, you realize that you can’t dream again ‘cause the one who made you dream is now dead, and without dreams you also are dead.
I don’t know if this made any sense for you, but it’s how I feel since I saw that damn new banner two days ago and the silly crazy dreams which used to helped me to go on were erased sharply. And now, for me, it seems that all carousels in the world are empty, old and broken, ‘cause I don’t have my "amber one" and I miss him so bad.
Oh my sweet baby, I miss you so bad. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Thank you so much Ethan, I would like to know when will you be there more or less in number of hours from now..2,3,4..??
I'm asking because I want to light a candle here as well ,at he same time,so maybe approximately, please..
We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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ALICIA, wow..your letter is too amazing for words!!!True and so full of love :^^)
Smart words from your grandma.
Thanks,hpv,I don´t know if it´s amazing but it´s true and full of love-and sadness,but this is not new...-.Maybe my grandma was right and he can read them,as well as all our thoughts,wherever he is now. :ghug:
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
Thanks Ethan and Michelle.My heart will go with you then.I already have a candle;I put this morning in my local Church...But I´ll light another tonight-Spanish hour-;you´re beautiful and brave¡. :ghug:
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
Thanks so much for doing this Ethan and LJN. I think Heath would be proud to know that so many people loved him.
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Jake, take care of Heath wherever you two are. We'll mourn him here and we'll always love and remember you forever :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
thank you for doing this for all of us too x
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Jake, take care of Heath wherever you two are. We'll mourn him here and we'll always love and remember you forever :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I like this thought of yours dear filazahies :^^)
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Tammy,I don't know what to tell you because we're speaking fairly well these days in which I've told you everything my soul and,in a lesser part,my mind was thinking.And I also don't know what to tell you because I'm feeling just like you:I don't feel like reading fics about Ennis and Jack because I can't imagine new stories with a character who will have forever Heath's face;I don't feel like speaking about if Jack was gaier than Ennis just because he had more same-sex relationships,f.e.,because for me this now makes no sense;of course,I don't feel like posting jokes,pictures about nature or cities,or what are my hobbies,because I consider all this now almost an insult...I don't know if it's logical or not that someone you never know personally can produce in your inner self so much devastation when he's gone.But it's what I'm feeling now,just like you.Heath gave life,face and body to a character with whom we could feel identified easily,for several reasons,and we couldn't separate actor from character. so easily.So,when he's gone,is more than a more or less well-known person has died,and for whom we say the typical phrases.-"Oh poor boy,he was so young¡What a pity¡"and so on and on...It's like if A FRIEND HAS DIED, and we have for him the same feelings of despair and pain we have for a real friend with whom we can get in touch more often...For me,this is the logic of the situation,and,believe me,you're not the only one to suffer from it.
However,there´re moments in our life when everything seems to be out of their place,the easy and quiet place we've put it in;that everything what's around us is turning against us;that,as you know we say here:"Disgraces never come alone"...In your case,maybe Heath's dead has been the last match that has fired the bomb of your sadness,but this cames from another time and for another situation,am I wrong?I think I know you well enough as to say this.I'm not diminishing his lost impact nor saying it has no importance;simply that something must ever be the drop that empties the glass-also as we say here...-Take it easy as we must do,sooner or later,and try to change your world,the things in it that you don't like; but to get it,you must be strong enough,and help yourself at the same time you help your parents-who need you very much,never forget it...-,or you help any of us to overcome this pain we have.What else can I say you?.That anything will be the same from January 22th onwards?Surely not,but we must fight for that change will be positive in the end.Without Heath,without Ennis,but positive... %)
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
Wow this is gorgeous, simply gorgeous. Once again thank you Ethan and Michelle for representing us in such a beautiful way. :ghug:
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This is wonderful :)
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
If you can, please join us to light a candle.
I feel so far away... but thank you so much for taking our love & our thoughts for Heath on our behalf & in representing us. It is a great comfort. We will definitely be with you in spirit.
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Thank you, Ethan and Michelle. I wish I could be there with you physically.
Brokies, we must hold on to each other. Even though none of us knew Heath personally, we still feel a tremendous loss. I'm a "Jake girl," but when I heard about Heath I completely fell apart. May God give his family and friends strength...and give all of us strength as well, to deal with this. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone. I wish I could do more to comfort you and ease your pain, but of course each of us has to do that for ourselves. In whatever way I can though, I am here for you, and it has brought me comfort knowing you are here for me. :ghug:
Please try to remember through all of this that the very reason we mourn so deeply is the same reason we have this strength to draw from. Heath, and Jake, and everyone involved in making Brokeback Mountain, brought us together, taught us lessons we'll take with us through the rest of our lives, and led us to this amazing community where people from all over the world, of all different ethnic, social, religious, economic and personality backgrounds have formed one family, based on love, respect, compassion, and acceptance. This is a gift that he gave to us, this is a way that he will always be with us, and this will, I hope, help us to heal as time goes by. :ghug:
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I'm just off the phone with LuvJackNasty, she was at Pensylvania Station in NYC and Ethan just arrived. Our ambassadors are on their way. I love you guys, thanks for doing it. ^f^
I'm a mess :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I've been dreaming of him every night since Tuesday, and I have never had dreams of him before. From what I can remember, they are good dreams. #)
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
I will light a candle in half an hour from now!!
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4 days since this nighmare started, and Im sorry to say this, but I don't think we will wake up from this one :\'(
this is a beautiful video I found on youtube
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=m4tE2ZjX-jM
RIP Heath Ledger, I will always love you
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I will light a candle in half an hour from now!!
My candle is ready :ghug:
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A tribute from Warnerbros
http://thedarkknight.warnerbros.com/HeathMemorial.html
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:\'(
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I have light mine
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In this time Ethan with LJN are in Soho to light a candle for Heath..and so am I.
In Loving Memory
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R.I.P. Sweet prince
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Brokies, I will be the lucky one to get a real hug from LuvJackNasty in a few hours.
We have collected your thoughts and will be bringing them with us to the place and light candles. We need you and you know you will all be with us.
Hugs to each one of you. :ghug:
Thank you, Ethan and Michelle. It means a lot to those of us who are so far away, to have you both there as our emissaries. We couldn't ask for better. You're helping us all feel a much needed connection to Heath right now. %)
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Lovely candle, Esme.
My daughter and I lit ours:
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Friends, their estimate of the time to start lighting candles was a good one. Ethan and Michelle have been to the Brooklyn location and are on their way to SoHo now. It's so nice to see everyone banding together today, from our various corners of the world. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone. I wish I could do more to comfort you and ease your pain, but of course each of us has to do that for ourselves. In whatever way I can though, I am here for you, and it has brought me comfort knowing you are here for me. :ghug:
Please try to remember through all of this that the very reason we mourn so deeply is the same reason we have this strength to draw from. Heath, and Jake, and everyone involved in making Brokeback Mountain, brought us together, taught us lessons we'll take with us through the rest of our lives, and led us to this amazing community where people from all over the world, of all different ethnic, social, religious, economic and personality backgrounds have formed one family, based on love, respect, compassion, and acceptance. This is a gift that he gave to us, this is a way that he will always be with us, and this will, I hope, help us to heal as time goes by. :ghug:
FlwrChild, this is just beautiful. :\'( He did help build this place, and we will keep it strong for him and cherish the gift he gave us. :ghug:
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MY CANDLE IS ALREADY LIGHTNING...
REST IN PEACE,HEATH
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Here's mine
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I have light my candle to Heath as well. Sorry I can't send a photo...
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I've been watching all Heath's interviews since yesterday and this one really put a smile on my face.. he's laughing and playing just like a little child.. thought I'd share it with u guys!
http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU (http://youtube.com/watch?v=fkOpJsdjrEU)
I'm gonna miss that smile :\'(
Thank you so much for this. Only now am I able to watch some of these things and revel in how delightful was Heath...
kathy
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Dear friends -
I have no candle here with me to light. Instead I'll post words to a haunting song, of death and dreams and brightness gone to soon.
Gentle Heath, may you rest peacefully in the light of candles that burn in remembrance of you. :ghug:
Bright Eyes
Art Garfunkel
Is it a kind of dream,
Floating out on the tide,
Following the river of death downstream,
or is it a dream?
There's a fog along the horizon,
A strange glow in the sky,
And nobody seems to know where you go,
And what does it mean?
Oh, is it a dream?
Bright eyes,
Burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
How can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.
Is it a kind of shadow,
Reaching into the night,
Wandering over the hills unseen,
Or is it a dream?
There's a high wind in the trees,
A cold sound in the air,
And nobody ever knows when you go,
And where do you start,
Oh, into the dark?
Bright eyes,
burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
bright eyes.
Bright eyes,
burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.
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Oh Missy, those words are so beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I am going to light my candle, I may be late but I wanted to share in this very special moment with everyone. Ethan and Michelle, I want to thank you for doing this for us all. It makes me feel so close to everyone to know that this is happening in the name of this wonderful place. :ghug:
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As I am at work, I'm unable to light a candle, but I am with you all in spirit. Missy, that song brought me to tears once again. I still can't believe it; I don't want to believe it. How can he be gone? :\'(
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can't really express myself.... such a great actor and a person... rest in peace Heath Ledger
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
This is so perfect. You two are the BEST! It is "around 3 pm" right at this moment as I type. I will have some moments of silence as you light our candles...
kathy
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I lighted my candle few minutes ago.
Sweet Heath.. you're always remebered.. :\'(
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Beloved Heath,
I know God loves you, so that he took you to Him much too early... I know you are in a better place now, full of love, sun and peace. Though, I can't stop crying, I can't stop thinking of you, I can't stop missing you. Because you changed my life, you changed myself. With your words not spoken, with your eyes full of love, sadness, acceptance and hope. You made me find out that love does exist, no matter of the color of the skin, no matter of the gender, no matter of the age, no matter of the distance. You made me find out that love is a force of nature. You made me belive in love, in the genuine one, in love as the only universal truth.
There are no words to thank you. I only hope God will know how to tell you now all these.
Always remember you. Always miss you. Always love you.
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Thanks ethan.
I can't read the text, but the tiny cowboy hat and boot are so sweet. I've seen Heath in other movies, but he'll always be Ennis to me.
I've just been watching Ravenus' "Hasta Mi Final" on youtube. It's always been one of my favourites, but it just seems so much more poignant now.
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My candle is lit (it's 3:44pm eastern time here in Jacksonville, Florida).
I wish I could post a photo:
It's a tall white pillar candle, and with it is the cream-white cowboy hat I got while in Wyoming last winter, and the Wyoming State Flower, The Indian Paintbrush (bright red with soft, bud-like fuzzy petals).
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I have no candle to light, but am very grateful for all those who do, and who keep them lit for the rest of us.
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Here is my candle for Heath.
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I've lit my candle too..........
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I would like to add my own candle, too, but I can´t manage.
Many greetings and tears from the Czech Republic.
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
Oh how nice. How many pages was it? I bet a lot!
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Here is my candle for Heath.
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What a warm and good feeling is to know, that brokies all around the globe light candles for Heath!! <^(
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I have no candle to light, either, but as Ethan and Michelle are there, with notes of love from us, I feel like am there with them in spirit.
We will love him for as long as we live, and beyond. He was that worthy of being loved.
Beautifully put. ^f^
And Michelle and Ethan feel us there with them. I've text messaged to tell them we're lighting candles here as well. It's wonderful to see the pictures of our individual candles from around the world.
<^(
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Froggy, you're killing me with this. It's still a shock at times ... :\'(
I love all the candles everyone is lighting - as hpv says, the world is aglow for Heath. :ghug:
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I've just read these words on http://www.legacy.com/SFGate/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=101716459&PageNo=1 and stone in my throat and tears in my eyes came back:
«I was first enthralled by your wonderful acting in “10 Things I Hate About You.” Heath, there are so many things that so many people have loved and will continue to love about you. The anticipation of seeing what you would do next is palpable still and long after “The Dark Knight” debuts, our anticipation and wonder will remain … an unfulfilled mystery. We will go back again and again to view cinematic images, to remember, to memorize, to celebrate, to cry, to smile, to give thanks for the gifts you have given. Your gentle heart and your exquisite humanity will be missed forever.
Death is not the victor, Heath, for your light yet shines. In death, your light shines the brighter and will not dim. You gave so much of yourself, and now you sleep. We grieve and are forlorn, and forewarned yet again of our mortality, of the foolishness of taking our lives for granted, of taking moments of pure pleasure for granted – such moments are what you gave us, Heath, as your friend, director Ang Lee poignantly testifies. My heart breaks over your passing from our lowly realm, Heath, yet it lifts at the memory of your smile. I send my deepest condolences and prayers to your family and friends.
Watch over Matilda, Heath – you do indeed live on in her. You battled victoriously and scaled mountains! Goodnight, sweet Prince.
Meia W (Cleveland, OH)»
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(P.S. A big kiss+hug to Froggy!)
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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A candle in London...thinking of you...
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Oh god Froggy, that's beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh that's just beautifull malawix. Thank you for posting it. :^^)
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Pierre, thank you so much for sharing that with us. It's beautiful, as we knew it would be. :\'( :\'( :\'( <^(
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( - That's really really beautiful.
To everyone here, to Ethan and Michelle.... :ghug:
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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:\'( :\'( :\'( So so beautiful.
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This is my candle :\'(
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(P.S. A big kiss+hug to Froggy!)
this is indeed a beautiful message...hug and kiss to you too hun x
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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This is so beautiful.... :\'( :\'( Oh my....Thank you so much Ethan and Michelle. Here at home there are two little candles, one for my sweet baby Heath and one for the amazing dream come true he brought to my life, Ennis Del Mar.
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I just lit my candle for Heath.
I think it will take some time for me to recover from this tragedy...can't stop cryin' :\'(
Miss you so much Heath...
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seeing the soho candles breaks my heart
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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Thank you it's so moving and beautiful!
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This is mine for Heath
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I just lit my candle for Heath.
I think it will take some time for me to recover from this tragedy...can't stop cryin' :\'(
Miss you so much Heath...
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh I love what Ethan left. I feel like I should have jumped on the train and met them there but I can't. It's too raw for me.
What does it say on the picture? I can read "We miss you Heath" but not what's underneath. I still wonder how many pages of love it was!
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Oh I love what Ethan left. I feel like I should have jumped on the train and met them there but I can't. It's too raw for me.
What does it say on the picture? I can read "We miss you Heath" but not what's underneath. I still wonder how many pages of love it was!
Many pictures they took with a good digital camera will be posted later with all the details. This one I posted was taken with a picture phone, sent to my cellphone.
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thank you.
to all of you.
thank you ethan again for taking us with you, both of you.
thank you all for lighting a candle.
mine is burning. and in my heart it will remain.
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It is nearly midnight here, so I lit my candle off and go to bed.
Good bye, Heath and rest in peace. We love you and always will.
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Thank you it's so moving and beautiful!
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Just lovely. Off to have (yet) another cry. Heath - you got us all good......
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It's because of you I'm like this now.
I feel like I'm nothing, I'm nowhere.
But in my heart I know it's also because of you that I've found this beautiful community, where I'll be understood, while in my RL, if I mention your name, the answer I'm most likely to get is: "Who is Heath Ledger?"
I'll be always grateful to you of the impact you have had in my life. There will always be a place in my heart with your name in it.
Why did you had to go so young, while the whole world was open for you? I guess it was meant to be that way. You were meant to be a legend.
I'm so sorry you didn't have a change to see your daughter growing up here an earth, but I know, because I've also lost my dad, that you will be watching over her up there in heaven.
Heath, forever young, rest in peace. I will miss you so much...
Johanna
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I've just signed the SFGate Guestbook:
«Tennyson wrote once: "So many worlds, so much to do, / So little done, such things to be...". That's what I think about your departure, Heath. Too soon, too soon you left us, when you had so much to say and play for us. Too soon the sky asked for you, stealing us your smile and your sweetness. Only one little belief comforts all us here: that whatever it happened, wherever you are right now, you will always be a light somewhere in this world. And that light is named Matilda. Thank you, Heath, thank you deep from our hearts. There you will always live.»
I needed to say it there too. And here. And everywhere else I can say it. Only this way this mourning air maybe will disappear.
:(
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I've just signed the SFGate Guestbook:
«Tennyson wrote once: "So many worlds, so much to do, / So little done, such things to be...". That's what I think about your departure, Heath. Too soon, too soon you left us, when you had so much to say and play for us. Too soon the sky asked for you, stealing us your smile and your sweetness. Only one little belief comforts all us here: that whatever it happened, wherever you are right now, you will always be a light somewhere in this world. And that light is named Matilda. Thank you, Heath, thank you deep from our hearts. There you will always live.»
I needed to say it there too. And here. And everywhere else I can say it. Only this way this mourning air maybe will disappear.
:(
***sigh*** :\'(
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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OMG, this breaks me into hundred pieces :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you, people, for everything, thanks Ethan and Michelle for taking all of us there... :ghug:
Still :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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REMEMBER ME ... by James Horner/Cynthia Weil
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Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star
That keeps burning so brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun
I'm with you whenever
You tell my story
For I am all I've done
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me…
I am that one voice
In the cold wind that whispers
And if you listen
You'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can
Reach out and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember:
I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me…
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember…
Me…
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roco :\'( :\'( :\'( ...thank you, really. It's...perfect. :\'( <^(
And we will remember.
You tell my story
For I am all I've done
You are, Heath, and we will. :ghug:
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
Thank you both so much. It really does mean a lot to me, more than I can put into words :ghug:
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A bit late, but here is my candle:
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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That's simply beautiful...Thank agian Ethan and LJN :ghug: ^f^ :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Sometimes, just the little things can hurt. Just found out, the name of Heath's character in the "Imaginarium..." was.....Tony.
He played so many roles, with so many names, and that had to be the last one. Might not bother someone else, but it does leave me with
that slight, additional sadness, to the much larger grief.
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Tony :ghug:
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Sometimes, just the little things can hurt. Just found out, the name of Heath's character in the "Imaginarium..." was.....Tony.
He played so many roles, with so many names, and that had to be the last one. Might not bother someone else, but it does leave me with
that slight, additional sadness, to the much larger grief.
When something potentially more than coincadental hits the conscience of someone with a heart it's not always easy to dissipate the fog that clouds the same mind, and it helps when someone outside of the equation knows that it's not your responsibility nor burden to carry around. It's someone like me, also with a similar heart, yet not named Tony, that should tell you that you need to let it go. Extract the beautiful reminder of what a beautiful man Heath was and was aimed to always be, and let the rest go. If it rushes over you like rain, then it happened right. If you damn near cry your eyes out, it happened the way it was supposed to.
What we have is knowing a man with the power to grip others' hearts is undeniably in a better place. Yes it takes time for that to sink in, but then we are not robots. Accepting passages doesn't always happen with a 'pink' or click. But we will get it because not only does everything happen for a reason, but when love is involved it will eventually set in to have done no wrong. We who love(d) Heath, we with our flowers, tears, notes and hearts, made sure that his transition was soft, about as soft as the wings of an angel; We remember him like this for he gave to us a sense that the earth wasn't as wicked as it otherwise seems to be.
Tony, we're all in this together, trust that. :ghug:
God bless Heath and the part of his heart that he left us with.
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I got into my car today, turned on the radio and the song fire and rain, by james taylor came on.
I just lost it, particularly when he says "But I always thought I would see you again" if you recall the lyrics here they are:
Fire and Rain:
Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone
Suzanne the plans they made put an end to you
I walked out this morning and I wrote down this song
I just can't remember who to send it to
I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Won't you look down upon me, Jesus
You've got to help me make a stand
You've just got to see me through another day
My body's aching and my time is at hand
And I won't make it any other way
oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
I’ve been walking my mind to an easy time
My back turned towards the sun
Lord knows when the cold wind blows it’ll turn your head around
Well, there’s hours of time on the telephone line
To talk about things to come
Sweet dreams and flying machines in pieces on the ground.
oh, I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now
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22.01.2008
In the Soho
Twenty-eight years younger
Thee ere thy birth, more love
And yet now comes thy reaper
Thee send to ye
From the land of the free
Then spoke to ye of thy heart and of human life
Just one moment enough to frost thy veins
With courteous care
Then be done, alone thy cast beneath
The night with mighty grace
As all stood firmed upon this land
As cold thy flesh I sleep
Full moon winding thy path
The fairest far where losses be gone
And lesser fondness upon silence
Awaken the dawning of thy tongue
As thee begged to let thou live
For no wrongs ye behold to this day
In what ye see
As wondrous but nameless charm
A breath itself thou speak
O thee of loneliness
In prayer sad and long
I beg answer thee not
For this life thou harvest is indeed its seed
To the morrows of deeds
That has yet to touch our hearts
Nobler desires and tastes of joy
For one more moment do let ye stay and be
Upon this earth before the sun
In rest thee keep
For Love in all they seek
And in ye magic they see
Joeseph
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thanks frenchcda it's beautiful :\'(
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But I always thought that I'd see you, baby, one more time again, now
I saw this in another thread.
It's so so heart wrenching, and it's always struck me deep..
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Fire and Rain always makes me think of my cousin, who took his own life in 2001. Now I will think of Heath as well everytime I hear it. :\'(
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I love how Daniel Day Lewis put it too, how he didn't know Heath but had a strong sense he would really like him a lot as a man.
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To Ethan and Michelle - thank you for taking the time and having the courage to lay "our" tribute :ghug:
I wasn't able to light a candle along with you, but I was thinking of you - all of you, everywhere round the world :ghug:
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Thanks, orangetruck, and Carby. I had just looked up the latest in Wikopedia, and there it was. And, yeah, it rushed over me like a rainstorm,
the coincidence, but now I see it as OK. When your mind is in a fog, the littlest of things can trouble you. Had to be some name for his last
role and that just happened to be the one. No hurt.
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Hello Brokies...
I'm sorry I haven't really been able to post since Thursday or if I did, very short post. I had school today, even though the whole rest of the week we were off for regents [they're these big test that only NY and CA have to take ^*)]. Anyway, I've been busy but I have some new information to share with you all..
I have said in a previous post that me and my friends are getting tomorrow for what I call a 'Remembrance'..not a party or memorial service like one my friend joked about earlier today (she's not coming). I'm glad to say that 2 more people have joined the group for tomorrows get together. At drama today, me and my friend Ellen were discussing tomorrow's plans and how tragic Heath's death was, when two of my other drama friends came in and started to talk about how they adored him and were absolutely shocked when they heard about his sudden death. When I asked if they would like to come they were overjoyed, though one of them is still unsure if she is coming because she might be babysitting as well as another friend who is working. I won't know for sure of the final number of people will be there tomorrow. We have all decided to watch 3 movies - Lords of Dogstown [which many have not seen b4 including myself], 10 things I hate about you, and Brokeback, which many are excited about because all seemed to have never been able to watch the whole movie because of their perennials. Besides the movie, we will take many pictures to show all of you so you can be with us to in our 'Remembrance' get together and I have asked many to write 2morrow, a letter to Heath about what he has meant to them and if possible, with an adult at hand, next weekend me and my friend Lin, maybe another friend if possible, will place all of these letters, near his SoHo apartment. *Though I have heard that they have blocked the apartment, please if anyone knows this news, tell me*
Skipping subjects, sorry for my sudden ramble but for some reason, I have realized, that I'm disgusted by the media, not official newspapers but paparazzi news. And also, I am not just saying about all the comments they're making on Heath's death but also, because I have been watching the news a lot more, how many accusations they come with, with any celebrity and how most of them, are very false. I feel sympathetic now for many stars, who have been tauted by the media. Especially to Michelle, Matilda, and Heath's family, may all of them be safe and just be about to bring their baby back home, not to be harassed by a reporter just looking for a new story.
I have noticed some changes in how I feel about his death. I am still sad, I will admit and I wish he was back here with us but he's with god in a better place. But lately I've been able to smile and think of all of the good he has done and how many will be impacted from him and how he WILL be a legend, even after his death. I feel that he has moved into my heart, were I will still love him as miss him deeply but also, as made me able to enjoy and respect all that has happened. He influenced me so much and I'm so thankful for that. Heath Ledger, you will always be with me, in my heart and soul, you will stay..
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Cheers, Tony. :cr) ...
:^^)
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Am sorry I wasn't home to light a candle, but since I generally have one lit, will count that one...
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lil_dwarf, Ethan & LuvJackNasty went to the Soho flat today and were able to leave there our tribute, I spoke with both of them when they were on the spot. So far, it's not blocked.
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I don't know why all of a sudden I'm sobbing like crazy.. I just saw this http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714 (http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714) deep down I was hoping this whole thing would be just a bad dream! I have never really met him or even knew him as a person but his work has touched me deeply!! I've been called insane by my family and friends for mourning Heath.. they don't understand what I'm going through.. thank God I can come here and express my emotions without the fear of being called "mentally unstable for crying over a total stranger" :\'(
thanks a bunch for creating this wonderful board.. %)
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
That's very beautiful. Thank you so much Ethan and Michelle!
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I just caught up on today's posts. Big hugs to everyone. I will be posting pictures soon- there are lots.
I still haven't processed the day yet so will not be posting any real thoughts yet. It was very hard and honestly I cried all morning at my desk at work- I just couldn't stop (thanks FC for taking that one teary phone call :^^) ) I've been better able to contain it some at work just because I have to. Anyway, Thank you all so much for being there for each other in these hard days. I know, we're Brokies, that's what we do. I loved how everyone joined in and lit candles. FC told me all about it and , need I say it? Yes I cried.
the only way I have right now of summing up today is this: Within a mile Ennis felt like someone was pulling his guts out hand over hand a yard at a time. That's exactly what it felt like. Thanks to everyone for being there with us and for the words to pay tribute to Heath. I love you guys. :ghug:
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I don't know why all of a sudden I'm sobbing like crazy.. I just saw this http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714 (http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714) deep down I was hoping this whole thing would be just a bad dream! I have never really met him or even knew him as a person but his work has touched me deeply!! I've been called insane by my family and friends for mourning Heath.. they don't understand what I'm going through.. thank God I can come here and express my emotions without the fear of being called "mentally unstable for crying over a total stranger" :\'(
thanks a bunch for creating this wonderful board.. %)
I understand your feelings completely. No one around me understands how torn up I am over this. They knew I loved BBM and especially Jake, but they had no idea I would break down like I did over Heath's passing. My sister and my husband both probably think I've lost my mind at last, but I just tell them, "It's going to take some time to get over this one." But I doubt I will ever really get over it.
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Extract the beautiful reminder of what a beautiful man Heath was and was aimed to always be, and let the rest go. If it rushes over you like rain, then it happened right. If you damn near cry your eyes out, it happened the way it was supposed to.
What we have is knowing a man with the power to grip others' hearts is undeniably in a better place. Yes it takes time for that to sink in, but then we are not robots. Accepting passages doesn't always happen with a 'pink' or click. But we will get it because not only does everything happen for a reason, but when love is involved it will eventually set in to have done no wrong. We who love(d) Heath, we with our flowers, tears, notes and hearts, made sure that his transition was soft, about as soft as the wings of an angel; We remember him like this for he gave to us a sense that the earth wasn't as wicked as it otherwise seems to be.
Tony, we're all in this together, trust that. :ghug:
God bless Heath and the part of his heart that he left us with.
OT, so beautifully put. Thank you for helping me try and put this to rest.
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We will be going to the apartment in Brooklyn first and then to SoHo. So probably around 3 pm. We will be taking all of you with us. Thank you for all your heartfelt messages.
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If you can, please join us to light a candle.
I just saw this. Ethan and Michelle, my heartfelt thanks for doing this.
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I will be posting pictures from the tributes we left but I haven't uploaded them yet.
This is what was left in Brooklyn- Ethan already posted one set of candles and the posters he did.
This booklet contained posts from the vigil thread:
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This candle was left and this pic was attached to it.
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This was the booklet with thoughts from this thread which was left at Soho
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I had two of the same candles but this picture was attached to it with the same words on the back:
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Thank you Michelle. I can hardly type this right now for my tears. God bless you and Ethan.
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That's too much Michelle. Thank you and Ethan so much. What you made is very beautiful!
Thank you.
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words can't express my heartfelt gratitude to Ethan and Michelle! :^^) I'm sure Heath is looking down from heaven smiling right now!
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Thank you so much to Ethan and LJN for honoring Heath for all of us.
Someone sent this moving BBM Music vid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9HCIuXgtgM
I won't be able to watch BBM the same way again :\'(
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I still can't believe he's gone. This all still so raw. Reading all the remembrances and tributes are so heartwarming , to know that he was so well loved all over the world, especially the ones from his family. :\'( :(
God, I'm so in tears right now. Don't know if and when it will get any better, but I do own all of his films so this weekend in honor of him, I will draw the drapes, unplug the phone , and watch each one consecutively. This will be my "lost weekend" in tribute to his great work. There is no doubt more tears will fall over his death, but he will live on in the wonderful characters and work he left behind. This weekend , he will live once again and forever in my heart. Thank You Heath .Love and miss you. Rest in peace.
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Here are some pics from Brooklyn. Ethan has pictures too.
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God I hope the family sees this. Or at least they get message back.
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God I hope the family sees this. Or at least they get message back.
There were enough paparazzi around snapping pictures. I have a deeper hatred for them. They don't let people grieve in peace. I felt very uncomfortable sharing a private moment with Ethan, grieving and literally being circled by them and hearing the click, click, click of the camera. I think one was even filming. Pissed me off and today was not about being pissed off.
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Some pics from Soho:
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The whole thing made me cry but the message at the bottom of this one killed me It says "May you sleep in the angels arms tonight" :\'(
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There were enough paparazzi around snapping pictures. I have a deeper hatred for them. They don't let people grieve in peace. I felt very uncomfortable sharing a private moment with Ethan, grieving and literally being circled by them and hearing the click, click, click of the camera. I think one was even filming. Pissed me off and today was not about being pissed off.
An annoying as they are, remember things like Mozart died and was buried Completely alone. I mean our media are vultures but sometimes they do get word out. These pics will warm hearts all over the world.
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An annoying as they are, remember things like Mozart died and was buried Completely alone. I mean our media are vultures but sometimes they do get word out. These pics will warm hearts all over the world.
I know they will and I didn't mind that they were taking pictures of the things we left- no problem with that whatsoever. It was when we were hugging and crying and they formed a circle around us that I had a problem with.
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REMEMBER ME ... by James Horner/Cynthia Weil
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Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star
That keeps burning so brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun
I'm with you whenever
You tell my story
For I am all I've done
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me…
I am that one voice
In the cold wind that whispers
And if you listen
You'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can
Reach out and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember:
I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me…
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember…
Me…
roco, THANK YOU! This poem, this picture is exactly what I needed. Heath will always be with us.
His work lives on forever. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Here is the tribute left in SoHo from everyone here. Thank you again for your words which went into this. :ghug:
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This was posted on the blog that Theresa set up - it's so beautiful I just had to repost it here. I hope Theresa doesn't mind.
Miss Me, But Let Me Go
Author Unknown
When I come to the end of the road,
and the sun has set for me.
I want no rites in a gloom-filled room.
Why cry for a soul set free?
Miss me a little—but not too long,
and not with your head bowed low.
Remember the love that was once shared.
Miss me, but let me go.
For this is a journey we all must take, and each must go alone.
It’s all a part of the master’s plan, a step on the road to home.
When you are lonely and sick of heart, go to the friends we know.
Bear your sorrow in good deeds. Miss me, but let me go.
Thank you so much for this, NoReins. I can see Heath saying exactly this.
It is wise and beautiful, touching and gentle, full of love and joy for living.
A soul set free...Remember the love...go to the friends we know... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you so much for lighting the candles with us. Seeing these pics is heartening and gives me a lot of comfort. LuvJackNasty is a fine trooper and the tribute she made is just heart warming. :ghug:
Words can not express the trip today to pay our respect at the places. Now I fully understand how Ennis must have felt when he went to visit Jack's parents. It is still hard to believe what had happened. It was very special to have LuvJackNasty and all of your thoughts with me. The love we shared for him beyond the physical boundaries speaks volume. As LuvJackNasty and I just stood there, leaned on each other and starred at the memorial, for a moment I felt that Heath knew and is immersing himself in love from all of us. Will there be a closure on this and how long will it take? I don't know. However, I do know that I am not and will not be alone. Thank you all. :ghug:
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What we have is knowing a man with the power to grip others' hearts is undeniably in a better place. Yes it takes time for that to sink in, but then we are not robots. Accepting passages doesn't always happen with a 'pink' or click. But we will get it because not only does everything happen for a reason, but when love is involved it will eventually set in to have done no wrong. We who love(d) Heath, we with our flowers, tears, notes and hearts, made sure that his transition was soft, about as soft as the wings of an angel; We remember him like this for he gave to us a sense that the earth wasn't as wicked as it otherwise seems to be.
Beautifully said. Thank you, orangetruck. :ghug:
In Soho
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wanted to share my candle.. many thanks to Ethan and Michelle <3
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Thanks for your thoughts and for lighting the candles with us
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wanted to share my candle.. many thanks to Ethan and Michelle <3
sweetlilg, that is beautiful. Thank you!! :ghug:
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Thank you sweetlilg. It's beautiful. :ghug:
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Ethan and Michelle, I have said it before, but really.. what you have done is so wonderful. And beautiful. I thank you so much! :ghug: Thank you.
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MississaugaRed, thank you for posting this. I don't know why, but of all the poems and songs, this one brought me sobbing uncontrollably to tears. The reality of a man now gone, is finally hitting home. The sad truth of a rare talent now snatched away, is finally dawning on my mind. The sensitive soul who understands the depth of a character, the generous man who loves everyone around him, the lonely heart who yearns for love and friendship, where have you gone? :\'(
We will never know what a great director Heath would have been. We will never know what a noble Hamlet he would have made. Thank you, who ever posted the link to Terese's blog. I think that also made me realize how much we lost. The anecdote from Neil about the making of Candy...What Ang Lee said about the joy of working with Heath...
I am sorry if this is terribly sad, but I am only catching up to you all, having held back all week, denying the reality of this tragedy. Thank you all for being here, sharing your thoughts, your news, your hugs.
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Dear friends -
I have no candle here with me to light. Instead I'll post words to a haunting song, of death and dreams and brightness gone to soon.
Gentle Heath, may you rest peacefully in the light of candles that burn in remembrance of you. :ghug:
Bright Eyes
Art Garfunkel
Is it a kind of dream,
Floating out on the tide,
Following the river of death downstream,
or is it a dream?
There's a fog along the horizon,
A strange glow in the sky,
And nobody seems to know where you go,
And what does it mean?
Oh, is it a dream?
Bright eyes,
Burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
How can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.
Is it a kind of shadow,
Reaching into the night,
Wandering over the hills unseen,
Or is it a dream?
There's a high wind in the trees,
A cold sound in the air,
And nobody ever knows when you go,
And where do you start,
Oh, into the dark?
Bright eyes,
burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
bright eyes.
Bright eyes,
burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.
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Last batch from me. I do have a couple of little vids showing the memorials that I will post tomorrow at some point. Ethan has more pics that I'm sure he'll be posting.
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what you have done is so wonderful. And beautiful. I thank you so much! :ghug: Thank you.
Hanna, thank you. We could not have done it without you and everyone. :ghug:
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Wow. The pictures are so comforting. Really they are. To see the outpouring of emotion not only from everyone here at the forum, but to see the amount of flowers and signs and tributes to him is amazing. He was so loved, and if he didn't know if before he surely knows it now.
I think little lil_dwarf_611 said it best: Heath has moved into my heart. And that is where he'll stay.
I always feel a little strange talking about the afterlife. It's kind of a sensitive subject and not everyone believes in it. I do. I can't say I believe in something like Heaven and Hell, but I do believe that there is something for us. I also believe that Heath is with each and every one of us right now. He's with his family, his little girl, his friends and us. Sitting around today, every so often I would get a feeling of peace among the tragedy. I kept thinking to myself "That's Heath telling me it's OK."
Thanks once again Ethan and Michelle for doing this. It means so much to me and everyone here I am sure. :ghug:
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Heath, forever young, rest in peace. I will miss you so much...
Johanna
Yes, he will be forever young!! so unbelievably ,painfully true yet I'm still in disbelieve ! :\'(
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These pictures are just lovely, and what you two did was wonderful. I hope you know how much we all appreciate your doing this, and taking us there with you in your hearts. :^^)
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LJN and Ethan, thank you, thank you for those pictures, it just to show you how loved Heath was!!!
What a beautiful tribute from ennisjack. it warms my heart!!
I'm so glad to be with you in spirit and be able to light a candle with you and all the brokies simultaneously :ghug:
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I noticed one card that says:
Yesterday you were a star, today you are a legend
How painfully true!
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Thank you so much to Ethan and LJN for honoring Heath for all of us.
Someone sent this moving BBM Music vid
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S9HCIuXgtgM
I won't be able to watch BBM the same way again :\'(
this tribute is a real tear jerker I agree I will never listen to this lullaby in teh same manner, it will always remind me of BBM
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Thank you Michelle. I can hardly type this right now for my tears. God bless you and Ethan.
Me, too. Thank you both for doing this for all of us.
kathy
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Many thanks to LJN and Ethan to send us all that pics from New-York in memory of Heath...I have lighted a candle yesturday evening : We all share the same sorrow
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Simone
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Thank you so much for lighting the candles with us. .
for a moment I felt that Heath knew and is immersing himself in love from all of us.
I do know that I am not and will not be alone. Thank you all. :ghug:
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We'll never be alone dear Ethan, never ! Thank you so much to have represented us :^^)
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Ethan and Michelle, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing that. Seeing all the flowers and the notes and how much Heath was loved is simply overwhelming. I wish I could be there with you, go there with you, but I'm so greatful that you did this on behalf of all of us who couldn't. What you did for him is trully beautiful.
Reading all the posts here and looking at the pictures, my heart is breaking. I'm moving between tears and moments of numbness, when I am in total denial and just can't comprehend the fact that he's dead. Four days after, it still looks surreal and impossible. I keep having this heavy feeling inside. It seems like life would never be the same again... how can it be, without him? Heath, you're in my heart forever. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Ethan and Michelle, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing that. Seeing all the flowers and the notes and how much Heath was loved is simply overwhelming. I wish I could be there with you, go there with you, but I'm so greatful that you did this on behalf of all of us who couldn't. What you did for him is trully beautiful.
Reading all the posts here and looking at the pictures, my heart is breaking. I'm moving between tears and moments of numbness, when I am in total denial and just can't comprehend the fact that he's dead. Four days after, it still looks surreal and impossible. I keep having this heavy feeling inside. It seems like life would never be the same again... how can it be, without him? Heath, you're in my heart forever. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I have the exact same feeling. I thought it would get better as each new day comes, but it is just not the case at all.
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Reading all the posts here and looking at the pictures, my heart is breaking. I'm moving between tears and moments of numbness, when I am in total denial and just can't comprehend the fact that he's dead. Four days after, it still looks surreal and impossible. I keep having this heavy feeling inside. It seems like life would never be the same again... how can it be, without him? Heath, you're in my heart forever. :\'( :\'( :\'(
He'll be in all our hearts forever.
Keren :ghug:
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Lindsey :ghug:
I'm so heartbroken, I don't know what to do.
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I'm so heartbroken, I don't know what to do.
Dear Keren I can feel your pain please be strong for us :ghug:
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Lindsey :ghug:
I'm so heartbroken, I don't know what to do.
I know, bud. But you've got to keep going and try to think on the wonderful memories he left us with. I know it was too short by far, but he did so much with his life and we're so lucky that we can watch the images and look at the photos and remember the incredible actor - and wonderful man - that brought us all together here.
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Many thanks to LJN and Ethan to send us all that pics from New-York in memory of Heath...I have lighted a candle yesturday evening : We all share the same sorrow
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Simone
thank you for your devotion and hardship in this difficult time, LJN and ETHAN you are truly great individuals I thank you from the bottom of my heart
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Lindsey :ghug:
I'm so heartbroken, I don't know what to do.
Oh Keren honey, I know. I'm heartbroken too, we all are. And as Lindsey said, he will be in all our hearts forever. We will never ever forget him. He was such a wonderful person. He brought us so much joy.
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Hello,
I have lurked at this site for months but have now finally joined. I am deeply saddened by Heath's passing. I have been a fan of his for years. I just wanted to share a poem and a song that helped me through my mother's death, which was ironically on Janurary 22, 2005. I hope this brings some comfort to all those so hurt and lost from this sad and terrible tradedgy.
Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room,
I am I and you are you;
Whatever we were to each other, That we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used,
Put no difference in your tone,
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we shared together.
Let my name ever be the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well.
-Henry Scott Holland, Canon of St. Paul’s Cathedral, London
Didn't Want to say Goodbye
Ari Hest
In a room draped in blue
I am thinking of you
I am tired, I can't sleep
And for you I will weep
In a flash, you are gone
Yet around me life is calm
I cannot understand
Is this part of the plan?
I get cards with bouquets
But they can't take your place
I have dreams about us
But I always wake up
I can ask all I please
I can beg down on my knees
For a reason, for a sign
But these answers I wont find
And I will weep
Can you hear me?
Cant you tell me why?
Ill go on without you
And what's left for me to do
But to stay where I am
In my world of pretend
And I wont know until I die
If my faith was but a lie
Til then you'll hear it in my cry
I didn't want to say goodbye to you
My thoughts and prayers are with Heath's family and friends. Mostly with Matilda who I know feel a connection too, we both lost parents on the same day. I pray for Michelle and hope she will be ok. I pray for Jake to be strong and be the best godfather to that sweet little girl and keep Heath's memory alive for her.
-Lauren
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OT, so beautifully put. Thank you for helping me try and put this to rest.
:ghug: buddy
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I'm slowly reading through Theresa's blog, it's so amazing. It breaks my heart and warms it at the same time. To read all the things that his family wrote to him, the nicknames that they used for him, "Heatho", "beef", "roast". I was so touched by what his sister wrote to him, my heart ached so much I thought it was going to explode. "You will never leave my thoughts, roast, ever". Or how they said, "there will never be another Heath". No, there won't be. :\'( :\'( :\'(
The things that Luke Davis and Neil Armfield wrote about him and all the memories from the Candy set were also amazing and so personal. I'm really greatful that they decided to share these personal experiences with us. It warms my heart and makes me proud to read how appreciated and loved he was by everyone, what an amazing, extraordinary human being he was. Warms my heart and breaks it at the same time, because the loss is so great.
This is the link to Theresa's blog, it's worth reading from the beginning.
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2008-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&updated-max=2009-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=50
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thank you so much, ethan and michelle. this means a lot that we all are there now.
it still feels like a dream - even though i see all the pictures you took for us...
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Lorlo7, the first of your two poems- "Death is nothing at all.." by Holland, is the one I've been waiting for. Everyone has different beliefs.
For me, this is closest to my own, that the real person is still there, not floating in some clouds, and your posting it has been one of the greatest
comforts I have found. Every single line, keeps the loved one by our side, and yet acknowledges the temporary loss. This was the one. Thanks.
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Ethan and Michelle, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing that. Seeing all the flowers and the notes and how much Heath was loved is simply overwhelming. I wish I could be there with you, go there with you, but I'm so greatful that you did this on behalf of all of us who couldn't. What you did for him is trully beautiful.
Reading all the posts here and looking at the pictures, my heart is breaking. I'm moving between tears and moments of numbness, when I am in total denial and just can't comprehend the fact that he's dead. Four days after, it still looks surreal and impossible. I keep having this heavy feeling inside. It seems like life would never be the same again... how can it be, without him? Heath, you're in my heart forever. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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and in my heart.
Oh Keren :ghug:
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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I only just saw this, it's so so beautiful :\'( THANK YOU SO MUCH for doing this, Ethan and Michelle. :ghug: to you and everyone else here :ghug:
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And I'm so so sorry I wasn't around to light my candle with all of you :\'( I have it burning for beautiful Heath now.
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I am amazed and touched by how this one man has become so connected to each of us. We should all be so lucky to have done one thing to unite so many! We know that Mr. Ledger portrayed many great characters in film and even on stage, but the single character to whom he gave life was our favorite Wyoming cowboy, Ennis del Mar. Think of all the actors who, despite their enormous talents and numerous characters, are forever linked to just one character. Names like Leonard Nimoy, Raymond Burr, Johnny Depp, immediately come to mind (there are probably more than we can all name!).
In honor of Mr. Ledger's amazing role as Ennis del Mar, I'd like to post this picture of Wyoming's State Flower ... The Indian Paint Brush.
Here's to you, Mr. Ledger ... from a devoted, and changed, fan.
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I'm slowly reading through Theresa's blog, it's so amazing. It breaks my heart and warms it at the same time. To read all the things that his family wrote to him, the nicknames that they used for him, "Heatho", "beef", "roast". I was so touched by what his sister wrote to him, my heart ached so much I thought it was going to explode. "You will never leave my thoughts, roast, ever". Or how they said, "there will never be another Heath". No, there won't be. :\'( :\'( :\'(
The things that Luke Davis and Neil Armfield wrote about him and all the memories from the Candy set were also amazing and so personal. I'm really greatful that they decided to share these personal experiences with us. It warms my heart and makes me proud to read how appreciated and loved he was by everyone, what an amazing, extraordinary human being he was. Warms my heart and breaks it at the same time, because the loss is so great.
This is the link to Theresa's blog, it's worth reading from the beginning.
http://heathledgermemorialblog.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2008-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&updated-max=2009-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=50
I agree Keren, this bog is a true testament to Heath and the gifts he gave us. The tributes from Luke Davies and Neil Armfield are amazing. In particular, Luke's description of how happy Heath was, and how in love with Michelle he was. That was incredibly beautiful. <^(
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Thank you so much Ethan and LJN, for those beautiful pictures. I can barely see them properly through my tears, but the warmth and love for Heath radiates from them. Thank you for representing us in such a sensitive and dignified way. I'm so grateful and proud of you both, and proud to be a Brokie and part of this wonderful place :ghug:
I also want to say that I watched some of BBM last night, I wasn't sure if I would ever be able to again, but I felt compelled to watch it last night. I was expecting to feel new and painful emotions watching it for the first time after Heath's passing, but strangely, it felt just like old times. Like nothing else mattered but Ennis and Jack and the enduring, indestructible love they found together up on Brokeback Mountain in 1963. I only watched some of the film, up to the Motel scene, maybe when I watch the rest of the film, wth the more sad scenes, I'll feel differently. It's a bridge I'm not ready to cross just yet. But the scenes I did watch filled me with an overwhelming sense of peace and calm and above all, the comfort of knowing that a part of Heath will always live with us forever. Of course it will be different for everyone, we all have to find our own way through what we're feeling, but I wanted you all to know that,for the first time since I heard the news on Tuesday, I felt that there is hope :ghug:
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Here is the tribute left in SoHo from everyone here. Thank you again for your words which went into this. :ghug:
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I can only say thank you again.
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I am amazed and touched by how this one man has become so connected to each of us. We should all be so lucky to have done one thing to unite so many! We know that Mr. Ledger portrayed many great characters in film and even on stage, but the single character to whom he gave life was our favorite Wyoming cowboy, Ennis del Mar. Think of all the actors who, despite their enormous talents and numerous characters, are forever linked to just one character. Names like Leonard Nimoy, Raymond Burr, Johnny Depp, immediately come to mind (there are probably more than we can all name!).
In honor of Mr. Ledger's amazing role as Ennis del Mar, I'd like to post this picture of Wyoming's State Flower ... The Indian Paint Brush.
Here's to you, Mr. Ledger ... from a devoted, and changed, fan.
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Very moving post, guyinjax. I also am a devoted and changed fan.
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Ethan and Michelle, thank you once again for everything you've done. The pictures have brought fresh tears to my eyes, just knowing how much Heath meant to everyone. Every morning I wake hoping to find that this has all been a mistake. I suppose in time it will get easier, but Heath will always be in my heart. :\'(
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So here's how I see the Academy Awards show going this year (I think it's February 24)
The usual crap...
... then
That moment during the show when all those who have passed away are memorialized. Beautiful photographs, poignant and appropriate music ...
... but no Heath Ledger
whispering why no Heath Ledger ...
the room goes dark for a split second ... and in the quiet darkness those two awful guitar notes (A and G-sharp) ...
the room knows, and erupts in a loud, soulful, thunderous standing ovation and applause which lasts a full 10 minutes, bringing the show to an awkward halt.
Finally, a man strides to the microphone, Best Actor statue in hand. He leans into the microphone and says:
"We in the Academy got it wrong in 2006."
The audience doesn't even need to hear more, and no one can hear the man continue saying that, for the first time in Academy Award history, a Posthumous Best Actor award is presented. This year, and for all time, to Heath Ledger for his work in Brokeback Mountain.
Well, that's how it ought to go.
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Ethan sent me this picture he just took from Heath's flat, I also spoke with him & LuvJackNasty, they send hugs and love. ^f^
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That is beautiful and makes me very proud. Thank you again, Ethan and Michelle. :^^) It's heartbreaking, but what a lovely tribute you made from us. :ghug:
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REMEMBER ME ... by James Horner/Cynthia Weil
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Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star
That keeps burning so brightly
It is the last light
To fade into the rising sun
I'm with you whenever
You tell my story
For I am all I've done
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember me…
I am that one voice
In the cold wind that whispers
And if you listen
You'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can
Reach out and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember:
I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me…
Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember:
When your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember…
Me…
OMG. That is powerful :\'( :\'( but beautiful. Thank you for posting. :ghug:
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I will be posting pictures from the tributes we left but I haven't uploaded them yet.
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Oh Michelle, thank you so much for this... :\'( :\'( :\'(
When I saw that pic and read the utterly beautiful words written in that card.....I just bursted out crying..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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When something potentially more than coincadental hits the conscience of someone with a heart it's not always easy to dissipate the fog that clouds the same mind, and it helps when someone outside of the equation knows that it's not your responsibility nor burden to carry around. It's someone like me, also with a similar heart, yet not named Tony, that should tell you that you need to let it go. Extract the beautiful reminder of what a beautiful man Heath was and was aimed to always be, and let the rest go. If it rushes over you like rain, then it happened right. If you damn near cry your eyes out, it happened the way it was supposed to.
What we have is knowing a man with the power to grip others' hearts is undeniably in a better place. Yes it takes time for that to sink in, but then we are not robots. Accepting passages doesn't always happen with a 'pink' or click. But we will get it because not only does everything happen for a reason, but when love is involved it will eventually set in to have done no wrong. We who love(d) Heath, we with our flowers, tears, notes and hearts, made sure that his transition was soft, about as soft as the wings of an angel; We remember him like this for he gave to us a sense that the earth wasn't as wicked as it otherwise seems to be.Tony, we're all in this together, trust that. :ghug:
God bless Heath and the part of his heart that he left us with.
Thank you so much for this OT; that's gorgeous and I needed it so bad.
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REMEMBER ME ... by James Horner/Cynthia Weil
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Remember:
I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
I'm with you whenever
You tell my story
For I am all I've done
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Roco... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I don't know why all of a sudden I'm sobbing like crazy.. I just saw this http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714 (http://www.tmz.com/tmz_main_video?titleid=1390871714) deep down I was hoping this whole thing would be just a bad dream! I have never really met him or even knew him as a person but his work has touched me deeply!! I've been called insane by my family and friends for mourning Heath.. they don't understand what I'm going through.. thank God I can come here and express my emotions without the fear of being called "mentally unstable for crying over a total stranger" :\'(
thanks a bunch for creating this wonderful board.. %)
I don't understand why some people were laughing here!!!!! I was crying rivers, totally devastated. This is the saddest thing I've ever seen, and some people were laughing.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Here are some pics from Brooklyn. Ethan has pictures too.
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Ethan, Michelle, what a sweet, lovely and beautiful thing you both did!!! I'll never have the words to express how grateful I am. You are amazing guys. I owe you so much.
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Some pics from Soho:
The whole thing made me cry but the message at the bottom of this one killed me It says "May you sleep in the angels arms tonight" :\'(
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Now, I'm a real mess. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I've just finished looking at the pictures from outside Heaths apartment. Ethan and Michelle, thank you again so much for these. It allows us who cannot be there in person experience the power of the love for Heath there. Thank you, I just can't say that enough.
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Ethan, this is totally touching. I'm a wreck right now. These pics are so heartwarming; it's so marvellous seeing how much loved our sweet Heath was. That make feel a little bit better. I wish I were there.
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Thank you Ethan and Michelle. You have helped so many of us.
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Ethan and Michelle, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing that. Seeing all the flowers and the notes and how much Heath was loved is simply overwhelming. I wish I could be there with you, go there with you, but I'm so greatful that you did this on behalf of all of us who couldn't. What you did for him is trully beautiful.
Reading all the posts here and looking at the pictures, my heart is breaking. I'm moving between tears and moments of numbness, when I am in total denial and just can't comprehend the fact that he's dead. Four days after, it still looks surreal and impossible. I keep having this heavy feeling inside. It seems like life would never be the same again... how can it be, without him? Heath, you're in my heart forever. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren sweetie, this is exactly how I feel. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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When I was sitting with my daughter's therapist the other night she told me that it was a good thing to do- for us, for me. That it would somehow bring closure. I guess I can't expect that to happen in an instant but all I know is that I feel worse than I did before. I want this to just stop. I know we all do and it is comforting to know that we aren't alone in our grief and I have always been grateful to have this place for that, but most especially now. I have to compose myself and leave soon to go sit at a birthday party and act like all is okay in the world when that couldn't be further from the truth. I don't why I'm rambling.
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Lindsey :ghug:
I'm so heartbroken, I don't know what to do.
Oh baby, don't cry please. I'm like you right now, lost and shattered, not knowing what to say or do. But you can count on me, on us, Keren. We're on the same road. My thoughts are with you. I want you to be happy again. Love you. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: for all of us.
Michelle, I hope it gets better as time goes on. Especially because I know that what you and Ethan did, as hard as it was for you, gave so much to the rest of us, by letting us be there with you in spirit if not in person, and allowed us the chance to pay tribute, to say good-bye, and to see through those photos, the love that so many people share for him. All I can say is thank you. :^^)
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and again..
i cannot thank you 3 for having us taken there, i only saw ethan's pictures now, and OMG i could see my name.. and then everything came back to me..
but i was there. i was there.
thank you.
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Oh baby, don't cry please. I'm like you right now, lost and shattered, not knowing what to say or do. But you can count on me, on us, Keren. We're on the same road. My thoughts are with you. I want you to be happy again. Love you. :ghug:
Thank you Tammy, I love you too.
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All I can say is Thank you Ethan and Michelle for all you did. It means the world to me because I can't do it myself. But seeing these pictures I know I have been there in spirit with you. Thanks again and a big hug for you. :ghug:
And a big hug for everybody else here for helping me through this hard time. :ghug:
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Even though there are probably thousands already posted on youtube, I wanted to make a small tribute video of my own. Unfortunately I didn't have a lot of time, but here's my small effort:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3utLIR5KVxI
(my old account went, so this is my new one)
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Even though there are probably thousands already posted on youtube, I wanted to make a small tribute video of my own. Unfortunately I didn't have a lot of time, but here's my small effort:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3utLIR5KVxI
(my old account went, so this is my new one)
It's beautiful and touching gambrinus, thank you. :\'( :ghug:
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I am passing this on from Jenna Hilary Sinclair. This really made me feel if not better, then better understanding how it is that we feel so intimate with Heath as to be so devastated by losing him. I love how she said it. It's especially meaningful to those of us who are fanfic writers. (The "Hallelujah" is from her listening to Rufus Wainwright's rendition of this song.)
kathy
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The Ennis who inhabits my mind and heart was given expression by Heath, his voice, his looks, the depth in his eyes. It's a very complicated dynamic going on inside me right now as I mourn on several levels at once: for Heath, and that pain is raw and genuine, for the part of Ennis that is Heath, and for the part of me that is Ennis through Heath. I feel as if he and I touched each other through Ennis in a very intimate way through my writing and his gift of bringing Ennis to life, and now that extended part of me is gone.
I am so sad right now, and yet.... And yet there is joy in this sadness, too. We humans do lots of things to help ourselves get over the death of a loved one. Heath, I didn't know him, and yet in a way we all did through his performances, and because he bared...not his soul, but the soul of Ennis Del Mar, and in the process it is impossible not to think there was some intermingling of essences. I keep telling myself that Ennis hasn't died, and he hasn't, and yet it's something I have to keep reminding myself.
We in Brokeback Mountain fandom, I believe, are the walking wounded. We banded together around the various forums and fanfiction not through prurient interest, not through casual seeking of enjoyment, but because we'd been horribly hurt by perhaps the most tragic story ever told in film, and we needed our community in order to heal. And now, this most tragic story has gotten sadder, and I didn't think that was possible. And yet...
Hallelujah. For the gift that Heath Ledger gave us, one that has literally transformed many lives. For the gift of his life and the giving of his talents and art.
Hallelujah. For the people who have become our friends through this fandom. For the creation of a community, however fractured, however imperfect, still a community of human beings sharing their own creativity, their feelings, their opening arms, a group that would never have come to be without Heath Ledger's magnificent portrayal of a man I love.
Hallelujah. For the pain that accents the joy, and the joy that accents the pain.
Jenna, 1/23/08
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Thank you for sharing that Kathy. :^^) It's a reflection of many things that I am feeling too.
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gambrinus, the tribute video is wonderful. It has me in tears again.
Some videos from Wednesday and yesterday
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Thank you all. Just knowing that we are not alone and have each other's support is comforting. Heath is now resting in peace and on his way home.
He now lives in our hearts forever.
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Thank you all. Just knowing that we are not alone and have each other's support is comforting. Heath is now resting in peace and on his way home.
He now lives in our hearts forever.
Thank you Ethan :\'(
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Thank you Ethan.
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Thank you all. Just knowing that we are not alone and have each other's support is comforting. Heath is now resting in peace and on his way home.
He now lives in our hearts forever.
He is, and He does. Thank you Ethan. :\'( :\'(
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Thank you all. Just knowing that we are not alone and have each other's support is comforting. Heath is now resting in peace and on his way home.
He now lives in our hearts forever.
:\'( :\'( :\'( Oh my.
Thank you so much Ethan.
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Thank you so much Ethan and LuvJackNasty x
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Yes, the pictures and the videos were wonderful :) I didn't realize the postcard et all were inside the boquet, that was very nice. And the candles....
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To Ethan and LJN and all of you. thank you for being there. When I am offline I was feeling so alone. My friends I am living with could never comprehend what I am going through. But knowing that all of you do and that I can come here to lean on you, cry with you, receive comfort (as well as give it) has helped beyond any words I could say.
I love you guys thank you
Linda :ghug:
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I know this is going to sound weird....but I'm sad that he left NY today. Isn't that an odd thing to say? I don't know why it pops in my mind because I'm so happy that his family is here for him. I guess I'm sad about the way he is leaving.
My sister lived not too far from him in Brooklyn and would always tell me when she saw him and how nice and happy he looked. Often he was with his daughter.
I can't help but wonder - since his family is not coming to NY, will someone collect all these nice messages and give them to his family? What happens to them??? It would bother me to know they would just get sweeped up one day. :\'( I hope little Matilda is taken care of so well in his memory...
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The extensive makeshift memorial in front of Heath's apartment is emblematic of the love that the so many in the world had for him. I wonder if he fully realized it, and if he did not, I wonder if it could have somehow altered the chain of events which led to his untimely demise...
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To Ethan and LJN and all of you. thank you for being there. When I am offline I was feeling so alone. My friends I am living with could never comprehend what I am going through. But knowing that all of you do and that I can come here to lean on you, cry with you, receive comfort (as well as give it) has helped beyond any words I could say.
I love you guys thank you
Linda :ghug:
I know how you feel. I feel alone too, so I come here. And you know something, I feel "normal". Look, others may not understand the kind of pain we feel, we do. We grieve together, and one day we can celebrate, celebrate Heath Ledger's life, work, and each other, what we have, what we will have all of together.
We spend a lot of time talking about "fear" in this forum, my one fear is that this will all end. I'm really scared guys. You and this forum really does mean a lot to me.
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my one fear is that this will all end. I'm really scared guys. You and this forum really does mean a lot to me.
That the forum will end? Nothing is ever certain, least of all internet forums :) But sweetie, we are here as long as someone wants to be here. :ghug:
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Thanks everyone. I know how much you wish to be there but I hope these pix and vids will help.
I didn't realize the postcard et all were inside the boquet, that was very nice. And the candles....
Yes they are. We could not see it anymore yesterday. I think it was probably got buried with the bouquets of flowers.
I know this is going to sound weird....but I'm sad that he left NY today. Isn't that an odd thing to say? I don't know why it pops in my mind because I'm so happy that his family is here for him. I guess I'm sad about the way he is leaving.
:ghug: I can understand your feeling. Ir is comforting to know that he is on his way home and close to his family.
I can't help but wonder - since his family is not coming to NY, will someone collect all these nice messages and give them to his family? What happens to them??? It would bother me to know they would just get sweeped up one day. :\'( I hope little Matilda is taken care of so well in his memory...
LuvJackNasty and I thought about it too. But unfortunately we will have no answer to this one. We wanted to pay our tribute to Heath, individually or collectively. Either way, I think the family gets the message overall, even if not from individuals. It is my hope that the tribute doesn't stop here or at the memorial. Heath's legacy lives on and he should and will be remembered for many years to come.
The extensive makeshift memorial in front of Heath's apartment is emblematic of the love that the so many in the world had for him. I wonder if he fully realized it, and if he did not, I wonder if it could have somehow altered the chain of events which led to his untimely demise...
We can't be certain of the chain of events if any or the cause of his death. However, I am certain that he realized and knows even more now how much we love him and will continue to do so. :ghug:
We spend a lot of time talking about "fear" in this forum, my one fear is that this will all end. I'm really scared guys. You and this forum really does mean a lot to me.
:ghug: MG!! Esme is right - "we are here as long as someone wants to be here"
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Yes. Esme, you and Ethan put it so beautifully. MG, I feel the same way. :ghug:
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I wish I had better words to say about all of this. I'm awful at expressing myself, but I sure try. I'll always be grateful for everything that has happened over the past two years and it's unfortunate that we have to add this tragedy to the long list of sadness that this fandom has endured. That however is not going to change my love for the story, the movie, the fandom, this forum and all of the friends I've made as a result of it all. I'm not going anywhere.
I also notice I feel kind of like I did in early 2006. It's kind of strange having to re-live the heartbroken sensation and blur that I lived those first few months after first seeing BBM. Just when the sting from that was going away, I have this to bring that sting right back, but this time even worse.
I am just glad that there are so many loving, caring individuals here that all understand each other and respect us for who we are, as we are and as we mourn together, allbeit virtually, we'll come out of this stronger than ever.
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I also notice I feel kind of like I did in early 2006. It's kind of strange having to re-live the heartbroken sensation and blur that I lived those first few months after first seeing BBM. Just when the sting from that was going away, I have this to bring that sting right back, but this time even worse.
I am just glad that there are so many loving, caring individuals here that all understand each other and respect us for who we are, as we are and as we mourn together, allbeit virtually, we'll come out of this stronger than ever.
Dear carby :ghug: :ghug: I feel the same way. How I wish that we didn't have to go through this again and this time even worse because of this tragedy. You said it beautifully. This tragic event is a testament of this brokies love and please remember that is a gift which Heath Ledger has given us. Thanks!! :ghug:
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I think so too Carby, and I'm not going anywhere either. :ghug:
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Yesterday, I was searching for some closure from this tragedy. It’s a difficult time for someone like me who doesn’t believe in God. Sometimes I wish I could. Things maybe would be easier.
But then yesterday night I dreamed of him. I usually don’t remember much of what I dream about. But there was him, so young, triumphant, full of love, life and hope in his future. He looked straight at me and asked: “You know what they say, how you can never go back home?” I nodded. “You can” he said then. "Through the magic of the movies".
And then today, sitting here, in front of my laptop I watched his films, his photos and some youtube videos. I watched as the story, his story, unfolded in front of me and then the ending came. And when the last image appeared on the screen, I smiled. There was just him. Heath.
Heath laughing, looking at the camera over his shoulder. Young and powerful enough to make my stomach flinch and my throat constricts. Heath in the way I will always remember him.
“what though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight. Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendour in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind.” William Wordsworth
p.s. To all of you. thank you for being here. this community was the only thing that kept me sane in the last four days. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it brought me so much comfort.
(sorry about my poor English, but as you can guess it isn't my mother tongue)
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Masetane, no, it's not strange to grieve over this leaving of N. Y. In a way, it was a small gift that this was where he passed on, for it could
well be his happiest times were there with his daughter, and it was where he found peace from the pushy photographers.
Manhattangirl, it's a normal fear you expressed. But there was no abandonment, in our hearts of the film, BBM, which is why this forum is here-
we don't forget. And now, added to PBS, there will be, for some, a syndrome of never closing the door and saying good-bye to Heath, and
walking away. There can be some form of closure, in the intensity of grief, but it is very likely that we, who never let go of a love for a movie,
will never let go of our love for this good and gentle man. Nor is that wrong.
There will be books written about him, and always new viewers of his movies. There ain't no reins on this one. Ethan has said he's in it for the
long run, for BBM. Heath was so central to that gift to the world, that story of love, one way or another, Heath will be here, too. We came
to this forum because we don't forget. And we won't. It's our way. It's who we are.
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I know what you mean. When I first found this site it was after I had seen BBM. I was so confused, devastated with the ending, and looking for answers to so many questions I had. I was numb for both those characters. My husband had no interest in watching the movie or discussing it so I'm so happy to have found this forum.
To go through the grief again is terrible. It's by far worse since Heath was a real person. I got my arms around (finally) that BBM was a performance by him. You know? I have a terrible time understanding death. Thank goodness he made that movie though. It is meaningful for so many people in different walks of life. But something about him being in NY like me, sort of made it feel a little more personal for me....hard to explain. I guess knowing he was nearby made the movie sort of feel bearable... That whole blur thing between the actor and the character - reality/movie...
Sigh. I'm just so crushed for him. I think he'd feel so badly about this accident. Kicking himself. But thank goodness, in heaven you feel peace and happiness.....
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Ethan, FC -- Thank you :ghug:
Anya76 -- Your English is fine, I understood exactly what you were saying. We're all working through this together. Your dream sounds like a very nice encounter with Heath, I hope you can remember it for a really long time and think on it whenever you want. :ghug:
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Hi Guys! I saw all the pictures from today and the vids. from today and all I can say is thank you both LJN and Ethan!! I am amazed in how the amount of flowers, tributes to him next to his SoHo apartment have gotten even larger. I saw the 2 candles and saw my name on one and I just smiled. Knowing that if I won't be able to go there soon, that in some way, I'm already there...thank you again guys ^f^
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Many, many, many thanks to all of you. I love you. :ghug:
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Carby, masetane, Ethan, Tony, Anya76, thank you for your wonderful words. I keep finding people here who speak exactly what is in my heart, but somehow much better than I can express. :ghug:
And Anya, thank you for sharing that dream (I had been hoping to dream of him last night, but thought that if he would come to someone in their dreams, that would be enough - I don't know how to explain it).
"But there was him, so young, triumphant, full of love, life and hope in his future. He looked straight at me and asked: “You know what they say, how you can never go back home?” I nodded. “You can” he said then. "Through the magic of the movies"."
:\'( <^( What a wonderful message.
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Ethan and LJN words cannot describe how grateful i am to you both for what you have done. Knowing my message along with every1 elses on this forum, is there as a tribute is an overwhelming feeling and makes me emotional. :\'( Thanks for doing this for us who couldnt be there. %) guys! ^f^ x x x x x
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I am just glad that there are so many loving, caring individuals here that all understand each other and respect us for who we are, as we are and as we mourn together, albeit virtually, we'll come out of this stronger than ever.
I think so too Carby, and I'm not going anywhere either. :ghug:
Ditto that :^^) <^(
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But then yesterday night I dreamed of him. I usually don’t remember much of what I dream about. But there was him, so young, triumphant, full of love, life and hope in his future. He looked straight at me and asked: “You know what they say, how you can never go back home?” I nodded. “You can” he said then. "Through the magic of the movies".
You had a wonderful dream anya76! I see it as a comforting gift.
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And Anya, thank you for sharing that dream (I had been hoping to dream of him last night, but thought that if he would come to someone in their dreams, that would be enough - I don't know how to explain it).
I was happy to hear about the dream, too. I've been hoping for one like it since I received the news. It is comforting that someone has seen him in a dream and it was a positive one at that.
The only thing I've noticed is last night out of nowhere my printer started turning on and off by itself. I mentioned it to my friend when it happened and she said "That was Heath, ya now. Saying hello, seeing how you are." Then went on to tell me that one of the biggest signs someone is with you is when electronics start doing things like that and I'm normally a huge skeptic, but seeing as I've had this printer for months and it's never done anything like that until last night, I tend to believe it, and I'll take it. After that I said "Hello, Sweet Face. I am OK." Just in case :)
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more :ghug: to everyone.
Although many of us didn't have the privilege to meet Heath in person, he is now close to us ever - in our heart forever. As jerasjr quoted somewhere, it is the one which can not be stolen.
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"Hello, Sweet Face. I am OK." Just in case :)
Oh...melting.. <^(
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He is in my heart...but why does it hurt so much?
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I am just glad that there are so many loving, caring individuals here that all understand each other and respect us for who we are, as we are and as we mourn together, allbeit virtually, we'll come out of this stronger than ever.
beautifully said, carbyville...
i just don't know what to do or say or think. it's sad that it took this tragedy for me to realize how much i missed this second family i have here at ennisjack.com...
while reading a lot of the comments on this thread and watching some memorial-videos, i dissolved into tears. i can't believe he's gone! he was alive just a second ago and now he's never supposed to talk to us again?
i'm just so glad that we at least have his movies to remember him by.
thank you all for your words and thanks again to ethan and michelle for taking us with you to pay our respect in SoHo.
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tpe suggested earlier, to do something to remember him by, so I thought, how about a tribute video on YouTube from our forum ?
Working on this. Thanks!!
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I'm more or less religious person, or maybe it is better say spiritual - I have this need to believe to things we can't see by our physical eyes. I have one friend who is even more spiritual than I am, I mean she sees things and is if not clairvoyant but something little bit like that. She has often told me things that would happen in my life, and very often she has been right and her "messages" have come true. What I'm trying to explain now? ^*() No, neither she not me have had any ideas, intuitional feelings about Heath beforehand, no. But I have a very strong feeling that Heath is somewhere surrounded by love and light. When I close my eyes I see him smiling and surrounded by very warm color of rose. And I have these aching chakra feelings. My heart chakra is pulsating very hard at the moment.
Sorry, I don't mean to upset anyone or attack different kinds of beliefs and views; we have all our own ways to think about things. I just want to tell how I feel now.
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But I have a very strong feeling that Heath is somewhere surrounded by love and light. When I close my eyes I see him smiling and surrounded by very warm color of rose. And I have these aching chakra feelings. My heart chakra is pulsating very hard at the moment.
I am not a spiritual or religious person at all Carmilla, but that was beautiful :) I would like to believe that is true. :ghug:
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Lorlo7, the first of your two poems- "Death is nothing at all.." by Holland, is the one I've been waiting for. Everyone has different beliefs.
For me, this is closest to my own, that the real person is still there, not floating in some clouds, and your posting it has been one of the greatest
comforts I have found. Every single line, keeps the loved one by our side, and yet acknowledges the temporary loss. This was the one. Thanks.
I agree. This poem such a perfect way to feel in communion with the one who has left us, just for now...
kathy
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He is in my heart...but why does it hurt so much?
:ghug: I'm trying to answer that very same question.
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I don't understand why some people were laughing here!!!!! I was crying rivers, totally devastated. This is the saddest thing I've ever seen, and some people were laughing.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
This really bothered me also, babytammy, but I couldn't even write a post about it -- I wanted to forget it as if I'd never seen it. For some moments, there was a beautiful, respectful silence, or so it seemed...and then that laughter was so grossly jarring.
kathy
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The power of love ... we all recognize this photo, i'm certain. Brings tears to my eyes.
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Here are the two shorts vids I took yesterday
Brooklyn
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Soho
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did u mean this photo?
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... sorry, another try to post the photo
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yeah, sorry. that's the one. THANKS FOR POSTING IT
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Even though there are probably thousands already posted on youtube, I wanted to make a small tribute video of my own. Unfortunately I didn't have a lot of time, but here's my small effort:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3utLIR5KVxI
(my old account went, so this is my new one)
Thank you, gambrinus, that is beautiful.
kathy
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yeah, sorry. that's the one. THANKS FOR POSTING IT
no worries x
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gambrinus, the tribute video is wonderful. It has me in tears again.
Some videos from Wednesday and yesterday
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OMG, Ethan, I don't know if this makes it better or worse. I love the videos because of the sound, the movement -- it is like we are there, and that is important. But yet, but yet... :\'(
Thank you.
kathy
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To Ethan and LJN and all of you. thank you for being there. When I am offline I was feeling so alone. My friends I am living with could never comprehend what I am going through. But knowing that all of you do and that I can come here to lean on you, cry with you, receive comfort (as well as give it) has helped beyond any words I could say.
I love you guys thank you
Linda :ghug:
Me, too, Linda. I couldn't stand it without being here with everyone. A special hug to you from me...
kathy
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I agree Keren, this bog is a true testament to Heath and the gifts he gave us. The tributes from Luke Davies and Neil Armfield are amazing. In particular, Luke's description of how happy Heath was, and how in love with Michelle he was. That was incredibly beautiful. <^(
I loved all of this also, on Theresa's blog. But you know what really gets to me? The one article about Heth as a dad tripping around NY with Matilda on his shoulders, being so "motherly" with her, so patient, such a gorgeous dad. Quotes from people who would see him around the streets with her -- such a beautiful man...
How many of us remember from when we were two years old and before? Who knows if she will keep having the actual memories of him, but it is absolutely certain that he is in her, and she is of him, and I pray she has a wonderful life. But her daddy's shoes are impossible to fill...
Sorry -- I've got myself in tears again.
kathy
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Sorry -- I've got myself in tears again.
don't be sorry sweetie :ghug:
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Yesterday, I was searching for some closure from this tragedy. It’s a difficult time for someone like me who doesn’t believe in God. Sometimes I wish I could. Things maybe would be easier.
But then yesterday night I dreamed of him. I usually don’t remember much of what I dream about. But there was him, so young, triumphant, full of love, life and hope in his future. He looked straight at me and asked: “You know what they say, how you can never go back home?” I nodded. “You can” he said then. "Through the magic of the movies".
And then today, sitting here, in front of my laptop I watched his films, his photos and some youtube videos. I watched as the story, his story, unfolded in front of me and then the ending came. And when the last image appeared on the screen, I smiled. There was just him. Heath.
Heath laughing, looking at the camera over his shoulder. Young and powerful enough to make my stomach flinch and my throat constricts. Heath in the way I will always remember him.
“what though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight. Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendour in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind.” William Wordsworth
p.s. To all of you. thank you for being here. this community was the only thing that kept me sane in the last four days. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it brought me so much comfort.
(sorry about my poor English, but as you can guess it isn't my mother tongue)
This is very beautiful, anya. I love the dream you had, and you are fortunate to have had it.
kathy
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I know what you mean. When I first found this site it was after I had seen BBM. I was so confused, devastated with the ending, and looking for answers to so many questions I had. I was numb for both those characters. My husband had no interest in watching the movie or discussing it so I'm so happy to have found this forum.
To go through the grief again is terrible. It's by far worse since Heath was a real person. I got my arms around (finally) that BBM was a performance by him. You know? I have a terrible time understanding death. Thank goodness he made that movie though. It is meaningful for so many people in different walks of life. But something about him being in NY like me, sort of made it feel a little more personal for me....hard to explain. I guess knowing he was nearby made the movie sort of feel bearable... That whole blur thing between the actor and the character - reality/movie...
Sigh. I'm just so crushed for him. I think he'd feel so badly about this accident. Kicking himself. But thank goodness, in heaven you feel peace and happiness.....
I'm actually smiling a bit, at your last paragraph. I think that's true, that he'd say, damn, shit, I didn't mean to f*ck that up, not at all!
kathy
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I was happy to hear about the dream, too. I've been hoping for one like it since I received the news. It is comforting that someone has seen him in a dream and it was a positive one at that.
The only thing I've noticed is last night out of nowhere my printer started turning on and off by itself. I mentioned it to my friend when it happened and she said "That was Heath, ya now. Saying hello, seeing how you are." Then went on to tell me that one of the biggest signs someone is with you is when electronics start doing things like that and I'm normally a huge skeptic, but seeing as I've had this printer for months and it's never done anything like that until last night, I tend to believe it, and I'll take it. After that I said "Hello, Sweet Face. I am OK." Just in case :)
I love it. I will pay more attention to my electronics! Maybe it was when he was flying over where you live, going home...
kathy
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I'm more or less religious person, or maybe it is better say spiritual - I have this need to believe to things we can't see by our physical eyes. I have one friend who is even more spiritual than I am, I mean she sees things and is if not clairvoyant but something little bit like that. She has often told me things that would happen in my life, and very often she has been right and her "messages" have come true. What I'm trying to explain now? ^*() No, neither she not me have had any ideas, intuitional feelings about Heath beforehand, no. But I have a very strong feeling that Heath is somewhere surrounded by love and light. When I close my eyes I see him smiling and surrounded by very warm color of rose. And I have these aching chakra feelings. My heart chakra is pulsating very hard at the moment.
Sorry, I don't mean to upset anyone or attack different kinds of beliefs and views; we have all our own ways to think about things. I just want to tell how I feel now.
I'm with you on this stuff, Carmilla. It's good to pay attention to where you feel things, what chakra. (I'm still clenched in my solar plexus, I feel -- will have to figure out what that's about.) I love Heath surrounded by rose-colored light...
kathy
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Hey Ethan and LJN,
Thank you so much for posting these. Did you two happen to bump into Meryl and John from Bettermost? They went there too, and took a pic of your beautiful memorial to Heath with the messages from everybody...
http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html (http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html)
Sending you all lots of hugs and healing energy from one forum to the other... :\'(
Mel
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I'm actually smiling a bit, at your last paragraph. I think that's true, that he'd say, damn, shit, I didn't mean to f*ck that up, not at all!
kathy
Yeah, I don't know why I think this way. But seriously, I really think he would be pissed at himself, for his daughters sake, that he screwed up by complete accident. He didn't even get a life with his child. I'm angry for him too. It sucks.
Sigh. I'm still just so upset. He's not headline news at all today but i don't want him forgotten. I keep staring at the words "died" and "death" and can't believe they are talking about this YOUNG 28 year old man.
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Carefree Wind, this is a lot to ask, I know, but in time, when you can, could you send photos here of wherever Heath is laid to rest?
Or Asali? It would mean so much to so many of us.
If it is indeed possible for me to visit Heath's final place of rest, then by all means I shall certainly do so. Nothing will keep me from doing this for you all.
It is my hope that, even though Heath's funeral, will most likely be a private family affair (as it should be), that at least, it will be announced which cemetary he will at last rest in, so anyone can visit and pay their respects to this wonderful man.
I'm not even certain that details of when his funeral will be held, will even be made public. But yes, it would be an honour to do this for you all, and to hopefully take some photos as well, for you all to see.
Perhaps it may help with the healing process too, well actually, I am sure of it. :ghug:
Ledger funeral plans still undecided
27th January 2008, 10:33 WST
Details of the funeral of Hollywood star Heath Ledger remain a mystery and may be limited to his immediate family, his uncle says.
The actor's parents Kim and Sally Ledger flew to New York, where they attended a private memorial service in Manhattan with close friends and their son's former fiancee Michelle Williams and daughter Matilda.
A large pine crate containing Ledger's body was taken from the Frank E Campbell funeral home in New York to begin it's long journey home.
The former Perth boy's uncle Mike Ledger said the funeral arrangements had not yet been decided.
"Kim will be bringing Heath home, but in terms of memorials services, it's up to Kim and Sally," Mr Ledger told News Limited.
"We know the chapel at Guildford (Grammar School) is available if Kim wants it. But they may even keep it very private. We may not even go to the funeral ourselves."
Mr Ledger ruled out suicide.
"We know he would never have done anything like that on purpose. It was just a tragic mixture. We're sure it will all come out in the (autopsy) report."
http://www.thewest.com.au/aapstory.aspx?StoryName=454640 (http://www.thewest.com.au/aapstory.aspx?StoryName=454640)
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I went to the movies today, and all I could think about was how Heath would have done the main male's part. I guess we will always compare actors to him. Can anyone ever measure up? Of course, this all brought on the tears again. Can't get passed this one. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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OH I was under the impression that Heath's parents only went as far as California. I'm glad they were able to visit him and glad the NY papparazzi didn't catch on. At least I haven't heard of anything reported here.
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
Wow.
And that same sunlight blinds me from the words that try to come out. :\'(
So beautiful.
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Beautiful, this remind me of a quote " happiness is best when shared " last words from Christopher McCandless
as in his journey learn that wisdom comes when the light shines into you by what you call by its name ^f^ ^f^ ^f^
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Amazing! So incredibly beautiful.
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
That is monumentally beautiful.
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
:\'(
Thank you Linda :ghug:
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
This is sooo amazing. Thanks for directing us to this picture, Linda :ghug:
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
That is one stunning photo. I hope whoever took it doesn't mind, but I just copied it to my mobile phone for my wallpaper. I wanted something that was a tribute to Heath without being too obvious about it. This way, I'll know...and everyone else will just see it as a beautiful picture.
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That is one stunning photo. I hope whoever took it doesn't mind, but I just copied it to my mobile phone for my wallpaper. I wanted something that was a tribute to Heath without being too obvious about it. This way, I'll know...and everyone else will just see it as a beautiful picture.
That's a very admirable and appropriate outlook. :^^)
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To Heath
You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.
Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.
How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.
But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.
I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.
You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.
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Ethan, Michelle,
thank you for all that you have done. It means a lot to me to see the love and support for Heath.
Love,
Andrew
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To Heath
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Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.
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Oh, Lance..
That was really beautiful.
True story. :^^)
And thank you Ethan & Michelle. :^^)
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
Thank you.
I stopped breathing for a while...... It is the most beautiful tribute I have ever seen.
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Hey Ethan and LJN,
Thank you so much for posting these. Did you two happen to bump into Meryl and John from Bettermost? They went there too, and took a pic of your beautiful memorial to Heath with the messages from everybody...
http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html (http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html)
Sending you all lots of hugs and healing energy from one forum to the other... :\'(
Mel
Thank you Mel, for the pics, the hugs, and the healing energy, :ghug: back to you and Bettermost.
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
Linda, that is beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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To Heath
You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.
Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.
How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.
But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.
I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.
You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.
Oh that is beautiful. :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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Linda
aw this is so beautiful!!!
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That photo of the flowers in the snow, is absolutely beautiful. I think it encompasses all of the feelings that have been expressed in this thread, since news broke of Heath's untimely passing.
The sadness and the love. Also hope, that Heath is now at rest and peace, and that in time, peace shall once more find us too.
Like the sun breaking through the sadness, and shining down upon beauty and hope, so it shall shine again once more into the hearts of all who love(d) him.
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THank you linda for posting this gorgeous photo x
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Ledger funeral plans still undecided
27th January 2008, 10:33 WST
Details of the funeral of Hollywood star Heath Ledger remain a mystery and may be limited to his immediate family, his uncle says.
The actor's parents Kim and Sally Ledger flew to New York, where they attended a private memorial service in Manhattan with close friends and their son's former fiancee Michelle Williams and daughter Matilda.
A large pine crate containing Ledger's body was taken from the Frank E Campbell funeral home in New York to begin it's long journey home.
The former Perth boy's uncle Mike Ledger said the funeral arrangements had not yet been decided.
"Kim will be bringing Heath home, but in terms of memorials services, it's up to Kim and Sally," Mr Ledger told News Limited.
"We know the chapel at Guildford (Grammar School) is available if Kim wants it. But they may even keep it very private. We may not even go to the funeral ourselves."
Mr Ledger ruled out suicide.
"We know he would never have done anything like that on purpose. It was just a tragic mixture. We're sure it will all come out in the (autopsy) report."
http://www.thewest.com.au/aapstory.aspx?StoryName=454640 (http://www.thewest.com.au/aapstory.aspx?StoryName=454640)
I can't believe we're talking about his funeral here. I can't believe I'm reading these words, about burying Heath. These words, "A large pine crate containing Ledger's body", are too difficult to bare. How can Heath lie still in some box, when he couldn't sit in an interview quietly for a minute without fidgeting?! How can we put him in the ground?? I can't believe this is happening, I really can't... and now I'm crying again. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Keren I know it's hard...this morning when I read that 2 private memorial services had been held, I broke into tears.
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How can Heath lie still in some box, when he couldn't sit in an interview quietly for a minute without fidgeting?!
Oh Keren - that's brought both tears to my eyes and a silly grin to my face, remembering how he used to jiggle about or wave his hands around in interviews ???
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Keren I know it's hard...this morning when I read that 2 private memorial services had been held, I broke into tears.
Where did you read that - do you have the link?
I don't know why I'm doing it to myself, some masochistic need to read everything about him, even if it hurts like hell. I want him back so bad.
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Linda, that is beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
That is beautiful. Thank you for posting Linda! (I assume this was taken after Heath's death?)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi137.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fq215%2Frockxxxjunkie%2FLivejournal%2Fheathripklein.jpg&hash=249afb058f53692b0acc0d731df94b76d1939d3a)
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Where did you read that - do you have the link?
I don't know why I'm doing it to myself, some masochistic need to read everything about him, even if it hurts like hell. I want him back so bad.
will send link via pm.
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How can Heath lie still in some box, when he couldn't sit in an interview quietly for a minute without fidgeting?!
Oh Keren - that's brought both tears to my eyes and a silly grin to my face, remembering how he used to jiggle about or wave his hands around in interviews ???
oh that put more tears in my eyes
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Linda, that is beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
Marvelous <^(
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I apologise that the news article, which I posted in here, has upset some of you. :( I should have thought more of it's possible impact, before posting it here. :ghug:
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I apologise that the news article, which I posted in here, has upset some of you. :( I should have thought more of it's possible impact, before posting it here. :ghug:
thank you.
We are all trying our best to deal with this nightmare.
Another thread dedicated to news and articles has been created.
Keeping in mind that gossip mags and speculative articles are not welcome.
ps: I love your avatar x
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I really think he would be pissed at himself, for his daughters sake, that he screwed up by complete accident. He didn't even get a life with his child. I'm angry for him too. It sucks.
Sigh. I'm still just so upset. He's not headline news at all today but i don't want him forgotten. I keep staring at the words "died" and "death" and can't believe they are talking about this YOUNG 28 year old man.
I had exactly the same thought...like.. %&) what was I thinking , sure enough he wouldn't do anything that will hurt his beloved Matilda..
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Carefree Wind, this is a lot to ask, I know, but in time, when you can, could you send photos here of wherever Heath is laid to rest?
Or Asali? It would mean so much to so many of us.
If it is indeed possible for me to visit Heath's final place of rest, then by all means I shall certainly do so. Nothing will keep me from doing this for you all.
It is my hope that, even though Heath's funeral, will most likely be a private family affair (as it should be), that at least, it will be announced which cemetery he will at last rest in, so anyone can visit and pay their respects to this wonderful man.
I'm not even certain that details of when his funeral will be held, will even be made public. But yes, it would be an honor to do this for you all, and to hopefully take some photos as well, for you all to see.
Perhaps it may help with the healing process too, well actually, I am sure of it.
I would be awesome, thank you in advance dear! O0
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
That is absolutely gorgeous, what a lovely idea !!!
Thank you for posting that Linda :^^)
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I can't believe we're talking about his funeral here. I can't believe I'm reading these words, about burying Heath.
My dear Keren, just this word gave the chills too.. :ghug: :\'(
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That is beautiful. Thank you for posting Linda! (I assume this was taken after Heath's death?)
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OMG!!.... that B/W piicture has a -Aura above him...I swear... does it not... <^(
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I found this one on a Jake related blog...they stopped it, posted this image, and The Wings plays in the background
I love it, thanx froggy :^^)
I love all the B/W pictures of Heath, so poignant and painfully beautiful....sobbing.. :\'(
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Well, if anyone feels embarrassed about our still grieving, and that others don't understand, it's just a case of those others not seeing
what we did------someone worth caring for. Heath was deserving of our love and we are glad he crossed our paths in life with his own.
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It is a great consolation to know am not alone there. There is no shame to grieving.
yes, it does help to be together, and have other people understand.
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I don't know where this belongs but I was finally able to gather somewhat coherent thoughts.
I've been blessed with this place and the people who make it what it is. I've had two years to share joy and heartbreak in complete freedom, without fear of being judged. And I’ve needed that now more than ever and will need it as I muddle through this process. I spent most of yesterday crying my eyes out and pondering my place in this fandom. I’m crying as I type this. Last night was the first night ever that I didn’t log in (excluding when I had no access), because right now in a lot of ways it hurts too much to be here. But I know we are all in that same boat riding those waves of grief. In some ways it feels cold to say that it comforts me to know that we are all together in that because I don’t want any one of us to be hurting. But at the same time it is comforting to know that right from day one we were never alone. I think I hit anger and depression while hopelessly clinging to the denial stage. I know one day we’ll all hit some stage of normalcy again and that day will be quicker for some and longer for others. These last two days have been especially hard for me and I gave serious thought to rolling up my tent and coming down the mountain. I’ll try to spare you of every thought that ran through my brain. I don’t know where we go from here or if one day the sun will shine as bright again. But what I do know is this: He gave us all a beautiful gift, where in a thousand lifetimes I'd never be able to repay him for. And to give up on everything is to squander the gift he gave us. If he didn't know before, he certainly knows now the impact of what he gave us in his young life. And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
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LJN, :ghug: you are so great with expressing your feelings clearly and beautifully... <^(
I could never said it better, since Engkish is not my language ,I'm struggling here to say what I feel but still it's not exactly what I want to say....
Words cannot express what I feel for you and other brokie friends here, I too, think, that without EJ, I couldn't go through this grieving process alone!!!
Thank you my dear friend!!! :^^)
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But what I do know is this: He gave us all a beautiful gift, where in a thousand lifetimes I'd never be able to repay him for. And to give up on everything is to squander the gift he gave us. If he didn't know before, he certainly knows now the impact of what he gave us in his young life. And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
:ghug:
Today I have spent most of my day watching tributes to Heath from youTube and crying my eyes out. I hope I'll be able to stop it tomorrow at work.
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I don't know where this belongs but I was finally able to gather somewhat coherent thoughts.
I've been blessed with this place and the people who make it what it is. I've had two years to share joy and heartbreak in complete freedom, without fear of being judged. And I’ve needed that now more than ever and will need it as I muddle through this process. I spent most of yesterday crying my eyes out and pondering my place in this fandom. I’m crying as I type this. Last night was the first night ever that I didn’t log in (excluding when I had no access), because right now in a lot of ways it hurts too much to be here. But I know we are all in that same boat riding those waves of grief. In some ways it feels cold to say that it comforts me to know that we are all together in that because I don’t want any one of us to be hurting. But at the same time it is comforting to know that right from day one we were never alone. I think I hit anger and depression while hopelessly clinging to the denial stage. I know one day we’ll all hit some stage of normalcy again and that day will be quicker for some and longer for others. These last two days have been especially hard for me and I gave serious thought to rolling up my tent and coming down the mountain. I’ll try to spare you of every thought that ran through my brain. I don’t know where we go from here or if one day the sun will shine as bright again. But what I do know is this: He gave us all a beautiful gift, where in a thousand lifetimes I'd never be able to repay him for. And to give up on everything is to squander the gift he gave us. If he didn't know before, he certainly knows now the impact of what he gave us in his young life. And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
Thank you. LJN, I've been going through the same questions. I've only been part of this family for only a year, and it's been an experience. BBM brought me here, but all of you will kept me here. The other sites concerning BBM, for me were cold and impersonal, not here, it was like being part of a family.
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These last two days have been especially hard for me and I gave serious thought to rolling up my tent and coming down the mountain.
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And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
I believe we all went through this.
But I am so glad the ennisjack family was here.
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LJN---forget the word "fan". Bury it. That is for those who were crazed for Marilyn Monroe or for political figures. It's true, there was some
element of being "fans", and that came with the territory of HOW he crossed our path, each one of us. But fans don't grieve like this-only family
can hurt this much.
The way he entered our lives was through that route, as a celebrity, as a gifted actor we admired. With good references as a human being.
That's how we met him. But that was only a means to get this beautiful soul into the lives of those who could really love him. Which is a huge
difference. Fans say good-bye and walk away, and find another focus. Fans weep a day or two, then forget. It was only the means of meeting
him, LJN, for we were meant to meet, for we were and are, in some unexplainable way, a real part of his true family.
That you are still grieving so terribly, and that so many of the rest of us are, means we went past the means of introduction long ago, and
loved him for who he was. And it also means, you are different in a way that makes you so much to the better. There are those who could
not love. You did. You weren't a fan, LJN, you were far more-you were part of a family that loved him so very much. I am in great hurt
over what tpe hoped wasn't true but could be- the tragedy that his defense walls were so strong, he didn't know--we loved him for himself.
Stay strong, and please know that when the storm hit, you and others were there to stand up for the rest of us, and go there, as you did.
Fans go away. Family stays. We all love you for having seen what we saw, and for being who you are. None of us should be worried or
embarrassed over our tears. We have a reason to weep. We met a good and kind and decent man, and life hit him too hard, too soon.
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LETTER TO HEATH
My grandmother said that when a beloved person is gone,she or he keeps on looking after us in another space;for this,I'm sure you'll keep on looking after your baby and Michelle,and looking at Jake with proud,and,maybe-only. IT´S FELT WITH LOVE LANGUAGE.
You bet,Heath,sweet eyes angel;I will always love you.I SWEAR.
:ghug: ALICIA :^^)
Alicia,
Your letter to Heath is beautiful, you are a very sensitive person ^f^ :^^)
Simone
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Hello Brokies..
Yesterday, as everyone knows, some of my friends came over to watch Heath Ledger movies. Sadely, we did not realize how long each would take and in the end, only got to see Brokeback. I wanted everybody to watch the whole thing, wanted them to just sit, without a sound and watch every moment this beautiful movie brought to us, but time started to creep up on us. I had to skip a few parts but I made sure to show the end, the heartbreaking fight, this time, almost brought me to tears. For some reason, in Ennis' tearful, exhausted, frustrated eyes, I saw Heath. I didn't wanna watch it any longer, hearing Ennis' words "I can't take this anymore, Jack"...but then, the loving embrace came on, and all I could do was smile, like everyone else did as well. By the end, when Ennis finds the shirts, takes them with him, and puts it on the closet door, my friends were balling. Some have never seen it before and were amazed.
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To Heath!
By 10pm, 2 of my friends had to leave and all that was left was me, my friend Val and friend Vicky. We were so exhaused, both from controllling the other girls and also, from the movie. I felt, after some people left, like Heath's death happened all over again. But luckily, my friends were there to help me. We told stories about people we have losts, the grieving process, and how Heath and the many others, were looking down on us. It was hard for us, but in the end, worth it, we watched and thanked god for bringing this legend into our lifes and we prayed that he was in heave now, watching over his daughter and smiling. Heath, we love you and you will never be forgotton...
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I keep him memory alive, if you don't know already, I have been collecting pictures and articles of Heath since his death. This is all I've collect after Day 5..
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(In People, they had over a 5 pg. article on him)
And here, 3 of my friends have already written letters to Heath, in which hopefully, we'll be able to bring to him house...
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i wanted to come here again and show you a picture..
"our" pictures has made it over reuter's all around the world again; this here is from our local (!) newspaper..
but i guess you know how i felt when i opened up the page, not expecting this..
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i just want to repeat my thankfulness that we had the chance to be there, not only in our hearts and thoughts.
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I don't know where this belongs but I was finally able to gather somewhat coherent thoughts.
I've been blessed with this place and the people who make it what it is. I've had two years to share joy and heartbreak in complete freedom, without fear of being judged. And I’ve needed that now more than ever and will need it as I muddle through this process. I spent most of yesterday crying my eyes out and pondering my place in this fandom. I’m crying as I type this. Last night was the first night ever that I didn’t log in (excluding when I had no access), because right now in a lot of ways it hurts too much to be here. But I know we are all in that same boat riding those waves of grief. In some ways it feels cold to say that it comforts me to know that we are all together in that because I don’t want any one of us to be hurting. But at the same time it is comforting to know that right from day one we were never alone. I think I hit anger and depression while hopelessly clinging to the denial stage. I know one day we’ll all hit some stage of normalcy again and that day will be quicker for some and longer for others. These last two days have been especially hard for me and I gave serious thought to rolling up my tent and coming down the mountain. I’ll try to spare you of every thought that ran through my brain. I don’t know where we go from here or if one day the sun will shine as bright again. But what I do know is this: He gave us all a beautiful gift, where in a thousand lifetimes I'd never be able to repay him for. And to give up on everything is to squander the gift he gave us. If he didn't know before, he certainly knows now the impact of what he gave us in his young life. And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
Michelle, Thank you for your beautiful words. We are all in this together. :ghug:
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Tizi, I avoided byuing the papers just in case. Seeing that it was everywhere.
But just now they played "You're just to good to be true" video on tv, and I also just a Perth tourism advert.
And I broke into tears...once again.
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Tizi, I avoided byuing the papers just in case. Seeing that it was everywhere.
But just now they played "You're just to good to be true" video on tv, and I also just a Perth tourism advert.
And I broke into tears...once again.
no paper buying either, or magazines even worse.. but this was our local thing, i wouldn't have thought..
froggy :ghug:
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sending a hug back hun x
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I can't believe how much Heath's death has affected me. I know I never "knew" him, but I had so much respect for him. He did BBM knowing full well that he would get criticized or ostracized but he did it anyway. People have made fun of this movie, but he never went along with it. He was very proud of this movie and was very comfortable having done it.
I still can't believe he's gone. I keep seeing it on the news or youtube movies, and still can't believe it.
I only have 2 people IRL that I am talking to about this, one is my mom, who I got to watch the movie not long after I saw it and it affected her as much as it did me, and the 2nd is one of my online friends who is the one who initially told me of his passing. She never saw BBM, but has this incredible need to see it now. I am sending her a copy of it, since she can't get it from her library, with it being checked out.
Anyways, I feel like I am so overwhelmed with his passing, and I'm trying not to dwell on it, but I'm so glad I can come here and talk about him freely. :ghug:
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
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the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
Linda this is utterly beautiful. It's so overwhelming that I can hardly breathe.
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I hadn't been able to come here up til now, somehow i had succeded pretending nothing's happened, but only a nightmare :\'(
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I would like to take a moment and just thank everyone at EJ for being here. I came here last spring and immediately felt like I was among friends. I don't know any of you personally, but I feel very close to you, especially during this time of loss. :ghug:
I spent the better part of yesterday with my sister (a/k/a Del-Marvelous), who is the only person I know in RL that understands what I am going through right now. She comforted me, made me laugh, and lightened my spirits in a way nothing else in RL could. I am thankful that I have such a wonderful sister. ^f^
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Am wondering about the post I made, above, to LJN. So many times I have been misunderstood and I hope she read that as it was meant,
from the heart. She is so good of a person, but we are all so very exhausted in our emotions, it is sometimes hard to communicate well.
Michelle-you are loved. You have a heart so true, you have been one of the strongest to carry us through.
Everything hurts, these days. I had long heard about the incident where a photographer shot at Heath with a water pistol in Sydney, and that
some said he was intimidated. Right. The guy who did that dangerous stunt on horseback in Four Feathers. Right. I saw the film footage for the
first time yesterday and he wasn't afraid. What I saw on his face was incredulity at the creeps aggression and a great hurt and wonder that
anyone could be such a jerk. No fear. He put his hands up to ward off the water, showed grief at confronting unusual spite and malice, and
moved to cover and protect Michelle Williams, who was with him. What I saw was a man who did not understand malice. And that, plus every
new exploration of the past, just opens up the hurt yet again.
I know he wasn't perfect, and am glad for his faults, for they were few, but made him more real. And for the contradictions. He said he was
lazy, but this was someone who worked very hard, at the expense of his health. He said, at times he wanted to walk away from acting, and yet
he kept on, probably driven by the gift he was given. And he said he wanted to be left alone by the public, and yet he would talk and play chess
with strangers in a park, so long as he was not treated as a celebrity. And he sought out people, ever friendly.
There will be books written about him, in time. I hope they capture the reality of this man that came our way. Well, the SAG awards are tonight,
and part of me dreads seeing what kind of tribute they give to him, before they move on. It had better be true. It had better be good.
It's their last chance to acknowledge his was one of the purest souls to ever grace that shallow and often false world they have out there.
But if they don't get it right, well, nothing new there.
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My dearest, I love you so much, thank you for bringing so much to my life, thank you for showing me what love truly is, through Brokeback. When I saw it I fell helplessly in love with you, and for me it is the lost of my platonic love. I love you, darling and I always will. And I will cherish the emotion you awakened inside of me and knowing that makes me a real human being, even with this undescribable pain and torture I am going through I am so grateful I discovered Brokeback on November and lived two intensive months of pure fascination with fanfictions and stuff.
You are so beautiful and you will never die for me. I will never forget you. Yours eyes were the sweetest I have ever seen. So soft and kind. You were true angel. I love you.
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I can't believe we're talking about his funeral here. I can't believe I'm reading these words, about burying Heath. These words, "A large pine crate containing Ledger's body", are too difficult to bare. How can Heath lie still in some box, when he couldn't sit in an interview quietly for a minute without fidgeting?! How can we put him in the ground?? I can't believe this is happening, I really can't... and now I'm crying again. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren, I feel your pain, as I feel it, too. And I'm glad you said it, because I find it difficult to voice those damn physical realities. Bodies, caskets, funerals, the ground...
But we know a person is so much more than the physical body (although Heath was an exquisite physical human being, to say the least). I have to think of the essence of him being freely in the universe, including right here, with us.
kathy
PS: everytime I type "Heath" it is like a sacred gesture.
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i wanted to come here again and show you a picture..
"our" pictures has made it over reuter's all around the world again; this here is from our local (!) newspaper..
but i guess you know how i felt when i opened up the page, not expecting this..
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i just want to repeat my thankfulness that we had the chance to be there, not only in our hearts and thoughts.
OMG ! tizi, thanks for the picture, remember, we had received in Paris last year two little cowboys hats like this...I can't look at them for the moment :( ...to sad :\'(
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Seeing all these pics and reading all the posts really makes me tearing again. I'm glad that he has many people who loved him. Thank you Ethan and LJN for doing and sharing these with us.
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
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the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
This is so beautiful! Thanks for sharing.
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I don't know what I would have done without this site the last couple of days. First I didn't know why I reacted the way I did when I found out, but now I know how much I love Heath and all of his movies. I just feel so stupid that he had to die before I found out. :\'( But reading all of you're posts have made me cry and feel better because I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who feel sad all the time. I just want to say thank you to all the people here, for making this nighmare a little better. We still have a long way to go before we are fine again (if thats possible) but It feels good to know that I don't have to be alone.
To Heath
I'm sorry that I didn't understand sooner what you have done for me, I will always love you.
And some day I will meet you and thank you for just being you.
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My dearest, I love you so much, thank you for bringing so much to my life, thank you for showing me what love truly is, through Brokeback. When I saw it I fell helplessly in love with you, and for me it is the lost of my platonic love. I love you, darling and I always will. And I will cherish the emotion you awakened inside of me and knowing that makes me a real human being, even with this undescribable pain and torture I am going through I am so grateful I discovered Brokeback on November and lived two intensive months of pure fascination with fanfictions and stuff.
You are so beautiful and you will never die for me. I will never forget you. Yours eyes were the sweetest I have ever seen. So soft and kind. You were true angel. I love you.
I love how you said this, nikita. And I know I can say it here without derision, that I was totally in love with Heath Ledger. Yes, a platonic love (I'm probably older than his mother) but an in-love all the same. Not just admire his amazing talent and the beauty of his person, not just have the hots for, but cherish every cell of him and every word from his mouth and love him unconditionally, any human frailties and all.
kathy
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But I have a very strong feeling that Heath is somewhere surrounded by love and light. When I close my eyes I see him smiling and surrounded by very warm color of rose. And I have these aching chakra feelings. My heart chakra is pulsating very hard at the moment.
That is beautiful Carmilla. :ghug:
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Hey Ethan and LJN,
Thank you so much for posting these. Did you two happen to bump into Meryl and John from Bettermost? They went there too, and took a pic of your beautiful memorial to Heath with the messages from everybody...
http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html (http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html)
Sending you all lots of hugs and healing energy from one forum to the other... :\'(
Mel
Hi Mel :ghug: No, we really didn't talk to anyone. I'm sending the same thoughts back to everyone over at BM. Thank you Mel. :ghug:
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi190.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz191%2Fmouk_album%2FP1000400-1.jpg&hash=fc8adac5edcc3d1e26e4b06adb2bf07e6029fb4c)
the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
That absolutely took my breath away. :\'( Thank you for sharing that. :ghug:
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To Heath
You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.
Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.
How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.
But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.
I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.
You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.
That is gorgeous, Andrew. :\'( :ghug:
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I can't believe we're talking about his funeral here. I can't believe I'm reading these words, about burying Heath. These words, "A large pine crate containing Ledger's body", are too difficult to bare. How can Heath lie still in some box, when he couldn't sit in an interview quietly for a minute without fidgeting?! How can we put him in the ground?? I can't believe this is happening, I really can't... and now I'm crying again. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren, sweetie, I can't believe it neither..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
When I saw yesterday the vid of that pine crate I thought I was going to die of sadness right there. I was crying so bad and then I heard that laughter......and I was so terribly broken and sad, but also so angry, mad and stunned. That was, is, the most painful thing I've ever saw in my life. I had to swich off my laptop and go to bed, crying and wishing with all my strenght that this nightmare wasn't real. I was hidden under the blankets crying for 4 hours and finally my mother came to me all worried, wanting to know why I was like a ghost since wednesday.
Six hours before I’ve been talking with a friend by phone. On Thursday I told her a lot of beautiful things about our baby, ‘cause I needed everybody to know how wonderful and fine man Heath was. So yesterday she called me to talk about him. She said to me that she has crying so bad thinking of him, and that was my fault, ‘cause I made her think about him in a different way. She liked him so much, but since she saw me crying, she feels that Heath must be a very more wonderful person that she ever thought.
Today I woke up so sick. I was dizzy ‘cause since Wednesday I can only eat yoghurt, nuts, some bread and coke. It’s incredible how when I’m sad my body remember perfectly how to be an anorexic. I can’t listen to music, to watch TV, to go out with my friends. And I need again Orfidal (lorazepam) to sleep. I’m so scared ‘cause I had a deep depression for two years no long time ago, and I a very emotional person, so now I’m so afraid of having a new depression ‘cause of this tragedy. I don’t want to go through that hell again; I don’t want to have a depression; that was the most horrible thing of the world. So today I’ve decided to eat well and spend time with my parents. But not everything is how you want it, and world these days seems to conspire against me, ‘cause I was eating with my mother and she wanted to watch news, and then between TV spots they played the The Dark Knight trailer. I was stunned, shocked, with my face pale and tears running. I felt even sadder than ever. He didn’t look like Heath, even his voice was so weird. I couldn’t see his sweet face under that horrible make up. I hated that disgusting evil Joker laughter. That man seemed to me so dark, so complicated, so wicked and still so sad and lonely. They didn’t put Heath name there; only “summer 2008” while I was listening to that sinister laughter again. I wanted last Heath character to be special, and Joker without doubt is, but I mean, a character more beautiful, full of love and light, who make me smile thinking of Heath when I see him. So that trailer, the Joker, that confused soul, made me feel cold inside, and, after that, I couldn’t eat no more and I started to cry. It’s difficult for me see Heath as the Joker; it’s really impossible for me to find that tender man under the Joker skin. I’ve read in somewhere that the strain of playing the Joker in the new Batman film may have proved too much for Heath – in a recent interview he told how the role of a “murderous psychopath” had left him “sleepless and exhausted” and he was only sleeping around two hours a night. I felt so bad thinking about that, watching that mad eyes, that disfigured face, listening to that broken voice, so I buried my face in my hands wondering where my Heath was, why I didn’t understand why he wanted to be part of that dark universe, why the death always had to win the battle in this world.
My mother saw me cry and she, so sweet, changed the channel. But, OMG, there was a Ned Nelly trailer ‘cause that channel is planning to show that film in two days. So I was there again, blaming myself for sit there trying to have a normal life while I was dying inside.
So now, I’m here, acting like I use to, being a total fool, looking for some little moment of happiness, needing to know once again that I’m not alone in this.
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Dear Heath,
You gave flesh and blood to an immortal character.
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I just would like to thank you for this, your work changed my life.
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Rest in Peace
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I don't know where this belongs but I was finally able to gather somewhat coherent thoughts.
I've been blessed with this place and the people who make it what it is. I've had two years to share joy and heartbreak in complete freedom, without fear of being judged. And I’ve needed that now more than ever and will need it as I muddle through this process. I spent most of yesterday crying my eyes out and pondering my place in this fandom. I’m crying as I type this. Last night was the first night ever that I didn’t log in (excluding when I had no access), because right now in a lot of ways it hurts too much to be here. But I know we are all in that same boat riding those waves of grief. In some ways it feels cold to say that it comforts me to know that we are all together in that because I don’t want any one of us to be hurting. But at the same time it is comforting to know that right from day one we were never alone. I think I hit anger and depression while hopelessly clinging to the denial stage. I know one day we’ll all hit some stage of normalcy again and that day will be quicker for some and longer for others. These last two days have been especially hard for me and I gave serious thought to rolling up my tent and coming down the mountain. I’ll try to spare you of every thought that ran through my brain. I don’t know where we go from here or if one day the sun will shine as bright again. But what I do know is this: He gave us all a beautiful gift, where in a thousand lifetimes I'd never be able to repay him for. And to give up on everything is to squander the gift he gave us. If he didn't know before, he certainly knows now the impact of what he gave us in his young life. And I am eternally grateful to him for leading us all to each other. Together we will weather this storm and I’m grateful to everyone for being there for each other.
Michelle, my sweetie, one again you've put in words everything I'm feelling, everything I have in my broken heart right now. I'm so afraid of not having more days with the sun shining as bright again.
So beautiful post Michelle. I'm so glad you're here with us.
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They missed the sighting of this man, so very good, crossing through this old world, and we were blessed to
have seen him, and to have known he was worthy of our love.
Oh Tony, friend... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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To Heath
You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.
Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.
How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.
But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.
I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.
You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.
This was a touching sentiment. Thank you for sharing.
And thank all of you my brokie family for allowing me to come here and have a place to voice my grief and get support and comfort
:ghug:
Linda
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Cham thank you for that lovely ennis collage. wonderfully done friend! :^^)
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:ghug: Tammy. You are not a total fool. I wish I had the words to make you feel better and to help you through this. I don't know if any of us have the words. I saw a pic of the pine box and it upset me something fierce. I've been avoiding the news, vids etc because I can't "go there" right now and part of me feel like crap for not being able to do it but we all handle things in our own way, in our own time. The only small bit of comfort I have right now is that his soul is in each of us and that each of us is here right now is a testament to that soul. That we can all reach out form all corners of the globe in love, grief and comfort is possibly one of the greatest tributes he could have ever have been paid. I hope that didn't come out wrong because in times like this I am terrible at expressing myself and if it did, I apologize. I wish I had something profund to say that would ease this for you but all I can do is extend a cyber hug to you and hope that you feel it.
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LJN---forget the word "fan". Bury it. That is for those who were crazed for Marilyn Monroe or for political figures. It's true, there was some
element of being "fans", and that came with the territory of HOW he crossed our path, each one of us. But fans don't grieve like this-only family
can hurt this much.
The way he entered our lives was through that route, as a celebrity, as a gifted actor we admired. With good references as a human being.
That's how we met him. But that was only a means to get this beautiful soul into the lives of those who could really love him. Which is a huge
difference. Fans say good-bye and walk away, and find another focus. Fans weep a day or two, then forget. It was only the means of meeting
him, LJN, for we were meant to meet, for we were and are, in some unexplainable way, a real part of his true family.
That you are still grieving so terribly, and that so many of the rest of us are, means we went past the means of introduction long ago, and
loved him for who he was. And it also means, you are different in a way that makes you so much to the better. There are those who could
not love. You did. You weren't a fan, LJN, you were far more-you were part of a family that loved him so very much. I am in great hurt
over what tpe hoped wasn't true but could be- the tragedy that his defense walls were so strong, he didn't know--we loved him for himself.Stay strong, and please know that when the storm hit, you and others were there to stand up for the rest of us, and go there, as you did.
Fans go away. Family stays. We all love you for having seen what we saw, and for being who you are. None of us should be worried or
embarrassed over our tears. We have a reason to weep. We met a good and kind and decent man, and life hit him too hard, too soon.
Tony that was an amazingly beautiful post. Your words are so true, so precious. I'm crying my eyes out right now. You're a wise man. We all are his family and that unbelievable fine man was our family too. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I'm still in shock about Heath's untimely death. Somewhat of a morbid coincidence that I had just mentioned the movie to a friend the day before.... Generally, I don't really have feelings one way or another about news of deaths of celebrities, but Heath's involvement in making Brokeback Mtn, literally pulled me out of my shell, and I made some great online friends from this forum. He was like a longtime friend to me who I've never met. It's really strange that a movie can push certain buttons in someone's psyche and doesn't have any effect whatsoever in others. As with a lot of folks who sought out the forum in the early days, we all were similarly affected by the power of this piece of art. I am very grateful someone of such talent and modesty was chosen to tell the story. I can't think of anyone else who could've pulled it off. Heath, we will all miss you dearly and the world has been robbed of such a fine talented & modest man. :\'(
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Tony, LJN, and so many of you, what beautiful words. Thank you for sharing them. It really is a blessing to come here and know that we are not alone, in this world or in our feelings. Tammy honey, remember that. You are not alone, and thanks to Heath and a few other very special people that gave us the path to this wonderful community, you never will be. :ghug:
Chameau, thank you for that collage. It's quite beautiful. :^^)
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Am wondering about the post I made, above, to LJN. So many times I have been misunderstood and I hope she read that as it was meant,
from the heart. She is so good of a person, but we are all so very exhausted in our emotions, it is sometimes hard to communicate well.
Michelle-you are loved. You have a heart so true, you have been one of the strongest to carry us through.
Everything hurts, these days. I had long heard about the incident where a photographer shot at Heath with a water pistol in Sydney, and that
some said he was intimidated. Right. The guy who did that dangerous stunt on horseback in Four Feathers. Right. I saw the film footage for the
first time yesterday and he wasn't afraid. What I saw on his face was incredulity at the creeps aggression and a great hurt and wonder that
anyone could be such a jerk. No fear. He put his hands up to ward off the water, showed grief at confronting unusual spite and malice, and
moved to cover and protect Michelle Williams, who was with him. What I saw was a man who did not understand malice. And that, plus every
new exploration of the past, just opens up the hurt yet again.
I know he wasn't perfect, and am glad for his faults, for they were few, but made him more real. And for the contradictions. He said he was
lazy, but this was someone who worked very hard, at the expense of his health. He said, at times he wanted to walk away from acting, and yet
he kept on, probably driven by the gift he was given. And he said he wanted to be left alone by the public, and yet he would talk and play chess
with strangers in a park, so long as he was not treated as a celebrity. And he sought out people, ever friendly.
There will be books written about him, in time. I hope they capture the reality of this man that came our way. Well, the SAG awards are tonight,
and part of me dreads seeing what kind of tribute they give to him, before they move on. It had better be true. It had better be good.
It's their last chance to acknowledge his was one of the purest souls to ever grace that shallow and often false world they have out there.
But if they don't get it right, well, nothing new there.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I'll never understand that photographer...He hurt Heath so bad and our baby had to move to NY, leaving his loved home. That's so heartbreaking. And still he was a very sweet, friendly person, playing chess, talking with people in the steet, working hard, giving his heart and soul in everything he did.
Love your posts Tony, though they're so bitter for me right now. Sorry.
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Am seeing, here, that many are still weeping, not just aching with regret. I am not one to shed tears, and yet, through each day, there always
come a few moments I can't fight them off. It is a great consolation to know am not alone there. There is no shame to grieving. As for the
outside world, I could care less. They missed the sighting of this man, so very good, crossing through this old world, and we were blessed to
have seen him, and to have known he was worthy of our love.
That was beautifully said Tony. :ghug: :ghug: to you.
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:ghug: Tammy. You are not a total fool. I wish I had the words to make you feel better and to help you through this. I don't know if any of us have the words. I saw a pic of the pine box and it upset me something fierce. I've been avoiding the news, vids etc because I can't "go there" right now and part of me feel like crap for not being able to do it but we all handle things in our own way, in our own time. The only small bit of comfort I have right now is that his soul is in each of us and that each of us is here right now is a testament to that soul. That we can all reach out form all corners of the globe in love, grief and comfort is possibly one of the greatest tributes he could have ever have been paid. I hope that didn't come out wrong because in times like this I am terrible at expressing myself and if it did, I apologize. I wish I had something profund to say that would ease this for you but all I can do is extend a cyber hug to you and hope that you feel it.
Tony, LJN, and so many of you, what beautiful words. Thank you for sharing them. It really is a blessing to come here and know that we are not alone, in this world or in our feelings. Tammy honey, remember that. You are not alone, and thanks to Heath and a few other very special people that gave us the path to this wonderful community, you never will be. :ghug:
Chameau, thank you for that collage. It's quite beautiful.
Michelle, Barb, thank you so much for everything!!! :^^) :ghug: I'm here for you as well.
Thank you so much my dearest brokies for your love, support and understanding. I don't know what I'd do without you.... :\'( :\'( :\'( Love you all with all my heart. :ghug:
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LJN---forget the word "fan". Bury it. That is for those who were crazed for Marilyn Monroe or for political figures. It's true, there was some
element of being "fans", and that came with the territory of HOW he crossed our path, each one of us. But fans don't grieve like this-only family
can hurt this much.
The way he entered our lives was through that route, as a celebrity, as a gifted actor we admired. With good references as a human being.
That's how we met him. But that was only a means to get this beautiful soul into the lives of those who could really love him. Which is a huge
difference. Fans say good-bye and walk away, and find another focus. Fans weep a day or two, then forget. It was only the means of meeting
him, LJN, for we were meant to meet, for we were and are, in some unexplainable way, a real part of his true family.
That you are still grieving so terribly, and that so many of the rest of us are, means we went past the means of introduction long ago, and
loved him for who he was. And it also means, you are different in a way that makes you so much to the better. There are those who could
not love. You did. You weren't a fan, LJN, you were far more-you were part of a family that loved him so very much. I am in great hurt
over what tpe hoped wasn't true but could be- the tragedy that his defense walls were so strong, he didn't know--we loved him for himself.
Tony that made me tear up :\'( Thank you. :ghug: What you said is so true-He is a part of this family and always will be. And I've said it a lot and will continue to say it a lot- I am so grateful for everyone here.
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You're all both breaking my heart and yet keeping me in one piece. BabyTammy-the vigil goes on. And when that passes, we will comfort
each other whenever the aches show up all over again.
Michelle-we will always keep loving. Something different about us all here. We love deeply, and we don't let go. Lovers never do.
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I've been reading the last four pages of this thread and I just want to give hugs to everyone here. :ghug:
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
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Dear Heath,
You gave flesh and blood to an immortal character.
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I just would like to thank you for this, your work changed my life.
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Rest in Peace
Cham, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
That is Beautiful. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
My dearest Barb, what a post!!! Utterly beautiful, overwhelming, precious, so so so so true. I could write every word you wrote; that's how I feel too. But I never find words to express myself, so thank you so much for this amazing piece of your heart. I'll treasure it in my soul.
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I keep seeing pieces of my own heart reflected in everyone else's words. I'm glad I could add mine to the mix. It really does sooth the heart to know that so many people are feeling what I'm feeling. :ghug:
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
oh boy... :'(
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
Thank you for saying what I could not. :ghug: :\'(
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FlwrChild - beautiful words :^^)
Cham - beautiful pictures :^^)
I keep trying to do normal things and for the most part, I'm succeeding. But then, something will come to mind and my heart is in my stomach again. Like, I just got a new mobile phone and I was thinking I hadn't had any texts since I got it....which reminded me of the last text I got on my old one, which was on Tuesday, telling me the terrible news....
I'm not crying (except when I read the tributes from his family) but it still hurts. Damn, it hurts.
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Why can't I cry? Why am I happy one minute and others, sad realizing we lost someone great? I don't understand myself. I read everybody's post and I just want to be there and give everyone the biggest hugs. But as I keep reading, I wonder why I can't seem to share these same feelings. Sometimes I seem as nothing is wrong, smiling and going on, then something hits me such as 5 minutes ago when I stumbled upon Ellen D. tribute to Heath on her show. I saw her face after the tribute and I just felt so sad, so heart broken. But still, I don't understand it. I've read on a previous post that if your not truely upset, your just a 'fan', not a family. What am I? Why can't I express these feelings I know I feel for this great man? I'm sorry if I'm just rambling on about nothing... :-\\
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Lis
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Heath Ledger the man is gone, not to return. Heath Ledger’s soul lives on in the thousands, nay millions, of souls whose lives he transformed and will yet transform in ways immeasurable.
His work here was done, and by whatever providence controls such events, his talent was needed elsewhere to continue his work and practice his craft.
Like the miracle of Ennis meeting Jack, we should rejoice, not in the fact that he is gone, but in the fact that he came here at all, at this time, in this place, during our lives, to complete the work he so masterfully achieved.
G'bye Mate. You Changed Everything.
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so many things remind me of Heath...few exemples from today:
Perth tourist advert on TV
video clip of "You're just too good to be true"
"I don't want to close my eyes" video clip (google the lyrics ... you'll understand...if Ravenus makes a tribute video with this one, she will very likely break my heart once more)
Friends sending me text messages to ask how I am dealing with it all...I love them
and the list goes on.
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LD---you are family. That you aren't always in tears does not mean anything at all. Besides, you are very young and this is the first time
something so terrible has happened in this particular way. Trust me on this, LD, you don't have to grieve exactly the same as others. If you
found enough love in your heart to have all your friends over---LD, that's love. No confusion should be there. And you better BELIEVE, he
woulda loved you back. Remember how kind you were to me in your PM? Heath loved kindness in others. You're his family, all right, and ours, too.
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LD---you are family. That you aren't always in tears does not mean anything at all. Besides, you are very young and this is the first time
something so terrible has happened in this particular way. Trust me on this, LD, you don't have to grieve exactly the same as others. If you
found enough love in your heart to have all your friends over---LD, that's love. No confusion should be there. And you better BELIEVE, he
woulda loved you back. Remember how kind you were to me in your PM? Heath loved kindness in others. You're his family, all right, and ours, too.
Thank you so much Tony!!! I guess your right, I'm been so blessed to have so many of the people I care about still here and Heath, who I considered to be family to me and had a place in my heart, died, I didn't know what to do. The 1st day I was very down as well as the next, I think waking up the next day was worse than the 1st. But after that, I just seemed to go on, even watching his movies didn't upset me. Maybe I'm just the type of person who sees the good in everything. He is in heaven now, a better, more peaceful place, protecting his daughter and smiling down on us. It's a better life than the struggles he's had down here. Though I will never see him in a movie again, which does make me sad, I know I will cherish the ones I do have, and saw my kids, an actor who became a lengend, so early on in his life...
Thank you again Tony :^^)
Family here now for my brother's b-day, see you soon my dear Brokies <3
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Why can't I cry? Why am I happy one minute and others, sad realizing we lost someone great? I don't understand myself. I read everybody's post and I just want to be there and give everyone the biggest hugs. But as I keep reading, I wonder why I can't seem to share these same feelings. Sometimes I seem as nothing is wrong, smiling and going on, then something hits me such as 5 minutes ago when I stumbled upon Ellen D. tribute to Heath on her show. I saw her face after the tribute and I just felt so sad, so heart broken. But still, I don't understand it. I've read on a previous post that if your not truely upset, your just a 'fan', not a family. What am I? Why can't I express these feelings I know I feel for this great man? I'm sorry if I'm just rambling on about nothing... :-\\
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Lis
I see you as FULL of feeling, Lis. Are you talking just about not crying, is that it? I don't want you to feel you are "not upset enough." Your very questioning is part of your grief. You have been here for everyone else, and we are here for you. You did a wonderful thing yesterday -- I'm glad you have your friends to share this loss with.
kathy
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This is still a tragic, senseless loss in terms of this reality of ours such as we know it, but your words, Jackster, made me feel better: Like the miracle of Ennis meeting Jack, we should rejoice, not in the fact that he is gone, but in the fact that he came here at all, at this time, in this place, during our lives, to complete the work he so masterfully achieved.
kathy
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"To know and love one other human being is the root of all wisdom."
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I'm so sad today. BBM was on TV, I could watch it a bit....
I'm so incredibly sad that Heath is not a part of this world anymore. I know there are spiritual things that can be said for comfort but right now.....I want him back in this world. I don't think he was done. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I don't know what is happenning to me,I don't know if it's logical and normal or not...I haven't read or seen any tribute for Heath,simply because I can't.I'm beginning to enter into a phase of acceptance of the situation,having passed the first days of real shock.But as soon as I read or see some of these tributes,this kind of shield breaks and the shock state reappears-although not as hard as the first days...-.I don't want to post in any other threads about fun and games because I find them now superficial and frivolous-but I'm not saying that who does it,are frivolous too;it's simply my way of reacting...-;nor in threads about BBM because it hurts me speak,for example,about Ennis sexuality or their reactions in BBM because it reminds me of Heath...If I can't read and I don't want to post anywhere that it doesn't be this thread about his death,what can I do?.It's difficult to understand,I suppose,so I believe I'm a little crazy or something like that;I repite,I don't know if it's logical or not...really I don't.
When a friend is gone,
an empty place remains
that can't be filled
with a new friend's arrival.
When a friend is gone,
a star is lost,
the one that lights the place
where there's a slept child.
When a friend is gone,
riding up to his destiny,
our soul begins to shatter
because it's full with cold.
"Cuando un amigo se va"/"When a friend is gone". Song by Alberto Cortez.
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Another nice tribute vid I found - "Shelter for his soul" from the film "Ned Kelly" - the lyrics seemed to fit (sadly):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvEGo2EqiZs
At the end of my days when I’m called to go,
Into the open arms of the Holy Ghost,
To have lived such a life as I have known,
Fortune follows me, but I’m brave no more.
For my great mistakes I will surely pay,
I’m running low and the devil is on my trail,
When fate delivers me all I’ll ask it for,
Is a place to rest and shelter for my soul.
Oh if I could spend my days,
Free from the prison of your gates,
Then I could die a happy man.
Oh if I could spend my days,
Free from the shadow of my name,
Then I could die happy man.
When I am released from this mortal load,
I’ll take my leave but I don’t wanna go.
When fate delivers me all I’ll ask it for,
A place to rest and shelter for my soul.
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Friday night with some french brokies (HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri and me), we went to watch BBM on theater in Paris. We learned that it was on screen the day before, what a coincidence!
It was very weird and sad at the beggining, seeing Heath on the screen and thinking that he isn't here anymore... And then I felt into the story as the previous times, forgetting about Heath, Jake, the world around me. Just Ennis, Jack and me. In a way, it warmed my heart to see that although we lost Heath, Ennis was still here in front of me, and that he would always be. Being with fellow brokies also helped a lot. We even managed to laugh. Being with brokies is just priceless!
Then, we went to Notre Dame de Paris to light up candels for Heath. It was unseasy because of the wind, but we managed to find a good place just in front of the cathedral and suddenly the wind stopped.
It was so beautiful, we were standing up silently, in front of the candels, thinking about Heath, thanking him.
No need to hide pain, no need to explain, we huged and talked about him. It was a big relief doing it. I feel much better now. Finally we went off, letting Notre Dame take care of the tiny flames glowing in the dark...
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pierralex- what a great gesture!!! ^f^ <^(
Cham, thank you for that amazing collage! :^^)
Fc, wonderful thoughts... :^^)
LJN,Tony,MPJ,BTammy,kathy,trekfan,pierralex,Carmilla, RosieL_D,jackster,Froggy,jacks_key,Keren,Ethan.tizi,lance and everyone else here...
Thank you just for being.it made my unbearable grieve so much easier to bear... %) all so much .
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No matter what feelings I'm going through...from happiness to sadness I'm always brought in with a warm hug. This is a tough time for all of us and like I said the 1st day I heard of Heath's death..I wish I could be with all of you and just sit down and talk, sharing our grief, but as well our happiness...Though we all know it's impossible to do that, we are close. Here, there are no wrong answers, wrong ways of being. I am thankful for everyone in this forum.
Prayers, hugs, sweet dreams to all
:ghug:
Lis
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Friday night with some french brokies (HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri and me), we went to watch BBM on theater in Paris. We learned that it was on screen the day before, what a coincidence!
In a way, it warmed my heart to see that although we lost Heath, Ennis was still here in front of me, and that he would always be.
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Absolutely, we have lost Heath but we will always have Ennis. <^(
It's this particular pic that touched my heart the most, the wonderful group of brokies gathered together and the tears in canmore's eyes. :\'( Thankyou pierralex :ghug:
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Absolutely, we have lost Heath but we will always have Ennis. <^(
It's this particular pic that touched my heart the most, the wonderful group of brokies gathered together and the tears in canmore's eyes. :\'( Thankyou pierralex :ghug:
He cried a lot actually :\'( :ghug:
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I still cry a lot every time i watch the movie :\'(, even after have seen it a lot of time.
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Hi everybody. I have just visited JGs official website and saw a picture of Jake taken in LA this weekend. After a few seconds the picture diappeared and I could read this: You are not authorized to access this page. Does anybody know more?
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The official website gives the news (yet i am not sure why they call themselves official) but the website with the photo is a gossip/paparazzi website. You must have hit the wrong link.
*reminder*
To maintain a certain level of respect, the forum asks the members not to post paparazzi photos or photos that constitute a clear invasion of their privacy.
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He cried a lot actually :\'( :ghug:
I still cry a lot every time i watch the movie :\'(, even after have seen it a lot of time.
Fortunately you was together to support both of you
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Hope you are getting well....
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The official website gives the news (yet i am not sure why they call themselves official) but the website with the photo is a gossip/paparazzi website. You must have hit the wrong link.
*reminder*
To maintain a certain level of respect, the forum asks the members not to post paparazzi photos or photos that constitute a clear invasion of their privacy.
Sorry, I did not know it is a paparazzi photo. I just wonder how Jake is doing, nothing more...........
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I am still trying to catch up all the posts from the last few pages.
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I am beyond words after seeing this pic. It breaks my heart. Thank you so much for being "there" with us. It means a lot.
:ghug: to everyone.
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Fortunately you was together to support both of you
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Hope you are getting well....
Yes I had someone to take my hand during the movie <^(
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Sorry, I did not know it is a paparazzi photo. I just wonder how Jake is doing, nothing more...........
I know , we all are sweety.
My guess is that he is grieving...just like us.
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I would like to thank you everybody for pix, collages, and beautiful words.....
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:^^)
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All of us deeply mourn Heath's tragic death, but goddam; look what he left us! He left us Ennis Del Mar who will occupy at least a part of my mind until I die. Jack and Ennis have become genetically a part of who I am, and so Heath Ledger lives on.
The ancient Egyptians said, "Speak my name and I live again". Heath's name will be spoken--and his alter ego Ennis's name will be spoken--for well into the distant future. :-\\
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"To know and love one other human being is the root of all wisdom."
-Heath Andrew Ledger-
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Tammy, thank you so much for this. I am crying a river of tears, it is so perfectly Heath, wise and loving. Thank you.
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OMG, I have just read Nolan's article for Newsweek, and now I am a mess...Again.
I have to go, or it will drive me insane...the ache is too much.
x
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Heath Ledger the man is gone, not to return. Heath Ledger’s soul lives on in the thousands, nay millions, of souls whose lives he transformed and will yet transform in ways immeasurable.
His work here was done, and by whatever providence controls such events, his talent was needed elsewhere to continue his work and practice his craft.
Like the miracle of Ennis meeting Jack, we should rejoice, not in the fact that he is gone, but in the fact that he came here at all, at this time, in this place, during our lives, to complete the work he so masterfully achieved.
G'bye Mate. You Changed Everything.
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Well said, mate. I am forever grateful that Heath came to us for the time that we had, and the legacy he left with us to carry on.
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Thank you pierrelax for those wonderful shots from Notre Dame. How touching
Linda :ghug:
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I did not know Heath Ledger. We never met. In fact, he never even knew I existed. Nevertheless, he changed my life, in so many ways, and for that I will always be grateful. I have seen almost all of his movies, and enjoyed most of them too, but it was Brokeback Mountain that had an indelible effect on me. The universal themes of love and loss, loyalty, the importance of being true to yourself and self worth, regret and redemption, and the power of love unlocked a part of me that had lain dormant for far too long. And I was privileged, not only to see this impact on other people, but to experience it with them as well. The journey that started when I walked into that theatre led me to a community of people who believed in and embraced the ideals of love, acceptance, and compassion. All of the broken pieces of us came together there and formed a bond that allowed us to heal and grow, and from that a family was forged and lifetime friendships were born. None of this would have been possible had two bright, caring, talented people not taken it upon themselves to inhabit the characters that taught us those lessons, bringing them to life on screen and making us love them. Heath Ledger was one of those people, and he didn’t just take on his role, he did it both graciously and gracefully. And continued to do so every day after. Daniel Day Lewis said “I didn’t know him. I have a strong impression I would have liked him very much, as a person, if I had.” and I feel the same way. I didn’t know the private Heath, the one his family referred to as Heatho and Roast, but what I saw was a man who lived his life by his own standards and not those of the industry he worked in, a man who said that being a parent was the most important thing he’d done, and a man who worried, when he took on the role of Ennis Del Mar, not that he might be stigmatized by playing it, but that he would be able to do it justice. I think we can all agree that he did so and then some. So for all the pieces of himself that he let me glimpse, while still fiercely protecting his own privacy and that of his family, and for all of the lessons that I have learned from Brokeback Mountain, and from the worldwide community of ennisjack, which I would never have found without him, I can only be profoundly grateful. And since those lessons and those people are forever embedded in my heart, he is as well. I will remember him, cherish him, and love him for the rest of my life.
Barb! :\'(
I agree, I agree.
The string continues to be pulled, and I unravel that much more. And I don't want to jinx it, but I think it's finally feeling a little less tight inside.
Thanks for this post. :^^)
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The Newsletter is posted, have tissues ready :-\\
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=4670.msg147214#msg147214
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HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, pierralex, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri.
Thank you for sharing what you have done in France. It is beautiful.
canmore, thank you for the tears. pierralex, thank you for holding canmore's hand.
I honestly believe that Heath poured so much love into his role as Ennis, because of couples like you. He wanted to do right by you, so you can live proud and happy lives together. I am glad to see his work bearing fruit. :ghug:
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i stayed away from here the whole day. tried not to think, not to "feel it", and then here i am again cos it still hurts, still hurts...
i have a couple of movies here that i havent watched yet (I'm not there and Candy) but still dont find the strength to do it...
donno if i should right now and let myself go and cry Heath a river...
i'll see...
the only thing i know is that i miss already his next movies that will never come...
that smile...
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Wonderful pics, PA. :-* :^^)
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The newsletter is lovely. I do feel kind of terrible for not saying anything to Heath directly. At least not in here. I said it to myself, in my head. I'm not sure I could take the words and put them in writing, though, which is why I didn't. :-\\
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The newsletter is lovely. I do feel kind of terrible for not saying anything to Heath directly. At least not in here. I said it to myself, in my head. I'm not sure I could take the words and put them in writing, though, which is why I didn't. :-\\
No need for words, just think of him in Heaven looking down on us, he is smilling
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The newsletter is lovely. I do feel kind of terrible for not saying anything to Heath directly. At least not in here. I said it to myself, in my head. I'm not sure I could take the words and put them in writing, though, which is why I didn't. :-\\
For a moment I was feeling sort of outcast in that I also hadn't, carb. I simply hadn't known of the thread in which to do so but ultimately, I think I share your inability. Somehow, although thoughtful, it sits a little too final in a sense.
I don't know that I'm even able to accept the incident. I'm really slow in some aspects, but hey I'm working on it.
Maybe for us, it's best we keep certain sentiments right in our hearts, in check so to speak.
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Why can't I cry? Why am I happy one minute and others, sad realizing we lost someone great? I don't understand myself. I read everybody's post and I just want to be there and give everyone the biggest hugs. But as I keep reading, I wonder why I can't seem to share these same feelings. Sometimes I seem as nothing is wrong, smiling and going on, then something hits me such as 5 minutes ago when I stumbled upon Ellen D. tribute to Heath on her show. I saw her face after the tribute and I just felt so sad, so heart broken. But still, I don't understand it. I've read on a previous post that if your not truely upset, your just a 'fan', not a family. What am I? Why can't I express these feelings I know I feel for this great man? I'm sorry if I'm just rambling on about nothing... :-\\
:ghug:
Lis
You are every bit a part of this family :ghug: Everyone here is. As for why you don't cry? I don't know. Some people hit things and scream, others sit in silence, others sob and some don't cry at all- grief is different for all of us. There is no "right" or "wrong" way to handle it, it doesn't mean you don't care or aren't feeling it as deeply as the next person. It just means that you handle it in the only way you know how and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. :ghug: :ghug:
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Heath Ledger the man is gone, not to return. Heath Ledger’s soul lives on in the thousands, nay millions, of souls whose lives he transformed and will yet transform in ways immeasurable.
His work here was done, and by whatever providence controls such events, his talent was needed elsewhere to continue his work and practice his craft.
Like the miracle of Ennis meeting Jack, we should rejoice, not in the fact that he is gone, but in the fact that he came here at all, at this time, in this place, during our lives, to complete the work he so masterfully achieved.
G'bye Mate. You Changed Everything.
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That is so beautiful :\'( :ghug:
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I don't know what is happenning to me,I don't know if it's logical and normal or not...I haven't read or seen any tribute for Heath,simply because I can't.I'm beginning to enter into a phase of acceptance of the situation,having passed the first days of real shock.But as soon as I read or see some of these tributes,this kind of shield breaks and the shock state reappears-although not as hard as the first days...-.I don't want to post in any other threads about fun and games because I find them now superficial and frivolous-but I'm not saying that who does it,are frivolous too;it's simply my way of reacting...-;nor in threads about BBM because it hurts me speak,for example,about Ennis sexuality or their reactions in BBM because it reminds me of Heath...If I can't read and I don't want to post anywhere that it doesn't be this thread about his death,what can I do?.It's difficult to understand,I suppose,so I believe I'm a little crazy or something like that;I repite,I don't know if it's logical or not...really I don't.
When a friend is gone,
an empty place remains
that can't be filled
with a new friend's arrival.
When a friend is gone,
a star is lost,
the one that lights the place
where there's a slept child.
When a friend is gone,
riding up to his destiny,
our soul begins to shatter
because it's full with cold.
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"Cuando un amigo se va"/"When a friend is gone". Song by Alberto Cortez.
You are not alone in not reading tributes or anything like that. :ghug: I think it's a form of self protection. I'm not ready to see that stuff either. I feel like I should but I can't right now. I can't go into those threads either- I'm glad others are able to but for some of it seems the world is still standing still. And that's okay too. Like I just said to Lil Dwarf- we all grieve and handle things in our own way. And there's no logic when it comes to grief. :ghug: That is a beautiful song :\'( I hope you start feeling a little better soon. :ghug:
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Why can't I cry? Why am I happy one minute and others, sad realizing we lost someone great? I don't understand myself. I read everybody's post and I just want to be there and give everyone the biggest hugs. But as I keep reading, I wonder why I can't seem to share these same feelings. Sometimes I seem as nothing is wrong, smiling and going on, then something hits me such as 5 minutes ago when I stumbled upon Ellen D. tribute to Heath on her show. I saw her face after the tribute and I just felt so sad, so heart broken. But still, I don't understand it. I've read on a previous post that if your not truely upset, your just a 'fan', not a family. What am I? Why can't I express these feelings I know I feel for this great man? I'm sorry if I'm just rambling on about nothing... :-\\
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Lis
Hi, Lis, everyone expresses their individual grief differently. It is not about how we mourn Heath, it is about how we feel losing him. I used to think of myself as a fan. I don't know if I can call myself a member of his family. I do know that for days after hearing the news, I avoided television and newspaper on purpose, just to shut out the pain. I still do. I only come here, where I know it is safe, to let a little of the news to seep in, and a little of the tears to seep out. There is no right or wrong way, just the way that is best for you. Whatever you have done, Heath already loves you for it. I refuse to watch the morbid pictures of his death. I can only think of the smiling pictures of his life, of his joy. For some reason, however, the painful pictures of Ennis in tears, they bring me comfort, because I know he also understood, what we are going through. I am just hoping that all our love and prayers, are reaching him, and surrounding him with love and loving memories. We will never be the private part of him, growing up with his Australian family, but we will always be the public part of him, the family who loves him and will always welcome him.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Love,
Andrew
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Friday night with some french brokies (HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri and me), we went to watch BBM on theater in Paris. We learned that it was on screen the day before, what a coincidence!
It was very weird and sad at the beggining, seeing Heath on the screen and thinking that he isn't here anymore... And then I felt into the story as the previous times, forgetting about Heath, Jake, the world around me. Just Ennis, Jack and me. In a way, it warmed my heart to see that although we lost Heath, Ennis was still here in front of me, and that he would always be. Being with fellow brokies also helped a lot. We even managed to laugh. Being with brokies is just priceless!
Then, we went to Notre Dame de Paris to light up candels for Heath. It was unseasy because of the wind, but we managed to find a good place just in front of the cathedral and suddenly the wind stopped.
It was so beautiful, we were standing up silently, in front of the candels, thinking about Heath, thanking him.
No need to hide pain, no need to explain, we huged and talked about him. It was a big relief doing it. I feel much better now. Finally we went off, letting Notre Dame take care of the tiny flames glowing in the dark...
How I wish I was with you all... vous avez rendu un magnifique hommage à Heath et j'aurai vraiment aimé être avec vous car depuis que j'ai appris la terrible nouvelle, je me sens très seule et incomprise ici à Paris, les gens ne comprennent pas que je sois si affectée par sa disparition, heureusement que ce forum existe. Je vous embrasse tous et si vous comptez à nouveau vous retrouver sur Paris, ce serait trop sympa de penser à moi :\'(
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Friday night with some french brokies (HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri and me), we went to watch BBM on theater in Paris. We learned that it was on screen the day before, what a coincidence!
It was very weird and sad at the beggining, seeing Heath on the screen and thinking that he isn't here anymore... And then I felt into the story as the previous times, forgetting about Heath, Jake, the world around me. Just Ennis, Jack and me. In a way, it warmed my heart to see that although we lost Heath, Ennis was still here in front of me, and that he would always be. Being with fellow brokies also helped a lot. We even managed to laugh. Being with brokies is just priceless!
Then, we went to Notre Dame de Paris to light up candels for Heath. It was unseasy because of the wind, but we managed to find a good place just in front of the cathedral and suddenly the wind stopped.
It was so beautiful, we were standing up silently, in front of the candels, thinking about Heath, thanking him.
No need to hide pain, no need to explain, we huged and talked about him. It was a big relief doing it. I feel much better now. Finally we went off, letting Notre Dame take care of the tiny flames glowing in the dark...
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:ghug: That is so beautiful- all of you.
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Big hugs Carby and Justin. :ghug:
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The Newsletter is posted, have tissues ready :-\\
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=4670.msg147214#msg147214
Thank you, the editing team.
The newsletter is a wonderful tribute, and you honor me too much. I do love this place and all who come here. And I do miss him...as malawix said, all the movies never to be made, and as Chris Nolan hinted, all the shorts he produced, never to be seen, ... I tried to find his movies in the store today. Guess what, the few items in stock last week, all disappeared, or sold. I am struggling to decide, if I should get all the movies at once, and watch them, or to watch one a year, on an anniversary. Thank you for posting all his movies. That's a great start. I think I will pace myself, and get just one or two a year.
Sometimes the hole you left behind is so immense, I feel empty.
Sometimes the gift you so generously gave is so huge, I feel blessed.
Sometimes I miss you so much.
Sometimes just thinking of your pictures make me smile.
Whatever the time, I know the love you left in my heart, will always be there.
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She takes the back road and the lane
past the school that has not changed
in all this time
She thinks of when the boy was young
all the battles she had won
just to give him life
That man
she loved that man
for all his life,
but now we meet to take him flowers
and only God knows why
For what's the use in pressing palms
when children fade in mother's arms
It's a cruel world
We've so much to lose
and what we have to learn
we rarely choose
So if it's God who took her son,
he cannot be the one living in her mind
Take care my love, she said
don't think that God is dead
Take care my love, she said
you have been loved
If I was weak, forgive me
but I was terrified
You brushed my eyes with angels wings
full of love,
the kind that makes devils cry
So these days
my life has changed
and I'll be fine,
but she just sits and counts the hours
searching for her crime
So what's the use of pressing palms
if you won't keep such love from harm
It's a cruel world
you've so much to prove,
and heaven help the ones
who wait for you
YOU HAVE BEEN LOVED ... by George Michael
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If I was weak, forgive me
but I was terrified
You brushed my eyes with angels wings
full of love,
the kind that makes devils cry
So these days
my life has changed
and I'll be fine,
but she just sits and counts the hours
searching for her crime
So what's the use of pressing palms
if you won't keep such love from harm
It's a cruel world
you've so much to prove,
and heaven help the ones
who wait for you
YOU HAVE BEEN LOVED ... by George Michael
Thank you roco. I am reminded of his love, and our responsibilities for one another.
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my heart hurts Heath, my eyes are tearful; I miss you so much;
I cannot explain this pain to anyone; it's wrapped up in my daily routine;
May God keep you in love and may your spirit soar high and live in us
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I hope someone youtubes the SAG awards from tonight.
Daniel Day Lewis just won the award for best actor and his acceptance speech was a moving tribute to Heath. He spoke of Heath's performances in Monster's Ball and Brokeback Mountain, saying the scene in the end of BBM, in the trailer, was one of the most perfect he'd ever seen.
You could feel the emotion in the room, the solemn attention to DDL's words and the applause at the mention of Heath's work, especially when BBM was mentioned.
DDL dedicated his win to him. I'm beyond touched and now a fan of DDL's for life. A very generous and gracious man.
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Thanks for that Missy :ghug: That made be both tear up and smile.
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God, I love him. <^( What a wonderful man. I was moved to tears by his conversation with Oprah, and now this. I hope it makes youtube too. I'd love to see that.
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Yes! It is so perfect, and I'm going to print it. <^(
kathy
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I hope someone youtubes the SAG awards from tonight.
Daniel Day Lewis just won the award for best actor and his acceptance speech was a moving tribute to Heath. He spoke of Heath's performances in Monster's Ball and Brokeback Mountain, saying the scene in the end of BBM, in the trailer, was one of the most perfect he'd ever seen.
You could feel the emotion in the room, the solemn attention to DDL's words and the applause at the mention of Heath's work, especially when BBM was mentioned.
DDL dedicated his win to him. I'm beyond touched and now a fan of DDL's for life. A very generous and gracious man.
It's only 7:20 here, so I've not seen this. But I will turn on the awards this evening. That was DDL's personal tribute to Heath, but there will be another one? I love DDL for life now, too. Someone who truly recognized how special was Heath, even without personally knowing him. Like us.
kathy
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:clap: The moderators should be recognized for the newsletter :clap:
Absolutely. ^f^ Thank you, Mods .. I teared up reading it, and will print a copy tomorrow. What a difficult job it must have been to put that together. Beautifully done. :(
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Hello friends. It's hard for me to be on just now. I'm really not doing very well with all of this. But DDL's acceptance speech was incredible. I can't stop crying for it. But then, if I don't have a deversion like work or soemthing else, I don't seem to be able to stop crying. It will end I know, but......................
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Hello friends. It's hard for me to be on just now. I'm really not doing very well with all of this. But DDL's acceptance speech was incredible. I can't stop crying for it. But then, if I don't have a deversion like work or soemthing else, I don't seem to be able to stop crying. It will end I know, but......................
Come here, both shoulders are available and pretty much trained :ghug:
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Daniel Day Lewis was FANTASTIC tonight. He gave the tribute to Heath that I was praying to hear tonight.
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Hello friends. It's hard for me to be on just now. I'm really not doing very well with all of this. But DDL's acceptance speech was incredible. I can't stop crying for it. But then, if I don't have a deversion like work or soemthing else, I don't seem to be able to stop crying. It will end I know, but......................
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Heaven has one more TREASURE .... and the world is a colder, darker place!
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DDL's tribute was wonderful. Ryan Gosling also talked about Heath on E's red carpet and wore a black ribbon on his suit in honor of Heath. Two peers who never worked with him, but respected him for his work. It's a beautiful thing. DDL just stunned me. I have tremendous respect for him, his words were so genuine and touching.
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Daniel Day-Lewis is so ******' awesome. I only watched the SAGs to see what they would say about Heath and when I saw DDL get up there and heard him speaking kind of slowly, I knew he was going to say something about Heath and I thought he was struggling with his emotions. I know DDL didn't know him, but most of us didn't know Heath either. His speech brought tears to my eyes. I cannot believe how much this actor's death is affecting me. WHY. I've never really cared about an actor dying, I mean, I'm not being cold but it's never really personally affected me. Then again, I can't think of a movie that has affected me like BBM. I just saw 10 things and Candy for the first time over the weekend and Heath is so funny and sweet in those movies. Actors are lucky, aren't they, because they live on in movies. He'll always be young and beautiful.
DDL is WONDERFUL. I've always admired his acting and he seems like a sensitive soul too. What a lovely gesture, really lovely.
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Absolutely <^(!!!!
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Heaven has one more TREASURE .... and the world is a colder, darker place!
Beautiful!! ^f^
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Absolutely <^(!!!!
I second that, You made this Newsletter so memorable, thank from the depth of my heart :^^) :^^) :^^) :^^) :^^) :^^) :^^)
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Here's to Daniel Day-Lewis, such a great human being, and to our fantastic moderators. :cr) The news letter was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful man. &**)
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I remembered that night,22 January 2008. i was reading MadLori's Two Crows Joy when i fell into a sleep.
(excuse my English,i'm an indonesian).
it was when Jack told Ennis that he'll leave to take care of his sick mother in Lightning Flat.Jack said
"i'll fu**in miss you,ennis", and ennis replied "me too darling,me too".i read it over and over again before i fell
into a sleep and the very morning of the day after i received a message from a friend that said Heath has gone,i felt agry. Angry was all i felt that time. why him? why dont this guy or that guy or anybody but him?
my heath?My darlin ennis?
it took alot of time,a lot of thoughts to realize,to deal with the idea,that he wasnt that far.
He's gonejust to be closer to me cause now he's in my heart.
everytime i look into the sky i asked him ." you happy now Heath,you Ok up there?"
and i can almost see him smiled and that heal me for sure. i pray for him everyday.To ask Dear Lord to take
care of him for he always take care of me through Ennis.
Sleep tigh cowboy, you'll be saved in our heart for ever.
thanks for everything. you'll always be loved/
Hugs to all brokie.
We will always have Ennis and Jack!!!
oh where,oh where,can my baby be?
The Lord took him away from me
He's gone to heaven so i got to be good
so i can see my baby when i leave this world
--Pearl Jam - Last Kiss--
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Then, we went to Notre Dame de Paris to light up candels for Heath. It was unseasy because of the wind, but we managed to find a good place just in front of the cathedral and suddenly the wind stopped.
It was so beautiful, we were standing up silently, in front of the candels, thinking about Heath, thanking him.
No need to hide pain, no need to explain, we huged and talked about him. It was a big relief doing it. I feel much better now. Finally we went off, letting Notre Dame take care of the tiny flames glowing in the dark...
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Someone posted on YouTube...Just to see Heath smiling.... <^( sigh...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=m4EohAc4OLw
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There's not much else I can say other than the fact that I can't stop crying. Just two weeks before Heath's passing, I got a tattoo of a Brokeback scene on the side of my ribcage. I had waited two years until I found just the right one. Furthermore, one of my best friends stippled a canvas picture of Heath as the Joker for me last Christmas. Then, January 22nd, minutes before I found out, my friend and I were chatting about Heath and how excited I am to go see his new movie. Then my best friend called me at work and told me the news. I was upset that my friend would joke about something like that. She told me she wasn't joking, and that Heath Ledger had passed. A part of me can't help but think that when I love someone so much, they are always taken away. All in all, I feel like everything adds up for some srtange reason. Why did I get the tattoo two weeks prior. Why had my friend stippled his picture for me in eight hours. Why had my other friend and I been talking in depth just before I found out. I feel there's a reason. I sence there is something more. It can't just end. Sometimes I think I'm going to wake up. Sometimes I think it's a publicity stunt. I don't want to be Ennis Del Mar in his trailer. Alone. For the rest of his life. I don't want to be sad anymore, but damn it, I can't help it. I miss you Heath. We never met, but on a different level, "we was good friends."
~Henry
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There's not much else I can say other than the fact that I can't stop crying. Just two weeks before Heath's passing, I got a tattoo of a Brokeback scene on the side of my ribcage. I had waited two years until I found just the right one. Furthermore, one of my best friends stippled a canvas picture of Heath as the Joker for me last Christmas. Then, January 22nd, minutes before I found out, my friend and I were chatting about Heath and how excited I am to go see his new movie. Then my best friend called me at work and told me the news. I was upset that my friend would joke about something like that. She told me she wasn't joking, and that Heath Ledger had passed. A part of me can't help but think that when I love someone so much, they are always taken away. All in all, I feel like everything adds up for some srtange reason. Why did I get the tattoo two weeks prior. Why had my friend stippled his picture for me in eight hours. Why had my other friend and I been talking in depth just before I found out. I feel there's a reason. I sence there is something more. It can't just end. Sometimes I think I'm going to wake up. Sometimes I think it's a publicity stunt. I don't want to be Ennis Del Mar in his trailer. Alone. For the rest of his life. I don't want to be sad anymore, but damn it, I can't help it. I miss you Heath. We never met, but on a different level, "we was good friends."
~Henry
That was touching.
I truly wish you the best. :ghug:
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Absolutely <^(!!!!
Another applauding and grateful Brokie for that outstand memorial/newsletter! O0
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Pardon me, I'm in tears. I did just see Daniel Day's tribute to Heath on the SAG awards. I am going to be late to work, so I'm going to make this quick. I made a fanvid. I'm sorry this might not be in the exactly right spot, but to me, we all have our own tributes. Please, if you have a few minutes watch this. Thank you. God bless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk)
God bless you, Heath. :\'( ^f^
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I'm in tears right now also, having just deen DDL's tribute to Heath...
kathy
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i'm still waiting to hear that its all a joke. this just can't be.
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Orangetruck,
Your video was beautiful. That song always gets to me and your words at the end....very very touching.
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i'm still waiting to here that its all a joke. this just can't be.
same for me...
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Thank you very much, jerasjr. Yes, please join me to recognize the mods. In addition to their own grief of such a great loss, they have done their best to make sure that the forum is well taken care of and support everyone in every possible way.
I'd like to also thank everyone for sharing your thoughts. They move me to tears and at the same time comfort me so much. :ghug:
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Thanks from me too, mods. The newsletter was a perfect tribute.
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The way he entered our lives was through that route, as a celebrity, as a gifted actor we admired. With good references as a human being.
That's how we met him. But that was only a means to get this beautiful soul into the lives of those who could really love him. Which is a huge
difference. Fans say good-bye and walk away, and find another focus. Fans weep a day or two, then forget. It was only the means of meeting
him, LJN, for we were meant to meet, for we were and are, in some unexplainable way, a real part of his true family.
That you are still grieving so terribly, and that so many of the rest of us are, means we went past the means of introduction long ago, and
loved him for who he was. And it also means, you are different in a way that makes you so much to the better. There are those who could
not love. You did. You weren't a fan, LJN, you were far more-you were part of a family that loved him so very much. I am in great hurt
over what tpe hoped wasn't true but could be- the tragedy that his defense walls were so strong, he didn't know--we loved him for himself.
Stay strong, and please know that when the storm hit, you and others were there to stand up for the rest of us, and go there, as you did.
Fans go away. Family stays. We all love you for having seen what we saw, and for being who you are. None of us should be worried or
embarrassed over our tears. We have a reason to weep. We met a good and kind and decent man, and life hit him too hard, too soon.
Dear Tony, what a great post. Thank you so much. It is just enlightening. :ghug:
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i just want to repeat my thankfulness that we had the chance to be there, not only in our hearts and thoughts.
tizi - thank you for posting the pix. It breaks me heart to see it. How I wish these tokens were not used as tribute to Heath :\'(
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Heath, you will always live in my heart... Rest in peace brother.
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I'm in tears right now also, having just deen DDL's tribute to Heath...
I need to see it. I saw what he said on Oprah, and was moved so much. What a wonderful sensitive man.
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I need to see it. I saw what he said on Oprah, and was moved so much. What a wonderful sensitive man.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12695.msg677329#msg677329
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thank you for this wonderful and touching newsletter.
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DDL's tribute on the SAG awards moved me to tears this morning. It was so heartfelt and touching - a real touch of class.
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Pardon me, I'm in tears. I did just see Daniel Day's tribute to Heath on the SAG awards. I am going to be late to work, so I'm going to make this quick. I made a fanvid. I'm sorry this might not be in the exactly right spot, but to me, we all have our own tributes. Please, if you have a few minutes watch this. Thank you. God bless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk)
God bless you, Heath. :\'( ^f^
Great video!!.. I'm a mess now :\'(
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I took me awhile to even come here. You see Jack died and in my mind now Ennis has died as well. I liked to think that Ennis was still alive and enjoying his grandchildren.
What a tremendous loss. He was a very unique actor with a range beyond his years. He through himself into all of his roles. He did not act the part he became the character as real and as alive as I have ever seen in an actor. That is why the film Brokeback Mountains grabbed our hearts and went clear to our soul living there forever.
The film took me on a journey that was both heartwarming, sad and an elightenment that continues to astonish me.
I am simply very sad. I am still in shock. I still want it to be not true. It is a difficult letting go of him. Isn't this amazing what his performance along with Jake Gyllenhall and the writing of Annie did to all of us.
Me a straight married mom with 4 kids learning that all love is the same with the same intensity and passion as any great love.
Goodbye Heath - You have no idea how you affected my life. You were a gift to the world and I think you were put here to make the film BBM to send us a message that we all need love and when we find that "great love" it is precious.
Silk
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Thank you Ethan. What an amazing man DDL is, what a beautiful tribute... :\'( :\'( I'll admire him forever for doing it.
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Daniel Day-LewisDaniel Day-Lewis accepts his award for “There Will Be Blood.”
“Heath Ledger gave it to me,” he said. “We wanted to follow him and yet we were afraid to follow him.”
“In Brokeback Mountain, he was unique. He was perfect. The scene in the trailer at the end of the movie was as moving as anything we have ever seen. I’d like to dedicate this award to him.
That's is DDL's quote from his acceptance speech .. <^( :clap:
How sweet is that!!!!
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Thanks for posting DDL's acceptance speech in honour of Heath. It was beautiful and moving. What an incredible gesture. My heart is so full of admiration for him.
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That speech was so beautiful. DDL is a lovely, lovely human being.
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I am still in complete shock and it has been a few days now. When I first heard the news I just broke down and cried. I don't think i've cried that hard in my life. I still cry whenever I think about it. I didn't know him personally but I was a huge fan of his and it feels like I had just lost a best friend. I decided I had to come on here because I knew all of you would be feeling the same also.
I am heartbroken and devastated :\'(
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I am still in complete shock and it has been a few days now. When I first heard the news I just broke down and cried. I don't think i've cried that hard in my life. I still cry whenever I think about it. I didn't know him personally but I was a huge fan of his and it feels like I had just lost a best friend. I decided I had to come on here because I knew all of you would be feeling the same also.
I am heartbroken and devastated :\'(
We all are!! :ghug:
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You are not alone in not reading tributes or anything like that. :ghug: I think it's a form of self protection. I'm not ready to see that stuff either. I feel like I should but I can't right now. I can't go into those threads either- I'm glad others are able to but for some of it seems the world is still standing still. And that's okay too. Like I just said to Lil Dwarf- we all grieve and handle things in our own way. And there's no logic when it comes to grief. :ghug: That is a beautiful song :\'( I hope you start feeling a little better soon. :ghug:
Thanks for your kind words,dear;they're as a relief for me indeed... :^^) You're right in that everybody has their own ways of self-protecting or even,to fight against the pain.These are mine,wrong or nor,but I admire deeply these ones who are able to read all the tributes and watch BBM as a homage to Heath.Yours and mine way to homage him are remembering him in a quieter way,at least now...And yes,the grief logical is illogical,but it's how we feel.I also hope you start feeling better soon;we get it,you'll see. :ghug:
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I am still in complete shock and it has been a few days now. When I first heard the news I just broke down and cried. I don't think i've cried that hard in my life. I still cry whenever I think about it. I didn't know him personally but I was a huge fan of his and it feels like I had just lost a best friend. I decided I had to come on here because I knew all of you would be feeling the same also.
I am heartbroken and devastated :\'(
Yes we feel the same, and we understand you so well... I'm in the same condition as you :\'( :ghug:
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Pardon me, I'm in tears. I did just see Daniel Day's tribute to Heath on the SAG awards. I am going to be late to work, so I'm going to make this quick. I made a fanvid. I'm sorry this might not be in the exactly right spot, but to me, we all have our own tributes. Please, if you have a few minutes watch this. Thank you. God bless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk)
God bless you, Heath. :\'( ^f^
Wonderful,orangetruck¡Congratulations for your work and thanks for having shared it with us¡ :^^) I don't know why, for the first time in all these days,I've felt able to see a tribute or something dedicated to Heath;I have been supporting the situation stoically during the video,but now I'm at the point of crying again...As a matter of fact,I'm crying...But it's more than I could do few days ago,yesterday itself;thank you too for having "obliged" to make this step at least¡ :ghug:
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Yesterday I saw the "Order", and that final scene where Heath walk down the corridor, his arms out like wings, that just got me right in the heart. I liked Daniel Day-Lewis tribute to Heath, he knew like all of us what a gift this man had. I can't really express what I feel in words. Sorry.
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Yesterday I saw the "Order", and that final scene where Heath walk down the corridor, his arms out like wings, that just got me right in the heart. I liked Daniel Day-Lewis tribute to Heath, he knew like all of us what a gift this man had. I can't really express what I feel in words. Sorry.
You're expressing yourself perfectly. It's hard to know if what we are saying makes any kind of sense, I feel that way myself, but just knowing that I can come here and express myself whether it makes sense or not is such a comfort to me. Just being here, with all of you, knowing that you are all feeling what I'm feeling, helps me so much. :ghug:
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I took me awhile to even come here. You see Jack died and in my mind now Ennis has died as well. I liked to think that Ennis was still alive and enjoying his grandchildren.
What a tremendous loss. He was a very unique actor with a range beyond his years. He through himself into all of his roles. He did not act the part he became the character as real and as alive as I have ever seen in an actor. That is why the film Brokeback Mountains grabbed our hearts and went clear to our soul living there forever.
The film took me on a journey that was both heartwarming, sad and an elightenment that continues to astonish me.
I am simply very sad. I am still in shock. I still want it to be not true. It is a difficult letting go of him. Isn't this amazing what his performance along with Jake Gyllenhall and the writing of Annie did to all of us.
Me a straight married mom with 4 kids learning that all love is the same with the same intensity and passion as any great love.
Goodbye Heath - You have no idea how you affected my life. You were a gift to the world and I think you were put here to make the film BBM to send us a message that we all need love and when we find that "great love" it is precious.
Silk
That just gave me chills.
Beautiful, and I couldn't agree more.
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You're expressing yourself perfectly. It's hard to know if what we are saying makes any kind of sense, I feel that way myself, but just knowing that I can come here and express myself whether it makes sense or not is such a comfort to me. Just being here, with all of you, knowing that you are all feeling what I'm feeling, helps me so much. :ghug:
Thanks Chritie, for understanding.
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I've seen fire and I've seen rain
I've seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I've seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I'd see you again
Thank you, Toadily.
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For one more moment do let ye stay and be
Upon this earth before the sun
In rest thee keep
For Love in all they seek
And in ye magic they see
Joeseph
Beautiful, frenchcda.
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lil_dwarf, Ethan & LuvJackNasty went to the Soho flat today and were able to leave there our tribute, I spoke with both of them when they were on the spot. So far, it's not blocked.
Again, I want to express special thanks to lil_dwarf, Ethan & LuvJackNasty for presenting this tribute. I felt at peace this weekend, knowing that we are not wanting in our love for him and his memory.
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Dear friends -
I have no candle here with me to light. Instead I'll post words to a haunting song, of death and dreams and brightness gone to soon.
Gentle Heath, may you rest peacefully in the light of candles that burn in remembrance of you. :ghug:
Bright Eyes
Art Garfunkel
Is it a kind of dream,
Floating out on the tide,
Following the river of death downstream,
or is it a dream?
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Bright eyes,
burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
how can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.
The past week still fells like a dream. But he is real, even in death.
Thanks Missy.
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Hello,
I have lurked at this site for months but have now finally joined. I am deeply saddened by Heath's passing. I have been a fan of his for years. I just wanted to share a poem and a song that helped me through my mother's death, which was ironically on Janurary 22, 2005. I hope this brings some comfort to all those so hurt and lost from this sad and terrible tradedgy.
Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room,
I am I and you are you;
Whatever we were to each other, That we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
Speak to me in the easy way which you always used,
Put no difference in your tone,
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we shared together.
Let my name ever be the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant,
It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just around the corner.
All is well.
-Henry Scott Holland, Canon of St. Paul’s Cathedral, London
Didn't Want to say Goodbye
Ari Hest
In a room draped in blue
I am thinking of you
I am tired, I can't sleep
And for you I will weep
In a flash, you are gone
Yet around me life is calm
I cannot understand
Is this part of the plan?
I get cards with bouquets
But they can't take your place
I have dreams about us
But I always wake up
I can ask all I please
I can beg down on my knees
For a reason, for a sign
But these answers I wont find
And I will weep
Can you hear me?
Cant you tell me why?
Ill go on without you
And what's left for me to do
But to stay where I am
In my world of pretend
And I wont know until I die
If my faith was but a lie
Til then you'll hear it in my cry
I didn't want to say goodbye to you
My thoughts and prayers are with Heath's family and friends. Mostly with Matilda who I know feel a connection too, we both lost parents on the same day. I pray for Michelle and hope she will be ok. I pray for Jake to be strong and be the best godfather to that sweet little girl and keep Heath's memory alive for her.
-Lauren
Welcome, Lauren. And thank you so much for sharing these with us.
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To Heath
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I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.
You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.
In these lines, you speak for me too, lance. You speak for all of us here.
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Tizi, I avoided byuing the papers just in case. Seeing that it was everywhere.
But just now they played "You're just to good to be true" video on tv, and I also just a Perth tourism advert.
And I broke into tears...once again.
I saw so many this weekend, and didn't have the heart to pick up any one and take a look. Perhaps in a few days. Perhaps never.
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FlwrChild - beautiful words :^^)
Cham - beautiful pictures :^^)
I keep trying to do normal things and for the most part, I'm succeeding. But then, something will come to mind and my heart is in my stomach again. Like, I just got a new mobile phone and I was thinking I hadn't had any texts since I got it....which reminded me of the last text I got on my old one, which was on Tuesday, telling me the terrible news....
I'm not crying (except when I read the tributes from his family) but it still hurts. Damn, it hurts.
Thanks FlwrChild, Cham, and NoReins.
Yesterday, I got to meet some friends in the hope of trying to take a break, but we ended up talking about Heath for 4 hours. I guess it couldn't be helped.
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Daniel Day-LewisDaniel Day-Lewis accepts his award for “There Will Be Blood.”
“Heath Ledger gave it to me,” he said. “We wanted to follow him and yet we were afraid to follow him.”
“In Brokeback Mountain, he was unique. He was perfect. The scene in the trailer at the end of the movie was as moving as anything we have ever seen. I’d like to dedicate this award to him.
That's is DDL's quote from his acceptance speech .. <^( :clap:
How sweet is that!!!!
DDL is a wonderful person; my respect for him just increased tenfold.
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Friday night with some french brokies (HGB, Fredptitefée, canmore, Alec_Scudder, Chrichri and me), we went to watch BBM on theater in Paris. We learned that it was on screen the day before, what a coincidence!
It was very weird and sad at the beggining, seeing Heath on the screen and thinking that he isn't here anymore... And then I felt into the story as the previous times, forgetting about Heath, Jake, the world around me. Just Ennis, Jack and me. In a way, it warmed my heart to see that although we lost Heath, Ennis was still here in front of me, and that he would always be. Being with fellow brokies also helped a lot. We even managed to laugh. Being with brokies is just priceless!
Then, we went to Notre Dame de Paris to light up candels for Heath. It was unseasy because of the wind, but we managed to find a good place just in front of the cathedral and suddenly the wind stopped.
It was so beautiful, we were standing up silently, in front of the candels, thinking about Heath, thanking him.
No need to hide pain, no need to explain, we huged and talked about him. It was a big relief doing it. I feel much better now. Finally we went off, letting Notre Dame take care of the tiny flames glowing in the dark...
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Thanks Seb for sharing this.
You are right: he will always be.
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OMG! :\'( What a wonderful tribute. Thank you DDL.
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HE moves me differently: and yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never see him again! You'll perhaps think me rather inclined to become so,' he added, making an effort to smile, 'if I try to describe the thousand forms of past associations and ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll not talk of what I tell you; and my mind is so eternally secluded in itself, it is tempting at last to turn it out to another.
-- Mr. Heathcliff, from the closing chapters of Wuthering Heights.
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I mentioned yesterday that Ryan Gosling talked about Heath on the red carpet. I thought it was very sweet. Here's the video if anyone cares to watch:
http://link.brightcove.com/services/player/bcpid1378342403?bclid=1326153012&bctid=1392526755
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HE moves me differently: and yet if I could do it without seeming insane, I'd never see him again! You'll perhaps think me rather inclined to become so,' he added, making an effort to smile, 'if I try to describe the thousand forms of past associations and ideas he awakens or embodies. But you'll not talk of what I tell you; and my mind is so eternally secluded in itself, it is tempting at last to turn it out to another.
-- Mr. Heathcliff, from the closing chapters of Wuthering Heights.
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So touching!
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Here is the link to Daniel Day Lewis' beautiful tribute to our Heath:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxr8mbvaB2E
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DDL's speech made me cry.....He is simply amazing. Such a sincere human being, so honest, so sensitive, so.....real and true. What a speech!!!! I'm still crying, I am....this made Heath's death seem even more real to me now....I can't believe it, I just can't.
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:ghug: :ghug:
DDL and Ryan Gosling's very sincere, very understated expressions of support and remembrance were comforting to see in the midst of everything else. Classy behavior by both. ^f^
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Hello Koka.
I also thought it was a wonderful tribute.
The important thing is to remember him -- that way, we can move on.
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Hey tpe! Thanks for your words, and you're absolutely right, I'm well aware of that. It's just that it STILL (!) feels so surreal....at times I manage to grasp it, manage to grasp the thought, the idea of Heath PHYSICALLY not being here, but then that thought slips away after a mere few seconds and I end up feeling as if I were in a dream, or a dream of a dream. It is hard to grasp death, grasp the concept of it, I think. Because you see, I sincerely believe that death as such is nothing bad, nothing tragic, nothing that should be feared- I would like to believe that it's like going to sleep. But on the other hand, it IS tragic for the people that are left behind and that will never be able to see that person again, feel that person, talk to that person, look into his or her eyes....and it saddens and pains me that little Matilda will grow up not remembering or knowing her father, that Michelle will have to cope with raising her the best way she can on her own with the painful realization that Heath will never be there to witness her grow up and savor the joys of parenthood with her...
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Thank you all for your wise and thoughtful and comforting posts in this thread. They have helped me much. And all the youtube clips.
I have always liked Daniel Day-Lewis and thought that he is very extraordinary actor and person, and this only strengthens my opinion.
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DDL's speech made me cry.....He is simply amazing. Such a sincere human being, so honest, so sensitive, so.....real and true. What a speech!!!! I'm still crying, I am....this made Heath's death seem even more real to me now....I can't believe it, I just can't.
I felt exactly the same when I saw it for the first time, such a sensitive person!
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Daniel Day Lewis was FANTASTIC tonight. He gave the tribute to Heath that I was praying to hear tonight.
very true x
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My most warmest thanks from bottom of my heart to this very special edition newsletter!!!!!!!
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My most warmest thanks from bottom of my heart to this very special edition newsletter!!!!!!!
Hear hear!!! It's simply AMAZING! :ghug:
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Ravenus made this....tribute to Heath.
tissues will be needed.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ts2a26g5XkI
Remember - Josh Groban
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun
I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
I am that one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
(Remember me...)
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember... me...
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I've just seen the DDL speech. I already loved him from his part in My Beautiful Laundrette, now I understand why. He's just as Heath, a sensitive and kind soul.
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Ravenus made this....tribute to Heath.
tissues will be needed.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ts2a26g5XkI
Oh...such beautiful and sad video :\'(
Remember you I will, I promise.
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I made this little video about Heath, tears were falling when I made it... :\'(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=I3wXnmwwYrw
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Beautiful vid by Rav, and now I'm off to watch Twisted's.
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Oh Twisted. :\'( <^(
That was wonderful. The dozy embrace video is one of my favorites, and I find that music to be hauntingly beautiful. You guys are killing me, but it's all so lovely.
For some reason, it has been very important to me this week to keep my feelings about BBM separate from my feelings about Heath. I just can't handle the overlap. But I had to watch your vid and I'm glad that I did, even with the other images that song evokes in my head. Thank you for making it. :^^)
My thanks to all who have made videos. They are not only beautiful, they are an amazing tribute to the man we all love and will miss so much. I appreciate your efforts. :ghug:
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Thank you for your heartbreaking vids, Ravenus and Twisted! So beautiful! :\'(
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Thank you,Twisted for helping in having Heath alive in our minds and hearts... :ghug: :\'(
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Found this somewhere and thought I should post.....I personally think it's beautiful and devastating at the same time.
Death is nothing at all
Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away
into the next room.
I am I,
and you are you;
whatever we were to each other,
that, we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name,
speak to me in the easy way
which you always used,
put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air
of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we shared together.
Let my name ever be
the household word that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect,
without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all
that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you,
for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just around the corner.
All is well.
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I made this little video about Heath, tears were falling when I made it... :\'(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=I3wXnmwwYrw
I so love "Spiritual" amazing guitar melody + beautiful Heath...sigh..
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I mentioned yesterday that Ryan Gosling talked about Heath on the red carpet. I thought it was very sweet. Here's the video if anyone cares to watch:
http://link.brightcove.com/services/player/bcpid1378342403?bclid=1326153012&bctid=1392526755
Thank you for the link! I like what he said and the way he did it.
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Hey guys,
This is the first day I have felt positive at all since this happened. But now I am ready to
take what Heath has given me and go out into the world with it. I want to be a better person and a more
courageous artist. He has given so much and I want to spin that into something positive. I feel it now.
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I haven't been able to watch any of those certainly beautiful tribute videos that people have made for Heath, at the moment they are just too much for me to bear. But tonight I watched Daniel Day-Lewis's tribute for Heath in SAG and yes indeed those were beautiful words! I have always admired DDL, now I just admire him even more and I thank him for that beautiful gesture of dedicating the award for Heath.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute on YouTube - 10 minutes
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To download, please visit this post
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
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Thank you for this gorgeous video.
I'm crying again... :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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Ethan, just watched the tribute vid and its just incredible. Thank you so much for putting it together..have no words to describe it. Tears streaming down my face the whole time. :\'(
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Thank you all for the forums dedicated to Heath, allowing us a place to bare our souls, and post our grief. including the beautiful memorials on his doorsteps in Soho and Brooklyn. Hope he is smiling down on all of this and knowing how much he was loved by so many.
Jack and Ennis FOREVER.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
it's beautiful Ethan x
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Ethan,thanks so,so much for this beautiful video that's what Heath deserves.The music united with the images-specially one of the last,in which he seems to be already in Heaven with an intense light-are make with the heart and the deep love we all have for Heath. <^( And thank you again for everything you've done in our name to homage him...Really,if we met this summer,I won't know what to do to correspond to all this affection and feeling; and I'm not speaking in terms of money,gifts or all this,but in terms of FEELINGS.I really won't know because everything is less for you. :ghug:
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"Some flowers bloom
only for a few days...everybody
admires and loves them
as a sign of spring and hope.
Then they die...
but they have done what
they needed to do!"
Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross |
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"Some flowers bloom
only for a few days...everybody
admires and loves them
as a sign of spring and hope.
Then they die...
but they have done what
they needed to do!"
Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross |
Wonderful,Irene¡ This flower has certainly died soon,but having done what it needed to do in the heart of thousands of gardeners¡
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Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
:\'( So beautiful, Ethan! :ghug:
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Ethan that was absolutely beautiful. I cried all over again. What piece of music was playing at the beginning?
And do you have way I can DL it (not that music but the BBm music that was played during the trailer. I have always wanted a copy of it. I have the music from the movie but not that piece)
:\'(
Heath I swear!
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Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Oh Ethan….You’ve just broke my heart. Thank you so much for this awesome treasure, utterly beautiful and sad. Oh my…..I can’t cry hard enough….. :\'( :\'( :\'(
And now what a so fine man DDL is!!! I was really stunned watching him so moved in Oprah show. He was all devastated, saying so sweet things about Heath. And then, today, I've watched his tribute on SAG awards and, oh Jesus, I was so touching, crying so much that I couldn't see DDL’s face on the screen. His words were so gorgeous, delicate, so true and precious. I was so overwhelmed and totally sad watching him almost crying, so hurting, struggling with his emotions. He was so in love with Heath's work and he was proud of that. He’s a real gentleman.
I wanted to kiss that wonderful man; I wanted to shout at him Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. He is brave, a very sensitive, honest and amazing human being, and a truly free spirit like Heath was. In fact I could see Heath when I was looking at DDL, the feeling so intense and breathtaking. I cry every time I think about it. I'll treasure DDL words in my heart for the rest of my live. I think I owe him some huge thing for this marvellous gift he gave us. He, like all of us, didn't know Heath, and still he loved him like we all do; so I was a real wreck hearing his broken voice and thinking about we all are not the only crazy brokies, 'cause the impressive genius DDL was a real brokie too: In “Brokeback Mountain,” he was unique, he was perfect. And that scene in the trailer at the end of the film is as moving as anything that I think I’ve ever seen. That was extremely heartbreaking. :\'( :\'( :\'(
What a generous soul. I’m beyond touched. I only can think about all the marvellous things that Heath could have done if he were still alive, like meet DDL. I bet they had been great friends....
Eating, sleeping, working, talking and walking, just LIVING, seems to me like a so impossible thing to do these days. Sometimes I try to make things right, I try to work hard and to take care of my family; and when I think that I’m doing it almost OK, then suddenly Heath’s face just hit my thoughts hard, and I feel my heart punched and as if I’m going to vomit, and then once again… goodbye to work, to take care of the ones I love, to eat or to act like a normal person; just goodbye to be a simply human being and not a ghost with huge purple bags under the eyes.
I’m doing everything wrong…with my family and friends (my Babe, I’m so sorry....so sorry…), but I just don’t know what to do but cry. I’m really fighting against this pain with all my strength (any strength was left after Heath’s death?) but everyday I feel more weak and confused, and the sadness seems hugger and Heath’s eyes sweeter. **sigh** I need to breathe. I’m looking for a reason for this bitterness deep inside of me, trying to find a way out of this dark labyrinth that I am. How can I be so shattered? That scares the hell out of me. :-\\ :-\\
I just want an answer, and a solution to cure this illness: To be in love with those dreams that Heath made me dream, with the true love that Heath brought into my life through Ennis Del Mar and I didn’t know that it could exist.
Just give me a f**ing reason and I’ll try to believe that I have to be happy again one day.
Oh my sweet Baby, I can’t believe you’re gone. Damn. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:t)thankyou all for your beautiful videos. the videos are what brought me to this site...i found this site address on someones post under a BBM vid...now sadly im watchin tribute vids to Heath..who'd have thought. :\'( Like my painting i started doing a few days before he died, thats now dedicated to him.... :\'( ^f^ i still cannot believe hes gone....it just doesnt sem real. :\'(
Can i also say though im very impressed by everyones deep thoughts and poems and pictures and lyrics they have posted on here since he passed away....you are all such inspiring people and loving and im proud to have found you all and be a part of this site x x x x x x %) :ghug: <^(
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Oh god...Ethan...that video...
I hadn't cried...not really...until now
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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"Some flowers bloom
only for a few days...everybody
admires and loves them
as a sign of spring and hope.
Then they die...
but they have done what
they needed to do!"
Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross |
OMG, this is shier perfection!!!! I simply love it! Thank you very much for posting it!
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ethan, that was simply wonderful!
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Ethan my friend, that was a wonderful tribute. So beautifuuly made and sais everything that we all feel, Thank you, thank you, thank you.
:^^) %)
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Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
It's a wonderful, touching tribute. Beautiful.
While you you were uploading that and I was away from the forum, I made another short tribute video, using quotes - not from members as you did - but from Heath's peers:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCbChNdl-ZU
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"Isn't Life Strange" ... by The Moody Blues
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Isn't life strange
A turn of the page
Can read like before
Can we ask for more?
Each day passes by
How hard man will try?
The sea will not wait
You know it makes me want to cry, cry, cry -
Wished I could be in your heart
To be one with your love
Wished I could be in your eyes
Looking back there you were, and here we are.
Isn't love strange
A word we arrange
With no thought or care
Maker of despair
Each breath that we breathe
With love we must weave
To make us as one
You know it makes me want to cry, cry, cry -
Wished I could be in your heart
To be one with your love
Wished I could be in your eyes
Looking back there you were, and here we are.
Isn't life strange
A turn of the page
A book without light
Unless with love we write;
To throw it away
To lose just a day
The quicksand of time
You know it makes me want to cry, cry, cry -
Wished I could be in your heart
To be one with your love
Wished I could be in your eyes
Looking back there you were:
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Oh Ethan….You’ve just broke my heart. Thank you so much for this awesome treasure, utterly beautiful and sad. Oh my…..I can’t cry hard enough….. :\'( :\'( :\'(
And now what a so fine man DDL is!!! I was really stunned watching him so moved in Oprah show. He was all devastated, saying so sweet things about Heath. And then, today, I've watched his tribute on SAG awards and, oh Jesus, I was so touching, crying so much that I couldn't see DDL’s face on the screen. His words were so gorgeous, delicate, so true and precious. I was so overwhelmed and totally sad watching him almost crying, so hurting, struggling with his emotions. He was so in love with Heath's work and he was proud of that. He’s a real gentleman.
I wanted to kiss that wonderful man; I wanted to shout at him Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. He is brave, a very sensitive, honest and amazing human being, and a truly free spirit like Heath was. In fact I could see Heath when I was looking at DDL, the feeling so intense and breathtaking. I cry every time I think about it. I'll treasure DDL words in my heart for the rest of my live. I think I owe him some huge thing for this marvellous gift he gave us. He, like all of us, didn't know Heath, and still he loved him like we all do; so I was a real wreck hearing his broken voice and thinking about we all are not the only crazy brokies, 'cause the impressive genius DDL was a real brokie too: In “Brokeback Mountain,” he was unique, he was perfect. And that scene in the trailer at the end of the film is as moving as anything that I think I’ve ever seen. That was extremely heartbreaking. :\'( :\'( :\'(
What a generous soul. I’m beyond touched. I only can think about all the marvellous things that Heath could have done if he were still alive, like meet DDL. I bet they had been great friends....
Baby Tammy, I couldn't agree more with what you have said.
Ethan, thank you for the beautiful and heartbreaking video. You reduced me to tears again. :\'( :\'( :\'(
What Daniel Day Lewis said about Heath was so incredibly moving. It means so much coming from such as great person and a great actor.
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To everyone, more :ghug: :ghug:
These videos and all the wonderful words and pictures you've posted have made me feel like we're all sitting together in a big circle, sharing pieces of ourselves. It sure is nice not to feel alone at this time. Thank you friends. :^^)
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I'm too broken to express myself, but those videos are amazing, beautiful. Thank you all for them.
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I think that was expressed very nicely believer. ^f^
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I think this may make me insane, but everytime I am feeling ok, normal, not devastated, I watch tribute videos and read tribute articles to remind me that it's not ok and I should be devastated. I don't want to just get on with it. I want to remember him. I want my heart to ache for him even though it is killing me. Am I nuts? Is anyone else feeling this or is everyone else so devastated that they do not have these moments where they feel ok?
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You just spoke for me hon' :ghug:
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Hmm, I hadn't really thought about it like that, but I suppose what I'm doing is fairly similar. I've been watching tribute videos too(although I've found I'm very picky about which ones - I watch the same group over and over ::) ). And I know that I'm still very much in the denial stage in my heart, even though my head knows it's true. So maybe it amounts to the same thing. Either way, I don't think we're crazy, just mourning and processing at our own pace. We'll all recover when we're ready to and not a moment sooner. :ghug:
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
My God, that was just incredible. Terrific job, ethan. :^^)
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Ravenus made this....tribute to Heath.
tissues will be needed.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ts2a26g5XkI
Remember - Josh Groban
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
Just remember me
I am the one star that keeps burning, so brightly,
It is the last light, to fade into the rising sun
I'm with you
Whenever you tell, my story
For I am all I've done
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me, in your memory
Remember me
I am that one voice in the cold wind, that whispers
And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky
As long as I still can reach out, and touch you
Then I will never die
Remember, I'll never leave you
If you will only
Remember me
(Remember me...)
Remember, I will still be here
As long as you hold me
In your memory
Remember, when your dreams have ended
Time can be transcended
I live forever
Remember me
Remember me
Remember... me...
OMG, that was just incredible! "Time can be transcended/I live forever" - indeed you shall, Mr. Ledger.
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Reaching you somehow.........
You are the sunlight coming from my window...
it will be you
embracing me.....
I Let you be the thunder
to hear your heartbeat
zest to life
I let you be the coal
the undying ember
to give me warmth
of those cold lonely nights
I let you be the stars
to cluster in the sky
write the words
and make it shine
I let you be all these
to be with me
all of my life.....
.................Somehow I can reach you, my sweet Heath.
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Hey guys,
This is the first day I have felt positive at all since this happened. But now I am ready to
take what Heath has given me and go out into the world with it. I want to be a better person and a more
courageous artist. He has given so much and I want to spin that into something positive. I feel it now.
:ghug: I'm glad you're feeling better. And I think it's a wonderful tribute to Heath to try to do something positive. :^^)
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Ethan, that vid you made, omg, so so beautiful. Thank you for makin it. I'm in tears. :\'( :\'(
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The forum video tribute is a beautifully crafted gift---gratitude, grace, humility, tenderness and even joy. Heath would be proud. Thanks Ethan.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Ethan, thank you so much for this. I don't know how you managed to put that all together- I almost had to turn it off. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I just watched the tribute video. Thank you Ethan, thank you so much. I can't say anything more.
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Ravenus made this....tribute to Heath.
tissues will be needed.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ts2a26g5XkI
Remember - Josh Groban
That was beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I think I've had enough for tonight.
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That was beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I think I've had enough for tonight.
Ditto that LJN. Thanks for letting me be here tonight with you all. %)
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That was beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I think I've had enough for tonight.
Thank you very much Ravenus for the tribute for our dearest Heath Ledger.
Heath Ledger is " The Actor for all Seasons"
Heath Ledger has so much love in his heart. full of compassion.
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Just saw you guys' you-tube tribute. Wow. It's beautiful, couldn't be better. Thanks, guys.
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Just saw you guys' you-tube tribute. Wow. It's beautiful, couldn't be better. Thanks, guys.
Thanks to Ethan :ghug: <^(
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Ethan, what a beautiful, wonderful video tribute. Thank you so much.
Del_Marvelous
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Thank you so much, Ethan.
A very moving, heartfelt tribute. You really spoke for all of us
:-*
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Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Oh Ethan......I'm speechless.....it's so painful beautiful.......thank you! :ghug:
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Great video!!.. I'm a mess now :\'(
Orangetruck...you've opened up the floodgates again, my tears. But I also would not have missed the dance, pain or no. This is an incredible video -- a perfect song both for Ennis and Jack, and for us and Heath. And you made it beautifully. Thank you.
kathy
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Well, it finally happened. I am past the first two stages of grief, and arrived at anger.
I am angry at the Guy Finley's of the world who are malicious and hateful.
I am angry at the John Gibson's of the world who are inconsiderate, ill-mannered, and ignorant.
I am angry at the hateful self-righteous people of the world who believe their beliefs are more important that the dignity and compassion of other people.
What is the nature of evil?
If the root of wisdom is, as Heath Andrew Ledger said, to know and love one other human being, then the opposite of that, the root of evil, must be the lack of knowledge and the lack of love for any other human being.
In other words, the nature of evil is the self-centered, selfish, self-righteous, self-important, self-absorbed culture that has taken root in so many places, from Hollywood to so called religions.
What possesses Guy Finlay to be so vindictive and hateful? He must think his own life and happiness are more important than Heath's, to cause the man we love so much pain.
What possesses John Gibson to say such vile things on public air waves? He must believe his own ratings, his own right to free speech is more important than the pain and unimaginable grief that his lies would cause others.
What possesses these self-righteous idiots to think they can gather around ANYONE's funeral and inflict such horror at the survivors of heroes and greatness? They must believe their own vision of the world to be superior to anyone else's.
The root of all evil is the lack of knowledge and love for others. These people do things, say things, indeed, live all their lives with only one goal in mind, how to satisfy their own ego.
My grief is still immense, the pain will probably never go away, but now at least, I can feel something other than sadness, other than loss. I can feel angry, like Ennis at the two jerks at the Fourth of July.
One compensation out of all this mess, is to see the magnitude of love and gratitude for a gift so magnificent, a life so brilliant. If love can triumph over evil, then surely, this love from Heath, for his work, for life, will triumph over all.
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Ethan,
That was just beautiful! Cry my eyes out.
Can this be downloaded onto an Ipod? I want to show this beautiful tribute to my co-workers.
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ethan, that was wonderful, thank you so much for it. ^f^
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Ethan,
That was just beautiful! Cry my eyes out.
Can this be downloaded onto an Ipod? I want to show this beautiful tribute to my co-workers.
What a lovely thought! roryennis! I would love to have it on mine forever! Hint hint fearless leader. :) But, no pressure. ::) Just a whole lot of <^(
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Ravenus made this....tribute to Heath.
tissues will be needed.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ts2a26g5XkI
Remember - Josh Groban
Ravenus, thank you very much for all the videos you have ever done as tributes to BBM.
It is a real pleasure to watch them. I always need some tissues to get through, they are very heartbreaking and speak always directly to my heart. Thank you.
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Today I took myself off to the city with a friend, try to distance myself from the media, forum etc, it didn't work because you walk past newsagents with Heaths face beaming out from the magazines and posters, walk into bookstores, video and music stores and they have all Heaths videos etc on huge displays.
I have not made a tribute video, mainly because I don't have time but will give a couple of links.
The last happy/loving video I made, hope this helps you all. :ghug:
Fortune and Love
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=YGpRduW-04c
The most difficult one I have made, emotionally draining - I Cry
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=U4kuidVeUS8&feature=user
This was and is also very emotional - I think this expresses how we are all feeling right now.
A Song For You
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=jDhNguwzHW0&feature=user
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My candle for Heat :\'( :ghug:
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I was out earlier this evening, and upon coming home, a DJ on the radio station I was listening to, said a few words about Heath, and his passing on. That he was a brilliant actor, but also, a humanitarian. He was a member of "Sea Shepherd Conservation Society", who work towards trying to protect all sealife, especially the whales which are currently being slaughtered by the Japanese for so called, "Scientific Research". http://www.seashepherd.org/ (http://www.seashepherd.org/).
After this, a song was dedicated to Heath..which is this one :)
True Blue by John Williamson
Hey True Blue, don't say you've gone
Say you've knocked off for a smoko
And you'll be back later on
Hey True Blue, Hey True Blue
Give it to me straight, face to face
Are you really disappearing
Just another dying race
Hey True Blue
True Blue, is it me and you
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo
Is it standin' by your mate when he's in a fight
Or just Vegemite
True Blue, I'm asking you
Hey True Blue, can you bear the load
Will you tie it up with wire
Just to keep the show on the road
Hey True Blue
Hey True Blue, now be Fair Dinkum
Is your heart still there
If they sell us out like sponge cake
Do you really care
Hey True Blue
True Blue, is it me and you
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo
Is it standin' by your mate when she's in a fight
Or just Vegemite
True Blue, I'm a-asking you...
True Blue, is it me and you
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo
Is it standin' by your mate when he's in a fight
Or just Vegemite
True Blue, True Blue
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True Blue by John Williamson
Hey True Blue, don't say you've gone
Say you've knocked off for a smoko
And you'll be back later on
Carefree wind, thank you for that story. Still so many amazing things to say about Heath, and its nice to hear them. Love these few lines from the song, they shout Heath to me. :)
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HOMMAGE À HEATH...
Il était Bon, il était Beau, il Sentait Bon l'Amour et la Tendresse, Notre HEATH LEDGER !...
Je l'ai connu sur la " BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN ", ce Bel ENNIS, tel une Star Filante au milieu d'une Comète...
Qu'il Repose en Paix, maintenant, tel une Étoile Brillante et Scintillante au Firmament de la Galaxie...
HEATH / ENNIS, Aide-Nous à Parcourir les " BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN " de l'Amour, et Trace les Pistes qui Nous permettront de Te Rejoindre !
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Hommage sur le flanc de BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN
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<^( #) :^^)
HOMAGE TO HEATH...
It was Good, it was Beautiful, it Smelled Good the Love and Tenderness, our HEATH LEDGER !...
I known it on the " BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN ", this Beautiful ENNIS, a such Star Slipping by in the medium of a Comet...
That it Rests in Peace, now, a such Star Brilliant and Scintillating with the Firmament of the Galaxy...
HEATH/ENNIS, Assistance Us to Traverse the " BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN " of the Love, and Traces the Tracks which will enable Us to Join You !
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I was out earlier this evening, and upon coming home, a DJ on the radio station I was listening to, said a few words about Heath, and his passing on. That he was a brilliant actor, but also, a humanitarian. He was a member of "Sea Shepherd Conservation Society", who work towards trying to protect all sealife, especially the whales which are currently being slaughtered by the Japanese for so called, "Scientific Research". http://www.seashepherd.org/ (http://www.seashepherd.org/).
After this, a song was dedicated to Heath..which is this one :)
True Blue by John Williamson
Do you remember John Williamson sung that at Steve Irwin's memorial, I am pleased they chose this one for Heath.
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I most certainly do Asali :) It is something that cannot be easily forgotten. A most fitting song, for both Steve and Heath. Two great Australians taken well before their time and both equally deserving of the high accolades which they have received.
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I most certainly do Asali :) It is something that cannot be easily forgotten. A most fitting song, for both Steve and Heath. Two great Australians taken well before their time and both equally deserving of the high accolades which they have received.
Indeed. I was gutted when I heard the news about Steve Irwin too - he was an incredible person.
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Time keeps passing by, and sometimes, you kind of wish it would stop. But the world keeps going along and pays no mind to anybody's loss
or grief.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
I can't speak for crying, and I can feel the river of your tears, ...but Thank You Ethan. That was truly Beautiful.
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Tony, I know just what you mean. :ghug: Especially about coming to terms with the fact that all of us recover and heal at our own pace. I'm actually glad for the people who are already starting to heal and get back into the business of their regular lives, I'm just not ready to do that yet myself. And of course the anger, which is a natural part of the process too. I have found that I'm not following the order on so many of those lists of the stages of grief - I'm borrowing liberally from many of them. I guess I'll get to the bottom of the list, with acceptance and healing, eventually. I'll just have to get there in my own time. I'm glad you understand that too. :ghug:
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To everyone, more :ghug: :ghug:
These videos and all the wonderful words and pictures you've posted have made me feel like we're all sitting together in a big circle, sharing pieces of ourselves. It sure is nice not to feel alone at this time. Thank you friends. :^^)
Thank you FC I feel the same way. I was alone when my parents died. No one around to console me. But now I feel very happy to be here to lean on everyone.
thank you friends from me
Linda
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Thanks, FlowerChild. I do want to explain my post above, a little more. There is, in this life we are given, the rational, the emotional, the spiritual,
and the metaphysical. We know the first two well enough. It's the last two where we can never really know, just yet, what is true and what isn't,
and yet anyone who says those last two are not basic parts of our existence, are in denial. There's something there-we just don't know what.
So to my basic belief, that all four are mixed together in the loss of Heath. It is true, he wanted his privacy. But please remember, I spotted
those terrible photos from London and freaked out, and now we know he had the flu, and a terrible sleep disorder. And so my basic belief is that,
towards the end, there was a conflict in that he finally was reaching out, signalling that things were not right, and yet didn't know exactly how
to do this, because, above all else, he was one who wanted happiness in others. I think then, he would be OK with those who move on and heal
up, because he would want that for them, but, because of the duality of his nature, he would also want some to walk with him in those hurts,
through those lonely nights in N. Y. He would want both. So we are all just fine as to how we respond, but should respect there was something
in him that needed both responses. Let's do that. Let's give him both, as we are, ourselves, made, and respect each others ways as fulfilling
that dual need he had.
Finally, on the metaphysical, who is to say they know exactly what this life is and what is on the other side, if anything? It is not impossible
people were meant to cross paths, for there could be a limited, extended family on the other side. You can't prove there is, or that there isn't.
But, please note, Heath set out on a journey when he was very young, perhaps to find himself, maybe to find even more love, for he was a gentle,
loving man, free from malice or spite (so very rare). No one can rule out that he needed more, and that more, was us.
Don't ever rule it out--we really were family. And therefore, the hell with the rational, that we never met. Yes.....we did.
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Beautiful pictures JAKELANDIA. :)
Tony, your response blew me away. And not just because it's beautifully expressed, which it is, but because LJN and I were just exchanging e-mails touching on the same theme. Isn't it something that our hearts are looking to the same place at this time? ^f^
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JAKELANDIA,it´s as wonderful as Heath deserves, and as wonderful as he was... :ghug:
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Tony - I feel EXACTLY the same way you do. I'm annoyed that there isn't anymore news about him. As if, he's forgotten.
Even my DH got me angry. He told me I was obsessing...he said soon "no one will remember him. He'll just be a name." That got me really upset. I WOULD remember him. I knew what he was trying to say - life goes on, he will just be a story to future generations but that just stung. Heath got cheated out of a lot I think. I'm mad about that. And because I don't know any answers.......I'm mad . I'm mad at the unfairness of this. I'm mad at the lady who found him and didn't call 911 right away. I'm mad he took so many kinds of meds, I'm mad he didn't have more rest. I'm mad he didn't spend the holidays with his daughter or any other day lately. And the list goes on. I know this is part of the process but still......you know.
So that along with my sorrow for him and his family is not a nice combo to be feeling.
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So that along with my sorrow for him and his family is not a nice combo to be feeling.
I hear you... :ghug:
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Thank you all for your wonderful comments. You all have made it possible and thank you for your heartfelt messages. I wish I can be by you, give you hugs and shed tears for our sorrow and respect. :ghug: :ghug:
Really,if we met this summer,I won't know what to do to correspond to all this affection and feeling; and I'm not speaking in terms of money,gifts or all this,but in terms of FEELINGS.I really won't know because everything is less for you. :ghug:
myprivatejack, the best gift would be just the pleasure of meeting you. :ghug:
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But, please note, Heath set out on a journey when he was very young, perhaps to find himself, maybe to find even more love, for he was a gentle,
loving man, free from malice or spite (so very rare). No one can rule out that he needed more, and that more, was us.
Don't ever rule it out--we really were family. And therefore, the hell with the rational, that we never met. Yes.....we did.
You amazes me Tony. What you've written is utterly beautiful and moving. You got me in tears, friend. I know so well your pain, 'cause it's mine too. You was not a fan, Heath was not a movie star. Both were just friends. I remember that post you wrote, saying that you was a little bit disappointed 'cause Heath seemed to act like a super star sometimes and you didn't like that.....You've always thought that he was a humble, loving, fine man, so that Heath's behavior made you sad.
But now, friend, in these terrible days of bitterness you just found out that your friend Heath was even more gentle, tender, sweet and free spirit than you've ever thought before. And I know what kind of wound is in your heart now, knowing not only that you lost a friend, but a sensitive, honest and amazing human being that you hadn't opportunity to know him better. And now that you know more about him.....he's just gone. That's life Tony; you, Ennis, like all of us finding the most precious treasures in the ones we love just when they are gone. So sad.....but I want to believe that some reason has to be there....I don't know...I only want to believe.
I know Heath and you would have been great friends. No. I bet Heath and you were great friends.
Love you Tony. I think of you everyday. We're on the same road. You missing a friend, me missing those dreams. Just Brokies.
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Heath Ledger the man is gone, not to return. Heath Ledger’s soul lives on in the thousands, nay millions, of souls whose lives he transformed and will yet transform in ways immeasurable.
His work here was done, and by whatever providence controls such events, his talent was needed elsewhere to continue his work and practice his craft.
Like the miracle of Ennis meeting Jack, we should rejoice, not in the fact that he is gone, but in the fact that he came here at all, at this time, in this place, during our lives, to complete the work he so masterfully achieved.
G'bye Mate. You Changed Everything.
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FANTASTIC POST ... and such a grief-filled photo. Who knew then when it was taken that it'd be seen as it is today?
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My candle for Heat :\'( :ghug:
Thank you, Audrey twist. It is beautiful.
Baby Tammy, what a wonderful thought. Thanks!
We are in grief because we have lost one dear friend who has brought us so much. It doesn't matter how and why because he isn't going anywhere but in our hearts. :ghug: :ghug:
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Tony - I feel EXACTLY the same way you do. I'm annoyed that there isn't anymore news about him. As if, he's forgotten.
Even my DH got me angry. He told me I was obsessing...he said soon "no one will remember him. He'll just be a name." That got me really upset. I WOULD remember him. I knew what he was trying to say - life goes on, he will just be a story to future generations but that just stung. Heath got cheated out of a lot I think. I'm mad about that. And because I don't know any answers.......I'm mad . I'm mad at the unfairness of this. I'm mad at the lady who found him and didn't call 911 right away. I'm mad he took so many kinds of meds, I'm mad he didn't have more rest. I'm mad he didn't spend the holidays with his daughter or any other day lately. And the list goes on. I know this is part of the process but still......you know.
So that along with my sorrow for him and his family is not a nice combo to be feeling.
That's so wrong..... :\'( :\'(
I'll remember him 'cause he's not just a name and he never will. I watched BBM two years ago and still there's no week that I don't cry for Jack Twist, and there's no day that I don't feel miserable for Ennis being alone and sad. If, after two years, I keep aching for two fiction characters, how am I supposed to forget Heath who was a real person? How is a so sweet, loving, wonderful, honest, amazing fine man supposed to be just a name? NO WAY!!! One thing is to try to recover and go on, and other stupid thing is to say that no one will remember him. Just listen to me: He was, he is the reason I had to keep dreaming; he embodies my little tiny world I had to fight for. So there's no way I can forget one of my reasons to believe, to believe in human beings and love; just TO BELIEVE!!!
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I don't know if this is the right place for this ...
I've been considering why it is that the death of an actor has affect US so much ... for me I know exactly, and maybe some of you feel the same. It's because when Ennis learns that Jack is dead, a part of him died too. We didn't want that for him. We all fell in love with Ennis (ok, I fell in love with Ennis), and we wanted him to be happy. He knew what love was; he asked Alma, jr, if Kurt really loved her. Check the look in Ledger's ... I mean Ennis' ... eyes when he asks that. It's chilling.
In my crazy wild imagination, I wanted Ennis to find the right man to settle down with, move away from there, and have a wonderful, free, honest, happy life.
And now that dream is gone. The man who brought Ennis del Mar to life is gone. With Heath Ledger's death, Ennis died too.
I know, Ennis will always be alive in our hearts. And believe me, the thought of catching Ennis del Mar in his white pick-up truck has made my blood race more than once!
I think it's the enormous sense of loss not only at the death of this young promising actor with a HUGE career ahead of him, but the fact that, at least on film, and as a story told out loud, the final chapter has been written.
It makes me sad. And every time I think of this deep sadness, I hear those lonely guitar tones.
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Dear Ethan- Your saying "he isn't going anywhere but in our hearts" is what will heal us all, in this forum, no matter what approach we have to
grieving, for that statement unites us in our differing beliefs and where to go from here. It covers the territory - leaving room for each of us.
BabyTammy- You got me to weeping again, for a minute. I have rarely wept in my life---but this last week I gave up on being strong, and
I have wept whenever I damn well felt like it. Another gift from Heath, then, the gift of freedom to let your own heart finally speak.
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Tony - I feel EXACTLY the same way you do. I'm annoyed that there isn't anymore news about him. As if, he's forgotten.
Even my DH got me angry. He told me I was obsessing...he said soon "no one will remember him. He'll just be a name." That got me really upset. I WOULD remember him. I knew what he was trying to say - life goes on, he will just be a story to future generations but that just stung. Heath got cheated out of a lot I think. I'm mad about that. And because I don't know any answers.......I'm mad . I'm mad at the unfairness of this. I'm mad at the lady who found him and didn't call 911 right away. I'm mad he took so many kinds of meds, I'm mad he didn't have more rest. I'm mad he didn't spend the holidays with his daughter or any other day lately. And the list goes on. I know this is part of the process but still......you know.
So that along with my sorrow for him and his family is not a nice combo to be feeling.
I think I understand where you are coming from, but I can't agree fully with your POV. Many of us will never forget Heath Ledger. He will not become just a name. He is the embodiment of a man, an excellent actor, an intrigueing individual, a daring and talented, creative artist. That's how I will remember him. No, I was not his friend. I have never met him. I am not a relative. I am a fan of his work and talent. But, my life was touched by him in every film of his I've seen. No one has taught me more -- about love (BBM), about our gay brothers and sisters and the difficulties they face in claiming their rightful place in society (BBM), about the life and emotions of an adict (Candy), about the dangers of extreme racial prejudice and its effect upon young people raised with it (Monster's Ball). I cherish each of these films, realizing how brave he had to be to make them.
I grieve for what will never be. We'll never get to see his directorial debut of a major film, or another coup d'grace such as his role in BBM.
As a man, I have great respect for him, including his foibles. He was a human being who has graced my life. I will miss him.
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im ubberly upset, havnt felt right for days now.
I am pretty sure I can not watch Brokeback Mountain anytime soon, but when I do, it will probably be th emost depressing 2 and a half hours of my life.
Huh...... wow, this is garbage...
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I'm sorry for all of my dumb posts ... I live in a FreakShow (Jacksonville, Florida), and this is the only sane place I know.
So, I was doing pretty well ... until I saw the Newsletter (fabulous, by the way). I scrolled down on my computer screen to all of the awards/nominations.
My eyes haven't been dry for at least 30 minutes ... my God, the Brokeback Mountain list ....
I'm sorry, fellow Brokies, but the Academy REALLY GOT IT WRONG in 2005/6 ... There is no WAY Heath Ledger should't have gotten Best Actor for his life-changing role. I swear.
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Just for clarity please....it was NOT me who said "He'll just be a name..." It was my husband saying that to me in seeing how upset I have been this past week. He point was not to make Heath (his life, his work) seem pointless. I'm very sorry if my post insinuated that in any way. In fact my husband is probably one of the most optimistic, grounded person I have ever known. In the 20 years I've known him, I've never once heard him speak ill of someone.
But he is confused why I am taking this so hard and can't understand why, in his eyes, I'm reacting so hard and having a hard time dealing with this Now he also didn't see BBM or many of his other movies. I *think* what my DH is thinking is that ...while this story of this person is awful and tragic, life does move on. So don't dwell on it and move on. - Of course, his delivery was a bit harsh and not quite right in my eyes. But this is also coming from the man who, when I had a miscarriage - told me to relax, move on and life will take care of itself....He's a little guarded in his emotions and delivery I guess but the heart is always there...
Anyway it did get me upset to hear that comment about Heath b.c to me, I DON'T agree. I try to understand what he means but it feels a little personal to me since Heath;s performance in BBM moved something in me and I've been different ever since (what a testament to Heath let me tell you!). I'm not explaining it well but maybe you guys just understand.
So again - my apologies for any confusion. I just had to let it out somewhere how upset I am and clearly my husband is not the person to do that with.
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:ghug: Masetane. It's hard for those not invested in this to understand such strong reaction and that is why I'm glad we've always had this place. We all understand and even though we'll all move on at our own paces, we all have this place to mourn freely.
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Just for clarity please....it was NOT me who said "He'll just be a name..." It was my husband saying that to me in seeing how upset I have been this past week. He point was not to make Heath (his life, his work) seem pointless. I'm very sorry if my post insinuated that in any way. In fact my husband is probably one of the most optimistic, grounded person I have ever known. In the 20 years I've known him, I've never once heard him speak ill of someone.
But he is confused why I am taking this so hard and can't understand why, in his eyes, I'm reacting so hard and having a hard time dealing with this Now he also didn't see BBM or many of his other movies. I *think* what my DH is thinking is that ...while this story of this person is awful and tragic, life does move on. So don't dwell on it and move on. - Of course, his delivery was a bit harsh and not quite right in my eyes. But this is also coming from the man who, when I had a miscarriage - told me to relax, move on and life will take care of itself....He's a little guarded in his emotions and delivery I guess but the heart is always there...
Anyway it did get me upset to hear that comment about Heath b.c to me, I DON'T agree. I try to understand what he means but it feels a little personal to me since Heath;s performance in BBM moved something in me and I've been different ever since (what a testament to Heath let me tell you!). I'm not explaining it well but maybe you guys just understand.
So again - my apologies for any confusion. I just had to let it out somewhere how upset I am and clearly my husband is not the person to do that with.
We do understand, and I think it was the same for a lot of us. What Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal did was more than just strap on a role for a few hours worth of screen time. They brought to life two characters so engaging, in a story so compelling, that for some, our lives were literally changed. Something dormant was reawakened, or new ideas were better understood, for some closed minds were opened. Whatever the personal experience, for those of us affected, of course Heath's death would hit on a personal level. And for those who were not so personally affected, it's hard to understand why we feel the way we do. Like LuvJackNasty, I'm very glad to have this place, and you friends, to share these feelings with. :)
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Yes, I think that's it. I just re-read my post and it's not coming out right what I want to say. Now I'm feeling badly that I've painted my husband badly b.c he's so sweet really. He just doesn't understand. And while it's a tragic, sad story to him.....he's moved on and it doesn't stick like a sword in his heart like me. :\'(
So thanks for letting me vent, share odd feelings b.c I don't know where else to go with it....
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You didn't paint him in a bad light. :ghug: And that is what we are here for.
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Hi Brokies...
This forum, this board has seemed to became my new home. A place where I can let out any feelings or thoughts I am thinking, everyday, helping me grieve the death of our beloved Heath.
But today, I cannot believe, is a week later. A week since Heath's death, has it gone that quickly? I feel that he's died only yesterday. Around 4pm today, coming home from school, I said the Lords prayer and sent a kiss up to Heaven.
Monday night, seeing the Memorial video..I didn't expect Heath to be there, in the last moment, the screen when black and then, Heath's picture came up, I started to shake, I couldn't believe it...then, when DDL dedicated his speech to Heath. It made me smile but sadden me at the same time. I thank and respect DDL for his dedication, not many would take over a minute to pay tribute to an actor he'd never truly met. I have seen DDL in "My Left Foot" and I was amazed, I had no idea it was him. I am now certainly interested more in the acting he has done over the years.
Besides all this, I've been doing good, at times, just thinking about Heath, hoping that he's doing good up there. I'm sick of the tabloids that I see in the stores..and when my mom watches "TMZ" or "The Insider" how many fingers they are pointing on him, for being something I know in my heart, is not him. He was a good man, a good father...why now, would they dicuss all of the things he has done wrong? Let it be, let it be.
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Lis
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:ghug: all.
Nicely said Lis. And I'm glad we can come here too. ^f^
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Hi Brokies...
how many fingers they are pointing on him, for being something I know in my heart, is not him. He was a good man, a good father...why now, would they dicuss all of the things he has done wrong? Let it be, let it be.
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Lis
:ghug: Lis. I said a little prayer at 3:40- I wasn't at my desk right before that. Then at 4:43 pm I had a moment of silence and sent up another prayer. That was when I got the call last week. :\'( I'm glad we don't allow gossip here because I can't stand it. It makes me ill that some of these "news" stations/publications are only trying to make a buck off of someone else's grief by sensationalizing every little thing. I know, it happens everyday. Me, personally, I'm not curious about Jake's reaction or Michelle's reaction etc because quite simply it's not my business- they are private feelings by fellow human beings and I am in no way entitled to them and besides I think it's a safe bet how they are feeling and I don't need some newsperson telling me so. But that's me and what works for me doesn't work for someone else. You're right: Let be, let be. Let him rest in peace. :\'( I didn't see the in memorium clip but I saw DDL's speech and it made me cry- so genuine, so from the heart.
I am glad you are doing okay :ghug:
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I too find it very admirable of DDL to dedicate an award to someone he didn't know either. Very classy.
Now I don't know too much about DDL but there seems something very genuine about him and seemed to have some sort of work/aritistry similarities as Heath perhaps. I think DDL was right, they probably would have been good friends...
I was really stunned with Entertainment Tonight and Insider - tonight in particular. I always thought they were a little classier than the other entertainment programs. With their episodes tonight (and other presentations they did aside from Heath) - I found them to be very appalling, rude and even a bit silly. I noticed it started to go downhill with the Anna Nicole stories. But gee, when fans, an industry, A FAMILY is clearly grieving over the shock...why do they have to post such awful hearsay stories???? This whole celebrity thing has gotten out of hand and it truly saddens me that Heath is among it.
Anyway, it left me very disheartened and not sure I'd like to watch that program anymore. I feel I am above that and so was Heath!! I too am not interested in people's "reactions". I was glad to read statements from the family - those were lovely. Nothing else is really my business either.
On a side note, sigh.... they said Heath's father was here in NY today and sighted near the condo. That brought some comfort to me. I had wondered who was going to go and get Heath's things since his family was far away. I was worried it would land in crazy people's hands. And, I'm sure there are lots of things that Matilda would like to have one day. When my father died, I walked all around his room and office looking at all his things. It was nice so I was hoping for that for Heath's family. AGain, another odd thought of mine....
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Nothing odd about that. I hope his family is doing ok too. I don't watch any of those entertainment shows. I think they've all become tabloid oriented. Of course, so has so much of the news in general. I remember when there was a better distinction between "news" and "entertainment". Meanwhile, it's enough for me to remember him and be able to share my feelings about him here with all of you. :)
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Hey guys,
This is the first day I have felt positive at all since this happened. But now I am ready to
take what Heath has given me and go out into the world with it. I want to be a better person and a more
courageous artist. He has given so much and I want to spin that into something positive. I feel it now.
This is so beatiful, toadily! I felt that way when my sister died, many years ago -- that I had to carry on for her, take her wonderful quirks and keep putting them out in the world. If we can be even a fraction of what Heath was, and express it in the world, then we honor him...
I am excited for your excitement! I can't say I exactly feel the same, but I'll tell you, I'm not sweating the small stuff much if at all, the past week. It is time to be our bests, whatever that may be.
kathy
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10 days left!!!
Planning for the Denver remembrance celebration is in full swing! Registration is OPEN; please fill that out even if you are just still thinking of attending. We need you! Call me if you have questions you need answered; 307-840-1020.
Here is the official list of attendees as of January 29, 2008! This list is a combination of Internet forum members and other attendees.
Blue = Travel booked; attendance 100%!
Green = Attendance 100% or very likely
Yellow = Attendance desired but still uncertain
Red = Attendance unlikely
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The 15 'blue' and 'green' attendees above are coming from CA, CO, FL, KS, TX, VT and WY!
See you at the memorial service.
-Ennis
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Yes, I think that's it. I just re-read my post and it's not coming out right what I want to say. Now I'm feeling badly that I've painted my husband badly b.c he's so sweet really. He just doesn't understand. And while it's a tragic, sad story to him.....he's moved on and it doesn't stick like a sword in his heart like me. :\'(
So thanks for letting me vent, share odd feelings b.c I don't know where else to go with it....
Please don't apologize, masetane. I misread your post. I didn't know what DH stood for (DUH!) I understand that people not so invested in BBM do not feel the same way as those of us who are do. But, even if you DID feel that way, you are entitled to your opinion and have nothing to apologize for. That is one of the things that is so great about this forum. People are allowed to express their opinions, no matter what they are. And, others are allowed to agree or disagree as they see fit, but in a civilized, kind manner. So, I, in no way, intended to criticize your post, but wanted to explain why I will not forget Heath Ledger --- ever.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Oh god, Ethan. Thank you so much for this...though I watchd through tears.
Thank you, Heath, for giving us each other...
kathy
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It's a wonderful, touching tribute. Beautiful.
While you you were uploading that and I was away from the forum, I made another short tribute video, using quotes - not from members as you did - but from Heath's peers:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCbChNdl-ZU
This is so gorgeous, gambrinus. A beautiful thing to put together. Thank you. I love the end...
kathy
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Ethan that was absolutely beautiful. I cried all over again. What piece of music was playing at the beginning?
And do you have way I can DL it (not that music but the BBm music that was played during the trailer. I have always wanted a copy of it. I have the music from the movie but not that piece)
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Heath I swear!
Did you notice that during the "In Memoriam" segment of the SAG Awards, in the beginning of it, they were playing that same piece of music? It must be something common, or well-known. It wasn't made for BBM, but seems like something perhaps used before and will be used again, in trailers and the like? But anyway, I would like to know what it is also.
kathy
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I don't have the way many of you have with words, I mean in English
What I can't express with words, I try to do otherwise
I will always remember you little darlin'
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There's a new angel in Heaven, huh?
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This is one of my favourite songs "Man of the hour" a song made for the movie 'Big Fish' by Pearl Jam. I posted this some time ago for Jack, and never thought I'd make it for our Heath :\'( Please try to see this as something positive ^f^
Tidal waves don't beg forgiveness
crashed and on their way
as he enjoyed collisions; others walked away
...a snowflake falls in may.
And the doors are open now
as the bells are ringing out
Cause the man of the hour is taking
his final bow...goodbye for now.
And the sky breaks at dawn;
shedding light upon this town,
they'll all come ‘round
Cause the man of the hour is taking
his final bow...G'bye for now.
And the road this young man paved
The broken seems along the way
The rusted signs, left just for us
He was guiding me, love, his own way
Now the man of the hour is taking his final bow
As the curtain comes down
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Did you notice that during the "In Memoriam" segment of the SAG Awards, in the beginning of it, they were playing that same piece of music? It must be something common, or well-known. It wasn't made for BBM, but seems like something perhaps used before and will be used again, in trailers and the like? But anyway, I would like to know what it is also.
kathy
Kathy: That music from the BBM trailer is "End Title" from the movie Shawshank Redemption (a good watch) composed by Thomas Newman. It is availalble on iTunes. Ethan please correct me if wrong.
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very, very, beautiful Cham.
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Well, it finally happened. I am past the first two stages of grief, and arrived at anger.
If the root of wisdom is, as Heath Andrew Ledger said, to know and love one other human being, then the opposite of that, the root of evil, must be the lack of knowledge and the lack of love for any other human being.
In other words, the nature of evil is the self-centered, selfish, self-righteous, self-important, self-absorbed culture that has taken root in so many places, from Hollywood to so called religions.
What possesses Guy Finlay to be so vindictive and hateful? He must think his own life and happiness are more important than Heath's, to cause the man we love so much pain.
What possesses John Gibson to say such vile things on public air waves? He must believe his own ratings, his own right to free speech is more important than the pain and unimaginable grief that his lies would cause others.
What possesses these self-righteous idiots to think they can gather around ANYONE's funeral and inflict such horror at the survivors of heroes and greatness? They must believe their own vision of the world to be superior to anyone else's.
The root of all evil is the lack of knowledge and love for others. These people do things, say things, indeed, live all their lives with only one goal in mind, how to satisfy their own ego.
My grief is still immense, the pain will probably never go away, but now at least, I can feel something other than sadness, other than loss. I can feel angry, like Ennis at the two jerks at the Fourth of July.
One compensation out of all this mess, is to see the magnitude of love and gratitude for a gift so magnificent, a life so brilliant. If love can triumph over evil, then surely, this love from Heath, for his work, for life, will triumph over all.
I'm stunned Andrew.....Amazing post!!! You're so right friend. I love your words. I needed to express my anger and the only thing I could do was to cry; but you have put into words my feelings and now I can see I'm not the only one mad at world these days. I'm still mad, and so devastated and sad but now I'm OK with my own feelings and thoughts. Thank you so much.
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:ghug: to you both.
cham, thank you for sharing those pictures - you express yourself beautifully. ^f^
Ayashae, thank you for that poem. :^^)
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Just for clarity please....it was NOT me who said "He'll just be a name..." It was my husband saying that to me in seeing how upset I have been this past week. He point was not to make Heath (his life, his work) seem pointless. I'm very sorry if my post insinuated that in any way. In fact my husband is probably one of the most optimistic, grounded person I have ever known. In the 20 years I've known him, I've never once heard him speak ill of someone.
But he is confused why I am taking this so hard and can't understand why, in his eyes, I'm reacting so hard and having a hard time dealing with this Now he also didn't see BBM or many of his other movies. I *think* what my DH is thinking is that ...while this story of this person is awful and tragic, life does move on. So don't dwell on it and move on. - Of course, his delivery was a bit harsh and not quite right in my eyes. But this is also coming from the man who, when I had a miscarriage - told me to relax, move on and life will take care of itself....He's a little guarded in his emotions and delivery I guess but the heart is always there...
Anyway it did get me upset to hear that comment about Heath b.c to me, I DON'T agree. I try to understand what he means but it feels a little personal to me since Heath's performance in BBM moved something in me and I've been different ever since (what a testament to Heath let me tell you!). I'm not explaining it well but maybe you guys just understand.
So again - my apologies for any confusion. I just had to let it out somewhere how upset I am and clearly my husband is not the person to do that with.
Oh God I understand you so well... I had a hard talk with my sister yesterday. A part of why it was so hard for me was because she just really doesn't understand at all why I am so affected by the death of "an actor I didn't even know" (and I hate it when people say that to me) and she couldn't understand my fascination with him when he was alive either. I felt like she was looking down on me or criticising me for it, and I just couldn't find the words to explain to her what he means to me. I felt bad and hurt when she reffered to him as "a movie star" and kept reminding me that I didn't know him and he certainly didn't know me.
No, I didn't know Heath, but I think I fell in love with him nonetheless. I've never heard of him before I saw BBM, but from the moment I saw him he stole my heart. How can I explain to people what it's like when my heart goes out to a fictional character, when I can't get him out of my thoughts, when his tears at that last scene make my heart ache so badly and cause me to cry too? Heath did all that for me, he made me identify with Ennis completely and cry for his tragedy. He touched my heart so deeply that I felt like Ennis had become a part of me. And at first, Heath was Ennis to me - I didn't even want to see him in other movies because I couldn't see him as anyone else but Ennis. He owned my heart as Ennis, not as Heath.
But after I've seen him in more movies, read articles about him and interviews with him, I became more and more aware of the amazing person that he was. So deep, so intelligent, so mature, so talented, such a unique human being with such a beautiful soul. And I was so greatful that such a man was chosen to portray Ennis del Mar, because he's gotten into Ennis's heart and soul in such an amazing way and that made me feel connected to him. For about half of my life I've been voicing out my support in gay rights and trying to fight people's homophobia, and in his beautiful heartbreaking portrayal of Ennis this guy had reached people's hearts and did what I couldn't have done in all those years. I cannot even begin to describe my appreciation and gratitude to him because of that. A piece of my heart will always belong to him.
Heath was so much more than "a movie star" to me. He wasn't a star, there was nothing starry about him. Through watching his films and reading interviews with him I discovered a beautiful man with a vulnerable soul, a man who talked openly and honestly about his fears, his weaknesses, his desires, a man who, in his "real life" off the set, couldn't be nothing but himself. There was so much depth in him, I could feel it, I could hear it in his words, in the thoughts that he shared. I can only imagine how overwhelmed I'd be if I'd known him in person. There are not many people who make you think "I don't know him but I have the strong impression that I'd like him a lot as a person if I did know him" (yes, thank you Daniel Day Lewis!!!) And Heath was one of these people. There was something so special about him that even people who didn't know him could feel.
Heath brought Ennis to life. He touched my soul and moved me in ways that I can't describe. Heath brought me here, to my new home and family. He took me up the mountain two years ago and I never went down. He had a very special place in my heart because of that. I thought about him as "my baby", I wanted to see him happy, growing and developing and making the most of his talent and I knew he would reach greatness. If I had a chance to give him back even a little of what he'd given me, I would've done anything.
But I guess some things you just can't explain.
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But I guess some things you just can't explain.
with us you don't need to.
we know...I know what and how you feel xxxxxoooxxxxx
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No, I didn't know Heath, but I think I fell in love with him nonetheless. I've never heard of him before I saw BBM, but from the moment I saw him he stole my heart. How can I explain to people what it's like when my heart goes out to a fictional character, when I can't get him out of my thoughts, when his tears at that last scene make my heart ache so badly and cause me to cry too? Heath did all that for me, he made me identify with Ennis completely and cry for his tragedy. He touched my heart so deeply that I felt like Ennis had become a part of me. And at first, Heath was Ennis to me - I didn't even want to see him in other movies because I couldn't see him as anyone else but Ennis. He owned my heart as Ennis, not as Heath.
But after I've seen him in more movies, read articles about him and interviews with him, I became more and more aware of the amazing person that he was. So deep, so intelligent, so mature, so talented, such a unique human being with such a beautiful soul. And I was so greatful that such a man was chosen to portray Ennis del Mar, because he's gotten into Ennis's heart and soul in such an amazing way and that made me feel connected to him. For about half of my life I've been voicing out my support in gay rights and trying to fight people's homophobia, and in his beautiful heartbreaking portrayal of Ennis this guy had reached people's hearts and did what I couldn't have done in all those years. I cannot even begin to describe my appreciation and gratitude to him because of that. A piece of my heart will always belong to him.
Heath was so much more than "a movie star" to me. He wasn't a star, there was nothing starry about him. Through watching his films and reading interviews with him I discovered a beautiful man with a vulnerable soul, a man who talked openly and honestly about his fears, his weeknesses, his desires, a man who, in his "real life" off the set, couldn't be nothing but himself. There was so much depth in him, I could feel it, I could hear it in his words, in the thoughts that he shared. I can only imagine how overwhelmed I'd be if I'd known him in person. There are not many people who make you think "I don't know him but I have the strong impression that I'd like him a lot as a person if I did know him" (yes, thank you Daniel Day Lewis!!!) And Heath was one of these people. There was something so special about him that even people who didn't know him could feel.
Heath brought Ennis to life. He touched my soul and moved me in ways that I can't describe. Heath brought me here, to my new home and family. He took me up the mountain too years ago and I never went down. He had a very special place in my heart because of that. I thought about him as "my baby", I wanted to see him happy, growing and developing and making the most of his talent and I knew he would reach greatness. If I had a chance to give him back even a little of what he'd given me, I would've done anything.
But I guess some things you just can't explain.
OMG Keren.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I can see myself in all your words. What a so beautiful and touching post, sweetie. You got me in tears one more time. Your words come from heart and they are pure poetry and wisdom, 'cause nobody seems "to know" Heath as you do. I knew it since I read my first post of you, I told you then: You made me love Heath; and today, once again, you've made cry thinking about him. You made me understand him better, you still do. My heart aches for you, for our sweet Heath, for myself.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thank you so much Keren; it's good to know that Heath not only lives in my heart, but in so many other hearts, and so he will lives forever and beyond.
One week for me here since I knew it. Still, I can't believe it....It hurts like hell. I'm so shattered and lost.
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Heath, miss you so much. I can't cry hard enough for you. You've left me empty and broken. I need you by my side babe, need you so bad.
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Hello everyone,
My name is Loretta. I am a new member and this is my first post. I am a heterosexual female, but Brokeback Mountain had a profound affect on me…for lots of reasons and on many levels. The first time I saw the movie I sobbed uncontrollably…the second time my eyes remained dry, but I was left with a clenching in my chest that I could not loosen. It was then that – hoping to purge some of the heartache – I wrote a poem called “Jack, I Swear”. It remained a poem for almost 2 years until a good friend wrote some music. I went to Nashville in early December and had it recorded as a demo (sung by my co-writer.) It was written in honor of Brokeback Mountain, Heath and Jake for playing those parts so beautifully, 2 of my very dear gay friends and for equality for everyone. I would love everyone here to hear it as my special tribute to Heath Ledger at this incredibly sad time. I am absolutely devastated by the news. We have lost an actor with integrity...a very rare thing these days. His performance as Ennis has affected me like no other in my lifetime. . I am going though my days with a lump in my throat, a pain in my heart and a whole in my spirit.
Anyway...if you’d like to listen, you can hear it uploaded on:
http://www.myspace.com/ret4 -- and it is set as the first song to auto play.
This isn't about promoting a song -- it never was from the start -- It's more about promoting change and touching hearts. I hope Heath can hear it and knows just how much his performance as Ennis has meant to so many people. He changed minds and hearts -- not to mention lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you’ll listen.
Loretta
http://www.myspace.com/ret4
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Loretta, a wonderful contribution here - am glad that ;you shared that with us...
Welcome, and enjoy the forum.
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Loretta - Your song is a beautiful piece and touching tribute.
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I think this post belongs here - if not, let me know...
I was reading some articles and one at ew.com mentioned that Heath's Joker posters for Batman are already up in theaters but that they will likely change them out.
I couldn't help but think why? That was his work, he was probably proud of it...why take it out? It personally doesn't make me upset but smile to see that his work is still up and he's not forgotten. :\'( This is what I meant before, that part of me is upset that he will be forgotten.....I don't see how it's possible.
So why on earth would they remove his posters for a project that he worked so hard for. I wonder if that would upset him? Or am I looking at it the wrong way and should be more sensitive too it? I like seeing his image around you know?
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Originally posted on an Australian site. I take it as quoted from the Heath Memorial Thread on IHJ:
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chica says
I snatched this from an Australian blog, made me cry, and it is the most wonderful piece of work that I have ever read:
Is it right to grieve for someone never known.
Is it right to cry for someone never touched.
Is it right to mourn for someone never kissed.
Is it ok to feel sorrow for one not spoken to.
Is it ok to feel loss for one never seen.
Is it ok to be devastated for one taken from us.
Heath has a smile that makes me smile.
Heath has a voice that makes me listen.
Heath has a heart that makes me love.
For a smile I'll never see
For a voice I'll never hear
For a heart I'll never love.
For a soul so pure
And a beauty so perfect
For a talent so rare.
I'm grieving and crying
I'm mourning, feel lost.
A special heart, a good man
A knight and a legend.
Taken from us too early
When will this pain of losing you heal.
I'll miss you Heath.
Rest in Peace Sweetheart.
*CREDITS TO KARA OF UK!!!*
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Beautiful song Loretta. ^f^
Thank you for sharing that piece tpe. :^^)
masetane, I feel the same way you do. Those posters are to advertise a project that he put a lot of effort into and got a lot of enjoyment out of. I know that a lot of people have said that they don't want to see TDK now, some because they just don't want that character to be the last image they have of him, and I understand that too, but like you, I don't find it healing to try to 'erase' him in effect. I don't know. I guess it's different for everyone. But I think we know that there are many many people (many right here, in fact) that have no intention of lettng him be forgotten, and I think time will show that he has an enduring presence long after his fans, and even his family and close friends, have healed and continued on with their lives. :ghug:
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And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Bon Jovi
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Hello everyone,
My name is Loretta. I am a new member and this is my first post. I am a heterosexual female, but Brokeback Mountain had a profound affect on me…for lots of reasons and on many levels. The first time I saw the movie I sobbed uncontrollably…the second time my eyes remained dry, but I was left with a clenching in my chest that I could not loosen. It was then that – hoping to purge some of the heartache – I wrote a poem called “Jack, I Swear”. It remained a poem for almost 2 years until a good friend wrote some music. I went to Nashville in early December and had it recorded as a demo (sung by my co-writer.) It was written in honor of Brokeback Mountain, Heath and Jake for playing those parts so beautifully, 2 of my very dear gay friends and for equality for everyone. I would love everyone here to hear it as my special tribute to Heath Ledger at this incredibly sad time. I am absolutely devastated by the news. We have lost an actor with integrity...a very rare thing these days. His performance as Ennis has affected me like no other in my lifetime. . I am going though my days with a lump in my throat, a pain in my heart and a whole in my spirit.
Anyway...if you’d like to listen, you can hear it uploaded on:
http://www.myspace.com/ret4 -- and it is set as the first song to auto play.
This isn't about promoting a song -- it never was from the start -- It's more about promoting change and touching hearts. I hope Heath can hear it and knows just how much his performance as Ennis has meant to so many people. He changed minds and hearts -- not to mention lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you’ll listen.
Loretta
http://www.myspace.com/ret4
:t) ^f^ that song is totally amazing. What a lovely tribute and lovely song. Thankyou for sharing that with us x
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Very often, since joining this forum, I have regretted some of my posts, for they were too personal, and when you get personal, you sense
that you have exposed yourself to ridicule and incredulity: Where did THAT guy show up from? I kinda feel there'll be less of that as
I feel I am growing into a quieter person, and that will hold up.
Even so, these days, I have stuck by my admittedly strange belief that some of us were meant to cross paths, for whatever reason,
have said, again and again, there's more to life than we can understand, and that Heath was meant to cross our paths in life.
And I know that some of this is rational and can be supported, and some of it is pumped up by our own minds, seeking meaning out of chaos.
But I will post a personal experience, irrational, easily brushed off as the workings of a mind in grief. I told it to Ayashae, and I will tell it here.
When I spent my summers in Washington, D.C., as a young man, there was a building on Connecticut Ave., near DuPont Circle that just made
me feel disoriented, chilled and uneasy. So much so that I avoided that block, to avoid seeing that building. I just thought it was a quirk, and
brushed it off, and did what I felt was comfortable.
It is a duplicate of the building on Bloome St., where Heath died. Part of me says this is a nothing coincidence. Part of me remembers, I never
had a reaction to a building before or since, making this highly unusual. Which one will I settle on? At this point, it doesn't make any difference.
For me, there is evidence of both- nothing, and everything.
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Just few french words I've done for Ennis to Jack, but now it's better to say "for Jack to Ennis"
Alors, ce jour là, j'ai compris que même le soleil avait perdu son éclat, que plus rien ne serait comme avant; la douceur de ton visage si chère à mon coeur paraissait déjà s'estomper, tout ce qui m'entourait n'avait plus d'importance. J'aurais voulu crier mon désespoir à en perdre la voix, à tarir la source de mes larmes au vent des montagnes, mais pourtant, c'est à chaque fois qu'une image douce et furtive du passé s'emparait de ma mémoire. Un sentiment d'une infinie solitude me submerge chaque jour, à chaque instant, mais tout le meilleur de toi est ancré en moi, comme soudé à jamais en mon coeur. Je sais maintenant que tu es à mes côtés Ennis, que lorsque je tombe à genoux tu es là pour me relever, et ton souffle, l'odeur de ta peau, tes caresses, je les ressens encore; j'entends parfois ta voix comme une brise courrir des sommets jusqu'aux plaines et s'engouffrer dans mon âme avec une douce sensation d'amour enfin retrouvé...Ennis je serai toujours là, j'ai toujours besoin de cela,.... besoin de toi.
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
Excuse my dirty car. It's been snowy.
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Oh Carby, good on you. :ghug:
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
Excuse my dirty car. It's been snowy.
Heath Andrew Ledger 1979-2008
What a touching gesture Carby... :\'(
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Thank you, Keren. Hope you're doing alright, sweetie :ghug:
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
Excuse my dirty car. It's been snowy.
Carby, that's amazingly beautiful!!! OMG!!! :\'( :\'(
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Quoted from Tony:
Even so, these days, I have stuck by my admittedly strange belief that some of us were meant to cross paths, for whatever reason,
have said, again and again, there's more to life than we can understand, and that Heath was meant to cross our paths in life.
Tony, I believe this strongly myself, and also believe it about Heath. We were lucky, but perhaps also chosen, to be the recipients of his gifts, to be the generation that discovered Brokeback Mountain, and I fully believe I was meant to come here and meet the people I've met.
So was your experience just an odd happenstance or part of something bigger? As you said, it doesn't matter. But, like you, I keep my mind open.
And since BBM was in many ways about opening people's minds, I guess it means in some ways we've come full circle. :ghug:
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Hello everyone,
My name is Loretta. I am a new member and this is my first post. I am a heterosexual female, but Brokeback Mountain had a profound affect on me…for lots of reasons and on many levels. The first time I saw the movie I sobbed uncontrollably…the second time my eyes remained dry, but I was left with a clenching in my chest that I could not loosen............. I am absolutely devastated by the news. We have lost an actor with integrity...a very rare thing these days. His performance as Ennis has affected me like no other in my lifetime. . I am going though my days with a lump in my throat, a pain in my heart and a whole in my spirit.
Hi Loretta,
I could have written your words above-we have a lot in common there. Beautiful songs you have on your site! (I am in NJ, too). Take care! :)
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FlowerChild, thanks so much. That either we felt we were meant to cross paths, or that we just believe it happened on its own, that, too, may
not matter. We're actually getting through this, and it's love that's getting us through. And that love was in him, and in us. We'll be all right.
More or less. And yet, without being paralyzed by grief, and living our lives, as we have to, we take him with us. He ain't going nowhere. Can't.
He's a part of us now.
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FlowerChild, thanks so much. That either we felt we were meant to cross paths, or that we just believe it happened on its own, that, too, may
not matter. We're actually getting through this, and it's love that's getting us through. And that love was in him, and in us. We'll be all right.
More or less. And yet, without being paralyzed by grief, and living our lives, as we have to, we take him with us. He ain't going nowhere. Can't.
He's a part of us now.
:\'( :\'( :\'( Precious. Thanks friend. :^^)
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Carby...what can I say :\'( :)
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Carby that is a wonderful tribute to Heath. :clap:
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Oh wow, so many amazing posts here today. Keren, you know I feel your pain, honey, and wish I could be with you to ease it and make the pain go away. Know I'm always here for you. ^f^
carby, what an amazing tribute to Heath, I'm speechless! What a wonderful thing to do. ^f^
I love this thread, for allowing us to speak freely from the heart how Heath has affected us, and how he continues to do so. I'll never forget him. It's still hard to accept he's gone. I wish it wasn't true. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh my...I've been reading through some posts here today and I'm overwhelmed. I finally got to cry those tears that have been brimming in my eyes since I heard the news about Heath. I keep telling myself that I have taken this too hard...that it's not rational...it shouldn't affect me so strongly. But it has and that is just the way it is.
I attempted to join in on another forum, but the posts are so fast and furious there that someone "new" seems to get lost in the shuffle of conversations. I posted my song link there and hardly had a response...and today I found you all by accident and within a few hours you have not only listened to my song, but have taken the time to respond. I am moved and grateful. I so want to honor Heath somehow, and right now that is the only way I know how.
jerasjr, jackster, msmare, flwrchild, cowgirlkt -- Thank you so much. (Sorry if I missed anyone!) I have read so many heartfelt and incredibly wonderful posts here. I wish I could remember all your names and respond individually. I hope to get to know you better.
Again...thank you so much,
Loretta
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Hi Everybody, I'm french, and when I knew about Heath's passing, I was so sad, sorrow invaded me. He is my favourite actor since Brokeback Mountain. I delivered a tribute to http://the-drawtistik.skyrock.com/ and, and made a video in tribute to Heath Ledger : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aPNKGnXPSU
This afternoon, I went to Notre Dame de Paris, and I prayed for his soul, and told him how he was such a good person. He is gone now, but he will always shine in my heart.
He was so loved, adored, that his passing shocked the whole world.
Now, he is The Joker, and now, he is a legend, as James Dean, or other amazing actors.
A little bit of Brokeback within my heart. Brokeback Mountain is like a secret garden to me now...
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Thanks for your tributes and bienvenue à bord Guillaume, we have a chat thread for French speaking members you could visit here:
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=10605.0
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Loretta. when someone moves us as Heath did we all try to show it in different ways, some write beautiful poems in tribute, some write wonderful fan fiction from the inspiration they get from that person, some create the varied and moving music videos found here, using familiar and favourite songs mixed with the moving images from the wonderful piece of work that is BBM, some members scour the net and magazines for new and favourite images of the cast to share with their friends here. Some play games, tell jokes and some just say hi.
Some do none of this, but still come here regularly to offer friendship, advice, comfort and even love. Each and every one of us has been moved by this movie to offer part of ourselves in thanks to promote a feeling of oneness in a world which more and more tries to separate those who do not fit the mould.
You have written a beautiful song and I thank you for sharing it with us all. I hope you spend many a day with us all and get time to share all your thoughts and passions with us. Hopefully we will not be as fast as the other forum you visited.
Guilliame, a big big welcome to you as well. :ghug:
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
Excuse my dirty car. It's been snowy.
Carby
What a wonderful way to honor Heath! I see your from Ohio, I am too and your right it's freezing here today
and so windy.
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Our dear friend and oldtime member Jennis asks me to post these banners that she made in Heath's memory:
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Thanks Jennis.
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Loretta. when someone moves us as Heath did we all try to show it in different ways, some write beautiful poems in tribute, some write wonderful fan fiction from the inspiration they get from that person, some create the varied and moving music videos found here, using familiar and favourite songs mixed with the moving images from the wonderful piece of work that is BBM, some members scour the net and magazines for new and favourite images of the cast to share with their friends here. Some play games, tell jokes and some just say hi.
Some do none of this, but still come here regularly to offer friendship, advice, comfort and even love. Each and every one of us has been moved by this movie to offer part of ourselves in thanks to promote a feeling of oneness in a world which more and more tries to separate those who do not fit the mould.
You have written a beautiful song and I thank you for sharing it with us all. I hope you spend many a day with us all and get time to share all your thoughts and passions with us. Hopefully we will not be as fast as the other forum you visited.
Guilliame, a big big welcome to you as well. :ghug:
Tom, this whole post is so perfectly stated. ^f^ You have described us so well.
Loretta, I'm glad you're finding a place here with us. :ghug:
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Just few french words I've done for Ennis to Jack, but now it's better to say "for Jack to Ennis"
Alors, ce jour là, j'ai compris que même le soleil avait perdu son éclat, que plus rien ne serait comme avant; la douceur de ton visage si chère à mon coeur paraissait déjà s'estomper, tout ce qui m'entourait n'avait plus d'importance. J'aurais voulu crier mon désespoir à en perdre la voix, à tarir la source de mes larmes au vent des montagnes, mais pourtant, c'est à chaque fois qu'une image douce et furtive du passé s'emparait de ma mémoire. Un sentiment d'une infinie solitude me submerge chaque jour, à chaque instant, mais tout le meilleur de toi est ancré en moi, comme soudé à jamais en mon coeur. Je sais maintenant que tu es à mes côtés Ennis, que lorsque je tombe à genoux tu es là pour me relever, et ton souffle, l'odeur de ta peau, tes caresses, je les ressens encore; j'entends parfois ta voix comme une brise courrir des sommets jusqu'aux plaines et s'engouffrer dans mon âme avec une douce sensation d'amour enfin retrouvé...Ennis je serai toujours là, j'ai toujours besoin de cela,.... besoin de toi.
mikele, thank you for these beautiful words. I took the liberty to translate them with the help of Google Translate, to share them with our friends. Please forgive me if I mangled any words, and please correct me.
Alors, ce jour là, j'ai compris que même le soleil avait perdu son éclat, que plus rien ne serait comme avant; la douceur de ton visage si chère à mon coeur paraissait déjà s'estomper, tout ce qui m'entourait n'avait plus d'importance. J'aurais voulu crier mon désespoir à en perdre la voix, à tarir la source de mes larmes au vent des montagnes, mais pourtant, c'est à chaque fois qu'une image douce et furtive du passé s'emparait de ma mémoire. Un sentiment d'une infinie solitude me submerge chaque jour, à chaque instant, mais tout le meilleur de toi est ancré en moi, comme soudé à jamais en mon coeur. Je sais maintenant que tu es à mes côtés Ennis, que lorsque je tombe à genoux tu es là pour me relever, et ton souffle, l'odeur de ta peau, tes caresses, je les ressens encore; j'entends parfois ta voix comme une brise courrir des sommets jusqu'aux plaines et s'engouffrer dans mon âme avec une douce sensation d'amour enfin retrouvé...Ennis je serai toujours là, j'ai toujours besoin de cela,.... besoin de toi.
| O from that day, I realized that even the sun had lost its lustre, that nothing would be like before, the softness of your face so dear to my heart seemed already fading, everything around me no longer important. I wanted to shout my despair hoarse, let out my tears like mountain wind, but yet it is each time a fresh image of the past and furtive came upon my memory. A sense of infinite loneliness overwhelms me every day, at every moment, but the best of you is entrenched in me, and welded forever in my heart. I know now that you are at my side Ennis, I find that when you are kneeling there to get up, and your breath, the smell of your skin, your caresses, I still feel, I sometimes hear your voice as a breeze that carry from peaks to the plains and leap into my soul with a fresh feeling of love finally finding Ennis ... I will always be there, I always need that ,.... Need you.
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Merci, mon ami.
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lc, thank you for that translation. And mikele, thank you for posting those lovely words. :^^)
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From Guillaume75:
A little bit of Brokeback within my heart. Brokeback Mountain is like a secret garden to me now...
That's beautiful. Welcome. :ghug:
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Originally posted on an Australian site. I take it as quoted from the Heath Memorial Thread on IHJ:
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chica says
I snatched this from an Australian blog, made me cry, and it is the most wonderful piece of work that I have ever read:
Is it right to grieve for someone never known.
Is it right to cry for someone never touched.
Is it right to mourn for someone never kissed.
Is it ok to feel sorrow for one not spoken to.
Is it ok to feel loss for one never seen.
Is it ok to be devastated for one taken from us.
Heath has a smile that makes me smile.
Heath has a voice that makes me listen.
Heath has a heart that makes me love.
For a smile I'll never see
For a voice I'll never hear
For a heart I'll never love.
For a soul so pure
And a beauty so perfect
For a talent so rare.
I'm grieving and crying
I'm mourning, feel lost.
A special heart, a good man
A knight and a legend.
Taken from us too early
When will this pain of losing you heal.
I'll miss you Heath.
Rest in Peace Sweetheart.
*CREDITS TO KARA OF UK!!!*
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Thank you, tpe. I really like this, especially the part I bolded. ... the smile, the voice, the heart, the soul, the beauty, the talent ... someone said Heath was a rare acting talent that comes maybe once every 20 years. I say Heath was a rare human being that comes along may be once in a life time. I am glad I was privileged to be a witness to his glory, to his love, to his work, and what is most amazing of all, his humility and grounded root in his common-man image of himself. We call him prince, legend, but Heath would blush and distract us with his smile, his fidgeting and change the subject. His humility, above all else, reminds me of Ennis. Perhaps I should say, Ennis' humility came from Heath.
When will this pain of losing you heal?
I don't know, and I stopped caring about it.
As long as I have Heath in my heart, that's all that matters now.
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Wow, carby, I like that license plate! I created this and stuck it in the rear window of my car:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi13.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa258%2FPier_Angeli%2Fheath.jpg&hash=0cf570f8749c296fa99ef29a5277490a6bd98b0d)
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Hi Everybody, I'm french, and when I knew about Heath's passing, I was so sad, sorrow invaded me. He is my favourite actor since Brokeback Mountain. I delivered a tribute to http://the-drawtistik.skyrock.com/ and, and made a video in tribute to Heath Ledger : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aPNKGnXPSU
This afternoon, I went to Notre Dame de Paris, and I prayed for his soul, and told him how he was such a good person. He is gone now, but he will always shine in my heart.
He was so loved, adored, that his passing shocked the whole world.
Now, he is The Joker, and now, he is a legend, as James Dean, or other amazing actors.
A little bit of Brokeback within my heart. Brokeback Mountain is like a secret garden to me now...
Welcome, guillaume - what a lovely post! I too think of him as like James Dean, another great actor who passed from this world far, far too soon.
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Quoted from Tony:
Even so, these days, I have stuck by my admittedly strange belief that some of us were meant to cross paths, for whatever reason,
have said, again and again, there's more to life than we can understand, and that Heath was meant to cross our paths in life.
Tony, I believe this strongly myself, and also believe it about Heath. We were lucky, but perhaps also chosen, to be the recipients of his gifts, to be the generation that discovered Brokeback Mountain, and I fully believe I was meant to come here and meet the people I've met.
So was your experience just an odd happenstance or part of something bigger? As you said, it doesn't matter. But, like you, I keep my mind open.
And since BBM was in many ways about opening people's minds, I guess it means in some ways we've come full circle. :ghug:
Tony, FlwrChild, thank you for this. I also think that the many like-minded people in this forum are meant to find each other. It is an amazing gift from Heath, for his sensitive soul was the beacon that guided us to this forum. His life was full of serendipity, like I just read that his friend Wes Bently from the "Four Feathers" movie, asked him to take over the role of Sonny in "Monster's Ball". Without that role, who knew what Larry McMurtry would have thought. Diana Ossana would still choose Heath, but sometimes every little bit helps. And his meeting Adam Sutton in "Ned Kelly" inspired his portrayal of Ennis. All his life, Heath kept an open mind to allow life's serendipitous moment to turn on a dime, with every person he met. No wonder so many people who met him had nothing but praise. It must be a wonderful experience, to be embraced, not just physically, but spiritually by someone so intelligent, so kind, so perceptive. The more I know Heath, the deeper the love, and paradoxically, the more bittersweet the grief...a sadder yearning, missing him, but also a sweeter remembrance...
Thanks for this.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you so much for so many wonderful tributes in memory of Heath. :ghug:
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Heath,
You always gave your 'ALL'...
to every movie you made.
And it showed.
Your work in BM was one of the best I've ever seen.
It touched me deeply.
I always thought it so unfair that you did not win the oscar that year...
R.I.P. my great actor...
You will certainly be missed...
sam
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Thank you, Kathy :ghug:
Kathy: That music from the BBM trailer is "End Title" from the movie Shawshank Redemption (a good watch) composed by Thomas Newman. It is availalble on iTunes. Ethan please correct me if wrong.
jackster is right. I think it is more well known as the BBM trailer music. I didn't realize that it was the same piece used in SAG "in memoriam" segment. Perhaps it was chosen on purpose?
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Ethan, your music was beautiful. In addition to the Thomas Newman, what other titles did you use so effectively?
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Hello Brokies...
Today my post is short. This post is actually asking any Brokies who have any information if it is still ok and possible to go to SoHo and to Heath's apartment to put flowers and letters. Please, if anyone has any information about this, please PM me.
I have also noticed new members who have come to ennisjack.com and I am happy that they have come to join us in this time of greif...Welcome everyone :ghug:
Lis
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Hi Loretta,
I could have written your words above-we have a lot in common there. Beautiful songs you have on your site! (I am in NJ, too). Take care! :)
Seems like there are 3 of us, Loretta and msmare....I have felt this same way since I saw BBM back in May of '06. It has given movies a higher standard...there has never been a movie that has moved me as much as BBM has. Btw, I'm in NJ too, and REALLY close to where you are Loretta lol
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Kathy: That music from the BBM trailer is "End Title" from the movie Shawshank Redemption (a good watch) composed by Thomas Newman. It is availalble on iTunes. Ethan please correct me if wrong.
Thank you. So that's why it seems so familiar. It's so beautiful.
kathy
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Oh God I understand you so well... I had a hard talk with my sister yesterday. A part of why it was so hard for me was because she just really doesn't understand at all why I am so affected by the death of "an actor I didn't even know" (and I hate it when people say that to me) and she couldn't understand my fascination with him when he was alive either. I felt like she was looking down on me or criticising me for it, and I just couldn't find the words to explain to her what he means to me. I felt bad and hurt when she reffered to him as "a movie star" and kept reminding me that I didn't know him and he certainly didn't know me.
...
But I guess some things you just can't explain.
So beautiful, your words, Karen. I feel everything you said, how Heath gave us Ennis and what Ennis means to us...and our very real grief. At first he was only Ennis to me, also, but I am very glad that I found myself becoming a fan of Heath's, because as you said, the more I knew about him, the more I loved him. Almost unbearable (yet bear it we must) that we don't get to follow a brilliant career as we know his would have been.
kathy
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You're welcome, Loretta. :)
It is nice to meet you, LuvHeath4ever! I am thrilled we have found this place.
I am slowly making my way through here, and to all of you who are here, thanks for making me feel like I am home already. I FINALLY found a place to come to and with all that is happening now, it is so very comforting. I am reading a lot more than I am posting now and it has been wonderful. Eventually, I will come out of my shell, but thanks to all for letting me just BE here. It means more than I can say. :ghug:
Heath, you are in the hearts of so many. I know that you know that.
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Hello everyone,
My name is Loretta. I am a new member and this is my first post. I am a heterosexual female, but Brokeback Mountain had a profound affect on me…for lots of reasons and on many levels. The first time I saw the movie I sobbed uncontrollably…the second time my eyes remained dry, but I was left with a clenching in my chest that I could not loosen. It was then that – hoping to purge some of the heartache – I wrote a poem called “Jack, I Swear”. It remained a poem for almost 2 years until a good friend wrote some music. I went to Nashville in early December and had it recorded as a demo (sung by my co-writer.) It was written in honor of Brokeback Mountain, Heath and Jake for playing those parts so beautifully, 2 of my very dear gay friends and for equality for everyone. I would love everyone here to hear it as my special tribute to Heath Ledger at this incredibly sad time. I am absolutely devastated by the news. We have lost an actor with integrity...a very rare thing these days. His performance as Ennis has affected me like no other in my lifetime. . I am going though my days with a lump in my throat, a pain in my heart and a whole in my spirit.
Anyway...if you’d like to listen, you can hear it uploaded on:
http://www.myspace.com/ret4 -- and it is set as the first song to auto play.
This isn't about promoting a song -- it never was from the start -- It's more about promoting change and touching hearts. I hope Heath can hear it and knows just how much his performance as Ennis has meant to so many people. He changed minds and hearts -- not to mention lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you’ll listen.
Loretta
http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Loretta, thank you so much! I love this, and it's so wonderful that you actually made it to the recording studio! From a poem, from a clenched-up broken heart from a movie...
I love the harmony parts, and both your and Steve's voices, and I love the instruments, especially the violin.
Could you post the lyrics?
I look forward to listening to the other recordings also.
A big welcome...
kathy
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Heath Andrew Ledger 1979-2008
What a touching gesture Carby... :\'(
When did you do this, carbyville? And you got it already? This is so beautiful... :\'(
kathy
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Tony, FlwrChild, thank you for this. I also think that the many like-minded people in this forum are meant to find each other. It is an amazing gift from Heath, for his sensitive soul was the beacon that guided us to this forum. His life was full of serendipity, like I just read that his friend Wes Bently from the "Four Feathers" movie, asked him to take over the role of Sonny in "Monster's Ball". Without that role, who knew what Larry McMurtry would have thought. Diana Ossana would still choose Heath, but sometimes every little bit helps. And his meeting Adam Sutton in "Ned Kelly" inspired his portrayal of Ennis. All his life, Heath kept an open mind to allow life's serendipitous moment to turn on a dime, with every person he met. No wonder so many people who met him had nothing but praise. It must be a wonderful experience, to be embraced, not just physically, but spiritually by someone so intelligent, so kind, so perceptive. The more I know Heath, the deeper the love, and paradoxically, the more bittersweet the grief...a sadder yearning, missing him, but also a sweeter remembrance...
Thanks for this.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I love all your words, lancecowboy...but this moves me right now. Heath's path was a most fascinating one, and aren't we all so glad that we actually got to share it with him...
kathy
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Originally posted on an Australian site. I take it as quoted from the Heath Memorial Thread on IHJ:
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chica says
I snatched this from an Australian blog, made me cry, and it is the most wonderful piece of work that I have ever read:
Is it right to grieve for someone never known.
Is it right to cry for someone never touched.
Is it right to mourn for someone never kissed.
Is it ok to feel sorrow for one not spoken to.
Is it ok to feel loss for one never seen.
Is it ok to be devastated for one taken from us.
Heath has a smile that makes me smile.
Heath has a voice that makes me listen.
Heath has a heart that makes me love.
For a smile I'll never see
For a voice I'll never hear
For a heart I'll never love.
For a soul so pure
And a beauty so perfect
For a talent so rare.
I'm grieving and crying
I'm mourning, feel lost.
A special heart, a good man
A knight and a legend.
Taken from us too early
When will this pain of losing you heal.
I'll miss you Heath.
Rest in Peace Sweetheart.
*CREDITS TO KARA OF UK!!!*
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I love this so much. I guess I still try to understand why I/we love Heath so much, why his passing is so very personal to us. This says it beautifully.
kathy
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When did you do this, carbyville? And you got it already? This is so beautiful... :\'(
kathy
I did it on the 24th and they came in the mail this morning. I was surprised they arrived as soon as they did.
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Just wanted to say - Loretta, that song is beautiful. I couldn't listen at work yesterday when you first posted but I made sure it was the first thing I did this morning, and I'm in tears again - thinking of Brokeback, thinking of Jack, thinking of Ennis and, most importantly, thinking of Heath :\'(
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
Oh man... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Carby - those plates are incredible. What a wonderful tribute :^^)
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I just posted this over on the fanfic thread in response to a gorgeous story written by our own Christie....but I think maybe it's equally relevant here.
The following lyrics are to a song called One Small Star, written by a singer/songwriter called Eric Bogle who was born in Peebles, Scotland but has lived in Australia for almost 40 years now. The song was actually written just after the tragic shooting at Dunblane Primary School in which 16 primary one kids and their teacher lost their lives....but it's relevant to anyone who has lost someone special.
ONE SMALL STAR (Eric Bogle)
When I need to feel you near me
I stand in this quiet place
With the silver light of countless stars
Falling on my face
Though they all shine so brightly
Somehow it comforts me to know
That some who burn the brightest died
An eternity ago
CHORUS
But your light still shines
It's one small star to guide me
And to help me hold back the dark
Your light's still shining in my heart
I'm learning how to live without you
Though I never thought I could
And even how to smile again
I never thought I would
And to cherish the heart's memories
That can bring you back to life
Though some caress me gently
And some cut me like a knife
CHORUS
Can your soul be out there somewhere
Beyond the infinity of time
I guess you've found some answers now
I'll have to wait for mine
Till my light joins with yours some day
To shine through time and space
And one day fall, in a distant age
Upon some stranger's face
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Thank you so much for so many wonderful tributes in memory of Heath. :ghug:
Ditto!! <^(
That's an amazing collage of pictures of Heath since he was a baby and up till present, I think I played it over and over again for dozen of times now...one thing thou, it has a too happy tune IMO anyway ( it's made for his birthday.. :-\\ ) so I just muted completely the volume.. otherwise it's so sweet and I was crying through all the 8:56 minutes of it... :\'( <^(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywG_Cv4Qp_o
Another beautiful tributes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHDRktGB2hU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjU2WJK9V4o
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... someone said Heath was a rare acting talent that comes maybe once every 20 years. I say Heath was a rare human being that comes along may be once in a life time. I am glad I was privileged to be a witness to his glory, to his love, to his work, and what is most amazing of all, his humility and grounded root in his common-man image of himself. We call him prince, legend, but Heath would blush and distract us with his smile, his fidgeting and change the subject. His humility, above all else, reminds me of Ennis. Perhaps I should say, Ennis' humility came from Heath.
What a beautiful post Andrew, and I agree with you so much. He was both a rare talent and an exceptional person, and yet so humble and down to earth. I know that when people die their friends often say beautiful things about them, but it is rare to hear the things people say about Heath - he really was one of a kind. The more I learn about him, the more I love him.
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Here is a song that is very near and dear to my heart, always was, always will be, and now, in light of current events, the song seemed to have somehow made an even greater impact....as if it had more meaning to it now.
Cat Stevens, Oh Very Young
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You're only dancing on this earth for a short while
And though your dreams may toss and turn you now
They will vanish away like your daddy's best jeans
Denim blue fading up to the sky
And though you want them to last forever
You know they never will
You know they never will
And the patches make the goodbye harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
There'll never be a better chance to change your mind
And if you want this world to see a better day
Will you carry the words of love with you
Will you ride the great white bird into heaven
And though you want to last forever
You know you never will
You know you never will
And the goodbye makes the journey harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You're only dancing on this earth for a short while
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
And another one that is, in my opinion, a marvelous and tremendous song about human emotions and the way we SHOULD cope with them. A person over at IHJ said that if she were Jake, she couldn't finish filming the movie 'Brothers' because she would be in complete emotional turmoil the whole time, and then stated the following: 'I'm not a strong person'. This is what I told her:
'It has absolutely nothing to do with being strong and everything to do with being- human!
but while we're on the subject, a strong person is one that is capable of recognizing his or her emotions and willing to experience them to the end. a 'weak' person is one that tries to hide the truth from him/herself because he/she is afraid of letting emotions take over. so I think that allowing yourself to experience grief ( among other things ) to the fullest makes you ( as in people in general ) very courageous.
so you see, you ARE a strong person.
And that's the message I want to sent out to you guys! You are all SUCH STRONG people! Emotions are strengths, not weaknesses, emotions are the things that define us, tell us who we are and most importantly- tell us we are alive and that we are capable of simply being- human.
So here is the song I mentioned, it's Cat Stevens yet again, he's SUCH an inspiring singer/songwriter and human being:
Don't be shy
Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by
On by
You know love is better than a song
Love is where all of us belong
So don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
You're there
Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by
On by, on by, on by, on by, etc.
I hope this little contribution of mine will be of some help, if even a tiny bit!
I love all of you guys, you are such amazing people, capable of SUCH deep emotions that being in your presence ( even if not physically ) gives me a great sense of pride and honour
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Oh very young....
...Heath, I swear!
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I am thrilled we have found this place. I am slowly making my way through here, and to all of you who are here, thanks for making me feel like I am home already. I FINALLY found a place to come to and with all that is happening now, it is so very comforting. I am reading a lot more than I am posting now and it has been wonderful. Eventually, I will come out of my shell, but thanks to all for letting me just BE here. It means more than I can say. Heath, you are in the hearts of so many. I know that you know that.
My name is Loretta...I am going though my days with a lump in my throat, a pain in my heart and a whole in my spirit.
Anyways, I feel like I am so overwhelmed with his passing, and I'm trying not to dwell on it, but I'm so glad I can come here and talk about him freely...LuvHeath4ever
Now, he is The Joker, and now, he is a legend, as James Dean, or other amazing actors.
A little bit of Brokeback within my heart. Brokeback Mountain is like a secret garden to me now..guillaume75
Welcome to all new members Loretta, LuvHeath4ever, guillaume75 , msmare and all others that I might overlooked. I'm glad that you found us I wish to see you here more , and hope that this place will ease your pain like it does for me, I truly don't know what I would do without ennisjack this days..
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Cat Stevens, Oh very young
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You're only dancing on this earth for a short while
And though your dreams may toss and turn you now
They will vanish away like your daddy's best jeans
Denim blue fading up to the sky
And though you want them to last forever
You know they never will
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Oh very young.....Heath, I swear!
That's so beautiful KOKA..thanx :^^)
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Heath was so much more than "a movie star" to me. He wasn't a star, there was nothing starry about him. Through watching his films and reading interviews with him I discovered a beautiful man with a vulnerable soul, a man who talked openly and honestly about his fears, his weaknesses, his desires, a man who, in his "real life" off the set, couldn't be nothing but himself. There was so much depth in him, I could feel it, I could hear it in his words, in the thoughts that he shared. I can only imagine how overwhelmed I'd be if I'd known him in person. There are not many people who make you think "I don't know him but I have the strong impression that I'd like him a lot as a person if I did know him" (yes, thank you Daniel Day Lewis!!!) And Heath was one of these people. There was something so special about him that even people who didn't know him could feel.
Heath brought Ennis to life. He touched my soul and moved me in ways that I can't describe. Heath brought me here, to my new home and family. He took me up the mountain two years ago and I never went down. He had a very special place in my heart because of that. I thought about him as "my baby", I wanted to see him happy, growing and developing and making the most of his talent and I knew he would reach greatness. If I had a chance to give him back even a little of what he'd given me, I would've done anything.
But I guess some things you just can't explain.
God. Keren. You did. You did. What a tribute. (t)
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Koka, thank you so much for reminding me of Cat Stevens. He used to be one my favorite artists, but I haven't listened to his music for a while. Oh Very Young was one of my favorites, too. Thank you for bringing it up. You are so wise to state what I bolded and colored red below. Ennis was in turmoil for most of his life because he tried to hide his emotions, and his was weakened but the inner struggle, never able to face up to his real life problems. When he accepted Jack's love, when he found the two shirts, and expressed his emotions more freely, with Jack's Ma, and Alma Jr. Ennis became a stronger person, a more complete person. Thank you also for reminding me of that.
I haven't heard Don't Be Shy before. I will renew my playlist with more Cat Stevens selections. Thanks.
And the picture of Heath. So Very Young.... :\'( :ghug:
Here is a song that is very near and dear to my heart, always was, always will be, and now, in light of current events, the song seemed to have somehow made an even greater impact....as if it had more meaning to it now.
Cat Stevens, Oh Very Young
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You're only dancing on this earth for a short while
And though your dreams may toss and turn you now
They will vanish away like your daddy's best jeans
Denim blue fading up to the sky
And though you want them to last forever
You know they never will
You know they never will
And the patches make the goodbye harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
There'll never be a better chance to change your mind
And if you want this world to see a better day
Will you carry the words of love with you
Will you ride the great white bird into heaven
And though you want to last forever
You know you never will
You know you never will
And the goodbye makes the journey harder still
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
You're only dancing on this earth for a short while
Oh very young
What will you leave us this time
And another one that is, in my opinion, a marvelous and tremendous song about human emotions and the way we SHOULD cope with them. A person over at IHJ said that if she were Jake, she couldn't finish filming the movie 'Brothers' because she would be in complete emotional turmoil the whole time, and then stated the following: 'I'm not a strong person'. This is what I told her:
'It has absolutely nothing to do with being strong and everything to do with being- human!
but while we're on the subject, a strong person is one that is capable of recognizing his or her emotions and willing to experience them to the end. a 'weak' person is one that tries to hide the truth from him/herself because he/she is afraid of letting emotions take over. so I think that allowing yourself to experience grief ( among other things ) to the fullest makes you ( as in people in general ) very courageous.
so you see, you ARE a strong person.
And that's the message I want to sent out to you guys! You are all SUCH STRONG people! Emotions are strengths, not weaknesses, emotions are the things that define us, tell us who we are and most importantly- tell us we are alive and that we are capable of simply being- human.
So here is the song I mentioned, it's Cat Stevens yet again, he's SUCH an inspiring singer/songwriter and human being:
Don't be shy
Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by
On by
You know love is better than a song
Love is where all of us belong
So don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
You're there
Don't be shy just let your feelings roll on by
Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there
Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead
And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by
On by, on by, on by, on by, etc.
I hope this little contribution of mine will be of some help, if even a tiny bit!
I love all of you guys, you are such amazing people, capable of SUCH deep emotions that being in your presence ( even if not physically ) gives me a great sense of pride and honour
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Oh very young....
...Heath, I swear!
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Thank you NoReinds. This is a beautiful song. I can relate to every line and every word.
Australia has a lot of rare talents.
It must be because of the open spaces, that brings out the openness in people's hearts.
I recall Heath said in one of his early interviews, just after A Knight's Tale, that he did't look for fame or money in his career. He was on a walkabout, looking beneath the surface, to see what life is all about. Because, as he said in the interview, after you die, that's all you can take with you.
He achieved everything he wanted, and more, a bright and shining star.
I just posted this over on the fanfic thread in response to a gorgeous story written by our own Christie....but I think maybe it's equally relevant here.
The following lyrics are to a song called One Small Star, written by a singer/songwriter called Eric Bogle who was born in Peebles, Scotland but has lived in Australia for almost 40 years now. The song was actually written just after the tragic shooting at Dunblane Primary School in which 16 primary one kids and their teacher lost their lives....but it's relevant to anyone who has lost someone special.
ONE SMALL STAR (Eric Bogle)
When I need to feel you near me
I stand in this quiet place
With the silver light of countless stars
Falling on my face
Though they all shine so brightly
Somehow it comforts me to know
That some who burn the brightest died
An eternity ago
CHORUS
But your light still shines
It's one small star to guide me
And to help me hold back the dark
Your light's still shining in my heart
I'm learning how to live without you
Though I never thought I could
And even how to smile again
I never thought I would
And to cherish the heart's memories
That can bring you back to life
Though some caress me gently
And some cut me like a knife
CHORUS
Can your soul be out there somewhere
Beyond the infinity of time
I guess you've found some answers now
I'll have to wait for mine
Till my light joins with yours some day
To shine through time and space
And one day fall, in a distant age
Upon some stranger's face
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Thank you NoReinds. This is a beautiful song. I can relate to every line and every word.
Australia has a lot of rare talents.
It must be because of the open spaces, that brings out the openness in people's hearts.
I recall Heath said in one of his early interviews, just after A Knight's Tale, that he did't look for fame or money in his career. He was on a walkabout, looking beneath the surface, to see what life is all about. Because, as he said in the interview, after you die, that's all you can take with you.
He achieved everything he wanted, and more, a bright and shining star.
Hey - Eric Bogle isn't an Aussie! The talent he has is 100% Scottish since he was born and brought up just a few miles from here.
;)
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Hey - Eric Bogle isn't an Aussie! The talent he has is 100% Scottish since he was born and brought up just a few miles from here.
;)
~) No offense intended. It goes without saying that MANY talents came out of Scotland. I was only trying to say that Eric was inspired while living in Australia's open spaces.
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I wanted to post on 2 practical matters, this morning, aside from just saying hello to everyone. First, we all owe a huge debt of gratitude
to the management of this forum. Each of them has suffered through the same shock and grief as the rest of us, but also had to keep up with
the workload of keeping this site running. It must have been rough, at times. A big thank-you for all that you have done for the rest of us.
Second, though, am seeing a dilemma approaching. This forum is about the film, BBM, a tragic love story, that still is a part of our lives,
years later. Yet now we have another tragic love story, intertwined with the first---the loss of Heath.
I really do believe we will see something like PBS emerging- a post-Heath syndrome, and what I mean by that is that, although things will die
down, the tragedy is so great, there will be new hurts or memories, that re-emerge at unpredictable times. The dilemma, then, would be how
to accomodate that, even though the forum is about the movie.
It seems to me that there is no threat to the primary focus of the forum, in accomodating what may well be a long period of occasional
return to grieving, by some. There are so many threads on this site, from health, to the solar system, to opera, gardening, personal photos....
that no one should resent it if threads about Heath persist and have a strong following. Nobody forces anyone to go to a particular thread---
I hope there would be no uneasiness if some, or many do.
If i remember correctly, Ethan has settled the issue, and will leave space for this well into the future. What am hoping for, then, is that
members not be critical of each other, for where they choose to go, on the forum, and that management does not lock threads and file them
away, but even allow for 1 or 2 additional threads, at the appropriate time.
The one decision they have made-no gossip, no rumors, nothing hurtful to the family, has proven very decent and wise. I guess that would
only leave minor references to the hurts in Heath's life, but then-that's what moderators are for---judgement calls.
These are practical matters and I hope it has not been wrongful for a member of the forum to ask management to accomodate as much as
they can. The forum is about BBM. But life has given this forum a challenge, and I have to hope we are all up to it.
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It must have been rough, at times. A big thank-you for all that you have done for the rest of us.
Yes Tony, and thank you for those kind words :ghug: but this is why we are here as moderators, this is what we do. We are here to make sure the forum is including and loving and a good place for our members to be. And why? Because we are all here because of the same thing. We love Brokeback. And we love our members :)
As for the other point you make, I am not sure I fully understood it, but if I understood correctly then do not worry, there will always be a significant portion of this forum dedicated to Heath. And after all, Ennis is still alive, and Heath will always be the man behind Ennis. And also, a bit flippant I am sorry, but he was damn sexy in real life and the images we have of him will remain so :)
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And also, a bit flippant I am sorry, but he was damn sexy in real life and the images we have of him will remain so :)
That's not flippant Esme - it's the truth, and it's one that we'll never forget. Scruffy shoes, stripey socks, strange clothes (sometimes) and a smile to die for - all of those were part of what made Heath so special to all of us and I want to remember all those things.
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Hello everyone,
Anyway...if you’d like to listen, you can hear it uploaded on:
http://www.myspace.com/ret4 -- and it is set as the first song to auto play.
This isn't about promoting a song -- it never was from the start -- It's more about promoting change and touching hearts. I hope Heath can hear it and knows just how much his performance as Ennis has meant to so many people. He changed minds and hearts -- not to mention lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope you’ll listen.
Loretta
http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Beautiful song Loretta, Thank you. ^f^
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
Excuse my dirty car. It's been snowy.
Wow.
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I just posted this over on the fanfic thread in response to a gorgeous story written by our own Christie....but I think maybe it's equally relevant here.
The following lyrics are to a song called One Small Star, written by a singer/songwriter called Eric Bogle who was born in Peebles, Scotland but has lived in Australia for almost 40 years now. The song was actually written just after the tragic shooting at Dunblane Primary School in which 16 primary one kids and their teacher lost their lives....but it's relevant to anyone who has lost someone special.
ONE SMALL STAR (Eric Bogle)
When I need to feel you near me
I stand in this quiet place
With the silver light of countless stars
Falling on my face
Though they all shine so brightly
Somehow it comforts me to know
That some who burn the brightest died
An eternity ago
CHORUS
But your light still shines
It's one small star to guide me
And to help me hold back the dark
Your light's still shining in my heart
I'm learning how to live without you
Though I never thought I could
And even how to smile again
I never thought I would
And to cherish the heart's memories
That can bring you back to life
Though some caress me gently
And some cut me like a knife
CHORUS
Can your soul be out there somewhere
Beyond the infinity of time
I guess you've found some answers now
I'll have to wait for mine
Till my light joins with yours some day
To shine through time and space
And one day fall, in a distant age
Upon some stranger's face
Lindsey I said on the other thread, and I'll say again, this is beautiful.
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Good morning, All. Like everyone else here, I've been struggling to process my feelings during the last ten days, and am still uncertain how to proceed. Everyone deals with tragedy in individual ways, and my way has always been intensely private, and, at my age, I don't think that's going to change now. But during my silences, I have found occasional bits of verse or prose that offer some measure of comfort, although I'm not always sure why.
At any rate, I came across this poem in one of my dilapidated, well-used books of Sara Teasdale's work, and found it gave me a bit of solace in an indirect sort of way. so I thought I'd share it here.
There Will Be Stars
by Sara Teasdale
There will be stars over the place forever;
Though the house we loved and the street we loved are lost,
Every time the earth circles her orbit
On the night the autumn equinox is crossed,
Two stars we knew, poised on the peak of midnight
Will reach their zenith; stillness will be deep;
There will be stars over the place forever;
There will be stars forever, while we sleep.
Hope it offers some comfort for all of you as well.
CYN
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Thanks Esmelily-you all are the greatest! And, no, there's nothing flippant about wanting those photos to keep rolling in- that's part of who
he was.
I know I am posting a lot. That's a no-win deal, there, as some might find that over-done, but there are others who find each and every post,
from everybody, even people just signing up, a proof that their own feelings are not mis-placed or couldn't be understood.
Anyway, some rambling thoughts about Heath. When they write books about him (and they will), I hope they catch the tensions and
contadictions in his life. So very many. He often referred to himself as being on a journey, always moving on, and yet we can see, at times,
how much he wanted to settle down to one place.
He was painfully shy, and yet got out there every day, to meet the world. He wanted his privacy, and yet he also wanted to signal some
deep inner hurts. He was ambitious, and yet he spoke of just walking away from it all. He was graceful, at times, beyond nearly everyone else,
and yet, at other times, awkward and ill at ease. And he wanted to blow-off deep underlying meanings to life even as he often pursued them.
It was these very contradictions that integrated into the full person. But most of all, when they write those books, I hope they capture
the biggest contadiction of all- Heath was often, just---ordinary, and knew that, and wanted the peace of blending in with the ordinary world.
And when they come to the troubled parts of his life, I sincerely hope they look closer. Whatever failures there were, they never went down
the road to malice or spite or mocking other people. If he went along for the ride, in the faults natural to human beings, this was one guy who
always did that from a natural liking for people, and he always drew back from cruelty to others. That speaks more for him than all his talent,
all his good-breeding, all of his love for life---Heath wanted people to be happy, even when sometimes, he wasn't. That may well be the real
story of the life of Heath Ledger-he loved people. Painfully shy, according to close friends. But loved people as they were. That is a rare soul.
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Cyn, it's beautiful. :\'( <^( Thank you.
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Beautifully put Tony. That he is a rare soul is undoubtedlt why so many people love him, and why so many people mourn him.
I also echo what Esme said. Thank you for your support, and there most definitely will always be a place on this forum for Heath. For, as she said, he will always be the man behind Ennis. <^(
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That's not flippant Esme - it's the truth, and it's one that we'll never forget. Scruffy shoes, stripey socks, strange clothes (sometimes) and a smile to die for - all of those were part of what made Heath so special to all of us and I want to remember all those things.
So do I, Lindsey, so do I. :)
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Good morning, All. Like everyone else here, I've been struggling to process my feelings during the last ten days, and am still uncertain how to proceed. Everyone deals with tragedy in individual ways, and my way has always been intensely private, and, at my age, I don't think that's going to change now. But during my silences, I have found occasional bits of verse or prose that offer some measure of comfort, although I'm not always sure why.
At any rate, I came across this poem in one of my dilapidated, well-used books of Sara Teasdale's work, and found it gave me a bit of solace in an indirect sort of way. so I thought I'd share it here.
There Will Be Stars
by Sara Teasdale
There will be stars over the place forever;
Though the house we loved and the street we loved are lost,
Every time the earth circles her orbit
On the night the autumn equinox is crossed,
Two stars we knew, poised on the peak of midnight
Will reach their zenith; stillness will be deep;
There will be stars over the place forever;
There will be stars forever, while we sleep.
Hope it offers some comfort for all of you as well.
CYN
Cyn that's beautiful. Thank you. :\'( I still can't process all of my thoughts/feelings- I'm kind of dreading when I am able to.
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Beautifully put Tony. That he is a rare soul is undoubtedlt why so many people love him, and why so many people mourn him.
I also echo what Esme said. Thank you for your support, and there most definitely will always be a place on this forum for Heath. For, as she said, he will always be the man behind Ennis. <^(
Tony,
I am quoting Barb's post because I feel the exact same way. Thank you for being supportive of everyone here. And yes there will always be a spot here for Heath. I look at it sort of like those mementos we keep of people we knew in "real life" be it a ticket stub, a photo album, a card etc etc- it's a way to look back and keep them close. I'm having trouble articulating things lately so I hope that made sense. :ghug:
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My plates came in the mail today. I braved the below freezing weather and hurricane force winds to put them on my car. Here's a crappy phone pic:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi17.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fb51%2Fneverlet_itgo%2Fphone_pics%2F0130081449.jpg&hash=a901d7b2515b1aa1069137565389c7cf34156ea3)
I just love the plates carby!!!! <^(
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Here's another poem, this time by William Butler Yeats. I read it at the funeral service for my dearest friend a few years ago. I know he would approve of its being read for Heath:
He Reaches for the Cloths of Heaven
Had I the heaven's embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
William Butler Yeats
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Hello you all!
I've been on this thread every day since Heath passed away, posted only few times though. But anyway, wanted to say that this has been a good place to be with all of you people who share the same feeling.
It will probably always hurt a bit to think about Heath, the special person that he was. Altough I never met him in person, he managed to touch my soul in his potraid of Ennis and he together with Jake Gyllenhaal gave me perhaps the best lesson of love that I'm intended to follow in my life. I still can't watch him on videos or on films, but his smile makes me smile already and his goofy expressions makes me remember some funny memories I have of him.
One thing that I've been thinking on today is that I've read here how many people say that it makes them sad to think that Heath died alone... Yes, it makes me sad too if I think about it that way, but he wasn't alone in his life. I'm sure even in some dark moments he must have had, like we all, he knew in his heart that he wasn't alone. And, in the moment of death, isn't it so that every one of us must face that all by ourselves? And as I see it, if you can pass away while you are sleeping, that's the way to go that many of us would choose if it would be possible. Right?
I want to send my :ghug: to all of you, you've been a good shoulder during these difficult days!
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LuvJackNasty-makes perfect sense. As best as we can tell, from the news, the funeral will be sometime in these few days, so it's like a wake
for us. Some talk for awhile, then go quiet. Some laugh at the good times. Some still are putting it all together. Your reactions make better
sense than mine, I think, in that you may still be hit from that first day, and you just don't know where to go. That's always there at a wake-
the one who still can't piece it all together. We'll be ok. Love you-Tony.
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My new Heath candle, the last one burnt down yesterday. There will always be a candle at this place from now on, and when I move, it'll get a good place again.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi79.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj145%2FHanna-123%2FIMAG0273.jpg&hash=ab923c8d031dae6e5117c19580ed6d63d15bdf75)
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Such a sweet gesture, Hanna :^^)
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My new Heath candle, the last one burnt down yesterday. There will always be a candle at this place from now on, and when I move, it'll get a good place again.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi79.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj145%2FHanna-123%2FIMAG0273.jpg&hash=ab923c8d031dae6e5117c19580ed6d63d15bdf75)
:^^) :^^) :^^)
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(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi64.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh189%2Floganamour%2FJAKE%2Fve.jpg&hash=bf2917d5afad4fbfd1d225bf1de59d2cec9cf24a)
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This reminded me of Heath
Never gone,
Never far, In my heart is were you are,
Always close, everyday,
Every step along the way
It's from a backstreet boys song called Never Gone.
Heath will always be in my heart and today's the first day I haven't cried since I got the news. I don't know If I should be happy about that or not, but today I felt happy and I remembered all the good things Heath have done for me :)
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I remember this pic on display at the art gallery - by Karen Catt
and would like to post it in remembrance of Heath.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg163.imageshack.us%2Fimg163%2F3446%2Fledgercattnb1.jpg&hash=46fbf3b4ba7c43a8b7991111bb34c5b8cd959b8e) (http://imageshack.us)
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I just posted this over on the fanfic thread in response to a gorgeous story written by our own Christie....but I think maybe it's equally relevant here.
The following lyrics are to a song called One Small Star, written by a singer/songwriter called Eric Bogle who was born in Peebles, Scotland but has lived in Australia for almost 40 years now. The song was actually written just after the tragic shooting at Dunblane Primary School in which 16 primary one kids and their teacher lost their lives....but it's relevant to anyone who has lost someone special.
ONE SMALL STAR (Eric Bogle)
When I need to feel you near me
I stand in this quiet place
With the silver light of countless stars
Falling on my face
Though they all shine so brightly
Somehow it comforts me to know
That some who burn the brightest died
An eternity ago
CHORUS
But your light still shines
It's one small star to guide me
And to help me hold back the dark
Your light's still shining in my heart
I'm learning how to live without you
Though I never thought I could
And even how to smile again
I never thought I would
And to cherish the heart's memories
That can bring you back to life
Though some caress me gently
And some cut me like a knife
CHORUS
Can your soul be out there somewhere
Beyond the infinity of time
I guess you've found some answers now
I'll have to wait for mine
Till my light joins with yours some day
To shine through time and space
And one day fall, in a distant age
Upon some stranger's face
:^^) thankyou for posting this its really nice and gives me nice images in my head..Heath our star shining on forever #)
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That's not flippant Esme - it's the truth, and it's one that we'll never forget. Scruffy shoes, stripey socks, strange clothes (sometimes) and a smile to die for - all of those were part of what made Heath so special to all of us and I want to remember all those things.
I agree, Lindsey. Esme, what you said was perfect and I agree completely. I never want to forget Heath and posting pics, talking about him as a person and as an actor, is something I never want to stop doing. He will always be remembered here.
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One thing that I've been thinking on today is that I've read here how many people say that it makes them sad to think that Heath died alone... Yes, it makes me sad too......
I did think that many times...plus I had that disturbing thought that he could be saved if someone was with him at that critical time,
on the other hand, nothing can bring him back now and I can't do anything about it from where I am but be grateful for the time he was with us, gave us all he have to give so gracefully and now we are just left with memories.. (https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi76.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj18%2Fhpv1515%2Fheart-3.gif&hash=f01a39e15a67aff78001ab78e25c8e17d1a65f05)
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That is gorgeous.
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For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
from: the Prophet
Kahlil Gibran
Idea of Beauty
Shy, he stepped off into the cornfield. I could see
his back muscles under the damp shirt quiver and go slack.
Turning again to face the shade, he smiled at me, not
squinted, smiled, and finished tugging shut his fly.
Now, when the cornstalks in the night wind slide
like fire, I see him. He steps closer in my dream.
I don't know, where he sleeps, if sleep refreshes him,
but here it works me like hot metal over a flame.
MELEAGROS, 3rd century B.C.E.
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For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
from: the Prophet
Kahlil Gibran
Idea of Beauty
Shy, he stepped off into the cornfield. I could see
his back muscles under the damp shirt quiver and go slack.
Turning again to face the shade, he smiled at me, not
squinted, smiled, and finished tugging shut his fly.
Now, when the cornstalks in the night wind slide
like fire, I see him. He steps closer in my dream.
I don't know, where he sleeps, if sleep refreshes him,
but here it works me like hot metal over a flame.
MELEAGROS, 3rd century B.C.E.
That so beautiful!!!
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What is hitting me so bad is that everything I read is full of "was" or "had". That is so new, so strange and so sad.
Every post touches me, and I am many many pages behind, but I have off from work tonite and I am going to read each and every one.
This post touched me deeply, as I have to correct myself often when I speak of heath--from he "is" to he 'was".,.,
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Confidentiel
A beautiful song written by Jean-Jaques Goldman in 1985 for a close friend who had died ten years earlier. It is in French and sung "at dirge slowness". A beautiful video done with it two years ago by Cybella as Ennis remembers Jack. It can now be easily seen as us remembering Heath.
The French:
Je voulais simplement te dire
Que ton visage et ton sourire
Resteront près de moi, sur mon chemin
Te dire que c'était pour de vrai
Tout c'qu'on s'est dit, tout c'qu'on a fait
Qu'c'était pas pour de faux, que c'était bien
Faut surtout jamais regretter
Même si ça fait mal, c'est gagné
Tous ces moments, tous ces mêmes matins
J'vais pas te dire qu'faut pas pleurer
Y'a vraiment pas d'quoi s'en priver
Et tout c'qu'on n'a pas loupé, le valait bien
Peut-être on se retrouvera
Peut-être que peut-être pas
Mais sache qu'ici bas, je suis là
ça restera comme une lumière
Qui m'tiendra chaud dans mes hivers
Un petit feu de toi qui s'éteint pas
A (possibly poor) translation for those of us who are linguistically challenged, corrections welcomed:
I wanted simply to say to you,
that your face and your smile,
will remain by me, on my way.
To tell you that it was truth,
All that was said, all that was done,
that it was not false, that it was good.
Above all, never regret,
Even if it hurt, it was gain,
For all the moments, of all the same mornings.
I don't want to tell you not to cry,
truly, we don't want to turn our backs on anything,
everything we didn't miss out on was well worth it.
Perhaps we'll see each other again,
maybe, maybe not,
but know that I am here.
There will remain like a light,
that will keep me warm in my winters,
a little fire of you which will not go out.
Watch the very moving video at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5IDMoEtlrc
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God bless you Ethan. I can only imagine how hard it must have been. :ghug: :^^)
Here, here Ethan.
Thank you so much.
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Thank you so much to many of you who just joined us and have expressed your thoughts with us. How I wish it could be a joyful occasion to welcome you here. Your thoughts are touching and hugs to you. :ghug:
Hanna, seeing the candle warms me. I am having mine too. It will be a candle that never burns out.
Here, here Ethan.
Thank you so much.
HLJG, you are welcome. It is a honor to do this tribute.
As painful as it is, the words from all of you are comforting. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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Pardon me, I'm in tears. I did just see Daniel Day's tribute to Heath on the SAG awards. I am going to be late to work, so I'm going to make this quick. I made a fanvid. I'm sorry this might not be in the exactly right spot, but to me, we all have our own tributes. Please, if you have a few minutes watch this. Thank you. God bless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzgBQuhinuk)
God bless you, Heath. :\'( ^f^
This was just lovely. Thank you so much.
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Thanks from me too, mods. The newsletter was a perfect tribute.
It was just incredible. Thanks you so very much.
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Thank you for your heartbreaking vids, Ravenus and Twisted! So beautiful! :\'(
They are both just so beautiful.
I still wake up and for a few seconds I forget.,. and then reality hits me.,.
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Oh god...Ethan...that video...
I hadn't cried...not really...until now
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Just beautiful. Thank you so much.
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HLJG :ghug:
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Jackster, this is beyond moving. It is so beautiful. I love every bit, but especially the part I bolded and colored red. Thank you so much. :\'( :ghug:
Confidentiel
A beautiful song written by Jean-Jaques Goldman in 1985 for a close friend who had died ten years earlier. It is in French and sung "at dirge slowness". A beautiful video done with it two years ago by Cybella as Ennis remembers Jack. It can now be easily seen as us remembering Heath.
The French:
Je voulais simplement te dire
Que ton visage et ton sourire
Resteront près de moi, sur mon chemin
Te dire que c'était pour de vrai
Tout c'qu'on s'est dit, tout c'qu'on a fait
Qu'c'était pas pour de faux, que c'était bien
Faut surtout jamais regretter
Même si ça fait mal, c'est gagné
Tous ces moments, tous ces mêmes matins
J'vais pas te dire qu'faut pas pleurer
Y'a vraiment pas d'quoi s'en priver
Et tout c'qu'on n'a pas loupé, le valait bien
Peut-être on se retrouvera
Peut-être que peut-être pas
Mais sache qu'ici bas, je suis là
ça restera comme une lumière
Qui m'tiendra chaud dans mes hivers
Un petit feu de toi qui s'éteint pas
| A (possibly poor) translation for those of us who are linguistically challenged, corrections welcomed:
I wanted simply to say to you,
that your face and your smile,
will remain by me, on my way.
To tell you that it was truth,
All that was said, all that was done,
that it was not false, that it was good.
Above all, never regret,
Even if it hurt, it was gain,
For all the moments, of all the same mornings.
I don't want to tell you not to cry,
truly, we don't want to turn our backs on anything,
everything we didn't miss out on was well worth it.
Perhaps we'll see each other again,
maybe, maybe not,
but know that I am here.
There will remain like a light,
that will keep me warm in my winters,
a little fire of you which will not go out.
|
Watch the very moving video at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5IDMoEtlrc
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Every post touches me, and I am many many pages behind, but I have off from work tonite and I am going to read each and every one.
This post touched me deeply, as I have to correct myself often when I speak of heath--from he "is" to he 'was".,.,
I will give you my love and :ghug: now. I have been unable to read every post as yet, its too emotional, just skimming through.
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Thanks Esmelily-you all are the greatest! And, no, there's nothing flippant about wanting those photos to keep rolling in- that's part of who he was.
I know I am posting a lot. That's a no-win deal, there, as some might find that over-done, but there are others who find each and every post, from everybody, even people just signing up, a proof that their own feelings are not mis-placed or couldn't be understood.
Anyway, some rambling thoughts about Heath. When they write books about him (and they will), I hope they catch the tensions and contradictions in his life. So very many. He often referred to himself as being on a journey, always moving on, and yet we can see, at times, how much he wanted to settle down to one place.
He was painfully shy, and yet got out there every day, to meet the world. He wanted his privacy, and yet he also wanted to signal some deep inner hurts. He was ambitious, and yet he spoke of just walking away from it all. He was graceful, at times, beyond nearly everyone else, and yet, at other times, awkward and ill at ease. And he wanted to blow-off deep underlying meanings to life even as he often pursued them.
It was these very contradictions that integrated into the full person. But most of all, when they write those books, I hope they capture the biggest contadiction of all- Heath was often, just---ordinary, and knew that, and wanted the peace of blending in with the ordinary world.
And when they come to the troubled parts of his life, I sincerely hope they look closer. Whatever failures there were, they never went down the road to malice or spite or mocking other people. If he went along for the ride, in the faults natural to human beings, this was one guy who always did that from a natural liking for people, and he always drew back from cruelty to others. That speaks more for him than all his talent, all his good-breeding, all of his love for life---Heath wanted people to be happy, even when sometimes, he wasn't. That may well be the real story of the life of Heath Ledger-he loved people. Painfully shy, according to close friends. But loved people as they were. That is a rare soul.
This is a beautiful tribute to Heath, Tony. I hope his biographers will pay heed to your words, and notice the most extraordinary part of Heath was his grounded ordinariness. Someone once said that heroes are ordinary people doing extraordinary things. Heath is my hero. As you said, he wanted others to be happy even when sometimes, he wasn't. And this is the source of his wisdom, a yearning to know people, to love people. Thank you, friend, for your extraordinary perceptiveness, and understanding of Heath.
:ghug:
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Every post touches me, and I am many many pages behind, but I have off from work tonite and I am going to read each and every one.
This post touched me deeply, as I have to correct myself often when I speak of heath--from he "is" to he 'was".,.,
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: HLJG You are not alone in that. I still speak of Heath in the present tense sometimes, as I do Ennis. I guess it feels like they are still here in me, so it feels right to use the present tense. I know, I am weird in that regard, but I am willing to take on any label for them. It comforts me somehow, to be able to say Ennis is a loving man, or Heath has the gift that touched many souls. These are universal and eternal qualities that, somehow, I don't feel right putting into the past.
I hope you find your comfort zone.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Confidentiel
A (possibly poor) translation for those of us who are linguistically challenged, corrections welcomed:
I wanted simply to say to you,
that your face and your smile,
will remain by me, on my way.
To tell you that it was truth,
All that was said, all that was done,
that it was not false, that it was good.
Above all, never regret,
Even if it hurt, it was gain,
For all the moments, of all the same mornings.
I don't want to tell you not to cry,
truly, we don't want to turn our backs on anything,
everything we didn't miss out on was well worth it.
Perhaps we'll see each other again,
maybe, maybe not,
but know that I am here.
There will remain like a light,
that will keep me warm in my winters,
a little fire of you which will not go out.
Watch the very moving video at:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5IDMoEtlrc
How beautiful.
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One thing that I've been thinking on today is that I've read here how many people say that it makes them sad to think that Heath died alone... Yes, it makes me sad too if I think about it that way, but he wasn't alone in his life. I'm sure even in some dark moments he must have had, like we all, he knew in his heart that he wasn't alone. And, in the moment of death, isn't it so that every one of us must face that all by ourselves? And as I see it, if you can pass away while you are sleeping, that's the way to go that many of us would choose if it would be possible. Right?
I completely agree. I told Christie today, I wanna think that he lived his life to the fullest, that he enjoyed and loved what he did and that he fulfilled his dreams in life... and that eventually he just went to sleep and didn't wake up, without even knowing what was happening to him. I'm sticking to this version because it brings me some comfort, and I don't wanna read any stuff that says otherwise.
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I completely agree. I told Christie today, I wanna think that he lived his life to the fullest, that he enjoyed and loved what he did and that he fulfilled his dreams in life... and that eventually he just went to sleep and didn't wake up, without even knowing what was happening to him. I'm sticking to this version because it brings me some comfort, and I don't wanna read any stuff that says otherwise.
I hope that too, Keren, with all my heart.
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It's Another You Day ... Written by Julia Fordham & Gary Clark
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It's another you day
It's another you day
There you are
At the bus stop by the car
You're the music on my radio
And I can't turn you down
You're the driver on the ghost train
That's pulling me around
You are the traffic
You are everywhere
It's another you day
It's another you day
There you are
By the bandstand in the park
You're the star in every picture
And I'm so unrehearsed
I see you in the mirror
I see myself reversed
You are a vision
You are everywhere
It's another you day
It's another you day
There you are
In my bedroom in the dark
I still think about you
All the time
You're always on my mind
That's okay
It's just another you day
It's another you day
It's another you day
There you are
At the bus stop by the car
It's another you day
It's another you day
There you are
By the bandstand in the park
There you are
In my bedroom in the dark
It's another you day
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Roco, that's amazing and so beautiful..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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That is gorgeous.
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Rhyme XXIII
For a glance: the world;
For a smile: the heavens;
For a kiss...I don't know
What I'd give for a kiss!
GAB
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I'm not sure if anyone else has noticed and already posted but in the UK Now magazine on the feature about Heath there is a picture, and it's the same picture that's in the banner at the top - the tribute left for Heath outside his apartment. Thought it was nice how that picture was shown! x
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I just got my issue of Entertainment Weekly in the mail. There is a piece about Heath and his unfinished films starting on page 12. Half the page has Ethan's picture from the flowers placed outside his Soho condo.
Made me smile.
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Thanks lauren123 and masetane. I would like to think that Heath also appreciates our small tribute.
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I just got my issue of Entertainment Weekly in the mail. There is a piece about Heath and his unfinished films starting on page 12. Half the page has Ethan's picture from the flowers placed outside his Soho condo.
Made me smile.
I'm not sure if anyone else has noticed and already posted but in the UK Now magazine on the feature about Heath there is a picture, and it's the same picture that's in the banner at the top - the tribute left for Heath outside his apartment. Thought it was nice how that picture was shown! x
Oh my, that's so sweet.
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mikele, thank you for these beautiful words. I took the liberty to translate them with the help of Google Translate, to share them with our friends. Please forgive me if I mangled any words, and please correct me.
Alors, ce jour là, j'ai compris que même le soleil avait perdu son éclat, que plus rien ne serait comme avant; la douceur de ton visage si chère à mon coeur paraissait déjà s'estomper, tout ce qui m'entourait n'avait plus d'importance. J'aurais voulu crier mon désespoir à en perdre la voix, à tarir la source de mes larmes au vent des montagnes, mais pourtant, c'est à chaque fois qu'une image douce et furtive du passé s'emparait de ma mémoire. Un sentiment d'une infinie solitude me submerge chaque jour, à chaque instant, mais tout le meilleur de toi est ancré en moi, comme soudé à jamais en mon coeur. Je sais maintenant que tu es à mes côtés Ennis, que lorsque je tombe à genoux tu es là pour me relever, et ton souffle, l'odeur de ta peau, tes caresses, je les ressens encore; j'entends parfois ta voix comme une brise courrir des sommets jusqu'aux plaines et s'engouffrer dans mon âme avec une douce sensation d'amour enfin retrouvé...Ennis je serai toujours là, j'ai toujours besoin de cela,.... besoin de toi.
| O from that day, I realized that even the sun had lost its lustre, that nothing would be like before, the softness of your face so dear to my heart seemed already fading, everything around me no longer important. I wanted to shout my despair hoarse, let out my tears like mountain wind, but yet it is each time a fresh image of the past and furtive came upon my memory. A sense of infinite loneliness overwhelms me every day, at every moment, but the best of you is entrenched in me, and welded forever in my heart. I know now that you are at my side Ennis, I find that when you are kneeling there to get up, and your breath, the smell of your skin, your caresses, I still feel, I sometimes hear your voice as a breeze that carry from peaks to the plains and leap into my soul with a fresh feeling of love finally finding Ennis ... I will always be there, I always need that ,.... Need you.
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Merci, mon ami.
Thank you very much dear friend for this very good work with the french words, really a pleasure to read the translation..
And thank so everyone for the wonderful words I have read
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Few words I have written last year, and dedicaced to Heath and Lancecowboy2007
Chaque nuit mes yeux te cherchent dans le noir.
Ils ne te trouvent pas puisque tu n'es plus là. Le reflet de la lune donne à ce qui m'entoure une atmosphère irréelle. Ils me semblent si lointains ces jours où tu dormais à mes côtés, si lumineux, et pourtant leur éclat s'est estompé avec ton absence.
Doucement mes yeux se ferment sur ces jours anciens, et comme par magie mon esprit glisse vers toi.
Et puis, quelque part, ailleurs dans le souvenir, je sens à nouveau ton amour transfigurer mon âme, je sais qu'à mon réveil je serais comblé puisque cette nuit, il m'aura encore semblé que tu étais là, juste pour moi.
Each night my eyes look for you in the dark.
They don't found your face, cause you're not there. The glint of the moon shows all around me an unreal moment. They seems so far those days when you sleep next to me, so radian, and yet their brightness have stop to fade in your absence.
Slowly my eyes closeto this ancient days, and as if by magic my spirit moves to you.
And then, somewhere, elsewhere into memories, I feel again your love transforme my soul by happyness, and I know when I wake up I'll be fill with joy because this night seemed to me you was there, juste for me.
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No-one can ever say it better than the following, a statement from Michelle Williams:
Please respect our need to grieve privately. My heart is broken. I am the mother of the most tender-hearted, high-spirited, beautiful little girl who is the spitting image of her father. All that I can cling to is his presence inside her that reveals itself every day. His family and I watch Matilda as she whispers to trees, hugs animals, and takes steps two at a time and we know that he is with us still. She will be brought up with the best memories of him.”
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You guys are all amazing. I've been reading through as much as I can (been having computer problems the last couple days) and all the tributes, song lyrics, poems -- everything is so beautiful that I can't stop the tears.
ksxks, rosie and no reins -- thank you all SO MUCH for listening to "Jack, I Swear" and for your wonderful comments. Those words from my heart have only one wish...and that is to touch others. I never thought I would be posting them anywhere under such circumstances.
I promised myself that after I had the demo recorded I was going to send a copy to Heath, as a thank you for bringing the part of Ennis to life so beautifully and sensitively -- and as a result, changing minds, hearts and lives. I kept procrastinating about looking into an address to send it to...and now I'll never have the chance again. But I have reached you guys and for that I will always be grateful.
No Reins -- I've never had any of my lyrics quoted before! You have no idea how much that warmed my heart.
ksxks -- you asked if I would post the lyrics here, so here you go...
"Jack, I Swear"
The subtle trace of breeze upon my face,
The sound of crackling embers as they fade,
The biting cold that rips my weakened heart,
The words catch in my throat, too long delayed.
I feel the breath of whispered words so near,
They comfort through the thin cold mountain the air.
That time of fear and longing intertwined…
Just for one sweet moment more - I swear.
Chorus:
When day is done I lie upon my bed,
Each lonely night, the same repeated prayer
To meet you once again in twilight sleep.
For just one single dream of you – I swear
To say I’d give my life is not enough,
This weathered weary heart’s not worth a dime.
The tragic truth will haunt me all my days,
I’ll bear the cross of blame that’s surely mine.
And as I slowly wake to morning rain,
I taste the tears still wet upon my face.
So desperate to reclaim my restless sleep,
Unwilling to release your sweet embrace.
Chorus:
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
If any of you have a myspace, I would love to add you as a friend on mine. http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Thanks for being here.
Loretta
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You guys are all amazing. I've been reading through as much as I can (been having computer problems the last couple days) and all the tributes, song lyrics, poems -- everything is so beautiful that I can't stop the tears.
ksxks, rosie and no reins -- thank you all SO MUCH for listening to "Jack, I Swear" and for your wonderful comments. Those words from my heart have only one wish...and that is to touch others. I never thought I would be posting them anywhere under such circumstances.
I promised myself that after I had the demo recorded I was going to send a copy to Heath, as a thank you for bringing the part of Ennis to life so beautifully and sensitively -- and as a result, changing minds, hearts and lives. I kept procrastinating about looking into an address to send it to...and now I'll never have the chance again. But I have reached you guys and for that I will always be grateful.
No Reins -- I've never had any of my lyrics quoted before! You have no idea how much that warmed my heart.
ksxks -- you asked if I would post the lyrics here, so here you go...
"Jack, I Swear"
The subtle trace of breeze upon my face,
The sound of crackling embers as they fade,
The biting cold that rips my weakened heart,
The words catch in my throat, too long delayed.
I feel the breath of whispered words so near,
They comfort through the thin cold mountain the air.
That time of fear and longing intertwined…
Just for one sweet moment more - I swear.
Chorus:
When day is done I lie upon my bed,
Each lonely night, the same repeated prayer
To meet you once again in twilight sleep.
For just one single dream of you – I swear
To say I’d give my life is not enough,
This weathered weary heart’s not worth a dime.
The tragic truth will haunt me all my days,
I’ll bear the cross of blame that’s surely mine.
And as I slowly wake to morning rain,
I taste the tears still wet upon my face.
So desperate to reclaim my restless sleep,
Unwilling to release your sweet embrace.
Chorus:
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
If any of you have a myspace, I would love to add you as a friend on mine. http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Thanks for being here.
Loretta
I love the song, it's beautiful. :clap: :\'( I have a myspace and I'm deff. adding you..you guys have some great much O0
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Hello Brokies...
In Chorus today, we took a day off to learn about the roots of Rock n' Roll and our teacher talked about the Beatles. It was interesting cuz they were an awsome band and my parents are also big fans. Before I left, she put on the song "Let it be" and I just started to sing the lyrics, and realized how beautiful the song was and how true it was. In the last moment, I thought of Heath, and like I've said before and as Jack said it in Annie Proulx SS, "Let it be"..it's the scary truth..
This evening, after dinner, I heard of the statement Michelle said and it was beautiful but heartbreaking. I know it must be so hard for her and to look into her daughter's eyes and see her father. But I believe (and he has said as well) that Heath is now part of Matilda, her guardian angel, and in that way, it comforts me.
:ghug:
Lis
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No-one can ever say it better than the following, a statement from Michelle Williams:
Please respect our need to grieve privately. My heart is broken. I am the mother of the most tender-hearted, high-spirited, beautiful little girl who is the spitting image of her father. All that I can cling to is his presence inside her that reveals itself every day. His family and I watch Matilda as she whispers to trees, hugs animals, and takes steps two at a time and we know that he is with us still. She will be brought up with the best memories of him.”
Thank you so much for posting this. It is so generous of Michelle to share this with us. I am glad that Heath lives on in more than just our hearts, but also in life.
Remembrance is so bittersweet. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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mikele, thank you for this. I am so honored to be linked to Heath. Merci... :\'( :ghug:
Few words I have written last year, and dedicaced to Heath and Lancecowboy2007
Chaque nuit mes yeux te cherchent dans le noir.
Ils ne te trouvent pas puisque tu n'es plus là. Le reflet de la lune donne à ce qui m'entoure une atmosphère irréelle. Ils me semblent si lointains ces jours où tu dormais à mes côtés, si lumineux, et pourtant leur éclat s'est estompé avec ton absence.
Doucement mes yeux se ferment sur ces jours anciens, et comme par magie mon esprit glisse vers toi.
Et puis, quelque part, ailleurs dans le souvenir, je sens à nouveau ton amour transfigurer mon âme, je sais qu'à mon réveil je serais comblé puisque cette nuit, il m'aura encore semblé que tu étais là, juste pour moi. | Each night my eyes look for you in the dark.
They don't find your face, cause you're not there. The glint of the moon shows all around me an unreal moment. They seem so far from those days when you slept next to me, so radiant, and yet their brightness have stop to fade in your absence.
Slowly my eyes close to this ancient of days, and as if by magic my spirit glides towards you.
And then, somewhere, elsewhere in memories, I feel again your love transforming my soul with happiness, and I know when I wake up I'll be filled with joy because this night seemed to me you were there, just for me. |
This captures how I feel so much, where I bolded and colored red. Thank you so much. :ghug: :ghug:
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Loretta, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Thank you for sharing your beautiful song, and moving lyrics.
:ghug: :\'( :ghug:
If I have a myspace account, I'd be proud to have you as a friend. :ghug:
You guys are all amazing. I've been reading through as much as I can (been having computer problems the last couple days) and all the tributes, song lyrics, poems -- everything is so beautiful that I can't stop the tears.
ksxks, rosie and no reins -- thank you all SO MUCH for listening to "Jack, I Swear" and for your wonderful comments. Those words from my heart have only one wish...and that is to touch others. I never thought I would be posting them anywhere under such circumstances.
I promised myself that after I had the demo recorded I was going to send a copy to Heath, as a thank you for bringing the part of Ennis to life so beautifully and sensitively -- and as a result, changing minds, hearts and lives. I kept procrastinating about looking into an address to send it to...and now I'll never have the chance again. But I have reached you guys and for that I will always be grateful.
No Reins -- I've never had any of my lyrics quoted before! You have no idea how much that warmed my heart.
ksxks -- you asked if I would post the lyrics here, so here you go...
"Jack, I Swear"
The subtle trace of breeze upon my face,
The sound of crackling embers as they fade,
The biting cold that rips my weakened heart,
The words catch in my throat, too long delayed.
I feel the breath of whispered words so near,
They comfort through the thin cold mountain the air.
That time of fear and longing intertwined…
Just for one sweet moment more - I swear.
Chorus:
When day is done I lie upon my bed,
Each lonely night, the same repeated prayer
To meet you once again in twilight sleep.
For just one single dream of you – I swear
To say I’d give my life is not enough,
This weathered weary heart’s not worth a dime.
The tragic truth will haunt me all my days,
I’ll bear the cross of blame that’s surely mine.
And as I slowly wake to morning rain,
I taste the tears still wet upon my face.
So desperate to reclaim my restless sleep,
Unwilling to release your sweet embrace.
Chorus:
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
If any of you have a myspace, I would love to add you as a friend on mine. http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Thanks for being here.
Loretta
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Loretta, I cannot do this at work, but i will add you on MySpace (request you as a friend) tomorrow from home.
The song is just beautiful.
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Loretta, thank you for adding your lyrics here. I don't have a myspace account, this is the only online comminity I belong to, but there is no need, you are my friend right here :ghug:
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Thank you so much for posting this. It is so generous of Michelle to share this with us. I am glad that Heath lives on in more than just our hearts, but also in life.
Remembrance is so bittersweet. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I agree, Lancecowboy. That statement is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. I love the last part that is bolded. It reminds me of what I often thought when I saw Heath and Michelle-that they are such beautiful souls. They are the kind of people you just KNOW are something special. Thanks for posting it, vivici.
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You guys are all amazing. I've been reading through as much as I can (been having computer problems the last couple days) and all the tributes, song lyrics, poems -- everything is so beautiful that I can't stop the tears.
ksxks, rosie and no reins -- thank you all SO MUCH for listening to "Jack, I Swear" and for your wonderful comments. Those words from my heart have only one wish...and that is to touch others. I never thought I would be posting them anywhere under such circumstances.
I promised myself that after I had the demo recorded I was going to send a copy to Heath, as a thank you for bringing the part of Ennis to life so beautifully and sensitively -- and as a result, changing minds, hearts and lives. I kept procrastinating about looking into an address to send it to...and now I'll never have the chance again. But I have reached you guys and for that I will always be grateful.
No Reins -- I've never had any of my lyrics quoted before! You have no idea how much that warmed my heart.
ksxks -- you asked if I would post the lyrics here, so here you go...
"Jack, I Swear"
The subtle trace of breeze upon my face,
The sound of crackling embers as they fade,
The biting cold that rips my weakened heart,
The words catch in my throat, too long delayed.
I feel the breath of whispered words so near,
They comfort through the thin cold mountain the air.
That time of fear and longing intertwined…
Just for one sweet moment more - I swear.
Chorus:
When day is done I lie upon my bed,
Each lonely night, the same repeated prayer
To meet you once again in twilight sleep.
For just one single dream of you – I swear
To say I’d give my life is not enough,
This weathered weary heart’s not worth a dime.
The tragic truth will haunt me all my days,
I’ll bear the cross of blame that’s surely mine.
And as I slowly wake to morning rain,
I taste the tears still wet upon my face.
So desperate to reclaim my restless sleep,
Unwilling to release your sweet embrace.
Chorus:
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
If any of you have a myspace, I would love to add you as a friend on mine. http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Thanks for being here.
Loretta
Loretta...you got me in tears!!!! This is awesome, so sweet and so sad.... :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you so much for this; I can see Ennis here, I can hear him.
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Hello Brokies...
In Chorus today, we took a day off to learn about the roots of Rock n' Roll and our teacher talked about the Beatles. It was interesting cuz they were an awsome band and my parents are also big fans. Before I left, she put on the song "Let it be" and I just started to sing the lyrics, and realized how beautiful the song was and how true it was. In the last moment, I thought of Heath, and like I've said before and as Jack said it in Annie Proulx SS, "Let it be"..it's the scary truth..
This evening, after dinner, I heard of the statement Michelle said and it was beautiful but heartbreaking. I know it must be so hard for her and to look into her daughter's eyes and see her father. But I believe (and he has said as well) that Heath is now part of Matilda, her guardian angel, and in that way, it comforts me.
:ghug:
Lis
Lis, I adore The Beatles, and my favorite song is Let it be. I was stunned reading your post, 'cause since I read the SS, every time I heard Let it be I always think about Jack Twist and the dozy embrace, and also, and I don't know why, about Jack's mama, like if Ennis were singing that song and that Mother Mary was Mama Twist, whispering words of wisdom in that kitchen at Twist ranch, trying to comfort Ennis, just saying Let it be. Uh, I don't know if this makes any sense. Sorry....
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Few words I have written last year, and dedicaced to Heath and Lancecowboy2007
Chaque nuit mes yeux te cherchent dans le noir.
Ils ne te trouvent pas puisque tu n'es plus là. Le reflet de la lune donne à ce qui m'entoure une atmosphère irréelle. Ils me semblent si lointains ces jours où tu dormais à mes côtés, si lumineux, et pourtant leur éclat s'est estompé avec ton absence.
Doucement mes yeux se ferment sur ces jours anciens, et comme par magie mon esprit glisse vers toi.
Et puis, quelque part, ailleurs dans le souvenir, je sens à nouveau ton amour transfigurer mon âme, je sais qu'à mon réveil je serais comblé puisque cette nuit, il m'aura encore semblé que tu étais là, juste pour moi.
Each night my eyes look for you in the dark.
They don't found your face, cause you're not there. The glint of the moon shows all around me an unreal moment. They seems so far those days when you sleep next to me, so radian, and yet their brightness have stop to fade in your absence.
Slowly my eyes closeto this ancient days, and as if by magic my spirit moves to you.
And then, somewhere, elsewhere into memories, I feel again your love transforme my soul by happyness, and I know when I wake up I'll be fill with joy because this night seemed to me you was there, juste for me.
Mikele, this is utterly beautiful. I'm speechless here. Thank you so much.
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No-one can ever say it better than the following, a statement from Michelle Williams:
Thankyou for posting this. I see Heath in Matilda.... on the front of UKs NEW! mag is a pic of Michelle carrying Matilda and i was gobsmacked when i saw it at work and it brought tears to my eyes. :\'( I was so overwhelmed by the pic its a good pic anyway but seeing Heath in Matilda and how much she looks like him was both heartwarming and comforting to see how he lives on but also heartbreaking seeing him in her face reminding me hes gone and what beauty he has left behind in Matilda. He will always be looking over her though. #)
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Last night I had a very bitter dream. I was in an old so weird house, with purple curtains and red carpets. I was crying. There were a lot of people in the big room where I was. Heath was there, holding two little girls in his arms. He was crying. Then I felt cold. I saw another little girl running through a corridor, so I follow her. I tripped over some dirty boxes and when I looked up, in front of me was Michelle Willians. She was crying too. She looks at me angry and said something like, “thank you for let me see that he is just human, not perfect, not perfect at all….” Then I saw myself running through that red corridor again, crying so bad. Suddenly my brokie babe was there, holding me, crying too. I was shaking in those sweet arms, feeling miserable, and I could see Heath at the end of the corridor, still holding those babies in his arms, crying, huming something. There was a crowd ‘round him, and looking at them I felt so so so guilty and ashamed, and I don’t know why.
I woke up tired, confused, so sad and, of course, crying. I don’t think that that bad dream has any sense, but I don’t want to dream about Heath crying; I don’t want to think about Heath crying; I don’t want to see him crying. I need the last image of him to be a happy one: Heath smiling, Heath fidgeting, Heath speaking proudly of his work. My broken heart needs that. Not Heath sad, not Heath crying. No more tears, please……
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Last night I had a very bitter dream. I was in an old so weird house, with purple curtains and red carpets. I was crying. There were a lot of people in the big room where I was. Heath was there, holding two little girls in his arms. He was crying. Then I felt cold. I saw another little girl running through a corridor, so I follow her. I tripped over some dirty boxes and when I looked up, in front of me was Michelle Willians. She was crying too. She looks at me angry and said something like, “thank you for let me see that he is just human, not perfect, not perfect at all….” Then I saw myself running through that red corridor again, crying so bad. Suddenly my brokie babe was there, holding me, crying too. I was shaking in those sweet arms, feeling miserable, and I could see Heath at the end of the corridor, still holding those babies in his arms, crying, huming something. There was a crowd ‘round him, and looking at them I felt so so so guilty and ashamed, and I don’t know why.
I woke up tired, confused, so sad and , of course, crying. I don’t think that that bad dream has any sense, but I don’t want to dream about Heath crying; I don’t want to think about Heath crying; I don’t want to see him crying. I need the last image of him to be a happy one: Heath smiling, Heath fidgeting, Heath speaking proudly of his work. My broken heart needs that. Not Heath sad, not Heath crying. No more tears, please……
awwwwwww :ghug: im sorry you had to have such a bad dream, if i dreamt that id wake up crying too and upset. :\'( Youre right you dont want to see Heath upset. I think why you dreamt him unhappy is because you, yourself, is feeling that way too and our dreams are our minds making sense of our thoughts and feelings we've had during the day. You see Heath who we all miss dearly and think about alot, expressing your emotions in your dream. Dont worry in time when you feel stronger and a little happier...you will dream of Heath and he will be smiling in your dream...in all our dreams and he will be smiling as he can see you smiling inside and out. :^^) Look forward to that. He will be happy and will be smiling at you soon in your dreams. Take care hun xxx i hope i dream of Heath someday. #)
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10 Things I Hate About You is also on - on Sky Comedy, I think
I just watched 10 things I hate about you...I had seen parts of it, but I felt like I *had* to see it. It actually wasn't bad. I'm glad he didn't stick w/ the teen comedy things, because that wouldn't have been him.
I'm getting a collection of his dvds. Seems stupid, but I feel like I need them all, since there were so few.
So far in this last week I've gotten: Casanova, The Patriot, 10 Things I Hate About You, Brothers Grimm and Ned Kelly. I've seen each in bits & pieces over the years, being that I couldn't picture him in anything else except BBM. But I feel like I want to know his whole career now.
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There's a new angel in Heaven, huh?
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Oh God I understand you so well... I had a hard talk with my sister yesterday. A part of why it was so hard for me was because she just really doesn't understand at all why I am so affected by the death of "an actor I didn't even know" (and I hate it when people say that to me) and she couldn't understand my fascination with him when he was alive either. I felt like she was looking down on me or criticising me for it, and I just couldn't find the words to explain to her what he means to me. I felt bad and hurt when she reffered to him as "a movie star" and kept reminding me that I didn't know him and he certainly didn't know me.
No, I didn't know Heath, but I think I fell in love with him nonetheless. I've never heard of him before I saw BBM, but from the moment I saw him he stole my heart. How can I explain to people what it's like when my heart goes out to a fictional character, when I can't get him out of my thoughts, when his tears at that last scene make my heart ache so badly and cause me to cry too? Heath did all that for me, he made me identify with Ennis completely and cry for his tragedy. He touched my heart so deeply that I felt like Ennis had become a part of me. And at first, Heath was Ennis to me - I didn't even want to see him in other movies because I couldn't see him as anyone else but Ennis. He owned my heart as Ennis, not as Heath.
But after I've seen him in more movies, read articles about him and interviews with him, I became more and more aware of the amazing person that he was. So deep, so intelligent, so mature, so talented, such a unique human being with such a beautiful soul. And I was so greatful that such a man was chosen to portray Ennis del Mar, because he's gotten into Ennis's heart and soul in such an amazing way and that made me feel connected to him. For about half of my life I've been voicing out my support in gay rights and trying to fight people's homophobia, and in his beautiful heartbreaking portrayal of Ennis this guy had reached people's hearts and did what I couldn't have done in all those years. I cannot even begin to describe my appreciation and gratitude to him because of that. A piece of my heart will always belong to him.
Heath was so much more than "a movie star" to me. He wasn't a star, there was nothing starry about him. Through watching his films and reading interviews with him I discovered a beautiful man with a vulnerable soul, a man who talked openly and honestly about his fears, his weaknesses, his desires, a man who, in his "real life" off the set, couldn't be nothing but himself. There was so much depth in him, I could feel it, I could hear it in his words, in the thoughts that he shared. I can only imagine how overwhelmed I'd be if I'd known him in person. There are not many people who make you think "I don't know him but I have the strong impression that I'd like him a lot as a person if I did know him" (yes, thank you Daniel Day Lewis!!!) And Heath was one of these people. There was something so special about him that even people who didn't know him could feel.
Heath brought Ennis to life. He touched my soul and moved me in ways that I can't describe. Heath brought me here, to my new home and family. He took me up the mountain two years ago and I never went down. He had a very special place in my heart because of that. I thought about him as "my baby", I wanted to see him happy, growing and developing and making the most of his talent and I knew he would reach greatness. If I had a chance to give him back even a little of what he'd given me, I would've done anything.
But I guess some things you just can't explain.
keren, this is amazing post :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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My pain is beginning to calm down a bit. I mean I don't burst into tears every time I see a picture of Heath or read an article about him. I can't watch his 'serious' movies; instead I have been able to watch Casanova smiling through tears.
What you - each one of you - have written in this forum has been a great comfort to me! Because English is not my own language, I don't find the words I would like to say to express myself properly, and the other hand I'm a person with few words. So reading your posts have been very important to me, a channel through which I have found just the words and expressions I have needed.
I love you Brokies! We must take care of each others and ourselves to get through this. I think it will never be totally through, it remains to be a part of us eternally. Heath will live inside us forever.
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My pain is beginning to calm down a bit. I mean I don't burst into tears every time I see a picture of Heath or read an article about him. I can't watch his 'serious' movies; instead I have been able to watch Casanova smiling through tears.
What you - each one of you - have written in this forum has been a great comfort to me! Because English is not my own language, I don't find the words I would like to say to express myself properly, and the other hand I'm a person with few words. So reading your posts have been very important to me, a channel through which I have found just the words and expressions I have needed.
I love you Brokies! We must take care of each others and ourselves to get through this. I think it will never be totally through, it remains to be a part of us eternally. Heath will live inside us forever. :ghug:
That's beautiful Carmilla, and so true. ^f^
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Just wanted to say - whoever made the new forum banner, it's absolutely beautiful.
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Just wanted to say - whoever made the new forum banner, it's absolutely beautiful.
I absolutely agree! It's simply stunning and heart-wrenching!
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Hey guys, I just wanted to let you know that one of our Croatian channels ( the same one that broadcast BBM a year ago ) decided to broadcast MONSTER'S BALL tonight...the movie begins in about half an hour....I'm definitely gonna watch it again, and record it on my DVD.
Just thought I'd let you know....
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I just watched 10 things I hate about you...I had seen parts of it, but I felt like I *had* to see it. It actually wasn't bad. I'm glad he didn't stick w/ the teen comedy things, because that wouldn't have been him.
I'm getting a collection of his dvds. Seems stupid, but I feel like I need them all, since there were so few.
So far in this last week I've gotten: Casanova, The Patriot, 10 Things I Hate About You, Brothers Grimm and Ned Kelly. I've seen each in bits & pieces over the years, being that I couldn't picture him in anything else except BBM. But I feel like I want to know his whole career now.
I read how the sales for Heath's movies have skyrocketed in the past week, so sad that it takes his death for people to appreciate and want to see his work.
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just watched the first 40 minutes of Monster's Ball ( it's been over 3 years since I've watched this movie..I've already forgotten half of it! ) and my God, I burst into tears 3 times...first when P.Diddy's character says 'I've always believed that a portrait captures a person far better than a photograph. It truly takes a human being to really see a human being.' The second sentence just got to me...then when he was executed...and then during the whole part where Heath and Billy Bob's character fought and ultimately, when Heath's character said: 'Well I've always loved you' and shot himself. after that scene, I turned the TV off 'cause I just couldn't watch it anymore, it was too hard.
Heath really was shier perfection. He acted beautifully, a simply marvelous portrayal of a lonesome, deeply sensitive and fragile human being who simply longs for affection, love, conversation, warmth. A person who wants to feel he belongs, who wants to know that there's more to this life...and that it does have a purpose. A person who simply longs for a connection, but all his gets is- resentment and total lack of understanding.
I got all of this just from Heath's portrayal. I cared for his character. I'll be damned, but during those 36 minutes that he was in the movie, I came to genuinely care for the character our Heath created and wanted to follow him 'till the very end, as Daniel Day-Lewis marvelously pointed out. But that final scene....when you realize that the last words he heard were 'I always hated you' from him own father, whom he had always loved...my God, that was so gripping, raw and heart-wrenching that I just couldn't stop crying...and then the realization that Heath himself is no longer with us hit me real hard....and it became unbearable.
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Just wanted to say - whoever made the new forum banner, it's absolutely beautiful.
Thank you :^^), and Koka too.
Actually I don't say much about Heath, cause I don't have the words to describe what I feel, so the best way I can do it is by making banners in his memory. :\'(
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Thank you :^^), and Koka too.
Actually I don't say much about Heath, cause I don't have the words to describe what I feel, so the best way I can do it is by making banners in his memory. :\'(
that's absolutely wonderful pierralex <^( because ART is a form of expression! and you express yourself beautifully!
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If you want to share the date/time of any Heath's movie broadcast on TV, you could post them there:
Heath tv alerts (post em all in here)
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=577.msg680631#msg680631
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Thank you :^^), and Koka too.
Actually I don't say much about Heath, cause I don't have the words to describe what I feel, so the best way I can do it is by making banners in his memory. :\'(
It is wonderful--just wonderful and truly appreciated.
I am not talented in that respect, but like to write, albeit not very well.
I couldn't do it until tonite, but I decided to blog in MySpace about Heath's passing.
www.myspace.com/mannymom
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I read how the sales for Heath's movies have skyrocketed in the past week, so sad that it takes his death for people to appreciate and want to see his work.
Yeah I know...I've been putting the movies of his on my netflix list, the ones I haven't bought....and they mostly have "very long waits", meaning they are in high-demand.
I have a few friends who wouldn't even think about watching BBM before, but now hearing how great he was, and how great the movie was, they are wanting to see it now. At least they are experiencing it, even if it's after Heath's death, and because of it.
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Here is link to the post for downloading the forum tribute video.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
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I miss him...i will always miss him...
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Welcome, seantj.
You are not alone and will not be the one. We all miss him. :ghug:
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I'm watching the Patriot right now. :\'( he's so good.
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Hello Everyone...
I planned and planned, making a schedule of times to go and everything only to be shot down. Tomorrow, if I didn't already say, me and around 3, 4 of my friends were going to Soho, with an adult to drive us but when my friend called saying that he couldn't because "He was going to his brother's house to watch the Superbowl"..made me so sad. I heard almost the exact same thing from another friend when she called me 2 hours later telling me she couldn't go. Not that I have anything against football, but I think now, i dislike it even more..ugg, I wanted to go so badly and to just have fun with my friends while going there and paying tribute...now, i don't know. I said to my friend that now I've made a pact go to Australia before I'm 21. Because that way, I can have a vacation with my friends, go to the Australian Zoo [where Steve Irwin's family works, i always wanted to go there] and go to Perth to put flowers at his grave...I know it's gunna be a long time until then but I believe in my heart, like this forum, I will still say to people that Heath Ledger is my favorite actor, nothing can replace him..
Anyway, I'm sorry for my blabbering...I just had to let out some of my frustration, now I'm going to rest. Sweet Dreams my fellow Brokies :^^)
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Lis
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You guys are all amazing. I've been reading through as much as I can (been having computer problems the last couple days) and all the tributes, song lyrics, poems -- everything is so beautiful that I can't stop the tears.
ksxks, rosie and no reins -- thank you all SO MUCH for listening to "Jack, I Swear" and for your wonderful comments. Those words from my heart have only one wish...and that is to touch others. I never thought I would be posting them anywhere under such circumstances.
I promised myself that after I had the demo recorded I was going to send a copy to Heath, as a thank you for bringing the part of Ennis to life so beautifully and sensitively -- and as a result, changing minds, hearts and lives. I kept procrastinating about looking into an address to send it to...and now I'll never have the chance again. But I have reached you guys and for that I will always be grateful.
No Reins -- I've never had any of my lyrics quoted before! You have no idea how much that warmed my heart.
ksxks -- you asked if I would post the lyrics here, so here you go...
"Jack, I Swear"
The subtle trace of breeze upon my face,
The sound of crackling embers as they fade,
The biting cold that rips my weakened heart,
The words catch in my throat, too long delayed.
I feel the breath of whispered words so near,
They comfort through the thin cold mountain the air.
That time of fear and longing intertwined…
Just for one sweet moment more - I swear.
Chorus:
When day is done I lie upon my bed,
Each lonely night, the same repeated prayer
To meet you once again in twilight sleep.
For just one single dream of you – I swear
To say I’d give my life is not enough,
This weathered weary heart’s not worth a dime.
The tragic truth will haunt me all my days,
I’ll bear the cross of blame that’s surely mine.
And as I slowly wake to morning rain,
I taste the tears still wet upon my face.
So desperate to reclaim my restless sleep,
Unwilling to release your sweet embrace.
Chorus:
But yes, the cold gray morning always finds me,
It knows not of my dreams and doesn’t care,
And so I rise to face the life I’ve chosen.
But oh, things would be different, Jack…I swear.
The world would be so different, I swear.
If any of you have a myspace, I would love to add you as a friend on mine. http://www.myspace.com/ret4
Thanks for being here.
Loretta
Thank you so much, Loretta. Reading words sometimes is as powerful or even more so than hearing them. I can dwell on a lines, visualize, feel Ennis' heart-pain, his love... So beautiful! I wish you'd had the opportunity to send your recording to Heath... If that's not a lesson, what is? Jack's death, Heath's death.
But it is indeed meantingful that we have each other here to share all this with. A big web of love and understanding around the world.
Today I was having a BBM thing made at a kiosk at a mall, and the young woman there was from Turkey. She asked questions, wanted to talk about BBM, about Heath's death, about how terrible it is in her country for gays, etc. I love it when I come across someone who was also so moved.
kathy
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I just watched 10 things I hate about you...I had seen parts of it, but I felt like I *had* to see it. It actually wasn't bad. I'm glad he didn't stick w/ the teen comedy things, because that wouldn't have been him.
I'm getting a collection of his dvds. Seems stupid, but I feel like I need them all, since there were so few.
So far in this last week I've gotten: Casanova, The Patriot, 10 Things I Hate About You, Brothers Grimm and Ned Kelly. I've seen each in bits & pieces over the years, being that I couldn't picture him in anything else except BBM. But I feel like I want to know his whole career now.
After a little while after BBM, I felt I wanted to see Heath in other roles besides Ennis. I got all his DVD's (and Jake's too) except the Patriot, and I have that from Netflix and am about to watch it tonight. It does happen that after someone is gone, we want to know every single thing about him, huh? Except I'm in no hurry to see every single pic I haven't seen, because one day, I will have seen them all...
kathy
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:ghug: Lis, I understand it can be tough, but hang in there. And Superbowl is big tomorrow. Tom Brady will be playing for the record of an undefeated season. I am sure Heath would understand if you reschedule. It is the thought that counts, not the speed. Like Jake said, fast or slow, I just like the direction you are going. I also dream of visiting Heath in Perth one day.
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Hello Everyone...
I planned and planned, making a schedule of times to go and everything only to be shot down. Tomorrow, if I didn't already say, me and around 3, 4 of my friends were going to Soho, with an adult to drive us but when my friend called saying that he couldn't because "He was going to his brother's house to watch the Superbowl"..made me so sad. I heard almost the exact same thing from another friend when she called me 2 hours later telling me she couldn't go. Not that I have anything against football, but I think now, i dislike it even more..ugg, I wanted to go so badly and to just have fun with my friends while going there and paying tribute...now, i don't know. I said to my friend that now I've made a pact go to Australia before I'm 21. Because that way, I can have a vacation with my friends, go to the Australian Zoo [where Steve Irwin's family works, i always wanted to go there] and go to Perth to put flowers at his grave...I know it's gunna be a long time until then but I believe in my heart, like this forum, I will still say to people that Heath Ledger is my favorite actor, nothing can replace him..
Anyway, I'm sorry for my blabbering...I just had to let out some of my frustration, now I'm going to rest. Sweet Dreams my fellow Brokies :^^)
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Lis
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Thank you :^^), and Koka too.
Actually I don't say much about Heath, cause I don't have the words to describe what I feel, so the best way I can do it is by making banners in his memory. :\'(
Well, you do him proud pierralex. :^^) :ghug:
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Here is link to the post for downloading the forum tribute video.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
Thank you Ethan.
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Thank you so much, Loretta. Reading words sometimes is as powerful or even more so than hearing them. I can dwell on a lines, visualize, feel Ennis' heart-pain, his love... So beautiful! I wish you'd had the opportunity to send your recording to Heath... If that's not a lesson, what is? Jack's death, Heath's death.
But it is indeed meantingful that we have each other here to share all this with. A big web of love and understanding around the world.
Today I was having a BBM thing made at a kiosk at a mall, and the young woman there was from Turkey. She asked questions, wanted to talk about BBM, about Heath's death, about how terrible it is in her country for gays, etc. I love it when I come across someone who was also so moved.
kathy
So do I kathy. It's like even though I don't know that person, I know they are on the same wave length as me. A close friend of mine who I shared my true feeling about BBM with, and lent my video and book too, did not 'get it' at all. Her total lack of understanding about it changed the way I saw her. I know that may sound bad, but I can't help it, it's true, it did. It made me question her compassion, and that is why I value this place so highly. A big web of love and understanding around the world is a good way to describe it. Never more so than right now. Comforting each other. :ghug:
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Here is link to the post for downloading the forum tribute video.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
thank you so much ethan.
and again, for everything you did here for us, for this place. ^f^
and thank you to allof you being here together, sharing and caring. ^f^
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I miss him...i will always miss him...
:\'( :\'( :\'(
It's almost two weeks now. I woke up yesterday feeling like someone was sitting on my chest, or like someone was holding my heart in their fist and squeezing it. It was almost hard to breathe. I've often had mornings like that in the last couple of weeks. Heath had once talked about being away from his little girl and said "it's like your whole body has a lump in it's throat". That's the way I feel.
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Seb, the new banner is beautiful. It worth a thousand words. Thank you. :ghug:
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just watched the first 40 minutes of Monster's Ball ( it's been over 3 years since I've watched this movie..I've already forgotten half of it! ) and my God, I burst into tears 3 times...first when P.Diddy's character says 'I've always believed that a portrait captures a person far better than a photograph. It truly takes a human being to really see a human being.' The second sentence just got to me...then when he was executed...and then during the whole part where Heath and Billy Bob's character fought and ultimately, when Heath's character said: 'Well I've always loved you' and shot himself. after that scene, I turned the TV off 'cause I just couldn't watch it anymore, it was too hard.
Heath really was shier perfection. He acted beautifully, a simply marvelous portrayal of a lonesome, deeply sensitive and fragile human being who simply longs for affection, love, conversation, warmth. A person who wants to feel he belongs, who wants to know that there's more to this life...and that it does have a purpose. A person who simply longs for a connection, but all his gets is- resentment and total lack of understanding.
I got all of this just from Heath's portrayal. I cared for his character. I'll be damned, but during those 36 minutes that he was in the movie, I came to genuinely care for the character our Heath created and wanted to follow him 'till the very end, as Daniel Day-Lewis marvelously pointed out. But that final scene....when you realize that the last words he heard were 'I always hated you' from him own father, whom he had always loved...my God, that was so gripping, raw and heart-wrenching that I just couldn't stop crying...and then the realization that Heath himself is no longer with us hit me real hard....and it became unbearable.
Yes. I agree with what you just said about our beloved Heath. he longs for love and understanding.
Look at his eyes. his eyes were the very soul, and from this we could see what is in his heart.
He has the " Eyes of an Angel" Heath Ledger has the eyes that melts your heart a thousand times.
Look at his lips. the lips suggest his sincerity. a man of few words. a young man whose image resembles humbleness.
In every corner that I focus my eyes. I see Heath.
In everything I do. I see Heath.
Heath. if only you will live again. you will feel how we love you dearly.
Heath. you will never be forgotten . you will always be remembered............
A real person . a true meaning of a beautiful person.. and a beautiful love.. that is you Heathcliff Andrew Ledger. our beloved Heath.
White_angel
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After almost two weeks I can't get rid of the grief, it's almost taken over my life. The positive aspects of Heath (which are many) are all well and good, but still there's an immeasurable sadness that won't go away.
I don't know about anyone else but I feel very lost at the moment and desperate to connect with other Brokies. I have some wonderful Brokie friends but sometimes wish there were other ways to connect other than the internet to share our grief. God this is pretty pathetic but I feel so cheated and sad and lost and just want him back.
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Hi, kathy, you hit upon a theme that is my Post-Heath Syndrome, PHS, as Tony so wisely predicted. I started the grieving process with a long denial period that quickly sped through to depression, anger, and acceptance. Now, I find as white_angel pointed out, everything reminds me of something I read about Heath from this forum, or something he did in one of his few movies that I've seen.
Thanks to Tamara posting the quote from Heath, "The root of wisdom is from knowing and loving one other human being." In my opinion, that is the source of Heath's talents. He yearned to know and love everyone he met, and in the process gained immense wisdom beyond his years.
My PHS is now leading me to follow his lead, and try to know and love everyone I meet. It's not an easy task, but it's a life changing paradigm shift. Thanks to Heath. Again. To me, he left a legacy that is truly immense. The tears and pain are now not so intense, and the remembrance is bittersweet. Thanks to all of you here. One day we will remember with love, and not with pain.
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Thank you so much, Loretta. Reading words sometimes is as powerful or even more so than hearing them. I can dwell on a lines, visualize, feel Ennis' heart-pain, his love... So beautiful! I wish you'd had the opportunity to send your recording to Heath... If that's not a lesson, what is? Jack's death, Heath's death.
But it is indeed meantingful that we have each other here to share all this with. A big web of love and understanding around the world.
Today I was having a BBM thing made at a kiosk at a mall, and the young woman there was from Turkey. She asked questions, wanted to talk about BBM, about Heath's death, about how terrible it is in her country for gays, etc. I love it when I come across someone who was also so moved.
kathy
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Here is link to the post for downloading the forum tribute video.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
Thank you dear, :^^) :ghug:
That's such a honorable tribute. <^(
I downloaded this immediately!! and now I'm a mess again.. :\'(
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After almost two weeks I can't get rid of the grief, it's almost taken over my life. The positive aspects of Heath (which are many) are all well and good, but still there's an immeasurable sadness that won't go away.
I don't know about anyone else but I feel very lost at the moment and desperate to connect with other Brokies. I have some wonderful Brokie friends but sometimes wish there were other ways to connect other than the internet to share our grief. God this is pretty pathetic but I feel so cheated and sad and lost and just want him back.
aimi15, :ghug: you said it so beautifully what we all feel in our heart and soul. The immeasurable sadness is in direct proportion to the immeasurable talents and gifts that we lost when we lost Heath. I hope you find the connections that you seek, from others in your city. I don't know where you are, but there are so many brokies from all over the US and around the world, that I am certain you will make real life connections. There are also regular meetings between brokies in all parts of the world, especially in the US and Europe. I am certain other parts of the world will have regular meets also, once the number of members achieve critical mass there. You will find the discussion in meets here: http://ennisjack.com/index.php?board=57.0
Hang in there, dear aimi15. We will get through this.
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Hi, kathy, you hit upon a theme that is my Post-Heath Syndrome, PHS, as Tony so wisely predicted. I started the grieving process with a long denial period that quickly sped through to depression, anger, and acceptance. Now, I find as white_angel pointed out, everything reminds me of something I read about Heath from this forum, or something he did in one of his few movies that I've seen.
Thanks to Tamara posting the quote from Heath, "The root of wisdom is from knowing and loving one other human being." In my opinion, that is the source of Heath's talents. He yearned to know and love everyone he met, and in the process gained immense wisdom beyond his years.
My PHS is now leading me to follow his lead, and try to know and ove everyone I meet. It's not an easy task, but it's a life changing paradigm shift. Thanks to Heath. Again. To me, he left a legacy that is truly immense. The tears and pain are now not so intense, and the remembrance is bittersweet. Thanks to all of you here. One day we will remember with love, and not with pain.
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Thank you lance for your clever words! :^^) :ghug:
I for one am stil in disbelieve and burst in tears with no reason at all... :(
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aimi15, :ghug: you said it so beautifully what we all feel in our heart and soul. The immeasurable sadness is in direct proportion to the immeasurable talents and gifts that we lost when we lost Heath. I hope you find the connections that you seek, from others in your city. I don't know where you are, but there are so many brokies from all over the US and around the world, that I am certain you will make real life connections. There are also regular meetings between brokies in all parts of the world, especially in the US and Europe. I am certain other parts of the world will have regular meets also, once the number of members achieve critical mass there. You will find the discussion in meets here: http://ennisjack.com/index.php?board=57.0
Hang in there, dear aimi15. We will get through this.
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Thank you so much. I've been a member of this forum for a long time, though under another name, and have slipped away in recent months, very regrettably. Now this has happened there's nowhere I'd rather be again...to mourn. It's like coming home to family, and it doesn't seem to matter how or why a person moves on, they are always welcomed back with open arms in times of need.
I do believe that amongst the many legacies Heath has left behind, he would be proud that he has brought so many people together...all of us from all over the globe and different walks of life. Even in a time of sadness. I'm so grateful to him for giving me this gift.
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I love you my Darling.
Please save my father. Please save him, do not let them take him from me now.
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After almost two weeks I can't get rid of the grief, it's almost taken over my life. The positive aspects of Heath (which are many) are all well and good, but still there's an immeasurable sadness that won't go away.
I don't know about anyone else but I feel very lost at the moment and desperate to connect with other Brokies. I have some wonderful Brokie friends but sometimes wish there were other ways to connect other than the internet to share our grief. God this is pretty pathetic but I feel so cheated and sad and lost and just want him back.
It's not pathetic, it's as real as it can get. I feel the same.
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just watched the first 40 minutes of Monster's Ball ( it's been over 3 years since I've watched this movie..I've already forgotten half of it! ) and my God, I burst into tears 3 times...first when P.Diddy's character says 'I've always believed that a portrait captures a person far better than a photograph. It truly takes a human being to really see a human being.' The second sentence just got to me...then when he was executed...and then during the whole part where Heath and Billy Bob's character fought and ultimately, when Heath's character said: 'Well I've always loved you' and shot himself. after that scene, I turned the TV off 'cause I just couldn't watch it anymore, it was too hard.
Heath really was shier perfection. He acted beautifully, a simply marvelous portrayal of a lonesome, deeply sensitive and fragile human being who simply longs for affection, love, conversation, warmth. A person who wants to feel he belongs, who wants to know that there's more to this life...and that it does have a purpose. A person who simply longs for a connection, but all his gets is- resentment and total lack of understanding.
I got all of this just from Heath's portrayal. I cared for his character. I'll be damned, but during those 36 minutes that he was in the movie, I came to genuinely care for the character our Heath created and wanted to follow him 'till the very end, as Daniel Day-Lewis marvelously pointed out. But that final scene....when you realize that the last words he heard were 'I always hated you' from him own father, whom he had always loved...my God, that was so gripping, raw and heart-wrenching that I just couldn't stop crying...and then the realization that Heath himself is no longer with us hit me real hard....and it became unbearable.
Koka I've never seen MB, and I wanted to see it so bad......but now......I don't know. Your post made me really cry and I don't think I could stand seeing Heath's character suffering and shooting himself, knowing that Heath is dead..... :\'( :\'( :\'( Oh my, "I've always loved you" and then..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Koka, my heart is broken.
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Thank you so much. I've been a member of this forum for a long time, though under another name, and have slipped away in recent months, very regrettably. Now this has happened there's nowhere I'd rather be again...to mourn. It's like coming home to family, and it doesn't seem to matter how or why a person moves on, they are always welcomed back with open arms in times of need.
I do believe that amongst the many legacies Heath has left behind, he would be proud that he has brought so many people together...all of us from all over the globe and different walks of life. Even in a time of sadness. I'm so grateful to him for giving me this gift.
:ghug: I am sorry you slipped away in recent months, and I didn't get the opportunity to know you, because I only joined since October. And you are right that like family, I always feel welcomed in this forum, with open arms, open minds, and loving hearts. Part of the love we see in Ennis and Jack, is the love of life and love of people that is from Heath.
I hope you stay awhile, aimi15. :ghug:
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Tammy, I'm so sorry that my post made you so upset. It was never my intention.
I do hope that you watch the movie one day....because it really is a beautiful and gripping movie, and Heath is simply perfect in it.
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:ghug: Lis, I understand it can be tough, but hang in there. And Superbowl is big tomorrow. Tom Brady will be playing for the record of an undefeated season. I am sure Heath would understand if you reschedule. It is the thought that counts, not the speed. Like Jake said, fast or slow, I just like the direction you are going. I also dream of visiting Heath in Perth one day.
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Thank you so much LC!! I agree it is tough and I did feel a bit crappy last night but I realized that you don't have to go to let him know that you love and appreciate his work. Though I am going on a Field Trip to the city to see "Phantom of the Opera" in March, so I hope we pass Broome Street on our way there ;)
Last night, because I wasn't really in the computer or homework mood, I picked to movies to watch, two totally diff. movies..."Coneheads" or "The Patriot"...I couldn't pick so my mom shuffled them and put them upside down and let me pick. Guess which one I picked? The Patriot. Weird huh ::) So I watched it and thought it was an amazing movie and Heath was so young, innocent, with what my mom said "A good American accent"...Gabriel, so young and innocent. That was the hardest part of the movie, i even kept telling Gabriel not to do it, so home, let it be. But he did, out of revenge for what that man did to his family, friends...oh sweet Gabriel...
To all of those I read who are still going through the hardest stages of grief, don't worry. I still, and probably will always, never get over the full death of our beloved Heath, even after the toxicology reports come out and TDK and Dr.P are out of theaters. We all lost someone, someone deep within our hearts who helped us realized how precious love and life is. He was a man, a kindhearted soul beyond his years that we will never get back. But we all must come together, to remember his greatest works, as an actor and as a human being. No one can ever replace this man, no one...
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Lis
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Thank you lance for your clever words! :^^) :ghug:
I for one am stil in disbelieve and burst in tears with no reason at all... :(
I was only quoting what Tamara was quoting Heath. The words are his and hers, and I am but a reflection of his wisdom. Yes, I also feel the tears, but I have learned to managed them better.
I think having this forum to write down my feelings helps me a lot. Like the character in Orson Scott Card's book, Songmaster, the tears and the feelings are all mixed in with the words (songs). When I cannot write them down (or the character not able to sing), the emotions just burst out uncontrollably by themselves, and I am a wreck. When I can write them down, and make some sense out of all this mess, I feel better.
I hope you feel better soon, too, hpv. :ghug: You have always been like a rock of strength, with you sense of humor in the Make 'em Laugh topic, and your wisdom in the other threads. I am forever grateful to you for posting the Garbage Truck. That's a wonderful and wise essay.
I think in PHS, we will find the laughter and the smiles again, eventually. I think getting to know more about Heath helps a lot, and perhaps, one day, visiting his resting place in Perth, will also bring closure. But truly, learning the quotation I mentioned, that Tamara posted the other day, brings a lot of closure to me, because now I understand the source, the motivation of Heath's work, not only in Brokeback Mountain, but in all his movies, all his life.
Love you all. :ghug:
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To all of those I read who are still going through the hardest stages of grief, don't worry. I still, and probably will always, never get over the full death of our beloved Heath, even after the toxicology reports come out and TDK and Dr.P are out of theaters. We all lost someone, someone deep within our hearts who helped us realized how precious love and life is. He was a man, a kindhearted soul beyond his years that we will never get back. But we all must come together, to remember his greatest works, as an actor and as a human being. No one can ever replace this man, no one...
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Lis
Well said, Lis. Heath will be imitated, but never duplicated. And no one can replace him. Johnny Depp can honor him by completing the remaining 1% of his work in Dr.P, and I appreciate that, but no one can replace Heath. Thanks for those wonderful words, Lis.
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Here is link to the post for downloading the forum tribute video.
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=11326.msg680842#msg680842
Thank you, Ethan. I agree with what you said, "This is a video which I really wish it would not be in the collection." But I will keep it in my music/video player forever. Thank you very much for this. The pictures and the music. The words from the tributes are in my heart, and I can read them again, when they come out with a bigger screen ipod. :) Oh, %&) they call that a laptop.
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Hi, kathy, you hit upon a theme that is my Post-Heath Syndrome, PHS, as Tony so wisely predicted. I started the grieving process with a long denial period that quickly sped through to depression, anger, and acceptance. Now, I find as white_angel pointed out, everything reminds me of something I read about Heath from this forum, or something he did in one of his few movies that I've seen.
Thanks to Tamara posting the quote from Heath, "The root of wisdom is from knowing and loving one other human being." In my opinion, that is the source of Heath's talents. He yearned to know and love everyone he met, and in the process gained immense wisdom beyond his years.
My PHS is now leading me to follow his lead, and try to know and love everyone I meet. It's not an easy task, but it's a life changing paradigm shift. Thanks to Heath. Again. To me, he left a legacy that is truly immense. The tears and pain are now not so intense, and the remembrance is bittersweet. Thanks to all of you here. One day we will remember with love, and not with pain.
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Oh Andrew, friend, that's beautiful and so touching. You got me in tears. You, sweetheart, sensitive fine man, know how to really touch our hearts with your words.
Believe it or not, I quoted Heath's words 'cause I knew that it would be special for you, and, of course, it was so special for me. I saved more Heath's words long time ago, 'cause I wanted to quote them in some threads like "Was Ennis gay?". Now, I don't know...
I want to share with you and all brokies friends some Heath's words that remind me of some words you said about labels. He was so sweet and wiser saying this:
"A gay relationship is not a virus, it's not a disease, it's that a soul within a vessel falls in love with a soul within another vessel, in this case the form of a man. I don't think you can say it's not a gay relationship because that's exactly what it is, but it's more than that and I think you have to look past the label and realise love is love. It's universal."
"You cannot rationalise love. It's the force of nature that you cannot control, however much you might want to."
"But you only get wiser and stronger. You age on the road and you age in little chapters. Each chapter you’re aging with different people and you gather different things from them."
"I have to grow up fast to sit here and talk to you guys. But inside, I'm still six years old. And I hope I always will be."
Take care, friend. Love you. Think about you a lot. :ghug:
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Koka I've never seen MB, and I wanted to see it so bad......but now......I don't know. Your post made me really cry and I don't think I could stand seeing Heath's character suffering and shooting himself, knowing that Heath is dead..... :\'( :\'( :\'( Oh my, "I've always loved you" and then..... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Koka, my heart is broken.
But, dear Tammy, you did not watch the rest of movie. I am speaking from the synopsis of it since I haven't watched it yet.
If I understand it correctly, the remainder of the movie is about the power of Sonny's last words that transformed his hatred filled father, helping him to find love again, in the widow of the man with the death sentence. Is this not what Heath has done, all his life? Ennis?
Please, dear Tammy, see the love and joy and Heath brought to us. That is his work here. The pain came from ourselves, our cold cruel world that separates us with hatred and fear.
You honor Heath when you rejoice in the power of his love, in the power of his work.
Please do not be heartbroken, but be filled with the love he had for life, for living, for all the people around him. "I've always loved you."
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Oh Andrew, friend, that's beautiful and so touching. You got me in tears. You, sweetheart, sensitive fine man, know how to really touch our hearts with your words.
Believe it or not, I quoted Heath's words 'cause I knew that it would be special for you, and, of course, it was so special for me. I saved more Heath's words long time ago, 'cause I wanted to quote them in some threads like "Was Ennis gay?". Now, I don't know...
I want to share with you and all brokies friends some Heath's words that remind me of some words you said about labels. He was so sweet and wiser saying this:
"A gay relationship is not a virus, it's not a disease, it's that a soul within a vessel falls in love with a soul within another vessel, in this case the form of a man. I don't think you can say it's not a gay relationship because that's exactly what it is, but it's more than that and I think you have to look past the label and realise love is love. It's universal."
"You cannot rationalise love. It's the force of nature that you cannot control, however much you might want to."
"But you only get wiser and stronger. You age on the road and you age in little chapters. Each chapter you’re aging with different people and you gather different things from them."
"I have to grow up fast to sit here and talk to you guys. But inside, I'm still six years old. And I hope I always will be."
Take care, friend. Love you. Think about you a lot. :ghug:
Tammy, reading these words from Heath put me in tears, like watching Brokeback Mountain. Thank you. I will treasure these. Can't write much any more, but will respond later. Thanks again.
Love you, too. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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"A gay relationship is not a virus, it's not a disease, it's that a soul within a vessel falls in love with a soul within another vessel, in this case the form of a man. I don't think you can say it's not a gay relationship because that's exactly what it is, but it's more than that and I think you have to look past the label and realise love is love. It's universal."
"You cannot rationalise love. It's the force of nature that you cannot control, however much you might want to."
"But you only get wiser and stronger. You age on the road and you age in little chapters. Each chapter you’re aging with different people and you gather different things from them."
"I have to grow up fast to sit here and talk to you guys. But inside, I'm still six years old. And I hope I always will be."
Thank you oh so much for these quotes dearest Tammy. Heath truly was an old soul and a man wise beyond his age.
and lancecowboy2007, that was a truly remarkable post! I've already become a fan of your writing! :^^)
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I love you my Darling.
Please save my father. Please save him, do not let them take him from me now.
Dear Nikita,
I am sorry to hear you in so much anguish.
I hope and pray that your prayers will be answered.
Most of all, I hope you find comfort and peace.
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Koka, Andrew!!! Thank you so much friends!! Glad you really like Heath's words that I quoted.
Koka, don't worry. It's not your words that make me sad; It's the reality of Heath's death and Sonny story. You're so sweet. ^f^
Andrew. We finally got the confirmation about our theory, huh? Love is love, and we don't need to use labels to define it.
Friends...our Heath looked at himself like a child. Is it not beautiful? When I saw him fidgeting and laughing in all interviews I always thought: Yeah, you're still a baby, aren't you?
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absolutely! one of Heath's many virtues was that he never lost contact with the child within! that's one of the reasons why I believe he was a REMARKABLE dad!
I know it wasn't me who made you sad Tammy and I perfectly understand what you mean....it's just that I felt so bad that you felt bad :(
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I want to share with you and all brokies friends some Heath's words that remind me of some words you said about labels. He was so sweet and wiser saying this:
"A gay relationship is not a virus, it's not a disease, it's that a soul within a vessel falls in love with a soul within another vessel, in this case the form of a man. I don't think you can say it's not a gay relationship because that's exactly what it is, but it's more than that and I think you have to look past the label and realise love is love. It's universal."
"You cannot rationalise love. It's the force of nature that you cannot control, however much you might want to."
"But you only get wiser and stronger. You age on the road and you age in little chapters. Each chapter you’re aging with different people and you gather different things from them."
"I have to grow up fast to sit here and talk to you guys. But inside, I'm still six years old. And I hope I always will be."
Oh Wow. I had never known of these words of Heath's before. Thank you for quoting them here Tammy. ^f^
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Thanks to you Rosie!!! ^f^
Oh Koka, sweetie, your support makes me feel better. :^^) :^^)
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:ghug: I am sorry you slipped away in recent months, and I didn't get the opportunity to know you, because I only joined since October. And you are right that like family, I always feel welcomed in this forum, with open arms, open minds, and loving hearts. Part of the love we see in Ennis and Jack, is the love of life and love of people that is from Heath.
I hope you stay awhile, aimi15. :ghug:
That is beautifully put and absolutely correct. :)
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Thank you oh so much for these quotes dearest Tammy. Heath truly was an old soul and a man wise beyond his age.
and lancecowboy2007, that was a truly remarkable post! I've already become a fan of your writing! :^^)
You are making me blush. (https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi218.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fcc126%2Flancecowboy%2Femoticons%2Fblushing9.gif&hash=0a8df8586853616d9818719f80e4b630db23f999)
Thanks. :ghug: :^^)
Let's just say we are both fans of
Heath Andrew Ledger - the old soul with a child's heart and all our love.
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"A gay relationship is not a virus, it's not a disease, it's that a soul within a vessel falls in love with a soul within another vessel, in this case the form of a man. I don't think you can say it's not a gay relationship because that's exactly what it is, but it's more than that and I think you have to look past the label and realise love is love. It's universal."
"You cannot rationalise love. It's the force of nature that you cannot control, however much you might want to."
"But you only get wiser and stronger. You age on the road and you age in little chapters. Each chapter you’re aging with different people and you gather different things from them."
"I have to grow up fast to sit here and talk to you guys. But inside, I'm still six years old. And I hope I always will be."
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Thinking about these quotes, and finding my composure after breaking down in tears, I now realize the depth of Heath's dedication to his craft, and the love he had for everything, everyone. Just as Michelle Williams said of Matilda, who whispers to animals, and hug trees, she reflects the part of Heath that is unique and precious. I am so grateful to her generosity in sharing this most personal understanding of Heath.
I will, and perhaps, we all will only wonder, and never fully know or understand what Heath meant when he said that he "had" to grow up fast. What circumstances made him growing up so fast, and becoming so wise? And the wonder of the love that must have been in his life, in his family, surrounding him his entire life, to allow him to hold on to his inner Child.
His metaphor of aging as different chapters really broke me, because now we will never know the chapters that he would have written. Then I remembered the quote from ayashae, that some flowers are only here a short time, but while the short time they are here, they bring joy and hope to everyone who sees them, and when are gone, do not mourn for them, because they have done their job. We simply must carry on with ours. One of them is to always remember Heath's love for life, for living and for people - ordinary people.
Thanks again, Tammy, ayashae, for your wise words and quotations.
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You're always really welcome friend!!
What a beautiful post you wrote. You touch my heart, Andrew, in the same powerful way that Heath touched it. Thank you so much for being so; thank you so much for loving Heath with such a strength. ^f^
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After the comments on Monster's Ball I decided to watch it(I got the DVD for Christmas but I haven't had time to watch it) and that's a movie I never want to watch again. I cried so much, probably more then ever since I got the news, It was horrible to see him take his life. It was just for a role but now his really gone :\'( lost forever....
This is too much for me, I can't take this anymore. It hurts so much, I just want to forget everything and go back to the way It was :\'(
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Hi fellow Brokies...
The sad posts are slowing down, huh? I'm sad that Heath Ledger is gone ... it's still so unbelievable. But, as with all things, life goes on to some degree. If there is an afterlife, and if HL is looking in on our little blog/discussion ... I hope he knows how he changed all of our lives. I hope he knows that he made a real difference, and that for most of us, life simply will never be the same. Most importantly, I hope he knew it while he drew his last breath.
It's one thing to create a fictional character in one's mind while reading a story - it's quite another to embody the flesh. Heath Ledger made human one Ennis del Mar, who, in reality, is simply ink on a page. Del Mar's lonely story of unfinished business is our story too. Let's all strive to remember every day how Heath Ledger, through Annie Proulx's Ennis del Mar, brought us together. And let's promise to stay together.
I can't express how necessary this web-site has been for me since I first saw Brokeback Mountain. And I can't express how lucky I feel to have this place to read, cry, express, and remember.
Thanks, all.
WE are Brokeback Mountain.
:c)
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Hi fellow Brokies...
The sad posts are slowing down, huh? I'm sad that Heath Ledger is gone ... it's still so unbelievable. But, as with all things, life goes on to some degree. If there is an afterlife, and if HL is looking in on our little blog/discussion ... I hope he knows how he changed all of our lives. I hope he knows that he made a real difference, and that for most of us, life simply will never be the same. Most importantly, I hope he knew it while he drew his last breath.
It's one thing to create a fictional character in one's mind while reading a story - it's quite another to embody the flesh. Heath Ledger made human one Ennis del Mar, who, in reality, is simply ink on a page. Del Mar's lonely story of unfinished business is our story too. Let's all strive to remember every day how Heath Ledger, through Annie Proulx's Ennis del Mar, brought us together. And let's promise to stay together.
I can't express how necessary this web-site has been for me since I first saw Brokeback Mountain. And I can't express how lucky I feel to have this place to read, cry, express, and remember.
Thanks, all.
WE are Brokeback Mountain.
:c)
What a beautiful post guyinjax. I too hope that Heath knew - not just at the end but all the time, how much he was loved and how much of a difference he'd made. I know that he had seen some of the posts on this site thanks to Theresa so I guess maybe he did know.
I for one will never forget the gift that Heath gave me when he brought Ennis to life. It's 'cos a him that I'm like this - part of an incredible community which stretches far beyond the boundaries of the internet. I've made friends here that I hope will last a lifetime. Some of them, I've been lucky enough to meet...others, not yet. But we all share a bond, no matter where we are in the world and it's a bond that I feel has only got stronger over the last fortnight as everyone has rallied round to support, comfort and help each other as we all struggle to come to terms with this loss.
A promise to stay together? You bet.
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A promise to stay together? You bet.
For as long as we can ride it. Ain't no reins on this one.
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I watched the Patriot last night. It's a great story, a wonderful perspective on the Revolutionary War, which is an interesting period of our history anyway, and even more so from this family's perspective (especially father and oldest son), and the people in the local communities. I really liked it.
As for Heath -- I can see why this was the first movie that made people really take notice of him as a serious actor. Sometimes I could hardly recognize his voice, though. In fact, sometimes the Australian movies are my favorites because of his using his real voice (except for Ned Kelly, which I loved for other reasons). But he was already beyond his years in this role. For one so young to have such subtlety.
Not to mention, he looked great in those breeches and boots! Sure enough did, and I'm sure not going to stop saying things like that, his hotness. He was beautiful, too, with his long curly hair.
There were moments when I saw "Ennis" in Gabriel. I'd say in almost every movie of his I have seen a moment of Ennis... But then, I see through Ennis-colored glasses.
We talk about the grief lessening...but I have to say not really, for me. Maybe the acute pain, yes, but not the chronic. Because as years stretch out ahead, we will still miss his presence in our lives.
kathy
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I watched the Patriot last night. It's a great story, a wonderful perspective on the Revolutionary War, which is an interesting period of our history anyway, and even more so from this family's perspective (especially father and oldest son), and the people in the local communities. I really liked it.
I haven't seen that yet, and in fact I'd only seen him in BBM before his death, but since then I've seen Monster's Ball and A Knight's Tale. It actually makes me feel more sad, because it's more obvious (to me) what a great actor he was. And how much more he could have been.
It maybe sounds strange given his amazing performance as Ennis, but seeing him in those other roles, and what he was able to give, it makes his death all the more unfair.
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I watched Brokeback Mountain yesterday, it was a relaxing experience. I cried of course but cried at the same places and scenes, it was not as painfull as many of you worry now. I was with Ennis... and Jack. Not Heath & Jake... It was all about the story of our boys. And no way you see Heath Ledger in this movie, he totaly vanished under the skin of Ennis, it's the best tribute to art an actor could ever do and not many of them actors could accomplish. I could only say thank you Heath for this gift, we are blessed.
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Because I'd only seen Heath in BBM before he died, first and foremost he'll always be Ennis to me. I haven't watched BBM since, but I know (because Ennis and Heath are so connected in my mind) that I'll imagine that Ennis and Jack are now together. It's not rational, nor maybe healthy, to confuse a real person with a fictional character, but it seems to help somehow.
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I watched Brokeback Mountain yesterday, it was a relaxing experience. I cried of course but cried at the same places and scenes, it was not as painfull as many of you worry now. I was with Ennis... and Jack. Not Heath & Jake... It was all about the story of our boys. And no way you see Heath Ledger in this movie, he totaly vanished under the skin of Ennis, it's the best tribute to art an actor could ever do and not many of them actors could accomplish. I could only say thank you Heath for this gift, we are blessed.
I'm glad you did this, Cham, and I know what you mean, that Ennis and Jack are just Ennis and Jack. I always felt that. But I don't want to watch BBM until in Las Vegas with Brokies.
kathy
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I watched BBM yesterday, and my god it hurt so much to watch it. Couldn't stop crying at all. :\'(
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I watched " I am not there " yesterday and to my surprise seeing Michelle in the role of Twiggy was very interesting then Heath and Kate Blanchet was extraordinary excellent, yet hard to follow, loved Michelle and heath roles
^f^
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I watched Casanova the other night and that movie continues to grow on me. It's a bit of fluff really but the acting is consistently fine. Heath is .....well.....great in it as usual.
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I watched the Patriot last night. It's a great story, a wonderful perspective on the Revolutionary War, which is an interesting period of our history anyway, and even more so from this family's perspective (especially father and oldest son), and the people in the local communities. I really liked it.
As for Heath -- I can see why this was the first movie that made people really take notice of him as a serious actor. Sometimes I could hardly recognize his voice, though. In fact, sometimes the Australian movies are my favorites because of his using his real voice (except for Ned Kelly, which I loved for other reasons). But he was already beyond his years in this role. For one so young to have such subtlety.
Not to mention, he looked great in those breeches and boots! Sure enough did, and I'm sure not going to stop saying things like that, his hotness. He was beautiful, too, with his long curly hair.
There were moments when I saw "Ennis" in Gabriel. I'd say in almost every movie of his I have seen a moment of Ennis... But then, I see through Ennis-colored glasses.
We talk about the grief lessening...but I have to say not really, for me. Maybe the acute pain, yes, but not the chronic. Because as years stretch out ahead, we will still miss his presence in our lives.
kathy
That was the first movie I saw him in and I loved him in that. But then I lost track of him until BBM- lost track of a lot of things as I was lost in "middle earth" for a good many years but that's another story.
:ghug: to you. It's not lessening any for me either. I still have thoughts riddled with denial, I think I am done with the anger stage but am very much in the depression and numb stages. I haven't really been posting here much because I can't seem to gather my thoughts enough. Again big hugs to you. :ghug:
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I watched Brokeback Mountain yesterday, it was a relaxing experience. I cried of course but cried at the same places and scenes, it was not as painfull as many of you worry now. I was with Ennis... and Jack. Not Heath & Jake... It was all about the story of our boys. And no way you see Heath Ledger in this movie, he totaly vanished under the skin of Ennis, it's the best tribute to art an actor could ever do and not many of them actors could accomplish. I could only say thank you Heath for this gift, we are blessed.
I echo that last line. :ghug: I'm glad you were able to watch it but I don't foresee me doing it in the near future. I can't go there now- part of me is curious to see if it will offer comfort and more of me is afraid of what will happen if I attempt to watch it. Though I do agree with seeing Jack and Ennis- I always saw them not Heath and Jake but I can barely look at my calendar and BBM stuff at work without tearing up.
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What a beautiful post guyinjax. I too hope that Heath knew - not just at the end but all the time, how much he was loved and how much of a difference he'd made. I know that he had seen some of the posts on this site thanks to Theresa so I guess maybe he did know.
I for one will never forget the gift that Heath gave me when he brought Ennis to life. It's 'cos a him that I'm like this - part of an incredible community which stretches far beyond the boundaries of the internet. I've made friends here that I hope will last a lifetime. Some of them, I've been lucky enough to meet...others, not yet. But we all share a bond, no matter where we are in the world and it's a bond that I feel has only got stronger over the last fortnight as everyone has rallied round to support, comfort and help each other as we all struggle to come to terms with this loss.
A promise to stay together? You bet.
Beautiful post :ghug:
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I just went back a page and wanted to offer up some hugs to everyone. Beautiful, touching posts- all of them. :\'( :ghug:
I can't seem to string together anything that really makes sense. But I keep thinking how AP's words have become even more fitting now- in some weird eerie sense.
There was some open space between what he knew and what he tried to believe, but nothing could be done about it, and if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it.
Within a mile Ennis felt like someone was pulling his guts out hand over hand a yard at a time. He stopped at the side of the road and, in the whirling new snow, tried to puke but nothing came up. He felt about as bad as he ever had and it took a long time for the feeling to wear off.
so what we got now is Brokeback Mountain.
The huge sadness of the Northern plains rolled down on him.
only the memory of it, the imagined power of Brokeback Mountain of which nothing was left but what he held in his hands.
I don't know why all of that was running in my head- I wish I could get my own jumbled thoughts out of my head. I just keep waiting to wake up, have it be 1/22 again and just say that was one screwed up, horrible dream.
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Come here hon' :ghug:
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Michelle, friend... :ghug: :ghug:
I know perfectly how you feel, 'cause I'm feeling it too.... :\'( :\'( But please try to take care of yourself. Don't let the depression eat you alive; that's horrible. I'm myself fighting against it.
I wish I could be there just to huge you and give you some comfort. I think about you a lot. I feel your pain in so many ways and that just breaks my heart. :\'( :\'( I wish you the best sweetie and I want you to smile again. I know that is so difficult, I can not do it myself, but please, promise me that you'll try it, OK?
Try to rest and take care. Big hugs and kisses. I'm always by your side. :^^)
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Michelle :ghug:
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I watched Brokeback Mountain yesterday, it was a relaxing experience. I cried of course but cried at the same places and scenes, it was not as painfull as many of you worry now. I was with Ennis... and Jack. Not Heath & Jake... It was all about the story of our boys. And no way you see Heath Ledger in this movie, he totaly vanished under the skin of Ennis, it's the best tribute to art an actor could ever do and not many of them actors could accomplish. I could only say thank you Heath for this gift, we are blessed.
Just beautiful. I watched BBM just a week before heath died, and re-read the short story and screenplay.
Heath was Ennis--the very nuances, gestures, grimaces, expressions---everything.
I can't imagine any other actor playing that role---ever.
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I just went back a page and wanted to offer up some hugs to everyone. Beautiful, touching posts- all of them. :\'( :ghug:
I can't seem to string together anything that really makes sense. But I keep thinking how AP's words have become even more fitting now- in some weird eerie sense.
There was some open space between what he knew and what he tried to believe, but nothing could be done about it, and if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it.
Within a mile Ennis felt like someone was pulling his guts out hand over hand a yard at a time. He stopped at the side of the road and, in the whirling new snow, tried to puke but nothing came up. He felt about as bad as he ever had and it took a long time for the feeling to wear off.
so what we got now is Brokeback Mountain.
The huge sadness of the Northern plains rolled down on him.
only the memory of it, the imagined power of Brokeback Mountain of which nothing was left but what he held in his hands.
I don't know why all of that was running in my head- I wish I could get my own jumbled thoughts out of my head. I just keep waiting to wake up, have it be 1/22 again and just say that was one screwed up, horrible dream.
Oh Michelle..... :ghug:
I know how you feel, I really do. Every day I feel the same, wishing and wanting for time to go backwards. I wish this wasn't happening, it's heartbreak of the worst kind.
I can't seem to write much that makes sense either...I read all the gorgeous posts here and wish I could put my feelings into words that go some way to express how I feel, but I can't seem to do it. So I take solace and comfort from all of you, for offering your thoughts and feelings on this tragic loss, and agreeing with every one of you. ^f^
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I just went back a page and wanted to offer up some hugs to everyone. Beautiful, touching posts- all of them. :\'( :ghug:
I can't seem to string together anything that really makes sense. But I keep thinking how AP's words have become even more fitting now- in some weird eerie sense.
[...]
I don't know why all of that was running in my head- I wish I could get my own jumbled thoughts out of my head. I just keep waiting to wake up, have it be 1/22 again and just say that was one screwed up, horrible dream.
Michelle, :ghug:
we all go through this in different ways, and on a different schedule. I am still avoiding Brokeback Mountain the movie, or even the short story, because it breaks me up whenever I open up to its powerful images and words.
I do find comfort in all the posts in this topic because many echo the same feelings I have, and that's my way of sorting out what is in my head. I hope you find your way and be comforted.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh Michelle..... :ghug:
I know how you feel, I really do. Every day I feel the same, wishing and wanting for time to go backwards. I wish this wasn't happening, it's heartbreak of the worst kind.
I can't seem to write much that makes sense either...I read all the gorgeous posts here and wish I could put my feelings into words that go some way to express how I feel, but I can't seem to do it. So I take solace and comfort from all of you, for offering your thoughts and feelings on this tragic loss, and agreeing with every one of you. ^f^
Hi, christie wood, everyone contributes to this beautiful topic in different ways. Not everyone needs to write to participate. I remember you made some poignant comments and observation that made me realize something special about Heath. I can't recall the exact instance, but I do remember your contribution.
I see this topic, In Loving Memory, as a tapestry, a quilt, made up of individual contributions, from everyone here.
You don't have to say a lot, to get your points across. Ennis proved that. Heath showed us that.
Thank you. :ghug:
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hello, from Spain:
first at all, I must apologize, for I haven' got a good English,, but I hope you understand me....
Since Heath's death,, I've watched several times BBM,,, and every time,, I find a new reason about this film big reasons to watch at....
Thank, Ang Lee , for that marvellous film; deep inside of me and some friends is the same feeling,,,A master piece about love and this cinic society,,
the character of Ennis del Mar is helping a lot of people,,,
Wherever you are, Heath,, rest in peace... But I'm sure you're in God's hands....
Santiago, ,, from Spain
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Santiago, welcome to Brokeback Mountain. Your English is beautiful because you speak it with love, the language of everyone in this forum.
If you would like to discuss the movie and the characters in it, please feel free to express yourself in the topics found here, under
Characters, Quotes, and Scenes http://ennisjack.com/index.php?board=37.0 or,
Impact, Thought and Experiences and http://ennisjack.com/index.php?board=48.0 or
Cast, Ang Lee, and Sound Track http://ennisjack.com/index.php?board=47.0
Where ever you post your comments, you can be certain that many others will respond. We all have been touched by the movie and sharing it enriches us all. I am still learning the different layers of meanings, carefully put together by the love of all the casts and crew in the movie, and most of all, by Heath in his understanding and compassionate portrayal of Ennis.
I hope your find comfort in the shared feelings here.
:ghug:
hello, from Spain:
first at all, I must apologize, for I haven' got a good English,, but I hope you understand me....
Since Heath's death,, I've watched several times BBM,,, and every time,, I find a new reason about this film big reasons to watch at....
Thank, Ang Lee , for that marvellous film; deep inside of me and some friends is the same feeling,,,A master piece about love and this cinic society,,
the character of Ennis del Mar is helping a lot of people,,,
Wherever you are, Heath,, rest in peace... But I'm sure you're in God's hands....
Santiago, ,, from Spain
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hello, from Spain:
first at all, I must apologize, for I haven' got a good English,, but I hope you understand me....
Since Heath's death,, I've watched several times BBM,,, and every time,, I find a new reason about this film big reasons to watch at....
Thank, Ang Lee , for that marvellous film; deep inside of me and some friends is the same feeling,,,A master piece about love and this cinic society,,
the character of Ennis del Mar is helping a lot of people,,,
Wherever you are, Heath,, rest in peace... But I'm sure you're in God's hands....
Santiago, ,, from Spain
Hello again,Santiago¡ ^f^
You're brave by having watched several times BBM after Heath's death;it's something I couldn´t manage to do still...But,you're right,no matter when and how you watch it,that's for sure you'll find new meanings,new symbolisms,and,yes,new reasons to watch it again.And to feel touched for its images,its strenght and tenderness at the same time and,above all,for Heath's incredible performance;he has given his Ennis character to us,the best gift he could give us and that only for it we'll remember him forever.You'll surely find yourself better by sharing your feelings here,because they're ours also. :^^)
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I just went back a page and wanted to offer up some hugs to everyone. Beautiful, touching posts- all of them. :\'( :ghug:
I can't seem to string together anything that really makes sense. But I keep thinking how AP's words have become even more fitting now- in some weird eerie sense.
...
I don't know why all of that was running in my head- I wish I could get my own jumbled thoughts out of my head. I just keep waiting to wake up, have it be 1/22 again and just say that was one screwed up, horrible dream.
:ghug: I know exactly how you feel.
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:h) Santiago, and #$#
Michelle and all... :ghug: :ghug:
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He Was a Friend Of Mine . . .
Many have recently written about the pain of now watching BBM. My pain isn’t now during the film, Heath does such a great job, to me it’s still ENNIS up there on the screen. The tough time comes later . . . during the credits.
When Wille begins singing He Was Friend of Mine . . and then, right in sync with his words
“Everytime I think of him, I just can’t keep from crying” . .
H E A T H L E D G E R
appears alone on the black screen. It’s just too much.
The remaining lyrics of the song seem so incredibly poignant now, I will never, ever, hear that song without thinking now not of Jack, but Heath.
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I think of him
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
He died on the road
He died on the road
Just keeped on movin’
Never reaped what he could sow
And he was a friend of mine
I stole away and cried
I stole away and cried
Never had too much money
Never been quite satisfied
And he was a friend of mine
He never done no wrong
He never done no wrong
A thousand miles from home
And he never harmed no one
And he was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I hear his name Lord
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine.
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He Was a Friend Of Mine . . .
Many have recently written about the pain of now watching BBM. My pain isn’t now during the film, Heath does such a great job, to me it’s still ENNIS up there on the screen. The tough time comes later . . . during the credits.
When Wille begins singing He Was Friend of Mine . . and then, right in sync with his words
“Everytime I think of him, I just can’t keep from crying” . .
H E A T H L E D G E R
appears alone on the black screen. It’s just too much.
The remaining lyrics of the song seem so incredibly poignant now, I will never, ever, hear that song without thinking now not of Jack, but Heath.
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I think of him
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine
He died on the road
He died on the road
Just keeped on movin’
Never reaped what he could sow
And he was a friend of mine
I stole away and cried
I stole away and cried
Never had too much money
Never been quite satisfied
And he was a friend of mine
He never done no wrong
He never done no wrong
A thousand miles from home
And he never harmed no one
And he was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
He was a friend of mine
Every time I hear his name Lord
I just can't keep from cryin'
'Cause he was a friend of mine.
I know what you mean,Jackster;this song now is more proper for Heath than for Jack,because it´s real.However,I confess I haven´t seen BBM still completely because I see in it two friends in real life who shared a real love-not sexual,but emotionally speaking,it was a kind of fraternal love in the end-who aren´t going to be in their BBM anymore.And this is too much to stand.
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I went to cinema yesterday. "I'm Not There". I wanted to see his last movie released. When I saw him, I was a bit mourn, but this feeling disappeared because he's such a good acor in this role, as an identity of Bob Dylan. He is great, and beatiful. He acted so well. When I got out the cinema, I was speechless. I'm Not There is a masterpiece.
In August will be released in France The Dark Knight. I am so excited, but also anxious, about his last film, his last great role, probably a character we will never forget.
He passed away 2 weeks ago from now, I bought Brokeback Mountain to see it again, and, actually when I'm stroke by Jack's death, I am about Heath's passing, because this film is my favourite one, and he is no more now. he will now exist through the eternity of his movies.
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I've noticed that some posts over the last several days have mentioned periods of severe reactions still occurring, and it is now about 2 weeks
since we lost Heath. Am very grateful to those who did, because I've had the same experiences and it was comforting to know I wasn't losing
my mind. Am especially grateful to Baby Tammy for telling of the haunting dream she had, and to Lance, who has been rightful to everybody.
And, of course, there were others who I've never met on the forum, but now know they are there and wonderful people.
Grief is bad enough, but I have found emotional instability to be the larger challenge. A lot of that bad reaction comes from some of the
information reported about Heath's last few months, most of which had been squashed, even before the industry people got that video banned.
I found much of the early reports credible, and they were very hurtful. One, which I ought to be able to mention here, was a tape of Heath
at a news conference openly saying he had had an obsession with the singer Nick Drake, who I looked up on the internet and it turned out
that guy had a terrible sleep disorder. The early information, then, still lingers on to trouble me, although am fairly comfortable with the
tracking away from those stories and not airing them. But there was enough to flesh out a Heath Ledger that more than ever, deserved the love
we already had for him. It's kind of standard, now, the advice of many to focus on what was given to us, and to heal up in an orderly way, on some schedule. But
people don't follow projected graph lines and anything can set off new hurts, even little stuff. Yesterday, in the photos section, a quote from
Heath was posted, apparently in his own printing. I can't win. I studied graphoanalysis somewhat, years ago, and that field is accepted as
legitimate in courts cases. Am not an expert, but that printing was off the charts in what it revealed: unusual dignity, yet unusual lack of ego.
Athletic and outgoing nature, yet wildly creative. I would be very surprised if that wasn't his printing and would be glad to be wrong. Because
even that one little discovery added to what is, for me, an unending torrent of information that we lost much more than we knew.
Well, wanted to thank the people who have comforted all of us, and ended up rambling. I really am grateful for all of you being here.
Very beautiful post Tony!!! Thank you so much for being always here, by our side, giving us support and wise words!! :^^) :ghug:
I'm quite sad today, but above all, so angry!!! I'm mad at my own friends. Every time I try to share my sorrow and explain how I'm feeling inside to my friends, they always say something stupid like Heath killed himself, or like he killed himself 'cause he was trying to imitate Nick Drake, or like he used to take pills and drugs, or like he was wrong in so many things, or like HE WAS A VERY BAD ACTOR!!!! Oh my......I think I'm going to be alone without friends in a couple of days 'cause I couldn't stand that no more and I said to them very horrible and nasty things.......Why nobody in my RL can understand me? :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Had just done one of my rambling posts, and went back and found Jackster and MyPrivateJack's posts. It always amazes me what different
gifts people bring to this forum. Jackster picked out the lyrics that will now completely merge the loss of Heath with the movie we so love.
And MyPrivateJack added to that with that loving heart of hers. Those 2 posts, got me back on track.
I do want to return briefly to something I had been saying, before. We, all of us, were so affected by the film that our unusual response is
the reason for this forum. We were pre-disposed, then, to an unusual reaction to the loss of Heath. And that reaction is going to continue
for a long time and be expressed or felt in different ways, because of our different personalities. Am more and more confident that our little
community is up to the challenge, but I also continue to believe there will be a Post-Heath Syndrome, where emotions fade off and then return,
unexpectedly. That challenge will be the most difficult, I think, as there will be varying "relapses". Well, it's not like we don't have experience
there. Once again-thanks to those who post, and, Jackster's was especially sober, respectful, and yet emotionally right where many of us hope
to be, in time. Stable, but faithful.
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BabyTammy,they can't understand because---there's something missing in them, somewhere. Be glad-your reactions show-nothing's missing
in you. By the way, you always have my love-just haven't been able to PM, as we'd both be a mess.
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BabyTammy,they can't understand because---there's something missing in them, somewhere. Be glad-your reactions show-nothing's missing
in you. By the way, you always have my love-just haven't been able to PM, as we'd both be a mess.
I know friend, don't worry about it. I wanted so bad PM you but I knew well that Heath was a "real" friend of you and I knew my weakness so well too, so, as you said, we'd both a big mess!!! But in the shadows I'm always here caring about you 'cause Ali and I use to talk about you and she said to me a lot of things about how you're feeling.
Thank you one more time for your words Tony!!!Love you cowboy!! %)
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5 days left!!!
Planning for the Denver remembrance celebration is in full swing! Registration is OPEN; please fill that out even if you are just still thinking of attending. We need you! Call me if you have questions you need answered; 307-840-1020.
Here is the official list of attendees as of February 4, 2008! This list is a combination of Internet forum members and other attendees.
Blue = Travel booked; attendance 100%!
Yellow = Attendance desired but still uncertain
Red = Attendance unlikely
• A. Jones
• bcatjr
• beckela
• brokebackjack
• C. Seese
• dave
• E. Coyne
• E. Ellis
• E. Recca
• EDelMar
• Front-Ranger
• gailr2000
• HappyAtLast
• ifyoucantfixit
• johnbeene
• jpwagoneer1964
• LauraGigs
• M. Quam
• Marge_Innavera
• ptannen
• rickster
• RodneyWY
• SamChez
• Sid401k
• Vermont Sunset
• wyomen
The 19 'blue' attendees above are coming from CA, CO, FL, KS, MO, OK, TX, VT and WY!
:) See you at the memorial service.
-Ennis
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Hi, Tony, you are always right on the money with your comments and observation. I agree with everything you said, and just wanted to extend on a couple new points you made:
1. Nick Drake - I just found out about this last night (talk about synchronicity) and also a "news" article about Heath making a short movie, documentary of Nick's death. It reminds me of what the director of I'm Not Here said about seeing some of Heath's short movies. It may not be the right place to talk about it here, now. But eventually, when more information comes of this, it is worthwhile to understand Heath better.
2. Graphoanalysis - I also studied it briefly and I am NOT an expert. I understand the basic concepts, and what you said of Heath's writing makes a lot of sense to me. I would love to pursue this further as well. Again, this may not be the time and place for it.
Whenever you post your views, I am always surprised by new ideas and new perspectives to see the world, to see life in action. Thank you, Tony. :ghug:
I've noticed that some posts over the last several days have mentioned periods of severe reactions still occurring, and it is now about 2 weeks
since we lost Heath. Am very grateful to those who did, because I've had the same experiences and it was comforting to know I wasn't losing
my mind. Am especially grateful to Baby Tammy for telling of the haunting dream she had, and to Lance, who has been rightful to everybody.
And, of course, there were others who I've never met on the forum, but now know they are there and wonderful people.
Grief is bad enough, but I have found emotional instability to be the larger challenge. A lot of that bad reaction comes from some of the
information reported about Heath's last few months, most of which had been squashed, even before the industry people got that video banned.
I found much of the early reports credible, and they were very hurtful. One, which I ought to be able to mention here, was a tape of Heath
at a news conference openly saying he had had an obsession with the singer Nick Drake, who I looked up on the internet and it turned out
that guy had a terrible sleep disorder. The early information, then, still lingers on to trouble me, although am fairly comfortable with the
tracking away from those stories and not airing them. But there was enough to flesh out a Heath Ledger that more than ever, deserved the love
we already had for him.
It's kind of standard, now, the advice of many to focus on what was given to us, and to heal up in an orderly way, on some schedule. But
people don't follow projected graph lines and anything can set off new hurts, even little stuff. Yesterday, in the photos section, a quote from
Heath was posted, apparently in his own printing. I can't win. I studied graphoanalysis somewhat, years ago, and that field is accepted as
legitimate in courts cases. Am not an expert, but that printing was off the charts in what it revealed: unusual dignity, yet unusual lack of ego.
Athletic and outgoing nature, yet wildly creative. I would be very surprised if that wasn't his printing and would be glad to be wrong. Because
even that one little discovery added to what is, for me, an unending torrent of information that we lost much more than we knew.
Well, wanted to thank the people who have comforted all of us, and ended up rambling. I really am grateful for all of you being here.
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Wow, lancecowboy and Tony, thanks for the posts. You guys are really holding up the fort here these days. Thanks, from my heart.
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I went to cinema yesterday. "I'm Not There". I wanted to see his last movie released. When I saw him, I was a bit mourn, but this feeling disappeared because he's such a good acor in this role, as an identity of Bob Dylan. He is great, and beatiful. He acted so well. When I got out the cinema, I was speechless. I'm Not There is a masterpiece.
In August will be released in France The Dark Knight. I am so excited, but also anxious, about his last film, his last great role, probably a character we will never forget.
He passed away 2 weeks ago from now, I bought Brokeback Mountain to see it again, and, actually when I'm stroke by Jack's death, I am about Heath's passing, because this film is my favourite one, and he is no more now. he will now exist through the eternity of his movies.
Thank you guillaume75. Others have said the same thing about their recent viewing of Brokeback Mountain. It puts me more at ease for my own return engagement. I am still apprehensive, and will wait until this weekend. I look forward to seeing and owning ALL of Heath's movies. I just hope prices don't go up. It's unconscionable what some people would do to make more money.
I guess I should not begrudge the extra few dollars. Afterall, I suppose some of it goes to the residual in Heath's account, which would likely go towards a trust fund for Matilda. At least, that is what I hope when I buy the DVDs, probably a few each year until I have the whole collection.
Thanks to the wonderful moderators who posted in the special edition newsletter, the long list of films with Heath in them. You people are the best.
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So young and so beautiful
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The picture of Heath with the accordion is heartbreakingly beautiful. Thanks so much.
"The mountain has wings."
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I am dam upset....After Heath died I watched Brokeback mountain..i know it is too late...the impact was much more for me as he was dead...Jake is taking it really hard..Hope he is better.. BBM is one of the best movies that I have seen
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So young and so beautiful
Thank you for sharing this beautiful photo, white_angel.
It shows Heath at his usual love-of-life moment.
So talented and so generous.
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Very beautiful post Tony!!! Thank you so much for being always here, by our side, giving us support and wise words!! :^^) :ghug:
I'm quite sad today, but above all, so angry!!! I'm mad at my own friends. Every time I try to share my sorrow and explain how I'm feeling inside to my friends, they always say something stupid like Heath killed himself, or like he killed himself 'cause he was trying to imitate Nick Drake, or like he used to take pills and drugs, or like he was wrong in so many things, or like HE WAS A VERY BAD ACTOR!!!! Oh my......I think I'm going to be alone without friends in a couple of days 'cause I couldn't stand that no more and I said to them very horrible and nasty things.......Why nobody in my RL can understand me? :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: Tammy :ghug:
I have learned that people hold on to their own opinions and nothing in the world can change them, not you, not I, not even the truth, so save your tears and anger. I save my tears for this forum, to share with friends who understand. I let go of my anger, as advised by the essay posted by hpv a while ago. Some people are cynical and angry at the world for what ever reasons. And they spread and anger and cynicism around them like a garbage truck dumping their toxic load to anyone. It is not you or Heath that they pick on. They just needed to dump their overflowing anger and cynicism at someone, anyone. The Garbage Truck talked about anger, but I include cynicism here because it is a passive-aggressive form of anger. Instead of blowing up in violent outbursts, cynicism is actually much worse, a festering kind of anger that pokes its ugly head out in hurtful words. And we all know that words can hurt much worse with more enduring consequences than physical blows.
Arguing with them is a waste of your precious time. Their mind is already poisoned so no argument can sway it. They would only enjoy seeing you in pain. That's what bullies want.
The answer to these bullies is simple. Smile and walk away. Let them suffer to see your joy.
You will always have this valley of peace and friendship to embrace you with open arms.
We understand you, Tammy. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I wrote a while back, that I relate to Ennis more than I do Heath, because to me Ennis is more real in his lonely trailer on the vast Wyoming plain, than Heath in his VIP circle of celebrity friends.
This last couple weeks changed that.
Now I relate to Heath as another human being, an ordinary human being who achieved an extraordinary life.
Heath had the same problems we all had, faced the similar demons, and had to overcome similar trials and tribulations. What made him special was the attitudes he carried all his life, to face those problems, and to overcome those difficulties.
As someone once told me, we are not defined by what happened to us. We are defined by how we react to what happened to us.
Heath always chose to react with sincerity, honesty, generosity, love and understanding. With a heart so pure, he must suffer so much in a world so cruel and devious. It must be a puzzle for him, how some people, like Guy Finlay, could be so vindictive and mean. I would not be surprised that Heath suffered in silence. It would be like him, to stand what cannot be fixed.
And now, with all the outpouring of love, I am hopeful that he is looking down from heaven, with the same smile that Ennis had, sending up to heaven a prayer of thanks.
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. . . . This last couple weeks changed that.
Now I relate to Heath as another human being, an ordinary human being who achieved an extraordinary life.
Heath had the same problems we all had, faced the similar demons, and had to overcome similar trials and tribulations. . .
Very nicely put LC. I think you’re absolutely right, the past few weeks have required us all to see many things in a new light.
For a long time I’ve had a secret feeling that Heath felt and understood much more about Ennis (and his demons) that he ever let on, or maybe than he really recognized himself. How else can one explain his simply magical transformation into Ennis? This wasn’t acting, this is something more than acting, something transcendental. Even Annie recognized this complete and utter transformation, it was like a trance. Heath entirely disappears, as if he was “channeling” Ennis to help us all see and feel this silent suffering.
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Hello everybody. Yesterday BBBOY thanked me and Lance for posting a lot, but it occurred to me, that some others might take offense at
those of us who frequently post, as if we're saying our grief and shock is greater. It's the nature of cyberspace that it can be
so easy to get something wrong, and though it's a small matter-would like to explain.
It's a big forum we have here, with many cubbyholes, and many of us never run into each other outside those areas. But there are a number
of us from the discussion threads, and there, frequent posting is not only normal, but necessary, and even encouraged. So we're showing up
here, carrying with us those habits, and with no intent other than to keep everybody together.
No big deal, but if you are not familiar with us because you aren't ever in the discussion threads, please understand---nobody is saying we
know more, or feel more than you do. There's about 10 of us, and that's the explanation. We're trying to use our habits there, to help keep
everybody together here. It was just a thought, that some Brokies from other forum areas might have wondered why we post often. No biggie.
That's the reason. Myself, I have been greatly comforted by reading posts from those I never knew of & hope they keep at it.
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Tony - I certainly don't feel that you or anyone else is trying to claim that they feel more grief than the rest of us. All of your posts - and those of the other regular posters - have been comforting and interesting. I'm afraid I don't visit the discussion threads as often as I used to - there's never enough time to read and post everywhere and my "frequent haunts" over the last few months have really just been the fanfic threads and the photo threads. I have been looking in on other areas a lot more in the last couple of weeks, though - maybe because knowing we're all still here and still caring as much as we ever did is a comfort too. It's weird - but in some way I feel as though my love for, and interest in, the characters of Ennis and Jack have been brought to the fore once again by this tragedy and that's making me take an interest in areas of this forum that had perhaps got a little stale for me (as a "veteran" of almost 2 years now!!)
Anyway, I guess I'm getting off topic but please keep posting!
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It's sad to say, but I've hardly talked to any of my RL friends since Heath died. I know they can't really understand and I don't think I can bare criticism now. On the other hand I can't pretend that everything is fine with me either, so for now I just don't talk.
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I have been mostly offline for the last couple days and am just now catching up again. First things first.
:ghug: :ghug: to everyone.
Tony, I agree with NoReins. I don't think anyone sees your posts for anything other than what they are - your need to express your feelings and be there for the other members who want to express theirs. And that is, after all, what this thread is for. To honor and remember Heath, and to share our feelings about not just his passing, but his life as well. I for one have been very grateful to have this haven to come to. Because much like Keren and Tammy, and so many of us I think, I really don't have any friends that I can talk to in depth about the way I feel right now. A few have offered nice thoughts, since they knew that I was a fan, but it's different to try to explain why losing him feels so personal. So instead I bring that here, where I know you will all be waiting with open arms and solid shoulders, and that you feel the same way so there is no need to try to explain it or justify it to you.
So for all of those things, I want to thank each and every one of you. I am a part of a truly wonderful family. :ghug:
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It's sad to say, but I've hardly talked to any of my RL friends since Heath died. I know they can't really understand and I don't think I can bare criticism now. On the other hand I can't pretend that everything is fine with me either, so for now I just don't talk.
keren :ghug: I can relate to that.
I believe Heath will be laid to rest on Saturday. :(
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Hiya everyone. Ive been reading some wonderfully touching posts again and again i find myself thinking how wonderful everyone is <^( Please bare with me but i have just tried to attatch my painting what i have dedicated to Heath that i said id post when i joined the board. (Then it was to say hi from me but also now its a tribute..god who'd have thought that id be dedicating it to Heath? :\'( ) Anyway...not sure if this attatchements going to work....if not im sorry and could someone please tell me how to attatch images...sorry if i seem a bit stupid! ??? Today i got a surprise. In the Uks STAR mag this week they have printed my little dedication to Heath and my painting. ^f^ Its nice but tinged with sadness...id rather he be still alive than it being in the mag of course.... :\'(
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I am dam upset....After Heath died I watched Brokeback mountain..i know it is too late...the impact was much more for me as he was dead...Jake is taking it really hard..Hope he is better.. BBM is one of the best movies that I have seen
You are exactly right!
Brokeback Mountain is indeed the movie I will never get enough watching.
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Thanks, NoReins, and Flowerchild. Many thanks. But was kind of referring to all of us from the discussion threads----we all post a lot and
was thinking the Brokies who never go there were wondering who we were and so explained, on those threads frequent posting is the norm.
Well, back to what I've called the unending torrent of new information about Heath. Found an interview with his father from another forum
with reference to the water pistol incident in Sydney. Heath broke down and wept all night, called his Dad in the morning, and said: sell the house.
He just couldn't stand the petty hostility.
Most of what I have read is staggering, particularly about the contradictions in his nature and the duality. Extremely sensitive and easily hurt/
tough as nails. Ambitious/indifferent. Athletic/unusually artistic. Extremely private/open to new friendships with ordinary people. Graceful/awkward.
Sure of himself/not sure of who he was. Kind and generous and good/completely unable to reject obviously bad people. On and on.
This man is surely a challenge to any biographer. But I still like the note some moron left outside the bldg., where he died: tried to find something
bad about you--never could. Whatever they come up with, they will find faults as we are all human. But they will never find anything that rises
to the level of serious wrongfulness, deliberately done. This man did not have and never understood---malice. On that, alone, he was worthy
of love.
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I wrote a while back, that I relate to Ennis more than I do Heath, because to me Ennis is more real in his lonely trailer on the vast Wyoming plain, than Heath in his VIP circle of celebrity friends.
This last couple weeks changed that.
Now I relate to Heath as another human being, an ordinary human being who achieved an extraordinary life.
Heath had the same problems we all had, faced the similar demons, and had to overcome similar trials and tribulations. What made him special was the attitudes he carried all his life, to face those problems, and to overcome those difficulties.
As someone once told me, we are not defined by what happened to us. We are defined by how we react to what happened to us.
Heath always chose to react with sincerity, honesty, generosity, love and understanding. With a heart so pure, he must suffer so much in a world so cruel and devious. It must be a puzzle for him, how some people, like Guy Finlay, could be so vindictive and mean. I would not be surprised that Heath suffered in silence. It would be like him, to stand what cannot be fixed.
And now, with all the outpouring of love, I am hopeful that he is looking down from heaven, with the same smile that Ennis had, sending up to heaven a prayer of thanks.
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Thank you so much Andrew. Let me tell you this is a very sweet post. ^f^ So now I'm in tears, 'cause I have to hear everyday a lot of shit about Heath, and every simple time I read some words beautiful about him my heart just melts, and then I know what my soul already knew, that Heath was an amazing touching tender human being.
I have the crazy feeling that Heath can see us, can hear us, and I want him to hear nice things about him and not that f**ing crap that some people are telling. I need him to know that he was, he is loved. I think that ‘cause of that I think about Daniel Day-Lewis almost one hundred times a day. I can not stop feeling all warm and at the same time all shattered inside every time I think about him. Since I saw him crying, so touched at Ophra’s show, not a day passes by without me wanting so bad to see him and to hear him again and again. In his gestures, his humility, his amazing way of express his feelings, his humanity, he reminds me of our Heath so much; and maybe this, to watch him, makes me believe that Heath is still alive, or at least, alive in some hearts. As I said I need loving words about Heath to keep going on, to keep living in the middle of this deep wide sea of sorrow, and to see a fine man who didn’t met Heath, crying for him, gives me enough strength to wake up and go to work.
So I've spent the last days in a weird routine. I work like an zombie, almost aware of what I’m doing, thinking so much about Heath, then about my brokie baby, then about DDL, then coughing hard (I’m sick these days), and then think again about Heath, then my baby, then Daniel, then some horrible thing about those people saying bad shit, then coughing, then about the factures I have to process, then above all Heath, then baby, then Daniel, Daniel, Heath, Daniel, then one little puppy beaten to death (oh my… :\'( ), then my baby, then Heath, then…..tears, tears, tears….. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Don’t tell me, I know already. I’m crazy, huh? But I’m the kind of girl who drowns herself in a glass of water, who cries for animals dying, for old people being abandoned, for lost friends…..I’m just so emotional and now, right now, I need marvellous words about Heath from all of you. So I’ll never be able to say how grateful I am every time I come here and I read all those beautiful posts of yours. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LOVING HEATH.
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Thanks, NoReins, and Flowerchild. Many thanks. But was kind of referring to all of us from the discussion threads----we all post a lot and
was thinking the Brokies who never go there were wondering who we were and so explained, on those threads frequent posting is the norm.
Well, back to what I've called the unending torrent of new information about Heath. Found an interview with his father from another forum
with reference to the water pistol incident in Sydney. Heath broke down and wept all night, called his Dad in the morning, and said: sell the house.
He just couldn't stand the petty hostility.
Most of what I have read is staggering, particularly about the contradictions in his nature and the duality. Extremely sensitive and easily hurt/
tough as nails. Ambitious/indifferent. Athletic/unusually artistic. Extremely private/open to new friendships with ordinary people. Graceful/awkward.
Sure of himself/not sure of who he was. Kind and generous and good/completely unable to reject obviously bad people. On and on.
This man is surely a challenge to any biographer. But I still like the note some moron left outside the bldg., where he died: tried to find something
bad about you--never could. Whatever they come up with, they will find faults as we are all human. But they will never find anything that rises
to the level of serious wrongfulness, deliberately done. This man did not have and never understood---malice. On that, alone, he was worthy
of love.
Oh Tony, I've just read your post.....More tears... :\'( :\'( I hate that pap!!! How people can be so cruel? I'll never understand that, swear to God. So one more time, thank you for your wonderful thoughts about Heath. I just need it, and I have to say that I love the way that every brokie is finding out little treasures that were hidden in the huge heart of Heath.
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It's sad to say, but I've hardly talked to any of my RL friends since Heath died. I know they can't really understand and I don't think I can bare criticism now. On the other hand I can't pretend that everything is fine with me either, so for now I just don't talk.
I know what you mean Keren. Last Friday I was feeling sad and it must have been written on my face. My friend's husband asked me 'What happened did someone die.' I just couldn't bring myself to tell him that I am still suffering over Heath's death. I didn't need any criticism
hugs to you
Linda
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It's sad to say, but I've hardly talked to any of my RL friends since Heath died. I know they can't really understand and I don't think I can bare criticism now. On the other hand I can't pretend that everything is fine with me either, so for now I just don't talk.
I know what you mean Keren. Last Friday I was feeling sad and it must have been written on my face. My friend's husband asked me 'What happened did someone die.' I just couldn't bring myself to tell him that I am still suffering over Heath's death. I didn't need any criticism, hugs to you
Linda
Keren and Linda I can echo your posts!! :ghug:
:ghug: to everyone here for their wonderful posts as well. :ghug:
I still find it impossible to talk about it in RL ,but even here I find it unbearable to gather my feelings to write a coaherent post!
One thing thou, yesterday my good friend that somehow remembered my feelings about BBM,(I only mentioned it to her once), called me and said that she heard something about "this actor from my MY movie,passing" and immediately thought of me...I was so touched and surprised that I burst in tears after hanging up! :\'(
Well just something I wanted to share with my second family.
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Tony-I agree with No Reins and FC. I'm glad for everyone here that is able to not only articulate their thoughts but to share them with the rest of us. I've been reading but can't get mine together. When I do they will probably be long monster posts. I feel crappy at times because I haven't said all that much here. But there is no limit on posts or words and every post by everyone is appreciated.
:ghug: :ghug: To all dealing with RL people. I have my two RL friends that I can share with but other than that no one really knows that I am still in a bad place with all of this except for people here. They wouldn't understand and to hear bad things such as them placing judgement on why I feel the way I do is something I don't want or need. But no one on the "outside" ever really understood the BBM thing so I don't expect them to understand this. We've been there all along for each other and it's comfortable here. We know we're safe here.
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No, I didn't know Heath, but I think I fell in love with him nonetheless. I've never heard of him before I saw BBM, but from the moment I saw him he stole my heart. How can I explain to people what it's like when my heart goes out to a fictional character, when I can't get him out of my thoughts, when his tears at that last scene make my heart ache so badly and cause me to cry too? Heath did all that for me, he made me identify with Ennis completely and cry for his tragedy. He touched my heart so deeply that I felt like Ennis had become a part of me. And at first, Heath was Ennis to me - I didn't even want to see him in other movies because I couldn't see him as anyone else but Ennis. He owned my heart as Ennis, not as Heath.
Heath was so much more than "a movie star" to me. He wasn't a star, there was nothing starry about him. Through watching his films and reading interviews with him I discovered a beautiful man with a vulnerable soul, a man who talked openly and honestly about his fears, his weaknesses, his desires, a man who, in his "real life" off the set, couldn't be nothing but himself. There was so much depth in him, I could feel it, I could hear it in his words, in the thoughts that he shared. I can only imagine how overwhelmed I'd be if I'd known him in person. There are not many people who make you think "I don't know him but I have the strong impression that I'd like him a lot as a person if I did know him" (yes, thank you Daniel Day Lewis!!!) And Heath was one of these people. There was something so special about him that even people who didn't know him could feel.
Heath brought Ennis to life. He touched my soul and moved me in ways that I can't describe. Heath brought me here, to my new home and family. He took me up the mountain two years ago and I never went down. He had a very special place in my heart because of that. I thought about him as "my baby", I wanted to see him happy, growing and developing and making the most of his talent and I knew he would reach greatness. If I had a chance to give him back even a little of what he'd given me, I would've done anything.
Keren, you just describe my feelings. He moved to seek out others and start this place and it is a gift which I am forever grateful. Thank you so much for helping me understand. :ghug:
it occurred to me, that some others might take offense at
those of us who frequently post, as if we're saying our grief and shock is greater.
It was just a thought, that some Brokies from other forum areas might have wondered why we post often.
That's the reason. Myself, I have been greatly comforted by reading posts from those I never knew of & hope they keep at it.
Dear Tony, let me echo others. I can't thank you enough for sharing your thoughts. As you are comforted by reading others, I am too comforted by reading yours. It is part of sharing and supporting each other. Thank you. :ghug:
I can't find words to express my grief but am with you with my soul. I read everyone's post and each one of you comforts me. Thank you and :ghug: to everyone.
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Hello everybody. Yesterday BBBOY thanked me and Lance for posting a lot, but it occurred to me, that some others might take offense at
those of us who frequently post, as if we're saying our grief and shock is greater. It's the nature of cyberspace that it can be
so easy to get something wrong, and though it's a small matter-would like to explain.
I, for one, am very grateful to read your posts, and everyone else's too.
It is very heartwarming to be able to join in thanks and sorrow/anger/sadness over the recent passing of our friend.
I still wake, and for a moment I forget--and then it hits me again. Amazing how the mind works.
I am glad to be able to come here and connect with others . it is very cleansing and healing for me.
I have only been a member for over a year, and have not posted much. But i read the many threads and am happy to be a part of the group.
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hello, from Spain:
first at all, I must apologize, for I haven' got a good English,, but I hope you understand me....
Since Heath's death,, I've watched several times BBM,,, and every time,, I find a new reason about this film big reasons to watch at....
Thank, Ang Lee , for that marvellous film; deep inside of me and some friends is the same feeling,,,A master piece about love and this cinic society,,
the character of Ennis del Mar is helping a lot of people,,,
Wherever you are, Heath,, rest in peace... But I'm sure you're in God's hands....
Santiago, ,, from Spain
You explained what is in your heart very well.
Bienvenidos al grupo. Yo había en España solamente una vez.
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Very nicely put LC. I think you’re absolutely right, the past few weeks have required us all to see many things in a new light.
For a long time I’ve had a secret feeling that Heath felt and understood much more about Ennis (and his demons) that he ever let on, or maybe than he really recognized himself. How else can one explain his simply magical transformation into Ennis? This wasn’t acting, this is something more than acting, something transcendental. Even Annie recognized this complete and utter transformation, it was like a trance. Heath entirely disappears, as if he was “channeling” Ennis to help us all see and feel this silent suffering.
Jackster, this is beautiful. Not only does this explain Heath's amazing performance, but also relate to Annie Proulx recollection that when she was writing the short story, there were times when she felt a hand from heaven guiding her writing. This is transcendental. This is destiny. Heath is a legend because he performed what he was destined to perform, above and beyond anything anyone can ask of him. He was quoted to say that when he was offered the role, he felt that he was obligated to do right by the millions of people who might be affected by it. :\'( It is moments like this, that I really really miss him. :\'( :ghug:
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Hmm...it didn't occur to me that my posts deserve thanks, nor that they might offend anyone.
If I inadvertently hogged the screen (I think that was the term from FlwrChild way back when in another discussion thread), I sincerely apologize.
I agree with Tony that everyone's grief is equal, and everyone express it differently. Some with pictures, others with news links, and I happen to be a talkative person who finds writing to be therapeutic. I apologize that I imposed my own therapy on others. Then again, as Tony said, in cyberspace, people can make their own choices, without any rules or limitations. I never feel that anyone needs to read what I write. In fact, I am always grateful when anyone respond to my posts. I consider it a privilege, a gift, not a right.
And I agree with your last sentence, which I bolded and colored red. I cannot imagine NOT having read so many touching posts from others, old friends and new alike. Grief when shared with friends, is reduced, just as joy when shared, is multiplied. My immense grief for Heath has been reduced immeasurably because of all of you. Thank you.
Hello everybody. Yesterday BBBOY thanked me and Lance for posting a lot, but it occurred to me, that some others might take offense at
those of us who frequently post, as if we're saying our grief and shock is greater. It's the nature of cyberspace that it can be
so easy to get something wrong, and though it's a small matter-would like to explain.
It's a big forum we have here, with many cubbyholes, and many of us never run into each other outside those areas. But there are a number
of us from the discussion threads, and there, frequent posting is not only normal, but necessary, and even encouraged. So we're showing up
here, carrying with us those habits, and with no intent other than to keep everybody together.
No big deal, but if you are not familiar with us because you aren't ever in the discussion threads, please understand---nobody is saying we
know more, or feel more than you do. There's about 10 of us, and that's the explanation. We're trying to use our habits there, to help keep
everybody together here. It was just a thought, that some Brokies from other forum areas might have wondered why we post often. No biggie.
That's the reason. Myself, I have been greatly comforted by reading posts from those I never knew of & hope they keep at it.
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Tony, I'd be obliged if you would post the interview in the news topic, or send me a link. Reading your sentence broke me down in tears, and I think I won't be right again until I read the whole interview in its entirety. Thank you for all your information, and perceptive observation.
Thanks, NoReins, and Flowerchild. Many thanks. But was kind of referring to all of us from the discussion threads----we all post a lot and
was thinking the Brokies who never go there were wondering who we were and so explained, on those threads frequent posting is the norm.
Well, back to what I've called the unending torrent of new information about Heath. Found an interview with his father from another forum
with reference to the water pistol incident in Sydney. Heath broke down and wept all night, called his Dad in the morning, and said: sell the house.
He just couldn't stand the petty hostility.
Most of what I have read is staggering, particularly about the contradictions in his nature and the duality. Extremely sensitive and easily hurt/
tough as nails. Ambitious/indifferent. Athletic/unusually artistic. Extremely private/open to new friendships with ordinary people. Graceful/awkward.
Sure of himself/not sure of who he was. Kind and generous and good/completely unable to reject obviously bad people. On and on.
This man is surely a challenge to any biographer. But I still like the note some moron left outside the bldg., where he died: tried to find something
bad about you--never could. Whatever they come up with, they will find faults as we are all human. But they will never find anything that rises
to the level of serious wrongfulness, deliberately done. This man did not have and never understood---malice. On that, alone, he was worthy
of love.
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I, for one, am very grateful to read your posts, and everyone else's too.
It is very heartwarming to be able to join in thanks and sorrow/anger/sadness over the recent passing of our friend.
I still wake, and for a moment I forget--and then it hits me again. Amazing how the mind works.
I am glad to be able to come here and connect with others . it is very cleansing and healing for me.
I have only been a member for over a year, and have not posted much. But i read the many threads and am happy to be a part of the group.
This is exactly the way I feel. Thank you for saying it so well. :)
And lc, don't you dare apologize for hogging the screen. As we've already established, this free exchange of expression of our feelings and support for each other seems to have been beneficial to us all. No sense in messing with a good thing, eh? :*(
And since my sanity may be tenuous at best most days ;) , it might not be saying much, but being here with all of you has definitely kept me as sane as I am capable of being, and I sure do appreciate that at a time like this. :ghug:
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That was the first movie I saw him in and I loved him in that. But then I lost track of him until BBM- lost track of a lot of things as I was lost in "middle earth" for a good many years but that's another story.
:ghug: to you. It's not lessening any for me either. I still have thoughts riddled with denial, I think I am done with the anger stage but am very much in the depression and numb stages. I haven't really been posting here much because I can't seem to gather my thoughts enough. Again big hugs to you. :ghug:
Same to you, LJN. :ghug: It is still so not okay. It will never be, not for us left behind without him. The world is just a lesser place without him.
kathy
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I've noticed that some posts over the last several days have mentioned periods of severe reactions still occurring, and it is now about 2 weeks
since we lost Heath. Am very grateful to those who did, because I've had the same experiences and it was comforting to know I wasn't losing
my mind. Am especially grateful to Baby Tammy for telling of the haunting dream she had, and to Lance, who has been rightful to everybody.
And, of course, there were others who I've never met on the forum, but now know they are there and wonderful people.
Grief is bad enough, but I have found emotional instability to be the larger challenge. A lot of that bad reaction comes from some of the
information reported about Heath's last few months, most of which had been squashed, even before the industry people got that video banned.
I found much of the early reports credible, and they were very hurtful. One, which I ought to be able to mention here, was a tape of Heath
at a news conference openly saying he had had an obsession with the singer Nick Drake, who I looked up on the internet and it turned out
that guy had a terrible sleep disorder. The early information, then, still lingers on to trouble me, although am fairly comfortable with the
tracking away from those stories and not airing them. But there was enough to flesh out a Heath Ledger that more than ever, deserved the love
we already had for him.
It's kind of standard, now, the advice of many to focus on what was given to us, and to heal up in an orderly way, on some schedule. But
people don't follow projected graph lines and anything can set off new hurts, even little stuff. Yesterday, in the photos section, a quote from
Heath was posted, apparently in his own printing. I can't win. I studied graphoanalysis somewhat, years ago, and that field is accepted as
legitimate in courts cases. Am not an expert, but that printing was off the charts in what it revealed: unusual dignity, yet unusual lack of ego.
Athletic and outgoing nature, yet wildly creative. I would be very surprised if that wasn't his printing and would be glad to be wrong. Because
even that one little discovery added to what is, for me, an unending torrent of information that we lost much more than we knew. Well, wanted to thank the people who have comforted all of us, and ended up rambling. I really am grateful for all of you being here.
I always appreciate your posts, Tony. This that I bolded is so tragic, to me. The more we find out about Heath, the more we know he was even more incredible than we already knew he was. Just devastating, all that he would have done.,..
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It's sad to say, but I've hardly talked to any of my RL friends since Heath died. I know they can't really understand and I don't think I can bare criticism now. On the other hand I can't pretend that everything is fine with me either, so for now I just don't talk.
So sorry, Keren, but I think we all have this experience to some extent, more or less. I have plenty of people I wouldn't even want to talk about Heath or BBM with (unfortunately, such as my sister), but I feel fortunate that I have enough people in my life on a daily basis, the ones that matter to me I mean, that have known of my BBM thing from the beginning, and they are respectful. And I find they want to talk about Heath, as they, too, come to see what we have lost.
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Thank you so much Andrew. Let me tell you this is a very sweet post. ^f^ So now I'm in tears, 'cause I have to hear everyday a lot of shit about Heath, and every simple time I read some words beautiful about him my heart just melts, and then I know what my soul already knew, that Heath was an amazing touching tender human being.
...
Don’t tell me, I know already. I’m crazy, huh? But I’m the kind of girl who drowns herself in a glass of water, who cries for animals dying, for old people being abandoned, for lost friends…..I’m just so emotional and now, right now, I need marvellous words about Heath from all of you. So I’ll never be able to say how grateful I am every time I come here and I read all those beautiful posts of yours. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LOVING HEATH.
You're not crazy, you're wonderful. I also can cry at the drop of a hat, at those same things, the puppy, the old man shuffling along by himself, for people in the past and what I didn't do... And I just think life is so tragic...and Heath's death is just a tragedy. Yes, I can find much, much beauty in his life, but it was just too short, and the loss is great.
Anyway, you are a beautiful energy, and I'm glad you have this place to share yourself. I especially love what you said: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LOVING HEATH.
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It's amazing what can bring you to the next stage of grief. Tonight it was acceptance.
I finally watched Casanova, and really truly enjoyed it. It made me laugh, I saw Heath in a totally different role from Ennis. And I realize I will be able to enjoy seeing him as many times as I can put a DVD into my player, or as many times as I can look at pictures I have on my computer.
He truly seems to be alive through his movies. :cr)
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Oh, I'm so glad you're making it to the other side. :ghug:
I've been watching a lot of his movies again these last two weeks, just not BBM. I will enjoy his movies for years to come. :)
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Thanks, NoReins, and Flowerchild. Many thanks. But was kind of referring to all of us from the discussion threads----we all post a lot and
was thinking the Brokies who never go there were wondering who we were and so explained, on those threads frequent posting is the norm.
Well, back to what I've called the unending torrent of new information about Heath. Found an interview with his father from another forum
with reference to the water pistol incident in Sydney. Heath broke down and wept all night, called his Dad in the morning, and said: sell the house.
He just couldn't stand the petty hostility.
Most of what I have read is staggering, particularly about the contradictions in his nature and the duality. Extremely sensitive and easily hurt/
tough as nails. Ambitious/indifferent. Athletic/unusually artistic. Extremely private/open to new friendships with ordinary people. Graceful/awkward.
Sure of himself/not sure of who he was. Kind and generous and good/completely unable to reject obviously bad people. On and on.
This man is surely a challenge to any biographer. But I still like the note some moron left outside the bldg., where he died: tried to find something
bad about you--never could. Whatever they come up with, they will find faults as we are all human. But they will never find anything that rises
to the level of serious wrongfulness, deliberately done. This man did not have and never understood---malice. On that, alone, he was worthy
of love.
I've noticed all these opposites in Heath Ledger also because I've been watching as many interviews with him as I could in the last few weeks. He gets nervous when he's uncomfortable with a question and begins speaking fast and gesturing wildly. When he's comfortable, the words just flow out of him in that beautiful baritone as if he's a poet. He's graceful but his hands seem delicate and clumsy at the same time. It's almost as if he is many different people in one body, and he needs the artistic medium of acting to be able to express them all. There is one scene from Monster Ball when he reacts to his father's anger at him. It only lasts for 20 seconds but his expressions are so intense and beautiful that it's almost frightening to watch. He just opens up the most vulnerable place in himself and shows it to us. I've experienced this in real life but have never seen a male actor express such a complicated emotion. I know it's acting but with him it feels as if he allowed us into his most private inner life. It's really a gift he gave sharing that with so many people. He definitely was a complex and fascinating human being, and his talent touches us in such a way that we actually feel some deep love for his characters.
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My heart aches and my tears could not stop. It hurt so much to make the video but it was more bearable when all our hearts are together.
Heath Ledger and you all have inspired me. I took the liberty to quote many of you and I hope you don't mind. Thank you. :ghug:
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Thank you Ethan, this video is wonderful, it makes me cry again :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(. The music is so sad too... Thanks to have quoted us :ghug: ^f^
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Today is especially hard for me as I've heard the tests results are supposed to come out today. Don't know if it's true, but I'm waiting to hear.
Not that it matters much... no matter what the tests say, it's not gonna change how I feel about him or how broken I am. But at least I hope it's gonna put an end to all the rumors and the media will leave Heath's family alone.
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I know it's been posted before but anyway.. from IMDB.
I heard some of the quotes in his enchanting deep baritone voice..
Heath's personal Quotes
"I only do this because I'm having fun. The day I stop having fun, I'll just walk away. I wasn't going to have fun doing a teen movie again.... I don't want to do this for the rest of my life....I don't want to spend the rest of my youth doing this in this industry. There's so much I want to discover." - Vanity Fair (August 2000)
"It's a little uncomfortable doing love scenes in armor, but, you know, when the heat's on, the heat's on." - ,August 2000.
[about the paparazzi] "Most of the time you don't even know they're there. Now, that's the scary thing. It's really strange and invading, but I'm still working it all out. I try to not let it bother me. I really try and find the humour in all of it. And if I want to swim naked in my pool, I'm still going to do it. I certainly don't want to feel that I have to change everything in my life that I do to cater to them. I just won't let it happen." - May 2001
"I don't have a technique. I've never been a believer in having one set technique on how to act. There are no rules and there is no rulebook. At the end of the day, it all comes down to my instincts. That's the one thing that guides me through every decision professionally. Socially, also. That's my technique. Yeah, you read through the script 100 times. I guess I have little characteristics about myself. Sometimes, most often than not, once we start shooting I won't look at the script at all until we finished shooting. It's kind of like it's been imprinted in my head during rehearsals. You just let it go." - May 2001
"I'm the worst auditioner, really, really bad. I mean, you're being judged and I'm just so aware of it that it consumes me. I can't relax, I'm tied in knots, so the voice is very taut and tense. You're so aware that you're acting 'cause you're sitting across from this lady with a piece of paper who's going, ''I'm. Going. To. Shoot. You. If. You. Don't. Blah, blah, blah,'' in this emotionless voice. It's foul. I hate it." - May 2001
[about growing up with his mom and his sisters] I learned respect for women, and patience. You grow up with all those women around you...you learn to wait your turn. -June 1998
"The challenge was to capture the stillness of him. I have kind of semi-frantic, nervous energy. Harnassing that was something I thought I'd have to work out. Shooting in the wilderness, the stillness became like this innate quality." -on his character "Ennis" in Brokeback Mountain (2005).
"She's my soul mate and we couldn't love each other any more than we do already. We're like two peas in a pod." [On his girlfriend and the mother of his daughter, Michelle Williams].
"Matilda is adorable, and beautifully observant and wise. Michelle an I love her so much. Becoming a father exceeds all my expectations. It's the most remarkable experience I've ever had - it's marvelous." [On daughter Matilda and being a father]
"My life right now is, I wouldn't say reduced to food, but my duties in life are that I wake up, cook breakfast, clean the dishes, prepare lunch, clean those dishes, go to the market, get fresh produce, cook dinner, clean those dishes and then sleep if I can. And I love it. I actually adore it.
I'm not good at future planning. I don't plan at all. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow. I don't have a day planner and I don't have a diary. I completely live in the now, not in the past, not in the future."
[On his choice of film projects] I feel like I'm wasting time if I repeat myself. I can't say I'm proud of my work. It's the same with everything I do: the day I say 'It's good' is the day I should start doing something else.
"I start to get bored, not with the choices I was making, because I didn't really have a choice. The choices were being made for me -- I was being thrown into projects. So I kind of put the brakes on that. In a sense, I destroyed my career to rebuild it again.
I like to do something I fear. I like to set up obstacles and defeat them. I like to be afraid of the project. I always am. When I get cast in something, I always believe I shouldn't have been cast. I fooled them again. I can't do it. I don't know how to do it. There's a huge amount of anxiety that drowns out any excitement I have toward the project."
[On playing "The Joker" in The Dark Knight (2008)] The Joker, so far, is definitely the most fun I've had with any character. He's just out of control -- no empathy, he's a sociopath, uh, a psychotic, mass-murdering clown. And, uh, I'm just thoroughly, thoroughly enjoying it. It's just exceeded any expectations I had of what the experience would be like."
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I've just heard the song from James Blunt-Goodbye My Lover
It has the lines:
"You touched my heart
You touched my soul"...
That's exactly how I feel...
Keren I hear you :ghug:, I also hope they stop speculate,sometimes I'm happy to be here and not having to hear all the ugly gossip about how and why..
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I've just heard the song from James Blunt-Goodbye My Lover
It has the lines:
"You touched my heart
You touched my soul"...
That's exactly how I feel...
Keren I hear you :ghug:, I also hope they stop speculate,sometimes I'm happy to be here and not having to hear all the ugly gossip about how and why..
You're freeking me out, I was just humming "Goodbye My Lover" to myself and came here to find this post. The line that's stuck in my head is "I'm so hollow baby, I'm so hollow..."
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Hello everybody. Yesterday BBBOY thanked me and Lance for posting a lot, but it occurred to me, that some others might take offense at
those of us who frequently post, as if we're saying our grief and shock is greater. It's the nature of cyberspace that it can be
so easy to get something wrong, and though it's a small matter-would like to explain.
It's a big forum we have here, with many cubbyholes, and many of us never run into each other outside those areas. But there are a number
of us from the discussion threads, and there, frequent posting is not only normal, but necessary, and even encouraged. So we're showing up
here, carrying with us those habits, and with no intent other than to keep everybody together.
No big deal, but if you are not familiar with us because you aren't ever in the discussion threads, please understand---nobody is saying we
know more, or feel more than you do. There's about 10 of us, and that's the explanation. We're trying to use our habits there, to help keep
everybody together here. It was just a thought, that some Brokies from other forum areas might have wondered why we post often. No biggie.
That's the reason. Myself, I have been greatly comforted by reading posts from those I never knew of & hope they keep at it.
Hi, Tony ...
Please, your posts, and Lance's and the posts of everyone on here do exactly what you said at the end of your post I've quoted above - they bring comfort. There is no room for offense when we're all sharing the feelings, even those of us who don't post as often. I know for me it helps to have others here who can continue to put the words to what we're going through when I can't. :ghug:
I'll just say thank you to everyone posting on this board, frequently or infrequently, for making this place of support and community possible. It matters. And it comforts. :ghug:
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My heart goes out to his family :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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You're freeking me out, I was just humming "Goodbye My Lover" to myself and came here to find this post. The line that's stuck in my head is "I'm so hollow baby, I'm so hollow..."
Oh, Keren it's not a coincidence we both loved him and have the same feeling about it, plus I have this song playing constantly ... :^^)
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Tony-I agree with No Reins and FC. I'm glad for everyone here that is able to not only articulate their thoughts but to share them with the rest of us. I've been reading but can't get mine together. When I do they will probably be long monster posts. I feel crappy at times because I haven't said all that much here. But there is no limit on posts or words and every post by everyone is appreciated.
:ghug: :ghug: To all dealing with RL people. I have my two RL friends that I can share with but other than that no one really knows that I am still in a bad place with all of this except for people here. They wouldn't understand and to hear bad things such as them placing judgement on why I feel the way I do is something I don't want or need. But no one on the "outside" ever really understood the BBM thing so I don't expect them to understand this. We've been there all along for each other and it's comfortable here. We know we're safe here.
Exactly. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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It's official. This, according to Breaking News on the CNN site:
The New York City medical examiner's office has ruled that Heath Ledger died of an accidental overdose of prescription drugs.
It hardly mitigates the tragedy, but the John Gibsons of the world can now officially go to hell.
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It's official. This, according to Breaking News on the CNN site:
The New York City medical examiner's office has ruled that Heath Ledger died of an accidental overdose of prescription drugs.
It hardly mitigates the tragedy, but the John Gibsons of the world can now officially go to hell.
Thanks, afhickman. The news did nothing for me because I already accepted that as what happened. But your last paragraph puts me in tears because I know exactly how you feel. :\'( :ghug:
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It's official. This, according to Breaking News on the CNN site:
The New York City medical examiner's office has ruled that Heath Ledger died of an accidental overdose of prescription drugs.
It hardly mitigates the tragedy, but the John Gibsons of the world can now officially go to hell.
For me it feels good to know what happend but at the same time I realise that he's gone and won't come back :\'(
I just hope his family is ok.
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I've just heard the song from James Blunt-Goodbye My Lover
It has the lines:
"You touched my heart
You touched my soul"...
That's exactly how I feel...
Keren I hear you :ghug:, I also hope they stop speculate,sometimes I'm happy to be here and not having to hear all the ugly gossip about how and why..
OMG--of all the Brokeback Mt tribute videos (on YouTube), I have 2 favourites.
One is with the song "October" by Evanescence (truly haunting) and my 2nd fave is James Blunt's "Goodbye My Lover".
The others are all great, but those two, in particular, touch my soul more deeply.
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Thanks, afhickman. The news did nothing for me because I already accepted that as what happened. But your last paragraph puts me in tears because I know exactly how you feel. :\'( :ghug:
Indeed. People are too quick to judge.
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It's official. This, according to Breaking News on the CNN site:
The New York City medical examiner's office has ruled that Heath Ledger died of an accidental overdose of prescription drugs.
It hardly mitigates the tragedy, but the John Gibsons of the world can now officially go to hell.
Oh my.... :\'( :\'( :\'( I can't stand hear about his death....sorry...
But you're so right friend, at least, that bunch of assholes will have to shup up their f**ing mouths once and for all!!!
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I just found out the autopsy results. I am glad to hear it was accidental. The whole thing is still such a tragedy. :\'(
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Thank God. The report is in, you made a simple human mistake.
Your body (which magically served you so well) is at rest, at home, in your beloved Australia.
Your spirit is now truly free to fly forever in your work and in the minds of men everywhere.
(Thanks again Cham for this very beautiful photo)
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Barb sent me the news at work. Needless to say I burst into tears and actually almost threw up.
This isn't going to change one thing in terms of feelings for him etc That's not even an issue for me.
I know this probably sounds selfish but I wanted/needed it to be natural causes- not that any ruling was going to magically change the cold, brutal fact that he is gone. :\'( I guess it was more of having him vindicated in the media.
I guess at the end of the day none of that matters because to those that truly cared this will change nothing and to those that will pass judgements, well I can't say here what I'd say to them. And also to know that there was nothing that could have been done but again- nothing was going to put us back two weeks ago and undo any of it.
I sincerely hope that the media doesn't do their spin doctoring and turn a horrible accident into something it's not. Somehow I think that won't be the case and they should just let him rest in peace.
I'm rambling- don't even know if this is coherent. I still can't believe that any of this is real- my brain is still not comprehending one bit of the past two weeks. I still feel like this is some cruel alternate reality. :\'(
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Of course this is the first place I came when I heard the news, much like I did two weeks ago. Just knowing you are all here feeling the same way helps me process my own feelings. So big :ghug: to everyone.
I thought that his father's statement was beautiful, and that it was so generous of him to share that with us. As Christie said in the other thread, tears sprang to my eyes when I read his description of "our boy." :\'( God, I wish I could just give him a gentle hug. And what a nice guy to bother giving us such warm statements at all.
I also think his message is clear - "Do not paint my son as a tragic figure, haunted by despair. This was an unfortunate accident and nothing more."
I for one will abide by his wishes.
And, like hpv, I'm glad that the people here have been doing that all along. It is clear when you come here that Heath was and is well loved by our family.
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I still can't believe that any of this is real- my brain is still not comprehending one bit of the past two weeks. I still feel like this is some cruel alternate reality. :\'(
even with the results in, I still can't believe it's true...he can't be gone...he is in my mind all the time.
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I still can't believe that any of this is real- my brain is still not comprehending one bit of the past two weeks. I still feel like this is some cruel alternate reality. :\'(
Oh, LJN... :ghug:
I can quote you word by word.
Even with the news,I can't bring myself to spell the word "au"...(I was certain of the results) I'm kind of glad, but not really, since it won't bring him back... nothing will..........
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This confirms those words that one brokie said, that Heath would kick his own ass for this terrible accident, for him having been imprudent.
Today I told to Ali (MyPrivateJack) that I was stunned reading that inform, ‘cause it was saying that was not the amount of pills but the mix of them what killed him. And I was so shocked ‘cause I do the same the whole time. I have very horrible pains several times a month (long story) and I can’t stand that…..so I use to take so many pills….and I use to mix several kinds of them. My mother and friends are always really mad at me for that….but until today I never saw the danger. I could have been him, many of us could have been him. I think Linda was so right when she said that how easy it is to take to many prescription drugs. People know the dangers of illegal drugs but too many think that if you have prescription drugs it's okay. It’s so easy to find death when you try to sleep or to calm pain with pills that doctor gave you. You don’t have to be a junkie to die ‘cause of drugs.
I know I must be feeling quite better knowing that all this was only a tragic accident, but in a way I can not explain I feel really worse, ‘cause that show me even more clearly that he wanted to live. I’ve never had doubts about that, but to think about all those dreams he had, all the love he wanted to give, makes me deeply sad now I know that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true, to see his baby Matilda, simply to live.
And now I can’t stand the idea that maybe he’s so sad and angry wherever he is, ‘cause he wanted so bad to live and a tragic mistake of his ruined it all. Oh my, he was so perfectionist in all his works and, you see, one only mistake and……
That so sad and just unfair. I know Heath, I’m mad too, I’m broken too. :\'( :\'(
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Tammy, I actually like what you say about him "wanting to live...that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true..."
Because, you see, that's how he lived his life. And that means that there were no wasted days, which means that he did get everything out of life there was to get. And that's as good as any of us can hope for. So as tragic as it is that he left all too soon, I do find some comfort in knowing that he lived so well.
And I really believe that the burden of regret is on the people that are left behind, not the departed. In my heart, I feel that all such concerns are left behind. So I don't think that he is sad, but I do think that he will watch over his family while they go through their sadness. And who better to have watch over them than someone who loves them so much? :ghug:
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This confirms those words that one brokie said, that Heath would kick his own ass for this terrible accident, for him having been imprudent.
Today I told to Ali (MyPrivateJack) that I was stunned reading that inform, ‘cause it was saying that was not the amount of pills but the mix of them what killed him. And I was so shocked ‘cause I do the same the whole time. I have very horrible pains several times a month (long story) and I can’t stand that…..so I use to take so many pills….and I use to mix several kinds of them. My mother and friends are always really mad at me for that….but until today I never saw the danger. I could have been him, many of us could have been him. I think Linda was so right when she said that how easy it is to take to many prescription drugs. People know the dangers of illegal drugs but too many think that if you have prescription drugs it's okay. It’s so easy to find death when you try to sleep or to calm pain with pills that doctor gave you. You don’t have to be a junkie to die ‘cause of drugs.
I know I must be feeling quite better knowing that all this was only a tragic accident, but in a way I can not explain I feel really worse, ‘cause that show me even more clearly that he wanted to live. I’ve never had doubts about that, but to think about all those dreams he had, all the love he wanted to give, makes me deeply sad now I know that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true, to see his baby Matilda, simply to live.
And now I can’t stand the idea that maybe he’s so sad and angry wherever he is, ‘cause he wanted so bad to live and a tragic mistake of his ruined it all. Oh my, he was so perfectionist in all his works and, you see, one only mistake and……
That so sad and just unfair. I know Heath, I’m mad too, I’m broken too. :\'( :\'(
You took the words from my mouth.
Now I just wish that the press will leave his family and friends alone, and that they will stop writing all this crap about him, because hearing all those untrue stories is not what his family needs right now. :\'(
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Barb sent me the news at work. Needless to say I burst into tears and actually almost threw up.
This isn't going to change one thing in terms of feelings for him etc That's not even an issue for me.
I know this probably sounds selfish but I wanted/needed it to be natural causes- not that any ruling was going to magically change the cold, brutal fact that he is gone. :\'( I guess it was more of having him vindicated in the media.
I guess at the end of the day none of that matters because to those that truly cared this will change nothing and to those that will pass judgements, well I can't say here what I'd say to them. And also to know that there was nothing that could have been done but again- nothing was going to put us back two weeks ago and undo any of it.
I sincerely hope that the media doesn't do their spin doctoring and turn a horrible accident into something it's not. Somehow I think that won't be the case and they should just let him rest in peace.
I'm rambling- don't even know if this is coherent. I still can't believe that any of this is real- my brain is still not comprehending one bit of the past two weeks. I still feel like this is some cruel alternate reality. :\'(
You've expressed exactly how I feel - which is too awful to describe. I'm crying all over again. You're right, it's not gonna change anything, so why is this affecting me so much? I mean, I suspected that was the reason... but it's so horrible to read these words. Our darling beautiful Heath, my mind just can't accept it...
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We're getting kicked around AGAIN, because they waited so long to give us the truth, and it just opens up the wounds again. But we'll do
better, gradually, as the news sinks in. The funeral is said to be Saturday, in Perth, but what day is that here? Isn't it Friday? We need to
know this so we can each, in our own way, be right by Heath, be faithful to him that day above all others, and remember him formally, as if
we were there.
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Tammy, I actually like what you say about him "wanting to live...that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true..."
Because, you see, that's how he lived his life. And that means that there were no wasted days, which means that he did get everything out of life there was to get. And that's as good as any of us can hope for. So as tragic as it is that he left all too soon, I do find some comfort in knowing that he lived so well.
And I really believe that the burden of regret is on the people that are left behind, not the departed. In my heart, I feel that all such concerns are left behind. So I don't think that he is sad, but I do think that he will watch over his family while they go through their sadness. And who better to have watch over them than someone who loves them so much? :ghug:
Barb, you've got me :\'( all over again with your beautiful words.
But, as others have said, this news just makes it so much more tragic. If Heath (god forbid) had done something on purpose...if he'd wanted out...then maybe it would have been easier, somehow, knowing it was what he wanted. But this way...having it all taken away by something as simple as the wrong combination of prescription drugs...it's just so heartbreaking. I thought I was getting over this at least a little but I just can't bear to think of all the dreams left unfulfilled.
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Barb, you've got me :\'( all over again with your beautiful words.
But, as others have said, this news just makes it so much more tragic. If Heath (god forbid) had done something on purpose...if he'd wanted out...then maybe it would have been easier, somehow, knowing it was what he wanted. But this way...having it all taken away by something as simple as the wrong combination of prescription drugs...it's just so heartbreaking. I thought I was getting over this at least a little but I just can't bear to think of all the dreams left unfulfilled.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:\'( :\'(
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I've just heard the song from James Blunt-Goodbye My Lover
It has the lines:
"You touched my heart
You touched my soul"...
That's exactly how I feel...
This was a song used on So You Think You Can Dance last night, I couldn't help but cry but also noticed one of the judges wiping his eyes, not sure if it was the song and what it may have meant to him or the combination of the beautifully done dance and the song. :\'(
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I see there's a lot of new stuff here...I've glanced quickly, but I'm unable to read, honest, I don't wanna know too much.
However, I've been reading the tribute compilation thread, thanks Chameau for gathering all that beauty, and everyone for your inputs. I much rather tributes than information right now. My grain of sand...excuse my mistakes.
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Little boy lost
twinkling trembling star,
trying to skip black holes,
you have orbited too far...
Some say: did he just get blind?
I've been following your trail,
of your gloomy gleaming smile,
it has led me to the shore
now I wonder where you are...
Some say you have just drowned
Lovelorn early bird
flapped his wounded wings,
flew too soon, too high,
couldn't get into the swing
Some say you just nose dived
No matter how high they scream
that you've hurled yourself to void,
that you've vanished into nothingness,
that you're under cold damp soil...
You are breeze that passes brushing,
crashing waves that softly rock,
a sun ray when sky is smiling…
You’re the thorn that grazed my heart.
*Thanks for the pic Chameau, it's haunting, couldn't help borrow it
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Tammy, I actually like what you say about him "wanting to live...that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true..."
Because, you see, that's how he lived his life. And that means that there were no wasted days, which means that he did get everything out of life there was to get. And that's as good as any of us can hope for. So as tragic as it is that he left all too soon, I do find some comfort in knowing that he lived so well.
And I really believe that the burden of regret is on the people that are left behind, not the departed. In my heart, I feel that all such concerns are left behind. So I don't think that he is sad, but I do think that he will watch over his family while they go through their sadness. And who better to have watch over them than someone who loves them so much? :ghug:
you said this so Eloquently FC. Heath was FULL of life, this was not a man who wanted to die. And he lived his life to the fullest. Maybe he only lived for 28 years but WHAT a wonderful 28 years they were! and we will all remember him
:ghug:
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Although the toxicology news doesn't make anyone feel any better, maybe it's good to dwell on some positives...
- It wasn't intentional - he never meant to leave his daughter, his family and his career
- All the drugs were legal - not many muck-raking opportunities for the gutter press
- Heightened awareness of the dangers of so-called "safe" prescription drugs - maybe a few lives will be saved
- It appeared that Heath just wanted to be able to sleep; he did get to sleep, and was probably quite relieved and happy when he finally did - he was deeply asleep when he died, there was no pain or panic, just sleep
- He was a good-looking young man - and will remain young and good-looking for ever
Probably not much comfort, I know, but maybe a bit...
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It is amazing what a difference it makes for me to come here and read all of your words and take comfort from hearing you share your thoughts. Thank you everyone. :ghug:
ayashae, beautiful words. :^^)
gambrinus, you make very good points and when the shock and hurt wear off, those will be good things for us to remember. ^f^
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We're getting kicked around AGAIN, because they waited so long to give us the truth, and it just opens up the wounds again. But we'll do
better, gradually, as the news sinks in. The funeral is said to be Saturday, in Perth, but what day is that here? Isn't it Friday? We need to
know this so we can each, in our own way, be right by Heath, be faithful to him that day above all others, and remember him formally, as if
we were there.
I think I'm numb. I can't cry right now. Don't know if those protective whatevers in me have circled the wagon or what. The next and possibly the hardest wave will hit when he is laid to rest. I mean I guess nothing can be harder than the news on 1/22 but there is going to be a finality that we can't ignore anymore, a reality that will scream until it's heard.
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You've expressed exactly how I feel - which is too awful to describe. I'm crying all over again. You're right, it's not gonna change anything, so why is this affecting me so much? I mean, I suspected that was the reason... but it's so horrible to read these words. Our darling beautiful Heath, my mind just can't accept it...
:ghug: I think because it's too incomprehensible to process-any of it. I think, for me, that no matter what the report said it wasn't going to make me feel "better" there is only one thing that will make me feel better right now and I know that will never come to pass. :\'( There is just a helplessness in all of this-everyone of us was powerless against what happened- there was nothing we could have said or done to change a damn thing. And it sucks. I think acceptance, at least for me, will be a very long time in coming. :ghug:
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I think I'm numb. I can't cry right now. Don't know if those protective whatevers in me have circled the wagon or what. The next and possibly the hardest wave will hit when he is laid to rest. I mean I guess nothing can be harder than the news on 1/22 but there is going to be a finality that we can't ignore anymore, a reality that will scream until it's heard.
Oh man. :-\\ The part I bolded made me think of his SB acceptance speech, when he said:
"Sometimes you must scream out loud in order to discover a whisper."
:\'( :\'(
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Oh man. :-\\ The part I bolded made me think of his SB acceptance speech, when he said:
"Sometimes you must scream out loud in order to discover a whisper."
:\'( :\'(
Crap :\'( :\'( Maybe when those whispers come, they will be some form of acceptance. :\'(
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Oh geez, the whisper is acceptance. :\'( That's beautiful. :ghug: Let's hope.
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I see there's a lot of new stuff here...I've glanced quickly, but I'm unable to read, honest, I don't wanna know too much.
However, I've been reading the tribute compilation thread, thanks Chameau for gathering all that beauty, and everyone for your inputs. I much rather tributes than information right now. My grain of sand...excuse my mistakes.
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Little boy lost
twinkling trembling star,
trying to skip black holes,
you have orbited too far...
Some say: did he just get blind?
I've been following your trail,
of your gloomy gleaming smile,
it has led me to the shore
now I wonder where you are...
Some say you have just drowned
Lovelorn early bird
flapped his wounded wings,
flew too soon, too high,
couldn't get into the swing
Some say you just nose dived
No matter how high they scream
that you've hurled yourself to void,
that you've vanished into nothingness,
that you're under cold damp soil...
You are breeze that passes brushing,
crashing waves that softly rock,
a sun ray when sky is smiling…
You’re the thorn that grazed my heart.
*Thanks for the pic Chameau, it's haunting, couldn't help borrow it
That was just beautiful. :\'(
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Before I logged off, was going to thank everybody that replied to one of my posts, but the list was very long, so will just say---you all are
the greatest. Also, Ayashae's poem was beautiful.
But Michelle's saying: "...a reality that will scream until it's heard.." hits close to home. If outsiders looked a little closer, they would see
why emotions run so deep and that Heath was loved......with just cause.
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"It's not that we're better than others, but we sure are
independent, unique, in the ways that we give our hearts out, and, if outsiders looked a little closer, they would see we gave our love to Heath
....with just cause."
Beautiful, friend. :ghug:
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Oh man. :-\\ The part I bolded made me think of his SB acceptance speech, when he said:
"Sometimes you must scream out loud in order to discover a whisper."
:\'( :\'(
OMG how profound . Is there a place I could see this speech?
I am a little like LJN in that I find it hard to believe he's gone. This report made the tears and empty feeling start again. When I hear that he's been laid in his final resting place I will be both relieved and saddened all over again
:\'( I can't stand it OR Fix it either
Linda
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Keren posted it in the news thread:
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12695.msg679395#msg679395 (http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12695.msg679395#msg679395)
And here's a link to the audio:
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20173623,00.html (http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20173623,00.html)
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Well, everybody hang tough. A lot of outsiders would think we were overly emotional....and weak. Just the opposite---we have been tough enough to risk a lot by loving, and we are proving tough enough to handle a huge loss. It's not that we're better than others, but we sure are independent, unique, in the ways that we give our hearts out, and, if outsiders looked a little closer, they would see we gave our love to Heath
....with just cause.
Well said Tony :ghug: And I believe if the funeral (God :\'( ) is Saturday in Australia then it would be Friday for us. I'm vasciallting between those stages too, friend. :ghug:
:ghug: Linda
Beautiful poem Ayashae :ghug:
And big hugs to everyone. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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"You are breeze that passes brushing,
crashing waves that softly rock,
a sun ray when sky is smiling…
You’re the thorn that grazed my heart."
Oh, Ayashae, that was just wonderful!
Del_Marvelous
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For me it will be a final relief to hear his mortal remains are finally put to rest. His spirit has been traveling for 2 weeks now, on to better places than we can know. I just finished watching "Ned Kelly", a movie where he is an adult and proves once again what a unique and singular actor he was. I will keep what he was close to my heart and not try to dwell on what he could have been. Sleep well Heath, sleep well.
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Many people have said "He could've been one of the greats." I don't think there's any could've about it. He was already there. When I look at his performances in Ned Kelly, Monster's Ball, BBM, and Candy especially, I'd have to say he'd already accomplished more in his career than some actors do over a span of 40 years. He absolutely was one of the greats, and that's just in acting, which was only one of his many gifts.
Yep, I'll keep what he was close to my heart too. :ghug:
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Hello Everyone...
It was hard today to come home from school today, hearing all the latest news about Heath and the toxicology reports. It is tough to believe that a man like him died accidental by prescription drugs..and it's tough to comprehend that most of this meds that were in his system were due to all of the work he was doing with finishing TDK, filming Dr. P, and awaiting to see his daughter again after being away from her for so long. But I am happy that all of the test have been finished and that the news and rumors are starting to diminish, in hopes that he will be laid peacefully to rest.
On another note, I have a favor to ask amongst our members..
As you all may know, I am not one for poems (like some who are so amazing, my mouth drops) or the music vids. that bring me almost to tears..but since Jan. 23, if I didn't explain already, I have collected newspaper clippings and recently, pictures from magazines. My collection is growing bigger but lately I sparked the idea of gathering pictures from fellow members. Whether they are your favorite pictures of Heath, a small collage you have created honoring him, anything like that, would be greatly appreciated. If you are interested, please PM me. I am going to work the next 2 weeks in making this and my mom has even told me when I am done, she will laminate the finishing product. So please, feel free to send me pictures you think would be the best for this collage or "poster" as my mom calls it. Thank you :^^)
:ghug:
Lis
*Note: All clippings from magazines that I have cut do not contain false information or incriminating pictures of Heath and/or his family and friends, but pictures of happy moments with people around him and smiling pictures from all ages of our beloved Heath.
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Lis, I think that sounds wonderful. :ghug:
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That is such a wonderful idea Lis :^^) I'm gathering articles, magazines, posts etc and I'm going to make a booklet for myself- I do these weird time capsule type things in times like this- don't know why. I hope you show us the finished collage when you are done :ghug:
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This confirms those words that one brokie said, that Heath would kick his own ass for this terrible accident, for him having been imprudent.
Today I told to Ali (MyPrivateJack) that I was stunned reading that inform, ‘cause it was saying that was not the amount of pills but the mix of them what killed him. And I was so shocked ‘cause I do the same the whole time. I have very horrible pains several times a month (long story) and I can’t stand that…..so I use to take so many pills….and I use to mix several kinds of them. My mother and friends are always really mad at me for that….but until today I never saw the danger. I could have been him, many of us could have been him. I think Linda was so right when she said that how easy it is to take to many prescription drugs. People know the dangers of illegal drugs but too many think that if you have prescription drugs it's okay. It’s so easy to find death when you try to sleep or to calm pain with pills that doctor gave you. You don’t have to be a junkie to die ‘cause of drugs.
I know I must be feeling quite better knowing that all this was only a tragic accident, but in a way I can not explain I feel really worse, ‘cause that show me even more clearly that he wanted to live. I’ve never had doubts about that, but to think about all those dreams he had, all the love he wanted to give, makes me deeply sad now I know that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true, to see his baby Matilda, simply to live.
And now I can’t stand the idea that maybe he’s so sad and angry wherever he is, ‘cause he wanted so bad to live and a tragic mistake of his ruined it all. Oh my, he was so perfectionist in all his works and, you see, one only mistake and……
That so sad and just unfair. I know Heath, I’m mad too, I’m broken too. :\'( :\'(
This is how I feel, also. Just a f**king mistake. All he wnted to do was get some good sleep... I can't stand it, still.
And you, BT, please be careful.
kathy
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Tammy, I actually like what you say about him "wanting to live...that he went to sleep waiting for another day to make his dreams come true..."
Because, you see, that's how he lived his life. And that means that there were no wasted days, which means that he did get everything out of life there was to get. And that's as good as any of us can hope for. So as tragic as it is that he left all too soon, I do find some comfort in knowing that he lived so well.
And I really believe that the burden of regret is on the people that are left behind, not the departed. In my heart, I feel that all such concerns are left behind. So I don't think that he is sad, but I do think that he will watch over his family while they go through their sadness. And who better to have watch over them than someone who loves them so much? :ghug:
I think this, too, FC. I never worry about the person who has departed, ever. It's all about us. Well, obviously, about those closest to him. And especially his little girl. Though again, I'm probably putting too much onto that, too. I think children are so resiliant, and so young, it's not really a trauma to her. It will color her somehow, these times right now of no daddy around and not knowing why, but she'll get along. Until she gets older and learns form a more mature space who her father was -- then, depending on how stable she is, she'll either dwell on it in an unhealthy way, or in a healthy way, we hope.
Sorry...just following some of the jumbled-up thoughts still stewing around in my head...
kathy
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Little boy lost
twinkling trembling star,
trying to skip black holes,
you have orbited too far...
Some say: did he just get blind?
I've been following your trail,
of your gloomy gleaming smile,
it has led me to the shore
now I wonder where you are...
Some say you have just drowned
Lovelorn early bird
flapped his wounded wings,
flew too soon, too high,
couldn't get into the swing
Some say you just nose dived
No matter how high they scream
that you've hurled yourself to void,
that you've vanished into nothingness,
that you're under cold damp soil...
You are breeze that passes brushing,
crashing waves that softly rock,
a sun ray when sky is smiling…
You’re the thorn that grazed my heart.[/center]
This is so beautiful, ayashae. Perfect words to express Heath's spirit... Thank you.
kathy
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That is such a wonderful idea Lis :^^) I'm gathering articles, magazines, posts etc and I'm going to make a booklet for myself- I do these weird time capsule type things in times like this- don't know why. I hope you show us the finished collage when you are done :ghug:
Michelle, why am I not surprised? :) :^^) I love how you call it a time capsule; and I am doing that also, my collection, in a special folder, and the picture on the front is from that Warner Bros. tribute. But also, I've been making things for our Las Vegas gathering, and also the special small piece I want to leave out in the desert. So through all this, the past two weeks, I've been doing my usual creative Brokie thing, but it's even more meaningful now, for Heath...
kathy
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It's so sad. I'm so sad. Can't believe this. I'm without words.. I weep. :\'(
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I have something to share with you,
Today I looked up my calendar for some appointment and I saw the day 22 of January was marked in red, it's the holiday of : Tu Bishvat. I was to devastated to notice it before ...
Tu Bishvat is a Jewish holiday, that marks the "New Year of the Trees" Customs include planting trees and eating dried fruits and nuts. In Israel, the flowering of the almond tree, which grows wild around the country, coincides with Tu Bishvat.
I find it very significant as we usually plant trees on this day(over a million Israelis now take part in the tree-planting activities organized every year on Tu Bishvat., mostly children from schools do it this days)
I was thinking, new planted tree....many of them on that particular day, it made me feel a little better...
I for one like to think that one of those was for our boy, Heath.
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I read that someone had a dream about Heath and last night It was my turn, It's the first dream of him since he died.
I saw Heath standing in front of a lot of people and he said "I'm sorry" and then he started to cry. Then I saw Michelle and Matilda and they were crying to and Heath said "I didn't want to leave you but I had to and I'm sorry" and then he disapered In a with light and Matilda said "I love you daddy"
When I woke up i cried so hard I couldn't breath. but after a wile I calmed down and thou gt that the with light must have meant that he became and angel and that he is watching over his little girl now :\'(
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It's a beautiful and so sad dream you have had Emzan...It sounds like a prophecy. The dreams are the representation of our unconscious, they reveal us our driven back desires.
Simone :ghug:
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I have something to share with you,
Today I looked up my calendar for some appointment and I saw the day 22 of January was marked in red, it's the holiday of : Tu Bishvat. I was to devastated to notice it before ...
Tu Bishvat is a Jewish holiday, that marks the "New Year of the Trees" Customs include planting trees and eating dried fruits and nuts. In Israel, the flowering of the almond tree, which grows wild around the country, coincides with Tu Bishvat.
I find it very significant as we usually plant trees on this day(over a million Israelis now take part in the tree-planting activities organized every year on Tu Bishvat., mostly children from schools do it this days)
I was thinking, new planted tree....many of them on that particular day, it made me feel a little better...
I for one like to think that one of those was for our boy, Heath.
Thank you hpv, to share this story with us. I am sure a lot of trees will now be growing in Heath's memory ^f^. That means too he is still alive for years and centuries, even when we'll all be died and perhaps with him in heaven.
:ghug: :) ^f^
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Well, everybody hang tough. A lot of outsiders would think we were overly emotional....and weak. Just the opposite---we have been tough
enough to risk a lot by loving, and we are proving tough enough to handle a huge loss. It's not that we're better than others, but we sure are
independent, unique, in the ways that we give our hearts out, and, if outsiders looked a little closer, they would see we gave our love to Heath
....with just cause.
Tony.... :\'( :\'( :\'( So beautiful, friend.
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Emzan, my Heath dream was a couple of days ago. It wasn't anything dramatic or important, just a quiet afternoon backyard barbeque, with a few other people around, and we just hung out and talked. He was soft spoken as always, a little shy, very friendly, and relaxed; none of the fidgeting we'd seen so much of in his interviews over the years. It was nice just to hear his voice and see his face up close, and when I woke up and the feel of it started fading away, I just wanted to grab on and hold onto it for as long as I could. I know it was an image of my own making, but it made me feel a little better anyway, and as I process the new gut punch of hearing the tox reports and adding another step toward finality in my acceptance of all this, it gives me a nice feeling to hold onto, and I'm really grateful to have that.
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Today, here in Spain all the newspapers talk about Heath. I read that he took six different kinds of pills. I've taken in my life at least 3 or 4 of them.
Oxicodona : To calm pain.
Hidrocodona: It’s Vicodina. To calm pain.
Diazepam: Valium. Against anxiety attacks.
Temazepam: To sleep and against panic attacks.
Alprazolam: Xanac. Against panic attacks derived from depression.
Doxilamina: A sedative.
So now, just tell me, is that means that my Heath was in pain? That he not only couldn’t sleep but he was suffering pains too? That he had so horrible panic attacks? That he had a terrible depression? So, that he was sad?
Oh my, no, no, no…… Our Heath, our baby….Being sad, suffering pain and panic attacks.That’s so heartbreaking and unbelievable horrible :\'( :\'( :\'(
I’m a wreck right now, a real mess, crying like crazy over my desk, and don’t tell me nice things about he was happy, ‘cause I have eyes, huh, and I can see what those pills means. No one doctor in the whole world gives you Diazepam, or Vicodina, or Temazepan if you are not depressed, if you don’t have anxiety attacks, if you don’t feel pain!!!
Oh no, Jesus no!! I said several times in my previous posts that I was so afraid of Heath being sad or sick or…and now, just look at that pill list. I used to take several of those when I had depression and that was the deepest darkest nightmare I’ve ever had. AND I DON’T WANT HEATH TO HAVE PASSED THROUGH THAT!!! No, no, no.
My heart is broken and I’m just so confused and shattered and sick that I could vomit right now if I’d eaten something……’cause I can not eat nor think straight…only to cry and curse. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I can not stand this any more....
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Aww Tammy :ghug: :ghug:
None of us can know what was in his mind or in his heart, so please don't upset yourself with what if's and wonderings. Anxiety in and of itself does not have to speak of a deeper depression, and if it was, it's not for us to know.
What I do know, or at least believe, is that he would not want to see you so distressed, just as you don't want to think of him distressed. So try, as hard as it can be, to focus instead on all of the joys in his life that he shared with us, the knowledge that he had a beautiful daughter that he loved and felt brought meaning to his life, and the remembrance, through his movies and many interviews, of just what a wonderful and gifted gentleman he was. :ghug:
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:ghug: I think because it's too incomprehensible to process-any of it. I think, for me, that no matter what the report said it wasn't going to make me feel "better" there is only one thing that will make me feel better right now and I know that will never come to pass. :\'( There is just a helplessness in all of this-everyone of us was powerless against what happened- there was nothing we could have said or done to change a damn thing. And it sucks. I think acceptance, at least for me, will be a very long time in coming. :ghug:
I feel the same. :ghug:
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Keren :ghug:
We'll all get there eventually, and thank God, we'll get there together.
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Keren :ghug:
We'll all get there eventually, and thank God, we'll get there together.
Aww thats just so lovely. I'm sorry I've not been here much, but I've been here in spirit, with you all. I just cant begin to write down my thoughts that would make any sense, because they dont, not at all. I just feel beyond sad. :\'( :\'( :\'( But its good to know that this place is here, and that, yes, we will be able to deal with this together, however long it takes. Thank you so much for all of you being here, it means the world to me. :ghug:
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All the posts about outsiders not understanding our grief, our love for Heath, remind me of another of my favorite songs. Heath always took life full throttle with fire in his heart. Those who don't understand, are those standing outside the fire. Thank you to you all who share the flame.
GARTH BROOKS LYRICS
"Standing Outside The Fire"
We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned
We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned
But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire
We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall
We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all
They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
Before I logged off, was going to thank everybody that replied to one of my posts, but the list was very long, so will just say---you all are
the greatest. Also, Ayashae's poem was beautiful.
But Michelle's saying: "...a reality that will scream until it's heard.." hits close to home.
Maybe there's more than one scream, though. More going on. The first, from the total unreality of all this. The second, from the unreality
moving into proving true. And a third, maybe what Michelle speaks to, a scream that accepts finality but expresses a grief that must be heard.
Myself, I am still going back and forth between those three stages.
Again, the news says the funeral is Saturday, but, if that is true, is that actually Friday, here? Does anyone know? I don't believe the family
means the actual day is to be kept private--they probably just don't want, and will enforce, no media nearby.
Well, everybody hang tough. A lot of outsiders would think we were overly emotional....and weak. Just the opposite---we have been tough
enough to risk a lot by loving, and we are proving tough enough to handle a huge loss. It's not that we're better than others, but we sure are
independent, unique, in the ways that we give our hearts out, and, if outsiders looked a little closer, they would see we gave our love to Heath
....with just cause.
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Dear Tammy, you don't have to speculate whether Heath was in pain, or what. He said in an interview that he always felt anxious during a project. It is natural creative anxiety about doing a job well. He was under a lot of pressure, and stress, but nothing that he couldn't handle. Remember his family said that the two weeks of rest over the holidays was wonderful with him. He was ready to take on the world again, making plans to meet friends the next day.
This was a tragic accident because the pills were lethal when mixed. Please remember to never do that. And remember Heath's gifts, to love the people and life, with our fullest abilities, and not let regrets, worries, fears from keeping those we love, those who love us, at a distance, whether by words, by attitudes, or by action.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Today, here in Spain all the newspapers talk about Heath. I read that he took six different kinds of pills. I've taken in my life at least 3 or 4 of them.
Oxicodona : To calm pain.
Hidrocodona: It’s Vicodina. To calm pain.
Diazepam: Valium. Against anxiety attacks.
Temazepam: To sleep and against panic attacks.
Alprazolam: Xanac. Against panic attacks derived from depression.
Doxilamina: A sedative.
So now, just tell me, is that means that my Heath was in pain? That he not only couldn’t sleep but he was suffering pains too? That he had so horrible panic attacks? That he had a terrible depression? So, that he was sad?
Oh my, no, no, no…… Our Heath, our baby….Being sad, suffering pain and panic attacks.That’s so heartbreaking.and unbelievable horrible :\'( :\'( :\'(
I’m a wreck right now, a real mess, crying like crazy over my desk, and don’t tell me nice things about he was happy, ‘cause I have eyes, huh, and I can see what that pills means. No one doctor in the whole world gives you Diazepam, or Vicodina, or Temazepan if you are not depressed, if you don’t have anxiety attacks, if you don’t feel pain!!!
Oh no, Jesus no!! I said several times in my previous posts that I was so afraid of Heath being sad or sick or…and now, just look at that pill list. I used to take several of those when I had depression and that was the deepest darkest nightmare I’ve ever had. AND DON’T WANT HEATH TO HAVE PASSED THROUGH THAT!!! No, no, no.
My heart is broken and I’m just so confused and shattered and sick that I could vomit right now if I’d eaten something……’cause I can not eat nor think straight…only to cry and curse. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I can not stand this any more....
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Dear Tammy, you don't have to speculate whether Heath was in pain, or what. He said in an interview that he always felt anxious during a project. It is natural creative anxiety about doing a job well. He was under a lot of pressure, and stress, but nothing that he couldn't handle. Remember his family said that the two weeks of rest over the holidays was wonderful with him. He was ready to take on the world again, making plans to meet friends the next day.
This was a tragic accident because the pills were lethal when mixed. Please remember to never do that. And remember Heath's gifts, to love the people and life, with our fullest abilities, and not let regrets, worries, fears from keeping those we love, those who love us, at a distance, whether by words, by attitudes, or by action.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I think it is not very extraordinary for artists to feel extreme feelings when they are are doing they work, deeply involved and dived into the dephts of their work. It is one of the things that make them great artists, the ability to dive in deep. It has also risks.
During these weeks I have felt deep inside my heart that this was an accident. Hearing it to be confirmed, doesn't take the pain away, but it relieves. It was an accident, not intention.
Be careful and take care BabyTammy! :ghug:
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I read that someone had a dream about Heath and last night It was my turn, It's the first dream of him since he died.
I saw Heath standing in front of a lot of people and he said "I'm sorry" and then he started to cry. Then I saw Michelle and Matilda and they were crying to and Heath said "I didn't want to leave you but I had to and I'm sorry" and then he disapered In a with light and Matilda said "I love you daddy"
When I woke up i cried so hard I couldn't breath. but after a wile I calmed down and thou gt that the with light must have meant that he became and angel and that he is watching over his little girl now :\'(
Emzan what a good dream. That is what I think this is. I know he said he was sorry to his little girl and Michelle. I think this represents him going towards the light. Our angel Heath is in a peaceful place looking over his little girl.
Linda
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Emzan, my Heath dream was a couple of days ago. It wasn't anything dramatic or important, just a quiet afternoon backyard barbeque, with a few other people around, and we just hung out and talked. He was soft spoken as always, a little shy, very friendly, and relaxed; none of the fidgeting we'd seen so much of in his interviews over the years. It was nice just to hear his voice and see his face up close, and when I woke up and the feel of it started fading away, I just wanted to grab on and hold onto it for as long as I could. I know it was an image of my own making, but it made me feel a little better anyway, and as I process the new gut punch of hearing the tox reports and adding another step toward finality in my acceptance of all this, it gives me a nice feeling to hold onto, and I'm really grateful to have that.
FC why was I not invited to this party! >:( :P it sounds like such a nice dream. I know I have dreamed of heath but I can't remember them
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Emzan what a good dream. That is what I think this is. I know he said he was sorry to his little girl and Michelle. I think this represents him going towards the light. Our angel Heath is in a peaceful place looking over his little girl.
Linda
Yea, the most beautiful angel in heaven.
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As always, beautiful thoughts everyone. :ghug:
lancecowboy, that's such an appropriate song for him. Heath was always standing right inside the fire of life, glowing with a wonderful energy and intensity. Not one minute wasted, not one dream compromised. A beautiful song for a beautiful soul. :^^)
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Michelle, why am I not surprised? :) :^^) I love how you call it a time capsule; and I am doing that also, my collection, in a special folder, and the picture on the front is from that Warner Bros. tribute. But also, I've been making things for our Las Vegas gathering, and also the special small piece I want to leave out in the desert. So through all this, the past two weeks, I've been doing my usual creative Brokie thing, but it's even more meaningful now, for Heath...
kathy
Oh Kathy that is wonderful to leave a little tribute to him out there. :ghug: :^^)
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I just got done with another crying fit and came here to read some posts.
Big hugs to everyone :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
:ghug: Christie. I can't find the words either.
Tammy, sweetie, I sent you a pm :ghug:
Dear Tammy, you don't have to speculate whether Heath was in pain, or what. He said in an interview that he always felt anxious during a project. It is natural creative anxiety about doing a job well. He was under a lot of pressure, and stress, but nothing that he couldn't handle. Remember his family said that the two weeks of rest over the holidays was wonderful with him. He was ready to take on the world again, making plans to meet friends the next day.
This was a tragic accident because the pills were lethal when mixed. Please remember to never do that. And remember Heath's gifts, to love the people and life, with our fullest abilities, and not let regrets, worries, fears from keeping those we love, those who love us, at a distance, whether by words, by attitudes, or by action.
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Beautiful Andrew :ghug:
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Dear Tammy, you don't have to speculate whether Heath was in pain, or what. He said in an interview that he always felt anxious during a project. It is natural creative anxiety about doing a job well. He was under a lot of pressure, and stress, but nothing that he couldn't handle. Remember his family said that the two weeks of rest over the holidays was wonderful with him. He was ready to take on the world again, making plans to meet friends the next day.
This was a tragic accident because the pills were lethal when mixed. Please remember to never do that. And remember Heath's gifts, to love the people and life, with our fullest abilities, and not let regrets, worries, fears from keeping those we love, those who love us, at a distance, whether by words, by attitudes, or by action.
I think you have said it best here Lance. TY O0
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I think you have said it best here Lance. TY O0
BBBOY, I don't think I said it any better than saying what others have been thinking and feeling, too. I think it is how we all feel. I can tell from all the posts that some of us are really hurting, the shock of Heath's death had been devastating to some of us, especially the younger members who have not had the life experiences as you and I, and other older members.
To me, having survived one devastating death, and other sorrowful events, and especially having been healed so recently from watching the movie and coming to this forum, Heath's death was shocking and devastating but I could rely on past experiences to heal, to recover. Whatever words I have to say, are the same that have been posted on this forum months and years ago, about love loss, love unrequited, love unexpressed. To me, losing Heath is like living Brokeback Mountain again, and again.
Its impact on me was stronger than I realized, until I called up old friends I haven't spoken to for years. And especially an old Christian friend who I hurt many years ago, when I abruptly broke off our friendship without any explanation. When I finally came out to him and asked for forgiveness, a great weight lifted, and I was happier than I had been for months.Indeed perhaps years. Out of all the pain and sorrow, I am forever grateful to Heath for giving me not only Ennis, but also by his example, a way of life that is pure and full of joy.
Please don't thank me for saying what is on everyone's mind. Thank Heath instead, for all his many gifts to us all, and Ethan, and the moderators (of which YOU are one) who sustain this forum through thick and thin.
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I don't think I said it any better than saying what others have been thinking and feeling, too. I think it is how we all feel. I can tell from all the posts that some of us are really hurting, the shock of Heath's death had been devastating to some of us, especially the younger members who have not had the life experiences as you and I, and other older members.
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To me, having survived one devastating death, and other sorrowful events,
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Please don't thank me for saying what is on everyone's mind. Thank Heath instead, for all his many gifts to us all, and Ethan, and the moderators (of which YOU are one) who sustain this forum through thick and thin. :ghug:
lance :ghug:
You are to modest, truly, even if your words are saying what others feel, still you say it in a very clear and fine way,that we can relate to, so again thank you for that! :^^)
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Today, here in Spain all the newspapers talk about Heath. I read that he took six different kinds of pills. I've taken in my life at least 3 or 4 of them.
Oxicodona : To calm pain.
Hidrocodona: It’s Vicodina. To calm pain.
Diazepam: Valium. Against anxiety attacks.
Temazepam: To sleep and against panic attacks.
Alprazolam: Xanac. Against panic attacks derived from depression.
Doxilamina: A sedative.
So now, just tell me, is that means that my Heath was in pain? That he not only couldn’t sleep but he was suffering pains too? That he had so horrible panic attacks? That he had a terrible depression? So, that he was sad?
Oh my, no, no, no…… Our Heath, our baby….Being sad, suffering pain and panic attacks.That’s so heartbreaking and unbelievable horrible :\'( :\'( :\'(
I’m a wreck right now, a real mess, crying like crazy over my desk, and don’t tell me nice things about he was happy, ‘cause I have eyes, huh, and I can see what those pills means. No one doctor in the whole world gives you Diazepam, or Vicodina, or Temazepan if you are not depressed, if you don’t have anxiety attacks, if you don’t feel pain!!!
Oh no, Jesus no!! I said several times in my previous posts that I was so afraid of Heath being sad or sick or…and now, just look at that pill list. I used to take several of those when I had depression and that was the deepest darkest nightmare I’ve ever had. AND I DON’T WANT HEATH TO HAVE PASSED THROUGH THAT!!! No, no, no.
My heart is broken and I’m just so confused and shattered and sick that I could vomit right now if I’d eaten something……’cause I can not eat nor think straight…only to cry and curse. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I can not stand this any more....
Baby Tammy, I feel your pain, truly I do. I myself currently take medication for panic attacks - I know how frightening they can be. To think that Heath suffered from them just breaks my heart even more. And the depression, too, I know how bad that can be. It's horrible that he had to go through all of that. And now he's gone. It's so unfair. :\'(
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Baby Tammy, I feel your pain, truly I do. I myself currently take medication for panic attacks - I know how frightening they can be. To think that Heath suffered from them just breaks my heart even more. And the depression, too, I know how bad that can be. It's horrible that he had to go through all of that. And now he's gone. It's so unfair. :\'(
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It's so quiet here, so far today, so very few posts, and I guess that's probably because the funeral is today, our time. It'll make a
difference---the whole idea of funerals is to help the family and friends, in some way, come to terms with a loss. Very, very often, however,
the services just alter the over-all sense of loss. There are days that start where you feel back to normal, other days, brief relapse or even
depression. Most of you have experienced this and so know what's going to happen.
And then, for us, we all have to come to terms with how we became so emotionally entangled and suffered reactions far different than
others, who just liked Heath's movies. There are some who will feel they over-reacted and there's something wrong with them. Nah. It
is a good idea, over time, to find out why the feeling of connection to Heath, but we should never forget that he crossed our paths a different
way, and there is no shame to that. We are who we are, and we loved Heath. And we'll miss him. If anyone does get news the services
are over, I hope they will post.
My understanding is, it's roughly in these hours, now, and I have heard the family will have a wake of celebration, at a beach Heath favored,
if they can sustain that without too much interference. Have also heard the press corps is 30-40, and have said they would restrain themselves
if allowed some limited coverage. I doubt the family will agree to the offer.
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Tony, you described our feelings very well. That is exactly what I'm experiencing, and though I don't discuss it much in "RL", I am not at all concerned with what anyone else might think of my feelings. I just feel fortunate to have felt some of the warmth from the glow that he cast, and to have found this wonderful community through his work.
If the services are Saturday mid-day Sydney time, that would be this evening here in the Eastern States, and late afternoon on the west coast. I might light a candle this evening just to honor him around the same time.
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Finally had the dream that I knew would be coming for 2 1/2 weeks now. The Heath dream. It started off sad. I was in a random hallway crying, about him I am sure when he walks out of a door like nothing ever happened. He noticed I was crying, came over and asked what was wrong. I didn't say anything at first, but eventually I pointed at him and said "You." He looked a little different, shorter/lighter hair kind of how he looked in early 2006.
Then I asked him if I could touch his hair. I always loved his hair so I'm sure that's why that came up in the dream. He let me, he smiled and then I asked him "Will you please give me strength?" he nodded, said yes, and then I answered back with something like "I'm trying really hard but I might need help sometimes." After that he said he had to go so he got up and started to leave, gave me a wave and I said "Goodbye, Heath." Then he was gone.
I woke up immediately and wasn't sure if I wanted to cry or smile so I just stared at the ceiling for little bit replaying it in my head.
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Thanks for sharing that, Carby. :ghug:
It felt like I could see it playing out. It was nice to see him and talk to him, wasn't it? I wish everyone could have a dream like that. Maybe, one at a time, eventually everyone will. :)
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Thanks for sharing that, Carby. :ghug:
It felt like I could see it playing out. It was nice to see him and talk to him, wasn't it? I wish everyone could have a dream like that. Maybe, one at a time, eventually everyone will. :)
It was very nice. I think everyone will get their chance, a few at a time. :ghug:
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Baby Tammy, I feel your pain, truly I do. I myself currently take medication for panic attacks - I know how frightening they can be. To think that Heath suffered from them just breaks my heart even more. And the depression, too, I know how bad that can be. It's horrible that he had to go through all of that. And now he's gone. It's so unfair. :\'(
Yeah Vicki, that's so unfair. :\'( :\'(
Kristin, what a beautiful dream. I would like to touch his hair. It would be like give him a caress of comfort (why do I keep needing comforting him when who needs comfort from him is just me?). It would be precious.
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Kristin, what a beautiful dream. I would like to touch his hair. It would be like give him a caress of comfort (why do I keep needing conforting him when who needs comfort from him is just me?). It would be precious.
I agree, sweet dream....
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Hello Brokies :^^)
I cannot believe that tomorrow or later today (in NY) is Heath's funeral. I can't believe it's been over 2 weeks, maybe more, since he passed. I wish that I could do some tribute tonight honoring him at around the same time as they are in Aus. but sadely, I'm so busy today.
My drama club is showing our play for the 2nd time tonight called "Camelot". Just before I wrote this I sent a prayer and a kiss. I hope that will do for now.
Oh Heath, it is so hard sometimes to realize that you are gone. I savoir every time you are on TV and smile when your smile lights up the room and yet my smile goes away soon after, knowing I will never be able to see that smile again. It is difficult but I always have to remember all that you've done on your time on Earth and how lucky Heaven is, to have an angel like you... #)
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Lis
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Finally had the dream that I knew would be coming for 2 1/2 weeks now. The Heath dream. It started off sad. I was in a random hallway crying, about him I am sure when he walks out of a door like nothing ever happened. He noticed I was crying, came over and asked what was wrong. I didn't say anything at first, but eventually I pointed at him and said "You." He looked a little different, shorter/lighter hair kind of how he looked in early 2006.
Then I asked him if I could touch his hair. I always loved his hair so I'm sure that's why that came up in the dream. He let me, he smiled and then I asked him "Will you please give me strength?" he nodded, said yes, and then I answered back with something like "I'm trying really hard but I might need help sometimes." After that he said he had to go so he got up and started to leave, gave me a wave and I said "Goodbye, Heath." Then he was gone.
I woke up immediately and wasn't sure if I wanted to cry or smile so I just stared at the ceiling for little bit replaying it in my head.
i hope i dream something like this some night it would be so comforting #) Im sure it was both nice but moving and sad too...one day i hope to meet him in my dreams....
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What a beautiful dream Carby :ghug:
I had one last night. And in true Michelle fashion it was weird- never seem to have a straightforward type of dream. But anyway here it is. All I remember is that the final service was going on-I don't know if I was there or just sort of seeing it but anyway everyone was walking following behind the procession and the paps were everywhere- helicopters etc. All of the mourners were walking to the final destination (my euphemism) and were carrying large pictures of Heath and they were set on some type of lightweight boards. When the paps got to close they'd put them over their heads and it spelled out "F*ck you Paps" and some only had the color red on the back- you know sort of like at a sporting event when fans in the stands spell out something? Anyway that is my weird dream.
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"All of the mourners were walking to the final destination (my euphemisms) and were carrying large pictures of Heath and they were set on some type of ligthweight boards. When the paps got to close they'd put them over their heads and it spelled out "F*ck you Paps" and some only had colors on the back- you know sort of like at a sporting event?"
LJN, this actually brought a smile to my face, because I couldn't help thinking he would like that. I just see that quirky, mischievous smile in my head. And for a guy who's given the finger to the paps, I think he'd be up there cheering his friends on. :clap:
I love that so many people are having dreams about him. Thanks for sharing this. :)
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That was quite a dream carby! :) I am still so stunned I have not had a Heath dream yet. Not sure what will trigger one either. I do hope that if I have one I will have the opportunity to say to him the things I hoped to say in a real life meeting.
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It's so quiet here, so far today, so very few posts, and I guess that's probably because the funeral is today, our time. It'll make a
difference---the whole idea of funerals is to help the family and friends, in some way, come to terms with a loss. Very, very often, however,
the services just alter the over-all sense of loss. There are days that start where you feel back to normal, other days, brief relapse or even
depression. Most of you have experienced this and so know what's going to happen.
And then, for us, we all have to come to terms with how we became so emotionally entangled and suffered reactions far different than
others, who just liked Heath's movies. There are some who will feel they over-reacted and there's something wrong with them. Nah. It
is a good idea, over time, to find out why the feeling of connection to Heath, but we should never forget that he crossed our paths a different
way, and there is no shame to that. We are who we are, and we loved Heath. And we'll miss him. If anyone does get news the services
are over, I hope they will post.
My understanding is, it's roughly in these hours, now, and I have heard the family will have a wake of celebration, at a beach Heath favored,
if they can sustain that without too much interference. Have also heard the press corps is 30-40, and have said they would restrain themselves
if allowed some limited coverage. I doubt the family will agree to the offer.
I hope the media leaves them alone- these are real people suffering a real loss and real pain. God bless his family for being so graceful throughout all of this- I don't know if I'd have been able to restrain myself if it was- god forbid- my child that I was preparing to bury. :\'( To your other point, I guess it's that we know that there are those that will tear him down- pricks- those that are in the "now" who will soon forget even if they don't mean to and then there's us who will carry him with us always. And no, there is no shame in it at all. The shame lies with those who try to capitalize with insulting slanderous articles and erroneous "news", with those who mock a human being who has passed away be it on a radio show or with a picket sign, with those that are so full of hatred that they couldn't embrace this wonderful story and those that brought it to life. And it is a true shame that their hearts aren't open to love and don't know the comfort of a friend's hug- even if it is a cyber hug, or a kind word posted here, the feeling of being understood and accepted no questions asked. That is the real shame and they are all the poorer for it.
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LuvJackNasty---that wasn't a weird dream, it only shows you are a fighter. If you've had one, letting off anger, I'd bet sooner or later, you'll
get that sweet dream, that will make it all right.
It is hard to not know the exact time of the funeral, and the networks have gone from one extreme (gossip) to the other (no news at all).
But, it's probably right now, in these 1-2 hours, if not already over. I'd like to light a candle, but I don't have one. Maybe it's a good idea to
log off, in a little while, and just accept the passage quietly. Meanwhile, I love all of you for sticking together as a community. Each of us had
a place to go when we were troubled, and that was to each other.
Since it's probably around now----just let me say----Heath, go in peace....but not too far.
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"Heath, go in peace....but not too far."
Beautiful, Tony.
LJN, your post moved me to tears. You both have put into words so well the wonderful gift this place is to us all. :\'( <^(
I too give my love to all of you and thank you for being my (cyber) family. :ghug:
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This song popped into my head today- it's from the Lord of the Rings at the end of the trilogy. It normally makes cry at the end of the movie and today it took on a whole new meaning. I'm listening to it now. :\'( And I love this picture- I'm a fan of more candid shots- looks almost like a moment caught between a smile and a laugh.
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"Into The West"
Lay down
Your sweet and weary head
Night is falling
You’ve come to journey's end
Sleep now
And dream of the ones who came before
They are calling
From across the distant shore
Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping
[Chorus]
What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home
And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
All souls pass
Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time
Don't say: «We have come now to the end»
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again
And you'll be here in my arms
Just sleeping
[Chorus]
And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
Grey ships pass
Into the West
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^^OMG, that is a beautiful song. I am sitting here just thinking about how he is now been laid to rest in Australia, and I'm crying again. :\'(
For the first week after Heath left us, I dreamt about him every single night. I wish I could remember exactly what happened in the dreams, but they were good and not sad.
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She's right. That is a beautiful song. And so fitting tonight. :\'(
Thank you for sharing it. :ghug:
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:ghug: JK and Barb
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This song popped into my head today- it's from the Lord of the Rings at the end of the trilogy. It normally makes cry at the end of the movie and today it took on a whole new meaning. I'm listening to it now. :\'( And I love this picture- I'm a fan of more candid shots- looks almost like a moment caught between a smile and a laugh.
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"Into The West"
Beautiful song LJN, thanks for posting. ^f^
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Beautiful song LJN and so appropriate for this night. I for one can rest easier now knowing Heath's body has been laid to rest. His spirit left us 2 almost 3 weeks ago now, but it is comforting to know that his mortal remains are now where they should be and at peace.
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Baby Tammy, I feel your pain, truly I do. I myself currently take medication for panic attacks - I know how frightening they can be. To think that Heath suffered from them just breaks my heart even more. And the depression, too, I know how bad that can be. It's horrible that he had to go through all of that. And now he's gone. It's so unfair. :\'(
I take an anti-anxiety med -- not for panic attacks per se, but chronic anxiety. Perhaps it was that for Heath -- we don't know. So let's not think the worse. The insomnia, yes, that was definitely an issue, and how that can disrupt one's state of mind and health. Sleeplessness due to the intensity of his work. But I like to think of what is called "divine anxiety," without which we would not be shaken up enough to explore and express to the limits, would not have the level of art we have gotten from some people, Heath certainly included. He wouldn't want to zombie out -- he had too much to express. Just some of my thoughts, not intending to be some definitive answer...
kathy
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I take an anti-anxiety med -- not for panic attacks per se, but chronic anxiety. Perhaps it was that for Heath -- we don't know. So let's not think the worse. The insomnia, yes, that was definitely an issue, and how that can disrupt one's state of mind and health. Sleeplessness due to the intensity of his work. But I like to think of what is called "divine anxiety," without which we would not be shaken up enough to explore and express to the limits, would not have the level of art we have gotten from some people, Heath certainly included. He wouldn't want to zombie out -- he had too much to express. Just some of my thoughts, not intending to be some definitive answer...
kathy
Excellent point Kathy. I said it the night Heath died. He gave his all to his art and in the end his art took it all. The pundits and the know it alls can not imagine what he gave for the sake of his art, and an artist he was, of the highest level.
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I just posted (on the vigil thread) the sonnet Michelle Williams read at Heath's memorial service.
May our darling boy rest in peace.
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Farewell cowboy..Rest in peace..
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For me, the funeral is always the worst...
Thank you Carby and LJN for sharing your dreams. Yes, he got to go now... :\'(
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I just posted (on the vigil thread) the sonnet Michelle Williams read at Heath's memorial service.
May our darling boy rest in peace.
Thank you Froggy, so I hope too...our dear Heath rests in peace :ghug:
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For me, the funeral is always the worst...
Thank you Carby and LJN for sharing your dreams. Yes, he got to go now... :\'(
For me too, now it feels like he's gone. I think I'm starting to understand it now :\'(
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Lastely, they (the medical examiners) let you rest in peace, farewell little darlin
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What a beautiful picture and a fitting tribute :) :ghug:
I think everyone will get their chance, a few at a time.
I tend not to dream very often, and if/when I do, they are never remembered. Instead, I have flashes, or visions which last just very briefly. So, today, while at work, (I work at a children's indoor playground), I was watching a parent and child, sliding down a large slide which we have there. For no reason at all, without any thought in my head of Heath, I saw oh so very briefly, Heath with Matilda, in place of the parent and child on that slide. It bothered me for awhile afterwards, as to why I saw this. I did not even realise it was his funeral today. I puzzled on it for sometime, trying to work out why I saw this. But honestly, it was very nice to see. I only learnt of Heath's funeral when I arrived home earlier this evening.
Perhaps it was just a waking dream as I call them :)
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Thank you Carefree Wind, your flash is very interesting, especially today because it is Heath's funeral. Much among us thinks of him and that create a very strong aura.
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Lastely, they (the medical examiners) let you rest in peace, farewell little darlin
Tita it's so beautiful and sad... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
Just a gesture, as we here in Germany had not had the opportunity to lay down flowers for him, and especially because it's still impossible for me to find any appropriate words to express my feelings.
.. I'm just sending up a prayer of THANKS.
Farewell, Heath. I miss you.
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I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
that was such a beautiful thing to do.
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Hanna, that was a beautiful thing to do :ghug:
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
Just a gesture, as we here in Germany had not had the opportunity to lay down flowers for him, and especially because it's still impossible for me to find any appropriate words to express my feelings.
.. I'm just sending up a prayer of THANKS.
Farewell, Heath. I miss you.
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I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
Yes, a beautiful gesture, thanks for sharing :ghug:
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It was interesting to hear that the Ledger family found great comfort in the love expressed for Heath from around the world. They
saw a difference between the media attention and the personal feelings of average people who had unusual interest in Heath. That sort of
settles the issue as to whether we were in any way a hurt to them by keeping an intense vigil. We were not. It was a support to them.
We did the right thing. They did not expect us to fall quiet and walk away. And we didn't.
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Hanna - that was a truly beautiful thing to do :ghug:
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
Just a gesture, as we here in Germany had not had the opportunity to lay down flowers for him, and especially because it's still impossible for me to find any appropriate words to express my feelings.
.. I'm just sending up a prayer of THANKS.
Farewell, Heath. I miss you.
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I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
Such a magnificent gesture... <^(
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A beautiful gesture, Hanna.
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It was interesting to hear that the Ledger family found great comfort in the love expressed for Heath from around the world. They
saw a difference between the media attention and the personal feelings of average people who had unusual interest in Heath. That sort of settles the issue as to whether we were in any way a hurt to them by keeping an intense vigil. We were not. It was a support to them.
It was truly an expression of grieve, and they understood it.
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So beautiful Hanna. You sent your heart to Heath.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Now he's really gone. That's the saddest thing of the world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Hanna, it's a beautiful gesture :ghug:
We are all inside this balloon :ghug:
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
Just a gesture, as we here in Germany had not had the opportunity to lay down flowers for him, and especially because it's still impossible for me to find any appropriate words to express my feelings.
.. I'm just sending up a prayer of THANKS.
Farewell, Heath. I miss you.
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I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
Oh, that's such a beautiful thing to do :\'( Thanks for sharing that, Hanna :ghug:
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Hanna, thank you for sharing your pictures. What a lovely gesture. :^^)
Tony, I was struck by what Heath's father said as well, and happy to know that the genuine expressions of affection for Heath and support for his family were received in the spirit in which they were given. To know that we could give them a little comfort amidst this storm makes the heart feel a little better. :ghug:
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I let a balloon for Heath fly today..
Just a gesture, as we here in Germany had not had the opportunity to lay down flowers for him, and especially because it's still impossible for me to find any appropriate words to express my feelings.
.. I'm just sending up a prayer of THANKS.
Farewell, Heath. I miss you.
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I looked into the sky until I couldn't see the balloon anymore. And I'm so glad we had such a great weather today; it felt so peaceful.
Thanks, Hanna, for sharing this beautiful moment with us. :ghug: :^^) :c)
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Now you are a star which will always shine in the sky. A star for eternity : I swear...
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omg :\'( I'm crying again
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:Don't cry dear brokies :^^) :^^) :^^) :^^)
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I'm trying but I can't stop :\'(
:ghug: to everyone
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A huge :ghug: back!
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that was such a beautiful thing to do.
OMG--that took my breath away. My friend did this when his dad died. the family gathered and each wrote a message and tied it to a balloon--and they watched as the balloons flew up to heaven.
What a beautiful thing to do.
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EN MIS SUEÑOS REI...
bañado por la aguas de tu fuente celestial
me senti tuyo...en una noche nupcial
AL DESPERTAR LLORE...
bañado por el llanto de un silencio sepulcral
me sentì solo...en el inmenso paraiso terrenal.
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OMG--that took my breath away. My friend did this when his dad died. the family gathered and each wrote a message and tied it to a balloon--and they watched as the balloons flew up to heaven.
What a beautiful thing to do.
Indeed HLJG...We are all connected by the death of the others :ghug:
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Today, our boy was finally RIP :\'(
TO HEATH:
You had the gift of happiness,
The unrelenting grace
To see the radiance of life
Within the ruthless face.
It wasn't pure naivete
Or something just not there,
Or, even worse, an inner lie
That said you didn't care.
It was a certain blessedness
Attained by very few
That let you live within a love
Within the love in you.
Copyright by Nicholas Gordon
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Today, our boy was finally RIP :\'(
TO HEATH:
You had the gift of happiness,
The unrelenting grace
To see the radiance of life
Within the ruthless face.
It wasn't pure naivete
Or something just not there,
Or, even worse, an inner lie
That said you didn't care.
It was a certain blessedness
Attained by very few
That let you live within a love
Within the love in you.
Copyright by Nicholas Gordon
:\'( thank you for posting
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This is beautiful, JAKELANDIA, sorry for the bad translation, I got it from Google Translate. It has limitations. I love your juxtaposition of the nuptial night SNIT and the sepulcral silence, reflected in the cowboy in the sunset. Thanks. I feel better knowing Heath is finally at peace, rising up to the heavens, where he came from, and where he belongs. :ghug:
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EN MIS SUEÑOS REI...
bañado por la aguas de tu fuente celestial
me senti tuyo...en una noche nupcial
AL DESPERTAR LLORE...
bañado por el llanto de un silencio sepulcral
me sentì solo...en el inmenso paraiso terrenal.
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REI IN MY DREAMS ...
Washed by the waters of your heavenly source
I felt yours ... in a wedding night
THE AWAKENING LLORE ...
Washed by the tears of a sepulchral silence
I sentì alone ... in the vast earthly paradise. |
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Thank you so much, hpv. This is really moving. I especially like the part below, where I bolded and colored red.
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Today, our boy was finally RIP :\'(
TO HEATH:
You had the gift of happiness,
The unrelenting grace
To see the radiance of life
Within the ruthless face.
It wasn't pure naivete
Or something just not there,
Or, even worse, an inner lie
That said you didn't care.
It was a certain blessedness
Attained by very few
That let you live within a love
Within the love in you.
Copyright by Nicholas Gordon
Heath was a very private person with amazing depth. He said once that it would take a long time to try to explain to someone else who he really was. We are finding out now, with all the anecdotes from his friend, this amazing blessed depth. If at times, he seemed fidgety or aloof, it was only because he was living within the love in him, that few were privileged to share. We were all blessed when he shared it in Ennis.
Thank you for this poem. :ghug:
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This is beautiful, JAKELANDIA, sorry for the bad translation, I got it from Google Translate. It has limitations. I love your juxtaposition of the nuptial night SNIT and the sepulcral silence, reflected in the cowboy in the sunset. Thanks. I feel better knowing Heath is finally at peace, rising up to the heavens, where he came from, and where he belongs. :ghug:
This is just lovely. Spanish is my chosen 2nd language, and there are a few words that need translating!
EN MIS SUEÑOS REI...
Bañado por la aguas de tu fuente celestial
me senti tuyo...
En una noche nupcial
AL DESPERTAR LLORE...
Bañado por el llanto de un silencio sepulcral
me sentì solo...en el inmenso paraiso terrenal.
In My Dreams I Smile
Washed by the waters of your heavenly spring
I felt you ...
On a wedding night
Upon AWAKENING I cried ...
Washed by the tears of a dismal silence
I feel all alone ... in the vast earthly paradise.
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So beautiful Hanna. You sent your heart to Heath.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Now he's really gone. That's the saddest thing of the world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
He is not gone. His molecules are making their way all over the earth, I like to think. His earthly molecules, that is. As to the spirit, we sure are testament that his spirit lives within everyone whose life he touched...
kathy
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He is not gone. His molecules are making their way all over the earth, I like to think. His earthly molecules, that is. As to the spirit, we sure are testament that his spirit lives within everyone whose life he touched...
kathy
I hear ya Kathy. O0
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He is not gone. His molecules are making their way all over the earth, I like to think. His earthly molecules, that is. As to the spirit, we sure are testament that his spirit lives within everyone whose life he touched...
kathy
Very nice post kathy ^f^
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Today, our boy was finally RIP :\'(
TO HEATH:
You had the gift of happiness,
The unrelenting grace
To see the radiance of life
Within the ruthless face.
It wasn't pure naivete
Or something just not there,
Or, even worse, an inner lie
That said you didn't care.
It was a certain blessedness
Attained by very few
That let you live within a love
Within the love in you.
Copyright by Nicholas Gordon
Thank you for that beautiful post hpv ^f^ :\'( :ghug:
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I just happened to watch by chance, one of the greatest movies I love, Field of Dreams. In it was a quote that I think applies here. "Heaven is where dreams come true." Heath is now making his dreams come true. Movie nights in heaven will never be the same again. :ghug: :c)
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I just happened to watch by chance, one of the greatest movies I love, Field of Dreams. In it was a quote that I think applies here. "Heaven is where dreams come true." Heath is now making his dreams come true. Movie nights in heaven will never be the same again. :ghug: :c)
Beautiful Andrew!!! <^( <^(
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Hi Fellow Brokies ...
It's been a long while since I've watched "our" movie ...
What'cha doin' Saturday night, huh?
Around 8pm eastern time here in the US.
I think it's time I saw Heath again as Ennis.
I'll be armed with whisky and kleenex ... and maybe a piece a cherry cake.
Say you'll watch with me!
:c)
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That's a plan :)
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That's a great idea, GuyinJax. I'll have to see if I feel up to it. I don't know if I'm ready to go back up the mountain just yet but I think it's a wonderful way to pay tribute.
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One of the things people do, after a funeral, is to kind of putter around, looking over odds and ends....it's a quiet way to make some transition.
Often it's dealing with small matters. For me, briefly, it's been a little bit of wondering over the songs played at the memorial service, that were
Heath's favorites. They were unusual.
He was very much into music, and as a creative person, would be expected to (and probably did) get into kind of rarefied zones. Yet his
favorites were (sorry if this offends anybody) simplistic and even specific mood producers. "Here comes the Sun" by the Beatles, was almost
mental bubble-gum except it produced an optimistic mood. "Old Man", by Neil Young, is a basically male-oriented sympathetic and sad song.
I remember that last one, in the taverns, was a favorite, in sad moods, but guys avoided playing it on the juke box, hoping somebody else would.
What stands out is that he favored these songs, moody songs (cheerful or very sad) despite the fact that they would be considered
"un-cool" in the hip crowds, and they actually would go against his own, more advanced tastes in music.
So, there's something there in those songs that over-rode everything against them, and he defiantly allowed himself to prefer them.
"Old Man", I believe, is the most telling. I think it may be the story of his life, as HE saw it, which contradicted everything anybody else saw.
That's what people often do, after a funeral. Putter around, looking things over. Hope you don't mind. I think the songs tell us something,
if you are willing to look them over, a little bit.
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I want to thank everyone who posted their poems and thoughts. It was very touching for me. We've all been trying to deal with this. My own belief is Heath is not really gone. our memories of him live on and he left us with a wonderful body of work for us to enjoy. I am looking forward to seeing him as the Joker and in Imaginarium.
I haven't watched BBM again as of yet. I did flip through the channels last night and noticed Casanova was airing on Bravo. I watched it for a bit but got so disgusted with the commercials they were showing every 5 mins. I have the movie on DVD. But I decided to watch the entire movie another time.
But I think he played Casanova so beautifully. He could climb into my window any time! >:D <^(
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But I think he played Casanova so beautifully. He could climb into my window any time! >:D <^(
YOU BET!!!
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Mikele, this is utterly beautiful. I'm speechless here. Thank you so much.
Thank you dear B.Tammy to enjoy my words. :)
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i watched 10 things i hate about you last night for the 1st time and i felt emotional at times at seeing his beautiful presence on screen but also he filled me with joy like when he sings <^( it actually got me daydreaming of him and him being so full of fun and it even made me smile :) This is how Heath will continue to make us smile forever and how he will always be with us...through his acting and the films he made. #) But boy...do i wish he was still here so bad....
Today i found this on youtube via a facebook profile. This artist has changed the lyrics slightly to "ill be missing you" as a tribute to Heath...i think its good.... :) Take a look... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7F9RuON5kFA
Thanks everyone for thr continuing poems and messages frm everyone....they really are so beautiful. ^f^
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I keep thinking of the poem that John Hannah recited at the funeral in Four Weddings and a Funeral:
W. H. Auden
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
RIP Heath. You will be missed.
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i watched 10 things i hate about you last night for the 1st time and i felt emotional at times at seeing his beautiful presence on screen but also he filled me with joy like when he sings <^( it actually got me daydreaming of him and him being so full of fun and it even made me smile :) This is how Heath will continue to make us smile forever and how he will always be with us...through his acting and the films he made. #) But boy...do i wish he was still here so bad....
Today i found this on youtube via a facebook profile. This artist has changed the lyrics slightly to "ill be missing you" as a tribute to Heath...i think its good.... :) Take a look... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7F9RuON5kFA
Thanks everyone for thr continuing poems and messages frm everyone....they really are so beautiful. ^f^
That youtube video is very good! That artist did a splendid job! Brings tears to my eyes. Thanks for the link.
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I started my day off in tears. They were talking on the radio about his apt being up for rent and I listened for a few moments but didn't like the convo (it wasn't bad- just hard to hear) so I switched it off. I know, for sure now, that I am not ready for BBM. Even though I feel that disconnect with the boys right now, I know it will kill me. I got into bed and A Knights Tale was on- the last time i watched it was 3 days before.... Anyway I said I like this movie (mind you I should have been sleeping- it was midnight) and it's not sad so I'll watch it. Um no I made it a few minutes and I started to cry so I switched over to AMC and LOTR Return of the king was on- so I tried to get lost in Middle Earth for a bit, but it was the last hour and that part makes me cry so basically I was laying in bed crying, ROTK ended and that song (Into the west) came on- more tears so I flipped back to A Knights Tale and lowered the volume and cried myself to sleep.
beautiful poem Carol. :ghug:
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The Auden poem really hit home. Bullseye.
Michelle----I guess we better settle down for the long run. It ain't going away. You have us, though, and we all have each other. That's
been what got us through and that's what will keep us going. It'll be all right. In time.
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This is beautiful, JAKELANDIA, sorry for the bad translation, I got it from Google Translate. It has limitations. I love your juxtaposition of the nuptial night SNIT and the sepulcral silence, reflected in the cowboy in the sunset. Thanks. I feel better knowing Heath is finally at peace, rising up to the heavens, where he came from, and where he belongs. :ghug:
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Tonight the moon's as pretty as a brand new rose
And nosey stars, they seem to know where everybody goes
As poets reach for words with broken motel pens
Here's something to hold on to 'til I come home again
Out here the days they don't have names they've got numbers
And the nights just seem to fade into each other
Jilted lovers are like fireflies, each one with a spark
Trying to fill the hole where once there was a heart
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Now before the summer sun gets chased away
And all of our tomorrows turn to yesterdays
I'm going to build you that castle
I'm going to write you that song
I've got to find the words to say
Until I hold you in my arms
I'm sending postcard from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Tonight I'll meet you in my dreams
See you soon
Love,
Me
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Tns ....
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Tonight the moon's as pretty as a brand new rose
And nosey stars, they seem to know where everybody goes
As poets reach for words with broken motel pens
Here's something to hold on to 'til I come home again
Out here the days they don't have names they've got numbers
And the nights just seem to fade into each other
Jilted lovers are like fireflies, each one with a spark
Trying to fill the hole where once there was a heart
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Now before the summer sun gets chased away
And all of our tomorrows turn to yesterdays
I'm going to build you that castle
I'm going to write you that song
I've got to find the words to say
Until I hold you in my arms
I'm sending postcard from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Tonight I'll meet you in my dreams
See you soon
Love,
Me
That was beautiful :\'(
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gracias, JAKELANDIA. I am over the pain and heartache of losing Heath, because he has moved permanently into my heart. Every moment I think of his wisdom, his grace, his smile, his joy in living life fully. Your poem beautifully describes what I feel, thinking of the messages sent from Heath, to me, to us, through his movies, his interviews,
... postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
And the final verse is lovely, speaking of building, saying words, holding, today...before tomorrows turns into yesterdays.
I have not yet had the privilege to meet Heath in my dreams...perhaps one day.
:ghug: gracias.
Tns ....
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Tonight the moon's as pretty as a brand new rose
And nosey stars, they seem to know where everybody goes
As poets reach for words with broken motel pens
Here's something to hold on to 'til I come home again
Out here the days they don't have names they've got numbers
And the nights just seem to fade into each other
Jilted lovers are like fireflies, each one with a spark
Trying to fill the hole where once there was a heart
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Now before the summer sun gets chased away
And all of our tomorrows turn to yesterdays
I'm going to build you that castle
I'm going to write you that song
I've got to find the words to say
Until I hold you in my arms
I'm sending postcard from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Tonight I'll meet you in my dreams
See you soon
Love,
Me
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I posted this poem (by an unknown author) in the candle thread already, but only in German. I wasn't sure if I was able to do a acceptable translation, but fortunately Andrew did one, ans it's quite good :)
Thank you again! :ghug:
Meeresblick
Denk dir ein Bild. Weites Meer.
Ein Segelschiff setzt seine weißen Segel
und gleitet hinaus in die offene See.
Du siehst, wie es kleiner und kleiner wird.
Wo Wasser und Himmel sich treffen, verschwindet es.
Da sagt jemand: Nun ist es gegangen.
Ein anderer sagt: Es kommt.
Der Tod ist ein Horizont,
und ein Horizont ist nichts anderes,
als die Grenze unseres Sehens.
Wenn wir um einen Menschen trauern,
freuen sich andere,
ihn hinter der Grenze wiederzusehen. | Oceanview
Think you a picture. Wide sea.
A sailing ship sets its white sails
And slips out into the open sea.
You see how it gets smaller and smaller.
Where water and sky meet, it disappears.
As someone says: Now it is gone.
Another says, it comes.
The death is a horizon,
And a horizon is nothing more,
Than the limit of our sight.
If we grieve for a man,
Others are pleased
to see him behind the border again. |
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That's beautiful Hanna. :^^)
The death is a horizon,
And a horizon is nothing more,
Than the limit of our sight.
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I keep thinking of the poem that John Hannah recited at the funeral in Four Weddings and a Funeral:
W. H. Auden
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
RIP Heath. You will be missed.
Thank you so much. This poem is very special to me also, and perfect for us now, for Heath...
God, I've been going along, the workaday world, etc., and then I come here and am all choked up again. Doesn't take much to make my heart go all sad for our loss...
kathy
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That youtube video is very good! That artist did a splendid job! Brings tears to my eyes. Thanks for the link.
I know! It really is special, the song, his beautiful singing, and however he did the music. I don't know who this "Riz" is, but this is really excellent. Plus, there were lots of shots of Heth that I've not seen before. Really, really nice... :\'(
kathy
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I started my day off in tears. They were talking on the radio about his apt being up for rent and I listened for a few moments but didn't like the convo (it wasn't bad- just hard to hear) so I switched it off. I know, for sure now, that I am not ready for BBM. Even though I feel that disconnect with the boys right now, I know it will kill me. I got into bed and A Knights Tale was on- the last time i watched it was 3 days before.... Anyway I said I like this movie (mind you I should have been sleeping- it was midnight) and it's not sad so I'll watch it. Um no I made it a few minutes and I started to cry so I switched over to AMC and LOTR Return of the king was on- so I tried to get lost in Middle Earth for a bit, but it was the last hour and that part makes me cry so basically I was laying in bed crying, ROTK ended and that song (Into the west) came on- more tears so I flipped back to A Knights Tale and lowered the volume and cried myself to sleep.
beautiful poem Carol. :ghug:
That would, and does, hurt me also, to hear things such as about Heath's apt being for rent, as if it's just "news."
When I was at lunch the other day with Star Trek friends, one of the woman was talking to another one about Heath and the drugs, etc. (You know, different conversations going on around the table.) She was speaking very respectfully about it, but I found myself totally not wanting to join that conversation. I just didn't want to talk about it, again, as if it is just news or current events, something "sad" but not devastating to her.
Though at least Shelley and I got to share a hug and tears for Heath; we hadn't seen each other since 1/22...
kathy
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Tonight the moon's as pretty as a brand new rose
And nosey stars, they seem to know where everybody goes
As poets reach for words with broken motel pens
Here's something to hold on to 'til I come home again
Out here the days they don't have names they've got numbers
And the nights just seem to fade into each other
Jilted lovers are like fireflies, each one with a spark
Trying to fill the hole where once there was a heart
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Now before the summer sun gets chased away
And all of our tomorrows turn to yesterdays
I'm going to build you that castle
I'm going to write you that song
I've got to find the words to say
Until I hold you in my arms
I'm sending postcard from the wasteland
Following my headlights down the highway in the dark
I'm sending postcards from the wasteland
Postmarked from the state of my heart
In care of wherever you are
Postcards from the wasteland
Tonight I'll meet you in my dreams
See you soon
Love,
Me
Did you write this, Jakelandia? It is so wonderful.
kathy
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Three weeks without you.
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I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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You will be okay, christie, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Keren and Christie :ghug:
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I started my day off in tears. They were talking on the radio about his apt being up for rent and I listened for a few moments but didn't like the convo (it wasn't bad- just hard to hear) so I switched it off. I know, for sure now, that I am not ready for BBM. Even though I feel that disconnect with the boys right now, I know it will kill me. I got into bed and A Knights Tale was on- the last time i watched it was 3 days before.... Anyway I said I like this movie (mind you I should have been sleeping- it was midnight) and it's not sad so I'll watch it. Um no I made it a few minutes and I started to cry so I switched over to AMC and LOTR Return of the king was on- so I tried to get lost in Middle Earth for a bit, but it was the last hour and that part makes me cry so basically I was laying in bed crying, ROTK ended and that song (Into the west) came on- more tears so I flipped back to A Knights Tale and lowered the volume and cried myself to sleep.
beautiful poem Carol. :ghug:
LJN. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Keren and Christie :ghug:
Me too. :ghug: and :ghug: to everyone.
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I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I thought so too :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: Emzan :ghug: Rosie :ghug: everyone who needs a hug :ghug:
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:ghug: :^^)
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
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Farewell little angel....
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I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: me too.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone who needs them.
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
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Farewell little angel....
Beautiful video, made me cry.
Maybe It's time to say goodbye, but I can't It hurts to much :\'( :\'(
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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:t) for posting this! :) i started painting this before Heath died and then decided to do it as a tribute for him when he died. I sent it to a few mags and last week one printed it.. i wanted everyone to see my tribute to Heath after seeing everyones lovely poems and pictures they have already posted. Thanks Koka for doing this for me x
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It was a pleasure! :)
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I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
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:t) for posting this! :) i started painting this before Heath died and then decided to do it as a tribute for him when he died. I sent it to a few mags and last week one printed it.. i wanted everyone to see my tribute to Heath after seeing everyones lovely poems and pictures they have already posted. Thanks Koka for doing this for me x
Katie, that is a beautiful painting! And such a wonderful tribute to Heath. Thanks for sharing. :^^)
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The painting blew me away!! It's amazing Katie :clap:
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
OMG This is such a fitting way to say goodby. Beautiful, just beautiful. I am in tears.
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What a beautiful painting cowgirlKT! :clap:
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wonderful painting, cowgirlkt!
(:)
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I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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This painting is amazing, Thank you Katie <^(
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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That you Cowgirl for this painting. Amazing!
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
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Farewell little angel....
Beautiful video dear Cliffy, it makes me cry again :\'( :\'( :\'(
Did you seen this one ? : http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=dy7hQFVZjUw&NR=1
:ghug:
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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O0 Very nice drawing, congratulation ^f^
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I thought I was doing okay...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Very nice pic christie, I hope you feel better :s), It's difficult isn't :(. :ghug:
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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Wow. That is beautiful Katie! :clap: :ghug:
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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Incredably painting! At first glance, I thought it was real! Thank you Koka for posting and thank you Katie for this amazing painting! :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I recieved it in mail today and immediatly thought .about..HEATH...
I would rather have one rose and a kind
Word
From
A friend while I'm here
Than
A whole truck load when I'm gone ..
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FOR YOU
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Happiness keeps you
Sweet,
Trials keep you
Strong,
Sorrows keep you
Human,
Failures keep you
Humble,
Success keeps you
Glowing.
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Thanks for that, HPV :ghug: I really hope he knew the impact he made while he was still with us. I like to think (and most of me believes) he did but sometimes it upsets me that maybe he didn't.
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Thanks for that, HPV :ghug: I really hope he knew the impact he made while he was still with us. I like to think (and most of me believes) he did but sometimes it upsets me that maybe he didn't.
Yes,of course he did.And if maybe he had some doubt in live,I'm sure he's now looking at all the sadness his departure has brought,wherever he's.And he's sad but happy at the same time by seeing how much love he has carried with him.There's a little tribute to show the way all we feel-if someone has already posted it,forgive me;but it doesn't matter,two times missed is better than once...-. :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZYjojVLC10 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZYjojVLC10)
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:ghug: :ghug: everyone.
I agree mpj, better to share these things than to worry about overposting. It's been comforting, even while I cry, to see the videos and poems, and just to read your thoughts and feelings, over the last few weeks. It's a true celebration both of Heath and of our ties here.
I found this poem written by a poster over at imdb and just wanted to share it here. By CrowBat2005. Whoever you are, it's a beautiful poem that expresses what I'm sure a lot of us are feeling.
The Thought of You
It hurts as much as the first time
It feels like the first day
Each and every thought of you
Makes my smiles turn to dismay
Your name, your face, your voice,
Used to sweep me off my feet
Now each and every thought of you
Brings me to my knees
I shake it from my mind
So positive thoughts can surface
It was an honor for the earth to bear you
Your life had its own purpose
You had love and care
Which you both gave and received
Humble, quiet, friendly
Such beauty is hard to believe
Suddenly, true words fill my mind
I feel the emptiness of my heart
And once again the thought of you
Makes me feel the earth's mourning of such an art
When your absence slips my mind
I live in blissful ignorance
Then the very thought of you
Shoots reality into existence
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that's a beautiful peom, I love It
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I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
I'd do anything
I'd lie for you
You know it's true
Baby I'd die for you
I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
If it came right down to me and you
You know it's true, baby I'd die for you
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That is a beautiful poem, FlwrChild. Thanks for sharing it.
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It just kind of grabbed me. I really do think mostly of all the good things - all the gifts that Heath brought to the world, that we've all wrapped ourselves up in. But every now and then a stray thought comes to me that makes me tear up again, so this poem felt a little familiar.
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Wonderful poem,FlowrChild;yes it's just we all are feeling and will always feel for our Heath. <^(
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Your name, your face, your voice,
Used to sweep me off my feet
Now each and every thought of you
Brings me to my knees
That was such a beautiful poem FC, thank you for quoting it. :\'(
These lines that I bolded describe just how I feel. I want to go back to the point where I can think of him with a smile, just be greatful for all that he'd given us without feeling this deep sadness. But I still have my breaking points. When I watch him on films it's okay, it doesn't make me cry, because I just can't think of him as dead when he's right there in front of me, so alive. But the tribute videos... The BAFTA tribute brings me to tears, and so does the video that Ethan made. Just when I think that I'm doing better, that I'm able to think about him with a smile, something comes along and brings me to my knees again.
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That's it exactly Keren. And it can be the smallest little thing - a quote from a movie, a picture, seeing one of those magazines at the grocery store. All in time, I'm sure. Meanwhile, :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: everyone.
I agree mpj, better to share these things than to worry about overposting. It's been comforting, even while I cry, to see the videos and poems, and just to read your thoughts and feelings, over the last few weeks. It's a true celebration both of Heath and of our ties here.
I found this poem written by a poster over at imdb and just wanted to share it here. By CrowBat2005. Whoever you are, it's a beautiful poem that expresses what I'm sure a lot of us are feeling.
The Thought of You
It hurts as much as the first time
It feels like the first day
Each and every thought of you
Makes my smiles turn to dismay
Your name, your face, your voice,
Used to sweep me off my feet
Now each and every thought of you
Brings me to my knees
I shake it from my mind
So positive thoughts can surface
It was an honor for the earth to bear you
Your life had its own purpose
You had love and care
Which you both gave and received
Humble, quiet, friendly
Such beauty is hard to believe
Suddenly, true words fill my mind
I feel the emptiness of my heart
And once again the thought of you
Makes me feel the earth's mourning of such an art
When your absence slips my mind
I live in blissful ignorance
Then the very thought of you
Shoots reality into existence
:t) everyone for your kind comments on my painting it really makes me smile. :) :ghug: just glad everyone got to see my tribute i did from the heart.One girl at work nearly cried when she saw it and doesnt even know Heath well...i was impressed my emotions thru the painting reached out to her in that way. ^f^
Thanks for sharing this poem with us its really nice :^^)
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speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:
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Absolutely beautiful quote and photo. very fitting and I think also healing
Linda
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speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:
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does anyone know where this quote is from?
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does anyone know where this quote is from?
if by 'where' you mean 'which interview', I'm sorry to disappoint you but I have absolutely NO idea whatsoever.
*sigh*
it's just so beautiful...the quote I mean...
I know I keep saying this over and over again, but Heath was ( nope, still can't get used to the past tense.... ) wise beyond his age and had a rare sensitivity only few people could truly comprehend.
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if by 'where' you mean 'which interview', I'm sorry to disappoint you but I have absolutely NO idea whatsoever.
*sigh*
it's just so beautiful...the quote I mean...
I know I keep saying this over and over again, but Heath was ( nope, still can't get used to the past tense.... ) wise beyond his age and had a rare sensitivity only few people could truly comprehend.
someone told me it's from the cover of vanity fair he did
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This is a so very beautiful lesson of humility :\'(
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WARNING WARNING WARNING
Hey Fellow Brokies ...
I've been reading on the internet about a bad virus planned to be launched tomorrow. From what I understand it comes with the title: Postcard.
For us Brokies, the danger is obvious!!
Moderator(s): PLEASE feel free to move this post to where ever you feel it will do the most good. I kinda thought a lot of us were reading these posts so that's why I posted this here.
I hope it's all a big nothing, and that I've sounded the alarm bell for no reason. Still, better to be safe.
From what I've read, however, this virus, described by Norton AntiVirus and CNN, will simply kill your computer in an instant by destroying your hard drive.
It's not worth taking a chance.
The recommended action is if you see an e-mail in your inbox with the title Postcard ... delete it immediately.
I'd really hate to learn that one of us lost a computer because we wanted to see our favorite postcard!
Take care all.
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That was such a beautiful poem FC, thank you for quoting it. :\'(
These lines that I bolded describe just how I feel. I want to go back to the point where I can think of him with a smile, just be greatful for all that he'd given us without feeling this deep sadness. But I still have my breaking points. When I watch him on films it's okay, it doesn't make me cry, because I just can't think of him as dead when he's right there in front of me, so alive. But the tribute videos... The BAFTA tribute brings me to tears, and so does the video that Ethan made. Just when I think that I'm doing better, that I'm able to think about him with a smile, something comes along and brings me to my knees again.
:ghug: Keren. I know what you mean. I went back into my archives and have pulled up old appearances and I actually smiled and laughed, but when they were over this deep sadness hit all over again and I'd start to cry. Even my BBM stuff either in my room or at my desk at work is hard to look at sometimes- just that alone is enough to trigger the tears. One day we will get back to where we can look back and smile and it won't hurt as much. When that day will be is anyone's guess; and it will be different for all of us.
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Thank you Koka :ghug:
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Thanks GuyinJax. I generally don't open email unless I recognize the sender- the rest gets tossed. I don't like to take chances but I'm glad you brought that to everyone's attention- better to be on the safe side. ^f^
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Koka, this is beautiful and wise. Thank you for sharing this marvelous quote, how Heath kept his perspective and priority. His wisdom constantly amazes me.
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
Cliffy, this is just gorgeous. You chose unique images and moments...and of course the beautiful song, exalted sorrow...
Thank you.
kathy
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hey guys!
I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.
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Thank you for doing this, koka, because I couldn't go see it on katie's facebook or wherever it was.
Katie -- this is beautiful! And I'm so glad you sent it in to Star magazine and it got printed! Plus, I really appreciate drawing and painting, in these days when images are so readily available, people do less and less original artwork. It just must have been so shocking (besides how shocking Heath's death was in itself) that here you were, doing this painting, and then... And I'm glad you had it in you to finish it. It's quite fine. (I do some pencil drawing, so I appreciate it even more, feeling your process as I look at it.)
kathy
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:ghug: Keren. I know what you mean. I went back into my archives and have pulled up old appearances and I actually smiled and laughed, but when they were over this deep sadness hit all over again and I'd start to cry. Even my BBM stuff either in my room or at my desk at work is hard to look at sometimes- just that alone is enough to trigger the tears. One day we will get back to where we can look back and smile and it won't hurt as much. When that day will be is anyone's guess; and it will be different for all of us.
It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone. It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay. How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person? Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay. Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!
kathy
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It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone. It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay. How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person? Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay. Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!
kathy
I agree with you. it is not okay and it will. not be okay.
I love Heath and I know someday we will meet.
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Koka, this is beautiful and wise. Thank you for sharing this marvelous quote, how Heath kept his perspective and priority. His wisdom constantly amazes me.
I know, it never ceases to amaze me as well!
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It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone. It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay. How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person? Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay. Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!
Oh, Kathy, you got me there...it's defiantly not OK...
plus we are the same era.. :\'(
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I must share something,
Yesterday I watched an interview with Johnny Depp about the movie Sweeney Todd, anyway it just strike me how his behavior during the interview resembles Heaths', it was like identical but with another face... the same gestures combing his hair with his fingers,moving nervously on his chair,changing his hands position all the time, all fidgety... well you know what I mean! It got me thinking that maybe they have so much in common, such a talented,intelligent, young men.. thankfully one is still with us...
(BTW, the movie "Sweeney Todd" is kind of musical...but Johnnys' acting is amazing!!)
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Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.
So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal. Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.
I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath. :)
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Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.
So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal. Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.
I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath. :)
This has to be one of the most AMAZING posts I have read in a while. Beautiful thoughts, amazingly expressed and put into words. And yes, you are absolutely right- Heath made the best of his life. I personally believe that there are no 'accidents'- everything happens for a reason and everything happens at just the right time. Of course, it may NOT seem the right time for us ( Heath's passing still doesn't FEEL like 'the right time' ), but it obviously was for that person. and that's the greatest paradox of all--> how to conciliate the fact that we know the person we love, but has gone, is actually OKAY ( if we feel in our gut that death itself is nothing 'bad', but a mere physical transition which we, as human beings, perceive as such ) and the fact that WE are not okay, because WE are the ones who are 'left behind' and who are forced to move on without the person in question. We gotta stand it. That's the difficult part....
oh, and the most amazing part of your post was this:
'God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life.'
I like that thought VERY much :ghug:
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Oh I agree with you Koka...that was a wonderul post FlwrChld. ^f^
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Happy Valentine's Day, Heath, and Everyone.
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Thanks, FlwrChild. Heath filled his life with his life, and our hearts with his love.
%) :ghug: Everyone %) :ghug:
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Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.
So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal. Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.
I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath. :)
Thank you so much for this post, Barb. I can hardly write a reply, because I'm choking with tears. Through Ennis, Heath showed us the wrong way to live, but he also showed us the right way. Two sides of the coin. And yes, he did it just right...
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:ghug: Barb. I'm so glad you decided to share that in the open fourm.
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Oh Keren, I like that. Two sides of the coin. Maybe it's one of the reasons he was such a good choice to portray that character - he knew the importance of that lesson. I'm glad he shared it with us, on screen and off.
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. . . it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. . . .
A truly wonderful post FC. The whole thing.
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This has to be one of the most AMAZING posts I have read in a while. Beautiful thoughts, amazingly expressed and put into words. And yes, you are absolutely right- Heath made the best of his life. I personally believe that there are no 'accidents'- everything happens for a reason and everything happens at just the right time. Of course, it may NOT seem the right time for us ( Heath's passing still doesn't FEEL like 'the right time' ), but it obviously was for that person. and that's the greatest paradox of all--> how to conciliate the fact that we know the person we love, but has gone, is actually OKAY ( if we feel in our gut that death itself is nothing 'bad', but a mere physical transition which we, as human beings, perceive as such ) and the fact that WE are not okay, because WE are the ones who are 'left behind' and who are forced to move on without the person in question. We gotta stand it. That's the difficult part....
oh, and the most amazing part of your post was this:
'God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life.'
I like that thought VERY much :ghug:
I agree with everyting you're saying.
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In February light
in a
distant
riverine
biosphere
an Indian
boy flashes
ethnic butt
as he steps
out of his
wood canoe
and lifts
his flute
to his
lips
wrong,
it's only
you,
a local
sky-being
trapped in a
peach-fuzz
bathrobe,
reaching out
the kitchen
window to fill
the birdfeeder
while February
light shines
quietly upon
your super
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Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.
So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal. Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.
I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath. :)
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: That was beautiful, and inspiring, FC. :ghug: Thank you for sharing. :^^)
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This was apparently one of Heath's favorite songs, which was also played at his memorial service. It just happens that it's one of my favorite songs too.
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war
for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
Running over the same old ground
What have you found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
(Pink Floyd)
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This was apparently one of Heath's favorite songs, which was also played at his memorial service. It just happens that it's one of my favorite songs too.
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war
for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
Running over the same old ground
What have you found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
(Pink Floyd)
I love that song, breaks my heart how true it is now. I do wish he was here :\'(
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I’ve been having trouble really articulating my thoughts on all of this. I don’t really know why- too painful? If I say them will it make it real? Haven’t figured that out yet and am not sure I ever will. This morning gave me another crying commute to work. Hearing one song that triggers the tears is more than enough, but lately they’ve been coming in groups. I suppose the logical thing to do would be to change the station but logic isn’t always ever present. Anyway, I don’t know what this is going to come out as- a rant, a ramble, I have no idea. I guess I feel the need to purge some of these thoughts in any way they choose to manifest themselves.
Is it “normal” to be stuck standing still? I know we all handle our grief in different ways and at different paces but shouldn’t denial be over with by now? I keep bouncing back and forth through the “stages”. I know there are no hard and fast rules to those stages but… Is it “normal” to be so suspended in disbelief? I thought NY would be a big reality check for me- nope. Then the word “autopsy”- no, again. Then words like “funeral” and “cremation” would surely be a huge clue. But no, nothing is making this seem real. I don’t know what more I need to have the slightest bit of reality come knocking at my door. I’m not looking for acceptance because that won’t ever come- I may always border the outskirts in order to incorporate this into my life, but I don’t foresee me ever entering that stage. I have moments where I hear my friend’s voice in my head uttering those horrible words in my ear on January 22. Moments where I’ve actually “scolded” myself for buying into such a horrible malicious story (that he had passed away) when that couldn’t possibly be true, only to snap out of it and realize that this is not something that my imagination created.
There is nothing to fix this. No way to change this. There isn’t anything we can do to change the ending. The mind conjures up many, at times too many, thoughts. Some of them should be comforting: “This was meant to be”; “One day we’ll be okay” etc. And those are all very valid and true and I think some small part of me takes comfort in them even if I don’t believe them just yet. But the heart? The heart tells quite a different story. The heart is not only bruised and broken; it is angry and it tells the mind to shut the hell up. Maybe one day the heart will come to understand what the mind has been trying to tell it but it will never accept.
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Dear Michelle--if it's any consolation, you spoke for so very many of us. And, no, it can't be fixed. Whatever pieces we fit back together, will
not be exactly what we were before. I am so sorry for those who have stricter work schedules, kids, AND this unreality that is dangling over
our entire community. And you are one of them.
In a vaguely related area, I posted on the other thread what was probably my last strong opinion. Here, because of you, Michelle, no strong
personal opinions, but a plea to the entire community---come back together again. Please. Some have felt there was too much emotion, some,
too little. Each has a different time schedule for healing and they do seem to clash because there are open wounds.
Anybody angry-forgive. Anybody disapproving of other's reactions-ratchet up your tolerance level. Anybody who has drifted off and only
shows up occasionally---come back home.
We are on different schedules. We are different people. But re-read Michelle's post, understand some of us will be a long time hurting,
forgo grievances, and come home to a stronger community. It's our time, now, to recognize we can't fix it---we gotta stand it. Somehow.
My personal apologies to anyone I have ever given offense to. Right now---let's be ourselves, re-group, and, even if limping, keep going.
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Dear Michelle--if it's any consolation, you spoke for so very many of us. And, no, it can't be fixed. Whatever pieces we fit back together, will
not be exactly what we were before. I am so sorry for those who have stricter work schedules, kids, AND this unreality that is dangling over
our entire community. And you are one of them.
In a vaguely related area, I posted on the other thread what was probably my last strong opinion. Here, because of you, Michelle, no strong
personal opinions, but a plea to the entire community---come back together again. Please. Some have felt there was too much emotion, some,
too little. Each has a different time schedule for healing and they do seem to clash because there are open wounds.
Anybody angry-forgive. Anybody disapproving of other's reactions-ratchet up your tolerance level. Anybody who has drifted off and only
shows up occasionally---come back home.
We are on different schedules. We are different people. But re-read Michelle's post, understand some of us will be a long time hurting,
forgo grievances, and come home to a stronger community. It's our time, now, to recognize we can't fix it---we gotta stand it. Somehow.
My personal apologies to anyone I have ever given offense to. Right now---let's be ourselves, re-group, and, even if limping, keep going.
Friend, you are right ^f^ It's all about tolerance and understanding
"We're one, but we're not the same
we get to carry each other..."
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Hello LJN :^^)
I have too, jumped through the stages in my acceptance of his death. Sometimes, I believe he's still alive, like when I watch 10 things (he seems so happy and so lively) or when I find new pictures on the 'Oh Baby' thread. Then they are others times, when the news tells about him (which I most of the time HATE) or the most dramatic for me at least, when they put him last of the memorial slid in BOTH the SAG and the BAFTA awards. I don't know why but Daniel's tribute to Heath brought shivers down my spine and the BAFTA tribute made me wanna break down into tears. These are the moments. I know I will never forget this man. He was a man true to our hearts, one that took risk and loved everyone he met. He lived his life to the fullest without the celebrity limelight and money. He found love, had a daughter, and did movies that brought him and everyone around him, great joy. This is why it is hard for all of us to seem like his death is unreal. It came too soon, to unexpected and though he did not look completely happy during his last few days (mostly because of he was sick), he was happy with the life he'd been given.
LJN, do not be angry at yourself or guilty for what you might've said to others. You are still deep in the grieving proses and it will I know, take a long time (for all of us) to fully recover. Some of us, in our hearts will never fully recover. His apartment, the words "cremation" or "autopsy" or "funeral", can sometimes never heal a person's heart. No matter how many times said or how many new flowers you see outside of his house. For me, the word 'cremation' was hard for me to swallow. It made some of this real, but most of me still, like you, did not make me believe that he was gone. I see him in movies, the lively figure and the smiling face and it just doesn't make any sense. How can a being so pure and so innocent, die? It will never make full sense but LJN, make sure you smile, cry..but cry tears of joy for a life who lived..life, never doubt for a second that the way you grieve is wrong.
Have a very lovely Valentine's Day
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Lis
I've been having trouble really articulating my thoughts on all of this. I don't really know why- too painful? If I say them will it make it real? Haven't figured that out yet and am not sure I ever will. This morning gave me another crying commute to work. Hearing one song that triggers the tears is more than enough, but lately they've been coming in groups. I suppose the logical thing to do would be to change the station but logic isn't always ever present. Anyway, I don't know what this is going to come out as- a rant, a ramble, I have no idea. I guess I feel the need to purge some of these thoughts in any way they choose to manifest themselves.
Is it normal to be stuck standing still? I know we all handle our grief in different ways and at different paces but shouldn't denial be over with by now? I keep bouncing back and forth through the stages. I know there are no hard and fast rules to those stages but Is it normal to be so suspended in disbelief? I thought NY would be a big reality check for me- nope. Then the word autopsy- no, again. Then words like funeral and cremation would surely be a huge clue. But no, nothing is making this seem real. I don't know what more I need to have the slightest bit of reality come knocking at my door. I'm not looking for acceptance because that won't ever come- I may always border the outskirts in order to incorporate this into my life, but I don't foresee me ever entering that stage. I have moments where I hear my friend's voice in my head uttering those horrible words in my ear on January 22. Moments where I've actually scolded myself for buying into such a horrible malicious story (that he had passed away) when that couldn't possibly be true, only to snap out of it and realize that this is not something that my imagination created.
There is nothing to fix this. No way to change this. There isn't anything we can do to change the ending. The mind conjures up many, at times too many, thoughts. Some of them should be comforting: this was meant to be”; “One day we'll be okay" etc. And those are all very valid and true and I think some small part of me takes comfort in them even if I don't believe them just yet. But the heart? The heart tells quite a different story. The heart is not only bruised and broken; it is angry and it tells the mind to shut the hell up. Maybe one day the heart will come to understand what the mind has been trying to tell it but it will never accept.
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I’ve been having trouble really articulating my thoughts on all of this. I don’t really know why- too painful? If I say them will it make it real? Haven’t figured that out yet and am not sure I ever will. This morning gave me another crying commute to work. Hearing one song that triggers the tears is more than enough, but lately they’ve been coming in groups. I suppose the logical thing to do would be to change the station but logic isn’t always ever present. Anyway, I don’t know what this is going to come out as- a rant, a ramble, I have no idea. I guess I feel the need to purge some of these thoughts in any way they choose to manifest themselves.
Is it “normal” to be stuck standing still? I know we all handle our grief in different ways and at different paces but shouldn’t denial be over with by now? I keep bouncing back and forth through the “stages”. I know there are no hard and fast rules to those stages but… Is it “normal” to be so suspended in disbelief? I thought NY would be a big reality check for me- nope. Then the word “autopsy”- no, again. Then words like “funeral” and “cremation” would surely be a huge clue. But no, nothing is making this seem real. I don’t know what more I need to have the slightest bit of reality come knocking at my door. I’m not looking for acceptance because that won’t ever come- I may always border the outskirts in order to incorporate this into my life, but I don’t foresee me ever entering that stage. I have moments where I hear my friend’s voice in my head uttering those horrible words in my ear on January 22. Moments where I’ve actually “scolded” myself for buying into such a horrible malicious story (that he had passed away) when that couldn’t possibly be true, only to snap out of it and realize that this is not something that my imagination created.
There is nothing to fix this. No way to change this. There isn’t anything we can do to change the ending. The mind conjures up many, at times too many, thoughts. Some of them should be comforting: “This was meant to be”; “One day we’ll be okay” etc. And those are all very valid and true and I think some small part of me takes comfort in them even if I don’t believe them just yet. But the heart? The heart tells quite a different story. The heart is not only bruised and broken; it is angry and it tells the mind to shut the hell up. Maybe one day the heart will come to understand what the mind has been trying to tell it but it will never accept.
Powerful and so full of natural truth that it hurts.
I have been so touched and moved by everyone's posts. And I've felt safe posting here. Take heart ... ennisjack.com is our mountain, and we can shout anything we need to from it. We're all listening. We're all here.
I've been listening to the soundtrack - DAMN you! Gustavo ... (well, no, not damn ... we love you!). I'm a musician, so I tend to be more analytical when I'm listening to music. This score grabs you ... those first two guitar tones (A and G-sharp) - piercing the silence. THAT hurts. I still get misty-eyed hearing that simple music when Jack and Ennis are young, standing at a campfire, Ennis behind a nearly sleeping Jack ... you know the scene. The music sounds like it's so far away, never to be reached. How did Gustavo do that? I'm rambling about the music because LJN mentioned that a song on the radio triggers an emotion. GOOD! That's how it's supposed to work. Cry, LJN, a lot. We all do, all the time. Heath Ledger's death, for all of us, was ... IS ... more than just the tragic death of an unequalled actor. It's the end of Ennis. And that is something that pierces our collective heart.
Honestly, I can't wait for my evening with Jack and Ennis. It's coming up Saturday at 8. Once more 'round the mountain; once more to visit Lightning Flat, Riverton, and the rest. Once more to have my heart pierced by those two simple guitar tones. The dreaded scenes - the ones that make us cry loudly and uncontrollably.
What IS it about Brokeback Mountain that has so profoundly touched all of us? Maybe it's not important that we know why ... maybe it's good enough to embrace it... and let be. After all, we've got to stand it.
Hugs and a tip of an ivory colored cowboy hat.
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"Powerful and so full of natural truth that it hurts."
Well said guyinjax, that's a great description. And what a wonderful post LJN. ^f^
Normal? I really have no sense of normal. I've been bouncing between the different stages as well, but have somehow managed to skip getting out of denial on my way to acceptance. I think I'm actually making progress on the acceptance, as far as embracing all the good things I think of when I think of Heath. And trying to build on that inspiration that he's given me to live my life more fully, etc. And I truly believe he didn't suffer at the end, went peacefully in his sleep.
But then out of nowhere, I still keep thinking "It just isn't possible, it can't be real. He can't really be gone."
I think that part will just take longer than the rest. So I smile for the happy memories and when I watch one of his movies. I cry when I hear certain songs, or quotes from his films, or see his picture. I take heart from the lessons he helped me learn. And I heal a little more every day.
And that's enough for me. I'll just have to let the 'accepting he's gone' part happen when it's ready to happen.
And meanwhile, to quote guyinjax again,
"I have been so touched and moved by everyone's posts. And I've felt safe posting here. Take heart ... ennisjack.com is our mountain, and we can shout anything we need to from it. We're all listening. We're all here."
Beautiful. :ghug:
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Oh my, when I think I'm about to get over it... I read your recent posts and here I go again... :\'(
To all off you LJN, Lis, Tony, Flwrchild & guyinjax :ghug: and thanks for the fabulous posts.
The thruth is, Heath will live forever in our memories and no one could take him from us.
I agree with you guyinjax, Gustavo is a killer but a genius one. We love him indeed, I'm not a musician but have been a eager listener and collector and even studied classical music & opera. Gustavo is really a genius... and he composed all the music even before the movie was shot but I'm off topic and there is one thread about this somewhere... I'll try to retreive it. :s)
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speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:
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:clap: :clap: Koka, it's wonderful ^f^
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Today I decided to not go over and over with, he's dead, he's not going to do any more movie, and so on. I decided to celebrate his life and to be happy. Even If I cry when I see his movies or pictures of him. I don't think he wanted us to be sad and cry over him. I have bad days when I want to sit in a corner and cry but I'm trying hard not to.
Today I decided to let go of all the sad thing and focus on the good :) Because I think that's what he wanted :)
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Today I decided to not go over and over with, he's dead, he's not going to do any more movie, and so on. I decided to celebrate his life and to be happy. Even If I cry when I see his movies or pictures of him. I don't think he wanted us to be sad and cry over him. I have bad days when I want to sit in a corner and cry but I'm trying hard not to.
Today I decided to let go of all the sad thing and focus on the good :) Because I think that's what he wanted :)
That is wonderful Emzan :clap:
And your right, Heath would've wanted us all to be happy and enjoy life like he did :)
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. I don't know why but Daniel's tribute to Heath brought shivers down my spine and the BAFTA tribute made me wanna break down into tears. These are the moments. I know I will never forget this man. He was a man true to our hearts, one that took risk and loved everyone he met. He lived his life to the fullest without the celebrity limelight and money. He found love, had a daughter, and did movies that brought him and everyone around him, great joy. This is why it is hard for all of us to seem like his death is unreal.
It made some of this real, but most of me still, like you, did not make me believe that he was gone. I see him in movies, the lively figure and the smiling face and it just doesn't make any sense. How can a being so pure and so innocent, die?
Have a very lovely Valentine's Day
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Lis
Happy belated Valentine’s day to you too Lis. :ghug:
What a beautiful post! Not only the sentiment but the wisdom behind those words.
I guess, in time, when it all settles into whatever spot it’s meant to it’ll start to feel real and the hurt will lessen into a dull ache. And I try to keep Barb’s words with me- he lived his life- didn’t sit around waiting for it to happen. He made it happen and crammed a lot into the time he was allotted. Some days are better than others, I guess. BTW, did you ever get that tribute collage done?
I have been so touched and moved by everyone's posts. And I've felt safe posting here. Take heart ... ennisjack.com is our mountain, and we can shout anything we need to from it. We're all listening. We're all here.
What IS it about Brokeback Mountain that has so profoundly touched all of us? Maybe it's not important that we know why ... maybe it's good enough to embrace it... and let be. After all, we've got to stand it.
Hugs and a tip of an ivory colored cowboy hat.
Hey GuyinJax :ghug:
I’m glad you’ve felt safe posting here, that’s what this community is all about- being safe to be who you are in the good and the bad times. And you’re right, we don’t need to know why this movie and those involved has touched us all so deeply- it just is. I hope you are comforted by our two favorite cowboys when you settle in tomorrow night to go up the mountain with them. ^f^
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Today I decided to not go over and over with, he's dead, he's not going to do any more movie, and so on. I decided to celebrate his life and to be happy. Even If I cry when I see his movies or pictures of him. I don't think he wanted us to be sad and cry over him. I have bad days when I want to sit in a corner and cry but I'm trying hard not to.
Today I decided to let go of all the sad thing and focus on the good :) Because I think that's what he wanted :)
Emzan, that is wonderful! :ghug:
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Since this was the song that totally messed me up yesterday ("Who Knew" by Pink) I took some of the words last night and used them.
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It's gorgeous. Thank you for sharing it. :)
Emzan, that's a wonderful resolution. ^f^
:ghug: to all. It's so nice to see that whatever phase each of us is in, the one thing we all have in common is our celebration of Heath and his life.
Going through more old interviews earlier, I came across this:
Guest Likelife*Did you always want to be an actor? If not, when you were little what did you want to be when you grew up?
Heath Ledger* A nuclear physicist!
Heath Ledger* No, I never stopped to think about it as a kid.
Heath Ledger* I was too busy playing.
Guest Sarah* If there were anything you could change in your life, back in time, what would you change? (Happy Birthday, by the way:-))
Heath Ledger* Nothing.
From a 1999 interview for the premiere of 10 Things I Hate About You
That just made me feel good. :)
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Lately I have been trying to run away from it. But today it got me again. Dearest Heath, i love you darling, it hurts so much seing your beautiful face and your photos. I is so unfair, darling. You were such light, such Sun in my life and you are gone. I love you, I love you forever. I know I will never forget you. %) %) %) %) %) %) %) %) %) %) forever.
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There is nothing to fix this. No way to change this.There isn’t anything we can do to change the ending. The mind conjures up many, at times too many, thoughts. Some of them should be comforting: “This was meant to be”; “One day we’ll be okay” etc. And those are all very valid and true and I think some small part of me takes comfort in them even if I don’t believe them just yet. But the heart? The heart tells quite a different story. The heart is not only bruised and broken; it is angry and it tells the mind to shut the hell up. Maybe one day the heart will come to understand what the mind has been trying to tell it but it will never accept.
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You are so good with words....I have goosebumps, how did you managed to read my mind.... it's like you wrote exactly what I was thinking since the first time I heard those words "Heath passed away...." :\'(
(BTW, I read it yesterday,but couldn't replay was too emotionally wrecked)
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Since this was the song that totally messed me up yesterday ("Who Knew" by Pink) I took some of the words last night and used them.
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Thank you for sharing it LJN, this is beautiful. :\'(
I know what you mean about denial. My mind knows he's gone, my heart refuses to accept it. I don't believe in God or heaven or the afterlife, which probably makes it harder for me to find comfort. I keep thinking about his death, but what the mind understands, the heart doesn't. Sometimes I feel like he just decided to disappear, to hide somewhere so we can't see him, but he must be somewhere on this planet... he can't be gone. It can't be that he doesn't think anything anymore, doesn't feel anything anymore... that his mind and his heart don't work anymore. I'm not stupid, I know what death is, it's just too hard to accept. There is some open space between what I know and what I try to believe, but nothing can be done about it, and if you can't fix it you've got to stand it.
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:ghug: keren_b, LJN :ghug:
I know what you mean about the heart and the mind in conflict.
I am glad you wrote what I bolded below, that I am not the only one. For a while, I thought that this nightmare was just a cruel hoax, by the Dark Night marketing people. That on the premiere night, Heath would walk down the red carpet. Or, that this was Heath's way of bowing out of Hollywood, to retire and spend his time with Matilda. He had said more than once that when acting is no longer fun and meaningful, he would quit. So many different versions go through my mind, then I realize, they are the way my heart tries to convince my mind. Denial, it can be such a powerful mechanism.
What you quoted from the movie and the short story, and I colored red below, is what keeps me going...and the last scene from the movie, of Ennis/Heath, tears in his eyes and a slight smile, thinking of Jack on Brokeback Mountain... :\'( the bittersweet remembrance of good times past, and the peace of hope in the future.
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And I should add, the other big part of keeping me going day to day is this forum, the friendship and understanding that permeates everything here. :^^)
Thank you for sharing it LJN, this is beautiful. :\'(
I know what you mean about denial. My mind knows he's gone, my heart refuses to accept it. I don't believe in God or heaven or the afterlife, which probably makes it harder for me to find comfort. I keep thinking about his death, but what the mind understands, the heart doesn't. Sometimes I feel like he just decided to disappear, to hide somewhere so we can't see him, but he must be somewhere on this planet... he can't be gone. It can't be that he doesn't think anything anymore, doesn't feel anything anymore... that his mind and his heart don't work anymore. I'm not stupid, I know what death is, it's just too hard to accept. There is some open space between what I know and what I try to believe, but nothing can't be done about it, and if you can't fix it you've got to stand it.
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Since this was the song that totally messed me up yesterday ("Who Knew" by Pink) I took some of the words last night and used them.
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:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
LJN and everyone. :ghug:
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Thank you for sharing it LJN, this is beautiful. :\'(
I know what you mean about denial. My mind knows he's gone, my heart refuses to accept it. I don't believe in God or heaven or the afterlife, which probably makes it harder for me to find comfort. I keep thinking about his death, but what the mind understands, the heart doesn't. Sometimes I feel like he just decided to disappear, to hide somewhere so we can't see him, but he must be somewhere on this planet... he can't be gone. It can't be that he doesn't think anything anymore, doesn't feel anything anymore... that his mind and his heart don't work anymore. I'm not stupid, I know what death is, it's just too hard to accept. There is some open space between what I know and what I try to believe, but nothing can't be done about it, and if you can't fix it you've got to stand it.
Keren. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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It's sad that he had to go so soon :(
He was such an amazing person & actor.
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Just a few minutes ago I was looking outside my living room window and saw a beautiful bird. I have no idea what kind but it was small, with a light brown and white-ish color. It was one I have never seen before, at least I don't think. I grabbed my camera and tried to focus in on it, only to find out that when I took it and looked back at the picture, the bird wasn't there. I zoomed in onto the picture and all I could see was this white smudge on the camera. I decided to take a few more, thinking it might have been a smudge from the window. I took 4 more, in the same position and there was no white mark again.
What does this mean? I have no idea. I don't believe in reincarnation but I do believe in spirits and signs. Was this a sign for me? Since I do not dream vivid dreams, was this a sign to tell me that Heath is at peace? I will never know, but all I know is now I have the goosebumps :(
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No need to have the goosebumps hon' where he is, he is in peace. :ghug:
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No need to have the goosebumps hon' where he is, he is in peace. :ghug:
Thank you Chameau, that is true. ^f^
We know he is gone, but never too far away and now in peace from the world around us..
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Howdy Fellow Brokies...
Just under 5 hours till my visit with the boys. Can't wait. It's been a long time since I've seen the film.
I was thinking of logging on to ennisjack.com, and posting a time sequence "log" of my viewing ... but, and I hope you'll forgive me ... I want to devote myself totally to my emotions and feelings, and to Ennis.
Wonder how I'll feel when Ennis gets the "DECEASED" postcard.
Well, that stings.
:c) :\'(
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I keep having this thought, and it won't let go.
After I've seen Brokeback, a part of why I was so devastated was because I identified so much with Ennis and I felt this fear, to end up my life like him. I have a lot of things I regret in my life. I feel like I've missed out on a lot, and it was like Ennis was sending me a message, "don't live your life like this", only I was still too scared to do something about it. Maybe I just don't know how to change things, and I feel chained to the life I have.
And now, when I think of Heath... especially since I've read Barb's post, about how Heath has lived his life, and realised that he taught me the same lesson Ennis did, only from the opposite direction: This is how you should live your life. You have to enjoy it, otherwise there's no point. You have to love, passionately, and you have to do the things that make you happy - don't compromise, even if it involves hard choices. I feel like he's forcing me to take a look at my life - again - and I think, "you idiot, he's trying to make you see something. He's trying to deliver you this message in every way possible and you're just too coward to do anything about it".
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Thank you for sharing it LJN, this is beautiful. :\'(
I know what you mean about denial. My mind knows he's gone, my heart refuses to accept it. I don't believe in God or heaven or the afterlife, which probably makes it harder for me to find comfort. I keep thinking about his death, but what the mind understands, the heart doesn't. Sometimes I feel like he just decided to disappear, to hide somewhere so we can't see him, but he must be somewhere on this planet... he can't be gone. It can't be that he doesn't think anything anymore, doesn't feel anything anymore... that his mind and his heart don't work anymore. I'm not stupid, I know what death is, it's just too hard to accept. There is some open space between what I know and what I try to believe, but nothing can be done about it, and if you can't fix it you've got to stand it.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I know this is going to sound wrong- but I am so glad I am not alone. I was starting to think that aside from a few people I chat with behind the scenes that I was one of the only ones left struggling with this. I don't want any one of us to be hurting so I'm not glad for that. I keep waiting for some breaking news that he did exactly what you said- just wanted to get away and he is still here. It is too hard to accept- impossible even. I have moments where I feel "okay" and then something triggers and I feel that punch in the gut and each time that punch hits, it's like finding out all over again. I have so many thoughts in my head about all of this but I can't write them all out- so they'll be coming in waves in the weeks/months to come.
And yeah we've got to stand it- how I don't know. I know there is nothing to fix it. Nothing that will ever make it "right" because everything is so wrong about this. I don't understand how this can be true. I just don't get it at all. I know there is no rhyme or reason to it all but this just can't be possible. I don't understand how this can be real. It makes no damn sense. I believe in a "heaven" and an "afterlife" but I don't know if I've ever truly defined what they are exactly to myself and I don't find much comfort in those things right now because to think of him up in heaven means that this is real and my mind just goes into complete shutdown when that thought enters in.
When I have my "okay" moments I think of what he gave to all of us. People bonded and formed real friendships because of his movies and who he was and that is an amazing thing for someone to bestow upon people-wether they intended to or not. So I try to keep with me that as long as everyone who has been blessed with this that he will live in each of us. Does that bring comfort? Not much, not yet. It's too soon for any real comfort, at least for me.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to you.
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Just a few minutes ago I was looking outside my living room window and saw a beautiful bird. I have no idea what kind but it was small, with a light brown and white-ish color. It was one I have never seen before, at least I don't think. I grabbed my camera and tried to focus in on it, only to find out that when I took it and looked back at the picture, the bird wasn't there. I zoomed in onto the picture and all I could see was this white smudge on the camera. I decided to take a few more, thinking it might have been a smudge from the window. I took 4 more, in the same position and there was no white mark again.
What does this mean? I have no idea. I don't believe in reincarnation but I do believe in spirits and signs. Was this a sign for me? Since I do not dream vivid dreams, was this a sign to tell me that Heath is at peace? I will never know, but all I know is now I have the goosebumps :(
Don't question it, sweetie. I believe in signs, fate etc so it is very possible that it was a sign- you never know when, where or how they will manifest themselves. :ghug:
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Just a few minutes ago I was looking outside my living room window and saw a beautiful bird. I have no idea what kind but it was small, with a light brown and white-ish color. It was one I have never seen before, at least I don't think. I grabbed my camera and tried to focus in on it, only to find out that when I took it and looked back at the picture, the bird wasn't there. I zoomed in onto the picture and all I could see was this white smudge on the camera. I decided to take a few more, thinking it might have been a smudge from the window. I took 4 more, in the same position and there was no white mark again.
What does this mean? I have no idea. I don't believe in reincarnation but I do believe in spirits and signs. Was this a sign for me? Since I do not dream vivid dreams, was this a sign to tell me that Heath is at peace? I will never know, but all I know is now I have the goosebumps :(
It's entirely possible. It's up to you to decide if you want to open your mind enough to let the thoughts through. Before all of this started I really was a big skeptic, but now I see things differently. The sun was shining on the side of my face while I was driving yesterday and it made me smile. Normally, it'd just get on my nerves but I enjoyed it yesterday.
I mentioned my weird encounter with my printer a few days after it happened. Update on that: It's happened about 3 other times since then. Now I just laugh when it happens. I like it. One day last week my cable box went crazy. Just the one I was watching, not any of the others so I laughed again and it stopped. That same night, I was playing Nintendo Wii and I got up to get something to drink. When I came back, the game was playing itself. This is 100% truth, no lies at all. So again I laughed and said "Come on, I want to play too." And it stopped.
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I was playing Nintendo Wii and I got up to get something to drink. When I came back, the game was playing itself. This is 100% truth, no lies at all. So again I laughed and said "Come on, I want to play too." And it stopped.
Ok, now that made me smile!! ;D
"Heath, you can't play forever, you have to share" ;)
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Don't question it, sweetie. I believe in signs, fate etc so it is very possible that it was a sign- you never know when, where or how they will manifest themselves. :ghug:
I know what you mean. I've heard so much from all of you, telling of your dreams and your signs and I always wondered what my sign was. Maybe this was just a coucidence or maybe it was a true sign. All I know is that one, I'm saving the picture, and two, now I feel he really is at peace #)
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Ok, now that made me smile!! ;D
"Heath, you can't play forever, you have to share" ;)
Exactly ;) You never know, so I always make sure to acknowledge it.
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Exactly ;) You never know, so I always make sure to acknowledge it.
You should, I don't think usually games like that, if they malfununtion, actually PLAY itself ;D
Unless you got a Heath virus ;)
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You should, I don't think usually games like that, if they malfununtion, actually PLAY itself ;D
Unless you got a Heath virus ;)
I've been contemplating talking to my aunt about it. She's very much into spiritualism and things like that and has said to me on many occasions that I am an "Indigo Child." Maybe I should go see what all of this means since I've finally opened my mind to allow it. :s)
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Well, here's a strange thought. If Heath had not been one of the actors who helped create BBM, would he have been....a Brokie? The
answer, I think, is how you define "Brokie". If you mean relentlessly holding on to that film, I'd say---no.
But, hey, now---look again at a broader definition of a Brokie. We are waving the battle standard for tolerance. That was Heath. So many
are creative (look at the poetry section). We like music enough to be constantly quoting lyrics---and Heath was mad for music. We are said
to be over-emotional, and you need only remember his weeping all night after the abuse in Sydney, and his extreme sentiment for his little
daughter. And as far as indifference to age (we are a wild mixture there), he kept as friends very nearly every age group, which is rare.
So maybe it's not going too far to say, the characteristics of our little community were very similar to his, and so, if we are a family, broadly
defined---yes, he was one of us. Maybe we spotted that, dimly, and that's why the pain keeps on. If you really look closely, where he
was different roughly coincides with where we differ from outsiders.
He loved poetry, and would have fitted in with ayashae, Cynical21, Tpe and Lance, and Jessi and the gentleman from Vancouver. He loved
photography, and he and Keren would have made a team, not to mention the other contributors in the photo section. He loved sweetness,
so LD would have been high on his list. As for the ladies, I kind of sort of think he would have chased after some of you. And he always
accepted gays as friends.
So, Carbyville, if your electronics are acting up, playfully---dunno. LD, the bird you saw---dunno. But we ARE a small family, so, if anyone
would have loved US, it would have been Heath.
The ONLY area we don't have in common is....skateboarding. If Dirtbiker refuses, well, we could TRY Chameau, but am a little dubious, there.
Was Heath a Brokie? Narrow definition--no. Was he one of our small tribe? You bet he was. We lost one of our own.
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keren-b
I don't know who, or where, you are. What you've posted recently struck a chord (no musical pun intended) in me ... and I am compelled to respond.
Regret. Gosh, I feel like my life is defined by it. Choices I should have made but didn't; Choices I never made but wish I had.
You'll notice that my "tag" is Ennis del Mar is my hero. Ennis, as written by A. Proulx, and as breathed by H. Ledger, is a simple man. There's been a lot of posting here regarding how complicated he is. Yes, in some ways ... but aren't we all complicated to some degree?
I am complicated.
Ennis was simple. He saw things in black and white. He had high moral values. He was a guardian to his own needs and desires. He is my hero simply because he survived. One of the most powerful scenes in the movie, for me at least, is Ennis del Mar standing at the fairgrounds with fireworks going off over his shoulder. Wow! Well, don't I fall in love with him every time I see THAT?! Who wouldn't??
My great sadness is that he never actually got what he deserved. Happiness. He loved Jack, no doubt. But he couldn't bring himself to say it. Regret. Ennis knew what love was. Watch how he asks Alma, junior, if Curt loves her? He ain't foolin'.
As Ang Lee told us the story of Ennis and Jack, we never know if Jack's death was caused by what that awful Lureen said, or if it was, in fact, murder. I don't know myself. It's as if Ennis felt Jack would always be alive - because Jack represented that hidden part of Ennis that would always be there. It never occurs to Ennis that his sexuality might be something he either has to come to terms with or deny for ever. Neither option seems available to him. This is his regret.
Someday I'll have the courage to post my sequel short story here. It starts with Ennis folding Alma's sweater and puting it in the closet with the shirts. In many ways it's my story. And, in my heart, it's Ennis' story too. I want Ennis to have happiness, find true love, feel safe, have his life validated (it wasn't by Alma and that really hurt him - remember the Thanksgiving scene).
I was in Wyoming last February. I looked everywhere for Ennis ... well, not everywhere - I was only in Laramie, but still... I tried to look at every face. Are you Ennis del Mar?
I'm rambling. Sorry.
In the end, I think regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide.
Ennis del Mar found a way to live through it and with it. Because of him, so will I. Ennis del Mar is my hero.
Never forget.
:c) ^f^
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Once again I'm in awe reading all of your posts, and so grateful that you're all here sharing your thoughts and feelings. :ghug:
I'm a big believer in signs and tend to take the position that however they're intended, I have the choice to interpret them as my instincts tell me to and that's what I do. I like the bird picture and Carby's electronic antics. :)
Keren, big big hugs to you. You made a beautiful post and I don't think that you're a coward at all. Look at where you are now compared to two years ago. Is it the same or have you made some changes? Do you see the world the same way or is your heart more open? No one should be expected to make all of the important changes in their life overnight. I'm in a somewhat similar position where I know some of the things I need to do, but have been putting them off, for all the same reasons - being scared of the big changes, reluctant to make the hard choices, etc. For me, the time is now, and maybe Heath had something to do with that, I don't know. It's hard to ignore some of the messages he's sent us by his own example. But don't look at where you are as any kind of a shortcoming. As long as you're still open to the message, as long as you can still learn the lessons, you're heading in the right direction. And I am quite confident that you will get to where you want to be. I have faith enough for both of us. :ghug:
Tony, I don't know if he would have been a Brokie, under the strictest terms of the definition, either, but by bringing Ennis Del Mar to life and caring enough to do it so well, he automatically became a member of our family. You got that right. And our family will always be a little bit fuller for having had him in it, and a little bit smaller for having lost him.
LJN, hang in there. :^^) All we really have is time. How we feel is how we feel. And there's not much more we can do than let those feelings process as they need to. Meanwhile, I'm awfully glad we're all in this together. :ghug:
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guyinjax, I just saw your post. :ghug: to you as well. I liked what you said here:
"In the end, I think regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide."
It allows us to put a positive spin on it because, after all, as long as we're still here, we always have a chance to learn from our regrets and make things better.
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Well, here's a strange thought. If Heath had not been one of the actors who helped create BBM, would he have been....a Brokie?
We know that he probably most likey wouldn't be a Brokie but as you and FC has said, he does share a lot of similar characteristics that we Brokies all seem to posses.
What I always wondered and we might never know but it could've happen...did he ever visit our site? :s)
We would never know...I came on this site and checked it out before I became a member. I was hesistant but once I joined, I was taken in by this loving family. So could he have been on the computer one day and been searching through some sites and stumble upon this site?? I will always wonder...
Regard to guyinjax, your post was amazing and so true. Ennis was something else and everytime I see the movie or read the Short story, I always am sad that he never got what he really wanted, to be with the man he loved. And that always hurts me the most. Sometimes I watch it and pray that the ending is different, that somehow Jack is just away, like how James Whitcomb Riley said in his poem that I found through this forum:
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
Ennis Del Mar is strong, and your right, he is a hero, that many sadley, do not see at 1st. Someone who is still pressing on, after death, divorce, and regret hit him hard. He will always be somewhere deep in my heart and I am glad, he has kept you strong and became your true hero.
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Hey Lil Dwarf 611
Thank you for your comments. It means so much to have my "hero worship" validated.
ENNIS, WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I HAD A CHOICE?
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... moving on ...
I officially hate the following:
Willie Nelson
Rufus Wainwright
Ang Lee
... of course I don't...
I just finished watching our movie, Brokies. I'm a wreck. A total, snivelling, sniffing, sobbing wreck.
If you haven't seen our movie ... word of advice: it still hurts a lot. I can hardly see my dumb computer screen.
I'm hoarse from yelling.
My eyes sting.
Honestly, for me, the fact that Heath Ledger has passed away didn't affect me as much as his portrayal of Ennis del Mar. My God, the Adacemy got it so very wrong. So sad that it's an uncorrectable mistake. So wrong.
A few random... very random thoughts (you all know how you feel after watching Brokeback Mountain):
I have never heard music that sounded more lonely.
Even when you know what's coming you are not prepared for it.
I honestly think that all of us who have been so profoundly moved and touched by this story will never get over it - we've all learned (or, in my case, still learning how) to live with it.
No bridge high enough from which to jump ...
No bus fast enough in front of which to stand ...
Long days, longer nights.
... damn.
:\'(
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Hey Lil Dwarf 611
Thank you for your comments. It means so much to have my "hero worship" validated.
ENNIS, WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I HAD A CHOICE?
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... moving on ...
I officially hate the following:
Willie Nelson
Rufus Wainwright
Ang Lee
... of course I don't...
I just finished watching our movie, Brokies. I'm a wreck. A total, snivelling, sniffing, sobbing wreck.
If you haven't seen our movie ... word of advice: it still hurts a lot. I can hardly see my dumb computer screen.
I'm hoarse from yelling.
My eyes sting.
Honestly, for me, the fact that Heath Ledger has passed away didn't affect me as much as his portrayal of Ennis del Mar. My God, the Adacemy got it so very wrong. So sad that it's an uncorrectable mistake. So wrong.
A few random... very random thoughts (you all know how you feel after watching Brokeback Mountain):
I have never heard music that sounded more lonely.
Even when you know what's coming you are not prepared for it.
I honestly think that all of us who have been so profoundly moved and touched by this story will never get over it - we've all learned (or, in my case, still learning how) to live with it.
No bridge high enough from which to jump ...
No bus fast enough in front of which to stand ...
Long days, longer nights.
... damn.
:\'(
I know it's hard guyinjax but hang in there. I have yet to watch our movie, BBM, from beginning to end. It's hard, thinking that the ending won't change and we have lots our beloved maker of Ennis, Heath, has 'left the stage'. Yes you are right, we are strong people, and we have been able to live with this, no matter how hard it may be. We are Brokies of course, thats what we do :ghug:
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I just finished watching our movie, Brokies. I'm a wreck. A total, snivelling, sniffing, sobbing wreck.
If you haven't seen our movie ... word of advice: it still hurts a lot. I can hardly see my dumb computer screen.
I'm hoarse from yelling.
My eyes sting.
Honestly, for me, the fact that Heath Ledger has passed away didn't affect me as much as his portrayal of Ennis del Mar. My God, the Adacemy got it so very wrong. So sad that it's an uncorrectable mistake. So wrong.
A few random... very random thoughts (you all know how you feel after watching Brokeback Mountain):
I have never heard music that sounded more lonely.
Even when you know what's coming you are not prepared for it.
I honestly think that all of us who have been so profoundly moved and touched by this story will never get over it - we've all learned (or, in my case, still learning how) to live with it.
No bridge high enough from which to jump ...
No bus fast enough in front of which to stand ...
Long days, longer nights.
... damn.
:\'(
guyinjax :ghug:
I watched our movie too... for the nth time... Unlike you it was a peaceful, relaxing experience. Don't get me wrong, I had the usual tears but now... I feel relaxed. I just appreciated this gift Heath gave to us... he gave us Ennis, period. Don't be scared to watch Brokeback Mountain, it's OK to cry at such beauty but don't be scared. Watching this movie and others with Heath is the best tribute to his memory we could do, he gave a lot... our tears are a little payment back to his talent and dedication, huh?
Don't get me wrong, I cried, I cry, I will cry again :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm just out of words to say thank you to my best cowboy ever.
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Thank you for sharing it LJN, this is beautiful. :\'(
I know what you mean about denial. My mind knows he's gone, my heart refuses to accept it. I don't believe in God or heaven or the afterlife, which probably makes it harder for me to find comfort. I keep thinking about his death, but what the mind understands, the heart doesn't. Sometimes I feel like he just decided to disappear, to hide somewhere so we can't see him, but he must be somewhere on this planet... he can't be gone. It can't be that he doesn't think anything anymore, doesn't feel anything anymore... that his mind and his heart don't work anymore. I'm not stupid, I know what death is, it's just too hard to accept. There is some open space between what I know and what I try to believe, but nothing can be done about it, and if you can't fix it you've got to stand it.
:\'( :\'(
I do accept it, heart and all. I think I've had enough devastating death close to me, and I am after all rather a realist. But pain, heartbreak, grief, suffering, loss...those I feel acutely.
I don't mean heaven or anything, but I do believe in spirit life, that there is so much more than we can normally be aware of, whether we are here in this apparent world, or not here. So somehow, in the big picture, this is as it is. But for us mere mortals, we are left to deal with such a loss...
kathy
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Just a few minutes ago I was looking outside my living room window and saw a beautiful bird. I have no idea what kind but it was small, with a light brown and white-ish color. It was one I have never seen before, at least I don't think. I grabbed my camera and tried to focus in on it, only to find out that when I took it and looked back at the picture, the bird wasn't there. I zoomed in onto the picture and all I could see was this white smudge on the camera. I decided to take a few more, thinking it might have been a smudge from the window. I took 4 more, in the same position and there was no white mark again.
What does this mean? I have no idea. I don't believe in reincarnation but I do believe in spirits and signs. Was this a sign for me? Since I do not dream vivid dreams, was this a sign to tell me that Heath is at peace? I will never know, but all I know is now I have the goosebumps :(
Certainly anything like this, if it speaks to you, especially with goosebumps, then that it what it means. I love this happenstance -- bird, or Heath, or whatever.
kathy
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I keep having this thought, and it won't let go.
After I've seen Brokeback, a part of why I was so devastated was because I identified so much with Ennis and I felt this fear, to end up my life like him. I have a lot of things I regret in my life. I feel like I've missed out on a lot, and it was like Ennis was sending me a message, "don't live your life like this", only I was still too scared to do something about it. Maybe I just don't know how to change things, and I feel chained to the life I have.
And now, when I think of Heath... especially since I've read Barb's post, about how Heath has lived his life, and realised that he taught me the same lesson Ennis did, only from the opposite direction: This is how you should live your life. You have to enjoy it, otherwise there's no point. You have to love, passionately, and you have to do the things that make you happy - don't compromise, even if it involves hard choices. I feel like he's forcing me to take a look at my life - again - and I think, "you idiot, he's trying to make you see something. He's trying to deliver you this message in every way possible and you're just too coward to do anything about it".
This is so beautiful, Keren. First Ennis, then Heath. Maybe you'll get it this time! Maybe we'll all get it, if we haven't yet acted upon what we have learned. And yes, Barb pointing out what a vibrant liver Heath was really touched me, too. And he had a good balance between when to do and when not to do. (To everything, turn, turn, turn... A time to every purpose...) To do what he was doing with gusto, but not worrying about when he wasn't doing "work." Very zen, he was extremely happy making breakfast for his girls, as much as when in his intense film-character mode.
This just popped into my head and I hope no one thinks it's disrespectful, but the Klingons say, "Today is a good day to die."
kathy
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I've been contemplating talking to my aunt about it. She's very much into spiritualism and things like that and has said to me on many occasions that I am an "Indigo Child." Maybe I should go see what all of this means since I've finally opened my mind to allow it. :s)
I'm glad you brought this up, carbyville, the "Indigo Child" thing. Was Heath an Indigo Child? I haven't followed up too much from when I first read in some depth about this, but it seems it certainly could be that he was one of the very special ones...
kathy
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It never ceases to amaze me when I read all the posts here, the amount of creative, sensitive, perceptive talent in this forum.
Tony, you ask the most interesting of questions: would Heath have been a brokie if he didn't portrayed the role of Ennis.
Keren_b, your view of Heath and Ennis as two sides of the same coin, how to and how not to live life without regrets.
GuyinJax, your statements, that "regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide." is wisdom distilled from experience.
To answer Tony's question, I dare speculate that Heath would be definitely a brokie because he would connect with the story, just as he connected with Adam Sutton, and Ennis Del Mar. He would understand the pain of regret, the pain of love unexpressed. And I disagree, Tony, that Heath would not be obsessed with Brokeback Mountain, like us. He has that passion about him, like his passion for Drake's music. When you are this connected, there is no arguing. Heath would love the movie as much as we do. All his movies has the theme of the individual struggling against all odds, society, circumstance, himself, to express love. Brokeback Mountain was Heath's destiny, and if he didn't take part in it, he would be forever a part of us. Born of their love, Bound by ours, including Heath's.
For Keren_b, I have only this to say: fast or slow, Jake would love the direction you are going. Do not worry how fast you can change your old habits. The fact is, you have decided to change, that is the first step. Once you pick up speed, and momentum, nothing can stop you. I have faith in you. :ghug:
Guyinjax, I understand what you feel, and I have also watched Brokeback Mountain again, feeling the same pain in the last few scenes. The pain was not just for Ennis, and myself, but now, also for Heath. For I see not only Ennis on the screeen, as I used to do before that tragic day. I now see also Heath on the screen with Ennis, and the tears are for him, too...for his not being around to play another role, to show his skills as director, to sing another lullaby to Matilda, to ... :\'( BUT I also feel the same peace, when Heath/Ennis touch the two shirts, and brush his thumb along the postcard of Brokeback Mountain, and say to Jack, I swear. Because, now it is not only Ennis saying it to Jack, but also I, saying it to Heath. The road may be long and lonely ahead, but there is bittersweet remembrance, and hope for the future, and MOST OF ALL, there is friendship, and family, not only in this forum, but also in real life. Each and every regret is a gentle nudge, a distant pain, that reminds me to seize the day, and not let another opportunity goes to waste, to say and express how I feel, to not be afraid.
I never cared much for formality, so the Academy Awards were interesting to watch, but not that life-shatteringly important. The fact that they did not give Heath the Best Actor Award that year, said more about them, than him. His work speaks for itself. Their action will always be questioned by future generations. How they attempt to correct this, will be interesting to watch as well. For me, it is but a minor footnote in Heath's life. His awards are more than just the tangible ones.
To everyone who contributed to this amazing thread...In Loving Memory, you are ALL amazing.
:ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap:
And most of all,
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I'm glad you brought this up, carbyville, the "Indigo Child" thing. Was Heath an Indigo Child? I haven't followed up too much from when I first read in some depth about this, but it seems it certainly could be that he was one of the very special ones...
kathy
It's totally possible. From what I've been reading he seems to fit the descriptions.
One of the reasons I was (am?) so drawn to Heath is because I felt like I could relate to him and that I understood him and things he did even if I had never met him. A few months ago I was bored, messing around online and came across some stuff about numerology. Turns out, Heath and I have both the same Life Path Number (7) and Soul Urge Number (4). If there's any truth to numerology, that might be why I always felt like I understood/related to his personality.
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My favorite song for you dear brokies in memory if him ^f^
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=sbH2ObmBk1E
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guyinjax
Never apologize for rambling - what you wrote was beautiful. :ghug:
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guyinjax
Never apologize for rambling - what you wrote was beautiful. :ghug:
:h) Keren, hope you begin to feel much better... :s) :^^)
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What I always wondered and we might never know but it could've happen...did he ever visit our site? :s)
We would never know...I came on this site and checked it out before I became a member. I was hesistant but once I joined, I was taken in by this loving family. So could he have been on the computer one day and been searching through some sites and stumble upon this site?? I will always wonder...
Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
After the movie Candy was released, Heath's friend Theresa (who ran Heath Ledger Central and was also a member here) opened a website called "addicted to the movie Candy", and did a lot to promote the movie and it's distribution because it was a low-budget movie with limited release. Anyway, some members here were active on her site, and apparently, one day when Heath was visiting Theresa, she told him about people's involvement and he took the time to write personal thanks to some of the people here. Theresa had also introduced him to ennisjack.
I saw the post that he sent to one of my friends. I can't share his full message here since it wasn't sent to me personally, it's up to the members whom he addressed if they wanna share it. But this part, I believe, is for all of us:
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
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Thank you for sharing that Keren. ^f^
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
After the movie Candy was released, Heath's friend Theresa (who ran Heath Ledger Central and was also a member here) opened a website called "addicted to the movie Candy", and did a lot to promote the movie and it's distribution because it was a low-budget movie with limited release. Anyway, some members here were active on her site, and apparently, one day when Heath was visiting Theresa, she told him about people's involvement and he took the time to write personal thanks to some of the people here. Theresa had also introduced him to ennisjack.
I saw the post that he sent to one of my friends. I can't share his full message here since it wasn't sent to me personally, it's up to the members whom he addressed if they wanna share it. But this part, I believe, is for all of us:
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
Keren, thank you for sharing this. I have had the same thought, if Heath or anyone else from Brokeback Mountain have been visiting the site, and following our discussions. I am glad Heath visited here at least once. His message is so well considered...cool...proud...be well and happy...peace.
This is like finding the two shirts for me. I wish I joined early enough to have received a personal message from Heath. :-\\ It is just like him, when making Candy, he asked to finish shooting a difficult scene late into the night, making everyone stayed later than usual. Afterwards, he went around quietly to thank each person, personally.
Thank you, Keren, for this. :ghug: %)
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
After the movie Candy was released, Heath's friend Theresa (who ran Heath Ledger Central and was also a member here) opened a website called "addicted to the movie Candy", and did a lot to promote the movie and it's distribution because it was a low-budget movie with limited release. Anyway, some members here were active on her site, and apparently, one day when Heath was visiting Theresa, she told him about people's involvement and he took the time to write personal thanks to some of the people here. Theresa had also introduced him to ennisjack.
I saw the post that he sent to one of my friends. I can't share his full message here since it wasn't sent to me personally, it's up to the members whom he addressed if they wanna share it. But this part, I believe, is for all of us:
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
I can't even begin to explain to you how that makes me feel. I can't tell you how much I admire him for giving that message. Taking the time to talk to his fans. I did know of it, although I wasn't involved in it at all. But that just screams out to me how Heath felt about his fans, about us. To contact them like that. To say that about us. It just makes me cry so much to think what a wonderful man has gone from us. :\'(
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
introduced him to ennisjack.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
Thank you Keren to share it with us ^f^
So Heath knowed our forum and he replied O0
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Well, I don't know how much he'd seen of it... I remember when I first saw this post (once I regained my self control) I thought "Oh God, I hope he didn't visit the "oh baby" thread and saw the way I was drooling at his pics" ;D. But whether he actually took time to read some posts here, or just listened to what Theresa had told him about this place, he was obviously touched by the love and the respect we show here for the story and for the people who gave it to us. It brings me a little comfort, to think that he caught a little glimpse of the love and the appreciation we have for him.
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Well, I don't know how much he'd seen of it... I remember when I first saw this post (once I regained my self control) I thought "Oh God, I hope he didn't visit the "oh baby" thread and saw the way I was drooling at his pics" ;D. But whether he actually took time to read some posts here, or just listened to what Theresa had told him about this place, he was obviously touched by the love and the respect we show here for the story and for the people who gave it to us. It brings me a little comfort, to think that he caught a little glimpse of the love and the appreciation we have for him.
I am happy you have regained your self control dear keren O0. Yes, certainly he has noticed that we are here full of respect in this forum and how much we appreciate him ^f^
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thank you keren for bringing this gift to us <^(
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Keren's post, about personal messages from Heath, made me as happy as the others but also a little sad. A week ago, I felt more than
a little threatened by my own continuing instability over this tragedy, so I felt it was OK to hit back with whatever it took to get back to normal
(whatever that is). So, I made up a list of 10 things I didn't like about Heath Ledger. Please don't criticize me for this---I had always seen
him as a human being who would also have faults. But I needed to balance off the grief, and so, that was what I did. On the list was---didn't
appreciate his fans. Too aloof. I knew it wasn't true, but I just wanted more solid ground, with everything seeming to turn to quicksand.
Keren's post was a joy, but, cross off one on the list. Can't use that crutch.
Have pretty much gotten past the worst of the sadness, but there still remains a certain unreality to everything since 1/22. Couldn't have
happened. Not possible. And then sometimes, I just shake my head, and go: "Heath."
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
..........
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
:t)
Keren , I'm so grateful for the quote of Heaths' respond about our forum... :^^) <^(
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Tony :ghug:
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speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg262.imageshack.us%2Fimg262%2F3922%2Fn1425480115259589496zg6.jpg&hash=bea90895bced24460661ff79a3cf301ed16f29e3) (http://imageshack.us)
love this i saw it a few days ago and loved what it said:-)
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I keep having this thought, and it won't let go.
After I've seen Brokeback, a part of why I was so devastated was because I identified so much with Ennis and I felt this fear, to end up my life like him. I have a lot of things I regret in my life. I feel like I've missed out on a lot, and it was like Ennis was sending me a message, "don't live your life like this", only I was still too scared to do something about it. Maybe I just don't know how to change things, and I feel chained to the life I have.
And now, when I think of Heath... especially since I've read Barb's post, about how Heath has lived his life, and realised that he taught me the same lesson Ennis did, only from the opposite direction: This is how you should live your life. You have to enjoy it, otherwise there's no point. You have to love, passionately, and you have to do the things that make you happy - don't compromise, even if it involves hard choices. I feel like he's forcing me to take a look at my life - again - and I think, "you idiot, he's trying to make you see something. He's trying to deliver you this message in every way possible and you're just too coward to do anything about it".
What a beautiful, heartfelt post, Keren :ghug:
In one of my discussions someone said to me that part of grief is to transform our sorrow to strength. And I think that is so, so true. Heath was one of many who gave us this precious, priceless gift and I know a small part of my sadness is because we never met him or had access to him we never got the chance to really thank him for that. But even though the fact that I/we never got to thank him in person was denied us, we have the awareness of what was handed to us. We can draw strength from that. Maybe the message is to live and be happy and appreciate each other like we never have before- life really is too short and you never know what it will throw at you or when. I'm sure he was smiling down on his family- not wanting them to be mired in such sadness and I don't believe he'd want the same for us. His life wasn't sad- it was good and happy and that is what we will all come to focus on one day when we start to put the sadness of his death behind us.
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I'm so happy to know that Heath knew about this place. Thanks keren_b for sharing the message from him.
And :ghug: to everyone who need them
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Tony, I liked your post about Heath being a brokie. And yes he is very much a part of our small tribe. :ghug:
guyinjax, I just saw your post. :ghug: to you as well. I liked what you said here:
"In the end, I think regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide."
It allows us to put a positive spin on it because, after all, as long as we're still here, we always have a chance to learn from our regrets and make things better.
GuyinJax awesome post and I just wanted to ditto what FC said too. :ghug:
Regard to guyinjax, your post was amazing and so true. Ennis was something else and everytime I see the movie or read the Short story, I always am sad that he never got what he really wanted, to be with the man he loved. And that always hurts me the most. Sometimes I watch it and pray that the ending is different, that somehow Jack is just away, like how James Whitcomb Riley said in his poem that I found through this forum:
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
Great post LD! :ghug:
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Guyinjax, I understand what you feel, and I have also watched Brokeback Mountain again, feeling the same pain in the last few scenes. The pain was not just for Ennis, and myself, but now, also for Heath. For I see not only Ennis on the screeen, as I used to do before that tragic day. I now see also Heath on the screen with Ennis, and the tears are for him, too...for his not being around to play another role, to show his skills as director, to sing another lullaby to Matilda, to ... :\'( BUT I also feel the same peace, when Heath/Ennis touch the two shirts, and brush his thumb along the postcard of Brokeback Mountain, and say to Jack, I swear. Because, now it is not only Ennis saying it to Jack, but also I, saying it to Heath. The road may be long and lonely ahead, but there is bittersweet remembrance, and hope for the future, and MOST OF ALL, there is friendship, and family, not only in this forum, but also in real life. Each and every regret is a gentle nudge, a distant pain, that reminds me to seize the day, and not let another opportunity goes to waste, to say and express how I feel, to not be afraid.
I never cared much for formality, so the Academy Awards were interesting to watch, but not that life-shatteringly important. The fact that they did not give Heath the Best Actor Award that year, said more about them, than him. His work speaks for itself. Their action will always be questioned by future generations. How they attempt to correct this, will be interesting to watch as well. For me, it is but a minor footnote in Heath's life. His awards are more than just the tangible ones.
To everyone who contributed to this amazing thread...In Loving Memory, you are ALL amazing.
:ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap:
And most of all,
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Beautifully said, Andrew. :ghug: I agree so much about the Oscars being a footnote. It made me tear up when you said you were saying it to Heath as well.
And I just wanted to echo the last line of your post, this thread has brought more tears than I could possibly say but it has also brought a lot of comfort as well. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone.
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Keren's post, about personal messages from Heath, made me as happy as the others but also a little sad. A week ago, I felt more than
a little threatened by my own continuing instability over this tragedy, so I felt it was OK to hit back with whatever it took to get back to normal
(whatever that is). So, I made up a list of 10 things I didn't like about Heath Ledger. Please don't criticize me for this---I had always seen
him as a human being who would also have faults. But I needed to balance off the grief, and so, that was what I did. On the list was---didn't
appreciate his fans. Too aloof. I knew it wasn't true, but I just wanted more solid ground, with everything seeming to turn to quicksand.
Keren's post was a joy, but, cross off one on the list. Can't use that crutch.
Have pretty much gotten past the worst of the sadness, but there still remains a certain unreality to everything since 1/22. Couldn't have
happened. Not possible. And then sometimes, I just shake my head, and go: "Heath."
:ghug: Tony :\'( :ghug:
You are not alone. I have went through my anger stage as well. But I am not as organized as you. Never made a list. 10 things I hate about you. Even in your anger your paid tribute to Heath. :ghug:
I hope you are on more solid ground nowadays. We are all human, and it is why it's okay to lean on one another, and not rely on crutches. Thanks for being there for me, when I needed your shoulder to lean on. I am glad Heath knew about us, and appreciated us. He knows he is loved, always.
:ghug: :^^) :c)
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I saw the post that he sent to one of my friends. I can't share his full message here since it wasn't sent to me personally, it's up to the members whom he addressed if they wanna share it. But this part, I believe, is for all of us:
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
I remember that! Thanks for sharing that here. :^^)
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Keren's post, about personal messages from Heath, made me as happy as the others but also a little sad. A week ago, I felt more than
a little threatened by my own continuing instability over this tragedy, so I felt it was OK to hit back with whatever it took to get back to normal
(whatever that is). So, I made up a list of 10 things I didn't like about Heath Ledger. Please don't criticize me for this---I had always seen
him as a human being who would also have faults. But I needed to balance off the grief, and so, that was what I did. On the list was---didn't
appreciate his fans. Too aloof. I knew it wasn't true, but I just wanted more solid ground, with everything seeming to turn to quicksand.
Keren's post was a joy, but, cross off one on the list. Can't use that crutch.
Have pretty much gotten past the worst of the sadness, but there still remains a certain unreality to everything since 1/22. Couldn't have
happened. Not possible. And then sometimes, I just shake my head, and go: "Heath."
Tony there is nothing wrong with that. Anger is part of the process. The other night I got mad at the banner- I felt bad afterwards and then did my little "penance" to the banner, but it is normal and natural. Of course he had faults, who amongst us doesn't? No one is perfect nor can one person be everything to everybody. We all do the best we can everyday. And I understand completely the part I bolded. :ghug: :ghug: to you.
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What I always wondered and we might never know but it could've happen...did he ever visit our site? :s)
[...] like how James Whitcomb Riley said in his poem that I found through this forum:
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land
[...]
Thank you LD, for asking the question that led Keren_b to share that most wonderful of gifts with us, Heath's message to the forum.
And thank you, too, to recall the poem. I looked up the entire poem, and it is very fitting indeed.
I cannot say, and I will not say
That he is dead. He is just away.
With a cheery smile, and a wave of the hand,
He has wandered into an unknown land.
And left us dreaming how very fair
It needs must be since he lingers there.
And you-O you, who the wildest yearn
For the old-time step and the glad return-
Think of him faring on, as dear
In the love of there as the love of here;
Think of him still as the same, I say;
He is not dead-he is just away!
Now I understand, why Michelle told Matilda that her daddy has gone away. Perhaps truly, Heath is needed elsewhere, in the unknown land. We yearn for his return, but he has already given his gifts to us. He has gone away, to give to others his talents and his gifts.
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I know most of you have no idea who I am, but I've been on this site for some time. Rarely do I post, except a few poems, but I wanted to say something and this seemed the thread to do it on. I came here because this little place, and it has the small warm feel to it no matter the size, which i don't even truly know, because it felt safe. Please forgive my rambling, posting is not an easy thing for me. You were touched by Jack and Ennis and the love could be felt. I felt something special here, something true. I wanted you guys to know that. I'm not easily touched, nor give freely my trust, but I surely love what I love. I've said for a long time, Heath Ledger was, is and will be a legend, a good man, part of my heart and always in my world.
jessi
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Jessi, I have been touched by your poems since you first started posting, and you are as much a part of this family as anyone. Those are beautiful thoughts. Thank you for sharing them. :ghug:
lc, this was gorgeous too:
"Now I understand, why Michelle told Matilda that her daddy has gone away. Perhaps truly, Heath is needed elsewhere, in the unknown land. We yearn for his return, but he has already given his gifts to us. He has gone away, to give to others his talents and his gifts."
:\'( <^(
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I know most of you have no idea who I am, but I've been on this site for some time. Rarely do I post, except a few poems, but I wanted to say something and this seemed the thread to do it on. I came here because this little place, and it has the small warm feel to it no matter the size, which i don't even truly know, because it felt safe. Please forgive my rambling, posting is not an easy thing for me. You were touched by Jack and Ennis and the love could be felt. I felt something special here, something true. I wanted you guys to know that. I'm not easily touched, nor give freely my trust, but I surely love what I love. I've said for a long time, Heath Ledger was, is and will be a legend, a good man, part of my heart and always in my world.
jessi
I know you...
Thank you dear jessi for your warm words!! :ghug: :^^) you're right of course about Heath!! he will become someone to remember, and he will be a part of me, you, us... <^(
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Lance, You know we disagree, at times, but stay friends. Here, am not disagreeing, so much as reminding everyone of other ways of thinking
that could be true. You say, perhaps Heath is off somewhere, in some unknown land, where his gifts are needed. Maybe. I notice that others
would have him floating in the clouds, or out in the stars of the night. Gone. Away. But am sure you know, Lance, of the latest science, so
difficult to accept--string theory-which says there are 4-5 or more dimensions to our reality or existence (actually, to matter). Let's not get into
that, but, if even the scientists say there's more than what we see, then the poem in this thread about death being nothing at all (H.S.Holland)
is also a valid way of seeing where the lost loved one is----
"Why should I be out of mind, because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval, somewhere very near,
just around the corner."
I don't think, looking at how we are made, that we float away into some vague cloud. To be blunt, I think we are dead as a door nail (harsh as
that may seem) or.....we're still there, still real, somewhat more aware of what life can really mean, and ever near to those we loved and those
who have loved us.
I love that poem, and saw it for the first time in this thread. And it exactly fits my belief that we are not so made, that we transform into
some vagueness, nor even some other journey. We were given a home. I don't think it's temporary. Nor are we roamers drifting through
some mindless, cloudy, metaphysical ocean. We were made real, with distinctive ways. And so I think it's possible, what that poet said:
"Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room
......whatever we were to each other, that we still are."
No quarrel with anyone else's beliefs or wonderings....I'd just remind those who might want to be reminded---don't say good-bye. The loved
one leaves off the daily ways of life, but stays....nearby. Because their loves were their homes. At any rate, that poem is, for me, everything.
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I know most of you have no idea who I am, but I've been on this site for some time. Rarely do I post, except a few poems, but I wanted to say something and this seemed the thread to do it on. I came here because this little place, and it has the small warm feel to it no matter the size, which i don't even truly know, because it felt safe. Please forgive my rambling, posting is not an easy thing for me. You were touched by Jack and Ennis and the love could be felt. I felt something special here, something true. I wanted you guys to know that. I'm not easily touched, nor give freely my trust, but I surely love what I love. I've said for a long time, Heath Ledger was, is and will be a legend, a good man, part of my heart and always in my world.
jessi
jessi, your poems almost touch my heart, and I am always moved. No need to apologize for expressing how you feel, and you make perfect sense. Even in your prose, your poetry shines through. Thank you, always, for being a part of us, for allowing me the privilege of seeing the world, seeing Brokeback Mountain through your eyes.
:ghug: %) Always.
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Lance, You know we disagree, at times, but stay friends. Here, am not disagreeing, so much as reminding everyone of other ways of thinking
that could be true. You say, perhaps Heath is off somewhere, in some unknown land, where his gifts are needed. Maybe. I notice that others
would have him floating in the clouds, or out in the stars of the night. Gone. Away. But am sure you know, Lance, of the latest science, so
difficult to accept--string theory-which says there are 4-5 or more dimensions to our reality or existence (actually, to matter). Let's not get into
that, but, if even the scientists say there's more than what we see, then the poem in this thread about death being nothing at all (H.S.Holland)
is also a valid way of seeing where the lost loved one is----
"Why should I be out of mind, because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval, somewhere very near,
just around the corner."
I don't think, looking at how we are made, that we float away into some vague cloud. To be blunt, I think we are dead as a door nail (harsh as
that may seem) or.....we're still there, still real, somewhat more aware of what life can really mean, and ever near to those we loved and those who have loved us.
I love that poem, and saw it for the first time in this thread. And it exactly fits my belief that we are not so made, that we transform into
some vagueness, nor even some other journey. We were given a home. I don't think it's temporary. Nor are we roamers drifting through
some mindless, cloudy, metaphysical ocean. We were made real, with distinctive ways. And so I think it's possible, what that poet said:
"Death is nothing at all,
I have only slipped away into the next room
......whatever we were to each other, that we still are."
No quarrel with anyone else's beliefs or wonderings....I'd just remind those who might want to be reminded---don't say good-bye. The loved one leaves off the daily ways of life, but stays....nearby. Because their loves were their homes. At any rate, that poem is, for me, everything.
Tony, I am glad we are always friends, even when we disagree. I believe it is Scott Peck who said, in his book "Waiting for a World to be Born" that a community is where people have learned to disagree gracefully. And I always learn from you when we disagree, so I welcome the opportunity whenever it comes.
Your reminder of the physics of extra-demensions made me even more firm in my conviction that Heath is somewhere, in the unknownland, or as you said, "somewhere very near, just around the corner." It is what the little bird is for LD, and the electronic glitches for carby. We know so little about the universe, that I would not be surprised, if the extra-dimensions are merely infinitesimally small variances away, just around the corner.
And I can agree 100% what I bolded above, that in death, what was real is still there, made a home in the love that we shared, as LALITO_19 once posted, in death we are surrounded by the love and loving memories of our life, when we were alive. But your words are more poignant and inspiring...Because their loves were their homes. And coincidentally, while looking up James Riley's poem, I came across something from Norman Cousin, On Travelling:
The soul is no traveller: the wise man stays at home with the soul, and when his necessities, his duties, on any occasion call him from his house or into foreign lands, he is at home still and is not gadding abroad from himself, and shall make men sensible by the expression of his countenance that he goes, the missionary of wisdom and virtue, and visits cities and men like a sovereign and not like an interloper or a valet.
So I see death as the soul travelling to an unknownland, the extra-dimension, just around the corner, just over the horizon, but the soul is still at home, carrying with it, the wisdom and virtue, the love and loving memories, that made men like Heath, a sovereign, a prince.
I do NOT see us disagreeing, Tony, just describing from two different perspectives, the same phenomenon that is larger than life, larger than us both. And I am always grateful to learn from you.
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Lance---great reply. You are talented at healing and bringing people together. I just....love that poem. It's like Heath talking to us. Or
anyone else we have lost. Besides, different angles of vision....capture more of what is really there. So, no disagreement, just a larger focus
on what could be.
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Lance---great reply. You are talented at healing and bringing people together. I just....love that poem. It's like Heath talking to us. Or anyone else we have lost. Besides, different angles of vision....capture more of what is really there. So, no disagreement, just a larger focus
on what could be.
Thanks, Tony, but it takes a village. And as you said, and I bolded above, I am merely restating what many have already said. You are the catalyst. I am merely the water to bring the pieces together.
But, thanks for the complement, all the same. :) :^^)
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I don't remember if I have put this poem already here but ...I don't remember.. :)
Je respire profondément l'odeur de ta peau, mes yeux caressent ta bouche et déjà, au loin, j'entends le galop des chevaux... Chaque instant qui passe m'appartient un peu plus, chaque instant passé et tu m'appartiens plus. Tu dors encore et je vole ces instants de pleine extase où ton visage pâle et beau n'est plus qu'à moi. J'attends,
j'attends que tu ouvres enfin tes yeux azur comme une pluie d'étoiles dans la peine ombre du jour naissant; à ce moment là ton sourire me parlera et me dira à nouveau combien tu m'aimes encore, et je respirerai profondément.....
I smelt deeply the smell of your skin, I look at your mouth lovingly and now, far away, I can hear the galloping horses...Each passing time is mine a little more, each passed time you are mine more again. You still sleeping and I stole moments of full ecstasy while your pale and handsome face don’t belong to me any more. I’m waiting, I’m waiting, you open your blue eyes at last, like a rainy stars in the shadow of the new day; and then your smile will talk to me and whispering how much you still loving me, and I ‘ll smelt deeply...
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Au loin, la ligne d'horizon apparaît doucement sous les brumes du matin.
Alors que j'aperçois par la petite lucarne de la chambre, le vent agiter les silhouettes d'arbres chétifs,
j'entends ton souffle se mêler à celui du vent...
Ce vent qui t'a mené jusqu'à moi
et qui un jour peut-être t'éloignera à nouveau.
Aujourd'hui je vis pour toi mais je ne vis que par toi
Far, the line of the horizon appears softly under the morning mist.
Then I notice the small skylight of the bedroom, le wind ruffles the silhouettes of the stunted trees.
I hear your breath mix with the wind, this wind that has brought you to me
and which will take you away one day
today I live for you, and I only live for you.
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I don't remember if I have put this poem already here but ...I don't remember.. :)
Je respire profondément l'odeur de ta peau, mes yeux caressent ta bouche et déjà, au loin, j'entends le galop des chevaux... Chaque instant qui passe m'appartient un peu plus, chaque instant passé et tu m'appartiens plus. Tu dors encore et je vole ces instants de pleine extase où ton visage pâle et beau n'est plus qu'à moi. J'attends,
j'attends que tu ouvres enfin tes yeux azur comme une pluie d'étoiles dans la peine ombre du jour naissant; à ce moment là ton sourire me parlera et me dira à nouveau combien tu m'aimes encore, et je respirerai profondément.....
I smelt deeply the smell of your skin, I look at your mouth lovingly and now, far away, I can hear the galloping horses...Each passing time is mine a little more, each passed time you are mine more again. You still sleeping and I stole moments of full ecstasy while your pale and handsome face don’t belong to me any more. I’m waiting, I’m waiting, you open your blue eyes at last, like a rainy stars in the shadow of the new day; and then your smile will talk to me and whispering how much you still loving me, and I ‘ll smelt deeply...
That's so beautiful :\'(
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Dear Mikele---wonderful poetry. The French language was built for grace and elegance. I remember reading a short story by Francois
Antoine de St. Exupery, where he was lost in the desert and so thirsty and suffering, and said; "Je ne croix plus des oranges."
I don't believe in oranges anymore.
Sometimes, these last few weeks, we've been in that desert, so thirsty for meaning to life and healing, and I remembered that phrase, and
only in your language does it convey the need, the thirst. But your poems, above, did bring some healing water---thanks.
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Thank you Emzan ;)
Thank you too Tony, the book of St Exupery was "Le petit Prince"
and in this book my prefered phrase is "l'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux...on ne voit bien qu'avec le coeur.." the fox tell that to the "petit prince"
"Essential is invisible for eyes, we only see with our heart"
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Mikele, I humbly apologize for being presumptuous, and making changes to your English translation. But I excuse myself for the fact that this poem is so beautiful, and touches me on so many different levels, I just have to respond, to try to contribute to what I think is the beautiful spirit in the French original:
Au loin, la ligne d'horizon apparaît doucement sous les brumes du matin.
Alors que j'aperçois par la petite lucarne de la chambre,
le vent agiter les silhouettes d'arbres chétifs,
J'entends ton souffle se mêler à celui du vent...
ce vent qui t'a mené jusqu'à moi
et qui un jour peut-être t'éloignera à nouveau.
Aujourd'hui je vis pour toi mais je ne vis que par toi
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Far away, the horizon appears softly through the morning mist.
Then I see through the bedroom's small window,
the wind ruffling the silhouettes of stunted trees.
I hear your breath mixing with the wind,
this wind that has brought you to me
and which will take you away one day
Today I live for you, and I live only for you.
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The horizon reminds me so much of the ship
sailing over the horizon in another poem,
and the small window reminds me of the last scene,
through the trailer's small window,
a faint yellow horizon can be seen
The wind that ruffles and whispers,
the wind that brings the spirit here
The wind that breathes life into all of us,
that brings Heath back here
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Merci, Mikele.
Au loin, la ligne d'horizon apparaît doucement sous les brumes du matin.
Alors que j'aperçois par la petite lucarne de la chambre, le vent agiter les silhouettes d'arbres chétifs,
j'entends ton souffle se mêler à celui du vent...
Ce vent qui t'a mené jusqu'à moi
et qui un jour peut-être t'éloignera à nouveau.
Aujourd'hui je vis pour toi mais je ne vis que par toi
Far, the line of the horizon appears softly under the morning mist.
Then I notice the small skylight of the bedroom, le wind ruffles the silhouettes of the stunted trees.
I hear your breath mix with the wind, this wind that has brought you to me
and which will take you away one day
today I live for you, and I only live for you.
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Mikele, I humbly apologize for being presumptuous, and making changes to your English translation. But I excuse myself for the fact that this poem is so beautiful, and touches me on so many different levels, I just have to respond, to try to contribute to what I think is the beautiful spirit in the French original:
Au loin, la ligne d'horizon apparaît doucement sous les brumes du matin.
Alors que j'aperçois par la petite lucarne de la chambre,
le vent agiter les silhouettes d'arbres chétifs,
J'entends ton souffle se mêler à celui du vent...
ce vent qui t'a mené jusqu'à moi
et qui un jour peut-être t'éloignera à nouveau.
Aujourd'hui je vis pour toi mais je ne vis que par toi
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Far away, the horizon appears softly through the morning mist.
Then I see through the bedroom's small window,
the wind ruffling the silhouettes of stunted trees.
I hear your breath mixing with the wind,
this wind that has brought you to me
and which will take you away one day
Today I live for you, and I live only for you.
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The horizon reminds me so much of the ship
sailing over the horizon in another poem,
and the small window reminds me of the last scene,
through the trailer's small window,
a faint yellow horizon can be seen
The wind that ruffles and whispers,
the wind that brings the spirit here
The wind that breathes life into all of us,
that brings Heath back here
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Merci, Mikele.
Thank you Lancecowboy, it's ok for your translation, because I know sometimes I can't explain in english the french spirit of my poem.. ;)
Your poem about Heath is wonderful too...tks
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Thank you Lancecowboy, it's ok for your translation, because I know sometimes I can't explain in english the french spirit of my poem.. ;)
Your poem about Heath is wonderful too...tks
I have always loved the wind, and your poem just speaks to me in so many ways. Now, I will always remember it, when the next time a soft breeze caress my face.
Merci, Mikele, you are a kind and generous gentleman.
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I'm really happy you enjoy my poems Lancecowboy, as soon as I'll do one other, I speak about wind into the next...
Now one other, you can modify the translation.
Doucement comme le matin glisse vers la nuit,
doucement tu reviens à moi sans un bruit.
Au loin la lumière de la lune se reflète dans les voiles des nuages et cette lueur dans tes yeux illumine toute mon âme. Ce temps qui passe semble pourtant me séparer de toi un peu.
Dans un silence inhabituel, serré contre toi, je sens mon coeur te crier son amour jusqu'à
l' épuisement parce que je doute et je m'égares.
Oh mon amour, brise de mes jours, éclaire mon chemin
Slowly the morning drift off to the night
slowly you come back to me without sound.
Far away, the moonlight is reflected into the cloud's sails and this light into your eyes is illuminating all my soul. This passing time seems though to split up with you more.
With an unusuel silence, huddled to me, I feel my heart to shout my love so far as to hexaustion because I doubt and I'm loosing.
Oh my love, breeze of my days, light the way to me
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Merci, mikele, for you to trust me with translating your wonderful poem.
Doucement comme le matin glisse vers la nuit,
doucement tu reviens à moi sans un bruit.
Au loin la lumière de la lune se reflète dans les voiles des nuages
et cette lueur dans tes yeux illumine toute mon âme.
Ce temps qui passe semble pourtant me séparer de toi un peu.
Dans un silence inhabituel, serré contre toi,
je sens mon coeur te crier son amour jusqu'à
l' épuisement parce que je doute et je m'égares.
Oh mon amour, brise de mes jours, éclaire mon chemin
| Slowly as the morning sliding into the night,
Gently you come back to me without a sound.
In the distance moonlight reflected on the sails of clouds
and the light in your eyes illuminates all my soul.
The passing time seems to separate me from you a little.
In an unusual silence, holding you tight,
I feel my heart your love to shout
in exhaustion because I doubt, because I am losing.
Oh my love, the breeze of my days, enlighten my path
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Your poem reminds me of my favorite song, Ron Keating or Garth Brooks, singing If Tomorrow Never Comes. The original was a man singing about his woman. I changed the gender. I noticed Google Translate didn't know how to work with "Gonna". Please feel free to suggest an alternative to this colloquial contraction form of "Going to"
"If tomorrow never Comes"
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch him sleeping
He's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would he ever doubt the way I feel
About him in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will he know how much I loved him
Did I try in every way to show him every day
That he's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And he must face the world without me
Is the love I gave him in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much he means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell him how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will he know how much I loved him
Did I try in every way to show him every day
That he's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And he must face the world without me
Is the love I gave him in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
| "Si Demain ne Vient Jamais"
Parfois tard dans la nuit
Je mentir réveillé et regardez-le sommeil
Il a perdu au règlement pacifique des rêves
Alors je me tourne les lumières et là réside dans le noir
Et la pensée traverse mon esprit
Si je ne l'ai jamais se réveiller le matin
Pourrait-il jamais douter de la façon dont je ressens
Parler de lui dans mon coeur
Si demain ne vient jamais
Pourra-t-il savoir à quel point je l'aimais
Ai-je essayer par tous les moyens de lui montrer tous les jours
Qu'il est mon seul
Et si mon temps sur la terre ont été par le biais
Et il doit faire face au monde sans moi
Est l'amour que je lui a donné dans le passé
Va être suffisant pour durer
Si demain ne vient jamais
Car j'ai perdu des êtres chers dans ma vie
Qui n'a jamais su combien je les aima
Maintenant je vis avec le regret
Que mes véritables sentiments pour eux n'a jamais été révélé
Alors j'ai fait une promesse à moi-même
À-dire chaque jour combien il signifie pour moi
Et éviter cette circonstance
Là où il n'ya pas de seconde chance pour lui dire ce que je ressens
Si demain ne vient jamais
Pourra-t-il savoir à quel point je l'aimais
Ai-je essayer par tous les moyens de lui montrer tous les jours
Qu'il est mon seul
Et si mon temps sur la terre ont été par le biais
Et il doit faire face au monde sans moi
Est l'amour que je lui a donné dans le passé
Va être suffisant pour durer
Si demain ne vient jamais
Alors, que dire à quelqu'un que vous aimez
Juste ce que vous pensez à
Si demain ne vient jamais
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It was what I felt, not being able to say to Heath, to let him know what this forum feels.
Then the amazing gift from keren_b, to know he wrote a personal message to the forum, knowing what we feel about his work, about him. Like I said, it is the gift of the two shirts, to know that he knew that he was loved, and that he appreciated us. :\'(
:ghug:
I'm really happy you enjoy my poems Lancecowboy, as soon as I'll do one other, I speak about wind into the next...
Now one other, you can modify the translation.
Doucement comme le matin glisse vers la nuit,
doucement tu reviens à moi sans un bruit.
Au loin la lumière de la lune se reflète dans les voiles des nuages et cette lueur dans tes yeux illumine toute mon âme. Ce temps qui passe semble pourtant me séparer de toi un peu.
Dans un silence inhabituel, serré contre toi, je sens mon coeur te crier son amour jusqu'à
l' épuisement parce que je doute et je m'égares.
Oh mon amour, brise de mes jours, éclaire mon chemin
Slowly the morning drift off to the night
slowly you come back to me without sound.
Far away, the moonlight is reflected into the cloud's sails and this light into your eyes is illuminating all my soul. This passing time seems though to split up with you more.
With an unusuel silence, huddled to me, I feel my heart to shout my love so far as to hexaustion because I doubt and I'm loosing.
Oh my love, breeze of my days, light the way to me
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Beautiful poems Mikele :\'( :ghug:
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I absolutly adore these poems Mikele!!
You have a true talent
The way your describe the wind, nature, and the love in which two people share is amazing
I would love to see much more of your poems!!
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So, friends, here's what I swear to:
Always keep the spirit of Brokeback Mountain in my heart, which means, I think, that I will always respect the privacy and individuality of others, acknowledge that, in one way or another, we've all journeyed up our own mountains, and we are all cowboys.
I also swear to honor the artistic legacy Heath Ledger left us by his attention to detail and by the way he honored his craft.
I further swear to honor my new friends here at ennisjack.com through encouragement and support.
Finally, odd as it seems, I need to finish the story I began writing the day after I first saw Brokeback Mountain. I need to finish it. I've been too paralyzed by its lack of quality, but I realize now that it's already perfect - even before it's finished. I must finish this story because, in too many ways, it's my story too.
Thank you Heath Ledger, for giving yourself to us. Know, where ever you may be, that Brokeback Mountain is a real place. It has to be real ... we've all been there.
:c)
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Great post GuyinJax. :ghug: And I say finish your story- It's from your heart and that's all that matters and that in itself makes it high quality. ^f^
Thank you Heath Ledger, for giving yourself to us. Know, where ever you may be, that Brokeback Mountain is a real place. It has to be real ... we've all been there. And we still are. I loved that :^^)
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I loved that too, guyinjax. Thank you. :ghug:
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GuyinJax, I love your manifesto. Indeed Brokeback is real. Indeed we have all been there. In fact, we are still here. This forum is my Brokeback Mountain. You all are my Ennis and Jack.
To me, what you wrote: Respect the privacy and individuality of others, is the same as Jack saying "nobody's business but ours". This never occurred to me before. Thank you for reminding me what is the core of being a cowboy.
In addition to Heath's artistic legacy, may I suggest also his legacy as a human being, to always express how you feel, even if it means standing tall against the world, standing up against bullies of fists and words, and standing up proud to be who you are.
And I love the part: honor my friends ... through encouragement and support ... isn't that what makes Heath so memorable to everyone who met him? Isn't that why Ang Lee said that it was pure joy to work with him?
Viva Manifesto Brokeback! Bravo, GuyinJax. :ghug: :clap: :c) ^f^
So, friends, here's what I swear to:
Always keep the spirit of Brokeback Mountain in my heart, which means, I think, that I will always respect the privacy and individuality of others, acknowledge that, in one way or another, we've all journeyed up our own mountains, and we are all cowboys.
I also swear to honor the artistic legacy Heath Ledger left us by his attention to detail and by the way he honored his craft.
I further swear to honor my new friends here at ennisjack.com through encouragement and support.
Finally, odd as it seems, I need to finish the story I began writing the day after I first saw Brokeback Mountain. I need to finish it. I've been too paralyzed by its lack of quality, but I realize now that it's already perfect - even before it's finished. I must finish this story because, in too many ways, it's my story too.
Thank you Heath Ledger, for giving yourself to us. Know, where ever you may be, that Brokeback Mountain is a real place. It has to be real ... we've all been there.
:c)
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GuyinJax, I love your manifesto. Indeed Brokeback is real. Indeed we have all been there. In fact, we are still here. This forum is my Brokeback Mountain. You all are my Ennis and Jack.
To me, what you wrote: Respect the privacy and individuality of others, is the same as Jack saying "nobody's business but ours". This never occurred to me before. Thank you for reminding me what is the core of being a cowboy.
In addition to Heath's artistic legacy, may I suggest also his legacy as a human being, to always express how you feel, even if it means standing tall against the world, standing up against bullies of fists and words, and standing up proud to be who you are.
And I love the part: honor my friends ... through encouragement and support ... isn't that what makes Heath so memorable to everyone who met him? Isn't that why Ang Lee said that it was pure joy to work with him?
Viva Manifesto Brokeback! Bravo, GuyinJax. :ghug: :clap: :c) ^f^
Brilliant manifesto from you both. I just finished watching "Four Feathers" for the second time. Not a great movie, but the acting is brilliant and Heath is superb. In spite of the failure of the movie, what he was trying to say comes through loud and clear.
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Brilliant manifesto from you both. I just finished watching "Four Feathers" for the second time. Not a great movie, but the acting is brilliant and Heath is superb. In spite of the failure of the movie, what he was trying to say comes through loud and clear.
Hi, BBBoy, glad to see you posting about Heath's movies. I have been thinking that perhaps we need a new topic, under In Memory of Heath Ledger, to discuss the individual movies, from the earliest to the latest. This will gather together all the different threads, from DK to DP, etc. I have only watched A Knight's Tale and Patriot, many years ago. Watching them again will be like watching it for the first time. I plan on watching each and every one of Heath's movies, and knowing me, I'd have a lot to say about each one. :) What do you think? Should it be under a separate category, perhaps, Heath's Movies, and a separate topic for each movie?
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Hi, BBBoy, glad to see you posting about Heath's movies. I have been thinking that perhaps we need a new topic, under In Memory of Heath Ledger, to discuss the individual movies, from the earliest to the latest. This will gather together all the different threads, from DK to DP, etc. I have only watched A Knight's Tale and Patriot, many years ago. Watching them again will be like watching it for the first time. I plan on watching each and every one of Heath's movies, and knowing me, I'd have a lot to say about each one. :) What do you think? Should it be under a separate category, perhaps, Heath's Movies, and a separate topic for each movie?
Lance, I could see a thread on the works of Heath Ledger, but to break it down into individual movies would be belaboring it a bit I think. After all, his work is the sum of all he did, and we have yet to see it all.
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Hi, BBBoy, glad to see you posting about Heath's movies. I have been thinking that perhaps we need a new topic, under In Memory of Heath Ledger, to discuss the individual movies, from the earliest to the latest. This will gather together all the different threads, from DK to DP, etc. I have only watched A Knight's Tale and Patriot, many years ago. Watching them again will be like watching it for the first time. I plan on watching each and every one of Heath's movies, and knowing me, I'd have a lot to say about each one. :) What do you think? Should it be under a separate category, perhaps, Heath's Movies, and a separate topic for each movie?
We have individual threads for the movies on the Heath Board. :) I've seen both of the movies you mentioned-The Patriot is where I first saw him- Ned kelly (which I didn't like) and I highly recommend Candy- not that I didn't have an appreciation for him before- esp from BBM but that movie took it to a whole new level for me.
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My favorite song for you dear brokies in memory if him ^f^
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=sbH2ObmBk1E
Thank you, tita. I love this song, too, though I like the old version, 10cc I think it was. I would like to see a BBM video to this. Can't live, if living is without you...but live we must, and will.
kathy
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Well, I don't know how much he'd seen of it... I remember when I first saw this post (once I regained my self control) I thought "Oh God, I hope he didn't visit the "oh baby" thread and saw the way I was drooling at his pics" ;D. But whether he actually took time to read some posts here, or just listened to what Theresa had told him about this place, he was obviously touched by the love and the respect we show here for the story and for the people who gave it to us. It brings me a little comfort, to think that he caught a little glimpse of the love and the appreciation we have for him.
Me, too, Keren -- I'm glad he at least knew we were there loving his work and supporting everything he did, and especially how his portrayal of Ennis was so extremely meaningful to so many.
kathy
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Last week was a totally shit. I was so sad, so, so sad that I was not able to visit the forum. I’ve only stayed here twice, maybe three times and I sure avoid coming here, to this thread. It was too much for me. I was so tired of crying for Heath, I was tired of feeling weak and lost. I wanted to have a life again. I couldn’t stand to read Michelle or Keren posts; that always brought tears to my eyes and finally I spent the whole days reading so touching things through a sea of tears. I had to stop that. But the truth is that it didn’t work, and I spent all week thinking about Heath and other person and feeling even more miserable ‘cause now I was alone in my labyrinth of pain, without Brokies to help me to go on.
Saturday was the worst day. I was a real wreck ‘cause I had a very serious flu (doctor says it is near to pneumonia) and I was alone in my room. Then I had one of my crazy ideas and I decided to read one brokie thing about Heath and then there I was again, crying like a baby, with my head buried in the pillow, biting it, wanting so bad to punch something. I had the right hand over my chest ‘cause my heart hurt so much, so so much. It was so much the pain in my chest that for a moment I led my hand to my face to see if there was blood in it….
I spent the whole evening in my bed with a terrible headache because of all the crying. Sunday I was a total numb, a ghost.
Today I woke up thinking about Heath and all of you and I’ve spent the morning looking for enough strength to read this thread. I’ve done it. I’ve cried a lot at work. I think my co-workers think I’m really crazy, I don’t know. You all friends have a very huge sensitive beautiful heart and I see myself in all your posts. I want you all to be happy and I want so bad to give you some comfort but it just happens that I can’t even to wipe my tears so I don’t know what to do to make you feel better. Sorry. You all mean a world to me. Kathy, Andrew, Tony, Koka, Rosie, Christie, Barb, Keren, Mikele, Emzan, Lis, Hpv, Simone, Guyinjax, Carb and so other many brokies (excuse me for not remember all names…),THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR UTTERLY BEAUTIFUL POSTS. You all touch my heart and I treasure all your words in my soul.
And you, my soulmate, Michelle, you have all my thoughts, all times, day and night, ‘cause you feel the exactly way I do, ‘cause you always put in words what my heart is feeling, and even being so shattered you always have a nice word for me. As I said to you once, every simple time I cry at my desk I find out that you’re crying at your desk too, and that, being cruel and all, makes me feel that I’m not alone and my feelings are not crazy or exaggerate. I wish that I was there to hug you, to paint a rainbow and make you smile. But I’m not so afraid, ‘cause you have all these marvellous brokies by your side, and the sweet fairy Barb.
Miss Heath with all my being. Think about him the whole time; think about you all a lot.
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Tammy :ghug: :ghug:
I know how you feel. I really do. I hope being here is a comfort to you now, and that the hurting stops. :^^)
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Sweet Tammy, I was hoping you'd been feeling better. :ghug:
But you know no one can control when or how that will happen. And during that process, we're all in it together, even when we aren't posting. So never worry about being in the thread too much or not enough. It's here for you when you're up to it, and we're thinking of you even when you're not. Hugs from my heart to yours. I hope you find that peace in your heart to heal. :^^)
Christie, I love your avatar and sig lines. <^(
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Why do I try
To reach my past again
To bring my memories
To reach again your love for me
To call love for my heart
But it's frozen
It can't feel anything
Because you left me
And now is close
Close for everyone
Give me the light
To break up this cold
Is so cold inside
So cold inside of me
I choose my way
My way to keep alive
Far away from you
From all your memories
To stay alone
Alone in this cold
Cold of my Heart.
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Beautiful JAKELANDIA. :\'( <^(
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I made a tribute video for Heath :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3GLlTctSnM
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Tammy, my heart is with you. Allow yourself to cry, it's okay. It's better than to keep it all inside. and you know we are always here for you.
You are an amazing girl, brave and smart. don't underestimate yourself. And your words have so much power... I use this opportunity to tell you that the reason why I didn't answer your last pm to me about Heath was because I couldn't, I was so overwhelmed by what you wrote that I couldn't find the words to write back. Hang in there. :ghug:
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tns my darling
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I made a tribute video for Heath :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3GLlTctSnM
That was beautiful and the song was perfect. :\'( :\'( Thank you.
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Thank you so much Barb, Christie, Keren!! You all are beyond marvellous. Love you so much!! :ghug:
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Since this was the song that totally messed me up yesterday ("Who Knew" by Pink) I took some of the words last night and used them.
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Michelle, this is so heartbreaking and precious. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I keep having this thought, and it won't let go.
After I've seen Brokeback, a part of why I was so devastated was because I identified so much with Ennis and I felt this fear, to end up my life like him. I have a lot of things I regret in my life. I feel like I've missed out on a lot, and it was like Ennis was sending me a message, "don't live your life like this", only I was still too scared to do something about it. Maybe I just don't know how to change things, and I feel chained to the life I have.
And now, when I think of Heath... especially since I've read Barb's post, about how Heath has lived his life, and realised that he taught me the same lesson Ennis did, only from the opposite direction: This is how you should live your life. You have to enjoy it, otherwise there's no point. You have to love, passionately, and you have to do the things that make you happy - don't compromise, even if it involves hard choices. I feel like he's forcing me to take a look at my life - again - and I think, "you idiot, he's trying to make you see something. He's trying to deliver you this message in every way possible and you're just too coward to do anything about it".
Oh Keren, you just broke my heart with this post. :\'( :\'( You're not idiot or coward!! YOU'RE AN AMAZING AND SWEET BROKIE WITH A HUGE SO GENEROUS HEART. And I know well that you have changed to good these two years, and I know that you're doing something real beautiful with your life: You're sharing love, you're loving and that is the most precious treasure that a human being can have. If you love, what else can you learn about life? Love is the root of all wisdom and happiness. And you have plenty of that. So I think you got right Ennis and Heath message. ^f^
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keren-b
I don't know who, or where, you are. What you've posted recently struck a chord (no musical pun intended) in me ... and I am compelled to respond.
Regret. Gosh, I feel like my life is defined by it. Choices I should have made but didn't; Choices I never made but wish I had.
You'll notice that my "tag" is Ennis del Mar is my hero. Ennis, as written by A. Proulx, and as breathed by H. Ledger, is a simple man. There's been a lot of posting here regarding how complicated he is. Yes, in some ways ... but aren't we all complicated to some degree?
I am complicated.
Ennis was simple. He saw things in black and white. He had high moral values. He was a guardian to his own needs and desires. He is my hero simply because he survived. One of the most powerful scenes in the movie, for me at least, is Ennis del Mar standing at the fairgrounds with fireworks going off over his shoulder. Wow! Well, don't I fall in love with him every time I see THAT?! Who wouldn't??
My great sadness is that he never actually got what he deserved. Happiness. He loved Jack, no doubt. But he couldn't bring himself to say it. Regret. Ennis knew what love was. Watch how he asks Alma, junior, if Curt loves her? He ain't foolin'.
As Ang Lee told us the story of Ennis and Jack, we never know if Jack's death was caused by what that awful Lureen said, or if it was, in fact, murder. I don't know myself. It's as if Ennis felt Jack would always be alive - because Jack represented that hidden part of Ennis that would always be there. It never occurs to Ennis that his sexuality might be something he either has to come to terms with or deny for ever. Neither option seems available to him. This is his regret.
Someday I'll have the courage to post my sequel short story here. It starts with Ennis folding Alma's sweater and puting it in the closet with the shirts. In many ways it's my story. And, in my heart, it's Ennis' story too. I want Ennis to have happiness, find true love, feel safe, have his life validated (it wasn't by Alma and that really hurt him - remember the Thanksgiving scene).
I was in Wyoming last February. I looked everywhere for Ennis ... well, not everywhere - I was only in Laramie, but still... I tried to look at every face. Are you Ennis del Mar?
I'm rambling. Sorry.
In the end, I think regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide.
Ennis del Mar found a way to live through it and with it. Because of him, so will I. Ennis del Mar is my hero.
Never forget. :c) ^f^
Amazing post. I'm stunned here. Regret is also my guide. So hard most of the times, but so necessary.
Ennis del Mar is my hero, and also Jack Twist is. Yeah, I never forget.
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
After the movie Candy was released, Heath's friend Theresa (who ran Heath Ledger Central and was also a member here) opened a website called "addicted to the movie Candy", and did a lot to promote the movie and it's distribution because it was a low-budget movie with limited release. Anyway, some members here were active on her site, and apparently, one day when Heath was visiting Theresa, she told him about people's involvement and he took the time to write personal thanks to some of the people here. Theresa had also introduced him to ennisjack.
I saw the post that he sent to one of my friends. I can't share his full message here since it wasn't sent to me personally, it's up to the members whom he addressed if they wanna share it. But this part, I believe, is for all of us:
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
Sweetie, I just read something about it once long time ago when you or Christie (I don't remember well) said something about it. But to read his exact words....Oh my, that's the sweetest balm for my broken spirit. His words just melt my heart and make me feel warm inside. I'm so touched right now. Thank you so much for this. :^^)
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Keren's post, about personal messages from Heath, made me as happy as the others but also a little sad. A week ago, I felt more than
a little threatened by my own continuing instability over this tragedy, so I felt it was OK to hit back with whatever it took to get back to normal
(whatever that is). So, I made up a list of 10 things I didn't like about Heath Ledger. Please don't criticize me for this---I had always seen
him as a human being who would also have faults. But I needed to balance off the grief, and so, that was what I did. On the list was---didn't
appreciate his fans. Too aloof. I knew it wasn't true, but I just wanted more solid ground, with everything seeming to turn to quicksand.
Keren's post was a joy, but, cross off one on the list. Can't use that crutch.
Have pretty much gotten past the worst of the sadness, but there still remains a certain unreality to everything since 1/22. Couldn't have
happened. Not possible. And then sometimes, I just shake my head, and go: "Heath."
My dearest friend, you've made me cry with this post. Can't use that crutch. **sigh** I don't have any crutch at all.
And let me tell you that for me Heath was a real Brokie, maybe even more Brokie than me. You got that so right.
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In Case
In case I forget to cry,
believe myself moved on
or an hour pass me by
without his smile,
voice,
sweet song,
music,
such joy of belonging in a world,
full of him,
remind me,
gentle, sweetly,
how it hurts to remember
so far less
than to forget.
jessi
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It never ceases to amaze me when I read all the posts here, the amount of creative, sensitive, perceptive talent in this forum.
Tony, you ask the most interesting of questions: would Heath have been a brokie if he didn't portrayed the role of Ennis.
Keren_b, your view of Heath and Ennis as two sides of the same coin, how to and how not to live life without regrets.
GuyinJax, your statements, that "regret is a sensitive, thoughtful, loving teacher. He helps us remember things with a gentle nudge, a distant pain. To deny regret in one's life is to give in to the notion that life happens twenty four hours at a time. It doesn't. Regret is my constant companion, my guide." is wisdom distilled from experience.
To answer Tony's question, I dare speculate that Heath would be definitely a brokie because he would connect with the story, just as he connected with Adam Sutton, and Ennis Del Mar. He would understand the pain of regret, the pain of love unexpressed. And I disagree, Tony, that Heath would not be obsessed with Brokeback Mountain, like us. He has that passion about him, like his passion for Drake's music. When you are this connected, there is no arguing. Heath would love the movie as much as we do. All his movies has the theme of the individual struggling against all odds, society, circumstance, himself, to express love. Brokeback Mountain was Heath's destiny, and if he didn't take part in it, he would be forever a part of us. Born of their love, Bound by ours, including Heath's.
For Keren_b, I have only this to say: fast or slow, Jake would love the direction you are going. Do not worry how fast you can change your old habits. The fact is, you have decided to change, that is the first step. Once you pick up speed, and momentum, nothing can stop you. I have faith in you. :ghug:
Guyinjax, I understand what you feel, and I have also watched Brokeback Mountain again, feeling the same pain in the last few scenes. The pain was not just for Ennis, and myself, but now, also for Heath. For I see not only Ennis on the screeen, as I used to do before that tragic day. I now see also Heath on the screen with Ennis, and the tears are for him, too...for his not being around to play another role, to show his skills as director, to sing another lullaby to Matilda, to ... :\'( BUT I also feel the same peace, when Heath/Ennis touch the two shirts, and brush his thumb along the postcard of Brokeback Mountain, and say to Jack, I swear. Because, now it is not only Ennis saying it to Jack, but also I, saying it to Heath. The road may be long and lonely ahead, but there is bittersweet remembrance, and hope for the future, and MOST OF ALL, there is friendship, and family, not only in this forum, but also in real life. Each and every regret is a gentle nudge, a distant pain, that reminds me to seize the day, and not let another opportunity goes to waste, to say and express how I feel, to not be afraid.
I never cared much for formality, so the Academy Awards were interesting to watch, but not that life-shatteringly important. The fact that they did not give Heath the Best Actor Award that year, said more about them, than him. His work speaks for itself. Their action will always be questioned by future generations. How they attempt to correct this, will be interesting to watch as well. For me, it is but a minor footnote in Heath's life. His awards are more than just the tangible ones.
To everyone who contributed to this amazing thread...In Loving Memory, you are ALL amazing.
:ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap: :ghug: :clap:
And most of all,
%) <^( :^^) %) <^( :^^) %) <^( :^^)
Andrew, one more time, you amazes me. So touching and beautiful words. I'm speechless.
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Well, actually... yes, he did.
Funny how I never thought about it until now, but Heath sent a message to all of us.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
He signed his message with -
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
:) :\'( Thank you so much, keren! :^^)
I had a bad day, feel like crying all the time, and still do it when I see a pic of Heath that's very special to me or hear a song or without 'special' reason. Sometimes I'm sitting in the bus, thinking of nothing and the tears beginn to flow..
I woke up today and realized I dreamt of Heath, I do that quite often (it's always when I am totally thinking of just one thing for a while that I dream of it), but it wasn't a good dream. I knew what it was about when I really woke up, but now I don't really remember; but still have a very bad feeling in my somach area :-\\
For sure it'll not be better tomorrow, I have quite a horror that this day will start; God, 4 weeks!
Thank you all for being here and sharing your thoughts! It's good to know one isn't alone!
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In Case
In case I forget to cry,
believe myself moved on
or an hour pass me by
without his smile,
voice,
sweet song,
music,
such joy of belonging in a world,
full of him,
remind me,
gentle, sweetly,
how it hurts to remember
so far less
than to forget.
jessi
That's beautiful, Jessi. Thank you :\'( ^f^
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I found this on youtube and it's one of the best tributes to our beloved Heath. The song says nothing but truth. Break out the tissues everybody!! :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9EzUWiplO0&NR=1
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OMG That one really got me good. :\'( :\'( Thanks LD
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I made a tribute video for Heath :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3GLlTctSnM
Thank you so much, emzan... Lovely, sad, beautiful; and I love where you ended it.
This so-sad song reminded me of Elton John's "Sad Songs Say So Much." It's true, isn't it, that there is comfort in sad songs...especially when shared.
kathy
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I found this on youtube and it's one of the best tributes to our beloved Heath. The song says nothing but truth. Break out the tissues everybody!! :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9EzUWiplO0&NR=1
Thank you for sharing this, LD, and for warning us that tissues are needed.
It's a beautiful song, a beautiful tribute. It would be nice to truly believe in "heaven," and it's a perfect thought: as much as I might need you, heaven needed you more. Heaven must have needed a hero, someone exactly like you. Beautiful.
kathy
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Four weeks. Damn. :\'( :\'( :\'(
For me four weeks will be tomorrow....23th January 2008. I was at work. 9:25 AM. Message from my brokie friend Ali. Baby, I'm so sorry to be the one who is telling you the so bad new: Heath has died.
Since then, I've not had not even a little moment of joy. In my heart Heath was made of dreams and love. It was so hard to find out that he was made of skin and bones, and those could be ashes one day.
When I went out of that theater that 20th January 2006 I thought that my world has been shattered in one million pieces and my life will never be the same again, 'cause it was impossible to feel again such a sorrow. One more time I was wrong.
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Four weeks. Damn. :\'( :\'( :\'(
For me four weeks will be tomorrow....23th January 2008. I was at work. 9:25 AM. Message from my brokie friend Ali. Baby, I'm so sorry to be the one who is telling you the so bad new: Heath has died.
Since then, I've not had not even a little moment of joy. In my heart Heath was made of dreams and love. It was so hard to find out that he was made of skin and bones, and those could be ashes one day.
When I went out of that theater that 20th January 2006 I thought that my world has been shattered in one million pieces and my life will never be the same again, 'cause it was impossible to feel again such a sorrow. One more time I was wrong.
I hope you feel better soon :ghug:. Tomorrow will be 4 weeks for me too. My dad drove me to work and I heard It on the radio, I was in shook I didn't know what to do and I started to cry and then I called a friend. I tried to work but It was hard and I broke down a lot of times that day :\'(
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"Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've got to face."
Phil Colins
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"Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've got to face."
Phil Colins
omg this is so scary, I was listening to that song 5 minutes ago. I love it, so beautiful
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These 4 weeks have gone by so very fast and yet so very slow. It's been, mostly, a strange blur, of images that couldn't be real.
But the blur is fading, the focus is painfully sharp and clear. We are near to acceptance, but that starts off a whole new sense of....wrongness.
Even so, the rest of the world has moved on, but we know....it's 1 month, and we remember. I think it's true--Heath is not going to be
forgotten by us; we take him with us all the way through, each, our journey through life. Am glad for that. We keep him with us all the way.
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Four weeks. Damn. :\'( :\'( :\'(
For me four weeks will be tomorrow....23th January 2008. I was at work. 9:25 AM. Message from my brokie friend Ali. Baby, I'm so sorry to be the one who is telling you the so bad new: Heath has died.
Since then, I've not had not even a little moment of joy. In my heart Heath was made of dreams and love. It was so hard to find out that he was made of skin and bones, and those could be ashes one day.
When I went out of that theater that 20th January 2006 I thought that my world has been shattered in one million pieces and my life will never be the same again, 'cause it was impossible to feel again such a sorrow. One more time I was wrong.
:ghug: :ghug: Sweetie. I ditto 100% the part I bolded. And you know we share the same BBM date. 4:43 pm today marked 4 weeks to the minute I heard those horrible words. I marked the time at 3:36 pm today at my desk at work as well. I wish I had some words for you to make it betterbut all I have is hugs :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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"Take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've got to face."
Phil Colins
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Keren
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And mountain moans with new morning.
Sun rises, for it must,
cold light through sky of crystal tears,
rainbow,
a bridge, here and there,
here and forever.
jessi
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I thought I was over the sadness, the mourning,
then I read the New York Magazine article.
It is the kind of honest raw to the bone writing
that made Annie Proulx's short story stand out.
It is the kind of lyrical masterpiece to detail
that made Ang Lee's movie so memorable.
It is the kind of in-your-face, nothing too sacred search for the truth that was Heath.
What can I say?
Except tears and pain of loss,
tears and regrets for words unsaid,
tears and emptiness from the hole of missing Heath.
We put you on a pedestal too high,
even for you who had wings to touch the sky.
We put you in a league all your own,
and forgot how lonely that can be.
We trusted you to tell us what you want,
and never realized we didn't listen,
didn't want to hear the truth.
Finding the truth is not so easy.
Accepting the truth is harder still.
You wanted a normal life.
You wanted to be accepted for who you are,
not for the image, the icon, the idol
that we built you up to be.
Heath Andrew Ledger
You are truly a prince among men
And you are now free to roam the sky
free to follow the wind and waves
free to be, just you
And when you feel lonely
And when you want company
You know where to find love
You know where you will be
Accepted, just as you are
Right here. Just like this. Always.
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Heath Andrew Ledger
You are truly a prince among men
And you are now free to roam the sky
free to follow the wind and waves
free to be, just you
And when you feel lonely
And when you want company
You know where to find love
You know where you will be
Accepted, just as you are
Right here. Just like this. Always.
Oh god :\'( That whole post was beautiful but most especially this last part. I lost track of what round of tears this is today :\'(
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I thought I was over the sadness, the mourning, then I read the New York Magazine article.
.. Except tears and pain of loss, tears and regrets for words unsaid, tears and emptiness from the hole of missing Heath.
We put you on a pedestal too high, even for you who had wings to touch the sky.
We put you in a league all your own, and forgot how lonely that can be.
We trusted you to tell us what you want, and never realized we didn't listen, didn't want to hear the truth
Finding the truth is not so easy.
Accepting the truth is harder still.
You wanted a normal life.
You wanted to be accepted for who you are, not for the image, the icon, the idol that we built you up to be.
Heath Andrew Ledger
You are truly a prince among men
And you are now free to roam the sky
free to follow the wind and waves
free to be, just you
And when you feel lonely
And when you want company
You know where to find love
You know where you will be
Accepted, just as you are
Right here. Just like this. Always.
Oh god :\'( That whole post was beautiful but most especially this last part. I lost track of what round of tears this is today :\'(
:ghug:
Oh, yeah, what she said....crying...
Thank so much lance :^^)
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It's been 4 WEEKS already!!!
Still I can't get over the feeling of emptiness and the thought that we never gone see his sweet face aging and maturing to a special man he was destined to be!!!!
All we had left is to see his pictures at 28 years old..
FOUR WEEKS!!!!
Damn the bitter reality of it.... How can it be true ?!!? :\'(
For you my love...
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It's been 4 WEEKS already!!!
Still I can't get over the feeling of emptiness and the thought that we never gone see his sweet face aging and maturing to a special man he was destined to be!!!!
All we had left is to see his pictures at 28 years old..
FOUR WEEKS!!!!
Damn the bitter reality of it.... How can it be true ?!!? :\'(
For you my love...
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It's tearing me apart!
I just can't let him go!
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Another heart breaking tribute for " OUR BELOVED HEATH LEDGER"
http://www.fanpop.com/spots/heath-ledger/videos/726872
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This is one of the beautiful rendition of Heath in one of his movies.
Its is always heard in many locations and occasions here in the Philippines.
When I hear the song.. that reminds me of our beautiful Heath...
The lyrics are so meaningful to me now he is up there,,,,,
( Chorus 1 )
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
You'd be like heaven to touch. I wanna
hold you so much. At long last love has
arrived. And I thank God I'm alive. You're
just too good to be true. Can't take my
eyes off of you.
Pardon the way that I stare. There's nothing
else to compare. The sight of you leaves me
weak. There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel. Please let me know
that it's real. You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off of you.
( Chorus 2)
I need you baby, if it's quite all right,
I love you baby, you warm a lonely night. I love
you baby. Trust in me when I say It's OK: Oh pretty
baby, don't let me down I pray. Oh pretty
baby, now that I found you, stay. And let me
love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....
Repeat Chorus 1
[To fade]
I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I love you baby, you warm a lonely night. I love
you baby. Trust in me when I say: It's OK Oh pretty
baby, don't let me down I pray. Oh pretty
baby, now that I found you, stay. And let me
love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....
I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I love you baby, you warm a lonely night. I love
you baby. Trust in me when I say: It's OK Oh pretty
baby, don't let me down I pray. Oh pretty
baby, now that I found you, stay. And let me
love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....
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Lance---that poem, free style, was the best you have ever done, and I saw in it your understanding of what troubled him and also what
has gone on to trouble us. I really think you got it right. Bravo!
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I thought I was over the sadness, the mourning,
then I read the New York Magazine article.
It is the kind of honest raw to the bone writing
that made Annie Proulx's short story stand out.
It is the kind of lyrical masterpiece to detail
that made Ang Lee's movie so memorable.
It is the kind of in-your-face, nothing too sacred search for the truth that was Heath.
What can I say?
Except tears and pain of loss,
tears and regrets for words unsaid,
tears and emptiness from the hole of missing Heath.
We put you on a pedestal too high,
even for you who had wings to touch the sky.
We put you in a league all your own,
and forgot how lonely that can be.
We trusted you to tell us what you want,
and never realized we didn't listen,
didn't want to hear the truth.
Finding the truth is not so easy.
Accepting the truth is harder still.
You wanted a normal life.
You wanted to be accepted for who you are,
not for the image, the icon, the idol
that we built you up to be.
Heath Andrew Ledger
You are truly a prince among men
And you are now free to roam the sky
free to follow the wind and waves
free to be, just you
And when you feel lonely
And when you want company
You know where to find love
You know where you will be
Accepted, just as you are
Right here. Just like this. Always.
OMG this is an amazing piece of writing....beautiful! Sent shivers through me....so sad to true :\'(
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I made a tribute video for Heath :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3GLlTctSnM
LOVED this video...best tribute vid so far so beautiful. ^f^ v moving. what is the song you have used? thankyou for sharing this with us. :^^)
I found this on youtube and it's one of the best tributes to our beloved Heath. The song says nothing but truth. Break out the tissues everybody!! :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9EzUWiplO0&NR=1
OMG the song!!! :\'( Its so perfect it hurts......lovely vid and lovely song......
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Time To Say Goodbye
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=DoPD8uwDwYI
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Farewell little angel....
But now.......it's time for his wonderfull smile!
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=QUw7I11lLJg
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Still so sad that you are no longer in the living world. I wish your life could have lasted longer and am heartbroken that you went too soon. I never knew you but your tragic death upset me and made me realise how one person can touch so many just by being a gentle, humble and inspirational spirit. Bye Heath, you lived a great life and lived it well and your legacy lives on in your daughter, your work and the people who loved you and who you loved- its the most any of us could ask for when we go...
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LOVED this video...best tribute vid so far so beautiful. ^f^ v moving. what is the song you have used? thankyou for sharing this with us. :^^)
It's Empty Room by Sanna Nielsen, I love the song <^(
I'm glad you liked it :) ^f^
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It's Empty Room by Sanna Nielsen, I love the song <^(
I'm glad you liked it :) ^f^
Thanks for letting me know!! ^f^
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
Megalyn :ghug: You've made me cry so bad. That's a beautiful and touching post, sweetie. :\'( :\'( :\'( We understand you so well; we're all on the same boat. Still It's so hard to believe.
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Hello Magalyn :)
Your post was beautiful :\'(
Your english was great too, by the way O0
I have to say that I had the same emotions as you did after his death
My mom told me and my stomach dropped and I started to shake
How could a man who was so lovely, kind-hearted, pure soul die?
I just can't believe that it's almost been a month now...
I ask myself the same question you did, "This HAS to be a nightmare"
To this day, I can't seem to grasp that he is finally gone and every time I watch movies I feel that he's still with us, smiling, enjoying his life with his family and espically with his daughter
I think that's what gets me the most, he HAD something to live for and he didn't mean to leave us
It was just an accident..accident? A hard word to swallow
Yes, he was our friend, not in person, but in all of our hearts
A man who embaced life and loved everyone he was with
I'm thankful as well for all he gave us
He will never be forgotton, I know this as well
Thank you Megalyn for your post and I hope you'll become a permanant part of our BBM family
Lis
Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
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I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
Your message touched me deeply, thank you Megalyn. it eases the pain of losing him somehow.
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what can i say. heath is my idol him and jake are some of the only guys i know that are like me in the way that they are straight but accept everyone regardless of sexual orientation. this guy was not just a good guy he was a saint he only film ive seen with him in all the way through was BBM and i seen that after his death but i think we will never forget him
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Beautiful posts. :ghug:
He will indeed never be forgotten by those whose hearts he touched.
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I've been called many things ... even by people who mean what they say!
My favorite thing that I've been called is "simple-minded."
I can live with that. So here's something simple-minded:
Annie Proulx's words are amazing; her characters tear and tug at our hearts.
But (with all due respect to Ms. Proulx) Ennis del Mar was an idea on a page made of ink and pulp until Heath Ledger breathed.
And now, thanks to Heath Ledger's artistic integrity, we all know who Ennis del Mar is.
My tribute: ... simple: Thank you, Mr. Ledger.
PS... If the Academy Awards doesn't do something big ... and I mean BIG in a Wyoming BIG kind of way ... for Heath/Ennis ... well, I'll be disappointed. Deeply disappointed.
I expect something big and amazing. Heath and Ennis deserve that.
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I've been called many things ... even by people who mean what they say!
My favorite thing that I've been called is "simple-minded."
I can live with that. So here's something simple-minded:
Annie Proulx's words are amazing; her characters tear and tug at our hearts.
But (with all due respect to Ms. Proulx) Ennis del Mar was an idea on a page made of ink and pulp until Heath Ledger breathed.
And now, thanks to Heath Ledger's artistic integrity, we all know who Ennis del Mar is.
My tribute: ... simple: Thank you, Mr. Ledger.
I second you my friend. Ennis Delmar lives because of Heath.
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http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=QUw7I11lLJg
Cliffy's video tribute to a smiling Heath is exactly what I needed!
What joy! Thank you!
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
This is so beautiful...and welcome to you, megalyn. Yes, this is a good place to be, to be together to mourn our Heath. I love what you said, that he was a friend of ours...
It was yesterday for me, Tuesday around noon, four weeks ago, just a random moment at work when one of my co-workers buzzed me and told me. Just a Tuesday, just a random time, a random person telling me...and after that, nothing is quite the same...
kathy
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But now.......it's time for his wonderfull smile!
http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=QUw7I11lLJg
Cliffy -- thank you!! Absolutely delightful, just the thing. I had a big smile on my face the whole time watching it. And thank you also for putting in the dancing scenes -- oh man, do I love Heath dancing!
His wonderful smile, indeed.
kathy
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This is a photograph of young Heath at probably 6 years old.
See the striking resemblance of his daughter Matilda Rose Ledger.
.. and his father Kim Ledger.
Young Heath was with his father. grandfather and great grandfather.
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My Dear,
My tears and my sorrow for missing you will never bring you back to us..
But it is our heart that aches and all our sorrows remain....
I am wanting to find the reasons why you leave..
when you have our hearts and love ....
Will I ever see those smile?
Will I ever see those eyes.. those lips?
Wish I was there. to protect you and love you.
Wish I was there .
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Heath left Matilda's footprints in Brooklyn.
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http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=QUw7I11lLJg
Cliffy's video tribute to a smiling Heath is exactly what I needed!
What joy! Thank you!
Oh, yes, joy indeed.... thank you for posting, it's so heartwarming and heartbreaking at the same time!!! <^(
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Here we are, a month later, still trying to come to terms with this strange theft, this early end to Heath Ledger's life. I find it hard just to
use his last name, as, for these weeks, it has always been, just....Heath.
We all got hit in different ways, and that has shown up in our responses. For me, I had little interest in his acting career, and even separated
him, in my mind, from BBM. Heath was, to me, a good guy, with normal faults, but with an unusual lack of cruelty or spite, 2 characteristics
which are rampant in the world today. I have zero problems with saying I loved Heath, as he was, for me, the combination of many types of
goodness or warmth I had seen in more ordinary people, all put together in one person.
Am rambling, but whatever I had thought about him became all the more confirmed in the deluge of information following his death. Even the
so-called "bad" stuff, was of so little consequence that it just fleshed him out as a more vulnerable and therefore, lovable soul.
I do not like some of the contradictory information out there. Some reports he never studied acting, when I had read he very definitely
had a long-term acting coach in method acting. And something bugging me very much, that the N. Y. police refuse to give out the time of
death. I don't like that because the director who spoke to him the night before called to wake him, as per agreement, fairly early, and the
housekeeper said he was snoring, at noon. I really don't like the time-line they have given.
Even so, the reponse, here, has been a river of love. Some of the poems, in particular, I never would have seen, and they were powerful.
Well, am not having a relapse. Am just saying what I feel, one month later. It's all wrong. And we have to live with this. Sorry for rambling-
it's not easy for any of us. Maybe some others feel near to how I feel, right now, and so, posting is not a mistake.
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I miss him so much.
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
:h) welcome to the board. On here you will find such love, warmth and support and a general sense of togetherness of our love for BBM the film that caught our hearts attention, and of course now Heaths untimely passing. :\'( Your post was lovely and yes "theres a new star up in heaven" #) Thankyou for sharing your feelings with us, how you have been effected. It still is so hard to take in and i know exactly how you are feeling and what you mean in your post as will everyone else on the board. Hope you enjoy this site as much as i have so far. ^f^
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I was listening to some westlife songs and then I heard this
If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
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I miss him so much.
Oh Keren, I do too. :ghug:
It seems like Jack's line in BBM hits even harder for me now:
"Sometimes I miss you so much, I can hardly stand it"
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A list sib on a site said, when it was suggested we move on with our BBM story discussion (which I thought was a pretty good idea) that we can put the awful incidence behind us and move on. I'm sure each person suffers loss, great or small, their own way, but I've never been able to do that, put it behind. Even my beloved pets are still in me part of me. Not being able to see and hug, talk, dear Lord talking to my sister, I'll always have tears wanting to so bad, but she is still here, part of my world. We are a sum of who we were, who we've known, where we've been... Heath is in my world, he will never be left behind but part of my whole, part of what makes the sun warm and summer nights soft. He gave me some of the best of my times, his loss wouldn't have been such a tragedy for me if his life hadn't been so rich and dear. Life sucks and this was ultimate unfair and wrong, but he was still a most treasured gift.
jessi
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Rest in peace, Heath baby
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Rest in peace, Heath baby
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Oh Carmilla, that's beautiful. What a wonderful way to keep Heath in your heart. ^f^
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Oh yes, I went to my local cemetery yesterday and lighted a candle for Heath in the place what is meant to the candles and messages to those who are buried elsewhere. It was snowing and the day was turning to the dark in the afternoon. The place was so quiet and beautiful.
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http://fr.youtube.com/watch?v=QUw7I11lLJg
Cliffy's video tribute to a smiling Heath is exactly what I needed!
What joy! Thank you!
I smiled through tears the whole time. Thank you so much for this. ^f^
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Rest in peace, Heath baby
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That's so beautiful Raisa!!! You did a very sweet and precious thing. <^( <^( <^( Thank you for doing this for Heath.
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I don't know why but I was just watching tv and for no reason I started to cry. It was nothing sad on the tv, my eyes started to fill with tears and I felt this empty space in my heart, like someone took a pice from it and threw it on the floor. And now I can't stop crying :\'( maybe this is my breaking down point. The few times something like Heaths dead has happend to me ( thank god it's only happend twice) I get very sad at first, then Im ok for a wile and then this happens I break down and feel empty. But this time It's different, this time I have this place to come to where people understand. So thank you for all being here.
I haven't been here long, but It feels like a second family <^(
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Here there's the lyrics from a song that,I don't know why,has reminded me Heath.Perhaps,among some other reasons,because it's from a Catalan band whose singer died at a very young age and in a circumstances maybe very similar to his-he died almost on stage...-.No matter its meaning,it's another little and humble homage I'm making to both of them and all this that died when life is still a long way to walk in front of them.
VIURE SENSE TU/LIVING WITHOUT YOU
I've closed the door slowly
while looking at your street lights.
I like your city very much,yes,
but now don't you believe
I don't want to go away from it.
I arrived to it lost
and pursuing unknown places;
a vision captivated me
and made me feel myself
lost again into your eyes.
I've stepped the night in every tavern
and I've arrived to nobody's lands
a rising sun has made me be awake
with the promise of living without you.
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I don't know why but I was just watching tv and for no reason I started to cry. It was nothing sad on the tv, my eyes started to fill with tears and I felt this empty space in my heart, like someone took a pice from it and threw it on the floor. And now I can't stop crying :\'( maybe this is my breaking down point. The few times something like Heaths dead has happend to me ( thank god it's only happend twice) I get very sad at first, then Im ok for a wile and then this happens I break down and feel empty. But this time It's different, this time I have this place to come to where people understand. So thank you for all being here.
I haven't been here long, but It feels like a second family <^(
Oh,Emzan,don't you know how much I understand you¡ :ghug: Yes,all of us who have lost a beloved person know very well your feelings and reactions now;you're right,when the first shock has passed somehow,when you think firmly that you're able to make your daily life as before,you fall even deeper than in the first moments...
But you're right again in that this time is different because you're by some persons side who understand and share your feelings;we all are at the same time the relief and the relieved,and a firm support for who,like you,are passing their own breaking down point.So,cry all you need to relieve you and count on us to feel better after that. :^^)
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Dear Emzan---please don't feel embarrassed that you are still grieving. I wouldn't doubt but that for every person that posts, saying how
awful they feel, there are 10 more that are just unable to express themselves. Nobody knows but us how terrible this loss is---the outside
world just saw a celebrity who died young. We knew someone else, someone whom we recognized, as one of our own. You cry all you want---
it's good for you to let it all out. And always come here to your friends. Because if we weren't friends before, just admirers of the movie,
after grieving together, we're damn sure friends, now. Don't forget----it's not those of us who give a damn that are unusual or off, it's those
who don't care, about this tragedy or probably any other, who are....well...never mind. Better left unsaid. Stay with your family, Emzan.
We're here.
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thanks for the comments myprivatejack and Tony ^f^ I feel better now. I'm off to bed now, If I can sleep :-\\
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thanks for the comments myprivatejack and Tony ^f^ I feel better now. I'm off to bed now, If I can sleep :-\\
Of course,you can,Emzan.This same evening Thomas(Tpe) told me that we must remember the happy times of Heath and Jake together instead of only feeling sad when we think that they will be here no more...Do it,think in good sensations about Heath in a positive way;surely you don't cry anymore and you'll be able to sleep well.See you tomorrow with a smile,huh?. ^f^
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Of course,you can,Emzan.This same evening Thomas(Tpe) told me that we must remember the happy times of Heath and Jake together instead of only feeling sad when we think that they will be here no more...Do it,think in good sensations about Heath in a positive way;surely you don't cry anymore and you'll be able to sleep well.See you tomorrow with a smile,huh?. ^f^
Ye, see you tomorrow :) :gnight:
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Rest in peace, Heath baby
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Carmilla, that's just wonderful!! I wish I could do something like that for him, maybe I'll try and do more of the Heath collage since I've been in my own little world the past couple of days
I just can't believe that tomorrow it will be one month, one month? I can't seem to grasp it. It seems sometimes that it was only yesterday. Sometimes it seems like it was only a dream but seeing things such as "late" in front of his name and people reading magazines saying "See this is an example of what can happen in Hollywood" (brother) when I know that he wasn't even in Hollywood, he was in Soho, New York makes reality come and hit me hard! I don't know, I've learned a lot more about how wonderful and humble person he was and yet how vunerable he was as well. He was a man that needed to be protected and loved. And the worst part was that he was alone in his apartment, thats what gets me the most. I'm sorry I'm rambling...I just needed to I guess, write all this down somewhere....but I'm thankful as well. It's nice to have this place, where everyone can come and express all there emotions, and you have no idea how much this forum has ment to me.. :ghug:
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
First, sorry for my defective English, please feel free to correct me if you want.
I lighted a candle for Heath to say how sorrowful I am for him. I'm sure I'll never forget that morning: January 23, exactly 4 weeks ago, my boyfriend phones me and tells:"Heard the bad news? Heath Ledger has died."
Has died?!?! Heath Ledger?!?! I'll be damned!!!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Even now, after nearly a month, I have a hard time believing it, my mind just refuses it.
It was a dreadful shock for me. For 2 days I was too stunned, I wasn't even able to cry, just repeating on my mind :"It's a nightmare, isn't it? It must be a nightmare."
At the end, during the second night, I cried. I cried for Heath/Ennis, for his family, for his friends, for Michelle, for little Matilda, and for me too.
He and Jake made me feel such strong and deep emotions, he was so young and talented, he still had so much to give us through his characters......How is possible he's passed away?!?! How could be happened such a tragedy?!?!
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
Beautiful post Megalyn. :ghug:
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A list sib on a site said, when it was suggested we move on with our BBM story discussion (which I thought was a pretty good idea) that we can put the awful incidence behind us and move on. I'm sure each person suffers loss, great or small, their own way, but I've never been able to do that, put it behind. Even my beloved pets are still in me part of me. Not being able to see and hug, talk, dear Lord talking to my sister, I'll always have tears wanting to so bad, but she is still here, part of my world. We are a sum of who we were, who we've known, where we've been... Heath is in my world, he will never be left behind but part of my whole, part of what makes the sun warm and summer nights soft. He gave me some of the best of my times, his loss wouldn't have been such a tragedy for me if his life hadn't been so rich and dear. Life sucks and this was ultimate unfair and wrong, but he was still a most treasured gift.
jessi
:ghug: Jessi. I'm not good at putting things behind me either.
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Tony, :ghug: we are all in this together, so no need to apologize or feel bad about it. I am grateful to have so many people here, sharing the the grief. As huge and enormous as it is, when shared among so many good people here, it is at least bearable. I cannot imagine going through this alone. Thank you, Tony, and everyone, for being here.
What you said below, and I bold, colored red, is so well-said. It is what makes Heath special. He represents the best in us, and none of the evil in the world. He is also human and vulnerable, like us, which makes his achievements all the more impressive - extraordinary deeds performed by an ordinary person. But he was extraordinary also, because he was unique, special.
You were right when you said this will last a long time. I don't see the need to wrap it up quickly. Nor do I want it to drag on and on. I simply let my feelings go where they will, and express them appropriately, in this topic here, in this forum. I don't talk about it with people who don't understand, who don't want to dwell in Heath's memories. For me, there ain't no reins on this one. And this forum is my Brokeback Mountain. I come to find peace, and offer support and friendship.
As you said, there is much too much malice in this world. I am grateful there is one place that is untouched, that is pure, as you said once, that is a valley of peace and friendship where we can find rest and respite from the cold cruel world outside.
:ghug: :c)
Here we are, a month later, still trying to come to terms with this strange theft, this early end to Heath Ledger's life. I find it hard just to use his last name, as, for these weeks, it has always been, just....Heath.
We all got hit in different ways, and that has shown up in our responses. For me, I had little interest in his acting career, and even separated him, in my mind, from BBM. Heath was, to me, a good guy, with normal faults, but with an unusual lack of cruelty or spite, 2 characteristics
which are rampant in the world today. I have zero problems with saying I loved Heath, as he was, for me, the combination of many types of goodness or warmth I had seen in more ordinary people, all put together in one person.
Am rambling, but whatever I had thought about him became all the more confirmed in the deluge of information following his death. Even the so-called "bad" stuff, was of so little consequence that it just fleshed him out as a more vulnerable and therefore, lovable soul.
I do not like some of the contradictory information out there. Some reports he never studied acting, when I had read he very definitely had a long-term acting coach in method acting. And something bugging me very much, that the N. Y. police refuse to give out the time of
death. I don't like that because the director who spoke to him the night before called to wake him, as per agreement, fairly early, and the housekeeper said he was snoring, at noon. I really don't like the time-line they have given.
Even so, the reponse, here, has been a river of love. Some of the poems, in particular, I never would have seen, and they were powerful. Well, am not having a relapse. Am just saying what I feel, one month later. It's all wrong. And we have to live with this. Sorry for rambling-it's not easy for any of us. Maybe some others feel near to how I feel, right now, and so, posting is not a mistake.
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:ghug: Emzan :ghug:
that is a wonderful excerpt.
I see Heath/Ennis even without closing my eyes.
Here is the lyrics to the song:
Soledad
( loneliness )
Westlife
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
Walking down the streets
Of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
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It's a sad song, but I think Heath can see us, and as it says above, Love will bring us back to you and me.
:ghug:
I was listening to some westlife songs and then I heard this
If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
:\'(
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Oh yes, I went to my local cemetery yesterday and lighted a candle for Heath in the place what is meant to the candles and messages to those who are buried elsewhere. It was snowing and the day was turning to the dark in the afternoon. The place was so quiet and beautiful.
That's beautiful Carmilla! :\'( :ghug: What a lovely gesture.
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Hello BBM family,
this is Megalyn08, I joined you just a few days ago.
[...]
I feel like a beloved friend of mine has died, because actually he was. Of course, in a different way than he was to his friend and family in real life, but with the same strength. He talked with us through emotions.
He was, no, he is our beloved Ennis Del Mar. He left a terrible void, although from now on there's a new star up in heaven. I'll never forget him, be sure of this.
If this tragedy had to happen, I prefer being among those who mourn him rather than among those who don't know him at all: mourning him now means that I've met him in some way (BBM and more), and I feel my own life has been blessed by having met his and Jake's path.
What does it remain of him, nothing but ashes? No, ocean isn't big enough for such a great soul.
It remains his smile, the light into his eyes, and his soul, like many little stars within the characters he played.
Miss you, cowboy.
Love from Megalyn08
:ghug: Megalyn08 :ghug: many others have already praised your post. I am a little late. There have been so many wonderful posts that I did not get a change to read every single one, or to comment on them. But tonight, somehow, the words above caught my eye while the page was refreshing after one of my own posts was uploaded.
Your words captured what I have been feeling but did not understand. Heath spoke to us emotionally, and emotionally we responded to him as family. Now I understand what Tony meant, when he said that Heath was family.
And the second paragraph, reminds me of the common saying, it is better to have loved and lost, than to never love at all. I have been play one of my favorite songs from Garth Brooks for this very reason, to remind myself what Heath stood for all his life, to live life to the fullest without regrets. Here is the song's lyrics:
"Standing Outside The Fire"
We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned
We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned
But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire
We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall
We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all
They're so hell-bent on giving, walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
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Oh yes, I went to my local cemetery yesterday and lighted a candle for Heath in the place what is meant to the candles and messages to those who are buried elsewhere. It was snowing and the day was turning to the dark in the afternoon. The place was so quiet and beautiful.
Carmilla that was a lovely thing you did. I'm sure Heath felt the glow of that loving candle. :ghug:
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:ghug: Emzan :ghug:
that is a wonderful excerpt.
I see Heath/Ennis even without closing my eyes.
Here is the lyrics to the song:
Soledad
( loneliness )
Westlife
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
Walking down the streets
Of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
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It's a sad song, but I think Heath can see us, and as it says above, Love will bring us back to you and me.
:ghug:
Yes It is a sad song, but the first course reminded me of Heath :(
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One month without our boy.
I can't begin to tell you how bad I feel. Had a rough evening yesterday, thought about him and cried a lot. Today too. I just feel empty. It hurts. I can't stand it.
:\'( :\'(
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"First Fig"
My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends - - -
It gives a lovely light!
Edna St. Vincent Millay
a month gone quickly by,
ay, your light shines bright
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One month without our boy.
I can't begin to tell you how bad I feel. Had a rough evening yesterday, thought about him and cried a lot. Today too. I just feel empty. It hurts. I can't stand it.
:\'( :\'(
Keren,it's logical to feel in this way;today we're passing our first month without him.It's a kind of sad and stupid anniversary-stupid because it should never have passed...- that make us having all this more present still in our souls and minds.If you have to feel better,write to me a PM and we'll talk about it and,above all,about him. :ghug:
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Thank you :ghug:
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Tuesday,January 22nd.It had been a rather ordinary day for me; so ordinary that I don't remember anything about it now.It was,then,another day "struggling" with the problems of my job,posting some funny jokes or making my friends of the Spanish channel " feel angry" with me...; nothing important,nothing to remark,just one day that wasn't going to pass to my life's story in capital letters,nor probably was going either in the world's.
By night,I hadn't been active in the forum for a while,busy with another questions on-line and I was at the point of going to bed,because it was very late.Suddenly,a kind of impulse made me enter on my email and in the cover of Hotmail I found the news that changed this ordinary and almost boring day in a shock that makes you think that's not true,that you're crazy or drunk or sleeping...I went to this forum only to know for sure that all was true,painfully true;I remember writing a post in which I told you:-"Tell me that's a lie,a bad joke or a worst taste fun;that here in Spain the news arrive bad and late and we don't know the reality...".Nobody told me I was in an error.I was right,and for the first time in my life I was not happy to be so.
I didn't want to say anything to my Spanish channel fellows,because they seemed not to be on-line and,moreover,why should I tell them?It was better to let them rest easily and well.When I went to bed ,my partner was half-slept,so I didn't tell her anything because,moreover,she liked the movie and Heath's acting,but she's not a Brokie-difficult to understand if you're not...-.I couldn't sleep well and when I got it,I suddenly awoke thinking on him all the time.In the morning,after arriving at the office,I found my coworker Brokie,who didn't know anything and once again I became the bad news messenger.After saying it the best I could,we began to look for news as soon as we could,as if both of us wanted to be sure of the reality.
Then,my fellow begun to cry;I felt shocked,because I'd never seen him crying in this way.He's a good humoured boy,with a bit of sarcasm,just like me,and lots of fun;and then he was in front of me bursting into tears by saying:"Pobre noi,pobre noi¡"(Poor boy,in Catalan).
Our coworkers asked us what's going on;-"A friend of us has gone"- we answered in unison.It's almost magic to see how misfortunes make persons closer and more comprehensive,at a point you never think it could be...Our mates told us,simply,to let work in order to attend "our friend's burial",just this;they made our part of job and we shouldn't worry for anything else than grieving our friend.Is it just nice?.So,I came back home-I must say that sometimes I work at home also-trying to do some work because I felt guilty for my mates;but I spent more time,I must confess,looking for news,posting here,relieving and being relieved for other Brokies...
The next day,at office our coworkers asked us for the burial,and suddenly my fellow bursted:-"He wasn't a friend of us we know personally; he was Heath Ledger,from BBM.What's going on?.We feel as he was so¡I don't mind to say it¡".I told him to shut up,but he continued:-"Why must we hide it as if we're freakies?I'm getting ride of it,that people think I'm gay-he´s "rather" straight-or crazy¡...".And once again the solidarity:-"We've imagined it.It doesn't matter.We have this for you both". And they gave us a BBM poster,enormous,pretty,with Ennis and Jack gorgeous,riding on their horses...Oh,my¡ I began to sobbing by telling I couldn't accept it,not then;my fellow put it on his table and someone put also some flowers in front of the picture,just like an altar...I found this sad,but so,so beautiful indeed. :ghug:
Well,the rest is story.I know all this I've told you seems like a nonsense or a cheap novel,but I needed to tell it just today.Because a month ago my fellow Josep Lluís and me lost a friend whom we believed we could´nt name so before other persons. :c)
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Oh MPJ, your post was beautiful!! It was too such a normal day for me, just coming home from school telling my parents about my day and laughing at a Sitcom me and my father were watching. But what made me almost smile was that your co-workers brought in the poster and Ennis and Jack and put follows next to it. That was so kind of them to respect you and your friend's loss even though he was not a 'close' friend. Most of the students at my school didn't say anything or say "Oh, did you hear he died" in a moking kind of way. Like you and your friend, no one really knew what he ment to us..
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I don't know why but I was just watching tv and for no reason I started to cry. It was nothing sad on the tv, my eyes started to fill with tears and I felt this empty space in my heart, like someone took a pice from it and threw it on the floor. And now I can't stop crying :\'( maybe this is my breaking down point. The few times something like Heaths dead has happend to me ( thank god it's only happend twice) I get very sad at first, then Im ok for a wile and then this happens I break down and feel empty. But this time It's different, this time I have this place to come to where people understand. So thank you for all being here.
I haven't been here long, but It feels like a second family <^(
:ghug: I know that feeling well. I'm glad you're here with the rest of us. :ghug: And it is nice and comforting to have others here because no one on the "outside" gets it- maybe the first few days they understood it but to have it still linger? Again I'm glad you're here :ghug:
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Tony, :ghug: we are all in this together, so no need to apologize or feel bad about it. I am grateful to have so many people here, sharing the the grief. As huge and enormous as it is, when shared among so many good people here, it is at least bearable. I cannot imagine going through this alone. Thank you, Tony, and everyone, for being here.
What you said below, and I bold, colored red, is so well-said. It is what makes Heath special. He represents the best in us, and none of the evil in the world. He is also human and vulnerable, like us, which makes his achievements all the more impressive - extraordinary deeds performed by an ordinary person. But he was extraordinary also, because he was unique, special.
You were right when you said this will last a long time. I don't see the need to wrap it up quickly. Nor do I want it to drag on and on. I simply let my feelings go where they will, and express them appropriately, in this topic here, in this forum. I don't talk about it with people who don't understand, who don't want to dwell in Heath's memories. For me, there ain't no reins on this one. And this forum is my Brokeback Mountain. I come to find peace, and offer support and friendship.
As you said, there is much too much malice in this world. I am grateful there is one place that is untouched, that is pure, as you said once, that is a valley of peace and friendship where we can find rest and respite from the cold cruel world outside.
:ghug: :c)
Well said Andrew :ghug: I was going to bold some parts but the whole thing would have been bolded so I'll just ditto everything. :ghug:
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I have tears in my eyes reading through your posts. Haven't been here much the last two days and I'm catching up now. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else today anyway. :ghug: This is truly a wonderful family and I'm so grateful to have you all to share these feelings with. Thank you for sharing so much of yourselves with the group. :ghug:
A couple of people called me right after the news broke to find out if I'd heard because they know that I am a fan of Heath's, but still didn't understand how I felt about it. A couple of days ago, I got this message from an out of town friend:
Barb,
I am a complete numbskull. I don't know why I did not think of you immediately after Heath Ledger died. How are you doing? What memorial plans does your group have? I am sorry I did not email you sooner, please forgive my idiocy.
I am still shocked and saddened by it myself.
Take care,
xx
It meant so much to me to get that e-mail, because it said that she was thinking of me, that she understood how I would be feeling, how all of us here would be feeling, and that she just got all of that and thought it was perfectly normal and reasonable. So I have been glad to read of all of the people who have been supportive and understanding to all of us during the last month.
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:ghug: I know that feeling well. I'm glad you're hear with the rest of us. :ghug: And it is nice and comforting to have others here because no one on the "outside" gets it- maybe the first few days they understood it but to have it still linger? Again I'm glad you're here :ghug:
I'm glad I'm here too :) :ghug:
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I have tears in my eyes reading through your posts. Haven't been here much the last two days and I'm catching up now. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else today anyway. :ghug: This is truly a wonderful family and I'm so grateful to have you all to share these feelings with. Thank you for sharing so much of yourselves with the group. :ghug:
A couple of people called me right after the news broke to find out if I'd heard because they know that I am a fan of Heath's, but still didn't understand how I felt about it. A couple of days ago, I got this message from an out of town friend:
Barb,
I am a complete numbskull. I don't know why I did not think of you immediately after Heath Ledger died. How are you doing? What memorial plans does your group have? I am sorry I did not email you sooner, please forgive my idiocy.
I am still shocked and saddened by it myself.
Take care,
xx
It meant so much to me to get that e-mail, because it said that she was thinking of me, that she understood how I would be feeling, how all of us here would be feeling, and that she just got all of that and thought it was perfectly normal and reasonable. So I have been glad to read of all of the people who have been supportive and understanding to all of us during the last month.
Yes,it´s good to know that people who loves us are giving us their support,even if they don't understand completely how we're feeling.After all,it's why they love us,it needs no explanation,no?. :ghug:
Oh MPJ, your post was beautiful!! It was too such a normal day for me, just coming home from school telling my parents about my day and laughing at a Sitcom me and my father were watching. But what made me almost smile was that your co-workers brought in the poster and Ennis and Jack and put follows next to it. That was so kind of them to respect you and your friend's loss even though he was not a 'close' friend. Most of the students at my school didn't say anything or say "Oh, did you hear he died" in a moking kind of way. Like you and your friend, no one really knew what he ment to us..
Lil,surely these students didn't say this in a moking way;sometimes we're hypersensitive about our feelings in this sense and believe everybody is laughing at us...Just like my fellow who bursted even before was saying anything,tired to hide it as if we're guilty of something bad.But you see how we often find more comprehension than we believed;the only pitiable point is that we must find it when something goes wrong.But it's solidarity in the end... :^^)
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Lil,surely these students didn't say this in a mocking way;sometimes we're hypersensitive about our feelings in this sense and believe everybody is laughing at us...Just like my fellow who bursted even before was saying anything,tired to hide it as if we're guilty of something bad.But you see how we often find more comprehension than we believed;the only pitiable point is that we must find it when something goes wrong.But it's solidarity in the end... :^^)
That might be part of it. Most of them probably didn't understand how this death impacted me and my other friend and we almost felt, especially my friend, to defend him. Though I saw some people tell me that his death was a sad loss and I found some comfort in that. Now it seems everything is ok, I try to be open to people who do not understand the death of this man, especially my brothers. Oh well %&)
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I have tears in my eyes reading through your posts. Haven't been here much the last two days and I'm catching up now. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else today anyway. :ghug: This is truly a wonderful family and I'm so grateful to have you all to share these feelings with. Thank you for sharing so much of yourselves with the group. :ghug:
A couple of people called me right after the news broke to find out if I'd heard because they know that I am a fan of Heath's, but still didn't understand how I felt about it. A couple of days ago, I got this message from an out of town friend:
Barb,
I am a complete numbskull. I don't know why I did not think of you immediately after Heath Ledger died. How are you doing? What memorial plans does your group have? I am sorry I did not email you sooner, please forgive my idiocy.
I am still shocked and saddened by it myself.
Take care,
xx
It meant so much to me to get that e-mail, because it said that she was thinking of me, that she understood how I would be feeling, how all of us here would be feeling, and that she just got all of that and thought it was perfectly normal and reasonable. So I have been glad to read of all of the people who have been supportive and understanding to all of us during the last month.
That's such a lovely thing for your friend to do...to come back and let you know that she was thinking of you. That really does mean a lot.
A friend of mine is on a round the world trip and she was in Australia when the news broke. She said she thought of me instantly, wondering how I was in the light of such an awful tragedy, because she knows I'm a brokie and how much I loved Heath. It touched me so much that she thought of me.
I can't dwell on the idea of it being 4 weeks today too much....because it still hurts, too much. Images of him flash through my mind. His beautiful smile, his wonderfully crazy dress sense, his eyes, his voice...so many things that I miss. It still makes me catch my breath to realise I'm talking about him in the past tense. :\'(
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"It still makes me catch my breath to realise I'm talking about him in the past tense."
I know what you mean Christie. :ghug:
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I can't dwell on the idea of it being 4 weeks today too much....because it still hurts, too much. Images of him flash through my mind. His beautiful smile, his wonderfully crazy dress sense, his eyes, his voice...so many things that I miss. It still makes me catch my breath to realise I'm talking about him in the past tense. :\'(
Christie,it'll take a long time until we'll get used to talk about him in the past tense;we didn't love him if it'd be on the contrary. :^^)
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It still makes me catch my breath to realise I'm talking about him in the past tense. :\'(
Same here, I just can't seem to comprehend every time they say "late" before his name and using the past tense when talking about him is so hard for me as well, sometimes just pausing, realizing what I just said and trying to figure how it ended up like this... :-\\
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Same here, I just can't seem to comprehend every time they say "late" before his name and using the past tense when talking about him is so hard for me as well, sometimes just pausing, realizing what I just said and trying to figure how it ended up like this... :-\\
I am not used to talk about him using past tense and maybe I will not.
I was trying but my mind just can't.
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:ghug: Emzan :ghug:
that is a wonderful excerpt.
I see Heath/Ennis even without closing my eyes.
Here is the lyrics to the song:
Soledad
( loneliness )
Westlife
If only you could see the tears
In the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soledad
Walking down the streets
Of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
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It's a sad song, but I think Heath can see us, and as it says above, Love will bring us back to you and me.
:ghug:
I know this song well, as with all westlifes songs and it is so fitting yes. :\'( #) I often think about the lyrics to songs and what they mean to me,the more i can relate to the song the more i like it generally. Thankyou for posting this. I shall listen tp this song and see Heath <^(
Our coworkers asked us what's going on;-"A friend of us has gone"- we answered in unison.It's almost magic to see how misfortunes make persons closer and more comprehensive,at a point you never think it could be...Our mates told us,simply,to let work in order to attend "our friend's burial",just this;they made our part of job and we shouldn't worry for anything else than grieving our friend.Is it just nice?.So,I came back home-I must say that sometimes I work at home also-trying to do some work because I felt guilty for my mates;but I spent more time,I must confess,looking for news,posting here,relieving and being relieved for other Brokies...
The next day,at office our coworkers asked us for the burial,and suddenly my fellow bursted:-"He wasn't a friend of us we know personally; he was Heath Ledger,from BBM.What's going on?.We feel as he was so¡I don't mind to say it¡".I told him to shut up,but he continued:-"Why must we hide it as if we're freakies?I'm getting ride of it,that people think I'm gay-he´s "rather" straight-or crazy¡...".And once again the solidarity:-"We've imagined it.It doesn't matter.We have this for you both". And they gave us a BBM poster,enormous,pretty,with Ennis and Jack gorgeous,riding on their horses...Oh,my¡ I began to sobbing by telling I couldn't accept it,not then;my fellow put it on his table and someone put also some flowers in front of the picture,just like an altar...I found this sad,but so,so beautiful indeed. :ghug:
Well,the rest is story.I know all this I've told you seems like a nonsense or a cheap novel,but I needed to tell it just today.Because a month ago my fellow Josep Lluís and me lost a friend whom we believed we could´nt name so before other persons. :c)
Awwwww this is sooooo nice! Id be so emotional if my work colleagues did that for me! Wow so nice and thoughtful, so beautiful <^( Its so nice how they were so understanding and well done to your colleague for saying exactly how you both felt and who you were upset about. Such strength :) Thankyou for sharing your story! :^^)
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The next day,at office our coworkers asked us for the burial,and suddenly my fellow bursted:-"He wasn't a friend of us we know personally; he was Heath Ledger,from BBM.What's going on?.We feel as he was so¡I don't mind to say it¡".I told him to shut up,but he continued:-"Why must we hide it as if we're freakies?I'm getting ride of it,that people think I'm gay-he´s "rather" straight-or crazy¡...".And once again the solidarity:-"We've imagined it.It doesn't matter.We have this for you both". And they gave us a BBM poster,enormous,pretty,with Ennis and Jack gorgeous,riding on their horses...Oh,my¡ I began to sobbing by telling I couldn't accept it,not then;my fellow put it on his table and someone put also some flowers in front of the picture,just like an altar...I found this sad,but so,so beautiful indeed. :ghug:
Well,the rest is story.I know all this I've told you seems like a nonsense or a cheap novel,but I needed to tell it just today.Because a month ago my fellow Josep Lluís and me lost a friend whom we believed we could´nt name so before other persons. :c)
Oh Ali, what a wonderful thing!!! You never told me. :-\\
Your post was so beautiful and sad. I know what you mean. I was so lost in my pain that I was not able to give you enough support....But sweetie, in spite of all the issues we had then, I was always thinking about you, 'cause I knew well that my sadness was like yours, the unbearable pain identical. We were, are on the same road. Just want you to know that. Love you.
I can't believe it's a whole month. Can you believe that I feel it like a week or so? It seems so unreal. He was deep inside my heart, but at the same time he was in RL just so far. He NY, me Spain. So sometimes I try to think that he's alive and I just can't to touch him or see him in person, just like always it was. So I watch his pics and his vids like I used to do and I try to think he's far from me like always, living in NY, filming some new movie, having a life full of joy. But then when I speak about him I have to use that horrible "was", and right then I fall down and the reality hits me so hard and so bad.
Today I was having a nice evening via internet with several brokies fics writers, and then my sister came to visit. I felt the powerful need to show her all Heath's pics and vids I have. I was anxious. I explained every pic and every interview, and I used that "was" over and over again, so finally I started to cry like a baby and my sister (on God, I've never expected that.....) started to cry with me. She said to me that she can't stand to see any Heath pic 'cause that hurts so bad. She thinks he was so young, so sweet, so adorable. My sister is not a fan of any actor and she doesn't see many films, but she has a deep sense of humanity, and she was so moved by Heath honesty every time I show her a vid of our boys when Heath was alive. Also she cried when I show her DDL tribute to Heath on SAG's. She said that was beautiful. I want people to be like my sister Esther. She liked BBM but no so much and also she has not seen any more Heath film. But she is able to sit down with anybody and listen to what that person has to say about BBM or about just a human being like Heath, and then she is able to understand every thought, every opinion, respecting the others points of view, and finally she is able to be touched for just little things like Heath shy smile, DDL tears, or her sister saying crazy things about Heath on Ellen. I remember so well when two years ago we had dinner at Fridays. That day I saw BBM for my third time. I decided to tell her the whole story since she didn't want to see it. Can you believe that when I was telling about Ennis finding the shirts she started to cry? She doesn't understand so much gay people or at least not as much as me, but she can see love wherever it is and she doesn't care if it is gay or straight. She was no in love with BBM when finally she saw it, but she always has had beautiful words for my BBM passion. And today one more time she has showed me with her tears that she understands all my love for Heath and respect my way of being and also that she can see and love when someone is a marvellous human being, and Heath was so for her.
Oh sorry so my for rambling…I think so much about Heath and I need to share every little thing that happens to me when Heath is in it.
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Oh Ali, what a wonderful thing!!! You never told me. :-\\
Your post was so beautiful and sad. I know what you mean. I was so lost in my pain that I was not able to give you enough support....But sweetie, in spite of all the issues we had then, I was always thinking about you, 'cause I knew well that my sadness was like yours, the unbearable pain identical. We were, are on the same road. Just want you to know that. Love you.
I can't believe it's a whole month. Can you believe that I feel it like a week or so? It seems so unreal. He was deep inside my heart, but at the same time he was in RL just so far. He NY, me Spain. So sometimes I try to think that he's alive and I just can't to touch him or see him in person, just like always it was. So I watch his pics and his vids like I used to do and I try to think he's far from me like always, living in NY, filming some new movie, having a life full of joy. But then when I speak about him I have to use that horrible "was", and right then I fall down and the reality hits me so hard and so bad.
Today I was having a nice evening via internet with several brokies fics writers, and then my sister came to visit. I felt the powerful need to she her all Heath's pics and vids I have. I was anxious. I explain every pic and every interview, and I used that "was" over and over again, so finally I started to cry like a baby and my sister (on God, I've never expected that.....) started to cry with me. She said to me that she can't stand to see any Heath pic 'cause that hurts so bad. She thinks he was so young, so sweet, so adorable. My sister is not a fan of any actor and she doesn't see many films, but she has a deep sense of humanity, and she was so moved by Heath honesty every time I show her a vid of our boys when Heath was alive. Also she cried when I show her DDL tribute to Heath on SAG's. She said that was beautiful. I want people to be like my sister Esther. She liked BBM but no so much and also she has not seen any more Heath film. But she is able to sit down with anybody and listen to what that person has to say about BBM or about just a human being like Heath, and then she is able to understand every thought, every opinion, respecting the others points of view, and finally she is able to be touched for just little things like Heath shy smile, DDL tears, or her sister saying crazy things about Heath on Ellen. I remember so well when two years ago we had dinner at Fridays. That day I saw BBM for my third time. I decided to tell her the whole story since she didn't want to see it. Can you believe that when I was telling about Ennis finding the shirts she started to cry? She doesn't understand so much gay people or at least not as much as me, but she can see love wherever it is and she doesn't care if it is gay or straight. She was no in love with BBM when finally she saw it, but she always has had beautiful words for my BBM passion. And today one more time she has showed me with her tears that she understands all my love for Heath and respect my way of being and also that she can see and love when someone is a marvellous human being, and Heath was so for her.
Oh sorry so my for rambling…I think so much about Heath and I need to share every little thing that happens to me when Heath is in it.
don't worry, I know the feeling
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Awwwww this is sooooo nice! Id be so emotional if my work colleagues did that for me! Wow so nice and thoughtful, so beautiful <^( Its so nice how they were so understanding and well done to your colleague for saying exactly how you both felt and who you were upset about. Such strength :) Thankyou for sharing your story! :^^)
You're welcome,cowgirl. :ghug: .Yes,it's amazing how people can react in such a way you'd never imagine they could do.And they didn't need my fellow's "anger attack"to realise it,because they already had the little gift for us.But,as I've said before,the pity is having all these surprising and moving reactions when something awful happens.
Oh Ali, what a wonderful thing!!! You never told me. :-\\
Your post was so beautiful and sad. I know what you mean. I was so lost in my pain that I was not able to give you enough support....But sweetie, in spite of all the issues we had then, I was always thinking about you, 'cause I knew well that my sadness was like yours, the unbearable pain identical. We were, are on the same road. Just want you to know that. Love you.
I can't believe it's a whole month. Can you believe that I feel it like a week or so? It seems so unreal. He was deep inside my heart, but at the same time he was in RL just so far. He NY, me Spain. So sometimes I try to think that he's alive and I just can't to touch him or see him in person, just like always it was. So I watch his pics and his vids like I used to do and I try to think he's far from me like always, living in NY, filming some new movie, having a life full of joy. But then when I speak about him I have to use that horrible "was", and right then I fall down and the reality hits me so hard and so bad.
Today I was having a nice evening via internet with several brokies fics writers, and then my sister came to visit. I felt the powerful need to she her all Heath's pics and vids I have. I was anxious. I explain every pic and every interview, and I used that "was" over and over again, so finally I started to cry like a baby and my sister (on God, I've never expected that.....) started to cry with me. She said to me that she can't stand to see any Heath pic 'cause that hurts so bad. She thinks he was so young, so sweet, so adorable. My sister is not a fan of any actor and she doesn't see many films, but she has a deep sense of humanity, and she was so moved by Heath honesty every time I show her a vid of our boys when Heath was alive. Also she cried when I show her DDL tribute to Heath on SAG's. She said that was beautiful. I want people to be like my sister Esther. She liked BBM but no so much and also she has not seen any more Heath film. But she is able to sit down with anybody and listen to what that person has to say about BBM or about just a human being like Heath, and then she is able to understand every thought, every opinion, respecting the others points of view, and finally she is able to be touched for just little things like Heath shy smile, DDL tears, or her sister saying crazy things about Heath on Ellen. I remember so well when two years ago we had dinner at Fridays. That day I saw BBM for my third time. I decided to tell her the whole story since she didn't want to see it. Can you believe that when I was telling about Ennis finding the shirts she started to cry? She doesn't understand so much gay people or at least not as much as me, but she can see love wherever it is and she doesn't care if it is gay or straight. She was no in love with BBM when finally she saw it, but she always has had beautiful words for my BBM passion. And today one more time she has showed me with her tears that she understands all my love for Heath and respect my way of being and also that she can see and love when someone is a marvellous human being, and Heath was so for her.
Oh sorry so my for rambling…I think so much about Heath and I need to share every little thing that happens to me when Heath is in it.
Tammy,I've always known that you felt the same than me but your way of grieving and,even,self-protecting was being closed in yourself;you couldn't give the others the support you weren't able to give to yourself for your great sorrow.But you also know that just being here and knowing that you were here,was just enough,at least for me...Love you too. :^^)
What you explained about your sister confirms that in misfortune we find the authentic,the real way of being of people who are around us.And how this people understand our grief and give us support no matter they understand or share our feelings.I said in a former post that this is the real love,the one that understands or shares with the logical of the heart,even if our mind doesn't.
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I haven't talked to anyone outside of here. I was at work today and I so didn't wanna be there... but I didn't tell anyone the significance of this date to me, and I didn't tell them how bad I feel. I've learned that some things you just can't share. Not with everyone, because some people just can't understand. And my grief is too deep to be made fun of, so I won't take the chance.
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I haven't talked to anyone outside of here. I was at work today and I so didn't wanna be there... but I didn't tell anyone the significance of this date to me, and I didn't tell them how bad I feel. I've learned that some things you just can't share. Not with everyone, because some people just can't understand. And my grief is too deep to be made fun of, so I won't take the chance.
I stayed awake from 9 PM yesterday till 6:55 AM today. teary eyes as I gaze on all the thread of this forum.. back and forth .. back and forth watching the time goes by.. it was just like yesterday..
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Dear white_angel-----it very much sounds like you are having an unusually rough go, these days. Just remember, there is no deadline on
grieving, and you can take your time---but take care of yourself, and be sure to stay with your family here.
By the way, I just learned how to download pictures, got about 7-8 of Heath, but only printed one. And, strangely enough, it's the one
you are using. I guess we both wanted something formal and stable. Like, suitable for framing. Not that the others aren't good--just this one
had a certain appeal, of its own.
Get plenty of sleep, know that we all feel the same way, and hang in there. Hang tough but stay sweet and loving. Both are compatible----
because they were what we found in Heath.
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heaths death was hard on everyone and continues to be but i think it is important we remember he still lives in our memories and his daughter and it is important to know he is in a better place now
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Even though working through all this grief is taking time, its great to hear how supportive colleagues and friends have been to many of us since January 22. One the most interesting, simplest and kindest words came from of all people..my mechanic. I just happened to have scheduled some auto work on January 23. I have had the same mechanic for a few years, at least from the time I ordered a license plate reflecting the title BBM. Well, late on Jan 23, I returned to pick up the car, and my mechanic had the saddest look on his face. I never expected him to say, in the kindest voice, ..."your cowboy died..."
It was extremely sad to hear those words two weeks ago. Thinking those words still makes sad now, but also thankful. Sadness feels a little less lonely when its coupled with gratitude. Kind of like Ennis at the end of BBM...we have a lot to look forward to..but we won't forget the past.
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Even though working through all this grief is taking time, its great to hear how supportive colleagues and friends have been to many of us since January 22. One the most interesting, simplest and kindest words came from of all people..my mechanic. late on Jan 23, I returned to pick up the car, and my mechanic had the saddest look on his face. I never expected him to say, in the kindest voice, ..."your cowboy died..."
It was extremely sad to hear those words two weeks ago. Thinking those words still makes sad now, but also thankful. Sadness feels a little less lonely when its coupled with gratitude. Kind of like Ennis at the end of BBM...we have a lot to look forward to..but we won't forget the past.
Well friend, I have been doing pretty well lately, but this story just brought tears to my eyes once again. It is gratifying to know people may not understand but they still know to reach out to people in pain. It's a wonderful statement of the human condition. Thank you for this post. O0
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Dear white_angel-----it very much sounds like you are having an unusually rough go, these days. Just remember, there is no deadline on
grieving, and you can take your time---but take care of yourself, and be sure to stay with your family here.
By the way, I just learned how to download pictures, got about 7-8 of Heath, but only printed one. And, strangely enough, it's the one
you are using. I guess we both wanted something formal and stable. Like, suitable for framing. Not that the others aren't good--just this one
had a certain appeal, of its own.
Get plenty of sleep, know that we all feel the same way, and hang in there. Hang tough but stay sweet and loving. Both are compatible----
because they were what we found in Heath.
His death hit me really hard, Tony.
Sleep does not come to me regularly these days since " Roast" left
Thanks much for the concern.
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Oh god, I just watched the E! Hollywood story about an hour and a half ago and though I didn't listen much to what all the people were saying, I watched and all I could see was him. What captured me the most was when the "E!" showed their 1st interview with him at the age of 20, he was so pure and humble and his smile was just..I can't even begin to say. He was just having fun! I was transfixed on that smile for the rest of the night. After the 1st commerical, my mom told me to come into the other room to watch it instead of sitting on my heard stepping stool in the kitchen so I did and my dad was already in there and I was shocked when we all sat down, silent, watching the story of our beloved Heath unfold. After the show, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't, I just numb. I laid down on the couch and suddenly the song, "You Are My Sunshine" popped into my head and in that moment, I started to cry. I do not know why, but I did.
He was just a man, a man I admired and one that I hoped to meet, and yet never will get the chance to. I can't believe it's a month later. Still to this day, I can't comprehend, I cannot begin to try and express all the words to describe this man, what he meant to the world, us, me. He WAS [ :\'( ] our sunshine, one that came from beyond the clouds and captured our hearts. He was the light that showed to us to love and enjoy life. Then in one swift below of the wind, the clouds covered our light, our sunshine, our piece of heaven in the darkness. Thankfully, we all know that this being, our light has now gone somewhere where it is in peace. Our sunshine, making it's way into our hearts once again, never to be taken away from us.
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His death hit me really hard, Tony.
Sleep does not come to me regularly these days since " Roast" left
Thanks much for the concern.
You're not alone in that. We're glad you're here with us. :ghug:
bnjmn3, what a beautiful story. As BBBOY said, it is wonderful to see this side of people at times like this.
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Thankfully, we all know that this being, our light has now gone somewhere where it is in peace. Our sunshine, making it's way into our hearts once again, never to be taken away from us.
Amen lil_dwarf. :^^)
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Oh god, I just watched the E! Hollywood story about an hour and a half ago and though I didn't listen much to what all the people were saying, I watched and all I could see was him. What captured me the most was when the "E!" showed their 1st interview with him at the age of 20, he was so pure and humble and his smile was just..I can't even begin to say. He was just having fun! I was transfixed on that smile for the rest of the night. After the 1st commerical, my mom told me to come into the other room to watch it instead of sitting on my heard stepping stool in the kitchen so I did and my dad was already in there and I was shocked when we all sat down, silent, watching the story of our beloved Heath unfold. After the show, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't, I just numb. I laid down on the couch and suddenly the song, "You Are My Sunshine" popped into my head and in that moment, I started to cry. I do not know why, but I did.
He was just a man, a man I admired and one that I hoped to meet, and yet never will get the chance to. I can't believe it's a month later. Still to this day, I can't comprehend, I cannot begin to try and express all the words to describe this man, what he meant to the world, us, me. He WAS [ :\'( ] our sunshine, one that came from beyond the clouds and captured our hearts. He was the light that showed to us to love and enjoy life. Then in one swift below of the wind, the clouds covered our light, our sunshine, our piece of heaven in the darkness. Thankfully, we all know that this being, our light has now gone somewhere where it is in peace. Our sunshine, making it's way into our hearts once again, never to be taken away from us.
I missed that, I was asleep. I would have loved to watch it. does anyone know if they will show It again?
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Oh god, I just watched the E! Hollywood story about an hour and a half ago and though I didn't listen much to what all the people were saying, I watched and all I could see was him. What captured me the most was when the "E!" showed their 1st interview with him at the age of 20, he was so pure and humble and his smile was just..I can't even begin to say. He was just having fun! I was transfixed on that smile for the rest of the night. After the 1st commerical, my mom told me to come into the other room to watch it instead of sitting on my heard stepping stool in the kitchen so I did and my dad was already in there and I was shocked when we all sat down, silent, watching the story of our beloved Heath unfold. After the show, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't, I just numb. I laid down on the couch and suddenly the song, "You Are My Sunshine" popped into my head and in that moment, I started to cry. I do not know why, but I did.
He was just a man, a man I admired and one that I hoped to meet, and yet never will get the chance to. I can't believe it's a month later. Still to this day, I can't comprehend, I cannot begin to try and express all the words to describe this man, what he meant to the world, us, me. He WAS [ :\'( ] our sunshine, one that came from beyond the clouds and captured our hearts. He was the light that showed to us to love and enjoy life. Then in one swift below of the wind, the clouds covered our light, our sunshine, our piece of heaven in the darkness. Thankfully, we all know that this being, our light has now gone somewhere where it is in peace. Our sunshine, making it's way into our hearts once again, never to be taken away from us.
lovely post and the song you thought of is fitting for this he was a ray of sunshine to the world and now he's gone but he will never be forgoten so until we meet heath again in a better place we must let him live on in ourselves.
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Even though working through all this grief is taking time, its great to hear how supportive colleagues and friends have been to many of us since January 22. One the most interesting, simplest and kindest words came from of all people..my mechanic. I just happened to have scheduled some auto work on January 23. I have had the same mechanic for a few years, at least from the time I ordered a license plate reflecting the title BBM. Well, late on Jan 23, I returned to pick up the car, and my mechanic had the saddest look on his face. I never expected him to say, in the kindest voice, ..."your cowboy died..."
It was extremely sad to hear those words two weeks ago. Thinking those words still makes sad now, but also thankful. Sadness feels a little less lonely when its coupled with gratitude. Kind of like Ennis at the end of BBM...we have a lot to look forward to..but we won't forget the past.
That's so beautiful!!! I only have my sister to understand me. The rest of my friends and family just think I'm crazy and silly. You know.
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That's so beautiful!!! I only have my sister to understand me. The rest of my friends and family just think I'm crazy and silly. You know.
i understand you babytammy ^f^. we are so alike lol both crazy but when it comes to seriouse matters you know whats important :)
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&**) :h) :h)Heath i owe you one,i miss u and i need you here in Holland.i love you Pascalle
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This is gorgeous! And I've never seen it, and can't quite tell about when it would have been taken. Do you know?
kathy
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A list sib on a site said, when it was suggested we move on with our BBM story discussion (which I thought was a pretty good idea) that we can put the awful incidence behind us and move on. I'm sure each person suffers loss, great or small, their own way, but I've never been able to do that, put it behind. Even my beloved pets are still in me part of me. Not being able to see and hug, talk, dear Lord talking to my sister, I'll always have tears wanting to so bad, but she is still here, part of my world. We are a sum of who we were, who we've known, where we've been... Heath is in my world, he will never be left behind but part of my whole, part of what makes the sun warm and summer nights soft. He gave me some of the best of my times, his loss wouldn't have been such a tragedy for me if his life hadn't been so rich and dear. Life sucks and this was ultimate unfair and wrong, but he was still a most treasured gift.
jessi
I am so glad you said this, jessi...and I type through tears. It is so simple, and it is so true, that we are everyone we have ever known, we are everything we have ever cared about. I certainly feel I have Heath in myself now -- maybe even more than when he was here. Since he's not here, we who are left get to carry on for him.
And also tears because you mentioned your sister. I lost my sister in 1984, and I will never, ever not miss her...but also, she became even more a part of me when she left, so I carry on for her, too. I carry on for a lot of people who have passed on, so it's not like I'm inexperienced in the ways of death and mourning and carrying on...but I do marvel at how strongly I have felt the loss of Heath. Actually, if I were not part of this forum, if I were just alone, my love for BBM and for Heath and Jake and everyone wouldn't have been so heightened -- h eightened from the sharing of it. Nor would my grief have been so heightened. But I am glad for it, the heightened-ness, even the grief part of it.
kathy
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Rest in peace, Heath baby
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Carmilla, this is beautiful! You made this beautiful candle, with the banner -- and I love the red tie, and I love that it is in the snow.
kathy
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Oh god, I just watched the E! Hollywood story about an hour and a half ago and though I didn't listen much to what all the people were saying, I watched and all I could see was him. What captured me the most was when the "E!" showed their 1st interview with him at the age of 20, he was so pure and humble and his smile was just..I can't even begin to say. He was just having fun! I was transfixed on that smile for the rest of the night. After the 1st commerical, my mom told me to come into the other room to watch it instead of sitting on my heard stepping stool in the kitchen so I did and my dad was already in there and I was shocked when we all sat down, silent, watching the story of our beloved Heath unfold. After the show, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't, I just numb. I laid down on the couch and suddenly the song, "You Are My Sunshine" popped into my head and in that moment, I started to cry. I do not know why, but I did.
He was just a man, a man I admired and one that I hoped to meet, and yet never will get the chance to. I can't believe it's a month later. Still to this day, I can't comprehend, I cannot begin to try and express all the words to describe this man, what he meant to the world, us, me. He WAS [ :\'( ] our sunshine, one that came from beyond the clouds and captured our hearts. He was the light that showed to us to love and enjoy life. Then in one swift below of the wind, the clouds covered our light, our sunshine, our piece of heaven in the darkness. Thankfully, we all know that this being, our light has now gone somewhere where it is in peace. Our sunshine, making it's way into our hearts once again, never to be taken away from us.
You always express yourself so beautifully, lil_dwarf, and this one has brought tears to me, also. And, I'm glad for you that your parents seem to respect your feelings for BBM, and now for Heath...
kathy
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I missed that, I was asleep. I would have loved to watch it. does anyone know if they will show It again?
I know it repeats several times next week here in US, but not sure for you. Do you have something like tvguide.com? I recorded it today, Saturday, but haven't watched it yet...
kathy
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I know it repeats several times next week here in US, but not sure for you. Do you have something like tvguide.com? I recorded it today, Saturday, but haven't watched it yet...
kathy
okay, no I don't :(
maybe I'll find it on youtube or something. but thanks anyways :)
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Oh my... look at Matilda's eyes!
As Michelle said, she is the spitting image of her father...
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Oh my... look at Matilda's eyes!
As Michelle said, she is the spitting image of her father...
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Please do not post paparazzi shots, it is against the forum guidelines. Thank you.
oh yer she really is isnt she. i feel so bad for her barely getting time to know her dad
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that picture of Matilda made me cry :\'( I miss her daddy
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I miss him too!. :\'(
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I miss him too!. :\'(
i think its safe to say we all do :( but the way i look at it is he lives on in us all and his family and also in his character ennis. just as i feel jack lives on in jake it may be a strange comfort but its something
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i think its safe to say we all do :( but the way i look at it is he lives on in us all and his family and also in his character ennis. just as i feel jack lives on in jake it may be a strange comfort but its something
Yes we all miss our boy.
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i think its safe to say we all do :( but the way i look at it is he lives on in us all and his family and also in his character ennis. just as i feel jack lives on in jake it may be a strange comfort but its something
beautiful, you just made me cry :\'(
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i think its safe to say we all do :( but the way i look at it is he lives on in us all and his family and also in his character ennis. just as i feel jack lives on in jake it may be a strange comfort but its something
So true :(
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Maybe this is one reason I don't get comfort where a lot do. He lives on in all he did and was and left and our celebration of him, but he can't be there for his baby, she won't really remember him. I am crushed for those close to him for they don't have heartaches, those time will heal, they have brokenhearts, perhaps I do too, and those hearts are fixed, as best as each of us can, but never ever NEVER the same. And I know his closest loved ones, for them, their hearts are shattered. His daughter's greatest loss is never knowing him. In the long run though for me it's Heath who can't have what he should have had. I ache for him, what a tragedy for him. Maybe I should leave for I know I can't give comfort. I miss for him too much. His death was so absolute wrong.
jessi
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Maybe this is one reason I don't get comfort where a lot do. He lives on in all he did and was and left and our celebration of him, but he can't be there for his baby, she won't really remember him. I am crushed for those close to him for they don't have heartaches, those time will heal, they have brokenhearts, perhaps I do too, and those hearts are fixed, as best as each of us can, but never ever NEVER the same. And I know his closest loved ones, for them, their hearts are shattered. His daughter's greatest loss is never knowing him. In the long run though for me it's Heath who can't have what he should have had. I ache for him, what a tragedy for him. Maybe I should leave for I know I can't give comfort. I miss for him too much. His death was so absolute wrong.
jessi
yes it was :\'(
and :ghug: to you, you seem to need them
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Maybe this is one reason I don't get comfort where a lot do. He lives on in all he did and was and left and our celebration of him, but he can't be there for his baby, she won't really remember him. I am crushed for those close to him for they don't have heartaches, those time will heal, they have brokenhearts, perhaps I do too, and those hearts are fixed, as best as each of us can, but never ever NEVER the same. And I know his closest loved ones, for them, their hearts are shattered. His daughter's greatest loss is never knowing him. In the long run though for me it's Heath who can't have what he should have had. I ache for him, what a tragedy for him. Maybe I should leave for I know I can't give comfort. I miss for him too much. His death was so absolute wrong.
jessi
so true :\'(
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You are absolutely right, jessi. There is nothing right about Heath's death. Erica Bana said that Heath was robbed. He is also absolutely right. Heath was robbed of the time he could have spent watching Matilda growing up, learning to ride, learning to do all the little things he planned for her to do. Heath was robbed of all the movies he had planned to make, all the scripts he planned to write, all the lives that he would have touched, and most of all, all the love that would have been pouring to his support.
Sometimes, bad things happen to good people.
There is nothing right about it. We cannot make it right.
We can only make the rest of our lives right by them who loved us. Heath loved life and lived every moment fully, fearlessly, not dwelling on past mistakes, past regrets. He looked to the future while making the most of the present. He gave us a gift when he portrayed Ennis Del Mar, his regrets, his pain. He gave us a gift when he portrayed William Thatcher, a peasant who reached for the stars, and wished his dream until it came true.
We honor his memory when we imitate his life, and make the most of ours.
:ghug:
Maybe this is one reason I don't get comfort where a lot do. He lives on in all he did and was and left and our celebration of him, but he can't be there for his baby, she won't really remember him. I am crushed for those close to him for they don't have heartaches, those time will heal, they have brokenhearts, perhaps I do too, and those hearts are fixed, as best as each of us can, but never ever NEVER the same. And I know his closest loved ones, for them, their hearts are shattered. His daughter's greatest loss is never knowing him. In the long run though for me it's Heath who can't have what he should have had. I ache for him, what a tragedy for him. Maybe I should leave for I know I can't give comfort. I miss for him too much. His death was so absolute wrong.
jessi
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You are absolutely right, jessi. There is nothing right about Heath's death. Erica Bana said that Heath was robbed. He is also absolutely right. Heath was robbed of the time he could have spent watching Matilda growing up, learning to ride, learning to do all the little things he planned for her to do. Heath was robbed of all the movies he had planned to make, all the scripts he planned to write, all the lives that he would have touched, and most of all, all the love that would have been pouring to his support.
Sometimes, bad things happen to good people.
There is nothing right about it. We cannot make it right.
We can only make the rest of our lives right by them who loved us. Heath loved life and lived every moment fully, fearlessly, not dwelling on past mistakes, past regrets. He looked to the future while making the most of the present. He gave us a gift when he portrayed Ennis Del Mar, his regrets, his pain. He gave us a gift when he portrayed William Thatcher, a peasant who reached for the stars, and wished his dream until it came true.
We honor his memory when we imitate his life, and make the most of ours.
:ghug:
well said lancecowboy your posts are always so insightful and i enjoy reading them even if the topic is not a happy one. you truely do have a good soul :)
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Sorry to be the usual pain in the butt Brokies, posting pictures of Matilda are not authorized since there are paparazzi shots, posting of them will be edited by the moderators. Thanks for your co-operation.
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that picture of Matilda made me cry :\'( I miss her daddy
Dear Emzan, we are not allowed to speak about Heath's child, but I understand why you cry :^^) Cham is right when he edits posts about Matilda ^f^
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she was a behemoth
in her heyday
commanding respect
with each foray into
her local surroundings
and eventually the world
many came to her as well
to help sustain their lives
as best they could
but once her blood
had been spilled
and not staunched
in any number of ways
it could have been
each system shut down
more life pooled
onto the streets
hoping to be absorbed
by some other entity
death is familiar in the end
vultures came to pick away
the choicest bits
leaving this corpus
abandoned beside the river............................
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she was a behemoth
in her heyday
commanding respect
with each foray into
her local surroundings
and eventually the world
many came to her as well
to help sustain their lives
as best they could
but once her blood
had been spilled
and not staunched
in any number of ways
it could have been
each system shut down
more life pooled
onto the streets
hoping to be absorbed
by some other entity
death is familiar in the end
vultures came to pick away
the choicest bits
leaving this corpus
abandoned beside the river............................
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffarm1.static.flickr.com%2F107%2F312160515_8a7e4bb84f_m.jpg&hash=3d32687fa0826bc265bca2c2f876f9f6e671b713)
O0 Very nice poem Jakelandia ^f^
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Dear Emzan, we are not allowed to speak about Heath's child, but I understand why you cry :^^) Cham is right when he edits posts about Matilda ^f^
Let me rephrase this, we could talk about Matilda but the pictures are not allowed because of the paparazzi origin and the respect due to the actors private lives.
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Let me rephrase this, we could talk about Matilda but the pictures are not allowed because of the paparazzi origin and the respect due to the actors private lives.
(:) (:) (:) You are right dear Cham : no paparazzi pics but words O0
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she was a behemoth
in her heyday
commanding respect
with each foray into
her local surroundings
and eventually the world
many came to her as well
to help sustain their lives
as best they could
but once her blood
had been spilled
and not staunched
in any number of ways
it could have been
each system shut down
more life pooled
onto the streets
hoping to be absorbed
by some other entity
death is familiar in the end
vultures came to pick away
the choicest bits
leaving this corpus
abandoned beside the river............................
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffarm1.static.flickr.com%2F107%2F312160515_8a7e4bb84f_m.jpg&hash=3d32687fa0826bc265bca2c2f876f9f6e671b713)
good poem its very deep
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Maybe this is one reason I don't get comfort where a lot do. He lives on in all he did and was and left and our celebration of him, but he can't be there for his baby, she won't really remember him. I am crushed for those close to him for they don't have heartaches, those time will heal, they have brokenhearts, perhaps I do too, and those hearts are fixed, as best as each of us can, but never ever NEVER the same. And I know his closest loved ones, for them, their hearts are shattered. His daughter's greatest loss is never knowing him. In the long run though for me it's Heath who can't have what he should have had. I ache for him, what a tragedy for him. Maybe I should leave for I know I can't give comfort. I miss for him too much. His death was so absolute wrong.
jessi
:ghug: Jessi. Yes his death is absolutely wrong. And no you shouldn't leave because you feel you can't give comfort.
I've had those feelings off and on and then I realized that maybe part of giving comfort wasn't necessarily in just the "right" words or some profound statement, that maybe it's just expressing the hurt and letting others know they are not alone in feeling the way they do. I don't know. :ghug:
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O0 Very nice poem Jakelandia ^f^
tns
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I was going to post some of the following yesterday but it put me back into a very dark place, so much so that all of my BBM stuff is now sitting in a box- I packed it all away because I couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
I was wondering if anyone else is stuck in the in-between place. I guess I’m feeling lost, if that’s the right word, sort of like a sheep that’s gotten separated from the flock. And I can't seem to transition back to life before 1/22- everything is upside down and inside out. I know it won't ever be the same again but Iguess I'm trying to find that new "normal". I always said it would take something big to shake me back down to “reality” again but I never expected nor wanted this. Then I started wondering if this was some kind of "sign"- to come down off the mountain-you know the bad storm from the pacific rolling in. Our paradise lost? I don't mean to turn his death into some kind of mission statement or whatever and of the day- he died. We will all die. There doesn't have to be a bigger reason behind it all- that's just life but yet it feels like there should be some reason behind it. Because it's senseless, untimely, tragic, heart-breaking and I guess in order to try and make some sense of it I need to grasp at straws or something. I guess I'm feeling a sense of "it's only fun until someone gets hurt" and then the “game” is over.
I kept thinking of AP's words- "the imagined power of BBM". But could it have been imaginary? No. There is no way that "power" wasn't real. And yet, I just can’t seem to get back to “normal”- J/E seem like strangers- I saw a vid with the reunion kiss in it and I had no reaction to it, tried to look at Jake pics last week, you know dipping a toe in, and it may as well have been a blank screen, no reaction; I have no interest in my fan fics. Friday night I went into the meets threads and looked at the three NY ones I was a part of in October and November. I guess trying to remember why I’m here, the really good times etc. And yeah I smiled and kind of felt good. But then it started to remind me of my last trip to NY and how everything just crashed down. There was that sharp contrast between the first three meets- the high, the euphoria, the love- just brokies being brokies and then how the January trip was such a harsh, horrible reality that I still can't find the words to describe it-everything changed for me then.
I guess I’m just at odds with myself in the sense that I know nothing will ever be the same again and the reason behind it is too heartbreaking to put into words. We’ve lost someone we love; someone who we didn't have the privelege to really know but who meant a great deal to us regardless. His poor parents had the unimaginable task of burying their child-something I hope to never experience and a little girl will grow up never really knowing her Daddy. I know it happens everyday in the world but not in my world and I guess I just don’t know how to reconcile it. I guess I should stop because this is turning into another non-sensical ramble.
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It's OK to talk about it Michelle.
You now come over here :ghug:
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yes it was :\'(
and :ghug: to you, you seem to need them
Thank you, you are right, in the long run maybe that's all we can do. Give hugs and a caring ear. Maybe the older I get the more difficut it is to deal with wrong, hurt, ifs. Yet, heath helped me find something I never really knew I had, helped me to put visions to words, for what it's worth, maybe I'll do more with that because there is not a legacy, no matter how small, of Heath's that should be wasted. And maybe someday I'll again talk without a ramble. lol. thank you for your tolerance and caring. Two of his greatest legacys.
jessi
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We understand you so well; we're all on the same boat. Still It's so hard to believe.
Tammy- pleased to meet you :ghug: and thank you for your words.
Yesterday it was a month and still I can't believe he's passed away, it's a too sad thing. :\'(
So glad to have met BBM family <^( I really feel myself understood.
Love from Megalyn08 ^f^
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welcome to the forum magelyn :)
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:ghug: Jessi. Yes his death is absolutely wrong. And no you shouldn't leave because you feel you can't give comfort.
I've had those feelings off and on and then I realized that maybe part of giving comfort wasn't necessarily in just the "right" words or some profound statement, that maybe it's just expressing the hurt and letting others know they are not alone in feeling the way they do. I don't know. :ghug:
Sharing. Just sharing pain helps.
jessi
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- I packed it all away because I couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
-you know the bad We will all die.
I guess trying to remember why I’m here, the really good times etc. And yeah I smiled and kind of felt good.
. I guess I should stop because this is turning into another non-sensical ramble.
:ghug: You are here with us dear LJN ... We are alive ^f^
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Thanks, zanhou1991. I am grateful for your compliment but the credit belongs to Heath. I am merely a mirror of the light from his old soul. I honestly try to do what he would have done. The more I learn about him, the more I love him, and there is no end to this.
I've lived with the pain of loss for many years, so it is nothing to me to have another layer on top of the old pain. And as I posted someplace else, the healing that this forum gave me for the last five months, and the healing that Heath gave through his portrayal of Ennis, is the only reason why I am not a mess. Like a broken bone that healed, the cracked place is stronger than before. My heart was broken into pieces. Heath and this forum healed it. I am stronger now than I was when I first joined here, because of you all.
Please always remember that I am merely a mirror of Heath's light, and a reflection of the friendship and love I received from this forum. I wish I can wave a magic wand and give up to you all what you have given me, so that the strength you gave me can be transferred back to you. Without the last five months in this forum, without the gift from Heath's amazing ability to touch souls, I am nothing. I came to this forum like Ennis at the end of the last meeting, when Jack said, "I wish I knew how to quit you." I am today what you all made me. Thank you all for that.
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well said lancecowboy your posts are always so insightful and i enjoy reading them even if the topic is not a happy one. you truely do have a good soul :)
You are absolutely right, jessi. There is nothing right about Heath's death. Erica Bana said that Heath was robbed. He is also absolutely right. Heath was robbed of the time he could have spent watching Matilda growing up, learning to ride, learning to do all the little things he planned for her to do. Heath was robbed of all the movies he had planned to make, all the scripts he planned to write, all the lives that he would have touched, and most of all, all the love that would have been pouring to his support.
Sometimes, bad things happen to good people.
There is nothing right about it. We cannot make it right.
We can only make the rest of our lives right by them who loved us. Heath loved life and lived every moment fully, fearlessly, not dwelling on past mistakes, past regrets. He looked to the future while making the most of the present. He gave us a gift when he portrayed Ennis Del Mar, his regrets, his pain. He gave us a gift when he portrayed William Thatcher, a peasant who reached for the stars, and wished his dream until it came true.
We honor his memory when we imitate his life, and make the most of ours.
:ghug:
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I was going to post some of the following yesterday but it put me back into a very dark place, so much so that all of my BBM stuff is now sitting in a box- I packed it all away because I couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
I was wondering if anyone else is stuck in the in-between place. I guess I’m feeling lost, if that’s the right word, sort of like a sheep that’s gotten separated from the flock. And I can't seem to transition back to life before 1/22- everything is upside down and inside out. I know it won't ever be the same again but Iguess I'm trying to find that new "normal". I always said it would take something big to shake me back down to “reality” again but I never expected nor wanted this. Then I started wondering if this was some kind of "sign"- to come down off the mountain-you know the bad storm from the pacific rolling in. Our paradise lost? I don't mean to turn his death into some kind of mission statement or whatever and of the day- he died. We will all die. There doesn't have to be a bigger reason behind it all- that's just life but yet it feels like there should be some reason behind it. Because it's senseless, untimely, tragic, heart-breaking and I guess in order to try and make some sense of it I need to grasp at straws or something. I guess I'm feeling a sense of "it's only fun until someone gets hurt" and then the “game” is over.
I kept thinking of AP's words- "the imagined power of BBM". But could it have been imaginary? No. There is no way that "power" wasn't real. And yet, I just can’t seem to get back to “normal”- J/E seem like strangers- I saw a vid with the reunion kiss in it and I had no reaction to it, tried to look at Jake pics last week, you know dipping a toe in, and it may as well have been a blank screen, no reaction; I have no interest in my fan fics. Friday night I went into the meets threads and looked at the three NY ones I was a part of in October and November. I guess trying to remember why I’m here, the really good times etc. And yeah I smiled and kind of felt good. But then it started to remind me of my last trip to NY and how everything just crashed down. There was that sharp contrast between the first three meets- the high, the euphoria, the love- just brokies being brokies and then how the January trip was such a harsh, horrible reality that I still can't find the words to describe it-everything changed for me then.
I guess I’m just at odds with myself in the sense that I know nothing will ever be the same again and the reason behind it is too heartbreaking to put into words. We’ve lost someone we love; someone who we didn't have the privelege to really know but who meant a great deal to us regardless. His poor parents had the unimaginable task of burying their child-something I hope to never experience and a little girl will grow up never really knowing her Daddy. I know it happens everyday in the world but not in my world and I guess I just don’t know how to reconcile it. I guess I should stop because this is turning into another non-sensical ramble.
I mirror your thoughts on a lot of this, LJN. As much as I try and convince myself otherwise, I know none of this will ever be the same for me. I hate admitting it, but it is the truth. I feel like I just pushed a rewind button on my life and am back to early 2005 before BBM took over my life. I am back at the point where I was lost, looking for that "next best thing" and coming up way short.
At this point, I don't know if there will ever be another BBM for me. I don't know if there will ever be another Heath. I don't see myself ever getting into a movie again or ever having a favorite actor again. Heath is still my favorite, always will be but someone that I can continue to follow and watch? I just don't see it happening. Many actors have come in and out of my life but none of them have been taken from me before I was ready to let them go and that I cannot deal with. I never had the chance to grow tired of Heath I never had the chance to just lose interest and find someone else who was more important to me. Heath was and always will be my number one and I am at a point right now where I resent anyone else who is still alive and making movies.
While I do have my love of music to take the blow down a couple of notches, there is still that stabbing pain that I get when I think of him. I wrote this small tribute to Heath a couple weeks ago...
To the boy who took my breath away that very first time 9 years ago
To the man who changed my life twice in two very short years
To the soul who lives on in everything I look at
Heath, it's because of you that I'm like this. Miss you always, love you forever.
Forever is such a hard word for me, right now. I don't think we realize the implications of the word until something makes us. This made me. To know that me, you, his family and so many others will have to wake up every single day for the rest of their lives in a world without him is almost too much for me sometimes. To know we will never see him the way we did before. Never another pictures, never another interview, never another movie.
To have a daughter that is a mere 7 weeks younger than Heath's own daughter is tough on me, as well. All of the things I get to see my little girl do every day and that I will get to see her do through her life, one of the first things I think is "Heath will never experience this." He'll never take her to her first day of kindergarten, never get to attend her High School graduation, never dance with her at her wedding. This hurts me more than never getting to see him in another movie again.
Now I'm the one rambling. I guess in a nutshell I know that this is it for me. I know that BBM will always have a place in my heart and in my soul but it will never be what it was. I never think about it the way I used to and I probably never will again. In a way I can almost feel myself reverting back to who I was in 2005. Not so much personality-wise, but my thoughts. I can actually remember the time where BBM wasn't on my mind 24/7. I can remember doing other things and not once thinking about BBM. I now seem to have three periods in my life. Life before Brokeback, life during Brokeback and now, life after Brokeback.
I never wanted it to end this way, but I don't seem to have any control over it. The friendships I've made here will never drive me away but that seems to be all I am here for these days. I hate it so much, but I can't stop it.
I'll stop. :-X
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Dear Michelle---I know pretty much how you feel....this is a hurting that just doesn't want to heal up. For me, it isn't just the sudden death
(ouch---that word), but the information that came pouring out, before it was squashed, that absolutely confirmed what I had seen in Heath,
that there was more to him, and he was capable of suffering deeply. That made it all worse---knowing the Heath I supposed was there, past
the movies and the studio photos....was there. So much more to him, and yet he felt he had to be what others wanted him to be...happy-go-
lucky, never a downer, always cheerful. Hell, what are true friends for, if they can't let you weep and bleed a little when you hurt?
I've tried anger, I've tried depression, I've tried making fun of myself....but it always comes back to that same old hurting, that he hid his
depression, his fears, even the pnuemonia, when he shouldn't have. Well, maybe he didn't. Maybe he tried the only way he knew how, to
signal, rather than say in words---I'm just like the rest of you, and I'm not doing so well, lately.
I wish I could have been there, in Washington Park, where he would end up, at dawn, to play chess, after walking alone, troubled with the
thoughts that show up in that awful painting (itself a signal, maybe, of what he could not say). Only I don't play chess. And I wouldn't have
been able to fully understand, or help.
One thing is certain---like you, like carbyville, like jessi,.....I'm not going for it. He doesn't get packed away in a box for memories. I'm able
to keep on saying, it was wrong, I miss him, and if that hurts....well, it just hurts, that's all. Ain't like we're strangers to that.
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The fact that we as his fans didn't know certain things does not mean that he hasn't talked to his friends about it. You can hardly expect of him to tell the media what's bothering him, but who says he hid things from his friends? why assume that he was lonely? I see no reason to think that.
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
i totally agree with every word you said. yes it is awful that heath died so young and nothing can ever make it right again but leaving the forum would just be the first step in working towards forgetting heath. heath may be gone but he still lives inside us and im sure he is watching us all right now i know what i say probably wont change anyones mind about leaving i just urge you to think it through first. weve lost heath we dont need to lose forum or should i say family members
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welcome to the forum magelyn :)
:t) Thank you, Zankou, I am pleased to meet you too. :h)
Megalyn08
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:t) Thank you, Zankou, I am pleased to meet you too. :h)
Megalyn08
no problem i only joined a week ago myself and already feel like part of the family im sure you will begin to aswell :)
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Hello Magalyn :)
Your post was beautiful :\'(
To this day, I can't seem to grasp that he is finally gone and every time I watch movies I feel that he's still with us, smiling, enjoying his life with his family and espically with his daughter
I think that's what gets me the most, he HAD something to live for and he didn't mean to leave us
It was just an accident..accident? A hard word to swallow
Yes, he was our friend, not in person, but in all of our hearts
A man who embaced life and loved everyone he was with
I'm thankful as well for all he gave us
He will never be forgotton, I know this as well
Thank you Megalyn for your post and I hope you'll become a permanant part of our BBM family
Lis
Hello Lil! :h) Thank you for replying me. :t) Yes, I really wish to become a permanent part of BBM family, thank you. :)
I perfect understand what you mean. I watch movies or videos on "you tube" and for a moment I forget what has happened. But then, when the movie or the video finishes, I remember and become sad. :\'(
You're right, he had so much to live for and I'm sure he has never meant to leave forever.
He wanted to stay with his family, his friends, and see his daughter grow up.
What a tragic accident (yes, very hard word to swallow), what a terrible loss for us all! Of course he will never be forgotten.
I think now he's the guardian angel for all those he loved, especially little sweet Matilda. <^(
Love from Megalyn08
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Hello Lil! :h) Thank you for replying me. :t) Yes, I really wish to become a permanent part of BBM family, thank you. :)
I perfect understand what you mean. I watch movies or videos on "you tube" and for a moment I forget what has happened. But then, when the movie or the video finishes, I remember and become sad. :\'(
You're right, he had so much to live for and I'm sure he has never meant to leave forever.
He wanted to stay with his family, his friends, and see his daughter grow up.
What a tragic accident (yes, very hard word to swallow), what a terrible loss for us all! Of course he will never be forgotten.
I think now he's the guardian angel for all those he loved, especially little sweet Matilda. <^(
Love from Megalyn08
i can already tell your gonna fit in great here megalyn your words are so beautiful :)
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The countdown is underway...
What will the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences have to say about Heath Ledger?
How will the AMPAS honor Mr. Ledger's amazing talent, and the vacuum caused by his death?
How will the AMPAS acknowledge Mr. Ledger's definitive performance as Ennis del Mar in Brokeback Mountain?
... a posthumously presented BEST ACTOR award is the only possible correction...
... these are the questions for which I await answers.
Score Card:
Memorial:
Honor:
Brokeback:
Be well, all.... I'm so proud to part of this family.
S in FreakShow (Jacksonville) Florida
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I was going to post some of the following yesterday but it put me back into a very dark place, so much so that all of my BBM stuff is now sitting in a box- I packed it all away because I couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
I was wondering if anyone else is stuck in the in-between place. I guess I’m feeling lost, if that’s the right word, sort of like a sheep that’s gotten separated from the flock. And I can't seem to transition back to life before 1/22- everything is upside down and inside out. I know it won't ever be the same again but Iguess I'm trying to find that new "normal". I always said it would take something big to shake me back down to “reality” again but I never expected nor wanted this. Then I started wondering if this was some kind of "sign"- to come down off the mountain-you know the bad storm from the pacific rolling in. Our paradise lost? I don't mean to turn his death into some kind of mission statement or whatever and of the day- he died. We will all die. There doesn't have to be a bigger reason behind it all- that's just life but yet it feels like there should be some reason behind it. Because it's senseless, untimely, tragic, heart-breaking and I guess in order to try and make some sense of it I need to grasp at straws or something. I guess I'm feeling a sense of "it's only fun until someone gets hurt" and then the “game” is over.
I kept thinking of AP's words- "the imagined power of BBM". But could it have been imaginary? No. There is no way that "power" wasn't real. And yet, I just can’t seem to get back to “normal”- J/E seem like strangers- I saw a vid with the reunion kiss in it and I had no reaction to it, tried to look at Jake pics last week, you know dipping a toe in, and it may as well have been a blank screen, no reaction; I have no interest in my fan fics. Friday night I went into the meets threads and looked at the three NY ones I was a part of in October and November. I guess trying to remember why I’m here, the really good times etc. And yeah I smiled and kind of felt good. But then it started to remind me of my last trip to NY and how everything just crashed down. There was that sharp contrast between the first three meets- the high, the euphoria, the love- just brokies being brokies and then how the January trip was such a harsh, horrible reality that I still can't find the words to describe it-everything changed for me then.
I guess I’m just at odds with myself in the sense that I know nothing will ever be the same again and the reason behind it is too heartbreaking to put into words. We’ve lost someone we love; someone who we didn't have the privelege to really know but who meant a great deal to us regardless. His poor parents had the unimaginable task of burying their child-something I hope to never experience and a little girl will grow up never really knowing her Daddy. I know it happens everyday in the world but not in my world and I guess I just don’t know how to reconcile it. I guess I should stop because this is turning into another non-sensical ramble.
Michelle, my sweet Michelle, that's so sad baby. I've cried a lot reading this. For me you've always been the perfect true brokie. Your devotion and love for BBM have been overwhelming and utterly beautiful these two last years. So please, don't say to me that the dream is over. First we lost Jack, then Heath, now you want come down off the mountain..... :\'( :\'( What will be the next? Brokies leaving this wonderful place, my home? Ennis and Jack being forgotten? I can't believe that our boys seem like strangers to you. No way, no way!! You're the only person that I know that always cries when she reads something about Jack, the one who was writing that delicious stuff about a king size bed, the one who had always precious words for our boys, for every fault and mistake they had, the brokie that always is there, supporting, understanding, loving.
I can’t even write this. It hurts so much to see you in such a pain. I wish with all my strength to have nice words to tell you, to make you feel a little bit better, but the truth is I don’t know what to do. I understand your sadness so well but I can’t help to be selfish. Don’t leave us alone here Michelle, ‘cause if you give up I’ll feel this place like if there were no any brokie here.
There was a time when I had all my BBM stuff in a box, remember that? I told you my story in a PM after my post in the PBS thread. World, life didn’t make sense to me. But then, one day I met people like me and the sun started to shine again. That was the day I came to this forum. I opened that BBM box and started to live again. So please give yourself time, put your things in a box if you want, hide yourself in an old tent in the most dark place of the mountain, cry rivers ‘cause you need it, but never, never, never come down off the mountain, ‘cause Ennis and Jack taught us not to make the same mistake as them, ‘cause Heath deserve more than that, sweetie. They were so brave, Jack with all those damn broken dreams, Ennis with a life full of regret in from of him, and Heath, so tired, so sick, but so in love with life, wanting go on, wanting to life in that mountain made of dreams and love the rest of his life. Now it’s our turn to be brave, to stand for everything we love. You can’t leave behind the thing that made you understand your previous life (remember that letter to Annie?), the treasure that cured you heart like no other medicine did. Like Heath, you deserve more than that.
I know it’s going to be real hard. Heath was a human being irreplaceable, but so you are, and Heath and the rest of the brokies don’t want you to loose you life in that rough sea of sadness. Time heals everything. Still it doesn’t seem to work for me, but I have faith, and some day, some day…You will see.
All of us love you more than you believe. I can’t stand the idea of you being so shattered. You know when people die, they keep leaving in the hearts of those who loved them, so if you keep living with a smile in your face, Heath keeps smiling too. You recognize love in the facts of those who love, so don’t let the pain and sadness speaks in the name of your love for Heath, ‘cause love, true love is stronger than death, and all the love Heath gave when he was alive never will dies, and that is a thing to celebrate, not a thing to hide in a box with every beautiful thing that made you smile just once month ago. Michelle, let’s bury that beloved body, but please let’s save all the beauty and all those marvellous things he gave us to treasure in our hearts. BBM was one of them, the most precious thing. In time, I know, that old cold time in the mountain will cure your soul, ‘cause one day, long time ago, that same mountain cured millions of hearts, when all that people thought they were alone with they suffering in the world.
I’ll be there waiting for you.
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Michelle, my sweet Michelle, that's so sad baby. I've cried a lot reading this. For me you've always been the perfect true brokie. Your devotion and love for BBM have been overwhelming and utterly beautiful these two last years. So please, don't say to me that the dream is over. First we lost Jack, then Heath, now you want come down off the mountain..... :\'( :\'( What will be the next? Brokies leaving this wonderful place, my home? Ennis and Jack being forgotten? I can't believe that our boys seem like strangers to you. No way, no way!! You're the only person that I know that always cries when she reads something about Jack, the one who was writing that delicious stuff about a king size bed, the one who had always precious words for our boys, for every fault and mistake they had, the brokie that always is there, supporting, understanding, loving.
I can’t even write this. It hurts so much to see you in such a pain. I wish with all my strength to have nice words to tell you, to make you feel a little bit better, but the truth is I don’t know what to do. I understand your sadness so well but I can’t help to be selfish. Don’t leave us alone here Michelle, ‘cause if you give up I’ll feel this place like if there were no any brokie here.
There was a time when I had all my BBM stuff in a box, remember that? I told you my story in a PM after my post in the PBS thread. World, life didn’t make sense to me. But then, one day I met people like me and the sun started to shine again. That was the day I came to this forum. I opened that BBM box and started to live again. So please give yourself time, put your things in a box if you want, hide yourself in an old tent in the most dark place of the mountain, cry rivers ‘cause you need it, but never, never, never come down off the mountain, ‘cause Ennis and Jack taught us not to make the same mistake as them, ‘cause Heath deserve more than that, sweetie. They were so brave, Jack with all those damn broken dreams, Ennis with a life full of regret in from of him, and Heath, so tired, so sick, but so in love with life, wanting go on, wanting to life in that mountain made of dreams and love the rest of his life. Now it’s our turn to be brave, to stand for everything we love. You can’t leave behind the thing that made you understand your previous life, the treasure that cured you heart like no other medicine did. Like Heath, you deserve more than that.
I know it’s going to be real hard. Heath was a human being irreplaceable, but so you are, and Heath and the rest of the brokies don’t want you to loose you life in that rough sea of sadness. Time heals everything. Still it doesn’t seem to work for me, but I have faith, and some day, some day…You will see.
All of us love you more than you believe. I can’t stand the idea of you being so shattered. You know when people die, they keep leaving in the hearts of those who loved them, so if you keep living with a smile in your face, Heath keeps smiling too. You recognize love in the facts of those who love, so don’t let the pain and sadness speaks in the name of your love for Heath, ‘cause love, true love is stronger than death, and all the love Heath gave when he was alive never will dies, and that is a thing to celebrate, not a thing to hide in a box with every beautiful thing that made you smile just once month ago. Michelle, let’s bury that beloved body, but please let’s save all the beauty and all those marvellous things he gave us to treasure in our hearts. BBM was one of them, the most precious thing. In time, I know, that old cold time in the mountain will cure your soul, ‘cause one day, long time ago, that same mountain cured millions of hearts, when all that people thought they were alone with they suffering in the world.
I’ll be there waiting for you.
tammy that was seriously beautiful i actually even shed a couple of tears and that hasnt happened ina long time and ive said it before i reinforce what tammy is saying please dont leave this haven for brokies and even more importantly please dont forget about the characters of the film or heath
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i can already tell your gonna fit in great here megalyn your words are so beautiful :)
Thank you again Zankou :t) :)
So you joined just a few days ago, like me. Well, #$# then. Megalyn08
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Your message touched me deeply, thank you Megalyn. it eases the pain of losing him somehow.
Hello White Angel, :)
I'm glad that my message has helped you in some way. I perfectly understand you, the pain you feel is the same I feel. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Love from Megalyn08
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NoReins, I am with you 100%. And last night, after watch A Knight's Tale, I watched the deleted scenes. In one of them, William Thatcher (Heath) talked to his pals about the emblem that they should choose for his knight, Sir Oric. The way he described the phoenix, rising from the ashes, where his ending is his beginning, made me realize that's what Heath felt about death. It was a new beginning for him, not the end. So like you said, every time I watch the Movie, and movies of Heath, I am discovering some one new. Heath is so deep, that to understand him fully, would take years, as he said in an interview. I hope everyone here will stick around, but I also understand what it means to be in pain. No platitude or sympathy would change it. And as you said, NoReins, everyone is different so everyone must deal with the pain their own way.
And each member here will be missed when absent.
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
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This is so beautiful...and welcome to you, megalyn. he was a friend of ours...
It was yesterday for me, Tuesday around noon, four weeks ago, just a random moment at work when one of my co-workers buzzed me and told me. Just a Tuesday, just a random time, a random person telling me...and after that, nothing is quite the same...
kathy
Kathy - Your message touched me so deeply. :\'(
For me too nothing is quite the same, I terribly miss him.
So, is there something else we can do for him? Yes, we can remember his beautiful, extraordinary smile.
Next time you smile, do it for him too, because he loved this life and sure he would like to be still here
and see his little girl grow up and smile, smile, smile.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Dear Keren----I did not see your post until much later, where you found what I had said about Heath being lonely, unlikely. Keren, am
between a rock and a hard place on supporting that one word.
There were network reports, the first 48 hours, credible because they gave their sources, that were squashed along with the trashy junk
from the garbage media. At least one photo, on another forum, supports the stories of the all night walks and the condition he was in, and
it does not meet the guidelines of this forum.
I am increasingly isolated from everyone else in that I have continued to stumble across information that is very painful and yet should not be
repeated here. The only solution is for me to not re-open wounds, to be more careful what I say, and to leave it to the first legitimate
biography to cover. It's difficult enough for us to try to heal as things are, and I fully understand I should leave off from making things worse.
I believe those reports will re-surface, and a solid biography will cover those last months, and so will let that one word stand. But your
questioning it was very reasonable, and that should stand, too. I doubt that makes any sense, but it's my understanding, in time, it will.
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Dear Keren----I did not see your post until much later, where you found what I had said about Heath being lonely, unlikely. Keren, am
between a rock and a hard place on supporting that one word.
There were network reports, the first 48 hours, credible because they gave their sources, that were squashed along with the trashy junk
from the garbage media. At least one photo, on another forum, supports the stories of the all night walks and the condition he was in, and
it does not meet the guidelines of this forum.
I am increasingly isolated from everyone else in that I have continued to stumble across information that is very painful and yet should not be
repeated here. The only solution is for me to not re-open wounds, to be more careful what I say, and to leave it to the first legitimate
biography to cover. It's difficult enough for us to try to heal as things are, and I fully understand I should leave off from making things worse.
I believe those reports will re-surface, and a solid biography will cover those last months, and so will let that one word stand. But your
questioning it was very reasonable, and that should stand, too. I doubt that makes any sense, but it's my understanding, in time, it will.
Please forgive me but I can't just let this go by. What were those credible sources that said Heath was lonely beyond normal limits. Who said he took these all night lonely walks? Of course he had pain, and joy and all to live for. These reports are what, who...his family or close friends. Friends don't do that to their friends. A walk or a picture, reports, opinions, I tell you what, when the media is so starved, skinny desperate making up as fast as they can, begging, trying to get anyone to say something...anything...they'll take any crumb, from any trash bin they can get. Aren't you sick of it all, the reports, the crumbs the maybes, how about the tribute, his family and friends and those who worked with him, who knew who he was not from movies or interviews or what we can squeeze out, but those in his world. Those who knew him are touched, I've never seen more love and respect. And they seem to think it was a tragic accident.
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I'm with you on this one Jessi... We (it's the moderator speaking here) have been asking the members to avoid assumptions and gossip as a loss of time and energy. Please pay respect to Heath, his family, friends & fans and avoid this... kind of discussions :-X (I better shut up). I (as myself) ask you guys to avoid this kind of discussions... It doesn't lead anywhere and just hurt more many of us, huh?
Thanks Jessi for your post. ^f^
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Please forgive me but I can't just let this go by. What were those credible sources that said Heath was lonely beyond normal limits. Who said he took these all night lonely walks? Of course he had pain, and joy and all to live for. These reports are what, who...his family or close friends. Friends don't do that to their friends. A walk or a picture, reports, opinions, I tell you what, when the media is so starved, skinny desperate making up as fast as they can, begging, trying to get anyone to say something...anything...they'll take any crumb, from any trash bin they can get. Aren't you sick of it all, the reports, the crumbs the maybes, how about the tribute, his family and friends and those who worked with him, who knew who he was not from movies or interviews or what we can squeeze out, but those in his world. Those who knew him are touched, I've never seen more love and respect. And they seem to think it was a tragic accident.
Speaking as a new member without any hats, I'd like to say that in situations such as this, I think, it is important to understand and respect the other person's point of view.
I understand Tony's desire to find the truth surrounding Heath's life, especially the last couple days.
I understand everyone's desire to respect Heath's memory, and the privacy of his family and friends.
I agree 100% that any information, speculation, hypothesis, theory, MUST be supported by incontrovertible evidence before repeated anywhere. Part of the problem of today's media is that they repeat after each other. When one source says something, the other ones repeat it as if it is true, without verifying its veracity. It is how rumors and gossip begin.
I also agree with Tony that there is evidence sufficient to point to something not quite right. We don't know what is wrong, and we should NOT speculate on what went wrong, until the truth comes out, as Tony said, when the first real biography comes out.
Until then, I hope everyone understands that we all love Heath, we all grieve for him, and we all understand the pain that is inflicted on his friends and family by the media. We don't need to add more of it ourselves, and to each other.
I think I speak for everyone that we are here to help support one another, not make each other more miserable.
I applaud the moderators for doing a wonderful job.
I applaud everyone's posts, inspired by their love for Heath.
I applaud the man, born of the same cloth as us, but more noble than knight or prince of noble blood. (sorry, that was A Knight's Tale slipping in. A great movie of depth and insights, no matter what the critics say.)
If I may quote Heath, "Be Happy, Peace...". Thanks again, Keren_b, you posting Heath's message has been a valuable to me.
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With Heath's loving memory , I am sharing this story of How did I know about the actor?
We had a VHS tapes rental that time way back in 1991 - 2004.
I was not tending the shoppe personally not till in 2000... of course I had to take good care of all those tapes in the boxes. wipes dust and put them back on their racks and index files.
My focus was Mel Gibson for his performance in The Patriot.. well. I see a good looking guy besides Mel.. ( the young Heath Ledger)
Hundreds were renting the tapes but fortunately we have only 8 copies aside from the original tape.
I had to persuade the rentees ( new word to add. ) to send it back as soon as they view the movie.
We have more than a thousand members in our community for a good looking fellow in the movie 10 Things I Hate About You.
In the Philippines.. they do not mind the movie itself. all they want is to see the actor especially if he has the good features just good to their bite.
I continue to sell ( rent ) the tapes.. and the good thing in here is.. as long as the movie attracts them.. they don't care! Cassanova.. Monster Ball. Brothers Grimm.. The Order.... they came in CD's but we copy them ( pirating is not allowed so we closed the shop eventually). But before it happened.. I see the movies myself..I like Heath in The Patriot.. his song in 10 Things...., his good looks in Cassanova and so on.
Brokeback Mountain is an epic of love I almost lose to see. I discover myself falling for Heath and of course the soulful eyes of Jake.
People I know started to ask me if he was the boy in the film The Patriot.
The movie became an epitome of love...of understanding .
The movie moves in every soul who had watch it.... Heath portrays par execellance.
Now. I meet those rental tapes members of our shop.. they would still ask if we have Heaths movie.
Or ask me to copy them photographs of Heath from the computer.
In my community. we still have Heaths Wave all over.
I feel the torch that is so warm with so much love for our boy.
Like what BBM members had been telling us from time to time... Heath Ledger. the sweet beautiful boy who has changed many lives in the name of love and understanding ... not only from the movie BBM but from all his interviews.. his aspiring words and beautifully rendered speeches in his movie Brokeback Mountain.
Heath is never forgotten.. not in this planet.
We all love you Heath .
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
I feel pretty much the same as Lindsey. Michelle, Kristin... all I can say is that I hope you'll stay here, with all my heart. Heath's passing is such a shock and it affects all of us differently, I'm still mourning myself. But to read that you feel so disconnected from the boys... that's hard, and I just want to give you a big hug because as hard as it is for me to hear it, it much be so much harder for you to feel it. Like Lindsey I don't wanna lose this place, it sacres me to think of people leaving... :\'(
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OMG. What can I say? I've never seen such beautiful words from such beautiful people, expressing so many feelings from sorrow to love.
Michelle, Kristin, my heart aches for you, and for all of us that are still struggling with how to fit this reality and our feelings about it into our hearts and minds as we go forward.
Tammy, such encouragement from someone who has had so much trouble processing her own grief is just incredible to me.
Lindsey and Keren, your love and support, well, I'm just blown away.
And to all of you who have posted such supportive, loving, and understanding things, with words that I could never have conjured up, I'm humbled.
What strikes me the most is the environment that allows us to share such raw and difficult emotions, and the amazing safety net of the responses that have been posted, which tells me more than anything that we truly are a family. And a really unique and special family on top of it. And that is so worth holding onto. Our family, the boys that inspired us to come here and open ourselves up like that, the men who brought them to life and gave them to us in such a gracious and inspiring way - these are all worth fighting for, and they are all part of Heath's legacy.
So please don't go down the mountain. As Tammy said, crawl into that old tent, cry for as long as you need to, don't feel like you have to swim in the river or tend to the fire. Just take care of you. And when you're ready, there will always be a warm fire to light your way, and a comfortable place to rest your head. Because, like Jack in his infinite patience, we can wait as long as it takes for your heart to find its way back.
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OMG. What can I say? I've never seen such beautiful words from such beautiful people, expressing so many feelings from sorrow to love.
Michelle, Kristin, my heart aches for you, and for all of us that are still struggling with how to fit this reality and our feelings about it into our hearts and minds as we go forward.
Tammy, such encouragement from someone who has had so much trouble processing her own grief is just incredible to me.
Lindsey and Keren, your love and support, well, I'm just blown away.
And to all of you who have posted such supportive, loving, and understanding things, with words that I could never have conjured up, I'm humbled.
What strikes me the most is the environment that allows us to share such raw and difficult emotions, and the amazing safety net of the responses that have been posted, which tells me more than anything that we truly are a family. And a really unique and special family on top of it. And that is so worth holding onto. Our family, the boys that inspired us to come here and open ourselves up like that, the men who brought them to life and gave them to us in such a gracious and inspiring way - these are all worth fighting for, and they are all part of Heath's legacy.
So please don't go down the mountain. As Tammy said, crawl into that old tent, cry for as long as you need to, don't feel like you have to swim in the river or tend to the fire. Just take care of you. And when you're ready, there will always be a warm fire to light your way, and a comfortable place to rest your head. Because, like Jack in his infinite patience, we can wait as long as it takes for your heart to find its way back.
now that was really beautiful flwrchild so thoughtful. and your rite about the environment here ive been registered to many forums but this is the first i would ever call a home
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This is one of these days when the pain is too much... I just spent the last hour crying like crazy. My heart is broken because of him and I feel that something is definitely wrong with me because I can't get over it. I feel now like I did when I first found out. Please tell me this is just a nightmare.
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This is one of these days when the pain is too much... I just spent the last hour crying like crazy. My heart is broken because of him and I feel that something is definitely wrong with me because I can't get over it. I feel now like I did when I first found out. Please tell me this is just a nightmare.
i really wish i could. i dont ever forget he's gone but sometimes it feels like a dream too me too but when i think about how sad i am that he is gone and thats were it hits me every time "he's gone" and its forever nothing we can do but wait until it is our time to join him i know my words are not much comfort and they are only a few but i hope you feel better soon.
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This is one of these days when the pain is too much... I just spent the last hour crying like crazy. My heart is broken because of him and I feel that something is definitely wrong with me because I can't get over it. I feel now like I did when I first found out. Please tell me this is just a nightmare.
:ghug: Keren. I don't have much in the way of advice or helpful words because I can't get it right for myself. I know this doesn't help much but I do understand how you are feeling and I don't know if there are words to make it "better". There's nothing wrong with you and some days are better than others.The initial shock has worn off but as the reality sets in more and more, well that's a whole new stage and in some ways it feels like starting this grieving process all over again. I truly wish I had more to offer than that but I don't. :ghug:
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I just can't stand it anymore... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I just can't stand it anymore... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh Keren. I wish there was something I could say, but there isn't really. I feel so bad for all of you who are still hurting so much :-\\
The only thing I can do is be here and send you all one of these :ghug:
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I just can't stand it anymore... :\'( :\'( :\'(
i know were your coming from all that pops into my head when i think about not being able to stand it is ennis's phrase "if you cant fix it, you gotta stand it" but thats the thing i cant fix or stand it and the fact i think of ennis really doesnt help me :\'(
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i know were your coming from all that pops into my head when i think about not being able to stand it is ennis's phrase "if you cant fix it, you gotta stand it" but thats the thing i cant fix or stand it and the fact i think of ennis really doesnt help me :\'(
That's just the problem, huh? We can't fix it and we can't stand it. :\'( :\'( Will this pain ever go away?
I'm sorry to bring you down guys, I'll go.
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That's just the problem, huh? We can't fix it and we can't stand it. :\'( :\'( Will this pain ever go away?
I'm sorry to bring you down guys, I'll go.
dont go, you are not bringing us down we are all sad for heaths dath i think all that can be done is to wait time has away of healing the heart we will never forget and it will never be right but it will get easier some day im sure of it.
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Well said zankou. And it can hurt like hell to get to that point, but I do believe it's there for all of us. And Keren, if it takes a little longer for you, then that's the amount of time your heart needs to heal. Meanwhile, though none of us have the magic words to ease that pain, we can share our hugs and our love and support, and stick together until everyone makes it through to the other side. :ghug:
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I'm kind of in a catch 22 situation, in a way. While my world isn't consumed with BBM anymore, I can still read fics (and do) and, I feel even more for Ennis now, which I didn't think was possible. I think I've mentioned before how finding out about Heath almost instantly made me think and relate to Ennis getting that postcard.
Sometimes now I'll sit around and think about how I thought it was sad before what became of Ennis and how he had to live the rest of his life without Jack, and now I know what Ennis felt like after Jack passed away and I understand him even more and I am even sadder for him. Whether we had met Heath or not the fact remains that we all cared about him like we had, and while the pain isn't crippling as it was those first couple of weeks, it is still hard when you face the facts.
I have decided that I will be getting a tattoo for him sometime in the next few months. Remember his "Sun, Earth, Moon" tattoo he had on his upper arm/shoulder? I am going to get that and perhaps the quote "I'll miss all the things you'll never do." All of my tattoos mark a time in my life where I've changed, so there is no way I can let this go without acknowledging it.
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I just can't stand it anymore... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren I understand, I felt that way before and I took a walk, It didn't help much I cried almost the hole time. I was trying to think about something else but I couldn't........ :\'(
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The countdown is underway...
What will the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences have to say about Heath Ledger?
How will the AMPAS honor Mr. Ledger's amazing talent, and the vacuum caused by his death?
How will the AMPAS acknowledge Mr. Ledger's definitive performance as Ennis del Mar in Brokeback Mountain?
... a posthumously presented BEST ACTOR award is the only possible correction...
... these are the questions for which I await answers.
Score Card:
Memorial:
Honor:
Brokeback:
Be well, all.... I'm so proud to part of this family.
S in FreakShow (Jacksonville) Florida
Scorecard:
memorial: D- ... at least his image showed up during the annual Memorial Tribute.
honor: F ... Jon Stewart? Please! ... he only did one decent thing last night in allowing the girl to come back to the stage to give the most moving speech of the evening. Did they honor Heath Ledger? Of course not. They should have, honestly. When it was announced that Nicole Kidman was going to give a special honor - my eyes filled instanly "they're going to do something." And then they didn't.
brokeback: D ... the photo they used of Heath Ledger was as Ennis del Mar. They mentioned Brokeback Mountain when they showed Ang Lee accepting the award for best director in 2006.
Gosh, I'm still so sad... and yet, glad ... glad that we have each other to lean on, a place to rant and rave, a place to feel safe. Our little out of the way place ... our very own Brokeback Mountain ... right here.
So, keren_b, you go right on posting what ever you need to. All of you write what your heart tells you to. Open your mind to the reality that we are all here!
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Please forgive me for posting this two places, and please feel free to move it. I wrote this before reading any comments on last night's award show. I rarely watch the thing, but I do know a little about about the industry. As i said, I don't enjoy the Oscars, never have, but I do realize it is a celebration for many people, the awards. 'Hollywood' has been shaken by heath's death. Anyway my next post is a poem responding to pain and Hollywood trying to say goodbye to one of their finest. One of their greatest losses. and again, mods, feel free to delete, it's at the poem's thread.
jessi
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This is one of these days when the pain is too much... I just spent the last hour crying like crazy. My heart is broken because of him and I feel that something is definitely wrong with me because I can't get over it. I feel now like I did when I first found out. Please tell me this is just a nightmare.
Oh Keren... :ghug:
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That's just the problem, huh? We can't fix it and we can't stand it. :\'( :\'( Will this pain ever go away?
I'm sorry to bring you down guys, I'll go.
Keren and everyone.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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some times when im sad like now i go and see the sheep, its kind off a thing ive done since watchinng BBM it makes me even sadder but is some how soothing. today i wont bother nothing can get me out of my sadness i just have to do my best to go on. im glad when im on this forum i can show all sides of me i can be hear sad over heath or in the jake section drooling over jake pictures. im just glad that this place is hear it truely is like a second home to me and all you guys probably agree we are all just like family but instead of being bound by blood we are bound by the love that jack and ennis showed us, the love heath worked so hard to promote and the love that will stop us from going over board in times like this.
:ghug: :ghug:
sorry if i rambled a bit.
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There have been so many thoughts running through my head and I don’t know if my mind stopped going long enough to capture them all. I guess I'm having one of those clarity type moments- I hate this ping ponging back and forth between being "okay" and destroyed. This will probably be yet another inane ramble as I try to figure it all out. I was thinking back to my first BBM viewing- 1/20/06. That viewing was all Ennis- I had him on my mind 24/7 and wept for him and all that was lost. The second viewing was all Jack and all subsequent ones belonged to both of them. Anyway, two years later and that numb, raw, stunned feeling came back but much worse.
I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel but I’m not even sure if I've arrived at the tunnel. I know deep down inside he'd want us to move on and not be sad. It seems brazen I guess to assert that kind of authority over his thoughts, but I know I wouldn’t want anyone who cared for me to be so sad. He didn't give this to us for us to let go of. I keep thinking that out of the sadness from BBM so much good came from it in the form of family and friends found here. There's a part of me that is "scared" to go back to normal because what is normal now? Whatever comes next will have an undercurrent of sadness to it; maybe not right at the surface but it will be there. I/we just have to find our way to some form of acceptance and keep him in that safe place in our hearts so we'll never forget him or truly lose him.
All of this here is a gift. It is one of his legacies. All of us being friends and sharing the way we do is such a tribute to him and it makes me feel good that I was a part of that while he was still alive and will continue to be a part of it in his memory. I believe in my heart that he is looking down upon us smiling at all that he accomplished without ever meaning to.
To borrow from “Latter Days”: Sometimes it all still feels like a mass of dots. But more and more these days, I feel like we're all connected. And it's beautiful... and funny... and good I don't know the "good reason" Heath was taken from us. I suppose in the grand scheme of things there is one- not that it'd bring an ounce of comfort if I did know. I’m trying to shift my focus more on the fact that while he was here he gave us all of this and we accepted his gift. I know we have lived it with grace and appreciation and will do it even more so. He lived long enough and made the choice to take on Ennis and in turn, all of those dots (us) connected.
There was some open space between what he knew and what he tried to believe, but nothing could be done about it, and if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it. I know there's no way to fix it and trying to stand it has been proving almost impossible. I don't think I will ever truly accept that “our boy” is gone. But I think I need to start accepting "the rest". I’ve read references to the two shirts, the postcard and feeling how Ennis felt when he received it and I echo and understand those sentiments completely. Is moving forward from this our version of the two shirts? Or were they something we had all along? I think that we are down now; still on the ground not quite sure how to get up. But when we do, we will cling harder to this movie because of what it means, what it gave us. This movie is our two shirts in a sense- all we have left and even though we may look at it alone in the quiet it makes us feel closer. Right? Something unexpected, sad, yet comforting. I’m not sure But what I do know is that they stand for so many things: loss, regret but most of all love. And even though that person is no longer there to fill that shirt it doesn't negate his existence or all that came before. They aren't hanging there empty; they have a story to tell. And where Brokeback ended we began and there is so much left to be said.
I keep thinking about how fleeting it all really is. You can stop and admire a beautiful flower: enjoy its scent, admire its beautiful colors but you leave it where it is- its beauty is not meant for the enjoyment of one but rather for all who stop and take the time to truly look at it. But it won’t always be there; it doesn’t last, nor is it meant to. Eventually its petals will be scattered to the winds. But the beauty it gave and the memory of it are something that can never be lost.
Now I’m going to borrow from LOTR- The Two Towers:
Sam: (crying) I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here, but we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end, because how could the end be happy. How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened?
Sam: (voiceover) But in the end, it’s only a passing thing. This shadow, even darkness must pass.
Sam: A new day will come, and when the sun shines it’ll shine out the clearer. Those are the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now, folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. They kept going, because they were holding onto something.
I think we will one day find solace in this film again and see it as visiting with some old, very good, very special friends. And we’ll return as close as we can to "normal" to laugh and play again in those mountain fields, splash in the stream, drink and laugh by the fire. Because all of that is so worth holding onto.
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When all has been said,
what could be said,
never enough, words not,
not much,
tears and chokes
gasps, nothing enough,
not near,
no hugs or flowers or
sunset goodbyes,
loss far too great...
but when it's been given
all we've got
he's in our vision, acutely in our heart
stop the world,
a minute,
with an image,
seared painfully
burning moving picture,
timeless, never enough, now always
a moment,
quiet, stark pin drop
silence
when it seems all has been said
breaths are held,
cries swallowed
hearts broken
our moment of silence
all we have, our best.
Our goodbye.
jessi
2-25-08
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There have been so many thoughts running through my head and I don’t know if my mind stopped going long enough to capture them all. I guess I'm having one of those clarity type moments- I hate this ping ponging back and forth between being "okay" and destroyed. This will probably be yet another inane ramble as I try to figure it all out. I was thinking back to my first BBM viewing- 1/20/06. That viewing was all Ennis- I had him on my mind 24/7 and wept for him and all that was lost. The second viewing was all Jack and all subsequent ones belonged to both of them. Anyway, two years later and that numb, raw, stunned feeling came back but much worse.
I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel but I’m not even sure if I've arrived at the tunnel. I know deep down inside he'd want us to move on and not be sad. It seems brazen I guess to assert that kind of authority over his thoughts, but I know I wouldn’t want anyone who cared for me to be so sad. He didn't give this to us for us to let go of. I keep thinking that out of the sadness from BBM so much good came from it in the form of family and friends found here. There's a part of me that is "scared" to go back to normal because what is normal now? Whatever comes next will have an undercurrent of sadness to it; maybe not right at the surface but it will be there. I/we just have to find our way to some form of acceptance and keep him in that safe place in our hearts so we'll never forget him or truly lose him.
All of this here is a gift. It is one of his legacies. All of us being friends and sharing the way we do is such a tribute to him and it makes me feel good that I was a part of that while he was still alive and will continue to be a part of it in his memory. I believe in my heart that he is looking down upon us smiling at all that he accomplished without ever meaning to.
To borrow from “Latter Days”: Sometimes it all still feels like a mass of dots. But more and more these days, I feel like we're all connected. And it's beautiful... and funny... and good I don't know the "good reason" Heath was taken from us. I suppose in the grand scheme of things there is one- not that it'd bring an ounce of comfort if I did know. I’m trying to shift my focus more on the fact that while he was here he gave us all of this and we accepted his gift. I know we have lived it with grace and appreciation and will do it even more so. He lived long enough and made the choice to take on Ennis and in turn, all of those dots (us) connected.
There was some open space between what he knew and what he tried to believe, but nothing could be done about it, and if you can’t fix it you’ve got to stand it. I know there's no way to fix it and trying to stand it has been proving almost impossible. I don't think I will ever truly accept that “our boy” is gone. But I think I need to start accepting "the rest". I’ve read references to the two shirts, the postcard and feeling how Ennis felt when he received it and I echo and understand those sentiments completely. Is moving forward from this our version of the two shirts? Or were they something we had all along? I think that we are down now; still on the ground not quite sure how to get up. But when we do, we will cling harder to this movie because of what it means, what it gave us. This movie is our two shirts in a sense- all we have left and even though we may look at it alone in the quiet it makes us feel closer. Right? Something unexpected, sad, yet comforting. I’m not sure But what I do know is that they stand for so many things: loss, regret but most of all love. And even though that person is no longer there to fill that shirt it doesn't negate his existence or all that came before. They aren't hanging there empty; they have a story to tell. And where Brokeback ended we began and there is so much left to be said.
I keep thinking about how fleeting it all really is. You can stop and admire a beautiful flower: enjoy its scent, admire its beautiful colors but you leave it where it is- its beauty is not meant for the enjoyment of one but rather for all who stop and take the time to truly look at it. But it won’t always be there; it doesn’t last, nor is it meant to. Eventually its petals will be scattered to the winds. But the beauty it gave and the memory of it are something that can never be lost.
Now I’m going to borrow from LOTR- The Two Towers:
Sam: (crying) I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here, but we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were, and sometimes you didn’t want to know the end, because how could the end be happy. How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad happened?
Sam: (voiceover) But in the end, it’s only a passing thing. This shadow, even darkness must pass.
Sam: A new day will come, and when the sun shines it’ll shine out the clearer. Those are the stories that stayed with you, that meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now, folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn’t. They kept going, because they were holding onto something.
I think we will one day find solace in this film again and see it as visiting with some old, very good, very special friends. And we’ll return as close as we can to "normal" to laugh and play again in those mountain fields, splash in the stream, drink and laugh by the fire. Because all of that is so worth holding onto.
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When all has been said,
what could be said,
never enough, words not,
not much,
tears and chokes
gasps, nothing enough,
not near,
no hugs or flowers or
sunset goodbyes,
loss far too great...
but when it's been given
all we've got
he's in our vision, acutely in our heart
stop the world,
a minute,
with an image,
seared painfully
burning moving picture,
timeless, never enough, now always
a moment,
quiet, stark pin drop
silence
when it seems all has been said
breaths are held,
cries swallowed
hearts broken
our moment of silence
all we have, our best.
Our goodbye.
jessi
2-25-08
beautiful posts both of you :(
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
I totally agree with you. I watched Brokeback Mountain when i felt ready again (for ages i knew if i watched it id just cry cry cry! :\'( )and it at times made me smile, at times i felt sad, it took me on the same emotional rollarcoaster it always has, i went back to Brokeback. I saw my boys again and felt their love and emotions more than i ever have felt them and i saw Heath living on in my heart and soul, always doing so as he and the other actors do too, who made this masterpiece for us to treasure forever and they will always be with us :^^) It does feel different now because of his passing and it still hurts, but he will live on through the films he made for us. #)
I agree we're all different and i understand why some feel like they wont be able to feel the same about BBM now but i hope everyone stays around and eventually, again, can feel the love in the film, smile, cry, celebrate, write, paint, talk, watch, whatever you do that this film inspires you to do...its what Heath would have wanted. <^(
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I totally agree with you. I watched Brokeback Mountain when i felt ready again (for ages i knew if i watched it id just cry cry cry! :\'( )and it at times made me smile, at times i felt sad, it took me on the same emotional rollarcoaster it always has, i went back to Brokeback. I saw my boys again and felt their love and emotions more than i ever have felt them and i saw Heath living on in my heart and soul, always doing so as he and the other actors do too, who made this masterpiece for us to treasure forever and they will always be with us :^^) It does feel different now because of his passing and it still hurts, but he will live on through the films he made for us. #)
I agree we're all different and i understand why some feel like they wont be able to feel the same about BBM now but i hope everyone stays around and eventually, again, can feel the love in the film, smile, cry, celebrate, write, paint, talk, watch, whatever you do that this film inspires you to do...its what Heath would have wanted. <^(
beautiful is all i can say about your post cowgirl.
you all have such away with words were i put a few lines that are barely strung together you put huge poetic posts that really involve eberyone well done
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This is one of these days when the pain is too much... I just spent the last hour crying like crazy. My heart is broken because of him and I feel that something is definitely wrong with me because I can't get over it. I feel now like I did when I first found out. Please tell me this is just a nightmare.
:\'( :ghug:
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OMG. What can I say? I've never seen such beautiful words from such beautiful people, expressing so many feelings from sorrow to love.
Michelle, Kristin, my heart aches for you, and for all of us that are still struggling with how to fit this reality and our feelings about it into our hearts and minds as we go forward.
Tammy, such encouragement from someone who has had so much trouble processing her own grief is just incredible to me.
Lindsey and Keren, your love and support, well, I'm just blown away.
And to all of you who have posted such supportive, loving, and understanding things, with words that I could never have conjured up, I'm humbled.
What strikes me the most is the environment that allows us to share such raw and difficult emotions, and the amazing safety net of the responses that have been posted, which tells me more than anything that we truly are a family. And a really unique and special family on top of it. And that is so worth holding onto. Our family, the boys that inspired us to come here and open ourselves up like that, the men who brought them to life and gave them to us in such a gracious and inspiring way - these are all worth fighting for, and they are all part of Heath's legacy.
So please don't go down the mountain. As Tammy said, crawl into that old tent, cry for as long as you need to, don't feel like you have to swim in the river or tend to the fire. Just take care of you. And when you're ready, there will always be a warm fire to light your way, and a comfortable place to rest your head. Because, like Jack in his infinite patience, we can wait as long as it takes for your heart to find its way back.
Oh flwrchild, that is just so beautiful, and what amazing words, I'm stunned by them. I have been overwhelmed by the beautiful and heartbreaking posts here over the last few days....to everyone here :ghug:
I wish I could offer some magic words, some healing power to make us all feel okay again, but only time can do that, and time is measured differently for everyone. In one way, I don't want to stop grieving, because I worry - does that mean that I won't love Heath the way I used to anymore? Will I forget his face, his smile, his laugh? But then I know that that is not the way it should be - as much as it hurts, a time will come when the grieving will stop. Like luvjacknasty said, I will never really accept that our boy has gone from us, but I will begin to deal with it. Being here is, for me, one of the ways I am able to deal with it. If I didn't have this place, didn't have all of you, I'd be in a worse place than I am already. Just being here, just knowing that all of you feel the same, helps. But I know there is no magic wand to make us all feel okay again.
But I do feel glad that this magical place is here for us all to help us deal with the fact that we wish there was a magic wand to make all this pain and hurt and sadness to go away.
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But I do feel glad that this magical place is here for us all to help us deal with the fact that we wish there was a magic wand to make all this pain and hurt and sadness to go away.
Beautiful Christie. I feel the same way. :ghug:
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Beautiful Christie. I feel the same way. :ghug:
ditto
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Thank you so much for many posts which have made me in tears. I am probably the one described by Tammy as "crawling into that old tent and crying as hard as I can." I am not good at expressing my emotion but many of you took the words out of my mouth. Your wisdom and comfort mean a lot of me and I know for others. They have helped me grieve and come out the lurking to offer my two cents.
Let me quote this paragraph from Baby Tammy which I think is just brilliant and a true Brokie spirit that captures so well of what we got here and what Brokeback Mountain taught us. Ennis and Jack have never left their mountain. If BBM really taught me anything - just like Ennis, let's put a number on the mailbox and be ready for the world again.
So please give yourself time, put your things in a box if you want, hide yourself in an old tent in the most dark place of the mountain, cry rivers ‘cause you need it, but never, never, never come down off the mountain, ‘cause Ennis and Jack taught us not to make the same mistake as them, ‘cause Heath deserve more than that, sweetie. They were so brave, Jack with all those damn broken dreams, Ennis with a life full of regret in from of him, and Heath, so tired, so sick, but so in love with life, wanting go on, wanting to life in that mountain made of dreams and love the rest of his life. Now it’s our turn to be brave, to stand for everything we love. You can’t leave behind the thing that made you understand your previous life (remember that letter to Annie?), the treasure that cured you heart like no other medicine did. Like Heath, you deserve more than that.
I don't have the words like many of you do but I know I feel your pain and sorrow. I just wish I can just hug you each, especially LJN, Carby and Keren. :ghug:
Is there a deadline for grief?
Does it last longer because we love more?
Or it ends faster because we don't love the way we used to?
In fact, it is not so.
Grief never ends. It is all because time tricks us.
It is temporarily stored somewhere deeply in our heart.
All of the sudden, it hits us right back full swing.
We are deeply hurt by our sorrow and loss. It is a human nature and all we can do is to accept the facts.
At the same time, what we have lost the most has transcended to the memories that remain in our heart forever. It is cruel but eternally beautiful.
All of us love you more than you believe. I can’t stand the idea of you being so shattered. You know when people die, they keep leaving in the hearts of those who loved them, so if you keep living with a smile in your face, Heath keeps smiling too. You recognize love in the facts of those who love, so don’t let the pain and sadness speaks in the name of your love for Heath, ‘cause love, true love is stronger than death, and all the love Heath gave when he was alive never will dies, and that is a thing to celebrate, not a thing to hide in a box with every beautiful thing that made you smile just once month ago. Michelle, let’s bury that beloved body, but please let’s save all the beauty and all those marvelous things he gave us to treasure in our hearts. BBM was one of them, the most precious thing. In time, I know, that old cold time in the mountain will cure your soul, ‘cause one day, long time ago, that same mountain cured millions of hearts, when all that people thought they were alone with they suffering in the world.
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Thank you so much for many posts which have made me in tears. I am probably the one described by Tammy as "crawling into that old tent and crying as hard as I can." I am not good at expressing my emotion but many of you took the words out of my mouth. Your wisdom and comfort mean a lot of me and I know for others. They have helped me grieve and come out the lurking to offer my two cents.
Let me quote this paragraph from Baby Tammy which I think is just brilliant and a true Brokie spirit that captures so well of what we got here and what Brokeback Mountain taught us. Ennis and Jack have never left their mountain. If BBM really taught me anything - just like Ennis, let's put a number on the mailbox and be ready for the world again.
I don't have the words like many of you do but I know I feel your pain and sorrow. I just wish I can just hug you each, especially LJN, Carby and Keren. :ghug:
Is there a deadline for grief?
Does it last longer because we love more?
Or it ends faster because we don't love the way we used to?
In fact, it is not so.
Grief never ends. It is all because time tricks us.
It is temporarily stored somewhere deeply in our heart.
All of the sudden, it hits us right back full swing.
We are deeply hurt by our sorrow and loss. It is a human nature and all we can do is to accept the facts.
At the same time, what we have lost the most has transcended to the memories that remain in our heart forever. It is cruel but eternally beautiful.
you say you dont have words like other people but thats not true, your words are just as inspiring as anyothers ive heard here. your piece about grief is amazing and so true.
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:h) welcome to the board. On here you will find such love, warmth and support and a general sense of togetherness of our love for BBM the film that caught our hearts attention, and of course now Heaths untimely passing. :\'( Your post was lovely and yes "theres a new star up in heaven" #) Thankyou for sharing your feelings with us, how you have been effected. It still is so hard to take in and i know exactly how you are feeling and what you mean in your post as will everyone else on the board. Hope you enjoy this site as much as i have so far. ^f^
Hello Cowgirl! :)
I know you all understand me :ghug: that's why I wrote you. I found so beautiful messages about Heath here <^( lovely and touching! :\'(
Because I'm completely crazy about BBM, I think this is the right place for me. ;)
Thank you :t) Megalyn08
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im going to try my hardest to compress my feelings for heath into one messages and actually try and make it worth posting here i cant promise this will happen though.
well where to start. first of all im glad all of you amazing people are here for me to share my thoughts with it means alot to me you guys are here to speak to. i was just wanting to say for all we are grieving for heath with good reason his shocking and un-timely death has shuck us all to our cors and im sad to say has even caused certain members to feel they cannot stay here now and that it doesnt feel the same :(. i feel grief is a neccesary in times like this what kind off people would be if we just tried to forget i know i will never stop grieving for heath nor would i want to grief should never dissapear it would be a crime against heath to forget.
i truely beleive heath lives on in the people he met or other wise affected by films interviews etc. it is extreamly important to me we honour heaths memorie and never try or wish to forget.
heath tought me love is extreamly important no matter what form it is a friendly love or an admiration of one teachings and it is important for me to stand up for what i beleive in. with out heath i would most deffinatly be a different person the way he accted and the things he said tought me so much about hummanity and yes i grieve for him just as we all do, but im sure we will meet him again after we to have left this life and when we do i would not like to be the person who tried to forget him.
heath is the gone this is true but only when we forget about him will he be truely gone thats why i refuse to do this.
sorry for rambling its probably non-sense i have a problem when im wrighting from the heart i dont listen to the head much thanks for listening.
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i know i will never stop grieving for heath nor would i want to grief should never dissapear it would be a crime against heath to forget.
i truely beleive heath lives on in the people he met or other wise affected by films interviews etc. it is extreamly important to me we honour heaths memorie and never try or wish to forget.
heath tought me love is extreamly important no matter what form it is a friendly love or an admiration of one teachings and it is important for me to stand up for what i beleive in. with out heath i would most deffinatly be a different person the way he accted and the things he said tought me so much about hummanity and yes i grieve for him just as we all do, but im sure we will meet him again after we to have left this life and when we do i would not like to be the person who tried to forget him.
heath is the gone this is true but only when we forget about him will he be truely gone thats why i refuse to do this.
sorry for rambling its probably non-sense i have a problem when im wrighting from the heart i dont listen to the head much thanks for listening.
Beautiful post, Zankou! :\'( :\'(
I understand what you mean, and I agree. Yes, things are different now that he's gone, but there's no reason to forget him. I haven't any intention of doing it. Of course he will be alive until one single person will remember him. The terrible pain for his loss can't wipe out all the emotions he gave us. We have to remember his face, his eyes, his smile, his messages, his characters, in a word the part of his life he shared with us. It's our way to say: "Thank you for all, see you later, cowboy." Miss him doesn't mean close him out of our hearts. Do we really want to live like he had never crossed our own path? I don't want this, it's too late, he's engraved on my heart.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Beautiful post Megalyn. :ghug:
Thank you so much, LuvJackNasty. :ghug: Megalyn08
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:ghug: Megalyn08 :ghug: many others have already praised your post. I am a little late. There have been so many wonderful posts
Heath spoke to us emotionally, and emotionally we responded to him as family.
it is better to have loved and lost, than to never love at all. I have been play one of my favorite songs from Garth Brooks for this very reason, to remind myself what Heath stood for all his life, to live life to the fullest without regrets. Here is the song's lyrics:
"Standing Outside The Fire"
We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned
We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned
But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire
We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall
We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all
They're so hell-bent on giving, walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire
Hello Lance! :h)
As you can see I'm a little late too, so don't worry. O0 You're right, there are so many beautiful and touching posts about Heath, and your post is one of them.
Thank you for the song, it made me think. :t)
In my opinion, life is always worth living, and is worth living inside the fire. That's the way of not wasting it. This is particularly true talking about love: yes, you can hurt yourself, even seriously, but your heart will sure be filled with warmth, memories, voices, hugs, smiles.....I am absolutely sure it worth the risk. Every scar in your heart means you have loved, and every time you loved, your heart become bigger and you become a better person. What more do you want? :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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I also am at a loss of what to do now. I came to BBM late, in December of 2006, so I missed the whole first year. Yet from the moment I first saw it, BBM has become the focus of my life, mostly through my writing and in my thoughts. I have not met any Brokies, but it has always been in my mind.
For me, BBM was about Ennis finally realizing his mistakes, and what I dreamed of was for Ennis to go on in his life in a meaningful way. Ennis shared so many of my thoughts and feelings, and I guess I always thought that if there was hope for Ennis, then there was hope for me to have the life that had always just been in my dreams.
Also, I always felt that Heath was Ennis, and shared his pain. That comforted me too somehow. But now it hurts so bad to think of how Heath really felt, but of course we don’t really know.
But now, I don’t know how to think about BBM anymore, or really any of it at all. I still think about Heath all the time, and I am still getting very sad. I haven’t watched BBM again, I don’t know when I can, I am too scared to in a way.
I don’t know how to move on from thinking about Heath, and even though I still have been writing, I don’t know what BBM means to me anymore. To me Heath is Ennis, and Ennis is Heath, and with Heath gone, then Ennis is also in many ways.
I just don’t really know how to find the hope in BBM anymore, so I really just don’t know. I am still thinking about BBM, but I am afraid none of this can never be the same anymore. I wish it could, but I just don’t think it can.
I hope it is okay that I am posting this here, but I guess I just had to get these thoughts out and this seemed like a good place to do so
M. (Cameron)
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Hello Brokies..
The posts I've seen recently, I can't describe the beauty, the comfort, yet sadness in everybody that has now given me goosebumps. I've also gone through a rough day..A girl, a couple of days ago (Feb. 22) got killed in a car crash from a man under the influence of drugs. What many of the kids in my school didn't know is she was one of our students. I couldn't believe it! She was ONLY 14 years old!! It made me stop, dead in my tracts. How could this happen to her? I never knew her, maybe saw her in the hallway, but never spoke a word to her, and yet I feel the pain and wish I could give something back. Soon, I started to think about Heath, how he was taken away from us, yes, he was older than her, much older, but he was still young. People still shouldn't die in their 20s and defiantly shouldn't be taken away from us at 14! These two people didn't deserve to die, both had so much going for them. But why? Maybe it was their time to go, that god meant for these two people to go beyond the sunshine, I will never truly know. But today, made me think how short life really is and how a person you didn't even know (both of them) could make you feel SO much pain. "Why do the good die young?" - God only knows... I'm sorry I don't have much else to say, my mind is just, blank..So I say, good night to all and the sweetest dreams :^^)
R.I.P. Angelica N. 1993-2008
Heath Ledger 1979-2008
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I also am at a loss of what to do now. I came to BBM late, in December of 2006, so I missed the whole first year. Yet from the moment I first saw it, BBM has become the focus of my life, mostly through my writing and in my thoughts. I have not met any Brokies, but it has always been in my mind.
For me, BBM was about Ennis finally realizing his mistakes, and what I dreamed of was for Ennis to go on in his life in a meaningful way. Ennis shared so many of my thoughts and feelings, and I guess I always thought that if there was hope for Ennis, then there was hope for me to have the life that had always just been in my dreams.
Also, I always felt that Heath was Ennis, and shared his pain. That comforted me too somehow. But now it hurts so bad to think of how Heath really felt, but of course we don’t really know.
But now, I don’t know how to think about BBM anymore, or really any of it at all. I still think about Heath all the time, and I am still getting very sad. I haven’t watched BBM again, I don’t know when I can, I am too scared to in a way.
I don’t know how to move on from thinking about Heath, and even though I still have been writing, I don’t know what BBM means to me anymore. To me Heath is Ennis, and Ennis is Heath, and with Heath gone, then Ennis is also in many ways.
I just don’t really know how to find the hope in BBM anymore, so I really just don’t know. I am still thinking about BBM, but I am afraid none of this can never be the same anymore. I wish it could, but I just don’t think it can.
I hope it is okay that I am posting this here, but I guess I just had to get these thoughts out and this seemed like a good place to do so
M. (Cameron)
Hi Cameron and welcome. This is the place to post your thoughts :ghug:
You said you're still writing- maybe that holds the key for you- to write, even if it doesn't feel the same or whatever. Maybe one day it will all click back. I wish I had better words or "advice". But feel free to share here as often as you wish. :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh Lis, I'm so sorry to hear that. :ghug:
You've given them both some beautiful words in a lovely send off. Perhaps they'll meet there beyond the sunshine. :\'( <^(
n.h, of course this is where you should voice your thoughts, and this is why we're all here. :^^)
megalyn, so good to have you here too. ^f^
It's been a very teary day, some of it from sadness, much of it from the awe of reading all the beautiful things pouring out of all the beautiful souls here. It's just a little overwhelming on my heart. Thank you, everyone, for sharing. :ghug:
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This is a very difficult thread for me to read. I am sorry all. But you have posted some truely remarkable things here.
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Hello Brokies..
The posts I've seen recently, I can't describe the beauty, the comfort, yet sadness in everybody that has now given me goosebumps. I've also gone through a rough day..A girl, a couple of days ago (Feb. 22) got killed in a car crash from a man under the influence of drugs. What many of the kids in my school didn't know is she was one of our students. I couldn't believe it! She was ONLY 14 years old!! It made me stop, dead in my tracts. How could this happen to her? I never knew her, maybe saw her in the hallway, but never spoke a word to her, and yet I feel the pain and wish I could give something back. Soon, I started to think about Heath, how he was taken away from us, yes, he was older than her, much older, but he was still young. People still shouldn't die in their 20s and defiantly shouldn't be taken away from us at 14! These two people didn't deserve to die, both had so much going for them. But why? Maybe it was their time to go, that god meant for these two people to go beyond the sunshine, I will never truly know. But today, made me think how short life really is and how a person you didn't even know (both of them) could make you feel SO much pain. "Why do the good die young?" - God only knows... I'm sorry I don't have much else to say, my mind is just, blank..So I say, good night to all and the sweetest dreams :^^)
R.I.P. Angelica N. 1993-2008
Heath Ledger 1979-2008
:ghug: Lis. That is so sad! No, people shouldn't be taken that young. I think for all of the sadness we feel, no matter how unbearable it is at times, reminds us that we are still here and more importantly that we possess a capacity to love and to care, even those we didn't know. We will never have the answers as to why and I think that is part of what trips us up at times. I think we're geared to try and figure things out- to make it make sense when the fact is, is that it doesn't and that's where a sense helplessness comes in. :ghug: to you and sweet dreams :^^)
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Hello Brokies..
The posts I've seen recently, I can't describe the beauty, the comfort, yet sadness in everybody that has now given me goosebumps. I've also gone through a rough day..A girl, a couple of days ago (Feb. 22) got killed in a car crash from a man under the influence of drugs. What many of the kids in my school didn't know is she was one of our students. I couldn't believe it! She was ONLY 14 years old!! It made me stop, dead in my tracts. How could this happen to her? I never knew her, maybe saw her in the hallway, but never spoke a word to her, and yet I feel the pain and wish I could give something back. Soon, I started to think about Heath, how he was taken away from us, yes, he was older than her, much older, but he was still young. People still shouldn't die in their 20s and defiantly shouldn't be taken away from us at 14! These two people didn't deserve to die, both had so much going for them. But why? Maybe it was their time to go, that god meant for these two people to go beyond the sunshine, I will never truly know. But today, made me think how short life really is and how a person you didn't even know (both of them) could make you feel SO much pain. "Why do the good die young?" - God only knows... I'm sorry I don't have much else to say, my mind is just, blank..So I say, good night to all and the sweetest dreams :^^)
R.I.P. Angelica N. 1993-2008
Heath Ledger 1979-2008
I am so sorry for this young girl. I hope she rests in peace. I pray for her family to have strength to go on.
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This thread has some of the most beautiful, heartfelt and heartbreaking posts the past few days and I'd be quoting pretty much every one of them if I could. Big hugs to everyone. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
I was going to respond to this earlier and say that I was scared to watch the film again because if my attempt at AKT made me start sobbing I truly feared what BBM would do to me. Then I figured what's the "worst" that could happen? That I'd watch it and realize its impact hasn't changed? Like that would be such a bad thing. That would be the best thing. Then I thought maybe I was scared because what if it didn't have the same impact? What if it all really changed? That was the thought that truly scared me. Well I decided to sort of go for it. I watched one of the BBM music vids that always had me in tears- nothing. Saw one where they show Jack's attack- I always look away because I can't bear to watch that-but I saw a snippet of it and nothing. Then I went to one of the scenes that in countless times in watching it (even stand alone) has never failed to reduce me to a sobbing mess- the confrontation scene. Nothing- not a damn tear. Maybe it's because that other hurt is still to strong. I don't know. I don't intend to come down from the mountain- that thought is unbearable and this is home and where my family and friends are. But how does one continue to be a brokie and embrace the boys when it feels like they're gone too? I told Barb earlier today that I don't intend to give them up without a fight but I may not have a choice. It's probably just too soon- I hope. :\'(
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This thread has some of the most beautiful, heartfelt and heartbreaking posts the past few days and I'd be quoting pretty much every one of them if I could. Big hugs to everyone. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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You said it, LJN.
:ghug: every one :ghug: %)
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I was going to post some of the following yesterday but it put me back into a very dark place, so much so that all of my BBM stuff is now sitting in a box- I packed it all away because I couldn't stand to look at it anymore.
I was wondering if anyone else is stuck in the in-between place. I guess I’m feeling lost, if that’s the right word, sort of like a sheep that’s gotten separated from the flock. And I can't seem to transition back to life before 1/22- everything is upside down and inside out. I know it won't ever be the same again but Iguess I'm trying to find that new "normal". I always said it would take something big to shake me back down to “reality” again but I never expected nor wanted this. Then I started wondering if this was some kind of "sign"- to come down off the mountain-you know the bad storm from the pacific rolling in. Our paradise lost? I don't mean to turn his death into some kind of mission statement or whatever and of the day- he died. We will all die. There doesn't have to be a bigger reason behind it all- that's just life but yet it feels like there should be some reason behind it. Because it's senseless, untimely, tragic, heart-breaking and I guess in order to try and make some sense of it I need to grasp at straws or something. I guess I'm feeling a sense of "it's only fun until someone gets hurt" and then the “game” is over.
I kept thinking of AP's words- "the imagined power of BBM". But could it have been imaginary? No. There is no way that "power" wasn't real. And yet, I just can’t seem to get back to “normal”- J/E seem like strangers- I saw a vid with the reunion kiss in it and I had no reaction to it, tried to look at Jake pics last week, you know dipping a toe in, and it may as well have been a blank screen, no reaction; I have no interest in my fan fics. Friday night I went into the meets threads and looked at the three NY ones I was a part of in October and November. I guess trying to remember why I’m here, the really good times etc. And yeah I smiled and kind of felt good. But then it started to remind me of my last trip to NY and how everything just crashed down. There was that sharp contrast between the first three meets- the high, the euphoria, the love- just brokies being brokies and then how the January trip was such a harsh, horrible reality that I still can't find the words to describe it-everything changed for me then.
I guess I’m just at odds with myself in the sense that I know nothing will ever be the same again and the reason behind it is too heartbreaking to put into words. We’ve lost someone we love; someone who we didn't have the privelege to really know but who meant a great deal to us regardless. His poor parents had the unimaginable task of burying their child-something I hope to never experience and a little girl will grow up never really knowing her Daddy. I know it happens everyday in the world but not in my world and I guess I just don’t know how to reconcile it. I guess I should stop because this is turning into another non-sensical ramble.
LJN, this breaks my heart for you, and your feelings and words are so profound. All I can do is say I hear you -- and I do.
I wonder if your being the one, with Ethan, to go deliver our grief to Heath's apartment was too much for you. You two did that for all of us, and maybe...oh I don't know, I don't know. I don't know how to help you, and I wish I could.
kathy
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Michelle and Kristin - I hardly know what to say. Your posts have upset me so much - thinking about you both feeling this is the end of something. Maybe it's because for me, it's had the opposite effect: I watched BBM again and it felt almost like the first time. Then, I was discovering something - someone - new, Heath's incredibly portrayal capturing my heart completely, making me thirst for knowledge of him and search for others who felt the same way about an amazing actor and an incredible movie. Now I find that I'm clinging on even more strongly because that's it - Brokeback is the connection to the man and that will never be broken, despite his passing. I want to discuss the movie more than I have for months, I want to look at photos because they keep him alive in my mind and heart and I want to read fics because I still see Heath when I read about Ennis.
I know we're all different...but I wish there was something I could do or say to help you come back to us. I don't want to lose this community, and it breaks my heart to think of some of us coming down the mountain early :\'(
You have said it exactly, Lindsey. I feel as strongly as ever for BBM and the story of Ennis and Jack. With even more poignancy to it now. What I have lost is the beautifulness of being a FAN of Heath...but no, I haven't even lost that -- I am still a fan of Heath. I ache that we will not see him anymore, but I am no stranger to tragic loss -- the ache of loss and the tragedies of life is something I live with. But this whole BBM experience, especially this community, I hold onto even more right now. I don't want anyone to go away! I don't want Michelle and Kristin to load up their trucks and drive away...
kathy
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When all has been said,
what could be said,
never enough, words not,
not much,
tears and chokes
gasps, nothing enough,
not near,
no hugs or flowers or
sunset goodbyes,
loss far too great...
but when it's been given
all we've got
he's in our vision, acutely in our heart
stop the world,
a minute,
with an image,
seared painfully
burning moving picture,
timeless, never enough, now always
a moment,
quiet, stark pin drop
silence
when it seems all has been said
breaths are held,
cries swallowed
hearts broken
our moment of silence
all we have, our best.
Our goodbye.
jessi
2-25-08
Beautiful, Jessi...and thank you. Your words resonate Heath's spirit...
kathy
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LJN, this breaks my heart for you, and your feelings and words are so profound. All I can do is say I hear you -- and I do.
I wonder if your being the one, with Ethan, to go deliver our grief to Heath's apartment was too much for you. You two did that for all of us, and maybe...oh I don't know, I don't know. I don't know how to help you, and I wish I could.
kathy
:ghug: Kathy and thanks. I think that is a big factor in this. I've tried to write about it so many times just to get it out of me and I can't seem to get very far. I think it took something I wasn't ready or didn't have in me to give- what that was I don't know; can't explain it. I've only spoken to a few people about it. The short and semi quick version is Brooklyn was very sad but "okay", touching the letters in the cement was.... and then came SoHo... after we got off of the subway and started to walk that line from the SS kept running through my head: Within a mile Ennis felt like someone was pulling his guts out hand over hand a yard at a time. and we went to buy flowers and after that we were on our way. We stopped at a corner waiting to cross the street and I looked up and to my right and locked onto that floor of the building. I don't even remember crossing the street I was crying so much. And then we laid the stuff down and hung out for a long time mostly quiet and lost in thought. I know this is probably going to sound crazy but that's never stopped me before, but standing there, at times, I'd look towards the front door of the building and all I kept seeing in my mind was that stretcher being brought out over and over. We lit up some of the candles that had gone out and at some point we left and sat in a coffe house, drank some tea and talked and then went back to look at it in the dark; it was this sense of not wanting to leave him. And we had a portable cd player and each put a headphone in one ear and played Candle in the Wind and then The Wings. That's the very short version and there's more but.. I don't regret doing it, I asked to do it and I wanted to do it because I had no other way left to say thank you for all of this. And I'm going to stop now because it's late and I'm getting all worked up again.
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you say you dont have words like other people but thats not true, your words are just as inspiring as anyothers ive heard here. your piece about grief is amazing and so true.
Yes, Ethan, your words are absolutely beautiful and so true. I love what you said about putting our numbers on the mailbox... This is so full of meaning to me -- Ennis's state of mind in doing this, and ours. (The numbers on my mailbox are "ennisjack.com" !
kathy
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:ghug: Kathy and thanks. I think that is a big factor in this. I've tried to write about it so many times just to get it out of me and I can't seem to get very far. I think it took something I wasn't ready or didn't have in me to give- what that was I don't know; can't explain it. I've only spoken to a few people about it. The short and semi quick version is Brooklyn was very sad but "okay", touching the letters in the cement was.... and then came SoHo... after we got off of the subway and started to walk that line from the SS kept running through my head: Within a mile Ennis felt like someone was pulling his guts out hand over hand a yard at a time. and we went to buy flowers and after that we were on our way. We stopped at a corner waiting to cross the street and I looked up and to my right and locked onto that floor of the building. I don't even remember crossing the street I was crying so much. And then we laid the stuff down and hung out for a long time mostly quiet and lost in thought. I know this is probably going to sound crazy but that's never stopped me before, but standing there, at times, I'd look towards the front door of the building and all I kept seeing in my mind was that stretcher being brought out over and over. We lit up some of the candles that had gone out and at some point we left and sat in a coffe house, drank some tea and talked and then went back to look at it in the dark; it was this sense of not wanting to leave him. And we had a portable cd player and each put a headphone in one ear and played Candle in the Wind and then The Wings. That's the very short version and there's more but.. I don't regret doing it, I asked to do it and I wanted to do it because I had no other way left to say thank you for all of this. And I'm going to stop now because it's late and I'm getting all worked up again.
Thank you, Michelle. It helps me to hear these details. Not that it helps you to have said them...but maybe it has? Whatever helps you...that's what I want for you. :ghug:
Segueing...and this does not pertain exactly to helping you...but I was thinking: Jack died, and we came together to mourn his death (while recognizing Enis's story was arguably sadder than Jack's dying). Well, others here have said they almost feel like now Ennis has died, too, has joined Jack. So, what if Ennis had also died in the story? It would still have been an amazing story and movie, an awesomely beautiful tragedy, and our responses to it would have been slightly different...but in a way, that is what has happened, and we are already here together and can continue learning from this story, which now really has become larger than life so to speak. I have no conclusions, but maybe someone else can extract from these thoughts something more useful...
kathy
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This thread has some of the most beautiful, heartfelt and heartbreaking posts the past few days and I'd be quoting pretty much every one of them if I could. Big hugs to everyone. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I was going to respond to this earlier and say that I was scared to watch the film again because if my attempt at AKT made me start sobbing I truly feared what BBM would do to me. Then I figured what's the "worst" that could happen? That I'd watch it and realize its impact hasn't changed? Like that would be such a bad thing. That would be the best thing. Then I thought maybe I was scared because what if it didn't have the same impact? What if it all really changed? That was the thought that truly scared me. Well I decided to sort of go for it. I watched one of the BBM music vids that always had me in tears- nothing. Saw one where they show Jack's attack- I always look away because I can't bear to watch that-but I saw a snippet of it and nothing. Then I went to one of the scenes that in countless times in watching it (even stand alone) has never failed to reduce me to a sobbing mess- the confrontation scene. Nothing- not a damn tear. Maybe it's because that other hurt is still to strong. I don't know. I don't intend to come down from the mountain- that thought is unbearable and this is home and where my family and friends are. But how does one continue to be a brokie and embrace the boys when it feels like they're gone too? I told Barb earlier today that I don't intend to give them up without a fight but I may not have a choice. It's probably just too soon- I hope. :\'(
What a way to start my day!!! Crying like a baby!!! :\'( :\'( This is so sad Michelle, so so so sad. I want to help you, to help myself too, but I don't know how to do it. If I only could bring him back to us!!! I could everything to got that. Damn.
Oh Ethan, I want to put a number on my mailbox, but I need all my brokies mates to do it too, 'cause I don't want to be alone, not these days. Need you all.
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To Michelle and Keren,and all these Brokies that aren't able,or better said,DON´T FEEL ABLE to go out from the hollow of sadness they're now in. ^f^
In these days several Brokies have said the most beautiful words one can hear about sorrow and its relief,friendship,love,pain and,above all,LIFE.So,it's difficult for me to add something new to posts so beautifully expressed as the one from Tammy,f.e.,and specially something that can relieve you from your grief with the proper words.Moreover,I've been away from this thread for some days ,simply because I needed it.Perhaps you're thinking I'm selfish because I postponed other fellow's needs to mine,but I think this is question...I mean, the first two weeks I felt absolutely incapable to separate myself from these threads of grief and memories for Heath;and more still,to post in threads so "frivolous" as the one about BBM jokes or the other about nature pictures,f.e.I wrote here or in some PM as a way to give and receive some kind of relief from and to other Brokies,or simply,I read what other people wrote and felt,without sometimes feeling able to answer them...But only in these threads;I found writing on the rest like an outrage to Heath in my depressed state of mind.
But little by little I was inferring that I wouldn't be able to help anybody if I kept on plunging into depression,above all because I WASN´T ABLE TO HELP MYSELF FIRST.I arrived to the conclusion that if Heath could see us from this place he's now-and I'm sure he can...-would feel very,very proud for having stirring so deep feeling in his fans;but at the same time,he wouldn't like us to feel so broken down,even he would feel angry with himself for having let us in this state.So,I decided I MUST CARRY ON if not for myself,or for all of you,FOR HIM,FOR HIS MEMORY,FOR THE LOVE HE GAVE AND BE GIVEN...And I began to write in another threads,even making some fun,-yes,why not?-and run away just a little from this vicious circle we're in.Does this mean I've forgotten Heath?Does this mean I don't mind your grief? Does this mean I'm more inhuman than before? Frankly,I think not because if I had been so,believe me,I hadn't arrived to this conclusion;simply,I had lived my life from the very beginning without posing these questions in my mind because I HADN´T NEEDED IT(surely I hadn't thought even about them...).
We all are around a Brokeback bonfire that are letting to die out with the tears of our sorrow and our incapability to revive it from our own revival itself...WE CAN´T¡ All of us have some persons who need us,who are suffering by seeing us in this way,and whom we can help if they're also with problems because,I repite,we aren't able to help ourselves.Who are we to do such a bad trick?Please,think about it...Think about persons like Simone,who had two losses almost at the same time-if you don't like me to personalise so much,excuse me for this...-;now she's posting everywhere and,in her personal life,she's at the point of publishing a book while she's already writing a second one.She is reviving Brokeback bonfire,she didn't allow that sun sets on the mountain...Take your torches and just DO IT,YOU TOO.Please,do it,please... :^^)
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beatiful posts everyone :ghug: :^^)
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Firstly, I'm sorry to intrude, ???
But as a lurker over the last month I felt the need to register to say thanks to everyone here who's posted. There have been many many beautiful posts that I've felt moved by, and in light of Heath's untimely departure from us, it's brought great comfort to know that I'm not the only one feeling like this and that it's ok to feel like this too.
I'll let you get back to it now and thanks once again. xx
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Thank you everybody, I wish I could give you back even a little of what I'm getting here, :ghug: :ghug: to everybody.
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Thank you everybody, I wish I could give you back even a little of what I'm getting here, :ghug: :ghug: to everybody.
keren the very fact your here is giving everyone some comfort the first step if healing is knowing your not going through it alone. every time you post about how you feel you reasure everyone of the fact they are not alone in their grief :ghug:
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First, I would like to apologize for my mistakes in english, but I just wanted to say that Heath Ledger's death was a great shock. When i heard the bad news, it was 7:00AM here in France and I had to seat and I just burst into tears.
I never thought that this would hurt me so bad. Even now, I just can't believe he's gone. He was one of the greatest actors I know and he will stay in our hearts and minds forever through his wonderful films and especially thanks to Brokeback Moutain.
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Everything feel so wrong today, 5 weeks....... :\'(I can't believe that its been so long already. It feels like yesterday I got the news. I don't know what to do, I just cry all the time and feel so empty. But It's nice to know that everyone here understand my feelings and that I'm not alone.
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Have been reading the previous posts and can see, now, what a hurt it must have been to go to Broome St. and lay those flowers and also
tokens of love. I guess we will always be in debt to those who made that journey for all of us. We owe them our thanks and quiet understanding
of the lingering cost to them.
People sometimes say death is a part of life, and we might as well get used to something we can't change. But there is also something in the
human spirit that says: no. We do not forget, we do not leave those we cared about behind. We are not animals, that notice a loss and then
continue as before, and that may be what defines us as different from all the other parts of the natural world, volcanoes, birds, tides, the wind.
We just resist the laws of nature and keep our loved ones along with us.
It's still a continuing hurt, the loss of Heath. And it still remains strangely unreal. But again, we are made differently from rocks and water
and wind and one of our greatest pains, saying no to what is clearly there, may prove to be our greatest gift and strength. That we CAN say
no, may mean, we were meant to. Grief may be more than an emotion; it could be a promise, in some upside-down way, that we will always
be more than what elements we are made of and so, we'll meet again. The wind doesn't say no. Lovers do.
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Thank you everybody, I wish I could give you back even a little of what I'm getting here, :ghug: :ghug: to everybody.
The best thing you can give us back is to be sure that you're going to make the effort of recovering yourself.I,at least,would feel as paid back with the best of jewels... :) :ghug:
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I'm so glad I've found a place to express my feelings. I see that I'm not the only one feeling that way. :ghug:
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I'm so glad I've found a place to express my feelings. I see that I'm not the only one feeling that way. :ghug:
I feel the same way and welcome to the forum :) :ghug:
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I'm so glad I've found a place to express my feelings. I see that I'm not the only one feeling that way. :ghug:
#$# Frenchfan¡ You see that your feelings and your relief from the grief are shared for many other persons...
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Whenever I play Eminem's song 'When I'm Gone' I can't help but think of Matilda.
The words in the chorus are most painful. :\'(
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
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Whenever I play Eminem's song 'When I'm Gone' I can't help but think of Matilda.
The words in the chorus are most painful. :\'(
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
i can see why these words do that to you. :\'(
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Whenever I play Eminem's song 'When I'm Gone' I can't help but think of Matilda.
The words in the chorus are most painful. :\'(
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
I have never heard the song, but that made me cry :\'(
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Hi Everyone,
It's been a few days since I've read this thread, I just needed to find a happier one for a bit, but I signed on to the main site and saw that the memorial banner was changed. It took me a second to realize what was different, then it really upset me. I started to feel like I was suddenly the only one left not over this horrible reality, so I decided to check back on all of you. I'm sorry to see so many still hurting, but glad to see everyone still sticking together and supporting each other. I share your pain, anger, and hurt, and one day soon, hope to share in the future, the tuff realization that we have carried on, NOT FORGOTTEN, but carried on. But not there yet. I will be with some wonderful Brokies in Las Vegas soon, I hope all of you find your ways of dealing with this. I send all of you on this thread my love and hugs---Jess:)
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Hi Everyone,
It's been a few days since I've read this thread, I just needed to find a happier one for a bit, but I signed on to the main site and saw that the memorial banner was changed. It took me a second to realize what was different, then it really upset me. I started to feel like I was suddenly the only one left not over this horrible reality, so I decided to check back on all of you. I'm sorry to see so many still hurting, but glad to see everyone still sticking together and supporting each other. I share your pain, anger, and hurt, and one day soon, hope to share in the future, the tuff realization that we have carried on, NOT FORGOTTEN, but carried on. But not there yet. I will be with some wonderful Brokies in Las Vegas soon, I hope all of you find your ways of dealing with this. I send all of you on this thread my love and hugs---Jess:)
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Back at ya! :)
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Whenever I play Eminem's song 'When I'm Gone' I can't help but think of Matilda.
The words in the chorus are most painful. :\'(
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
I've never heard that song Asali, but just reading the words fills me with sadness... :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: Back at ya! :)
thanks lol.
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Hi Everyone,
It's been a few days since I've read this thread, I just needed to find a happier one for a bit, but I signed on to the main site and saw that the memorial banner was changed. It took me a second to realize what was different, then it really upset me. I started to feel like I was suddenly the only one left not over this horrible reality, so I decided to check back on all of you. I'm sorry to see so many still hurting, but glad to see everyone still sticking together and supporting each other. I share your pain, anger, and hurt, and one day soon, hope to share in the future, the tuff realization that we have carried on, NOT FORGOTTEN, but carried on. But not there yet. I will be with some wonderful Brokies in Las Vegas soon, I hope all of you find your ways of dealing with this. I send all of you on this thread my love and hugs---Jess:)
:t) jessica, our memorial banner is a link between all of us :ghug:
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Hi Everyone,
It's been a few days since I've read this thread, I just needed to find a happier one for a bit, but I signed on to the main site and saw that the memorial banner was changed. It took me a second to realize what was different, then it really upset me. I started to feel like I was suddenly the only one left not over this horrible reality, so I decided to check back on all of you. I'm sorry to see so many still hurting, but glad to see everyone still sticking together and supporting each other. I share your pain, anger, and hurt, and one day soon, hope to share in the future, the tuff realization that we have carried on, NOT FORGOTTEN, but carried on. But not there yet. I will be with some wonderful Brokies in Las Vegas soon, I hope all of you find your ways of dealing with this. I send all of you on this thread my love and hugs---Jess:)
Hi Jess
You can be sure that the fact the banner has changed does not mean that we are "over it". Personally I don't know when will I ever be over it, it still hurts so much. I feel like Heath is a part of me and my heart will need a long time to heal. I'm definitely not there yet. But like you said, while we will never forget, we need to carry on. We'll carry on because we have to, and we'll also carry him in our hearts, forever. Heath will never be forgotten, not here.
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Hi Jess
You can be sure that the fact the banner has changed does not mean that we are "over it". Personally I don't know when will I ever be over it, it still hurts so much. I feel like Heath is a part of me and my heart will need a long time to heal. I'm definitely not there yet. But like you said, while we will never forget, we need to carry on. We'll carry on because we have to, and we'll also carry him in our hearts, forever. Heath will never be forgotten, not here.
Beautifully said, Keren. I agree. Whilst it was sad to see the Memorial banner gone, I felt happy to see the dozy embrace banner, because it reminded me of what we are all doing here...to celebrate the most beautiful love story, and whilst the banner of Heath may be gone, our thoughts and memories of him are not, and never will be.
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Hi Jess
You can be sure that the fact the banner has changed does not mean that we are "over it". Personally I don't know when will I ever be over it, it still hurts so much. I feel like Heath is a part of me and my heart will need a long time to heal. I'm definitely not there yet. But like you said, while we will never forget, we need to carry on. We'll carry on because we have to, and we'll also carry him in our hearts, forever. Heath will never be forgotten, not here.
well said keren i ditto everything you have just said :)
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im going to try my hardest to compress my feelings for heath into one messages and actually try and make it worth posting here i cant promise this will happen though.
well where to start. first of all im glad all of you amazing people are here for me to share my thoughts with it means alot to me you guys are here to speak to. i was just wanting to say for all we are grieving for heath with good reason his shocking and un-timely death has shuck us all to our cors and im sad to say has even caused certain members to feel they cannot stay here now and that it doesnt feel the same :(. i feel grief is a neccesary in times like this what kind off people would be if we just tried to forget i know i will never stop grieving for heath nor would i want to grief should never dissapear it would be a crime against heath to forget.
i truely beleive heath lives on in the people he met or other wise affected by films interviews etc. it is extreamly important to me we honour heaths memorie and never try or wish to forget.
heath tought me love is extreamly important no matter what form it is a friendly love or an admiration of one teachings and it is important for me to stand up for what i beleive in. with out heath i would most deffinatly be a different person the way he accted and the things he said tought me so much about hummanity and yes i grieve for him just as we all do, but im sure we will meet him again after we to have left this life and when we do i would not like to be the person who tried to forget him.
heath is the gone this is true but only when we forget about him will he be truely gone thats why i refuse to do this.
sorry for rambling its probably non-sense i have a problem when im wrighting from the heart i dont listen to the head much thanks for listening.
:^^) Beautiful post and its not rambling they are heartfelt words and you are right,he lives on in anyone whose life he touched and he will lie on in the films we watch him in <^(
Firstly, I'm sorry to intrude, ???
But as a lurker over the last month I felt the need to register to say thanks to everyone here who's posted. There have been many many beautiful posts that I've felt moved by, and in light of Heath's untimely departure from us, it's brought great comfort to know that I'm not the only one feeling like this and that it's ok to feel like this too.
I'll let you get back to it now and thanks once again. xx
hiya welcome to the board, im glad you have found us and youre not intruding!!! :ghug: we are all Brokies together here and anyone is welcome to join, afterall we all share one thing in common our love for Brokeback. <^( Glad you found this place so you realise how you feel is normal and we all feel the same. Hope you continue to post and read and enjoy being here! :^^) x
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hiya welcome to the board, im glad you have found us and youre not intruding!!! :ghug: we are all Brokies together here and anyone is welcome to join, afterall we all share one thing in common our love for Brokeback. <^( Glad you found this place so you realise how you feel is normal and we all feel the same. Hope you continue to post and read and enjoy being here! :^^) x
I second that :)
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:^^) Beautiful post and its not rambling they are heartfelt words and you are right,he lives on in anyone whose life he touched and he will lie on in the films we watch him in <^(
hiya welcome to the board, im glad you have found us and youre not intruding!!! :ghug: we are all Brokies together here and anyone is welcome to join, afterall we all share one thing in common our love for Brokeback. <^( Glad you found this place so you realise how you feel is normal and we all feel the same. Hope you continue to post and read and enjoy being here! :^^) x
Aww thanks cowgirlkit and zankou1991. It does seem like a lovely group of people here, so I'll probably post more.
I just didn't want to intrude on what seems like a close group of friends, and seem pushy.
And on a Heath related note, I really can't believe five weeks have gone by
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Aww thanks cowgirlkit and zankou1991. It does seem like a lovely group of people here, so I'll probably post more.
I just didn't want to intrude on what seems like a close group of friends, and seem pushy.
And on a Heath related note, I really can't believe five weeks have gone by
i dont think anyone can beleive how long its been it still seem like some kind off nightmare and yes we are all quite a close knit community here but i only joined last week and already feel part of it please feel welcome im sure i speak for everyone here when i say we are always looking for new brokies to befriend
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i dont think anyone can beleive how long its been it still seem like some kind off nightmare and yes we are all quite a close knit community here but i only joined last week and already feel part of it please feel welcome im sure i speak for everyone here when i say we are always looking for new brokies to befriend
The sad thing is, it seems like only yesterday I found out, and also at the same time, months ago. I don;t know it's hard to explain. But like you, I'm still in many ways waiting to wake up and find all is right with the world, and yet know it'll never be the same again. :(
Thanks again for the warm welcome
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The sad thing is, it seems like only yesterday I found out, and also at the same time, months ago. I don;t know it's hard to explain. But like you, I'm still in many ways waiting to wake up and find all is right with the world, and yet know it'll never be the same again. :(
Thanks again for the warm welcome
yes i dont know if this feeling ever ends but im sure it gets easier with time even if it takes years.
another thing that has made me sad is the fact that i feel so sad about heath who i never met face to face sadder even then i did when family members of mine have died i think this is just because my family members were not so young and i did meet them most of them i have lost were older relatives who had fulfilled most of their ambitions is it wrong for me to feel so bad for heath when i wasnt that sad for family members?
sorry for tangling you up in my mellow-drama
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yes i dont know if this feeling ever ends but im sure it gets easier with time even if it takes years.
another thing that has made me sad is the fact that i feel so sad about heath who i never met face to face sadder even then i did when family members of mine have died i think this is just because my family members were not so young and i did meet them most of them i have lost were older relatives who had fulfilled most of their ambitions is it wrong for me to feel so bad for heath when i wasnt that sad for family members?
sorry for tangling you up in my mellow-drama
Oh no I do understand,. While any death is sad, it is worse I think when a young person dies with so much left to do, as opposed to someone older. I've had to deal with a few younger deaths in my life and always found them more of a struggle to deal with than older people.
It's all the wasted potential they had, their chance to fully realise their potential and achieve all their dreams, watch their kids grow up etc that just makes it seem unfair. After hearing about Heath, all I could think (& this might make me sound like a horrible person) is why take Heath, why not take someone who's seriously ill and ease their suffering.
It makes you realise how unfair life can be and to make the most of every minute. Live for today and not tomorrow
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Oh no I do understand,. While any death is sad, it is worse I think when a young person dies with so much left to do, as opposed to someone older. I've had to deal with a few younger deaths in my life and always found them more of a struggle to deal with than older people.
It's all the wasted potential they had, their chance to fully realise their potential and achieve all their dreams, watch their kids grow up etc that just makes it seem unfair. After hearing about Heath, all I could think (& this might make me sound like a horrible person) is why take Heath, why not take someone who's seriously ill and ease their suffering.
It makes you realise how unfair life can be and to make the most of every minute. Live for today and not tomorrow
thanks im glad there are people here who no what im saying and take the time to respond :t)
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thanks im glad there are people here who no what im saying and take the time to respond :t)
Time is not something there is always enough of, never enough. Heath shines in my heart, quietly most of the time, gently, sweetly and helps me remember, live fully today, remember richly yesterdays and dream heartily of tomorrows, he surely did. And he knew the power of peace, he wanted that for himself and others. He has it now, at a great cost. He'd want us to also. I guess he'd know how hard it is coming though, too.
jessi
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Time is not something there is always enough of, never enough. Heath shines in my heart, quietly most of the time, gently, sweetly and helps me remember, live fully today, remember richly yesterdays and dream heartily of tomorrows, he surely did. And he knew the power of peace, he wanted that for himself and others. He has it now, at a great cost. He'd want us to also. I guess he'd know how hard it is coming though, too.
jessi
yer good point,
right im gonna go now night every one
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Hello Brokies
I don't really have much to say tonight, only a favor for all of you ::)
I know I have already asked everyone but I still working on getting quotes to be put into my collage
And I'm getting a lot from writers and poets when I really want some from members right here at ennisjack.com!
So PLEASE, if you have any posts that you've wrote and you thought a line from your post was pretty good, send it to me and I can see what I can do
I will not put any quote onto the collage without permission from you first!!
Also, I'm still collecting pictures and If you have any one that you love, please PM them to me as well
Thank you everyone and I wish you all a good night ^f^
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Hello Brokies
I don't really have much to say tonight, only a favor for all of you ::)
I know I have already asked everyone but I still working on getting quotes to be put into my collage
And I'm getting a lot from writers and poets when I really want some from members right here at ennisjack.com!
So PLEASE, if you have any posts that you've wrote and you thought a line from your post was pretty good, send it to me and I can see what I can do
I will not put any quote onto the collage without permission from you first!!
Also, I'm still collecting pictures and If you have any one that you love, please PM them to me as well
Thank you everyone and I wish you all a good night ^f^
i dont think you will but if you see something you like in my posts feel free to take it just PM me :)
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I found myself avoiding this thread for a few days now,it become to much to bear for me, everything reminded me here that he's gone and nothing will bring him back.Sorry for being such a nuisance, but that is my sad reality now, he is in my heart forever, and the nightmare isn't over....So I tried to occupy myself with something else...
Today I thought that I can't stay away any longer and started reading all of your posts here, then I saw LJNs' and carbys' posts and was struck by it's sad resolution... OMG...:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Still I must thank you all for the comforting words %)
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I found myself avoiding this thread for a few days now,it become to much to bear for me, everything reminded me here that he's gone and nothing will bring him back.Sorry for being such a nuisance, but that is my sad reality now, he is in my heart forever, and the nightmare isn't over....So I tried to occupy myself with something else...
Today I thought that I can't stay away any longer and started reading all of your posts here, then I saw LJNs' and carbys' posts and was struck by it's sad resolution... OMG...:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Still I must thank you all for the comforting words %)
I know how you feel. I was trying to think of something else to do to keep my mind of Heath but It didn't work and It helped comming here and get the support from everyone
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%) all
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I know how you feel. I was trying to think of something else to do to keep my mind of Heath but It didn't work and It helped comming here and get the support from everyone
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the worst way to grieve is alone its not impossible to get through but its much harder then grieving in a community of others who feel the same way and support you and are supported by you its a very delicate balance.
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the worst way to grieve is alone its not impossible to get through but its much harder then grieving in a community of others who feel the same way and support you and are supported by you its a very delicate balance.
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the worst way to grieve is alone its not impossible to get through but its much harder then grieving in a community of others who feel the same way and support you and are supported by you its a very delicate balance.
Thanx for that..
BTW, congrats on your 500 posts it makes you Jaked... ^f^
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Thanx for that..
BTW, congrats on your 500 posts it makes you Jaked... ^f^
:t) and no problem for the comment :) i am a strong beleiver of what i said, grief is easier to deal with in good company :)
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O day! he cannot die
when thou so fair art shining!
O Sun, in such a glorious sky,
so tranquilly declining;
He cannot leave thee now,
while fresh west winds are blowing,
and all around his youthful brow
thy cheerful light is glowing!
(...) awake, awake
the golden evening gleams
warm and bright on Arden's lake -
arouse thee from thy dreams!
Beside thee, on my knee,
my dearest friend! I pray
that thou, to cross the eternal sea,
wouldst yet one hour delay
(...)
Emily Brönte
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O day! he cannot die
when thou so fair art shining!
O Sun, in such a glorious sky,
so tranquilly declining;
He cannot leave thee now,
while fresh west winds are blowing,
and all around his youthful brow
thy cheerful light is glowing!
(...) awake, awake
the golden evening gleams
warm and bright on Arden's lake -
arouse thee from thy dreams!
Beside thee, on my knee,
my dearest friend! I pray
that thou, to cross the eternal sea,
wouldst yet one hour delay
(...)
Emily Brönte
i love it so true to this situation.
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I really have nothing to offer today except :ghug: but I just had to stop in.
That's a beautiful poem by Emily Bronte.
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I really have nothing to offer today except :ghug: but I just had to stop in.
That's a beautiful poem by Emily Bronte.
a :ghug: is a wonderful thing to offer sometimes the best gesture is a silent one
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zankou1991, I am so glad you've been here these last few weeks. Your comments remind me of what others have been saying about Heath, that he was a young man with an old soul. And you remind me of someone else equally young, with an equally wonderful spirit, lolita_19.
Thank you for being here, and sharing your humor, your observations, your comments, and most of all your good company. :ghug: :t)
a :ghug: is a wonderful thing to offer sometimes the best gesture is a silent one
:t) and no problem for the comment :) i am a strong beleiver of what i said, grief is easier to deal with in good company :)
the worst way to grieve is alone its not impossible to get through but its much harder then grieving in a community of others who feel the same way and support you and are supported by you its a very delicate balance.
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zankou1991, I am so glad you've been here these last few weeks. Your comments remind me of what others have been saying about Heath, that he was a young man with an old soul. And you remind me of someone else equally young, with an equally wonderful spirit, lolita_19.
Thank you for being here, and sharing your humor, your observations, your comments, and most of all your good company. :ghug: :t)
no problem thanks for the comment :)
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It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time. ^f^ I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~
So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process. :ghug:
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It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time. ^f^ I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~
So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process. :ghug:
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I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....
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I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....
emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul
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It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time. ^f^ I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~
So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process. :ghug:
And that's the best thing we must do,for ourselves and for him and his memory.We really have to feel happy for everything he gave to us while he was here,and everything he had left to us now that He's in another side of the Universe.If we hadn't known him,now we couldn't enjoy all this everything that has remained,and it's what must prevail now before the sorrow for having lost more things onwards.Sometimes it's better to have known the beauty and the love than never having known them;you don't cry then,but you've never enjoyed them either. :ghug:
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emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul
thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it :(
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I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....
Emilie,if you can´t still,just don´t watch BBM, don´t do it.Time will tell you when you´ll be ready to watch it or any Heath movie with sweet sorrow,but being able to stand it.Just try to do what FlowrChild and me say in our posts; try to be happy for what Heath has left and given to you,to all of us,and happy to having known him.It´s difficult,I know,but it´s a way you must to walk to. :ghug:
emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul
(:) :clap:
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thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it :(
If you are stupid for this,I´d like that there will be more stupids like you in the world...
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thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it :(
i agree with myprivatejack if this is stupid then the world is a stupid place remember you are not alone in this we all feel the same.
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i agree with myprivatejack if this is stupid then the world is a stupid place remember you are not alone in this we all feel the same.
And the world is really an stupid place,but not for this reason.We need more stupid persons who are able to cry for a unknown person who has made this world a little better.
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I agree. We're all crying for ourselves, for Heath, and for his family and friends. And that just means that we're compassionate people with open hearts. I wouldn't have it any other way. :ghug:
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I agree. We're all crying for ourselves, for Heath, and for his family and friends. And that just means that we're compassionate people with open hearts. I wouldn't have it any other way. :ghug:
me neither :ghug:
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thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...
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thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...
just dismiss what this so called "friend" said sometimes people cant understand what you are going through simply because they are not going through it with you thats the wonder of this place everyone is going through it with you.
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thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...
No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.
You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.
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No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.
You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.
nice post andrew :) :)
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thanks for all the nice comments, I feel much better now
:ghug: :^^)
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That's an amazing tribute to Heath that contains all of his movies with BBM music :
http://www.sendspace.com/file/mdo2ro
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I know how you feel Emzan :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I know how you feel Emzan :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
:) :ghug: :^^)
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thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...
Then,this so called "friend" was not as you believed.He or she wasn´t able to understand your feelings,what is a friendship proof.Or wasn´t sensitive enough to understand them.In any case,you should feel sorry for this person,not for yourself. ^f^
No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.
You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.
Beautifully explained,Andrew,just as always... :^^)
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Then,this so called "friend" was not as you believed.He or she wasn´t able to understand your feelings,what is a friendship proof.Or wasn´t sensitive enough to understand them.In any case,you should feel sorry for this person,not for yourself. ^f^
Beautifully explained,Andrew,just as always... :^^)
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Moving on doesn't mean, shouldn't mean, forgetting, more like not dwelling. Like the couple of times I've see pap stuff on michelle, going to work, taking walks with her daughter. Nothing can bring heath back, but he wouldn't want anyone who loved him to stop their life. He's part of all we are now, and I look forward to being able to enjoy his work again, even with pain. Life is much enjoyment with pain. Sometimes I'll smile or cry, or both, and like losing anyone I have loved, often caught with great surprise when it comes. He's part of my world. I have grandkids and a daughter in another state. they are always in my mind, sometimes in thought, sometimes just there. heath is always there, sometimes in thought, but part of my world made so much richer by him. Part of my pain, and what you can't fix, you stand. He has moved on, living in a place we can't be yet. He doesn't want us, no he doesn't, to stop our life, just love and remember him. Make him a good part of us, better for knowing him.
This is probably why some banners are taken down, some threads closed. But there needs to be a place to come together for those still trying to adjust to standing what is so hard to stand.
jessi
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Moving on doesn't mean, shouldn't mean, forgetting, more like not dwelling. Like the couple of times I've see pap stuff on michelle, going to work, taking walks with her daughter. Nothing can bring heath back, but he wouldn't want anyone who loved him to stop their life. He's part of all we are now, and I look forward to being able to enjoy his work again, even with pain. Life is much enjoyment with pain. Sometimes I'll smile or cry, or both, and like losing anyone I have loved, often caught with great surprise when it comes. He's part of my world. I have grandkids and a daughter in another state. they are always in my mind, sometimes in thought, sometimes just there. heath is always there, sometimes in thought, but part of my world made so much richer by him. Part of my pain, and what you can't fix, you stand. He has moved on, living in a place we can't be yet. He doesn't want us, no he doesn't, to stop our life, just love and remember him. Make him a good part of us, better for knowing him.
This is probably why some banners are taken down, some threads closed. But there needs to be a place to come together for those still trying to adjust to standing what is so hard to stand.
jessi
well said jessi :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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thanks for all the nice comments, I feel much better now
:ghug: :^^)
Dear Emzan, you can always depend on our forums' support whatever the problem, it never fails that someone here, will be for you, with a hug, kind word and a open heart! <^(
Wonderful post jessi, and I rest my case...
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That's an amazing tribute to Heath that contains all of his movies with BBM music :
http://www.sendspace.com/file/mdo2ro
That's really amazing.
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Dear Emzan, you can always depend on our forums' support whatever the problem, it never fails that someone here, will be for you, with a hug, kind word and a open heart! <^(
Wonderful post jessi, and I rest my case...
I know that I can always come here and every time I do I feel so much better, thank you all for being here %)
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I know that I can always come here and every time I do I feel so much better, thank you all for being here %)
im sure everyone is glad to be here for each other :) i know i am
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It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time. ^f^ I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~
So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process. :ghug:
Barb, I don't know what to say. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....
emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul
I know exactly how you feel Emzan, everything else is the same and yet nothing feels right and that makes it so hard to comprehend that Heath is no longer physically here. And when I start dwelling on it, the harder it is to believe. I watched A Knight's Tale with some friends last night, and while watching it I pushed it largely to the back of the mind, but somewhere at the back there was the thought 'He's not here anymore'
But much like Zankou1991, I firmly believe (& it's largely whats helped me since the news) that Heath, his spirit lives on somewhere, in a better place that we just can't see. And it hurts that we can't see him or will never see a new movie or interview or photograph. And yet we're lucky, becuase in time, we'll be able to watch his films and see him and hear him and smile. Until we meet again in the place that awaits us. But till then we are left with the memories and his films and while the pain will ease with time, his work will ensure that all of us here will never forget him and be continued to be inspired by Heath for many years to come.
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I know exactly how you feel Emzan, everything else is the same and yet nothing feels right and that makes it so hard to comprehend that Heath is no longer physically here. And when I start dwelling on it, the harder it is to believe. I watched A Knight's Tale with some friends last night, and while watching it I pushed it largely to the back of the mind, but somewhere at the back there was the thought 'He's not here anymore'
But much like Zankou1991, I firmly believe (& it's largely whats helped me since the news) that Heath, his spirit lives on somewhere, in a better place that we just can't see. And it hurts that we can't see him or will never see a new movie or interview or photograph. And yet we're lucky, becuase in time, we'll be able to watch his films and see him and hear him and smile. Until we meet again in the place that awaits us. But till then we are left with the memories and his films and while the pain will ease with time, his work will ensure that all of us here will never forget him and be continued to be inspired by Heath for many years to come.
well said hayley and welcome to the forum i hope you like it here it truely is wonderful :)
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well said hayley and welcome to the forum i hope you like it here it truely is wonderful :)
:t) And yes, I'm beginning to see that this is a really wonderful place, filled with lovely, thoughtful people
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And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
Wow! Touching! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
You're right, Asali, these words make me think of Heath's little girl, and they seem a message for us all, too.
"Just smile back". Yes, I know we should, and I try to do it thinking of Heath and his extraordinary smile. But sometimes tears come. Yesterday I watched a video on "you tube" ("BBM Come What May") and I burst into tears.
Five weeks, already five weeks, and I still can't believe it!
But I know that we must "just smile back". Of course I know.
Simply, I also know that sometimes tears will come. Of course I know.
Thank you for sharing these beautiful words.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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I want to believe that you are in a better place now.
I want to believe that you are happy.
I want to believe that you can see how loved you are.
I hope the sun always shines where you are.
Little Darling.
One day the sun will shine again for me too.
I will be able to be happy again.
Until then I carry you in my heart, all the time.
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I want to believe that you are in a better place now.
I want to believe that you are happy.
I want to believe that you can see how loved you are.
I hope the sun always shines where you are.
Little Darling.
One day the sun will shine again for me too.
I will be able to be happy again.
Until then I carry you in my heart, all the time.
And that's what you must believe,all of us must believe it,but I'm sure it's true.I'm not saying this to relief you only, without conviction...Above all,the second part it'll arrives for sure. :ghug:
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I want to believe that you are in a better place now.
I want to believe that you are happy.
I want to believe that you can see how loved you are.
I hope the sun always shines where you are.
Little Darling.
One day the sun will shine again for me too.
I will be able to be happy again.
Until then I carry you in my heart, all the time.
That's really really beautiful Keren. And I want to believe that too. :ghug:
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I want to believe that you are in a better place now.
I want to believe that you are happy.
I want to believe that you can see how loved you are.
I hope the sun always shines where you are.
Little Darling.
One day the sun will shine again for me too.
I will be able to be happy again.
Until then I carry you in my heart, all the time.
Thank you for that Keren :^^) ...I do believe it!!! <^(
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Paradise Lost
Steps
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Across the desert sands I watch a caravan
And dream it could take me to you
As the east wind blows
I shiver to my bones
Cos all I can think of is you
I still feel you here
The memories are clear
So don't go forgetting my love
How we learned to be free
How we dreamed the same dream
Now nothings what it seems
Paradise lost is a place without you
In the shadow of love there's no room with a view
Walking alone on the sand
Wish you were here again here again
Wishing you were here again
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi76.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj18%2Fhpv1515%2FHeath%2F02647heath.jpg&hash=7b96f3a0d3b8ed4fe1087457b8e9b9acddde4b4c)
Bruxa did this..
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beautiful hpv :)
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Paradise Lost
Steps
...............
Across the desert sands I watch a caravan
And dream it could take me to you
As the east wind blows
I shiver to my bones
Cos all I can think of is you
I still feel you here
The memories are clear
So don't go forgetting my love
How we learned to be free
How we dreamed the same dream
Now nothings what it seems
Paradise lost is a place without you
In the shadow of love there's no room with a view
Walking alone on the sand
Wish you were here again here again
Wishing you were here again
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi76.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj18%2Fhpv1515%2FHeath%2F02647heath.jpg&hash=7b96f3a0d3b8ed4fe1087457b8e9b9acddde4b4c)
Bruxa did this..
beautiful poem and pic
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Thank you Keren and hpv. Those are beautiful posts. :ghug:
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Wonderful,hpv¡ I love it... <^(
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Where're some anecdotes,little things that aren't important if you don´t put them in another context;far from the moment when they're said or written they get another dimension,more tender and,sometimes,sadder...Few days ago I read somewhere that Ang had said how he had told Heath and Jake to walk and behave like two 40 years old men.And how they'd had to repite the scenes because they walked like a 70 years old men,since being 40 was so far from them still that they thought they were almost two old men then...-being some beautiful and splendorous 23 and 25,it's logical-.
That makes me think that we'll be able to see Jake-God grant¡-getting old,and then we must check if he grows a belly or have a moustache just like his character,and compare if he's so gorgeous as a middle-aged man as a young one is now...But we can't see if Heath becomes an attractive middle-aged man as Ennis was,or if sadness and problems in his real life ages him before it would be usual,as it happenned with his character's agony during so many years.We won't be able to compare young and middle-aged Heath;only enjoy his nice youthness and all he has given to us in so few years.
It's in moments like this when even the most insignificant anecdote gets a tragic dimension beyond its real importance.Just a thought that I needed to share. :ghug:
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I know what you mean mpj. :ghug:
This is why, though it might be selfish of me, I'm really glad that he played a character that aged. Because we get a little glimpse, a little sense, even if it was fabricated and not necessarily true to what he'd look like in RL at that age, of what he might look like then. It's also probably why I've been looking at as many recent pictures as possible lately, along with the 'classics', because I had a need these last few weeks to see him as old as I could, if that makes any sense.
I've also noticed in a few interviews and pictures I was watching over the last few weeks, some tendancies and traits that make me think he might have looked a lot like his father as he aged. I'll never know for sure, but it was kind of a nice thought when it occurred to me.
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I know what you mean mpj. :ghug:
This is why, though it might be selfish of me, I'm really glad that he played a character that aged. Because we get a little glimpse, a little sense, even if it was fabricated and not necessarily true to what he'd look like in RL at that age, of what he might look like then. It's also probably why I've been looking at as many recent pictures as possible lately, along with the 'classics', because I had a need these last few weeks to see him as old as I could, if that makes any sense.
I've also noticed in a few interviews and pictures I was watching over the last few weeks, some tendencies and traits that make me think he might have looked a lot like his father as he aged. I'll never know for sure, but it was kind of a nice thought when it occurred to me.
You're not selfish at all,FlowrChild; it's the only thing we'll have from now onwards...And,of course,it makes sense for me because it's another way of saying what I've just said.But,I repite,we must be happy for having known him somehow and that he'll remains forever young in all the movies and quotes he has left us. :ghug:
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It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time. ^f^ I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(
He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
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So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process. :ghug:
:clap: <^(OMG I LOVE this song and ive thought about it and relating it to Heath, hes always with us always. Thanks fr posting this and sharing with us all :^^)
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I know exactly how you feel Emzan, everything else is the same and yet nothing feels right and that makes it so hard to comprehend that Heath is no longer physically here. And when I start dwelling on it, the harder it is to believe. I watched A Knight's Tale with some friends last night, and while watching it I pushed it largely to the back of the mind, but somewhere at the back there was the thought 'He's not here anymore'
But much like Zankou1991, I firmly believe (& it's largely whats helped me since the news) that Heath, his spirit lives on somewhere, in a better place that we just can't see. And it hurts that we can't see him or will never see a new movie or interview or photograph. And yet we're lucky, becuase in time, we'll be able to watch his films and see him and hear him and smile. Until we meet again in the place that awaits us. But till then we are left with the memories and his films and while the pain will ease with time, his work will ensure that all of us here will never forget him and be continued to be inspired by Heath for many years to come.
How you felt when you watched A Knights Tale is how i felt when watching that Brokeback Mountain and Ten things I Hate About You recently. I managed to push it to the back of my mind too but at the back of my mind i could feel this niggling feeling of him not being in this world anymore. However he is in my heart and he made me smile again whilst watching him on the TV.
What you said Hayley about Heath being in another place is so what i think too. #) Hes still with us and will be smiling with us when we smile at his films, his legacy and gift he has left us with..forever. :ghug:
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What you said Hayley about Heath being in another place is so what i think too. #) Hes still with us and will be smiling with us when we smile at his films, his legacy and gift he has left us with..forever. :ghug:
exactly what i've been trying to say to people well said cowgirlKT
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Thank you Keren and hpv. Those are beautiful posts. :ghug:
I second that
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How you felt when you watched A Knights Tale is how i felt when watching that Brokeback Mountain and Ten things I Hate About You recently. I managed to push it to the back of my mind too but at the back of my mind i could feel this niggling feeling of him not being in this world anymore. However he is in my heart and he made me smile again whilst watching him on the TV.
What you said Hayley about Heath being in another place is so what i think too. #) Hes still with us and will be smiling with us when we smile at his films, his legacy and gift he has left us with..forever. :ghug:
Hi Cowgirlkit
It is hard to watch the films while we're still adjusting. I didn't manage to watch Brokeback to the end, but the best way to honour Heath is to watch his films, and yes they'll be tough while we're still adjusting, but they'll also make us smile and laugh and we'll always have them as a reminder of his artistic integrity and passion for acting. And the fact that he followed his dreams and shared his talent with us, is something we can always be thankful to him for.
While I have found it hard to watch the films that I have so far since the news, I know that will fade with time (though never completely I think) but I can't imagine never watching them again and Heath not being part of my world in some way.
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Hello Brokies!!
I'm sorry I haven't been posting much, school gets pretty hard at times and lately I've been spending much of my time looking at posts from this thread, looking over every page to see beautiful quotes from our lovely members
It was hard for me, going back to the 1st page, because you just sit there and you can close your eyes and just remember exactly where you were when he died..oh, I will always remember.. :\'(
Though I canot belive it's almost March now, and soon, we'll say it's been 3 months, 4 months and so on, I can't imagine how I'll feel when I know it's been a year..
Some people I know have forgotton but still love his films, others like my friend Anna and myself, are still trying to grasp the fact of the death of this honest, loving, caring man who we respected so much on the big screen and in our hearts
Today in German class, the teacher was absent and told us we can pick a movie to bring in and watch so my friend Anna told me to bring in 10 things..so when I brought it in, as I'm asking the teacher the if we can watch it, one of the girls just goes "...Aww, Heath", I couldn't believe some people still cared for this man. But sadely, the Seniors in our class won the chance to watch what they wanted to watch but I gave the DVD to my friend Anna so at least she can still watch our loving boy.. <^(
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Hello Brokies!!
I'm sorry I haven't been posting much, school gets pretty hard at times and lately I've been spending much of my time looking at posts from this thread, looking over every page to see beautiful quotes from our lovely members
It was hard for me, going back to the 1st page, because you just sit there and you can close your eyes and just remember exactly where you were when he died..oh, I will always remember.. :\'(
Though I canot belive it's almost March now, and soon, we'll say it's been 3 months, 4 months and so on, I can't imagine how I'll feel when I know it's been a year..
Some people I know have forgotton but still love his films, others like my friend Anna and myself, are still trying to grasp the fact of the death of this honest, loving, caring man who we respected so much on the big screen and in our hearts
Today in German class, the teacher was absent and told us we can pick a movie to bring in and watch so my friend Anna told me to bring in 10 things..so when I brought it in, as I'm asking the teacher the if we can watch it, one of the girls just goes "...Aww, Heath", I couldn't believe some people still cared for this man. But sadely, the Seniors in our class won the chance to watch what they wanted to watch but I gave the DVD to my friend Anna so at least she can still watch our loving boy.. <^(
thats the spirit lil_dwarf for all he is gone we can still remember him that way he will always stay in our hearts :)
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Paradise Lost
Steps
...............
Across the desert sands I watch a caravan
And dream it could take me to you
As the east wind blows
I shiver to my bones
Cos all I can think of is you
I still feel you here
The memories are clear
So don't go forgetting my love
How we learned to be free
How we dreamed the same dream
Now nothings what it seems
Paradise lost is a place without you
In the shadow of love there's no room with a view
Walking alone on the sand
Wish you were here again here again
Wishing you were here again
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Bruxa did this..
:\'( :\'( Wonderful and touching both words and picture :\'( :\'(
Love from Megalyn08
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Heath,no matter that narrow-minded persons didn't want even to watch BBM for a stupid political and moral (?) questions.No matter that these same reasons didn't allow you to win the Oscar for your amazing role in this movie.No matter all this,and more still everything that perhaps you have had to support during these years for portraying a man who has taught us to love without fear,to love above all the difficulties...Things that you have had to support even when you were going to receive your well-deserved homage once you'd already left us,because you had "dared" to be a gay on the screen...
No matter all these nonsenses,because long time ago you've won the Oscar for the best actor in our opinions;and what's more-and more beautiful-you´ve won forever a prize better than this one,as an actor and as a person.THE OSCAR OF OUR HEARTS. We will always love you,Ennis Del Mar.
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Heath,no matter that narrow-minded persons didn't want even to watch BBM for a stupid political and moral (?) questions.No matter that these same reasons didn't allow you to win the Oscar for your amazing role in this movie.No matter all this,and more still everything that perhaps you have had to support during these years for portraying a man who has taught us to love without fear,to love above all the difficulties...Things that you have had to support even when you were going to receive your well-deserved homage once you'd already left us,because you had "dared" to be a gay on the screen...
No matter all these nonsenses,because long time ago you've won the Oscar for the best actor in our opinions;and what's more-and more beautiful-you´ve won forever a prize better than this one,as an actor and as a person.THE OSCAR OF OUR HEARTS. We will always love you,Ennis Del Mar.
lovely post i totally agree, this man may have not won some small gold statue but he deffinately won our hearts from the moment i seen him in interviews and BBM i knew in life this man was an amazing person im just so sad i didnt know more about him when he was alive, i admire this man and aspire to be like him in some ways i already feel i am i stumbled accross an interview trascript of his earlier today in which he was talking about stupid closed minded people not being able to except gay love and i remember saying it on a website a few weeks ago almost word for word, to me this shows this amazing man really does live on in all of us. he will be forever missed in life but i know we will see him again someday.
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Heath,no matter that narrow-minded persons didn't want even to watch BBM for a stupid political and moral (?) questions.No matter that these same reasons didn't allow you to win the Oscar for your amazing role in this movie.No matter all this,and more still everything that perhaps you have had to support during these years for portraying a man who has taught us to love without fear,to love above all the difficulties...Things that you have had to support even when you were going to receive your well-deserved homage once you'd already left us,because you had "dared" to be a gay on the screen...
No matter all these nonsenses,because long time ago you've won the Oscar for the best actor in our opinions;and what's more-and more beautiful-you´ve won forever a prize better than this one,as an actor and as a person.THE OSCAR OF OUR HEARTS. We will always love you,Ennis Del Mar.
Myprivatejack - I have no words to thank you for this. I completely agree and I join with you: he won the Oscar of
our hearts and our everlasting admiration, respect, gratitude, love and friendship.
:t) :ghug:
He and Jake showed us a really deep, sweet and strong love and, yes, they taught us to love
without fear!!!! I'll be always grateful for this. <^(
Love from Megalyn08
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you can close your eyes and just remember exactly where you were when he died..oh, I will always remember.. :\'(
Though I canot belive it's almost March now, and soon, we'll say it's been 3 months, 4 months and so on, I can't imagine how I'll feel when I know it's been a year..(
Lil_dwarf - I perfectly understand your feeling. Of course I'll never forget the moment when I got the terrible news.
My God, what a shock!! :\'( I still feel stunned if I think about it.
Me too, I don't dare imagine how I may feel saying "it was a year ago"...... I still can't believe it, it's too
absurd!!!!
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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Myprivatejack - I have no words to thank you for this. I completely agree and I join with you: he won the Oscar of
our hearts and our everlasting admiration, respect, gratitude, love and friendship.
:t) :ghug:
He and Jake showed us a really deep, sweet and strong love and, yes, they taught us to love
without fear!!!! I'll be always grateful for this. <^(
Love from Megalyn08
:t) so much Megalyn¡ It´s the least he deserves,now and forever¡ Love, Alicia
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Heath,no matter that narrow-minded persons didn't want even to watch BBM for a stupid political and moral (?) questions.No matter that these same reasons didn't allow you to win the Oscar for your amazing role in this movie.No matter all this,and more still everything that perhaps you have had to support during these years for portraying a man who has taught us to love without fear,to love above all the difficulties...Things that you have had to support even when you were going to receive your well-deserved homage once you'd already left us,because you had "dared" to be a gay on the screen...
No matter all these nonsenses,because long time ago you've won the Oscar for the best actor in our opinions;and what's more-and more beautiful-you´ve won forever a prize better than this one,as an actor and as a person.THE OSCAR OF OUR HEARTS. We will always love you,Ennis Del Mar.
What a wonderful, moving post. and I agree with every word.
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Paradise Lost
Steps
...............
Across the desert sands I watch a caravan
And dream it could take me to you
As the east wind blows
I shiver to my bones
Cos all I can think of is you
I still feel you here
The memories are clear
So don't go forgetting my love
How we learned to be free
How we dreamed the same dream
Now nothings what it seems
Paradise lost is a place without you
In the shadow of love there's no room with a view
Walking alone on the sand
Wish you were here again here again
Wishing you were here again
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Bruxa did this..
I havent heard this song for ageees! Its very fitting though, if id have heard it recently id have thought about my feelings and Heath...Good of you to post it and the pics really good :)
Hi Cowgirlkit
It is hard to watch the films while we're still adjusting. I didn't manage to watch Brokeback to the end, but the best way to honour Heath is to watch his films, and yes they'll be tough while we're still adjusting, but they'll also make us smile and laugh and we'll always have them as a reminder of his artistic integrity and passion for acting. And the fact that he followed his dreams and shared his talent with us, is something we can always be thankful to him for.
While I have found it hard to watch the films that I have so far since the news, I know that will fade with time (though never completely I think) but I can't imagine never watching them again and Heath not being part of my world in some way.
Yes they will always be a reminder to us of this wonderful man and i think youre right, in time the difficulty of watching his films will fade, though not totally, i hope we all manage to gain the strength to watch and enjoy Heaths work again so his memory is kept alive and lives on forever :c) #) love to all today x x x :ghug:
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What a wonderful, moving post. and I agree with every word.
Keren,I know what all this means for you,so I dedicated specially for you.Hope you feel better¡ :^^)
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you have all posted so beautiful posts, I don't know what to say.... :ghug: :^^)
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There are so many beautiful tribute videos out there for Heath already, but I just couldn't resist doing one of my own. Once it was in my head, I knew I wouldn't get it out until I made it and got it posted. I hope you like it.
Link to download:
http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html)
photobucket link to watch (thank you LuvJackNasty :^^)):
http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv (http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv)
The quotes go by a little quickly, but I hope it still works. :)
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There are so many beautiful tribute videos out there for Heath already, but I just couldn't resist doing one of my own. Once it was in my head, I knew I wouldn't get it out until I made it and got it posted. I hope you like it.
Link to download:
http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html)
photobucket link to watch (thank you LuvJackNasty :^^)):
http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv (http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv)
The quotes go by a little quickly, but I hope it still works. :)
FC, the tribute to him is absoultly beautiful with so many wonderful quotes and pictures!!
My only questoin is, where did you find that paiting of Ennis and his jacekt at the end?
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Fantastic video, FC :^^) :ghug:
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Thank you. LD, the Ennis picture was from a massive sweep of Heath pictures and might have been one that LuvJackNasty sent me. :)
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Wonderful video,music and pictures,FC¡ He looks absolutely lovely in all of them¡ Thank you so,so much¡(even if it hurst a lot still...). :ghug:
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One second late, was too late
to stop you leaving…
and so we saw you flying high,
and so you leave our hearts bleeding,
and it hurts so damn much.
Now no tear, no blame
is gonna bring you back,
no daughter’s love, no devotion…
there’s no boat on the other side,
to sail you where you belong.
Smile love, keep smiling,
let your shine light our ways,
we are feeling adrift, but hoping,
when we reach the lastest bay,
to kiss your forehead and hold your hand |
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One second late, was too late
to stop you leaving…
and so we saw you flying high,
and so you leave our hearts bleeding,
and it hurts so damn much.
Now no tear, no blame
is gonna bring you back,
no daughter’s love, no devotion…
there’s no boat on the other side,
to sail you where you belong.
Smile love, keep smiling,
let your shine light our ways,
we are feeling adrift, but hoping,
when we reach the lastest bay,
to kiss your forehead and hold your hand |
Irene,this is wonderful¡ :clap: :ghug: It reflects exactly how we feel. :\'( But it´s so sad...Is it yours?I love it¡.
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There are so many beautiful tribute videos out there for Heath already, but I just couldn't resist doing one of my own. Once it was in my head, I knew I wouldn't get it out until I made it and got it posted. I hope you like it.
Link to download:
http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html)
photobucket link to watch (thank you LuvJackNasty :^^)):
http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv (http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv)
The quotes go by a little quickly, but I hope it still works. :)
Thank you Barb, it's beautiful. And the quotes are just... well, I have no words.
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WARD: 'LEDGER TAUGHT ME TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF'
Supermodel GEMMA WARD has credited late actor HEATH LEDGER with teaching her to defend herself. The 20-year-old beauty met the fellow West Australian after he split from his fiancee Michelle Williams in 2007, and the pair were reportedly dating during the months leading up to his tragic death. She says, "I think he operated from the heart. He really, really knew that if he was going to make a decision to be in a film, then he needed to be really committed to it. "He wasn't afraid to fight with people involved, he wasn't afraid to perhaps piss people off. He told me to always be a punk and stand up for yourself.'"
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I'm having a complete meltdown. I think I'm on Heath overload, and now i can't stop crying. I can't stand this. I HATE that he's gone. I'm sick of crying over him every day. I feel, unbelievably sad, lonely, and stupid. :(
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I'm having a complete meltdown. I think I'm on Heath overload, and now i can't stop crying. I can't stand this. I HATE that he's gone. I'm sick of crying over him every day. I feel, unbelievably sad, lonely, and stupid. :(
Sadness had this up and downs in our state of mind,it's logical.I understand that you feel sad and lonely-who doesn't?-;but I can't accept that you say you feel stupid...Why?As I said to Emzan,I think,God grant all the stupid persons in the world be in this way for being crying for a young man who has died.For someone who has given so much love by means of his roles.Try to see the good times he has left to us instead of only grieving for the ones he isn't going to give again.And don't blame yourself...
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Sadness had this up and downs in our state of mind,it's logical.I understand that you feel sad and lonely-who doesn't?-;but I can't accept that you say you feel stupid...Why?As I said to Emzan,I think,God grant all the stupid persons in the world be in this way for being crying for a young man who has died.For someone who has given so much love by means of his roles.Try to see the good times he has left to us instead of only grieving for the ones he isn't going to give again.And don't blame yourself...
Thank you for your kind response. It's not his roles that I love him for, it's just him. A man I didn't know, but felt as though I did. And I can't help but feel stupid for feeling that way about somebody with whom I never exchanged a word and who didn't know I existed.
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Thank you for your kind response. It's not his roles that I love him for, it's just him. A man I didn't know, but felt as though I did. And I can't help but feel stupid for feeling that way about somebody with whom I never exchanged a word and who didn't know I existed.
But what you love him for are also his roles,that sometimes have been the only way we've had to know him,or not?I dare to say that all of us feel as if we know personally because he has made these roles so close,so human,so ours...This and the notions we have of his way of thinking,his beliefs,his thoughts,are what has made us feel as if he was a friend,a friend we don't know personally,yes,but a friend in any case.Why shouldn't we cry for him?If we know he was a good person,basically,and this world is lack of good persons...
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I'm having a complete meltdown. I think I'm on Heath overload, and now i can't stop crying. I can't stand this. I HATE that he's gone. I'm sick of crying over him every day. I feel, unbelievably sad, lonely, and stupid. :(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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But what you love him for are also his roles,that sometimes have been the only way we've had to know him,or not?I dare to say that all of us feel as if we know personally because he has made these roles so close,so human,so ours...This and the notions we have of his way of thinking,his beliefs,his thoughts,are what has made us feel as if he was a friend,a friend we don't know personally,yes,but a friend in any case.Why shouldn't we cry for him?If we know he was a good person,basically,and this world is lack of good persons...
You're right that I do love him for his roles, but even more, I love the man who I have seen in 24 interviews/shows, the REALl Heath. I have all of those interviews on my web site, and everything about him was so wonderful, charming, kind, funny, articulate, thoughtful, sweet, honest....
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
:\'( Thanks. I need that.
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:\'( Thanks. I need that.
no problem :ghug:
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I'm having a complete meltdown. I think I'm on Heath overload, and now i can't stop crying. I can't stand this. I HATE that he's gone. I'm sick of crying over him every day. I feel, unbelievably sad, lonely, and stupid. :(
:^^) lotsa hugs for you :ghug: i feel your sadness as does everyone else im sure. it hurts bad i know....xx
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:^^) lotsa hugs for you :ghug: i feel your sadness as does everyone else im sure. it hurts bad i know....xx
you got that right we all feel the sadness thats why we have to all stick together :ghug:
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you got that right we all feel the sadness thats why we have to all stick together :ghug:
Thank you. Luckily I've cheered up for the time being. I appreciate the support. It's like Jack says, "Sometimes I miss him so bad, I can hardly stand it." I really feel that way. :\'(
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Thank you. Luckily I've cheered up for the time being. I appreciate the support. It's like Jack says, "Sometimes I miss him so bad, I can hardly stand it." I really feel that way. :\'(
I feel that way too, but I love comming here and talk to all the wonderful people <^(
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I feel that way too, but I love comming here and talk to all the wonderful people <^(
Yes, it's great having two places to go. There is a really strong support system for grieving Heath fans on myspace. It's amazing.
This is especially great though, because it doesn't dwell on one thing that happens to be incredibly depressing. There are so many other things to talk about on here, and that makes for a much-needed distraction. Myspace can get very depressing.
Plus, there aren't actual conversations going on there, just messages back and forth to individuals. This is a really fun atmosphere!
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One second late, was too late
to stop you leaving…
and so we saw you flying high,
and so you leave our hearts bleeding,
and it hurts so damn much.
Now no tear, no blame
is gonna bring you back,
no daughter’s love, no devotion…
there’s no boat on the other side,
to sail you where you belong.
Smile love, keep smiling,
let your shine light our ways,
we are feeling adrift, but hoping,
when we reach the lastest bay,
to kiss your forehead and hold your hand |
This is utterly beautiful Irene!! :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you so much for this!!!
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This is utterly beautiful Irene!! :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you so much for this!!!
WOW! That is absolutely beautiful. Thank you.
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One second late, was too late
to stop you leaving…
and so we saw you flying high,
and so you leave our hearts bleeding,
and it hurts so damn much.
Now no tear, no blame
is gonna bring you back,
no daughter’s love, no devotion…
there’s no boat on the other side,
to sail you where you belong.
Smile love, keep smiling,
let your shine light our ways,
we are feeling adrift, but hoping,
when we reach the lastest bay,
to kiss your forehead and hold your hand |
oh. ayashae its lovely really emotional great work :t)
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One second late, was too late
to stop you leaving…
and so we saw you flying high,
and so you leave our hearts bleeding,
and it hurts so damn much.
Now no tear, no blame
is gonna bring you back,
no daughter’s love, no devotion…
there’s no boat on the other side,
to sail you where you belong.
Smile love, keep smiling,
let your shine light our ways,
we are feeling adrift, but hoping,
when we reach the lastest bay,
to kiss your forehead and hold your hand |
Just beautiful - thank you for posting
Lovely video FlwrChild - thanks for taking the time to make it.
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i keep trying to write a poem for heath but they keep coming out rubbish, its not that i cant wright poetry i actually used to enjoy wrighting poetry but as soon as i start to wright about heath my brain just goes blanc and all i can think of us my grief.
so instead of a poem ill just say what ive said a thousand times before to people.
it is awful that heath was pulled away from us so soon, but we must know he is in a better place now and we will see him again ive no doubt, and though heath is gone from this world we will never forget him and as long as we keep his memorie he will never be truely dead he lives on in all those who support him and in his family especially matilda.
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Thanks very much everyone, for those who know me, know that sometimes it's difficult for me to speak in these threads. Thanks to my sweet Alicia and Tammy, they look at me with loving eyes, to all the newbies, who I'm sure will remain in this wonderful site for a long long time, and to all those who post regularly here, too many to mention, whose heartfelt posts leave me speechless.
I know some of you feel especially devastated, nothing I could say can make you feel better. But i beg you to keep this in mind: Grieve as much as you need to, as long as you need to, but do not close your doors to the world, do not focus all your energies in your pain. Sharing it here is the first step, and then time will do its part, making a scar out of the wound. You know the scar will never disappear, but you'll get the strengh to carry on, having a thicker skin. What I'm saying it's nothing new, I'm sure you've heard it 100 times, but just believe it, from your heart. Be patient with yourselves, do not hurry in your healing. It will come, sooner or later.
Love you all :ghug:
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I am a total wreck tonight. I keep looking at Heath's pictures, and I can't stop crying. I know I need to stop looking at him, thinking about him, and talking about him. I need to get him out of my mind. I can't stand it. I'm sick of crying. I'm angry that he's gone. I keep thinking "if only." It's not fair. There is a huge empty place in my heart, and somehow even in my life. It doesn't make any sese. I don't even have a friend or family member that I would feel this bad about if they died. If you knew my life, that would sound as bad as it does.
He was a bright spot in the world, and now it's just empty and dark, and even though he was never with me, I feel his absence and incredibly lonely right now. And I think about all the drugs I have in my nightstand, everything he had and more.
This is a very bad night for me. And like he said, and I have been saying for a year, "I feel good about dying." Most of the time I hope I don't wake up in the morning. That's how I'll feel when I go to bed tonight.
Good night everybody. :\'( :\'(
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heathlover1 :ghug:
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I am a total wreck tonight. I keep looking at Heath's pictures, and I can't stop crying. I know I need to stop looking at him, thinking about him, and talking about him. I need to get him out of my mind. I can't stand it. I'm sick of crying. I'm angry that he's gone. I keep thinking "if only." It's not fair. There is a huge empty place in my heart, and somehow even in my life. It doesn't make any sese. I don't even have a friend or family member that I would feel this bad about if they died. If you knew my life, that would sound as bad as it does.
He was a bright spot in the world, and now it's just empty and dark, and even though he was never with me, I feel his absence and incredibly lonely right now. And I think about all the drugs I have in my nightstand, everything he had and more.
This is a very bad night for me. And like he said, and I have been saying for a year, "I feel good about dying." Most of the time I hope I don't wake up in the morning. That's how I'll feel when I go to bed tonight.
Good night everybody. :\'( :\'(
Aww, Sweetie, I know just how you feel. But I don't think that you should stop looking at him or thinking about him, I think you should let it all out and let yourself grieve. That's what I did, I cried for hours, even if I was sick of it, and I spent hours here reading posts and talking to people and crying more... your pain is real and legitimate and you shouldn't feel stupid about it, even if certain people can't understand it. It is possible to love someone that much even if you've never met him, I know because I feel the same. Heath was a significant part of our lives, and losing him is personal and devastating. So let yourself cry, don't hold it back, let it all out. I believe that's the only way to deal with grief. And know that we are here for you when you fall.
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we are all here for you heathlover :ghug:
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we are all here for you heathlover :ghug:
Thanks. it was a rough night, and now I haven't slept in two days.
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Thanks. it was a rough night, and now I haven't slept in two days.
you have to sleep i had the same problem from the 14th of feb to the 17th and it isnt good i also stopped eating neither of these things helped i went to see a doctor and it helped though.
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I see more beautiful posts here from more beautiful Brokies.
:ghug: :ghug: to everyone.
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i just watched the oprah show with the BBM cast and it was amazing and so sad heath said some really nice things and i just saddens me to know we wont be able to see him again soon and that we will have to wait along time to see him again.
he was talking baout how he thinks it is sad how people feel the need to voice negative opions about two people because they are in love and he was dead on, i miss him.
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i just watched the oprah show with the BBM cast and it was amazing and so sad heath said some really nice things and i just saddens me to know we wont be able to see him again soon and that we will have to wait along time to see him again.
he was talking baout how he thinks it is sad how people feel the need to voice negative opions about two people because they are in love and he was dead on, i miss him.
You know, he had a gay uncle who was rejected by the family. Part of doing the movie was in his honor. Heath was the least judgmental person and loved and accepted everybody for who they were.
Wasn't it so sweet how he spoke of his love for Michelle and Matilda. It's so sad that it all ended. He was so happy.
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You know, he had a gay uncle who was rejected by the family. Part of doing the movie was in his honor. Heath was the least judgmental person and loved and accepted everybody for who they were.
Wasn't it so sweet how he spoke of his love for Michelle and Matilda. It's so sad that it all ended. He was so happy.
i know :\'( ,his uncle was rejected that was awful .i was also suprised how many years the script had been around for it was first proposed to jake when he was 16 which would make heath 17 i expect that it was always the intention that they would not be filming for a few years.
i cant beleive how the media portrayed heath after death showing a tape of him at a drug party it said he was smoking pot but i never seen anything of the sort yes a guy was taking a line while talking to him but heath was not smoking or snorting anything on the video just talking about how he shouldnt be there the media was wrong to show this it is a compleat lack of respect.
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i just watched the oprah show with the BBM cast and it was amazing and so sad heath said some really nice things and i just saddens me to know we wont be able to see him again soon and that we will have to wait along time to see him again.
he was talking baout how he thinks it is sad how people feel the need to voice negative opions about two people because they are in love and he was dead on, i miss him.
Yes,Matthew,it so sad to see him in shows like this by Oprah¡.Because then it was the time when he was the most beautiful psychically speaking and happiest emotionally speaking,wasn't he?.And little details as the way he and Michelle held hand together during the interview or how he looked at Jake and laughed with his funny remarks,now get a tragic dimension.
You know, he had a gay uncle who was rejected by the family. Part of doing the movie was in his honor. Heath was the least judgmental person and loved and accepted everybody for who they were.
Wasn't it so sweet how he spoke of his love for Michelle and Matilda. It's so sad that it all ended. He was so happy.
Yes,I think he was a very open-minded person,and perhaps having a gay uncle rejected for his family helped him a lot to understand another person's differences,and above all,TO RESPECT THEM.I remember the stupid controversy some persons set up when Heath said that kissing Jake was like kissing another person,with a soul and feelings...He declared that if they wanted him to confess he had felt like vomiting,they're wrong.They didn't understand a word about he meant,because he and his ideas were far beyond their little minds. (:)
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i know :\'( ,his uncle was rejected that was awful .i was also suprised how many years the script had been around for it was first proposed to jake when he was 16 which would make heath 17 i expect that it was always the intention that they would not be filming for a few years.
i cant beleive how the media portrayed heath after death showing a tape of him at a drug party it said he was smoking pot but i never seen anything of the sort yes a guy was taking a line while talking to him but heath was not smoking or snorting anything on the video just talking about how he shouldnt be there the media was wrong to show this it is a compleat lack of respect.
It's a complete shame that media deeps into people's mistakes and faults-pretending they have them...-,mainly when they can't already deffend themselves.That they take profit of a famous person's death to throw shit above them might be punished by law.
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It's a complete shame that media deeps into people's mistakes and faults-pretending they have them...-,mainly when they can't already deffend themselves.That they take profit of a famous person's death to throw shit above them might be punished by law.
i know the thing is it is usually the celbrities that are nice people that get the brunt of it, the media exploits the certain good hearted celebrities weakness knowing that the celebrity will be to nice to to take them to court over it and will most likely just give in it is wrong.
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You know, he had a gay uncle who was rejected by the family. Part of doing the movie was in his honor. Heath was the least judgmental person and loved and accepted everybody for who they were.
Wasn't it so sweet how he spoke of his love for Michelle and Matilda. It's so sad that it all ended. He was so happy.
I know heathlover1 , he had such a wise look at life... much above his years..
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I am a total wreck tonight. I keep looking at Heath's pictures, and I can't stop crying. I know I need to stop looking at him, thinking about him, and talking about him. I need to get him out of my mind. I can't stand it. I'm sick of crying. I'm angry that he's gone. I keep thinking "if only." It's not fair. There is a huge empty place in my heart, and somehow even in my life. It doesn't make any sese. I don't even have a friend or family member that I would feel this bad about if they died. If you knew my life, that would sound as bad as it does.
He was a bright spot in the world, and now it's just empty and dark, and even though he was never with me, I feel his absence and incredibly lonely right now. And I think about all the drugs I have in my nightstand, everything he had and more.
This is a very bad night for me. And like he said, and I have been saying for a year, "I feel good about dying." Most of the time I hope I don't wake up in the morning. That's how I'll feel when I go to bed tonight.
Good night everybody. :\'( :\'(
I feel the same. I feel so empty without him and we all know that he was never with us in person. but adoring him in his so beautiful aura in his photos and movies. Heath is already a part of my daily life.. looking at him in his pictures and searching for all his news articles everyday is a part of my routine .
,, and he's gone too soon.. I lost the biggest piece of my heart.
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Hello Everybody :^^)
Oh, how many heart-felt, beautifil posts I've seen! To everybody going through this tough time, I know what your going through!! He became such a big part of my life, someone I gave so much respect, one that never judged anyone and just loved it live. Still to this day I wonder, why him? The question still is criptic to me...But please, like many Brokies have sad, rejoice in his life, what he has done, how he was such a wonderful man and a wonderful father. Please, do not think of the movies he will not be in, or how we will never see a new photo again, I have done that already and it's just brought more sadness I say, do something, anything has a tribute to Heath, it might help you cope..I'm making a collage, others have made tribute videos or lighted candles, just do something to remember him by..Who knows, it might help..
Today, though, I was reminded of the trouble with media and misinterpretations. One of my classmates in Genetics wanted to see my camera and she was looking all my pictures. I had one taken of Ennis in BBM when he's at the bar with Jack while watching the movie and she just goes "Aww, Heath. Why did he have to kill himself?" Out of insticint, I blurted "He didn't kill himself" and she looked at me confused and said "But didn't be overdose on pills?", then I said "Yeah, but on accident"..She didn't ask me anything else about him after, but it made me thought how, the media has put so many ideas into peoples minds, making some people think, he wanted to kill himself?? I couldn't believe it, but what can we do?
"I doubt theres nothin' we can do"...Ennis got it right :-\\
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Hello Everybody :^^)
Oh, how many heart-felt, beautifil posts I've seen! To everybody going through this tough time, I know what your going through!! He became such a big part of my life, someone I gave so much respect, one that never judged anyone and just loved it live. Still to this day I wonder, why him? The question still is criptic to me...But please, like many Brokies have sad, rejoice in his life, what he has done, how he was such a wonderful man and a wonderful father. Please, do not think of the movies he will not be in, or how we will never see a new photo again, I have done that already and it's just brought more sadness I say, do something, anything has a tribute to Heath, it might help you cope..I'm making a collage, others have made tribute videos or lighted candles, just do something to remember him by..Who knows, it might help..
Today, though, I was reminded of the trouble with media and misinterpretations. One of my classmates in Genetics wanted to see my camera and she was looking all my pictures. I had one taken of Ennis in BBM when he's at the bar with Jack while watching the movie and she just goes "Aww, Heath. Why did he have to kill himself?" Out of insticint, I blurted "He didn't kill himself" and she looked at me confused and said "But didn't be overdose on pills?", then I said "Yeah, but on accident"..She didn't ask me anything else about him after, but it made me thought how, the media has put so many ideas into peoples minds, making some people think, he wanted to kill himself?? I couldn't believe it, but what can we do?
"I doubt theres nothin' we can do"...Ennis got it right :-\\
no there is nothing we can do except block out the medias stupid lies and deception the media will exagerate a story for money at the expense of anything including the respected honur of a great man the sad thing is people pay attention and actully beleive it i suppose his fans and family know the truth and they are who really need to know.
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Hello Everybody :^^)
Oh, how many heart-felt, beautifil posts I've seen! To everybody going through this tough time, I know what your going through!! He became such a big part of my life, someone I gave so much respect, one that never judged anyone and just loved it live. Still to this day I wonder, why him? The question still is criptic to me...But please, like many Brokies have sad, rejoice in his life, what he has done, how he was such a wonderful man and a wonderful father. Please, do not think of the movies he will not be in, or how we will never see a new photo again, I have done that already and it's just brought more sadness I say, do something, anything has a tribute to Heath, it might help you cope..I'm making a collage, others have made tribute videos or lighted candles, just do something to remember him by..Who knows, it might help..
Today, though, I was reminded of the trouble with media and misinterpretations. One of my classmates in Genetics wanted to see my camera and she was looking all my pictures. I had one taken of Ennis in BBM when he's at the bar with Jack while watching the movie and she just goes "Aww, Heath. Why did he have to kill himself?" Out of insticint, I blurted "He didn't kill himself" and she looked at me confused and said "But didn't be overdose on pills?", then I said "Yeah, but on accident"..She didn't ask me anything else about him after, but it made me thought how, the media has put so many ideas into peoples minds, making some people think, he wanted to kill himself?? I couldn't believe it, but what can we do?
"I doubt theres nothin' we can do"...Ennis got it right :-\\
I can't begin to tell you how many people have asked that and I have told them exactly what you said....
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no there is nothing we can do except block out the medias stupid lies and deception the media will exagerate a story for money at the expense of anything including the respected honur of a great man the sad thing is people pay attention and actully beleive it i suppose his fans and family know the truth and they are who really need to know.
You are very right Matt, the only ones who truely know the truth and know what a great man he was were the people he knew and his fans. I really hate the media now, it pisses me off that people, like Heath, living in the world of Hollywood and what not, have to go through all of the lies and assummtions that the media puts out, just for money!! I say, just let 'em be :-\\
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You are very right Matt, the only ones who truely know the truth and know what a great man he was were the people he knew and his fans. I really hate the media now, it pisses me off that people, like Heath, living in the world of Hollywood and what not, have to go through all of the lies and assummtions that the media puts out, just for money!! I say, just let 'em be :-\\
The media has to create noise on Heath in every newspaper and magazine . Heath is an amazing actor.
Who would not want to read news about him? Whatever they wrote about him .sure a great seller!
awwww. I just want to see his photographs.. I don't care of any news about him now... we fans knew him well more than them. >:(
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The media has to create noise on Heath in every newspaper and magazine . Heath is an amazing actor.
Who would not want to read news about him? Whatever they wrote about him .sure a great seller!
awwww. I just want to see his photographs.. I don't care of any news about him now... we fans knew him well more than them. >:(
yer.
i just posted in the heaths birthday topic i am deffinately going to post there on the 4th of april this year in honoir of his memory. as i read some of the comments for his 27th and 28th birthday i felt my eyes well up and as i posted my comment i started crying i dont usually do crying i normally react differently and even this wasnt the having for breath sort but the tears were rolling down my cheeks. heath was and still is a great person and i dont see why just because he isnt physically here anymore we shouldnt aknowlage his birthday i couldnt forget it. nope not ever.
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Matt's post reminded me that Heath's birthday IS coming up, and I kind of wonder if we could think something up to make it both a memorial
and a happy day. Usually, that's the way it's done with relatives---no grieving, just a continuing proof we still count them amongst us.
Maybe somebody can come up with an idea.
LD----whenever you run into people who say stupid stuff, just tell them they got the story wrong, don't hold it against them, and that way
you don't lose a friend just because they hit a raw nerve. Hmmm....that's probably what you did, anyway. Good for you.
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Matt's post reminded me that Heath's birthday IS coming up, and I kind of wonder if we could think something up to make it both a memorial
and a happy day. Usually, that's the way it's done with relatives---no grieving, just a continuing proof we still count them amongst us.
Maybe somebody can come up with an idea.
LD----whenever you run into people who say stupid stuff, just tell them they got the story wrong, don't hold it against them, and that way
you don't lose a friend just because they hit a raw nerve. Hmmm....that's probably what you did, anyway. Good for you.
maybe we could make a big chain letter or like a large picture collage were a large blanc page gets emailed from person to person and they add there picture and message and the send it on again it may be too hard to pull of though with all of our members :s)
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
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That was a wonderful thing to do, Vegas Brokies! <^( :\'(
Very beautiful.
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Oh, that was just wonderful guys, thank you!! <^(
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Thanks to all of you who made it possible. It was a very touching moment! I think Heath would have appriciate that and I think he would love to roam the Valley of Fire. Rest in peace dear Heath.
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yer.
i just posted in the heaths birthday topic i am deffinately going to post there on the 4th of april this year in honoir of his memory. as i read some of the comments for his 27th and 28th birthday i felt my eyes well up and as i posted my comment i started crying i dont usually do crying i normally react differently and even this wasnt the having for breath sort but the tears were rolling down my cheeks. heath was and still is a great person and i dont see why just because he isnt physically here anymore we shouldnt aknowlage his birthday i couldnt forget it. nope not ever.
We are definitely to remember our baby on his birthdays . all the special occasions in his memory should be remembered and acknowledge, this are all so important to him.
We lost the soul who gave us the true essence of love but his spirit runs free spreading the news ..Born from their love. forever bound by ours.
Friends who see me in tears for Heath does not bother to ask anymore. they know I am at mourn.
Heath baby. you occupied a very special place in our hearts.
White_angel
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Wonderful tribute,boys.I'm sure that Heath has seen it and he's smiling from Heaven by seeing how many persons love him. <^( I'm for doing something special in his birthday,because is always nice to remember the day in which someone as beautiful as him was born.Just to remember the good times he has given to us from that very moment...
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
That's a beautiful thing to do. I like the idea of leaving tributes like this in different parts of the world, wherever brokies meet. If anyone comes across these tributes we left, they will know how loved Heath was. And that he will never be forgotten by those who loved him.
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Wow. :ghug:
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Yes,I think he was a very open-minded person,and perhaps having a gay uncle rejected for his family helped him a lot to understand another person's differences,and above all,TO RESPECT THEM.I remember the stupid controversy some persons set up when Heath said that kissing Jake was like kissing another person,with a soul and feelings...He declared that if they wanted him to confess he had felt like vomiting,they're wrong.They didn't understand a word about he meant,because he and his ideas were far beyond their little minds. (:)
(:) yes he was truely a wonderful person, if only there were more people like this in the world. so non judgemental. That is wonderful what Heath said about kissing Jake was like kissing another person with a soul and feelings...how right.. how beautiful <^( Heath u r one in a million...miss you so much.. :\'( hope everyones ok today and love to everyone :ghug:
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im so lost today ever since i read heaths birthday posts yesterday ive been even saddder then usual but sad is good and natural i mean if it keeps me from forgetting an amazing guy then i wouldnt stop it for the world.
heath we all miss ya dude you were awsome, look forward to seeing you again
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That's a beautiful thing to do. I like the idea of leaving tributes like this in different parts of the world, wherever brokies meet. If anyone comes across these tributes we left, they will know how loved Heath was. And that he will never be forgotten by those who loved him.
I like that idea too. ^f^
Thank you Vegas Brokies, for spreading the love. :ghug:
And a few more :ghug: :ghug: for everyone still healing as we move through week 6 of our loss.
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im so lost today ever since i read heaths birthday posts yesterday ive been even saddder then usual but sad is good and natural i mean if it keeps me from forgetting an amazing guy then i wouldnt stop it for the world.
heath we all miss ya dude you were awsome, look forward to seeing you again
If I never saw a tribute or read from any site or cried with another over such a loss, shared grief, I could never forget heath ledger. Nothing can make me do that, unless I forget my own child and love ones. As I've said, he's in my being, a part of me.
I've gone to the cemetary where his body laid briefly so many times since we moved to West LA and then here, since I accidently found that resting place of so many, famous and not. It is so peaceful. I have a friend buried there. It is so hard knowing his body was there, knowing those that so loved him tired to find solace there. I'll go back, for his birthday, and mourn and celebrate two of my losses, both before their time, both who gave so much and still had so much to give. And I'll go there and think of you guys, of us who are going on, better for heath in our lives.
jessi
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If I never saw a tribute or read from any site or cried with another over such a loss, shared grief, I could never forget heath ledger. Nothing can make me do that, unless I forget my own child and love ones. As I've said, he's in my being, a part of me.
I've gone to the cemetary where his body laid briefly so many times since we moved to West LA and then here, since I accidently found that resting place of so many, famous and not. It is so peaceful. I have a friend buried there. It is so hard knowing his body was there, knowing those that so loved him tired to find solace there. I'll go back, for his birthday, and mourn and celebrate two of my losses, both before their time, both who gave so much and still had so much to give. And I'll go there and think of you guys, of us who are going on, better for heath in our lives.
jessi
awwwww :ghug: thanks jessi we will be thinking of you too...and remembering how yes, we are better for Heath in our lives. Im sure its really nice to be able to go to where he was laid at peace for a short while. Hes in our hearts always. x
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"Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on..."
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"Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on..."
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very nice post, keren
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"Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on..."
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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that's beautiful :)
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"Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on..."
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Oh Keren, I absolutely love that song, but it always makes me so sad :\'(
Oh, Heath, please let your heart go on, to all of your loved ones and the people who respected you most
You are truly our fallen angel <^(
I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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Carmilla, that is wonderful picture of our dear Heath!! :clap:
I wish I had my own place besides my room, because I probably would have done the same thing ;D
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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is it an actual painting or a special comouter made one? did you paint it?
it is absoloutly amazing what a brilliant way to remember heath. ^f^
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Thank you for doing this :ghug:
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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What a lovely idea <^(
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At the Vegas gathering, we paid our tribute to Heath at the Valley of Fire.
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The photo frame was from chameau, porch from kathy, and the one on the right is from LJN.
We each also placed a rock inside of the cave. Rest in peace, Heath.
Lovely idea <^(, really beautiful tribute :\'(. Thank you for sharing it :ghug:.
Love from Megalyn08
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is it an actual painting or a special comouter made one? did you paint it?
No, I didn't paint it, but it is a real painting, popart style exactly after the photo painted on canvas.
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi112.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fn163%2Fkarviainen%2FHeath%2F001-1.jpg&hash=375d49180f80db4d291547077c1d46aa2acc8240)
Carmilla, that is beautiful. <^(
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No, I didn't paint it, but it is a real painting, popart style exactly after the photo painted on canvas.
oh its amazing, such a good way to remember him
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Carmila, the painting is truly amazing.
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Hay un ángel que nos guiá
que nos toma de las manos
en momentos malos¨
de tormentos y agonia;
poseé cabellos dorados
y dulce es su mirar
su voz ... su voz es melodiosa
que da paz anuestra ansiedad.
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Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while. It was nice immediately because I realized that these gatherings were about Ennis and Jack, and our love for this film; and not so much about Heath and Jake. The only time Heath truly was an acknowledged part of it was when we were having the memorial that you all have seen photos from. We placed items and each our own rock within the small space and hugged and cried, and really that was the main time Heath was truly there. Otherwise it was talk of "Ennis". We weren't ignoring, just reminiscing in a positive way. But now, it's back home to reality, and back to missing Heath, and everything he gave...and it's awful. I know we didn't really know him, but the idea of him somehow filled a void in all of us, and while he's gone, that stupid void is still hanging around waiting to be filled; and the guilt that something has to fill it is almost unbearable. How do you replace someone that is so important to you? I keep trying to tell myself that there is nothing to replace; that what Heath gave us, he left on film for us to have forever, and there isn't really a point in mourning because I haven' t really lost anything I ever truly had; but that doesn't help, or make me feel any better. My computer had been broken since early January, I just got it back yesterday, and when I signed on to my internet through my main account it showed the previous sites I had gone on(before any of this happened). It was so strange to go back to a time when he was alive and see how much he was a part of my day. Though of course there were many sites and my work done on the computer, after every couple of sites was a site that somehow involved him, it was just the natural part of my day...I'm not sure where to go from here, it hurts to be so sad, but feels so guilty when I'm happy; but I'm going to choose to be happy; it's what Heath wanted for himself, I can only imagine that's why he was on so many meds...to find some sort of peace in the chaos of reality. I'm striving to achieve that peace without the prescribed help; for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all :)
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ohhhh jessicat i dont know what to say so this is the best i can do :ghug:
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I thought I would post this info over here. Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)
Here is a photo they took.
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the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us
Linda
That is such a beautiful picture. I was messing around trying to make a BBM art
today and and here's what i came up with...it's my first one.
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It's beautiful Maggie. <^(
:ghug: jessicat80
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This is so beautiful Maggie... thank you so much... love it.
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I always thought it was difficult for me to talk about Heath after his death, mainly with school friends. Well, today, when I was at my Jr. Banquet, there was one moment that almost all of my friends made a memory in which Heath was the basis of it. This is how it all happened...
As we were sitting, resting from dancing and wondering when dinner was going to be ready, we starting hearing an old, familiar song...hearing the lines "Your just to good to be true" "And I thank god I'm alive"...all of the sudden, my friend looks at me and screams "Oh my god Lis, HEATH!!"..I smiled and said "I know"...when the line "I love you baby" with it's energizing melody, we all came together, acting like we had a microphone in our hands and singing the song like Heath was, laughing and enjoying the moment. I couldn't believe all of them came with me and did it, but it's amazing what crazy teens do to have fun and reenact what a great actor sang. I will never forget that moment because I felt, in that way, we were remember him not with sadness, but with joy, and like many have said, thats probably the way he would've wanted it..
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Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while. It was nice immediately because I realized that these gatherings were about Ennis and Jack, and our love for this film; and not so much about Heath and Jake. The only time Heath truly was an acknowledged part of it was when we were having the memorial that you all have seen photos from. We placed items and each our own rock within the small space and hugged and cried, and really that was the main time Heath was truly there. Otherwise it was talk of "Ennis". We weren't ignoring, just reminiscing in a positive way. But now, it's back home to reality, and back to missing Heath, and everything he gave...and it's awful. I know we didn't really know him, but the idea of him somehow filled a void in all of us, and while he's gone, that stupid void is still hanging around waiting to be filled; and the guilt that something has to fill it is almost unbearable. How do you replace someone that is so important to you? I keep trying to tell myself that there is nothing to replace; that what Heath gave us, he left on film for us to have forever, and there isn't really a point in mourning because I haven' t really lost anything I ever truly had; but that doesn't help, or make me feel any better. My computer had been broken since early January, I just got it back yesterday, and when I signed on to my internet through my main account it showed the previous sites I had gone on(before any of this happened). It was so strange to go back to a time when he was alive and see how much he was a part of my day. Though of course there were many sites and my work done on the computer, after every couple of sites was a site that somehow involved him, it was just the natural part of my day...I'm not sure where to go from here, it hurts to be so sad, but feels so guilty when I'm happy; but I'm going to choose to be happy; it's what Heath wanted for himself, I can only imagine that's why he was on so many meds...to find some sort of peace in the chaos of reality. I'm striving to achieve that peace without the prescribed help; for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all :)
I know exactly how you feel, and I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day. All I have to do is think of his name, and I fall apart. I have gotten way too involved on myspace with all of the Heath people. I'm pretty much the most active person on there as far as adding photos, providing links to new interviews, posting news before most people receive it for some reason, and I created a 20-question Heath survey, the results of which I just posted today. I know that I need to leave there, but whenever I mention it, people on my friends list with whom I've never exchanged a word, practically beg me to stay and tell me how much they appreciate everything I do. So, I feel really good helping people, which also makes me cry, but the satisfaction of doing that is not quite as much as the pain it's causing me.
I spend my days torturing myself by finding and adding new photos to my albums to share with everybody, and at the same time just staring at the photos and completely falling apart.
I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.
I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.
I've been trying to watch my favorite political comedy shows before bed, and that does help. I just need to withdraw from this horrible addiction.
Thanks for reading this. I needed to put my feelings in writing, even if it's just for me.
You guys are all great, and believe me, for all of those who grieve for Heath, I feel your pain and I hate to think of any of the wonderful people on here feeling as horrible as I do.
Take care. :\'(
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Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while. It was nice immediately because I realized that these gatherings were about Ennis and Jack, and our love for this film; and not so much about Heath and Jake. The only time Heath truly was an acknowledged part of it was when we were having the memorial that you all have seen photos from. We placed items and each our own rock within the small space and hugged and cried, and really that was the main time Heath was truly there. Otherwise it was talk of "Ennis". We weren't ignoring, just reminiscing in a positive way. But now, it's back home to reality, and back to missing Heath, and everything he gave...and it's awful. I know we didn't really know him, but the idea of him somehow filled a void in all of us, and while he's gone, that stupid void is still hanging around waiting to be filled; and the guilt that something has to fill it is almost unbearable. How do you replace someone that is so important to you? I keep trying to tell myself that there is nothing to replace; that what Heath gave us, he left on film for us to have forever, and there isn't really a point in mourning because I haven' t really lost anything I ever truly had; but that doesn't help, or make me feel any better. My computer had been broken since early January, I just got it back yesterday, and when I signed on to my internet through my main account it showed the previous sites I had gone on(before any of this happened). It was so strange to go back to a time when he was alive and see how much he was a part of my day. Though of course there were many sites and my work done on the computer, after every couple of sites was a site that somehow involved him, it was just the natural part of my day...I'm not sure where to go from here, it hurts to be so sad, but feels so guilty when I'm happy; but I'm going to choose to be happy; it's what Heath wanted for himself, I can only imagine that's why he was on so many meds...to find some sort of peace in the chaos of reality. I'm striving to achieve that peace without the prescribed help; for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all :)
I understand what you're feeling :ghug:
We can't replace him and I don't want to, he was special to all of us and I don't think anyone will never forget him and the great work he did under his short life.
Right now I feel ok about what happend, It's not ok that hes gone but I have to accept it and It's very hard but thanks to all of you on this forum I know that we all can get to a point when we can accept that hes gone no matter how hard it is.
:ghug: :ghug: :^^)
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I know exactly how you feel, and I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day. All I have to do is think of his name, and I fall apart. I have gotten way too involved on myspace with all of the Heath people. I'm pretty much the most active person on there as far as adding photos, providing links to new interviews, posting news before most people receive it for some reason, and I created a 20-question Heath survey, the results of which I just posted today. I know that I need to leave there, but whenever I mention it, people on my friends list with whom I've never exchanged a word, practically beg me to stay and tell me how much they appreciate everything I do. So, I feel really good helping people, which also makes me cry, but the satisfaction of doing that is not quite as much as the pain it's causing me.
I spend my days torturing myself by finding and adding new photos to my albums to share with everybody, and at the same time just staring at the photos and completely falling apart.
I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.
I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.
I've been trying to watch my favorite political comedy shows before bed, and that does help. I just need to withdraw from this horrible addiction.
Thanks for reading this. I needed to put my feelings in writing, even if it's just for me.
You guys are all great, and believe me, for all of those who grieve for Heath, I feel your pain and I hate to think of any of the wonderful people on here feeling as horrible as I do.
Take care. :\'(
oh heathlover :ghug: you shouldnt stop posting heath things its good you are invested in remembering him and all the great things he did, it wouldnt be fright just to forget him so keep up what your doing remember the good things he did at least until we see him again.
rest in peace heath, you are sorely missed but will never be forgoten.
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I know exactly how you feel, and I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day. All I have to do is think of his name, and I fall apart. I have gotten way too involved on myspace with all of the Heath people. I'm pretty much the most active person on there as far as adding photos, providing links to new interviews, posting news before most people receive it for some reason, and I created a 20-question Heath survey, the results of which I just posted today. I know that I need to leave there, but whenever I mention it, people on my friends list with whom I've never exchanged a word, practically beg me to stay and tell me how much they appreciate everything I do. So, I feel really good helping people, which also makes me cry, but the satisfaction of doing that is not quite as much as the pain it's causing me.
I spend my days torturing myself by finding and adding new photos to my albums to share with everybody, and at the same time just staring at the photos and completely falling apart.
I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.
I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.
Oh heathlover, I know it's hard and sometimes you feel like you can't do anything to stop it! But please try and smile :)
This man changed most of our lives, and showed us to live life to the fullest and love everyone around him. If he was here, he'd probably wanted you to be happy, though I'm not saying crying is a bad thing..it's one of the best ways of grieving..
As for the myspace program for Heath, try and still go on with it, your helping people and that is so great of you to do! Your helping everyone around you grieve and remember this man with joy. And I have a myspace, so if you ever need help, just send me the link ;)
Feel better for my friend ^f^
Lis
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Dear Heathlover---am sorry you are continuing in that first stage of grief, which is pretty much exhausting. Please don't feel unusual or
a misfit because you loved Heath and yet never met him. There are still people fiercely grieving that Nascar driver who died (and race-cars fans
aren't known to be overly romantic), and there are millions of people in various countries who still grieve a political leader they felt was worth
their love. It's not so unusual for someone to touch people from a distance and to cause admiration or even love.
In your case, and for many of us here, it was more intensely personal. You found in Heath all those qualities that meant something to you,
and then his little quirks only made him more believable, more human, more loveable.
In the first weeks of this thread, there was enormous comforting from people's posts, and beautiful poems, so that much of our means of healing
each other are near to exhausted. I wish there were something I could say to help you heal up. But all I know to say is that it was not wrong
for you to love him, but it is wrongful to become depressed for too long. Heathlover--it's not like you must be loyal by suffering. You're not
going to forget this love. There is no wrongness to carrying him with you, all your life, not suffering, but remembering. Letting yourself heal up
is not disloyal. With you, and others, Heath ain't going nowhere. He stays. But please be good to yourself. It's a long journey, and it need not
be painful.
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perfectly put tony, you truely have a great perspective on things
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Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while........... for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all :)
My dear jessica...:ghug: :ghug: here is some <^( back.
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I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day...............the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.Thanks for reading this. I needed to put my feelings in writing, even if it's just for me.
You guys are all great, and believe me, for all of those who grieve for Heath, I feel your pain and I hate to think of any of the wonderful people on here feeling as horrible as I do.
Don't feel guilty for putting your mourning in words, I think that's the second/new phase of it, it started to sink in, that that's final and there is nothing you can do to undo it unfortunately... :\'( but that's why we are here for the support ,kind word and the understanding of what you are going through.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: <^(
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That is such a beautiful picture. I was messing around trying to make a BBM art
today and and here's what i came up with...it's my first one.
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That's just amazing!!!! Thank you for sharing!! <^( ^f^
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Thanks, Matt, but you have a lot to offer, too, when a Brokie is having a relapse. I tend to get wordy. Hpv gives really heartfelt hugs.
Some of the others are great at just sharing the same feelings. But you and Emzan, and other free spirits---you also make it all work better,
when someone is feeling down. I guess we each heal each other and hang tough, in different ways--all of equal worth. And that includes you.
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Thanks, Matt, but you have a lot to offer, too, when a Brokie is having a relapse. I tend to get wordy. Hpv gives really heartfelt hugs.
Some of the others are great at just sharing the same feelings. But you and Emzan, and other free spirits---you also make it all work better,
when someone is feeling down. I guess we each heal each other and hang tough, in different ways--all of equal worth. And that includes you.
I posted something on here about 10 minutes ago, and it never showed up. It took forever to write! :-\\
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Thanks, Matt, but you have a lot to offer, too, when a Brokie is having a relapse. I tend to get wordy. Hpv gives really heartfelt hugs.
Some of the others are great at just sharing the same feelings. But you and Emzan, and other free spirits---you also make it all work better,
when someone is feeling down. I guess we each heal each other and hang tough, in different ways--all of equal worth. And that includes you.
yes i suppose, we are all here for each other and can all help one and other with this grief
heathlover have you tried using the back option on your computer to get back to the message that didnt post correctly?
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:ghug: heathlover, I hope Matt's suggestion works for you. And I really hope you're able to break through the stage of grief you're in right now. I have good days and bad, but the good are starting to outweigh the bad, and even when I cry, I guess I feel like there's something positive in it, because his energy and spirit just seem to be a part of all the things I feel. Don't know if that makes any sense, but I'm sending you :ghug: :ghug: and love as well.
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yes i suppose, we are all here for each other and can all help one and other with this grief
heathlover have you tried using the back option on your computer to get back to the message that didnt post correctly?
Yes, more than once. I'm really frustrated now.
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Figures it works now, but not when I wrote 5 paragraphs. Probably better that nobody saw it anyway.
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
oh what a lovely story so sad i think we all wish we could have this innocence that children have back. thanks for sharing with us.
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
that's the cutes thing I have ever heard. But I have to say that im crying right now :\'(
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I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.
I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.
I know there are moments of darkness, but if you look at my prev. post, I mentioned that I felt Heath took pills to find peace of mind-never to choose to leave this world. Any interview he did, it spoke of an absolute respect for his life, and living it to the fullest. To ever choose to end one's life was never something he believed in. This helps to remember when it gets very dark Heathlover1; he didn't believe in that; and I believe in him, which tells me this will all be ok. I know what you mean about it being there when you first wake up. Usually with a death(of someone I've actually met) there is this moment when I would first wake up, then think, "what it different, oh yeah, so an so is gone" with Heath it is just there the second I wake, before my eyes are even open, I know he's just gone. But there are so many things that are still here. There was a moment in Vegas after the memorial, Ethan and I were hugging and crying, and I said it wasn't fair that we get to watch his daughter grow up, and he doesn't. This stuck in my head, and I've come to the acceptance, that, though not fair, it is a privilege; a privilege I don't take lightly; and I will watch her grow up, and bare witness to that beautiful Heath spirit in her that Michelle talked about. I hope you wish to do the same. What he gave us was so special, and in a way, it gave all of us a piece of his spirit. I hope to watch that grow in everyone on this site. Giving up way never his way, he knew the right path to take, he was just cut short from completing it, we have not been. And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright. Love and Hugs, Jess:)
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J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
This has touched my heart in ways I can't even describe. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Damn beautiful. I wish it could be true. If that could work I'd cry a whole ocean over his grave.
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jess, that's absolutely beautiful, and so so true. Especially this:
"And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright."
I add my :ghug: to yours, for all of us.
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jess, that's absolutely beautiful, and so so true. Especially this:
"And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright."
I add my :ghug: to yours, for all of us.
Thanks Flwr ^f^, Right back at ya :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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El vendrá una mañana
y me tomará de la mano,
partiremos por fín
hacia el fin del universo.
Nos miraremos amorosamente
y entre sonrisas
haremos de nuestros cuerpos uno solo
envuelto en nubes de amor.
Como en un torbellino,
nos elevaremos sobre la tierra.
Volaremos como pájaros
y seremos felices eternamente.
Os diremos adios a todos,
ya que nuestro viaje es largo
y seguiremos nuestro camino
sin pensar en volver.
La hermosura reinará en nuestros corazones
y estaremos tan felices
que no podremos comprender
como han pasado los años sin sentir.
Miles de estrellas nos han conducido
a otro lugar especial
hacia la verdadera vida
llamada nuestra eternidad.
Esa eternidad que jamás nos hará
volver al mundo real..............
® DAMADENEGRO
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
How sweet..if only it was that simple.. :\'(
Some lovely tributes, moving posts and good advice over the last few days
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
That is the sweetest thing I've ever heard. I'm in tears again, of course. If only it worked that way.
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I know there are moments of darkness, but if you look at my prev. post, I mentioned that I felt Heath took pills to find peace of mind-never to choose to leave this world. Any interview he did, it spoke of an absolute respect for his life, and living it to the fullest. To ever choose to end one's life was never something he believed in. This helps to remember when it gets very dark Heathlover1; he didn't believe in that; and I believe in him, which tells me this will all be ok. I know what you mean about it being there when you first wake up. Usually with a death(of someone I've actually met) there is this moment when I would first wake up, then think, "what it different, oh yeah, so an so is gone" with Heath it is just there the second I wake, before my eyes are even open, I know he's just gone. But there are so many things that are still here. There was a moment in Vegas after the memorial, Ethan and I were hugging and crying, and I said it wasn't fair that we get to watch his daughter grow up, and he doesn't. This stuck in my head, and I've come to the acceptance, that, though not fair, it is a privilege; a privilege I don't take lightly; and I will watch her grow up, and bare witness to that beautiful Heath spirit in her that Michelle talked about. I hope you wish to do the same. What he gave us was so special, and in a way, it gave all of us a piece of his spirit. I hope to watch that grow in everyone on this site. Giving up way never his way, he knew the right path to take, he was just cut short from completing it, we have not been. And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright. Love and Hugs, Jess:)
I hate thinking about this and bringing it up, but the fact that Heath said he felt "good about dying" didn't make him sound like he was still wanting to live life to the fullest. I was shocked to hear a 28-year-old man, loved by everybody, with a career taking off like crazy, and most importantly with a child. He was very clear about having mixed feelings about living or dying, and that last interviewing was so haunting and I think foreshadowing. I don't think for a moment that he tried to kill himself; don't get me wrong. I 100% believe that he had an addiction to prescription drugs (I've had that myself), and he accidentally overdosed. In a way, knowing that he felt good about dying was somewhat comforting, but at the same time, that is something only a depressed, lonely person would say, and that makes me feel SO SAD for him. I know how that feels, and I'm sure I'm not alone here.
I always feel good about dying and most of the time hope that I don't wake up in the morning. I doubt very much that Heath felt that way; I think he was just going through a stressful, sad time in his life.
I wish whomever was doing that particular interview had asked him what he meant by feeling good about dying, and why he would think about such a thing. But they didn't.
It's because of Heath that I didn't kill myself last year. I won't bother going into that whole story and sound like a real nut job, but enjoying him was all I had left, and now all I can do is cherish every interview and incredibly funny, unprepared award show speech that he gave, which are on my site to help keep him alive. Heck, there are 30 of them, and actually you all would probably absolutely cherish each and every one like I do!
He was so politically incorrect, said exactly what was on his mind without thinking about what anybody in a crowded room thought, and was so damn funny, down-to-earth, practiced what he preached, cared about all living things, and there will never be anybody else like him.
I almost feel mad that he left us. So many people are now deprived of his mere presence on this earth. If he knew how loved he was and how thousands of strangers were crying over him, he would be totally baffled. To him, he was just any everyday Joe, with no ego whatsoever. He would think we're all nuts!
Anyway, I guess I just needed to ramble. I need to get a life, and get off of myspace. I'm moving to Australia in two months, and I need to start preparing. Hard to do when you can't get out of bed all day!
Thanks for reading this, if you made it through. And i thank you all so very much for your support. I wish I knew what it would take for me to stop feeling totally alone. I guess I better up the anti-depressants. :t)
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I hate thinking about this and bringing it up, but the fact that Heath said he felt "good about dying" didn't make him sound like he was still wanting to live life to the fullest. I was shocked to hear a 28-year-old man, loved by everybody, with a career taking off like crazy, and most importantly with a child. He was very clear about having mixed feelings about living or dying, and that last interviewing was so haunting and I think foreshadowing. I don't think for a moment that he tried to kill himself; don't get me wrong. I 100% believe that he had an addiction to prescription drugs (I've had that myself), and he accidentally overdosed. In a way, knowing that he felt good about dying was somewhat comforting, but at the same time, that is something only a depressed, lonely person would say, and that makes me feel SO SAD for him. I know how that feels, and I'm sure I'm not alone here.
I always feel good about dying and most of the time hope that I don't wake up in the morning. I doubt very much that Heath felt that way; I think he was just going through a stressful, sad time in his life.
I wish whomever was doing that particular interview had asked him what he meant by feeling good about dying, and why he would think about such a thing. But they didn't.
It's because of Heath that I didn't kill myself last year. I won't bother going into that whole story and sound like a real nut job, but enjoying him was all I had left, and now all I can do is cherish every interview and incredibly funny, unprepared award show speech that he gave, which are on my site to help keep him alive. Heck, there are 30 of them, and actually you all would probably absolutely cherish each and every one like I do!
He was so politically incorrect, said exactly what was on his mind without thinking about what anybody in a crowded room thought, and was so damn funny, down-to-earth, practiced what he preached, cared about all living things, and there will never be anybody else like him.
I almost feel mad that he left us. So many people are now deprived of his mere presence on this earth. If he knew how loved he was and how thousands of strangers were crying over him, he would be totally baffled. To him, he was just any everyday Joe, with no ego whatsoever. He would think we're all nuts!
Anyway, I guess I just needed to ramble. I need to get a life, and get off of myspace. I'm moving to Australia in two months, and I need to start preparing. Hard to do when you can't get out of bed all day!
Thanks for reading this, if you made it through. And i thank you all so very much for your support. I wish I knew what it would take for me to stop feeling totally alone. I guess I better up the anti-depressants. :t)
i dont think heaths overdoes was an addiction to precscription drugs more than a bad mix of prescription drugs, i have seen the interview you mentioned and i thought the comment on his death was very spooky i mean why would the interviewer bring that up?? but i dont think he meant for one minute he didnt care if he lived or died he was just saying he could die a happy man knowing he would live on in his amazing daughter, i think fate works in mysteriouse ways and this interview this comment he made was to let us know he is okay like to let us know he isnt sad, sorry i would like to write more but ive made myself cry and cant think clearly.
id just like to add one thing hathlover dont up the anti-depresents its not the way to go about this you dont want to accidentaly overdoes we've had enough of that just becareful.
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If you don't mind... this is a reminder from the Mod Squad. This thread is a memorial to Heath Ledger not a gossip chat board, huh? Please avoid to post here any assumptions since they are not proved and confirmed facts.
Thank you! :)
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If you don't mind... this is a reminder from the Mod Squad. This thread is a memorial to Heath Ledger not a gossip chat board, huh? Please avoid to post here any assumptions since they are not proved and confirmed facts.
Thank you! :)
Sorry. I guess this isn't the place for me, because that hurts to express my feelings and have it called gossip. Gossip to me would be if I said something like "I think he committed suicide," and I emphasized that I don't think that. I HATE what I consider to be gossip. And if you knew the amount of time devoted to my Heath site on myspace, and all of the people I try to help who thank me every day, you would probably know what a slap in the face that is.
I guess I'm not good at following rules, especially if I don't know what would be considered "gossip."
If this sounds angry, I don't mean it to be. E-mails always sound angry. I'm just confused and disappointed and sad.
I really thought I had found another support system here. But what works for some doesn't work for everybody.
Good bye. It was nice exchanging a few posts with those of you who were so incredibly kind and supportive. I greatly appreciate it. Take care everybody. :cr) :ghug:
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
Aww, she is adorable!! I wish it was that easy as well, her words almost made me cry :\'(
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Sorry. I guess this isn't the place for me, because that hurts to express my feelings and have it called gossip. Gossip to me would be if I said something like "I think he committed suicide," and I emphasized that I don't think that. I HATE what I consider to be gossip. And if you knew the amount of time devoted to my Heath site on myspace, and all of the people I try to help who thank me every day, you would probably know what a slap in the face that is.
I guess I'm not good at following rules, especially if I don't know what would be considered "gossip."
If this sounds angry, I don't mean it to be. E-mails always sound angry. I'm just confused and disappointed and sad.
I really thought I had found another support system here. But what works for some doesn't work for everybody.
Good bye. It was nice exchanging a few posts with those of you who were so incredibly kind and supportive. I greatly appreciate it. Take care everybody. :cr) :ghug:
what you said aswell as what i said was gossip yes we expressed our feelings about heath no one is disputing that fact cham just sent a friendly reply to tell us this is the place to send a tribute not talk about our feelings on his interview i am sorry you felt it neccisary to deleat your account IMO this was not a neccisary thing to do good bye heathlover1 i hope you see fit to rejoin us some day.
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El vendrá una mañana
y me tomará de la mano,
partiremos por fín
hacia el fin del universo.
Nos miraremos amorosamente
y entre sonrisas
haremos de nuestros cuerpos uno solo
envuelto en nubes de amor.
Como en un torbellino,
nos elevaremos sobre la tierra.
Volaremos como pájaros
y seremos felices eternamente.
Os diremos adios a todos,
ya que nuestro viaje es largo
y seguiremos nuestro camino
sin pensar en volver.
La hermosura reinará en nuestros corazones
y estaremos tan felices
que no podremos comprender
como han pasado los años sin sentir.
Miles de estrellas nos han conducido
a otro lugar especial
hacia la verdadera vida
llamada nuestra eternidad.
Esa eternidad que jamás nos hará
volver al mundo real..............
® DAMADENEGRO
Is there an English translation for this, it's one of my favorite photos of Heath, but I wish I understood what the words were, and how they connect to remembering him:)
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IziYmwA3ago
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Can't even describe what I felt seeing this video.
Suddenly I realized he had become a LEGEND… and no legend has ever died.
Yes, he was a Hollywood Star... but for me, who he really was in life, it is all that matters.
The more I read about this man, it makes me think we could have been perfect copies. As I am looking in a mirror of my life lived by him. Is not the profession he had, but how he lived his entire life.
It took about 3 days before his death hit me really hard.
I can't say that I knew Heath, yet there is this power that hovers over me and I have no idea why. It makes me feel as I am supposed to do something, and I don't have a clue.
I wake up in the morning, and my mind start winding from one memory to another connecting every move I make, with Heath.
It's not like I need a life… I do have one, and a pretty busy one; I don't sit and sulk all day doing nothing but thinking of him, and I can't say I am depressed either.
But I feel, in death he became this power of millions of particles, touching every one of us.
I have grieved before, no one knew my pain because no one knew the person I've lost.
Why Heath has this effect on me? Why the pain of "losing" Heath is greater than the other?
I am a very rational person, yet I can't find any plausible explanation. %&)
FlwrChild and LuvJackNasty... thank you.
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Thank you so much !!!LJN and FC,.... <^( :^^)
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IziYmwA3ago
Oh my... :-\\ :\'(
One word: Beautiful! ^f^
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Podrá nublarse el sol eternamente;
Podrá secarse en un instante el mar;
Podrá romperse el eje de la tierra
Como un débil cristal.
¡todo sucederá! Podrá la muerte
Cubrirme con su fúnebre crespón;
Pero jamás en mí podrá apagarse
La llama de tu amor
(Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer)
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://rapidshare.com/files/98128827/Into_The_West.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/98128827/Into_The_West.wmv.html)
Wonderful¡ Thanks for sharing it with us... :ghug:
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Podrá nublarse el sol eternamente;
Podrá secarse en un instante el mar;
Podrá romperse el eje de la tierra
Como un débil cristal.
¡todo sucederá! Podrá la muerte
Cubrirme con su fúnebre crespón;
Pero jamás en mí podrá apagarse
La llama de tu amor
(Gustavo Adolfo Bécquer)
Beautiful,JAKELANDIA¡ Gracias,guapa¡ ^f^
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Beautiful,JAKELANDIA¡ Gracias,guapa¡ ^f^
de nada baby
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I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"
My Gift To You
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IziYmwA3ago
This is one of the very few tribute vids I have kept. I let myself look at them once a day, cry, hurt, wish...then as we must, should, as the natural way in all this unnatural...I go on with my life. A better, richer, more broken person. If we can't move on with him in our heart, sometimes tears on our face, but moving on, not forgetting, but living to the fullest, letting him make that difference in us, if we can't move on, then what we give cannot be a tribute. We can't honor him if his memory destroys us, or part of us. So, I will look at your amazing beautiful vid, and very few others, later his movies, and hold him firmly and safely in my soul. I'll never forget, not even for a day.
jessi
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This is one of the very few tribute vids I have kept. I let myself look at them once a day, cry, hurt, wish...then as we must, should, as the natural way in all this unnatural...I go on with my life. A better, richer, more broken person. If we can't move on with him in our heart, sometimes tears on our face, but moving on, not forgetting, but living to the fullest, letting him make that difference in us, if we can't move on, then what we give cannot be a tribute. We can't honor him if his memory destroys us, or part of us. So, I will look at your amazing beautiful vid, and very few others, later his movies, and hold him firmly and safely in my soul. I'll never forget, not even for a day.
jessi
bautifuly put jessi ive been trying to explain this is how i feel for along time but alas i am not as good with words as you are, nice post
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IziYmwA3ago
Thank you so much Barb and Michelle. This is totally beautiful and moving. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"
My Gift To You
Wonderful again¡And again thank you¡ Gracias por tu sensibilidad...
This is one of the very few tribute vids I have kept. I let myself look at them once a day, cry, hurt, wish...then as we must, should, as the natural way in all this unnatural...I go on with my life. A better, richer, more broken person. If we can't move on with him in our heart, sometimes tears on our face, but moving on, not forgetting, but living to the fullest, letting him make that difference in us, if we can't move on, then what we give cannot be a tribute. We can't honor him if his memory destroys us, or part of us. So, I will look at your amazing beautiful vid, and very few others, later his movies, and hold him firmly and safely in my soul. I'll never forget, not even for a day.
jessi
Thanks to you too,Jessi,for your nice words.They reflects very well what we all feel and hope we´ll feel forever... :^^)
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I know there are moments of darkness, but if you look at my prev. post, I mentioned that I felt Heath took pills to find peace of mind-never to choose to leave this world. Any interview he did, it spoke of an absolute respect for his life, and living it to the fullest. To ever choose to end one's life was never something he believed in. This helps to remember when it gets very dark Heathlover1; he didn't believe in that; and I believe in him, which tells me this will all be ok. I know what you mean about it being there when you first wake up. Usually with a death(of someone I've actually met) there is this moment when I would first wake up, then think, "what it different, oh yeah, so an so is gone" with Heath it is just there the second I wake, before my eyes are even open, I know he's just gone. But there are so many things that are still here. There was a moment in Vegas after the memorial, Ethan and I were hugging and crying, and I said it wasn't fair that we get to watch his daughter grow up, and he doesn't. This stuck in my head, and I've come to the acceptance, that, though not fair, it is a privilege; a privilege I don't take lightly; and I will watch her grow up, and bare witness to that beautiful Heath spirit in her that Michelle talked about. I hope you wish to do the same. What he gave us was so special, and in a way, it gave all of us a piece of his spirit. I hope to watch that grow in everyone on this site. Giving up way never his way, he knew the right path to take, he was just cut short from completing it, we have not been. And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright. Love and Hugs, Jess:)
What a beautiful post Jess. :\'( Thank you. I'm still clinging desperately to what I have left of him, what he left behind. It's unbearably sad to think that there will be no more of that. But then I remind myself that I still have you guys, and that's a comfort.
LJN, your daughter is amazing. She has the most beautiful ideas... I wish it could work that way.
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://youtube.com/watch?v=IziYmwA3ago
I can't download from this link... :-\\ Can you upload it on youtube or photobucket?
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I live through my dark existence
only to bask in your beauty
your eyes that shine like sapphires
your smile that brightens even my sad existence
I envy the wind that runs through your hair
that touches your lips
I long to touch you
to hold you in my arms but I cannot
for your heart belongs to another
so, I can only love you from afar
your friendship means more to me
than anything this world provides
but like an angel you touched my heart
in a way that I've never felt before
cause I've never known what love is until this day
I know that we are only friends
but my heart wishes it to be more
so I will still hope and dream
that one day I can feel your lips pressed to mine
to hold you in my arms and say, "I love you"
My Gift To You
JAKEALANDIA, I absolutely adore this poem <^(
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I can't download from this link... :-\\ Can you upload it on youtube or photobucket?
Thanks Asali for helping in getting this uploaded. :^^)
Here is another link to view the vid
http://www.livevideo.com/video/6847D15B5CBB49379669281969DFA4A9/our-tribute-to-heath.aspx?m_tkc=11280149
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What a beautiful post Jess. :\'( Thank you. I'm still clinging desperately to what I have left of him, what he left behind. It's unbearably sad to think that there will be no more of that. But then I remind myself that I still have you guys, and that's a comfort.
Thanks KarenB, there are still times when I get really upset that there will not be anything new from him, there were so many pics and articles of him I hadn't read, yet every time i read or see something new, it's a little sadder because I know it's one less new thing I'll have from him. Yet, I believe in reliving the past good things from him, especially his more light hearted films like A Knight's Tale. I haven't watched it yet since his death (I made the awful mistake of watching "Candy" with him as an addict; bad idea). But I think it's a good idea for us to start focusing on the happy things he left us...at least I'm going to try. But it is still nice to read the beautiful poems and see the amazing video tributes people are doing. Thank you to the talented people that create those for us; we need them, and appreciate you all :)
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Thanks Asali for helping in getting this uploaded. :^^)
Here is another link to view the vid
http://www.livevideo.com/video/6847D15B5CBB49379669281969DFA4A9/our-tribute-to-heath.aspx?m_tkc=11280149
Beautiful...just beautiful!
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Thanks Asali for helping in getting this uploaded. :^^)
Here is another link to view the vid
http://www.livevideo.com/video/6847D15B5CBB49379669281969DFA4A9/our-tribute-to-heath.aspx?m_tkc=11280149
It's beautiful, thank you so much.
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For some strange reason I've had these feelings of protection for Heath. Like i want to make sure that no one hurts him even though I realize he can't be hurt now. I'm 22 years old, and I'm feeling things that a parent would feel about his/her child. I want to shield him from all the pain of the world. I know that Heath was a vulnerable actor and a sensitive person, but I'm not sure why I'm feeling so protective of him now. How do others feel? Are you having similar reactions? Thanks. :\'(
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For some strange reason I've had these feelings of protection for Heath. Like i want to make sure that no one hurts him even though I realize he can't be hurt now. I'm 22 years old, and I'm feeling things that a parent would feel about his/her child. I want to shield him from all the pain of the world. I know that Heath was a vulnerable actor and a sensitive person, but I'm not sure why I'm feeling so protective of him now. How do others feel? Are you having similar reactions? Thanks. :\'(
Yes I do!! I know exactly how you feel, I saw a stupid remark on YouTube the other day, and was so angry, that I wanted physically hurt this person... ::) but instead I wrote a response :how dare he and not to spread lies etc... it didn't ease my anger thou .
He was indeed a very sensitive person, he hated all the hoopla that came along being famous ,the interviews,photographs,and paparazzi o,f course, ,but he took his work so seriously that it could not be avoided.
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For some strange reason I've had these feelings of protection for Heath. Like i want to make sure that no one hurts him even though I realize he can't be hurt now. I'm 22 years old, and I'm feeling things that a parent would feel about his/her child. I want to shield him from all the pain of the world. I know that Heath was a vulnerable actor and a sensitive person, but I'm not sure why I'm feeling so protective of him now. How do others feel? Are you having similar reactions? Thanks. :\'(
Yes, I feel the same. I'm only 32, not that much older than Heath, but I often refer to him as "my baby". And like hpv said, I sometimes feel like I want to physically hurt people who insult him and spread lies about him. I also can't stand the thought of him being unhappy, I take it really hard when people try to hint that he was depressed. I feel very, very protective of him, maybe now more than ever.
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Couldn't have said it better myself. Protective is the very word I've used to describe how I feel. And for all the same reasons. I really don't think it matters how old you are. It's just about being sensitive to somebody else. And Heath is just the kind of person to inspire those kinds of feelings.
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: for everyone
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Yes, I feel the same. I'm only 32, not that much older than Heath, but I often refer to him as "my baby". And like hpv said, I sometimes feel like I want to physically hurt people who insult him and spread lies about him. I also can't stand the thought of him being unhappy, I take it really hard when people try to hint that he was depressed. I feel very, very protective of him, maybe now more than ever.
I feel the same. There are times I want to throttle people when I read/hear anything bad. I know he wasn't a saint, none of us are and it's not about trying to idealize him into a "perfect" being. For me it's about treating him with the respect that he deserves and to me it's even more important now to respect and protect him. It breaks my heart to know that there are people who would use him to further their own agendas be it ratings or other undesirable agendas. :-\\
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This is one of the very few tribute vids I have kept. I let myself look at them once a day, cry, hurt, wish...then as we must, should, as the natural way in all this unnatural...I go on with my life. A better, richer, more broken person. If we can't move on with him in our heart, sometimes tears on our face, but moving on, not forgetting, but living to the fullest, letting him make that difference in us, if we can't move on, then what we give cannot be a tribute. We can't honor him if his memory destroys us, or part of us. So, I will look at your amazing beautiful vid, and very few others, later his movies, and hold him firmly and safely in my soul. I'll never forget, not even for a day.
jessi
Beautiful post, Jessi and thank you. :ghug: I'm slowly going back to "normal". I still cry, though the intensity of the tears seems to depend on the day. And I have days, like this morning, where the realization that he is really gone hits me all over again and I feel that punch in the gut. I'm with you in the never forgetting, though I never really knew him, I am tied to him through BBM. Not as Ennis necessarily, but for all that it brought me.
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I feel the same. There are times I want to throttle people when I read/hear anything bad. I know he wasn't a saint, none of us are and it's not about trying to idealize him into a "perfect" being. For me it's about treating him with the respect that he deserves and to me it's even more important now to respect and protect him. It breaks my heart to know that there are people who would use him to further their own agendas be it ratings or other undesirable agendas. :-\\
You've said it so well. I'm not trying to idealize him into a perfect person and I know he wasn't a saint, I'm sure he made some mistakes along his life... not just as an actor, but as a person too, because we all do. And Heath was never ashamed to admit that he made mistakes. But the thing is, whatever mistakes or bad choices he made along the way, it doesn't make me love him any less. It doesn't change the person he was - down to earth, humble, generous, loving, honest, sensitive - so many qualities that I respect in a person - and extremely talented. Heath said in one of his speeches: "...so I apologize for the bad discoveries made along the way, but I do stand by the theory that in order to evolve and further yourself as an actor, you have to be fearless enough to allow yourself room for error". I think the same thing is true not only for an actor but for any human being, and I believe that Heath was a person who allowed himself to make mistakes in life and to learn from them, and to grow from his mistakes. It makes me respect him even more, and I love him with all his flaws.
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Exactly, Keren. Sometimes it's those "flaws" that make a person even more endearing. It's sometimes easier to love someone because they not only have flaws, but own up to them- it puts you on the same level, so to speak, to know that we are all human beings;all of us flawed, all of us vulnerable, all of us capable of loving and being loved in return. A few mistakes or flaws don't negate who you are as a person, they are just a few pieces that make up the whole.
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For some strange reason I've had these feelings of protection for Heath. Like i want to make sure that no one hurts him even though I realize he can't be hurt now. I'm 22 years old, and I'm feeling things that a parent would feel about his/her child. I want to shield him from all the pain of the world. I know that Heath was a vulnerable actor and a sensitive person, but I'm not sure why I'm feeling so protective of him now. How do others feel? Are you having similar reactions? Thanks. :\'(
Yes indeed...I know what he was feeling in his last days, and how I would wish to embrace him tightly and tell him everything's gonna be ok, that I'm gonna look after him until he's better, but it's too late :\'(
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Keren and Michelle, thank you for those posts. :ghug:
You've expressed it so well, and that's exactly the way I feel as well. <^(
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:ghug: to everyone. I'm still having bad days but some good ones too. I took a short break from the forum and I didn't cry on those days but it came at the expense of not being a part of everything so that wasn't good. First day back I cried but I'd rather that than not be here.
I was just out shopping with my youngest-she's 8. And we had this little convo:
J: Mommy?
M: Yes
J: You know how you're sad about that guy and other people are sad too?
M: Yes Jordan
J: Well I was thinking. Could it work if you all went to his grave and cried there and all the tears of love landed and maybe they'd make him alive again and no one would be sad anymore?
I gave her a great big hug and told her that that was a beautiful idea and I wished it worked that way but it doesn't and she just said "Oh well". Sometimes I wish I was that young again, in some way immune to it all and able to hope that there was some way to make it different.
<^( OMG how gorgeous...what a cute thing to say...awwww bless!! I remember when i was younger and used to think miracles like that could happen...yes to be that innocent again, it was bliss. ^f^ Her heart was in the right place x x
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| How they cheerfully
print the worst possible interpretation they can find
When they could just as easily
tell the truth with a little more thought
You left a will
before you reached the stars,
before you met your match
You gave to those you love the few
earthly possession that meant little
compared to your legacy
You would surely have updated it
when there was time for matrimony
And you trusted the blood relationship,
the love so obvious to everyone,
even to fools
Why people resort to the lowest form of
making a living when it's not living at all
When hurting innocent people
with thoughtless careless words
In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all.
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| How they cheerfully
print the worst possible interpretation they can find
When they could just as easily
tell the truth with a little more thought
You left a will
before you reached the stars,
before you met your match
You gave to those you love the few
earthly possession that meant little
compared to your legacy
You would surely have updated it
when there was time for matrimony
And you trusted the blood relationship,
the love so obvious to everyone,
even to fools
Why people resort to the lowest form of
making a living when it's not living at all
When hurting innocent people
with thoughtless careless words
In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all.
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great post andrew :), i wish i could right poems ive tried but something is always not right with them.
im sorry i can do more but this is all i have to offer everyone for now :ghug: :ghug:
R.I.P heath, im hopeing you know the love we are sending you but im sure where ever you are looking right now you will see love, you are sorely missed but never forgoten and until we meet again you will remain safely in our hearts.
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How they cheerfully
print the worst possible interpretation they can find
When they could just as easily
tell the truth with a little more thought
You left a will
before you reached the stars,
before you met your match
You gave to those you love the few
earthly possession that meant little
compared to your legacy
You would surely have updated it
when there was time for matrimony
And you trusted the blood relationship,
the love so obvious to everyone,
even to fools
Why people resort to the lowest form of
making a living when it's not living at all
When hurting innocent people
with thoughtless careless words
In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all.
Beautiful Andrew, as everything you do ^f^ <^( :ghug:
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"In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all."
lancecowboy, so beautifully said, the whole thing. :ghug:
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| How they cheerfully
print the worst possible interpretation they can find
When they could just as easily
tell the truth with a little more thought
You left a will
before you reached the stars,
before you met your match
You gave to those you love the few
earthly possession that meant little
compared to your legacy
You would surely have updated it
when there was time for matrimony
And you trusted the blood relationship,
the love so obvious to everyone,
even to fools
Why people resort to the lowest form of
making a living when it's not living at all
When hurting innocent people
with thoughtless careless words
In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all.
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Absolutely beautiful.. :(
great post andrew :), i wish i could right poems ive tried but something is always not right with them.
im sorry i can do more but this is all i have to offer everyone for now :ghug: :ghug:
R.I.P heath, im hopeing you know the love we are sending you but im sure where ever you are looking right now you will see love, you are sorely missed but never forgoten and until we meet again you will remain safely in our hearts.
A hugs just as good zankou and having been a lurker, you have too said many beautiful and comforting words.
And I hope he knows somehow too...
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A hugs just as good zankou and having been a lurker, you have too said many beautiful and comforting words.
And I hope he knows somehow too...
im sure he does know, im certain of it
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im sure he does know, im certain of it
You'll have to excuse me today, I'm pretty sure there is another world or life and Heath's there and can see eveything (& hopefully knows how many people miss him) but sometimes my faith in it, just falls a little. ~)
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You'll have to excuse me today, I'm pretty sure there is another world and Heath's there and can see eveythign (& hopefully knows how many people miss him) but sometimes my faith in it, just falls a little. ~)
their is no need to be sorry for the way you feel, just have faith in anything you want and remember no one here will judge you hear just because you have different views its just not the done thing here.
:ghug:
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their is no need to be sorry for the way you feel, just have faith in anything you want and remember no one here will judge you hear just because you have different views its just not the done thing here.
:ghug:
Aww thanks
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He's right. There's no right or wrong way to feel. And some days it's easier to see and feel the positives than others. Either way, we're all on this ride together. Everyone's feelings make up the whole, and the whole is something I'm very glad to be a part of. :ghug:
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He's right. There's no right or wrong way to feel. And some days it's easier to see and feel the positives than others. Either way, we're all on this ride together. Everyone's feelings make up the whole, and the whole is something I'm very glad to be a part of. :ghug:
Aye, I am very glad I found this place too..and hopefully becoming part of it.
I think I'm just down today, because I've been trying hard to move on from the state of disbelief that Heath's not physically here now and try and push him to the back of my mind a little so I could get thigns I needed to done, when my Dad asked me how I was doing (& it's the first time he's asked me since the day) and he's never expressed any sort of belief in an afterlife or anything and wasn't even a big fan of Heath but he just turned round and said "I hope he gave someone up there a talking to, becuase he's been taken way too soon, and upset so many people. He had so much left to do".
And it made me laugh and sad at the same time. And some of it are sentiments that have been said many times in various places.. But of course, it just brought Heath right back to the forefront of my mind (though he's usually the first and last thing I think about everyday as well as many times in between.
I do believe that there is something after this life..and that Heath's there and can see everything thats going on and knows how much he's missed and when people think about him etc, in a way which we just can't comprehend. And it's something I've been doing a lot of reading up on since Heath's passing, I suppose in some ways to try and reassure my belief, adn deal with Heath's passing in believing he lives on somewhere, but sometimes as with all faiths it just slips a little, when I really start thinking about Heath.
And thats the wrong thing to do, dwell on his passing, and not on everything he gave us that will continue to inspire us for years to come.
I apologise for this long ramble ~)
And one last thing I loved the Into The West video you posted FlwrChild..much appreciated
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Thank you. LuvJackNasty was the brainchild behind that one. I was just honored to be invited on the creative journey. ^f^
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In all of our tributes to Heath, and in the awful grief we have had, it's occurred to me that we may have left out that he was moving, more
and more, into social and ethical issues that were very important to him.
Together with Michelle Williams, he was promoting the "One" charity, to end hunger completely, in our time. He also was signing on to a
campaign to block use, by the U.S. Navy, of experimental sonar believed to kill dolphins (and we've had 7 dead dolphins here, near Norfolk,
just in the past few days), and he was planning to join others in hopes of blocking the $200 Billion mega-construction project, which he believed
would forever destroy the charm of Brooklyn.
He had so many things he wanted to do creatively, including directing movies, and promoting music, it's hard to believe, but he was also
hoping to make a difference in the world on social issues. In fact, the more I think of it, the more it looks like he was a rose just beginning
to bloom, and that makes the cold frost of his death all the worse.
Maybe a real tribute to Heath, then, might be to look around, have a heart, and try to make a difference in some way, no matter how small.
Am not much good at that stuff, myself, but I will try, if I can. At any rate, it should be out there----Heath was moving towards being more
active in helping this old, troubled world. Following through on the same warm feelings that had him helping someone fix a flat tire, near his
home. He was on his way to more. Not just movies. To helping people. Makes the loss so much the worse.
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Tony, I have frequently found that doing something helpful in someone's name after they die, especially if you know of particular efforts they were involved in, can be very healing. And what better tribute to anyone than to help make the world a better place in their honor and continue that journey that they were on themselves?
Perhaps in that way, we can see the positive over the loss.
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Flowerchild, amen to that. If I can find a way, I will. Eleanor Roosevelt said it is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.
I'll try, as you suggest, when I can.
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I know what you mean mpj. :ghug:
This is why, though it might be selfish of me, I'm really glad that he played a character that aged. Because we get a little glimpse, a little sense, even if it was fabricated and not necessarily true to what he'd look like in RL at that age, of what he might look like then. It's also probably why I've been looking at as many recent pictures as possible lately, along with the 'classics', because I had a need these last few weeks to see him as old as I could, if that makes any sense.
I've also noticed in a few interviews and pictures I was watching over the last few weeks, some tendancies and traits that make me think he might have looked a lot like his father as he aged. I'll never know for sure, but it was kind of a nice thought when it occurred to me.
This is important to me, too, that we don't have the pleasure of seeing Heath get older -- it breaks my heart. But you said it perfectly, Barb, about wanting to see him as "old" as we're going to see him. That will be in The Imaginarium, I guess. Anyway, that is why I chose this picture of Heath (below), the picture that was in the Warner Bros. tribute, because he looks actually older than most any picture I've seen of him, and I love it. Also chose it because he's smiling. (This is the thing I left out in the Valley of Fire.)
Also, about his father. When I would see pix of him, I would add a little hair and take off the glasses, and I can see a resemblence. (And it will be interesting to see how Mathilda looks in her 20's, but a father and daughter can't quite be as similar.)
kathy
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There are so many beautiful tribute videos out there for Heath already, but I just couldn't resist doing one of my own. Once it was in my head, I knew I wouldn't get it out until I made it and got it posted. I hope you like it.
Link to download:
http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html)
photobucket link to watch (thank you LuvJackNasty :^^)):
http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv (http://s39.photobucket.com/albums/e163/luvjacknasty/Misc/?action=view¤t=Heath_Ledger_Tribute.flv)
The quotes go by a little quickly, but I hope it still works. :)
Barb, this is so beautiful! I am amazed at you, for being able to do this...though I know that such things are healing, while perhaps painful at the same time. I really love this -- the song, the quotes, the shots you chose, the drawing at the end... Thank you so much.
You know I was away last weekend, and it's been this whole week before I could come back here to this thread. Not that I haven't thought about and talked about Heath a lot during these days. But now...and after watching this...I feel back in that teary, heart-crying place, mourning still...
kathy
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If I never saw a tribute or read from any site or cried with another over such a loss, shared grief, I could never forget heath ledger. Nothing can make me do that, unless I forget my own child and love ones. As I've said, he's in my being, a part of me.
I've gone to the cemetary where his body laid briefly so many times since we moved to West LA and then here, since I accidently found that resting place of so many, famous and not. It is so peaceful. I have a friend buried there. It is so hard knowing his body was there, knowing those that so loved him tired to find solace there. I'll go back, for his birthday, and mourn and celebrate two of my losses, both before their time, both who gave so much and still had so much to give. And I'll go there and think of you guys, of us who are going on, better for heath in our lives.
jessi
That is beautiful, Jessi, that you've gone to that cemetary. Not only where his body laid at rest, but where there was so much loving energy there, from all his people...
But then, when any of us walks the streets of LA, NY, London, Sydney, Perth, anyplace where he's been, we are breathing in some of the molecules he breathed out... I guess all over the world that would apply. "A butterfly in China" and all that.
As tpe read LJN's piece at the Valley of Fire, Jessica and I were holding the PJ bottoms that he had worn, and that felt good.
kathy
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I have this painting at my home now; made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm. I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall to hang it.
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I love this, Carmilla! Very smart. I love how Heath had so many moods and looks. Love this one, for sure.
kathy
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Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while. It was nice immediately because I realized that these gatherings were about Ennis and Jack, and our love for this film; and not so much about Heath and Jake. The only time Heath truly was an acknowledged part of it was when we were having the memorial that you all have seen photos from. We placed items and each our own rock within the small space and hugged and cried, and really that was the main time Heath was truly there. Otherwise it was talk of "Ennis". We weren't ignoring, just reminiscing in a positive way. But now, it's back home to reality, and back to missing Heath, and everything he gave...and it's awful. I know we didn't really know him, but the idea of him somehow filled a void in all of us, and while he's gone, that stupid void is still hanging around waiting to be filled; and the guilt that something has to fill it is almost unbearable. How do you replace someone that is so important to you? I keep trying to tell myself that there is nothing to replace; that what Heath gave us, he left on film for us to have forever, and there isn't really a point in mourning because I haven' t really lost anything I ever truly had; but that doesn't help, or make me feel any better. My computer had been broken since early January, I just got it back yesterday, and when I signed on to my internet through my main account it showed the previous sites I had gone on(before any of this happened). It was so strange to go back to a time when he was alive and see how much he was a part of my day. Though of course there were many sites and my work done on the computer, after every couple of sites was a site that somehow involved him, it was just the natural part of my day...I'm not sure where to go from here, it hurts to be so sad, but feels so guilty when I'm happy; but I'm going to choose to be happy; it's what Heath wanted for himself, I can only imagine that's why he was on so many meds...to find some sort of peace in the chaos of reality. I'm striving to achieve that peace without the prescribed help; for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all :)
I hope you are feeling somewhat better now, since you wrote this a few days ago. I know what you mean, too, gong back to before January 22,. It is a shock to realize how one moment changes everything.
I don't know, though, about in LV. Maybe we didn't all talk about Heath and Jake as a group that much, but for me, anyway, Heath was very much on my mind (and Jake, too). I think it was on all our minds, knowing we were going to do the tribute in the desert. And you and I did talk about them. But now that you say it, I realize we do still carry on with Ennis and Jack, and I like that fine. As far as this all goes, as much as we talked constantly, there really is never enough time to say it all. Just the fact of our getting together at this time was all about Heath for me, also.
kathy
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today.
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thanks it was bautiful im crying now though, thank you so much for sharing this with us,
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today.
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Thats really beautiful Michelle.....can't believe it still, after all this time....it doesn't seem real to me. :\'( :\'(
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today.
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So beautiful Michelle, so so beautiful and heartbreaking. :\'( :\'( Thank you sweetie. I hope you're feeling better. :ghug:
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today.
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Really nice,Michelle; nice and sad...It still hurts too much,no? But I´m sure he knows all the love he has carried with him,I must believe it and you too... :ghug:
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today.
That's just beautiful. Brought a tear to my eye.
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Ashes to ashes, heart to hearts,
remember him in memories,
make them,
make them what you find
through his eyes.
Make them the roles played,
not ones made for a star,
nor ones claimed to be brave,
but for stretching, reaching,
so much filling his heart,
so much to say.
Remember him as humble,
as a dad,
someone true, real, full of life.
A genius.
An old soul.
Remeber he has peace from
this world,
yet,
his spirit never gone,
never finished,
Heath was always part of forever,
and he's busy stretching,
so much to do, learning and seeing
being, for always,
for who needs sleep in heaven.
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
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OMG! Amazing but heart wrenching :\'(
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
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Beautiful...just beautiful...the collage and the poem. ^f^ <^( :clap: &**)
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Ashes to ashes, heart to hearts,
remember him in memories,
make them,
make them what you find
through his eyes.
Make them the roles played,
not ones made for a star,
nor ones claimed to be brave,
but for stretching, reaching,
so much filling his heart,
so much to say.
Remember him as humble,
as a dad,
someone true, real, full of life.
A genius.
An old soul.
Remeber he has peace from
this world,
yet,
his spirit never gone,
never finished,
Heath was always part of forever,
and he's busy stretching,
so much to do, learning and seeing
being, for always,
for who needs sleep in heaven.
:\'( This is beautiful Jessi. Thank you for sharing it. :ghug:
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I know exactly how you feel, and I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day. All I have to do is think of his name, and I fall apart. I have gotten way too involved on myspace with all of the Heath people. I'm pretty much the most active person on there as far as adding photos, providing links to new interviews, posting news before most people receive it for some reason, and I created a 20-question Heath survey, the results of which I just posted today. I know that I need to leave there, but whenever I mention it, people on my friends list with whom I've never exchanged a word, practically beg me to stay and tell me how much they appreciate everything I do. So, I feel really good helping people, which also makes me cry, but the satisfaction of doing that is not quite as much as the pain it's causing me.
I spend my days torturing myself by finding and adding new photos to my albums to share with everybody, and at the same time just staring at the photos and completely falling apart.
I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.
I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.
I've been trying to watch my favorite political comedy shows before bed, and that does help. I just need to withdraw from this horrible addiction.
Thanks for reading this. I needed to put my feelings in writing, even if it's just for me.
You guys are all great, and believe me, for all of those who grieve for Heath, I feel your pain and I hate to think of any of the wonderful people on here feeling as horrible as I do.
Take care. :\'(
You know what, heathlover, how about you come here and you don't have to GIVE anything. All the people on myspace really appreciate what you're giving them, but you can come here and just BE. You need a place where you get taken care of, where you are not filling other people's needs. So you can come here for that. We don't need you to do anything -- just be here and hopefully find what you need. You can just say whatever you want, or just read if you don't feel like talking.
kathy
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Oh heathlover, I know it's hard and sometimes you feel like you can't do anything to stop it! But please try and smile :)
This man changed most of our lives, and showed us to live life to the fullest and love everyone around him. If he was here, he'd probably wanted you to be happy, though I'm not saying crying is a bad thing..it's one of the best ways of grieving..
As for the myspace program for Heath, try and still go on with it, your helping people and that is so great of you to do! Your helping everyone around you grieve and remember this man with joy. And I have a myspace, so if you ever need help, just send me the link ;)
Feel better for my friend ^f^
Lis
By the way, Lis, I just love your icon pic of Heath and the "Heath, we swear."
kathy
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I posted something on here about 10 minutes ago, and it never showed up. It took forever to write! :-\\
I hate when that happens! ^^)
kathy
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I know there are moments of darkness, but if you look at my prev. post, I mentioned that I felt Heath took pills to find peace of mind-never to choose to leave this world. Any interview he did, it spoke of an absolute respect for his life, and living it to the fullest. To ever choose to end one's life was never something he believed in. This helps to remember when it gets very dark Heathlover1; he didn't believe in that; and I believe in him, which tells me this will all be ok. I know what you mean about it being there when you first wake up. Usually with a death(of someone I've actually met) there is this moment when I would first wake up, then think, "what it different, oh yeah, so an so is gone" with Heath it is just there the second I wake, before my eyes are even open, I know he's just gone. But there are so many things that are still here. There was a moment in Vegas after the memorial, Ethan and I were hugging and crying, and I said it wasn't fair that we get to watch his daughter grow up, and he doesn't. This stuck in my head, and I've come to the acceptance, that, though not fair, it is a privilege; a privilege I don't take lightly; and I will watch her grow up, and bare witness to that beautiful Heath spirit in her that Michelle talked about. I hope you wish to do the same. What he gave us was so special, and in a way, it gave all of us a piece of his spirit. I hope to watch that grow in everyone on this site. Giving up way never his way, he knew the right path to take, he was just cut short from completing it, we have not been. And while it may seem unbearable to walk alone, you forget we are all right there next to you; "you" don't need to be strong enough, "we" are strong enough. Together, we're all going to be alright. Love and Hugs, Jess:)
What a beautiful, post, Jessica... Yes, we are privileged to still remain here, to carry on for him... And I absolutely agree with you that Heath had the utmost zest for life.
kathy
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I hate thinking about this and bringing it up, but the fact that Heath said he felt "good about dying" didn't make him sound like he was still wanting to live life to the fullest. I was shocked to hear a 28-year-old man, loved by everybody, with a career taking off like crazy, and most importantly with a child. He was very clear about having mixed feelings about living or dying, and that last interviewing was so haunting and I think foreshadowing. I don't think for a moment that he tried to kill himself; don't get me wrong. I 100% believe that he had an addiction to prescription drugs (I've had that myself), and he accidentally overdosed. In a way, knowing that he felt good about dying was somewhat comforting, but at the same time, that is something only a depressed, lonely person would say, and that makes me feel SO SAD for him. I know how that feels, and I'm sure I'm not alone here.
I always feel good about dying and most of the time hope that I don't wake up in the morning. I doubt very much that Heath felt that way; I think he was just going through a stressful, sad time in his life.
I wish whomever was doing that particular interview had asked him what he meant by feeling good about dying, and why he would think about such a thing. But they didn't.
It's because of Heath that I didn't kill myself last year. I won't bother going into that whole story and sound like a real nut job, but enjoying him was all I had left, and now all I can do is cherish every interview and incredibly funny, unprepared award show speech that he gave, which are on my site to help keep him alive. Heck, there are 30 of them, and actually you all would probably absolutely cherish each and every one like I do!
He was so politically incorrect, said exactly what was on his mind without thinking about what anybody in a crowded room thought, and was so damn funny, down-to-earth, practiced what he preached, cared about all living things, and there will never be anybody else like him.
I almost feel mad that he left us. So many people are now deprived of his mere presence on this earth. If he knew how loved he was and how thousands of strangers were crying over him, he would be totally baffled. To him, he was just any everyday Joe, with no ego whatsoever. He would think we're all nuts!
Anyway, I guess I just needed to ramble. I need to get a life, and get off of myspace. I'm moving to Australia in two months, and I need to start preparing. Hard to do when you can't get out of bed all day!
Thanks for reading this, if you made it through. And i thank you all so very much for your support. I wish I knew what it would take for me to stop feeling totally alone. I guess I better up the anti-depressants. :t)
I didn't take Heath's comment in that interview as meaning he felt "good about dying." (What were his exact words, that he "would feel okay about dying"?) Nor do I find it odd for a young man to say that, not at all. To me, it was a deep sense that he was expressing, that once you have a child, your life can continue without you, so to speak. He meant it in a poetic sense more than reality, I believe. I don't think it had anything to do with being depressed. It had to do with feeling complete. It's like that Bob Dylan song that Joan Baez sang. In the song, she was so exquisitely happy, life was so complete right then, that "speaking strictly for me, we both could have died then and there." I felt that way out in the desert at our gathering, actually. Life can be so beautiful and perfect in the moment, that no more is needed. It is just a moment of fulfillment.
I don't actually feel he was addicted to the prescription drugs, either. He used them, yes, and he messed up with his combinations, but I don't think he was addicted. And I just don't see him as depressed. I do see that he suffered from anxiety, though -- the non-stop mind, the not sleeping, the artistic perfectionism.
Anyway, Heath's saying that, about death, only seems prophetic now. We didn't pay it a huge amount of attention before. But it's one of those things that seems prophetic in retrospect, is all.
Of course we all relate to him from our own perspectives, but that is my understanding...
I would like to think that perhaps that could help you -- maybe he was not feeling the ways that you are so familiar with, and then you can feel not so sad about his state of mind. Then...maybe we can help YOU feel better. :ghug:
kathy
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LuvJackNasty and I made this tribute vid. We hope you like it. ^f^
http://rapidshare.com/files/98128827/Into_The_West.wmv.html (http://rapidshare.com/files/98128827/Into_The_West.wmv.html)
Beautiful, perfect. I love the song, and all the pictures, and the way you did it, and the quotes...And of course, the shots of the tributes left in NY... Thank you, you two beautiful souls.
kathy
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For some strange reason I've had these feelings of protection for Heath. Like i want to make sure that no one hurts him even though I realize he can't be hurt now. I'm 22 years old, and I'm feeling things that a parent would feel about his/her child. I want to shield him from all the pain of the world. I know that Heath was a vulnerable actor and a sensitive person, but I'm not sure why I'm feeling so protective of him now. How do others feel? Are you having similar reactions? Thanks. :\'(
That's a beautiful feeling. Wherever it comes from, it's wonderful that you are like his protector, even though younger than him. I have those protective feelings somewhat, but I had them when he was here, also. And I'm way older. I think age doesn't matter. He stirred so many different things in so many of us.
kathy
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Absolutely beautiful.. :(
A hugs just as good zankou and having been a lurker, you have too said many beautiful and comforting words.
And I hope he knows somehow too...
Yes, he's lurking!
kathy
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In all of our tributes to Heath, and in the awful grief we have had, it's occurred to me that we may have left out that he was moving, more and more, into social and ethical issues that were very important to him.
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Maybe a real tribute to Heath, then, might be to look around, have a heart, and try to make a difference in some way, no matter how small........ He was on his way to more. Not just movies. To helping people.
You've got a point there Tony! O0
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
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Thats really beautiful Michelle.....can't believe it still, after all this time....it doesn't seem real to me. :\'(
I have to agree...still it's hard to believe it :\'(
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I didn't take Heath's comment in that interview as meaning he felt "good about dying." (What were his exact words, that he "would feel okay about dying"?) Nor do I find it odd for a young man to say that, not at all. To me, it was a deep sense that he was expressing, that once you have a child, your life can continue without you, so to speak. He meant it in a poetic sense more than reality, I believe. I don't think it had anything to do with being depressed. It had to do with feeling complete. It's like that Bob Dylan song that Joan Baez sang. In the song, she was so exquisitely happy, life was so complete right then, that "speaking strictly for me, we both could have died then and there." I felt that way out in the desert at our gathering, actually. Life can be so beautiful and perfect in the moment, that no more is needed. It is just a moment of fulfillment.
I don't actually feel he was addicted to the prescription drugs, either. He used them, yes, and he messed up with his combinations, but I don't think he was addicted. And I just don't see him as depressed. I do see that he suffered from anxiety, though -- the non-stop mind, the not sleeping, the artistic perfectionism.
Anyway, Heath's saying that, about death, only seems prophetic now. We didn't pay it a huge amount of attention before. But it's one of those things that seems prophetic in retrospect, is all.
Of course we all relate to him from our own perspectives, but that is my understanding...
I would like to think that perhaps that could help you -- maybe he was not feeling the ways that you are so familiar with, and then you can feel not so sad about his state of mind. Then...maybe we can help YOU feel better. :ghug:
kathy
I'm not cutting a word from your post. I'd like to put most of it in caps. It is common and very human to feel we will go on with our child. It was important to him, as with us all, to be there to love and guide his child, to be there for her and a huge part of her life. No, no way was he ready to die, wanting to die, but after her birth he understood it all and could accept it, for he would always go on. To be able to accept death, not be so terrified of it, is a huge part of being able to truly live. And living is what it was all about to Heath. He didn't take a huge amount of any of those pills because he knew that might be deadly. He, being human, made a horrible tragic mistake that haunts us, makes us hurt beyond words, but it was an accident. He was going through a rough time but from all I've heard excited about his projects, his life, his next day...seeing his child soon. He was into life, not death.
jessi
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I didn't take Heath's comment in that interview as meaning he felt "good about dying." (What were his exact words, that he "would feel okay about dying"?) Nor do I find it odd for a young man to say that, not at all. To me, it was a deep sense that he was expressing, that once you have a child, your life can continue without you, so to speak. He meant it in a poetic sense more than reality, I believe. I don't think it had anything to do with being depressed. It had to do with feeling complete. It's like that Bob Dylan song that Joan Baez sang. In the song, she was so exquisitely happy, life was so complete right then, that "speaking strictly for me, we both could have died then and there." I felt that way out in the desert at our gathering, actually. Life can be so beautiful and perfect in the moment, that no more is needed. It is just a moment of fulfillment.
I don't actually feel he was addicted to the prescription drugs, either. He used them, yes, and he messed up with his combinations, but I don't think he was addicted. And I just don't see him as depressed. I do see that he suffered from anxiety, though -- the non-stop mind, the not sleeping, the artistic perfectionism.
Anyway, Heath's saying that, about death, only seems prophetic now. We didn't pay it a huge amount of attention before. But it's one of those things that seems prophetic in retrospect, is all.
Of course we all relate to him from our own perspectives, but that is my understanding...
I would like to think that perhaps that could help you -- maybe he was not feeling the ways that you are so familiar with, and then you can feel not so sad about his state of mind. Then...maybe we can help YOU feel better. :ghug:
kathy
i agree, id say more but ive already give my feelings when heathlover first posted this.
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2FHeath%2Fcollage4.jpg&hash=cb1703692a499db754a083674bef9da47f30f199)
So beautiful..but seven weeks :\'( Seems like yesterday and a lifetime ago at the same time :\'(
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Ashes to ashes, heart to hearts,
remember him in memories,
make them,
make them what you find
through his eyes.
Make them the roles played,
not ones made for a star,
nor ones claimed to be brave,
but for stretching, reaching,
so much filling his heart,
so much to say.
Remember him as humble,
as a dad,
someone true, real, full of life.
A genius.
An old soul.
Remeber he has peace from
this world,
yet,
his spirit never gone,
never finished,
Heath was always part of forever,
and he's busy stretching,
so much to do, learning and seeing
being, for always,
for who needs sleep in heaven.
Again just beautiful. Thanks for posting Jessi
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I can't believe its been more then 7 weeks and soon it will be 2 months :\'(...this is to hard for me, I can't stand this anymore, I just want him back :( :\'( :\'(
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I can't believe its been more then 7 weeks and soon it will be 2 months :\'(...this is to hard for me, I can't stand this anymore, I just want him back :( :\'( :\'(
emelie heath never left us not truely yes his body may not be with us anymore but he still remains in our heads and hearts he is still with us every step of the way and one day we will see him again, just remember that.
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emelie heath never left us not truely yes his body may not be with us anymore but he still remains in our heads and hearts he is still with us every step of the way and one day we will see him again, just remember that.
:ghug:
i know, but still....its just so hard :(
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i know, but still....its just so hard :(
of course its hard, but we just have to try and get on with things as normal as possible heath wouldnt want us all to stop our normal lifes to mourn him yes we should mourn for him but also we must cherish everything he tought us including living life to its fullest just as he did.
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of course its hard, but we just have to try and get on with things as normal as possible heath wouldnt want us all to stop our normal lifes to mourn him yes we should mourn for him but also we must cherish everything he tought us including living life to its fullest just as he did.
you're right and tomorrow me and a friend are going to watch BBM, she has never seen it before and i hope she likes it :)
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you're right and tomorrow me and a friend are going to watch BBM, she has never seen it before and i hope she likes it :)
if she doesnt she will have me to explain to ^*) :P
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If there's one thing I'm very happy we did during the whole weekend we met in Las Vegas, It's the little tribute we made for Heath in the Valley of Fire and the shrine we left behind.
We were looking for a cave with a view(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0445.jpg&hash=dd0133533792a03bfed8e727c7b703f4b9b3e9e0)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0437.jpg&hash=c553e58fe6e2736af424dccde730c682526d3084)
This is the view from the cave(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0440.jpg&hash=ccd32122890c2bd96ab3c313f218a1cbf3dbd827)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0439.jpg&hash=2239ffe40174a00ba7acf654fdbf601ec500a014)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0438.jpg&hash=8a14abf261078e14a8f911622c4594be89dce37b)
Huh, have tissues ready... :-\\
Click on the picture to view the video (https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2Fth_tribute3.jpg&hash=0ce651a7560af2acfcf7393095ec1e3f6fdc66e6) (http://s63.photobucket.com/albums/h137/chameau_7/Las%20Vegas/?action=view¤t=tribute3.flv)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FDSCN0442.jpg&hash=22e3e2f5007584f85df6c46540ce1732950a95c9)
The details of the tributes we left, Kathy already posted this oneHere is what I made and wrapped in denim, tied with leather lacing. The image is under glass, framed with the leather lacing, mounted on leather.
kathy
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi143.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fr148%2Fksxks%2Fbbm%2FHL79-0801.jpg%3Ft%3D1204666365&hash=69ed003eab2aa51f9ddd4e41729f3dbc2b6ebcf0)
Michelle's tribute in detail, this is the one Thomas read on the video(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2FHLTrib5x7-1.jpg&hash=b96a82d08da564ce139778521e2888134bfdd2bd)
My frame in details(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2Fmemorial.jpg&hash=e7227e95ef49fbc7214adb9df0b1f8985fc1bb0b)
Rest in Peace Cowboy
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I just watched the vid in the Vegas thread. :\'( :ghug: Pierre
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2FHeath%2Fcollage4.jpg&hash=cb1703692a499db754a083674bef9da47f30f199)
OMG, it's so beautiful :\'(
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Owh..Cham..the video, that's so touching, the majestic surrounding ,beautiful remembrance , Kathy's face...and I'm a mess of course, especially as you can clearly hear the crying in the background. :\'(
...Sigh...
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Me too :\'(, it was so beautiful... and I loved to hear your voices.
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(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2Fth_tribute3.jpg&hash=0ce651a7560af2acfcf7393095ec1e3f6fdc66e6) (http://s63.photobucket.com/albums/h137/chameau_7/Las%20Vegas/?action=view¤t=tribute3.flv)
BTW,I would like to ask about placing the stones in the cave?
In the Jewish tradition , placing stones is a symbolic act that indicates someone has come to visit and the deceased has not been forgotten. (Schindler's List has that towards the end of the movie.)
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If there's one thing I'm very happy we did during the whole weekend we met in Las Vegas, It's the little tribute we made for Heath in the Valley of Fire and the shrine we left behind.
Huh, have tissues ready... :-\\
Click on the picture to view the video
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi63.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fh137%2Fchameau_7%2FLas%2520Vegas%2Fth_tribute3.jpg&hash=0ce651a7560af2acfcf7393095ec1e3f6fdc66e6) (http://s63.photobucket.com/albums/h137/chameau_7/Las%20Vegas/?action=view¤t=tribute3.flv)
Rest in Peace Cowboy
Oh god!! You are so right about needing tissues...that was heartbreaking. Just when I think I'm doing ok.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I see all of you guys, together in unity for our beautiful boy, and hearing that beautiful tribute and watching you lay the tribute down...it just brought it all back to me, the pain, the unbearable pain of not having him here any more...... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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It's beautiful, just beautiful. :\'( <^( Thank you for doing it, and thank you for sharing it with us. :ghug:
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Oh god!! You are so right about needing tissues...that was heartbreaking. Just when I think I'm doing ok.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I see all of you guys, together in unity for our beautiful boy, and hearing that beautiful tribute and watching you lay the tribute down...it just brought it all back to me, the pain, the unbearable pain of not having him here any more...... :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: Christie. It's that punch in the gut all over again where it feels so fresh and raw. I guess the intensity of that hasn't lessened. I'm having one of those days again where it's just there, hanging so heavily and I'm so aware of it. Where it starts in your toes and then settles into your stomach for a while before moving up and burning in your chest until it finally explodes out. I hate this, every last bit of it. Movies and pictures don't help all that much because the mind tries to travel to some pretend place, a safe place, I guess, seeing these moments in time captured;taking some comfort in them; glad for those moments. But then somewhere in another part of the brain it starts taunting, almost, with the awful truth and then the cycle begins again. I don't ask "why?" I ask "How?" I don't really know the difference in those two but that's the word that just comes out. Maybe because the why doesn't matter because it won't change anything. I don't know. I feel like I'm on the log flume, sometimes safely on even ground, sometimes even rising up a little, but then the curves start and the car slams a little against the side before making it's descent down the long drop splashing down into a pool of tears. I guess I'm rambling again. It's that kind of day today. :\'( :\'(
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BTW,I would like to ask about placing the stones in the cave?
In the Jewish tradition , placing stones is a symbolic act that indicates someone has come to visit and the deceased has not been forgotten. (Schindler's List has that towards the end of the movie.)
That was the reason we did it.
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That was the reason we did it.
Thank you Cham ,that's so sweet!!!! <^( :ghug: %)
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Thanks, cham for posting them.
BTW,I would like to ask about placing the stones in the cave?
In the Jewish tradition , placing stones is a symbolic act that indicates someone has come to visit and the deceased has not been forgotten. (Schindler's List has that towards the end of the movie.)
It was actually Tpe's idea to place the stones. He did mention the Jewish tradition.
:ghug: to everyone.
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Thanks, cham for posting them.
It was actually Tpe's idea to place the stones. He did mention the Jewish tradition.
:ghug: to everyone.
It was indeed a noble idea...thanx to tpe and all the attendees of LA meet... :ghug:
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Thanks for sharing this with all of us.
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I think I'm gonna cry again :\'(
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I think I'm gonna cry again :\'(
:ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: Christie. It's that punch in the gut all over again where it feels so fresh and raw. I guess the intensity of that hasn't lessened. I'm having one of those days again where it's just there, hanging so heavily and I'm so aware of it. Where it starts in your toes and then settles into your stomach for a while before moving up and burning in your chest until it finally explodes out. I hate this, every last bit of it. Movies and pictures don't help all that much because the mind tries to travel to some pretend place, a safe place, I guess, seeing these moments in time captured;taking some comfort in them; glad for those moments. But then somewhere in another part of the brain it starts taunting, almost, with the awful truth and then the cycle begins again. I don't ask "why?" I ask "How?" I don't really know the difference in those two but that's the word that just comes out. Maybe because the why doesn't matter because it won't change anything. I don't know. I feel like I'm on the log flume, sometimes safely on even ground, sometimes even rising up a little, but then the curves start and the car slams a little against the side before making it's descent down the long drop splashing down into a pool of tears. I guess I'm rambling again. It's that kind of day today. :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: Michelle.
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BTW,I would like to ask about placing the stones in the cave?
In the Jewish tradition , placing stones is a symbolic act that indicates someone has come to visit and the deceased has not been forgotten. (Schindler's List has that towards the end of the movie.)
Thank you, hpv. I didn't know that. It seems Thomas began with the idea of putting the stones in, and we each picked a special rock. I loved that idea; and I'm glad it has symbolic significance. I almost don't remember it in real time -- it was moments out of time -- and am glad to see it from outside myself in the video.
Plus, I loved that Thomas gathered up a bit of the red dust and I put it in a baggie, and later put it in those tiny bottles I just happened to have brought, with Heath's picture and words inside.
kathy
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Oh god!! You are so right about needing tissues...that was heartbreaking. Just when I think I'm doing ok.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I see all of you guys, together in unity for our beautiful boy, and hearing that beautiful tribute and watching you lay the tribute down...it just brought it all back to me, the pain, the unbearable pain of not having him here any more...... :\'( :\'( :\'(
I loved watching this again... Pierre, I love the very end, when you said "rest in peace." Out come the tissues.
kathy
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7 weeks :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2FHeath%2Fcollage4.jpg&hash=cb1703692a499db754a083674bef9da47f30f199)
Really beautiful and touching, LuvJackNasty <^( :\'(. Thank you so much for sharing it with us :t).
Nearly 8 weeks (on next Tuesday), and still I have a hard time believing it :\'(.
I like so much his wonderful smile, so I'm really grateful you used these pictures, and the poem... wow!!!! <^(
I like thinking about him like the guardian angel for his loved ones (family, friends, daughter), forever warming their hearts with this very special smile #) <^( :^^).
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Really beautiful and touching, LuvJackNasty <^( :\'(. Thank you so much for sharing it with us :t).
Nearly 8 weeks (on next Tuesday), and still I have a hard time believing it :\'(.
I like so much his wonderful smile, so I'm really grateful you used these pictures, and the poem... wow!!!! <^(
I like thinking about him like the guardian angel for his loved ones (family, friends, daughter), forever warming their hearts with this very special smile #) <^( :^^).
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
thats how i like to remember him too and im sure it is true. i am crying again now but the tears and so much sad as happy to all the things he gave us oh well hope everyone is okay today
:ghug:
matt
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i am crying again now but the tears and so much sad as happy to all the things he gave us
:ghug:
matt
Yes, I perfectly understand you. Me too. O0
Love from Megalyn08 :)
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My mind is still so occupied with Heath all the time. Sometimes I feel like everything else is fading away, and he's the only thing filling my thoughts.
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My mind is still so occupied with Heath all the time. Sometimes I feel like everything else is fading away, and he's the only thing filling my thoughts.
:ghug: :ghug:
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as time passes, my grief for heath dose not lessen nor do i mourn him anyless but at the same time it is getting clearer and clearer to me everyday that this isnt the end we will see him again and now most of my tears are thankful tears at all of the amazing things he gave to us i have always had this beleif about heaths death but every day my eyes open to its truth a little bit more i am still sad because i miss heath but its almost like he has just went away for a while i will continue to miss him untill the day i die but then it wont be so bad because when that day comes we will be with him i am sure of it.
:ghug:
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My mind is still so occupied with Heath all the time. Sometimes I feel like everything else is fading away, and he's the only thing filling my thoughts.
Oh Keren, sweetie, I wish I had the right words, I wish I knew how to make things better for you....but I can't, sorry. :\'( :\'(
I only can give you all my love and my understanding. I share your feelings, your deep love and true admiration. I know very well that Heath would have loved you if he had met you. That's for sure cause you have a so huge heart.
You made me cry again. :ghug: :ghug:
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Tomorrow is Tuesday,near two months after his passing,already two months,damn¡... :( It's a nonsense,(I know,I know)but every Tuesday I think about him more than usually; it's as if now Tuesdays were a Friday the 13th,a kind of damn day when all the tragedies and bad lucks could take place...Here in Spain,at least,Tuesdays are precisely bad luck carriers(and more still if they're on 13 in this case...),because it's the day under Mars influence,the war God.Now,since January the 22nd,I know why... :\'(
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Tomorrow is Tuesday,near two months after his passing,already two months,damn¡... :( It's a nonsense,(I know,I know)but every Tuesday I think about him more than usually; it's as if now Tuesdays were a Friday the 13th,a kind of damn day when all the tragedies and bad lucks could take place...Here in Spain,at least,Tuesdays are precisely bad luck carriers(and more still if they're on 13 in this case...),because it's the day under Mars influence,the war God.Now,since January the 22nd,I know why... :\'(
god damn it im crying again i understand your pain all to well ali truely i think we all do
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god damn it im crying again i understand your pain all to well ali truely i think we all do
Thanks,Matthew... :ghug:
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My mind is still so occupied with Heath all the time. Sometimes I feel like everything else is fading away, and he's the only thing filling my thoughts.
Same here, especially today, when he's been on the forefront of my mind and I can't concentrate on anything else. I suppose it's because tomorrow marks 2 months and it's hard to grasp he's been gone that long, when it seems like only yesterday, and it's starting to feel at times like he was never here and was more than a beautiful dream. But then today, I guess as I say with tomorrow looming it just hit that he was here and now he's gone and the tributes I watched last night just reminded me, what a remarkable and talented spirit Heath was. And I allowed myself to get down about it all.
But..
as time passes, my grief for heath dose not lessen nor do i mourn him anyless but at the same time it is getting clearer and clearer to me everyday that this isnt the end we will see him again and now most of my tears are thankful tears at all of the amazing things he gave to us i have always had this beleif about heaths death but every day my eyes open to its truth a little bit more i am still sad because i miss heath but its almost like he has just went away for a while i will continue to miss him untill the day i die but then it wont be so bad because when that day comes we will be with him i am sure of it.
:ghug:
I draw great comfort from my belief that Heath's spirit lives on somewhere. We just can't see him :\'( And that hurts. But he's keeping an eye on his loved ones, and somehow knows just how much his passing has affected so many people, knows when we're thinking about him and seen the tributes that have been paid and left. And the best thing I can do, is to keep him in my heart and continue to be inspired by him, and watch his movies and be grateful for having lived in his time and be able to watch him grow as an actor, till my own time here comes to an end, and I'm in the same worlds as him again. And maybe even get the chance to say "Thanks" to him.
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Same here, especially today, when he's been on the forefront of my mind and I can't concentrate on anything else. I suppose it's because tomorrow marks 2 months and it's hard to grasp he's been gone that long, when it seems like only yesterday, and it's starting to feel at times like he was never here and was more than a beautiful dream. But then today, I guess as I say with tomorrow looming it just hit that he was here and now he's gone and the tributes I watched last night just reminded me, what a remarkable and talented spirit Heath was. And I allowed myself to get down about it all.
But..
I draw great comfort from my belief that Heath's spirit lives on somewhere. We just can't see him :\'( And that hurts. But he's keeping an eye on his loved ones, and somehow knows just how much his passing has affected so many people, knows when we're thinking about him and seen the tributes that have been paid and left. And the best thing I can do, is to keep him in my heart and continue to be inspired by him, and watch his movies and be grateful for having lived in his time and be able to watch him grow as an actor, till my own time here comes to an end, and I'm in the same worlds as him again. And maybe even get the chance to say "Thanks" to him.
yes this is also my way of thinking :) jesus im tearing up again and im sure we will get the chance to thank it but i think were he is he already knows :ghug:
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yes this is also my way of thinking :) jesus im tearing up again and im sure we will get the chance to thank it but i think were he is he already knows :ghug:
Aww Zankou didn't mean to upset you :( :ghug:
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Aww Zankou didn't mean to upset you :( :ghug:
dont worry im not upset kind off the opposite actually i dont know but dont worry you said nothing wrong :^^)
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I draw great comfort from my belief that Heath's spirit lives on somewhere. We just can't see him :\'( And that hurts. But he's keeping an eye on his loved ones, and somehow knows just how much his passing has affected so many people, knows when we're thinking about him and seen the tributes that have been paid and left. And the best thing I can do, is to keep him in my heart and continue to be inspired by him, and watch his movies and be grateful for having lived in his time and be able to watch him grow as an actor, till my own time here comes to an end, and I'm in the same worlds as him again. And maybe even get the chance to say "Thanks" to him.
Hayley - What beautiful words! <^( This express my feelings too. I do believe he's still living somewhere, and
often I wonder what he thinks about all what happened. I guess he takes care of his loved ones, especially
his little daughter, and I think he can do it by filling their hearts with his love. Now this is the way he can
get in touch with them: talking to their heart in a silent, sweet and loving way, like a beautiful, warm hug.
And for us? He always talked to our hearts. That's why we all are so upset although we didn't personally
know him. So, he continues talking to our hearts by giving us strong feelings and emotions every time we
met him in one of his characters (in my opinion, above all Ennis Del Mar, a really really special character). <^(
The best way to thank him is that we "continue to be inspired by him". You're right. :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Hayley - What beautiful words! <^( This express my feelings too. I do believe he's still living somewhere, and
often I wonder what he thinks about all what happened. I guess he takes care of his loved ones, especially
his little daughter, and I think he can do it by filling their hearts with his love. Now this is the way he can
get in touch with them: talking to their heart in a silent, sweet and loving way, like a beautiful, warm hug.
And for us? He always talked to our hearts. That's why we all are so upset although we didn't personally
know him. So, he continues talking to our hearts by giving us strong feelings and emotions every time we
met him in one of his characters (in my opinion, above all Ennis Del Mar, a really really special character). <^(
The best way to thank him is that we "continue to be inspired by him". You're right. :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
im almost embarassed to post here again after hearing these beautiful words the likes of which i dont have to offer, but thank you for this post and thatnyou hayley aswell your posts are both beautiful
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Tomorrow is Tuesday,near two months after his passing,already two months,damn¡... :( It's a nonsense,(I know,I know)but every Tuesday I think about him more than usually :\'(
Myprivatejack - It happens to me, too. Already 8 weeks, but I still think it's a terrible nightmare. :\'(
Sometimes I think about what happened and say:" no, that's impossible. It's too
absurd. Now I wake up and I find out that's just a bad dream!" It's a nonsense too, but
it happens to me.
Megalyn08
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im almost embarassed to post here again after hearing these beautiful words the likes of which i dont have to offer, but thank you for this post and thatnyou hayley aswell your posts are both beautiful
:ghug: :ghug: You haven't to feel embarrassed: you always had beautiful words for Heath, I've read many of your posts.
Megalyn08
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Hayley - What beautiful words! <^( This express my feelings too. I do believe he's still living somewhere, and
often I wonder what he thinks about all what happened. I guess he takes care of his loved ones, especially
his little daughter, and I think he can do it by filling their hearts with his love. Now this is the way he can
get in touch with them: talking to their heart in a silent, sweet and loving way, like a beautiful, warm hug.
And for us? He always talked to our hearts. That's why we all are so upset although we didn't personally
know him. So, he continues talking to our hearts by giving us strong feelings and emotions every time we
met him in one of his characters (in my opinion, above all Ennis Del Mar, a really really special character). <^(
The best way to thank him is that we "continue to be inspired by him". You're right. :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
im almost embarassed to post here again after hearing these beautiful words the likes of which i dont have to offer, but thank you for this post and thatnyou hayley aswell your posts are both beautiful
Aww thank you both..and same to you both (you do have a lot to offer people here zankou, so don't say you don't) :ghug:
Because he was so open and honest it feels like we have lost a dear friend. He really laid his soul bare for all to see in my opinion. We're lucky in that we have all his movies and interviews (both spoken and written) so we'll never forget, his face, his smile, his voice, his laugh and in time, they'll bring us comfort and as both you and I have said thats how he'll continue to inspire us, wheile we here. In many ways, the greatest tribute we can pay to Heath is to follow Heath's example, chase our dreams even if we don't suceed (Shoot for the moon, because even if you don't reach it, you'll land among the stars) and make the most out of every single day. Live for today, don't wait for tomorrow. That's what Heath did in my opinion, which is why his passings so hard to accept, as he had so much left to share with us, in addition to what he'd already done.
I'm sure he'll let his loved ones know he's ok in his own way, and judging by posts I've seen on various baords, some fans feel like he's come to them in dreams. But in any of these dreams or other ways those who've past are never coming to say goodbye, but hello and let us know they're ok, till we see them again.
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Aww thank you both..and same to you both (you do have a lot to offer people here zankou, so don't say you don't) :ghug:
Because he was so open and honest it feels like we have lost a dear friend. He really laid his soul bare for all to see in my opinion. We're lucky in that we have all his movies and interviews (both spoken and written) so we'll never forget, his face, his smile, his voice, his laugh and in time, they'll bring us comfort and as both you and I have said thats how he'll continue to inspire us, wheile we here. In many ways, the greatest tribute we can pay to Heath is to follow Heath's example, chase our dreams even if we don't suceed (Shoot for the moon, because even if you don't reach it, you'll land among the stars) and make the most out of every single day. Live for today, don't wait for tomorrow. That's what Heath did in my opinion, which is why his passings so hard to accept, as he had so much left to share with us, in addition to what he'd already done.
I'm sure he'll let his loved ones know he's ok in his own way, and judging by posts I've seen on various baords, some fans feel like he's come to them in dreams. But in any of these dreams or other ways those who've past are never coming to say goodbye, but hello and let us know they're ok, till we see them again.
hmmm again that is very beautiful and i agree with you so much.
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Because he was so open and honest it feels like we have lost a dear friend. We're lucky in that we have all his movies and interviews (both spoken and written) so we'll never forget, his face, his smile, his voice, his laugh
In many ways, the greatest tribute we can pay to Heath is to follow Heath's example, chase our dreams even if we don't suceed (Shoot for the moon, because even if you don't reach it, you'll land among the stars) and make the most out of every single day. Live for today, don't wait for tomorrow.
I'm sure he'll let his loved ones know he's ok in his own way, and judging by posts I've seen on various baords, some fans feel like he's come to them in dreams. But in any of these dreams or other ways those who've past are never coming to say goodbye, but hello and let us know they're ok, till we see them again.
Wow, Hayley! Another wonderful post from you! <^( I completely agree! O0 :clap:
Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Wow, Hayley! Another wonderful post from you! <^( I completely agree! O0 :clap:
Megalyn08 :ghug:
Sorry lost my connection last night, but thanks
Two months now.. :\'( Oh Heath :\'(
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Sorry lost my connection last night, but thanks
Two months now.. :\'( Oh Heath :\'(
two months already, it doesnt feel that long for me yet but thats probably because i dont really beleive heath has ever left us he is just somewere else and we cant see him for a while but still its so sad :\'(
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two months already, it doesnt feel that long for me yet but thats probably because i dont really beleive heath has ever left us he is just somewere else and we cant see him for a while but still its so sad :\'(
Well you know I believe that too..but the time thats passed since he was physically here is still shocking. But yes, he's very much still here in my opinion, whether you believe in an afterlife or just in our hearts and through his impact on our lives.
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Well you know I believe that too..but the time thats passed since he was physically here is still shocking. But yes, he's very much still here in my opinion, whether you believe in an afterlife or just in our hearts and through his impact on our lives.
personally i beleive in both i know he isnt leaving my heart and im pretty sure he is looking down and smiling at the love we are sending his way thats why for me its so important to live my normal life aswell as grive doing any different would go against heaths beleif of living life to its fullest he wouldnt want to cause us to stop our routines on behalf of him. ill maybe write more later i cant at the moment :\'(
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personally i beleive in both i know he isnt leaving my heart and im pretty sure he is looking down and smiling at the love we are sending his way thats why for me its so important to live my normal life aswell as grive doing any different would go against heaths beleif of living life to its fullest he wouldnt want to cause us to stop our routines on behalf of him. ill maybe write more later i cant at the moment :\'(
Completely agree with you and :ghug:
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Two months now.. :\'( Oh Heath :\'(
Hayley - I feel exactly like you. Eight weeks today. So sad! I still can't believe it! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: Megalyn08
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two months already, it doesnt feel that long for me yet but thats probably because i dont really beleive heath has ever left us he is just somewere else and we cant see him for a while but still its so sad :\'(
Beautiful and sweet thought, Matt. <^( You're right, he's just somewhere else, but how I wish he were still here! :\'(
:ghug: Megalyn08 :ghug:
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personally i beleive in both i know he isnt leaving my heart and im pretty sure he is looking down and smiling at the love we are sending his way thats why for me its so important to live my normal life aswell as grive doing any different would go against heaths beleif of living life to its fullest he wouldnt want to cause us to stop our routines on behalf of him. ill maybe write more later i cant at the moment :\'(
Me too, I agree with you, Matt. O0 This is another beautiful thought, thank you for sharing it. :t) Especially liked:"he's looking down and smiling at the love we are sending" <^( Really sweet and touching.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Me too, I agree with you, Matt. O0 This is another beautiful thought, thank you for sharing it. :t) Especially liked:"he's looking down and smiling at the love we are sending" <^( Really sweet and touching.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
no problem im glad you found my words so touching
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I haven't posted on here. I guess I don't have many words to say, no words I could express, to know such a loss. To lose such a beautiful, senetive, loving man... :\'(
Well, this is a song with a Heath photo montage on Heath. I don't think I've posted it on here b4 but this song always gets to me!! I cried when watching this vid. right after Heath passed...The weird thing about this song and vid. is the person made this 2 years ago for a school project..I don't they knew the heart-wrenching truth of this song years later..
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
I'm finding out the hardest way
You learn before you fall from grace
In shadows we can grow
We are the seeds we sow
Through every single hour fades
From sand to stone and rock to clay
It's bittersweet this symphony
Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
The red rain is pouring down
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
Let me play for you
Let this heart ring true
One more time
Just one more time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lviniZwpQPE
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I haven't posted on here. I guess I don't have many words to say, no words I could express, to know such a loss. To lose such a beautiful, senetive, loving man... :\'(
Well, this is a song with a Heath photo montage on Heath. I don't think I've posted it on here b4 but this song always gets to me!! I cried when watching this vid. right after Heath passed...The weird thing about this song and vid. is the person made this 2 years ago for a school project..I don't they knew the heart-wrenching truth of this song years later..
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
I'm finding out the hardest way
You learn before you fall from grace
In shadows we can grow
We are the seeds we sow
Through every single hour fades
From sand to stone and rock to clay
It's bittersweet this symphony
Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
The red rain is pouring down
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
Let me play for you
Let this heart ring true
One more time
Just one more time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lviniZwpQPE
:\'( i love it especially the bits were it said this is not my last goodbye because i firmly beleive that.
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Great song LD :\'(
Cause this is not my last goodbye
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
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I haven't posted on here. I guess I don't have many words to say, no words I could express, to know such a loss. To lose such a beautiful, senetive, loving man... :\'(
Well, this is a song with a Heath photo montage on Heath. I don't think I've posted it on here b4 but this song always gets to me!! I cried when watching this vid. right after Heath passed...The weird thing about this song and vid. is the person made this 2 years ago for a school project..I don't they knew the heart-wrenching truth of this song years later..
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
I'm finding out the hardest way
You learn before you fall from grace
In shadows we can grow
We are the seeds we sow
Through every single hour fades
From sand to stone and rock to clay
It's bittersweet this symphony
Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
The red rain is pouring down
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
Let me play for you
Let this heart ring true
One more time
Just one more time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lviniZwpQPE
This was my fav video on Utube, it's number 1 in my heath playlist, I've seen it so many times, and yes, it was made 2 years ago. It is so strange to see it now with such a different meaning. I noticed a lot of people changed their messages for their Heath videos that were made "before", but that girl hasn't. Maybe it's too hard. It's so strange watching it, I can't imagine if I had made it; it really forshaddows something. It's still one of the most beautiful Heath videos in exitence though. Love to you all-Jess:)
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This was my fav video on Utube, it's number 1 in my heath playlist, I've seen it so many times, and yes, it was made 2 years ago. It is so strange to see it now with such a different meaning. I noticed a lot of people changed their messages for their Heath videos that were made "before", but that girl hasn't. Maybe it's too hard. It's so strange watching it, I can't imagine if I had made it; it really forshaddows something. It's still one of the most beautiful Heath videos in exitence though. Love to you all-Jess:)
I know what you mean by foreshadowing something. I remember watching it and putting it on my favorits way before Heath died. Not understand why she would use such a song. I still don't know why she used it but all we know is that now, it has such a strong message. No, this is not his last good-bye :\'(
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy, I am so sorry to hear this terrible story, and yet, I am also inspired by your tribute to Heath. I cannot imagine a more fitting and loving way to pay tribute to Heath, who always looked out for his mates from Australia. Please know that I have no doubt that Heath would approve, the young man's family would approve, and I applaud you :clap:
Love,
Andrew
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
I salute you for this great gesture.
Am sure Heath will be very much happy.
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ALREADY TWO MONTHS...BUT IT'S LIKE AN ETERNITY
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
:clap: :clap: :clap: Kathy, it's a great and generous gesture you'll make ^f^
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Two months, i cant believe it. it feels like yesterday i found out that he was gone :\'(
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well heath youve been gone two months now and things aren't really setting in yet, pretty sure they never will.
well i suppose what we are doing is just trying to get on with the norm as much as possible figured thats what you'd you'd want, right?
anyway its your birthday pretty soon dont really know what to with it if i find the room i guess i'll plant a tree or something.
well i cant think of much else to say, bye looking forward to seeing you again some day.
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy, that is such a horrific thing that happened to that man! >:( But the outpouring of the community is heartwarming and no, your gesture isn't inappropriate. I think it's heartfelt and beyond touching. :^^)
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy, what an awful story, but what a wonderfully kind thing for you to do. :)
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Dear Kathy----that is the perfect response to what happened there, and a really good way to honor Heath's memory. Thanks for
letting us know, and maybe even showing the way for us to find ways to do the same, should we have the chance.
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy,not only this is appropriate,but a gesture that honours you.I'm sure Heath would be so proud of you¡. :^^)
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy, you're a fine woman with a huge beautiful heart. Thanks for doing that. ^f^
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Thanks, Lis, this is a really haunting song, I keep thinking Heath could have wrote it, singing it. It has so much of the spirit of what he said in interviews. He was in love with love, and with so much to give.
I haven't posted on here. I guess I don't have many words to say, no words I could express, to know such a loss. To lose such a beautiful, senetive, loving man... :\'(
Well, this is a song with a Heath photo montage on Heath. I don't think I've posted it on here b4 but this song always gets to me!! I cried when watching this vid. right after Heath passed...The weird thing about this song and vid. is the person made this 2 years ago for a school project..I don't they knew the heart-wrenching truth of this song years later..
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
I'm finding out the hardest way
You learn before you fall from grace
In shadows we can grow
We are the seeds we sow
Through every single hour fades
From sand to stone and rock to clay
It's bittersweet this symphony
Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
The red rain is pouring down
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
Let me play for you
Let this heart ring true
One more time
Just one more time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lviniZwpQPE
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy what a horrible thing to have happened. I just hope that the young man recovers and this doesn't make him think that this is how America is cause it is NOT.
I have a friend in Australia that I met while he was a camp counselor at a sleep away camp in the Poconos (in Pennsylvania) After camp was finished he wanted to stay here in the states at least until his visa ran out. Well he stayed with me for 4 months (he renewed his Visa during that time) I was living in NY at the time and he'd go into Manhattan to meet up with some friends and there was one time I remember he came back real late and I was worried something happened to him. Well nothing ever happened while he was in Manhattan. Ironically he went back home and moved in with an Aunt and Uncle for a while, they lived in Sydney. It wasn't long before that he was mugged waiting for a train. His cell phone was taken (other than that he was okay)
Just goes to show you this kind of stuff can happen anywhere.
As for giving money in Heath's name I think it is a wonderful idea. I bet if Heath were here he would have gotten in touch with the man's family and helped him with whatever he needed including money.
Again I hope he will be okay
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You're not really gone Heath, are you? You must still be around here, somewhere... you can't be gone, not really.
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Here is a link to the news story, and a PDF file for donation to the benefits set up by the restaurant.
***edited by moderator***
Rob Schneider will make a full recovery, according to the report, but it will be a long recovery.
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You're not really gone Heath, are you? You must still be around here, somewhere... you can't be gone, not really.
heath is not just somewhere here here he is everywere in all of our heads hearts and souls he lives on in us and he is surely watching over his family most of the time but that doesnt mean he doesnt check in on everyone else sometimes.
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I was listening to music and i heard this
Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
Im your imaginary friend
And I know Im in your prayers
Oh Im already there
and i thought about Heath, hes the sunshine in our hair, the shadow on the ground and he will never leave us
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I was listening to music and i heard this
Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
Im your imaginary friend
And I know Im in your prayers
Oh Im already there
and i thought about Heath, hes the sunshine in our hair, the shadow on the ground and he will never leave us
thats really appropriate
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I was listening to music and i heard this
Im already there
Take a look around
Im the sunshine in your hair
Im the shadow on the ground
Im the whisper in the wind
Im your imaginary friend
And I know Im in your prayers
Oh Im already there
and i thought about Heath, hes the sunshine in our hair, the shadow on the ground and he will never leave us
I love that song <^(
I really is such a sweet but sad song
I can understand why you would think of Heath in this song :\'( :\'(
Another song that always gets me too is Slipped Away by Avirl Lavinge :-\\
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same
I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by
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thats a lovely and appropriate song lis
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I love that song <^(
I really is such a sweet but sad song
I can understand why you would think of Heath in this song :\'( :\'(
Another song that always gets me too is Slipped Away by Avirl Lavinge :-\\
I miss you
Miss you so bad
I don't forget you
Oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found
It won't be the same
I've had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake it
It happened you passed by
i love this song, it always gets me too :\'(
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I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
I'm finding out the hardest way
You learn before you fall from grace
In shadows we can grow
We are the seeds we sow
Through every single hour fades
From sand to stone and rock to clay
It's bittersweet this symphony
Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
The red rain is pouring down
And now my feet don't touch the ground
I'm lost between the stars and moons
I will see you soon
I turn the page
My story ends
I say goodbye to all my friends
I know it's getting late
Now the light is on my face
I changed the clocks back again
And ask forgiveness for my sins
Cause I don't know where I'll go
Well this is all that I really know
I'll keep holding on
I'll keep singing my song
It gets me through it
I've got the scars to prove it
Well I know the road is long
But I'm staying strong
So don't cry
Cause this is not my last goodbye
Let me play for you
Let this heart ring true
One more time
Just one more time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lviniZwpQPE
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Cried while watching it. If I've got it right, this is a video made two years ago. Really?
I can't believe it!!
Thank you, Lil Dwarf, for pointing it out.
It wrings my heart to think it's already two months without him. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
And if I feel so bad and stunned, who knows how bad it gets for his loved ones. I really hope they might feel always his own hand on their own.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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A young man from Australia was visiting here in San Diego -- he'd saved for a year, the trip of his life, to come to U.S. Well, he was beaten and burned in a fire on the beach by some drunks. He didn't die, but is in the hospital. His parents have come here, from Perth. There has been a huge outpouring of support for him and his parents, to try to compensate for such an ugly thing happening here, where we always welcome visitors.
Anyway, there is a benefit for him in April at an Aussie restaurant downtown. I'll go, and I plan on giving an extra donation in honor of Heath. I'm wondering if that's in any way inappropriate. I mean, I'm contributing to the benefit for the young man and his family, but to me, it is also a way to honor Heath and where he came from.
kathy
Kathy - My God, what a terrible thing has happened! I'm so sorry! :\'(
Your idea of giving a donation for that young man is not inappropriate, it's so sweet, and I'm sure
that Heath, from the place where he is now, agrees. I think that to help an Aussie fellow of Heath is a
really beautiful way to honor him.
All loving thoughts to that young man and his family. :ghug:
Love from Megalyn08
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Thank you, all of you. What I meant by "inappropriate" was that the family might think, "This is about our son -- what does it have to do with Heath Ledger?" See what I mean? But I think indeed, Heath would always look out for his mates, so I'm just doing it for him. It is for Rob, but it's also in honor of Heath.
kathy
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Thank you, all of you. What I meant by "inappropriate" was that the family might think, "This is about our son -- what does it have to do with Heath Ledger?" See what I mean? But I think indeed, Heath would always look out for his mates, so I'm just doing it for him. It is for Rob, but it's also in honor of Heath.
kathy
Kathy- Yes, I see. But you're right, Heath would look out for his mates, and if he were here he would do it for Rob.
So you're doing it for both them. That's a nice gesture. O0
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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ALREADY TWO MONTHS...BUT IT'S LIKE AN ETERNITY
Wonderful Titabeille! <^( <^( :ghug: Megalyn08
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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thats a wonderful thing to do, thanks for sharing that with us ^f^
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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Beautiful Ethan. Thank you so much for this!!
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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Aw! Ethan, thanks so much.
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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oh Ethan that is so sweet! :\'( :ghug:
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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Oh Ethan, thank you, I love that our memorials and wishes are left all around the world for him, he touched so many people is so many different places.
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
That's a beautiful gesture Ethan, so glad you were able to do that. :)
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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Ethan - Thank you very much for your beautiful and touching thought <^( :ghug:.
For me too it's hard to believe....already two months and still I hope this is just a bad dream.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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heath is not just somewhere here here he is everywere in all of our heads hearts and souls he lives on in us and he is surely watching over his family most of the time but that doesnt mean he doesnt check in on everyone else sometimes.
Matt, you always have so beautiful and sweet thoughts <^(. "He is everywhere in all our heads, hearts and souls"....Wow! Special! :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Matt, you always have so beautiful and sweet thoughts <^(. "He is everywhere in all our heads, hearts and souls"....Wow! Special! :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
thankyou for the compliment :ghug:
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
This is SO beautiful, Ethan. I just love that you did this. I love that Heath-love-energy is all over the world.
kathy
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This is SO beautiful, Ethan. I just love that you did this. I love that Heath-love-energy is all over the world.
kathy
I loved that phrase Kathy, the "Heath-love-energy". It is everywhere...even still :)
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Thank you so much for your tribute Ethan. It's beautiful.
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
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What a wonderful thing to do, Ethan. Thanks.
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You are welcome, everyone. The love for Heath is indeed all over the world. There is no doubt about that.
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thank you so much ethan for doing this, you always carry ennisjack with you; and even though it was a sad moment you still had us with you... ^f^
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Ftwn%2FIMG_4361a.jpg&hash=f226836ccb5af7000f43013d3d88d094714ad657)
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Thank you so much,Ethan¡ ^f^ I looking forward seeing you in July;perhaps we won't be able to understand each other with words.But I'm sure you'll understand the meaning of the huge I'll give you on behalf of all of us... :ghug:
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here is a song that reminds me alot of heath i thought i could post it called "slipped away" by avril lavigne
Avril Lavigne "Slipped Away"
Album: "Under My Skin"
Copyright by RCA Records
Lyrics:
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
Na na na na na na na
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you
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i love that song, i think im going to listen to it now
but i can feel the tears comming now :\'(
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here are some links to heath tributes with this song i jsut found them now im crying alot... :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzzfHYSFhvk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzzfHYSFhvk)
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here are some links to heath tributes with this song i jsut found them now im crying alot... :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzzfHYSFhvk (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzzfHYSFhvk)
me too, its been a while since i cried this much, maybe its all comming back to me now :\'( :\'(
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
im so sorry to hear about youre brother :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I´m sorry for your brother,Chris.As someone said,only the great ones die young... :^^)
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
im so sorry for your brother :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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I too am saddened whenever I see his fresh young face, way too young to be stripped from the earth. I will cherish all the roles he played, he was so talented and gifted, as one said during the last oscar's an actor's actor. He will never age, he will never grow old, he will always remain a young beautiful soul amongst the stars!!!!! Will always miss him and the fruits he could have brought forth!
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I too am saddened whenever I see his fresh young face, way too young to be stripped from the earth. I will cherish all the roles he played, he was so talented and gifted, as one said during the last oscar's an actor's actor. He will never age, he will never grow old, he will always remain a young beautiful soul amongst the stars!!!!! Will always miss him and the fruits he could have brought forth!
nie post :ghug: welocome to the forum
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I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh my god, Christie, I am so sorry to hear this. Hugs to you :ghug:
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: Christie. I'm sorry about your brother. :ghug: :ghug:
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here are some links to heath tributes with this song i jsut found them now im crying alot... :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBSTlLpLWHk&feature=related)
The 1st vid. gave me chills...everytime I hear this song, I always see him and then, the memory of where I was, how I reacted after my mom told me he passed away :\'( :\'(
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Christie. Thank you for Ben Harper's lyrics. He is wonderful. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Christie. Thank you for Ben Harper's lyrics. He is wonderful. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Yes, Ben Harper is wonderful. His voice is beautiful.
Thanks Andrew, and to everyone else for your lovely thoughts and hugs, they meant a lot to me. ^f^
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Christie :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Christie, there's nothing I can say. Just... :ghug:
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I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Two month.... like yesterday :\'(
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thank you so much ethan for doing this, you always carry ennisjack with you; and even though it was a sad moment you still had us with you... ^f^
Thank you, tizi. It is Ennis and Jack, it is us...inseparable. It is an honor to be among this group of Borkies and will be continued.
I looking forward seeing you in July;perhaps we won't be able to understand each other with words.But I'm sure you'll understand the meaning of the huge I'll give you on behalf of all of us... :ghug:
Me too, MPJ. Words are not necessary as I know we will understand each other perfectly. :ghug:
Dear christie, I am very sorry to hear about your brother. :ghug: hugs to you and to everyone.
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Another great video from 10/2006...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixSoDSPHquM
I can't cry hard enough..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tx88Smts8C8
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Christie - So sorry for your brother! :\'( All my loving thoughts for both Heath and your brother
and for you too. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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Christie - So sorry for your brother! :\'( All my loving thoughts for both Heath and your brother
and for you too. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
Thanks so much Megalyn - thats really lovely of you. :)
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They are really lovely lyrics Matt, and really appropriate I think. ^f^
I hear songs all the time that remind me of Heath and how I feel about him and what has happened. One song haunts me - "Picture in a Frame" by Ben Harper, who was a personal friend of Heath's, so the lyrics have even greater meaning now.
Now I wish you were here
So we could walk and talk
In the soft rain, in the soft rain
Now all that left of us
Is a picture sitting in a frame
I think it was about this time 9 weeks ago that I heard the news, and I remember the numb feeling like it was yesterday. Today is harder than usual, it being my brother's birthday...he died young too, like Heath. :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm sorry my words came late...these lyrics are beautiful and Ben Harper is an amazing artist. What makes it worse is that he and Heath were good friends. I could only imagine what it was like to loose such a close friend as him.
And Christie, I'm so sorry for your brother's passing. All the hugs and wishes for you and your family to get through this tough time :ghug: :ghug:
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I'm sorry my words came late...these lyrics are beautiful and Ben Harper is an amazing artist. What makes it worse is that he and Heath were good friends. I could only imagine what it was like to loose such a close friend as him.
And Christie, I'm so sorry for your brother's passing. All the hugs and wishes for you and your family to get through this tough time :ghug: :ghug:
Hey lil_dwarf, thanks for your lovely and kind words...and yes, its sad to read these lyrics and to know Heath and Ben were good friends, they take on added significance now. :(
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I've been gone most of this week and have missed so much of the activity here. I did see the Nick Drake video, as well as the rest of the series Heath directed whose links have been posted. He was so talented on so many levels, it's small wonder we still feel the loss almost ten weeks later. My thanks to everyone who has posted links or information that lets us see all these different pieces of a man that touched us all in so many ways. ^f^
Christie, big big hugs to you especially. :ghug:
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I think about him every day.
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I think about him every day.
me too keren :ghug: i think we all do here how can you not...?
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me too keren :ghug: i think we all do here how can you not...?
i think about him all the time and im so happy for all the wonderful things he gave us and i think thats the reason we cant get him out of our heads...
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me too keren :ghug: i think we all do here how can you not...?
I can't :\'( :\'(
i think about him all the time and im so happy for all the wonderful things he gave us and i think thats the reason we cant get him out of our heads...
Agreed O0
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I can't :\'( :\'(
Agreed 0O
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I think about him every day.
Me too hon. :ghug: It would be strange for me not to think about him.
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I've been gone most of this week and have missed so much of the activity here. I did see the Nick Drake video, as well as the rest of the series Heath directed whose links have been posted. He was so talented on so many levels, it's small wonder we still feel the loss almost ten weeks later. My thanks to everyone who has posted links or information that lets us see all these different pieces of a man that touched us all in so many ways. ^f^
Christie, big big hugs to you especially. :ghug:
Welcome back flwrchild. ^f^ and thanks especially for your kinds words. :ghug:
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I think about him every day.
Me too. After more than 2 months sometimes I still say to myself :"That's not possible. Now I awake and this has never happened." It's so strange to think he's no longer here. This is a shock I'll never forget.
A thing like this already happened to me almost 14 years ago: my sister and I had a friend,that one day in August 1994 left for a holyday with her family. Just a couple of days before we said "see you soon, have fun", and that was the last time we saw her. She died the day of her leaving in a car accident, she was only 12. Her mom and her dad died too, just her sister survived. After 14 years I perfectly remember what a terrible shock has been that news. And for Heath is the same. Because I feel like I lost a friend, I know I'll never forget him and how bad I felt when I got the news. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
But I'm so grateful for all he gave me through his movies. For me he's my unforgettable Ennis Del Mar <^(, unique, special and he has a special place into my heart.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Me too. After more than 2 months sometimes I still say to myself :"That's not possible. Now I awake and this has never happened." It's so strange to think he's no longer here. This is a shock I'll never forget.
A thing like this already happened to me almost 14 years ago: my sister and I had a friend,that one day in August 1994 left for a holyday with her family. Just a couple of days before we said "see you soon, have fun", and that was the last time we saw her. She died the day of her leaving in a car accident, she was only 12. Her mom and her dad died too, just her sister survived. After 14 years I perfectly remember what a terrible shock has been that news. And for Heath is the same. Because I feel like I lost a friend, I know I'll never forget him and how bad I felt when I got the news. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
But I'm so grateful for all he gave me through his movies. For me he's my unforgettable Ennis Del Mar <^(, unique, special and he has a special place into my heart.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
:\'( :ghug:
i know he is gone physically but i know just aswell he hasnt left us as ive said before he lives on in our minds and hearts, and also im sure he will be watching over his family from the here after im sure he turns his eyes this way to his fans aswell, i miss him teriibly but... its not the end im sure of it.
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:\'( :ghug:
i know he is gone physically but i know just aswell he hasnt left us as ive said before he lives on in our minds and hearts, and also im sure he will be watching over his family from the here after im sure he turns his eyes this way to his fans aswell, i miss him teriibly but... its not the end im sure of it.
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Absolutely agree, Matt :ghug:. I miss him too :ghug:.
Love from Megalyn08
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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that was a lovely thing to do :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh my... :-\\ :\'(
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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Sweet and lovely thought <^( <^( <^( <^(.
Megalyn08 :ghug:
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What a beautiful gesture from some beautiful Brokies for a beautiful man.
Thank you for doing that. :ghug:
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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Wow Michelle,
I've been avoiding this thread for a couple days, just couldn't deal, but saw that you posted so I checked it out. oh my gosh, that got me good, seeing the PJs at the chess table. I held those pajamas during our memorial for Heath in Vegas, it was so intense, seeing them here again, just set upon a place he cherished, it's unreal; yet too real. I'm glad a couple of you were able to get together. It's so much better to go through this with other Brokies. Love to you all :ghug:
P.S. those who do not know what the pajamas are, they were worn by Heath in a scene that was cut short, I believe it was the "If you don't want no more of my kids scene" Here is a pick of Heath and Michelle in the dressing room with him wearing them. It's amazing to actually hold something he wore. I miss him so much.
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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LJN, I'm SO glad you did that. Heath would've appreciated that gesture so much :\'( :\'(
I'm going into the city on his birthday for a school trip (i know, weird coinsedence) and I wish so badly that I could've gone and done something like this...thank you all :ghug:
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I know I posted earlier but I haven't really talked on here in awhile...I just can't, brings too much pain sometimes..
Tonight I had some of my friends over and it was wonderful
We hung out in my room, told stories, eating ice cream, and talking about Heath and his movies
What was so great is that the whole time, we talked about him in a present tense, like he never passed
I showed them pictures from this site and the videos that he directed...they were blown away
I put up the Nick Drake vid. and they were just in shock, listening to the acostic guitar and lyrics
I remember my friend watching it, putting a hand out, saying to us, "I wish I could just put my hand out and grasp his hand..follow him into that world" and my other friend shaking her head saying "He is such a beautiful young man"
When I showed them a memorial vid. of Heath with the song "Slipped Away" and in one picture, it showed Heath in the body bag...my friend almost started to cry, but she regained herself and tried to smile
It's been than 2 months and Heath's birthday is coming up...my sister might have her child on that day, i'm going to the city, where Heath lived, on that same day...will I be able to bare such sadness and happiness, alone in that fast paced city? :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: Lis. I know it's still hard to talk about-I'm back into that punch in the gut breakdown mode tonight. I wish I could make it up to the city next Friday but that's not an option for me. I think it's so sweet that you are going there on his birthday. :ghug: And it's good to talk about him in the present tense because while he is physically gone, he is always here with us and that will always be present tense. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: Lis. I know it's still hard to talk about-I'm back into that punch in the gut breakdown mode tonight. I wish I could make it up to the city next Friday but that's not an option for me. I think it's so sweet that you are going there on his birthday. :ghug: And it's good to talk about him in the present tense because while he is physically gone, he is always here with us and that will always be present tense. :ghug:
my thouht exactly :ghug:
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:ghug: Jessicat. I look forward to meeting you in a few weeks and giving a real one.
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:ghug: Lis. I'll be thinking about you next week.
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:ghug: :ghug: Lis. I know it's still hard to talk about-I'm back into that punch in the gut breakdown mode tonight. I wish I could make it up to the city next Friday but that's not an option for me. I think it's so sweet that you are going there on his birthday. :ghug: And it's good to talk about him in the present tense because while he is physically gone, he is always here with us and that will always be present tense. :ghug:
Thank you LJN :ghug:
It is sweet but I can't leave to go visit his apartment or anything...I just have to go on the bus and go with the other kids to the Museum of Modern Art and that's so hard for me..
I love the line you wrote that Matt bolded...and it is so true and I believe that :\'(
Right now, I really want to do something when I get there to pay tribute to him...does anyone have any suggestions?
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:ghug: Lis. I'll be thinking about you next week.
Thank you FC :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you LJN :ghug:
It is sweet but I can't leave to go visit his apartment or anything...I just have to go on the bus and go with the other kids to the Museum of Modern Art and that's so hard for me..
I love the line that Matt bolded...and it is so true and I believe that :\'(
Right now, I really want to do something when I get there to pay tribute to him...does anyone have any suggestions?
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im planting something on his birthday like a tree or something but i suppose you cant do that at the museum of modern art ernnn :-\\
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Thank you LJN :ghug:
It is sweet but I can't leave to go visit his apartment or anything...I just have to go on the bus and go with the other kids to the Museum of Modern Art and that's so hard for me..
I love the line that Matt bolded...and it is so true and I believe that :\'(
Right now, I really want to do something when I get there to pay tribute to him...does anyone have any suggestions?
I know Hanna had done this- maybe get a balloon and release it?
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I know Hanna had done this- maybe get a balloon and release it?
thats a good one
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I know Hanna had done this - maybe get a balloon and release it?
I was thinking of that but I can't bring a ballon to school then onto a bus ^*)
Thank you for your suggestion though LJN ^f^
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I was thinking of that but I can't bring a ballon to school then onto a bus ^*)
Thank you for your suggestion though LJN ^f^
Hmm I guess they don't sell them at the museum either. If I think of anything else I'll let you know :ghug:
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:ghug: Jessicat. I look forward to meeting you in a few weeks and giving a real one.
Thanks Michelle, I fear, yet look forward, to you and I braking down together and having a good cry when we meet. The happy moments at our gathering will over take those other moments though, and that's a good thing. I had avoided this thread for a while because it just made me sad. But lately I've noticed a lot of positive posts. It''s nice that we can go from sad to happy, and back and forth.
For everyone that keeps this thread going so us others have a place to come back to :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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Oh wow. Thank you so much, the two of you :\'( :\'(. Brings me to tears, to see his pajama at this place... A place he loved, a place he said he used to visit often. He probably sat there and played chess at those very tables. If I ever go to New York I wanna visit this place. But to see this pajama at this place where he used to sit himself, this is almost too much to bare.
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Oh wow. Thank you so much, the two of you :\'( :\'(. Brings me to tears, to see his pajama at this place... A place he loved, a place he said he used to visit often. He probably sat there and played chess at those very tables. If I ever go to New York I wanna visit this place. But to see this pajama at this place where he used to sit himself, this is almost too much to bare.
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I feel the same way :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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I have been avoiding coming to this thread too often because I will be reminded of the loss again. It's not that I have forgotten about Heath, it's that I know I will be reduced to tears reading the posts.
Thank you so much, LJN and Ethan, for bringing the pyjamas and putting them on the chess table for all of us. My heartfelt thanks to you.
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:ghug: to everyone. We first went to Spring Natural Restaurant and then Miro Cafe. The places where Heath used to hang out. LJN, thanks for the pix.
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2008/01/24/2008-01-24_in_soho_heath_ledger_was_scruffy_loner.html
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Michelle held the article in front of the apartment.
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Chess area in Washington Square.
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Going to those places was not easy but it was more bearable and special to be with Brokies. It warmed me to see the bounding we have. I know we are under Heath's blessing. Thank you, Heath, wherever you are.
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what did the article say i hope mits just my eyes but it looked like it said "heath ledger was a scruffy loner" please tell me i seen wrong
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what did the article say i hope mits just my eyes but it looked like it said "heath ledger was a scruffy loner" please tell me i seen wrong
i think thats what it said, but i hope i am wrong
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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Wow Michelle, what an amazing thing to do......it must have been hard though, to stand in the place we know Heath used to visit....to think I was there with you and Ethan only a few months ago too, I remember thinking "I'm stood in a place Heath comes and plays chess", I could hardly believe it myself. And now he's gone, and he'll never go there again. :\'(
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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Oh my.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm crying my eyes out. Thank you Ethan and Michelle for this beautiful thing.
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Ethan, Michelle,
thank you so much for these pictures. I am glad it was a sunny day for your visit. I agree with Ethan that no doubt, Heath was with you all in spirit, and enjoying re-visiting, and watching a game here and there.
I have mixed feelings from reading the article, though. It reminds me so much of Ennis at the diner, but there was no Cassie. :\'( I don't think I can visit New York without other brokies for support. I hope to make it for next year.
Thanks again for sharing the beautiful gesture and the wonderful pictures.
:ghug: :c) ^f^ %)
:ghug: to everyone. We first went to Spring Natural Restaurant and then Miro Cafe. The places where Heath used to hang out. LJN, thanks for the pix.
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2008/01/24/2008-01-24_in_soho_heath_ledger_was_scruffy_loner.html
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Michelle held the article in front of the apartment.
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Chess area in Washington Square.
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Going to those places was not easy but it was more bearable and special to be with Brokies. It warmed me to see the bounding we have. I know we are under Heath's blessing. Thank you, Heath, wherever you are.
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I don't know, it doesn't make me sad, the scruffy loner thing. I think being a loner is totally okay, and it's not a sad thing. As long as long the friends are there when you want and need, and I'm sure they were, for Heath (except, of course, when really needed, damnit! and except for wanting his baby girl with him more...) But as for going around his neighborhood by himself, that seems like a nice life, to me. When not busy working, he undoubtedly needed alone time. Alone in a crowd, that is, the best kind of alone, in a place like New York. People are there, but you can have your own space. I'm sure he appreciated it, just being the regular guy in the local scene.
kathy
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I agree with you Kathy :)
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I don't know, it doesn't make me sad, the scruffy loner thing. I think being a loner is totally okay, and it's not a sad thing. As long as long the friends are there when you want and need, and I'm sure they were, for Heath (except, of course, when really needed, damnit! and except for wanting his baby girl with him more...) But as for going around his neighborhood by himself, that seems like a nice life, to me. When not busy working, he undoubtedly needed alone time. Alone in a crowd, that is, the best kind of alone, in a place like New York. People are there, but you can have your own space. I'm sure he appreciated it, just being the regular guy in the local scene.
kathy
I agree with that, and Ennis was not so unhappy in his final scenes, being alone, once he learned of Jack's love for him, and once he learned of Kurt's love for his little girl, and her love for her daddy.
What I meant, when I said it reminded me of the scene in the diner, was that Ennis broke up with Jack, and was eating alone in the diner, wallowing in self-pity. Heath broke up with Michelle and was, like it or not, probably also wallowing a bit, for a little while. I am sure he was highly aware of his situation, unlike Ennis, and managed it much better. He probably did not need a Cassie to tell him about love, and probably came out of it faster and better than Ennis. By all indication, he cleaned up his act, and started socializing with his old friends.
I agree that Heath had many friends, and they were apparently text messaging each other. So Heath really was not all that alone. He definitely appreciated being a regular guy. He was probably happier in that cafe, in that restaurant, than in the celebrity night clubs where he had to wear a ski mask.
Please don't get me wrong, and don't misunderstand my meaning. It is sad that Heath had to live through the scene of Ennis at the diner, but it is life, and life is sometimes ironic. But Heath is NOT Ennis. And he was ready to move on with living.
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Here´s an article I´ve found from the Sydney Morning Herald.If you think you need to edit it,I understand; because I don´t want nobody to throw trash over Heath,mainly if it´s from his own family.It´s only a proof of how...put the adjective you want, people can be when there´s great amount of money in between.
http://www.smh.com.au/articles/2008/03/28/1206207397015.html
Ethan and Michelle,thank you so,so much again.I´m sure Heath will bless you from Heaven... :\'(
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:h)Hi im new on the forum,and so glad i have joined ;)
i have been a fan of Heath since 1999,but sadly in recent years havent followed his films which i so regret,and i only seen Brokeback Mountain a few days after he died and it has such an impact on me i cant explain!
and i have watched it loads of time since,he played an inspirational part of Ennis a character he can be proud of,and i so wish id seen it at the time when he was alive! :\'(
ive been reading a few of the tributes for Heath and im so in tears and so happy aswell there are some lovely people on this forum and im honoured to join it now ;)
I have seen all the tributes outside his apartment in New York and have been touched to see the ourpouring of sympathy,none of my friends understand the pain ive been i since his death and im still mourning and now its fast approaching his birthday,my friend lives in New York and is leaving a tribute on my behalf on Friday on his birthday,im so sad i cant be there but i will in spirit and have decided ill be there next year for sure ;) :*(
Im part of heathbaby forum too which has been a great help in coping with his loss,which has left a big space in my heart,but they have all been great ,and full of support at this time!
And im listening to one of your members Lorettas song "Jack i swear" and i am so in tears,what a lovley song Loretta,well done your so gifted!
Thanks for listening to me rambling on ,but its great to have forums like this to speak to :t)
Once my friend sends me pics ill post them on,and i didnt know about Washington Square Park,ill go visit there on my pilgrimage next year!
:cr)
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:h)Hi im new on the forum,and so glad i have joined ;)
i have been a fan of Heath since 1999,but sadly in recent years havent followed his films which i so regret,and i only seen Brokeback Mountain a few days after he died and it has such an impact on me i cant explain!
and i have watched it loads of time since,he played an inspirational part of Ennis a character he can be proud of,and i so wish id seen it at the time when he was alive! :\'(
ive been reading a few of the tributes for Heath and im so in tears and so happy aswell there are some lovely people on this forum and im honoured to join it now ;)
I have seen all the tributes outside his apartment in New York and have been touched to see the ourpouring of sympathy,none of my friends understand the pain ive been i since his death and im still mourning and now its fast approaching his birthday,my friend lives in New York and is leaving a tribute on my behalf on Friday on his birthday,im so sad i cant be there but i will in spirit and have decided ill be there next year for sure ;) :*(
Im part of heathbaby forum too which has been a great help in coping with his loss,which has left a big space in my heart,but they have all been great ,and full of support at this time!
And im listening to one of your members Lorettas song "Jack i swear" and i am so in tears,what a lovley song Loretta,well done your so gifted!
Thanks for listening to me rambling on ,but its great to have forums like this to speak to :t)
Once my friend sends me pics ill post them on,and i didnt know about Wellington Square Park,ill go visit there on my pilgrimage next year!
:cr)
welocme to the forum clarey-delmar i hope you like it here :ghug:
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hi clarey-delmar, thanks for your post, I hope you get some comfort from being here. :)
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:ghug: to everyone. We first went to Spring Natural Restaurant and then Miro Cafe. The places where Heath used to hang out. LJN, thanks for the pix.
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/2008/01/24/2008-01-24_in_soho_heath_ledger_was_scruffy_loner.html
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Michelle held the article in front of the apartment.
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Chess area in Washington Square.
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Going to those places was not easy but it was more bearable and special to be with Brokies. It warmed me to see the bounding we have. I know we are under Heath's blessing. Thank you, Heath, wherever you are.
Wow you are so lucky to go where hes been im s jealous,at least i can write it down for when i go next year,cant wait!
thanks for posting the pics i feel like ive learned something new about him again ;)
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:t)Thanks zankou1991 and Christie Wood for your welcomes,i should introduce myself at the into section,ill do that later,yes i think being on this forum should help a great bit ;)
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:ghug: To everyone. Today I had a mini meet in NY with Ethan and another member, Ben. I won't go into too much detail because this is not the thread for it. But I had my first opportunity to see and touch Heath's pajamas. :\'( Ethan and I took a walk to Washington Square Park and we went by the chess area and I asked Ethan if we could put the pj's at one of the tables and he kindly let me do it (I kept them in the bag) so we could let Heath have one more "visit" there. :\'( :\'(
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OMG :\'(
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:h) Clarey_Delmar and welcome¡ I understand very well the impact that must have been for you seeing such a touching movie as BBM, precisely few days after Heath's death...His performance is so great and moving that it's difficult to separate the tragedy on and off screen.I really hope you feel well here and get some comfort. :ghug:
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I work on a spa resort. I'll be working a long day on April 4th. I hate being at the office on that day, when all I wanna do is be here... People call and make reservations for this date, book massages. Some of them tell me that it's their birthday that day, and ask me what deal I can offer them in order to celebrate the occasion. I hardly respond to that, I'm not even able to wish them a happy birthday. I feel a stab in my heart whenever someone tells me that it's their birthday on that day. I wanna tell them that it's Heath's birthday too, and I keep my mouth shut. I find myself resenting them because they're able to celebrate their birthday while Heath can't.
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I work on a spa resort. I'll be working a long day on April 4th. I hate being at the office on that day, when all I wanna do is be here... People call and make reservations for this date, book massages. Some of them tell me that it's their birthday that day, and ask me what deal I can offer them in order to celebrate the occasion. I hardly respond to that, I'm not even able to wish them a happy birthday. I feel a stab in my heart whenever someone tells me that it's their birthday on that day. I wanna tell them that it's Heath's birthday too, and I keep my mouth shut. I find myself resenting them because they're able to celebrate their birthday while Heath can't.
he can celebrate it through us by waching us remmeber he isnt gone. i know it hard but... :-\\
:ghug: sorry i wasnt much of a comfort...
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:ghug: Keren. That has to be so hard. We know that Friday is going to be a very rough day as it is and I can't imagine dealing with people celebrating. I know it's the whole life goes on thing and not everyone is grieving like we are here. There's nothing wrong with feeling resentful, even if they aren't doing it intentionally. Stay strong. :ghug: :ghug:
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my friends are making me go to the cinema im going to be so quiet all day im going to do something for heath on the day though.
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My dear LJN and Ethan, I'm so grateful for your amazing gesture <^(
I wasn't here for a long time... just couldn't , I decided that it's time,then seeing today those PJ's and the places he was... so heartwarming and heartbreaking all at once...
You both are so lucky, being able to visit there being geographically close...!!!!
I have to share something, our prime minister I.Rabin was assassinated in Nov.1995 ,this took place near my working place,I was totally devastated hearing about it especially since I saw him that same day and in that place where it happened... and I remember that I just had to go there each and everyday, and I cried every time I was there... anyway , I just know for a fact that the only reason I can't do exactly the the same is the distance, you know, I'm in another continent..etc.
so again THANK YOU so much for your beautiful act. :^^) :ghug:
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my friends are making me go to the cinema im going to be so quiet all day im going to do something for heath on the day though.
I remember you said you wanted to plant a tree or something. I think that's a beautiful idea.
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I remember you said you wanted to plant a tree or something. I think that's a beautiful idea.
hmm thats what i want to do but im not sure if ive got room for a tree so i may just be planting a potted tree that takes a long time to grow
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I work on a spa resort. I'll be working a long day on April 4th. I hate being at the office on that day, when all I wanna do is be here... People call and make reservations for this date, book massages. Some of them tell me that it's their birthday that day, and ask me what deal I can offer them in order to celebrate the occasion. I hardly respond to that, I'm not even able to wish them a happy birthday. I feel a stab in my heart whenever someone tells me that it's their birthday on that day. I wanna tell them that it's Heath's birthday too, and I keep my mouth shut. I find myself resenting them because they're able to celebrate their birthday while Heath can't.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I work on a spa resort. I'll be working a long day on April 4th. I hate being at the office on that day, when all I wanna do is be here... People call and make reservations for this date, book massages. Some of them tell me that it's their birthday that day, and ask me what deal I can offer them in order to celebrate the occasion. I hardly respond to that, I'm not even able to wish them a happy birthday. I feel a stab in my heart whenever someone tells me that it's their birthday on that day. I wanna tell them that it's Heath's birthday too, and I keep my mouth shut. I find myself resenting them because they're able to celebrate their birthday while Heath can't.
hey Keren i know what you mean :\'(
im off Friday thank god so im going to watch some Heath movies and remember him at his best ;)
im on facebook and recently a so called friend sent me an invite to a very unpleasant group >:(
with the title so tragic heath has gone but f****** get over it,i was so angry at this person who calls themselves a friend,yeh right evil cow!
And shed been waiting 2 months to send it,i told other Heath fans and we all joined it and ripped the person who put it together apart,imstill so upset from that,how dare someone tell me what i should be doing >:(
some people have no respect and dont understand what its like we have lost a great beautiful person far too young and it takes time to get over if ever,im still in shock by it all,Poor Heath Bless him :\'(
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hey Keren i know what you mean :\'(
im off Friday thank god so im going to watch some Heath movies and remember him at his best ;)
im on facebook and recently a so called friend sent me an invite to a very unpleasant group >:(
with the title so tragic heath has gone but f****** get over it,i was so angry at this person who calls themselves a friend,yeh right evil cow!
And shed been waiting 2 months to send it,i told other Heath fans and we all joined it and ripped the person who put it together apart,imstill so upset from that,how dare someone tell me what i should be doing >:(
some people have no respect and dont understand what its like we have lost a great beautiful person far too young and it takes time to get over if ever,im still in shock by it all,Poor Heath Bless him :\'(
what an awful woman if she is over it then fair enough but that doesn not mean she has the right to tell any one else to get over it >:(
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#$# Clarey-demar
I'm glad you've joined us!
I've read your posts and I know it's hard to go through this death
I cannot believe what your 'friend' did on Facebook, that's more than rude %(
We have a lot of love here, especially on this thread!
We honor a loving, senetive, humble man that we know, we lost way too soon
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I work on a spa resort. I'll be working a long day on April 4th. I hate being at the office on that day, when all I wanna do is be here... People call and make reservations for this date, book massages. Some of them tell me that it's their birthday that day, and ask me what deal I can offer them in order to celebrate the occasion. I hardly respond to that, I'm not even able to wish them a happy birthday. I feel a stab in my heart whenever someone tells me that it's their birthday on that day. I wanna tell them that it's Heath's birthday too, and I keep my mouth shut. I find myself resenting them because they're able to celebrate their birthday while Heath can't.
Keren, I know what your going through and it must be difficult
To go through people's happiness when inside, you know what this day really means
I keep hearing that date and I know it's gunna bring much happiness for my classmates, my family and especically brother and his wife..
But at the same time..I'm gunna miss him :-\\
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Hello, Brokies! I think it's a great idea to celebrate Heath's birthday by watching his wonderful bodies of work. Though it is so devastating that he passed away while so young and with so much promise, it's very important to honor his memory and to thank him for sharing his gift with us.
:ghug: to you all!!!
Del_Marvelous
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hey Keren i know what you mean :\'(
im off Friday thank god so im going to watch some Heath movies and remember him at his best ;)
im on facebook and recently a so called friend sent me an invite to a very unpleasant group >:(
with the title so tragic heath has gone but f****** get over it,i was so angry at this person who calls themselves a friend,yeh right evil cow!
And shed been waiting 2 months to send it,i told other Heath fans and we all joined it and ripped the person who put it together apart,imstill so upset from that,how dare someone tell me what i should be doing >:(
some people have no respect and dont understand what its like we have lost a great beautiful person far too young and it takes time to get over if ever,im still in shock by it all,Poor Heath Bless him :\'(
Take as much time as you need. I know some people think I should "get over it", I just don't talk to them about him anymore - no point in talking to people who can't understand.
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Keren, I know what your going through and it must be difficult
To go through people's happiness when inside, you know what this day really means
I keep hearing that date and I know it's gunna bring much happiness for my classmates, my family and especically brother and his wife..
But at the same time..I'm gunna miss him :-\\
Sometimes happiness and sadness are mixed together :ghug: :ghug:
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Can't believe it's been 10 weeks. :-\\
:ghug: :ghug: for everyone.
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
wow so appropriate and beautiful
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Sometimes happiness and sadness are mixed together :ghug: :ghug:
They are Keren. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
This is so beautiful Barb, thank you :\'( :ghug:
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
:\'( :\'( :\'( Beautiful but heartbreaking. Thanks flwrchild. ^f^
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Thanks guys. :ghug: It comes from the heart.
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I cant belive its been 10 weeks, I still want to wake up from this bad dream, why cant everything be normal again?? :\'( :\'( :\'(
Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
It hurts so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
(from a westlife song called Wanna grow old with you)
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hmm thats what i want to do but im not sure if ive got room for a tree so i may just be planting a potted tree that takes a long time to grow
That's anyway a tender gesture to remember him, Matt <^( O0.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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I cant belive its been 10 weeks, I still want to wake up from this bad dream, why cant everything be normal again?? :\'( :\'( :\'(
Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
It hurts so bad I can't take it any longer
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
(from a westlife song called Wanna grow old with you)
Emzan - I understand you, for me it's still too absurd, and already 10 weeks have passed :\'( :\'(!
Unreal! Me too I would like to wake up from this nightmare :\'( :\'(.
What a beautiful song you've chosen, thank you O0.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Touching and <^( <^( <^( <^( beautiful!
:ghug: Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
FC, that was beautiful!! :\'( :\'(
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So beautiful Flowerchild! How fitting for such a wonderful Actor. <^(
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I think that he inspired a lot of love. :ghug:
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Take as much time as you need. I know some people think I should "get over it", I just don't talk to them about him anymore - no point in talking to people who can't understand.
I really appreciate my friend Robin (she was the Jack to my Ennis on Halloween), who brings it up still when I talk to her. She doesn't think it odd at all that I would still want to talk about him, about how I feel...
kathy
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I think that he inspired a lot of love. :ghug:
That is so true.
My BBM experience has always been limited to the story and its characters of Ennis and Jack. It took an unspeakable consequence for me to truly appreciate Heath outside of his portrayal of Ennis Del Mar. It is late for me to realize how much I appreciate him as an actor in addition to what he has given us. I regret and I would much like to know him as a person. Only it is too late.
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
OMG, B. Most beautiful, perfect. Did you write this? I think this theme of "just passing through" somehow is most fitting for Heath. As much as we may not wish it, it may well be what was in the stars for him, so to speak.
kathy
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I really appreciate my friend Robin (she was the Jack to my Ennis on Halloween), who brings it up still when I talk to her. She doesn't think it odd at all that I would still want to talk about him, about how I feel...
kathy
I think it's wonderful that you have someone you can talk to who doesn't treat you as though you were being silly or at all unreasonable to still have deep feelings and want to talk about it.
Yes, I wrote the poem. Thank you for your nice words. :ghug: I can't help feeling that he's still on his journey, and I just feel really fortunate that he passed by me on his way.
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That is so true.
My BBM experience has always been limited to the story and its characters of Ennis and Jack. It took an unspeakable consequence for me to truly appreciate Heath outside of his portrayal of Ennis Del Mar. It is late for me to realize how much I appreciate him as an actor in addition to what he has given us. I regret and I would much like to know him as a person. Only it is too late.
:ghug: Ethan.
I think a big part of Heath's appeal for me was always that he was so unrelentingly, unapologizingly unique and indivdual. And this is something that I've been trying to recapture in recent years. He just seemed to make choices that were much more about being true to himself than trying to please anyone else and their preconceived notions of what he should try to be. That's something that I think we should all strive to do, and it was nice to have that example to look to. :)
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OMG Barb! :\'( Thank you! :-*
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:ghug: Ethan.
I think a big part of Heath's appeal for me was always that he was so unrelentingly, unapologizingly unique and indivdual. And this is something that I've been trying to recapture in recent years. He just seemed to make choices that were much more about being true to himself than trying to please anyone else and their preconceived notions of what he should try to be. That's something that I think we should all strive to do, and it was nice to have that example to look to. :)
Well said, FlwrChild and I wish I have realized that earlier. Thanks!
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:ghug: Ethan. That example is still here with us. Who he is will always stay- that's not going to change- ever. As for appreciating him as an actor, well there's no statute of limitations on that. Look at all of the people who are just now discovering BBM- appreciation for someone or something isn't measured by when you discovered it nor does it diminish because x amount of time has passed. Sometimes we don't realize how much we really did all along until something jars it right up to the surface.
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That says it perfectly Michelle. :)
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
Everyone already said that this is beautiful and touching and appropriate and inspired.
I can only add that I cried as I read it, hearing Heath's voice saying those very words, seeing his smiling face, and Ennis and William Thatcher.
Thank you Barb. I have not had a dream of Heath or Ennis as many of you have had. But I would not be surprised, if recalling these lines as I fall asleep tonight, I should see Heath in my dreams. I am grateful for your words, and to share in his journey.
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Grateful Traveler
.......
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
Dear FC, TY for this inspired poem I love every word ,how painfully true :^^) :\'(
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Emzan - I understand you, for me it's still too absurd, and already 10 weeks have passed :\'( :\'(!
Unreal! Me too I would like to wake up from this nightmare :\'( :\'(.
What a beautiful song you've chosen, thank you O0.
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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:ghug: Ethan.
I think a big part of Heath's appeal for me was always that he was so unrelentingly, unapologizingly unique and indivdual. And this is something that I've been trying to recapture in recent years. He just seemed to make choices that were much more about being true to himself than trying to please anyone else and their preconceived notions of what he should try to be. That's something that I think we should all strive to do, and it was nice to have that example to look to. :)
Beautifully said....and I agree. ^f^
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
Barb, that is beautiful. Thank you. :ghug:
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Some lyrics from different westlife songs that reminds me of Heath
I'm never gonna say goodbye
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again
I never wanna see you sad
The more I know of you is the more I know I love you
Day after day time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
It's such a shame we're worlds apart
If I could I would turn back the time
I don't need nobody,
anyone to take your place but you, I just can't go on without you,
There's no one like you
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Aww Em :ghug:
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Sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it...
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Sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it...
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Sometimes I miss you so much I can hardly stand it...
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Keren :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Keren :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
i echo this sentiment :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Keren,you´re not alone in having this feeling... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crêpe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
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Keren,you´re not alone in having this feeling... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
to everybody who needs them ^f^
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( You got me deeply moved here, Barb. I don't know what to say. Bad day, beautiful delicate poem of yours and tears, tears, tears. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thank you...
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
that made me cry :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Me too :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Christie - :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( How I wish it were not true :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
:\'( :ghug:
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Oh Christie. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: Everyone
Barb you know I loved that poem and am glad you shared it here. :\'( :ghug:
Keren, I second that sentiment :\'( :ghug:
Beautiful post Christie :\'( :ghug:
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
I've felt that way since 1/22 :\'(
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Tell Me Its Not True
Tell me it's not true
Say it's just a story
Something on the news
Tell me it's not true
Though it's here before me
Say it's just a dream
Say it's just a scene
From an old movie of years ago
From an old movie of Marilyn Monroe
Say it's just some clowns
Two players in the limelight
And bring the curtain down
Say it's just two clowns
Who couldn't get their lines right
Say it's just a show
On the radio
That we can turn over and start again
That we can turn over; it's only a game
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
Tell me it's not true
Say you didn't mean it
Say it's just pretend
Say it's just the end
Of an old movie from years ago
From an old movie with Marilyn Monroe
This is so sad but beautiful :-\\
It's exactly how I've felt everytime I see his face or hear his name :\'( :\'(
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Hey everyone,
I was just feeling a little sad this past week knowing that Heath's birthday was coming up so me and a friend of mine decided that April 4th we are taking her little cousins to Disney World. This might sound kind of strange, but I really worry that some of us Brokies might just sit around on the 4th feeling depressed, and I don't believe that honors anyone; certainly not a fun and wonderful free spirit as our Heath. So I wish everyone the strength and desire to do something happy and meaningful that day; actually, I wish that for all of us everyday :)
Love, hugs, and eternal Brokie friendship ---Jess:)
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Christie, that song was so heartbreaking...
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
:\'( :\'(
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Hey everyone,
I was just feeling a little sad this past week knowing that Heath's birthday was coming up so me and a friend of mine decided that April 4th we are taking her little cousins to Disney World. This might sound kind of strange, but I really worry that some of us Brokies might just sit around on the 4th feeling depressed, and I don't believe that honors anyone; certainly not a fun and wonderful free spirit as our Heath. So I wish everyone the strength and desire to do something happy and meaningful that day; actually, I wish that for all of us everyday :)
Love, hugs, and eternal Brokie friendship ---Jess:)
Thank you Jess. I hope you have a fun day.
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Christie, that song was so heartbreaking...
Tell me it's not true
Say I only dreamed it
And morning will come soon
:\'( :\'(
I know. Its from the musical Blood Brothers and every time I hear it it sends shivers down my spine, because its sung by a mother of a son who has just died. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I know. Its from the musical Blood Brothers and every time I hear it it sends shivers down my spine, because its sung by a mother of a son who has just died. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
It's just like a knife stabbed in my heart.
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It's just like a knife stabbed in my heart.
yb, I'm so sorry.... :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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yb, I'm so sorry.... :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
No, no, Christie, I'm not complaining about it at all. It fits my mood, these few days have been very difficult. I think all of us needs a lot of hugs. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Every night I dream about him
In my world of fantasy
I pretend that we're together
In his world there's a garden in the moonlight
In his world there's a sweet and gentle breeze
In his world, oh he tells me that he loves me
That's where my heart wants to be
I saw a star falls from the heaven
I hope the wish I made comes true
I don't want to live without him
In his world I can see a new tomorrow
In his world where he gives his heart to me
In his world we will share this love together
That's where my heart wants to be
Why must I go on pretending
Why can't I tell him how I feel
These sweet dreams are never ending
And this loneliness is real...
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My old friend
Tim MacGraw
My old friend, I recall
The times we had hanging on my wall
I wouldn't trade them for gold
Cause they laugh and they cry me
Somehow sanctify me
Their woven in the stories I have told
And tell again
My old friend, I apologize
For the years that have passed
Since the last time you and I
Dusted off those memories
But the running and the races
The people and the places
There's always somewhere else I had to be
Time gets slim, my old friend
Don't know why, don't know why
Don't know why, don't know why
My old friend, this song's for you
Cause a few a few simple verses
Was the least that I could do
To tell the world that you were here
Cause the love and the laughter
Will live long after
All of the sadness and the tears
We'll meet again, my old friend
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye
My old friend, my old friend
Goodbye, goodbye
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Lovely poems, mikele, lovely words, and lovely pictures ^f^:ghug:
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Thank you dear, that's only for your, our pleasure to remember this passing time... ;) :^^)
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Beautiful poems,Mikele; thanks for sharing them with us in such a sad time. :ghug: :ghug:
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This just popped into my head and I had to write it down...This is a poem tribute to Heath and his daughter...you can get who would've said what part :-\\
Good morning, my beautiful sunshine
How you always seem to cross my mind
I see you everyday, smiling from ear to ear
How I need your calming voice to hear
Good night, sleep tight
Don't let this be the last time I see you, tonight
I see you in my dreams
And my in my fondest memories
Daddy, you ment the world to me
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Aww Lis. :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
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Every night I dream about him
In my world of fantasy
I pretend that we're together
In his world there's a garden in the moonlight
In his world there's a sweet and gentle breeze
In his world, oh he tells me that he loves me
That's where my heart wants to be
I saw a star falls from the heaven
I hope the wish I made comes true
I don't want to live without him
In his world I can see a new tomorrow
In his world where he gives his heart to me
In his world we will share this love together
That's where my heart wants to be
Why must I go on pretending
Why can't I tell him how I feel
These sweet dreams are never ending
And this loneliness is real...
:ghug: :\'( :ghug:
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lis thats beautiful it just reminded me of something my mother used to sing to me when i was a a toddler im sure many of you will have heard it before
you are my sunshine my only sunshine,
you make me happy,
when skys are grey,
you'll never know dear,
how much i love you,
plese dont take my sinshine away,
the other night dear when i lay dreaming,
i dreamt you lay hear right by my side,
you'll never know dear how much i love you,
please dont take my sunshine away.
not everything in that rhyme applies to my point of view but im sure how its alot of you feel :ghug:
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This just popped into my head and I had to write it down...This is a poem tribute to Heath and his daughter...you can get who would've said what part :-\\
Good morning, my beautiful sunshine
How you always seem to cross my mind
I see you everyday, smiling from ear to ear
How I need your calming voices to hear
Good night, sleep tight
Don't let this be the last time I see you, tonight
I see you in my dreams
And my in my fondest memories
Daddy, you ment the world to me
:ghug: Lis :\'( It's beautiful :ghug:
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Yes, it's beautiful Lis :\'( Thanks! <^(
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lis thats beautiful it just reminded me of something my mother used to sing to me when i was a a toddler im sure many of you will have heard it before
you are my sunshine my only sunshine,
you make me happy,
when skys are grey,
you'll never know dear,
how much i love you,
plese dont take my sinshine away,
the other night dear when i lay dreaming,
i dreamt you lay hear right by my side,
you'll never know dear how much i love you,
please dont take my sunshine away.
not everything in that rhyme applies to my point of view but im sure how its alot of you feel :ghug:
It's a lovely old song that was very popular here in the states years ago. I'm not sure when it dates from, but I grew up with it too.
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This just popped into my head and I had to write it down...This is a poem tribute to Heath and his daughter...you can get who would've said what part :-\\
Good morning, my beautiful sunshine
How you always seem to cross my mind
I see you everyday, smiling from ear to ear
How I need your calming voice to hear
Good night, sleep tight
Don't let this be the last time I see you, tonight
I see you in my dreams
And my in my fondest memories
Daddy, you ment the world to me
that is so beautiful ^f^
Daddy, you ment the world to me :\'(
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This just popped into my head and I had to write it down...This is a poem tribute to Heath and his daughter...you can get who would've said what part :-\\
Good morning, my beautiful sunshine
How you always seem to cross my mind
I see you everyday, smiling from ear to ear
How I need your calming voice to hear
Good night, sleep tight
Don't let this be the last time I see you, tonight
I see you in my dreams
And my in my fondest memories
Daddy, you ment the world to me
Wonderful,Lil¡ Such a beauty makes me cry in a day like this... :\'( :ghug:
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lis thats beautiful it just reminded me of something my mother used to sing to me when i was a a toddler im sure many of you will have heard it before
you are my sunshine my only sunshine,
you make me happy,
when skys are grey,
you'll never know dear,
how much i love you,
plese dont take my sinshine away,
the other night dear when i lay dreaming,
i dreamt you lay hear right by my side,
you'll never know dear how much i love you,
please dont take my sunshine away.
not everything in that rhyme applies to my point of view but im sure how its alot of you feel :ghug:
Matt,it´s very proper now; I didn´t know it before,but it´s lovely¡ Thanks¡ :ghug:
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This just popped into my head and I had to write it down...This is a poem tribute to Heath and his daughter...you can get who would've said what part :-\\
Good morning, my beautiful sunshine
How you always seem to cross my mind
I see you everyday, smiling from ear to ear
How I need your calming voice to hear
Good night, sleep tight
Don't let this be the last time I see you, tonight
I see you in my dreams
And my in my fondest memories
Daddy, you ment the world to me
That's really beautiful. ^f^
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Happy birthday in Heaven,Heath¡. You won´t have any material things in the day of your birthday, but you´ll have others which are not touched, nor are seen, but that are felt. Because when you went away,you carried too much love with you that I know,there where you´re now, you will be very happy. And I also know that you will be by the side of Simone and Jarrad´s fathers,Andrew´s partner,my mother and all the dear beings who some of Brokies had lost; and that just like them, you will see us and you will take care of us somehow,of all these who still are missing you so much.
Despite everything,I´d have liked that you would be here, in the Earth, and that perhaps we would have bought a certain material and prosaic object; but that would show the admiration and affection we all feel for you. However,somebody,up there,has preferred that you are by his side, to distract him with your joy and your gifts from good actor. And us here, we must conform to look to the highs and to know that you´re now this sweet eyes angel,as I like to call you; and that you already know that we are sending to you this love so that you have a happy birthday in Heaven.We miss you, Heath.WE´LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
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Haven't been around for a week or so, but just wanted to say how moved I was by seeing the photos of Heath's pyjamas at the chessboard
And there have been so many beautiful poems and lyrics over the last few days that it's far simpler to thank everyone than try and do it individually.
And as for my privatejack's posy above (With one of my faovurite Heath pics :\'() I completely agree. And I'm sure he'll be in everyone here's thought today.
I'm just trying to think of something I could do to mark it. But yes, Happy Birthday Heath! We'll never forget you.
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Happy birthday in Heaven,Heath¡. You won´t have any material things in the day of your birthday, but you´ll have others which are not touched, nor are seen, but that are felt. Because when you went away,you carried too much love with you that I know,there where you´re now, you will be very happy. And I also know that you will be by the side of Simone and Jarrad´s fathers,Andrew´s partner,my mother and all the dear beings who some of Brokies had lost; and that just like them, you will see us and you will take care of us somehow,of all these who still are missing you so much.
Despite everything,I´d have liked that you would be here, in the Earth, and that perhaps we would have bought a certain material and prosaic object; but that would show the admiration and affection we all feel for you. However,somebody,up there,has preferred that you are by his side, to distract him with your joy and your gifts from good actor. And us here, we must conform to look to the highs and to know that you´re now this sweet eyes angel,as I like to call you; and that you already know that we are sending to you this love so that you have a happy birthday in Heaven.We miss you, Heath.WE´LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
beautiful ali, i echo what you said
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MPJ, thank you. That's what's in my heart too. :ghug:
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I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you
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I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you
That's really beautiful Emelie. :ghug:
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I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you
Beautiful ^f^ I lit a candle this morning. I'll keep it lit until midnight in honor of Heath's B-day
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Oh Christie, knowing that's what Michelle read at his funerial...it was almost too much bare thinking about. Thank you though, I had thought of looking it up, but never had the strength to, thank you for posting it for us. %) you all, Jess:)
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Beautiful ^f^ I lit a candle this morning. I'll keep it lit until midnight in honor of Heath's B-day
Maggie, that's a wonderful gesture. :)
And Emelie, what a beautiful post. :^^)
Seeing all the love expressed here really warms my heart. :ghug:
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Chris,they´re beautiful words and a beutiful Heath´s pic.I love them so¡ ^f^
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I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you
Thanks,Emelie,that´s what we feel still and specially today... :\'(
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MPJ, thank you. That's what's in my heart too. :ghug:
Barb,Hayley and Matt :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: There´s nothing comparing with what Heath deserves,but it´s what I´m feeling.And I cried a lot while writing...
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I'm going to watch some Heath movies tonight...I think I'm going to watch Candy (i haven't seen it since he died) and maybe A Knight Tale or 10 Things I Hate About You :)
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Barb,Hayley and Matt :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: There´s nothing comparing with what Heath deserves,but it´s what I´m feeling.And I cried a lot while writing...
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
And you know, I think it's exactly what Heath deserves - what's in our hearts and sincerely expressed. He always seemed to care more about what was true than what was slick. He could see the beauty in that, and that's one of the reasons I love him. :ghug:
Em, I watched Candy yesterday, and when I turned the DVD off and went back to the regular TV feed, The Patriot was showing on HBO. Guess it was just meant to be a day for Heath movies for me. Enjoy your viewing. And don't forget the tissues. :^^)
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
And you know, I think it's exactly what Heath deserves - what's in our hearts and sincerely expressed. He always seemed to care more about what was true than what was slick. He could see the beauty in that, and that's one of the reasons I love him. :ghug:
Em, I watched Candy yesterday, and when I turned the DVD off and went back to the regular TV feed, The Patriot was showing on HBO. Guess it was just meant to be a day for Heath movies for me. Enjoy your viewing. And don't forget the tissues. :^^)
I wont...I think i need them now :\'( :\'(
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Aww honey, take a few extra of these too :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Aww honey, take a few extra of these too :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
thanks :^^)
and :ghug: :ghug: to everyone
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
And you know, I think it's exactly what Heath deserves - what's in our hearts and sincerely expressed. He always seemed to care more about what was true than what was slick. He could see the beauty in that, and that's one of the reasons I love him. :ghug:
Em, I watched Candy yesterday, and when I turned the DVD off and went back to the regular TV feed, The Patriot was showing on HBO. Guess it was just meant to be a day for Heath movies for me. Enjoy your viewing. And don't forget the tissues. :^^)
Thanks,Barb. :^^) I´m sorry,but I can´t see any Heath´s movie,not today...I can´t stop crying now reading all this beauty you´ve written for him.It´s so sad... :ghug: everybody. %)
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
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Thanks,Barb. :^^) I´m sorry,but I can´t see any Heath´s movie,not today...I can´t stop crying now reading all this beauty you´ve written for him.It´s so sad... :ghug: everybody. %)
I know the feeling :-\\
:ghug: :ghug:
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
so beautiful, thanks for posting :^^) :ghug:
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
Thanks Barb,it´s beautiful¡ ^f^ Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
:ghug:
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Happy Birthday Heath... wherever you are!
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
Beautiful FC!!! <^(
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I'm in awe with all your posts!!
We reached exactly 100 pages of "In Loving Memory" thread, I mean we wrote 100 pages and 2975 posts since his untimely/accidental death,and on top of it it's Heath's Birthday today, I for once find this a bit symbolic.
RIP my darling. %)
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
thanks for this is was beautiful... :\'( thanks :ghug:
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( from Megalyn08 :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Baked a birthday cake,
iced with falling tears, candles?
lighted one this year.
Sent up my prayers,
Angel, framed with falling tears...
can't dim your candle.
jessi
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Baked a birthday cake,
iced with falling tears, candles?
lighted one this year.
Sent up my prayers,
Angel, framed with falling tears...
can't dim your candle.
jessi
very beautiful :\'(
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Very beautiful indeed. :\'( :ghug:
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All of these poems posted today are so beatiful :\'( :\'(
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
FlwrChild, your poems are getting more and more inspired with each post. I love every line, every word.
The shooting star, raced so swiftly past, burned so brightly, .... :\'( :ghug: :^^) giving thanks through my tears :t)
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I'm in awe with all your posts!!
We reached exactly 100 pages of "In Loving Memory" thread, I mean we wrote 100 pages and 2975 posts since his untimely/accidental death,and on top of it it's Heath's Birthday today, I for once find this a bit symbolic.
RIP my darling. %)
That's indeed symbolic, hpv. Thanks for pointing it out. I never noticed. It is such a nice round number that I can't imagine it happening by chance. I've always thought, or had a feeling, that Heath reads this forum from time to time. Now, I am willing to believe it for sure. He is always with us, surrounded by love, and free to be.
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That's indeed symbolic, hpv. Thanks for pointing it out. I never noticed. It is such a nice round number that I can't imagine it happening by chance. I've always thought, or had a feeling, that Heath reads this forum from time to time. Now, I am willing to believe it for sure. He is always with us, surrounded by love, and free to be.
I'll second that LanceCowboy. O0
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I like that thought too. ^f^
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I was finally able to gather up some of my aborted attempts at thought gathering over the past few months into what I hope is something coherent.
January; outside is cold and grey
4:43 phone rings; it’s Tuesday
Words spoken to disbelieving ears
Shock gives way to unrelenting tears
Too many thoughts running in my mind
Solace doesn’t come; impossible to find
Not quite remembering why
I looked up toward the sky
Full moon obscured by clouds as if heaven said it had no right
To cast it’s beautiful shine; I cried myself to sleep that night.
A new day dawns, one second is all hope will allow
Wanting to know why; wanting to know how
A new journey’s just begun; not knowing where to start
Truth that lingers in the mind is rejected by the heart.
I want to go back to when everything was okay
I want to go back before that cold winter’s day
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:ghug: :ghug: Michelle.
As you know, my phone rang at 4:47. :\'(
That was beautifully written. :^^)
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:ghug: I remember it well :\'( Thanks :ghug:
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I was finally able to gather up some of my aborted attempts at thought gathering over the past few months into what I hope is something coherent.
January; outside is cold and grey
4:43 phone rings; it’s Tuesday
Words spoken to disbelieving ears
Shock gives way to unrelenting tears
Too many thoughts running in my mind
Solace doesn’t come; impossible to find
Not quite remembering why
I looked up toward the sky
Full moon obscured by clouds as if heaven said it had no right
To cast it’s beautiful shine; I cried myself to sleep that night.
A new day dawns, one second is all hope will allow
Wanting to know why; wanting to know how
A new journey’s just begun; not knowing where to start
Truth that lingers in the mind is rejected by the heart.
I want to go back to when everything was okay
I want to go back before that cold winter’s day
My phone rang around the same time... :\'(
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January; outside is cold and grey
4:43 phone rings; it’s Tuesday
Words spoken to disbelieving ears
Shock gives way to unrelenting tears
Too many thoughts running in my mind
Solace doesn’t come; impossible to find
Not quite remembering why
I looked up toward the sky
Full moon obscured by clouds as if heaven said it had no right
To cast it’s beautiful shine; I cried myself to sleep that night.
A new day dawns, one second is all hope will allow
Wanting to know why; wanting to know how
A new journey’s just begun; not knowing where to start
Truth that lingers in the mind is rejected by the heart.
I want to go back to when everything was okay
I want to go back before that cold winter’s day
That was beautiful LJN ^f^ I saw it on the news around 4:45 :\'( :\'(
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Today on the forum, I've posted a lot of scattered thoughts, feelings about what this day has brought to us all. But to me, today is so much more..
When I woke up at the crazy time of 6:30am, one of my 1st thoughts was "It's Heath's birthday"...but I didn't say anything to anybody. I got ready and headed out to my bus. It was raining, not drizzling or pouring, just raining and yet, when I opened the door, I clearly heard a beautiful bird chirping into my ear ( that bird again :\'( ) It was so sweet on a drerry morning like this one. I went to school, left for the trip, nothing new. I was listening to my ipod and "Slipped Away" by Avril Lavinge came on, we entered the city around that.. moment. I felt goosebumps through my whole body. At the Museum, I had a good time, saw beautiful pictures, and with no one else, I felt like I could take in a lot more. I tried at points, to wonder where these people were when the photos were taken or what they wanted their art to speak to us..I came back home and left to pick up my brother at the airport. We got to the hospital just in time, and I saw my nephew for the 1st time. He was beautiful, it seemed so unreal...Today was an adventure, a day where I mourn a death, and see the creation of a new life..
April 4th - a day that will be forever in my mind
Heath - a man that will forever be in my heart
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Today was an adventure, a day where I mourn a death, and see the creation of a new life...
Aww, :\'( Thanks for sharing this Lis. :ghug:
Heath is looking at us from where he is, he smiles because life goes on. :)
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That's beautiful, Lis. :ghug:
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Because I know he loved sunsets, today on Heath's birthday I've seen the most beautiful I ever saw.
Words can't even describe the beauty of it, I felt as this happened special for him.
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Today on the forum, I've posted a lot of scattered thoughts, feelings about what this day has brought to us all. But to me, today is so much more..
When I woke up at the crazy time of 6:30am, one of my 1st thoughts was "It's Heath's birthday"...but I didn't say anything to anybody. I got ready and headed out to my bus. It was raining, not drizzling or pouring, just raining and yet, when I opened the door, I clearly heard a beautiful bird chirping into my ear ( that bird again :\'( ) It was so sweet on a drerry morning like this one. I went to school, left for the trip, nothing new. I was listening to my ipod and "Slipped Away" by Avril Lavinge came on, we entered the city around that.. moment. I felt goosebumps through my whole body. At the Museum, I had a good time, saw beautiful pictures, and with no one else, I felt like I could take in a lot more. I tried at points, to wonder where these people were when the photos were taken or what they wanted their art to speak to us..I came back home and left to pick up my brother at the airport. We got to the hospital just in time, and I saw my nephew for the 1st time. He was beautiful, it seemed so unreal...Today was an adventure, a day where I mourn a death, and see the creation of a new life..
April 4th - a day that will be forever in my mind
Heath - a man that will forever be in my heart
That's so beautiful, thanks for sharing it with us. ^f^
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For Heath, on his birthday:
A whisper on the wind.
A brief flash of light.
Small stolen moments on an ordinary night.
A warmth settles over me and wraps around my heart,
bringing with it comfort for the time that we're apart.
Memories wash through me of all the things you are,
and I think I caught a glimpse of you in a passing shooting star.
Thank you for touching me as you raced so swiftly past.
Yours was a flame that just couldn't last.
But it burned oh so brightly for those few short years,
and I'll remember you forever,
giving thanks through my tears.
Rest in the arms of angels.
We'll never be alone.
You'll carry our love with you
as God welcomes you home.
I'm in awe of your writing, Barb, that was gorgeous and so beautifully true. ^f^
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Because I know he loved sunsets, today on Heath's birthday I've seen the most beautiful I ever saw.
Words can't even describe the beauty of it, I felt as this happened special for him.
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Oh, b_mountain_girl, I did not know Heath loved sunsets. I was only last night commenting to someone else what a beautiful sunset it was. Walking home from work, I had to walk a few blocks into it, and the setting sun was directly on my face, the colored clouds blazing in the sky overhead. Someone from an apartment balcony took a picture. I wish I had my camera.
I was also saying yesterday morning, that it was raining on my way to work, and though at first feeling sad, I felt better thinking the sky was weeping for Heath.
I am glad to learn that yesterday's sunset was brilliant for a reason.
Thank you.
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Why did you have to go?
I dont understand anything anymore
Now Im sitting here with tears in my eyes
My heart is broken
Theres no one like you
And I dont what there to be
I just want you
I have one wish
Can you please come back?
( a friend wrote this and gave it to me and all i could think of was Heath :\'( )
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Today on the forum, I've posted a lot of scattered thoughts, feelings about what this day has brought to us all. But to me, today is so much more..
When I woke up at the crazy time of 6:30am, one of my 1st thoughts was "It's Heath's birthday"...but I didn't say anything to anybody. I got ready and headed out to my bus. It was raining, not drizzling or pouring, just raining and yet, when I opened the door, I clearly heard a beautiful bird chirping into my ear ( that bird again :\'( ) It was so sweet on a drerry morning like this one. I went to school, left for the trip, nothing new. I was listening to my ipod and "Slipped Away" by Avril Lavinge came on, we entered the city around that.. moment. I felt goosebumps through my whole body. At the Museum, I had a good time, saw beautiful pictures, and with no one else, I felt like I could take in a lot more. I tried at points, to wonder where these people were when the photos were taken or what they wanted their art to speak to us..I came back home and left to pick up my brother at the airport. We got to the hospital just in time, and I saw my nephew for the 1st time. He was beautiful, it seemed so unreal...Today was an adventure, a day where I mourn a death, and see the creation of a new life..
April 4th - a day that will be forever in my mind
Heath - a man that will forever be in my heart
aww Lis :ghug: :\'( I love that that bird is with you :ghug:
Today was an adventure, a day where I mourn a death, and see the creation of a new life.. It's the circle of life :ghug:
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Why did you have to go?
I dont understand anything anymore
Now Im sitting here with tears in my eyes
My heart is broken
Theres no one like you
And I dont what there to be
I just want you
I have one wish
Can you please come back?
( a friend wrote this and gave it to me and all i could think of was Heath :\'( )
Tell your friend that it´s beautiful and that´s what we feel;if he could just come back... ^f^
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Tell your friend that it´s beautiful and that´s what we feel;if he could just come back... ^f^
I will :)
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"Life is eternal; and love is immortal;
and death is only a horizon;
and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight"
Happy birthday angel, wherever you are
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Why did you have to go?
I dont understand anything anymore
Now Im sitting here with tears in my eyes
My heart is broken
Theres no one like you
And I dont what there to be
I just want you
I have one wish
Can you please come back?
Awww Emzan, your friends words are so lovely and if I was given that, I would probably think of Heath as well :\'( :\'(
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Awww Emzan, your friends words are so lovely and if I was given that, I would probably think of Heath as well :\'( :\'(
Mmm, i started to cry when she gave it to me and she didn't understand why at first but then i told her and she felt bad because it made me cry, but its not her fault...i hope she understood that
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Mmm, i started to cry when she gave it to me and she didn't understand why at first but then i told her and she felt bad because it made me cry, but its not her fault...i hope she understood that
I'm sure she did..it's hard when someone says something or writes you something and then all of the sudden, you think of something else, and in your case, Heath, which is a hard thing to get out your head :-\\
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I'm sure she did..it's hard when someone says something or writes you something and then all of the sudden, you think of something else, and in your case, which is a hard thing to get out your head :-\\
Yeah, but i think im going to call her and see if she did..she know all about Heath and how i feel so i dont think there will be a problem :)
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Yeah, but i think im going to call her and see if she did..she know all about Heath and how i feel so i dont think there will be a problem :)
That's good O0
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January; outside is cold and grey
4:43 phone rings; it’s Tuesday
Words spoken to disbelieving ears
Shock gives way to unrelenting tears
Too many thoughts running in my mind
Solace doesn’t come; impossible to find
Not quite remembering why
I looked up toward the sky
Full moon obscured by clouds as if heaven said it had no right
To cast it’s beautiful shine; I cried myself to sleep that night.
A new day dawns, one second is all hope will allow
Wanting to know why; wanting to know how
A new journey’s just begun; not knowing where to start
Truth that lingers in the mind is rejected by the heart.
I want to go back to when everything was okay
I want to go back before that cold winter’s day
LuvJackNasty - :\'( :\'( :ghug: My phone rang late in the morning on Wednesday, January 23.
It was a terrible shock, I will never forget that moment.
Me too I long for coming back before this tragedy, when I was
waiting for Heath's next movie, read interviews, dreamt to meet
him and Jake some day and say them "thank you" for having
brought to life my favorite movie...and everything was ok...
:\'( :\'( :\'( Miss him so much. :\'(
Still seems so unreal he's no longer here!
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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LuvJackNasty - :\'( :\'( :ghug: My phone rang late in the morning on Wednesday, January 23.
It was a terrible shock, I will never forget that moment.
Me too I long for coming back before this tragedy, when I was
waiting for Heath's next movie, read interviews, dreamt to meet
him and Jake some day and say them "thank you" for having
brought to life my favorite movie...and everything was ok...
:\'( :\'( :\'( Miss him so much. :\'(
Still seems so unreal he's no longer here!
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
oh megalyn :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: it is so unrealy i agree all ican give you is :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Heath is looking at us from where he is, he smiles because life goes on. :)
Beautiful thought Chameau! <^( <^( I really like thinking that Heath is smiling right now, he had and still has a so beautiful smile! <^( O0
Love from Megalyn08
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oh megalyn :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: it is so unrealy i agree all ican give you is :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Matt - :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Sharing this poem written by Joey on Yahoo Brokeback. I can hear Heath saying this. Not with his voice exactly, but in his spirit. His beautiful spirit.
kathy
Lulla...bye
just needed a little rest
let me lay my head down
just needed some calm
a peace of me
some r and r
relief
didn't realize a little nap
could cause such an outpouring
of grief
tough, dark character
gotta let him go
easier said than done
and I aint a jokin'
now countless hearts
have been stunned, numbed
and broken
had to strike while the iron's hot
independent, alternative golden boy
stuck around just long enough
to become a man... just not
an old one
but my soul is and
it will act on and on
I lived for the times between
action and cut
wasn't always pretty
but intense, instinctual
straight from my gut
just a little shut eye
turned all my plans asunder
gives new meaning to
resting down under
I guess you really can
go home again
just wanted to lay down
this weary head
and it turned to fade to black
we never really choose every road
or understand every map
our actions
cut
print
that's a wrap
Joey Boyd
1/25/2008
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Thanks for sharing this touching poem kathy.
......
had to strike while the iron's hot
independent, alternative golden boy
stuck around just long enough
to become a man... just not
an old one
but my soul is and
it will act on and on
.....
Joey Boyd
1/25/2008
"independent, alternative golden boy"--I like this characterization of Heath.
He sure had an old soul. "Old man river".
While I am writing this down I can see his baby-like eyes. "You hate me, don't you?" "Well I always loved YOU." This tenderness, this vulnerability, strangely, makes him strong.
p.s. "You hate me, don't you?" "Well I always loved YOU." --from Sonny in Monster's ball, one of my favorite Heath characters.
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Thank you for posting that, Kathy. :^^)
It was beautifully written and captured the image so well. This part broke my heart:
just a little shut eye
turned all my plans asunder
gives new meaning to
resting down under
I guess you really can
go home again
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...we never really choose every road
or understand every map....
OMG, those words are so true.....Heath didn't choose that road... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thank you for this beautiful heartbreaking poem, Kathy. :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh Kathy, thanks for posting that here :\'( This is so beautifully written and expressed :\'( :\'(
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Well, Brokie in trouble, today. Me. For some reason, I had thought getting past Heath's birthday would be a big step forward on a lot of personal healing where I had thought I had been doing very, very well, anyway. Don't know how or why but today I crashed bad for the first time since 1/22.
So much for theories. Please let me bleed a little today, as that would help.
I had a sort of secret when I came to this forum, and that was that I had a great respect for Heath as someone who represented the opposite of everything I did not like going on in my life. And in the world. I had seen BBM, was bowled over, but Heath Ledger was just one of the actors, and no big deal. Then, on the DVD, there were interviews with Heath, the person, and I saw ruggednesss and sensitivity, intelligence without ego, that goofy sense of humor and DAMN - - the friend I'd always wanted. So I joined the forum to be around people who respected the movie, yes, but also to be around those who also thought well of Heath. It was a way to explore the movie, but also have a friendship from a distance.
But I had never trolled the photos much, nor read all the interviews---Heath was....Heath. Why bother? When he died, though, there was a deluge of information, a fleshing out of the person, and this time, I read and found so much more to him, making the loss so much more to the worse. Just as I was learning so much more to the good, then, was exactly when he was gone.
I remember doing fairly well on this thread, and trying to console others. I didn't go weepy, but held back. PM's helped a lot. I had never socialized much by PM, but had a river of PM's and e-mails that were a great help. Most came to me, and I wouldn't mention the names of those that were intense and prolonged, but can mention and thank those who, out of common decency, checked in once, or more often, including LD, Jer, Michelle, Ayashae, Alicia, and, of course, Andrew. I couldn't write to Baby Tammy as we would have both have been a mess-she gets me emotional.
I didn't do so well when I originated PM's. I sent a few off to Kathy, during a confused 1-2 days, she was kindness itself, but she's probably still scratching her head over a brief period when I was doing research on Heath and it was all garbled.
Then there were the posts. I noticed FlowerChild put aside her own grief and rushed to help others. I saw Keren's posts and was miserable over an occasion when I had been rude to her, months before. And now, here I was, dependent on Keren for her work on the photo & interview pages.
Having been a jerk, all I could do was grieve along with her, separately.
The most beautiful help came from people I'd never met, who don't post much, so I can't mention them. Welshwitch, who is my favorite Brokie, for her wit and good will, was of the other kind, someone I wrote and she was kind enough to write back.
But it was all a blur, the memorial threads, the PM's and a sense that things would get better. And they always did. I got through 10 weeks so well, am almost ashamed I could just bumble along, read the beautiful poetry, help out where I could, and feel so very good about those that wrote me of their hurts, that I could help.
But today - out of nowhere, it finally caught up with me. There's no going back. The blur is now a sharp focus. A good man I wanted to think of as the best possible friend in a world of too much malice, really is gone. Why today, I don't know. Maybe it's progress, moving out of the blur and just accepting, fully and finally, there isn't any going back. Thanks for letting me bleed a little. The way I see it, each of us meets that day of transition,
and it can really be a sting, as one door closes and you have to look for another that will open up. Sorry for getting personal. A very rough day.
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Well, Brokie in trouble, today. Me. For some reason, I had thought getting past Heath's birthday would be a big step forward on a lot of personal healing where I had thought I had been doing very, very well, anyway. Don't know how or why but today I crashed bad for the first time since 1/22.
So much for theories. Please let me bleed a little today, as that would help.
I had a sort of secret when I came to this forum, and that was that I had a great respect for Heath as someone who represented the opposite of everything I did not like going on in my life. And in the world. I had seen BBM, was bowled over, but Heath Ledger was just one of the actors, and no big deal. Then, on the DVD, there were interviews with Heath, the person, and I saw ruggednesss and sensitivity, intelligence without ego, that goofy sense of humor and DAMN - - the friend I'd always wanted. So I joined the forum to be around people who respected the movie, yes, but also to be around those who also thought well of Heath. It was a way to explore the movie, but also have a friendship from a distance.
But I had never trolled the photos much, nor read all the interviews---Heath was....Heath. Why bother? When he died, though, there was a deluge of information, a fleshing out of the person, and this time, I read and found so much more to him, making the loss so much more to the worse. Just as I was learning so much more to the good, then, was exactly when he was gone.
I remember doing fairly well on this thread, and trying to console others. I didn't go weepy, but held back. PM's helped a lot. I had never socialized much by PM, but had a river of PM's and e-mails that were a great help. Most came to me, and I wouldn't mention the names of those that were intense and prolonged, but can mention and thank those who, out of common decency, checked in once, or more often, including LD, Jer, Michelle, Ayashae, Alicia, and, of course, Andrew. I couldn't write to Baby Tammy as we would have both have been a mess-she gets me emotional.
I didn't do so well when I originated PM's. I sent a few off to Kathy, during a confused 1-2 days, she was kindness itself, but she's probably still scratching her head over a brief period when I was doing research on Heath and it was all garbled.
Then there were the posts. I noticed FlowerChild put aside her own grief and rushed to help others. I saw Keren's posts and was miserable over an occasion when I had been rude to her, months before. And now, here I was, dependent on Keren for her work on the photo & interview pages.
Having been a jerk, all I could do was grieve along with her, separately.
The most beautiful help came from people I'd never met, who don't post much, so I can't mention them. Welshwitch, who is my favorite Brokie, for her wit and good will, was of the other kind, someone I wrote and she was kind enough to write back.
But it was all a blur, the memorial threads, the PM's and a sense that things would get better. And they always did. I got through 10 weeks so well, am almost ashamed I could just bumble along, read the beautiful poetry, help out where I could, and feel so very good about those that wrote me of their hurts, that I could help.
But today - out of nowhere, it finally caught up with me. There's no going back. The blur is now a sharp focus. A good man I wanted to think of as the best possible friend in a world of too much malice, really is gone. Why today, I don't know. Maybe it's progress, moving out of the blur and just accepting, fully and finally, there isn't any going back. Thanks for letting me bleed a little. The way I see it, each of us meets that day of transition,
and it can really be a sting, as one door closes and you have to look for another that will open up. Sorry for getting personal. A very rough day.
I dont know what to say, but i hope this helps :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thanks, Emzan. It does. I forgot to mention Chameau and tpe, for keeping us all on track. And Ethan, who led the way, all along, to safety.
It's a one-day crash, that was long over-due. I feel better already. Thanks to everyone here.
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Sometimes writing can help you overcome things or see them in better perspective, it always seem to help me :)
I'm sorry to read that you had a rough day, but you've come to right place to share your feelings and where everyone stand by you!
A nice hug helps indeed so you get some from me as well :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Hope this helps a little ^f^ ^f^
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Dear Anaconda - helps a lot. It's a one-day hit. Am just wondering now, if it's going to happen to others. If it's a transition of some kind. If so, keep those hugs on stand-by, for the others, too. Much love, Tony.
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Dear Tony, ^f^
Above all,you mustn't feel ashamed for anything you've or haven't done before,for any reaction you've had or you think you haven't had "when it would be usual"...You,the same than each one of us,have your own and private way of helping the others and helping yourself,neither better nor more human than any other.Said this,I know perfectly what is happenning to you now,because I could quote almost every word you've said about your reaction and feelings now.
Yes,we've tried to help these ones who felt weaker the best we can,and at the same time we've been helped by others stronger than us,or maybe who are able to change their priorities when it's needed.After having passed the first moments of confussion,shock and great grief,we really believe we've overcame these feelings,living our day by day life as always,as before...And some day,we don't know how,we don't know where it comes from,we don't know WHY,we break down; or at least,we feel in a worse state than some weeks before.I think it's logical and very common in people who has lost a beloved person;precisely when everything seems to be "under control",when enough time has passed as to overcome the initial amount of emotional charge.
Someone told me that this would happen to me when my mother passed away,and I must confess that,when I didn't remember these words because my life had got its normality,they were a painful truth.Sometimes we're like sponges that absorb other's persons pain,and we feel weaker at the end,because we've emptied ourselves trying to forget,to tell to ourselves we're well,we've already overcame everything.And that's not true.
But I've said a lot of times these weeks that time is the best healer;I must believe it because I also feel weaker and sadder than few weeks ago.And,even if it's for selfishness,I must believe,I must know how to apply to myself.Wait and everything gonna be allright again,I'm sure.I must be so. :^^)
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Tony, we all grief on our own schedule, and your entire post below is a beautiful tribute to Heath, who inspired this forum, this valley of peace and friendship, as you so wonderfully put in many weeks ago. All the people you mentioned are here for you because we share a love for Ennis and Jack. And you know we share a lot more than our love for Ennis, and our love for Heath. You and I have connected on many topics over the last six months, and your helping me in the past is very much appreciated.
You are not alone having a delayed reaction to Heath's birthday. I thought I was okay on Friday, then out of the blue, yesterday, I recalled my own loss twenty eight years ago, and realized how it mirrored the loss of Heath. Of course, the magnitudes are very different, but the emotional quality of grief over loss opportunities, loss future happiness... I was in tears, perhaps at the same time as you. Talk about synchronicity. In any case, Tony, :ghug: You are never alone.
You know where to come when you need a friend, a ear to hear your words, rambling or not, a shoulder to lean on, crying with tears or not, a hand to hold, just to share.
You are always loved, here, in this valley of peace and friendship, or unconditional love and acceptance.
:ghug:
Love, Always. :c)
Well, Brokie in trouble, today. Me. For some reason, I had thought getting past Heath's birthday would be a big step forward on a lot of personal healing where I had thought I had been doing very, very well, anyway. Don't know how or why but today I crashed bad for the first time since 1/22.
So much for theories. Please let me bleed a little today, as that would help.
I had a sort of secret when I came to this forum, and that was that I had a great respect for Heath as someone who represented the opposite of everything I did not like going on in my life. And in the world. I had seen BBM, was bowled over, but Heath Ledger was just one of the actors, and no big deal. Then, on the DVD, there were interviews with Heath, the person, and I saw ruggednesss and sensitivity, intelligence without ego, that goofy sense of humor and DAMN - - the friend I'd always wanted. So I joined the forum to be around people who respected the movie, yes, but also to be around those who also thought well of Heath. It was a way to explore the movie, but also have a friendship from a distance.
But I had never trolled the photos much, nor read all the interviews---Heath was....Heath. Why bother? When he died, though, there was a deluge of information, a fleshing out of the person, and this time, I read and found so much more to him, making the loss so much more to the worse. Just as I was learning so much more to the good, then, was exactly when he was gone.
I remember doing fairly well on this thread, and trying to console others. I didn't go weepy, but held back. PM's helped a lot. I had never socialized much by PM, but had a river of PM's and e-mails that were a great help. Most came to me, and I wouldn't mention the names of those that were intense and prolonged, but can mention and thank those who, out of common decency, checked in once, or more often, including LD, Jer, Michelle, Ayashae, Alicia, and, of course, Andrew. I couldn't write to Baby Tammy as we would have both have been a mess-she gets me emotional.
I didn't do so well when I originated PM's. I sent a few off to Kathy, during a confused 1-2 days, she was kindness itself, but she's probably still scratching her head over a brief period when I was doing research on Heath and it was all garbled.
Then there were the posts. I noticed FlowerChild put aside her own grief and rushed to help others. I saw Keren's posts and was miserable over an occasion when I had been rude to her, months before. And now, here I was, dependent on Keren for her work on the photo & interview pages.
Having been a jerk, all I could do was grieve along with her, separately.
The most beautiful help came from people I'd never met, who don't post much, so I can't mention them. Welshwitch, who is my favorite Brokie, for her wit and good will, was of the other kind, someone I wrote and she was kind enough to write back.
But it was all a blur, the memorial threads, the PM's and a sense that things would get better. And they always did. I got through 10 weeks so well, am almost ashamed I could just bumble along, read the beautiful poetry, help out where I could, and feel so very good about those that wrote me of their hurts, that I could help.
But today - out of nowhere, it finally caught up with me. There's no going back. The blur is now a sharp focus. A good man I wanted to think of as the best possible friend in a world of too much malice, really is gone. Why today, I don't know. Maybe it's progress, moving out of the blur and just accepting, fully and finally, there isn't any going back. Thanks for letting me bleed a little. The way I see it, each of us meets that day of transition,
and it can really be a sting, as one door closes and you have to look for another that will open up. Sorry for getting personal. A very rough day.
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You are always loved, here, in this valley of peace and friendship, or unconditional love and acceptance.
:ghug:
Love, Always. :c)
This sentence is one of the most reassuring things I've heard in a long time. I wish I could share it with the many others who feel so alone and uncertain. Unconditional love nad acceptance is the most I think anyone could hope for as we all desire it at some point in our lives. Lance, I know you were talking to a special friend but it is all inspiring.
Not having any real interest in actors or industry gossip and the such I was feeling as though I had done Heath wrong by not knowing his birthday. But I came to realize that it was his life - his most recent journey - that I was sharing with him. And that will forever be my bond with him.
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MPJ, you are so right. Time is the medicine. But so, too, is decency from others. And I remember among the others, as I mentioned above, extreme decency and good will from you and Andrew. We all helped each other out at low points and that is what Andrew refers to as the Valley of Peace.
Morning, you sound like a wonderful person, and am glad you've shown up. You will see what MPJ and Andrew spoke of, a common bond, and a lot of healing, when needed, from each other. You've come to the right place.
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Tony, first lots of hugs to you.
When, why and how are questions which we may have no answer. If there is any answer to all these, it would be the love and support from everyone here in good or bad times. To me, it is most comforting and the blessing of this community.
Not having any real interest in actors or industry gossip and the such I was feeling as though I had done Heath wrong by not knowing his birthday. But I came to realize that it was his life - his most recent journey - that I was sharing with him. And that will forever be my bond with him.
You may not know his birthday but he lives in your heart all the time. That is the most precious place one can give. Thank you!
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ethan, tony and others. I am so glad to be here with you.
Thanks!
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Morning, glad to have you with us. :^^) :ghug:
Let's gather at this campfire. To some of you, our bond may be a distant friendship but I can certainly feel each one of you, you being just you. :ghug:
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Tony, your post is beautiful. I agree with what MPJ had said, that will all have different times when we finally come to the realization of our loss. You have no reason to ashamed of when you the grief of Heath's death finally hit you. It took me over 2 days to try and get my mind about the fact that he had died. I remember waking up the morning after he died and it hit me, my mind racing with the thought "Heath Ledger is dead"...god, I will never forget that. His birthday, April 4th, for me, was so mixed with emotions and probably will be because a birthday is supposed to celebrate another year of life, not one less. Heath, I know, would have wanted his 29th birthday to be a day with his family, his daughter, and friends. So I understand why your grief of his death would finally come out now. But of course, please know that I, well as so many Brokies here, give lots of love and hugs through this difficult time for you :ghug: :ghug:
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It's a one-day crash, that was long over-due. I feel better already. Thanks to everyone here.
There will be other days again, but I am very glad you are feeling better now, and when those other days come, remember you always have a place to come to and people who care how you're feeling :ghug:
I thought it was very interesting how you mentioned you cared for Heath, yet had no idea when his birthday was, "Heath was just Heath". Whenever asked who I cared for more, Heath or Jake, I would always respond honestly...I love them both equally. Yet, if someone had asked me before I had to witness 4/4/79-1/22/08 written a hundred times when Heath's birthday was, I would have had no idea, yet could answer Dec 19 immediately if asked Jake's. Heath always asked for his privacy, and I think, even subconsously, we wanted to give it to him.
Sorry for getting personal. A very rough day.
....And there is no reason to ever apologize on this site Tony. There is no such thing as too personal when you are talking and sharing with family ^f^
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Thanks, jessicat80, and, thanks to everyone here, am out of that gloom. I did know it was Heath's birthday. What I meant was that prior to the tragedy, I just had a personal take on Heath as the good guy I admired, and never pursued the photos, the interviews, etc. Then it turned out the general outline of him was absolutely true and yet so much more, so much better, and even any faults just made for more humanity to him.
It was like getting hit by a truck to find out I had him right, but that there was 100 times more.
Thanks. also, to Ethan. And LD? You did a great job in finding those videos you posted. Thanks to you, I saw Heath's earliest acting, this morning.
You are a very talented researcher as you find stuff others miss. Good night, everyone, and jessicat80, thanks again. Much love, Tony.
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:ghug: Tony. I can't really say it any better than anyone else has already done in the beautiful replies to you. But there is nothing wrong with grieiving or how we do it. We can't help when things hit us out of the clear blue, for example, I had something hit me at my daughter's soccer game today that triggered the tears, so no where is safe. You know we are all here for you when it starts to crash down or even before it gets to that- we'll be here tomorrow, next week or even a year from now. :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Tony. I can't really say it any better than anyone else has already done in the beautiful replies to you. But there is nothing wrong with grieiving or how we do it. We can't help when things hit us out of the clear blue, for example, I had something hit me at my daughter's soccer game today that triggered the tears, so no where is safe. You know we are all here for you when it starts to crash down or even before it gets to that- we'll be here tomorrow, next week or even a year from now. :ghug: :ghug:
Oh yes Michelle, those awful "triggers" are everywhere. I went to Disney this weekend and thought I'd be ok escaping Heath's birthday in the "happiest place on earth". Of course not. We walked by the teacup ride, and I thought of one of the last photos I had seen of him before his death (I haven't seen it anywhere since?) . It was a photo taken by someone (not paps) in line for the teacup ride, and they let on a bunch of VIPs on first and she noticed it was Heath and his daughter Matilda, so she took a photo. Those triggers are everywhere, but they just remind us that we still care strongly about things....anything. Having those strong feelings remind us that we are alive, and that's definitely a good thing ^f^ Love and hugs to you all, Jess:) :^^) :ghug:
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I think I understand what you are saying here, Tony, and to some extent I feel the same thing.
...Then it turned out the general outline of him was absolutely true and yet so much more, so much better, and even any faults just made for more humanity to him. It was like getting hit by a truck to find out I had him right, but that there was 100 times more.
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:ghug: to you Jess
but they just remind us that we still care strongly about things....anything. Having those strong feelings remind us that we are alive, and that's definitely a good thing Well said and so true. :ghug:
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... We walked by the teacup ride, and I thought of one of the last photos I had seen of him before his death (I haven't seen it anywhere since?) .
I had exactly the same thoughts Jess, when passing by the teacup ride.
Those triggers are everywhere, but they just remind us that we still care strongly about things....anything. Having those strong feelings remind us that we are alive, and that's definitely a good thing.
Well said and so true. To celebrate life is a way of thanking Heath for the inspirations and strength he passed on to me through his work, I feel.
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I can't believe we just said exactly the same thing, LuvJackNasty <^(
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That we did and welcome to forum :ghug:
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Thanks and I know I said it before but I'll say it again: I love this forum and all you incredibly sensitive, insightful and funny people each with a big heart. I am glad to be here. <^(
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Well, Brokie in trouble, today. Me. For some reason, I had thought getting past Heath's birthday would be a big step forward on a lot of personal healing where I had thought I had been doing very, very well, anyway. Don't know how or why but today I crashed bad for the first time since 1/22.
So much for theories. Please let me bleed a little today, as that would help.
I had a sort of secret when I came to this forum, and that was that I had a great respect for Heath as someone who represented the opposite of everything I did not like going on in my life. And in the world. I had seen BBM, was bowled over, but Heath Ledger was just one of the actors, and no big deal. Then, on the DVD, there were interviews with Heath, the person, and I saw ruggednesss and sensitivity, intelligence without ego, that goofy sense of humor and DAMN - - the friend I'd always wanted. So I joined the forum to be around people who respected the movie, yes, but also to be around those who also thought well of Heath. It was a way to explore the movie, but also have a friendship from a distance.
But I had never trolled the photos much, nor read all the interviews---Heath was....Heath. Why bother? When he died, though, there was a deluge of information, a fleshing out of the person, and this time, I read and found so much more to him, making the loss so much more to the worse. Just as I was learning so much more to the good, then, was exactly when he was gone.
I remember doing fairly well on this thread, and trying to console others. I didn't go weepy, but held back. PM's helped a lot. I had never socialized much by PM, but had a river of PM's and e-mails that were a great help. Most came to me, and I wouldn't mention the names of those that were intense and prolonged, but can mention and thank those who, out of common decency, checked in once, or more often, including LD, Jer, Michelle, Ayashae, Alicia, and, of course, Andrew. I couldn't write to Baby Tammy as we would have both have been a mess-she gets me emotional.
I didn't do so well when I originated PM's. I sent a few off to Kathy, during a confused 1-2 days, she was kindness itself, but she's probably still scratching her head over a brief period when I was doing research on Heath and it was all garbled.
Then there were the posts. I noticed FlowerChild put aside her own grief and rushed to help others. I saw Keren's posts and was miserable over an occasion when I had been rude to her, months before. And now, here I was, dependent on Keren for her work on the photo & interview pages.
Having been a jerk, all I could do was grieve along with her, separately.
The most beautiful help came from people I'd never met, who don't post much, so I can't mention them. Welshwitch, who is my favorite Brokie, for her wit and good will, was of the other kind, someone I wrote and she was kind enough to write back.
But it was all a blur, the memorial threads, the PM's and a sense that things would get better. And they always did. I got through 10 weeks so well, am almost ashamed I could just bumble along, read the beautiful poetry, help out where I could, and feel so very good about those that wrote me of their hurts, that I could help.
But today - out of nowhere, it finally caught up with me. There's no going back. The blur is now a sharp focus. A good man I wanted to think of as the best possible friend in a world of too much malice, really is gone. Why today, I don't know. Maybe it's progress, moving out of the blur and just accepting, fully and finally, there isn't any going back. Thanks for letting me bleed a little. The way I see it, each of us meets that day of transition,
and it can really be a sting, as one door closes and you have to look for another that will open up. Sorry for getting personal. A very rough day.
Oh Tony :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: You have nothing to apologize for. Grief works that way, I guess, it hits you at the most unexpected times... and sometimes you think you're over it and doing realy well, and then it hits again. You can't always be strong for others, you realy did your best to support other people and there are times when you should lean on others, and let others comfort you. Everything you said about Heath was so true. He was a unique person. The more we learn about him, the bigger the loss gets :\'(. It's only natural to break down and crash from time to time, and it will probably happen again... and you should just let that happen, because it's okay to grieve, and you're not alone in it.
As for me, I can't even remember when were you rude to me, maybe we had a disagreement but I can't remember you being rude, so it certainly couldn't have been anything serious! And it's a shame that you'd feel bad over something that I can't recall. I am not offended by you in any way, I assure you ^f^ ^f^. Please, don't feel bad. I'm happy that the photos I post bring some comfort to you. Heath is a beauty, inside and out.
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Dear Keren - That was very kind of you. Yeah, we're all subject to crashes, and mine was yesterday, and caught me by surprise. I did see a post of yours, one time, where you said Heath was complex and you kind of liked that. That was the area of my crash, as I had a simplistic take on him and then discovered that basic view was true, but there was so much more. And all of that so much more fleshed him out as a person, making the loss that much to the worse.
But again, the work you have done on the photos and interviews, all this time, has been a major part of the heritage of this forum. I know others do a lot of work there, but you've held down the fort, all along. I didn't appreciate that until I needed it, and there it was. And I saw, for the first time, your passion for Heath, and felt bad when you posted of your own hurts, as I knew they were based on a faithful love. All I know is, you were there for all of us, and I kinda sorta think a lot of the guest visitors see what you have done as well. From me, thanks. Love, Tony.
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Tony, I'm sending you a big big hug :ghug:. Thank you for your wonderful words.
I read this again, today, and it brought tears to my eyes... again. Diana Ossana's tribute to Heath, in The Advocate:
'Heath was an old soul in a young man's frame, extremely masculine, extremely competent in all things, and yet sensitive beyond belief. In person Heath was animated and kinetic and full of life, far different from the character he portrayed in Brokeback Mountain. He was always disheveled, unconcerned with his appearance, because - like my writing partner, Larry McMurtry - Heath lived in his head. Heath was a pure actor, much like Larry is a pure writer, and I was moved by the similarities between these two seemingly very different men.'
'One of my most endearing memories of working with Heath on set was the day we filmed the final scene in Brokeback. Before the first take, Heath walked over to me, a big smile on his face, and said, "I think you're going to like what I've done with this scene." Then he headed inside that bleak little trailer house, and the cameras rolled. I watched the monitor as Ennis opened his tiny closet door and revealed the two shirts he had found hidden inside Jack's childhood bedroom, like skins, one inside the other... and realized that Heath, as Ennis, had chosen to reverse the order of those shirts, with his on the outside, embracing Jack's. Such was Heath's commitment to the truth of our story and to the rawness and depth of his portrayal. Afterward our grizzled and thoroughly macho first assistant director marched over to me, bent down, and whispered in my ear, "Diana, I've worked in this business 50 years. This is the first time an actor's brought a tear to my eye".'
'Heath was generous and dear, painfully shy and gifted, and I will miss him for the rest of my days.'
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Tony, I'm sending you a big big hug :ghug:. Thank you for your wonderful words.
I read this again, today, and it brought tears to my eyes... again. Diana Ossana's tribute to Heath, in The Advocate:
'Heath was an old soul in a young man's frame, extremely masculine, extremely competent in all things, and yet sensitive beyond belief. In person Heath was animated and kinetic and full of life, far different from the character he portrayed in Brokeback Mountain. He was always disheveled, unconcerned with his appearance, because - like my writing partner, Larry McMurtry - Heath lived in his head. Heath was a pure actor, much like Larry is a pure writer, and I was moved by the similarities between these two seemingly very different men.'
'One of my most endearing memories of working with Heath on set was the day we filmed the final scene in Brokeback. Before the first take, Heath walked over to me, a big smile on his face, and said, "I think you're going to like what I've done with this scene." Then he headed inside that bleak little trailer house, and the cameras rolled. I watched the monitor as Ennis opened his tiny closet door and revealed the two shirts he had found hidden inside Jack's childhood bedroom, like skins, one inside the other... and realized that Heath, as Ennis, had chosen to reverse the order of those shirts, with his on the outside, embracing Jack's. Such was Heath's commitment to the truth of our story and to the rawness and depth of his portrayal. Afterward our grizzled and thoroughly macho first assistant director marched over to me, bent down, and whispered in my ear, "Diana, I've worked in this business 50 years. This is the first time an actor's brought a tear to my eye".'
'Heath was generous and dear, painfully shy and gifted, and I will miss him for the rest of my days.'
Keren, I love that story, it's so beautiful.
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:ghug: to everyone. We first went to Spring Natural Restaurant and then Miro Cafe. The places where Heath used to hang out. LJN, thanks for the pix.
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Chess area in Washington Square.
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Going to those places was not easy but it was more bearable and special to be with Brokies. It warmed me to see the bounding we have. I know we are under Heath's blessing. Thank you, Heath, wherever you are.
There is so much love coming off this page, it's impossible to describe.
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'Heath was an old soul in a young man's frame, extremely masculine, extremely competent in all things, and yet sensitive beyond belief. In person Heath was animated and kinetic and full of life, far different from the character he portrayed in Brokeback Mountain. He was always disheveled, unconcerned with his appearance, because - like my writing partner, Larry McMurtry - Heath lived in his head. Heath was a pure actor, much like Larry is a pure writer, and I was moved by the similarities between these two seemingly very different men.'
'One of my most endearing memories of working with Heath on set was the day we filmed the final scene in Brokeback. Before the first take, Heath walked over to me, a big smile on his face, and said, "I think you're going to like what I've done with this scene." Then he headed inside that bleak little trailer house, and the cameras rolled. I watched the monitor as Ennis opened his tiny closet door and revealed the two shirts he had found hidden inside Jack's childhood bedroom, like skins, one inside the other... and realized that Heath, as Ennis, had chosen to reverse the order of those shirts, with his on the outside, embracing Jack's. Such was Heath's commitment to the truth of our story and to the rawness and depth of his portrayal. Afterward our grizzled and thoroughly macho first assistant director marched over to me, bent down, and whispered in my ear, "Diana, I've worked in this business 50 years. This is the first time an actor's brought a tear to my eye".'
'Heath was generous and dear, painfully shy and gifted, and I will miss him for the rest of my days.'
Keren,
Thanks for sharing this beautiful storyline about Heath. It touches me tenderly.
~ Morning
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I remember, earlier on in this thread, many members started to have Heath-related dreams...but I, never had one. Yesterday, I finally had that dream.
It was short and sudden and at first, I couldn't tell who it was. It was dark, and someone was crying, not just a few tears, but breaking down, crying. The man gathered himself up and walked out of the room, wiping tears, in an almost daze, looking around, watching people look at him, confused. I saw that it was Heath. He walked around and it was like he didn't even know he was dead but everyone else knew. I don't remember everything else that happened after that, but my last vision of him, before leaving my dream, was him, young and innocent, looking at me with these soft, kind, endearing eyes, a very small smile on his face as he leaned his arm aganist the door heading and then finally he looked away and walked out the door. I still, cannot get my mind wrapped around on what the dream meant, but that own image of him at the end still is clear in my mind. :-\\
P.S. Keren, that quote from The Adovate is beautiful and SO well written, the way she talked about our beloved Heath :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: LD Try to take comfort from the dream and focus on the last vision of him. I had a dream where I got a hug about a month ago and in the "real world" it may not mean anything but to me it meant so much. :ghug:
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Let me throw in some :ghug: too.
My take on that is that he was processing a lot of things at first, and then having found what he needed, transformed from that sad person into the younger looking, happier, free person that you saw when he turned and left, leaving you with a reassuring smile. :)
That's just my interpretation and not meant to be an authoritative comment of any kind. The dream means whatever it says to you. I'm glad you have that image of him smiling before he left. :ghug:
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Oh Tony :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: You have nothing to apologize for. Grief works that way, I guess, it hits you at the most unexpected times... and sometimes you think you're over it and doing realy well, and then it hits again. You can't always be strong for others, you realy did your best to support other people and there are times when you should lean on others, and let others comfort you. Everything you said about Heath was so true. He was a unique person. The more we learn about him, the bigger the loss gets :\'(. It's only natural to break down and crash from time to time, and it will probably happen again... and you should just let that happen, because it's okay to grieve, and you're not alone in it.
As for me, I can't even remember when were you rude to me, maybe we had a disagreement but I can't remember you being rude, so it certainly couldn't have been anything serious! And it's a shame that you'd feel bad over something that I can't recall. I am not offended by you in any way, I assure you ^f^ ^f^. Please, don't feel bad. I'm happy that the photos I post bring some comfort to you. Heath is a beauty, inside and out.
I am glad to see this exchange between you two. I have been learning to overcome my own sense of guilt over things I've done, and anger over things others have done. It's one of the most difficult challenges of mine. And interestingly enough, I achieved a bit of a breakthrough today, thinking of Heath's old soul, and how our lives are interconnected in so many ways, that life is too precious to spend even a minute getting angry or feeling sad over something that others may not even remember. So I have made a conscious decision today to live life with joy and peace again. Although the sadness still come in waves from time to time, I managed to fend them off, and surf to new heights, reveling in the joy of living instead. I have made a few conscious choices in my life, choices that I remember many years later. This is one of them. I've always wondered how people who are so even tempered, how they do it. Now I think I see it. It is conscious effort, and a lot of work, constantly being reminded, to see the bigger mosaic, and not the tiny beads.
It's easier now, to remind myself to be gentle and kind, when I am constantly reminded, how Heath lived his life. I just needed a role model. So the constant sadness of missing Heath is now replaced by a constant reminder to live as he did. I don't know if this makes sense, but it came to me the other day, that Heath was the answer to a prayer I once had, to have a tangible, more personal example of love and faith, than the ones taught in churches and in the Bible. It never occurred to me all these months, until just this week. I know Heath is much bigger than that, than little old me, but I am grateful, for even a small piece of this gift. It is why he will always be in my heart, always.
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I am glad to see this exchange between you two. I have been learning to overcome my own sense of guilt over things I've done, and anger over things others have done. It's one of the most difficult challenges of mine. And interestingly enough, I achieved a bit of a breakthrough today, thinking of Heath's old soul, and how our lives are interconnected in so many ways, that life is too precious to spend even a minute getting angry or feeling sad over something that others may not even remember. So I have made a conscious decision today to live life with joy and peace again. Although the sadness still come in waves from time to time, I managed to fend them off, and surf to new heights, reveling in the joy of living instead. I have made a few conscious choices in my life, choices that I remember many years later. This is one of them. I've always wondered how people who are so even tempered, how they do it. Now I think I see it. It is conscious effort, and a lot of work, constantly being reminded, to see the bigger mosaic, and not the tiny beads.
It's easier now, to remind myself to be gentle and kind, when I am constantly reminded, how Heath lived his life. I just needed a role model. So the constant sadness of missing Heath is now replaced by a constant reminder to live as he did. I don't know if this makes sense, but it came to me the other day, that Heath was the answer to a prayer I once had, to have a tangible, more personal example of love and faith, than the ones taught in churches and in the Bible. It never occurred to me all these months, until just this week. I know Heath is much bigger than that, than little old me, but I am grateful, for even a small piece of this gift. It is why he will always be in my heart, always.
This is so beautiful. We would all do well to have Heath as a role model. And to not waste precious time in our lives being unkind or being unreasonably hurt by unkindness. I'm glad you feel an answer has come to you...
kathy
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LD,
Some say that dreams are our way of manifesting hidden feelings. Some say that dreams are our way of communicating with others - deceased and alive.
I would only say that you are so blessed to have had that dream; whatever you may decide it means.
~Morning
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I've got your rainbows seen your sunbeams
I know a place where heaven breathes
And it's through her window
Your baby girl's window
I know you're happy where you are
Singing to the moon talking to the stars
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
There's finger marks around her soul
But your laughter fills the hole
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
People say you were gone too soon
I see your face when flowers bloom
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
I'm looking for the words to say
Something to take the pain away
Through her window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
Robbie Williams - Baby Girl Window
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I've got your rainbows seen your sunbeams
I know a place where heaven breathes
And it's through her window
Your baby girl's window
I know you're happy where you are
Singing to the moon talking to the stars
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
There's finger marks around her soul
But your laughter fills the hole
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
People say you were gone too soon
I see your face when flowers bloom
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
I'm looking for the words to say
Something to take the pain away
Through her window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
Robbie Williams - Baby Girl Window
The words and the pictures are beautiful!! ^f^
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Thank you for sharing that Anaconda. It really is beautiful. :\'( <^(
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I've got your rainbows seen your sunbeams
I know a place where heaven breathes
And it's through her window
Your baby girl's window
I know you're happy where you are
Singing to the moon talking to the stars
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
There's finger marks around her soul
But your laughter fills the hole
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
People say you were gone too soon
I see your face when flowers bloom
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
I'm looking for the words to say
Something to take the pain away
Through her window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
Robbie Williams - Baby Girl Window
The pics and the words are just beautiful.
Thank you for posting them¡ ^f^
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I am glad to see this exchange between you two. I have been learning to overcome my own sense of guilt over things I've done, and anger over things others have done. It's one of the most difficult challenges of mine. And interestingly enough, I achieved a bit of a breakthrough today, thinking of Heath's old soul, and how our lives are interconnected in so many ways, that life is too precious to spend even a minute getting angry or feeling sad over something that others may not even remember. So I have made a conscious decision today to live life with joy and peace again. Although the sadness still come in waves from time to time, I managed to fend them off, and surf to new heights, reveling in the joy of living instead. I have made a few conscious choices in my life, choices that I remember many years later. This is one of them. I've always wondered how people who are so even tempered, how they do it. Now I think I see it. It is conscious effort, and a lot of work, constantly being reminded, to see the bigger mosaic, and not the tiny beads.
It's easier now, to remind myself to be gentle and kind, when I am constantly reminded, how Heath lived his life. I just needed a role model. So the constant sadness of missing Heath is now replaced by a constant reminder to live as he did. I don't know if this makes sense, but it came to me the other day, that Heath was the answer to a prayer I once had, to have a tangible, more personal example of love and faith, than the ones taught in churches and in the Bible. It never occurred to me all these months, until just this week. I know Heath is much bigger than that, than little old me, but I am grateful, for even a small piece of this gift. It is why he will always be in my heart, always.
Your words have been wise,as always,Andrew.Thanks to sharing them with all of us,because they give us a lesson of how living our life in the best way for ourselves and to celebrate Heath and his own life.If we only think for a moment in life's fragility,it's sure we learn to live it more fully,without bitterness that now drawn us and make drawn the ones who surround us...It will be a hard and rocky way to learn this,the same than learn to live without him,but we should try; enjoy having known him and what he has left to all of us,instead of crying for what we've lost.He deserves it, and he always will. ^f^
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The words and the pictures are beautiful!! ^f^
Thank you for sharing that Anaconda. It really is beautiful. :\'( <^(
The pics and the words are just beautiful.Thank you for posting them¡ ^f^
Thank you very much girls ^f^
When i heard the lyrics i was in tears and immediately had to think of Heath...
The lyrics are so fitting for the situation..
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I've got your rainbows seen your sunbeams
I know a place where heaven breathes
And it's through her window
Your baby girl's window
I know you're happy where you are
Singing to the moon talking to the stars
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
There's finger marks around her soul
But your laughter fills the hole
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
People say you were gone too soon
I see your face when flowers bloom
Through her window
Your baby girl's window
I'm looking for the words to say
Something to take the pain away
Through her window
Aaah I wish you would stay
Aaah to see what she made of herself
Robbie Williams - Baby Girl Window
Anaconda, Robbie Williams words are so beautiful and it's scary how much it relates to Heath and how he now will be looking at the world, through this Matildas "window" :\'(
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Thank you everybody for your interpretations about the dream.
Morning, I do believe that dreams are connection to others, or spirits, even though not everyone I know says the same...
And FC, I love your words:
"he was processing a lot of things at first, and then having found what he needed, transformed from that sad person into the younger looking, happier, free person that you saw when he turned and left, leaving you with a reassuring smile."
That interpretation is what I was trying to find, graps from the dream and I'd like to think thats what it meant to me. The smile wasn't big, but it was, like you said, ressausing, saying to me like "I'm ok", which always breaks my heart :-\\
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Thank you everybody for your interpretations about the dream.
Morning, I do believe that dreams are connection to others, or spirits, even though not everyone I know says the same...
And FC, I love your words:
"he was processing a lot of things at first, and then having found what he needed, transformed from that sad person into the younger looking, happier, free person that you saw when he turned and left, leaving you with a reassuring smile."
That interpretation is what I was trying to find, graps from the dream and I'd like to think thats what it meant to me. The smile wasn't big, but it was, like you said, ressausing, saying to me like "I'm ok", which always breaks my heart :-\\
Hugs to you. I know how you feel. :ghug: :ghug:
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Your words have been wise,as always,Andrew.Thanks to sharing them with all of us,because they give us a lesson of how living our life in the best way for ourselves and to celebrate Heath and his own life.If we only think for a moment in life's fragility,it's sure we learn to live it more fully,without bitterness that now drawn us and make drawn the ones who surround us...It will be a hard and rocky way to learn this,the same than learn to live without him,but we should try; enjoy having known him and what he has left to all of us,instead of crying for what we've lost.He deserves it, and he always will. ^f^
Thank you myprivatejack, byt I am the one who learns a lot here. All the news articles, the links to tributes by Heath's friends, people who knew him and worked with him, telling stories and anecdotes, each word, each story, painting another part of the big picture, so huge, so deep that even now, his closest friends are surprised by the outpouring of love from all over, from all kinds of people. Heath's gift was to touch the heart and soul of people he met, any where, any time, any one. He touched me through the character of Ennis, in a way that no one else could. If Jack was the key that opened Ennis' heart and released the passion and love there, then Heath was the key that opened my heart, as I am sure, he was to many others.
After the shock of loss, now comes the hard work, of making life work with the feeling of emptiness still fresh, still hurting. But it is not so hard, when we have the many happy memories of a life lived without regret, without wasted minutes.
I found a video the other day, while browsing youtube in random, and thought right the way that it was perfect for someone I knew who could use it at that moment. I sent it to him, but did not realize that I was the intended recipient. It is now one of my favorite songs. It is one of a few songs that I listen to everyday, to draw strength, to gain energy, and to remind myself to remember the good memories with smiles and laughter, not tears and grief. There is a time for everything, and now is the time to live life as Heath lived it. It is hard to believe that it's only been 80 days. But if we can go around the world in 80 days a century ago, then we can turn a page over the grief, and begin a new journey of honoring Heath with our joy of living life as he would want us to live, full of optimism, filled with energy, and radiating love and sincerity.
Here is the link to the video at youtube.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=R_zi4OxJpY0
The song is called My Wish, by Rascal Flatts. Here are the words, which are also in the video.
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.
But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big
(Repeat)
(Chorus)
:ghug: to everyone here :c)
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What a beautiful painting, I adore people with drawing talents, that I don't have...
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Dear lance, as Raskal Fats concerned, one of my favorites is :
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away show the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do .
Ravenus made a beautiful and haunting video !!!
It's paired with a great song and the scenes from BBM, absolutely,painfully amazing... You can see Heath's devotion to the role that is Ennis.. heartbreaking..
RIP my sweet angel :\'( <^(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vVHbm89jYKw
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lc, thank you for posting that, both the lyrics and the link. :^^)
It's a wonderful reminder of what's really important in life. ^f^
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Grateful Traveler
Remember me, with a smile not sorrow.
My time here on earth was brief,
but oh how much I lived.
I filled each day with purpose
and tried my best to give
a little piece of who I am
to everyone I knew.
And I found in doing so
the love inside me grew.
But a body has its limits and now I need to rest.
My spirit lives forever though and I have been truly blessed.
I left my mark upon the world and in my little girl.
And what more could I ask of life
than to let me be true to myself,
and when it was my time to go
be proud of who I was?
So bid me not to stay, now that my work here is done.
Let me fly free and in remembering me
Share in my journey as I shared in yours.
I am a grateful traveler.
I was only passing through.
But if you keep me in your heart,
I will always live in you.
I have been a member here for a couple of months, but only read the posts, never posted anything myself. But now I have to! This poem describes him so perfectly. It's so beautiful, through and through! I'm so grateful I have read it! And I have a confession to make: I am a moderator at HeathHeathens.net, and without asking (since it's on a public thread) I posted your poem there and linked it here. I would like to share the replies it got:
"I am almost beyond words. That was so beautiful it takes my breath a way. What a tremendous tribute-and what makes it oh so more lovely is that each word is true and Heath was a remarkable soul."
"That was maybe one of the most beautiful poems that I have ever read...it was perfect...the way that she described Heath as a traveller, and only here for a short while...
Thank you so much for finding it and sharing.."
"That was truly beautiful. It gave me goosebumps. I don't know what else to say.... :\'( :clap:"
"this person deserves a statue
lost for words" :)
I'm so grateful for everything that can help me keep my nose above the water at the moment - and your poem took me to the surface and helped me draw the first breath of fresh air in days! Thank you so much!
With love to you all!//Nina
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I'm so sorry if this is a little off-topic but I'm so frustrated right now, you have no idea.
I am a Michael Johns fan in the TV singing show, "American Idol". He was sweet, friendly guy in his late 20s. The 1st day he came on the Auditions I was amazed by him. The strange thing about him was, he shared some similarities with Heath. He was from Australia, he was 28 when he came onto the American Idol stage and...he was from Perth. It was so weird. But he made me smile. Tonight, he got voted off American Idol and the WHOLE audience was literally in awwe of how he could be voted off. I know I might sound crazy and you can stop me but it seemed like, Michael was helping me get over the death of Heath SO much. I had so high hopes for him, he had an amazing voice and even the judges said he did pretty good. He was never in the bottem 3 before and then out of the blue, he was kicked off. I can't even begin to tell you all how I feel but I feel like all of the feelings I had when Heath passed away are coming back and I can't deal with it. I know how stupid this sounds and I have no idea why I'm writing this on the "In Loving Memory thread" for Heath when I'm talking about Michael too but I don't know. People say that he'll have a much more successful career in the end but I just...ugg
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C'mere Lis. :ghug: :ghug:
You know, I don't suppose anything is off topic that is about Heath and how you remember him, get over the loss of him, or just plain love him. I'm sorry this person got bumped (I don't watch the show, but I've heard about him). Maybe he'll show up again in an even more significant way for you. Either way, lots of love and :ghug: as you work through your grief.
Midsummernina, I don't quite know what to say. I'm happy to have my poems shared, as that's what they're for to me in the first place. I'm glad that people enjoyed it and a little overwhelmed by the response. Thank you for sharing that here. Welcome to posting. We're happy to have you with us. :ghug:
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C'mere Lis. :ghug: :ghug:
You know, I don't suppose anything is off topic that is about Heath and how you remember him, get over the loss of him, or just plain love him. I'm sorry this person got bumped (I don't watch the show, but I've heard about him). Maybe he'll show up again in an even more significant way for you. Either way, lots of love and :ghug: as you work through your grief.
Thank you so much FC :ghug: :ghug:
I'm thankfully starting to relaxed, still in shocked of all of this but what can we do?
Your words are very true and they are what I was feeling, Michael helped me be happy after Heath's death
Heath will always be a part of me, no matter what...Michael just helped me get there to acceptance of his death
Thank you again :^^)
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lc, thank you for posting that, both the lyrics and the link. :^^)
It's a wonderful reminder of what's really important in life. ^f^
Thanks, FlwrChild. I tried to stay positive nowadays, or I'd end up weeping on the bus, waiting at the bus stop. So I play this song and others that keep me above water, as midsummernina said.
I am so glad she posted your poem to other forums. I thought it was an inspired work when I first read it, with tears in my eyes. I cannot read it without feeling Heath's image and voice. Thank you for making me proud of being a member here. :ghug: :^^) :c)
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Thanks, FlwrChild. I tried to stay positive nowadays, or I'd end up weeping on the bus, waiting at the bus stop. So I play this song and others that keep me above water, as midsummernina said.
I am so glad she posted your poem to other forums. I thought it was an inspired work when I first read it, with tears in my eyes. I cannot read it without feeling Heath's image and voice. Thank you for making me proud of being a member here. :ghug: :^^) :c)
Back at you, my friend. ^f^ It's an honor to be surrounded by the kind of open, caring , respectful people we have here. <^(
Do you know the song I Hope You Dance? It has a lot of the same message of the song you posted. I've added that one to my favorites now, as I can't get it out of my head either. Thanks again for sharing it. :^^)
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Thanks for the lyrics and the link to the video by Ravenus.
My reaction to it is interesting. I came across the song What Hurst The Most three times.
The first time while I was browsing what other songs by Rascal Flatts on youtube, and a not too inspiring video got me clicking onto the next song. I wasn't impressed by the title anyway. Hurting too much already nowadays...
The second time was after your post, reading the lyrics, and found another link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=FRI7AangPKY
This one is better than the first video, and sad, but I didn't cry, even watching it all the way through.
Then I got brave, and thought what the heck, before I post the link in response, I'd better check out the link you posted, just in case they point to the same video. I doubted since the one I saw was about a straight couple, and it was a student video. Well, to make a long story short, watching Ravenus putting Rascal Flatt's song with the most powerful scenes, the sobbing scenes all rolled into one... I cried my eyes out. Now I am ready to watch Four Feathers tonight, because I am a mess anyway. I was going to watch it, so I guess this was meant to be. :(
There ain't no reins on this one.
Dear lance, as Raskal Fats concerned, one of my favorites is :
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away show the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most was being
so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do .
Ravenus made a beautiful and haunting video !!!
It's paired with a great song and the scenes from BBM, absolutely,painfully amazing... You can see Heath's devotion to the role that is Ennis.. heartbreaking..
RIP my sweet angel :\'( <^(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vVHbm89jYKw
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Back at you, my friend. ^f^ It's an honor to be surrounded by the kind of open, caring , respectful people we have here. <^(
Do you know the song I Hope You Dance? It has a lot of the same message of the song you posted. I've added that one to my favorites now, as I can't get it out of my head either. Thanks again for sharing it. :^^)
:ghug: <^( Thanks, FlwrChild. You are an angel. The song is beautiful, and I found one by one of my favorite singers, Ronan Keating. The song reminds me so much of Heath as William Thatcher in A Knight's Tale, dancing after he won the tournament, with the love of his life. It also reminds of me Heath, who'd never sit it out, but would always choose to dance, given the chance.
Thanks, so much.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=mL0uRP-A7C0
Lyrics by Lee Ann Womack
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
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May you never take one single breath for granted
Wow, when you really sit down and listen, it could remind you so much of Heath, especially when I read the line above :-\\
I absoultly LOVE this song!
About 4 years ago, I went into a lyrical dance class and for the 1st time did a dance for the resitatal so this songs means so much to me so thank you LC for putting it on and FC for reminding us of this beautiful song ^f^
This is my favorite part that especially makes me think of Heath :\'( :\'(
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
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And I believe he did, I really do. I'm so glad his dance brought him by us. :ghug:
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The song is called My Wish, by Rascal Flatts. Here are the words, which are also in the video.
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.
But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big
(Repeat)
(Chorus)
:ghug: to everyone here :c)
Your words are always beautiful, lancecowboy... And this song -- very special. I wish this for me, and I wish this for you, too! For everyone.
kathy
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Ravenus made a beautiful and haunting video !!!
It's paired with a great song and the scenes from BBM, absolutely,painfully amazing... You can see Heath's devotion to the role that is Ennis.. heartbreaking..
RIP my sweet angel :\'( <^(
http://youtube.com/watch?v=vVHbm89jYKw
Thanks, hpv. This is such a beautiful video. She did do it so perfectly to show Ennis's hurt, and love... And you're so right about Heath, of course.
kathy
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I have been a member here for a couple of months, but only read the posts, never posted anything myself. But now I have to! This poem describes him so perfectly. It's so beautiful, through and through! I'm so grateful I have read it! And I have a confession to make: I am a moderator at HeathHeathens.net, and without asking (since it's on a public thread) I posted your poem there and linked it here. I would like to share the replies it got:
"I am almost beyond words. That was so beautiful it takes my breath a way. What a tremendous tribute-and what makes it oh so more lovely is that each word is true and Heath was a remarkable soul."
"That was maybe one of the most beautiful poems that I have ever read...it was perfect...the way that she described Heath as a traveller, and only here for a short while...
Thank you so much for finding it and sharing.."
"That was truly beautiful. It gave me goosebumps. I don't know what else to say.... :\'( :clap:"
"this person deserves a statue
lost for words" :)
I'm so grateful for everything that can help me keep my nose above the water at the moment - and your poem took me to the surface and helped me draw the first breath of fresh air in days! Thank you so much!
With love to you all!//Nina
:ghug: I love the idea, you giving a link to our forum,if not the circumstances... FC's poem is beautiful...it indeed deserves it!!
This place does help you as you said,to keep the nose above the water,I find it very comforting to come here and read all your thoughts! :ghug:
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La lumière du jour semble s’estomper lentement et la brise du soir frémit dans les cimes des arbres. Les faibles lueurs des restes du jour qui filtrent au travers des lourds nuages, annoncent avec certitude la poursuite de ce temps qui passe. Le frémissement des feuilles du vieux chêne rythme cet instant, où, à chaque seconde, mon âme semble flâner et se dissoudre avec les parfums que la nuit si proche semble déjà libérer sous les assauts du vent.
Mes cheveux balayent mon visage à la cadence des bourrasques du vent, la fraîcheur de la nuit qui est si proche me fait penser qu’il va bientôt pleuvoir. Au loin le grondement de l’orage naissant ricoche jusqu’à moi, et ça et là j’aperçois la végétation se courber sous les rafales chaudes et humides du vent du soir. Un sentiment de solitude s’empare de moi, et malgré l’agitation de cette nuit qui tombe, je te vois toujours venir à moi, comme ce premier jour où j’ai su que l’on allait s’aimer. Maintenant, la puissance des grondements du tonnerre fait vibrer tout mon corps, tout mon esprit, et ce tourment de la nature ressemble bien à celui de mon âme. Malgré l’agitation de cette nuit, je me rappelle que quelque part, là haut, derrière les nuages il y a cette étoile qui scintille toujours, cette lumière qui me guide au travers de l’obscurité.
J’éteins la douce lueur de la lanterne suspendue, et, avec l’agitation encore tumultueuse de ce soir, je vais apaiser mon esprit en glissant jusqu’à toi au travers de mes rêves.
Au gré de l’ivresse des vents et des rafles de pluie, dans cette petite maison au parfum d’antan, je revois toujours ton image avant que la nuit ne ferme trop vite mes paupières.
Un regard lumineux, un sourire et des évocations sonores se mêlent en une poursuite folle de souvenirs sur lesquels mon esprit pourra enfin s’assoupir pour soulager ma peine.
Daylight seems to be fading slowly and the breeze in the evening shudders in the treetops. The faint light of the remains of the day filtered through the heavy clouds, announce with certainty the continuation of the passing time. The trembling leaves of the old oak pace this moment, where every second, my soul seemed to wander and dissolve with fragrances that night seemed so close already released under the onslaught of wind.
My hair sweep my face at the rate of gusts of wind, the coolness of the night, which is so close makes me think it will soon rain. In the distance the roar of the storm until nascent rebound to me, and here and there I see the vegetation bending under the hot and humid gusts of wind in the evening. A sense of loneliness seizes me, and despite the turmoil of the night falls, I see you always come to me, as the first day I knew we would love. Now, the power of the rumbles thunder rocked my whole body, but my mind and the torment of this nature looks good to those of my soul. Despite the turmoil last night, I remember that somewhere, up there behind the clouds there is the star that shines always, the light that guides me through the darkness.
I turn of the light the gentle glow of the lantern suspended, and, with the unrest still tumultuous tonight, I will calm my mind until you rolling through my dreams.
At the discretion of the exhilaration of wind and rain sweeps in this small house in the fragrance of yesteryear, I always remember your image before the night closes too quickly my eyelids.
A look bright, a smile and evocative sounds mingle in a mad pursuit of memories on which my mind can finally fall asleep to relieve my pain.
Mikele
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Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
The Mamas and the Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me
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beautiful marjolein
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Mikele, your words are beautiful :\'(
And Marjoleine, the song is lovely ^f^
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Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
The Mamas and the Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me
I love that song, and the picture is gorgeous. Thanks for posting... ^f^
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Amber eye
Sudden silence
The world stops turning for a moment
Starts again but jerkily
Our screams are so loud that
nobody can hear them:
The amber eye is closed
And looks now upon worlds
we are not part of
Flashes words words flashes
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the open heart
the lithe mind
the sudden laugh
or the shy glances
Mighty waves
crashes in
Sharp cliffs underneath
Must keep afloat
All of us that remain
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
Flashes words words flashes
Still
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the hole in the ozone
the limber one left behind
Nor to the one less shadow
that is cast on the ground
Or to the mittens
that no longer has hands in them
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
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Mikele, your words are beautiful :\'(
And Marjoleine, the song is lovely ^f^
Thank you :^^)
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Amber eye
Sudden silence
The world stops turning for a moment
Starts again but jerkily
Our screams are so loud that
nobody can hear them:
The amber eye is closed
And looks now upon worlds
we are not part of
Flashes words words flashes
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the open heart
the lithe mind
the sudden laugh
or the shy glances
Mighty waves
crashes in
Sharp cliffs underneath
Must keep afloat
All of us that remain
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
Flashes words words flashes
Still
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the hole in the ozone
the limber one left behind
Nor to the one less shadow
that is cast on the ground
Or to the mittens
that no longer has hands in them
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
Very beautiful Nina ^f^
(and nice to see you're not a stranger ;))
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Amber eye
Sudden silence
The world stops turning for a moment
Starts again but jerkily
Our screams are so loud that
nobody can hear them:
The amber eye is closed
And looks now upon worlds
we are not part of
Flashes words words flashes
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the open heart
the lithe mind
the sudden laugh
or the shy glances
Mighty waves
crashes in
Sharp cliffs underneath
Must keep afloat
All of us that remain
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
Flashes words words flashes
Still
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the hole in the ozone
the limber one left behind
Nor to the one less shadow
that is cast on the ground
Or to the mittens
that no longer has hands in them
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
Amber eye :-\\
This is SO beautiful, I am speechless :\'(
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Amber eye
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
:ghug: This is beautiful, Nina- this part really got me. :\'(
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Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
The Mamas and the Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me
Thanks for this. I think, if I have the song playing, and watch the tributes, I just might be dream of Ennis and Heath. I can only hope.
It's beautiful. :t)
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Thank you for posting that Nina. It's very powerful. :ghug:
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Some pictures I took last Autumn in N.Y.C. they make me think of our Sweet Angel... :-\\
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Miss ya Cowboy! :\'(
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Some pictures I took last Autumn in N.Y.C. they make me think of our Sweet Angel... :-\\
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Miss ya Cowboy! :\'(
They're beautiful Cham. :)
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Very beautiful Nina ^f^
(and nice to see you're not a stranger ;))
Thank you Anaconda! And no, trying not to be a stranger! ;)
Thank you all of you for your kind words about my poem. I wrote it a couple of days ago, early in the morning after a sleepless night. I guess it's an expression of how I've felt these last months, when I and so many others have tried to focus on the person that Heath was - and the world around us never stopped trying to smear him. It's my way of trying to put the spotlight back where it belongs: on the person that's lost, and all the little details that people that lost him will miss so much.
With love! :ghug:
//Nina
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La lumière du jour semble s’estomper lentement et la brise du soir frémit dans les cimes des arbres. Les faibles lueurs des restes du jour qui filtrent au travers des lourds nuages, annoncent avec certitude la poursuite de ce temps qui passe. Le frémissement des feuilles du vieux chêne rythme cet instant, où, à chaque seconde, mon âme semble flâner et se dissoudre avec les parfums que la nuit si proche semble déjà libérer sous les assauts du vent.
Mes cheveux balayent mon visage à la cadence des bourrasques du vent, la fraîcheur de la nuit qui est si proche me fait penser qu’il va bientôt pleuvoir. Au loin le grondement de l’orage naissant ricoche jusqu’à moi, et ça et là j’aperçois la végétation se courber sous les rafales chaudes et humides du vent du soir. Un sentiment de solitude s’empare de moi, et malgré l’agitation de cette nuit qui tombe, je te vois toujours venir à moi, comme ce premier jour où j’ai su que l’on allait s’aimer. Maintenant, la puissance des grondements du tonnerre fait vibrer tout mon corps, tout mon esprit, et ce tourment de la nature ressemble bien à celui de mon âme. Malgré l’agitation de cette nuit, je me rappelle que quelque part, là haut, derrière les nuages il y a cette étoile qui scintille toujours, cette lumière qui me guide au travers de l’obscurité.
J’éteins la douce lueur de la lanterne suspendue, et, avec l’agitation encore tumultueuse de ce soir, je vais apaiser mon esprit en glissant jusqu’à toi au travers de mes rêves.
Au gré de l’ivresse des vents et des rafles de pluie, dans cette petite maison au parfum d’antan, je revois toujours ton image avant que la nuit ne ferme trop vite mes paupières.
Un regard lumineux, un sourire et des évocations sonores se mêlent en une poursuite folle de souvenirs sur lesquels mon esprit pourra enfin s’assoupir pour soulager ma peine.
Daylight seems to be fading slowly and the breeze in the evening shudders in the treetops. The faint light of the remains of the day filtered through the heavy clouds, announce with certainty the continuation of the passing time. The trembling leaves of the old oak pace this moment, where every second, my soul seemed to wander and dissolve with fragrances that night seemed so close already released under the onslaught of wind.
My hair sweep my face at the rate of gusts of wind, the coolness of the night, which is so close makes me think it will soon rain. In the distance the roar of the storm until nascent rebound to me, and here and there I see the vegetation bending under the hot and humid gusts of wind in the evening. A sense of loneliness seizes me, and despite the turmoil of the night falls, I see you always come to me, as the first day I knew we would love. Now, the power of the rumbles thunder rocked my whole body, but my mind and the torment of this nature looks good to those of my soul. Despite the turmoil last night, I remember that somewhere, up there behind the clouds there is the star that shines always, the light that guides me through the darkness.
I turn of the light the gentle glow of the lantern suspended, and, with the unrest still tumultuous tonight, I will calm my mind until you rolling through my dreams.
At the discretion of the exhilaration of wind and rain sweeps in this small house in the fragrance of yesteryear, I always remember your image before the night closes too quickly my eyelids.
A look bright, a smile and evocative sounds mingle in a mad pursuit of memories on which my mind can finally fall asleep to relieve my pain.
Mikele
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Thank you,Mikele,for sharing this so beautiful text with all of us.They have strenght and tenderness at the same time... :ghug:
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Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
The Mamas and the Papas - Dream a Little Dream of Me
Thanks so much,Marjolaine,for posting this wonderful song¡ :^^) It´s sure that all of us will dream on Heath,and not just a little dream... :\'(
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Amber eye
Sudden silence
The world stops turning for a moment
Starts again but jerkily
Our screams are so loud that
nobody can hear them:
The amber eye is closed
And looks now upon worlds
we are not part of
Flashes words words flashes
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the open heart
the lithe mind
the sudden laugh
or the shy glances
Mighty waves
crashes in
Sharp cliffs underneath
Must keep afloat
All of us that remain
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
Flashes words words flashes
Still
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the hole in the ozone
the limber one left behind
Nor to the one less shadow
that is cast on the ground
Or to the mittens
that no longer has hands in them
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
Beautiful,Midsummernina¡Thanks for it and welcome to the forum¡ :ghug:
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Miss ya Cowboy! :\'(
Yes,Pierre,they make me think of him too...A lot of things make me think of him still,and I hope than forever... :ghug:
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Pauline :ghug: I understand how you feel,because it'd be the same I'd feel if I saw the painting now...I guess it's too soon still as to see anything in rapport with Heath without having a heavy burden inside us.There's no "magical" recipe to overcome it,nor thinking that somebody else has felt well before ourselves;nothing more than let the time passing,knowing that we'll never forget him.
But that there will be a time when we'll remember Heath with the happiness of having known him,the satisfaction of having shared our admiration for his work and the celebration of all what he had let to us with this work.And all this will weigh more than the grief we feel now.This time will arrive,I'm sure. ^f^
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Vivre à coté de l’autre
Et partager sa vie
Aimer tout ce qu’il est
Son odeur ses gestes aussi
Avancer cote à cote
Et s’arrêter ici
Au milieu des regrets
Et de tout c’qu’on s’est dit
Le souvenir de l’autre
Est tellement précis
On l’entend on le frôle
On caresse son ombre la nuit
Le temps pousse à la faute
Et on en paie le prix
Avoir le premier rôle
Et puis plus rien aujourd’hui
On est si peu de chose
Quand l’autre s’en va
Quand le manque s’impose
Quand on a plus le choix
On apprend tant de choses
Quand l’autre n’est plus là
Plus là
On refait son décor
On range les photos
On a peur quand on sort
On se dit que c’est trop tôt
On est mal dans son corps
On ne se trouve pas beau
L’impression d’être mort
Sans l’autre contre sa peau
On est si peu de choses
Quand l’autre s’en va
Quand le manque s’impose
Quand on a plus le choix
On apprend tant de choses
Quand l’autre n’est plus là
Plus là
On est si peu de choses
Et tellement à la fois
Quand le manque s’impose
On est plus vivant que l’on croit
On comprend tant de choses
Quand l’autre n’est plus là
Plus là
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Living next to the other
And share his life
Love is everything it
His gestures also smell
Advancing side by side
And stop here
In the midst of sorrow
And all expressed what was
The memory of another
Is so accurate
She is also heard on the verges
It cherishes its shadow at night
The weather was pushing for misconduct
And it is paying the price
Having the lead role
And then nothing today
There is so little
When one goes
When the lack needed
When you have no choice
We learn so many things
When one is no longer there
Over there
We re-decor rooms
We put away old photos
We are afraid when we go out
It may be said that it's too early
There is evil in his body
It is not beautiful
The impression to be dead
Without the other against her skin
There is so little
When one goes
When the lack needed
When you have no choice
We learn so many things
When one is no longer there
Over there
There is so little
And so at a time
When the lack needed
There is more alive than we thought
It includes many things
When one is no longer there
Over there
Frédéric Lemer
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Thank you Anaconda! And no, trying not to be a stranger! ;)
Thank you all of you for your kind words about my poem. I wrote it a couple of days ago, early in the morning after a sleepless night. I guess it's an expression of how I've felt these last months, when I and so many others have tried to focus on the person that Heath was - and the world around us never stopped trying to smear him. It's my way of trying to put the spotlight back where it belongs: on the person that's lost, and all the little details that people that lost him will miss so much.
With love! :ghug:
//Nina
Beautifully put Nina, as was your poem. These parts got me especially:
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
~ ~ ~ ~
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
~ ~ ~ ~
We're very happy to have you here with us. :ghug:
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
:ghug: Pauline :ghug: I think I know how you feel because to me there is a dichotomy of Heath and Ennis. We love the Heath who created Ennis, who is sensitive and strong, independent and free. The portrait is of a Heath who created the Joker, who is troubled by insomnia, who is troubled by the media, by other's reaction. It felt wrong when I first saw it. But now, thanks to the interview given by Vincent, I now understand that it is a portrait of a moment in time, a brief glimpse of a much more complex man. It is like the tip of the iceberg, with 98% out of sight. It just occurred to me as I write this why Heath has all those tattoos. They are doorways into the rest of him, as you said of the tattoo below his breast, of Matilda. The tattoos themselves are meaningless; their values come from the parts of Heath's life that they lead to. They are portals into the deeper dimensions of Heath.
I am hesitant to be in the presence of the painting, too, because I know I will be overwhelmed by the feelings of sadness, of loss, but I no longer fear it as I did when I first saw it after January 22. Thank you for sharing your moment. It really helped me to come to terms with it. :ghug:
Love,
Andrew
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Pauline :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Oh, I can imagine how emotional seeing that painting must have been..... :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Pauline :ghug: I think I know how you feel because to me there is a dichotomy of Heath and Ennis. We love the Heath who created Ennis, who is sensitive and strong, independent and free. The portrait is of a Heath who created the Joker, who is troubled by insomnia, who is troubled by the media, by other's reaction. It felt wrong when I first saw it. But now, thanks to the interview given by Vincent, I now understand that it is a portrait of a moment in time, a brief glimpse of a much more complex man. It is like the tip of the iceberg, with 98% out of sight. It just occurred to me as I write this why Heath has all those tattoos. They are doorways into the rest of him, as you said of the tattoo below his breast, of Matilda. The tattoos themselves are meaningless; their values come from the parts of Heath's life that they lead to. They are portals into the deeper dimensions of Heath.
I think the same, and you said it so beautifuly. I think Vincent said in that interview, that those tattoos represented different periods in Heath's life... and it was Heath's idea to take off his shirt so Vincent could paint them. Obviously their symbolic meaning meant a lot to him.
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:ghug: Pauline :ghug: I think I know how you feel because to me there is a dichotomy of Heath and Ennis. We love the Heath who created Ennis, who is sensitive and strong, independent and free. The portrait is of a Heath who created the Joker, who is troubled by insomnia, who is troubled by the media, by other's reaction. It felt wrong when I first saw it. But now, thanks to the interview given by Vincent, I now understand that it is a portrait of a moment in time, a brief glimpse of a much more complex man. It is like the tip of the iceberg, with 98% out of sight. It just occurred to me as I write this why Heath has all those tattoos. They are doorways into the rest of him, as you said of the tattoo below his breast, of Matilda. The tattoos themselves are meaningless; their values come from the parts of Heath's life that they lead to. They are portals into the deeper dimensions of Heath.
I am hesitant to be in the presence of the painting, too, because I know I will be overwhelmed by the feelings of sadness, of loss, but I no longer fear it as I did when I first saw it after January 22. Thank you for sharing your moment. It really helped me to come to terms with it. :ghug:
Love,
Andrew
Beautifully said, Andrew. ^f^ And I love what you say about Heath's tattoos, some people would not look beyond the surface of the ink on his skin, but there is so much beyond it, and it goes deep, right into his soul.
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
:ghug: Pauline.
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Owh, Asali... :ghug:
Every time I see this picture it just take my breath away!!!!
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Amber eye
Sudden silence
The world stops turning for a moment
Starts again but jerkily
Our screams are so loud that
nobody can hear them:
The amber eye is closed
And looks now upon worlds
we are not part of
Flashes words words flashes
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the open heart
the lithe mind
the sudden laugh
or the shy glances
Mighty waves
crashes in
Sharp cliffs underneath
Must keep afloat
All of us that remain
A pause a stillness
With gentler waves in sunset
where many feet
are soothed
after weeks of endless pacing
Tears and laughter
fuses with water
creating underwater rainbows
of joy and pain
Flashes words words flashes
Still
Neverending
And none of them connected
to the hole in the ozone
the limber one left behind
Nor to the one less shadow
that is cast on the ground
Or to the mittens
that no longer has hands in them
And in the eye of the hurricane
A square of concrete
Stepped on
By baby’s feet
Stepped on once
And now stepped on forever
With him
And without him
OMG, this is so so so beautiful and heartbreaking!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you so much for this amazing poem.
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Pauline, sweetie.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :^^)
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Miss ya Cowboy! :\'(
You're really a sweet person, Chameau! <^( <^( I miss him too :\'( :\'( from Megalyn08
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Asali - :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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to me there is a dichotomy of Heath and Ennis. We love the Heath who created Ennis, who is sensitive and strong, independent and free. The portrait is of a Heath who created the Joker, who is troubled by insomnia, who is troubled by the media, by other's reaction. It felt wrong when I first saw it. But now, thanks to the interview given by Vincent, I now understand that it is a portrait of a moment in time, a brief glimpse of a much more complex man. It is like the tip of the iceberg, with 98% out of sight. It just occurred to me as I write this why Heath has all those tattoos. They are doorways into the rest of him, as you said of the tattoo below his breast, of Matilda. The tattoos themselves are meaningless; their values come from the parts of Heath's life that they lead to. They are portals into the deeper dimensions of Heath.
Love,
Andrew
Andrew - Totally agree O0! love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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I think the same, and you said it so beautifuly. I think Vincent said in that interview, that those tattoos represented different periods in Heath's life... and it was Heath's idea to take off his shirt so Vincent could paint them. Obviously their symbolic meaning meant a lot to him.
Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me to write and post more. I was deeply shocked the first time I saw the painting. In fact, I had to switch the page off, either by clicking the back button, or closing the browser tab. I can't recall what I did. I just remember seeing it a few days after Jan. 22, and was so shocked, and scared by it, that it made me feel uneasy for days. Having the interview with Vincent explaining the motivation behind the different aspects of the design was like having this forum to discuss the movie after Brokeback Mountain. All the pain and emotions overflowing had a place to go, had a name, had reins.
I really appreciate the opportunities to explore this and other topics so freely, and with so much support. I think it is why I am finally coming to terms with the sadness and grief. I felt that last night, even though I could not recall any of it in the morning, I had a dream of being in the presence of Heath. It was not Ennis. I think it was my intense focus on Four Feathers, and the painting, to understand Heath better, and finally, all the weeks of news articles, tributes, and everything, all came together, and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
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I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Another beautiful and moving post, Andrew. ^f^ I'm glad you feel able to talk about how you feel.
I loved everything you said but this especially....I agree and hope this very much for me too. :)
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
I cant imagine how hard it must have been :-\\ :\'(
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.......and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Beautiful Andrew, really moving. I adore this part. Gracias cielo!!! :^^)
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... I had a dream of being in the presence of Heath. It was not Ennis. I think it was my intense focus on Four Feathers, and the painting, to understand Heath better, and finally, all the weeks of news articles, tributes, and everything, all came together, and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Beautifully said,Andrew,beautiful and touching.Don´t worry,this will never end,for you and for nobody who has loved Heath...Gracias por compartirlo con nosotros. :ghug:
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Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me to write and post more. I was deeply shocked the first time I saw the painting. In fact, I had to switch the page off, either by clicking the back button, or closing the browser tab. I can't recall what I did. I just remember seeing it a few days after Jan. 22, and was so shocked, and scared by it, that it made me feel uneasy for days. Having the interview with Vincent explaining the motivation behind the different aspects of the design was like having this forum to discuss the movie after Brokeback Mountain. All the pain and emotions overflowing had a place to go, had a name, had reins.
I really appreciate the opportunities to explore this and other topics so freely, and with so much support. I think it is why I am finally coming to terms with the sadness and grief. I felt that last night, even though I could not recall any of it in the morning, I had a dream of being in the presence of Heath. It was not Ennis. I think it was my intense focus on Four Feathers, and the painting, to understand Heath better, and finally, all the weeks of news articles, tributes, and everything, all came together, and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Hi Andrew, I wasn't shocked the first time I saw the painting, but that was because I saw it in the interview with Vincent were he explains the motivation behind the painting.
I thought from the first time I laid eyes on it that it was beautiful but a little haunting because it looks so real.
It looks like he is going to step right out of the painting...but that is why it's so haunting.
I think if I had not heard the interview that I was shocked too.
With your love for Heath and the with passion you speak about him, I know he will stay in your heart forever.
You are not the only one, he will stay in my heart forever too, this man has changed my life.
It is such a wonderful thing that we can all be together like this, even if I would never meet anyone of you, you are all my Heath's and you all will stay in my heart forever, in a way you all have changed my life too.
Thanks everyone for being here :ghug: :ghug:
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Hi Asali, I can imagine that was such an overwhelming experience, it would bring tears to my eyes also.
I think when you stand there looking at him everything you have felt the past months after his death comes back double so hard.
I think it's kind of brave that you went, because it has not been that long when this all happened.
Thank you for sharing your feelings :ghug: :ghug:
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
yes im the same i dont cry much anymore but i still feel the same i know that im going to keep remembering heath and just because im not crying doesnt make me feel like i wont remember him as well as if i did cry. and the fact im not crying as much now doesnt mean i care any less about him.
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
I know how you feel Keren. :ghug:
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
this is how i feel...but i have moments when i cant stop crying :\'(
I love and miss him so much.
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Well said Keren, you are right, you don't have to cry all the time to feel someone in your heart.
I don't cry much either...I cry when I see him in BBM, because that is THE movie and that is THE role Heath played that changed my life so much.
But I can imagine if you stand there in front of that painting... it's such a overwhelming feeling that it brings tears to your eyes.
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
Thank you Keren for this wonderful post. You made me feel a lot of better, because sometimes I felt guilty for laughing again. You're marvelous, you words beautiful. ^f^ :^^)
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Hi, thanks again for all your encouragement, mpj, tammy, anaconda.
I really have no choice about this thing that keeps me going with...obsessing over Heath. This morning on the bus, I drifted off thinking about Four Feathers somehow, and recalled the last scene when Jack touched Harry, just as he did in the desert. Without giving away the movie, I just broke down and almost cried right there in front of a packed bus of passengers. I try not to think of any of the powerful, emotional scenes during the day.
I have been playing Rascal Flatt's song, My Wish, over and over, and one part of it in particular makes me think of Heath, the happy smiling Ennis, the picture on the tribute to me.
If it's cold outside,
Show the world the warmth of your smile.
That's Heath. That's what I try to emulate, each and everyday.
It is what gets me through the day.
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Watching Four Feathers with the director's commentary, I heard something that we already know, and I paraphrase:
The difference between an actor and a great actor is what he can put behind a simple line, all the emotions and subtext that goes with it, and Heath is a great actor.
He also talked about the deep friendship Heath developed with Wes Bentley and Djimon Hounsou, and how after a successful ninth take of an emotionally powerful scene with Djimon Hounsou, Heath asked him as a favor to do a tenth. And it was done Heath's way in the final cut because all the emotions in it were so much more powerful.
In two scenes with Wes Bentley, the two of them were so immersed in each other's performances, that time went unnoticed until the scene was done. And when the final five-page scene was cut to one page, the two of them protested, and "huddled" together for four hours, before performing the next morning. It was like the two shirts in Brokeback Mountain.
Then there is the scene with Ethne, at the end, when she said, "I love you, but I can't." The sadness and pain expressed on the quietly listening face of Heath, was comparable to his performance in the diner as Cassie ran out the door. Yet, the subtle differences revealed the character's long journey from military school through the desert in Africa.
Heath always brought something extra to all the roles he played.
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I cant imagine how hard it must have been :-\\ :\'(
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Thanks to everyone that posted something about my visit. When I first arrived there was a poster size pic of the portrait, I thought that maybe that was enough and I could leave but I knew I had to go into the gallery to see the actual portrait, not only for myself but for all of you and yes I did think of you all. :)
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Beautiful posts, beautiful tributes. ^f^
Asali, it feels like a little piece of all of us was there with you in the gallery. Thanks for taking us along. :ghug:
lancecowboy, this is a wonderful thought:
"If it's cold outside,
Show the world the warmth of your smile."
That's Heath. That's what I try to emulate, each and everyday.
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Very nice. :)
The most consistent thing I hear when I read the posts in this thread is "He is always in my heart", whether we say it specifically or just by the way we remember him and speak of him. That right there says a lot about the person he was. :ghug: :ghug: to everyone.
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I was just watching E! and they showed "The Kids Of Dawson's Creek" and they talked about what happened after the show ended and they talked about Michelle and Heath and I broke down crying :\'( They showed some stuff from a BBM pressconferanse and they were so happy then...and now :\'( :\'(
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This is not from me, I found it on the internet, but I thought it was beautiful.
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This is not from me, I found it on the internet, but I thought it was beautiful.
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that is so beautiful, thanks for posting ^f^
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This is a wonderful tribute:
http://nottheredbaron.deviantart.com/art/Heath-and-Heather-75602428
Thank you Anaconda for finding the link for us.
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Tribute
I met Heath Ledger in 2000. I was working on From Hell and he was shooting A Knights Tale which were both being shot in and around Prague.
It was one of the best and worst times of my life - I was in a Hollywood movie, shooting scenes with Johnny Depp and Robbie Coltrane but behind all the glitz and the glamour there was a sour taste to the whole experience: I (unlike many of the other actors working on the film), had been out in Prague for nearly three months, it was lonely living out of a hotel room and I had terrible anxiety and self doubt with regards to my part in the movie itself - coupled with some unpleasant incidents on set, I felt very isolated and vulnerable.
One evening during that time, some of the actors from my film had arranged to meet some of the actors from the other film at a night spot in Prague and I happened to be in that very same bar when they arrived. Out of everyone who was there, it was Heath who asked me if I would like to join their party, some of the guys had said hello to me when they arrived and Heath had deduced I must have been working on the other film and that I was on my own.
I had a really great time that night, and on a couple occasions Heath invited me over to his apartment to hang out with his friends. It was on one of those occasions that this photo was taken. Heath had discovered that I was an artist and that I was also a photographer and he had with him an old bashed up camera which he handed to me and asked if I wouldn't mind taking some shots of him and Heather Graham.
That will be my enduring memory of him - how he was completely genuine and his startling kindness - he made me feel included when I had been excluded and made my memories of Prague a great deal happier than they might have been... I can't imagine how devastated the people who knew him well must be.
I wanted to share this with the dA community as it's been reported that far right extremists intend to picket and disrupt his funeral. Know this, Heath Ledger was a good person, a kind person: please don't let anyone persuade you otherwise. His loss should be mourned, not mocked.
Rest in peace Heath...
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I think that what warms my heart the most is just this kind of personal tribute, these small stories of seemingly minor incidents that the people whose lives he touched recognized were not so small after all. He made them feel good. He took time to see them. And it meant enough to them that they were affected by it and remembered it. These things, these small gestures, are the mark of a person's character and the impact those things had on the people who knew him provide a better summary of who he was than any fancy news profile could ever do.
Thank you for sharing that. :ghug:
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I really have no choice about this thing that keeps me going with...obsessing over Heath. This morning on the bus, I drifted off thinking about Four Feathers somehow, and recalled the last scene when Jack touched Harry, just as he did in the desert. Without giving away the movie, I just broke down and almost cried right there in front of a packed bus of passengers. I try not to think of any of the powerful, emotional scenes during the day.
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If it's cold outside,
Show the world the warmth of your smile.
That's Heath. That's what I try to emulate, each and everyday.
It is what gets me through the day.
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I think that's the image you talking about...
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This is not from me, I found it on the internet, but I thought it was beautiful.
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im sorry but i dont like this much... it doesnt seem right to me its to harsh and i hate it when it says "i hate that you were so unique" to me that is saying yes she loved him because he was unique but its better to have loved and lost then never lovfed at all.
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I think that it means "I hate that you're so unique you can't be replaced and I have this ache in my heart from losing you."
I'm glad too that we had him to love for as long as we had him, even if it means hurting now. :ghug:
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im sorry but i dont like this much... it doesnt seem right to me its to harsh and i hate it when it says "i hate that you were so unique" to me that is saying yes she loved him because he was unique but its better to have loved and lost then never lovfed at all.
I indeed think you misunderstood the poem Matt, it's like FlwrChild says. :) :ghug:
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I think that it means "I hate that you're so unique you can't be replaced and I have this ache in my heart from losing you."
I'm glad too that we had him to love for as long as we had him, even if it means hurting now. :ghug:
I indeed think you misunderstood the poem Matt, it's like FlwrChild says. :) :ghug:
ah i get it now :ghug:
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I was in Tokyo last week and left a prayer for Heath at Meiji Shrine on behalf of ennisjack. It is hard to believe that it has been two months.
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Hi Ethan, thank you for sharing your sensitive tribute from Japan.
I learned about it from the newsletter.
Thank you so much :)
Paola
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Today I went to the city, the Art Gallery, stood looking at Heath's portrait, somewhat eerie/haunting, very difficult to grasp that it was the Heath we love. The hardest part was seeing the tiny tattoo with the name 'Matilda' below his left breast. When the tears started to well and the headache came over me I turned around and left, I couldn't concentrate on walking around seeing the other paintings. :(
Oh Asali, I think I can understand what you felt as you were visiting the gallery.
I was there last year when visiting Australia, and just to imagine I could walk there today and find myself staring at this haunting portrait, give me goosebumps.
It must give the viewer such a different feeling than just seeing it on photo.
The other day I watched the interview with Fantauzzo on the gallery's website, and I could hardly keep my tears from flowing as he remembered what it was like having Heath sit for him... :\'(
Thank you so much for sharing,
Paola
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We have a song in Hebrew called "What shall I bless". It's about a guy who dies too young. In Israel this song associates with our many young soldiers who get killed in battles, and they play it every year on the radio on Rememberence Day. But it doesn't have to be about dying in a battle, it can be about any young guy who dies before his age. I remember it'd been read in my cousin's funeral, he was killed 21 years ago by an accident, he was only 23 years old.
Anyway, these lyrics remind me so much of Heath, I tried to translate them to English. I omitted one verse about the boy becoming a soldier, because it's not relevant to Heath at all, but the rest of the song just makes me think of Heath, I even have an image in my head to go with it.
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What Shall I Bless
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This kid? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This kid? Asked the angel.
And blessed him with a smile which is like the light,
And blessed him with big, seeing eyes
To see every flower, living creature and bird
And a heart, to feel all the sights.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This teen? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This teen? Asked the angel.
And blessed him with legs to dance to no end
And a soul to remember all the tunes
And a hand picking shells on the beach
And a listening ear for both grown-ups and kids.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This man? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This man? Asked the angel.
I've given him all that I'm able to give
A song, and a smile, and legs to dance
And a gentle hand, and a shivering heart
And what shall I bless you more?
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed?
This kid? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed?
This kid, This young boy?
This boy, now he's an angel
No more shall he be blessed
God, God, God –
If only you've blessed him with life.
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Keren, that gave me goosebumps. :ghug:
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Keren, that gave me goosebumps. :ghug:
OMG me too :ghug: :\'(
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That's so beautiful, Keren. ^f^
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Beautiful posts everyone :ghug:
I was just looking at pictures of Heath and I felt empty and I started to cry :\'( All the feelings I had when I just found out about his death came back to me and now I feel awful, my head is hurting and my eyes are burning from the tears :\'( :\'( It still feels like a very bad dream that I want to wake up from...I cant take it anymore, this dream have to end now...
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Beautiful posts everyone :ghug:
I was just looking at pictures of Heath and I felt empty and I started to cry :\'( All the feelings I had when I just found out about his death came back to me and now I feel awful, my head is hurting and my eyes are burning from the tears :\'( :\'( It still feels like a very bad dream that I want to wake up from...I cant take it anymore, this dream have to end now...
Aww Emelie...I know, some days it just hits you and it really hurts.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Aww Emelie...I know, some days it just hits you and it really hurts.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Yeah...and right now it hurts so much :\'( :-\\
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We have a song in Hebrew called "What shall I bless". It's about a guy who dies too young. In Israel this song associates with our many young soldiers who get killed in battles, and they play it every year on the radio on Rememberence Day. But it doesn't have to be about dying in a battle, it can be about any young guy who dies before his age. I remember it'd been read in my cousin's funeral, he was killed 21 years ago by an accident, he was only 23 years old.
Anyway, these lyrics remind me so much of Heath, I tried to translate them to English. I omitted one verse about the boy becoming a soldier, because it's not relevant to Heath at all, but the rest of the song just makes me think of Heath, I even have an image in my head to go with it.
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What Shall I Bless Him
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This kid? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This kid? Asked the angel.
And blessed him with a smile which is like the light,
And blessed him with big, seeing eyes
To see every flower, living creature and bird
And a heart, to feel all the sights.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This teen? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This teen? Asked the angel.
And blessed him with legs to dance to no end
And a soul to remember all the tunes
And a hand picking shells on the beach
And a listening ear for both grown-ups and kids.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This man? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed,
This man? Asked the angel.
I've given him all that I'm able to give
A song, and a smile, and legs to dance
And a gentle hand, and a shivering heart
And what shall I bless you more?
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed?
This kid? Asked the angel.
What shall I bless him, how shall he be blessed?
This kid, This young boy?
This boy, now he's an angel
No more shall he be blessed
God, God, God –
If only you've blessed him with life.
Thank you so much Keren, Every time I hear that song my eyes tear up... :\'(
Amazing song,One of the saddest songs. And the lyrics are incredibly moving,
If only you've blessed him with life. if only...
I found a link from the original performance from the 70th...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XBwbgYWwEiM
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I felt that last night, even though I could not recall any of it in the morning, I had a dream of being in the presence of Heath. It was not Ennis. I think it was my intense focus on Four Feathers, and the painting, to understand Heath better, and finally, all the weeks of news articles, tributes, and everything, all came together, and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Andrew - this is really beautiful <^( <^( and touching :\'( :\'(. I think you're a very sensitive person,
always attentive to feelings and emotions, and because of this I think you felt Heath's presence
for, very likely, he was there. You're able to listen, that's why you can feel so deeply.That's
wonderful! <^(
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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Heath is always in my heart. I don't have to feel sad or to cry in order to know that he's there. I hardly cry now... although I still get goosebumps when I think back on that terrible night when I just heard the news, the reports and the pictures that kept pouring from the tv, the awful shock. One of the worst nights of my life. But I don't have to be in a state of shock and sadness and choked up with tears as a proof that I remember him, all the time. And I don't have to think about him all the time to know that he's in my heart. Although there isn't a day when I don't think of him. I loved him a lot, I still do, I guess I always will. More than anything else I wish I could've known him in real life, but in some way I feel that I do.
Beautiful post, Keren, I understand you. <^( <^( <^( from Megalyn08
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you don't have to cry all the time to feel someone in your heart.
I cry when I see him in BBM, because that is THE movie
I feel the same, and I agree: Heath had, no he still has where he is now, a really beautiful smile, so I often remember him in a cheerful way, for he was a young man who undoubtedly loved his life. That warms my heart when I think of him.
Love from Megalyn08 :)
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thinking about Four Feathers somehow, and recalled the last scene when Jack touched Harry, just as he did in the desert.
If it's cold outside,
Show the world the warmth of your smile.
That's Heath. That's what I try to emulate, each and everyday.
It is what gets me through the day.
Remember very well both scenes...they're so touching! :\'(
Very beautiful words from you, Andrew. <^(
Love from Megalyn08
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I think that's the image you talking about...
Actually, no. I will try to find the ones I meant. They are the ones from Brokeback Mountain, in the summer of '63, the ones from A Knight's Tale, and from Four Feathers. I don't have the other movies yet. Lords of Dogtown doesn't really count, but even there, Heath's performance gave something more than the character deserved.
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Sometimes you hear a song and immediately think of Heath.
Today I was listening to the radio and heard the song "Everybody's Gotto Learn Sometime"
I already knew the song but it gave me goosebumps.
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Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
The Korgis - Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime
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That happens to me all the time Anaconda.
Like this one...
"Never Had A Dream Come True"
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say (words to say)
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be
A part of me will always be with you
I guess this one is a little bit more about Ennis and Jack
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Oh wow this one is really beautiful emzan...I listened to it on youtube, I didn't know the song.
Really beautiful!!
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Oh wow, Marj and Emeile!
Your posts of those two songs are beautiful :\'( :\'(
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Sometimes you hear a song and immediately think of Heath.
Today I was listening to the radio and heard the song "Everybody's Gotto Learn Sometime"
I already knew the song but it gave me goosebumps.
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Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
The Korgis - Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime
I love that song anyway, but hearing it connected to Heath just adds to its beauty....thanks for posting Anaconda... ^f^
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| It is hard to imagine, only three months ago, not even 100 days,
that you were planning to work right here
It is hard to let go, of all that you have yet to do,
that only you could do with understanding and with passion
It is easy to think, that you have not yet gone,
but only resting, still hanging around
It is easy to pretend, all the movies I have not yet seen
are your latest creation
But no matter how hard I try,
nothing has changed.
You are still legend
You are still here
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| It is hard to imagine, only three months ago, not even 100 days,
that you were planning to work right here
It is hard to let go, of all that you have yet to do,
that only you could do with understanding and with passion
It is easy to think, that you have not yet gone,
but only resting, still hanging around
It is easy to pretend, all the movies I have not yet seen
are your latest creation
But no matter how hard I try,
nothing has changed.
You are still legend
You are still here
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Thank you Lancecowboy, that was lovely :^^)
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Thank you Lancecowboy, that was lovely :^^)
:^^) I am glad you like it jessicat. I love all the posts you made for matt in pawning the white moon. That was very special. I laughed so hard, and for so long. It's exactly the spirit of ennisjack. :^^) Thank you.
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Nice poems Anaconda, Emzan, Lancecowboy....some words to recall the best or the sad of our soul. A song, a poem, or a picture give us a warm souvenir, in our heart beating....
Thanks :)
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| It is hard to imagine, only three months ago, not even 100 days,
that you were planning to work right here
It is hard to let go, of all that you have yet to do,
that only you could do with understanding and with passion
It is easy to think, that you have not yet gone,
but only resting, still hanging around
It is easy to pretend, all the movies I have not yet seen
are your latest creation
But no matter how hard I try,
nothing has changed.
You are still legend
You are still here
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Aww LC! I love this poem so much ^f^ :\'(
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| It is hard to imagine, only three months ago, not even 100 days,
that you were planning to work right here
It is hard to let go, of all that you have yet to do,
that only you could do with understanding and with passion
It is easy to think, that you have not yet gone,
but only resting, still hanging around
It is easy to pretend, all the movies I have not yet seen
are your latest creation
But no matter how hard I try,
nothing has changed.
You are still legend
You are still here
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<^( <^( <^( Lovely <^( <^( <^( from Megalyn08
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only a few minutes over here and it will be three months... but i think everyone will agree we still know you are near keeping a watchful eye on your loved ones smiling down at the love being sent your way, im sorry i dont have much to say here my message is in my heart and isnt that of words i just hope you get it. well heath, see you again someday. we miss you.
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:h) Hello Brokies,
this is Megalyn08 :). Here in Italy is already April 22, that means already three months since Heath's passing away. :\'( I can't avoid thinking about it, although I still find it absurd. During these three months I joined this forum and read so many beautiful posts and tributes to Heath. I watched movies, read articles, watched videos (and made one) on You Tube. Everything in order to honor one of my favorite actors gone too, too soon. I felt I had to say "thanks" to him in some way for all the strong and deep emotions he and Jake made me feel through BBM's images and words. In another post I said that after having crossed Ennis and Jack's path I've never been the same again, and I confirm it. That's why I'll be forever grateful to Heath for playing Ennis Del Mar and to Jake for playing Jack Twist. <^( <^(
Often in these months I hoped I could wake up and discover that was just a nightmare and all was ok. But it wasn't and it isn't. :\'( As Ennis said once, "if you can't fix it, you gotta stand it". :\'(
I like very much Heath's special smile, I often say it, and this is the way I wanna remember him forever. My heart will always flipflop thinking or watching Ennis and Jack's tender and wonderful love-story, it will always continue getting warm inside before the second tent scene and the flashback during their last meeting, I will always miss him, but I wanna remember forever his smile. It's too special. This is another way for me to say "thanks" to him. <^( <^(
I wanna also say "thanks" :t) to you all members of this beautiful BBM Family for all the things you share....songs, poems, pictures, thoughts. Everything so lovely!! <^( <^( <^( I am so glad to have met you. :cr) ^f^ :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
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we still know you are near keeping a watchful eye on your loved ones smiling down at the love being sent your way. well heath, see you again someday. we miss you.
Oh, wow, Matt!! Tender thoughts!! <^( <^( <^( <^( :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Hey everybody ... long time (too long) since my last post. So much life under the bridge ...
My last day of teaching is tomorrow (yeah, I'm a college professor!). Such a long year.
I'm looking forward to the summer, a sip of whisky now and then, a toast to Heath (of course) with a glass of "Old Rose" courtesy of the creative folks in the arts and crafts room.
I've thought a lot about Ledger's passing. I'm still very sad at his death, but, and I apologize for sounding selfish, but I really really wanted Ang Lee tand company to do a sequel. My God, don't we all need it? Isn't it burning in our desires? Don't we all see our own vision of how Ennis would end up truly happy and not alone? Doesn't he get to take Jack's ashes, somehow, back to the mountain?
... but of course that isn't possible now.
But what a gift we have! We all get to write this story in our own lives, in our hearts, and in our imaginations.
Who knows who'd we all be if Ennis and Jack weren't ever introduced to us. Gosh, aren't we lucky?
Thank you Heath Ledger, Jake Gyllenhall, Ang Lee, Gustavo Santaoalla ... I spelled that wrong and that's TERRIBLE! ... and all the cast of BbM ... for making our lives better.
Rest in Peace, Heath Ledger. If your body never knew how much you were appreciated, I ... we ... heartfeltly hope that your spirit does!
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:^^) I am glad you like it jessicat. I love all the posts you made for matt in pawning the white moon. That was very special. I laughed so hard, and for so long. It's exactly the spirit of ennisjack. :^^) Thank you.
:^^)Thank you Lancecowboy (Andrew, I think?)
Yes, sometimes I need to make others laugh, and need very much to laugh myself, but end up feeling guilty, I had come up with quit a few "Pawning" jokes that day, but got sidetracked it Heath's "oh baby" pics, and once that hits me, I have trouble recovering and continuing on with humor. Every time I think I'm ok with everything, I realize it's just because I'm not thinking about it as really real, then it becomes real, too real, and it is very much not ok. Tomorrow will be the first time the weeks and months anniversary will fall on the same day, being both Tuesday and the 22nd, maybe that shouldn't feel different, but it does somehow. I look forward to, yet also truly fear, the day when this all feels ok; not that it will ever be ok, but just accepted as fact. Today is not that day. Until then, I send love to all you Brokies out there; I carry all of your hearts, I carry them in my heart :^^) Luv, Jess
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:h) Hello Brokies,
this is Megalyn08 :). Here in Italy is already April 22, that means already three months since Heath's passing away. :\'( I can't avoid thinking about it, although I still find it absurd. During these three months I joined this forum and read so many beautiful posts and tributes to Heath. I watched movies, read articles, watched videos (and made one) on You Tube. Everything in order to honor one of my favorite actors gone too, too soon. I felt I had to say "thanks" to him in some way for all the strong and deep emotions he and Jake made me feel through BBM's images and words. In another post I said that after having crossed Ennis and Jack's path I've never been the same again, and I confirm it. That's why I'll be forever grateful to Heath for playing Ennis Del Mar and to Jake for playing Jack Twist. <^( <^(
Often in these months I hoped I could wake up and discover that was just a nightmare and all was ok. But it wasn't and it isn't. :\'( As Ennis said once, "if you can't fix it, you gotta stand it". :\'(
I like very much Heath's special smile, I often say it, and this is the way I wanna remember him forever. My heart will always flipflop thinking or watching Ennis and Jack's tender and wonderful love-story, it will always continue getting warm inside before the second tent scene and the flashback during their last meeting, I will always miss him, but I wanna remember forever his smile. It's too special. This is another way for me to say "thanks" to him. <^( <^(
I wanna also say "thanks" :t) to you all members of this beautiful BBM Family for all the things you share....songs, poems, pictures, thoughts. Everything so lovely!! <^( <^( <^( I am so glad to have met you. :cr) ^f^ :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
Megalyn, your post for Heath is beautiful :\'(
All of your feelings are so much similar to mine, only I am not as good of a writer!
I can't believe in a couple of hours, it will be the 22nd..on a Tuesday once again, I hope the feelings
don't return. I wish you Megalyn, and all the other Brokies many hugs and kisses to get through another month without our beloved Heath :\'(
We will forever remember him in our hearts
:ghug:
Lis
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Slowly I realise that he is gone,
Only some pics and movies will remain,
Reality has hurt our hearts,
Reality is merciless and it don't care,
Our sweet cowboy rest in peace,
We'll be forever bound by him,
Unforgettable Heath Ledger
:ghug:
Simone
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:ghug:
Simone
For you Simone :ghug: :)
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:h) Hello Brokies,
this is Megalyn08 :). Here in Italy is already April 22, that means already three months since Heath's passing away. :\'( I can't avoid thinking about it, although I still find it absurd. During these three months I joined this forum and read so many beautiful posts and tributes to Heath. I watched movies, read articles, watched videos (and made one) on You Tube. Everything in order to honor one of my favorite actors gone too, too soon. I felt I had to say "thanks" to him in some way for all the strong and deep emotions he and Jake made me feel through BBM's images and words. In another post I said that after having crossed Ennis and Jack's path I've never been the same again, and I confirm it. That's why I'll be forever grateful to Heath for playing Ennis Del Mar and to Jake for playing Jack Twist. <^( <^(
Often in these months I hoped I could wake up and discover that was just a nightmare and all was ok. But it wasn't and it isn't. :\'( As Ennis said once, "if you can't fix it, you gotta stand it". :\'(
I like very much Heath's special smile, I often say it, and this is the way I wanna remember him forever. My heart will always flipflop thinking or watching Ennis and Jack's tender and wonderful love-story, it will always continue getting warm inside before the second tent scene and the flashback during their last meeting, I will always miss him, but I wanna remember forever his smile. It's too special. This is another way for me to say "thanks" to him. <^( <^(
I wanna also say "thanks" :t) to you all members of this beautiful BBM Family for all the things you share....songs, poems, pictures, thoughts. Everything so lovely!! <^( <^( <^( I am so glad to have met you. :cr) ^f^ :)
Love from Megalyn08 :ghug:
Many thanks Megalyn for your beautiful post ^f^. Indeed, Heath and Jake have offered us a wonderful present.
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For you Simone :ghug: :)
:^^) it's nice of you jessica ^f^
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| It is hard to imagine, only three months ago, not even 100 days,
that you were planning to work right here
It is hard to let go, of all that you have yet to do,
that only you could do with understanding and with passion
It is easy to think, that you have not yet gone,
but only resting, still hanging around
It is easy to pretend, all the movies I have not yet seen
are your latest creation
But no matter how hard I try,
nothing has changed.
You are still legend
You are still here
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You are a poet dear Andrew, thank you for that post full of emotions. ^f^ :^^)
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3 months... :\'( I cant believe it.
Heath I miss you so much, my heart is breaking :\'( :\'(
Some days I feel fine and some days, like today, everything just feels wrong.
When I woke up this morning Heath was the first thing I could think of and then in school it got worse, first we listened to a girl that had a mother with alcohol problems, it was very sad and it got me more depressed then I already was and after lunch we saw a movie about drunk driving, it was a very sad movie and I cried almost the whole time :-\\ so its been a sad day for me...
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Don' lose your heart dear Emzan :^^). I know alcohol problems are very hard, it's difficult to cope with :(.
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:ghug: :ghug: Em.
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3 months and I miss you more each day....
3 months and my grief is hurting,
3 months and it feels like yesterday. :\'(
RIP, sweet angel.
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Memory Lane
by Marian Jones
There is a place in every heart,
They call it Memory Lane,
Where thoughts of loved ones lost
Forever will remain.
God made this special place
When He first created man,
For He knew it would be needed,
As part of our life's plan.
He knew when loved ones left us,
We'd need some time to heal,
To come to terms with sorrow
And the loneliness we'd feel.
So when you lose a loved one
And your life is filled with pain,
The comfort of their presence
Will be found in Memory Lane.
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That's beautiful hpv. :\'( <^(
Thank you. :ghug:
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Memory Lane
by Marian Jones
There is a place in every heart,
They call it Memory Lane,
Where thoughts of loved ones lost
Forever will remain.
God made this special place
When He first created man,
For He knew it would be needed,
As part of our life's plan.
He knew when loved ones left us,
We'd need some time to heal,
To come to terms with sorrow
And the loneliness we'd feel.
So when you lose a loved one
And your life is filled with pain,
The comfort of their presence
Will be found in Memory Lane.
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this is amazing my eyes are teary and i have got chills, its so wonderful my hair is standing up on end.
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this is amazing my eyes are teary and i have got chills, its so wonderful my hair is standing up on end.
Thanx Matt... :^^)
Heath was instantly on my mind when I saw this poem.
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Thanx Matt... :^^)
Heath was instantly on my mind when I saw this poem.
i can see why it really affects me especially the last stanza but all of it is amazing and so fitting
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Yesterday I watched "A knight's tale".
I got to the part when he writes that love letter... and I heard those words... "Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.... I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to."
I couldn't help it, the tears just rolled down my face.
After the movie I looked at his photos, and I couldn't stop crying.
Heath, you have no idea how much I miss you.
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It's still so hard for my to realize that it's been 3 months already
I lay in my bed last night, imagine what it's gunna be like when we say 6 months, 12 months, 5 years
He impacted us SO much, I can barly stand it
Today, on facebook, there is a application called "Daily Hunk"..I was starlted to realize who was on it today
All the comments where praises, sorrow for a man that left us too soon
He impacted so many people though he was only here 28 years
I just hope we can all stand up, and carry his legacy on...
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It's still so hard for my to realize that it's been 3 months already
I lay in my bed last night, imagine what it's gunna be like when we say 6 months, 12 months, 5 years
He impacted us SO much, I can barly stand it
Today, on facebook, there is a application called "Daily Hunk"..I was starlted to realize who was on it today
All the comments where paises, sorrow for a man that left us too soon
He impacted so many people though he was only here 28 years
I just hope we can all stand up, and carry his legacy on...
Oh lis :ghug: :ghug:
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It's still so hard for my to realize that it's been 3 months already
I lay in my bed last night, imagine what it's gunna be like when we say 6 months, 12 months, 5 years
He impacted us SO much, I can barly stand it
Today, on facebook, there is a application called "Daily Hunk"..I was starlted to realize who was on it today
All the comments where praises, sorrow for a man that left us too soon
He impacted so many people though he was only here 28 years
I just hope we can all stand up, and carry his legacy on...
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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It's still so hard for my to realize that it's been 3 months already
I lay in my bed last night, imagine what it's gunna be like when we say 6 months, 12 months, 5 years
He impacted us SO much, I can barly stand it
Today, on facebook, there is a application called "Daily Hunk"..I was starlted to realize who was on it today
All the comments where praises, sorrow for a man that left us too soon
He impacted so many people though he was only here 28 years
I just hope we can all stand up, and carry his legacy on...
Lis,it´s wonderful¡ :ghug: The best hommage is never forget him... :)
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Keren :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Please,be strong; he´s looking at us from Heaven,I´m sure...
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Hey everybody ... long time (too long) since my last post. So much life under the bridge ...
Don't we all see our own vision of how Ennis would end up truly happy and not alone? Doesn't he get to take Jack's ashes, somehow, back to the mountain?
Who knows who'd we all be if Ennis and Jack weren't ever introduced to us. Gosh, aren't we lucky?
So, welcome back Guyinjax! :)
To tell the truth, I'd like very much if Ennis would take Jack's ashes back to the Mountain (I thought it too, I'm writing a story for myself about "what happened after" where Ennis succeed in taking them on Brokeback Mountain!!), but I like thinking that no-one else can take Jack's place in his heart. The only way I can imagine Ennis "truly happy and not alone" is with Jack. I like thinking to Jack as the unique, great love of Ennis Del Mar.
But you're right, we were so lucky for having met Ennis and Jack <^( <^( <^( <^(!!
:h) from Megalyn08
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Yesterday I watched "A knight's tale".
I got to the part when he writes that love letter... and I heard those words... "Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.... I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to."
I couldn't help it, the tears just rolled down my face.
After the movie I looked at his photos, and I couldn't stop crying.
Heath, you have no idea how much I miss you.
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Keren - :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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It's still so hard for my to realize that it's been 3 months already
I lay in my bed last night, imagine what it's gunna be like when we say 6 months, 12 months, 5 years
He impacted us SO much, I can barly stand it
Today, on facebook, there is a application called "Daily Hunk"..I was starlted to realize who was on it today
All the comments where praises, sorrow for a man that left us too soon
He impacted so many people though he was only here 28 years
I just hope we can all stand up, and carry his legacy on...
Beautiful post, Lis.... :\'( Thanks for sharing your thoughts :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Many thanks Megalyn for your beautiful post ^f^. Indeed, Heath and Jake have offered us a wonderful present.
Titabeille - <^( <^( <^( ^f^ ^f^ ^f^ :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Memory Lane
by Marian Jones
There is a place in every heart,
They call it Memory Lane,
Where thoughts of loved ones lost
Forever will remain.
God made this special place
When He first created man,
For He knew it would be needed,
As part of our life's plan.
He knew when loved ones left us,
We'd need some time to heal,
To come to terms with sorrow
And the loneliness we'd feel.
So when you lose a loved one
And your life is filled with pain,
The comfort of their presence
Will be found in Memory Lane.
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Thanks, hpv. This is so beautiful, and my memory lane has been full of thoughts of Heath since January.
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Yesterday I watched "A knight's tale".
I got to the part when he writes that love letter... and I heard those words... "Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.... I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to."
I couldn't help it, the tears just rolled down my face.
After the movie I looked at his photos, and I couldn't stop crying.
Heath, you have no idea how much I miss you.
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:ghug: Keren :ghug: I saw that scene a few days ago, too. :\'( :ghug:
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Yesterday I watched "A knight's tale".
I got to the part when he writes that love letter... and I heard those words... "Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.... I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to."
I couldn't help it, the tears just rolled down my face.
After the movie I looked at his photos, and I couldn't stop crying.
Heath, you have no idea how much I miss you.
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OMG Keren, what a beautiful post (t)...But please, try to dry your eyes :\'( :^^)...You make me cry too :\'(
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Yesterday I watched "A knight's tale".
I got to the part when he writes that love letter... and I heard those words... "Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.... I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to."
I couldn't help it, the tears just rolled down my face.
After the movie I looked at his photos, and I couldn't stop crying.
Heath, you have no idea how much I miss you.
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Aww Keren, thats really beautiful and sad. I can totally understand why this would affect you so much. There are so many things that make me think of Heath, all the time, every day.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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From heaven where you rest, look how much we are still loving you
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From heaven where you rest, look how much we are still loving you
that's gorgeous.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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From heaven where you rest, look how much we are still loving you
Beautiful,Simone,thanks¡ :ghug: I'm sure he's looking at us and already know it. :\'(
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~Kiss from a rose~
There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grey,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grey,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grey.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grey
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grey.
~ Seal ~
I'm sorry to steal your pictures Keren, but they reminded me so much of this song.
And the song and the pics fit so well together.
Thank you for posting Keren :ghug:
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You´re right,Marjolaine; the lyrics and the pics fit very well together.And they´re as beautiful as they can be for our Heath... :ghug:
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Thank you Alicia :ghug:
That song popped in my head right away...and you know what...this song is used in Batman Forever.
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Heath, I miss you so much... :\'( :\'(
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Anaconda, thanks for posting the lyrics to that gorgeous song. I never knew the words to it properly. I love the pics you posted with it too. ^f^
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Heath, I miss you so much... :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug:
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i feel so bad right now, everything is just wrong...i miss him so much :\'( i cant stop crying and my heart feels empty, it hurts so much, i don't know what to do.....why did this happen? why?
I just want to dissapear, this is to hard for me right now :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Emelie :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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i feel so bad right now, everything is just wrong...i miss him so much :\'( i cant stop crying and my heart feels empty, it hurts so much, i don't know what to do.....why did this happen? why?
I just want to dissapear, this is to hard for me right now :\'( :\'( :\'(
Emelie, all I have to give is hugs :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
There is nothing we can do, only remember all he has done, changing the world with his many roles, his humble, loving personality, and soft smile
We can't bring him back, but we can help keep his memory strong
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Emelie :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Emelie, all I have to give is hugs :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
There is nothing we can do, only remember all he has done, changing the world with his many roles, his humble, loving personality, and soft smile
We can't bring him back, but we can help keep his memory strong
thanks for the hugs, I need them :^^) but they dont help right now, but it helps to know that you are here, so thank you
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i feel so bad right now, everything is just wrong...i miss him so much :\'( i cant stop crying and my heart feels empty, it hurts so much, i don't know what to do.....why did this happen? why?
I just want to dissapear, this is to hard for me right now :\'( :\'( :\'(
Emzan - So sorry you feel so bad :\'( :\'(. I understand what you mean, I miss him too. But please, think that Heath was a young man who undoubtedly loved his life and remember him that way. There's no answer to the question "why did this happen", sadly it happened. Lil Dwarf is right, the only thing we can do is keep his memory strong. He can count on us, we'll never forget him and we can continue talking to the others about him, the emotions he made feel, the messages he left through his characters and interviews, so that people that don't know him can learn who he was and, why not, start by appreciating him. If you disappear, there will be missing a person who will talk about him.
I send you my :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: and hope they can help you in some way although you think they don't.
Love from Megalyn08
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There is nothing we can do, only remember all he has done, changing the world with his many roles, his humble, loving personality, and soft smile
We can't bring him back, but we can help keep his memory strong
Completely agree, Lis. O0 Megalyn08
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From heaven where you rest, look how much we are still loving you
Wow, Titabeille, that's wonderful! Thank you so much for sharing it! <^( <^( <^( from Megalyn08
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A big heartfelt :t) to everyone who has commented on my poem (Amber eye). And a belated thanks to all of you also for the warm welcome.
I haven't been able to come around here as much as I would have liked, since I've been kept quite busy at HeathHeathens.net (where, as I mentioned once before, I am a moderator). But even when I'm not here, it's so comforting to know there's another place (besides HeathHeathens I mean) where the love and respect for Heath shines from every single letter. I think it's important that we're all here - as a counter weight to all the mean things published elsewhere online. I despair sometimes - but I want to believe that with the help of sites like ours, the truth about a loved and loving man is what is ultimately going to be remembered!
With love and hugs to you all,
from Nina
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HEATH'S AUSSIE COWBOY MATE WALKS GREAT WALL OF CHINA FOR CANCER - IN HEATH'S MEMORY
This post has been given its own thread in the Life & Leisure board. This link will take you there. :)
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HEATH'S AUSSIE COWBOY MATE WALKS GREAT WALL OF CHINA FOR CANCER - IN HEATH'S MEMORY
*temporarily edited for Moderator discussion*
I am not sure why the post has been edited for discussion, but I think Adam Sutton must be affected as much as any one of us by Heath's passing, more than likely even more than us. He saw Heath portraying a part of himself on that screen. He knew Heath as intimate friend. He taught Heath many riding tricks. I am sure that every time Adam watches one of Heath's movies, when he is on horseback, there would be flashbacks of their time together. I am thinking especially of Four Feathers, when Heath jumped onto the back of a horse in full gallop.
The Walk is not just by Adam, either, but many celebrities with their own reasons. Olivia Newton-John is on Adam's team of Aussie entertainers, but there are also Aussie sport figures, and British as well as American teams. I won't post the link here, but google it, and you will find some great pictures.
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Andrew, the post was edited while the moderators discussed where it should be posted. As you can see, it's been given it's own thread. You're welcome to follow the link. :)
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Andrew, the post was edited while the moderators discussed where it should be posted. As you can see, it's been given it's own thread. You're welcome to follow the link. :)
no worries, keren. I knew there is a good reason for the editors to work so hard. I can see the post is very long, and really deserves its own thread. Thank you for your hard work. I never doubted your judgment for a minute. I was simply touched by Adam Sutton's remembrance of Heath, and that touched off a storm of emotions, especially after watching Heath did a Adam Sutton move in Four Feathers. It's exactly the same as what Adam demonstrated in the video from his television special.
Thanks for all the hard work, editors. :ghug: :clap: :^^) :c) ^f^
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I miss you Heath.
You are a wonderful person who everyone misses.
I ask not why did you have to die soon. I learned to accept it now.
You are a master piece. a very special work of art.
A great icon of a great actor.
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no worries, keren. I knew there is a good reason for the editors to work so hard. I can see the post is very long, and really deserves its own thread. Thank you for your hard work. I never doubted your judgment for a minute. I was simply touched by Adam Sutton's remembrance of Heath, and that touched off a storm of emotions, especially after watching Heath did a Adam Sutton move in Four Feathers. It's exactly the same as what Adam demonstrated in the video from his television special.
Thanks for all the hard work, editors. :ghug: :clap: :^^) :c) ^f^
I know exactly what you mean :\'( I am so proud of Adam and we would never have known of him if it was not for Heath and Brokeback Mountain.
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Don't you remember? You taught me.
I am the one who can help you
without expecting an exchange
and you can always count on me.
Don't you need a real friend?
Heath & Jake forever best friend
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Don't you remember? You taught me.
I am the one who can help you
without expecting an exchange.
Don't you need a real friend?
Heath & Jake forever best friend
beautiful megalyn :) :\'(
i also love the ennis and jack pic its one of ym favorite screen caps i really wish this film had stayed in the film. i want to see ever piece of heaths work ever filmed.
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Don't you remember? You taught me.
I am the one who can help you
without expecting an exchange.
Don't you need a real friend?
Heath & Jake forever best friend
Oh baby. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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i really wish this film had stayed in the film. i want to see ever piece of heaths work ever filmed.
Me too O0
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Jack, I swear....
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"Storm clouds may gather
and stars may collide
but I love you
until the end of time"....
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Jack, I swear....
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"Storm clouds may gather
and stars may collide
but I love you
until the end of time"....
Thats beautiful.... <^( <^(
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3 months and I miss you more each day....
3 months and my grief is hurting,
3 months and it feels like yesterday. :\'(
RIP, sweet angel.
I've been away for a while and lost track of time..three months.. :\'(
I agree though with your sentiments..it's still very hard to believe he's not here..
Nice to see people are still here, and posting some truly beautiful words.
God Bless you Heath, wherever you are xx
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I was driving the car today and suddenly this song played on my CD, I just kept repeating it on an on all the way until I got to work...the first thing on my mind was Ennis/Heath... I hardly could see the road...
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First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
by Ewan MacColl.
The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.
The first time ever I kissed your mouth
And felt your heart beat close to mine
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there at my command.
And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time my love
It would last till the end of time my love
The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI7gzXz1cHo
(p.s. can anybody make a BBM video with this song ,please??)
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I was driving the car today and suddenly this song played on my CD, I just kept repeating it on an on all the way until I got to work...the first thing on my mind was Ennis/Heath... I hardly could see the road...
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First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
by Ewan MacColl.
The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.
The first time ever I kissed your mouth
And felt your heart beat close to mine
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there at my command.
And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time my love
It would last till the end of time my love
The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI7gzXz1cHo
(p.s. can anybody make a BBM video with this song ,please??)
This is a beautiful song hpv, and I can see why you would think of Heath/Ennis when listening to it.... <^( <^( <^( <^( <^(
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Completely agree, Lis. O0 Megalyn08
Yes I agree too, life goes on...
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I've been away for a while and lost track of time..three months.. :\'(
I agree though with your sentiments..it's still very hard to believe he's not here..
Nice to see people are still here, and posting some truly beautiful words.
God Bless you Heath, wherever you are xx
Beautiful post, Hayley <^( :\'( :ghug: from Megalyn08
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
thats so beautiful <^( :\'( :\'(
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
beautiful :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
by Ewan MacColl.
The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.
The first time ever I kissed your mouth
And felt your heart beat close to mine
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there at my command.
And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time my love
It would last till the end of time my love
The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nI7gzXz1cHo
That's wonderful <^( <^( Thank you for sharing :ghug: :ghug:
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
Aww!! LC, that's so beautiful :\'( <^(
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
Wow!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Andrew, that's so special and touching!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Thank you everyone, I just post what I felt, and after the Heartbreak Mountain article, by Harry Eyres, I wrote the gratitude of someone who saw through my opaqueness, the joy of being given joy again, the sadness of losing so much so soon after finding it.
And I have turned the corner, being able to now see both Ennis and Heath, together, not just the sadness, but also the joy, that Heath gave to Ennis in Brokeback Mountain, the gift of emotional sight. It's hard to explain, and I am not sure if I really want to get into it too much. It just feel so personal. ;D Not that there is anything personal that I have not already pour out in this forum. Thanks to everyone for your support and encouragement and kindness... :ghug: <^( :^^)
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i'm still crying everyday when i see his pics or when i read every thot of everyone who miss him as much as i do...i miss him so much...my best friend is sick about heath ledger and i really donno with who i could talk...and i thot here i can find people who love him as much as i do...i was waching casanova and i was so happy...at the end of the movie i cried even if i saw it 2 imes before:)) it was just beautiful...btw casanova was the first movie with heath ledger wich i saw...i love painting...and i took picturesc on the tv screen just to make a portrait of heath:)) i was very happy:p.then i start doing it...i finished it 2 days later in the morning....that evening i was waching the news...than my happiness became a silent cry...i refused to belive such a stupit thing...my beloved heathdied because of an overdoze...he was not a junkie...god he made a movie (candy) helping the fight with the drogs:((...then the doctors said it was because of the doctors...i've became obsesd my ringtone is the song th wings:((...it's so sad...i miss him a lot...he was just lie a friend to me:( i'm listening to "i stil cry" it's such a sad song...i thing about him everyday when i listen it...i will post the lyrics:(... :\'( :\'( :\'(I Still CryI`m making flowers out of paper
While darkness takes the afternoon
I know that they won`t last forever
But real ones fade away to soon
Chorus:
I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry someitmes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you`re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
It`s just that I recall September
It`s just that I still hear your song
It`s just I can`t seem to remember
Forever more those days are gone
Chorus:
I still cry sometimes when I remember you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you`re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
I still cry sometimes when I rememeber you
I still cry sometimes when I hear your name
I said goodbye and I know you`re alright now
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
But when the leaves start falling down I still cry
I Still Cry
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Cris I know how you feel :ghug: :ghug: I can still cry oven him when I see pictures or videos, Its nothing wrong with that and its so nice to come to the forum because I know there are other people that feel the same.
and btw, welcome to the forum :) ^f^
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This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
This is the end of happiness, this is the end dreams.
This is the end of everything, it's the end for you and me.
I don't know, what to do.
In my heart I still love you.
I don't know, what to say.
I will always feel this way.
This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
Chris Isaac
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This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
This is the end of happiness, this is the end dreams.
This is the end of everything, it's the end for you and me.
I don't know, what to do.
In my heart I still love you.
I don't know, what to say.
I will always feel this way.
This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
Chris Isaac
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( So beautiful, Mikele. Thank you for posting it :t).
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This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
This is the end of happiness, this is the end dreams.
This is the end of everything, it's the end for you and me.
I don't know, what to do.
In my heart I still love you.
I don't know, what to say.
I will always feel this way.
This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
Chris Isaac
God, this is so precious, Mikele. I have no words. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
This is the end of happiness, this is the end dreams.
This is the end of everything, it's the end for you and me.
I don't know, what to do.
In my heart I still love you.
I don't know, what to say.
I will always feel this way.
This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
Chris Isaac
I love it..so beautiful :\'(
And where did you that gorgeous pic?
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***paparazzi picture edited by moderator*** posted this in Pix, think it should have been here.
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:-\\ :\'( this is such a beautiul pic...it's so perfect...it's just like he is in the sky... :( :( :(
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great picture crisy
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there is actually a topic for pics of heath i think it would be best to post these there crisy O0
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:Psure ;D at baby pix i think?
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
Andrew,I thank you for your beautiful thoughts about Heath with a little retard; but never it's too late to appreciate the beauty in some words that all of us can feel as ours.Never it's too late to appreciate what Heath gave to us with his good work as an actor and his good acts as a person.Never it's too late either to tel you Thank you for having shared with us your feelings about a man who made us feel different and better only with the lesson we could learn with his role of Ennis.Never it's too late to read these feelings of ours in another person's writing.And never it's too late to miss him as we do,and always will. :t)
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This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
This is the end of happiness, this is the end dreams.
This is the end of everything, it's the end for you and me.
I don't know, what to do.
In my heart I still love you.
I don't know, what to say.
I will always feel this way.
This is the end of everything, this is the end I know.
This is the end of everything, take your love with you when you go.
Chris Isaac
Beautiful pic indeed,Mikele;yes,it's like he's in Heaven...And beautiful words also that fit very well with him and with what all of us are feeling.Take your love with you when you go... It's sure that he has taken all our love when he has gone,and that relieves me very much.Because he knows now that he was not alone,that his death has left a great hole in a lot of people's souls.Thanks for sharing with us. :^^)
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Crisy,Emzan answered to you very well so I can't add any nicer words...All of us know how you feel because it's our own way of feeling.And I know it'll be for a long,long time,since,even if we can feel healed from this pain,we'll never forget him,and we'll never had to forget him...Only we'll feel a little better every time we'll see a movie or a picture of him,but we'll never forget him,never.You know you have here a lot of friends to share this pain and relief it if it's possible. :ghug:
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Andrew,I thank you for your beautiful thoughts about Heath with a little retard; but never it's too late to appreciate the beauty in some words that all of us can feel as ours.Never it's too late to appreciate what Heath gave to us with his good work as an actor and his good acts as a person.Never it's too late either to tel you Thank you for having shared with us your feelings about a man who made us feel different and better only with the lesson we could learn with his role of Ennis.Never it's too late to read these feelings of ours in another person's writing.And never it's too late to miss him as we do,and always will. :t)
You are welcome, mpj. It is with all your encouragement and support that I do not hesitate posting my most personal and private thoughts on this forum, because I know you all will accept it without judgment, and as you said, per chance, someone else may feel the same. It is the same when I read Harry Eyres article Heartbreak Mountain. Everything he said resonated with what was deep in my heart, but was buried for a while, with memories of Heath taking centre stage for the past months. I am glad to have Ennis back in a prominent place, and know that he will never be far away.
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You are welcome, mpj. It is with all your encouragement and support that I do not hesitate posting my most personal and private thoughts on this forum, because I know you all will accept it without judgment, and as you said, per chance, someone else may feel the same. It is the same when I read Harry Eyres article Heartbreak Mountain. Everything he said resonated with what was deep in my heart, but was buried for a while, with memories of Heath taking centre stage for thhe past months. I am glad to have Ennis back in a prominent place, and know that he will never be far away.
It's sure we all share these thoughts,so it becomes very easy to share them with the others,in the security we'll all understand because it's like understanding ourselves and our most private feelings. :ghug:
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More than 3 months since the day you go, nothing change from the minute you're gone. I've kept thinking about you since that day and hoped someday you 'll come back to let me see your smile, your news again. It's hurt me cause I know one minute, one hour or one million year after that it's all the same, noone can change the pass. Love you, Heath! You make me think different about the death , I don't scare it much as I did because I know many wonderful people waiting me from heaven.
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More than 3 months since the day you go, nothing change from the minute you're gone. I've kept thinking about you since that day and hoped someday you 'll come back to let me see your smile, your news again. It's hurt me cause I know one minute, one hour or one million year after that it's all the same, noone can change the pass. Love you, Heath! You make me think different about the death , I don't scare it much as I did because I know many wonderful people waiting me from heaven.
Wonderful and touching words,Hana,that reflect very well the way we all feel.We also have this sensation that everything is an joke without fun,an stupid marketing strategy or a ill mind's invention; a nightmare from which we'll awake one day to realise we've been suffering for nothing ,because Heath is still here,with us and by Matilda's side...But it's not so and now the only relief is to think,as you say,that he's in Heaven with the loved persons we've lost before,waiting for us until we'll see them again.But,do you know what? this doesn't mean so much for me by now,because I wanted him we wanted him here,now¡. We still miss you a lot,Heath,angel... <^(
P.S.: By the way,welcome to the forum¡ ^f^
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You gave me the understanding of a life time
You created a character that reflects so much of me inside
Yet so transformed by your strength, your wisdom, your love
that I cannot but be lifted up as well,
as I watch Ennis grew out of his shell
as I watch him learn to see himself, through your eyes
Just as Ennis learned to smile and laugh with Jack
away from the cold cruel world, in the cold mountain air
I have learned to smile and laugh with you
while I wait, thinking what the cold cruel world lost
when we lost you one hundred days ago.
Not a day goes by, without a thought of you.
Not a day goes by, without thinking what we lost
Not a day goes by, without thinking the beauty you created
Not a day goes by, wihtout remembering the beauty that you reflect
in all that you do, in all that you are
Not a day goes by, without your smiling face,
bringing both smiles and tears
Wow..that really is very moving
You really do have a beautiful way with words
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Wow..that really is very moving
You really do have a beautiful way with words
thanks, Hayley, but the beauty comes from Heath, I just pour out what he put in my heart. Thanks for being a part of the forum. It's nice to know others share the same love for the movie and everything to do with it.
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I've been avoiding this thread for my own well being but that's shot to hell so..I'm about 4 pages behind now. Anyway we left a memorial in Carson Park in Eau Claire this past weekend during the Brokie meet. I won't give the play by play (some Brokies are working on something) but Keren chose a perfect spot for him overlooking the water. It's in this spot that looks like it was just carved out for this purpose. Pauline did a lovely reading and Barb placed the wreath in the ground. :\'(
This is from when we first left it:
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A few of us went back later to visit and reflect and the sun was shining right on it:
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And before we left for the airport, Barb and I went back and visited Monday morning and spent a long time there. We each took a coin and made a wish before throwing the coins into the lake.
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His view
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and the view from the top
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So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
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what a great thing to do :\'(, thanks for posting this LJN
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WOW what a beautiful pics..I love the place you've chosen so peaceful and serene.
And what a beautiful memorial...this is so wonderful.
Thank you guys :ghug:
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That's so beautiful. I can imagine what an emotional day that was for you all.....but what a beautiful place to do it.... :ghug:
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I was really glad we got to go back on Monday, and see the way the sun shone down in back of it so it was kind of lit from behind and shone through. Kind of like Heath - illuminated from within.
Thanks for posting the pics Michelle. :^^)
Is it odd for me to say it felt like you were all there with us and a part of it? That's how it felt to me. :ghug:
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I was really glad we got to go back on Monday, and see the way the sun shone down in back of it so it was kind of lit from behind and shone through. Kind of like Heath - illuminated from within.
Thanks for posting the pics Michelle. :^^)
Is it odd for me to say it felt like you were all there with us and a part of it? That's how it felt to me. :ghug:
:\'( Perfectly stated. I'm glad we had that extra time there. :ghug:
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Thank you so,so much,Michelle,Barb,Pauline and all the rest for doing this so lovely tribute in the name of all of us. :^^) I imagine how hard it was for you,but you can't be sure all of us were by your side then and every time someone will think about Heath anywhere.The place is as beautiful as Heath deserves and is a kind of relief to me thinking that a part of him is there,as well as in our hearts.You must forgive me,but today I'm very emotional for some problems and this makes me sadder than a few time before when I think about him...I' m crying now...Thanks again,friends. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: to you mpj.
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:ghug: :ghug: MPJ
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:ghug: :ghug: Thank you again,Michelle and Barb. :^^) %)
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Thank you so,so much,keren,LJN ,Asali and FC for that emotionally touching tribute!!! a great spot for Heath's remembrence place
:^^) :ghug:
MJP :ghug:
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Love is shared :ghug: It's nice to have a place where people understand, don't judge and where we can lean on each other for support and not feel alone. Those heartstrings that connect us grow stronger everyday :ghug:
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Thank you so,so much,keren,LJN ,Asali and FC for that emotionally touching tribute!!! :^^) :ghug:
MJP :ghug:
Henna :^^) :t)
Love is shared :ghug: It's nice to have a place where people understand, don't judge and where we can lean on each other for support and not feel alone. Those heartstrings that connect us grow stronger everyday :ghug:
It's true,Michelle; at least we understand each other in some feelings that not everybody can sometimes,and it's great to have each other support too when these feelings overwhelm you. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you so,so much,Michelle,Barb,Pauline and all the rest for doing this so lovely tribute in the name of all of us. :^^) I imagine how hard it was for you,but you can't be sure all of us were by your side then and every time someone will think about Heath anywhere.The place is as beautiful as Heath deserves and is a kind of relief to me thinking that a part of him is there,as well as in our hearts.You must forgive me,but today I'm very emotional for some problems and this makes me sadder than a few time before when I think about him...I' m crying now...Thanks again,friends. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: too,Chris ¡
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I've been avoiding this thread for my own well being but that's shot to hell so..I'm about 4 pages behind now. Anyway we left a memorial in Carson Park in Eau Claire this past weekend during the Brokie meet. I won't give the play by play (some Brokies are working on something) but Keren chose a perfect spot for him overlooking the water. It's in this spot that looks like it was just carved out for this purpose. Pauline did a lovely reading and Barb placed the wreath in the ground. :\'(
This is from when we first left it:
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(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080816.jpg&hash=5485796050043616f3bdbfcf8bf9c04fdc983f9f)
A few of us went back later to visit and reflect and the sun was shining right on it:
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(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080827.jpg&hash=f93cbfc444568b9e6697a451b62f643f8bae0a9d)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080829.jpg&hash=85605f96afd2a8b78ac3c7e42244621990280c72)
And before we left for the airport, Barb and I went back and visited Monday morning and spent a long time there. We each took a coin and made a wish before throwing the coins into the lake.
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His view
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and the view from the top
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So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( This is too precious for words.....I'm moved to tears. Damn.
Thank you so much for this, really really from the bottom of my heart. :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Tammy. It really was for everyone and from everyone here. We were just lucky enough to be together and have the opportunity to do it. :^^)
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This is from when we first left it:
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A few of us went back later to visit and reflect and the sun was shining right on it:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080843.jpg&hash=81569e0ac32b4e6f4edccdc0e2023859fcb4085b)
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And before we left for the airport, Barb and I went back and visited Monday morning and spent a long time there. We each took a coin and made a wish before throwing the coins into the lake.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080944.jpg&hash=f1dcbccd4132f275acf05ed11b33c0ab96bd6ea8)
His view
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and the view from the top
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So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
So, welcome back LJN, and thank you so much for posting this really beautiful thought. :t) <^( It's so touching! :\'( :\'( :ghug:
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So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
What you all did was so beautiful, I cannot begin to thank all of you guys. The view of the lake is picture perfect..how the light reflects off the lake so beautifully. I'm speechless :\'( :ghug:
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I've been avoiding this thread for my own well being but that's shot to hell so..I'm about 4 pages behind now. Anyway we left a memorial in Carson Park in Eau Claire this past weekend during the Brokie meet. I won't give the play by play (some Brokies are working on something) but Keren chose a perfect spot for him overlooking the water. It's in this spot that looks like it was just carved out for this purpose. Pauline did a lovely reading and Barb placed the wreath in the ground. :\'(
This is from when we first left it:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080809.jpg&hash=574147f32a7eee2cc71d47a15ea8b2c16fb78db8)
So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
Many thanks to post it LJN, great idea to do it while gatherings ! We'll never forget that Heath is a half part of this forum :ghug:
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i miss him so much i can'd belive that after i'll see his 2 new movies i'll never see a new movie with him again...
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do u think he saw this forum?when he was alive i mean...
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Dear Crisy - the subject of whether Heath ever saw this forum came up a while back, and, if my memory is correct, Keren and Christie said a friend of his had shown him the site, and he may have sent a few messages, a very few, to some of the people here. They'd have to re-post, to give a more complete answer, or, you could go back through the news and memorial threads.
I have also read that he would answer e-mails sent through another site, and was willing to be in brief contact with fans. Less reliable is my own digging around that suggests he had checked in to all the forums, from time to time, but, although he had called himself an internet junkie, did not wallow in the fan sites.
Meanwhile, I really need to download the picture you have for an avatar, and am blurry-eyed from trolling the photo section, where it has been posted several times. Do you have the page #, so I could get it, please? Thanks, Tony.
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oh i can post it at baby pix <^( i just luv it :d)
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I've been avoiding this thread for my own well being but that's shot to hell so..I'm about 4 pages behind now. Anyway we left a memorial in Carson Park in Eau Claire this past weekend during the Brokie meet. I won't give the play by play (some Brokies are working on something) but Keren chose a perfect spot for him overlooking the water. It's in this spot that looks like it was just carved out for this purpose. Pauline did a lovely reading and Barb placed the wreath in the ground. :\'(
This is from when we first left it:
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080809.jpg&hash=574147f32a7eee2cc71d47a15ea8b2c16fb78db8)
His view
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi39.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe163%2Fluvjacknasty%2Fmeet%2520and%2520greet%2FP1080921.jpg&hash=0a9369ec6e155a4772423d4fc1de89953b3ecf14)
So he's surrounded by light all day and the sounds of birds singing and water softly lapping against the bank :\'(
Michelle, Thank you so much for posting it here.
I am so greatful that I had the opportunity to be a part of this tribute, it was realy painful and emotional, but also good to be there with Brokies, to know that someone will catch you when you fall. And yes, it was a beautiful place for him - looking at the water and surrounded by light, with the sun shining on him.
I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
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Michelle, Thank you so much for posting it here.
I am so greatful that I had the opportunity to be a part of this tribute, it was realy painful and emotional, but also good to be there with Brokies, to know that someone will catch you when you fall. And yes, it was a beautiful place for him - looking at the water and surrounded by light, with the sun shining on him.
I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
Keren, I know it was hard for you, but I am glad you found comfort from the other brokies there with you... :ghug:
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Keren, I know what you mean. If I had been there I'd have cried a whole ocean. I know how much you loved him, how much you love him, so I'm glad you was able to free all that pain you had inside with sweet brokies by your side. You needed that. And we all are here for you. :ghug: :^^)
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Michelle, Thank you so much for posting it here.
I am so greatful that I had the opportunity to be a part of this tribute, it was realy painful and emotional, but also good to be there with Brokies, to know that someone will catch you when you fall. And yes, it was a beautiful place for him - looking at the water and surrounded by light, with the sun shining on him.
I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
Keren,I know perfectly well as you felt then and how relieved you feel now for having been with other fellow Brokies to share your grief,but also your happiness.And,yes,I'm sure Heath was with all of you then,always and forever... :ghug:
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Michelle, Thank you so much for posting it here.
I am so greatful that I had the opportunity to be a part of this tribute, it was realy painful and emotional, but also good to be there with Brokies, to know that someone will catch you when you fall. And yes, it was a beautiful place for him - looking at the water and surrounded by light, with the sun shining on him.
I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
:ghug: :ghug: Thank you for being there for the rest of us, too. And thank you again for finding such a beautiful spot for him. :ghug:
It was my first viewing since January aside from that one attempt at scenes and it was brutal. There were lines I knew were going to hit hard (anything interesting up there in heaven, to name one) and then there were the lines that weren't in the forefront of my mind- namely within the convo between Ennis and Lureen and then with Ennis and OMT. It didn't feel like watching BBM but watching just way too many real life reminders. I wish we had all gotten more time to really talk about all of this in person. :-\\ But being together and getting and giving a hug whenever someone needed it helped. He was there the whole time, in the hearts that love him.
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Keren,LJN.. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I just found today those wonderful videos:"Tribute to Heath Ledger
lots of new photos. Music: 'Hallelujah' by brilliant, true blue Aussie artist, Vince Jones" .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CMM7i9omE&feature=related
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and a funny one.. "Heath wasn't only gorgeous but had the greatest sense of humour"...
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Watching them, I felt the need to share it with you brokies !!! <^(
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I just found today those wonderful videos:"Tribute to Heath Ledger
lots of new photos. Music: 'Hallelujah' by brilliant, true blue Aussie artist, Vince Jones" .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CMM7i9omE&feature=related
and a funny one.. "Heath wasn't only gorgeous but had the greatest sense of humour"...<^(
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Whatching them, I felt the need to share it with you brokies !!
thanks for sharing hpv :)
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Thanks,Henna,they're really beautiful¡ It's amazing to see how many persons loved,and love,Heath... :ghug:
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I just found today those wonderful videos:"Tribute to Heath Ledger
lots of new photos. Music: 'Hallelujah' by brilliant, true blue Aussie artist, Vince Jones" .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CMM7i9omE&feature=related
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fbestsmileys.com%2Fflowers%2F4.gif&hash=9d326d45c36096383f5502db2b7d3f0f5dcd2073)
and a funny one.. "Heath wasn't only gorgeous but had the greatest sense of humour"...
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Watching them, I felt the need to share it with you brokies !!! <^(
Thanks, hpv, I love them. :ghug:
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I would love to build a memorial with some Brokies. I was where his body laid in that chapel in Los Angeles the morning after, but I didn't know he had been mourned there. It is just a place I find peace. I'll have to let my tears and words be my memorial for now. Lucky are those who came together and found a way of laying something down to find some peace.
jessi
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:ghug: Jessi I'm glad you have a place that brings you peace. And we are all laying memorial together with each word here- it doesn't always have to be something physical-anytime one of us reaches out to give or receive comfort or to share we are laying down what may be the best memorial there is- shared love, compassion and understanding that that beautiful soul was a big part of inspiring in both life and death. :ghug:
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Where can I build a memorial,
place stones and flowers for you,
far away from shore,
miles out to sea,
for you never just tread at the edge?
Where can I place tear soaked stones,
in middle of a desert where sun shines brightest,
and endless miles to roam, where great beauty
is hard to find,
the rarest of all hoarded?
Where can I bow in pain, choke on sobs,
build my memorial for you,
a mountain, in fields of wildflowers where not one
shows a glance of your greatness, or
a forest,
is there a tree magnificent enough, so tall and sturdy,
to put stones beneath, or
prairies...great plains washed pure enough for your compassion,
understanding,
my love?
Sweet angel,
my eyes and senses have been blessed
with heavenly sights,
this earth,
more magnificence than my soul should know,
I've seen,
but none,
not one,
worthy enough to place a stone
in memory.
Sweet angel,
all I have,
lifelong love
and thoughts,
heart full of your wonder, memories,
my words,
singing of you,
my memorial, sweet baby,
how, oh Lord how,
can I build a memorial for you?
jessi
5-10-08
forever
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Dear jessi - so beautiful and most of all, so heartfelt. It's human nature to want that memorial place we can go, to remember. But the only one I know of that will last, is us. I'd love to see that place we could go, but strangely enough, or maybe not so strangely, we are, ourselves, the memorial to Heath. Each in our own way. The outside world would never understand. Again, keep writing, jessi - for us and our sweet angel.
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Dear Hpv - those videos, posted above, were great! The Hallelujah one had one of the best series of photos I've seen. The references to King David were there for a reason, though, and I wonder if the artist was VERY subtly exploring the human frailties we must expect would be there. Especially, given the quotes.
The other video had a lot of good humor, but now am mystified how I knew the tune was "Havah Negilah" (spelling?)? Brought back memories of singing that song at my sister's home, with wild abandon. It's been so many years, and I can't remember HOW it came into my life. But it sure is a song for Heath, given his energy and willingness to dance, wild and free, through life. Loved them both, and thanks.
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I just found today those wonderful videos:"Tribute to Heath Ledger
lots of new photos. Music: 'Hallelujah' by brilliant, true blue Aussie artist, Vince Jones" .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38CMM7i9omE&feature=related
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fbestsmileys.com%2Fflowers%2F4.gif&hash=9d326d45c36096383f5502db2b7d3f0f5dcd2073)
and a funny one.. "Heath wasn't only gorgeous but had the greatest sense of humour"...
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Watching them, I felt the need to share it with you brokies !!! <^(
Thank you very much dear hpv for those wonderful videos...The second is the best because it makes us smile ^f^ :c)
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Dear Hpv - those videos, posted above, were great! The Hallelujah one had one of the best series of photos I've seen. The references to King David were there for a reason, though, and I wonder if the artist was VERY subtly exploring the human frailties we must expect would be there. Especially, given the quotes.
The other video had a lot of good humor, but now am mystified how I knew the tune was "Havah Negilah" (spelling?)? Brought back memories of singing that song at my sister's home, with wild abandon. It's been so many years, and I can't remember HOW it came into my life. But it sure is a song for Heath, given his energy and willingness to dance, wild and free, through life. Loved them both, and thanks.
The spelling is "Havah Nagilah" meaning lets be merry.. so it's quite appropriate for the video... I needed something to put a smile on the face (TDK..)
jessi it's a beautiful shore for Heaths' place :ghug:
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
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and a funny one.. "Heath wasn't only gorgeous but had the greatest sense of humour"...
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Watching them, I felt the need to share it with you brokies !!! <^(
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Thank for this, sweetie. It made me smile so wide, and then cry. What a wonderful, loving, natural and funny man he was. I just wanted to hug him there, and tell him how special he was.
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
thanks for this tita :), i think we all still miss him, so much
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I would love to build a memorial with some Brokies. I was where his body laid in that chapel in Los Angeles the morning after, but I didn't know he had been mourned there. It is just a place I find peace. I'll have to let my tears and words be my memorial for now. Lucky are those who came together and found a way of laying something down to find some peace.
jessi
Einstein once said that coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous. I am happy for you, jessi, that you found peace in the chapel where Heath had been the day before. That's a special connection that will be with you forever. You are they lucky one. :ghug: :^^)
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Where can I build a memorial,
place stones and flowers for you,
far away from shore,
miles out to sea,
for you never just tread at the edge?
Where can I place tear soaked stones,
in middle of a desert where sun shines brightest,
and endless miles to roam, where great beauty
is hard to find,
the rarest of all hoarded?
Where can I bow in pain, choke on sobs,
build my memorial for you,
a mountain, in fields of wildflowers where not one
shows a glance of your greatness, or
a forest,
is there a tree magnificent enough, so tall and sturdy,
to put stones beneath, or
prairies...great plains washed pure enough for your compassion,
understanding,
my love?
Sweet angel,
my eyes and senses have been blessed
with heavenly sights,
this earth,
more magnificence than my soul should know,
I've seen,
but none,
not one,
worthy enough to place a stone
in memory.
Sweet angel,
all I have,
lifelong love
and thoughts,
heart full of your wonder, memories,
my words,
singing of you,
my memorial, sweet baby,
how, oh Lord how,
can I build a memorial for you?
jessi
5-10-08
forever
Jessi, this is so beautiful and true.
Nothing I say or do,
can do justice to Heath's beauty,
magnificence, love, and compassion,
his unique understanding of people,
of the world.
The things I say or do,
are only a poor reflection
of what has been placed there
But now the source of warmth and sincerity
of love and compassion is no more
so I struggle to bring back memories of Heath
of remember what little I had
in every blade of grass
in every flower, or birds circling in the sun
in every picture of surfs and sand
in every smile that is happy and open and kind
The memorials are as much for us, as they are for Heath
They remind me of the man that was
The man that I want to remember until the end of time
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
Wow, I have all those same pictures still with me
I love the little collage you made with it Tita ^f^
And yes, I still miss him, very much :-\\
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Michelle, Thank you so much for posting it here.
I am so greatful that I had the opportunity to be a part of this tribute, it was realy painful and emotional, but also good to be there with Brokies, to know that someone will catch you when you fall. And yes, it was a beautiful place for him - looking at the water and surrounded by light, with the sun shining on him.
I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
I saw pix and heard about your tribute to Heath in Eau Claire when I was in Chicago, but now I'm home and can quietly appreciate and feel it, through your pix and words. I'm so glad you did this, and in such a perfect, peaceful spot.
kathy
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I also wanted to add, I felt that Heath was a big part of this gathering. I, personally, felt that he was with us all the time. It was the first time for me to be with other Brokies since he died, and it was the first time I watched the movie since January. So there was a lot of crying and all these emotions I try to keep bottled inside came bursting out... and as painful as it was, at least we could do it together, and be there for each other, and that was extremely important to me. Thank you for being there, friends.
Keren, I felt very much the same way. I had the feeling that Heath was with us.
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Where can I build a memorial,
place stones and flowers for you,
far away from shore,
miles out to sea,
for you never just tread at the edge?
Where can I place tear soaked stones,
in middle of a desert where sun shines brightest,
and endless miles to roam, where great beauty
is hard to find,
the rarest of all hoarded?
Where can I bow in pain, choke on sobs,
build my memorial for you,
a mountain, in fields of wildflowers where not one
shows a glance of your greatness, or
a forest,
is there a tree magnificent enough, so tall and sturdy,
to put stones beneath, or
prairies...great plains washed pure enough for your compassion,
understanding,
my love?
Sweet angel,
my eyes and senses have been blessed
with heavenly sights,
this earth,
more magnificence than my soul should know,
I've seen,
but none,
not one,
worthy enough to place a stone
in memory.
Sweet angel,
all I have,
lifelong love
and thoughts,
heart full of your wonder, memories,
my words,
singing of you,
my memorial, sweet baby,
how, oh Lord how,
can I build a memorial for you?
jessi
5-10-08
forever
Dear Jessi,your poem is as beautiful as your feelings about Heath.And the best place to show these feelings,as Tony has said,is in all and each one of us.This is the best memorial we can build in his memory,and in the memory of all our beloved beings:the deepest part of our hearts.This is,more than a tangible place,no matter how beautiful it's,where Heath will live forever. %)
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
Wonderful patchwork,Simone¡ It's a good choice of Heath's images,both tender and strong...Thank you so much for your gift,dear¡ And,yes,we also miss him very much;it's difficult to "erase" somebody who has meant so much for you in only few months.He'll be a memory that forever will stay with us... %)
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A lot of thanks to Alicia, Zankou and LD...I have a lot of other magazines and soon, I"ll do other "patchworks" for you dear brokies :^^)
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That pic again...even if it has been posted before, because He is so wonderful on it ^f^
We still love you dear Heatcliff Ledger, we'll never forget you, I swear.
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A lot of thanks to Alicia, Zankou and LD...I have a lot of other magazines and soon, I"ll do other "patchworks" for you dear brokies :^^)
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That pic again...even if it has been posted before, because He is so wonderful on it ^f^
We still love you dear Heatcliff Ledger, we'll never forget you, I swear.
Thank you so much for this Simone. :^^)
God, he was beautiful.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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A lot of thanks to Alicia, Zankou and LD...I have a lot of other magazines and soon, I"ll do other "patchworks" for you dear brokies :^^)
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That pic again...even if it has been posted before, because He is so wonderful on it ^f^
We still love you dear Heatcliff Ledger, we'll never forget you, I swear.
Yes,he was wonderful on it...Thanks again,Simone¡ ^f^ :^^)
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I had a dream of Heath last night. I was a friend of the family, and was hanging out with Heath, Michelle and a number of others at a party. (I don't remember Matilda being there.) I was so aware of having the most serious hots for Heath and so I was avoiding eye contact, though often standing close, etc. Let me tell you, he was such a presence in the room. Definitely "larger than life." Then, a very strong moment at the end when we sat together and finally our eyes met. Nothing to do with the "hots" at that moment, just of a very powerful connection. End of dream... And I'm glad I had it. Like a moment of hello and goodbye perhaps.
kathy
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Asali and I made this tribute video for Heath, the video footage and some pictures are from our meeting in Eau Claire, for now we were only able to upload it to livevideo.
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This is what Asali read during the video, this is the poem on the wreath made by LuvJackNasty
In Our Hearts
(author unknown)
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
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And these are the significance of the flowers used by LuvJackNasty
Pink Carnation: I'll never forget you; gratitude. The carnation is the flower of January
White Roses: Reverence and remembrance
Daisy: Loyal love; youth. The daisy is the flower of April.
And this is the video on livevideo
http://www.livevideo.com/video/19C76F821D10454F91FE240BD83BA49A/tribute-to-heath-at-eau-claire.aspx
Huh, may we suggest to have tissues ready? :-\\
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Thank you both so much for putting this together. :ghug: :\'( It was a moment that is forever etched into my mind and heart. A moment that I wish more than anything wasn't necessary but.... I just don't have the words right now other than thank you both from the bottom of my heart for doing this. :ghug:
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In Our Hearts
(author unknown)
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
This was the perfect poem to read at such a moment. Every word is true and heartfelt.
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thanks for the cham and pauline :\'(
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
this is beautiful <^(
and yeah i still miss him....so much :-\\ :\'(
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All I can say is:BEAUTIFUL¡ Beautiful poem,beautiful tribut,beautiful flowers,beautiful video...And beautiful all of you to do it,and post it¡ Thank you so much¡ :ghug:
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Asali and I made this tribute video for Heath, the video footage and some pictures are from our meeting in Eau Claire, for now we were only able to upload it to livevideo.
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This is what Asali read during the video, this is the poem on the wreath made by LuvJackNasty
In Our Hearts
(author unknown)
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
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And these are the significance of the flowers used by LuvJackNasty
Pink Carnation: I'll never forget you; gratitude. The carnation is the flower of January
White Roses: Reverence and remembrance
Daisy: Loyal love; youth. The daisy is the flower of April.
And this is the video on livevideo
http://www.livevideo.com/video/19C76F821D10454F91FE240BD83BA49A/tribute-to-heath-at-eau-claire.aspx
Huh, may we suggest to have tissues ready? :-\\
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you so so so much for this, really.
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This is what Asali read during the video, this is the poem on the wreath made by LuvJackNasty
In Our Hearts
(author unknown)
We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And the days before that, too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part.
God has you in His Keeping.
We have you in our Heart.
And these are the significance of the flowers used by LuvJackNasty
Pink Carnation: I'll never forget you; gratitude. The carnation is the flower of January
White Roses: Reverence and remembrance
Daisy: Loyal love; youth. The daisy is the flower of April.
What you guys did wonderful ^f^ I love the poem very much, and it tells so much about what all of us are feeling, even months later. I always think about him, and me and my friends talk about him all the time. And the symbolism in the flowers, I wish I could cry :\'( :\'(
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Oh damn, Asali you was about to cry while you was reading...and Jess, baby.... :ghug: :ghug: Michelle and Keren holding each other....**crying my eyes out** :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Beautiful pic indeed,Mikele;yes,it's like he's in Heaven...And beautiful words also that fit very well with him and with what all of us are feeling.Take your love with you when you go... It's sure that he has taken all our love when he has gone,and that relieves me very much.Because he knows now that he was not alone,that his death has left a great hole in a lot of people's souls.Thanks for sharing with us. :^^)
Thank you to enjoy it :^^)
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For you dear brokies. I have cut a lot of first pages magazines to make a "patchwork"..: Hope you'll enjoy it.
I still miss him...And what about you ?
Thank you so much, Titabeille! Your "patchwork" is really beautiful!!
Yes, I still terribly miss him, so I can understand you. After nearly four months when I think about what happened I find it unreal, absurd. I have many pictures and articles about him stuck up on the doors of my wardrobe (a "patchwork" like yours) and often I look at them and think: "It's impossible! It isn't true."
I put also a picture of Jake Gyllenhaal (found on an Italian magazine next to the title: the cowboy remained alone) among those of Heath, and when I look at him I wonder how he can feel. I am just an Heath fan, and I miss him so much. Who knows what are his best friend's feelings?
There is another actor (Keanu Reeves) who lost his best friend (River Phoenix) so suddenly 15 years ago and who said: "I miss him and think of him everyday" (I found this on IMDB). I guess it's the same for Jake about Heath :\'( :\'(.
I am sure I will never forget him. I'm so in love with BBM <^(, and this is also because of him, because of the unforgettable character he brought to life.
I know life has to go on, but it will be forever an empty seat where he should have been. Forever a missing voice, forever a missing look without him :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(.
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i feel a little ill right now, one reason i was just thinking about heath obviously a little upset then i thought about thing he never finnished things he should of got the chance to do... this is nothing new i mean i get upset about that all the time but this time it made me feel nauseus and i dont know why...
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I thought of you and how you love this beauty,
And walking up the long beach all alone
I heard the waves breaking in measured thunder
As you and I once heard their monotone.
Around me were the echoing dunes, beyond me
The cold and sparkling silver of the sea --
We two will pass through death and ages lengthen
Before you hear that sound again with me.
Sarah Teasdale
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i feel a little ill right now, one reason i was just thinking about heath obviously a little upset then i thought about thing he never finnished things he should of got the chance to do... this is nothing new i mean i get upset about that all the time but this time it made me feel nauseus and i dont know why...
Neither do I, Matt, but sadness has many paths to reach heart.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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That pic again...even if it has been posted before, because He is so wonderful on it ^f^
We still love you dear Heatcliff Ledger, we'll never forget you, I swear.
I quote :\'( :\'( <^( <^(.
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Neither do I, Matt, but sadness has many paths to reach heart.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
yer i suppose.
i feel a bit better about this today i mean i ahve every confidence heath is in abetter place and i know he isnt gone as long as we remember him and keep him in our hearts... its still obviosuly hard because we cant see him for a while etc. but im sure we will see him again someday...
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yer i suppose.
i feel a bit better about this today i mean i ahve every confidence heath is in abetter place and i know he isnt gone as long as we remember him and keep him in our hearts... its still obviosuly hard because we cant see him for a while etc. but im sure we will see him again someday...
You're right,Matt,he's now in a better place,or at least,in another world different from ours.But he'll never be gone completely as long as he stays in our mind and our hearts.Nobody is gone forever if there's one single person who remember him and miss him;the oblivion is the real death.And Heath will live forever because he'll never be forgotten. :ghug:
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In all your looks you've always been beautiful;but not as much as your soul.Short life has been yours;but always full with projects,ideas and LOVE.
REST IN PEACE,SWEET EYES ANGEL.
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In all your looks you've always been beautiful;but not as much as your soul.Short life has been yours;but always full with projects,ideas and LOVE.
REST IN PEACE,SWEET EYES ANGEL.
This is really beautiful.... <^(
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Matt and MPJ, I completely agree with both you O0!!
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: from Megalyn08
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Hello friends. :^^)
RL has been very demanding and I haven't been able to visit this thread much over the last few days. Now that I have caught up, I just have to say that I'm overwhelmed and so heartened by all of the wonderful things you have expressed. The love and appreciation for Heath and for each other can be felt pouring out of the computer screen. It is, once again, an amazing tribute to the people who brought us BBM and the family we have created here in honor of that. :ghug:
Thank you for all of the videos, collages, poems and personal thoughts you have posted. Knowing that we share these feelings really is such a comfort. Tony, this was beautifully stated:
Dear jessi - so beautiful and most of all, so heartfelt. It's human nature to want that memorial place we can go, to remember. But the only one I know of that will last, is us. I'd love to see that place we could go, but strangely enough, or maybe not so strangely, we are, ourselves, the memorial to Heath. Each in our own way. The outside world would never understand. Again, keep writing, jessi - for us and our sweet angel.
And it echoes the same idea that Michelle shared, when she said that "we are all laying memorial with each word here."
Can you imagine a better tribute than to have so many people from all around the world celebrate your spirit and your memory, and carry that celebration forth in their own lives? He is a lucky man, to have left such a legacy, and we are lucky people, to have been the recipients of it. :ghug:
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and we are lucky people, to have been the recipients of it. :ghug:
extramly lucky people, gorgeouse post FC :\'( :ghug:
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In all your looks you've always been beautiful;but not as much as your soul.Short life has been yours;but always full with projects,ideas and LOVE.
REST IN PEACE,SWEET EYES ANGEL.
So beautiful, MPJ <^( <^( <^( <^(!! Many thanks for posting it :t) :ghug:!!
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Hello friends. :^^)
I just have to say that I'm overwhelmed and so heartened by all of the wonderful things you have expressed. The love and appreciation for Heath and for each other can be felt pouring out of the computer screen. It is, once again, an amazing tribute to the people who brought us BBM and the family we have created here in honor of that. :ghug:
Thank you for all of the videos, collages, poems and personal thoughts you have posted. Knowing that we share these feelings really is such a comfort.
Can you imagine a better tribute than to have so many people from all around the world celebrate your spirit and your memory, and carry that celebration forth in their own lives? He is a lucky man, to have left such a legacy, and we are lucky people, to have been the recipients of it. :ghug:
FlwrChild, what a beautiful post <^(!!
I understand what you mean, when I come in this thread I always find so many beautiful tributes and thoughts for Heath and I feel my emotions can be understood here. I wonder if he knew he was so beloved, or if he knows it now, in the place where he is. You're right, we are lucky people to have been the recipients of the legacy he left <^( <^(. This is another gift for us after all the emotions he gave to us <^(.
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So beautiful, MPJ <^( <^( <^( <^(!! Many thanks for posting it :t) :ghug:!!
Thanks,Megalyn,but you don't need to congratulate me for posting,I don't deserve it now...Sometimes I'd like to express what I feel for him and for the fact he has left us,and I think everything is few for what he really deserves. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Hello friends. :^^)
RL has been very demanding and I haven't been able to visit this thread much over the last few days. Now that I have caught up, I just have to say that I'm overwhelmed and so heartened by all of the wonderful things you have expressed. The love and appreciation for Heath and for each other can be felt pouring out of the computer screen. It is, once again, an amazing tribute to the people who brought us BBM and the family we have created here in honor of that. :ghug:
Thank you for all of the videos, collages, poems and personal thoughts you have posted. Knowing that we share these feelings really is such a comfort. Tony, this was beautifully stated:
Dear jessi - so beautiful and most of all, so heartfelt. It's human nature to want that memorial place we can go, to remember. But the only one I know of that will last, is us. I'd love to see that place we could go, but strangely enough, or maybe not so strangely, we are, ourselves, the memorial to Heath. Each in our own way. The outside world would never understand. Again, keep writing, jessi - for us and our sweet angel.
And it echoes the same idea that Michelle shared, when she said that "we are all laying memorial with each word here."
Can you imagine a better tribute than to have so many people from all around the world celebrate your spirit and your memory, and carry that celebration forth in their own lives? He is a lucky man, to have left such a legacy, and we are lucky people, to have been the recipients of it. :ghug:
I have no words,FC,to express how beautiful is your post¡ ^f^ I really believe he knows all the emotions that are reflected here,from the place he' s now,and I'm sure he's feeling very proud of having left so many persons who love him here.And proud of having taken so much love with him also to his new home. <^(
And yes,we're lucky:both for having known him somehow and for having known each other and knowing we can share these feelings with other persons who can understand them.Thanks to everybody¡ %)
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Barb, your words are so gorgeous!!! Love them so much because you just said the same thing that Andrew and I said in another place talking about how difficult life is for some people in love. We just said: "We're the lucky ones", like some man who loved said once.
I was extremely touched then when I read your words, Thank you sweetie. :^^)
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Thanks,Megalyn,but you don't need to congratulate me for posting,I don't deserve it now...Sometimes I'd like to express what I feel for him and for the fact he has left us,and I think everything is few for what he really deserves. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
:h) MPJ :h)
Yes, you deserve my thanks for sharing your thoughts and tributes to Heath here ^f^, like everyone who do that deserve them :ghug:. I am really glad to find in this thread so many beautiful words, thoughts and tributes to a such great person and actor, I feel myself understood and not alone to feel these emotions. Someone here writes very special things....I can find songs, poems, phrases, pictures, sometimes things that hit and touch me very deeply. That's why I say thanks to you all: thank you for sharing your feelings, and thank you for doing it in your unique, special way....Thank you for being here.
About Heath, yes, he gave so much to us all, so he deserves our gratitude, our friendship, our love in all ways we can give these thing to him. I often wonder what he thinks about all what we write here. Perhaps sometimes he smiles (undoubtedly he laughed a lot if he saw the video I uploaded on You Tube as a present for his birthday!! :)), but I think he feel himself really loved.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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:h) MPJ :h)
Yes, you deserve my thanks for sharing your thoughts and tributes to Heath here ^f^, like everyone who do that deserve them :ghug:. I am really glad to find in this thread so many beautiful words, thoughts and tributes to a such great person and actor, I feel myself understood and not alone to feel these emotions. Someone here writes very special things....I can find songs, poems, phrases, pictures, sometimes things that hit and touch me very deeply. That's why I say thanks to you all: thank you for sharing your feelings, and thank you for doing it in your unique, special way....Thank you for being here.
About Heath, yes, he gave so much to us all, so he deserves our gratitude, our friendship, our love in all ways we can give these thing to him. I often wonder what he thinks about all what we write here. Perhaps sometimes he smiles (undoubtedly he laughed a lot if he saw the video I uploaded on You Tube as a present for his birthday!! :)), but I think he feel himself really loved.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
i like to think of him looking down having a little giggle, happy to see the messages of love snet his way :) :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
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i like to think of him looking down having a little giggle, happy to see the messages of love snet his way :) :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Ditto.
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i like to think of him looking down having a little giggle, happy to see the messages of love snet his way :) :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Agree, Matt. This is a really lovely thought. <^( <^( :ghug: :ghug: ^f^
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Lovely thoughts megalyn, and I like that image Matt. :)
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:h) MPJ :h)
Yes, you deserve my thanks for sharing your thoughts and tributes to Heath here ^f^, like everyone who do that deserve them :ghug:. I am really glad to find in this thread so many beautiful words, thoughts and tributes to a such great person and actor, I feel myself understood and not alone to feel these emotions. Someone here writes very special things....I can find songs, poems, phrases, pictures, sometimes things that hit and touch me very deeply. That's why I say thanks to you all: thank you for sharing your feelings, and thank you for doing it in your unique, special way....Thank you for being here.
About Heath, yes, he gave so much to us all, so he deserves our gratitude, our friendship, our love in all ways we can give these thing to him. I often wonder what he thinks about all what we write here. Perhaps sometimes he smiles (undoubtedly he laughed a lot if he saw the video I uploaded on You Tube as a present for his birthday!! :)), but I think he feel himself really loved.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
Thank you for your kind words,Megalyn¡ :ghug: :ghug: I only can speak for myself,and it's difficult to express some feelings with words,more still if you're not able to speak a language properly.But,as I think it was Sebas who said that all of us speak the language of love beyond any linguistics differences; and it' s love what we all feel for Heath and his memory.
In all the rest I only can agree with you,so I'm not going to add anything else to your lovely post.Also remarking that I also thank you all for all the feeling you've shared,for being here and for being as you're. :t) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
i like to think of him looking down having a little giggle, happy to see the messages of love snet his way :) :\'( :ghug: :ghug:
Wonderful image,Matt;I'm sure he feels very moved for all our posts and happy and even laughing for feeling so loved as he is for all of us... :ghug: :ghug:
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it's difficult to express some feelings with words,more still if you're not able to speak a language properly.But,as I think it was Sebas who said that all of us speak the language of love beyond any linguistics differences; and it' s love what we all feel for Heath and his memory.
MPJ - Completely agree, what beautiful words!! <^( The language of love is undoubtedly what allow us all to understand each other's feeling and to share ours own. The language of love is what all us heard in Ennis and Jack's tender story and that brought us here. And the language of love is what we will forever use talking about Heath, Jake and all what they told us about love <^( <^( <^( <^( :ghug: :ghug:.
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Lovely thoughts megalyn
:t) so much, FlwrChild :) :) :ghug:
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MPJ - Completely agree, what beautiful words!! <^( The language of love is undoubtedly what allow us all to understand each other's feeling and to share ours own. The language of love is what all us heard in Ennis and Jack's tender story and that brought us here. And the language of love is what we will forever use talking about Heath, Jake and all what they told us about love <^( <^( <^( <^( :ghug: :ghug:.
The language of love is what allow us to write such a wonderful posts like yours,Megalyn¡ :^^)
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The language of love is what allow us to write such a wonderful posts like yours,Megalyn¡ :^^)
MPJ :t) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: ^f^ Megalyn08
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A very early morning to you all
This weeks been tough..just when I was beginning to believe that I'd managed to get my head around it and accept that Heath is not longer here..every advert break during my guilty pleasure of Hollyoaks (A UK soap) has had a trailer for Brokeback Mountain ahead of it;s terrestrial premiere on Sunday ..and there he is living and breathing ..his pictures in all the listing mags and I feel like I've been punched in the stomach again and find myself back in a state of disbelief waiting to wake up
You're right,Matt,he's now in a better place,or at least,in another world different from ours.But he'll never be gone completely as long as he stays in our mind and our hearts.Nobody is gone forever if there's one single person who remember him and miss him;the oblivion is the real death.And Heath will live forever because he'll never be forgotten. :ghug:
But I cling on to my belief that he's out there somewhere looking in and walking alongside he loved dearly. But also as well in better world not visible to our eyes yet. And yes it hurts that we can't see him, but one day we will again. But he will not be forgotten by those of us he left behind, who simply loved him from afar and let him into our lives through his films. We all post because he had an impact on our lives. Through his work and the way he went about his life he taught us so many important lessons and mrals that the greatest tribute we could pay to Heath is to incorporate those ways and values, not to mention his love of life into our own lives. Follow our dreams..make every second count, love and be true to ourselves. Heath didn't just change his own stars through his lifestyle and the films he chose to make, he changed ours too. And those of us, lucky enough to be here and pay attention during Heath's time here will never let what he achieved be forgotten. I'm sure in fifty, maybe even a hunderd years, he'll be seen as one of the all time greats, but we were the lucky ones who got to watch as it happen.
And though ways of the Universe we simply cannot fathom, I like to think he hears our thoughts about him, our prayers, that he saw all the tributes left outside his apartment and all around the world, that he was there on the beach that day with his friends and that he ses every post about him on forums and every video. And while I'm sure he in true Heath fashion would be embarrased by it, is inside beaming with the love thats has been shown for him and the tributes paid to him. And with a smile, and a twinkle in his eye, off he goes on his skateboard.
So yes, I like to believe he sees every post that is here. And I feel truly honoured to be a part of this forum, even though I haven't posted much due to real life getting in the way, and to be honest feelign sometimes, I had nothing to say that hadn't already been said a thousand times better. I just wished I joined a long long time ago, after I'd seen Brokeback to have joined in on all the discussions then. But this place is a remarkable part of Heath's legacy. And I hope it long continues. For as I read post over post that astounds me, with it's beautiful poetry and thoughts,and pictures, I can not be more grateful that all you wonderful people out there around the world have been brought together here and through your words and actions paying the biggest compliments to our prince among men, our troubled cowboy, our inquisitive storyteller, our Casanova, our evil Joker - for he's all of these and so much more - the beautiful spirit that is Heath Ledger.
(Sorry about the length)
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And though ways of the Universe we simply cannot fathom, I like to think he hears our thoughts about him, our prayers, that he saw all the tributes left outside his apartment and all around the world, that he was there on the beach that day with his friends and that he ses every post about him on forums and every video. And while I'm sure he in true Heath fashion would be embarrased by it, is inside beaming with the love thats has been shown for him and the tributes paid to him. And with a smile, and a twinkle in his eye, off he goes on his skateboard.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Oh my...
Don't be sorry baby. Your post is really beautiful. I love the idea of Heath seeing every tribute and reading every post, being on the beach and then skating free. Oh wow, you got me crying here. I know how you felt seeing those BBM adverts.....The day of Heath's birthday was the day that BBM was showed for the first time in the TV channels in my country.....so imagine me....all broken trying not to think about Heath and seeing his face in every channel...That was hard...I spent the night awake. My mother didn't help much saying during the whole day "hey, I saw your boys on TV; tonight this channel will play the film", and then again "hey, in this channel too!!!". Thanks mom, I was trying to forget....
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You don't need to be sorry,Hayley,because your post is beautiful and sensitive. ^f^ It reflects very well what I think a great part of us feel and want to believe about the place where Heath is now and about how he knows about everything what is said,written and FELT here...I really don't have anything to add to it,more than thank you for posting it¡.
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That was beautiful Hayley. I'd like to think Heath is still with us in spirit. I know I believe my parents are and it will be at an odd moment that I'll suddenly feel their presence. I think it is the same for me with Heath.
Sometimes I can't believe he's gone. And with TDK's premiere coming up soon I feel so bad he is not here to be a part of it. All the interviews I was looking forward to, his fidgety self. :\'(
I am glad I have a place I can come to with people who understand what I am feeling now :ghug:
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A very early morning to you all
This weeks been tough..just when I was beginning to believe that I'd managed to get my head around it and accept that Heath is not longer here..every advert break during my guilty pleasure of Hollyoaks (A UK soap) has had a trailer for Brokeback Mountain ahead of it;s terrestrial premiere on Sunday ..and there he is living and breathing ..his pictures in all the listing mags and I feel like I've been punched in the stomach again and find myself back in a state of disbelief waiting to wake up
But I cling on to my belief that he's out there somewhere looking in and walking alongside he loved dearly. But also as well in better world not visible to our eyes yet. And yes it hurts that we can't see him, but one day we will again. But he will not be forgotten by those of us he left behind, who simply loved him from afar and let him into our lives through his films. We all post because he had an impact on our lives. Through his work and the way he went about his life he taught us so many important lessons and mrals that the greatest tribute we could pay to Heath is to incorporate those ways and values, not to mention his love of life into our own lives. Follow our dreams..make every second count, love and be true to ourselves. Heath didn't just change his own stars through his lifestyle and the films he chose to make, he changed ours too. And those of us, lucky enough to be here and pay attention during Heath's time here will never let what he achieved be forgotten. I'm sure in fifty, maybe even a hunderd years, he'll be seen as one of the all time greats, but we were the lucky ones who got to watch as it happen.
And though ways of the Universe we simply cannot fathom, I like to think he hears our thoughts about him, our prayers, that he saw all the tributes left outside his apartment and all around the world, that he was there on the beach that day with his friends and that he ses every post about him on forums and every video. And while I'm sure he in true Heath fashion would be embarrased by it, is inside beaming with the love thats has been shown for him and the tributes paid to him. And with a smile, and a twinkle in his eye, off he goes on his skateboard.
So yes, I like to believe he sees every post that is here. And I feel truly honoured to be a part of this forum, even though I haven't posted much due to real life getting in the way, and to be honest feelign sometimes, I had nothing to say that hadn't already been said a thousand times better. I just wished I joined a long long time ago, after I'd seen Brokeback to have joined in on all the discussions then. But this place is a remarkable part of Heath's legacy. And I hope it long continues. For as I read post over post that astounds me, with it's beautiful poetry and thoughts,and pictures, I can not be more grateful that all you wonderful people out there around the world have been brought together here and through your words and actions paying the biggest compliments to our prince among men, our troubled cowboy, our inquisitive storyteller, our Casanova, our evil Joker - for he's all of these and so much more - the beautiful spirit that is Heath Ledger.
(Sorry about the length)
Hayley, welcome back darling, I quoted your whole beautiful post, it touched me so much :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(. Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts with us :t) <^( <^( <^( <^(. I understand your feelings, as everyone here, I'm sure about it. I like the special way you talk about him, and I smiled thinking of him reading all our posts and watching the videos dedicated to him! He is a very loved person, like maybe he didn't know, and we are so lucky to have met him in some way. I agree, he changed also our own stars (really lovely thought <^() and left us so many messages we can listen not only with our ears, but also and above all with our heart.
Megalyn08 :ghug:
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
i know who you feel Matt :ghug: :ghug: i dont now what to say to make you feel better :-\\...i guess there is nothing we can do
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i know who you feel Matt :ghug: :ghug: i dont now what to say to make you feel better :-\\...i guess there is nothing we can do
thanks emelie :ghug: and yer there is nothing we can say or do to make it better. it really is one of those "if you cant fix it, you otta stand it" situations :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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thanks emelie :ghug: and yer there is nothing we can say or do to make it better. it really is one of those "if you cant fix it, you otta stand it" situations :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
yeah :-\\ :\'(
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
It may happen, dear Matt, all I can tell you is :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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It may happen, dear Matt, all I can tell you is :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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thanks megalyn :ghug:
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Matt :ghug: Don't worry,feeling some day sadder than others is normal;it happens all the time with our daily life,and it happens also when something very bad has hit us...When my mother died,there were days when I could cope with the situation,although I missed her very much;but there were others when,for any circumstances,I was so depressed,more than some months before...Why? I don't know.Forgive me for personalising,but I mean that sometimes any little thing reminds us the person we've lost,even if we don' t realise it,and then we fall again...Think about him with the happiness of having known him and the hope of meeting him someday and you'll feel better little by little. :^^)
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Matt :ghug: Don't worry,feeling some day sadder than others is normal;it happens all the time with our daily life,and it happens also when something very bad has hit us...When my mother died,there were days when I could cope with the situation,although I missed her very much;but there were others when,for any circumstances,I was so depressed,more than some months before...Why? I don't know.Forgive me for personalising,but I mean that sometimes any little thing reminds us the person we've lost,even if we don' t realise it,and then we fall again...Think about him with the happiness of having known him and the hope of meeting him someday and you'll feel better little by little. :^^)
Oh, my God, MPJ!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
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Matt :ghug: Don't worry,feeling some day sadder than others is normal;it happens all the time with our daily life,and it happens also when something very bad has hit us...When my mother died,there were days when I could cope with the situation,although I missed her very much;but there were others when,for any circumstances,I was so depressed,more than some months before...Why? I don't know.Forgive me for personalising,but I mean that sometimes any little thing reminds us the person we've lost,even if we don' t realise it,and then we fall again...Think about him with the happiness of having known him and the hope of meeting him someday and you'll feel better little by little. :^^)
thanks, Ali :ghug:
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Oh, my God, MPJ!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Megalyn08
Megalyn, :t) :ghug: :^^)
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
:^^) I feel that way too. It just is so unfair. I was watching INT last night and remembered seeing it when it came out the day before Thanksgiving. I had mixed feelings. I'd only gone to see it cause of Heath. And his performance was great. But I couldn't decide at the time if I'd get it when it came out on DVD. After Heath's passing there was NO WAY I wouldn't get it.
After all the hoopla is said and done for TDK I think it will be even more depressing. I know there will still be Imaginarium to look at but it won't be the same. I don't know if it will draw the kind of attention Heath has for TDK
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well im certifibly feeling pretty awful right now :(, sometimes im sad about it but coping but right now im just a mess. its just i keep expecting to see something about him on the news or here about a new film he is in or something and then it just hits me, these things just arn't coming i mean its not like i ever forget hwats happened... i mean i dont even understand it myself it just hits me harder sometimmes then others. :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: there is nothing to do, matt, when phs is here. Just hold on tight and right the wave till you are through. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
It helps to look at happy pictures like A Knight's Tale, especially the beginning, and skip the last part.
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Today I saw somebody who looked just like you
He walked like you do I thought he was you
And as he turned the corner I called out your name
I felt so ashamed cause it wasn't you wasn't you
You are everything and everything is you
How can I forget when each face that I see
Brings backs memories of being with you
I just can't go on living life as I do
Comparing each one with you
Because they just won't do
They're not you
You are everything and everything is you
Kim Carnes
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Today I saw somebody who looked just like you
He walked like you do I thought he was you
And as he turned the corner I called out your name
I felt so ashamed cause it wasn't you wasn't you
You are everything and everything is you
How can I forget when each face that I see
Brings backs memories of being with you
I just can't go on living life as I do
Comparing each one with you
Because they just won't do
They're not you
You are everything and everything is you
Kim Carnes
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It's so lovely,Mikele;thanks for posting¡ It's true,when we loss a beloved person,it seems as if we'd see him/her everywhere.But that unknown person it's never them again... :\'(
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Today I saw somebody who looked just like you
He walked like you do I thought he was you
And as he turned the corner I called out your name
I felt so ashamed cause it wasn't you wasn't you
You are everything and everything is you
How can I forget when each face that I see
Brings backs memories of being with you
I just can't go on living life as I do
Comparing each one with you
Because they just won't do
They're not you
You are everything and everything is you
Kim Carnes
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:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( That's wonderful, Mikele, :t) for posting it :ghug:! Megalyn08
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4 months, I still miss you baby :\'( :\'(
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4 months ago you began another journey to another place that is now your home.Although you live in thousands of little homes:our hearts.I miss you so much I can't hardly stand it... :^^)
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Today I saw somebody who looked just like you
He walked like you do I thought he was you
And as he turned the corner I called out your name
I felt so ashamed cause it wasn't you wasn't you
You are everything and everything is you
How can I forget when each face that I see
Brings backs memories of being with you
I just can't go on living life as I do
Comparing each one with you
Because they just won't do
They're not you
You are everything and everything is you
Kim Carnes
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:clap: Mikele, it's a wonderful poem and a so nice pic of Heath...4 months already :\'( I miss him so much :(
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4 months ago you began another journey to another place that is now your home.Although you live in thousands of little homes:our hearts.I miss you so much I can't hardly stand it... :^^)
Hello Alicia, indeed, his home is inside us, deeply in our hearts. :^^)
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Do you know that "Batman" (the dark knight) will be on screen on july 16 ? I don't know when the movie will come in Belgium >:( but I want to watch it even if it makes me cry.
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Do you know that "Batman" (the dark knight) will be on screen on july 16 ? I don't know when the movie will come in Belgium >:( but I want to watch it even if it makes me cry.
I don't know still when it will be released in Spain.But it's sure I'll go and watch it and I'll do something at the same time as an homage to him-I don't know what...-.Thanks,Simone¡ :^^)
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I don't know still when it will be released in Spain.But it's sure I'll go and watch it and I'll do something at the same time as an homage to him-I don't know what...-.Thanks,Simone¡ :^^)
Me too dear Alicia. During the Brussel's gathering, we'll do an homage to him probably on saturday 4. ^f^
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4 months since u are dead...4 fu**ing months.it;s unfair...u are my fav actor and u are not here to make for me new movies.to make me laugh cry or be happy.i won't know how u would look when u would be old....i am so sad that i can tell u my sweet angel.aniway thank you for coming in my dreams and talking with me and i think that u are sad and happy in the same time.happy that u had matilda and sad cause u won't see her as a teen as a mother or as a wife...i guess it's horible...love u a lot my wonderful angel...
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4 months since u are dead...4 fu**ing months.it;s unfair...u are my fav actor and u are not here to make for me new movies.to make me laugh cry or be happy.i won't know how u would look when u would be old....i am so sad that i can tell u my sweet angel.aniway thank you for coming in my dreams and talking with me and i think that u are sad and happy in the same time.happy that u had matilda and sad cause u won't see her as a teen as a mother or as a wife...i guess it's horible...love u a lot my wonderful angel...
:ghug: crisy, 4 fu**ing months indeed :(.
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For my sweet Casanova Heath
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I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
Miss you baby
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For my sweet Casanova Heath
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I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
Miss you baby
thats very beautiful Marj <^( ^f^
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For my sweet Casanova Heath
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I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
Miss you baby
Beautiful poetry,Marj¡ ^f^ Yes,he had,and forever will have,the key to our hearts...R.I.P.,my sweet eyes angel... :\'(
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Love of my life, you hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me.
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
Love of my life don't leave me,
You've stolen my love, you now desert me,
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
...Back - hurry back,
Don't take it away from me,
because you don't know what it means to me
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May the sun always shine on you baby
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Keren :ghug: :ghug:
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These poems and pictures are just heartbreakingly beautiful. Thank you all for sharing them. :ghug:
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Gorgeous poems Keren and Marjoleine, with beautiful words... :ghug:
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Love of my life, you hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me.
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
Love of my life don't leave me,
You've stolen my love, you now desert me,
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
...Back - hurry back,
Don't take it away from me,
because you don't know what it means to me
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May the sun always shine on you baby
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Oh my gosh Keren, the very first line hit the hardest.
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For my sweet Casanova Heath
I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.
I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.
Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.
That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
Miss you baby
Love of my life, you hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me.
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
Love of my life don't leave me,
You've stolen my love, you now desert me,
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
...Back - hurry back,
Don't take it away from me,
because you don't know what it means to me
May the sun always shine on you baby
OMG, Keren and Marj.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( That's so precious and heartbreaking...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Love of my life, you hurt me
You've broken my heart and now you leave me.
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me,
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
Love of my life don't leave me,
You've stolen my love, you now desert me,
Love of my life can't you see,
Bring it back, bring it back,
Don't take it away from me
Because you don't know, what it means to me.
...Back - hurry back,
Don't take it away from me,
because you don't know what it means to me
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May the sun always shine on you baby
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Keren,the "Love of my life" has always made me sad because it reminds me of Freddie Mercury,another great person too soon gone.And now they're so well applied to Heath that it'll forever make me cry when I heard it...Thanks for sharing it¡ :ghug: :\'(
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I cannot believe it's been 4 months. I was stunned because when I woke up this morning, I didn't even realize what day it was. Then, all of the sudden in my 1st class, it hit me. I couldn't do anything but sit there. So I did, but I closed my eyes and gave a short little prayer and kissed the wristband on my right wrist. I wear it everyday and everyday I feel that he is with me and I carry a piece of him in my heart.
Heath, may you be humble, and calm in your new home, and may you never forget how much we love you.
4 months, damn..
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BT, this is beautiful :\'( <^(
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4 months ago you began another journey to another place that is now your home.Although you live in thousands of little homes:our hearts.I miss you so much I can't hardly stand it... :^^)
I absolutely quote!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Miss you, Heath.
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4 months ago you began another journey to another place that is now your home.Although you live in thousands of little homes:our hearts.I miss you so much I can't hardly stand it... :^^)
4 months :\'(- and it still doesn't feel real. Cheers Heath where ever you may be. Till next time xx
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Tammy, amiga, :ghug: :^^) :\'(
I was okay most of today, even after reading all the touching poems from everyone...
But yours... :\'( ...and I quote:
The Next Walkabout
Only a slight last breath
but blowing out a so big flame
And taking our own breaths
Away
So now
There's a hole in the world
there's a hole in our minds
Heath, because you walked away
This distance in your eyes
We would have to feel it
As a sign
We will keep you inside
We will keep you insight
Please trust us to take care
Of all the dreams that you left
Behind
Walk away, never mind
If the sadness in your eyes
Can be erased by the light
Which have to come towards you
Whereever you walk now
Maybe along some ropes between the stars
Maybe along some roads between strange worlds
We want a new Journey for you Boy
Because the Journey is what you always needed
Trust us to be down there the keepers
Of the new flame, that we lit for you
And please, please, Babe, just enjoy your new
Walkabout.
Everything is so beautiful and deep...the stars, the distance, the walkabout, the flames, the light, the ropes, the roads, the Journey... <^( :^^)
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I feel awful right now, I'm having one of my break downs again, I think I'm fine and that I can look at pictures or videos with him and then the tears start to build up in my eyes and now i cant stop crying :\'(
I miss you so much Heath :\'( :\'( You are amazing and you will always have a special place in my heart that no one can replace. I love you baby...
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I feel awful right now, I'm having one of my break downs again, I think I'm fine and that I can look at pictures or videos with him and then the tears start to build up in my eyes and now i cant stop crying :\'(
I miss you so much Heath :\'( :\'( You are amazing and you will always have a special place in my heart that no one can replace. I love you baby...
Emelie,don't feel bad,even if it's logical... ^f^ Do you remember what I told Matt in a breakdown like yours? All of us have or have had these up and downs in our state of mind when we've lost a beloved person;sometimes you feel "normal",you remember this person but almost with joy.And sometimes,on the contrary,you don't know why or how,then you feel so depressed that you really believe you aren't going to stand the sadness...I know it's not a relief for you now saying this,but I only want you to know that I understand you and that I've also had these feelings,with Heath,with my mother and some other persons I've lost.And I can secure you there's nothing we can do,just remember them and wait until the memories don't hurt us;time will tell you when the wound is healed and you'll know it.Just love him and some day we all will learn to be without him in this Earth. :ghug: :^^)
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Emelie,don't feel bad,even if it's logical... ^f^ Do you remember what I told Matt in a breakdown like yours? All of us have or have had these up and downs in our state of mind when we've lost a beloved person;sometimes you feel "normal",you remember this person but almost with joy.And sometimes,on the contrary,you don't know why or how,then you feel so depressed that you really believe you aren't going to stand the sadness...I know it's not a relief for you now saying this,but I only want you to know that I understand you and that I've also had these feelings,with Heath,with my mother and some other persons I've lost.And I can secure you there's nothing we can do,just remember them and wait until the memories don't hurt us;time will tell you when the wound is healed and you'll know it.Just love him and some day we all will learn to be without him in this Earth. :ghug: :^^)
thank you :^^) I feel better now :) sometimes its just so hard that I dont know what to do and it helps to tell someone on the forum, because I know that im not alone :)
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I feel awful right now, I'm having one of my break downs again, I think I'm fine and that I can look at pictures or videos with him and then the tears start to build up in my eyes and now i cant stop crying :\'(
I miss you so much Heath :\'( :\'( You are amazing and you will always have a special place in my heart that no one can replace. I love you baby...
Don't worry dear emelie, dry yours tears please and think at that : He is on our memories for always, we have pics, movies for eternity :^^)
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thank you :^^) I feel better now :) sometimes its just so hard that I dont know what to do and it helps to tell someone on the forum, because I know that im not alone :)
Of course,you're not alone,dear;we all feel the same when we expect it the least...As Simone says,think that we have and forever will have his movies and our memories of him,till we'll see him again in the other world. :^^)
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Of course,you're not alone,dear;we all feel the same when we expect it the least...As Simone says,think that we have and forever will have his movies and our memories of him,till we'll see him again in the other world. :^^)
We are not alone ! We are together :ghug:...And one day, we'll be in another world too :ghug: :ghug:
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you are all so nice, I dont know what I would do without you and im sure im not alone thinking that ^f^
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you are all so nice, I dont know what I would do without you and im sure im not alone thinking that ^f^
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%) too.Even if you "attack" us with 40thousand photos of you every day¡ ;D
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%) too.Even if you "attack" us with 40thousand photos of you every day¡ ;D
*o) haha sorry about that :P
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*o) haha sorry about that :P
Hey¡there's no need to be sorry... %( :)
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God.. I miss him so
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God.. I miss him so
i know what you mean :\'(, sometimes is gets so hard... and i beleive he is in a better place now but that doesnt sooth that selfish piece of me that just wishes he had been able to stay longer :\'(, sometimes i just almost forget or subconciously deny his death and then when i remember its just like when i was first affected :(
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In memory of Rob Knox:
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/2022742/Harry-Potter-actor-stabbed-to-death-protecting-his-younger-brother.html
When I read the story of another soul leaving too soon,
When I read the tributes of a man who lived as you did,
The tears flow again as they flowed for you,
When the mother asked, "Why my Rob?"
I can remember asking the same question, for you, why?
There is no easy answer, I know now
But there is something I know I can do
To hold your example in memory
To live your example in my life
Because as long as I remember and live fully, you are still here
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"There is no easy answer, I know now
But there is something I know I can do
To hold your example in memory
To live your example in my life
Because as long as I remember and live fully, you are still here"
Well said lc. For all of those we've lost, always. :ghug:
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God.. I miss him so
((((((Hanna)))))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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God.. I miss him so
Hanna,I only can say what I told to Emelie... ^f^ All this is hard to stand,but we must be strong and united in a feeling we all have.Time is a great healer,but there's always been in us the nostalgia as well as the love we have for him.I only could say all this and,above all, :ghug: .
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In memory of Rob Knox:
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/2022742/Harry-Potter-actor-stabbed-to-death-protecting-his-younger-brother.html
When I read the story of another soul leaving too soon,
When I read the tributes of a man who lived as you did,
The tears flow again as they flowed for you,
When the mother asked, "Why my Rob?"
I can remember asking the same question, for you, why?
There is no easy answer, I know now
But there is something I know I can do
To hold your example in memory
To live your example in my life
Because as long as I remember and live fully, you are still here
Beautiful and wise,Andrew¡ ^f^ They say that oblivion is the real death; so,if we keep a place in our hearts for Heath and all these who we've lost,they will be alive somehow.At least in our love,and this is something that any stupid death never will be able to take from us... :ghug:
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((((((Hanna)))))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I echo that...... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I am so glad you all are here! :ghug:
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Thank you :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:..
I am so glad you all are here! :ghug:
We must be here for Heath... :^^)
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
reading this got me in tears :\'( I don't think the pain will ever go away, we may not be related to him by blood or friendship, but there was something there, something that I cant describe and that feeling will stay with me forever...
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
Keren.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
Yes,Keren,the pain is never going away;the only difference is that we are able,sooner or later,to manage it.But there will always be this emptiness in our heart that is reflected in crying when we remember the person we've lost.And this,10,21 or 50 years after,because this emptiness can't be full with another person,or ten thousand persons more,not this... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
:ghug: :\'( Keren, reading your post, the tears flood my eyes like they always do whenever thoughts of missing Heath overwhelm me. The pain will never go away; that is true. Like a giant tree chopped down in a forest, there will be always an empty space. Nothing can fill it. But in time, other trees, events, and people, can distract us from that emptiness, and fill our lives with other joys, laughter and cheers. Nothing can replace Heath, or a lost loved one. Nothing can heal the pain and emptiness of missing an important part of our soul, our heart, our spirit. But with time, we will learn to adjust, to adapt, to find new ways to distract ourselves, because the human mind is an amazingly adaptable organ. It can mold and fit any circumstance, even the most difficult and unimaginable ones. And I know that is what Heath would want from us, to carry on. :ghug: In the mean time, coming here helps me to relieve some of the emptiness, by filling it with the love and support from all of you.
Thank you. :ghug:
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Last Friday I went to my cousin's memorial, he was killed 21 years ago, when he was 23... we went to his grave and stood there, and his sister read out loud something that she's wrote. She told how, when she was a kid, she saw her neighbours crying over the grave of their son who's been dead for 10 years and she asked herself, 'do you still cry after 10 years? Does it still hurt that much?' And now, standing in front of her brother's grave she said, "21 years later I can tell you: Yes, it still hurts so much." And they all cried, his parents and his sisters. I stood there and couldn't help thinking about Heath. We love him, and we cry over him, but we didn't really know him in real life... how much time is it gonna take for the pain to lessen? Some day it's not going to hurt that much, is it? Years from now... but for his family, his parents and his sisters, the people who were a real part of his life and he was a part of theirs - this pain is never going away.
You made me cry so bad here, Keren... :\'( :\'(
I know what you say. My mother is 66 and she lost her mom when she was in her thirties and and still she cries when she thinks about it. When you really love somebody that love never ends...so when you loose the one you love, the pain never ends.... That's life, we can't change it. But, thanks God, we have sweet memories to help us to go on. It's not much but enough to make heart keep beating, and while we keep breathing the ones we loved keep living too in our minds and souls.
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A SO GREAT TALENT AS YOURS SHOULD BE BY OUR SIDE TO GIVE US ALL THE EMOTIONS YOUR ROLES MADE US FEEL.BUT SOMEONE IN THE HIGH HAS WANTED YOU TO PERFORM AN ETERNAL ROLE IN HEAVEN...
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A SO GREAT TALENT AS YOURS SHOULD BE BY OUR SIDE TO GIVE US ALL THE EMOTIONS YOUR ROLES MADE US FEEL.BUT SOMEONE IN THE HIGH HAS WANTED YOU TO PERFORM AN ETERNAL ROLE IN HEAVEN...
Oh Ali, the lyrics of the song together with the pic are so heartbreaking... How I wish, how I wish you were here"... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh Ali, the lyrics of the song together with the pic are so heartbreaking... How I wish, how I wish you were here"... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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All through this memorial thread, there've been occasional wonderings and, yes, insecurities, about saying you have loved someone you never met. A person can feel like : "What's wrong with me? I'm grieving all these months later over someone who never knew I even existed and who I never even sat down and talked with, even one time."
Well, there had to have been those, amongst the many thousands he knew personally, who didn't have an overwhelming love for him. He just wasn't their type. No harm there. And as for those who were very close to him and DID love him, it's possible they missed at least a little bit, so close to the trees they did not see the forest. So there would be room for those who never met him, but saw an overview, from a distance, and were therefore maybe able to see Heath in ways that day-to day living could distract from. That can't be ruled out.
So then the question is, did you love him and do you still grieve him? And if the answer is yes, that love is as legitimate and real, in its own way, as that of those who knew him up-close. No doubt if you HAD met, there would have been adjustments to make, and more practical judgments, but the love would still be there, even with the adapting to the day-to-day person.
All am saying is, if you loved him and never met him, and that holds up through the years, it is a legitimate love, formed from a distance, untested by the realities of personal contact, yes, but still real. That can happen. I also think, if there's anything after this life, that love would be accepted and returned. The fact that you DID love, and that it held up, is the only relevant fact, not whether you met. I hope this might be considered as possible by those who still are suffering, and, please, never rule anything out. Real love...would always be returned, once known.
Finally, Heath's tracking of Nick Drake, showed empathy and maybe love, not obsession. He never met Nick Drake, but did identify a soul he thought worthy of investing in, emotionally. He wasn't embarrassed to pursue and embrace a person never personally known. He felt a connection. And so, for those who feel that same connection with Heath, he left you the answer, for he had been there, himself.
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All through this memorial thread, there've been occasional wonderings and, yes, insecurities, about saying you have loved someone you never met. A person can feel like : "What's wrong with me? I'm grieving all these months later over someone who never knew I even existed and who I never even sat down and talked with, even one time."
Well, there had to have been those, amongst the many thousands he knew personally, who didn't have an overwhelming love for him. He just wasn't their type. No harm there. And as for those who were very close to him and DID love him, it's possible they missed at least a little bit, so close to the trees they did not see the forest. So there would be room for those who never met him, but saw an overview, from a distance, and were therefore maybe able to see Heath in ways that day-to day living could distract from. That can't be ruled out.
So then the question is, did you love him and do you still grieve him? And if the answer is yes, that love is as legitimate and real, in its own way, as that of those who knew him up-close. No doubt if you HAD met, there would have been adjustments to make, and more practical judgments, but the love would still be there, even with the adapting to the day-to-day person.
All am saying is, if you loved him and never met him, and that holds up through the years, it is a legitimate love, formed from a distance, untested by the realities of personal contact, yes, but still real. That can happen. I also think, if there's anything after this life, that love would be accepted and returned. The fact that you DID love, and that it held up, is the only relevant fact, not whether you met. I hope this might be considered as possible by those who still are suffering, and, please, never rule anything out. Real love...would always be returned, once known.
Finally, Heath's tracking of Nick Drake, showed empathy and maybe love, not obsession. He never met Nick Drake, but did identify a soul he thought worthy of investing in, emotionally. He wasn't embarrassed to pursue and embrace a person never personally known. He felt a connection. And so, for those who feel that same connection with Heath, he left you the answer, for he had been there, himself.
Most fascinating, Tony, and you said it well. There is certainly something there in the idea that love does not require that the persons involved have ever met physically face-to-face. And the re-connection doesn't even have to be "later," after this so-called life, but can be anywhere in the ethers, if we are attuned...
Meanwhile...my heart still weeps for the loss of Heath's physical presence...
kathy
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[...] All am saying is, if you loved him and never met him, and that holds up through the years, it is a legitimate love, formed from a distance, untested by the realities of personal contact, yes, but still real. That can happen. I also think, if there's anything after this life, that love would be accepted and returned. The fact that you DID love, and that it held up, is the only relevant fact, not whether you met. I hope this might be considered as possible by those who still are suffering, and, please, never rule anything out. Real love...would always be returned, once known.
Finally, Heath's tracking of Nick Drake, showed empathy and maybe love, not obsession. He never met Nick Drake, but did identify a soul he thought worthy of investing in, emotionally. He wasn't embarrassed to pursue and embrace a person never personally known. He felt a connection. And so, for those who feel that same connection with Heath, he left you the answer, for he had been there, himself.
Thanks, Tony. I am glad you reminded me of Heath's own confession to being obsessed with Nick Drake. I agree with your assessment that Heath empathized even loved Nick Drake as a kindred spirit. I have never been embarrassed to admit to my deeply mourning Heath. It was simply being open and honest about my feelings; it was living Brokeback Mountain. Now, with your reminder, I am proud to confess my own obsession with Heath, because it is an obsession born of empathy for a soul mate I never met, love for a kindred spirit whom I yearned for from a distance. Thanks, Tony. :ghug:
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Beautiful post, Tony. It is funny how I someimes find myself being more demonstrative with people I do not know too well than I am with those who are very close to me. It is so easy to say "I love you" to some people-- and MEAN it--and almost impossible to say it to someone you really thing you should be able to say it to easily. Does this make any sense?
I cry everytime I see a photo or hear a reference to Heath, but have had relatives die for whom I have not shed one tear. That's where your statement about seeing the overview of a person when you really don't know them personally comes in. While we have never met Heath, we have seen him in so many ways -- as his characters, as himself in his own personal metamorphosis brought on by aging, and as his photos, many of which I consider to be little gems containing pieces of the man I could never meet, but for whom I still had great admiration and deep feelings.
I have a second double-cousin for whom I weep everytime I think of him. I have the same reaction to thoughts of Heath. No one else gets to me like those two. I just wonder why that is.......
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Tony, you have expressed that view so well and I completely agree with it. Thanks for putting it so eloquently into words for us. ^f^
Beautiful post, Tony. It is funny how I someimes find myself being more demonstrative with people I do not know too well than I am with those who are very close to me. It is so easy to say "I love you" to some people-- and MEAN it--and almost impossible to say it to someone you really thing you should be able to say it to easily. Does this make any sense?
I cry everytime I see a photo or hear a reference to Heath, but have had relatives die for whom I have not shed one tear. That's where your statement about seeing the overview of a person when you really don't know them personally comes in. While we have never met Heath, we have seen him in so many ways -- as his characters, as himself in his own personal metamorphosis brought on by aging, and as his photos, many of which I consider to be little gems containing pieces of the man I could never meet, but for whom I still had great admiration and deep feelings.I have a second double-cousin for whom I weep everytime I think of him. I have the same reaction to thoughts of Heath. No one else gets to me like those two. I just wonder why that is.......
Makes perfect sense to me lamusica. Sometimes people we meet through avenues outside of family or long-term friends, especially through particular venues that speak to both of you, are easier to express those feelings to/with because we don't have the baggage of our past perceptions and pre-set boundaries to struggle against. And I so understand about the "little gems containing pieces of the man I could never meet, but for whom I still had great admiration and deep feelings." Well put. :)
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A SO GREAT TALENT AS YOURS SHOULD BE BY OUR SIDE TO GIVE US ALL THE EMOTIONS YOUR ROLES MADE US FEEL.BUT SOMEONE IN THE HIGH HAS WANTED YOU TO PERFORM AN ETERNAL ROLE IN HEAVEN...
This is gorgeous mpj, all of it....the lyrics to this song are really beautiful and meaningful anyway, but associated with Heath, well they are just heartbreaking...... :\'( :\'(
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Dear Kathy, Andrew, Lamusica, and FlwrChild - thanks so much for understanding. If there's only one person out there struggling with that issue, of loving Heath, but never having met him, you did, together, reassure them so very well. We know there's many more than one, so you really did Heath's work for him. Given what we know of him, if the love for him was real, and enduring, he would have wanted to accept and return it. You did his work, very well, and I do see it that way, doing for him, what he would have wanted done. Much love, Tony.
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A SO GREAT TALENT AS YOURS SHOULD BE BY OUR SIDE TO GIVE US ALL THE EMOTIONS YOUR ROLES MADE US FEEL.BUT SOMEONE IN THE HIGH HAS WANTED YOU TO PERFORM AN ETERNAL ROLE IN HEAVEN...
wow i love this its beautiful! <^( So much energy and emotion in this art. thanks for sharing ^f^
Dear Kathy, Andrew, Lamusica, and FlwrChild - thanks so much for understanding. If there's only one person out there struggling with that issue, of loving Heath, but never having met him, you did, together, reassure them so very well. We know there's many more than one, so you really did Heath's work for him. Given what we know of him, if the love for him was real, and enduring, he would have wanted to accept and return it. You did his work, very well, and I do see it that way, doing for him, what he would have wanted done. Much love, Tony.
Thankyou Tony for your words on helping us understand how we mourn someone even still, now, even though we never met Heath. I love what you say and you have made it more clear in my mind, how it is possible and theres nothing wrong with loving someone i never met. Also how Heath thought highly of Nick Drake, like how we think of Heath himself, you are right he had been there himself so would have accepted our love too, im sure he does now too looking down on us all smiling i hope. #) Thanks Tony great words. ^f^
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All through this memorial thread, there've been occasional wonderings and, yes, insecurities, about saying you have loved someone you never met. A person can feel like : "What's wrong with me? I'm grieving all these months later over someone who never knew I even existed and who I never even sat down and talked with, even one time."
Well, there had to have been those, amongst the many thousands he knew personally, who didn't have an overwhelming love for him. He just wasn't their type. No harm there. And as for those who were very close to him and DID love him, it's possible they missed at least a little bit, so close to the trees they did not see the forest. So there would be room for those who never met him, but saw an overview, from a distance, and were therefore maybe able to see Heath in ways that day-to day living could distract from. That can't be ruled out.
So then the question is, did you love him and do you still grieve him? And if the answer is yes, that love is as legitimate and real, in its own way, as that of those who knew him up-close. No doubt if you HAD met, there would have been adjustments to make, and more practical judgments, but the love would still be there, even with the adapting to the day-to-day person.
All am saying is, if you loved him and never met him, and that holds up through the years, it is a legitimate love, formed from a distance, untested by the realities of personal contact, yes, but still real. That can happen. I also think, if there's anything after this life, that love would be accepted and returned. The fact that you DID love, and that it held up, is the only relevant fact, not whether you met. I hope this might be considered as possible by those who still are suffering, and, please, never rule anything out. Real love...would always be returned, once known.
Finally, Heath's tracking of Nick Drake, showed empathy and maybe love, not obsession. He never met Nick Drake, but did identify a soul he thought worthy of investing in, emotionally. He wasn't embarrassed to pursue and embrace a person never personally known. He felt a connection. And so, for those who feel that same connection with Heath, he left you the answer, for he had been there, himself.
This is so beautiful Tony, and most important, this is so true!!
Thank you so much for this, really!! You opened my eyes.... ^f^
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Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there: I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints off snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
Do not stand by my grave and mourn
I am the dew-flecked grass at dawn
Where tranquil oceans meet the land
I am the footprints in the sand
To guide you through the weary day
I am still here, I'll always stay
When you wake up to the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there: I did not die
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Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there: I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints off snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
Do not stand by my grave and mourn
I am the dew-flecked grass at dawn
Where tranquil oceans meet the land
I am the footprints in the sand
To guide you through the weary day
I am still here, I'll always stay
When you wake up to the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there: I did not die
thats gorgeouse and so very very true :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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That's one of my favorites mpj, and as Zankou said, so very true. Thanks for sharing it. :ghug:
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thats gorgeouse and so very very true :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
That's one of my favorites mpj, and as Zankou said, so very true. Thanks for sharing it. :ghug:
Thanks,Barb and Matt¡ :^^) :^^) Yes,it's very true and that's how I feel,how we all feel.Heath is not in a grave,he's not even some ashes blowing in the wind in some place he loved...He's this wind,and the clouds,he falls over us with the raindrops,he warms us with the sun,he's every sand grain,every tree's leaf,every snowflake,every flower petal...He's everything and in everything that is free,because he' s free also now.He belongs to nobody and to everybody because the main point is that now is everything but also is a part of all of us.He remains inside us and he will remain forever inside us.
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Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there: I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints off snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
Do not stand by my grave and mourn
I am the dew-flecked grass at dawn
Where tranquil oceans meet the land
I am the footprints in the sand
To guide you through the weary day
I am still here, I'll always stay
When you wake up to the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there: I did not die
How coincidental to see this one engraved on a memorial in Wittier, Alaska.
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I am not there: I did not die
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Well said dear Alicia : He is not there but he is not died for us #)
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So many beautiful posts here. I still have to go back and read a few pages but all of the ones stemming from Tony’s post of loving and mourning one we have not met hit home.
It is absolutely possible to feel that way and that is evidenced by all of who gather here.
As Lasmusica said, we got to see him in the various incarnations of characters, photos and interviews. We got to know the parts he let us know and that is really no different than the people we know in “real life”. And we are learning even more about this beautiful soul through the people that did get the privilege of encountering him, even briefly, while he was still amongst us.
There are some that feel this is unnatural or even unhealthy and that is fine- they are entitled to their feelings and by the same token so are we. I had spoken to my oldest friend who got rather unnerved by those that would judge. She isn’t a member here but did see BBM with me and totally gets this forum and in her words “When I heard about it I was sad for him, for his daughter, for his family and friends and sad for all of you on the forum because I know what he means to you (all of us) and what he brought to you.” There was more but she feels it is totally natural and sees nothing odd about the way we all feel and I know she means that because she’d have told me the opposite if she felt it. And due to certain things, I did speak about it with my therapist last week and long story short she feels the same as my friend- there is absolutely nothing wrong with mourning this loss. She had even called me on that night in January to check on me when she heard the news. I had told her about the memorial we left in EC and she thought it was wonderful, in some ways healing and that no one can quantify someone else’s grief- how they grieve, how long they grieve, who they mourn or even why we do. She said it is totally normal especially considering that he meant something in our lives.
When I was in California a whole lifetime ago, my main goal was to go visit Marilyn Monroe’s grave to pay my respects- which I did and I had my walkman and played “Candle in the Wind” and this was a woman who was dead almost a decade before I was even born. I guess that is not really necessary to include in my ramble here but for some reason I felt like saying it. And I guess it kind of goes to the point that we can care for someone we never knew. I know personally I still cry on Sept 11. I (fortunately) didn’t know one person lost that day but did that make me any less sad or heartbroken? No. I cried over Oklahoma City, Hurricane Katrina, the tsunami etc and I didn’t cry for the moment, I followed those stories and wept for those I never knew existed, for a long while.
Do we need to actually know someone to feel anything for them? No, at least IMO. There is a difference in that we had a connection to him, felt we knew him through different mediums and do we love him? You bet. Do we need to justify our feelings? Nope. And I, for one, am so glad to have this place that allows us to express ourselves freely, where we are never alone, to be with those that understand and to not question or be questioned about our feelings. :ghug: to everyone
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Beautiful post, LJN. I know just what you're saying -- Marilyn Monroe, 9/11, Katrina, the tsunami, the earthquake in China... Seems to be no time or geography that gets in the way of love and feelings, relating and empathy; and how we express them is due to each of our own constitutions.
kathy
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Gorgeous and touching post, Michelle. You said it all so beautifully. I totally agree. I said once, in this very thread, that I use to cry when I hear bad news on TV, when I read that someone tortured some dog, when I find that someone killed a child, when I see how people die in Africa, or when I hear how many old people is abandoned....I cry everyday....
Sometimes people don't get me, and I have a co worker who used to call me Piruleta (Candy) or Flower Power, just because I cry for people I don't know and I use to defend animals and hepless people....I don't care what he says. I'm not gonna change myself, when I find my feelings so right. He has changed a bit these two last months, and now he asks me to eat with him and even he wants to travel with me this summer. I think that he's starting to understand that crying for people you don't know it's not weak but utterly beautiful. If you have a generous heart you're stronger than many of those who don't understand the pain of unknown people. We are all human beings. We cry, and laugh and feel tired or hungry, no matter who you are. So our pain and tragedies are all the same. If you are not able to feel sad for others, even if you don't know them, then there's something incomplete in your perception of the human being. I mean, when I see something like the earthquake in China I cry, and not only because the immense pain of those people, but also because those people could be me.....I could be Matilda, living without a father...I could be Heath's mother, living without a son...I could be Heath, leaving my dreams unfinished, being so far when I had a lot of love to give....
Sorry so much for the rambling. I know it has nothing to do with this thread, but Michelle just hit me deep.
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Thank you for this post Michelle. I agree with everything you said.
To be honest, I don't pay much mind anymore to people who can't understand my feelings about Heath. The fact that they can't understand it doesn't make my feelings and my grief any less real or legitimate. For me, Heath was and still is a part of my life. He's a person that I love, that touched my soul and had a huge impact on me, and I don't owe anyone any explanations if I still cry over him.
One of the things that made the gathering in Wisconsin so emotional for me, apart from finally meeting friends that I've been waiting to meet for so long, was the fact that I was finally able to grieve over Heath with other brokies. I cried a lot... I cried when we brought out the gifts and I saw his posters and postcards and the booklets that Barb and Michelle made and the newspapers that Pauline brought. I cried when I sat on the bed with Jess and we had a long talk about him and our feelings for him and how we found out and what it did to us. I cried when I watched the movie and thought that he was no longer with us, and I cried when we did that memorial thing by the river in the park. And in each and every one of these times people were crying with me, and I had someone to hug me and share my feelings and I wasn't alone, and that was hugely significant for me. Finally being with people who understand and feel the same. If other people can't understand that and think that I'm crazy... well, I don't feel the need to apologise for that.
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And in each and every one of these times people were crying with me, and I had someone to hug me and share my feelings and I wasn't alone, and that was hugely significant for me. Finally being with people who understand and feel the same. If other people can't understand that and think that I'm crazy... well, I don't feel the need to apologise for that.
That's so precious Keren, really priceless. I've spent my whole life waiting for that kind of friendship and understanding. I was so alone when I saw BBM two years and half ago; so thanks God, I already had you all when Heath died. I know well what you're saying here. I'm glad we are not alone anymore. And well, totally agree with your last line. ^f^
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When I first heard about this, I thought they had said Keith Ledger. Later on in the day, my mum text me and told me that it was Heath Ledger that had passed away. I could not stop thinking about it, and I cried for two days. I felt for Michelle, his family, and, especially his daughter. I have a pic of him and Matilda in my room and I tear up every time I see it. I had read about a man who sees the dead, James Van Praagh, who had said that he saw Heath in the mirror. Heath said, "I f------ up." He thought about his daughter, and then left. I am hoping that, when the time is right, he can have a chat with Michelle. :)
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Some beautiful posts again from everyone but a special nod to Tony & LuvJackNasty.
I've been in London this past weekend, and after getting upset at the sign for Cheapside, I went & lit a candle for Heath at St Paul's Cathedral & stood silently with my thoughts for a while.
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Beautifully done,Hayley¡ ^f^ I'm sure that your message send by your thoughts has arrived to Heath where he's now...
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Beautifully done,Hayley¡ ^f^ I'm sure that your message send by your thoughts has arrived to Heath where he's now...
I'd like to think so and :t)
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Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there: I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints off snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn's rain
Do not stand by my grave and mourn
I am the dew-flecked grass at dawn
Where tranquil oceans meet the land
I am the footprints in the sand
To guide you through the weary day
I am still here, I'll always stay
When you wake up to the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there: I did not die
How coincidental to see this one engraved on a memorial in Wittier, Alaska.
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Oh wow Ethan, I love beautiful coincidences like that, it reminds me of you meeting the Hong Kong brokies at the Cafe, and it just happened to be called the "I Swear" cafe! I loved the post of that poem, and wondered where it came from.
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Twenty-two weeks later
You are still here
I can pretend you went somewhere
Doing a shoot in a location far far away
But the reality of missing you
Hit once in a while like a ton of bricks
When out of the blue
A line in a news article saying
You meant to walk the Great Wall with your friends
Would put me into tears and thoughts of you return
For days and days again
I can pretend you went away
Making more great movies and so I wait
For the movies to come out, and I wait
Buying your masterpieces like Candy and Monster's Ball
Pretending they are still new and fresh
But the heart sees through all pretenses
And nothing can hide the missing of you
Twenty-two weeks or twenty-two years
When the cold cruel world lies and cheats and steals
I think of your warm smile, and feel that you are near
I see the sun and the sand and the surf on the shore
I see the happy sweet life in Shelter
And feel again what you intended us to be
You are as real now, as you ever were, as you alway will be
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Beautiful Andrew :\'( :ghug:
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Twenty-two weeks later
You are still here
I can pretend you went somewhere
Doing a shoot in a location far far away
But the reality of missing you
Hit once in a while like a ton of bricks
When out of the blue
A line in a news article saying
You meant to walk the Great Wall with your friends
Would put me into tears and thoughts of you return
For days and days again
I can pretend you went away
Making more great movies and so I wait
For the movies to come out, and I wait
Buying your masterpieces like Candy and Monster's Ball
Pretending they are still new and fresh
But the heart sees through all pretenses
And nothing can hide the missing of you
Twenty-two weeks or twenty-two years
When the cold cruel world lies and cheats and steals
I think of your warm smile, and feel that you are near
I see the sun and the sand and the surf on the shore
I see the happy sweet life in Shelter
And feel again what you intended us to be
You are as real now, as you ever were, as you alway will be
this is so beautiful :\'( :\'(
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It really is, Andrew. :ghug:
Twenty-two weeks. Since the 22nd of January. Is that why I feel like this today? I was just talking to Michelle about tears that sprang back up for him today, seemingly for no reason. He is indeed as real now as he ever was, and always will be. Thank you for those beautiful words. :^^)
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It really is, Andrew. :ghug:
Twenty-two weeks. Since the 22nd of January. Is that why I feel like this today? I was just talking to Michelle about tears that sprang back up for him today, seemingly for no reason. He is indeed as real now as he ever was, and always will be. Thank you for those beautiful words. :^^)
You know, I never even thought of it, until I started the post, then I had to work out the math and all...Thanks for pointing it out...the coincidence between 22 weeks and Jan 22. My tears were set off by a news article that Asali brought over with her. She mentioned it before she left, and I thought nothing of it. But as I read the line, holding the paper in my hand, the tears came over me so fast, I didn't know I still feel that much. Shelter put me in a different space for the last two weeks, and I am glad to know, that being happy is okay, because I know...even though it's hard to say it, to write it, but I believe it...that Heath is still here, and always will be. Thanks to you all for accepting me and my wordy words.
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That' s wonderful,Andrew;thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings about Heath with us¡ :^^) Yes,twenty-two weeks that seemed so unreal when we thought about that January 22nd.Something like a bad joke,that we can understand nor accept although we know that,unluckily,it's true...I think of your warm smile, and feel that you are near...It's where he's now,in our minds,in our souls,in our hearts,forever. :\'(
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:ghug: Andrew Of course being happy is okay. Being able to laugh or smile is great-we are living life. And he is very much here, in the safest of places, where no one can hurt him, in our hearts and always will be.
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That's beautiful, mpj. And Andrew, it's a two way street - we're all in this together. :ghug: :ghug: My thanks to all of you.
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:ghug: MPJ. Beautiful post. :\'(
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Thanks,Barb and Michelle,but you know that I haven't said anything that all of us don't feel,and will feel forever...I think that a part of us will never accept nor understand that this is true;that he's not still in our world,and that we'll never see him again if it's not with the eyes of the heart. That every time,as Andrew says so well,that we'll see his warm smile and his sweet amber eyes,we'll feel him by our side,but we won't see him the same way...It's hard still to accept,and I guess that even when 22 months had passed and living without him had became a routine,something inside us will deny it.Because something in us died with him... :\'(
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You're right honey. That's exactly what's in my heart. :ghug:
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:ghug: So well said, so true- all of it. :\'(
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You know, I never even thought of it, until I started the post, then I had to work out the math and all...Thanks for pointing it out...the coincidence between 22 weeks and Jan 22. My tears were set off by a news article that Asali brought over with her. She mentioned it before she left, and I thought nothing of it. But as I read the line, holding the paper in my hand, the tears came over me so fast, I didn't know I still feel that much. Shelter put me in a different space for the last two weeks, and I am glad to know, that being happy is okay, because I know...even though it's hard to say it, to write it, but I believe it...that Heath is still here, and always will be. Thanks to you all for accepting me and my wordy words.
Andrew, what you wrote was so beautiful and touched my heart. About those news articles that Asali brought to us in Wisconsin, they were probably the same as what she gave you... I only looked at the title when we were in the hotel room and started crying and could hardly stop. I haven't found the courage to read them yet. :(
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Thanks,Barb and Michelle,but you know that I haven't said anything that all of us don't feel,and will feel forever...I think that a part of us will never accept nor understand that this is true;that he's not still in our world, and that we'll never see him again if it's not with the eyes of the heart. That every time,as Andrew says so well,that we'll see his warm smile and his sweet amber eyes,we'll feel him by our side,but we won't see him the same way...It's hard still to accept,and I guess that even when 22 months had passed and living without him had became a routine,something inside us will deny it.Because something in us died with him... :\'(
This is how I feel too Ali, you put your finger right on the spot. My heart still denies it most of the time, because I can't deal with it... Sometimes the realization comes close to the surface, the reality of him being gone, like when I see the words "Heath" and "death" in the same sentence, but then I quickly push it back down because I can't deal with it. I don't allow myself to think about it too much because then I break down. Like you say, I feel like something in me died with him and I don't dare touch that part, because I often feel that it's better to be numb than to feel the pain. It reminds me of a line from a Simon & Garfunkel song:
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died
If I never loved I never would have cried.
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You're right,Keren:sometimes is better,I don't know if to be dumb,but cheating oneself than feel a pain that I'm sure will never dissapear completely...But you,we, must bearing in mind not that a part of you has died with him;but that a part of him is alive in us.It's as seeing the bottle half empty or half full,no?,and it works,believe me... :^^) :ghug:
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I know that's a better way to look at it Ali, but it's so hard sometimes... :(
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i feel the same as you guys alot... even though i am sure heath is in abetter place now sometimes it takes me a while.. its like i can be sad about his death for ages and then it hits me like a wave and it hurts even more because i realise he really is dead and its not some bad dream...
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:ghug: to everyone. I have days where I am perfectly fine, not quite back where I once was before January, but fine. Then I have days, like today, where it just hits and hits hard.
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In school today I was really angry because of a thing that happend, and sometimes when I get angry I feel like crying and we were walking down to the cafeteria and the radio was on and they played "you're still the one" and yesterday I saw a tribute video for Heath with that song and it made me cry very much, so when I heard the song it all came back to me and I just wanted to go home and cry :\'(
Sometimes its so hard to know that he's gone that I don't know what to do :-\\
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Giving some :ghug: :ghug: back to everyone who needs them...
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I had an experience in school today as well Emelie..Today, for over 3 per., all the Junior student had to go to the Auditorium for a Presentation on Drunk driving. The speaker was an truly amazing man, he got everyones attention, making us laugh, and make us cry (even guys). He was a retired police man, and he told us of experiences he had encountered over the years. Such as boy, named Michael, who was hit by a car, resulting in a head on collision with a tree. He was pronounced dead at the scene. He was only 17 and was a week away from graduation. He wanted to become a caretaker for underprivileged children. It took the speaker awhile to calm down while he told the story, especially when he told about his dad's reaction. I could only begin to image what my family would've gone through. He went through other stories as well and finally, before his time was up, he put on a CD and the song "Forever Young", played through the speakers. That really got to me..
After the man spoke, someone else came up. I'm not sure if I told you this story before but a girl in my school, named Angelica, was only 14, when she hit by a man under the influence of heroine, from the side of the car. Her mom began to speak to us, holding back the tears with every world she spoke. Again, I couldn't even try and imagine what she was going through. They took her to the hospital but nothing could be done, and she died, the same week that Heath was found dead, in his hotel apartment.
I know that most of this had nothing really to do with Heath, well, not until I saw this girl walking back to her seat. I presumed she was one of the girl's friends, because she was wearing a shirt which was in memory of her. I'm not sure what it said on the front, since she was pretty far away, but as she started to leave and go back to her seat, I saw, in big red and black letters "FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS". Immediately, I looked down at my wristband. It was almost the same as FC's quote, "For a moment in our lives, forever in our hearts". Except in the front, it had said "Gone but not forgotten". I know it's not much but it made me think, a lot. I thought, why, do these people, who could've changed the world, who were good people, have to be the ones to be taken so quickly from us? No matter if its someone we knew all our lives, or someone we had never met, they somehow, made a difference in our lives. And in that moment, I realized what my wristband is all about. Sure, it is a tribute to Heath, but the deeper meaning, is a tribute to a young person, innocent but bold, and old soul that only, for a short while, got their chance to shine. Heath, Angelica, Michael, all seemed like they were old souls, all looked at the world in a different way, yet was never able to go on with their plans...why?
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Wow, Lis, what an experience for you today, listening to those people tell their stories..that must have been hard anyway, but then relating to them to Heath and his life, it brings it all back to us. But thanks for sharing it with us...:ghug:
And to everyone else needing them.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Lis, reading this got me in tears :\'( I'm looking at my wristband and remembering that morning, January 23, when I got the news on the radio....
I can't imagine loosing a family member, but in a way Heath was like a family member, he did something for me, I don't know what it was, but right now it really hurts thinking that he's gone :\'(
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Lis,I imagine how hard must have been for you sharing the experiences of people who have seen death so close to them; and how present Heath must have been in your mind.I can only repeat thank you for sharing these sensations with us and for you and everybody who needs also a big :ghug:
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Twenty-two weeks later
You are still here
I can pretend you went somewhere
Doing a shoot in a location far far away
But the reality of missing you
Hit once in a while like a ton of bricks
When out of the blue
A line in a news article saying
You meant to walk the Great Wall with your friends
Would put me into tears and thoughts of you return
For days and days again
I can pretend you went away
Making more great movies and so I wait
For the movies to come out, and I wait
Buying your masterpieces like Candy and Monster's Ball
Pretending they are still new and fresh
But the heart sees through all pretenses
And nothing can hide the missing of you
Twenty-two weeks or twenty-two years
When the cold cruel world lies and cheats and steals
I think of your warm smile, and feel that you are near
I see the sun and the sand and the surf on the shore
I see the happy sweet life in Shelter
And feel again what you intended us to be
You are as real now, as you ever were, as you alway will be
So so beautiful..thanks for sharing your words with us :ghug:
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I had an experience in school today as well Emelie..Today, for over 3 per., all the Junior student had to go to the Auditorium for a Presentation on Drunk driving. The speaker was an truly amazing man, he got everyones attention, making us laugh, and make us cry (even guys). He was a retired police man, and he told us of experiences he had encountered over the years. Such as boy, named Michael, who was hit by a car, resulting in a head on collision with a tree. He was pronounced dead at the scene. He was only 17 and was a week away from graduation. He wanted to become a caretaker for underprivileged children. It took the speaker awhile to calm down while he told the story, especially when he told about his dad's reaction. I could only begin to image what my family would've gone through. He went through other stories as well and finally, before his time was up, he put on a CD and the song "Forever Young", played through the speakers. That really got to me..
After the man spoke, someone else came up. I'm not sure if I told you this story before but a girl in my school, named Angelica, was only 14, when she hit by a man under the influence of heroine, from the side of the car. Her mom began to speak to us, holding back the tears with every world she spoke. Again, I couldn't even try and imagine what she was going through. They took her to the hospital but nothing could be done, and she died, the same week that Heath was found dead, in his hotel apartment.
I know that most of this had nothing really to do with Heath, well, not until I saw this girl walking back to her seat. I presumed she was one of the girl's friends, because she was wearing a shirt which was in memory of her. I'm not sure what it said on the front, since she was pretty far away, but as she started to leave and go back to her seat, I saw, in big red and black letters "FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS". Immediately, I looked down at my wristband. It was almost the same as FC's quote, "For a moment in our lives, forever in our hearts". Except in the front, it had said "Gone but not forgotten". I know it's not much but it made me think, a lot. I thought, why, do these people, who could've changed the world, who were good people, have to be the ones to be taken so quickly from us? No matter if its someone we knew all our lives, or someone we had never met, they somehow, made a difference in our lives. And in that moment, I realized what my wristband is all about. Sure, it is a tribute to Heath, but the deeper meaning, is a tribute to a young person, innocent but bold, and old soul that only, for a short while, got their chance to shine. Heath, Angelica, Michael, all seemed like they were old souls, all looked at the world in a different way, yet was never able to go on with their plans...why?
Thanks for sharing that Lis
In the UK at the moment, though you folks in other countries might have heard, kids being killed by guns is a big problem. And you go to the newsgaents in the morning and see their faces and like you've said for Heath, Angelica and Michael, they had their whole lives in front of them..why??? For such a short word, in these cases it's the most difficult question to answer and comprehend.
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Thanks for sharing that Lis
In the UK at the moment, though you folks in other countries might have heard, kids being killed by guns is a big problem. And you go to the newsgaents in the morning and see their faces and like you've said for Heath, Angelica and Michael, they had their whole lives in front of them..why??? For such a short word, in these cases it's the most difficult question to answer and comprehend.
Exactly :\'( :-\\ :\'(
Thank you guys! :ghug:
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:ghug: Lis, Keren, Em, Everyone :ghug:
All I can say, to the question why, Lis, is that some answers are not for us to know, but no matter what the reason for their short stay here, one thing is for certain...they DID change the world.
Heath and that girl are indeed forever in our hearts...and as long as that is true, everything we do will be different because they were here with us, even for a brief short time. Their presence changed the world, through us, through everything that we do, we will do.
:ghug: for everyone. I am sorry if I touched off a wave of PHS. It just hit me sometimes, and putting the words here make me feel better. And to know you all share the same feelings make me feel not so alone with it. Thanks. :ghug:
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Twenty-two weeks later
You are still here
I can pretend you went somewhere
Doing a shoot in a location far far away
But the reality of missing you
Hit once in a while like a ton of bricks
When out of the blue
A line in a news article saying
You meant to walk the Great Wall with your friends
Would put me into tears and thoughts of you return
For days and days again
I can pretend you went away
Making more great movies and so I wait
For the movies to come out, and I wait
Buying your masterpieces like Candy and Monster's Ball
Pretending they are still new and fresh
But the heart sees through all pretenses
And nothing can hide the missing of you
Twenty-two weeks or twenty-two years
When the cold cruel world lies and cheats and steals
I think of your warm smile, and feel that you are near
I see the sun and the sand and the surf on the shore
I see the happy sweet life in Shelter
And feel again what you intended us to be
You are as real now, as you ever were, as you alway will be
This is so beautiful. The bolded part -- it is indeed some kind of comfort to envision his warm smile...
kathy
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You know, I never even thought of it, until I started the post, then I had to work out the math and all...Thanks for pointing it out...the coincidence between 22 weeks and Jan 22. My tears were set off by a news article that Asali brought over with her. She mentioned it before she left, and I thought nothing of it. But as I read the line, holding the paper in my hand, the tears came over me so fast, I didn't know I still feel that much. Shelter put me in a different space for the last two weeks, and I am glad to know, that being happy is okay, because I know...even though it's hard to say it, to write it, but I believe it...that Heath is still here, and always will be. Thanks to you all for accepting me and my wordy words.
I love your wordy words!
You know, my tears were set off by the papers that Asali brought, too, that I got in Chicago. ("What a beautiful flame.")
kathy
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:ghug: Andrew Of course being happy is okay. Being able to laugh or smile is great-we are living life. And he is very much here, in the safest of places, where no one can hurt him, in our hearts and always will be.
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i feel a little sick now, i jsut seen a video that i didnt think would mention heath but it did :\'(, it was about mary-kate olsen, they asked ehr questions and they asked about heath :\'(, she said she would not comment on that and said she wanted to move on... i was thankful to her for that... i actually dont like her because she has a big fur clothing line... but im glad she had the decensy to not talk about heath. maybe she isnt as bad as i thought i mean heath liked her and he was one of the gretest people ever... cant ee him being to loving on the fur idea but... the video said something about the reports that heath and mary-kate had been dating... i wish it would have just shut up... they are just rumours who knows its got nothing behind it... and so what maybe they were whats it to do with them, im sick of the media right now :-\\
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:ghug: Matt. It was classy of her to keep quiet, and no less than he deserves. In the end, the rumors and petty questions will be left behind and the memory of who he was and how he touched people is what will remain.
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:ghug: Matt. It was classy of her to keep quiet, and no less than he deserves. In the end, the rumors and petty questions will be left behind and the memory of who he was and how he touched people is what will remain.
yes very true :)
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You're not the only one who feels bad today because of Heath,Matt...I'm a little upset and sad,because I've dreamed in him;although I'm not the only one nor the first time in my case...The difference is that this time has been so living,so real that I've awaken half happy and half sad,even worried.It's not usual,but I remember every gesture and word as if it had been a movie or a novel.Perhaps it has been a kind of obsession because yesterday Keren,Michelle,Barb,some other Brokies and me spoke about the feelings we have still for Heath,I don't know indeed...
I was in a kind of BBM when I found the two of them,but only Ennis/Heath seemed real,speaking and speaking;Jack/Jake was as a cardboard figure,immovable and silent.Both of them were wearing their clothes of cowboys in the movie.Suddenly,Heath saw me and remained silent also,looking at me,whereas everything that surrounded us dissapeared,including Jack...He was then wearing a black jacket and trousers with a brown and red striped sweater-yes,I remember everything,as I've said¡-and his hair was rather short but with these "so Ennis style" curls.
He told me "Hello¡" as if he knew me,and I asked him what had happenned this January 22nd,what had passed on his mind...He answered me:-"I didn't want to die,although I wasn't happy either;my days were fairly emptier than you can imagine and my nights were a torture.But I don't know still what happenned...".I told him that we miss him a lot,and he said then(and this is what worries me the most):-"Do you want to be with me?".-"Yes,I'd be with you and,moreover, I'd see my mother then-I said-;but I can' leave my family alone".He remained silent again for a while and answered:-"Of course,it's not your time still...".He kissed me in the cheek and told me goodbye,and in that moment I woke up feeling very anguished and almost crying.
I know this seems like a movie,but I repeat that NEVER had occurred such a thing to me with a so living and real dream,I find it very strange;yes,I suppose all of us can remember some dream,or parts of a dream,even when we dreamed it some years ago,the same than the most of times we can' t remember anything.But it doesn't happen very often that you remember every word as if you were reading a paper.And his asking me for being with him,what does this mean?.After that,I've seen by chance a tribute web and I've almost broken down for him.Sorry for being so boring... :)
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Dear Ali, what a beautiful dream, in its own way. I found it amazing that you asked him, directly, just what you wanted to know, and the answers seemed very calm and clear, from him. Of course it must have been hurtful, how the dream ended, but you had the only answer you could give. Of all the dreams people have reported, this one was, so far, the most powerful, in what was said. Don't be sad. Dreams serve a purpose, although no one knows the exact answer, there. Thanks for telling us all, and I hope you feel stronger for having had this experience. With love, Tony.
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Dear Ali, what a beautiful dream, in its own way. I found it amazing that you asked him, directly, just what you wanted to know, and the answers seemed very calm and clear, from him. Of course it must have been hurtful, how the dream ended, but you had the only answer you could give. Of all the dreams people have reported, this one was, so far, the most powerful, in what was said. Don't be sad. Dreams serve a purpose, although no one knows the exact answer, there. Thanks for telling us all, and I hope you feel stronger for having had this experience. With love, Tony.
Yes,Tony,I feel stronger because it's as if he had wanted to give an answer somehow.I felt worried because I couldn' t,and I can' t,understand why he wanted me to be with him where he's now...As you say,dreams serve for something,even can show us a way,even if not always we're able to find it.Thank you so much for your words,dear. :^^)
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:ghug: mpj, and thank you for sharing that with us.
I was wondering, based on what he actually said, do you think he meant that he wanted you to be with him, or that he was asking you if you wanted that? I sort of read it as his asking if you would want that, so that you could see why that's not where you belong, and he could reaffirm that by saying it's not your time. You know, sort of a reminder that we all have our time to live out, we all have our lives to lead, and the things we're meant to do in that time, and each one's time comes when it is supposed to, even if it means that we have to miss our loved ones and wait a long time to be with them again.
I would focus on the fact that he answered your question, he helped you see what you need to do, and he gave you that sweet kiss, and take comfort from that. ^f^
I don't know if that helps at all. It's just the way that I interpreted what you told us.
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I also look at it as his attempt to give you a little closure, to answer some still nagging questions, and reassure you that he's in a good place. Again, it's just the feeling that I got reading it. It really is quite a beautiful dream. :)
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Dear FlowerChild - thanks for a powerful and positive take on MPJ's dream, and you DO have that ability to see the good that was really meant. Myself, am going out on a limb and am going to look like a fool. There was something unusual to that dream - the language used. The words used by him in that dream were natural to him, and not to her and that made me sit up and take notice. People have their own style of speaking, and I've read much said by Heath and have read many of Ali's posts. His words weren't her style. She doesn't talk like that. Makes me wonder what is and isn't possible in these lives we are given. But you were right in seeing some guidance and healing there. We could all use more of that.
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Ya don't look like a fool to me. I hadn't even thought about the style of language, etc but who's to say how much of our dreams come from our own minds and how much comes from somewhere else? I heard a sermon recently about signposts and how we read them in our lives. I wouldn't rule anything out either. :)
And just to go out on my own limb (might as well join you out there :)), I was just saying to someone yesterday, with all these posts that were coming in on top of one another, isn't it something that we're all in the same place today, like he reached out to touch our hearts and we all felt it at the same time?
Who knows? But I'm awfully happy to be able to come here to share my thoughts and feelings and hear about yours. What a wonderful family. ^f^
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:ghug: mpj, and thank you for sharing that with us.
I was wondering, based on what he actually said, do you think he meant that he wanted you to be with him, or that he was asking you if you wanted that? I sort of read it as his asking if you would want that, so that you could see why that's not where you belong, and he could reaffirm that by saying it's not your time. You know, sort of a reminder that we all have our time to live out, we all have our lives to lead, and the things we're meant to do in that time, and each one's time comes when it is supposed to, even if it means that we have to miss our loved ones and wait a long time to be with them again.
I would focus on the fact that he answered your question, he helped you see what you need to do, and he gave you that sweet kiss, and take comfort from that. ^f^
I don't know if that helps at all. It's just the way that I interpreted what you told us.
:t) Barb;you can be sure that your interpretation has helped a lot.Yes,he didn't mean he wanted me to be near him,as a proof of my love for him;but if I wanted it,as a proof of my love for my family and friends and all the people I'd leave behind.You have said it very well; it's a sort of a reminder that we only are able to live our own lives knowing how brief it is,taking avantage of all the good moments it can offer to us.And I begin to guess why he told me this...
What disturbs me is the dream's realism,how I could see Heath as if he was a real person,and even I could feel his kiss on my cheek...I have been crying several times today remembering it and I'm afraid I'm falling in this breakdown almost everybody fall into rather time after a beloved person's loss,when one believes everything is already under control.Well,this will pass sooner or later;the important is that I must thank you,Barb and Tony,for your support. %)
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You're not the only one who feels bad today because of Heath,Matt...I'm a little upset and sad,because I've dreamed in him;although I'm not the only one nor the first time in my case...The difference is that this time has been so living,so real that I've awaken half happy and half sad,even worried.It's not usual,but I remember every gesture and word as if it had been a movie or a novel.Perhaps it has been a kind of obsession because yesterday Keren,Michelle,Barb,some other Brokies and me spoke about the feelings we have still for Heath,I don't know indeed...
I was in a kind of BBM when I found the two of them,but only Ennis/Heath seemed real,speaking and speaking;Jack/Jake was as a cardboard figure,immovable and silent.Both of them were wearing their clothes of cowboys in the movie.Suddenly,Heath saw me and remained silent also,looking at me,whereas everything that surrounded us dissapeared,including Jack...He was then wearing a black jacket and trousers with a brown and red striped sweater-yes,I remember everything,as I've said¡-and his hair was rather short but with these "so Ennis style" curls.
He told me "Hello¡" as if he knew me,and I asked him what had happenned this January 22nd,what had passed on his mind...He answered me:-"I didn't want to die,although I wasn't happy either;my days were fairly emptier than you can imagine and my nights were a torture.But I don't know still what happenned...".I told him that we miss him a lot,and he said then(and this is what worries me the most):-"Do you want to be with me?".-"Yes,I'd be with you and,moreover, I'd see my mother then-I said-;but I can' leave my family alone".He remained silent again for a while and answered:-"Of course,it's not your time still...".He kissed me in the cheek and told me goodbye,and in that moment I woke up feeling very anguished and almost crying.
I know this seems like a movie,but I repeat that NEVER had occurred such a thing to me with a so living and real dream,I find it very strange;yes,I suppose all of us can remember some dream,or parts of a dream,even when we dreamed it some years ago,the same than the most of times we can' t remember anything.But it doesn't happen very often that you remember every word as if you were reading a paper.And his asking me for being with him,what does this mean?.After that,I've seen by chance a tribute web and I've almost broken down for him.Sorry for being so boring... :)
Thank you for sharing your experience .. :ghug:
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MPJ I think Barb is right in her interpretation. I have not had such vivid dreams like yours. I have had impressions about those on the otherside. Not so much Heath but I think he has visited me in dreams. I just may not be able to remember them.
I think that Heath was going through a very rough time in his life. His split from Michelle, not seeing Matilda. Working so hard and also getting sick while filming Imaginarium all contributed to his state of mind (being down) but he was also planning ahead. He was passionate about chess and just like the way he played chess he planned several moves ahead in his personal life. He was planning on directing as his next step up (Queen's Gambit) he had people he had made plans with to see. So while he had his down moments he was doing what alot of people do when they feel down they make plans, keep active. The whole thing was just an accident and I think what you see in your dream was him coming to terms with what happened and wanting you to know it wasn't your time yet.
I bet he'll keep visiting you now and then.
I think he wants us to remember him but to go on with our lives. And that we'll see him one day when it's our time
jmpov
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I think he wants us to remember him but to go on with our lives. And that we'll see him one day when it's our time
that was beautiful <^( :\'(
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Yes,Linda,you've said it very well with your beautiful words:we must carry on,but remembering him,and knowing that some day will arrive when we'll see him again with our eyes,not only our minds... :ghug:
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You're not the only one who feels bad today because of Heath,Matt...I'm a little upset and sad,because I've dreamed in him;although I'm not the only one nor the first time in my case...The difference is that this time has been so living,so real that I've awaken half happy and half sad,even worried.It's not usual,but I remember every gesture and word as if it had been a movie or a novel.Perhaps it has been a kind of obsession because yesterday Keren,Michelle,Barb,some other Brokies and me spoke about the feelings we have still for Heath,I don't know indeed...
I was in a kind of BBM when I found the two of them,but only Ennis/Heath seemed real,speaking and speaking;Jack/Jake was as a cardboard figure,immovable and silent.Both of them were wearing their clothes of cowboys in the movie.Suddenly,Heath saw me and remained silent also,looking at me,whereas everything that surrounded us dissapeared,including Jack...He was then wearing a black jacket and trousers with a brown and red striped sweater-yes,I remember everything,as I've said¡-and his hair was rather short but with these "so Ennis style" curls.
He told me "Hello¡" as if he knew me,and I asked him what had happenned this January 22nd,what had passed on his mind...He answered me:-"I didn't want to die,although I wasn't happy either;my days were fairly emptier than you can imagine and my nights were a torture.But I don't know still what happenned...".I told him that we miss him a lot,and he said then(and this is what worries me the most):-"Do you want to be with me?".-"Yes,I'd be with you and,moreover, I'd see my mother then-I said-;but I can' leave my family alone".He remained silent again for a while and answered:-"Of course,it's not your time still...".He kissed me in the cheek and told me goodbye,and in that moment I woke up feeling very anguished and almost crying.
I know this seems like a movie,but I repeat that NEVER had occurred such a thing to me with a so living and real dream,I find it very strange;yes,I suppose all of us can remember some dream,or parts of a dream,even when we dreamed it some years ago,the same than the most of times we can' t remember anything.But it doesn't happen very often that you remember every word as if you were reading a paper.And his asking me for being with him,what does this mean?.After that,I've seen by chance a tribute web and I've almost broken down for him.Sorry for being so boring... :)
::) that's a very strange dream my dear, very "significant", indeed, it's not yet time for you to join him in heaven %(
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that was beautiful <^( :\'(
#) well said trekfan ^f^
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Yes,Linda,you've said it very well with your beautiful words:we must carry on,but remembering him,and knowing that some day will arrive when we'll see him again with our eyes,not only our minds... :ghug:
Beautiful words from yourself and trekfan <^( :ghug:
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Beautiful words from yourself and trekfan <^( :ghug:
Thank you so much,Hayley. :ghug: At least,they're words aid with the heart,and these are always beautiful...
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I find this thread and some of the views expressed increasingly worrying. It may be legitimate to mourn the loss of perceived potential but beyond that I think one should not go.
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I find this thread and some of the views expressed increasingly worrying. It may be legitimate to mourn the loss of perceived potential but beyond that I think one should not go.
I find it legitimate to mourn, period.
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I find it legitimate to mourn, period.
i fully agree.!
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I find this thread and some of the views expressed increasingly worrying. It may be legitimate to mourn the loss of perceived potential but beyond that I think one should not go.
Well,in my particular case-I suppose I'm one of the formerly alluded,because my posts expressed...anything worrying?-,I can say that I keep on living my life,with my other problems and griefs,and also my happiness.But,for me,this is not an obstacle to mourn the loss of somebody who meant something for me;even if I've dreamed about him,-maybe don't we dream about anything or anybody who has marked us for good or for bad?-this isn't an obsession,but a normal reaction.I don't think I'm crazy precisely for this reason;but,if so,I prefer to be crazy for having good feelings,than crazy for being a wicked person,who never cries,never mourns,never feels...I'm sorry for being so sick,however...
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Well,in my particular case-I suppose I'm one of the formerly alluded,because my posts expressed...anything worrying?-,I can say that I keep on living my life,with my other problems and griefs,and also my happiness.But,for me,this is not an obstacle to mourn the loss of somebody who meant something for me;even if I've dreamed about him,-maybe don't we dream about anything or anybody who has marked us for good or for bad?-this isn't an obsession,but a normal reaction.I don't think I'm crazy precisely for this reason;but,if so,I prefer to be crazy for having good feelings,than crazy for being a wicked person,who never cries,never mourns,never feels...I'm sorry for being so sick,however...
well said Ali, i think just plain morning the loss of "potential" is like feelign bad about a low grade on an exam... heath was a person not an object...
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Well,in my particular case-I suppose I'm one of the formerly alluded,because my posts expressed...anything worrying?-,I can say that I keep on living my life,with my other problems and griefs,and also my happiness.But,for me,this is not an obstacle to mourn the loss of somebody who meant something for me;even if I've dreamed about him,-maybe don't we dream about anything or anybody who has marked us for good or for bad?-this isn't an obsession,but a normal reaction.I don't think I'm crazy precisely for this reason;but,if so,I prefer to be crazy for having good feelings,than crazy for being a wicked person,who never cries,never mourns,never feels...I'm sorry for being so sick,however...
well said. I agree with you 100%
even if we didnt know him, we were just fans, we still feel bad because he's gone and we have to mourn, I dont think its healthy to keep it all inside...
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I find it legitimate to mourn, period.
I agree Keren.
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I agree Keren.
I agree with this and every post about this subject.
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Since this is the "In Loving Memory" thread, we should keep the memories "Loving"
We are all different people who mourn in their own way.
We can't say how people should cope with their feelings, so it's nobodies business but theirs.
The best thing we can do is support each other in our feelings and be there for each other.
And I for one, am very happy to have such supporting people with me.
Whether they dream, write down their thoughts or just want to remember him, we should respect their feelings.
So Heath baby, this one is for you, because I want to remember you with a smile!!
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi237.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fff160%2FGriesmeelpudding%2FHeath%2520Ledger%2Fbw-heath50.jpg&hash=b5bcd807b73050592b834a753f5b16a26881ae05)
your smile can light my life
your smile can make it happy
so smile.
your smile
your smile can turn me up side down
your smile can get me back
so smile.
your smile gives me the strength
your smile makes me forget my weakness
so smile.
your smile is the fountain of felicity
your smile is full of so much cheer
i would love to be under that the fountain
for ever
so smile.
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great post marj :ghug: :ghug:
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Marj, that's really beautiful. ^f^
Beautiful words and a beautiful picture.... :^^)
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I find this thread and some of the views expressed increasingly worrying. It may be legitimate to mourn the loss of perceived potential but beyond that I think one should not go.
Hmmm.....this is probably the most difficult post I have ever made on this forum, as the subject matter is primed for misunderstanding each other. First, though, I would say welshwitch would not single out anyone nor mock anyone, so, Ali, I am reasonably certain nothing she said was aimed at you.
If she ever wanted to be critical, she could well be of me, as in a PM to her (the only time I ever wrote her), I said, off-forum, I feared over-romanticizing Heath when I felt I would do better to remember and grieve him as a normal human being. And then I went into 3 months of the opposite.
The key words in her post are "increasingly worrying" and I have no right to define what she meant, but I read it as worrying that we might be tilting somewhat to not healing, and if that is correct, there was no criticism but a genuine concern drawn from her own good will and hopes for less hurt.
I happen to disagree with her, though. When other forums shut down their memorial threads, I saw an immediate upsurge in the number of guests logging in here. It varies from person to person, but a very great many need to bleed, need to mourn, and need to do that openly, and with the support of others. I would much prefer to seem too slow in mending our hearts, then for one person to feel totally isolated because they could not keep up with the progress of others in the aftermath of the utter insanity of losing Heath Ledger.
But she spoke her mind and I would ask, at the very least, that nothing be read into her post that really isn't there. I have grieved the loss of loved ones for decades and had people say they worried for me. I never took that as meaning they condemned me. They meant well. And I never took it the wrong way. They proved to be the truest friends.
Sorry if I've failed to express myself as I would want. This is an area prone to misunderstanding.
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I find it legitimate to mourn, period.
I agree with that wholeheartedly. I ask no more or less than to have the freedom to express myself my own way and I will always give the same in return. I respect everyone's feelings about this and again ask that they be willing to do the same. I am glad we all have such a place to come and talk about how we feel. Thank you for all of the supportive and respectful comments. :ghug: to you all.
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well said Ali, i think just plain morning the loss of "potential" is like feelign bad about a low grade on an exam... heath was a person not an object...
well said. I agree with you 100%
even if we didnt know him, we were just fans, we still feel bad because he's gone and we have to mourn, I dont think its healthy to keep it all inside...
Thank you so much,Emelie and Matt¡ You're beautiful¡ :^^) :^^)
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Thank you so much,Emelie and Matt¡ You're beautiful¡ :^^) :^^)
:ghug: :ghug: :^^)
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Well,let's being a little sensible all of us and don't create a polemic,please... %( I'm afraid I've contributed to that with my answer to WW post,that was made with the feelings.And the feelings are difficult to measure,can't be theorized,and there's no generic rules,because everyone has their own way of showing,managing or healing them.
I put on her shoes after a while and I've understood that the bottom of her post is warning us not to falling in a kind of depression,not magnifying our grief and letting it be eternal or arriving to a certain point.I agree with her in this sense;but I don't move a word about what I answered in my post...We say we have our freedom to mourn and she or anybody else has their to express it in other way-always respecting the others way,of course-. ^f^
Ah,don't worry,Tony¡ I didn't feel offended or thought that these words were aimed at me;they were,yes,but in the sense that I wrote some sensitive posts about Heath's loss lately,but I haven't been the only one.It's,as we say here,"the part that corresponds on me"...Thanks,however¡ :^^)
And please,don't be angry against ourselves;it doesn't worth loosing the time in arguments¡ . %)
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Very nicely said mpj. We love you too. :^^)
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Very nicely said mpj. We love you too. :^^)
Thank you,Barb¡ :^^) I don't want anybody to feel bad for other things than Heath and our own problems...that's enough with them,no?. ^f^
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Since this is the "In Loving Memory" thread, we should keep the memories "Loving"
We are all different people who mourn in their own way.
We can't say how people should cope with their feelings, so it's nobodies business but theirs.
The best thing we can do is support each other in our feelings and be there for each other.
And I for one, am very happy to have such supporting people with me.
Whether they dream, write down their thoughts or just want to remember him, we should respect their feelings.
So Heath baby, this one is for you, because I want to remember you with a smile!!
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi237.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fff160%2FGriesmeelpudding%2FHeath%2520Ledger%2Fbw-heath50.jpg&hash=b5bcd807b73050592b834a753f5b16a26881ae05)
your smile can light my life
your smile can make it happy
so smile.
your smile
your smile can turn me up side down
your smile can get me back
so smile.
your smile gives me the strength
your smile makes me forget my weakness
so smile.
your smile is the fountain of felicity
your smile is full of so much cheer
i would love to be under that the fountain
for ever
so smile.
Marj, babe, that was utterly beautiful!!! <^( <^( <^( Thank you so much!! ^f^
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Since this is the "In Loving Memory" thread, we should keep the memories "Loving"
We are all different people who mourn in their own way.
We can't say how people should cope with their feelings, so it's nobodies business but theirs.
The best thing we can do is support each other in our feelings and be there for each other.
And I for one, am very happy to have such supporting people with me.
Whether they dream, write down their thoughts or just want to remember him, we should respect their feelings.
So Heath baby, this one is for you, because I want to remember you with a smile!!
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi237.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fff160%2FGriesmeelpudding%2FHeath%2520Ledger%2Fbw-heath50.jpg&hash=b5bcd807b73050592b834a753f5b16a26881ae05)
your smile can light my life
your smile can make it happy
so smile.
your smile
your smile can turn me up side down
your smile can get me back
so smile.
your smile gives me the strength
your smile makes me forget my weakness
so smile.
your smile is the fountain of felicity
your smile is full of so much cheer
i would love to be under that the fountain
for ever
so smile.
Marj,I really love your words in the poem and before it... :clap: You have said some great truths,so I only can tell you: Congratulations and thank you¡ :^^) :ghug:
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Dear Ali, - thanks for understanding. I loved your posts and especially the one about your dream, and fully supported you. And Keren was dead-on right: we have a right to grieve. Period.
But I happened to remember some that, just weeks after Heath's death, seemed to be saying: let's move on. They were there, they stupefied me. And I knew welshwitch was not one of them, therefore I felt she was possibly misunderstood.
I will say this: in your last post you proved yourself a lady, in the best and highest meaning of that word. You let your heart lead the way, and by doing so, led all of us to being a stronger family. Stay a leader. Stay graceful. Stay understanding. And you did do that, without backing down on your basic beliefs. Unless and until someone says we have no right to grieve (and that has not been said), we should stay as we are, on course.
Much love, Tony.
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Thank you again for your kind words as always,Tony ¡ ^f^ :^^)
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What can I say but that I love you all. :ghug: What a wonderful family to be lucky enough to be a part of. Thank you. :^^)
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What can I say but that I love you all. :ghug: What a wonderful family to be lucky enough to be a part of. Thank you. :^^)
I quote this, its amazing what Heath and this movie did, it brought us all together and for that I'm forever thankfull <^( %)
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I find this thread and some of the views expressed increasingly worrying. It may be legitimate to mourn the loss of perceived potential but beyond that I think one should not go.
I saw this and truly began to fear responding....fear that I'd say something in anger and annoyance that I would later regret, so I'll try keep this as short as possible.
First, I see that I'm behind in responding to this, it was said, people responded, now lets move on. Except I think it's important to point out why I'm behind in responding. It's because I don't spend all day, everyday, sitting in Heath's memorial thread crying and screaming WHY! I come here when I need to come here, and that's why this thread still exists, because people's need to come here still exists. And if someone else no longer gets that need...then stay out of here. Just like when people didn't like Brokeback existing, if you don't want to see it, turn the channel.
I think it's really sad that there seems to have been a line drawn across the entire ennisjack forum dividing those that agree with the memorial thread, and those that don't. This isn't what brought us to this site, and it is not what continues to hold us here. What brought me here personally was a want, and a need, to go to a place and not be judged for loving and respecting something that is much bigger than myself. What I found here was a group of people that have given me a whole new perspective on loving and respecting my own self, and my beliefs...as well others'.
Do I see a post sometimes and think, "wow, they really seem way too upset about someone they didn't know personally"? Yes I do. Then a song, or a film, or something comes on, and suddenly I'm really upset, and that judgement of others completely dissapears, and I regret ever having that judgement in the first place. We have no right to decide what is an acceptable mourning period for others anymore that we have the right to decide who lives or dies. Maybe there is higher power that has the right to decide those things, I certainly hope there is, but I seriously doubt if he does, he has an ennisjack account.
This thread is not about judgement, it's about the love and loss of someone who was very real, and talented.
I did not "perceive his potential" I simply appreciated the fact of it's existence.
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good post jess really really good post ^f^ :ghug:
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You are a beautiful soul Jess and that was beautifully articulated. :^^) Thank you for the reminder to maintain not just our tolerance but our acceptance and respect for one another. It is indeed the benchmark of our very foundation here. I value all of the input here today and think that the caliber of the posts reflects the caliber of the membership. I'm very proud to be a part of this community with all of you. :ghug:
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Very well said Jess, I couldn't have said it better myself. :ghug: So many have expressed themselves so beautifullyand respectfully today. Thank you to all of you beautiful souls who make this a welcoming place of love and support :ghug:
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M Scott Peck said that a community is where people can disagree gracefully, can fight and argue, and remain a family. It is a place where everyone can be a leader, and a follower. It is a place where above all else, the individual is respect as much as the group. It is a place where shared values bind everyone's actions and motivation together function in a cohesive consistent pattern, like a dance.
I have just witnessed this community in action, and it's beautiful. Thank you everyone. You dance beautifully.
:ghug: <^( :^^)
Why do I love this place? Let me count the ways; let me count the individuals here... :ghug:
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((((((((((Jess))))))))))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you.
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Jess, what a wonderful post, thanks for sharing your thoughts... ^f^
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M Scott Peck said that a community is where people can disagree gracefully, can fight and argue, and remain a family. It is a place where everyone can be a leader, and a follower. It is a place where above all else, the individual is respect as much as the group. It is a place where shared values bind everyone's actions and motivation together function in a cohesive consistent pattern, like a dance.
I have just witnessed this community in action, and it's beautiful. Thank you everyone. You dance beautifully.
:ghug: <^( :^^)
Why do I love this place? Let me count the ways; let me count the individuals here... :ghug:
may i agree with you? ^f^
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I think everything has been said about your post,Jess,so I can only add; thank you for being just like you're¡ ^f^ I've said these same words a lot of times these last days,but I don't mind...If I've repeated them is because they're true,and words like yours make me reassure me in this opinion. :t)
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Sometimes, I think life goes on
Listening to Shelter's happy tunes
Feeling the warm caress of the sun
Enjoying the ocean breeze in my hair
Watching the golden sunset on my way home
Then I read about Ennis and Jack
Then I find an old interview of Jake's
And another old interview of Ang Lee's
And I wanted to find one of Heath's
And I realized, the absence of the interview
And I felt, the absence of the man
And I am grateful to remember
And I am thankful to share a happy sunny day
With the memory of the absence of the sunny smile
That warms my heart for all the rest of my days
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I was glancing through one of the movie rag magazines and came across a lovely picture of Michelle and Matilda walking along a street in NYC. Matilda was wearing a little sundress, and the look on her face was 100% Heath. That was time for a cry. This little child will always be a reminder of our buddy; she carries his persona on her face. Will she be like him in any other way? Probably, since genetics are so powerful. So, in the midst of the darkness brought by Heath's absence, Matilda brings us light, joy and fond memories of her daddy.
We can continue to grieve; however, we need to look for ways to heal, too.
I am worried that I will not be able to attend a theatre showing of TDK. Everytime I see a poster of Heath as The Joker, I cry. I want so badly to see the film, but feel it will open up all the wounds again. (Just some ruminations from my sick mind.....)
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I am worried that I will not be able to attend a theatre showing of TDK. Everytime I see a poster of Heath as The Joker, I cry. I want so badly to see the film, but feel it will open up all the wounds again. (Just some ruminations from my sick mind.....)
I think a lot of us are prepared to cry during and after the movie. But there's no way I'm going to pass the chance to see Heath on big screen, there's only one more movie left for this experience. I am fully prepared to have to wear a pair of sunglasses to hide my eyes after the movie is finished.
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I think a lot of us are prepared to cry during and after the movie. But there's no way I'm going to pass the chance to see Heath on big screen, there's only one more movie left for this experience. I am fully prepared to have to wear a pair of sunglasses to hide my eyes after the movie is finished.
Yup, to crying. Nope, I won't worry about sunglasses, although they would be cool. :*(
I've decided that if people ask me why I cry watching Batman, I can tell them about Heath. Actually, I cried watching a few previous Batman movies. The one when they showed the young Wayne watch his parent's being murdered by the Joker. The one when Robin's family got destroyed by Two Face. So I would be surprised if I don't cry in this Batman movie.
Come to think of it, :s) I cried watching Spider-man movies, too. ;D
I guess I just cry a lot. :c) And I've learned to be okay with it.
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I know I should find ways to heal, but I don't know how to do that. I still have that horrible feeling of sadness and loss and disbelief when I read something about him, or when I try to reconcile my mind with the fact that he's dead. I feel the tears forming in my eyes just from writing these words. I guess there's nothing I can do except give it time, more time, because I can't see another way for me to get over it. You can't fix a broken heart with superglue.
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We can continue to grieve; however, we need to look for ways to heal, too.
I was beginning to wonder, had no one heard Keren's simple statement: "I find it legitimate to mourn. Period."? And was a little edgy at what was near to a one week gap, here. But Andrew to the rescue. And then Yb, and Lamusica. Maybe we needed a pause, to re-think, and rest up a little. And maybe there'll be a transformation whereby grieving, which is painful, eases into a soft landing of never forgetting, and always remembering a restless, vibrant, and always kind soul that crossed our paths. Keeping him with us quietly and faithfully, rather than with the tilt to an unending hurt. As for whether this long-term commitment is healthy, my answer is as brief as Keren's: you love who you want to love, and please be kind enough to let others do the same.
Lamusica, you are so right about Matilda and she certainly is an intelligent, thoughtful little girl. I've seen dozens of pictures, and she looks like she's quietly thinking things over, as only a child would. As for seeing TDK, like you, I have mixed feelings. Maybe we should all bring along some sunglasses, just in case. It's not just a movie for us, it'll be an old friend up there on the screen. Wish we could go, together. I'll have to go with non-Brokies and that's no help.
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I was beginning to wonder, had no one heard Keren's simple statement: "I find it legitimate to mourn. Period."? And was a little edgy at what was near to a one week gap, here. But Andrew to the rescue. And then Yb, and Lamusica. Maybe we needed a pause, to re-think, and rest up a little. And maybe there'll be a transformation whereby grieving, which is painful, eases into a soft landing of never forgetting, and always remembering a restless, vibrant, and always kind soul that crossed our paths. Keeping him with us quietly and faithfully, rather than with the tilt to an unending hurt. As for whether this long-term commitment is healthy, my answer is as brief as Keren's: you love who you want to love, and please be kind enough to let others do the same.
Beautiful post, Tony. Thank you. :ghug: :ghug:
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I know I should find ways to heal, but I don't know how to do that. I still have that horrible feeling of sadness and loss and disbelief when I read something about him, or when I try to reconcile my mind with the fact that he's dead. I feel the tears forming in my eyes just from writing these words. I guess there's nothing I can do except give it time, more time, because I can't see another way for me to get over it. You can't fix a broken heart with superglue.
Keren :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Sometimes, I think life goes on
Listening to Shelter's happy tunes
Feeling the warm caress of the sun
Enjoying the ocean breeze in my hair
Watching the golden sunset on my way home
Then I read about Ennis and Jack
Then I find an old interview of Jake's
And another old interview of Ang Lee's
And I wanted to find one of Heath's
And I realized, the absence of the interview
And I felt, the absence of the man
And I am grateful to remember
And I am thankful to share a happy sunny day
With the memory of the absence of the sunny smile
That warms my heart for all the rest of my days
Wonderful,Andrew¡ ^f^ Isn't it just like all of us still feel? Trying to carry on,with our daily problems and happiness,getting to feel good with some little things we live everyday,knowing we're loved by someone...But suddenly,we find something that make us realise that there's something that is lack in our life;that all of us have lost a friend,a buddy,somebody who-even without being aware of it-helped to change our lives and gave to us an explosion of feelings just with his performance...And this is something that needn't theories; just feeling it or not ¡.And needn't explanations,justifications nor is product of some sick mind,Lamusica; we need to heal from this grief,of course,but with our own steps,and these are different from each person,with their own circumstances and way of being.
So,yes,I'll go to see TDK and I know I'll cry...And I don't mind,nor mind what people can think about me,even that I'm a complete stupid...I've lost a friend that made me feel something great,and that's enough for me.Period,too.I'd only want to send a big :ghug: to all who feel bad about this,and specially who has written these last posts: Andrew,Keren,Tony,Lamusica,yb...Don't feel ashame of your grief;it's great ¡. O0
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Wonderful posts all. I was particularly struck by these bits:
"You can't fix a broken heart with superglue."
"you love who you want to love, and please be kind enough to let others do the same."
As always, what I am most struck by when I come here is the support and respect everyone shows one another. I know that be it a good day, a bad day, or anything in between, there is always someone to give a hug or pass a tissue. Or just to lean on for a moment before getting on with my day. So thank you all for that. :ghug:
And then an image popped into my head that made me smile. yb mentioned wearing sunglasses to TDK and Tony said "Maybe we should all bring along some sunglasses, just in case."
And suddenly I had this vision of all of us, in our different corners of the world, sitting in our individual theaters, wearing sunglasses. Sort of a solidarity thing. A silent bond with each other, and a silent tribute to the man who inspired each of us in various ways, and helped us find our way to each other. I like the image. 8)
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M Scott Peck said that a community is where people can disagree gracefully, can fight and argue, and remain a family. It is a place where everyone can be a leader, and a follower. It is a place where above all else, the individual is respect as much as the group. It is a place where shared values bind everyone's actions and motivation together function in a cohesive consistent pattern, like a dance.
I have just witnessed this community in action, and it's beautiful. Thank you everyone. You dance beautifully.
:ghug:
Why do I love this place? Let me count the ways; let me count the individuals here... :ghug:
I think that tis is simply a beautiful post that describes our forum , that's why I love it here too... <^(
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Beautiful post, Tony. Thank you.
You're very welcome, Keren. And thank you for all those great photos- we all owe you a great deal for your work there, as well as your faithful loyalty to Heath, here.
FlowerChild, the sunglasses may or may not work, but I think you are on to something about a distinctive remembrance when we see TDK. Maybe a ribbon on the wrist or clothes. Any color. Just to show our diversity. I'll do that, even if I'm the only one. It'll mean something to me, at least.
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You're very welcome, Keren. And thank you for all those great photos- we all owe you a great deal for your work there, as well as your faithful loyalty to Heath, here.
FlowerChild, the sunglasses may or may not work, but I think you are on to something about a distinctive remembrance when we see TDK. Maybe a ribbon on the wrist or clothes. Any color. Just to show our diversity. I'll do that, even if I'm the only one. It'll mean something to me, at least.
I'll be wearing my heath wristband...
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I'll be wearing my heath wristband...
me too :)
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I don't have a Heath wristband... :-\\ -I'd like to have one-.But I could wear an ankle bracelet that I have in which I could put a little note with his name.
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I was glancing through one of the movie rag magazines and came across a lovely picture of Michelle and Matilda walking along a street in NYC. Matilda was wearing a little sundress, and the look on her face was 100% Heath. That was time for a cry. This little child will always be a reminder of our buddy; she carries his persona on her face. Will she be like him in any other way? Probably, since genetics are so powerful. So, in the midst of the darkness brought by Heath's absence, Matilda brings us light, joy and fond memories of her daddy. We can continue to grieve; however, we need to look for ways to heal, too.
I am worried that I will not be able to attend a theatre showing of TDK. Everytime I see a poster of Heath as The Joker, I cry. I want so badly to see the film, but feel it will open up all the wounds again. (Just some ruminations from my sick mind.....)
I totally agree with you, with everything you say. I feel the same.....the whole time. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Animo, amiga!!! Yo estoy aquí por ti si me necesitas, todos estamos aquí por ti si nos necesitas. :^^)
I know I should find ways to heal, but I don't know how to do that. I still have that horrible feeling of sadness and loss and disbelief when I read something about him, or when I try to reconcile my mind with the fact that he's dead. I feel the tears forming in my eyes just from writing these words. I guess there's nothing I can do except give it time, more time, because I can't see another way for me to get over it. You can't fix a broken heart with superglue.
Keren!!! :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I know, really I know how you feel inside.
Maybe we needed a pause, to re-think, and rest up a little. And maybe there'll be a transformation whereby grieving, which is painful, eases into a soft landing of never forgetting, and always remembering a restless, vibrant, and always kind soul that crossed our paths. Keeping him with us quietly and faithfully, rather than with the tilt to an unending hurt. As for whether this long-term commitment is healthy, my answer is as brief as Keren's: you love who you want to love, and please be kind enough to let others do the same.
BEAUTIFUL, Tony, utterly beautiful. Thank you so much. ^f^
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Ok, tell me if I'm being goofy here, but Tony gave me an idea when he said that maybe we could wear a ribbon or a particular color as our own symbol when we go to see TDK. What if we simply all wore something stripey, in honor of Heath's fondness for stripes and the wonderfully odd way that he wore them?
Again, if that's goofy, it's ok to say so. Just a thought that popped into my head. And it doesn't require a particular uniform code, so we could all participate in our own way. What do you think?
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Ok, tell me if I'm being goofy here, but Tony gave me an idea when he said that maybe we could wear a ribbon or a particular color as our own symbol when we go to see TDK. What if we simply all wore something stripey, in honor of Heath's fondness for stripes and the wonderfully odd way that he wore them?
Again, if that's goofy, it's ok to say so. Just a thought that popped into my head. And it doesn't require a particular uniform code, so we could all participate in our own way. What do you think?
im up for that :), i can go buy a stipy sweater... with orange and greay stipes :P, i love that sweater :P
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I love it, Barb!! In fact I have something stripey already!! <^( <^( <^(
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Ok, tell me if I'm being goofy here, but Tony gave me an idea when he said that maybe we could wear a ribbon or a particular color as our own symbol when we go to see TDK. What if we simply all wore something stripey, in honor of Heath's fondness for stripes and the wonderfully odd way that he wore them?
Again, if that's goofy, it's ok to say so. Just a thought that popped into my head. And it doesn't require a particular uniform code, so we could all participate in our own way. What do you think?
I think its a great idea Barb!!! :clap: I'll definitely wear something striped/brightly coloured.....I love this idea.
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Great idea, I'm up for stripes :clap:
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Yay. :clap: Now I just have to figure out which stripes to wear. :s)
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Yay. :clap: Now I just have to figure out which stripes to wear. :s)
If I wear jeans, I'll have a ton of stripey socks to choose from!! But I want the stripes to be on show.... ;D ;D
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Me too Christie. ;D
I think I'll take a picture of me at the theater in my stripes. :)
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Me too Christie. ;D
I think I'll take a picture of me at the theater in my stripes. :)
That's so cool.....but dont expect a pic of me!! ;D But I'll take a pic of my stripes...
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That'll do. O0 ;D
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What if we simply all wore something stripey, in honor of Heath's fondness for stripes and the wonderfully odd way that he wore them?
Well, since that pretty much discribes over half my wardrobe, I'd have to say, I'm in :)
...and don't forget the dirty shoes ;D I'll wear my yellow sneakers :)
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Well, since that pretty much discribes over half my wardrobe, I'd have to say, I'm in :)
...and don't forget the dirty shoes ;D I'll wear my yellow sneakers :)
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YAY for scruffy shoes!!! My shoes are naturally like that I dont have to do anything to them. I have a pair of doc martens I've had for years that will be perfect... :)
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Well, since that pretty much discribes over half my wardrobe, I'd have to say, I'm in :)
...and don't forget the dirty shoes ;D I'll wear my yellow sneakers :)
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Ohh, dirty shoes...but I dont have any...I guess I have to fix that ;)
btw, thats a great picture <^(
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Oh yeah, dirty shoes!! I can manage that with all the rain we have here these days!! Wonderful!!! I'm gonna be Heath now, well, girl version. <^( <^( <^( I'm so excited!!
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There's no problem with old shoes;I'll look for them in my old object's wardrobe ¡ :) But I don't know when I'll find something striped,because I think I have nothing... :-\\
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There's no problem with old shoes;I'll look for them in my old object's wardrobe ¡ :) But I don't know when I'll find something striped,because I think I have nothing... :-\\
well how about something thats brightly coloured, instead, not necessarily striped?
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There's no problem with old shoes;I'll look for them in my old object's wardrobe ¡ :) But I don't know when I'll find something striped,because I think I have nothing... :-\\
Do you have a paint brush, or a magic marker? ;D
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FlowerChild, you're on a roll. A ribbon is for tidal waves in Asia, cancers, POW's, etc, and are very legitimate, but one more ribbon says nothing - striped clothing says: Heath. But now I have to go burrowing through old clothes until I find something sufficiently bohemian. Oh, what the heck - I'll show up WITH stripes, WITH a ribbon, and if I can figure out what Matt's Heath bracelet is like, will get me one of those,too. Plus the sunglasses.
Am serious. OK, I may just do the stripes. Depends on who I go with and what their tolerance level is. FlowerChild...this one works. Thanks.
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I love it Jess! ;D
I have been known to decorate an occasional shirt with permanent marker.
But really, even a little ribbon with stripes, or as christie said, something that's brightly colored. It's the thought, not the outfit, that counts. :)
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well how about something thats brightly coloured, instead, not necessarily striped?
Or something that has bottons to fasten the one in the middle,as he used to do?
Do you have a paint brush, or a magic marker? ;D
I can drawn the stripes with acrilic painting,but,listen,Jess,do you think it'll work? ;)
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FlowerChild, you're on a roll. A ribbon is for tidal waves in Asia, cancers, POW's, etc, and are very legitimate, but one more ribbon says nothing - striped clothing says: Heath. But now I have to go burrowing through old clothes until I find something sufficiently bohemian. Oh, what the heck - I'll show up WITH stripes, WITH a ribbon, and if I can figure out what Matt's Heath bracelet is like, will get me one of those,too. Plus the sunglasses.
Am serious. OK, I may just do the stripes. Depends on who I go with and what their tolerance level is. FlowerChild...this one works. Thanks.
Well take a bow Tony - you inspired me. O0
And mpj, of course it will work! O0 ;D
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FlowerChild, you're on a roll. A ribbon is for tidal waves in Asia, cancers, POW's, etc, and are very legitimate, but one more ribbon says nothing - striped clothing says: Heath. But now I have to go burrowing through old clothes until I find something sufficiently bohemian. Oh, what the heck - I'll show up WITH stripes, WITH a ribbon, and if I can figure out what Matt's Heath bracelet is like, will get me one of those,too. Plus the sunglasses.Am serious. OK, I may just do the stripes. Depends on who I go with and what their tolerance level is. FlowerChild...this one works. Thanks.
Bravo Tony!!! :clap: :clap: :clap:
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I have some stripey socks and will be sure to wear them to the viewing :)
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Oh the sunglasses, I saw red ones the other day and I wanted to buy them so badly just because Heath had them...well now I have another reason to buy them ;)
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Oh the sunglasses, I saw red ones the other day and I wanted to buy them so badly just because Heath had them...well now I have another reason to buy them ;)
Bought 'em Monday ;D
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Bought 'em Monday ;D
Next time I get in to town, I'll get them ;)
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I have some stripey socks and will be sure to wear them to the viewing :)
Oh Michelle, please take a pic of you wearing the socks! ;D
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You're very welcome, Keren. And thank you for all those great photos- we all owe you a great deal for your work there, as well as your faithful loyalty to Heath, here.
FlowerChild, the sunglasses may or may not work, but I think you are on to something about a distinctive remembrance when we see TDK. Maybe a ribbon on the wrist or clothes. Any color. Just to show our diversity. I'll do that, even if I'm the only one. It'll mean something to me, at least.
That's a good idea, Tony, and I hadn't thought of it. Wear a ribbon, or our ennisjack Heath memorial button, or something. I will do that.
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Me too Christie. ;D
I think I'll take a picture of me at the theater in my stripes. :)
I was going to say that, also -- take a picture at the theater if we can, in our stripeys.
kathy
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OK, need to find striped socks now, huh? ???
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I went in closet and chose a favorite stripey blouse :)
kathy
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As for seeing TDK, like you, I have mixed feelings. Maybe we should all bring along some sunglasses, just in case. It's not just a movie for us, it'll be an old friend up there on the screen. Wish we could go, together. I'll have to go with non-Brokies and that's no help.
Great post, Tony! I WILL force myself to see TDK at the theatre. Who would pass up a chance to see Heath on the big screen? But I'll be going alone, since none of my friends share my taste in movies when they vere off the beaten path of romantic comedies! Actually, I can't wait to see it, but wish I had a bunch of brokies to go with. Oh, pitiful me....LOL
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I have a stripey shirt and stripey socks, I'll make sure to wear them. That's a wonderful way to honor him, thanks for the idea Barb.
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I haven't posted on here in awhile! I just read everyone's recent post and I love the idea of wearing something significant when going to see TDK. For some of the members that are confused, the Heath braclet, was an idea I had about a month ago in which I sent to Emelie in Sweden and Matt in England. I also have 4 friends who are wearing it at my school. I had more but they have been misplaced through my house, but I'm hoping to find them again soon!
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"For a moment in our lives, forever in our hearts"
I love the idea of wearing a striped shirt or something similar to that! My mom might have striped socks, because I know I sure don't ;D I'll ask my friends what they think about the idea because on the weekend TDK comes out, 10 of my friends, are all going to see the film together. I'm hoping to get a picture with all of us together, possibly wearing the Heath bracelets, in memorium of our beloved Heath.
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I haven't posted on here in awhile! I just read everyone's recent post and I love the idea of wearing something significant when going to see TDK. For some of the members that are confused, the Heath braclet, was an idea I had about a month ago in which I sent to Emelie in Sweden and Matt in England. I also have 4 friends who are wearing it at my school. I had more but they have been misplaced through my house, but I'm hoping to find them again soon!
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"For a moment in our lives, forever in our hearts"
I love the idea of wearing a striped shirt or something similar to that! My mom might have striped socks, because I know I sure don't ;D I'll ask my friends what they think about the idea because on the weekend TDK comes out, 10 of my friends, are all going to see the film together. I'm hoping to get a picture with all of us together, possibly wearing the Heath bracelets, in memorium of our beloved Heath.
Lis,I would like to have a Heath bracelet too; can you tell me where can I find one,please ? :t) :^^)
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Who would pass up a chance to see Heath on the big screen? But I'll be going alone, since none of my friends share my taste in movies when they vere off the beaten path of romantic comedies! Actually, I can't wait to see it, but wish I had a bunch of brokies to go with.
Lamusica, you might consider going outside your circle of friends, fess up to being a Brokie, and scout around for an acquaintance, maybe even from your church, for what should be....an expedition. You might be surprised at who just might be interested. But, either way, if you have to go it alone (which may also happen, for me, too), leave an empty seat beside you. Brokies are never really alone. Pat the seat, with a smile, settle in. We'll be there. As for me, I will be greatly interested in your take on Heath's performance and the film itself, and will be looking for your reaction on the TDK thread. Much love-Tony.
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Lis,I would like to have a Heath bracelet too; can you tell me where can I find one,please ? :t) :^^)
I only bought a limited member of wristbands, mostly for friends. I misplaced a lot of them, which I was going to send to more members of the forum. Mom says they are somewhere in the house. ::)
Moreover, whether one member wants to buy a certain quanity and send it to several members or indivdually, people make their own, it doesn't really matter to me. I chose "Sky Blue" as my color and added the text "For a moment in our lives" in the front and "Forever in our hearts" in the back. If any of you are interested and want to custom make your own wristband in memory of Heath, please PM me!
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I have a stripey shirt and stripey socks, I'll make sure to wear them. That's a wonderful way to honor him, thanks for the idea Barb.
Agreed. Thanks, Barb -- it is the perfect thing, a perfect fun way to be in loving memory of Heath. Can you imagine how much fun he would be having promoting TDK? Because it was such an awesome experience for him, and he would be delighted at people just freaking out and scared of The Joker.
kathy
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I think so too Kathy. He not only said it was his favorite role and the most fun he'd had filming, he seemed proud of the work too. I think he would have liked to see people responding to it in the way that he'd hoped. Something tells me they will. :)
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5 months today, I still miss you like crazy :\'(
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:\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: friends.
Our love to you Heath. :^^)
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over the last few days my grieving has changed somewhat, i mean i still miss heath like crazy and im still obviously upset about everything. but i feel now that well when i think of heath its from the view of remembering him and waiting to see him again not from the old place of wishing i was with him now and tat being dead would just be easier. i think it was about a week ago these changes started to begin. but now i feel i can have a smile on my face when i say "heath i miss you, see you again someday".
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I'm glad for you Matt. :^^)
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5 months...damn :\'(
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5 months...damn :\'(
Yeah...damn.
Well, this morning I hemmed the sleeves of my stripey blouse I'll wear to TDK. Been meaning to do that for a long time, so I finally had this occasion to make myself get to it. So, I was sewing and thinking about Heath. I like to picture him when he had that pink boa or something, and it looked like lacy sleeves, the fuzzy beret -- you know the photo I mean. I love how he had fun with clothes.
kathy
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Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are ...
Fragment of "To where you are",by Josh Groban
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thats such a fitting and beautiful poem, thanks for sharin Ali
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Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are ...
Fragment of "To where you are",by Josh Groban
this is beautiful thanks for posting. ^f^
5 months wow i cant believe it....... :(
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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thats great thanks christine :)
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Thank you Christie. I can't think of a better symbol to honor him with, especially the way that it came about. ^f^
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
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That is just wonderful! The heart is so beautiful and an amazing way of remembering Heath <^(
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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Oh, thank you Christie! I wanna have that tattoo as well... I'll have to get it copied. It's a wonderful way to remember Heath, I'm so touched they did it.
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Christine, thanks so much for posting this.
I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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Oh, thank you Christie! I wanna have that tattoo as well... I'll have to get it copied. It's a wonderful way to remember Heath, I'm so touched they did it.
Thanks everyone. As soon as I saw it, I knew I had to post it here to show you all.
Keren, I agree with you, I want it too. :)
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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Oh my, Christie!!! This is so beautiful!! Thank you so much for posting it!!! ^f^ I'd like so so much to have one like that!!! <^( <^( Maybe I could get it done before Brussels.... That'd be wonderful!!! <^( <^(
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Oh my, Christie!!! This is so beautiful!! Thank you so much for posting it!!! ^f^ I'd like so so much to have one like that!!! <^( <^( Maybe I could get it done before Brussels.... That's be wonderful!!! <^( <^(
Yeah, thats what I was thinking/hoping too.
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I will absolutely want to see pictures of that. ^f^
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It's nice to actually have a good close up pic of the tattoo, it's so hard to see Verne's, but it also kind of feels like she's showing it off( I don't think she is, it just appears that way because the photagrapher zoomed in).
I think if I ever got something, I would want it where is wasn't so obvious, you know...just for me. But I don't think I will, I just don't want something that reminds me of him to become common place, like, you just get used to seeing it to the point that the meaning is not there anymore. I don't know.
Has anyone ever gotten a tat to remember someone; did the feeling last?
Oh, and these are the sunglasses I got for the premiere, I love that a bunch of us are wearing things that remind us of him <^(
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I'm getting a pair of those sunglasses tomorrow :)
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They're really cute, and make me smile (not cry) thinking of him.
I got them in white too, like Michelle wears, they're even cuter :)
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They're really cute, and make me smile (not cry) thinking of him.
I got them in white too, like Michelle wears, they're even cuter :)
Oh white would be cool, I wonder if they have them too :s)
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It's nice to actually have a good close up pic of the tattoo, it's so hard to see Verne's, but it also kind of feels like she's showing it off( I don't think she is, it just appears that way because the photagrapher zoomed in).
I think if I ever got something, I would want it where is wasn't so obvious, you know...just for me. But I don't think I will, I just don't want something that reminds me of him to become common place, like, you just get used to seeing it to the point that the meaning is not there anymore. I don't know.
I think its a personal thing to get a tattoo wherever you want to have it, whether its on show or not. I didnt think Lily Cole was showing it off in any way, I just thought she was proud to have it, and what it represented to her. Not everyone knows about the heart and what it means, I think it wouuld be quite wonderful if all Heath fans everywhere knew and got it done....I'd like that.
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I think its a personal thing to get a tattoo wherever you want to have it, whether its on show or not. I didnt think Lily Cole was showing it off in any way, I just thought she was proud to have it, and what it represented to her. Not everyone knows about the heart and what it means, I think it wouuld be quite wonderful if all Heath fans everywhere knew and got it done....I'd like that.
I totally agree with you :), it's such a personal thing. I don't think she was showing off either, I felt like the photographer purposely got the shot with her arm up. I don't think showing it is wrong, Verne showed his, it means something to him, you want people to know. I just remember KerenB saying something a while back about maybe getting "I carry your heart; I carry it in my heart" on her chest across her heart. That just moved me and made me cry, the idea of having something so personal, that no one could see, but you always knew it was there. Like it was just between you and the person it represents; like his "Matilda" tattoo :\'(
What I like about Lily Cole's though, is the fact that it's in a place where Heath had a tattoo, the inside of his wrist, Verne's is also on his hand where Heath's leaf was; I think that's really interesting.
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I think its a personal thing to get a tattoo wherever you want to have it, whether its on show or not. I didnt think Lily Cole was showing it off in any way, I just thought she was proud to have it, and what it represented to her. Not everyone knows about the heart and what it means, I think it wouuld be quite wonderful if all Heath fans everywhere knew and got it done....I'd like that.
Oh, I agree with you about this, Christie. I want to see photos of the tattoo of every one of the crew who had it. That is an incredibly heart-warming gesture of them.
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I totally agree with you :), it's such a personal thing. I don't think she was showing off either, I felt like the photographer purposely got the shot with her arm up. I don't think showing it is wrong, Verne showed his, it means something to him, you want people to know. I just remember KerenB saying something a while back about maybe getting "I carry your heart; I carry it in my heart" on her chest across her heart. That just moved me and made me cry, the idea of having something so personal, that no one could see, but you always knew it was there. Like it was just between you and the person it represents; like his "Matilda" tattoo :\'(
What I like about Lily Cole's though, is the fact that it's in a place where Heath had a tattoo, the inside of his wrist, Verne's is also on his hand where Heath's leaf was; I think that's really interesting.
I noticed that too. I think it's really interesting to see how each person decides to honor and remember him. Everything has meaning, and each different approach is a little hint at what it was that that particular person saw in him or was drawn to. If that makes sense. I just like getting those little peeks into how he touched people.
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I totally agree with you :), it's such a personal thing. I don't think she was showing off either, I felt like the photographer purposely got the shot with her arm up. I don't think showing it is wrong, Verne showed his, it means something to him, you want people to know. I just remember KerenB saying something a while back about maybe getting "I carry your heart; I carry it in my heart" on her chest across her heart. That just moved me and made me cry, the idea of having something so personal, that no one could see, but you always knew it was there. Like it was just between you and the person it represents; like his "Matilda" tattoo :\'(
What I like about Lily Cole's though, is the fact that it's in a place where Heath had a tattoo, the inside of his wrist, Verne's is also on his hand where Heath's leaf was; I think that's really interesting.
Yeah I know what you mean, everyone should be able to put their tattoo wherever they felt they wanted to have it.
You know, in the interview she gave, Heath was not mentioned, nor was the tattoo. So not everyone would even know the significance of the heart on her wrist, but I liked the fact we would know, that makes me feel good. :)
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Wristband from Lis and I got the glasses today <^( <^( <^(
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Wristband from Lis and I got the glasses today <^( <^( <^(
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Wonderful,Emelie;I love them¡ I suppose it's better than,when we'll go and watch TDK,each one of us wear what one has;wristband,glasses,old shoes,striped sweaters,and so on,not exactly one only object,don't you think so?. <^(
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Wonderful,Emelie;I love them¡ I suppose it's better than,when we'll go and watch TDK,each one of us wear what one has;wristband,glasses,old shoes,striped sweaters,and so on,not exactly one only object,don't you think so?. <^(
Yeah I do :) But I still have to find a striped sweater, only have a top, but if its hot outside maybe thats enough :s) and old shoes...hmm, maybe I have some, I dont know, have to look that up.
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Yeah I do :) But I still have to find a striped sweater, only have a top, but if its hot outside maybe thats enough :s) and old shoes...hmm, maybe I have some, I dont know, have to look that up.
Well,I guess it's not necessary to wear everything at the same time... :) But with something that reminds Heath,that'll be enough IMO. O0
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Well,I guess it's not necessary to wear everything at the same time... :) But with something that reminds Heath,that'll be enough IMO. O0
But I want to have everything ;) haha, but the shoes are a bit hard to find...
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It's nice to actually have a good close up pic of the tattoo, it's so hard to see Verne's, but it also kind of feels like she's showing it off( I don't think she is, it just appears that way because the photagrapher zoomed in).
I think if I ever got something, I would want it where is wasn't so obvious, you know...just for me. But I don't think I will, I just don't want something that reminds me of him to become common place, like, you just get used to seeing it to the point that the meaning is not there anymore. I don't know.
I know how you feel Jess... I've been thinking about having a tattoo for a long time, and I still haven't done it because I have mixed feeling about it. At first I thought about having a tattoo just like one of his own - like that celtic thing on his wrist, or the leaf - something that was uniquely Heath. But I don't want people to ask me about it all the time. Then I heard about the heart tottoo and I was so moved by that, I think it's such a beautiful gesture... and I thought about doing it in a private place that isn't so visible, like above my heart. But I don't know, I should have the original drawing for that, and even if I copy it from Lily Cole's photo I'm not sure it's gonna be identical. And sometimes I think that maybe I should'nt have a tattoo at all, because the memory is so painful as it is, so do I really need this constant painful reminder on my body? Even without it I can't stop hurting every time I think about him. I just don't know...
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Wristband from Lis and I got the glasses today <^( <^( <^(
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That's beautiful Emzan. The sunglasses are just like his, and the wristband is so special.
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:ghug: Keren.
I understand about making that decision. I guess its a question of whether it would hurt to have the reminder or be a comfort. And only you can decide that. I'm sure you'll find the right balance. :^^)
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That's beautiful Emzan. The sunglasses are just like his, and the wristband is so special.
Yeah I know, but the sunglasses have white stars on the sides so its not really like his, but it was the only ones I could find :)
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Close enough Em. O0 I'd love to find some like that.
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Close enough Em. O0 I'd love to find some like that.
I hope you can find some before you go and see the movie :)
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Believe me, I'll be looking! ;D
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I know how you feel Jess... I've been thinking about having a tattoo for a long time, and I still haven't done it because I have mixed feeling about it. At first I thought about having a tattoo just like one of his own - like that celtic thing on his wrist, or the leaf - something that was uniquely Heath. But I don't want people to ask me about it all the time. Then I heard about the heart tottoo and I was so moved by that, I think it's such a beautiful gesture... and I thought about doing it in a private place that isn't so visible, like above my heart. But I don't know, I should have the original drawing for that, and even if I copy it from Lily Cole's photo I'm not sure it's gonna be identical. And sometimes I think that maybe I should'nt have a tattoo at all, because the memory is so painful as it is, so do I really need this constant painful reminder on my body? Even without it I can't stop hurting every time I think about him. I just don't know...
Keren, honey... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I found this picture of Lily Cole and her tattoed heart - the one she and Heath's other fellow cast mates had tattoed in his memory.
I hope you can see it clearly enough.
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wow thanks for posting this its simply wonderful...such a beautiful way of remembering him. <^( thanks for sharing this pic with us! :^^)
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wow thanks for posting this its simply wonderful...such a beautiful way of remembering him. <^( thanks for sharing this pic with us! :^^)
You're welcome. You're from the UK, arent you? This was from The Sunday Times, Style Section..
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And sometimes I think that maybe I should'nt have a tattoo at all, because the memory is so painful as it is, so do I really need this constant painful reminder on my body? Even without it I can't stop hurting every time I think about him. I just don't know...
That's exactly what happened to me Keren. I had something in mind that reminded me of him, I had originally designed it in reference to Ennis & Jack, then it transformed into Heath after the loss of him.
But where I am right now, thinking too much makes me hurt....an actual visual reminder etched into my skin...I'm just not in that place yet.
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I know how you feel Jess... I've been thinking about having a tattoo for a long time, and I still haven't done it because I have mixed feeling about it. At first I thought about having a tattoo just like one of his own - like that celtic thing on his wrist, or the leaf - something that was uniquely Heath. But I don't want people to ask me about it all the time. Then I heard about the heart tottoo and I was so moved by that, I think it's such a beautiful gesture... and I thought about doing it in a private place that isn't so visible, like above my heart. But I don't know, I should have the original drawing for that, and even if I copy it from Lily Cole's photo I'm not sure it's gonna be identical. And sometimes I think that maybe I should'nt have a tattoo at all, because the memory is so painful as it is, so do I really need this constant painful reminder on my body? Even without it I can't stop hurting every time I think about him. I just don't know...
Keren.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Someone said that its not so bad
Someone said that the tears will stop
Soneone said that it will get better
Someone said that now its time to stop with the crying
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I said that this is bad
I said that the tears wont stop
I said that it wont get better, because he’s not comming back
I said that I cant stop crying
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Someone said that its not so bad
Someone said that the tears will stop
Soneone said that it will get better
Someone said that now its time to stop with the crying
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I said that this is bad
I said that the tears wont stop
I said that it wont get better, because he’s not comming back
I said that I cant stop crying
It's wonderful,Emelie¡ It's just what we feel,even if someone tells us we must let it be... :c)
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For Emzan :ghug: And for everyone else in this thread :ghug:
I think the closer it gets to TDK's release the more feelings we thought we had under control will rise again and challenge us. That's ok, that's why we have each other.
What a beautiful way to express yourself.....through poem. Thank you for sharing.
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Oh Emelie, that's beautiful, babe, so sad... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Someone said that its not so bad
Someone said that the tears will stop
Soneone said that it will get better
Someone said that now its time to stop with the crying
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I said that this is bad
I said that the tears wont stop
I said that it wont get better, because he’s not comming back
I said that I cant stop crying
God Emelie, thats just so perfect, and yet so unbelievably sad...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Thanks for the comments everyone :^^) :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: friends. %)
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:ghug: :ghug: friends. %)
I quote this, %)
Feels so good to know that we have each other at this sad time.
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My friends and I do not just weep.
It’s not only a somber vigil that we keep.
We celebrate our memories
And share our smiles and tears.
We honor one we care about
And will throughout the years.
And on the days it hurts too much,
We always know we’ll find
A shoulder to lean on,
An ear to listen,
A loving and open mind.
A heart full of love is not a bad thing
And friends who will share that
Are a wonderful blessing.
So thank you my friends
for the gift of your love,
and telling me here I have nothing to prove.
It’s so nice in these times to not be alone.
I cherish you all, and this beautiful home. :ghug:
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I know how you feel Jess... I've been thinking about having a tattoo for a long time, and I still haven't done it because I have mixed feeling about it. At first I thought about having a tattoo just like one of his own - like that celtic thing on his wrist, or the leaf - something that was uniquely Heath. But I don't want people to ask me about it all the time. Then I heard about the heart tottoo and I was so moved by that, I think it's such a beautiful gesture... and I thought about doing it in a private place that isn't so visible, like above my heart. But I don't know, I should have the original drawing for that, and even if I copy it from Lily Cole's photo I'm not sure it's gonna be identical. And sometimes I think that maybe I should'nt have a tattoo at all, because the memory is so painful as it is, so do I really need this constant painful reminder on my body? Even without it I can't stop hurting every time I think about him. I just don't know...
Keren, I totally understand your feeling, that's why I have not been keeping up with Heath news lately until now that the reviews on TDK begin to appear. I am not a tattoo person but I really love those who had made or will make tattoo which relates to Heath, but I also understand why you are hesitant about it now. In any case, do what your heart tells you. :ghug:
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My friends and I do not just weep.
It’s not only a somber vigil that we keep.
We celebrate our memories
And share our smiles and tears.
We honor one we care about
And will throughout the years.
And on the days it hurts too much,
We always know we’ll find
A shoulder to lean on,
An ear to listen,
A loving and open mind.
A heart full of love is not a bad thing
And friends who will share that
Are a wonderful blessing.
So thank you my friends
for the gift of your love,
and telling me here I have nothing to prove.
It’s so nice in these times to not be alone.
I cherish you all, and this beautiful home. :ghug:
How wonderful,sweetie¡ ^f^ This is really the Brokie spirit;nothing to prove,nothing to explain,everything to listen to,understand and share...You know, %) too.
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Keren, I totally understand your feeling, that's why I have not been keeping up with Heath news lately until now that the reviews on TDK begin to appear. I am not a tattoo person but I really love those who had made or will make tattoo which relates to Heath, but I also understand why you are hesitant about it now. In any case, do what your heart tells you. :ghug:
Thanks, yb. I'm not a tattoo person myself either, I don't have any, and this is the first time I feel the urge to do something like this. I just feel that if I do it, it will be a connection between me and Heath.
Barb and Emelie, thank you for your beautiful poems. :ghug:
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HELLO,I´m new here and I was fan of Heath.I can`t believe that he is dead.. Though it has been already a six month..I´m sorry about my bad english.I hope that I can talk here with you. :)
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#$# Heathonmymind.
Your english so far is great. And we're happy to have you here with us. :ghug:
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HELLO,I´m new here and I was fan of Heath.I can`t believe that he is dead.. Though it has been already a six month..I´m sorry about my bad english.I hope that I can talk here with you. :)
Welcome hon!!! Don't worry about anything. I don't speak English either but brokies always help me a lot, so they will do it with you!! ^f^
We all feel the same as you... :\'( :\'( :\'( Still it hurts so much.
Friends, I know it's crazy but I'm getting my wrist tattooed with Heath's heart next week!! I'll post pics, promise.
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I don't think it's crazy at all Tammy. It's personal for you and a beautiful symbol of your affection. I can't wait to see the pictures. :ghug:
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Tammy thats great :) I want to do something like that.
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For Emzan :ghug: And for everyone else in this thread :ghug:
I think the closer it gets to TDK's release the more feelings we thought we had under control will rise again and challenge us. That's ok, that's why we have each other.
What a beautiful way to express yourself.....through poem. Thank you for sharing.
I agree with you Jessi the closer to the release of the movie the harder it gets
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:\'( What a beautiful poem Barb, this was my fav part...
"So thank you my friends
for the gift of your love,
and telling me here I have nothing to prove.
It’s so nice in these times to not be alone."
So true, so true. :ghug:
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For Emzan :ghug: And for everyone else in this thread :ghug:
I think the closer it gets to TDK's release the more feelings we thought we had under control will rise again and challenge us. That's ok, that's why we have each other.
That is so true, exactly what's going on. No way is our grief over Heath's passing just quietly easing into the corners now. As I said in Heath the Joker, his phenomenal performance is so powerful that it can't help but shoo away my sorrow, for a while anyway.
kathy
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IVE BEEN A FAN OF HEATH LEDGER SINCE I FIRST LAID EYES ON HIM IN 10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU HE JUST OWNED THE SCREEN AND SHOT TO THE STARS HIS PERFORMANCES GOT BETTER AND BETTER AND SOMETHING LIKE BBM AND BATMAN I CAN ONLY USE A WORD LIKE TRANSCENDANT HE WAS FRANKLY BRILLIANT :clap:HUMBLE AND WILLING TO NOT RELY ON JUST BEING THE BLOND PRETTY BOY SOME IN THE BUSINESS WANTED HIM TO BE AFTER 10 THINGS, AND SO HIS DEATH HIT ME HARD HIM AND JAKE WERE ONE OF THE FEW WHO I TRULY BELIEVED TO BE READY TO MOVE PASSED THE BRADS,WILL'S TOM'S AND GEORGE'S JUST AS THAT GROUP MOVED PAST THE REDFORDS,NICHOLSONS,HOFFMANS AND THE REST ITS JUST A NATURAL PROGRESSION THEREFOR WHEN I WENT OUT OF MY APT IN NYC TO RUN A SIMPLE ERRAND AT THE DRUG STORE I BELIEVED THAT THE ONLY BIG NEWS OF DISSCUSSION WOULD BE THE NOMINATIONS FOR WHICHEVER AWARDS SHOW THAT ESCAPES ME AND THAT AMY WINEHOUSE VIDEO ::) I CAME HOME THE KEY WAS STILL IN THE DOOR AND I ONLY HAD ONE FOOT INSIDE WHEN MY BROTHER SAID UR NOT GONNA BELIEVE THIS BUT THEY FOUND HEATH LEDGER DEAD! :-\\ :\'( I WAS STUNNED AND MADE HIM REPEAT AT LEAST 15 TIMES AND IT STILL DIDNT REGISTER THAT COULDNT BE POSSIBLE NOT WHEN HE HAD SO MUCH LEFT TO GIVE TO THIS WORLD AS A PERSON BUT A FATHER AS WELL :\'(WHICH IS THE GREATEST TRAGEDY OF ALL I GENERALLY HAVE A HARD TIME WHEN A YOUNG PERSON DIES FAMOUS OR NOT SO THIS WAS NO EXCEPTION MAY HE TRULY REST IN PEACE AND I WISH HIS FAMILY, MICHELLE AND BABY MATILDA AND FRIENDS ALL THE PEACE AND HAPPINESS THEY CAN FIND AND A HUG FOR ALL HIS FANS :ghug:
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Hi sportstalk23,
Yes, I'm sure we all remember exactly where we were when we found out, it's our Kennedy, or our Lennon experience for us.
And yes, I always thought that too, that he was part a the next generation about to come forth and take the Hollywood reins. There are so few actors that actually deserve that chance, and contain that ability of talent and presence. But at least he left behind a unique resume of work. There are actors that act for 40 years and lack the list of incredible characters that he created in less than 20 years of acting.
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I agree Jess. Even some of the A-list actors have a spotty resume when looked at by the law of averages - the learning they did along the way before they really hit their stride or the lesser roles they had to take to earn their shot at the good stuff. By putting his priority on the craft and the learning experience instead of on the potential for success, Heath created a resume that you would be hard pressed to find anything even average on, much less in any way lacking. The characters that he played and the performances that he gave were consistently superior and still absolutely unique, each in its own right.
This is one of the reasons I've always thought that he and Jake were so well matched to play these parts. They both have the ability to completely become their characters and they have both always been willing to go wherever those characters required them to go. Many times, I've thought, almost disconcertingly. It is a rare quality indeed and only one of the reasons we'll miss him so much. :ghug:
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Reading all the rave reviews of his performance as The Joker make it harder for me. I'm so proud of him when people say how brilliant he was there and predicting him another Oscar nomination, but every time after I read one of these reviews the pain gets worse, and I just feel so sad and empty. I miss him so bad.
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:ghug: Keren :ghug:
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Ok, bear with me. I think this is going to be a little garbled. I found some videos on imdb today and one of them was from the 2006 AFI Awards. I'd seen this footage before and settled in to enjoy it again. It's funny and sweet and I was laughing and smiling. It was five minutes in before I realized there was a tear in my eye as well. The point being that this is how it happens so often, for me anyway. It just sort of sneaks up on you, even in those moments that you're just enjoying the memory or celebrating his spirit. And it's not a big display, and it doesn't ruin the moment. I think it's just an indication that you cared about him and your body has the instinct to still feel those things and express them even when you're not consciuosly aware of it. I don't know if that made any sense. It's just the thought that popped into my head when I noticed it. Then the rest of the video was a little more bittersweet so the tear fit right into the tone. This it the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0)
Then I watched the next video that was posted and now my little tear turned into a big puddle. It is beautiful and heartbreaking. I'd recommend tissues. I'm sorry if it hurts, but I couldn't not share it. :ghug: to all. Thanks for listening to me ramble.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE)
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thank you for this O0 i am :\'( :) all at the same time and check out the one where he's on the tonight show as well amazing when u watch one you find so many other things too
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You're welcome. :)
I know what you mean. Once I get started, I usually end up going through a whole bunch of videos. They're like potato chips - I can't stop at just one. ::)
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Thanks for posting the vids :^^) the first one is really cute and sweet. I just love his voice, so friendly, but when the BBM clip came on my eyes started to fill :\'( :\'( and him talking about his girls....
The 2nd had me crying like crazy :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Me too Em. :ghug: :^^)
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Read an interview this morning with Christian Bale in which he freely talked about Heath. It put to rest any thought that he might have been jealous of all the thunder Heath is getting because of TDK. He talked about how much he misses him and how charasmatic he was -- how it was great to work with his everyday for months, but then how heartbreaking it was to lose him. Christian did a great job expressing how so many friends and co-workers felt about Heath. But, of course, this all brought on the tears once again! Oh, well.......
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Le temps qu’il nous reste
Quelle importance le temps qu'il nous reste
Nous aurons la chance de vieillir ensemble
Au fond de tes yeux vivra ma tendresse
Au fond de mon cœur vivra ta jeunesse
Comme une prière du temps de l'enfance
Ces mots sur tes lèvres me donnent confiance
Je nous imagine ta main dans la mienne
Nos moindres sourires voudront dire je t'aime
Mais l'un de nous s'en ira le premier
Il fermera ses yeux à jamais
Dans un tout dernier sourire
Et l'autre en perdant la moitié de sa vie
Restera chaque jour dans la nuit
Son cœur bien sûr battra mais pour qui mais pourquoi
Ton pas résonne la porte s'entrouvre
Mon cœur bat plus vite et je te retrouve
Quand nos mains se tiennent j'oublie tout le reste
J'ai l'impression même que le temps s'arrête
Mais l'un de nous s'en ira le premier
Il fermera ses yeux à jamais
Dans un tout dernier sourire
Un jour l'un de nous sera trop fatigué
S'en ira presque heureux le premier
Et l'autre s'en tarder viendra le retrouver
Je nous imagine ta main dans la mienne
Nos moindres sourires voudront dire je t'aime
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The time we have left
How important time we have left
We will have the chance to grow old together
At the bottom of your eyes live my tenderness
At the bottom of my heart will live your youth
As a prayer in children time
These words on your lips give me confidence
I imagine us your hand in mine
Our smiles least want to say I love you
But one of us will be the first to leave
He closed his eyes forever
In a final smile
And another losing half of his life
It remains each day in the night
His heart beat, of course, but for that but why
Your footstep resonate the door is open
My heart beats faster and I'll find
When our hands are held I forget everything else
I have the feeling that the clock stops
But one of us will be the first
He closed his eyes forever
In a final smile
One day one of us will be too tired
And will go almost glad the first
And I will soon come and let's meet
I imagine us your hand in mine
Our smiles least want to say I love you
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That's a heartbreaking song, mikele... :\'(
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FC, the videos that you posted were both touching and endearing, yet so sad and tragic. The first one made me laugh, especially in the beginning. One of the kindest souls to all! The ending, when you saw his name and then all the people, all his fellow actors, clapping, bodies standing still, in the one moment for a man that truly, was something beyond compare..The second one, I can't even tell you how close to was to crying! The song fit him so well, it was scary. I loved the last bits, when they showed clip on clip, of his smiling face. That is one of the things I'll miss most about him..thank you FC for the posting the vids!
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Here is a video I saw the other night, celebrating Heath and all the movies he has made..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmWW789-nTA
It is truly beautiful, I couldn't keep my eyes off the screen watching this..
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Here is a video I saw the other night, celebrating Heath and all the movies he has made..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmWW789-nTA
It is truly beautiful, I couldn't keep my eyes off the screen watching this..
I saw that vid a couple of weeks ago, Its so beautiful but very sad and it makes me miss him so much more... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Thank you so much,Barb and Lis,for having sharing these amazing videos with all of us¡ :ghug: Even if the second one has been for me like a punch on the stomach;why everything about him hurts still so,so much? :\'(
And it's true that the most TDK premiere is approaching,the saddest we feel about him and his loss...It's like going back to the first days sensations,that great sadness that one could feel almost like a physical pain... I suppose it's logical,but it's painful too... :-\\
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Ok, bear with me. I think this is going to be a little garbled. I found some videos on imdb today and one of them was from the 2006 AFI Awards. I'd seen this footage before and settled in to enjoy it again. It's funny and sweet and I was laughing and smiling. It was five minutes in before I realized there was a tear in my eye as well. The point being that this is how it happens so often, for me anyway. It just sort of sneaks up on you, even in those moments that you're just enjoying the memory or celebrating his spirit. And it's not a big display, and it doesn't ruin the moment. I think it's just an indication that you cared about him and your body has the instinct to still feel those things and express them even when you're not consciuosly aware of it. I don't know if that made any sense. It's just the thought that popped into my head when I noticed it. Then the rest of the video was a little more bittersweet so the tear fit right into the tone. This it the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0)
Then I watched the next video that was posted and now my little tear turned into a big puddle. It is beautiful and heartbreaking. I'd recommend tissues. I'm sorry if it hurts, but I couldn't not share it. :ghug: to all. Thanks for listening to me ramble.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE)
Not rambling... I know what you mean, about the body-feelings, that whatever else is in your head, the tear comes anyway, as it is right now. God, what a sad, sad loss. I just love Heath, body, mind and spirit. Love the way he moves, I love his laugh, I even love that little cough.
I don't know how I hadn't seen that AFI 2006 video. And the "One of the Brightest Stars" song is so apt. Thank you much for posting.
kathy
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Ok, bear with me. I think this is going to be a little garbled. I found some videos on imdb today and one of them was from the 2006 AFI Awards. I'd seen this footage before and settled in to enjoy it again. It's funny and sweet and I was laughing and smiling. It was five minutes in before I realized there was a tear in my eye as well. The point being that this is how it happens so often, for me anyway. It just sort of sneaks up on you, even in those moments that you're just enjoying the memory or celebrating his spirit. And it's not a big display, and it doesn't ruin the moment. I think it's just an indication that you cared about him and your body has the instinct to still feel those things and express them even when you're not consciuosly aware of it. I don't know if that made any sense. It's just the thought that popped into my head when I noticed it. Then the rest of the video was a little more bittersweet so the tear fit right into the tone. This it the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wYrn6tOhN0)
Then I watched the next video that was posted and now my little tear turned into a big puddle. It is beautiful and heartbreaking. I'd recommend tissues. I'm sorry if it hurts, but I couldn't not share it. :ghug: to all. Thanks for listening to me ramble.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE)
Thank you so much for this Barb. I laughed with the first one. When Heath kissed her I was totally melted away!! What a sweet tender man!! Then just thinking about it I started to cry, and it was when I saw the second one...and well, no words for it.... :\'( :\'( :\'( I saw there the most beautiful smile ever, those eyes full of infinite love and I felt so miserable, because he could be by our side right now, doing a lot of precious things, just living....but no, no..
Not rambling... I know what you mean, about the body-feelings, that whatever else is in your head, the tear comes anyway, as it is right now. God, what a sad, sad loss. I just love Heath, body, mind and spirit. Love the way he moves, I love his laugh, I even love that little cough.
kathy
You got me in tears Kathy. That's gorgeous and I share the feeling.
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Kathy and Tammy: :ghug: And to whoever feels Heath's loss as something theirs.
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Then I watched the next video that was posted and now my little tear turned into a big puddle. It is beautiful and heartbreaking. I'd recommend tissues. I'm sorry if it hurts, but I couldn't not share it. :ghug: to all. Thanks for listening to me ramble.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE)
I just watched these. I laughed during the AFI one again and this last one got me good. :\'( Great choice of song too. It's that whole mix of being glad to have had him and then realizing that this is all we have. :\'(
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Selfish angels,
why?
a thousand years
your blink,
our
tens and tens of lifetimes
each
measured by forever,
lived a minute
you just couldn't wait?
I hope our tears
stain your wings,
salt the crystal sea,
our painful cry
echo beyond celestial music.
Selfish angels,
why?
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Aww Jessi, you did it again. It's just beautiful. :\'( :ghug:
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Aww Jessi, you did it again. It's just beautiful. :\'( :ghug:
Thank you. Trying to get through all the trailors, trying not to think about it. Impossible but so much of life just moves on fast. A blink. I didadd the r to you though, lol.
I don't post often but you guys are often on my heart.
jessi
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Thank you. Trying to get through all the trailors, trying not to think about it. Impossible but so much of life just moves on fast. A blink. I didadd the r to you though, lol.
I don't post often but you guys are often on my heart.
jessi
And you and your beautiful poems in ours... ^f^
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I just got this in my email and thought i'd share. Apparently George Carlin (may he RIP) wrote this right after his wife died.
A Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?
George Carlin
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Selfish angels,
why?
a thousand years
your blink,
our
tens and tens of lifetimes
each
measured by forever,
lived a minute
you just couldn't wait?
I hope our tears
stain your wings,
salt the crystal sea,
our painful cry
echo beyond celestial music.
Selfish angels,
why?
I love this, Jess. It gave me goosebumps. Thank you so much.
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Touching Shoulders
There's a comforting thought at the close of the day,
When I'm weary and lonely and sad,
That sort of grips hold of my aching sore heart
It bids it be merry and glad.
It gets in my soul and it drives out the blues,
And finally thrills through and through.
It is just a sweet memory that chants the refrain:
"I'm glad I touched shoulders with you!"
Did you know you were brave, did you know you were strong?
Did you know there was one leaning hard?
Did you know that I waited and listened and prayed,
And was cheered by your simplest word?
Did you know what I longed for that smile on your face,
For the sound of your voice ringing true?
Did you know I grew stronger and better because
I had merely touched shoulders with you?
I am glad that I live, that I battle and strive
For the place that I know I must fill;
I am thankful for sorrows, I'll meet with a grin
What fortunes may send, good or ill.
I may have great wealth, I may not be brave.
But I know I shall always be true,
For I have in my life that courage you gave
When once I rubbed shoulders with you.
-Unknown-
Today I miss him more than ever.
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Tammy,is wonderful¡ ^f^ One of the many wonderful poems and thoughts for the most wonderful person. :\'(
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Yes Tammy, it's wonderful and hits me on so many levels. :\'( <^(
Especially:
Did you know you were brave, did you know you were strong?
Did you know there was one leaning hard?
Did you know that I waited and listened and prayed,
And was cheered by your simplest word?
Did you know what I longed for that smile on your face,
For the sound of your voice ringing true?
Did you know I grew stronger and better because
I had merely touched shoulders with you?
It's so hard for me to express sometimes all the ways my feelings about Heath converge with my feelings about all of you, and the changes that have occurred in my life since what he and Jake (and Ang and Annie) did. The pieces of me that were reopened by BBM, and revitalized and healed by knowing you, are profoundly grateful for what he and Jake did (and the gracious way they did it) and how that touched me. Two years later, I really feel that I did grow stronger and better because I had merely touched shoulders with you, and in some extended way, with him. And for that, I am more thankful than you, or he, will ever know.
%) friends. Truly. And Heath too. And I don't give a damn anymore if people don't understand that.
Sorry, I'm very tired right now. But I meant every word. :ghug:
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There's already a long time since I don't give a damn for what people thinks...So,Barb :ghug: %)
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Thanks sweetie. :^^)
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Yes Tammy, it's wonderful and hits me on so many levels. :\'( <^(
Especially:
Did you know you were brave, did you know you were strong?
Did you know there was one leaning hard?
Did you know that I waited and listened and prayed,
And was cheered by your simplest word?
Did you know what I longed for that smile on your face,
For the sound of your voice ringing true?
Did you know I grew stronger and better because
I had merely touched shoulders with you?
It's so hard for me to express sometimes all the ways my feelings about Heath converge with my feelings about all of you, and the changes that have occurred in my life since what he and Jake (and Ang and Annie) did. The pieces of me that were reopened by BBM, and revitalized and healed by knowing you, are profoundly grateful for what he and Jake did (and the gracious way they did it) and how that touched me. Two years later, I really feel that I did grow stronger and better because I had merely touched shoulders with you, and in some extended way, with him. And for that, I am more thankful than you, or he, will ever know.
%) friends. Truly. And Heath too. And I don't give a damn anymore if people don't understand that.
Sorry, I'm very tired right now. But I meant every word. :ghug:
Gracias, amiga Tammy. Thanks so much, Barb. You both chose words that mean so much, resonate so clearly what I feel. And yes, Barb, I've reached a place where it matters not what anyone else think or say. It is a special place where I know I share with many of you, filled with love and gratitude and friendship.
:ghug: :^^) <^(
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I just got this in my email and thought i'd share. Apparently George Carlin (may he RIP) wrote this right after his wife died.
A Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?
George Carlin
Thanks for posting this maggie, ^f^ it's so true and accurate.
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Selfish angels,
why?
a thousand years
your blink,
our
tens and tens of lifetimes
each
measured by forever,
lived a minute
you just couldn't wait?
I hope our tears
stain your wings,
salt the crystal sea,
our painful cry
echo beyond celestial music.
Selfish angels,
why?
God that is so sad, yet so beautiful, Jessi :ghug:
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Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
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I loved the whole thing, Maggie but especially this line- hugs convey so much without a word and we've all shared hugs here across the miles. :ghug:
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Yes Tammy, it's wonderful and hits me on so many levels. :\'( <^(
Especially:
Did you know you were brave, did you know you were strong?
Did you know there was one leaning hard?
Did you know that I waited and listened and prayed,
And was cheered by your simplest word?
Did you know what I longed for that smile on your face,
For the sound of your voice ringing true?
Did you know I grew stronger and better because
I had merely touched shoulders with you?
It's so hard for me to express sometimes all the ways my feelings about Heath converge with my feelings about all of you, and the changes that have occurred in my life since what he and Jake (and Ang and Annie) did. The pieces of me that were reopened by BBM, and revitalized and healed by knowing you, are profoundly grateful for what he and Jake did (and the gracious way they did it) and how that touched me. Two years later, I really feel that I did grow stronger and better because I had merely touched shoulders with you, and in some extended way, with him. And for that, I am more thankful than you, or he, will ever know.
%) friends. Truly. And Heath too. And I don't give a damn anymore if people don't understand that.
Sorry, I'm very tired right now. But I meant every word. :ghug:
I will just have to ditto this entirely because in reading it I felt the same way. :\'( We all walk our separate paths and then suddenly they converge and we're touching shoulders; some will walk with us for only a little while; some much longer and none of those moments are forgotten but rather kept safely in the heart where each path has it's own unique rhythm. :ghug: and thank you everyone for not only touching shoulders but for giving them as well.
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And I couldn't help but wonder did he know he was brave? Did he think he was strong? Did he realize how many people leaned on the lessons he helped us to learn? Could he ever know that we were cheered by his simplest word, that smile, and the sound of his voice?
Well I'm sure he knows it now. And I feel proud to be a part of this community, especially now when I find myself among people who are willing to stand up and say "He meant something to me and I will miss him."
And LJN, you really said that well:
"We all walk our separate paths and then suddenly they converge and we're touching shoulders; some will walk with us for only a little while; some much longer and none of those moments are forgotten but rather kept safely in the heart where each path has it's own unique rhythm. :ghug: and thank you everyone for not only touching shoulders but for giving them as well."
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Thank you, FlwrChild and LJN, for putting this into such beautiful words. It's something like a web, I think, how we are all connected, and what connects us -- the story created by the actors, authors, movie-makers. But mostly I love thinking of us touching shoulders, as you said, for a little while or a long time, and I also really treasure this. This has been a most special time of my life, that's for sure. Because of all of you. And both Heath's life, and his passing, have been a major part of this.
kathy
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My friends and I do not just weep.
It’s not only a somber vigil that we keep.
We celebrate our memories
And share our smiles and tears.
We honor one we care about
And will throughout the years.
And on the days it hurts too much,
We always know we’ll find
A shoulder to lean on,
An ear to listen,
A loving and open mind.
A heart full of love is not a bad thing
And friends who will share that
Are a wonderful blessing.
So thank you my friends
for the gift of your love,
and telling me here I have nothing to prove.
It’s so nice in these times to not be alone.
I cherish you all, and this beautiful home. :ghug:
I've stayed away from this thread for a while now, because I just felt like I had to try to stop thinking about it, but I was drawn here this morning for some reason and I've just read through the last few pages. I hate that so many of you are still hurting so much, but this poem touched me most of all, because it reminds us to celebrate not only Heath, but what we found here because of him (and Jake, Ang and Annie, of course). Beautiful :ghug:
Thanks, too, for the video clips, Barb - I've just watched the AFI one and that's the way I'll always remember him, I think. That beautiful smile, his laugh, and his uneasiness at things like award shows :)
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I've stayed away from here for the last week, and have just gone through the last few pages. Thank you to everyone for the poems, the videos, the words and for being yourselves and for this this place. :ghug:
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And I couldn't help but wonder did he know he was brave? Did he think he was strong? Did he realize how many people leaned on the lessons he helped us to learn? Could he ever know that we were cheered by his simplest word, that smile, and the sound of his voice?
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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I just can't stand this anymore.
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I just can't stand this anymore.
:ghug: :ghug:
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I just can't stand this anymore.
Keren :ghug:
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I just can't stand this anymore.
Keren,be strong; he wouldn't like you to be so... :ghug: :^^)
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Very nice poems everyone!! :) I bet Heath would love them... :)
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I agree I love all these poems especially the one by the late great George Carlin :\'( but it helps knowing that Heath Ledger was just a flat out good man and that anybody who came in contact with him from 10 years to 10 minutes never could find a bad word to say about him that especially is what I'd love his lil daughter to know
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I just can't stand this anymore.
I know, Keren, but we're here for you.....:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I agree I love all these poems especially the one by the late great George Carlin :\'( but it helps knowing that Heath Ledger was just a flat out good man and that anybody who came in contact with him from 10 years to 10 minutes never could find a bad word to say about him that especially is what I'd love his lil daughter to know
I so agree, he was a good man and touched all he met. A flat out good man. Those who met him never said a bad word about him. He cared. He was good; he was a genius; he was a daddy; he was a friend; he was very young; he is a legend.
jessi
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I so agree, he was a good man and touched all he met. A flat out good man. Those who met him never said a bad word about him. He cared. He was good; he was a genius; he was a daddy; he was a friend; he was very young; he is a legend.
jessi
Oh, this is beautiful. This is why we love him so much, why everyone loved him so much...
Thank you for your words, both of you, sportstalk and jessi.
kathy
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Uhhh, just saw a commercial on E! Next Friday, a week from today, they are having a E! True Hollywood Story on Heath. Honestly, I can't believe they held out for a whole 5 1/2 months, I guess they were likely waiting for TDK release time.
The episode is going to be impossible to watch...but even more impossible not to watch I guess.
This is crazy...this was suppossed to be such a happy time, I couldn't wait for July. Oh my God.
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Uhhh, just saw a commercial on E! Next Friday, a week from today, they are having a E! True Hollywood Story on Heath. Honestly, I can't believe they held out for a whole 5 1/2 months, I guess they were likely waiting for TDK release time.
The episode is going to be impossible to watch...but even more impossible not to watch I guess.
This is crazy...this was suppossed to be such a happy time, I couldn't wait for July. Oh my God.
oh geez not a E True Hollywood Story I wonder how their going to potray this and who did they get for interviews typical they wait til his movie comes out I just hope its not a hatchet job on him
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Uhhh, just saw a commercial on E! Next Friday, a week from today, they are having a E! True Hollywood Story on Heath. Honestly, I can't believe they held out for a whole 5 1/2 months, I guess they were likely waiting for TDK release time.
The episode is going to be impossible to watch...but even more impossible not to watch I guess.
This is crazy...this was suppossed to be such a happy time, I couldn't wait for July. Oh my God.
Oh thank god that I have that channel! I'm so going to watch it and record it. I just hope that they wont say any bad things about him...he deserve so much more, but they usually don't on these kind of things, or at least not on the ones I have seen.
I'm sure its going to be hard to watch, but I do it for him :)
I miss you beautiful angel :\'( <^(
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:ghug: all.
You know the timing is intentional. But, like Jess, I can't not watch it. They better do him justice. ^^)
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The commercials seemed in his favor...It said stuff like, he was so gifted, he loved his daughter more than anything, and he would have acheived so much more, and that the idea of possible suicide was crazy.
It will be interesting to see if it talks about the negative and sometimes offensive media attention that occured...especially when one of the major offenders was the E! staion itself. Thay still are on E! news and Daily10, but the E! THS seemed like it would be a positive, more in honor of his talent sort of program...I hope.
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its nice they are doing a tribute thing about his life... but seriously if they mention any negative stories and suggest them as true happening ill be sending an angry email there been far too mcuh of that already...
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its nice they are doing a tribute thing about his life... but seriously if they mention any negative stories and suggest them as true happening ill be sending an angry email there been far too mcuh of that already...
I'm with you on that, they better not do anything like that ^^)
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Jess, I'm glad to hear it seems like they're going to do a tribute rather than a hatchet job. Thanks for the heads up.
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I'm with you on that, they better not do anything like that ^^)
:t) Jess for lettin us know and Emzan and Matt move over cuz if it looks like TMZ im bringing a serious beatdown ^^) ^^)
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:t) Jess for lettin us know and Emzan and Matt move over cuz if it looks like TMZ im bringing a serious beatdown ^^) ^^)
Hmm, but nothing TMZ does is good so...and I think that E! is so much better.
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I just can't stand this anymore.
:ghug: Just try to remmeber all the good times and happiness Heath brought into your life. And remember you're not alone, we all have times like you are at the moment. July is going to be tough for us all with all The Dark Knight promotion. :(
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I finally saw the promos for Heath Ledger E True Hollywood Story and all I can say is it was like a kick in the gut again :\'( but it appears they may do him justice especially the part where his death affected the industry and his talent
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I finally saw the promos for Heath Ledger E True Hollywood Story and all I can say is it was like a kick in the gut again :\'( but it appears they may do him justice especially the part where his death affected the industry and his talent
at least are doing him jsutice, i still bet its a hard watch :\'(
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I finally saw the promos for Heath Ledger E True Hollywood Story and all I can say is it was like a kick in the gut again :\'( but it appears they may do him justice especially the part where his death affected the industry and his talent
I saw a promo for it too and I was crying :\'( Its going to be really hard to watch...
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We have E channel in Israel but it seems like they're behind... I checked on the internet and the only true Hollywood stories they're gonna show this Friday are about The Hilton Sisters and Anna Nicole Smith. I guess you all are going to record it so I can probably get it through one of you... but damn, it's gonna be a hard one to watch. Maybe I should just avoid it... but I know I can't.
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We have E channel in Israel but it seems like they're behind... I checked on the internet and the only true Hollywood stories they're gonna show this Friday are about The Hilton Sisters and Anna Nicole Smith. I guess you all are going to record it so I can probably get it through one of you... but damn, it's gonna be a hard one to watch. Maybe I should just avoid it... but I know I can't.
I know its going to be really hard to watch and I was thinking about avoid it, but I just cant...
I'm going to record it so if you want I can send it to you or something :)
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especially when they talk of his childhood because thats were we realize again heath was just 28 and he had so much more to offer this world not just as an actor
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especially when they talk of his childhood because thats were we realize again heath was just 28 and he had so much more to offer this world not just as an actor
He was just 28...This is not the way it should be, he still had a long life to live, why did he have to go away? This is just so wrong :\'( :\'(
I miss you sweet angel :\'(
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I am a person who finds it unacceptable when a young person dies famous or not its not a natural order rather it be accident, murder, illness, whatever I felt the same way when it was the singer AAliayah, Brandon Lee, John F.Kennedy Jr., Tupac, Biggie Smalls and they all died within the last 12 years and you know what I still feel the lost because each of them had something to bring to music,movies and politics that is sorely needed right now and it will be no different in 10, 20, 30 years when I look back and see Heath Ledger's name added to this sad list they say time heals all wounds I'm not sure about that anymore
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I don't think the hurt ever goes away; it just becomes incorporated with the rest of who you are, and you carry it with you along with all of the wonderful memories that gave you a reason to hurt when you lost that person. And all of the lessons you learned, or the things you felt, help shape who you are for the rest of your life. Do I wish it were different? Oh God yes. Do I wish it didn't hurt? Of course. Would I have missed this ride, and feeling the things I feel about him, for anything in the world? Not a chance. He's worth the pain. And having all of you in my life makes it all that much more worth it. :ghug:
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I am a person who finds it unacceptable when a young person dies famous or not its not a natural order rather it be accident, murder, illness, whatever I felt the same way when it was the singer AAliayah, Brandon Lee, John F.Kennedy Jr., Tupac, Biggie Smalls and they all died within the last 12 years and you know what I still feel the lost because each of them had something to bring to music,movies and politics that is sorely needed right now and it will be no different in 10, 20, 30 years when I look back and see Heath Ledger's name added to this sad list they say time heals all wounds I'm not sure about that anymore
I'm not so sure about that either...
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I don't think the hurt ever goes away; it just becomes incorporated with the rest of who you are, and you carry it with you along with all of the wonderful memories that gave you a reason to hurt when you lost that person. And all of the lessons you learned, or the things you felt, help shape who you are for the rest of your life. Do I wish it were different? Oh God yes. Do I wish it didn't hurt? Of course. Would I have missed this ride, and feeling the things I feel about him, for anything in the world? Not a chance. He's worth the pain. And having all of you in my life makes it all that much more worth it. :ghug:
i couldnt agree more :)
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I don't think the hurt ever goes away; it just becomes incorporated with the rest of who you are, and you carry it with you along with all of the wonderful memories that gave you a reason to hurt when you lost that person. And all of the lessons you learned, or the things you felt, help shape who you are for the rest of your life. Do I wish it were different? Oh God yes. Do I wish it didn't hurt? Of course. Would I have missed this ride, and feeling the things I feel about him, for anything in the world? Not a chance. He's worth the pain. And having all of you in my life makes it all that much more worth it. :ghug:
He is worth the pain. If I didnt feel anything about his death then I would start to get worried. Even if I wasnt a big fan of him a long time before he died I'm going to love him forever...
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I am not looking forward to seeing the E true hollywood story of our boy
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I am a person who finds it unacceptable when a young person dies famous or not its not a natural order rather it be accident, murder, illness, whatever I felt the same way when it was the singer AAliayah, Brandon Lee, John F.Kennedy Jr., Tupac, Biggie Smalls and they all died within the last 12 years and you know what I still feel the lost because each of them had something to bring to music,movies and politics that is sorely needed right now and it will be no different in 10, 20, 30 years when I look back and see Heath Ledger's name added to this sad list they say time heals all wounds I'm not sure about that anymore
I know what you mean, I remember being shocked when Aaliyah died, I hadn't had any idea who she was for most of her short career, I knew her name and songs, but nothing of her, then MTV aired "Diary of Aaliyah" and she seemed so sweet, so did her hairdresser(who was also killed)...I remember the episode ending with her saying something about God, and how he's blessed her, and she is so lucky. She died 1 week after the episode aired. I never even would have known who she was.
It's still so unreal that Heath has been added to that list of lost too soon...I had been so numb after his death, then the first time I remember it seeming real was a couple days later the news was talking about River Phoenix and Anna Nicole Smith, and then they said, "And now we add Heath Ledger to that list". I had been crying for days and yet it was like, wait a minute, you can't put him on that list. It made it too real.
It still doesn't seem real always, sometimes I think I'm fine, then I see something like the commercial for the E! THS and they even mention the word death, and show his picture, and it's still like...what are doing, he can't really be dead; that's crazy.
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i know what you mean jess, it sometimes feels so surreal...
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I know what you mean, I remember being shocked when Aaliyah died, I hadn't had any idea who she was for most of her short career, I knew her name and songs, but nothing of her, then MTV aired "Diary of Aaliyah" and she seemed so sweet, so did her hairdresser(who was also killed)...I remember the episode ending with her saying something about God, and how he's blessed her, and she is so lucky. She died 1 week after the episode aired. I never even would have known who she was.
It's still so unreal that Heath has been added to that list of lost too soon...I had been so numb after his death, then the first time I remember it seeming real was a couple days later the news was talking about River Phoenix and Anna Nicole Smith, and then they said, "And now we add Heath Ledger to that list". I had been crying for days and yet it was like, wait a minute, you can't put him on that list. It made it too real.
It still doesn't seem real always, sometimes I think I'm fine, then I see something like the commercial for the E! THS and they even mention the word death, and show his picture, and it's still like...what are doing, he can't really be dead; that's crazy.
you know what jess I saw that episode when it aired and the day after she died they showed it again and my sister said OMG isnt some of the people in that Diary were with her on the plane? 2 people featured was AAliyah hairdresser as you said and her makeup artist who was killed as well and her birthday is Jan 16 and me and my friends never forget that day to have Heath's death 6 days after that was just too much just hearing the term "the late Heath Ledger" doesnt seem right and it never will be and just thinking that I looked forward to seeing him as an older man how his acting would further progress and now to think him playing an older Ennis Del Mar would be all we get of and older Heath Ledger and then I see people with talent like Amy Winehouse who is throwing away her life and career makes me angry when Heath just wanted some rest and wound up paying for it with his life not of this will ever make sense
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He is worth the pain. If I didnt feel anything about his death then I would start to get worried. Even if I wasnt a big fan of him a long time before he died I'm going to love him forever...
I couldn't agree more, Emelie! He is, and will forever be in my heart..
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I just looked at the earlier post and I was actually wondering when they would put a E! Hollywood Story about Heath. I know when Anna Nicole Smith died that they had done one as well. Of course, not knowing much about Anna Nicole, I wasn't as fazed, though I felt deeply for her little girl. But now, to go and watch the story, the history, and the tragic loss of a man that we, as fans of his work, have come to love so deeply, it is going to be SO hard. Earlier in the year they had a 30 min. segment I believe on Heath and that was even hard to watch...I could just imagine what this would to me.. :\'(
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that show was basically a timeline of what happened to Heath from what he was working on til death and the reaction of it by the industry this one looks to be more in depth but still hard to watch :-\\
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It's still hard for me to believe and realize he's not in this world anymore. His death was so sudden and tragic. I loved Heath, he was such a wonderful actor. He would have only gotten better with age and it pains me to know he will never be able to show us that.
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I'm sorry for the deaths of those young people, so many more, so many, yet the loss doesn't take my breath, make my gut feel much like Ennis in that alley, haunt me. He was incredibly special.
jessi
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I don't think the hurt ever goes away; it just becomes incorporated with the rest of who you are, and you carry it with you along with all of the wonderful memories that gave you a reason to hurt when you lost that person. And all of the lessons you learned, or the things you felt, help shape who you are for the rest of your life. Do I wish it were different? Oh God yes. Do I wish it didn't hurt? Of course. Would I have missed this ride, and feeling the things I feel about him, for anything in the world? Not a chance. He's worth the pain. And having all of you in my life makes it all that much more worth it. :ghug:
OMG, such beautiful words, as usual, FC. Having had a number of losses of people in my life, I've had plenty of opportunites to "incorporate" those people into my life. You said it so well. Everything that they were, everything they were to us personally -- including the pain of their deaths -- we continue to carry with us, and it makes us all the more dimensional. Also, maybe when Heath was here, he carried himself by himself, but now, he has a million people carrying him forward inside them.
kathy
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It's still hard for me to believe and realize he's not in this world anymore. His death was so sudden and tragic. I loved Heath, he was such a wonderful actor. He would have only gotten better with age and it pains me to know he will never be able to show us that.
That's what I mourn so much also -- I wanted to see him (and want to see Jake also) as they get older. People say "forever young" like it's a good thing, but it's a privilege to get older -- that's what I would have liked to have seen for Heath...
kathy
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That's what I mourn so much also -- I wanted to see him (and want to see Jake also) as they get older. People say "forever young" like it's a good thing, but it's a privilege to get older -- that's what I would have liked to have seen for Heath...
kathy
I completely agree,Kathy.We all would have liked to see him as he was getting older,to proving how much his skills as an actor and his feelings as a person had got better with the years.If we say "forever young" is because we'll see him forever as young and beautiful,beyond of good and bad,without being hit by life's troubles anymore.But,of course,getting older is a privilege; it's a natural part of life.And it's unfair that Heath won't have this privilege for himself...
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I know its going to be really hard to watch and I was thinking about avoid it, but I just cant...
I'm going to record it so if you want I can send it to you or something :)
Thanks Emelie.
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It's still so unreal that Heath has been added to that list of lost too soon...I had been so numb after his death, then the first time I remember it seeming real was a couple days later the news was talking about River Phoenix and Anna Nicole Smith, and then they said, "And now we add Heath Ledger to that list". I had been crying for days and yet it was like, wait a minute, you can't put him on that list. It made it too real.
It still doesn't seem real always, sometimes I think I'm fine, then I see something like the commercial for the E! THS and they even mention the word death, and show his picture, and it's still like...what are doing, he can't really be dead; that's crazy.
I still feel like that too. I still can't accept it. I often ask myself, why him? Why him of all people? Of all people, why did it have to be Heath, this one person who is so amazing and beautiful and talented and special and that I loved so much. I can never accept that.
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I still feel like that too. I still can't accept it. I often ask myself, why him? Why him of all people? Of all people, why did it have to be Heath, this one person who is so amazing and beautiful and talented and special and that I loved so much. I can never accept that.
Keren,this phase of not acceptation is more or less longer,depending of each person;in feelings case,there's no magical recipes nor concretes times to overcoming or not something.This is not a relief,but sometimes I also think that it can't be true,that somebody has lied about and stuff...But I guess that sooner or later,we'll accept it,that doesn't mean forget nor don't matter,but learn to living with this reality.Until that moment, :ghug:
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My sister died in a blink, freak accident, in 1985. I knew my loss, knew she was gone, saw the body but have never in my head got over with it can't be real, it can't be real, I'll wake and call her, hear her voice and she'll laugh at how creepy my dream was. I visited her grave in Ala. two weeks ago, made myself graphically remember that is where her body, NO not her spirit, but her body was and still it can't be real. That is being haunted, and Heath will haunt my heart till I die, then my spirit will kick his spirit butt and tell him how much he has been missed and loved. My sister too, for she died in a car accident caused by a violent storm and tornado and she had no business in that damn car. I am haunted by a few losses and very bad choices.
jessi
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I still feel like that too. I still can't accept it. I often ask myself, why him? Why him of all people? Of all people, why did it have to be Heath, this one person who is so amazing and beautiful and talented and special and that I loved so much. I can never accept that.
i feel the same way sometimes, then I feel selfish, like I'm focusing on what the loss of him means to me, not to him and the people truly in his life.
But it does start to feel like why him of all people, I remember literally fearing he might die, it's something that always gets in my head when I really like an actor because I had loved one so much before, then lost him...that fear and hesitation is just always there somewhere.
Then I remember I'd think, stop it Jess, how many young actors really die...or OD...what are the chances in the thousands of famous people out there, it's going to be your favorite entertainer again.
I guess the chances were pretty f'n strong.
But again, not about me...selfish, selfish selfish
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i feel the same way sometimes, then I feel selfish, like I'm focusing on what the loss of him means to me, not to him and the people truly in his life.
But it does start to feel like why him of all people, I remember literally fearing he might die, it's something that always gets in my head when I really like an actor because I had loved one so much before, then lost him...that fear and hesitation is just always there somewhere.
Then I remember I'd think, stop it Jess, how many young actors really die...or OD...what are the chances in the thousands of famous people out there, it's going to be your favorite entertainer again.
I guess the chances were pretty f'n strong.
But again, not about me...selfish, selfish selfish
thats not selfish at all. slefish would be trying to get all the attention as if only yoy were affected by it do as far as i can ee you are not ebing even slightly selfish :). i know what you mean about your fears, after heath i get similar and i cant talk about them cos it makes me feel so damn awful that i even think about it...
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I am haunted by a few losses and very bad choices.
jessi
Oh Jessi :ghug:
That's awful, no I wouldn't suppose that's something you could ever accept. Your words are haunting :\'(
It just reinforces to me how much this affects those that really knew Heath, yet I'm very fascinated by the fact that you feel his death haunts you also.
Sometimes nothing makes sense...except how much I care for you all :^^)
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Oh Jessi :ghug:
That's awful, no I wouldn't suppose that's something you could ever accept. Your words are haunting :\'(
It just reinforces to me how much this affects those that really knew Heath, yet I'm very fascinated by the fact that you feel his death haunts you also.
Sometimes nothing makes sense...except how much I care for you all :^^)
Jessica and Jessi :ghug: :^^)
They say death is a part of life,but ;why,then,won't we ever get used to it?
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Jessica and Jessi :ghug: :^^)
They say death is a part of life,but ;why,then,won't we ever get used to it?
Thats a very good question. And I dont have a good answer for it, I guess that some things you are just not ment to get used to or understand and thats why it hurts so much...
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Jessica and Jessi :ghug: :^^)
They say death is a part of life,but ;why,then,won't we ever get used to it?
I have an older friend, and I'm in upper, way way upper, lol, 50s who debates with me about death being natural. It is in nature and part of living so I guess he's right, maybe. Death is wrong though, our spirits know that; getting old is too, and our spirits know that too, but dying young is an abomation and children and someone as incredible as heath, no words.
jessi
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I have an older friend, and I'm in upper, way way upper, lol, 50s who debates with me about death being natural. It is in nature and part of living so I guess he's right, maybe. Death is wrong though, our spirits know that; getting old is too, and our spirits know that too, but dying young is an abomation and children and someone as incredible as heath, no words.
jessi
Yes,it`s true,but also,unfortunately,dying being young or a child is also part of living.Since there're so many illness and other problems we can't have a solution for,for example.It's so unfair,but,have we said that life is completely fair?.
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life is unfair but i beleive death is a better place...
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life is unfair but i beleive death is a better place...
It depends on who.But we can't think about this now,but living our life the best we can.Future will arrive someday,as the song says...
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Yes,it`s true,but also,unfortunately,dying being young or a child is also part of living.Since there're so many illness and other problems we can't have a solution for,for example.It's so unfair,but,have we said that life is completely fair?.
Unfair is always very difficult for me, but it is more common, from what i've seen, than fairness. It is what it is, as annie said, all I can do is let it be and stand it. But it is still, feels to me, very wrong.
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Unfair is always very difficult for me, but it is more common, from what i've seen, than fairness. It is what it is, as annie said, all I can do is let it be and stand it. But it is still, feels to me, very wrong.
I know,I know...And you can't learn how to stand it in any school... :-\\
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...Having had a number of losses of people in my life, I've had plenty of opportunites to "incorporate" those people into my life. You said it so well. Everything that they were, everything they were to us personally -- including the pain of their deaths -- we continue to carry with us, and it makes us all the more dimensional. Also, maybe when Heath was here, he carried himself by himself, but now, he has a million people carrying him forward inside them.
kathy
Kathy, that's just beautiful. :ghug:
My sister died in a blink, freak accident, in 1985. I knew my loss, knew she was gone, saw the body but have never in my head got over with it can't be real, it can't be real, I'll wake and call her, hear her voice and she'll laugh at how creepy my dream was. I visited her grave in Ala. two weeks ago, made myself graphically remember that is where her body, NO not her spirit, but her body was and still it can't be real. That is being haunted, and Heath will haunt my heart till I die, then my spirit will kick his spirit butt and tell him how much he has been missed and loved. My sister too, for she died in a car accident caused by a violent storm and tornado and she had no business in that damn car. I am haunted by a few losses and very bad choices.
jessi
jessi, as usual you have expressed yourself beautifully. I'm so sorry for your losses. :ghug:
Sometimes nothing makes sense...except how much I care for you all :^^)
I couldn't have said it better Jess. I continue to be incredibly moved by the posts I read here, both for what they say about Heath and for what they say about our community. To me, both are the very best of the best. ^f^
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Jessi :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I still feel like that too. I still can't accept it. I often ask myself, why him? Why him of all people? Of all people, why did it have to be Heath, this one person who is so amazing and beautiful and talented and special and that I loved so much. I can never accept that.
Me, too, Keren. That "why him" is such a haunting and frustrating and unanswerable question. But yes, out of all the people in the world, why him??
kathy
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My sister died in a blink, freak accident, in 1985. I knew my loss, knew she was gone, saw the body but have never in my head got over with it can't be real, it can't be real, I'll wake and call her, hear her voice and she'll laugh at how creepy my dream was. I visited her grave in Ala. two weeks ago, made myself graphically remember that is where her body, NO not her spirit, but her body was and still it can't be real. That is being haunted, and Heath will haunt my heart till I die, then my spirit will kick his spirit butt and tell him how much he has been missed and loved. My sister too, for she died in a car accident caused by a violent storm and tornado and she had no business in that damn car. I am haunted by a few losses and very bad choices.
jessi
You have my sympathy, jessi. (My sister died in 1984, at 38.) We love when people live till a ripe old age and then die -- that's not tragic at all. But people who die too young, and by accident -- that is just one of the things about this life whether we understand it or not.
kathy
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You have my sympathy, jessi. (My sister died in 1984, at 38.) We love when people live till a ripe old age and then die -- that's not tragic at all. But people who die too young, and by accident -- that is just one of the things about this life whether we understand it or not.
kathy
My sister was a week from her 40th birthday. I think if we live to be 110, it's still not near long enough. To day young is universal insanity, whatever the big picture's scheme of things at his worst. The older I get the more all these things that are part of life looks. I begine to understand how Samuel Clemens and others I've read about, older people I know, how they can begin to become bitter. Truth is it is what it is and all we can do is is the best we can do, and often being with others as we are makes all the difference.
jessi
jessi
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What can I say but :ghug: ?
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Hi friends. ^f^
I'm not feeling very well these last days; I'm feeling so very down, but I just want to share some things with you.
Before Rajel died I got the Heath's tattoo in my right wrist. It's the heart Heath drew before his death. It's not exactly the same because the pic was not very clear, but I love it the same because it reminds me of our sweet boy. It's still healing but I hope that in a few days I'm gonna be able to post a pic here (if Marj helps me..).
Do you know Ted? Well, he's an amazing talented wonderful guy who writes BBM shots and one fic, pure poetry, powerful and precious, straight to the heart. He won an auction not long time ago, and the prize was a lunch with Jake G. at the set of the movie he was filming then. He spent a marvelous day with Jake. Ted is gonna post the complete inform of that day in his journal today or tomorrow, and he told me that it's gonna be a huge one, with a lot of pages. He's gonna post the link to his journal here at Ennisjack so everyone can read the wonderful things Jake said to him.
I asked Ted if I could say this to all of you and he said that Rosie and I could do it, so here I am. Jake told Ted that he could asked him whatever he wanted, he could asked him about everything, and well Ted asked about Heath...... :\'( :\'( :\'( I don't know what Ted asked and I don't know what Jake replied (I have to wait a few hours more to know it, like everyone) but Ted told to my friend Steffi that when he asked him about Heath, Jake started to cry..... Oh God, Jake started to cry..... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I was so very moved when I learned about that, and I cried my eyes out so bad. That's unbearably heartbreaking...
I asked if I could say it here because I wanted every brokie to know that we all were right the whole time. Jake loved his friend so so much and he was deeply shattered when Heath died.
I was terribly angry when some people said over LJ that Jake didn't love Heath, and now I feel better because that people are gonna have to shut their mouths now.
I wanted to share this with you to try to get your attention to Ted's inform, because I think it's gonna be utterly beautiful, even if that is gonna hurt like hell.
Also Jake knew about the Oxford brokie gathering.
Well, that's all. Thank you so much. ^f^
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thanks for sharing tammy
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Thanks for sharing with us this wonderful but so sad history,Tammy; I looking forward to read it,although I know that my state of mind these last days isn't the most suitable... :\'( I've never doubted that Jake and Heath were good friends,and that now he's so devastated as we're for Heath and for Rajel.People speaks too much,but hardly never they stop and think things over. ^f^
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i feel so bad for jake, for my baby to cry when people said he didnt care.
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Thank you Tammy for telling us about that ^f^
But just to think that Jake started to cry makes me cry too :\'( :\'( He really cared about Heath and I have never thought anything else, I don't understand what the people who said that he didn't was thinking!
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Thanks for sharing it with us Tammy. I don't know what to say... this is beyond sad for me. I've heard about Ted's meet with Jake, and I've been planning to read his report, but now I kinda feel like I'm invading Jake's privacy by doing that... because the way it sounds, that was an extremely personal moment. And also, I had no doubt that Jake was grieving over Heath, but somehow to actually read that he was crying when asked about him... that just makes it worse.
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thank you for sharing tammy and I hope you will come through fine what ticks me off is when Heath and Michelle named jake godfather to their baby daughter that is not something you just do for somebody that you worked with and hungout with a lil bit and so for people that make comments and I see alot of them on youtube especially with the heath and jake mvids "well they werent that close", or "you dont need to be best friends to name someone godparent to your child", or "it was a friendship based on promoting the movie" or "if they were so close why hasnt Jake said anything" when I hear stuff like that I wanna throw something like a punch ^^) grief is a very traumatic thing that compels people differently Cristian Bale feels compelled by his grief to share memories of Heath publicly, Shannon Sassoman from a Knights Tale will be speaking about him on the E True Hollywood Story saw her in the promo, someone like Jake has chosen not to everybody knows the movie Moonlight Mile is loosely based on the I believe the Director's girlfriend Rebecca Shafer being shot to death or her door step by a psycho fan I remember that well I was 11 and really liked her and her show My Sister Sam I too had high hopes for her as well I believe she was 20 or 21 but the lady who played her sister on the show Pam Dauber was so devastated by her death that she has never spoke of it to the press even to this day that was 20 years ago but there is no doubt for a second how Pam loved Rebecca just like I've never doubted for a second the sincerity of how close Heath and Jake are it was very natural as both come from family's of sisters Heath had 3 Jake has Maggie so it wouldnt surprised me that 2 guys of the same age from close families would gravitate towards each other like brothers and frankly Heath and Michelle couldnt have picked a better person as a godfather for that precious child again thank you tammy for giving this insight and your in my thoughts too even though I'm new on the board the soap board I'm on recently had a beloved member pass away weeks ago
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I think that some people has confused the fact of being or not friends by having made a movie together-they had not need of being the best friends;it's very usual to finish promotion time and say goodbye because nothing else joins them...-.And the fact that Jake has been very criticised for not having said a word about Heath,neither when he died nor in the following weeks or,even,months-and,as they opine,he must-.You already know that some very ugly things have been said about him,things that didn't matter because they have nothing to do with this tragedy...And even the main criticism insinuated that he hadn't even gone to any of the tributes and ceremonies they have done for his (then) pretended friend. ???
IMO,Jake didn't have to say anything about anybody if he didn't want to,not only because it's a part of his intimity;but also because I think he didn't make public his feelings for not following with this certain "ambiguity" that someone wanted to apply to their relationship.Making some gay roles in a movie could have marked them in their future performances,and it did somehow,according to some people's mind...So,I guess he preferred ,very wisely, not to give "wings" to these hints and gossips with something so special and private.As regards to not having gone to any ceremony in Heath's honour; how can they know he hasn't gone anywhere?,what do this people can know about the private life of a famous person?.And above all; how can some people be so narrow-minded and naughty?.
Knowing that Jake has cried thinking about Heath makes another "turn of the nut"in my grief,that these last days is more latent and that this news has just increased. :\'(
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I'm so very sorry for making you all sad, friends. :-\\ :-\\ Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.....
I just wanted to share that with you because in a weird way I felt that I was not alone here when I learned about Jake's reaction. Well, I've never felt alone here with all of you and I know my sadness is the same as yours. We all loved Heath so so much. But knowing that Jake cried made me felt that my tears were all right, that it still hurts, that the love we felt for him was real, is real, and that no matter how happy we seem to be, Jake seems to be, because Heath is deep down inside our hearts and just hearing his name make us feel intensely sad and at the same time extremely grateful for feeling the sweet joy of being touched by his work and life. Maybe this makes no sense at all. These are just my feelings now I'm down.
Keren, hon, now I feel so bad. I know that maybe I'm invading Jake's privacy by reading Ted's inform... but Ted told Jake about us, about all the brokies here and at DC forum and at Bettermost forum, and all over the world; he even told Jake about Oxford, so I think that Jake knew for sure that Ted was gonna tell us about what they said to each other. That was Jake who said to Ted that he could ask whatever he wanted, and knowing that Ted was a brokie, loving Ennis and Heath, I think that Jake could suspect at some point that some question about Heath could be there...; but he was so kind and generous to let Ted has his way...Maybe Jake understood that brokies are not like Media, that we don't judge, we are not looking for gossips, that we are tolerant understanding people, that we simply loved Heath.
Anyway, I'm really sorry if I hurt someone here..Matt, Keren, Ali, Emelie and Sportstalk. :ghug:
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I'm so very sorry for making you all sad, friends. :-\\ :-\\ Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.....
I just wanted to share that with you because in a weird way I felt that I was not alone here when I learned about Jake's reaction. Well, I've never felt alone here with all of you and I know my sadness is the same as yours. We all loved Heath so so much. But knowing that Jake cried made me felt that my tears were all right, that it still hurts, that the love we felt for him was real, is real, and that no matter how happy we seem to be, Jake seems to be, because Heath is deep down inside our hearts and just hearing his name make us feel intensely sad and at the same time extremely grateful for feeling the sweet joy of being touched by his work and life. Maybe this makes no sense at all. These are just my feelings now I'm down.
Keren, hon, now I feel so bad. I know that maybe I'm invading Jake's privacy by reading Ted's inform... but Ted told Jake about us, about all the brokies here and at DC forum and at Bettermost forum, and all over the world; he even told Jake about Oxford, so I think that Jake knew for sure that Ted was gonna tell us about what they said to each other. That was Jake who said to Ted that he could ask whatever he wanted, and knowing that Ted was a brokie, loving Ennis and Heath, I think that Jake could suspect at some point that some question about Heath could be there...; but he was so kind and generous to let Ted has his way...Maybe Jake understood that brokies are not like Media, that we don't judge, we are not looking for gossips, that we are tolerant understanding people, that we simply loved Heath.
Anyway, I'm really sorry if I hurt someone here..Matt, Keren, Ali, Emelie and Sportstalk. :ghug:
no need to worry tammy :ghug: i am not saddened at this news all it did was confirm what all of us brokies and fans of heath and jake know is that we didnt need a media statement to know their friendship was the real deal and that jake is kind enough to open that part of himself to is fans says if he never makes a statement or does so in the future it wont alter my opinion of him as a person which is a pretty standup guy
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Tammy, you shouldn't apologise, you didn't hurt anyone... and you're right, Jake probably knew that Ted would tell his friends about their conversation, and he still told him he could ask anything. And I would've read it all in Ted's report even if you hadn't said anything. it's just so heartbreaking to think how much Jake misses Heath and how much his death affected him.
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I know that fiction shouldn't be mixed up with reality, and I assure you all that I can make this separation. But I can't help but thinking about Heath and Jake and Michelle and how their lives were affected by BBM.
In the movie, Ennis married Alma and they had two daughters, and then they got divorced. In reality Heath and Michelle fell in love and had a daughter together, and then they broke up. In the movie Ennis and Jack became lovers and then Jack died, and Ennis has been left behind, crying over him. Jake and Heath weren't lovers, they were just good friends, good enough for Heath to ask Jake to be his daughter's godfather... but in reality it was Heath who died a tragic death. And it is Jake who's been left behind and he's crying over his friend. No, it's not the same, but I can't ignore the parallels.
Ennis's tears in the trailer at the end of the movie devestate me every time, it breaks my heart. Jake's tears apparently have the same effect.
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I just read your post Tammy and I just don't know what to say. I had no idea about this man who got to meet Jake in person, being a Brokie himself. But the words you said about Ted and Jake, and their meet as finally the part when Ted asked about Heath's death, just makes this tragedy even more real. I had no doubt in my mind that Jake and Heath cared about each other and found friendship through Brokeback. I hated when people critized Jake for not giving Heath the time of day after his death. We don't know what goes on behind closed doors and to now hear about Jake's tears, that his pain is still present, as are ours, makes me lost for words..Thank you Tammy for your post :\'(
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I'm so very sorry for making you all sad, friends. :-\\ :-\\ Maybe I shouldn't have said anything.....
I just wanted to share that with you because in a weird way I felt that I was not alone here when I learned about Jake's reaction. Well, I've never felt alone here with all of you and I know my sadness is the same as yours. We all loved Heath so so much. But knowing that Jake cried made me felt that my tears were all right, that it still hurts, that the love we felt for him was real, is real, and that no matter how happy we seem to be, Jake seems to be, because Heath is deep down inside our hearts and just hearing his name make us feel intensely sad and at the same time extremely grateful for feeling the sweet joy of being touched by his work and life. Maybe this makes no sense at all. These are just my feelings now I'm down.
Keren, hon, now I feel so bad. I know that maybe I'm invading Jake's privacy by reading Ted's inform... but Ted told Jake about us, about all the brokies here and at DC forum and at Bettermost forum, and all over the world; he even told Jake about Oxford, so I think that Jake knew for sure that Ted was gonna tell us about what they said to each other. That was Jake who said to Ted that he could ask whatever he wanted, and knowing that Ted was a brokie, loving Ennis and Heath, I think that Jake could suspect at some point that some question about Heath could be there...; but he was so kind and generous to let Ted has his way...Maybe Jake understood that brokies are not like Media, that we don't judge, we are not looking for gossips, that we are tolerant understanding people, that we simply loved Heath.
Anyway, I'm really sorry if I hurt someone here..Matt, Keren, Ali, Emelie and Sportstalk. :ghug:
Tammy,please,don't think neither you've hurt someone nor you shouldn't have said anything; our tears by knowing Jake's ones would have been the same when we'd known them for other ways.Because there're always here,with us,waiting for the minimum phrase,gesture or act to come to the surface.You've thought in all of us to share your friend's happinnes by having a great time with Jake,but also his and your sadness by seeing him,or knowing that he has cried for his,and our,friend.There's nothing to be sorry in it,all the contrary;in my case-that's what I can speak about...-I only said that I'm very "soft" these days for what you already know.And,of course,thinking about another good friend who has lost his loved person as we have lost ours too,was another reason for feeling sadder.But,what doesn't make me cry these days?.Don't worry,little darlin'. ^f^
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I know that fiction shouldn't be mixed up with reality, and I assure you all that I can make this separation. But I can't help but thinking about Heath and Jake and Michelle and how their lives were affected by BBM.
In the movie, Ennis married Alma and they had two daughters, and then they got divorced. In reality Heath and Michelle fell in love and had a daughter together, and then they broke up. In the movie Ennis and Jack became lovers and then Jack died, and Ennis has been left behind, crying over him. Jake and Heath weren't lovers, they were just good friends, good enough for Heath to ask Jake to be his daughter's godfather... but in reality it was Heath who died a tragic death. And it is Jake who's been left behind and he's crying over his friend. No, it's not the same, but I can't ignore the parallels.
Ennis's tears in the trailer at the end of the movie devestate me every time, it breaks my heart. Jake's tears apparently have the same effect.
I know what you mean,Keren; some of us talked about this in the first days after Heath's passing.About how strange life is and how it can look like fiction;about the contradiction of being alive who has played the role who died in the movie,and being dead in real life who remained alive in it...Yes,Ennis tears have devastated us and will do in the future,they seem so real¡; but Jake's ones devastate us more still,because THEY'RE real indeed. :\'(
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Tammy, maybe you're getting tired of hearing this, but I'm going to say it anyway, you didn't hurt anyone by telling us. Even if I was sad reading it, I felt this weird feeling of being happy, not because Jake was crying, but because he was showing his real emotions about how he was really feeling about Heaths death. I have never doubt that he wasn't devastated over his death because we know that Jake and Heath created something special with BBM and thats the reason we're all here right now.
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My sister was a week from her 40th birthday. I think if we live to be 110, it's still not near long enough. To day young is universal insanity, whatever the big picture's scheme of things at his worst. The older I get the more all these things that are part of life looks. I begine to understand how Samuel Clemens and others I've read about, older people I know, how they can begin to become bitter. Truth is it is what it is and all we can do is is the best we can do, and often being with others as we are makes all the difference.
jessi
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To quote Jack Twist: "There ain't ever enough time"
However, long we live, we have a tendency to get lazy and adopt do it tomorrow attitude. But life's too short whether we live to 28 or 82 or over a 100.
We'll never understand why any young person is taken way before their time and when we lose an older loved one we still ask if only I'd had one more chance, one more drink etc. But the world's a mysterious place & to not have that mystery would make our lives unnecessary.
Best thing we can do is make the most of every second (as Heath did in my opinion) & love those around us.
Hopefully, what awaits us after this life is a little more relaxing.
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Well put Hayley. :)
And Tammy, as everyone said, no harm was done. All of our memories and anecdotes have a bittersweet tint to them, but that's just part of the package for us now. :ghug:
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To quote Jack Twist: "There ain't ever enough time"
However, long we live, we have a tendency to get lazy and adopt do it tomorrow attitude. But life's too short whether we live to 28 or 82 or over a 100.
We'll never understand why any young person is taken way before their time and when we lose an older loved one we still ask if only I'd had one more chance, one more drink etc. But the world's a mysterious place & to not have that mystery would make our lives unnecessary.
Best thing we can do is make the most of every second (as Heath did in my opinion) & love those around us.
Hopefully, what awaits us after this life is a little more relaxing.
I love this, what I bolded, Hayley, and everything you said here. Good thing life is a mystery, because the unknown will always keep beckoning us, and this is good.
Just a bit more of my personal story: my mother died too young (58), and I am now older than she ever got to be, so that makes me treasure every day all the more...
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Well put Hayley. :)
And Tammy, as everyone said, no harm was done. All of our memories and anecdotes have a bittersweet tint to them, but that's just part of the package for us now. :ghug:
Bittersweet, yes. That's how I like my chocolate, too! Seriously, the poignancy of life is one of its beauties. Poignancy contains a touch of sadness... Something that can make you cry but is so beautiful nonetheless.
kathy
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It sure is Kathy. ^f^
:ghug: for your mother.
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It sure is Kathy. ^f^
:ghug: for your mother.
Thank you...
kathy
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I love how everyone share their thoughts in here, it really shows Heath the respect, that he truly deserves.
Time has passed, and I still can't freaking believe, that he's gone. I am probably never going to understand, why this had to happen. Heath was an extraordinary actor, he was truly unique and inspirering. Of course, I didn't knew him in person. But in the shows he was in, interviews with him and stuff like that - I really got the feeling, that he was really smart, but yet shy in some way. He was not like other actors, he knew what he was doing. it's hard to describe, but to me he really was like no other actor in the world. It is so unfair, that he is not here anymore - There is no doubt about, that he'll always be remembered.
10 things I hate about you was on TV last night - It is one of my favorite movies, and I just lost control and started crying. It's freaking unfair, that I now have a hard time enjoying Heaths amazing work, because it reminds me of his death and makes me cry like crazy. I'm never going to stop watching his movies though.
And Brokeback mountain is the best movie, I have ever seen in my entire life. It has taught me a lot about love and life. It's an amazing movie for him to be remembered by. And it's for sure, that he always will be remembered. And he'll always live through his daughter, family and those, who were close to him.
Heath, hope you have a sky up there to hold on too. :\'(
BTW, ~) - I don't speak English that well, I'm from Europe. Hope it's not completely wrong. Just really wanted to join and share some thoughts about this talented, amazing guy. Cause he deserves all the thoughts in the world.
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:ghug: on your mother, Kathy
Welcome in Brokeback adoration. Your english is fine and big hugs to you. :ghug:
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Heath, hope you have a sky up there to hold on too. :\'(
What a lovely but heartbreaking sentiment.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
I loved your post brokeback adoration, and understood exactly what you were trying to say, your english is fantastic... :)
Welcome to the forum... #$#
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my god, you guys are so great :) Thank you so much.
It's amazing to realize how many people there is out there, who finds a big interest in this amazing movie and the great actors involved, just like I do. I just registered today and have already read TONS of inspirering posts. This seems like a really great forum. :)
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my god, you guys are so great :) Thank you so much.
It's amazing to realize how many people there is out there, who finds a big interest in this amazing movie and the great actors involved, just like I do. I just registered today and have already read TONS of inspirering posts. This seems like a really great forum. :)
it really is a great forum :).
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Welcome,Brokeback adoration¡ Yes,your English is just fine and the feelings you show for Heath too¡. ^f^ Yes,BBM is a great movie that teaches a lot about what is love and how to live our own life;I think that everybody here can easily say that he or she is another person somehow after watching it. And it's Heath's greatest performance,a heartbreaking and magnificient one; it's such a pity that he won't give us more roles as Ennis,but we must be happy to have been able to enjoy it.I think we must do it,just for him. :ghug:
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So tonight its the E! True Hollywood Story about Heath and I don't kow what I was thinking. If it starts 9pm in America, of course it doesn't start 9pm here too, just wondering if anyone know what time it will be on in Europe, or even better, in Sweden ;) My guess is 3am, so I just have to stay up until then...I'm not going to miss this. I saw the commercial on E-online and I had tears in my eyes just watching that...Its going to be so hard :\'(
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So tonight its the E! True Hollywood Story about Heath and I don't kow what I was thinking. If it starts 9pm in America, of course it doesn't start 9pm here too, just wondering if anyone know what time it will be on in Europe, or even better, in Sweden ;) My guess is 3am, so I just have to stay up until then...I'm not going to miss this. I saw the commercial on E-online and I had tears in my eyes just watching that...Its going to be so hard :\'(
Thank you Emelie for telling me, I'm definatly going to make sure I watch it. I haven't seen the commerical for it but I know its going to be difficult tonight. :\'( :\'(
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Thank you Emelie for telling me, I'm definatly going to make sure I watch it. I haven't seen the commerical for it but I know its going to be difficult tonight. :\'( :\'(
Ugh, the commercials are worse than the show itself. They had a short half hour episode on E! months ago, and though I'd get sad a bit during it, I was more preoccupied with listening to what they were explaining. I'm sure this will be similar. The commercials though, are just haunting music and images of him with a few heartbreaking words like, death and gone and daughter, so it's like watching a fan memorial video. :\'(
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Ugh, the commercials are worse than the show itself. They had a short half hour episode on E! months ago, and though I'd get sad a bit during it, I was more preoccupied with listening to what they were explaining. I'm sure this will be similar. The commercials though, are just haunting music and images of him with a few heartbreaking words like, death and gone and daughter, so it's like watching a fan memorial video. :\'(
I know, it was so sad watching that commercial :\'(
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Please,does anyone know where can I watch the show? Even if it will be hard... :\'(
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Please,does anyone know where can I watch the show? Even if it will be hard... :\'(
I think only on E!
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I think only on E!
yes it will be on E since its one of their original programs which is the True Hollywood Story and they did real nice ones on Will Smith, Charlize Thoran, and Nicole Kidman non were tabloid-ish at all so it looks like they will do right by Heath it's almost 8:30 pm in this country sp im preppin myself
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E! News just showed pieces of the THS they're airing tonight and it showed that Verne Troyer is one of the people they interviewed, that makes me feel better about whether they will do Heath's memory justice, Verne has said nothing but honorable things so far. I really respect him as a person, and he seems to genuinely care for Heath. I wonder if he'll talk about the tattoo.
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i just saw it and they focused alot about the love Heath had for his craft of acting and how he was uncomfortable about the superstar celebrity label and how he wanted nothing to do with the teen idol labels as well and how he got into acting in australia it was several people from his country that spoke and american friends that were directors and casting people but it wasnt gossipy they didnt get into why he split with Michelle but that it was tough on him and not seeing the baby everyday but that he had a positive outlook on life and would he would have enjoyed his last time at home, Verne Troyer part didnt mention the tattoos and they didnt mention how close Heath and Jake were, about his death was just a replay of what we already knew the people interviewd said that the media wanted his death to be something other than the accident it was just to sell their stories and is aussie friend remarked her thoughts went to baby Matilda growing up without a father
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Hi friends. ^f^
I'm not feeling very well these last days; I'm feeling so very down, but I just want to share some things with you.
Before Rajel died I got the Heath's tattoo in my right wrist. It's the heart Heath drew before his death. It's not exactly the same because the pic was not very clear, but I love it the same because it reminds me of our sweet boy. It's still healing but I hope that in a few days I'm gonna be able to post a pic here (if Marj helps me..).
Do you know Ted? Well, he's an amazing talented wonderful guy who writes BBM shots and one fic, pure poetry, powerful and precious, straight to the heart. He won an auction not long time ago, and the prize was a lunch with Jake G. at the set of the movie he was filming then. He spent a marvelous day with Jake. Ted is gonna post the complete inform of that day in his journal today or tomorrow, and he told me that it's gonna be a huge one, with a lot of pages. He's gonna post the link to his journal here at Ennisjack so everyone can read the wonderful things Jake said to him.
I asked Ted if I could say this to all of you and he said that Rosie and I could do it, so here I am. Jake told Ted that he could asked him whatever he wanted, he could asked him about everything, and well Ted asked about Heath...... :\'( :\'( :\'( I don't know what Ted asked and I don't know what Jake replied (I have to wait a few hours more to know it, like everyone) but Ted told to my friend Steffi that when he asked him about Heath, Jake started to cry..... Oh God, Jake started to cry..... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( I was so very moved when I learned about that, and I cried my eyes out so bad. That's unbearably heartbreaking...
I asked if I could say it here because I wanted every brokie to know that we all were right the whole time. Jake loved his friend so so much and he was deeply shattered when Heath died.
I was terribly angry when some people said over LJ that Jake didn't love Heath, and now I feel better because that people are gonna have to shut their mouths now.
I wanted to share this with you to try to get your attention to Ted's inform, because I think it's gonna be utterly beautiful, even if that is gonna hurt like hell.
Also Jake knew about the Oxford brokie gathering.
Well, that's all. Thank you so much. ^f^
Hi folks in this thread,
For those that don't know me, I am the Ted that Tammy is referring to in this post, I really felt I needed to come in and make a comment here. Something has been completely misunderstand and secondly transmitted incorrectly. I want to make it clear that Jake did not start crying when we discussed Heath, this did not happen. I am a bit confused with how Steffi has come up with this, I know she is German and English is not her first language but I think this has been taken way out of context. As some of your are aware, myself and Lisa who came with me to this visit are going to be posting very shortly about the visit, infact a story about it, we have shared a lot of details but some stuff unfortunately has been kept private and I would think most people would understand the need for that.
I am not upset at all about what has happened but I don't want people out there saying something that hasn't happened, as what Tammy said hasn't happened - Jake did not start crying and this is not a detail that we are keeping private, it just didn't happen. Lisa and I had an agreement that we would not discuss any of the details of the visit to anyone before the post, in Oxford I gave general type responses to questions and also let people know what we talked about in general terms, and yes we talked about Heath, and more than once, anyone who is interested in what we wish to share is welcome to read the post, but I would like to ask that maybe people double check before saying things. I know things can be misconstrued and misunderstood and be taken out of context, so as I said I am not angry but please be careful with how you repeat what you hear.
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Hi Ted. :)
Thank you for coming in and clarifying that for us. I knew when I heard that you were the one who had gone to the lunch and would be posting about it (I hadn't realized that before) that we would get an honest and accurate account of your experience. I really appreciate your keeping the facts straight so that we don't inadvertantly spread wrong information. Can't wait to read your post. Thank you for sharing it with everyone. :^^)
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Thanks Ted, I've been checking your live journal daily, can't wait to read it :^^)
Just a weird side note to everyone, I went to click on the thread and for some reason it took me to page 1, and it was scrolled to Michelle and Lis' posts, and for a second I thought something bad had happened again, they were saying I can't believe this is happening, I'm in shock, I can't stop shaking..
I'm feeling a little weird and shaky right now, especially after watching the E! THS, but to see that when checking the thread....Uh, it just took me right back...it was like, oh God, is Jake ok, I can't do this again...sorry, just freaked out a sec, I'm ok now. Well I feel sick, But I'm used to that now... I'm fine.
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:ghug: Jess that would have freaked me out too.
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Me too Jess. :ghug:
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:t) for the clarification Ted cant wait to read where can i see your post?
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Hi folks in this thread,
For those that don't know me, I am the Ted that Tammy is referring to in this post, I really felt I needed to come in and make a comment here. Something has been completely misunderstand and secondly transmitted incorrectly. I want to make it clear that Jake did not start crying when we discussed Heath, this did not happen. I am a bit confused with how Steffi has come up with this, I know she is German and English is not her first language but I think this has been taken way out of context. As some of your are aware, myself and Lisa who came with me to this visit are going to be posting very shortly about the visit, infact a story about it, we have shared a lot of details but some stuff unfortunately has been kept private and I would think most people would understand the need for that.
I am not upset at all about what has happened but I don't want people out there saying something that hasn't happened, as what Tammy said hasn't happened - Jake did not start crying and this is not a detail that we are keeping private, it just didn't happen. Lisa and I had an agreement that we would not discuss any of the details of the visit to anyone before the post, in Oxford I gave general type responses to questions and also let people know what we talked about in general terms, and yes we talked about Heath, and more than once, anyone who is interested in what we wish to share is welcome to read the post, but I would like to ask that maybe people double check before saying things. I know things can be misconstrued and misunderstood and be taken out of context, so as I said I am not angry but please be careful with how you repeat what you hear.
I'm so so so so sorry Ted; please, believe me, I'm so very sorry. You know I didn't wanted to say a lie, I'm not that kind of person, and that, saying a lie, had been a stupid thing because I said all brokies here to read your report and if I had known that that information about Jake was a lie, then I had not said that, because everyone was gonna read your report and see that that information was not real...
I should had been in silence, but I was so so moved with Steffi words about Jake, that it was why I asked you permission to talk about it here, but I see now that you didn't know what I wanted to talk about...I really thought that that was true and my heart was broken...and I just needed to share that with all brokies here. It's my fault, I know it well.
Ted, Steffi told me that in a mail, but as you well said, English is not her first language; she can read it and write it just like me, but she can't speak English well....and I suppose that, like me, can't understand it well either when someone talk to her....Sorry so much for that. It's not her fault. We both were so moved....I know she was moved there....that we understand things in the wrong way. Steffi talked to me a lot about you, about how wonderful you are and about your visit to Jake; I think she was confused, you know she's marvelous, nothing bad she wanted to do on purpose. Nothing bad I wanted to do on purpose. We'd never never never tell a lie here; there are so many people suffering here to tell such a lie. We believed that that was true, and I was deeply shocked about Jake's news.
I'm so very sorry Ted, really ashamed, because I've made a lot of people cry here without a reason. I know this is like a sucker punch for you. Till now, till this very moment, I thought that what I said here was true, and you are right, I should double check before saying things. My fault again.
Thank you so much for your explanation, and for taking the time to write here. This will never happen again, I promise.
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Tammy, everybody on this forum knows what a sweet and honest person you are, and I don't think that anyone here would believe even for a minute that you would give false information on purpose. You are the last person who would want to hurt anyone, we know that. This was just an honest misunderstanding because of the language barrier, it can happen to anyone.
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Just a weird side note to everyone, I went to click on the thread and for some reason it took me to page 1, and it was scrolled to Michelle and Lis' posts, and for a second I thought something bad had happened again, they were saying I can't believe this is happening, I'm in shock, I can't stop shaking..
I'm feeling a little weird and shaky right now, especially after watching the E! THS, but to see that when checking the thread....Uh, it just took me right back...it was like, oh God, is Jake ok, I can't do this again...sorry, just freaked out a sec, I'm ok now. Well I feel sick, But I'm used to that now... I'm fine.
Oh Jess, I would've been freaked out too. :ghug:
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Thank you so much, Keren. You don't know how much your words mean to me, because I feel terribly sad and guilty and ashamed now, and I can't stop crying my eyes out. I can't stand the idea of having done something very bad to Ted and to all of you.
I just want to hide in a hole and never go out again....
I'm so very sorry.
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Tammy, don't worry about it, it was just a missunderstanding, no one is angry at you. It don't know you really well but I know you would never lie to us or makes us sad. :)
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I just want to hide in a hole and never go out again....
I'm so very sorry.
Tammy, keren and Emelie are totally right! There is no reason for anyone of us to be angry with you; what you wrote was with the best intentions and it just came out there was a misunderstanding. That is no problem!
Please come out of your hole, don't know if you have an internet access there and we would very very much miss your beautiful posts.
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Tammy, keren and Emelie are totally right! There is no reason for anyone of us to be angry with you; what you wrote was with the best intentions and it just came out there was a misunderstanding. That is no problem!
Please come out of your hole, don't know if you have an internet access there and we would very very much miss your beautiful posts.
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This is adorable. :*(
And they're right Tammy. No worries. We're all one big family, we're all in this together, and we all understand this was a simple mistake. Come on, let's all wait for Ted's post together. :ghug:
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Dear Tammy - just wanted to say, you did absolutely nothing wrong. If anything, this Ted fellow will have a much higher readership when he does post his story, and that's to the good. As for being silly - that word does not ever apply to you. Lively, yes. Silly, no.
If it's any consolation, I've gotten information wrong - we all have. I had warned two friends that Vogue magazine might be doing a hit job on Heath and that never happened. And I had early news of the E! Entertainment special and warned it could go very bad, as they were secretive, in Australia. And that proved wrong. So, not to worry - in fact, what you wrote was only what you had been told, and no harm was done.
Jessicat - that spooky computer jump - - - phew, straight out of the X files. But that probably happened to the right person as some of the rest of us might have been whacked out, and you were very level-headed.
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:t) for the clarification Ted cant wait to read where can i see your post?
Hi, it will be posted to my livejournal - dontwanttosaygb.livejournal.com, I will make posts to various thread when the post is up, which should be today folks...it is looking good now...
Cheers, Ted
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Thank you so much, Keren. You don't know how much your words mean to me, because I feel terribly sad and guilty and ashamed now, and I can't stop crying my eyes out. I can't stand the idea of having done something very bad to Ted and to all of you.
I just want to hide in a hole and never go out again....
I'm so very sorry.
Hi Tammy,
I am not in the least bit mad, I was a bit more upset that something that never happened was being said and I don't think that is fair to Jake, to imply something happened when it never did.
You will all, or whoever is interested, get to read all about this very shortly, and you can then all be your own judges on what happened. Our document has very little interpretation of Jake, just the facts, our thoughts and feelings are commented on because they are ours, I think it is only a few times when we try to interpret what Jake is doing or meaning, but everyone can be their own judge.
All I can say is that Jake is a great guy, most things said about him are wrong, and well you can be you're own judge...
But I am not mad, so you don't need to crawl in a hole or anything, but I would ask that if anyone sees or hears this rumour being spread anywhere else please nip it in the bud, because it didn't happen and I don't think it is fair to Jake to let people believe it did.
Cheers, Ted
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Jessicat - that spooky computer jump - - - phew, straight out of the X files. But that probably happened to the right person as some of the rest of us might have been whacked out, and you were very level-headed.
Thanks for the vote of confidence Tony :)
It definitely was an interesting 20 seconds. Maybe it's good though...to be reminded how far we've come.
And my dear brokie sister Tammy, I do not believe there is one person here that is even slightly upset with you. Do not let this simple mistake make you question for a second sharing your thoughts and feelings with us here. I've told you before, when I was alone and came back to this site, your's were some of the most important posts in this thread to me.It was like you took that empty hollow place inside me that was hurting so bad, and filled it with understanding, and I was no longer alone; so it affects me extra hard when I know you are hurting about something, it makes me want to ease that pain for you, like your wonderful presence here has done for so many others. Cheer up, stay strong, and don't forget your way home; we'll be here when you need us :^^)
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Ted are you a friend of Jake's? If not, i'm very surprised he would talk with fans about Heath, he didn't even speak publicly about him. :-\\ I really expect him to speak when the promotional tour for his movie begins. I know he'll just say the best about Heath, like everyone else who spoke. Heath was very respected and liked by many people not only family and friends also co-stars.
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Ted, I read about your and Lisa's meeting with Jake. I apologize I didn't know what it was about in my previous post. I enjoyed reading your report. Thank you! :)
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:\'( Having just joined the forum, I have been wiped out by the sentiments I have been able to see, both in the numbers and content. Its almost six months later and the pain still is the same. I thank everyone for sharing their sentiments.
I have only read this in one other place and have been surprised to not see it mentioned again. In the last scenes, when Ennis finds his shirt inside Jack's (in Jack's closet), with Jack's shirt holding his, I lost it. Then later in the last scene in the trailer when you see the shirts reversed, with Ennis' shirt on the outside holding Jack, I lost it again. Both scenes were so touching, and I read that the changing of the shirts was Heath's idea, not Ang Lee. Sometimes it is still hard to separate Heath from Ennis. RIP Heath, you will be in our hearts and memories for such a long time to come.
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:\'( Having just joined the forum, I have been wiped out by the sentiments I have been able to see, both in the numbers and content. Its almost six months later and the pain still is the same. I thank everyone for sharing their sentiments.
I have only read this in one other place and have been surprised to not see it mentioned again. In the last scenes, when Ennis finds his shirt inside Jack's (in Jack's closet), with Jack's shirt holding his, I lost it. Then later in the last scene in the trailer when you see the shirts reversed, with Ennis' shirt on the outside holding Jack, I lost it again. Both scenes were so touching, and I read that the changing of the shirts was Heath's idea, not Ang Lee. Sometimes it is still hard to separate Heath from Ennis. RIP Heath, you will be in our hearts and memories for such a long time to come.
Weclome elgrandodickie
Lovely post.
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Welcome rlh03. :^^) You've definitely come to the right place.
And yes, that was Heath's idea to do and just another indication of how well he understood the character of Ennis Del Mar. They will both be in our hearts forever. :ghug:
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What she said! :)
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. . . And yes, that was Heath's idea to do and just another indication of how well he understood the character of Ennis Del Mar.
And he knew he understood it, which (I feel) gave him confidence to put his entire soul into Ennis. Diana Ossana has been quoted saying that Heath excitedly told her: "I think you're going to like what I did with the last scene." It was a surprise to her when he opened the closet. She knew then he could see into Ennis's soul. (Sorry for bein' OT.)
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It's not OT jackster. That was beautifully said. :ghug:
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It's not OT jackster. That was beautifully said. :ghug:
I fully agree,Barb :clap: .Jackster,it's not only "In topic" but a wonderful way to get to know Heath a little better; to know how deeply he entered into Ennis skin to understand his inner struggle with himself mainly.To know his responsability before everything he did,as an actor and as a person.The same than knowing how Jake behave with Ted and Lisa,with these little details we can understand better why we loved him and will love him so much... <^(
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I don't know if this new book has been discussed anywhere on the forum, but I just found it yesterday at Border's Book Store and was blown away. It is truly a beautiful tribute to Heath. Title: Heath Ledger, Holywood's Dark Star, written by Brian J. Robb. It is an oversized paperback with many beautiful pictures of Heath, many from his movies. The narrative is excellent. Each page contains one or two quotes from Heath himself -- true insights into his mind and soul. I haven't finished reading it yet, but the first half is a wonderful explanation of everything Heath -- his childhood, where he came from, his family, how he got involved in the art of acting, etc. I can't imagine but the second half will be as good. I will mention this on the book thread, also, but I know lots of people who frequent this thread would be interested in this book. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It is amazing to me that such a well-done effort has hit the bookstores so soon after Heath's passing. Robb did a hell of a job synthesizing (sp?) Heath's life.
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Thank you so much for this Alice. ^f^ I really want to read that book, and look at all those pics. <^( <^(
I think this is wonderful!!
But I don't know if I can buy it here in Spain.... :-\\ :-\\ :-\\
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Dear Baby Tammy - How about Amazon.com? Or the other internet book stores?
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Oh, thank you so much, friend!!! :^^) I didn't think about Amazon!! %&) Now, I'm gonna try to find it there!!
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I don't know if this new book has been discussed anywhere on the forum, but I just found it yesterday at Border's Book Store and was blown away. It is truly a beautiful tribute to Heath. Title: Heath Ledger, Holywood's Dark Star, written by Brian J. Robb. It is an oversized paperback with many beautiful pictures of Heath, many from his movies. The narrative is excellent. Each page contains one or two quotes from Heath himself -- true insights into his mind and soul. I haven't finished reading it yet, but the first half is a wonderful explanation of everything Heath -- his childhood, where he came from, his family, how he got involved in the art of acting, etc. I can't imagine but the second half will be as good. I will mention this on the book thread, also, but I know lots of people who frequent this thread would be interested in this book. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It is amazing to me that such a well-done effort has hit the bookstores so soon after Heath's passing. Robb did a hell of a job synthesizing (sp?) Heath's life.
I didn't find it on Amazon... :-\\
Links are not permitted here but if anyone finds it somewhere where you can order it online, please pm me.
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The book to which I refer above is published in London by Plexus and the ISBN number is: 13-978-0-85965-427-2. It cost $19.95 at Border's. 12.99 in UK. The author is a New York Times best-selling author who wrote Johnny Depp: A Modern Rebel and The Leonardo diCaprio Album. So, I suppose he specializes in popular actors????? All I can surmise is that he has done a pile of research for this book --- mostly in the form of interviews, I imagine, since little has actually been written before with this depth about Heath -- at least to my knowledge. Good luck in finding it. PM me if you need help, Tammy.
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It's still three days before his six-month anniversary, and I am at the point where Heath is surreal, a legend that has lived forever and will live forever in his movies. I watched A Knight's Tale again, and the first part of Brokeback Mountain (before the FNIT), and surprisingly few tears came. While watching the movie, Heath is still alive, and vibrant and real. It is only afterwards, out of the blue, reading tributes to his movies, and thinking about something he quoted, that sadness descends like a fog over a noisy city, and the silence speaks loudly of the impact of the man whom I've never met, but will forever love.
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I understand how you feel,Andrew...For me now is also as if Heath was surreal indeed,like somebody who is living through his films;is as if I saw the character,or at the most,the actor.Is when I read about tributes working fellows or friends are doing in his memory when the man appears in all his magnitude...He's not Ennis,or Jacob Grimm,or the priest in "The Order";he's the good friend,the person infinitely perfectionist in all he did,the father of a lovely baby,the fellow whom all his coworkers will remember,
the friend my friend at distance...But I know watching TDK will be hard for me,because he won't be then The Joker;he will be Heath in my eyes again.As you say,I didn't know him,but I'll always love him... <^( :\'(
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:ghug: friends.
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Tomorrow is the 22nd. Tuesday again. six months exactly. :\'(
Heath, we're still here, thinking about you. Every day.
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I know....I've been thinking about it all day. 6 months exactly... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren :ghug: :ghug:
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Tomorrow is the 22nd. Tuesday again. six months exactly. :\'(
Heath, we're still here, thinking about you. Every day.
Yes,Tuesday again and six months exactly... :\'( Damn,Heath¡ Six months without you...Keren :ghug: :ghug:
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[SIX MONTHS WITHOUT YOU ALREADY;SIX MONTHS KNOWING THAT THERE'S A STAR THAT SHINES MORE THAN THE OTHERS.AND WE KNOW THAT YOU'RE THIS STAR,BECAUSE YOU'VE BEEN CALLED TO HEAVEN SO THAT THE ANGELS ENJOY YOUR SKILLS.BUT SINCE THEN WE NEED THEM AND MISS THEM HERE...
HEATH,WE SWEAR...
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Beautiful tribute, Ali. :^^)
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Beautiful tribute, Ali. :^^)
I doubly second that. :ghug: :ghug: :^^) :^^)
Beautiful words, and beautiful image for a beautiful life that was lived to the fullest.
Gracias, amiga. :ghug:
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entertainment tonight did a nice feature on the evolution of Heath as an actor and how those roles brought him to the Joker, they will have a followup on it tomorrow but 6 months huh seems like just yesterday :-\\
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Beautiful Ali :ghug:
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It's still three days before his six-month anniversary, and I am at the point where Heath is surreal, a legend that has lived forever and will live forever in his movies. I watched A Knight's Tale again, and the first part of Brokeback Mountain (before the FNIT), and surprisingly few tears came. While watching the movie, Heath is still alive, and vibrant and real. It is only afterwards, out of the blue, reading tributes to his movies, and thinking about something he quoted, that sadness descends like a fog over a noisy city, and the silence speaks loudly of the impact of the man whom I've never met, but will forever love.
OMG ! Your words are so beautiful, they touch me deeply in the heart and...They make me cry :\'( :\'( :\'(
:^^) (You whrite like a poet dear Andrew ^f^)
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I don't know if this new book has been discussed anywhere on the forum, but I just found it yesterday at Border's Book Store and was blown away. It is truly a beautiful tribute to Heath. Title: Heath Ledger, Holywood's Dark Star, written by Brian J. Robb. It is an oversized paperback with many beautiful pictures of Heath, many from his movies. The narrative is excellent. Each page contains one or two quotes from Heath himself -- true insights into his mind and soul. I haven't finished reading it yet, but the first half is a wonderful explanation of everything Heath -- his childhood, where he came from, his family, how he got involved in the art of acting, etc. I can't imagine but the second half will be as good. I will mention this on the book thread, also, but I know lots of people who frequent this thread would be interested in this book. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. It is amazing to me that such a well-done effort has hit the bookstores so soon after Heath's passing. Robb did a hell of a job synthesizing (sp?) Heath's life.
Dear Lamusica, I have bought that book two weeks ago at "Waterstone's bookshop", you are right, it's very well done, full of pics and Heath's quotations.
"Australians are the world's greatest at cutting you down size, and I'd better not forget it. I just have to remember not to take myself too seriously" (Heath Ledger)
"Somewhere inside if me, I knew instantly what to do with this character. I didn't have to search, I had a plan of attack. I feel it's something I know how to do. It'll be dark and sinister and exciting" (Heath Ledger talking about the Joker)
"If you just be safe about the choices you make, you don't grow" (Heath Ledger)
"I think Ennis punishes himself over an uncontrollable need - love. Fear was installed in him at an early age, and so the way he loved disgusted him. He's a walking contradiction" (Heath Ledger talking about Ennis).
:ghug: :c)
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6 months.
I still wonder how is that possible, that you're not here. I still don't understand how, and why, of all the people in the world, how could it have happened to you. Why you.
I can't believe that I'll never see new photos of you in this or that event, attending premieres and film festivals, or just wandering around in the streets of Manhatten with Matilda on your shoulders, wearing your stripey clothes and bright colors. I can't believe that I won't see you walking the red carpet again wearing your old scruffy shoes. That I won't hear any new interviews with you, talking in that deep, low, sexy voice that I love so much. That I won't hear about any new movies that you're filming, and get all excited when I'm waiting to see your incredible talent shine on the screen again. That there won't be anything new to look forward to.
I know I've never met you, but I miss you so much.
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:ghug: Keren, I am in the mood too :\'(
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Thank you so much,Barb,Michelle and Andrew. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I've said nothing but the truth; Heath is,from 6 months ago,the star that shines the most in the sky.The same that he was shinning as a person and as an actor while he was here with us... :\'( :^^) :^^) :^^)
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6 months.
I still wonder how is that possible, that you're not here. I still don't understand how, and why, of all the people in the world, how could it have happened to you. Why you.
I can't believe that I'll never see new photos of you in this or that event, attending premieres and film festivals, or just wandering around in the streets of Manhatten with Matilda on your shoulders, wearing your stripey clothes and bright colors. I can't believe that I won't see you walking the red carpet again wearing your old scruffy shoes. That I won't hear any new interviews with you, talking in that deep, low, sexy voice that I love so much. That I won't hear about any new movies that you're filming, and get all excited when I'm waiting to see your incredible talent shine on the screen again. That there won't be anything new to look forward to.
I know I've never met you, but I miss you so much.
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Wonderfully said and wonderfully felt,Keren¡ :ghug: That's how I'm feeling today too... :\'(
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I cant belive its 6 months :\'(
I remember someone said after it happend, how are we going to feel after 1 month? 2 months? 6 months?
And now, here we are, 6 months without him, It feel like yesterday I found out and my is still broken.... :\'( :\'(
But I thank god that I have all of you, that knows how it feels, to know that I'm not alone, so thank you all for being here and for just being you :^^) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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6 months.
I still wonder how is that possible, that you're not here. I still don't understand how, and why, of all the people in the world, how could it have happened to you. Why you.
I can't believe that I'll never see new photos of you in this or that event, attending premieres and film festivals, or just wandering around in the streets of Manhatten with Matilda on your shoulders, wearing your stripey clothes and bright colors. I can't believe that I won't see you walking the red carpet again wearing your old scruffy shoes. That I won't hear any new interviews with you, talking in that deep, low, sexy voice that I love so much. That I won't hear about any new movies that you're filming, and get all excited when I'm waiting to see your incredible talent shine on the screen again. That there won't be anything new to look forward to.
I know I've never met you, but I miss you so much.
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Its really hard, Keren, I know. :ghug:
I feel the same, and its difficult to deal with, my head sometimes just doesn't accept it at all. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I cant belive its 6 months :\'(
I remember someone said after it happend, how are we going to feel after 1 month? 2 months? 6 months?
And now, here we are, 6 months without him, It feel like yesterday I found out and my is still broken.... :\'( :\'(
But I thank god that I have all of you, that knows how it feels, to know that I'm not alone, so thank you all for being here and for just being you :^^) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Of course,Emelie; you're not alone,no one of us are alone in this grief.I must also thank you,all of you,for being just like you are and be,as I considered Heath,my friends at distance. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I don't know if this has been posted anywhere ells...
But (as far as I know) Jake Gyllenhall still hasn't talked to the press about Heath's death.
And I think, that's a really, really beautiful thing, actually.
As said in this article:
While many stars have issued emotional tributes to Heath Ledger, his best friend Jake Gyllenhaal has remained silent following the actor’s tragic death last week. And now sources on the set of Jake’s new movie says he’s taken the news harder than most people. “This has had a strong personal affect on Jake,” says a friend on the set of prison movie Brother. “He was there, but he wasn't with us. It was obviously a major trauma. These guys were very close.” Only a few weeks before Heath’s death, Jake – who is godfather to Heath’s daughter Matilda – jokingly stuck a picture of Heath on the wall of his on-set cell. “Like prisoners who put loved ones on a wall, Jake’s was Heath Ledger,” says the source. “That was hilarious. It was a nice moment. When you think back on it now, it’s touching.” After shooting some extra scenes for the movie in New Mexico, Jake is now on compassionate leave and has been seen with girlfriend Reese Witherspoon in Los Angeles, although it’s thought he’ll fly to Perth, Australia, for the funeral.
I think it's ironic somehow, that this reminds me of the relationship between Jack and Ennis in the movie...
Their love for each other is so real and their bond is so strong - that no words can describe it. And they don't know how to describe it themselves - because it's simply too strong.
Jake and Heath was obviously really close in real life too. And in a way... The relationship between them too can't really be described in words. I don't think Jake knows what to say - He can't find the words to describe how much Heath meant to him. <^(
They had something special.
And it's nice to know, that Heath had such an good friend. :)
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just realized, today is the 22th... Six months...
Jesus Heath, I miss you. :\'(
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I believe that anyone who inspires so much love in so many people can never truly be gone. He lives on in every heart that shares that love with someone else. And long after we’re all gone, the ripples of that love will be felt by generations to come who may never know where those first waves came from but will reap the benefits nonetheless.
I feel that way about each and every one of you as well, and am proud to share that love with the people in my life, and hope that they will pass it on with as much appreciation as I have.
I’m so glad to have had the opportunity to discover him during his lifetime and, through him and Jake, all of you. I feel truly blessed by both and am more grateful than I can say to be able to be here with you, especially today.
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Barb,is for people like you that BBM got its success more in emotions and feelings than in budget merely;that we felt and keep on feeling this bond that join us to some characters,their actors and director and among ourselves;that we all know we're not alone in grieving someone we haven't known because the distance is in miles,but not in love...So,every word you have dedicated to us,any of us could dedicate to you;and I,myself,can dedicate them to any of you too. %) :ghug:
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I believe that anyone who inspires so much love in so many people can never truly be gone. He lives on in every heart that shares that love with someone else. And long after we’re all gone, the ripples of that love will be felt by generations to come who may never know where those first waves came from but will reap the benefits nonetheless.
I feel that way about each and every one of you as well, and am proud to share that love with the people in my life, and hope that they will pass it on with as much appreciation as I have.
I’m so glad to have had the opportunity to discover him during his lifetime and, through him and Jake, all of you. I feel truly blessed by both and am more grateful than I can say to be able to be here with you, especially today.
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well said Barb :^^)
for everyone :ghug:
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I believe that anyone who inspires so much love in so many people can never truly be gone. He lives on in every heart that shares that love with someone else. And long after we’re all gone, the ripples of that love will be felt by generations to come who may never know where those first waves came from but will reap the benefits nonetheless.
I feel that way about each and every one of you as well, and am proud to share that love with the people in my life, and hope that they will pass it on with as much appreciation as I have.
I’m so glad to have had the opportunity to discover him during his lifetime and, through him and Jake, all of you. I feel truly blessed by both and am more grateful than I can say to be able to be here with you, especially today.
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Barb,is for people like you that BBM got its success more in emotions and feelings than in budget merely;that we felt and keep on feeling this bond that join us to some characters,their actors and director and among ourselves;that we all know we're not alone in grieving someone we haven't known because the distance is in miles,but not in love...So,every word you have dedicated to us,any of us could dedicate to you;and I,myself,can dedicate them to any of you too. %) :ghug:
Beautiful words guys. :ghug:
:ghug: :ghug: to everyone.
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6 months :\'( Still can't believe this is happening.
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Tomorrow is the 22nd. Tuesday again. six months exactly. :\'(
Heath, we're still here, thinking about you. Every day.
we are x :\'(
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yeah 6 months - 22nd on Tuesday.
It is a day to watch abundance of YouTube videos and remember how much you have brought to our lives. Thanks! :ghug:
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Heath you will always be remembered, in loving memory of you
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Brokeback Mountain was the first movie I saw
With you in it and it kept me in awe
Atfer that I was hooked on your face
On your big wide smile and your eyes full of grace
I saw every movie that you were in
And I fell in love with your infectious grin
Evening after evening curled up in my seat
I watched you, you made me complete
Then the news came that you died
I felt ripped apart, completely, inside
I couldn't believe that you were gone
And I cried my eyes out from dusk til dawn
It's been six months now and I still can't believe
That you are gone, but I am naive
You seem so alive now The dark Night arrived
It feels like you're here and that you survived
The Joker is one of your best performances so far
Including the role of Ennis, what made you a superstar
I haven't seen it yet, but I will in a day
And I know you won't disappoint me and blow me away
My sweet Heath I wish you were here
To hear the standing ovations at the premier
They are all for you and you deserve them so much
An amazing actor with a wonderful touch
I still miss you every single day
I hope you can feel our love and that you're okay
And although we are a thousand miles apart
I will continue loving you with all of my heart
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Beautiful and so sad, Marj :ghug:
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That's really beautiful Marj, heartfelt words, I'm so glad you posted this ^f^
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Thank you so much LuvJackNasty and Christine :ghug: :^^)
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Marj, your post is beyond beautiful :\'( Has it really been six months already? :-\\
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I miss him so much.....
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I miss him so much.....
We all do cornflake...where has the time gone
beautiful post Marj
Thinking of Heath a lot today..and of course everyone here :ghug:
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Just copying my post from the Candle thread here, because I can't think of anything else to say today:
6 months since you left us ..where has the time gone :-\\ Still seems like yesterday
And as life goes, it's easy to forget you're not here, until those moments that remind us and we stop and think about you.
6 months and you feel increasingly like a dream, a beautiful dream, because you gave so much in so little time,
You'll never be forgotten
Till next time Heath..take it easy out there, xx
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:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( there are really no words
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:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( there are really no words
Just remember you're not alone here :ghug:
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lovely posts here today thansk everyone for sharing :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Wow Marj, that was just beautiful :\'(
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Indeed Marj, beautifully said. :^^)
Everything I've seen here today just reflects the love we've all found here, that he helped to bring us. It makes me feel proud, of him and of us. Thank you all for sharing such beautiful pieces of yourselves. :ghug:
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I wasn't going to try and put thoughts into words today - it seemed too difficult to find words among the loss I have felt. But when I saw the tribute Chameau posted, the candles surrounding Heath on his horse, riding away, I admit I cried. I am 71 years old and this is the first time in my life I have been so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person. But I did meet him on the silver screen, the symbol of his craft. What he left us in Brokeback Mountain was a picture of a tormented, lonely person who wanted to love and be loved, and both didn't know how and was afraid to. In the role of Ennis del Mar Heath left us a legacy, that of a young actor committed to his craft as no one else I have seen in years. He was singularly able to reach out and touch the hearts of so many people so deeply that he will never by forgotten. The admiration, devotion and respect felt by so many is indeed a tribute to his memory, both as an artist and as a person. As time passes our tears may lessen, but there will always be a sadness in our hearts for his having been taken before his time, and our thoughts of what might have been. Rest in peace, Heath. ^f^
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That's beautiful rlh03. :ghug: :^^)
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Beautiful rlh :\'( :ghug:
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Brokeback Mountain was the first movie I saw
With you in it and it kept me in awe
Atfer that I was hooked on your face
On your big wide smile and your eyes full of grace
I saw every movie that you were in
And I fell in love with your infectious grin
Evening after evening curled up in my seat
I watched you, you made me complete
Then the news came that you died
I felt ripped apart, completely, inside
I couldn't believe that you were gone
And I cried my eyes out from dusk til dawn
It's been six months now and I still can't believe
That you are gone, but I am naive
You seem so alive now The dark Night arrived
It feels like you're here and that you survived
The Joker is one of your best performances so far
Including the role of Ennis, what made you a superstar
I haven't seen it yet, but I will in a day
And I know you won't disappoint me and blow me away
My sweet Heath I wish you were here
To hear the standing ovations at the premier
They are all for you and you deserve them so much
An amazing actor with a wonderful touch
I still miss you every single day
I hope you can feel our love and that you're okay
And although we are a thousand miles apart
I will continue loving you with all of my heart
I wasn't going to try and put thoughts into words today - it seemed too difficult to find words among the loss I have felt. But when I saw the tribute Chameau posted, the candles surrounding Heath on his horse, riding away, I admit I cried. I am 71 years old and this is the first time in my life I have been so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person. But I did meet him on the silver screen, the symbol of his craft. What he left us in Brokeback Mountain was a picture of a tormented, lonely person who wanted to love and be loved, and both didn't know how and was afraid to. In the role of Ennis del Mar Heath left us a legacy, that of a young actor committed to his craft as no one else I have seen in years. He was singularly able to reach out and touch the hearts of so many people so deeply that he will never by forgotten. The admiration, devotion and respect felt by so many is indeed a tribute to his memory, both as an artist and as a person. As time passes our tears may lessen, but there will always be a sadness in our hearts for his having been taken before his time, and our thoughts of what might have been. Rest in peace, Heath. ^f^
Those posts were so really beautiful. :\'( :\'( :\'( You both made me cry so bad. :ghug: :ghug:
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Thanks rlh03 for your post and sorry if I made you cry or anyone else, got teary eyes indeed doin' it but I had to make it. :-\\
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Barb :\'( :ghug:
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"What we have once enjoyed we can never lose.
All that we love deeply becomes a part of us." ~ Helen Keller
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That's beautiful, and so fitting. He's a part of me, and you're a part of me, for all time. :ghug:
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Chameau, no need to apologize because I cried, I know I wasn't alone today. I had been seeing some beautiful tributes which were a little hard to deal with, and then I came upon yours. It really was beautiful, took my breath away (and of course the tears started) and the symbolism of Heath/Ennis riding away, out of our lives really did it. You were able to say so much without one word. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. ^f^ ^f^
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6 months.
I still wonder how is that possible, that you're not here. I still don't understand how, and why, of all the people in the world, how could it have happened to you. Why you.
I can't believe that I'll never see new photos of you in this or that event, attending premieres and film festivals, or just wandering around in the streets of Manhatten with Matilda on your shoulders, wearing your stripey clothes and bright colors. I can't believe that I won't see you walking the red carpet again wearing your old scruffy shoes. That I won't hear any new interviews with you, talking in that deep, low, sexy voice that I love so much. That I won't hear about any new movies that you're filming, and get all excited when I'm waiting to see your incredible talent shine on the screen again. That there won't be anything new to look forward to.
I know I've never met you, but I miss you so much.
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That's exactly how I feel, Keren -- all the ways we will not see Heath anymore. It's a difficult thing to live with, but there you have it -- live with it we must...
kathy
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I wasn't going to try and put thoughts into words today - it seemed too difficult to find words among the loss I have felt. But when I saw the tribute Chameau posted, the candles surrounding Heath on his horse, riding away, I admit I cried. I am 71 years old and this is the first time in my life I have been so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person. But I did meet him on the silver screen, the symbol of his craft. What he left us in Brokeback Mountain was a picture of a tormented, lonely person who wanted to love and be loved, and both didn't know how and was afraid to. In the role of Ennis del Mar Heath left us a legacy, that of a young actor committed to his craft as no one else I have seen in years. He was singularly able to reach out and touch the hearts of so many people so deeply that he will never by forgotten. The admiration, devotion and respect felt by so many is indeed a tribute to his memory, both as an artist and as a person. As time passes our tears may lessen, but there will always be a sadness in our hearts for his having been taken before his time, and our thoughts of what might have been. Rest in peace, Heath. ^f^
Beautiful words, rlh. Heath gave of himself in a way that made people feel they really knew him, so that so many are so profoundly moved by our loss of him. But also moved by his life. He certainly made the world a better place...
kathy
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Damn, FC. I can rely on you to move me to tears... And bring the profoundness of the universe into it while you're at it. Thanks, babe.
Actually, I am smiling through the sadness -- at the joy that you and all our Brokies bring to each other.
kathy
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I will never get used to hearing him being referred to now as "the late Heath Ledger" :\'( :\'(
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I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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Heath you will always be remembered, in loving memory of you
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Brokeback Mountain was the first movie I saw
With you in it and it kept me in awe
Atfer that I was hooked on your face
On your big wide smile and your eyes full of grace
I saw every movie that you were in
And I fell in love with your infectious grin
Evening after evening curled up in my seat
I watched you, you made me complete
Then the news came that you died
I felt ripped apart, completely, inside
I couldn't believe that you were gone
And I cried my eyes out from dusk til dawn
It's been six months now and I still can't believe
That you are gone, but I am naive
You seem so alive now The dark Night arrived
It feels like you're here and that you survived
The Joker is one of your best performances so far
Including the role of Ennis, what made you a superstar
I haven't seen it yet, but I will in a day
And I know you won't disappoint me and blow me away
My sweet Heath I wish you were here
To hear the standing ovations at the premier
They are all for you and you deserve them so much
An amazing actor with a wonderful touch
I still miss you every single day
I hope you can feel our love and that you're okay
And although we are a thousand miles apart
I will continue loving you with all of my heart
That's really beautiful. I'm touched to my very soul :\'(
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I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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that's beautiful.....I can imagine how hard that must have been... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Heath you will always be remembered, in loving memory of you
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Brokeback Mountain was the first movie I saw
With you in it and it kept me in awe
Atfer that I was hooked on your face
On your big wide smile and your eyes full of grace
I saw every movie that you were in
And I fell in love with your infectious grin
Evening after evening curled up in my seat
I watched you, you made me complete
Then the news came that you died
I felt ripped apart, completely, inside
I couldn't believe that you were gone
And I cried my eyes out from dusk til dawn
It's been six months now and I still can't believe
That you are gone, but I am naive
You seem so alive now The dark Night arrived
It feels like you're here and that you survived
The Joker is one of your best performances so far
Including the role of Ennis, what made you a superstar
I haven't seen it yet, but I will in a day
And I know you won't disappoint me and blow me away
My sweet Heath I wish you were here
To hear the standing ovations at the premier
They are all for you and you deserve them so much
An amazing actor with a wonderful touch
I still miss you every single day
I hope you can feel our love and that you're okay
And although we are a thousand miles apart
I will continue loving you with all of my heart
That's beautiful,Marj¡ Thank you so much for sharing it with us¡ :^^) Your words are deeply felt and I understand them because BBM also was the first Heath movie that I watched.And after it,a lot of movies to discover his unbelievable talent and learn to love him little by little.So,don't worry;I'm sure that,wherever he's now,he feels our love... %)
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I wasn't going to try and put thoughts into words today - it seemed too difficult to find words among the loss I have felt. But when I saw the tribute Chameau posted, the candles surrounding Heath on his horse, riding away, I admit I cried. I am 71 years old and this is the first time in my life I have been so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person. But I did meet him on the silver screen, the symbol of his craft. What he left us in Brokeback Mountain was a picture of a tormented, lonely person who wanted to love and be loved, and both didn't know how and was afraid to. In the role of Ennis del Mar Heath left us a legacy, that of a young actor committed to his craft as no one else I have seen in years. He was singularly able to reach out and touch the hearts of so many people so deeply that he will never by forgotten. The admiration, devotion and respect felt by so many is indeed a tribute to his memory, both as an artist and as a person. As time passes our tears may lessen, but there will always be a sadness in our hearts for his having been taken before his time, and our thoughts of what might have been. Rest in peace, Heath. ^f^
Beautiful thoughts and feelings about our Heath,rlh¡ ^f^ We all have been touched also for this almost unbearable grief about someone we never knew personally.And,as you say,there will always be a kind of hole of sadness in our souls;these one that he occupied and that nobody else can full again...Thank you for your post again¡. :ghug:
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I will never get used to hearing him being referred to now as "the late Heath Ledger" :\'( :\'(
Me neither,sports... :ghug: Sometimes I still feel as if everything has been a kind of stupid joke,or a commercial strategy,or an error...But never the reality. :\'(
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I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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I guess you did,Steffi... :ghug: But your homage is lovely¡. ^f^
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Oh God. :\'( :\'( Thank you Barb.
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I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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:\'( it must have been so hard :\'(
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I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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oh God I can imagine the tears after that :\'( :ghug:
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Me neither,sports... :ghug: Sometimes I still feel as if everything has been a kind of stupid joke,or a commercial strategy,or an error...But never the reality. :\'(
I hear ya jack that whole day I kept waiting for some pr firm or agency to announce it was just a rumor or he was hospitalized or for wikipedia to say ooops this cant be confirmed but nope when I saw the family I was done :-\\
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Some of the brightest stars shining in the heavens today burned out centuries ago. But though they are no longer alive, they continue to light our way, brighten our skies, and inspire our hearts. Beauty never dies; it is just sometimes seen from a greater distance.
Oh God, Barb. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I took this pic on his last birthday at Cottesloe... omg.... I was crying so hard after that.... :\'(
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Babe, what can I say? :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: That's beautiful, and I understand you and love you so much.
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Ten months ago I watched you as Ennis
And my heart opened in ways that I never thought possible
Ennis was there to stay
And my life changed forever
Six months ago Ennis gave way
From the center stage in my mind
To make room for memories and tributes of you
The person I never knew
Yesterday when I put on the button in public
In Memory of You
Today when I told people why I go to your movies
And meet others from this place
I know you will be here, for good.
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Aww, that's so sweet. :ghug: He has engraved himself in our hearts, hasn't he?
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You know, FlwrChild, what makes Aaron Davis special, and Heath Ledger special, in my mind, is their non-judgmental acceptance of the people around them.
I like what you share with LJN in your tag. That's one of the best lines from Aaron in the movie. It goes so well with the deleted scene when he explained to Ryder about everyone being equal, after their visit with Chris and Julie.
And no, he has not engraved himself in my heart. He comes in the least expected moments, and shares my dreams, my pains, my joy. And he is always welcomed. And when he needs to roam free in the sky, on the waves, I am happy to let him go, knowing, there will be a reunion, always.
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Wonderful thoughts,as always,Andrew¡ :^^) Yes,you're right,he has been like a strength that came to us when we expected it the least and he full them with his presence; this presence that never was real in our life,as something tangible,but that we felt and always feel...
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Nine months ago I watched you as Ennis
And my heart opened in ways that I never thought possible
Ennis was there to stay
And my life changed forever
Six months ago Ennis gave way
From the center stage in my mind
To make room for memories and tributes of you
The person I never knew
Yesterday when I put on the button in public
In Memory of You
Today when I told people why I go to your movies
And meet others from this place
I know you will be here, for good.
Beautiful post dear Andrew...Indeed, He is here, for always #)
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I wasn't going to try and put thoughts into words today - it seemed too difficult to find words among the loss I have felt. But when I saw the tribute Chameau posted, the candles surrounding Heath on his horse, riding away, I admit I cried. I am 71 years old and this is the first time in my life I have been so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person. But I did meet him on the silver screen, the symbol of his craft. What he left us in Brokeback Mountain was a picture of a tormented, lonely person who wanted to love and be loved, and both didn't know how and was afraid to. In the role of Ennis del Mar Heath left us a legacy, that of a young actor committed to his craft as no one else I have seen in years. He was singularly able to reach out and touch the hearts of so many people so deeply that he will never by forgotten. The admiration, devotion and respect felt by so many is indeed a tribute to his memory, both as an artist and as a person. As time passes our tears may lessen, but there will always be a sadness in our hearts for his having been taken before his time, and our thoughts of what might have been. Rest in peace, Heath. ^f^
rlh, you are 71 years olf and a great sensibility, I am 63 and I agree with you : It is also the first time I am so touched by the loss of someone I never met in person :ghug:
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The posts here move me so much. I think Heath would've been proud if he'd seen the sensitivity of his fans, and all the love and the respect that they express here.
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I think so too Keren. :ghug:
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That's right, Keren. :ghug: :ghug:
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The posts here move me so much. I think Heath would've been proud if he'd seen the sensitivity of his fans, and all the love and the respect that they express here.
I agree with you,Keren.But there's a difference IMO; Heath wouldn't have been proud.He's proud wherever he's now. :\'(
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"...You've captured my love
Stolen my heart
Changed my life
Every time you make a move
You destroy my mind
And the way you touch
I lose control and shiver deep inside
You take my breath away...
...So please don't go
Don't leave me here all by myself
I get ever so lonely from time to time
I will find you
Anywhere you go, I'll be right behind you
Right until the ends of the earth
I'll get no sleep till I find you to tell you
That you just take my breath away"
(You Take My Breath Away - Queen)
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Oh, Keren that is absolutely heart wrecking....and beautiful in the same time. :ghug: :\'(
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Beautiful Keren. The picture and the song. :ghug:
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Beautiful Keren. The picture and the song. :ghug:
I QUOTE THIS¡ :ghug: :^^)
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Thank you for your comment. One of the things proved to me now is that Heath's appeal is universal to the range of ages, this appeal being one of his gifts. His intellectual mastery beneath the portrayal of Ennis, from one of such a young age, has helped make him a man for all ages. Even tho he is physically gone from us, he achieved film immortality along the way and is going to be present in our hearts and remembered and talked about for a very, very long time. Great art makes you feel something - and Heath, that you did! :\'( O0
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Thank you for your comment. One of the things proved to me now is that Heath's appeal is universal to the range of ages, this appeal being one of his gifts. His intellectual mastery beneath the portrayal of Ennis, from one of such a young age, has helped make him a man for all ages. Even tho he is physically gone from us, he achieved film immortality along the way and is going to be present in our hearts and remembered and talked about for a very, very long time. Great art makes you feel something - and Heath, that you did! :\'( O0
I am not surprised that Heath has touched so many hearts within such a wide range of ages, considering the man he was. Heath's family described him as an "old soul in a young body", as a man wise beyond his years. And that "old man river" tottoo that Michelle wrote on his arm was there for a reason. He was way more than just a young Hollywood heartthrob, he had such amazing depth and perception. Not any young actor would've had such an effect on so many people, but Heath has touched so many hearts.
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I am not surprised that Heath has touched so many hearts within such a wide range of ages, considering the man he was. Heath's family described him as an "old soul in a young body", as a man wise beyond his years. And that "old man river" tottoo that Michelle wrote on his arm was there for a reason. He was way more than just a young Hollywood heartthrob, he had such amazing depth and perception. Not any young actor would've had such an effect on so many people, but Heath has touched so many hearts.
I completely agree with you,Keren. O0 And,letting aside all this,we mustn't forget that Heath was essentially a good and skilled man;with enough tenderness,talent and love to everything what surrounded as to be loved also for any sensitive person,no matter their age.
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Keren - just 7 words - 'an old soul in a young body' speak volumes for the Heath we saw and remember, and how he could display his craft as he did. Another insight into why he was able to touch us so deeply. Thank. :t)
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Thank you for your comment. One of the things proved to me now is that Heath's appeal is universal to the range of ages, this appeal being one of his gifts. His intellectual mastery beneath the portrayal of Ennis, from one of such a young age, has helped make him a man for all ages. Even tho he is physically gone from us, he achieved film immortality along the way and is going to be present in our hearts and remembered and talked about for a very, very long time. Great art makes you feel something - and Heath, that you did! :\'( O0
Hello! rlh03, I have received your e-mail on "outlook express" ; thank you. I agree with you about your post ^f^
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"...You've captured my love
Stolen my heart
Changed my life
Every time you make a move
You destroy my mind
And the way you touch
I lose control and shiver deep inside
You take my breath away...
...So please don't go
Don't leave me here all by myself
I get ever so lonely from time to time
I will find you
Anywhere you go, I'll be right behind you
Right until the ends of the earth
I'll get no sleep till I find you to tell you
That you just take my breath away"
(You Take My Breath Away - Queen)
O0 Beautiful pic and wonderful song ^f^
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The posts here move me so much. I think Heath would've been proud if he'd seen the sensitivity of his fans, and all the love and the respect that they express here.
I agree Keren, but secretly, because Heath, being his modest self, was always uncomfortable when people complemented him or praised his work.
But I'm with myprivatejack. I like to think that he's dealt with that now & is proud and touched by it all now, where ever he is <^(
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Thank you for your comment. One of the things proved to me now is that Heath's appeal is universal to the range of ages, this appeal being one of his gifts. His intellectual mastery beneath the portrayal of Ennis, from one of such a young age, has helped make him a man for all ages. Even tho he is physically gone from us, he achieved film immortality along the way and is going to be present in our hearts and remembered and talked about for a very, very long time. Great art makes you feel something - and Heath, that you did! :\'( O0
Rlh03, your words here are more precious than any Academy Awards. Great art makes you feel something ... :\'( :ghug: :^^) <^(
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I don't know what happened today, darling, maybe it's the joker and the promotion everywhere but I was watching your photos and videos and then I started uncontrollably crying. I can't believe you are gone, love. You were so beautiful and sweet. Everytime I see your gentle brown beautiful eyes I am captured in pain. You touch my inner being anytime I see your photos or hear your voice. I cannot watch your movies since then. I haven't. I don't know if I am ever gonna be able. Brokeback would definitely kill me. Such a pain that movie brings and the thing you are dead it would be too much to handle.
I wanna tell you that I love you. I love you very much with all my heart. I can't stop crying beloved, it is so unfair you are gone and . . . what comes to my mind? Why you and not someone else? I shouldn't be thinking like that but I can't help myself.
I know you must be somewhere, in other dimension, I believe you didn't leave. I hope this place is something nice and pri´vate where you are not inruded by the Hollywood frenzy. I love you. I am so happy I had discovered you for myself before you passed away.
I love you, truly from my heart. N.
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OMG... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Nikita. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Tammy :ghug: Nikita :ghug:
:ghug: everyone :ghug:
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I am so happy I had discovered you for myself before you passed away.
I love you, truly from my heart. N.
Your whole post was beautiful Nikita, especially this. And isn't that the way it happens? Some days it just hits harder than others. :ghug: :ghug:
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Your whole post was beautiful Nikita, especially this. And isn't that the way it happens? Some days it just hits harder than others. :ghug: :ghug:
Yes it does.
Nikita :ghug: :ghug:
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Nikita, :^^) :ghug:
You can be easy,because I'm absolutely sure Heath is now in another dimension or another world;it's not important its name,but it's much more beautiful than here for him...A friend of mine told me this when my mother passed away to relieve me;when I asked her if she really believed so,she answered me:-Yes,I believe it; it must be true.If not,nothing worth anything for human being".So,it must be true; if not,Heath's life and death hadn't worth anything.And it has,and very much. ^f^
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As time goes on, am having fewer bad Heath days. They are now fairly rare, but I have one today and am not sure if this belongs in this thread or the other one.
Am kind of angry, as it sinks in that, in his last few years, Heath was accumulating....enemies. It's been lightly mentioned in this forum, the obvious ones, particularly the weird religious cult churches that made the early formal memorial services, and even the funeral arrangements in Perth, a nightmare as far as security.
But there's been more that's come out, over the months. Heath had been speaking up against Australian involvement in the war in Iraq. He also was wild for the Sea Shepherd's group and was planning to do a documentary film on them. That hardly sat well with the U.S. government, since the FBI had asked congress to define them as an eco-terrorist outlaw organization.
And then there was his emerging opposition to the huge construction project in Brooklyn, which has been described as the biggest development project in any city, ever. Big money.
He was, then, becoming more of an activist, towards the end, and you can't do that without rattling the cages of powerful people. So, am a little angry. And I wonder... was that a smirk I saw on the police commissioner of N.Y.'s face as he held news conferences?
I don't know what we owe to Heath, these months later. Loyalty means different things to different people. I feel uneasy bringing these matters up.
And am not pursuing them. But, to me, loyalty means not forgetting what was important to him and also remembering there were those who did not like where he was headed. If that puts me in the doggie-house, well, it won't be the first time. Saying he was a good guy is so easy to do. Saying why he was a good guy, that he had a conscience, may not be to the liking of some.
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weird religious cult churches that made the early formal memorial services, and even the funeral arrangements in Perth,
the westbourough baptist church...i was devistated when i found out what they had done... i hate them
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As time goes on, am having fewer bad Heath days. They are now fairly rare, but I have one today and am not sure if this belongs in this thread or the other one.
Am kind of angry, as it sinks in that, in his last few years, Heath was accumulating....enemies. It's been lightly mentioned in this forum, the obvious ones, particularly the weird religious cult churches that made the early formal memorial services, and even the funeral arrangements in Perth, a nightmare as far as security.
But there's been more that's come out, over the months. Heath had been speaking up against Australian involvement in the war in Iraq. He also was wild for the Sea Shepherd's group and was planning to do a documentary film on them. That hardly sat well with the U.S. government, since the FBI had asked congress to define them as an eco-terrorist outlaw organization.
And then there was his emerging opposition to the huge construction project in Brooklyn, which has been described as the biggest development project in any city, ever. Big money.
He was, then, becoming more of an activist, towards the end, and you can't do that without rattling the cages of powerful people. So, am a little angry. And I wonder... was that a smirk I saw on the police commissioner of N.Y.'s face as he held news conferences?
I don't know what we owe to Heath, these months later. Loyalty means different things to different people. I feel uneasy bringing these matters up.
And am not pursuing them. But, to me, loyalty means not forgetting what was important to him and also remembering there were those who did not like where he was headed. If that puts me in the doggie-house, well, it won't be the first time. Saying he was a good guy is so easy to do. Saying why he was a good guy, that he had a conscience, may not be to the liking of some.
Tony, let me start by saying that I'm glad to hear you have fewer bad Heath days. I think we all want that, don't we? To remember him with a smile, not with sadness... which is not always that easy, but we all want to get there eventually, and I believe Heath would've wanted that too.
I have a lot of appreciation for people who voice their opinions and fight for what they believe, even if other people might not approve of that. Naturally, I mainly appreciate that when they fight for the same things that I believe in... ;D There is a song by Mama Cass, called "Make Your Own Kind Of Music", that I love very much. The chorus goes like this:
"You've gotta make your own kind of music
Sing your own special song
Make your own kind of music
Even if nobody else sings along".
I believe that Heath was the kind of person who made his own kind of music, whether other people liked it or not, and a part of it was becoming more of an activist and voicing his opinions out loud. When you do that you risk making enemies... or maybe enemies is a strong word in this case, I would say opponents. I'm sure not everyone liked what he had to say (yes, I remember that interview when he made his opinion about the war in Iraq very known and clear) but isn't that the way of the world? We can't all have the same opinions and when you voice out your beliefs, not everyone's going to like them. Don't let that get to you. But you're right, Heath was a man with a conscience, and I appreciate that about him.
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I have a lot of appreciation for people who voice their opinions and fight for what they believe, even if other people might not approve of that. Naturally, I mainly appreciate that when they fight for the same things that I believe in...
I believe that Heath was the kind of person who made his own kind of music, whether other people liked it or not, and a part of it was becoming more of an activist and voicing his opinions out loud. When you do that you risk making enemies... or maybe enemies is a strong word in this case, I would say opponents.
Thanks, Keren, for a very level-headed response. Am not sure I would be in complete agreement with Heath's views. The war in Iraq is something I don't always feel qualified to have a full and final opinion on. The Sea Shepherds - well, am crazy about dolphins but am not so sure of that groups tactics. And as for the 1/2 trillion dollar building project, I'd bet modifications could save the flavor and history of Brooklyn. What impressed me was that he gave a damn enough to speak up, that he was as impassioned about hurts to other people as he was to his acting craft. You are right, he had, therefore, opponents. But I still think there were some who went past that to become enemies. Certainly on the sexual tolerance issue. Probably on others.
Yeah, he did make his own music, didn't he? Thanks for reminding me of a better way to see it all. And, damn, didn't we love the song? Thanks, again.
---oops - I left out a smiley face in the first part of the quote, which alters the meaning. It's in the original. Am too lazy to re-do the post.
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Kudos, Tony and keren!!!
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As time goes on, am having fewer bad Heath days. They are now fairly rare, but I have one today and am not sure if this belongs in this thread or the other one.
Am kind of angry, as it sinks in that, in his last few years, Heath was accumulating....enemies. It's been lightly mentioned in this forum, the obvious ones, particularly the weird religious cult churches that made the early formal memorial services, and even the funeral arrangements in Perth, a nightmare as far as security.
But there's been more that's come out, over the months. Heath had been speaking up against Australian involvement in the war in Iraq. He also was wild for the Sea Shepherd's group and was planning to do a documentary film on them. That hardly sat well with the U.S. government, since the FBI had asked congress to define them as an eco-terrorist outlaw organization.
And then there was his emerging opposition to the huge construction project in Brooklyn, which has been described as the biggest development project in any city, ever. Big money.
He was, then, becoming more of an activist, towards the end, and you can't do that without rattling the cages of powerful people. So, am a little angry. And I wonder... was that a smirk I saw on the police commissioner of N.Y.'s face as he held news conferences?
I don't know what we owe to Heath, these months later. Loyalty means different things to different people. I feel uneasy bringing these matters up.
And am not pursuing them. But, to me, loyalty means not forgetting what was important to him and also remembering there were those who did not like where he was headed. If that puts me in the doggie-house, well, it won't be the first time. Saying he was a good guy is so easy to do. Saying why he was a good guy, that he had a conscience, may not be to the liking of some.
I love knowing he was a good person, yes, and with an inclination to be on the rabble-rousing side. Good for him! He would have continued to be an influential person in many ways to many people. Including those on the "enemies" side -- but then, that's not hard to do these days!
kathy
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as an american who watched closely as the president of the country and I use that term very loosely ::) botched the war by using a bogus lie to invade in the first place I found it refreshing Heath's views on things other than his career quite, it proved he had thoughts beyond himself, not like alot of young high profile people, a few countries that followed bush later determined that was not such a wise idea, and the us government themselves have had to face the facts of the bush administrations lies considering most of this country believes it was foolish to even start this war, personally I would have loved to see the documentary on it and as you say Tony Heath and Michelle were actively against this building of the new basketball stadium, matter of fact the folks in the brooklyn neighborhood said Heath and Michelle lent out their home for various meetings and the like, which means Heath's legacy to his child, family and friends goes beyond his work on screen but the fact he was a caring young fellow who wanted the world he lived in to be a fair and just one
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And on that day, the Father looked down and said 'HEATH, MY SON,YOU LOOK TIRED. YOU HAVE DONE SO VERY WELL WITH THE MANY TASKS I HAVE SET FOR YOU'.
'AND NOW, IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO COME HOME'.
'I HAVE SET WATCH OVER YOUR DAUGHTER, MATILDA, AND MY ANGELS COME EVEN NOW TO LIFT YOU HERE TO BE WITH ME'.
And Heath looked around one last time, smiled, and said, 'THANK YOU, FATHER, I'M COMING :)'.
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And on that day, the Father looked down and said 'HEATH, MY SON,YOU LOOK TIRED. YOU HAVE DONE SO VERY WELL WITH THE MANY TASKS I HAVE SET FOR YOU'.
'AND NOW, IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO COME HOME'.
'I HAVE SET WATCH OVER YOUR DAUGHTER, MATILDA, AND MY ANGELS COME EVEN NOW TO LIFT YOU HERE TO BE WITH ME'.
And Heath looked around one last time, smiled, and said, 'THANK YOU, FATHER, I'M COMING :)'.
:\'( :\'( :\'( well said rld03
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Oh,my¡ It's beautiful,Richard¡ I can imagine Heath so... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Aww, that's sweet. ^f^
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Just watched "The Dark Knight" last night.
Heath, you did it again. You blew me away!!
I've only been swept off my feet like that once before - by Ennis.
I thought I was going to cry, but there wasn't really time, you know? ???
The Joker was phenomenon and everytime he left the screen, I was waiting for his next appearance. Through the entire movie there was death quiet (except when everyone was laughing at The Joker, he was terrifying but hilarious at the same time) , everyone listened intensely and was totally into the movie.
When the credits were listed in the end, everyone started to get up and leave, but I really wanted to see Heath's name in the credits!! Everybody was pushing me, but I moved reeeeeeeeealy slowly and kept my eyes on the screen. I just had to see his name, I don't really now why... And I got to, just before I literally got pushed out of the room (sorry, folks).
But it was a mindblowing experience... Heath, you did it again...
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Two weeks ago I visited a sanctuary in Girona's province that is caved in the rock itself;as you can see,the ceiling and part of the walls are made of stone.The view from this place is so beautiful that made me think about the two friends of us whom we've lost lately.And I burned two candles,one for Heath and one for Rajel;these two that are a little separated from the others.I'm agnostic,but sometimes I feel the need of doing that for my beloved ones who aren't already here.
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I have just finished watching 'The Order' again (I think it was also released under the name 'the Sin-Eater'. Anyway, as a sci-fi/horror flick, it wasn't widely accepted and overall, never added up to what we now know of the level of Heath's legacy. But for those of who really care, I suggest you watch it, for you wlll see, even then, in a few scenes, what was coming. When Heath discovers the fate of his love, and meets his destiny, you will see some great acting, back in 2003. Heath knew, I think, where he was going and step-by-step improved his art, achieved his goals and took us there. And to take this thought of Heath one step further, for us to ponder, there is an interview on YouTube where he said (and this is the only place I've heard it, and never seen it in writing): speaking of his role in theOrder -'its about love and what happens when you don't act upon love and follow your instincts on love'. Something familiar, brokies?
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Just watched "The Dark Knight" last night.
Heath, you did it again. You blew me away!!
I've only been swept off my feet like that once before - by Ennis.
I thought I was going to cry, but there wasn't really time, you know? ???
The Joker was phenomenon and everytime he left the screen, I was waiting for his next appearance. Through the entire movie there was death quiet (except when everyone was laughing at The Joker, he was terrifying but hilarious at the same time) , everyone listened intensely and was totally into the movie.
When the credits were listed in the end, everyone started to get up and leave, but I really wanted to see Heath's name in the credits!! Everybody was pushing me, but I moved reeeeeeeeealy slowly and kept my eyes on the screen. I just had to see his name, I don't really now why... And I got to, just before I literally got pushed out of the room (sorry, folks).
But it was a mindblowing experience... Heath, you did it again...
I know how you feel, BBA. I wanted to see his name on the big screen. That was the first time ever when I've seen Heath's movie in a theatre. And as you said, everyone was leaving, but I got up and sat on the side aisle, staring at the credits as they rolled, first with the names of the stars, then again, in smaller print, the cast. And finally, the words In Memory. I don't know why it was important for me to see that, but it was. I did not feel the experience was complete, until that final part rolled off the screen. Then I was ready to leave, and noticed that I was alone in the theatre, and I was amused, and happy to walk out. The gravity of the movie did not hit me until the day after. Then like watching Brokeback Mountain for the first time, I could not stop thinking about it. Heath's performance had always had that effect on me, even in Patriot, when I first saw his amazing abilities. I think it took about two weeks before I finally managed to distract myself to forget about the movie, and Heath. With Brokeback Mountain, as you said, ... he swept me away and changed my life forever. There is no forgetting now, or ever.
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Two weeks ago I visited a sanctuary in Girona's province that is caved in the rock itself;as you can see,the ceiling and part of the walls are made of stone.The view from this place is so beautiful that made me think about the two friends of us whom we've lost lately.And I burned two candles,one for Heath and one for Rajel;these two that are a little separated from the others.I'm agnostic,but sometimes I feel the need of doing that for my beloved ones who aren't already here.
:ghug: mpj whatever our religious creed, I know, as Aaron said in Latter Days, there must be something bigger and more meaning that make sense of all the dots that are us. I am glad you found a beautiful spot for the two free spirits to keep each other company when they visit their candles. :ghug:
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I have just finished watching 'The Order' again (I think it was also released under the name 'the Sin-Eater'. Anyway, as a sci-fi/horror flick, it wasn't widely accepted and overall, never added up to what we now know of the level of Heath's legacy. But for those of who really care, I suggest you watch it, for you wlll see, even then, in a few scenes, what was coming. When Heath discovers the fate of his love, and meets his destiny, you will see some great acting, back in 2003. Heath knew, I think, where he was going and step-by-step improved his art, achieved his goals and took us there. And to take this thought of Heath one step further, for us to ponder, there is an interview on YouTube where he said (and this is the only place I've heard it, and never seen it in writing): speaking of his role in theOrder -'its about love and what happens when you don't act upon love and follow your instincts on love'. Something familiar, brokies?
hi, rlh03, I am glad you liked The Order, and did not divulge the plot. I haven't seen it yet, but was hesitant at first when getting hold of it. I am not a horror/dark movie fan. The cult thing on the jacket did not appeal to me. But I got it because Heath's earlier movies are hard to find, and it was on sale. I am holding on to it and watch it next year.
I will keep an eye out for that interview. Please post the link to it if you still have it. Heath career is certainly one long exploration of the many aspects of love. Even Dark Knight, is about love, and the opposite of love, love and anti-love, where it is about the selfishness of the egotistical joker, and the selflessness of the altruistic Batman.
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lancecowboy, the interview I mentioned is Heath talking about his interpretation of the priest he plays in the movie. You can find it by doing a google 'youtube Heath Ledger interview' It should be the first posting to come up. The video is short, only 2 minutes 18 seconds long. What you are looking will occur at about 1 minute 4 seconds in. Good luck. Let me know how you come out. And yes, it is a cult movie, and not one of Heath's overall best, but there are a couple of tremendous scenes. You will recognize what I'm speaking of when you see it. :)
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in British GQ Christian says he finds himself referring to Heath in the present tense :-\\ trust me he's not the only one :\'( I'm just grateful he had so much great work left behind to appreciate and the fact he went out as he came in stealing the show just as he did in Ten Things
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I hope this is the correct place, if not please feel free to move it.
I have just finished watching 'The Order' again (I think it was also released under the name 'the Sin-Eater'. Anyway, as a sci-fi/horror flick, it wasn't widely accepted and overall, never added up to what we now know of the level of Heath's legacy. But for those of who really care, I suggest you watch it, for you wlll see, even then, in a few scenes, what was coming. When Heath discovers the fate of his love, and meets his destiny, you will see some great acting, back in 2003. Heath knew, I think, where he was going and step-by-step improved his art, achieved his goals and took us there. And to take this thought of Heath one step further, for us to ponder, there is an interview on YouTube where he said (and this is the only place I've heard it, and never seen it in writing): speaking of his role in theOrder -'its about love and what happens when you don't act upon love and follow your instincts on love'. Something familiar, brokies?
Very familiar indeed dear rlh03 O0. I have the DVD "The order", it's a very strange movie but I like it, Heath's performance is so great (t) I miss him so much :\'(.
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I know how you feel, BBA. I wanted to see his name on the big screen. That was the first time ever when I've seen Heath's movie in a theatre. And as you said, everyone was leaving, but I got up and sat on the side aisle, staring at the credits as they rolled, first with the names of the stars, then again, in smaller print, the cast. And finally, the words In Memory. I don't know why it was important for me to see that, but it was. I did not feel the experience was complete, until that final part rolled off the screen. Then I was ready to leave, and noticed that I was alone in the theatre, and I was amused, and happy to walk out. The gravity of the movie did not hit me until the day after. Then like watching Brokeback Mountain for the first time, I could not stop thinking about it. Heath's performance had always had that effect on me, even in Patriot, when I first saw his amazing abilities. I think it took about two weeks before I finally managed to distract myself to forget about the movie, and Heath. With Brokeback Mountain, as you said, ... he swept me away and changed my life forever. There is no forgetting now, or ever.
So right on, Lancecowboy. In some way, it did complete the experience to see Heath's name on the screen.
And I can't stop thinking about it either, just like after watching BBM for the very first time. The Joker keeps playing with my head 24/7!!
Heath really proved to us once again, just what an unique and incredible actor, he truly was... And always will be!
You're totally right. Phenomenal performances like that - it touches your heart and it changes your life.
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lancecowboy, the interview I mentioned is Heath talking about his interpretation of the priest he plays in the movie. You can find it by doing a google 'youtube Heath Ledger interview' It should be the first posting to come up. The video is short, only 2 minutes 18 seconds long. What you are looking will occur at about 1 minute 4 seconds in. Good luck. Let me know how you come out. And yes, it is a cult movie, and not one of Heath's overall best, but there are a couple of tremendous scenes. You will recognize what I'm speaking of when you see it. :)
Thanks, rlh03, that's a great video. I've never seen it before. Heath looked great in it. He still fidgeted like he did in all the other interviews, and you can see the many thoughts fighting their way to get out, like the portrait of him with the two whispers fighting for their part of his attention. I look forward to watching The Order, now that I understand Heath's motivation in it, his research into the physical mannerism and background of the character.
Thanks, again. I will post my reaction after I've seen it. At the moment, like I said, I plan on waiting till Jan. 09. But who knows, my resolve may breakdown, and I may watch it sooner. Having Dark Knight to go to for now, keeps my mind occupied. :)
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Pour les jours silencieux, où j'écoute tomber la pluie,
Et les matins frileux qui me font regretter nos nuits.
Pour toutes ces différences qui créent l'indifférence, depuis,
Pour les heures passées à regarder tourner l'ennui.
Et les trésors cachés qu'on enterre à jamais sans vie,
Pour tous les souvenirs qui s'ennuient à mourir, et puis,
Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois
Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.
Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,
Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.
Pour cacher mes erreurs que je commets par cœur, et si,
Au profit du bonheur, j'échangeais la douleur sans bruit.
Pour ces sommeils qui dansent, comme des récompenses enfuies,
Comme le bleu des nuances devient gris de souffrance, aussi.
Pour les soleils violets que tu dissimulais meurtrie,
Et les rires empruntés qui te raccrochaient à la vie.
Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois
Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.
Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,
Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.
Laisse-moi respirer, juste une heure encore,
Cette fleur fanée, puisque la mort ennemie a pris l'amour d'une vie.
P. Fiori
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For quiet days, when I listen to the falling rain,
And morning cautious that I do regret our nights.
For all these differences that create indifference since
For hours spent watching turn boredom.
And the hidden treasures we bury forever lifeless,
For all the memories that are bored to death, and then
The more I think of you and more I realize
Whether the passage of time does not heal me.
Nothing replaces you, I miss you, I die for you,
And I realize that you lost space.
To hide my mistakes that I commit a heart, and if,
For the benefit of happiness, j'échangeais pain without noise.
For those who sleep dance, as rewards fled,
As the blue shades of gray is suffering, too.
For purple suns that you dissimulais wounded,
And the laughter that you borrowed raccrochaient to life.
The more I think of you and more I realize
Whether the passage of time does not heal me.
Nothing replaces you, I miss you, I die for you,
And I realize that you lost space.
Let me breathe, just one hour,
This flower fanée since the death enemy took the love of a lifetime.
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There's a song in Hebrew, that a well known Israeli songwriter named Ehud Manor wrote to his daughter many years ago, when she was little. It's called "My Second Childhood". Every time I hear it now, I think about Heath and Matilda. It reminds me so much of the great love he had for her, and when I hear this song I imagine sometimes that it's Heath singing it to his little girl. He could've written these words himself, I think he would've identified with them completely. This song became associated with Heath to me. I only wish that he could've gone through his second childhood with her, and see her growing up to be three years old, and four years old, and five years old...
I tried to translate the lyrics to English, any mistakes are mine.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
This is my second childhood,
The burden of years has been forgotten
This is my second Childhood,
My heart is opening.
Through your eyes daughter,
I see and re-discover the world
Through your hands I'll learn
To touch the ocean waves again.
Through your lips daughter,
A new flavour to the words
And with you I'll grow up again without fear
We're already three years old.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
This is my second childhood,
The burden of years has been forgotten
This is my second Childhood,
My heart is opening.
Through your songs daughter,
I'll learn again to listen to the creation
In your footsteps I'll walk
On the way to the Seven Wonders.
In your smiles daughter,
There's a new morning to the nights
And with you life has a reason –
We're already four years old.
In your looks daughter,
I'll learn to love again without thinking
In your tears I'll shiver
Like the end of the world is near.
In your hugs daughter
A thrill goes through my body
And with you I'll seek another day
And we're already five years old.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
(If anyone wants to hear the song, here's a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym27UQX5Pxc )
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I have just finished watching 'The Order' again (I think it was also released under the name 'the Sin-Eater'. Anyway, as a sci-fi/horror flick, it wasn't widely accepted and overall, never added up to what we now know of the level of Heath's legacy. But for those of who really care, I suggest you watch it, for you wlll see, even then, in a few scenes, what was coming. When Heath discovers the fate of his love, and meets his destiny, you will see some great acting, back in 2003. Heath knew, I think, where he was going and step-by-step improved his art, achieved his goals and took us there. And to take this thought of Heath one step further, for us to ponder, there is an interview on YouTube where he said (and this is the only place I've heard it, and never seen it in writing): speaking of his role in theOrder -'its about love and what happens when you don't act upon love and follow your instincts on love'. Something familiar, brokies?
I caught this film by accident on Brit TV late the other night. I have to say that I wasn't particulary overwhelmed with the film, but couldn't stop watching because Heath is always so damn watchable. I just wanted to see him and hear his voice. But I know what you mean, I thought he seemed a bit lost early on in the film, but when it came to the emotional stuff later on, didn't he just come to life, and yes, there were things that he did and said, especailly little noises, that just made me think of some of the scenes in BM. I agree, you can really see how he has progressed as an actor.
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Just watched "The Dark Knight" last night.
Heath, you did it again. You blew me away!!
I've only been swept off my feet like that once before - by Ennis.
I can only agree with you. I saw TDK last night and was totally blown away by Heath's performance, it was something pretty special. I also just found myself waiting for his next appearance on screen. It was amazing yet sad at the same time. This is going to sound a little crazy, but I found myself getting really upset in one scene, can't really remember the details, but it was some kind of fight scene, and his lower arm and hand were around someone and they were the only part of his body that wasn't covered in clothes or makeup, and I felt upset that his arm and hand were never going to hold anyone again. Does that sound a little mad? I've really got it bad right now! :\'(
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desperatehousewife, I know how bad it could get. :( :ghug:
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desperatehousewife, I know how bad it could get. :( :ghug:
Thanks, I need that hug right now.
It's great that he's everywhere right now, but it's also sad, but then it will be sadder when he's not everywhere anymore and won't be again.
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Thanks, I need that hug right now.
It's great that he's everywhere right now, but it's also sad, but then it will be sadder when he's not everywhere anymore and won't be again.
I know absolutely exactly the feelings you are saying, DHW. That part of the movie when you saw his arm and knew he would never hold anyone again. And especially wht you said above. We're rejoicing in him right now because of this amazing film, but after a while... It's all just plain sad.
kathy
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It's great that he's everywhere right now, but it's also sad, but then it will be sadder when he's not everywhere anymore and won't be again.
I know exactly what you mean. :\'( :ghug:
Heath, baby, how could this have happened?
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Keren, what beautiful song lyrics. As soon as my system gets fixed, I'll have a listen as well. Thank you for posting it. :^^)
It really is quite the up and down time right now, isn't it? Hard not to have conflicting emotions when you want to celebrate his talent and accomplishment in TDK, but at the same time it can't help but remind you that he is indeed gone, especially when watching all of those wonderful cast interviews, from which he is conspicuously absent. :-\\
Great big :ghug: to everyone.
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Pour les jours silencieux, où j'écoute tomber la pluie,
Et les matins frileux qui me font regretter nos nuits.
Pour toutes ces différences qui créent l'indifférence, depuis,
Pour les heures passées à regarder tourner l'ennui.
Et les trésors cachés qu'on enterre à jamais sans vie,
Pour tous les souvenirs qui s'ennuient à mourir, et puis,
Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois
Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.
Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,
Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.
Pour cacher mes erreurs que je commets par cœur, et si,
Au profit du bonheur, j'échangeais la douleur sans bruit.
Pour ces sommeils qui dansent, comme des récompenses enfuies,
Comme le bleu des nuances devient gris de souffrance, aussi.
Pour les soleils violets que tu dissimulais meurtrie,
Et les rires empruntés qui te raccrochaient à la vie.
Plus je pense à toi et plus encore je m'aperçois
Que le temps qui passe ne me guérira pas.
Rien ne te remplace, je manque de toi, je meurs de toi,
Et je m'aperçois que tu manques à l'espace.
Laisse-moi respirer, juste une heure encore,
Cette fleur fanée, puisque la mort ennemie a pris l'amour d'une vie.
P. Fiori
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For quiet days, when I listen to the falling rain,
And morning cautious that I do regret our nights.
For all these differences that create indifference since
For hours spent watching turn boredom.
And the hidden treasures we bury forever lifeless,
For all the memories that are bored to death, and then
The more I think of you and more I realize
Whether the passage of time does not heal me.
Nothing replaces you, I miss you, I die for you,
And I realize that you lost space.
To hide my mistakes that I commit a heart, and if,
For the benefit of happiness, j'échangeais pain without noise.
For those who sleep dance, as rewards fled,
As the blue shades of gray is suffering, too.
For purple suns that you dissimulais wounded,
And the laughter that you borrowed raccrochaient to life.
The more I think of you and more I realize
Whether the passage of time does not heal me.
Nothing replaces you, I miss you, I die for you,
And I realize that you lost space.
Let me breathe, just one hour,
This flower fanée since the death enemy took the love of a lifetime.
Merci, Mikele, for the photo of Heath, so wonderfully peaceful and beautiful, and for the words, the laughter..., the passage of time... Time will heal, but slowly. :ghug:
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There's a song in Hebrew, that a well known Israeli songwriter named Ehud Manor wrote to his daughter many years ago, when she was little. It's called "My Second Childhood". Every time I hear it now, I think about Heath and Matilda. It reminds me so much of the great love he had for her, and when I hear this song I imagine sometimes that it's Heath singing it to his little girl. He could've written these words himself, I think he would've identify with them completely. This song became associated with Heath to me. I only wish that he could've gone through his second childhood with her, and see her growing up to be three years old, and four years old, and five years old...
I tried to translate the lyrics to English, any mistakes are mine.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
This is my second childhood,
The burden of years has been forgotten
This is my second Childhood,
My heart is opening.
Through your eyes daughter,
I see and re-discover the world
Through your hands I'll learn
To touch the ocean waves again.
Through your lips daughter,
A new flavour to the words
And with you I'll grow up again without fear
We're already three years old.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
This is my second childhood,
The burden of years has been forgotten
This is my second Childhood,
My heart is opening.
Through your songs daughter,
I'll learn again to listen to the creation
In your footsteps I'll walk
On the way to the Seven Wonders.
In your smiles daughter,
There's a new morning to the nights
And with you life has a reason –
We're already four years old.
In your looks daughter,
I'll learn to love again without thinking
In your tears I'll shiver
Like the end of the world is near.
In your hugs daughter
A thrill goes through my body
And with you I'll seek another day
And we're already five years old.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
(If anyone wants to hear the song, here's a link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym27UQX5Pxc )
Thank you so much for this Keren. This is so beautiful, and brings tears, but bittersweet because as has been said so often, Matilda is so much like Heath, that I have no doubt Heath would certainly live through her, when she learns to surf, and touch the wave, when she learns to talk, speak her lines in a play, when she travels and see the wonders of the world, and every sunset she sees, she will share the beauty of life with the man who gave us all so much.
:ghug: <^(
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Keren, what beautiful song lyrics. As soon as my system gets fixed, I'll have a listen as well. Thank you for posting it. :^^)
It really is quite the up and down time right now, isn't it? Hard not to have conflicting emotions when you want to celebrate his talent and accomplishment in TDK, but at the same time it can't help but remind you that he is indeed gone, especially when watching all of those wonderful cast interviews, from which he is conspicuously absent. :-\\
Great big :ghug: to everyone.
:ghug: FlwrChild :ghug: I kinda understand what it means now, when people cry at weddings and graduations. Because I feel the same watching the Dark Knight, pride and admiration in Heath's accomplishment, and sadness in the necessary step of letting go, when the bond of love is stretched so the one loved is set free.
:ghug: :^^)
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Thank you so much for this Keren. This is so beautiful, and brings tears, but bittersweet because as has been said so often, Matilda is so much like Heath, that I have no doubt Heath would certainly live through her, when she learns to surf, and touch the wave, when she learns to talk, speak her lines in a play, when she travels and see the wonders of the world, and every sunset she sees, she will share the beauty of life with the man who gave us all so much.
:ghug: <^(
Oh Andrew, this is so beautiful. And it's just like what Michelle said - that Matilda is the spitting image of her father, and when they watch her they can see him in her. And just what Heath said, that in a way he feels good about dying because he knows he will leave on through his daughter. But I know he would've wanted to stay here and watch her grow up, and be there with her.
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There's a song in Hebrew, that a well known Israeli songwriter named Ehud Manor wrote to his daughter many years ago, when she was little. It's called "My Second Childhood". Every time I hear it now, I think about Heath and Matilda. It reminds me so much of the great love he had for her, and when I hear this song I imagine sometimes that it's Heath singing it to his little girl. He could've written these words himself, I think he would've identified with them completely. This song became associated with Heath to me. I only wish that he could've gone through his second childhood with her, and see her growing up to be three years old, and four years old, and five years old...
I tried to translate the lyrics to English, any mistakes are mine.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
This is my second childhood,
The burden of years has been forgotten
This is my second Childhood,
My heart is opening.
Through your eyes daughter,
I see and re-discover the world
Through your hands I'll learn
To touch the ocean waves again.
Through your lips daughter,
A new flavor to the words
And with you I'll grow up again without fear
We're already three years old.
This is my second childhood,
Whatever you'll give me I'll take
This is my second childhood,
With you.
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A beautiful song performed by an excellent Israeli artist called MATI CASPI that composed this song too. O0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_Oohw2RJjg
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I can only agree with you. I saw TDK last night and was totally blown away by Heath's performance, it was something pretty special. I also just found myself waiting for his next appearance on screen. It was amazing yet sad at the same time. This is going to sound a little crazy, but I found myself getting really upset in one scene, can't really remember the details, but it was some kind of fight scene, and his lower arm and hand were around someone and they were the only part of his body that wasn't covered in clothes or makeup, and I felt upset that his arm and hand were never going to hold anyone again. Does that sound a little mad? I've really got it bad right now! :\'(
That's not crazy at all! I understand just how you feel. :ghug:
After watching the movie I went home and watched clips on Youtube. I shouldn't have done that. Cause' it really made me realize that the experience of watching a new movie with Heath was over. For the last time. It's a feeling that still seems very strange to me. :\'(
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After watching the movie I went home and watched clips on Youtube. I shouldn't have done that. Cause' it really made me realize that the experience of watching a new movie with Heath was over. For the last time. It's a feeling that still seems very strange to me. :\'(
We still have "The Imaginarium Of Dr Parnassuss" to wait for... :ghug: :ghug:
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Yes we do, and I will be first in line on opening day. ^f^
I have to admit that, in addition to wanting to see Heath, I'll be very interested to see what Terry Gilliam did to accomodate the casting change with this character and how it impacts the overall story. I thought it was interesting when he said that he was very happy with how it's all turning out, but that he still had his original vision in his head, so it's hard not to get distracted by that as well. I can only imagine. But what providence that this would be the movie Heath was working on, and that it would be of such a nature that this kind of creative recasting would allow them to preserve his performance and the entire film with it. :ghug:
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I don't know what happened today, darling, maybe it's the joker and the promotion everywhere but I was watching your photos and videos and then I started uncontrollably crying. I can't believe you are gone, love. You were so beautiful and sweet. Everytime I see your gentle brown beautiful eyes I am captured in pain. You touch my inner being anytime I see your photos or hear your voice. I cannot watch your movies since then. I haven't. I don't know if I am ever gonna be able. Brokeback would definitely kill me. Such a pain that movie brings and the thing you are dead it would be too much to handle.
I wanna tell you that I love you. I love you very much with all my heart. I can't stop crying beloved, it is so unfair you are gone and . . . what comes to my mind? Why you and not someone else? I shouldn't be thinking like that but I can't help myself.
I know you must be somewhere, in other dimension, I believe you didn't leave. I hope this place is something nice and pri´vate where you are not inruded by the Hollywood frenzy. I love you. I am so happy I had discovered you for myself before you passed away.
I love you, truly from my heart. N.
Beautiful words dear Nikita, it is so unfair he is gone :\'(...He was so talented, so attractive, so, so...I have no :-X to explain, I am so sad, life is cruel ^^) ^^) ^^)
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Yes we do, and I will be first in line on opening day. ^f^
I have to admit that, in addition to wanting to see Heath, I'll be very interested to see what Terry Gilliam did to accomodate the casting change with this character and how it impacts the overall story. I thought it was interesting when he said that he was very happy with how it's all turning out, but that he still had his original vision in his head, so it's hard not to get distracted by that as well. I can only imagine. But what providence that this would be the movie Heath was working on, and that it would be of such a nature that this kind of creative recasting would allow them to preserve his performance and the entire film with it. :ghug:
I was thinking that also. From the sound of it, it could very well have been purposely cast and made precisely as it did end up being made, you know? That is quite interesting. And do we have the coolest most wonderful people to honor Heath or what?
kathy
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I am really looking forward to seeing the film. Im interested to see how they have worked round Heaths bits he managed to film and the cast they have got to finish the film are good and im hoping they are on the verge of finishing a great tribute to Heath, the last film he ever did :( When i see this film it will be more moving for me than batman as THIS film is the last one he was in and knowing that last scene he shot (someone posted an article on this site by an extra in the film who worked with Heath and they said a scene where Heath is being chased down a street by a mob was the last one shot in london before he headed back to New York and passed away :\'( ) will be very moving i think.
I saw a documentary about Heath last night on E! (not sure if this has been shown in America too as it is an American channel we get over here) and it was an hour long and followed Heaths journey through his life. It was really up to date and even mentioned "The Imaginarium..." and it had me with tears in my eyes watching it..... :\'( Just when i thought i was ok! Such a shame such a waste of a life and talent. But never forgotten x x
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I saw a documentary about Heath last night on E! (not sure if this has been shown in America too as it is an American channel we get over here) and it was an hour long and followed Heaths journey through his life. It was really up to date and even mentioned "The Imaginarium..." and it had me with tears in my eyes watching it..... :\'( Just when i thought i was ok! Such a shame such a waste of a life and talent. But never forgotten x x
I saw that one on youtube...I was crying almost all the time :\'(
And its as you said, such a waste of a life and talent :-\\
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I miss Heath like crazy and wish that we could have had him for years to come, but I just can't call it a waste of a life and talent, because his life was so full, and he didn't waste even a minute of it. And the talent he shared with us during his too short life was breathtaking and inspiring. As much as we want him with us now, I still can't help being grateful for the time he was here and the gifts that he left us.
:ghug: to everyone.
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I miss Heath like crazy and wish that we could have had him for years to come, but I just can't call it a waste of a life and talent, because his life was so full, and he didn't waste even a minute of it. And the talent he shared with us during his too short life was breathtaking and inspiring. As much as we want him with us now, I still can't help being grateful for the time he was here and the gifts that he left us.
:ghug: to everyone.
I didnt mean that it was a waste of a life and talent, even if it sounded like that. I'm so happy for the things he did in his life and I know that he didnt waste a minute of it. He lived in the now and didnt care much about tomorrow,or thats what I think and thats what made him so great.
And I will always be grateful for all the wonderful things he did in his life <^(
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We still have "The Imaginarium Of Dr Parnassuss" to wait for... :ghug: :ghug:
oh yeah, that's right!! :)
I thought that Johnny Deep was replacing him completely, but I just read somewhere in the forum, that he is going to appear in the movie after all <^( It would have been awful otherwise.
But thank you so much, it really helps to remember that. :) Can't wait to see it, even though it is going to be really hard.
Just listened to "here comes the sun" by The Beatles and it always makes me think of Heath.
:ghug: to everyone here, you're all great.
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This is my understanding of how it will be -- though I don't always retain all the details perfectly and I'm sure others know more precisely than I do.
Heath finished all the parts of before he goes into this "magic mirror" thing, and the other actors are taking his parts of on the other side of the "mirror." So that's why I think it serendipitously worked out as well as possible under the circumstances. And it makes it unique, as if it could really have been written like that.
kathy
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I miss Heath like crazy and wish that we could have had him for years to come, but I just can't call it a waste of a life and talent, because his life was so full, and he didn't waste even a minute of it. And the talent he shared with us during his too short life was breathtaking and inspiring. As much as we want him with us now, I still can't help being grateful for the time he was here and the gifts that he left us.
:ghug: to everyone.
I am with you all the way, :ghug: FlwrChild. I am forever grateful. :ghug: and I am trying to not miss Heath so much, but ... better love enough to hurt, than not feeling anything at all.
The weekend with db and Ethan and tpe and romeo helped me to find a new normal...one where the candle burning for Heath and Ennis isn't hidden anymore, but ready for sharing with anyone who wants a bit of the flame. And sharing makes it easier.
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I am with you all the way, :ghug: FlwrChild. I am forever grateful. :ghug: and I am trying to not miss Heath so much, but ... better love enough to hurt, than not feeling anything at all.
The weekend with db and Ethan and tpe and romeo helped me to find a new normal...one where the candle burning for Heath and Ennis isn't hidden anymore, but ready for sharing with anyone who wants a bit of the flame. And sharing makes it easier.
I am so glad for you, LC. You already were a big, sharing part of this forum, but now that you've spent time together with wonderful Brokies... New normal, yes, that's what we have to find and learn.
kathy
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Oh damn... I just watched the E! special on youtube, first time I saw it, and it made me so sad. :\'(
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Oh damn... I just watched the E! special on youtube, first time I saw it, and it made me so sad. :\'(
Keren :ghug: :ghug:
Its very had to watch it, but they say alot of good and wonderful things about him.
But the line thats describe exactly how I felt when I found out that he was gone is "my heart drooped, I felt sick inside" (I don't what the mans name is) and I still have the moments when I feel sick thinking that he is gone...that he will never see him little girl again... :\'( :\'(
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Thanks Em. I feel that way too. :ghug:
I just watched this tribute video. The quality of the footage is really low but god, his smiles... when his face break out in a smile it's like the sun shining.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqcBeyrkqpo&feature=related
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Thanks Em. I feel that way too. :ghug:
I just watched this tribute video. The quality of the footage is really low but god, his smiles... when his face break out in a smile it's like the sun shining.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqcBeyrkqpo&feature=related
Oh god I know...I miss his smile, I miss everything about him :\'( :\'(
It doesnt matter if the quality is bad because his smile lites up the video <^(
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although I was gassed to see TDK I'm not sure where I stand on the Parnassius yet hell I still havent watched the Crow yet starring Brandon Lee as he died while filming that movie it makes it harder for me to separate when an actor dies while in the process of their work
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I’m feeling quite sad today.
In my office men are totally homophobic, and they always laugh at BBM. I’m mad most of times….Other times I just try to ignore them.
Tomorrow we’ll be able to see TDK here in Spain. FINALLY!!! And everyone is just talking about it. My boss is totally excited, and the rest of my co workers too.
They thought that Heath was so bad acting at BBM and they have not even seen the film…..But now they are saying that they have seen TDK trailers and a lot of stuff, and read reviews and things, and they think that Heath is gonna be awesome, that he’s gonna be the best Joker ever, that he deserves the Oscar….And this things they were saying gave me wings, and I started to talk an awful lot about Heath these last days, about his acting and about how great he was.
But today we were talking about him, and my boss said that it was such stupid thing that he died so young because of his crazy things…..I got sooooo mad just in a second, and I went ballistic because I was not going to admit again that shit about him being a junkie. I started to say that it was all a terrible accident, but they started to laugh and said “accident my ass, he was a junkie, he took like 20 pills and…”, and I just didn’t let them to end!! I was like what? 20 pills? What the f***? And I started to explain what it was what truly happened. They listened to me all quiet (I couldn’t believe it) and then when I finished my boss said: “anyway, Tammy, it doesn’t mind if it was 4 or 20 pills, or if he was a junkie or not. He was totally crazy”. It was like a punch in my guts. I was breathless and before I remembered how to speak again, all my co workers started to agree with my boss, saying that he was so right, Heath was totally crazy and it was very obvious….
I tried to calm myself….tried to not sound hard, to be patient and I said I didn’t agree, I said he was a genius, and I asked why they all were so sure that Heath was crazy…and then, breath and sit down please friends, they said Heath was crazy because he was Australian, and all Australian people are crazy, especially the actors….
They went on and on, and I was so stunned that I left without saying anything else. I never thought that my boss and co workers were so ignorant, close minded, and again ignorant and ignorant and and and…
Crazy because you born in Australia? That’s totally stupid!! ^*) ^*) ^*)
So now in my office all those people I spend 11 hours with everyday are gonna say to me several days a week (like always) that Heath was not only a junkie but he was crazy too.
Great. I’m feeling so down now. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to stay in the same room with all those blind people. They are crazy, not Heath.
This hurts so bad. I can't even start to tell you how I was feeling all evening at work. I bet they think I’m crazy too.
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Tammy, honey :ghug: :ghug:
That was one of the most stupid things I have ever heard, crazy because he comes from Australia..wtf??!
He was FAR from crazy!!!
I have had the moments when I have explain to people that his death was an accident, I don't know how many times the people I explained it to said "yeah whatever" and I know its hard to try and stay calm when that happens, you just get so angry that you don't know what to do.
But one time I said "so if someone that you love was found dead and everybody said that he/she took alot of pills and was a drug addict and you knew that wasn't the truth, what would you do?" He didn't say anything, he just walked away....
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I’m feeling quite sad today.
In my office men are totally homophobic, and they always laugh at BBM. I’m mad most of times….Other times I just try to ignore them.
Tomorrow we’ll be able to see TDK here in Spain. FINALLY!!! And everyone is just talking about it. My boss is totally excited, and the rest of my co workers too.
They thought that Heath was so bad acting at BBM and they have not even seen the film…..But now they are saying that they have seen TDK trailers and a lot of stuff, and read reviews and things, and they think that Heath is gonna be awesome, that he’s gonna be the best Joker ever, that he deserves the Oscar….And this things they were saying gave me wings, and I started to talk an awful lot about Heath these last days, about his acting and about how great he was.
But today we were talking about him, and my boss said that it was such stupid thing that he died so young because of his crazy things…..I got sooooo mad just in a second, and I went ballistic because I was not going to admit again that shit about him being a junkie. I started to say that it was all a terrible accident, but they started to laugh and said “accident my ass, he was a junkie, he took like 20 pills and…”, and I just didn’t let them to end!! I was like what? 20 pills? What the f***? And I started to explain what it was what truly happened. They listened to me all quiet (I couldn’t believe it) and then when I finished my boss said: “anyway, Tammy, it doesn’t mind if it was 4 or 20 pills, or if he was a junkie or not. He was totally crazy”. It was like a punch in my guts. I was breathless and before I remembered how to speak again, all my co workers started to agree with my boss, saying that he was so right, Heath was totally crazy and it was very obvious….
I tried to calm myself….tried to not sound hard, to be patient and I said I didn’t agree, I said he was a genius, and I asked why they all were so sure that Heath was crazy…and then, breath and sit down please friends, they said Heath was crazy because he was Australian, and all Australian people are crazy, especially the actors….
They went on and on, and I was so stunned that I left without saying anything else. I never thought that my boss and co workers were so ignorant, close minded, and again ignorant and ignorant and and and…
Crazy because you born in Australia? That’s totally stupid!! ^*) ^*) ^*)
So now in my office all those people I spend 11 hours with everyday are gonna say to me several days a week (like always) that Heath was not only a junkie but he was crazy too.
Great. I’m feeling so down now. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to stay in the same room with all those blind people. They are crazy, not Heath.
This hurts so bad. I can't even start to tell you how I was feeling all evening at work. I bet they think I’m crazy too.
take a deep breath Tammy :ghug: and dont feel the need to explain anything intellectual with morons Heath's death was an ACCIDENT plain and simple how many of us have over indulged doing something we thought was for the best and turned into a mistake unfortunately for Heath his mistake was TRAGICALLY FATAL, and as for the homophobes please rest assured I know a few in the hood who talk crap about BBM being that gay movie until I break it down that not only was this movie seen by millions, one of those was the rap icon Jay-Z you should see the looks on their faces priceless ;Dcuz you cant be more of a mans mans than Jay-Z look who he married Beyonce ;)
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Tammy, I'm really sorry that you had to endure those awful words from your work colleagues...its hard to believe that people believe things like that - saying he's crazy because he came from Australia is what's crazy...that makes no rational sense... *^)
Just hold on to what you believe and know that we all feel the same way as you do.... :ghug:
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Tammy, I am sorry to read that it upset you so much...some people are just ignorant and don't want to know better..I pity them!
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Tammy :ghug: - I am really sorry to hear that you had to go through this. Human being can be so cruel sometimes. Just ignore and forgive them. At least you stood up for it and have tried.
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Hey sweetie, Jesus, what an ignorant fools at your office, no wonder you feel so upset. If they had said that to me, I would have knocked the living daylight out of their eyes, or I would just left, go home and let them sort things out for themselves. Don't let them get to you though, it's not worth it. I know it's hard to ignore them, maybe you can even demand that they don't talk about it anymore because it upsets you. Who cares what they think of that, a little respect to your co-worker is not a big thing to ask. If they think Australian people are crazy, they haven't met Dutch people yet..much more crazy...especially one called Marj ;)
Well, you know all about that of course, good thing for them, I'm not a famous Dutch movie star. ^^)
But seriously, just ignore them, they don't know better. And we can't expect everybody feels the same way we do. BTW I heard on the radio today that the investigation of Heath's death is completed and his death was an ACCIDENT. So if they believe otherwise, they are just plain stupid.
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god thats disgusting and crazy,
tammy.... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
im a bit stunned to say mcuh and everone else has took the words out of my mouth anyway but god...how crazy can people get so blind and foolish
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Some people are so ignorant they never cease to amaze me. On a lighter note, I came across an article last night about when Jake was filming his movie The Brothers. Not long before Heath passed, - In an intense early prison scene, Gyllenhaal jokingly reached into his pocket and took out a picture of his brokeback beau to stick on the prison wall. "Like those prisoners put (loved ones) but Jake's was Heath Ledger", one set source recalls. "That was a nice moment." Their friendship was awesome.
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Some people are so ignorant they never cease to amaze me. On a lighter note, I came across an article last night about when Jake was filming his movie The Brothers. Not long before Heath passed, - In an intense early prison scene, Gyllenhaal jokingly reached into his pocket and took out a picture of his brokeback beau to stick on the prison wall. "Like those prisoners put (loved ones) but Jake's was Heath Ledger", one set source recalls. "That was a nice moment." Their friendship was awesome.
id love to read that article! any idea where i might find it?
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OH, Tammy, darlin', don't let the bastards get you down! Just laugh in their faces. They're too stupid to take so seriously. If they persist in saying all Aussies are crazy, just say, "Well, it takes one to know one!"
You know what Heath was and still is, so who gives a shit what your co-workers have to say. They are miserable, puling ignoramuses, and they CAN'T HURT YOU! Don't give them that power over you! You are too wonderful, sweet and kind to have to listen to their ignorant crap!
Cheer up, Tammy! We are all behind you! We love you, and we know our favorite Aussie was anything but crazy!
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id love to read that article! any idea where i might find it?
Here's the link to entire article:
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20174820,00.html
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So now in my office all those people I spend 11 hours with everyday are gonna say to me several days a week (like always) that Heath was not only a junkie but he was crazy too.
Great. I’m feeling so down now. I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to stay in the same room with all those blind people. They are crazy, not Heath.
This hurts so bad. I can't even start to tell you how I was feeling all evening at work. I bet they think I’m crazy too.
:ghug: Tammy :ghug: please don't let other people's ignorance become your problem.
First of all, it doesn't matter what they think of Heath. Even if the whole of Spain think as they do, Heath would still be the man that he was, and more and more people are learning just how great he was.
Second of all, for your own sake, whenever they talk about Heath, just turn up your music player, and ignore them. That's what I do. Ignorant people do not deserve my attention. There was a clown in the office once, who said the same thing about Heath, the day he died, that he was .... I just ignored him from that day forward. We can choose our friends. Just be professional at work, and they can say nothing about you. When they try to get your goat, smile and change the subject. I always try to remember the lyrics of my favorite song: My Wish, by Rascal Flatts:
"...if it's cold outside,
show the world
the warmth of your smile,..."
It's easier when I can think of Heath's smile, in Brokeback, in A Knight's Tale...
Finally, amiga :ghug: just for being you. :ghug:
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Big big :ghug: What a ridiculous group of people you work with, Tammy, and what a wonderful group of friends we have here. <^(
I have been frustrated too when people start to talk about what happened, usually from some tabloid report they heard, and spout inaccurate information. It always makes me feel better on the occasions when they actually listen when I give them the facts. For the ones who won't, we just have to steel ourselves to ignore them and remember that there will always be ignorant people in our midst and we can only do so much to help them be more informed, better people. The fact that you work with these people and have to be around them all day makes this one an extra challenge for you, so I'm giving you some extra :ghug: :ghug: for support.
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oh tammy... that is really upsetting. :ghug:
but yes, as long as we here stay together let others say their stupid thing... >:(
i received a dvd from australia yesterday, from a friend, 30 min broadcast TV Heath story of his life...
it may have been a bit "TV" and gossipy.. but just looking at his pictures, moments from his movies, quotes from interviews...
i was crying..
and i really had thought to be over it - i often think of him. but never cried again...
until last night.... :\'(
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Thank you so much my dear friends. Love you all so much. <^( :ghug: :^^)
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Tammy, I can only repeat what others have said here before me. I know it must have been terrible for you to hear people talking about Heath this way... but they're stupid and ignorant and they don't know nothing about him. Don't let them hurt you. :ghug: :ghug:
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although I was gassed to see TDK I'm not sure where I stand on the Parnassius yet hell I still havent watched the Crow yet starring Brandon Lee as he died while filming that movie it makes it harder for me to separate when an actor dies while in the process of their work
I know what you mean, I feel the same way. I have never watched that movie either for the same reason.
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I never got around to seeing The Crow either. Kept thinking I would, but didn't want to right away and then the time just passed. But since the circumstances there were so different, I guess I felt differently about it. Heath's death had nothing to do with Parnassus, so I don't think I could stay away even if I wanted to.
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I never got around to seeing The Crow either. Kept thinking I would, but didn't want to right away and then the time just passed. But since the circumstances there were so different, I guess I felt differently about it. Heath's death had nothing to do with Parnassus, so I don't think I could stay away even if I wanted to.
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That's true. I keep thinking about how years from now a new generation will be watching his films and appreciate how special and talented he was. Like now when I watch James Dean in those 3 great films he made, I'm in awe of how unique he was too. Heath will also live on in his wonderful work.
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Here's the link to entire article:
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20174820,00.html
thanks :) its a lovely and sad article...
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thanks :) its a lovely and sad article...
Yeah, I thought what he did with the pic was very sweet.. brought a :) to my face and a :\'( to my eye at the same time.
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oh tammy... that is really upsetting. :ghug:
but yes, as long as we here stay together let others say their stupid thing... >:(
i received a dvd from australia yesterday, from a friend, 30 min broadcast TV Heath story of his life...
it may have been a bit "TV" and gossipy.. but just looking at his pictures, moments from his movies, quotes from interviews...
i was crying..
and i really had thought to be over it - i often think of him. but never cried again...
until last night.... :\'(
:ghug: tizi :ghug: I have learned to embrace the tears when they come, sometimes when I least expect them. I think of them as tears of love, so I welcome them with my soul wide open. We are the lucky ones, to still feel the love for Heath, no matter how long time has past. Like you, I also find that I don't cry all the time, while thinking of Heath. Sometimes, I am just happy to have known his work, his life. And whenever I need to, I think of his smile, as Ennis, as Will Thatcher, as Harry, as himself, and the cold world can be as cold as ice, and I still feel warm, warm enough to share. :ghug:
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:ghug: tizi :ghug: I have learned to embrace the tears when they come, sometimes when I least expect them. I think of them as tears of love, so I welcome them with my soul wide open. We are the lucky ones, to still feel the love for Heath, no matter how long time has past. Like you, I also find that I don't cry all the time, while thinking of Heath. Sometimes, I am just happy to have known his work, his life. And whenever I need to, I think of his smile, as Ennis, as Will Thatcher, as Harry, as himself, and the cold world can be as cold as ice, and I still feel warm, warm enough to share. :ghug:
thank you dear one for your kind and loving post... :ghug: ^f^
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Tammy :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
People can be so ignorant and close-minded, like you said and there is nothing really we can do about it. Everyone here in support of Heath, has probably went through the same thing, where people have thought Heath was messed up, doing pills or shooting up heorine, all those false rumors. You don't know how many times I've had to try and fight back, whether it was a good friend of mine or just somebody random in my class. The important thing to know is that you know the truth, how influentutial and loving Heath was and even if your co-workers don't agree with you now, there might come a time when one of them regrets saying those comments, because you spoke up. Heath was a great man, and we can just wish that one day, everyone will finally realize that as well..
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Now that I have seen TDK, I know for sure that this movie had NOTHING to do with Heath's tragic passing.
Every scene he's in in the movie reeks with his joie de vivre. Despite the vileness of the Joker, Heath was loving this experience. He was freed up; he finally had a role that he could mold in any direction he wanted because the Joker was so totally unbound by any human rules or strictures. I really believe Heath loved playing this character, and I can see NO evidence at all that this could have contributed to his depression or illness. I think that's just BS some media nerds cooked up to sell more press. If for no other reason than that, I am glad I saw the movie because now I know his death was not attributable in any way to this film or this role. He was truly at the height of his career. God bless our boy!
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I was just wondering what this world would be like if each of us could touch just one person the way Heath has touched million/bill.
Katharine Hepburn once said in an interview when asked what made her a great actress.
"I don't know what it is. Some kind of electricity or something. But I got it."
I think that sums up Heath Ledger nicely....boy did he ever have it.
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Tammy :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
If people start to speak stupid and nasty things about Heath, I just ignore it, let it go over. I'm in very fortunate situation, cos' people around me don't even speak much about Heath, for example where I work.
I just finished reading John McShane's book Heath Ledger - his beautiful life and mysterious death, and this book was very nice to read because it doesn't speak about Heath in a nasty way at all. Instead it tells about his career and making different movies very nice and interesting way, and about his death tells only the facts about prescribed drugs which were found. Nothing scandalous, nothing exaggeration. When I read about the wake Heath's family held at the Indiana Tea House at Cottesloe Beach near Perth, one of Heath's favourite places, I had teary eyes but was smiling at the same time. The event was so beautiful and if you can use word "happy" in this context, happy too. Some family members and friends went down to the beach and entered the surf. The author ends this chapter: " The sun sank slowly in the distance, casting a beautiful pink glow as the sound of laughter travelled across the sands that he had known and loved for so long: it was a fitting end to a brief, but astonishingly full life - a finale that Heath Ledger would no doubt have approved of."
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All I can say, it's not getting easier as I thought.. I feel the sadness, now, even more then before .
Heath, I swear.... :\'(
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All I can say, it's not getting easier as I thought.. I feel the sadness, now, even more then before .
Heath, I swear.... :\'(
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I know how you feel, its the same way for me.
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I finally saw The Dark Knight today and it hit me so much I can't stop crying again. He was so great, so unigue. I cannot get his image out of my eyes, still seeing him, crying at the destiny's unjustice. That is just not fair. He was just so talented. He totally blown me away. He stole my every sight, my every thought, my every feeling as the Joker. It was a real masterpiece I was witnessing and the pain of him unable to shoot any other movie in the future is just too much to bear.
I feel such love, such deep frustrating painful love for him. No release for me, no release from pain.
I must tell it to you, darling once again. I love you so much, Dear darling, I am so unhappy and heartached. I wish nothing but you coming back and LIVE.
I feel like again being in the place of no hope, no relief. You gone, your beautiful person, being, gone forever. It is just so tragical. The world seems so dark, so helpless now, I am lost in love and pain. I am crying forever and never stops crying for you, Heath angel.
I will never undestand the ways of fate. You have been taken. It shouldn't have been. All I know with my entire being that you shouldn't have died in your prime. It is not RIGHT, I will never understand it.
And I love you, even more now, my love is not fading with you being gone. I feel like I have never ever loved any actor more than I love you now.
Sleep well, my love, I cannot.
Your Ennis, your Joker will never be forgotten.
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I was just wondering what this world would be like if each of us could touch just one person the way Heath has touched million/bill.
Katharine Hepburn once said in an interview when asked what made her a great actress.
"I don't know what it is. Some kind of electricity or something. But I got it."
I think that sums up Heath Ledger nicely....boy did he ever have it.
He sure did. That was beautifully said. :)
hpv, em, Nikita big big :ghug: :ghug:
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I finally saw The Dark Knight today and it hit me so much I can't stop crying again. He was so great, so unigue. I cannot get his image out of my eyes, still seeing him, crying at the destiny's unjustice. That is just not fair. He was just so talented. He totally blown me away. He stole my every sight, my every thought, my every feeling as the Joker. It was a real masterpiece I was witnessing and the pain of him unable to shoot any other movie in the future is just too much to bear.
I feel such love, such deep frustrating painful love for him. No release for me, no release from pain.
I must tell it to you, darling once again. I love you so much, Dear darling, I am so unhappy and heartached. I wish nothing but you coming back and LIVE.
I feel like again being in the place of no hope, no relief. You gone, your beautiful person, being, gone forever. It is just so tragical. The world seems so dark, so helpless now, I am lost in love and pain. I am crying forever and never stops crying for you, Heath angel.
I will never undestand the ways of fate. You have been taken. It shouldn't have been. All I know with my entire being that you shouldn't have died in your prime. It is not RIGHT, I will never understand it.
And I love you, even more now, my love is not fading with you being gone. I feel like I have never ever loved any actor more than I love you now.
Sleep well, my love, I cannot.
Your Ennis, your Joker will never be forgotten.
So Beautiful.. I'm :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh sweet darlin nikita come sit by the fire with us.
We will watch the moon rise and share a drink or three and talk of the love we have shared.
We will make it through this night together.
And when the sun comes round again my hope is for you, for us all, to find that love still waiting there.
Thank you, I am so sad.
It is morning here and my thoughts are with him. My mum looks at me and saying I am stupid that I cry for an actor. Surely you went hrough this. OMG, but it is so hard to let him go. He was so talented. For now I wish he was someone like Orlando Bloom, only dull pretty face, no talent whatsoever. It would hurt much less.
The Joker - I am a devoted co-criminal forever :\'(
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Nikita, baby, come here!!! :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
You made me cry so bad. I understand you so well.
(((hug you tight)))
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Dear Nikita, your post makes me cry :\'(...I don't know what to say because, I have also seen "The dark knight" and I can't accept a so wonderful actor will no more make movies :(. He was too young to die, life is too cruel.... Sorry my dear but I can't say in english all the thoughts I wish explain because I am french....But I give you a big :ghug:
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Oh sweet darlin nikita come sit by the fire with us.
We will watch the moon rise and share a drink or three and talk of the love we have shared.
We will make it through this night together.
And when the sun comes round again my hope is for you, for us all, to find that love still waiting there.
Dear Ranchand, may I share a drink with you too while the moon'll rise ??? :ghug:
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In Heath's memory....
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Dear Heath, I give you a present : all the brokies's love for you, all our memories for you, all our veneration for you, all of our gratitude for yo, all of our endless pain for you, we miss you too much :\'( :\'(
Heath, I hope you are peaceful where you are ^f^
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I finally saw The Dark Knight today and it hit me so much I can't stop crying again. He was so great, so unigue. I cannot get his image out of my eyes, still seeing him, crying at the destiny's unjustice. That is just not fair. He was just so talented. He totally blown me away. He stole my every sight, my every thought, my every feeling as the Joker. It was a real masterpiece I was witnessing and the pain of him unable to shoot any other movie in the future is just too much to bear.
I feel such love, such deep frustrating painful love for him. No release for me, no release from pain.
I must tell it to you, darling once again. I love you so much, Dear darling, I am so unhappy and heartached. I wish nothing but you coming back and LIVE.
I feel like again being in the place of no hope, no relief. You gone, your beautiful person, being, gone forever. It is just so tragical. The world seems so dark, so helpless now, I am lost in love and pain. I am crying forever and never stops crying for you, Heath angel.
I will never undestand the ways of fate. You have been taken. It shouldn't have been. All I know with my entire being that you shouldn't have died in your prime. It is not RIGHT, I will never understand it.
And I love you, even more now, my love is not fading with you being gone. I feel like I have never ever loved any actor more than I love you now.
Sleep well, my love, I cannot.
Your Ennis, your Joker will never be forgotten.
Nikita, what can I say, I know how you feel so well... :\'( :\'( :\'(
Hold on :ghug: :ghug:
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I am here, dear Brokies, I know I appear once in a while and cry here desperately maybe ruining your acceptance.
I thought I was OK about his passing, but I am not. I am maybe at odds with higher power but I feel like I will never make peace with his death.
Anybody feel it like I do?
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Anybody feel it like I do?
Everyone feels like you, baby. :ghug: :ghug:
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I thought I was OK about his passing, but I am not. I am maybe at odds with higher power but I feel like I will never make peace with his death.
Anybody feel it like I do?
Yes.
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I am here, dear Brokies, I know I appear once in a while and cry here desperately maybe ruining your acceptance.
I thought I was OK about his passing, but I am not. I am maybe at odds with higher power but I feel like I will never make peace with his death.
Anybody feel it like I do?
A little bit. Sometimes it sneaks up on me and I have what I firfst think is a fleeting thought, but then the tears come and the same heartache is there. I think it was flwrchild that told me some time ago that these feelings of BBM and Heath and Ennis and Jack would be with me for a long time. She was so right. But I think we will both eventually make peace, the heartache will diminish hopefully to the point that we can remember and smile and just say we miss you. Maybe.
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone
I understand how you all feel. Sometimes you just want to dissapear and not feel the pain and I don't know if that will ever change. In a way I hope it does because I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of feeling empty, I'm tired of feeling like someone just ripped my heart out. But why do I feel this way? I think its because Heath mean so much to me and if these feelings started to go away is that a sign that I don't care as much about his as I once did?
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I think it's a human defence mechanism, that allows you to put things behind you and move on, because life has to go on. Grief is a process. Even if you never forget, the sharp pain fades after some time, it's just the way human nature works. But it takes different time for different people, that's something you can't control.
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I agree with Keren. Letting the more intense grief go doesn't mean you don't care. It's just part of the healing process. And the timeline for healing is as individual for each of us as we are individual ourselves. I don't think there will ever be a time when certain images or the sound of his voice in a particular interview or movie won't have the power to bring a tear to my eye, but I do think that with time, that jagged pain goes away and leaves a melancholy smile in its place.
I will always be grateful to have been a part of the time he was here and shining so bright, and I will always be grateful for knowing all of you. :ghug:
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:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone
I understand how you all feel. Sometimes you just want to dissapear and not feel the pain and I don't know if that will ever change. In a way I hope it does because I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of feeling empty, I'm tired of feeling like someone just ripped my heart out. But why do I feel this way? I think its because Heath mean so much to me and if these feelings started to go away is that a sign that I don't care as much about his as I once did?
:ghug: Emzan :ghug: It will get better, not because we don't care as much as before.
For me, the pain and anguish of losing Heath was like losing hope and dreams, almost turning to despair. The friendships and support in the forum helped me to realize that death is just a horizon from our point of view, and there is more beyond when the time comes. Meanwhile, our hopes and dreams carry on, especially the hopes and dreams attached to the people we miss...because they are honored and remembered through our struggle to change our stars, making our hopes and dreams come true.
The pain will go away, because we learn that, life is bittersweet, and after the bitterness, we can savor the sweetness, because that's what Heath always wanted for the people in his life. :ghug: :^^)
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Darned if that doesn't bring a tear to my eye.
Well said Lancecowboy...
Although someone will run up every once in a while and rip the scab off and poke at the wound with a sharp stick.
"Old Brokeback got us good. And it sure ain't over"
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Fortunately, when that happens, we can always come here and find a shoulder to lean on. :ghug:
And I believe in what a character in Latter Days said - we really do have an inherent ability to heal.
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Fortunately, when that happens, we can always come here and find a shoulder to lean on. :ghug:
And I believe in what a character in Latter Days said - we really do have an inherent ability to heal.
Yup. I love that movie, and Lila.
If anyone wants to watch it, I found some links to watch it on youtube. Just PM me, and I will send you the URL.
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I agree with Keren. Letting the more intense grief go doesn't mean you don't care. It's just part of the healing process. And the timeline for healing is as individual for each of us as we are individual ourselves. I don't think there will ever be a time when certain images or the sound of his voice in a particular interview or movie won't have the power to bring a tear to my eye, but I do think that with time, that jagged pain goes away and leaves a melancholy smile in its place.
I will always be grateful to have been a part of the time he was here and shining so bright, and I will always be grateful for knowing all of you. :ghug:
This is so true. BBM was so extraordinary on so many levels, not the least of which was to have Heath be a part of our lives "when he was shining so bright." I wouldn't have missed it for the world. But I sure am not reconciled to his being gone...
kathy
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i'm mixing threads here a bit but..
i am going to see TDK tonight, it's premiere all over mitteleuropa. ok about that. but..
i wnet into a shop this morning to get some breakfast.. and all over the place there were magazines and newspapers with THE JOKER as front title... ever so many, it was impressive..
and i stood there, looking around incredulous... and then i started to cry. just to see Heath's face all around, joker or not... it was simply too much for me. :\'(
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Mornin from the midwest tizi17
Its been the same here. Hard to walk by the huge billboards and not get that lump in the throat.
Your gonna love it though. Go see it. Twice!
I look forward to read your responce when you return.
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yes i will, thank you. it's just a pity it's in german.. but i will find the chance to see it in english..
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7 months already :(
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I can't believe it !
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7 months ! :\'(
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I can't believe it !
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Sometimes there are just no words. :\'(
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Sometimes there are just no words. :\'(
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http://wearethemasses.com/dedicationheath/index.html
Edit to add: This is a video that Heath's friends from The Masses made in his memory. It's amazingly beautiful and contains videos and photos that we've never seen before... prepare tissues.
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Oh Keren this is just beautiful. Its so moving to watch......you could just see how much he loved so many other things outside of acting, and how much he immersed himself in them. He looked beautiful in the opening shot, and that voice.... <^( <^( <^( <^(
This is really beautiful tribute to a gorgeous and talented man.....sad and wonderful to watch....thanks so much for posting it. :)
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Amazing and beautiful. Thank you so much. :ghug:
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http://wearethemasses.com/dedicationheath/index.html
Edit to add: This is a video that Heath's friends from The Masses made in his memory. It's amazingly beautiful and contains videos and photos that we've never seen before... prepare tissues.
*Picture edited by the moderating team in keeping with forum policy not to post any pictures of Matilda at all, out of deference to Heath and Michelle’s wishes to respect her privacy. Thank you for your understanding.*
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Couldnt get through it dry eyed.
Id love to celebrate his life but its hard to get past the loss.
Thank you keren
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and as i beelive this is not only a new amazing shot of heath but also the first non-pap pic of matilda!
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Heath looks so beautiful here!! <^( <^( I love how bright his eyes are!!
Thank you so much for this Keren. It's really special and moving. I adore his voice and all those pics I've never seen.
Such a shame....
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Wonderful picture of Heath <^(
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http://wearethemasses.com/dedicationheath/index.html
Edit to add: This is a video that Heath's friends from The Masses made in his memory. It's amazingly beautiful and contains videos and photos that we've never seen before... prepare tissues.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us,Keren¡ :^^) It's another proof of Heath's immense talent,and also of the immensity of his loose.He had such a short life and,however,has leave a very deep influence in so many persons.What a pity¡. :\'(
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He seems such a responsible and loving father¡. His eyes speaks volumes here¡.Wonderful pic indeed... :\'(
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This picture is just so beautiful, and the expression of love in his eyes for Matilda is so clear..... :(
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I already posted this on the Summer Olympics thread, but thought it would be nice to be posted here.
Someone posted this on their live journal.
Our young Australian team of Gymnasts have given a name to each of their leotards in a way of identifying them. They have the 'Sugar Glider', the 'Bush Fire', the 'Great Barrier Reef' amongst others. They also have one called 'Heath' in memory of him. “The top of the leotard has gold swirls on it, reminding us of Heath’s curly hair,” one of the gymnasts said.
Here's a picture of one of the Australian gymnasts performing at the Beijing olympics - wearing the leotard named in Heath's memory.
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christie, what a beautiful way to honor him. <^( Thank you for posting that.
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thats a gorgeouse thing to do.
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For the last month, I tried to focus on Ennis
And not feel the loss of you
But no matter how hard I try
There is always something that reminds me
You left a legacy that will live long after you
And the sadness returns with the tears
I have learned in the past week
To embrace that sadness
To let it drive me in living Brokeback again
I am glad to be reminded
When I watch videos of you
And rejoice in the tears that come
You are forever loved.
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It's wonderful,Andrew,and just the way we feel about Heath; even if we want to "disguise" his loss by focusing in his work,anything can remind us of him.Not as an actor,but as a person,as a good,kind and intelligent person each one of us has lost a little bit. :\'(
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I've already mentioned I'm reading a biography about Heath these days. I love reading things that he said, and things that other people said about him... it's like I'm getting to know him a little bit more, in little ways. I discover again and again how intelligent he was, the unique way of his thinking, how many interests and hobbies and ambitions and dreams he had... so many things he loved, so many things he wanted to do. It's like the wonders of the world had no end for him, and he had so many talents. The way I see it he was so brave, he made many couragious choices in life. How many people give up on their dreams in life because it seems too difficult? Heath made a decision to chase his dreams, to live his life to the fullest. He's an inspiration for me. I'm 32 and he was 28 and I look at my life, and at his life, and I'm amazed at how richer and fuller his life was. He achieved so much more than I will ever be able to. There's one sentence that he said - "I get a lot of joy and pleasure out of life, full stop." How many people can say that about their life? Can I say that about mine? I don't kid myself that it was all a garden of roses, I know he had hard times too, but when asked, he said that he had no regrets in life. Isn't that wonderful, to look back on your life and have no regrets? It gives me comfort somehow, to know that as short as his life was, he trully lived them. In every possible way. It really inspires me to try and live my life a little more like him. Thank you, Heath.
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For the last month, I tried to focus on Ennis
And not feel the loss of you
But no matter how hard I try
There is always something that reminds me
You left a legacy that will live long after you
And the sadness returns with the tears
I have learned in the past week
To embrace that sadness
To let it drive me in living Brokeback again
I am glad to be reminded
When I watch videos of you
And rejoice in the tears that come
You are forever loved.
That's beautiful Andrew... Embrace the sadness. It hurts because we love him. :ghug:
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He achieved so much more than I will ever be able to. There's one sentence that he said - "I get a lot of joy and pleasure out of life, full stop." How many people can say that about their life? Can I say that about mine? I don't kid myself that it was all a garden of roses, I know he had hard times too, but when asked, he said that he had no regrets in life. Isn't that wonderful, to look back on your life and have no regrets? It gives me comfort somehow, to know that as short as his life was, he trully lived them. In every possible way. It really inspires me to try and live my life a little more like him. Thank you, Heath.
God, Keren, what a beautiful moving post. Thank you so much. I love every word and I totally agree with you.
Thank you, Heath.
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I've already mentioned I'm reading a biography about Heath these days. I love reading things that he said, and things that other people said about him... it's like I'm getting to know him a little bit more, in little ways. I discover again and again how intelligent he was, the unique way of his thinking, how many interests and hobbies and ambitions and dreams he had... so many things he loved, so many things he wanted to do. It's like the wonders of the world had no end for him, and he had so many talents. The way I see it he was so brave, he made many couragious choices in life. How many people give up on their dreams in life because it seems too difficult? Heath made a decision to chase his dreams, to live his life to the fullest. He's an inspiration for me. I'm 32 and he was 28 and I look at my life, and at his life, and I'm amazed at how richer and fuller his life was. He achieved so much more than I will ever be able to. There's one sentence that he said - "I get a lot of joy and pleasure out of life, full stop." How many people can say that about their life? Can I say that about mine? I don't kid myself that it was all a garden of roses, I know he had hard times too, but when asked, he said that he had no regrets in life. Isn't that wonderful, to look back on your life and have no regrets? It gives me comfort somehow, to know that as short as his life was, he trully lived them. In every possible way. It really inspires me to try and live my life a little more like him. Thank you, Heath.
What a truly beautiful post, Keren.....I agree with all that you said about Heath, he was amazing. And I know your words came from your heart..... ^f^ :^^)
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I've already mentioned I'm reading a biography about Heath these days. I love reading things that he said, and things that other people said about him... it's like I'm getting to know him a little bit more, in little ways. I discover again and again how intelligent he was, the unique way of his thinking, how many interests and hobbies and ambitions and dreams he had... so many things he loved, so many things he wanted to do. It's like the wonders of the world had no end for him, and he had so many talents. The way I see it he was so brave, he made many couragious choices in life. How many people give up on their dreams in life because it seems too difficult? Heath made a decision to chase his dreams, to live his life to the fullest. He's an inspiration for me. I'm 32 and he was 28 and I look at my life, and at his life, and I'm amazed at how richer and fuller his life was. He achieved so much more than I will ever be able to. There's one sentence that he said - "I get a lot of joy and pleasure out of life, full stop." How many people can say that about their life? Can I say that about mine? I don't kid myself that it was all a garden of roses, I know he had hard times too, but when asked, he said that he had no regrets in life. Isn't that wonderful, to look back on your life and have no regrets? It gives me comfort somehow, to know that as short as his life was, he trully lived them. In every possible way. It really inspires me to try and live my life a little more like him. Thank you, Heath.
Thank you for sharing this, Karen. I love the way you put it...his life was so rich and full...of interests, hobbies, ambitions, and dreams... Heath's life was meaningful because he made courageous decisions that made it meaningful...not just filled with riches and toys.
Thanks again Karen. I hope that I, too, will be able to live up to your following his example. :ghug: :^^)
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I like the way you put that, Keren. :)
And I think we all feel the same in one important way. We don't utterly idealize Heath (though I'm sure we romanticize him - we tend to romanticize everyone in our lives that we care about) but we admire the things about him that spoke to us. He didn't necessarily make perfect choices, but he made the choices that were right for him. He didn't follow the path that some people thought he should, but he followed the one that felt right to him. And when asked, he always said that he had no regrets in life, because everything he'd done before helped shape the person he became. This is indeed an inspiring philosophy to emulate. And I think it's a lot like the philosophies we've tried to promote here - that everyone is special for who they are and that it can only benefit all of us when any one of us leaves their own personal mark on the world we share.
Thank you for posting that. :ghug:
That's beautiful Andrew... Embrace the sadness. It hurts because we love him. :ghug:
What she said, Andrew. :^^)
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[...] We don't utterly idealize Heath (though I'm sure we romanticize him - we tend to romanticize everyone in our lives that we care about) but we admire the things about him that spoke to us. He didn't necessarily make perfect choices, but he made the choices that were right for him. [...]
I used to think love means perfection...but now I think love makes perfect even the imperfect. If that makes sense. Maybe a new song I found can help:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CHHeWRiypY - Journey South - All of You
It is not that Heath was perfect. My love for Heath comes from my admiration for all the qualities that I lack, and the gift of Ennis that changed the way I am. And from that love, I accept all of him, past, present, and future.
My love for Ennis is something different that I still have not quite figured out. It is more an instinctive embrace of the vulnerable child, the strong and silent man, the fears and doubts...all of him, and in a way, all of me, for I see so much of myself in that lonely figure leaning against the trailer, waiting.
And in that love which accepts with arms wide open, there is no expectations of what he should have done, should have been, what choices he should have made. He simply was. And I simply know, at this point, that he will always be remembered and loved.
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Beautiful song, just perfect, for Ennis and Jack, for all of us.
These guys are so lovely together. Before I knew they were brothers, I thought, what a hot couple!
And as always, Andrew, you express such beautiful, touching things so poetically.
kathy
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Beautiful song, just perfect, for Ennis and Jack, for all of us.
These guys are so lovely together. Before I knew they were brothers, I thought, what a hot couple!
And as always, Andrew, you express such beautiful, touching things so poetically.
kathy
Thanks, Kathy. I really love this song. At the moment, it's vying for being my favorite with a few others (Ben Folds - I am the Luckiest, among them).
Until I googled them, I had no idea who they were, then, like you said, I thought wow, yummy! :P
I am glad you like what I had to say. Thanks. :ghug: :^^)
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I like the way you put that, Keren. :)
And I think we all feel the same in one important way. We don't utterly idealize Heath (though I'm sure we romanticize him - we tend to romanticize everyone in our lives that we care about) but we admire the things about him that spoke to us. He didn't necessarily make perfect choices, but he made the choices that were right for him. He didn't follow the path that some people thought he should, but he followed the one that felt right to him. And when asked, he always said that he had no regrets in life, because everything he'd done before helped shape the person he became. This is indeed an inspiring philosophy to emulate. And I think it's a lot like the philosophies we've tried to promote here - that everyone is special for who they are and that it can only benefit all of us when any one of us leaves their own personal mark on the world we share.
Thank you for posting that. :ghug:
FC I've always said you have a way with words. Well spoken my friend. :^^) This is why we love him. <^(
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At Dogtown Skates in Venice, California
:\'(
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Oh Audrey :ghug:
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At Dogtown Skates in Venice, California
:\'(
Oh god, this really touches me. I hadn't thought about the people Heath got involved with in making LOD. More people whose lives he touched...
kathy
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At Dogtown Skates in Venice, California
:\'(
Thank you for posting it Audrey. Like his father said, Heath meant so much to so many people... :\'(
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I'm totally speechless here.... :\'( :\'(
Think if I were walking down the street and suddenly saw that I'd burst into a million pieces and I'd start to cry hard.
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Today in school we saw a movie about "don't drink and drive" and they played a song called "Jag Fick Låna En Ängel" (I Got To Borrow An Angel) and all I could think of was Heath when I heard that song. The movie was very sad and the song didn't make it better and I started to cry and with the song and everything I didn't know what to do so I just broke down in tears and everything just came out, Heath and other things and...I don't know, right now I feel empty. I keep looking at pictures of Heath and my eyes start to fill with tears and I just cant stop. It hurts so much that I cant breath sometimes :\'( :\'(
I translated the lyrics from Swedish to English if you're interested in the song
You smile to me one last time
You were so calm, like you had already left
You saw the I was scared
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
You gave me everything a heart can give
You still live inside of me
You said don't be scared
But tell me, how can anyone every be ready?
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
My angel
I got to borrow an angel
You spread your light in my life
In every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel
I got to borrow an angel
For a short time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=248Tlr2_ZBs
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Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel :\'( <^(
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I miss you so much! :\'(
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Today in school we saw a movie about "don't drink and drive" and they played a song called "Jag Fick Låna En Ängel" (I Got To Borrow An Angel) and all I could think of was Heath when I heard that song. The movie was very sad and the song didn't make it better and I started to cry and with the song and everything I didn't know what to do so I just broke down in tears and everything just came out, Heath and other things and...I don't know, right now I feel empty. I keep looking at pictures of Heath and my eyes start to fill with tears and I just cant stop. It hurts so much that I cant breath sometimes :\'( :\'(
Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel :\'( <^(
Oh Em... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I hope you had a friend there with you to give you a real hug.
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Oh Em... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I hope you had a friend there with you to give you a real hug.
:ghug: :ghug:
Yes I had my best friend there with me :) and the best thing about her is that I dont have to say what I'm feeling, she already knows
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It's good to have friends like that. :)
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it's harder everyday especialy when i see your wonderful smile in my photos with u and when i see u in ur movies i'm sad cause i kno i can't give your life back and everything it's too sad.i don't kno how i'm going to feel in the first month of 2009 on 22:(...miss u lil angel:((
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Today in school we saw a movie about "don't drink and drive" and they played a song called "Jag Fick Låna En Ängel" (I Got To Borrow An Angel) and all I could think of was Heath when I heard that song. The movie was very sad and the song didn't make it better and I started to cry and with the song and everything I didn't know what to do so I just broke down in tears and everything just came out, Heath and other things and...I don't know, right now I feel empty. I keep looking at pictures of Heath and my eyes start to fill with tears and I just cant stop. It hurts so much that I cant breath sometimes :\'( :\'(
I translated the lyrics from Swedish to English if you're interested in the song
You smile to me one last time
You were so calm, like you had already left
You saw the I was scared
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
You gave me everything a heart can give
You still live inside of me
You said don't be scared
But tell me, how can anyone every be ready?
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
My angel
I got to borrow an angel
You spread your light in my life
In every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel
I got to borrow an angel
For a short time
Emelie :ghug: That must have been hard, to be reminded of Heath and hearing the lyrics of the song, I can understand why...its good that you had your friend with you to comfort you :)
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Today in school we saw a movie about "don't drink and drive" and they played a song called "Jag Fick Låna En Ängel" (I Got To Borrow An Angel) and all I could think of was Heath when I heard that song. The movie was very sad and the song didn't make it better and I started to cry and with the song and everything I didn't know what to do so I just broke down in tears and everything just came out, Heath and other things and...I don't know, right now I feel empty. I keep looking at pictures of Heath and my eyes start to fill with tears and I just cant stop. It hurts so much that I cant breath sometimes :\'( :\'(
[...]Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel :\'( <^(
:ghug: Emzan :ghug: Thank you for posting the lyrics and the link. It's beautiful and brought tears to my eyes.
You are so fortunate to have your best friend with you...and also your angel. :ghug: :^^)
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Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel :\'( <^(
The song is so beautiful, and a beautiful way to think of it: We got to borrow an angel, for a short time...
kathy
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I've thought often of Heath the past days as I've looked at pictures of New York Fashion Week. I know he went to some of the designers' shows. I don't know at all, but I can imagine he was friends with some of these interesting new designers, and would go to support them, and because it's an odd and fascinating scene.
So...I was sorry not to see a pic of him in the front row, in his crazy sartorial splendor.
kathy
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I've thought often of Heath the past days as I've looked at pictures of New York Fashion Week. I know he went to some of the designers' shows. I don't know at all, but I can imagine he was friends with some of these interesting new designers, and would go to support them, and because it's an odd and fascinating scene.
So...I was sorry not to see a pic of him in the front row, in his crazy sartorial splendor.
kathy
I know what you mean, I think it was last year's Fashion Week that he went to with Michael Stipe. And I love the photos of him in Fashion Week a few years ago with Naomi and his sister... I wouldn't be surprised if he was friends with some of the designers, he had such a taste for any kind of art.
Every event that he used to attend makes me think about him, and mourn the fact that he's not there. I saw those photos of Anne Hathaway at the Toronto Film Festival and I emmidiately thought, "Heath should've been there". :(
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You smile to me one last time
You were so calm, like you had already left
You saw the I was scared
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
You gave me everything a heart can give
You still live inside of me
You said don't be scared
But tell me, how can anyone every be ready?
I got to borrow an angel
That spread their light in every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel for a short time
My angel
I got to borrow an angel
You spread your light in my life
In every breath
You were taken from me to soon
I got to borrow an angel
I got to borrow an angel
For a short time
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=248Tlr2_ZBs
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Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel :\'( <^(
Thanks,Emelie ^f^ :^^) Really,these lyrics have brought tears into my eyes and I really understand you felt so sad thinking about our sweet eyes angel... :\'( It's great to have a good friend to comfort you personally,even if all of us can give you some relief at distance,you know it... :ghug:
Heath was taken from us to soon, but he will always be our angel...
God¡ One of the deepest felt things I've read about Heath,and one of the most suitable too; because he will always be by our side,looking at us,and waiting for us until we finally are able to meet him again...
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it's harder everyday especialy when i see your wonderful smile in my photos with u and when i see u in ur movies i'm sad cause i kno i can't give your life back and everything it's too sad.i don't kno how i'm going to feel in the first month of 2009 on 22:(...miss u lil angel:((
Chrisy... :ghug: I know how you're feeling,all of us know it...But someone told once that,when we've lost a beloved person,we must be happy for the good moments he or she has given to us,not sad for those moments we won't never share again with them. :^^)
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from a UK Magazine so might be aload of Rubbish but i hope its not cos its a good idea
MICHELLES DADDY DIARY
Matilda, Michelle Williams' daughter with the late Heath Ledger, is turning into a heathly adventurous little girl, but she will prbably never remember her famous daddy
so her mum Michelle, is making her a 'Daddy album' that she can show the 2 year old when shes older
'its a box containing heaths movies, photos of Michelle and Heath and letters in Heaths writing, some are love letters to michelle from when they first started dating in 2004 and then some after Matilda was born in 2005.
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Heath wrote love letters to Michelle? God, he was the sweetest man ever.... <^( <^( <^(
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from a UK Magazine so might be aload of Rubbish but i hope its not cos its a good idea
MICHELLES DADDY DIARY
Matilda, Michelle Williams' daughter with the late Heath Ledger, is turning into a heathly adventurous little girl, but she will prbably never remember her famous daddy
so her mum Michelle, is making her a 'Daddy album' that she can show the 2 year old when shes older
'its a box containing heaths movies, photos of Michelle and Heath and letters in Heaths writing, some are love letters to michelle from when they first started dating in 2004 and then some after Matilda was born in 2005.
This is a wonderful thought, true or not, to know there is a box of memories of Heath, for Matilda to hold on to...like the two shirts for Ennis... <^( I swear <^(
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Like Michelle said, Matilda will grow up with the best memories of her daddy.
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from a UK Magazine so might be aload of Rubbish but i hope its not cos its a good idea
MICHELLES DADDY DIARY
Matilda, Michelle Williams' daughter with the late Heath Ledger, is turning into a heathly adventurous little girl, but she will prbably never remember her famous daddy
so her mum Michelle, is making her a 'Daddy album' that she can show the 2 year old when shes older
'its a box containing heaths movies, photos of Michelle and Heath and letters in Heaths writing, some are love letters to michelle from when they first started dating in 2004 and then some after Matilda was born in 2005.
That's wonderful from Michelle :clap:
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Like Michelle said, Matilda will grow up with the best memories of her daddy.
I quote ! :ghug:
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i saw a recent pic of the baby in my newspaper and lil matilda looks so fun loving and energetic and looks just like her father :-\\ people will be drawn to her as she gets older just like her dad
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The down-to-earth boy
who somehow sprouted wings to fly
Your talents took us with you
on a wild ride across the silver sky
Your loving compassion captured us
soul, heart, and forever
There is no turning back
from our journey together on love's road
There is only joy and tears
companions of soul's flight to Neverland
The sight of your face, the sound of your voice
the memories of you, enough to last for eternity
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8 months you are gone, 8 months still with us
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Just a moment in an ordinary day
I pause mid stride and don’t know why
out of nothing it seems, unbidden by me,
I feel a tear well up in my eye.
I stop to wonder why I’ve thought of you now,
your smile a picture in my mind.
No matter how I try, I don’t know how
to leave the memory of you behind.
Then it comes to me as I think of the day
and realize with a start
it’s the 22nd of another month
and I feel a jolt to my heart.
So I take a breath and move on with my day,
knowing you’ll be there in my thoughts all along.
Remembering someone with love in your heart
can simply never be wrong.
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Eight months without you here,but feeling you're a presence that looks after us from your new home...
Heath,I swear...
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Beautiful posts Andrew and FC :ghug: :\'(
:ghug: to everyone.
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On this, the eight month marker of the world being a lesser place, I felt compelled to write something, anything to purge myself of some of the sorrow the 22nd seems always to bring with it.
For Heath
Your life, sweet man, was a precious gift to the myriads you touched,
To all of us who cherish you and love you oh so much.
Your dear, sweet ways, your gentleness, your kindness knew no bounds,
Your brilliance and your beauty, they'd power to astound.
Consummate and gifted, beyond your years too wise,
Your heart, your mind, your very soul emanated from your eyes.
Your art brought joy into the world, it galvanized our hearts,
A gift to us I've treasured, right from the very start.
Your heady days of starting out...
I'm glad your life knew charm.
I pray you knew deep happiness,
And found a sense of calm.
I pray your heart of hearts rejoiced
In the blessings of your days,
And fathomed how much you were loved -
Much more than words can say.
Through jousting days and fairy tales,
Wyoming skies of blue,
Your life was blessed and touched by God
This, I know you knew.
In Gotham nights and sleepless times,
Your mind grew slowly jaded
I watched on broken-hearted
As your brown-green eyes, they faded.
Outwardly, you seemed forlorn, adrift upon an ocean
Of fearsome waves and undertows and darkening emotion.
But inwardly, I do have faith, that you remained unharmed...
The outside world could not seep through with Tilda in your arms.
In this, dear Heath, some small, small solace we can surely own,
To know that you had so much love, to know you weren't alone.
Thus we can reflect, sweet Heath, thus we can rejoice.
But how I miss your gorgeous smile, the cadence of your voice.
Although it pains me endlessly to know that you're not here,
I treasure what you've given us...that I hold so dear.
Indeed, our hearts are lifted now,
With a tender, graceful calm
To know that you're now dwelling
In the bliss of angels' arms.
-Rest, sweet one, be at peace-
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Just a moment in an ordinary day
I pause mid stride and don’t know why
out of nothing it seems, unbidden by me,
I feel a tear well up in my eye.
I stop to wonder why I’ve thought of you now,
your smile a picture in my mind.
No matter how I try, I don’t know how
to leave the memory of you behind.
Then it comes to me as I think of the day
and realize with a start
it’s the 22nd of another month
and I feel a jolt to my heart.
So I take a breath and move on with my day,
knowing you’ll be there in my thoughts all along.
Remembering someone with love in your heart
can simply never be wrong.
So beautiful, FlwrChild. I love how you say things -- the simple essence, just plain real and true...
And what I felt yesterday also, so thank you for putting our feelings into words as lovely and sad as you have.
kathy
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So beautiful, FlwrChild. I love how you say things -- the simple essence, just plain real and true...
And what I felt yesterday also, so thank you for putting our feelings into words as lovely and sad as you have.
kathy
Kathy :ghug: :^^)
Laura, thank you for that beautiful poem. :ghug:
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Thanks everyone. You are all why this forum is special.
Laura, I am so glad you are here. Your poem is beautiful and profound, as only someone who knew Heath for so long and love his memory so deeply could feel. Your words are amazing. :ghug: :^^)
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Laura thats a beautiful poem ^f^
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that's such a wonderful poem laura?where are u from?my new english teacher is from perth and onme of her best friends is heath's cousin &**)
and i found out so many nice things bout perth omg it's awsome:X:X:X:X and she found out that heath's my fav actor in her first day so i think it is obvious <^( ;D all my mates think that i'm obsesed :8 ok i am but juist a lilttle.i miss him a lot %&)
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That's so beautiful, Laura, so very beautiful. I love it, all of it, every word!! You moved me to tears...
Thank you!! :^^)
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I hope our dear sweet baby has found peace, he is so missed in this world :\'(
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On the eight-month marker of the world being a poorer place, I felt complelled to write something for Heath.
For Heath
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-Rest, sweet one, be at peace-
Laura, this is so beautiful. I loved every word, felt it along with you. Thank you.
kathy
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Laura,you've made such a beautiful poem that reflects very well all what we feel about Heath.Andrew is right;people like you make this forum so special... :^^)
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Aw, thanks everyone. So many of you have touched me more than I can say, with your words on Heath, and just on Brokeback at large. :ghug: ^f^ :^^)
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On the eight-month marker of the world being a poorer place, I felt complelled to write something for Heath.
For Heath
Your life, sweet man, was a precious gift to the myriads you touched,
To all of us who cherish you and love you oh so much.
Your dear, sweet ways, your gentleness, your kindness knew no bounds,
Your brilliance and your beauty, they'd power to astound.
Consummate and gifted, beyond your years too wise,
Your heart, your mind, your very soul emanated from your eyes.
Your art brought joy into the world, it galvanized our hearts,
A gift to us I've treasured, right from the very start.
Your heady days of starting out...
I'm glad your life knew charm.
I pray you knew deep happiness,
And found a sense of calm.
I pray your heart of hearts rejoiced
In the blessings of your days,
And fathomed how much you were loved -
Much more than words can say.
Through jousting days and fairy tales,
Wyoming skies of blue,
Your life was blessed and touched by God
This, I know you knew.
In Gotham nights and sleepless times,
Your mind grew slowly jaded
I watched on broken-hearted
As your brown-green eyes, they faded.
Outwardly, you seemed forlorn, adrift upon an ocean
Of fearsome waves and undertows and darkening emotion.
But inwardly, I do have faith, that you remained unharmed...
The outside world could not seep through with Tilda in your arms.
In this, dear Heath, some small, small solace we can surely own,
To know that you had so much love, to know you weren't alone.
Thus we can reflect, sweet Heath, thus we can rejoice.
But how I miss your gorgeous smile, the cadence of your voice.
Although it pains me endlessly to know that you're not here,
I treasure what you've given us...that I hold so dear.
Indeed, our hearts are lifted now,
With a tender, graceful calm
To know that you're now dwelling
In the bliss of angels' arms.
-Rest, sweet one, be at peace-
If you don't mind Laura, I merged your thread to this existing one, actually we have a full board dedicated to Heath Ledger's memory. :)
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Laura, I absoutly LOVE your poem for Heath ^f^ <^(
I have been thinking about him lately, and was shocked yesterday when I remember how it was 8 months since his death. God knows how it will be in Janurary :-\\
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I finished reading Heath's biography up to the last chapter, and then I stopped. It's called "The Last Days" and I can't bring myself to read it. :\'(
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I finished reading Heath's biography up to the last chapter, and then I stopped. It's called "The Last Days" and I can't bring myself to read it. :\'(
Keren :ghug: :ghug:
I know the feeling, I have the book but I haven't even start to read it yet. It's just to hard... :\'(
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I finished reading Heath's biography up to the last chapter, and then I stopped. It's called "The Last Days" and I can't bring myself to read it. :\'(
I understand you,Keren :ghug: .I'm crazy about finding this book,but I know for sure that I'll have to let the final chapter.Too soon still...
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I finished reading Heath's biography up to the last chapter, and then I stopped. It's called "The Last Days" and I can't bring myself to read it. :\'(
:ghug: keren :ghug: let be
I know how you feel. I bought his movie, The Order, and have heard that it is really good. I still can't bring myself to watch it yet. And I hold Brokeback Mountain for special occasions, like brokie meets.
I can imagine how Ennis felt, standing in front of the two shirts, caressing them, and the postcard.
I swear. :ghug:
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Keren :ghug: :ghug:
I know the feeling, I have the book but I haven't even start to read it yet. It's just to hard... :\'(
Emzan, same here...I've had the book for months now, but have not even been able to start it. I don't know when I ever will, but it's just too hard right now.
Though, perhaps now that I've discovered all of you wonderful Brokies, I may yet get the fortitude to begin it someday...
I hope so.
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During my lunch break today, I got to fixating on the beautiful sound of Heath's name...and felt compelled to write something for the name that means "vast, open moor" and has such a beautiful respiratory quality to it.
Heath
Soft, your name,
It's like a breath,
Respired, as a sigh
...Heath...
Soft, and also ageless,
A moor of untamed thyme
And flowering, purple heather
Blooming sweet and free.
Precious, is the name
Of he who wore it
Like a glove
...Heath...
It seems to whisper airily,
It seems to speak to love
In a timbre of wild heather,
Blowing in the wind
Stately, is your name,
A manor on the heath.
A sound so soft yet full of might,
...Heath...
It haunts my Wuthering Heights
And the vastness of the heather
Growing with the thyme.
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thats beautiful Laura ^f^
even more beautiful as I can say that it came from your heart..
Heath's memory is very precious to all of us..he gave us a lot....
We will forever be grateful to him for giving us Ennis....someone that can never be replaced in our hearts..
He was a great actor and beautiful human being...
He will always be very special to us and he will always be one of the best actors of all time
We will always love and miss him
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Beautiful poem,Laura¡ It's wonderful as his name and the feelings he awakes in us...Heath... :\'(
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That is beautiful Laura. :ghug:
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Amazing and beautiful Poem Laura :\'( ^f^
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laura u really have tones of talent and it's easy to see that u care bout heath as musch as we all do :^^)
thnks for sharing with us your poems and i hope you're going to make some more <^(
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Thanks guys, you're all sweet. ^f^
Just a quick note about my Heath poem. Thought I'd mention something about the significance of heather and thyme in the poem. A friend of mine that visited yesterday read it and inquired as to why I'd included them. Heather, I guess I just added, as it grows in the moorlands, and the name Heath is also supposedly derived from it. Thyme is also found on the moors and heaths, but I included it as a reference to Heath playing a knight in AKT, since in medieval times, knights were given thyme before going to battle, to give them extra courage. In the past it was also used funereally, placed on the coffin to help with the passage to the afterlife. I suppose I was wanting to gift some metaphorical thyme to our beloved Heath.
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Wonderful your explanation and the symbolism of your poem,Laura¡ :clap: Yes,Heath deserves to be given some thyme because he was a knight who fought against injustices with his work and his position in life;and because he was a heartrobber too for his sweetness,beauty and tenderness about his family,friends and everybody who loved him. <^(
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Thank you for the explanation Laura :ghug:
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During my lunch break today, I got to fixating on the beautiful sound of Heath's name...and felt compelled to write something for the name that means "vast, open moor" and has such a beautiful respiratory quality to it.
Heath
Soft, your name,
It's like a breath,
Respired, as a sigh
...Heath...
Soft, and also ageless,
A moor of untamed thyme
And flowering, purple heather
Blooming sweet and free.
Precious, is the name
Of he who wore it
Like a glove
...Heath...
It seems to whisper airily,
It seems to speak to love
In a timbre of wild heather,
Blowing in the wind
Stately, is your name,
A manor on the heath.
A sound so soft yet full of might,
...Heath...
It haunts my Wuthering Heights
And the vastness of the heather
Growing with the thyme.
OMG ! Laura that poem is wonderful ! Is it from you ? :clap: <^(
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You are always in my heart dear Heath Ledger
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Heath
Soft, your name,
It's like a breath,
Respired, as a sigh
...Heath...
Soft, and also ageless,
A moor of untamed thyme
And flowering, purple heather
Blooming sweet and free.
Precious, is the name
Of he who wore it
Like a glove
...Heath...
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That's absolutely amazing !!
Thank you Laura for this beautiful poem and the explanation as well!!! ^f^
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Watch over you
(Alter Bridge)
Leaves are on the ground
Fall has come
Blue skies turning grey
Like my love
I try to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go
And who is gonna save you when I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you
When I'm gone?
You say you care for me
But hide it well
How can you love someone not yourself?
And who is gonna save you when I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you
When I'm gone?
And when I'm gone who will break your fall?
Who will you blame?
I can't go on let you loose it all It’s more then I can take
Who'll ease your pain?
Ease your pain
And who is gonna save you when I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you?
And I will give you strength when you’re not strong?
Who'll watch over you when I've gone away?
Snow is on the ground
Winter's come
You long to hear my voice
But I'm long gone
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Had to look Alter Bridge up on Youtube since the lyrics were makein me... Thanks Mikele!
Gonna post this song over in Best Song Ever.
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R.I.P. Heath
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Tonight I called out your name
The thought of you
Was carried on the wind
And it echoed through the canyon like a train
Winding on home to me again
I can almost touch your face
It`s almost like your never went away
Heath,
Everywhere I go
I can feel you all around me
In the sunrise, in the moonlight
I breathe you in like the air
You`re everywhere
I walked through the forest green
Far from all the chaos and the noise
And the river she sangs to me
I could swear it sounded like you`re voice
There to comfort me
Soothing as a gentle breeze
Everywhere I go
I can feel you all around me
In the sunrise, in the moonlight
I breathe you in like the air
You`re everywhere
Everywhere I go
I can feel you all around me
In the sunrise, in the moonlight
I breathe you in like the air
Oh I breathe you in like the air
You`re everywhere
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We have seen your wonderful movie again yesturday afternoon in Brussel :Long live to Brokeback Mountain - All the brokies were crying during the movie, all the brokies keep you in heart for ever :^^) :^^) :^^) dear Heath Ledger <^( <^( <^(
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I thought it would get easier as time passed. It doesn't! Rest in Peace, Heath. :\'(
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:ghug: rlh03. I know what you mean.
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So beautiful, Chrisy. Heartfelt and lovely.
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So beautiful, Chrisy. Heartfelt and lovely.
I have no words,so I only can quote this; beautiful indeed,Chrissy¡. :clap: <^(
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thnks i'm glad u like it ::)
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Snow is on the ground
Winter's come
You long to hear my voice
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:clap: Beautiful words dear mikele, so sad :\'(
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Heath,
Everywhere I go
I can feel you all around me
In the sunrise, in the moonlight
I breathe you in like the air
You`re everywhere
Wonderful poem dear Chrisy, I would like to be able to whrite poems in english...but I can't :( ^f^
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ya i would like too but my english is not so good :(
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Heath
I just came back from Brussels, from seeing my brokie family there, and you were there with us, like I carried you there with me.
Watching the movie again was both beautiful and painful... I started crying a few minutes after it started just from looking at you and thinking how beautiful you are. Watching every little nuance, every subtle expression, every move, thinking how talented and amazing you were there, giving life to Ennis. Watching the movie is not the same for me again since you left us, all of a sudden different lines have extra meaning ("is there anything interesting up there in heaven?") and I find myself crying not only for Ennis and Jack, but for you.
It was amazing to see how many forum members wore stripey socks - or anything else with stripes on it. I had my Joker socks and striped gloves, both gifts from my wonderful friends. I kept seeing you in every street corner, in every shop window. In the shirts and the crazy hats that you used to wear (and we'd point and say "oh, Heath would love this one"), in the yellow Dukati parked on the pavement (just like yours), in the man who walked by us carrying his little daughter on his shoulders. You were everywhere.
You're in my heart, wherever I go.
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Heath
I just came back from Brussels, from seeing my brokie family there, and you were there with us, like I carried you there with me.
Watching the movie again was both beautiful and painful... I started crying a few minutes after it started just from looking at you and thinking how beautiful you are. Watching every little nuance, every subtle expression, every move, thinking how talented and amazing you were there, giving life to Ennis. Watching the movie is not the same for me again since you left us, all of a sudden different lines have extra meaning ("is there anything interesting up there in heaven?") and I find myself crying not only for Ennis and Jack, but for you.
It was amazing to see how many forum members wore stripey socks - or anything else with stripes on it. I had my Joker socks and striped gloves, both gifts from my wonderful friends. I kept seeing you in every street corner, in every shop window. In the shirts and the crazy hats that you used to wear (and we'd point and say "oh, Heath would love this one"), in the yellow Dukati parked on the pavement (just like yours), in the man who walked by us carrying his little daughter on his shoulders. You were everywhere.
You're in my heart, wherever I go.
it's so wonderful that i have tears in my eyes.i can't belive it...it's so sad i hate death
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That's incredibly beautiful. :\'( :\'(
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Heathcliff Andrew Ledger
April 4, 1979 - January 22, 2008
~Without your beautiful light, the world will forever be a darker place~
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Heath
I just came back from Brussels, from seeing my brokie family there, and you were there with us, like I carried you there with me.
Watching the movie again was both beautiful and painful... I started crying a few minutes after it started just from looking at you and thinking how beautiful you are. Watching every little nuance, every subtle expression, every move, thinking how talented and amazing you were there, giving life to Ennis. Watching the movie is not the same for me again since you left us, all of a sudden different lines have extra meaning ("is there anything interesting up there in heaven?") and I find myself crying not only for Ennis and Jack, but for you.
It was amazing to see how many forum members wore stripey socks - or anything else with stripes on it. I had my Joker socks and striped gloves, both gifts from my wonderful friends. I kept seeing you in every street corner, in every shop window. In the shirts and the crazy hats that you used to wear (and we'd point and say "oh, Heath would love this one"), in the yellow Dukati parked on the pavement (just like yours), in the man who walked by us carrying his little daughter on his shoulders. You were everywhere.
You're in my heart, wherever I go.
Haven't posted in here for a while, but I just had to respond to this, it's just so true. He's just everywhere.....I loved that you listed happy things Keren, like clothing style, and a man walking with his daughter on his shoulders....I love that while they can make us hurt a bit, the things that remind us of him also make us smile.
I will be 28 years old tomorrow....in a little over 9 months I will have lived longer than you were able to Heath....and that's just not fair.
I will never be able to look at anything with stripes again and not smile...at least a little.
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Haven't posted in here for a while, but I just had to respond to this, it's just so true. He's just everywhere.....I loved that you listed happy things Keren, like clothing style, and a man walking with his daughter on his shoulders....I love that while they can make us hurt a bit, the things that remind us of him also make us smile.
I will be 28 years old tomorrow....in a little over 9 months I will have lived longer than you were able to Heath....and that's just not fair.
I love that also, the sweet and crazy and smart things about Heath's life that we can manage to appreciate and be happy about, through the sadness.
And, I have often thought, since 1/22, about all of you who are around Heath's age. That adds another dimension to the whole thing. And Jessica, that feeling of yours that soon you will be older than he ever got to be... I've had a lot of that in my life...but 28 is so too young! So not fair. :\'(
kathy
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Haven't posted in here for a while, but I just had to respond to this, it's just so true. He's just everywhere.....I loved that you listed happy things Keren, like clothing style, and a man walking with his daughter on his shoulders....I love that while they can make us hurt a bit, the things that remind us of him also make us smile.
I will be 28 years old tomorrow....in a little over 9 months I will have lived longer than you were able to Heath....and that's just not fair.
I will never be able to look at anything with stripes again and not smile...at least a little.
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((((((((Jess)))))))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Haven't posted in here for a while, but I just had to respond to this, it's just so true. He's just everywhere.....I loved that you listed happy things Keren, like clothing style, and a man walking with his daughter on his shoulders....I love that while they can make us hurt a bit, the things that remind us of him also make us smile.
I will be 28 years old tomorrow....in a little over 9 months I will have lived longer than you were able to Heath....and that's just not fair.
I will never be able to look at anything with stripes again and not smile...at least a little.
Yes,Jessica,it's curious how everything,even the littlest things,could remind us Heath;these details we have never realised before and that now get a tottally different dimension...And you're right in that on one side,they hurt us,but on the other side,they make us smile with an infinite tenderness,thinking about him. <^(
About your age,I think all of us have thought abut this in many moments of our lives; thinking that someone won't arrive to your age of nowadays,make all the things you've done up to now,LIVING ALL THE LIFE HE WON'T BE ABLE TO...And it's so unfair,yes;but there's nothing we can do,except remembering him and loving him forever. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Here are a couple of sonnets I wrote for Heath. The first one, I wrote after seeing him on the big screen in The Dark Knight, and the second one, very shortly after his passing.
I felt inspired to put them in sonnet form as a nod to his role in Ten Things, as his love interest writes one about him for class.
Cinematic Sonnet
Like tidal waves capsize a raft
So grief sweeps o'er me,
As I sit here dazzled by your craft
Before the silver screen.
Oh that it could be a gate,
A threshold you could cross.
Oh if you could cheat cruel Fate
Replenish us your loss.
Alas, the silverscreen's a wall
Impregnable as brick
You won't waltz through it - it's a pall
For this my heart is sick
The star has truly left the stage
And flown free of the earthly cage.
Goodnight, Sweet Prince
Goodnight, sweet prince, and bon boyage
So long, farewell, goodbye.
Robbed from us, thy sweet visage
Who knew thy time was nigh?
Goodnight sweet prince, adieu, adieu
They'll sing thee to thy rest.
That thee would drift, who knew, who knew?
Oh, how could one have guessed?
Sweet prince, goodnight. Goodnight, goodnight!
Goodnight until the morn.
Let seraphim and angel-flights
Sing thee to thy dawn
Sweet Prince, thou art the very best
Dwelleth in thy heav'nly rest.
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A Villanelle for Heath - He Went So Gentle
(My response to the great Dylan Thomas Villanelle, "Do Not Go Gentle")
He did go gentle into it, into that good night -
He knew not that he'd have to fight the dying of the light.
He went so gentle into it, the dying of the light
How could he prepare to fight
The dying of the light?
He did go gentle into it, into that good night.
Wish he'd known he'd have to fight,
Then he'd have the might....
He went so gentle into it, the dying of the light.
As winter thieves the sunrays bright,
So Death did steal your Life.
He did go gentle into it, into that good night.
Death - a thief with jealous spite.
HE DIDN'T KNOW TO FIGHT
He went so gentle into it, the dying of the light.
So brave was he, at heart a knight,
...If he'd only known to fight...
He did go gentle into it, into that good night,
He went so gentle into it, the dying of the light.
*I love the incanting quality to Villanelles, and think Dylan Thomas' one to be one of the greatest. I hope I haven't committed a travesty of any sorts in attempting to refer to it in mine...
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Oh, Jessica. Honey, I completely understand you. I'm twenty-seven and dread out-aging Heath next year. It's just unthinkable. :\'(
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The morning sunrise spread her wings
While the moon hung in the sky
Held the sea in your hands
And happy everafter in your eyes
Couldn't leave you to go to heaven
I carry you in my smile
For the first time my true reflection i see
Happy everafter in your eyes
Every star in the night
Promises the dawn
I will be there if you fall
To ever so heavily rest upon
All that i can give you
Is forever yours to keep
Wake up every day with a dream
And happy everafter in your eyes
Happy ever after is in your eyes
Happy Everafter In Your Eyes - Ben Harper
Written for Matilda
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The morning sunrise spread her wings
While the moon hung in the sky
Held the sea in your hands
And happy everafter in your eyes
Couldn't leave you to go to heaven
I carry you in my smile
For the first time my true reflection i see
Happy everafter in your eyes
Every star in the night
Promises the dawn
I will be there if you fall
To ever so heavily rest upon
All that i can give you
Is forever yours to keep
Wake up every day with a dream
And happy everafter in your eyes
Happy ever after is in your eyes
Happy Everafter In Your Eyes - Ben Harper
Written for Matilda
:\'( :\'( :\'(
This is so beautiful and so sad. I can't bear to listen to this song anymore.... :\'( :\'(
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The morning sunrise spread her wings
While the moon hung in the sky
Held the sea in your hands
And happy everafter in your eyes
Couldn't leave you to go to heaven
I carry you in my smile
For the first time my true reflection i see
Happy everafter in your eyes
Every star in the night
Promises the dawn
I will be there if you fall
To ever so heavily rest upon
All that i can give you
Is forever yours to keep
Wake up every day with a dream
And happy everafter in your eyes
Happy ever after is in your eyes
Happy Everafter In Your Eyes - Ben Harper
Written for Matilda
I love this song SOO much...but haven't listened to it in quite awhile, it's too sad.. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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The morning sunrise spread her wings
While the moon hung in the sky
Held the sea in your hands
And happy everafter in your eyes
Couldn't leave you to go to heaven
I carry you in my smile
For the first time my true reflection i see
Happy everafter in your eyes
Every star in the night
Promises the dawn
I will be there if you fall
To ever so heavily rest upon
All that i can give you
Is forever yours to keep
Wake up every day with a dream
And happy everafter in your eyes
Happy ever after is in your eyes
Happy Everafter In Your Eyes - Ben Harper
Written for Matilda
This song is as beautiful as sad... :\'(
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In a day like today you left us...Nine months have already passed,like a pregnancy full with sorrow and pain that gives birth to an infinite hole in our hearts.We're not fathers or mothers,but orphans of your talent,your beauty and your intelligence.Rest in peace,our sweet eyes cowboy... :\'(
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In a day like today you left us...Nine months have already passed,like a pregnancy full with sorrow and pain that gives birth to an infinite hole in our hearts.We're not fathers or mothers,but orphans of your talent,your beauty and your intelligence.Rest in peace,our sweet eyes cowboy... :\'(
Alicia, this is so beautiful, and so true.
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Alicia, this is so beautiful, and so true.
Thank you so much,sweetie,but it's how I feel...Moreover,today I'm strangely sad thinking about him and Rajel,the Brokie who died also this year... :\'(
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You're welcome, dear Alicia. You write like an angel. I too am always saddened when this date rolls around; I guess we all Brokies are.
I'm so sorry to hear a Brokie passe away, too, this year. I was unaware of this, and offer belatedly my condolences to Rajel's friends. A hard year for ennisjack, to be sure.
On the ninth month marker of the loss of sweetest Heath, I'd just like to post this beautiful poem by Victor Hugo, "Tomorrow, At Dawn". It's sadly sublime, and one of my favourites.
Here it is in it's original French, followed by an English translation:
Demain, dès l'aube, à l'heure où blanchit la campagne,
Je partirai. Vois-tu, je sais que tu m'attends.
J'irai par la forêt, j'irai par la montagne.
Je ne puis demeurer loin de toi plus longtemps.
Je marcherai les yeux fixés sur mes pensées,
Sans rien voir au dehors, sans entendre aucun bruit,
Seul, inconnu, le dos courbé, les mains croisées,
Triste, et le jour pour moi sera comme la nuit.
Je ne regarderai ni l'or du soir qui tombe,
Ni les voiles au loin descendant vers Harfleur,
Et quand j'arriverai, je mettrai sur ta tombe
Un bouquet de houx vert et de bruyère en fleur.
Tomorrow, at dawn, at the hour when the countryside whitens,
I will set out. You see, I know that you wait for me.
I will go by the forest, I will go by the mountain.
I can no longer remain far from you.
I will walk with my eyes fixed on my thoughts,
Seeing nothing of outdoors, hearing no noise
Alone, unknown, my back curved, my hands crossed,
Sorrowed, and the day for me will be as the night.
I will not look at the gold of evening which falls,
Nor the distant sails going down towards Harfleur,
And when I arrive, I will place on your tomb
A bouquet of green holly and of flowering heather.
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Laura,it's really beautiful but so sad¡ :\'( :ghug:
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Yes, 'tis sad indeed, Alicia. :\'( It always made me so sad even before associating it with Heath... So now it's even sadder to me.
Just did a couple of my own (even if it probably is unwise to post them right next to Hugo's...)
Lunar Elegy
The Moon has brought it round again
For a ninth and sorrowed time
And I would that my words could give you
The bouquet in my mind.
Claire de Lune
Claire de Lune
Oh light of the moon
Your beauty is sallow
This night
Where teardrop shapes
Abound
And crescent shapes
Mark
A date so wintry blue
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Lovely,Laura¡ I'm sure Heath would like them... :)
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I only wanted you
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
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I only wanted you
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
If only our tears could build a stairway..
and heartaches could make a lane....
.. I know all of us who loves Heath will walk the path to heaven.
and bring Heath back here with us.
Thank you Candy.. this is so beautiful.
It speak our mind.. our heart of wanting Heath alive and safe.
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I only wanted you
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Wonderful,Candy,I love it¡ ^f^ Yes,if only love could save someone's life,Heath's would be saved because he was very loved... :\'(
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On this day I have no words... I'll let the photos speak for me right now
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pls keren tell where do u have this pics?they ae so so sad... :\'(
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These are different tributes from ennisjack members around the world
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9 months already :(...9 months without you it is very long, very hard, very sad :\'(
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9 months. 9 months ..........
I still can't can't believe you are gone.
I am listening to your voice at your Santa Barbara speech right at this very moment and still finding a reason for you leaving us so soon.
With that very clear voice. how would anyone say we will never hear that voice again?
Every words are so clear and keeps me clinging to those words one by one. one by one Heath....
How I wish to hear more .. how I wish to hear you more.
I just can't let you go..................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdaWA2OBALI&search=heath+ledger
AUDIO. Heath Ledger . Santa Barbara Speech
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20173623,00.html
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9 months. 9 months ..........
I still can't can't believe you are gone.
I am listening to your voice at your Santa Barbara speech right at this very moment and still finding a reason for you leaving us so soon.
With that very clear voice. how would anyone say we will never hear that voice again?
Every words are so clear and keeps me clinging to those words one by one. one by one Heath....
How I wish to hear more .. how I wish to hear you more.
I just can't let you go..................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdaWA2OBALI&search=heath+ledger
AUDIO. Heath Ledger . Santa Barbara Speech
http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20173623,00.html
:ghug: white_angel :ghug: you don't have to ever let go. Hold on for as long as you want, because you are not alone. When you are ready to move on, you know, also, that we will be there. I am with you, Heath is unforgettable. His voice, his everything :ghug: :^^)
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:ghug: Everyone.
Keren :ghug: The pictures just set me off. :\'(
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:ghug: :ghug: to everybody who needs them
((((((((((Michelle))))))))))
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9 months....
I still can't belive that you're gone. Its like I'm wating to wake up from a nightmare and there you will be alive again... :\'( :\'(
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It's hard to believe 9 months had passed already... :\'( To everyone who need it :ghug:
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I only wanted you
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
God....
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I only wanted you
They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Beautiful words, Candy. :ghug: :^^) :(
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Anything interesting up there in heaven?
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Nine months damn... Nine months...
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Miss ya Cowboy!
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Just sendin' up a prayer of thanks . . . .
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Nine months damn... Nine months...
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Miss ya Cowboy!
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( RIP you sweet beautiful man. <^(
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I just can't let you go Heath... you're in my mind. you're in my heart....
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Just sendin' up a prayer of thanks . . . .
Addin my prayer.. :f) :c) Thanks Jackster.
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Yes, 'tis sad indeed, Alicia. :\'( It always made me so sad even before associating it with Heath... So now it's even sadder to me.
Just did a couple of my own (even if it probably is unwise to post them right next to Hugo's...)
Lunar Elegy
The Moon has brought it round again
For a ninth and sorrowed time
And I would that my words could give you
The bouquet in my mind.
Claire de Lune
Claire de Lune
Oh light of the moon
Your beauty is sallow
This night
Where teardrop shapes
Abound
And crescent shapes
Mark
A date so wintry blue
Your poetry is beautiful, Laura! It speaks to me. Speaks of Heath to me. Speaks of our love for Heath...
Last night I dreamed of Michelle and Matilda. It was warm and sweet. I had a sad lump in my throat in the dream, talking to Michelle, but as soon as Matilda came into the room, there was so much beautiful light in her little being, we could not help but be happy.
kathy
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My heart is empty. Will it ever get better?
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:ghug: Keren. I wish I knew how to make it better.
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My heart is empty. Will it ever get better?
Keren, :ghug: Please,be strong; you're not alone... ^f^
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqbcV39Sq1o
directed by Heath Ledger
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I love seeing these photos of him directing the video. God he had so much in him, so much talent, so much to give.
ELLEN DEGENERES: "He was good at anything he did. He and Michelle came over to the house once, and they were really late because he was directing a Ben Harper video. He was coming straight from that and he was telling us about it and how much he loved it. And then we played poker and he proceeded to take all of our money."
MICHELLE WILLIAMS: "He was good at sports. He was good at directing. He was good at painting. He was good at taking pictures. He was good at building things. It could be infuriating to a lot of his friends--I mean, he had a talent for everything that he put his mind to, pretty much, so he didn't know limits. Maybe he had never been told that he couldn't do something, so everything was possible for him."
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TODD HAYNES: He shared with me some rock videos that he'd made. They are so extraordinary. He was so gifted beyond what we'd already seen. The last one I saw that he made was to a Nick Drake song. He did it in one day in London. He went out and shot it in black and white--it's the only video that he himself appears in. It is just a stunning piece of work. He had an instinct.
SEAN PENN: Heath was not simply a quiet and gifted actor who liked to go surfing, though that is how I primarily knew him in life. In the time we spent together, we spoke a bit about family, about travels, but most of all, about film. Yet, in his unassuming way, he never revealed to me the visual poet of the first order who I discovered watching the film clips he directed, music videos and such, after his death. His talent does speak volumes of the kind man, the loving father, and, in fact, the brilliant and gifted guy I really missed out on--that we all did in the long run. Heath might have been a giant.
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wonderful statements keren, wonderful pictures audrey... ^f^
keren dear.... :ghug:
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I love seeing these photos of him directing the video. God he had so much in him, so much talent, so much to give.
ELLEN DEGENERES: "He was good at anything he did. He and Michelle came over to the house once, and they were really late because he was directing a Ben Harper video. He was coming straight from that and he was telling us about it and how much he loved it. And then we played poker and he proceeded to take all of our money."
MICHELLE WILLIAMS: "He was good at sports. He was good at directing. He was good at painting. He was good at taking pictures. He was good at building things. It could be infuriating to a lot of his friends--I mean, he had a talent for everything that he put his mind to, pretty much, so he didn't know limits. Maybe he had never been told that he couldn't do something, so everything was possible for him."
that's right i love what michelle said...
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Here's a link with lots of quotes from Heath's friends. They say such beautiful things about him, there are 5 pages of quotes there... I didn't read all of them. I tried, but I stopped in the middle because it was too hard. The loss is so hard to bear as it is, and the more I read about how amazing and special he was, the more it hurt because all I could think was God, how can it be? How could that happen to such an extraordinary person?? I thought I couldn't love him any more than I already do but it's like the more I learn about him, the more I love him... or maybe it's just getting the confirmation to what I already know, that he was one of a kind, so brilliant and gifted and sensitive and loving. So I just couldn't read it anymore because the more I read the more devastated I felt. But if anybody wants to take a look, here's the link.
http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1285/is_/ai_n24945445
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thank u so much karen...your feeling are exactly like mines...i find out new things about him almost every day and i love him more and more...
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MICHELLE WILLIAMS: He had uncontrollable energy. He buzzed. He would jump out of bed. For as long as I'd known him, he'd had bouts with insomnia. He just had too much energy. His mind was turning, turning, turning--always turning.
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NAOMI WATTS: He was a huge, obsessive, chess freak--and very, very good at it.
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MICHELLE WILLIAMS: I think that the interesting thing about Heath, which maybe people have only really fully discovered in his death, is how vulnerable he was. You can pick up on it in his performances, but it's easy to overlook because he was so physical and beautiful and strong and masculine. But there was always that underlying sensitivity. That's who he was.
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michelle: I think that music became more important to him because he could do something creative without it costing him his privacy. He could be more in the background. He could be in charge, but invisible
NAOMI WATTS: I think he wanted to be someone who was doing the observing--not the one being observed. He hated not being able to go about his life in an ordinary way. But I think that, deep down, he enjoyed that he was being recognized for his talent. I think he was starting to own that and that's the deepest tragedy, in terms of his work. He was just beginning to own it and embrace it.
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SARA CLINE: He really did an amazing job of curating this very special collection of friends. He was very open with his inner circle and very private outside of that.
STEVE ALEXANDER: The people who knew him really got to know him, and then the rest got to know just what he allowed.
NAOMI WATTS: He had so many great friendships. He had all his Australian friends who he took everywhere with him. He had a real community.
AMY PASCAL: He was always introducing you to 3,000 mates whose names you can't remember.
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NAOMI WATTS: I'd never known someone so connected to their family. I became good friends with his parents and stayed in touch with them after we split. They did such an excellent job of raising this wonderful person. His parents divorced a long time ago, but each of them had new partners, and every premiere, every award ceremony, they would all come over. His sister, too. There was a real sense of wanting to share it.
PHILIP SEYMOUR HOFFMAN: Heath didn't have the cynicism that this business can eventually put upon people, or the pretention that certain artists can carry with them sometimes. He had a really honest quality about him. He obviously had never lost his wide-eyed optimism.
NAOMI WATTS: His acting was so touching, so connected in truth. I think he was just getting started.
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SEAN PENN: Heath was not simply a quiet and gifted actor who liked to go surfing, though that is how I primarily knew him in life. In the time we spent together, we spoke a bit about family, about travels, but most of all, about film. Yet, in his unassuming way, he never revealed to me the visual poet of the first order who I discovered watching the film clips he directed, music videos and such, after his death. His talent does speak volumes of the kind man, the loving father, and, in fact, the brilliant and gifted guy I really missed out on--that we all did in the long run. Heath might have been a giant. that's right...
i can't believe how people were talking about him...no one sais a ugly word...u can't tell anything bad about this guy he was an incredible artist...i simply adore him and i would love to be at least 20 % the human that he was....
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SEAN PENN: Heath might have been a giant.
Yeah...and that's because his death is so unfair. :\'( :\'( I got goosebumps with just that simple line.
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Yeah...and that's because his death is so unfair. :\'( :\'( I got goosebumps with just that simple line.
life's unfair...he was a perfect guy...if we are so sad about his death and we can go over it i'm askig how are his friends feeling right now...i can't even imagine michelle and matilda and his sisers and parents...gosh..
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life's unfair...he was a perfect guy...if we are so sad about his death and we can go over it i'm askig how are his friends feeling right now...i can't even imagine michelle and matilda and his sisers and parents...gosh..
:ghug: Candy :ghug: They carry on with the support of their friends and families. Jake was also devastated, just as Christian Bale, and everyone who has ever worked with a man whose very presence touched the lives of people who met him. All the stories told by people who met him only briefly, in a shopping mall, in a party, in a bar, for only brief moments in his life, all accumulated together to paint a picture of a man whose heart was as genuine and pure, whose love was as all-encompassing and un-compromising as there ever was. He WAS a giant, but without a giant's ego. There will never be another like him. We can only carry on with the memory of what was, what could have been. :c) ^f^ We carry on with the support of people who care.
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:ghug: Candy :ghug: They carry on with the support of their friends and families. Jake was also devastated, just as Christian Bale, and everyone who has ever worked with a man whose very presence touched the lives of people who met him. All the stories told by people who met him only briefly, in a shopping mall, in a party, in a bar, for only brief moments in his life, all accumulated together to paint a picture of a man whose heart was as genuine and pure, whose love was as all-encompassing and un-compromising as there ever was. He WAS a giant, but without a giant's ego. There will never be another like him. We can only carry on with the memory of what was, what could have been. :c) ^f^ We carry on with the support of people who care.
yes that's right...and i love his interior beauty wich was inside him and wich maked him beautiful outside too.cos if u look to his picture u can't tell that he was a model or something like that :s) but he was so cute and sweet that u couln't fell for him for the first time u see him...and u know my first movie i saw it was a knight's tale at tv when i was 9 or 9 and i liked the guy mmm nice na i was a kid,then when i was 13 and casanova appeard i was obsesed with casanova cos i read some of his books and i really wante to see the movie.i saw an article :heath ledger is casaova bla bla and it was an picture with heath as casanova and when i saw the pici was:what?who's this guy?casanova must be brad pitt or somthing like that:)) god he's not as hot as casanova should be...look at his nose %&) i was so wrong...after i saw the movie i fell for heath so much...god ...and i realised that casanova wasn't a handsome guy he simply ha sharrm and he was sweet and smart and he resected the women and he made them feel loved....and that was heath too...heath was casanova of our times...not brad pitt...i simply adore u heathy and i'll always miss u so much :^^)
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Thanks, Candy. I have been putting off watching Heath's movie for a long time. After reading your reaction, I think I will watch Casanova next. I have seen Johnny Depp's portrayal of Don Juan. I understand what you mean about the inner beauty compared to the outer beauty. I don't find Johnny Depp attractive, not at all, but he was sexy and confident as Don Juan, full of romance.
I am still hesitant when it comes to watching other Heath movies. But I will try watching the happier ones. Thanks.
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Thanks, Candy. I have been putting off watching Heath's movie for a long time. After reading your reaction, I think I will watch Casanova next. I have seen Johnny Depp's portrayal of Don Juan. I understand what you mean about the inner beauty compared to the outer beauty. I don't find Johnny Depp attractive, not at all, but he was sexy and confident as Don Juan, full of romance.
I am still hesitant when it comes to watching other Heath movies. But I will try watching the happier ones. Thanks.
when he died i was painting a scene from casanova from the end of the movie the kiss between heath and siena:P and it was so sad cos i saw casanova for the fourth time 2 days before he died...and it was very painful...aniway i love ned kelly but it's a sad move...when a character played by Heath is dieing i'm crying as if t would be really Heath the one who is dieing...i miss him so much
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when he died i was painting a scene from casanova from the end of the movie the kiss between heath and siena:P and it was so sad cos i saw casanova for the fourth time 2 days before he died...and it was very painful...aniway i love ned kelly but it's a sad move...when a character played by Heath is dieing i'm crying as if t would be really Heath the one who is dieing...i miss him so much
:ghug: Candy :ghug: I saw many videos and interviews of Heath on Ned Kelly. I wanted to watch it a week or two ago, but couldn't find it in the store. You are right, I never thought of the ending. I think I will stick with Casanova for now. :ghug:
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This is the 1st poem I have written for Heath. It means a lot to me. I have poured my heart out.
HEATH
You are a sweet breeze that makes our hearts rejoice everyday
We are so fortunate that you passed our way
You are gone and we are soar
You left us so much love and hope
We are glad that you were here
There is so much joy in our tears
Your face reflects the depths of the Ocean
Your presence is felt as a light longing to be found
We can’t thank you enough for being with us
Your journey has made our lives more enriched and loved
We need you even more so much
Don’t ever leave the shadow we have in us
It sometimes feels like there is a hole in our heart
The pain of you going has broken us apart
Like our souls are longing to be touched
Life is never the same for either of us
You are with us at every step
We are still here and always will be at the same place
By
Cleo
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This is the 1st poem I have written for Heath. It means a lot to me. I have poured my heart out.
HEATH
You are a sweet breeze that makes our hearts rejoice everyday
We are so fortunate that you passed our way
You are gone and we are soar
You left us so much love and hope
We are glad that you were here
There is so much joy in our tears
Your face reflects the depths of the Ocean
Your presence is felt as a light longing to be found
We can’t thank you enough for being with us
Your journey has made our lives more enriched and loved
We need you even more so much
Don’t ever leave the shadow we have in us
It sometimes feels like there is a hole in our heart
The pain of you going has broken us apart
Like our souls are longing to be touched
Life is never the same for either of us
You are with us at every step
We are still here and always will be at the same place
By
Cleo
wonderful
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...Life is never the same for either of us
You are with us at every step
We are still here and always will be at the same place.
By
Cleo
Really wonderful,Cleo¡ It's easy to see how you're put all your heart on it...Congratulations¡. :clap:
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Tonight it's Halloween,that means mainly a funny fête for you; but for us,here,it's the time when we remind our beloved ones who have left us.And today I've heard "Hallelujah" on TV,a simple commercial ad that used this song,but I've reminded Heath. :\'( And I've felt like posting it here-even if it has already been posted before-as a tribute,not only to him,but to all these persons we've lost in our life.God grant they'll be with us this night and always... :ghug:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SD5VGQuCm1g (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SD5VGQuCm1g)
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fimg.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fv108%2FAmy07%2Fatributecopy.jpg&hash=0a26d1c6c2ad2eaa4531f34e323705a4a521e41d)
I HOPE THAT YOUR JOURNEY IS PEACEFUL,HEATH...
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Thanks Candy and MPJ..so sweet of u both....When I wrote this poem it was Heath that kept going on in my mind and I miss him a lot.. he is loved so much that he is a part of our lives and always will be..we r incomplete without him..he will always be very precious to us..We Brokies can understand that about each other...I have observed that sometimes a person's worth is realized when he is not there..with our other relations lets make sure to tell them how much we love them and to tell them how special they r when they r in front of us itself...
We will always love and miss u Heath....Our Angel
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Now he has departed from this strange world a little ahead of me. That signifies nothing. For us believing physicists the distinction between past, present, and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion. ~Albert Einstein
We understand death for the first time when he puts his hand upon one whom we love.
The death of someone we know always reminds us that we are still alive - perhaps for some purpose which we ought to re-examine.
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thanks for that because I remember reading those quotes from the other actors sometimes I have to stop reading the tributes as it becomes again even more apparent that Heath wont have the bright future we thought he would :\'(
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I think about Matilda, and it's just so heartbreaking that Heath will not enjoy her growing up. A three-year-old girl is one of the sweetest things in life, and this particular girl...
I've seen some pix lately, and she seems to be such a darling and silly girl. It looks like she's clowning around or dancing in one or two pix I saw, and she looks so damn much like Heath! Her face for sure, and some expressions in particular. Plus, I love her funny clothes (even though that's not really her doing), and she has funky scruffy shoes even!
kathy
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Today is a happy day for the US. Obama was elected for president - hell, it's a happy day for me and I don't even live there. But Heath is not here to see it. I think he would've been so thrilled - Heath never bothered to hide his political opinions - hell, he shouted out loud what he believed in - and we all know what he thought about Bush *cough*. You hear that, Heath? America has taken a historical step forward towards a better world... Your daughter might grow up in a world where all people are trully equal - not only in their hearts, but in their rights too. You'd love that world, I know. But you're not here to see it happening.
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Today is a happy day for the US. Obama was elected for president - hell, it's a happy day for me and I don't even live there. But Heath is not here to see it. I think he would've been so thrilled - Heath never bothered to hide his political opinions - hell, he shouted out loud what he believed in - and we all know what he thought about Bush *cough*. You hear that, Heath? America has taken a historical step forward towards a better world... Your daughter might grow up in a world where all people are trully equal - not only in their hearts, but in their rights too. You'd love that world, I know. But you're not here to see it happening.
Keren,I'm sure he's looking at all what is happenning now in his adoption country and he feels very happy,even if he won't share this happiness in the same way than us here...From his new home,he's looking at his daughter to see that,as you say,she will have more opportunities to live as she please than him.At least,let's hope this will be a reality because it will be the best gift we could give to him and to all who have leave us before. :ghug:
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Today is a happy day for the US. Obama was elected for president - hell, it's a happy day for me and I don't even live there. But Heath is not here to see it. I think he would've been so thrilled - Heath never bothered to hide his political opinions - hell, he shouted out loud what he believed in - and we all know what he thought about Bush *cough*. You hear that, Heath? America has taken a historical step forward towards a better world... Your daughter might grow up in a world where all people are trully equal - not only in their hearts, but in their rights too. You'd love that world, I know. But you're not here to see it happening.
So true, Keren -- Heath would very much appreciate who Obama is and what he stands for, and who he represents. So, we'll just be happy on Heath's behalf. <^(
kathy
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It's 6:15 am here, I've just woken up, but even before I get any caffeine into me I feel the need to come to this thread...I've just woken from the most vivid dream about Heath to the worst kind of shock that he's gone and I just feel torn apart. It feels much the same way I imagine Ennis must have felt those times he awoke to that wet pillow.
I know he's gone. I do. And yet...remembering the fact just upon waking somehow drives it shockingly home, makes it all the more poignant and real and heartbreaking. Being in that state of pre-consciousness, not quite awake or asleep...well, for me all thoughts and perceptions in that state are very intense, so to be hit with the remembrance that Heath is gone in that half-conscious state first thing in the morning has just really devastated me. It's shocked me anew.
My heart feels smashed and I can't stop crying. Not a good way to start the day. :\'(
God, I miss him.
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This is by no means the first time this has happened, either, but it never ceases to feel freshly shocking.
Does this happen much to any other Brokies, I wonder?
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Laura :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I don't have dreams about Heath, at least not ones that I remember. Pretty strange, considering the fact that my waking hours are full of him. There isn't a day when I don't think of him, read about him, look at his photos. But for some time right after he died, I used to wake up in the morning and the first thought that hit me was "Heath is dead". I know how it feels :\'(. I'm sending you a big hug honey.
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:ghug: Laura and Keren. I had two shortly after he passed away and one a few weeks ago- left me kind of funky the next day. More :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: for anyone who needs them.
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:ghug: :ghug: Laura
I know the feeling. Sometimes I have dreams about him, I don't really remember what they were about, but I know Heath was in it. And it happens to me that I wake up and think "Heath is dead, he will never come back" and my heart breaks all over again. I feel empty, it's a weird feeling and I hate it...It hurts :\'(
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Thanks, sweetest Keren and LJN. :ghug: :^^)
It's comforting to know that you guys know where I'm coming from. Thanks for the words 'n' hugs.
The feeling I woke with did stay with me throughout the day, on a kinda unconscious plane, and it was tough, but knowing you Brokies are here is a real source of comfort. :ghug: Hugs to all.
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:ghug: :ghug: Laura
I know the feeling. Sometimes I have dreams about him, I don't really remember what they were about, but I know Heath was in it. And it happens to me that I wake up and think "Heath is dead, he will never come back" and my heart breaks all over again. I feel empty, it's a weird feeling and I hate it...It hurts :\'(
Emzan, sorry I missed you...we must have posted simultaneously. :)
Thank you, too, sweetie. That's the exact feeling I was trying to describe. :ghug: A big hug for you, too.
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My sweeties,I know this feeling too ^f^ -I wonder who among us hasn't got it in some moment-,and I have even dreamed on him a few times.And sometimes I have a thought,being perfectly aware,about if it's true or not that he's gone.I know it's weird,almost crazy,but it's what I've felt maybe more times than I'd wish to.I give you a big hug if you need it. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Laura :ghug: Em :ghug: Keren :ghug: MPJ :ghug: Everyone :ghug:
I guess in a way, I am thankful that I have not yet had any dreams of Ennis or Heath. I can see what you all mean, like Ennis waking to a wet pillow. :ghug: But I also think of Ennis carrying on, with putting up numbers on the mailbox, quitting drinking and mopping around like he used to, and just carrying on.
:ghug:
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Yes, I have had three dreams about Heath since watching BBM (May this year). The first one was shortly after my first viewing and it was about his breakup with Michelle and it was really sad and had me thinking about it for days afterwards. On the plus side, one of them has been really rather nice and involved me giving him a massage - that's quite a nice thought to be waking up to!!
But his death just hits me sometimes, like a punch in the guts, and I can't believe or understand it. I so often think, "this time last year, he was still here".
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DHW :ghug: It's always difficult to understand a young and talented person's death.Mainly when we feel this person as something ours somehow.I think it will take a long time until we realise he's in another world now. :\'(
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DHW :ghug: It's always difficult to understand a young and talented person's death.Mainly when we feel this person as something ours somehow.I think it will take a long time until we realise he's in another world now. :\'(
I think its hard to accept the death of someone like Heath...he is so alive in our hearts and through his daughter and his movies..I literally deny this fact at times and then I come back to reality that he is no more..I think he will always live in our hearts and we will never let go of him..I think we can remember what all he gave us and cherish that for life in his memory..
Wish we could say how much we love u Heath..
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AMY PASCAL (co-chairperson, Sony Pictures): I don't think of there being a bunch of actors who fill a certain role and now there's one less. Heath was so particular and so individual. It's more like losing a star, a light.
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Yes, I have had three dreams about Heath since watching BBM (May this year). The first one was shortly after my first viewing and it was about his breakup with Michelle and it was really sad and had me thinking about it for days afterwards. On the plus side, one of them has been really rather nice and involved me giving him a massage - that's quite a nice thought to be waking up to!!
But his death just hits me sometimes, like a punch in the guts, and I can't believe or understand it. I so often think, "this time last year, he was still here".
DHW, that's a good way to put it - a punch in the guts. That's precisely how it feels when it really hits you every now and then. :\'(
And I know what you mean about "this time last year.." I hate to think how this Christmas is going to be for his family and friends next month.
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And I know what you mean about "this time last year.." I hate to think how this Christmas is going to be for his family and friends next month.
That's exactly what I've been thinking about. Christmas last year was the last time they saw him alive, and he was so happy to spend some time at home with his family and friends back then. How will they ever be able to celebrate this holiday without him, I don't know :\'( :\'( :\'(
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http://gallery.me.com/ul_flyer#100193
here you can watch or download a song called
"Brokeback bound" dedied to Heath Ledger performance in BBM :\'(
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DHW, that's a good way to put it - a punch in the guts. That's precisely how it feels when it really hits you every now and then. :\'(
And I know what you mean about "this time last year.." I hate to think how this Christmas is going to be for his family and friends next month.
That's exactly what I've been thinking about. Christmas last year was the last time they saw him alive, and he was so happy to spend some time at home with his family and friends back then. How will they ever be able to celebrate this holiday without him, I don't know :\'( :\'( :\'(
This is so sad to even imagine their Christmas without Heath.....I think we all need to pray for God to give them the strength and courage of getting through this time..They will always cherish every memory they have spend with him..The memories will give them happiness as they remember all the times that they have spend together with him as well as sadness as he is not there..He will always be alive in spirit with them and with us :ghug:
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I know it's been posted before, but I came across this video again when I was googling for pics of Heath... it's so genuine and touching that I needed to share it again. :\'(
Daniel Day Lewis talking about Heath on Oprah's show
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/01/25/daniel-daylewis-breaks-d_n_83238.html?page=4
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OMG,Keren¡ In the day before the 10 months anniversary of his passing,this video is more touching than never¡ :\'(
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(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi149.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fs48%2Fjill_coble%2FHeath%2520Ledger%2FLedger_JS6388422110.jpg&hash=4735517ae511c91fe3f3e304e3e1d6dbf3b5ff93)
HEATH,I HOPE YOU HAVE FOUND THE NICEST CLOUD WHERE YOUR SOUL CAN REST.WHERE YOUR SWEET EYES CAN COMPARE WITH ANGEL'S EYES.MY POOR BABY... :\'(
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OMG,Keren¡ In the day before the 10 months anniversary of his passing,this video is more touching than never¡ :\'(
Alicia, I know. It really is. :\'( Daniel's pain and shock are plain to see, and it is heart-wrenching to watch.
Thanks for the link, Keren. :^^)
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I always feel compelled to write something for Heath on the 22nd (or 23rd, actually, in Oz), and this month was no different. :\'(
Mourning Mist
A mirage, your face,
when I awoke
when I rose on this
morning.
It cast a haze upon my day,
this date of quiet
mourning.
A haze of you
of beauty and sorrow
a mist of joy and mourning,
a seaspray of sadness
a smoke of happiness
like dense fog in the morning.
Beautiful.
Wretched.
Exquistite and awful,
profound, condensed, concealed.
And ever there beneath life's noise,
so quiet, like the morning.
The haze grows denser
it aches so much
This tenth month of the mourning.
I can't believe it's been ten months.... Almost a year. It's gone so quickly for me, but in other ways, also slowly and sadly. I've said this before but I'll say it again: I'm so thankful to all you wonderful people for understanding that the grief is so real. Most of my real-life friends expect me to just get over it, and don't seem to realize how profound the loss is for all of us that loved and worshiped him so much. Thank you all. :ghug:
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Very, very beautiful, Laura. Your poetry is lovely...but even beautiful words do not quite do Heath justice. His very special, unique spirit -- that we should still feel so strongly the loss of him. We may not be able to discern a "reason" for someone like him going too soon, unless it's just a sad lesson to learn -- that we should cherish a sparkling moment, for it may well not last.
I'm glad you're glad, and I'm glad also, that we here understand each other about Heath. Certainly people out in our "regular" lives would not have a clue as to why me might be so sad this day...
kathy
I always feel compelled to write something for Heath on the 22nd (or 23rd, actually, in Oz), and this month was no different. :\'(
Mourning Mist
A mirage, your face,
when I awoke
when I rose on this
morning.
It cast a haze upon my day,
this date of quiet
mourning.
A haze of you
of beauty and sorrow
a mist of joy and mourning,
a seaspray of sadness
a smoke of happiness
like dense fog in the morning.
Beautiful.
Wretched.
Exquistite and awful,
profound, condensed, concealed.
And ever there beneath life's noise,
so quiet, like the morning.
The haze grows denser
it aches so much
This tenth month of the mourning.
I can't believe it's been ten months.... Almost a year. It's gone so quickly for me, but in other ways, also slowly and sadly. I've said this before but I'll say it again: I'm so thankful to all you wonderful people for understanding that the grief is so real. Most of my real-life friends expect me to just get over it, and don't seem to realize how profound the loss is for all of us that loved and worshiped him so much. Thank you all. :ghug:
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I think I talked here after Barack Obama was elected for president of the US, and said how I thought Heath would've liked that. Apparently I wasn't the only one who thought that.
This is Michael Stipe during a performance in Austin TX, dedicating his song Until The Day Is Done to his friend Heath (it's a very political song from R.E.M's new album). I saw another video with this dedication before but the quality was too poor and I couldn't understand what he said. Here I could here it.
"Number one, I know that Austin came out strong for Barack Obama and I wanna salute you for that.
Number two, I just wanna say that I'm really sick to death of politicians telling me what I should be afraid of and what I should fear.
And number three, I'm gonna dedicate the first song to a man who heard this song and loved it, and his name is Heath Ledger. this is called Until The Day Is Done".
These are the lyrics:
The battle's been lost, the war is not won
An addled republic, a bitter refund
The business first flat earthers licking their wounds
The verdict is dire, the country's in ruins
Providence blinked, facing the sun
Where are we left to carry on
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
As we've written our stories to entertain
These notions of glory and bull market gain
The teleprompt flutters, the power surge brings
An easy speed message falls into routine
Providence blinked, facing the sun
Where are we left to carry on
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
A voice whispers "Son,
The blessed vision comes."
What have I done
What have I done
So hold tight your babies and your guns
Forgive us our trespasses, father and son
Providence blinked, facing the sun
Where are we left to carry on
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
Until the day is done
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MH8Umb7WBFw&feature=related
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this is a roumanian song an woonderful actor and this remainds me of Heaths so so much...
the words are:he:I knew that i was a blind man,even in the morning's dew,but i didn't told it to everybody cos i didn't want to bitter my life...the big eyes to open them like this,and to keep them just like that,i'm so blind in front of u,look u can see throw me what is wrong and what is good...
she:what is an actor?and what does he want to tell?a simple walker with a cigarette in his hand,he's alone and sad,the curtain is fallen,the glass is empty,the moment is gone...
And tomorow is another day,and the day inside u will beautiful smile,to te hope in myself...
he:And i,i'm a blind man,in your face and look u can see throu me what is wrong and what is right ,what is wrong and wjat is right...
in English sounds a lil bit stupitbt in roumanian sounds like art;...u should listen to his voice...the video is so so beautiful...this is a genius,a wonderful actor...it' roumanian but u should see it...wonderful it remaind me of Heath so so much////tell me what u think
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It is so true, what Michelle Williams said, and I'd not exactly thought of it like this: that the more time goes on, the more we miss him, not less. All the days, day after day, everything you do, there is more to miss of our dear departed...
kathy
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Yes, it is true. Like she said, in some ways it gets worse. I don't even bother to ask myself why I'm so deeply affected by it when I didn't even know him personally, and thankfully I don't have to explain it here... but it is the proof that you can miss someone that you never met. He was a part of my life without even knowing him. And I miss him so much it hurts. I can't imagine what it's like for the people who did know him, for his close friends and his family... how can you go on living with such a huge hole in your heart?
I suspect that the awards season is going to be hard. I just watched Kim Ledger accepting the GQ Actor Of The Year award on behalf of his beautiful boy and I'm a mess :\'( :\'( :\'(
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It is so true, what Michelle Williams said, and I'd not exactly thought of it like this: that the more time goes on, the more we miss him, not less. All the days, day after day, everything you do, there is more to miss of our dear departed...
kathy
when did michelle tell that ?
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when did michelle tell that ?
In a recent interview that was published in Newsweek. it was also posted on the forum, in Michelle's Articles/interviews thread.
http://www.newsweek.com/id/170184
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Michelle seems to me as a lovely woman¡ And she's right,the more time goes on,the more one misses a beloved person.It has happenned with any of us who have lost someone and,of course,is happenning with someone as wonderful as Heath. :\'(
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I completely agree with Michelle Williams here.
And Alicia, I concur with you there, too. Michelle does seem to be a lovely person indeed, and I think she was so suited to Heath. Sigh.
Keren, I too was a mess watching Kim Ledger accept his "beautiful boy's" posthumous award. And reading the quote from Michael Stipe undid me, too. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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In a recent interview that was published in Newsweek. it was also posted on the forum, in Michelle's Articles/interviews thread.
http://www.newsweek.com/id/170184
Thanks, Keren, for a brief glimpse into Michelle's personal grief for Heath. What she said is so beautiful, "grief is like a moving river, ...it's always changing." Everyday, there is something new that happened that she couldn't share with Heath, something different that she might reach out, and find emptiness instead. :\'( The sadness is the same, but the grief of missing him is always different.
There's no end to this. I am grateful for her openness, and I think there should be a law against paparazzi.
If there is a special hell for these people, Dante would design it with glass walls, where everything they do 24/7 is shown on TV, plastered on their chair, desks, even when they close their eyes.
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Thanks, Karen, for a brief glimpse into Michelle's personal grief for Heath. What she said is so beautiful, "grief is like a moving river, ...it's always changing." Everyday, there is something new that happened that she couldn't share with Heath, something different that she might reach out, and find emptiness instead. :\'( The sadness is the same, but the grief of missing him is always different.
There's no end to this. I am grateful for her openness, and I think there should be a law against paparazzi.
If there is a special hell for these people, Dante would design it with glass walls, where everything they do 24/7 is shown on TV, plastered on their chair, desks, even when they close their eyes.
Lance :c),
I wrote the very same thing in my post for the same article! The post WAS ERASED IMMIDIATELLY!! Now, what about that? I couldn't believe it! >:(
Michelle is having a hard time without Heath, she's struggling with her pain and sorrow, and openly said that she resents paparazzi interfearing her life! And I agree with her. She has to find her strenght and move on, and interfearing from others who are only feeding upon her grief is definitely not helping her.
I feel so deeply for Michelle and Matilda Rose! I understand their grief and hope that they'll find a way to survive in this cruel world! ^f^ <^(
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Lance :c),
I wrote the very same thing in my post for the same article! The post WAS ERASED IMMIDIATELLY!! Now, what about that? I couldn't believe it! >:(
Michelle is having a hard time without Heath, she's struggling with her pain and sorrow, and openly said that she resents paparazzi interfearing her life! And I agree with her. She has to find her strenght and move on, and interfearing from others who are only feeding upon her grief is definitely not helping her.
I feel so deeply for Michelle and Matilda Rose! I understand their grief and hope that they'll find a way to survive in this cruel world! ^f^ <^(
Hi, Loreen, I am sorry your post was erased. Perhaps one of the moderators will know what happened, if you ask them nicely. I would've like to read your thoughts on this subject or any subject in this forum.
It is always amazing to me how much we all share very similar feelings from so very different backgrounds and places and cultures. Love is universal, and our love for Heath and everything he touched is also universal.
:ghug: ^f^ :c) :cr)
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Hi, Loreen, I am sorry your post was erased. Perhaps one of the moderators will know what happened, if you ask them nicely. I would've like to read your thoughts on this subject or any subject in this forum.
It is always amazing to me how much we all share very similar feelings from so very different backgrounds and places and cultures. Love is universal, and our love for Heath and everything he touched is also universal.
:ghug: ^f^ :c) :cr)
Lance :c), ^f^
I mislead you with my inadequate English... ~) My post was erased in other forum, not here! I am so stupid not to emphasize that! %&)
Yes, love and feelings are universal, as we are all humans, and all of us can imagine what Michelle and her lovely daughter are going through without their beloved Heath! :\'(
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Lance :c), ^f^
I mislead you with my inadequate English... ~) My post was erased in other forum, not here! I am so stupid not to emphasize that! %&)
Yes, love and feelings are universal, as we are all humans, and all of us can imagine what Michelle and her lovely daughter are going through without their beloved Heath! :\'(
Oh, no, Loreen, your English is very good. I have no doubt it was simple misunderstanding, that happens with native English speakers, too. Please don't put yourself down for any reason because I have seen your posts and they are very insightful.
You are intelligent and with a compassionate heart. That's a precious combination that is rare, anywhere.
:ghug: :c) ^f^
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Thanks, Keren, for a brief glimpse into Michelle's personal grief for Heath. What she said is so beautiful, "grief is like a moving river, ...it's always changing." Everyday, there is something new that happened that she couldn't share with Heath, something different that she might reach out, and find emptiness instead. :\'( The sadness is the same, but the grief of missing him is always different.
There's no end to this. I am grateful for her openness, and I think there should be a law against paparazzi.
If there is a special hell for these people, Dante would design it with glass walls, where everything they do 24/7 is shown on TV, plastered on their chair, desks, even when they close their eyes.
I respect and like Michelle so much, too (and am looking forward to her new movies). I'm sorry that she and Heath had their problems, and that would just add to her grief.
As to the paparazzi, Andrew, so right!! God, how can they look at themselves in the mirror? How can they sleep at night? How can you do something that you know is making people HATE you? Maybe years ago, when it was a relatively new phenomenon, they were like the exception, not the rule. And think of things such as how respectful the media was toward FDR -- would never happen today! I can't believe that after things like Princess Diana's death, and much publicity and public opinion against them, that they would start to be a little more cool. But they seem even worse. Vultures. (Not to malign vultures -- they're just doing their animal thing that has its honored place in the natural world.) I guess we can feel that "what goes around comes around," and they'll get theirs one day! Meanwhile, I guess the magazines have to stop paying them for pictures. Will that ever happen, do you think?
kathy
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I respect and like Michelle so much, too (and am looking forward to her new movies). I'm sorry that she and Heath had their problems, and that would just add to her grief.
As to the paparazzi, Andrew, so right!! God, how can they look at themselves in the mirror? How can they sleep at night? How can you do something that you know is making people HATE you? Maybe years ago, when it was a relatively new phenomenon, they were like the exception, not the rule. And think of things such as how respectful the media was toward FDR -- would never happen today! I can't believe that after things like Princess Diana's death, and much publicity and public opinion against them, that they would start to be a little more cool. But they seem even worse. Vultures. (Not to malign vultures -- they're just doing their animal thing that has its honored place in the natural world.) I guess we can feel that "what goes around comes around," and they'll get theirs one day! Meanwhile, I guess the magazines have to stop paying them for pictures. Will that ever happen, do you think?
kathy
I think technology has a bit to do with it. In the old days, reporters had to be close to their subject to take pictures. With telephoto lenses, digital photography, etc, the subject is just an anonymous object that the photographer does not have to meet, to be personable. The same lack of civility that permeates the internet is part of the problem.
As long as people will buy magazines or newspapers with these photos, that Heath reckoned as like a slap to the face, these paparazzi will continue to make their putrid living selling other people's lives. It is why I agree fully with the website's policy to never show any paparazzi photos. Everyone of them, no matter how much I love seeing them, represents a bit of pain on the other side of the lense.
Perhaps that's what we need to stop this...an electric shock to the photographer every time the camera captures a paparazzi photo. I can see the technology to do this, but it may be expensive to implement, and I doubt any equipment manufacturer would be willing to install it. It cuts into profits.
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Oh, no, Loreen, your English is very good. I have no doubt it was simple misunderstanding, that happens with native English speakers, too. Please don't put yourself down for any reason because I have seen your posts and they are very insightful.
You are intelligent and with a compassionate heart. That's a precious combination that is rare, anywhere.
:ghug: :c) ^f^
Lance :c),
those were such a sweet words ^f^,
coming from you - even sweeter! :^^)
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Miss you more and more every day Heath. You are always on my mind and always in my heart... :\'(
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Miss you more and more every day Heath. You are always on my mind and always in my heart... :\'(
Same here, Emzan. Same here. :ghug:
The other day the sadness struck me all of a sudden at work, and I had to take a little break for a moment, during which I made this picture. I ended up kinda liking it:
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I hope our angel has found peace and joy.
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I do too Laura. :ghug:
That's a beautiful picture. Would you mind if I saved it to my file?
It is still so nice to have this place to come to and see all of the genuine affection, both for Heath and for each other, expressed here. ^f^
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I think technology has a bit to do with it. In the old days, reporters had to be close to their subject to take pictures. With telephoto lenses, digital photography, etc, the subject is just an anonymous object that the photographer does not have to meet, to be personable. The same lack of civility that permeates the internet is part of the problem.
As long as people will buy magazines or newspapers with these photos, that Heath reckoned as like a slap to the face, these paparazzi will continue to make their putrid living selling other people's lives. It is why I agree fully with the website's policy to never show any paparazzi photos. Everyone of them, no matter how much I love seeing them, represents a bit of pain on the other side of the lense.
Perhaps that's what we need to stop this...an electric shock to the photographer every time the camera captures a paparazzi photo. I can see the technology to do this, but it may be expensive to implement, and I doubt any equipment manufacturer would be willing to install it. It cuts into profits.
You're so right -- I'd forgotten about that, the telephoto lens, etc. If these people had to be within three feet of their subject, that would be totally different. Although those pix always shock me also, the ones where there is a literal swarm of photographers surrounding someone just trying to get in their car or whatever.
I doubt there's really a solution to this because of the magazines. Damn. I, too, am very glad we don't post pap pix here.
kathy
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Same here, Emzan. Same here. :ghug:
The other day the sadness struck me all of a sudden at work, and I had to take a little break for a moment, during which I made this picture. I ended up kinda liking it:
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I hope our angel has found peace and joy.
Gorgeous, gorgeous, Laura... <^( :\'(
kathy
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I dreamed last night: I was in a cool small local grocery story in Brooklyn (about the size of Monroe's store). I saw Matilda buzzing around having fun and being more cute than the law allows. I thought, cool, this is a very safe place, where she's free to roam around and can't be hurt. Then I saw Michelle, doing her shopping. I kind of maneuvered myself near her, just another shopper. I said hi, started to talk to her, and she said, "write to my agent if you want..." [I guess like "if you want an autographed picture" or whatever]. I said, oh I don't want anything, I just wanted to say how much I like and love and respect you and your work, and of course I want to say how sorry and sad I am about Heath. So we started talking -- it was very beautiful, and some tears and hugs. We talked about Brokeback Mountain, also. Then Matilda came back. Such a darling funny girl, I can hardly stand it. Michelle talked about her; I played with her. Then, Matilda did one of her "tricks." She turned into a rabbit! A little small one on the floor. Then she popped back up into her little three-year-old girl self again.
What I thought at the time in the dream and when I just woke up, was reincarnation. Whether we believe in that literally or not, there was Matilda, who is a reincarnation of Heath if we want to call it that; and the rabbit, I felt like was Heath also. We can see him in Matilda, and we can see him anywhere we look, at the animals and the trees and the sky and the stars...
kathy
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:ghug: Kathy :^^) :c) ^f^ Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful dream. I love the feeling of safety and friendship and simply plain fun! I am so happy for you and wish so much that I can dream like that one day. I am slowly recovering my vivid dreams, so I have no doubt it will happen one day. Meanwhile, it is very special to share yours. I love the symbolism of Matilda turning into a rabbit and back again. It reminds me of what Michelle said, in January, how much Matilda is like Heath, her gentleness, and her hugging trees and whispering to animals. I have no doubt Heath lives on in a major part of her.
:ghug: :^^) :cr) :t)
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I do too Laura. :ghug:
That's a beautiful picture. Would you mind if I saved it to my file?
It is still so nice to have this place to come to and see all of the genuine affection, both for Heath and for each other, expressed here. ^f^
Thanks, hon. :^^) And of course I don't mind, the two pics I simply merged together by no means belong to me exclusively. Or even at all, in fact!
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Kathy, thanks for sharing such a beautiful dream with us. :ghug:
What you said about seeing Heath in his daughter, the animals, trees, sky and stars...it strikes such a chord. I really do think it's true, not just of Heath, but of all departed loved ones, too.
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:ghug: Kathy :^^) :c) ^f^ Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful dream. I love the feeling of safety and friendship and simply plain fun! I am so happy for you and wish so much that I can dream like that one day. I am slowly recovering my vivid dreams, so I have no doubt it will happen one day. Meanwhile, it is very special to share yours. I love the symbolism of Matilda turning into a rabbit and back again. It reminds me of what Michelle said, in January, how much Matilda is like Heath, her gentleness, and her hugging trees and whispering to animals. I have no doubt Heath lives on in a major part of her.
:ghug: :^^) :cr) :t)
I think about that every time I come across a picture of her. These words are burned in my memory. I don't know whether to be greatful or not that she looks so much like him, I just know it breaks my heart to look at her and see him there. I'm sure it happens to Michelle all the time, I don't know if it brings comfort or just more pain.
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I think about that every time I come across a picture of her. These words are burned in my memory. I don't know whether to be greatful or not that she looks so much like him, I just know it breaks my heart to look at her and see him there. I'm sure it happens to Michelle all the time, I don't know if it brings comfort or just more pain.
Keren,
I understand that and I feel the same! :\'( Her words were so touching, that I could physically feel her pain. :\'( And then I remember Heath's photos holding his lovely daughter, looking so content and happy... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I think about that every time I come across a picture of her. These words are burned in my memory. I don't know whether to be greatful or not that she looks so much like him, I just know it breaks my heart to look at her and see him there. I'm sure it happens to Michelle all the time, I don't know if it brings comfort or just more pain.
I have no doubt that Michelle is comforted when she is with Matilda, and sees in her mannerisms that reminds her of Heath. The pain of loss will eventually be soothed by the joy of daily living, especially with someone as special and joyful as Matilda. If anything is true, it must be her ability to bring smiles and joy into the life of those around her, just like Heath.
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Loreen, Andrew :ghug: :ghug: You're probably right Andrew, she must be like him in so many ways and it should be a comfort... it's just that I miss him so damn much that every little thing sets me off. The closer we come to that cursed day in January, the worse it gets.
ETA: Another thing I've been thinking about is that I'll probably never be able to celebrate my birthday without thinking about Heath. My birthday is January 9th, and last year my friends the Shady Ladies made me a birthday card with Heath's pic in it, and a gorgeous Heath calendar with different Heath pic for every month, because they know I love him so much. They put so much love and effort into it and it made me so happy and moved to get it on my birthday... and 13 days after that Heath died. Now that my birthday is approaching again all I can think of is that birthday present, and how the world turned upside down after that.
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:ghug: Keren :ghug: there ain't no reins on this one. We miss and ache for his presence because we love him. I don't want to stopping missing him, but I give myself permission to see the life that is still around me, like Ennis did after Jack, seeing the love still in Jack's Ma, the joy in Junior's wedding, etc. We do Heath a disservice if we stop living life to the fullest, because that's what he did, and would want from everyone who knew him.
:ghug:
By the way, I stop thinking about days a while ago. It's like holidays (Christmas, etc). It's just another number on the calender. I celebrate only the sentiments, the meaning of the holiday, especially Thanksgiving. And honestly, I stopped celebrating birthdays after I turned 21. I tried to forget about birthdays after I turned 39. That was like, hmmm... too long ago. :ghug: I hope you feel better during the holidays. Happy Hannakah. :ghug: :^^) :c)
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:ghug: Keren. I understand.
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My dear friend Steffi, aka Cornflakes, went to NY when she learned that Heath had died. She lives in Germany and she went all the way to NY just to be some hours in front of Heath’s house. She got a plane, cried in front of the tributes to Heath and then returned to Germany. She only spent there a day. Her love for Heath is endless and beyond any limit, as you can see.
Sometime after that she felt the huge need to go and see Heath’s homeland. That way maybe she could feel closer to Heath. She went to Australia in April this year. She took this pic in Cottesloe, Perth April 4th 2008. I think it’s beautiful and made me cry when I saw it first time. Heath loved the ocean...and I almost can see him there, surfing the waves.
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(((cornflake))) :\'( :-* :\'( :-* :\'(
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((((((Tammy, Steffi)))))) ...that is absolutely beautiful and so heartbreaking...though in a beautiful, bittersweet way. It is exquisite - the beautiful colours, the time of day, the significance of Cottlesloe Beach and there in the foreground...Heath's name so beautiful in the sand.
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Loreen, Andrew :ghug: :ghug: You're probably right Andrew, she must be like him in so many ways and it should be a comfort... it's just that I miss him so damn much that every little thing sets me off. The closer we come to that cursed day in January, the worse it gets.
ETA: Another thing I've been thinking about is that I'll probably never be able to celebrate my birthday without thinking about Heath. My birthday is January 9th, and last year my friends the Shady Ladies made me a birthday card with Heath's pic in it, and a gorgeous Heath calendar with different Heath pic for every month, because they know I love him so much. They put so much love and effort into it and it made me so happy and moved to get it on my birthday... and 13 days after that Heath died. Now that my birthday is approaching again all I can think of is that birthday present, and how the world turned upside down after that.
(((((Keren)))) :ghug: Here's a big hug for you, honey.
You in particular have obviously been as hardly hit by the loss of Heath as I have been, and I want you to know that your sharing your grief with us has brought me considerable comfort - the knowledge that I'm not alone in such an intense grief. That the sadness is shared somehow diminishes my own sorrow slightly.
I'm particularly upset about it all today, because I mentioned to a couple of my closest friends, friends since childhood, that come Jan 22 I'm going to get a tiny tattoo on my left inner-wrist, a small purple flower that will symbolize Heath to me (the flower being from the heather plant, his namesake)...and my friends, though not being insensitive per se, looked at me kinda odd and told me I'd probably regret it later when this "phase" has passed. I was incredulous and like, "Whaa? A phase?! I don't THINK so!" but only thinking it in my head. I didn't even bother trying to explain how wrong they were.
Thank you all again for your complete empathy, warmth and understanding. :ghug: For the support that even my dearest friends and family in "real life" cannot offer.
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:ghug: Keren :ghug: there ain't no reins on this one. We miss and ache for his presence because we love him. I don't want to stopping missing him, but I give myself permission to see the life that is still around me, like Ennis did after Jack, seeing the love still in Jack's Ma, the joy in Junior's wedding, etc. We do Heath a disservice if we stop living life to the fullest, because that's what he did, and would want from everyone who knew him.
:ghug:
By the way, I stop thinking about days a while ago. It's like holidays (Christmas, etc). It's just another number on the calender. I celebrate only the sentiments, the meaning of the holiday, especially Thanksgiving. And honestly, I stopped celebrating birthdays after I turned 21. I tried to forget about birthdays after I turned 39. That was like, hmmm... too long ago. :ghug: I hope you feel better during the holidays. Happy Hannakah. :ghug: :^^) :c)
((((Andrew)))) :ghug: As wisely and beautifully said as always. You are so correct in saying that allowing the grief to hinder our lives is doing Heath a disservice. That's exactly what I think, too, and like you, I haven't let it be an encumbrance to living life as fully as I always have...but the grief still lurks beneath it all anyway, and always will in one form or other.
In time, as with all grief, it will surely morph into a much more joyful thing that will allow us to remember him, watch his movies, and view precious pictures with a grateful and far happier heart.
But in the meantime, I am sure glad for you Brokies. :ghug:
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((((Andrew)))) :ghug: As wisely and beautifully said as always. You are so correct in saying that allowing the grief to hinder our lives is doing Heath a disservice. That's exactly what I think, too, and like you, I haven't let it be an encumbrance to living life as fully as I always have...but the grief still lurks beneath it all anyway, and always will in one form or other.
In time, as with all grief, it will surely morph into a much more joyful thing that will allow us to remember him, watch his movies, and view precious pictures with a grateful and far happier heart.
But in the meantime, I am sure glad for you Brokies. :ghug:
Thanks, Laura, always, for your kind words. It's really unusual for me to feel tearful even now, thinking of Heath. I mean even for my friend, I did not grieve so deeply for so long. Perhaps I was also burying the grief back then, and did not know how to express it. Like Ennis, the grief was turned into anger, but mine was turned inward, and resulted in a deep depression. Now, my heart has been opened by Brokeback Mountain, and this forum, so my emotions are more readily surfaced. It's healthier than what happened twenty eight years ago. I can manage it better.
I hope you are right that in time, the grief will morph into a much more joyful thing. For now, it has given me strength and impetus to do something. I have not been materialistic since that fateful day long ago. To me, material things fade by comparison to the eternal, the ephemeral. But now, I understand the need for material things to do what I really want to do, to visit all the brokie meets, and most of all, to visit Perth, and all the places that Heath had been. Also, I have other plans which require material things. So, in a sense, the grief has already begun its transformation in me. I hope for the better. I think it is. Time will tell.
As you said, meanwhile, I am grateful to be here, to share with friends who understand. :ghug:
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i can't believe that this is going to be the first christmas 4 matilda without her daddy...and my first christmas without knowing where Heath it's going to spend his christmas and with who? :\'( i don't know where he is right know!i know where his body is but he as the human i donno....
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A poster on the street in L.A.
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My dear friend Steffi, aka Cornflakes, went to NY when she learned that Heath had died. She lives in Germany and she went all the way to NY just to be some hours in front of Heath’s house. She got a plane, cried in front of the tributes to Heath and then returned to Germany. She only spent there a day. Her love for Heath is endless and beyond any limit, as you can see.
Sometime after that she felt the huge need to go and see Heath’s homeland. That way maybe she could feel closer to Heath. She went to Australia in April this year. She took this pic in Cottesloe, Perth April 4th 2008. I think it’s beautiful and made me cry when I saw it first time. Heath loved the ocean...and I almost can see him there, surfing the waves.
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This is beautiful... and it was one of Heath's favorite places :\'(
(((((((Steffi)))))))
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wow that is a wonderful pic:X:X:X:X
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A poster on the street in L.A.
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awww.....thats really wonderful.
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I have no doubt that Michelle is comforted when she is with Matilda, and sees in her mannerisms that reminds her of Heath. The pain of loss will eventually be soothed by the joy of daily living, especially with someone as special and joyful as Matilda. If anything is true, it must be her ability to bring smiles and joy into the life of those around her, just like Heath.
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This is so beautiful! To think she would have the same qualities as Heath -- loving people, being real. <^(
kathy
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Stayed in this Saturday night to watch the AFI awards and just saw Heath's mother, father and sister accept his AFI on his behalf.
I'm in tears... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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(((((((((Laura)))))))))))
This awards season is gonna be tough. I'm so proud of him and so heartbroken at the same time.
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My dear friend Steffi, aka Cornflakes, went to NY when she learned that Heath had died. She lives in Germany and she went all the way to NY just to be some hours in front of Heath’s house. She got a plane, cried in front of the tributes to Heath and then returned to Germany. She only spent there a day. Her love for Heath is endless and beyond any limit, as you can see.
Sometime after that she felt the huge need to go and see Heath’s homeland. That way maybe she could feel closer to Heath. She went to Australia in April this year. She took this pic in Cottesloe, Perth April 4th 2008. I think it’s beautiful and made me cry when I saw it first time. Heath loved the ocean...and I almost can see him there, surfing the waves.
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Tammy :ghug: Thankyou so much for sharing this with us..Please tell Steffi that we r with her..We know what she has gone through...This picture is beautful and am sure than in Australia she felt closer to Heath...Its pains so much dear..I can't believe sometimes that he is gone..it hurts..We miss him so very much :ghug:
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DHW :ghug: It's always difficult to understand a young and talented person's death.Mainly when we feel this person as something ours somehow.I think it will take a long time until we realise he's in another world now. :\'(
I agree completely. It just feels like he's gone away. His absence would of course be much more noticeable if he was a friend, but as people who only admired and respected him from a distance, it kind of feels like he's (& I apologise if I've said this before on here) an old friend who's just gone a way for a while and we have no idea when we'll see him again. We have the old movies and we can pop them in and think back on old times but we're waiting on some new memories. Sadly, until we get to the next world, we won't have any, and thats hard to comprehend. There's just too many if only's of what could and should have been
It's even harder at times like now, when Heath is everywhere with the release of The Dark Knight, so while I haven't posted here for a little while, I just wanted to check in and see how everyone's doing right now.
And to Heath, where ever you are - take it easy - you're still very much missed.
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I agree completely. It just feels like he's gone away. His absence would of course be much more noticeable if he was a friend, but as people who only admired and respected him from a distance, it kind of feels like he's (& I apologise if I've said this before on here) an old friend who's just gone a way for a while and we have no idea when we'll see him again. We have the old movies and we can pop them in and think back on old times but we're waiting on some new memories. Sadly, until we get to the next world, we won't have any, and thats hard to comprehend. There's just too many if only's of what could and should have been
It's even harder at times like now, when Heath is everywhere with the release of The Dark Knight, so while I haven't posted here for a little while, I just wanted to check in and see how everyone's doing right now.
And to Heath, where ever you are - take it easy - you're still very much missed.
Am touched reading your post ..I feel the same..Infact 2 days back I watched "Candy" for the first time and I watched it mainly as I wanted to see more of Heath....Whichever film he has acted in I want to see it as I feel more close to him ..When I watch his films I cant believe that he is gone..I just can't...I feel that he is right in front of me...even when I watched "Two hands" I could not believe that he is gone..I think Heath was 19 or 20 when it was filmed..i loved him in "Two hands"...He was so innocent and adorable ya..
I have not yet watched "the Dark Knight" and when I will watch it I will be gald to see his brilliant performance but it will hurt me to see that it is the last of him...He will be alive in our hearts forever and his movies r masterpieces but we do feel empty now and there is a gap in our hearts which will be filled as u said when we go into the other world...
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Time does not bring relief
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go - so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.
Edna St Vincent Millay (1892 -1950)
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Eleven months have passed and it still seems like yesterday to me. it doesn't get any easier. :\'(
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Eleven months have passed and it still seems like yesterday to me. it doesn't get any easier. :\'(
It's hard to believe it's been so long :\'(
To Keren, and everyone else who is feeling sad today :ghug:
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11 months and it still hurts like hell... :\'( :\'(
:ghug: to everyone
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:ghug: mpj :ghug: noreins :ghug: keren :ghug: emzan :ghug:
:ghug: everyone :ghug:
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:ghug: Everyone :ghug:
Eleven months have gone by both quickly and slowly without him.
Quickly and slowly, and terribly sadly.
You are still loved, Heath. Always.
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Time does not bring relief
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go - so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.
MPJ, This is so moving. :\'(
Thank you! ^f^
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Thinking of you and your family this Christmas Day. I hope they're able to find some measure of joy and peace.
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My heart is with Heath's family today... last year he was there and they celebrated Christmas together.
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My heart is with Heath's family today... last year he was there and they celebrated Christmas together.
Mine too,Keren... :ghug: It's so unfair that a family has been broken in such an stupid way...How many souvenirs of this last Christmas they'll have,about the last time they kissed or hugged him ¡.Yes,it's so,so unfair... :\'(
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Thinking of you and your family this Christmas Day. I hope they're able to find some measure of joy and peace.
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OMG! :-\\
Thanks Laura! ^f^
My heart is with Heath's family today... last year he was there and they celebrated Christmas together.
***sigh*** :\'( :\'( :\'(
((((Keren))))
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Needed to be away from this thread for a while, thought i'd stop in to make sure there were still other people that understand exactly where my mind is during the holidays....and yep, y'all are still here. I send you my love, and many :ghug:
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We're always here - for Heath and for each other. :ghug: :ghug:
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Miss you Heath... :\'(
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http://www.mp3lyrics.org/n/neil-young/old-man/
Neil Young Old man Lyrics:
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
Twenty four
and there's so much more
Live alone in a paradise
That makes me think of two.
Love lost, such a cost,
Give me things
that don't get lost.
Like a coin that won't get tossed
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Lullabies, look in your eyes,
Run around the same old town.
Doesn't mean that much to me
To mean that much to you.
I've been first and last
Look at how the time goes past.
But I'm all alone at last.
Rolling home to you.
Old man take a look at my life
I'm a lot like you
I need someone to love me
the whole day through
Ah, one look in my eyes
and you can tell that's true.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Old man look at my life,
I'm a lot like you were.
Lyrics: Old man, Neil Young [end]
The lyrics are very simple but they became meaningful to me since it is one of Heaths favorite song...especially this words...
....I've been first and last
Look at how the time goes past.
But I'm all alone at last.
Rolling home to you.
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Just felt like posting...came home from the doctor's today and had ET on while I was eating dinner and when they talked about stars they lost in '08, Heath was the first one mentioned, having clips such as from the Brothers Grimm, saying in an interview with Matt Damon, "I hope my life will have a happy ending" and then a Brokeback clip with Ennis saying, "Well I guess I'll see ya around?"..And then the song, the song was the worst because I remember the night after Heath's death crying because of that song. Angel by Sarah McClain. It all definatly made me realize how hard the one year anniversary of his death is going to be on me and many Brokies still mourning his death :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Lis, :ghug: $)
I liked the way Sara S. talks about Heath in this article ...
http://www.examiner.com/x-1343-Houston-20Something-Examiner~y2008m12d28-Biggest-loss-of-2008--Heath-Ledger
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Just felt like posting...came home from the doctor's today and had ET on while I was eating dinner and when they talked about stars they lost in '08, Heath was the first one mentioned, having clips such as from the Brothers Grimm, saying in an interview with Matt Damon, "I hope my life will have a happy ending" and then a Brokeback clip with Ennis saying, "Well I guess I'll see ya around?"..And then the song, the song was the worst because I remember the night after Heath's death crying because of that song. Angel by Sarah McClain. It all definatly made me realize how hard the one year anniversary of his death is going to be on me and many Brokies still mourning his death :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh Lis, I know just how you feel. This time of the year is so tough, esp hearing people talking about him with all the awards and the one year anniversary approaching. I often feel choked up with tears when I think about him, the pain does not get any easier. Here's a big hug to you, and everyone who needs it :ghug: :ghug:
I intend to take the day off work on January 22. It's obvious to me that I can't work on that day. :\'(
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Just felt like posting...came home from the doctor's today and had ET on while I was eating dinner and when they talked about stars they lost in '08, Heath was the first one mentioned, having clips such as from the Brothers Grimm, saying in an interview with Matt Damon, "I hope my life will have a happy ending" and then a Brokeback clip with Ennis saying, "Well I guess I'll see ya around?"..And then the song, the song was the worst because I remember the night after Heath's death crying because of that song. Angel by Sarah McClain. It all definatly made me realize how hard the one year anniversary of his death is going to be on me and many Brokies still mourning his death :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Lis :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I don't know how I will feel on January 22. It will be a hard day and to try and focus on school that day, oh I don't know. Maybe I'll do the same thing as Keren and call in sick or something.
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Lis, :ghug: $)
I liked the way Sara S. talks about Heath in this article ...
http://www.examiner.com/x-1343-Houston-20Something-Examiner~y2008m12d28-Biggest-loss-of-2008--Heath-Ledger
Wow, that is a great article. She said so much truth in her article..Thanks Loreen ^f^
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Oh Lis, I know just how you feel. This time of the year is so tough, esp hearing people talking about him with all the awards and the one year anniversary approaching. I often feel choked up with tears when I think about him, the pain does not get any easier. Here's a big hug to you, and everyone who needs it :ghug: :ghug:
I intend to take the day off work on January 22. It's obvious to me that I can't work on that day. :\'(
Thank you Keren :ghug: Many hugs back to you as well.
I'm sure it's not just me but I feel that this sadness comes in waves. Most of the time I feel ok towards his death but for a little over a half an hour, I feel kind of depressed and then I'm fine again. Does anyone know what I mean?
I wish I could take off a day from school but I'll probably have to go. I'm probably not going to be very talkative though that day..I know that fact for sure :-\\
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Thank you Keren :ghug: Many hugs back to you as well.
I'm sure it's not just me but I feel that this sadness comes in waves. Most of the time I feel ok towards his death but for a little over a half an hour, I feel kind of depressed and then I'm fine again. Does anyone know what I mean?
I wish I could take off a day from school but I'll probably have to go. I'm probably not going to be very talkative though that day..I know that fact for sure :-\\
I know what you mean Lis. It's very confusing sometimes. It can be little things that start it. yesterday I was listening to the interview with Van and when he talked about Heath I just lost it. I was crying, out of control :\'( I had no idea that a person I didn't even know could make me feel this way...
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It does come in waves, and anything can set it off - like a photo or a song or an article or a post someone writes.
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i agree with the whole waves thing. like the other night i was in bed and i dont even remember what got me thinking but all of a sudden i just fealt so upset about heath...
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When I post pictures of him it makes me feel better. but when I read the articles and the tributes, that's when I usually start to cry.
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When I post pictures of him it makes me feel better. but when I read the articles and the tributes, that's when I usually start to cry.
hmmm i think sometimes it just hits me like i know its been almost a year but sometimes im still like, omg its real its not part of a movie its not something ficticiouse...hes really gone...
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I thought things would get better with time
I guess a year isn't enough time
It still hurts so much that you aren't here
I love you more then I thought I did and I hate that you had to die before I realised that
There will never be another Heath Ledger for me, there is just one Heath, and thats you.
Thank you for the little time you were here, something inside me happened when I saw your smile
I just wish that I still could have that feeling. Now when I see your smile it makes me miss you more and my heart breaks in a million peaces again.
I will never forget the day you left us. It was like something died inside of me.
Still, I'm very happy for the time you were here and made me and so many other people happy and that you shared your gift with us. You are truly amazing and will never be forgotten.
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(((Em))) :ghug:
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:ghug: to everyone who needs one
Emzan..that was beautiful and so true
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I thought things would get better with time
I guess a year isn't enough time
It still hurts so much that you aren't here
I love you more then I thought I did and I hate that you had to die before I realised that
There will never be another Heath Ledger for me, there is just one Heath, and thats you.
Thank you for the little time you were here, something inside me happened when I saw your smile
I just wish that I still could have that feeling. Now when I see your smile it makes me miss you more and my heart breaks in a million peaces again.
I will never forget the day you left us. It was like something died inside of me.
Still, I'm very happy for the time you were here and made me and so many other people happy and that you shared your gift with us. You are truly amazing and will never be forgotten.
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Thats really beautiful Emelie.... ^f^ :ghug:
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Time does not bring relief
Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go - so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.
Edna St Vincent Millay (1892 -1950)
Myprivatejack, thank you for this one. It says it all so well, and so truthfully. I keep hoping that time will do its work; maybe someday it will, but it hasn't yet. My hugs to you and all who need one. Richard/rlh03
:ghug: :\'(
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This is the last day of 2008... in fact, here in Israel it's going to end in a little over an hour. I can't say that I'm sad to see it ending, because it's been a very hard year for me. I don't even remember the first three weeks of 2008, I only know that on January 22 the world had turned upside down for me. If you ask me what happened this year I have only one thing to say: we lost Heath. And losing him is what this year was about to me.
I was going through the articles and the tributes that I printed over this year, and I came across the voice mail that Heath left for an Australian editor exactly a year ago, on December 30, 2007, when he came home to Australia to spend Christmas and the New Year with his family. He wanted to thank the Australian press for respecting his privacy during that visit.
"I don't know whether it's a conscious thing or an unconscious thing, giving me space and respecting my privacy. It's just been awesome, and I've had the most beautiful time back here and being able to see all my friends and family, let alone the press and the people within the community of Perth, it's been so lovely.
"It's really enabled me to be a boy again from home and feel like I'd never left. Like I said, I'm not sure whether it's a conscious decision on the paper's part or not to kind of give me this space, but they have, and I truly, truly thank them for it, and it makes my life a life when I come back here.
"I know you're probably not the man to print this, but you can certainly pass this on to your compatriots, and that's really it, just sending my love and thanks to the city of Perth because it's truly been an incredibly therapeutic and a much-needed trip home, and just that little touch has made it all that more special to me.
"So feel free to use this message as my interview as such, and I hope you had a wonderful Christmas and certainly a Happy New Year.
"If I don't speak to you before I leave, I will no doubt be talking to you probably next year when Batman comes out - and Batman goes down in fact.
"Thanks for listening to my longwinded message - like I said, feel free to use it and pass it on to someone who can type it out, and thanks again."
That was the last time Heath was home with his family, and he never got the chance to talk to that editor again, certainly not "next year when Batman comes out". My heart hurts so much when I read these lines because this year he's not here to celebrate the New Year. And this is just not right. It breaks my heart.
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That was the last time Heath was home with his family, and he never got the chance to talk to that editor again, certainly not "next year when Batman comes out". My heart hurts so much when I read these lines because this year he's not here to celebrate the New Year. And this is just not right. It breaks my heart.
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I just can't say anything right now....
He was so kind, so special. I just knew that I shouldn't come to this thread again.
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Just felt like posting...came home from the doctor's today and had ET on while I was eating dinner and when they talked about stars they lost in '08, Heath was the first one mentioned, having clips such as from the Brothers Grimm, saying in an interview with Matt Damon, "I hope my life will have a happy ending" and then a Brokeback clip with Ennis saying, "Well I guess I'll see ya around?"..And then the song, the song was the worst because I remember the night after Heath's death crying because of that song. Angel by Sarah McClain. It all definatly made me realize how hard the one year anniversary of his death is going to be on me and many Brokies still mourning his death :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I've come across all the "in memorium" articles in print and on-line the last few days, and it is true, Heath is almost always the first one pictured or mentioned...
Lis, I'm glad I didn't see that ET piece, I would be a puddle of tears. Do you mean "In the Arms of the Angels" by Sarah McLachlan by chance? That song makes me almost cry anyway.
kathy
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That was the last time Heath was home with his family, and he never got the chance to talk to that editor again, certainly not "next year when Batman comes out". My heart hurts so much when I read these lines because this year he's not here to celebrate the New Year. And this is just not right. It breaks my heart.
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C'm'here! :ghug:
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C'm'here! :ghug:
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Yesteday I saw Matilda's pic in a magazine and she was with her mom and the captions were that it was her first Christmas without her dad..I felt horrible when I read that...The loss of Heath was making me so sad...I had alook at his daughter's pic again and I saw her filled with life and playing..Her smile reminded me of Heath and her face reflected his soul..He has a part of him alive in her and that gave some consolation to my wounded heart...I will always see Heath in Matilda and Matilda will grow to know what a great Man her dad was and will live his dreams...
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I know, it's both painful and comforting to see how much she looks like him. A part of him will always live through her.
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This is the last day of 2008... in fact, here in Israel it's going to end in a little over an hour. I can't say that I'm sad to see it ending, because it's been a very hard year for me. I don't even remember the first three weeks of 2008, I only know that on January 22 the world had turned upside down for me. If you ask me what happened this year I have only one thing to say: we lost Heath. And losing him is what this year was about to me.
That was the last time Heath was home with his family, and he never got the chance to talk to that editor again, certainly not "next year when Batman comes out". My heart hurts so much when I read these lines because this year he's not here to celebrate the New Year. And this is just not right. It breaks my heart.
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:ghug: Keren :ghug: It does hurt so much to read that, and like you said...it is just not right he's not here, especially at holiday time. Breaks my heart, too. Shatters the thing.
I know what you mean about losing him defining the year of 2008, too. I'm sure even in years to come, I'll associate '08 with the awful loss of Heath, despite what other things may have happened for me personally.
And what a sweetheart Heath was to leave that message. What a sweet, gracious soul.
Hugs for all who need 'em. :ghug:
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I thought things would get better with time
I guess a year isn't enough time
It still hurts so much that you aren't here
I love you more then I thought I did and I hate that you had to die before I realised that
There will never be another Heath Ledger for me, there is just one Heath, and thats you.
Thank you for the little time you were here, something inside me happened when I saw your smile
I just wish that I still could have that feeling. Now when I see your smile it makes me miss you more and my heart breaks in a million peaces again.
I will never forget the day you left us. It was like something died inside of me.
Still, I'm very happy for the time you were here and made me and so many other people happy and that you shared your gift with us. You are truly amazing and will never be forgotten.
Beautiful, Emzan. :ghug:
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Truth is, I don't miss Heath....because he's ALWAYS with me.
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Got you, babe; safe in my heart, forever.
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Truth is, I don't miss Heath....because he's ALWAYS with me.
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Got you, babe; safe in my heart, forever.
Lovely words! <^( ... and the pic, of course!
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Truth is, I don't miss Heath....because he's ALWAYS with me.
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Got you, babe; safe in my heart, forever.
:ghug: Tammy :^^) ^f^ So true, and so beautifully said. I wish I had said it. :c)
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:ghug: Tammy :^^) ^f^ So true, and so beautifully said. I wish I had said it. :c)
I only can quote this... <^( :\'(
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Truth is, I don't miss Heath....because he's ALWAYS with me.
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Got you, babe; safe in my heart, forever.
OMG..Heath is still alive in my heart..I feel his presence in his daughter, ennisjack,com and in his films..He is with us and we r with him...
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I had a dream about Heath last night. You know how it is, when you've dreamed of someone, or when you've just spent time with someone in reality as far as that goes, you keep thinking of them the next day. All day today I felt as if I'd actually spent time with him. It was like feeling his presence still, kept coming to me all day. Of course, because of the People's Choice awards news and all, I saw his picture or name a lot today. Anyway, a very strong feeling all day...
The dream was nice, sweet. It was a Star Trek convention, and at first I felt like I was seeking him out to hang out with him, but then realized he was also seeking me out to hang out with. I thought in the dream maybe he was hanging out with me because he didn't know anyone else there. But no matter -- we just were having fun, wandering around. There was also a few moments of spark and heat...best kept in my own memory thank you very much. Then, we got separated and I couldn't find him. I went to the room I thought he was in, but he wasn't there...then the dream turned into scenes where I was telling some friends I had dreamed of him...
kathy
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I had a dream about Heath last night. You know how it is, when you've dreamed of someone, or when you've just spent time with someone in reality as far as that goes, you keep thinking of them the next day. All day today I felt as if I'd actually spent time with him. It was like feeling his presence still, kept coming to me all day. Of course, because of the People's Choice awards news and all, I saw his picture or name a lot today. Anyway, a very strong feeling all day...
The dream was nice, sweet. It was a Star Trek convention, and at first I felt like I was seeking him out to hang out with him, but then realized he was also seeking me out to hang out with. I thought in the dream maybe he was hanging out with me because he didn't know anyone else there. But no matter -- we just were having fun, wandering around. There was also a few moments of spark and heat...best kept in my own memory thank you very much. Then, we got separated and I couldn't find him. I went to the room I thought he was in, but he wasn't there...then the dream turned into scenes where I was telling some friends I had dreamed of him...
kathy
What a precious dream, Kathy. I know precisely what you mean about the way a poignant dream, or presence within a dream, can linger all day long. I've had a few of those myself, and never cease to be amazed at the intensity of feelings you can find out there in dreamland.
The whole dream-within-a-dream thing is an interesting thing, too. Sounds way cool.
Thanks for sharing, and yep, you're entitled to keep some of the dreamscape in your own memory. ;)
...And a Trekkie Heathy? How CUTE. <^(
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:ghug: Kathy :ghug: that's great. I am so glad to hear it. Heath always thought of sitting on Mars looking back on Earth when he needed time alone to think things over. He was too big for any labels but there was a part of him that would make any trekkie proud, the visionary, the pioneer, to go where no has gone before.
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Laura and Lance: Thanks for comments. So you know just the feeling I was talking about, Laura, the "presence" the next day.
And certainly Heath was not out of place amongst Trekkies; I like what you said about that, Lance.
(And I had a dream last night about Michelle. She and I were "going together," and we were surprised to learn that Old Man Twist was okay with it when we told him.)
kathy
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Today I went out with all that snow to just get a paper for my dad. I was there so damn cold waiting for my turn to pay when I saw it. The cover of one of most important magazines here in Spain, the one that only talks about famous and rich people and their lives, loves, houses and clothes. I couldn’t believe my eyes. There Heath was. It was some of his latest pics. Heath with Ramos, one of his two friends he created Masses with.
He was so beautiful. Smiling, bared foot, with old jeans, looking at the screen of his laptop or angling his hands to try and find the best position to film.
But what punched me was the words, big words, in the cover.
“Almost a year. We miss you.”
God, I wanted to cry then and there…..And I forgot about the cold and the snow for a moment. In fact, I felt like burning inside. But it was not fire, but a huge sadness, that bit me sharp and red hot.
This is gonna be a hard time for us. Heath is gonna be everywhere. And I don’t know if that’s good or bad.
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(((((Tammy))))) :ghug:
did you get the magazine?
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Of course I got it, babe!!!
I'm just waiting till tomorrow to try and use the scanner at work so I can post the pics and the article here.
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I cant believe next week will be a year when a mundane afternoon of running errands turned into something so awful just like that :-\\
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Very proud of our boy x
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I cant believe next week will be a year when a mundane afternoon of running errands turned into something so awful just like that :-\\
:ghug: Sportstalk :ghug: Same here, same here.
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Today I went out with all that snow to just get a paper for my dad. I was there so damn cold waiting for my turn to pay when I saw it. The cover of one of most important magazines here in Spain, the one that only talks about famous and rich people and their lives, loves, houses and clothes. I couldn’t believe my eyes. There Heath was. It was some of his latest pics. Heath with Ramos, one of his two friends he created Masses with.
He was so beautiful. Smiling, bared foot, with old jeans, looking at the screen of his laptop or angling his hands to try and find the best position to film.
But what punched me was the words, big words, in the cover.
“Almost a year. We miss you.”
God, I wanted to cry then and there…..And I forgot about the cold and the snow for a moment. In fact, I felt like burning inside. But it was not fire, but a huge sadness, that bit me sharp and red hot.
This is gonna be a hard time for us. Heath is gonna be everywhere. And I don’t know if that’s good or bad.
:ghug: Tammy :ghug: I can imagine how that must have been for you...just hearing the "Almost a year. We miss you" headline second hand from you kills me.
*Big bearhug* for you, and everyone else. :ghug:
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Laura and Lance: Thanks for comments. So you know just the feeling I was talking about, Laura, the "presence" the next day.
And certainly Heath was not out of place amongst Trekkies; I like what you said about that, Lance.
(And I had a dream last night about Michelle. She and I were "going together," and we were surprised to learn that Old Man Twist was okay with it when we told him.)
kathy
Hehe, I'm envious that you get to dream all these great dreams of Heath, Michelle and little Matilda. You're lucky. ;D The few I've had of Heath, without fail, wake me up with tears. :\'(
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Laura :ghug: :^^) :\'(
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Happy for him and his family! Especially Matilda! :cr)
I think was there in spirit last night! :\'(
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I'm happy and sad and incredibly proud, all at the same time. You should've been here for this Heath.
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This is really lovely, Laura :)
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Congratulations, I'm so proud of you Heath. Just wish you were here :\'(
Miss you angel...
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This is a link to a new rememberance blog that was created by Theresa who used to run HL Central, and was also a personal friend of Heath.
http://heathledgerrememberances.wordpress.com/
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:clap: :clap: :clap: Indeed dear Laura, we are so proud of him O0
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Congratulations Heath :cr) <^(
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:ghug: Sportstalk :ghug: Same here, same here.
And here, too, for sure. Hard to believe, a year. I know we all remember when we heard the news... As you said, sportstalk -- just a mundane day, then...forever changed, everything changed.
kathy
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In the 13 January 2009 - Daily Poll from IMDB.... the question was:
What was your main reason for tuning into the Golden Globes on Sunday?
one of the answers was: I watched the show to see if Heath Ledger would win a posthumous award.
guess what I voted for .....
I'm so proud of you, and I do hope that you see all the respect you getting here, from where you are, above...
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I watched an interview with Kim Ledger yesterday, I didn't post it here because while he talked they screened some pictures of Heath and there was a pap pic with Matilda. Anyway, he talked so beautifuly about Heath, and how much he enjoyed playing the Joker, how much fun he had with it. He talked about the award, of course, and said that what Heath wanted the most was to be recognized by his peers, and how amazing it was to see the standing ovation. And he said that it would be lovely to get an Oscar nomination, because even if he doesn't win, just the fact that in his short life he got two Golden Globe nominations and two Oscar nominations would be a great achievent. He ended with saying "we are very, very proud of our boy, very proud of him. and we miss him terribly".
I think this last sentence sums up the feeling for all of us.
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I watched an interview with Kim Ledger yesterday, I didn't post it here because while he talked they screened some pictures of Heath and there was a pap pic with Matilda. Anyway, he talked so beautifuly about Heath, and how much he enjoyed playing the Joker, how much fun he had with it. He talked about the award, of course, and said that what Heath wanted the most was to be recognized by his peers, and how amazing it was to see the standing ovation. And he said that it would be lovely to get an Oscar nomination, because even if he doesn't win, just the fact that in his short life he got two Golden Globe nominations and two Oscar nominations would be a great achievent. He ended with saying "we are very, very proud of our boy, very proud of him. and we miss him terribly".
I think this last sentence sums up the feeling for all of us.
Sure Keren! :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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"We are very, very proud of our boy, very proud of him. and we miss him terribly"...Of course,Keren¡Any of us could quote these words. :\'(
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Tonight my recurrent insomnia has kept me up into the wee hours, and I felt compelled to sketch our beloved boy, or at least attempt to -- I'm no artiste and haven't really sketched or painted since high school, so I'm more than a little rusty. %&)
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Still miss him so much. :\'(
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"We are very, very proud of our boy, very proud of him. and we miss him terribly"...Of course,Keren¡Any of us could quote these words. :\'(
Absolutely, Keren, Alicia. :ghug: This succinct sentence from his poor father says it all, really.
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Here are a couple others I did of Heath recently, in BBM character.
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I certainly am out of practice and need to improve a TON, but Heathy is a beautiful practice-subject! The perfect model. <^( <^( <^( <^(
I'm sure I won't mind spending hours sketching that gorgeous face. :) :\'(
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Here are a couple others I did of Heath recently, in BBM character.
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I certainly am out of practice and need to improve a TON, but Heathy is a beautiful practice-subject! The perfect model. <^( <^( <^( <^(
I'm sure I won't mind spending hours sketching that gorgeous face. :) :\'(
Laura,even if you say you are out of practice and that you're not an artist,these sketches really have a good artistical basis. You have cached the sweetness of his glance...Don't leave drawing,please¡. %(
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Laura,even if you say you are out of practice and that you're not an artist,these sketches really have a good artistical basis. You have cached the sweetness of his glance...Don't leave drawing,please¡. %(
I quote Alicia here. And I think it's wonderful that Heath is inspiring your creativeness Laura :^^). How fitting, doesn't it? that he would inspire creativeness in people. I think he'd be pleased to know.
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As the days r nearing to heaths death Anniversay I keep thinking more deeply as to what we have lost..On youtube i watch so many videos and I cant believe that he is gone.I just cant..he seems so alive and just there...This really hurts alot and I dont know what to do about it ?????
I feel miserable :\'(
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I certainly am out of practice and need to improve a TON, but Heathy is a beautiful practice-subject! The perfect model. <^( <^( <^( <^(
I'm sure I won't mind spending hours sketching that gorgeous face. :) :\'(
Laura, this is so beautiful, especially the DE! <^(
Looove it!
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As the days r nearing to heaths death Anniversay I keep thinking more deeply as to what we have lost..On youtube i watch so many videos and I cant believe that he is gone.I just cant..he seems so alive and just there...This really hurts alot and I dont know what to do about it ?????
I feel miserable :\'(
:ghug: Cleo :ghug: I know exactly what you're going through. It is definitely extra difficult as the 22nd (or 23rd in some parts of the world, like here in Australia) approaches, so I shudder to think how sad the actual date will be. :\'( I suppose all we can do is be here for one another and get through it together.
Despite the inevitable sadness of the day, though, and this period leading up to it, perhaps it may also serve to bring some small measure of closure to some of us who love him so much...? Which, of course, isn't to say our love for him will ever diminish -- I know that is not possible in my case -- but maybe it might help some of us heal or begin to heal, as unlikely as it might seem now. ]
I don't know.
All I know is that I'm really dreading the anniversary of losing him, just like you seem to be. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh, and thanks, Alicia, Keren, and Loreen. :ghug: You guys are sweet, but I know I'm no Renoir! ;D
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As the days r nearing to heaths death Anniversay I keep thinking more deeply as to what we have lost..On youtube i watch so many videos and I cant believe that he is gone.I just cant..he seems so alive and just there...This really hurts alot and I dont know what to do about it ?????
I feel miserable :\'(
Same here babe, same here! Every day I read articles about him, especially now after GG, and it is the same as with PBS - I am addicted, and after I take my necessary dose, I am even more down. :\'(
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:ghug: Cleo :ghug: I know exactly what you're going through. It is definitely extra difficult as the 22nd (or 23rd in some parts of the world, like here in Australia) approaches, so I shudder to think how sad the actual date will be. :\'( I suppose all we can do is be here for one another and get through it together.
Despite the inevitable sadness of the day, though, and this period leading up to it, perhaps it may also serve to bring some small measure of closure to some of us who love him so much...? Which, of course, isn't to say our love for him will ever diminish -- I know that is not possible in my case -- but maybe it might help some of us heal or begin to heal, as unlikely as it might seem now. ]
I don't know.
All I know is that I'm really dreading the anniversary of losing him, just like you seem to be. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Same here babe, same here! Every day I read articles about him, especially now after GG, and it is the same as with PBS - I am addicted, and after I take my necessary dose, I am even more down. :\'(
Thankyou Laura and Loreen for being there..Its give me chills thinking of that day...I honestly knew Heath as an actor and as a person after he passed away..That was too hard..On 22nd and 23rd I wont be able to access the internet as I wil be out of town....I wont be able to come online but I will think of heath alot and of all u guys....Heath and u all will be in my prayers..Our Heath is in heaven and he knows that he is loved and he is alive in our hearts and always will be....Just wana let u all Brokies know that i am with u all in this pain and that Heath is inseperable part of our lives... :ghug:
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Thankyou Laura and Loreen for being there..Its give me chills thinking of that day...I honestly knew Heath as an actor and as a person after he passed away..That was too hard..On 22nd and 23rd I wont be able to access the internet as I wil be out of town....I wont be able to come online but I will think of heath alot and of all u guys....Heath and u all will be in my prayers..Our Heath is in heaven and he knows that he is loved and he is alive in our hearts and always will be....Just wana let u all Brokies know that i am with u all in this pain and that Heath is inseperable part of our lives... :ghug:
Cleo :ghug:
We will ALL be together that day! :^^)
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Cleo :ghug:
We will ALL be together that day! :^^)
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I can't belive almost a week from now, it'll be the first anniversary of Heath's death. Has it really been that long? :-\\ I have so many midterms set for that date and I don't know how I'm going to do it :\'(
Hugs for everybody from NY :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I can't belive almost a week from now, it'll be the first anniversary of Heath's death. Has it really been that long? :-\\ I have so many midterms set for that date and I don't know how I'm going to do it :\'(
Hugs for everybody from NY :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Ever since I heard Christopher Nolan's acceptance speech on behalf of Heath, for the Critic's Choice award, I've been on the verge of tears. Watching him accept the Golden Globe for Heath, I was like a faucet. I can't imagine what it will be like for the next couple weeks, and the Academy Award. If you can't change it, you just gotta stand it. I try to manage PHS by limiting what I read, what I post, and what I watch online.
I am sure you will find a way, :ghug: Lis :ghug:
You can celebrate Heath's life by doing your best on your exams. It's important for your dream to become a teacher. Heath would want that for you.
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I can't belive almost a week from now, it'll be the first anniversary of Heath's death. Has it really been that long? :-\\ I have so many midterms set for that date and I don't know how I'm going to do it :\'(
Hugs for everybody from NY :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I cant believe so too..As the day come near it hits me more...I feel it too much when I watch his videos...
All the very best for your exams and our Heath angel will pray for u who loves him so very much and his love will give u the strength to stand it,...We all r there for ya,.. :ghug:
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I can't belive almost a week from now, it'll be the first anniversary of Heath's death. Has it really been that long? :-\\ I have so many midterms set for that date and I don't know how I'm going to do it :\'(
Hugs for everybody from NY :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I cant believe so too..As the day come near it hits me more...I feel it too much when I watch his videos...
All the very best for your exams and our Heath angel will pray for u who loves him so very much and his love will give u the strength to stand it,...We all r there for ya,.. :ghug:
:ghug: Hugs to you, too, Lil D, and to everyone else, too.
I can't believe how much this impending date is getting to me. It's even more intense than I had expected, and believe me, I expected intensity. :\'(
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:ghug: Hugs to you, too, Lil D, and to everyone else, too.
I can't believe how much this impending date is getting to me. It's even more intense than I had expected, and believe me, I expected intensity. :\'(
:ghug: Laura :ghug: Lis :ghug: Everyone :ghug:
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Today I am literally thinking that this time last year what was Heath doing??
What he was going through the last few days of his life??
What horrible condition was he facing ???
It is chocking me to think that he was in so much pain last year at this time...OMG..It is too much for me but I need to stand it as I cant change what has happened..I wish I could ..i really wish that :\'( :\'(
I am with u all during this hard time and we together will face this loss..Our Angel is watching us and knows that he is loved,,he knows how much we adore him and he lives in us...I think together we can survie in this difficult time...Its too hard and I understand u all and so does Heath...God bless u all
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Today I am literally thinking that this time last year what was Heath doing??
What he was going through the last few days of his life??
What horrible condition was he facing ???
It is chocking me to think that he was in so much pain last year at this time...OMG..It is too much for me but I need to stand it as I cant change what has happened..I wish I could ..i really wish that :\'( :\'(
I am with u all during this hard time and we together will face this loss..Our Angel is watching us and knows that he is loved,,he knows how much we adore him and he lives in us...I think together we can survie in this difficult time...Its too hard and I understand u all and so does Heath...God bless u all
Dear Cleo :ghug:
you write with so much passion and soul!
Sometimes, when I watch Heath's pics, I have this stupid idea, like about BBM that maybe something could change, that maybe if we do something than maybe he could still be here ^*() ..... but nothing could be done. The truth is so merciles. :\'( :\'( :\'(
We are all in this pain together Cleo! :ghug:
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Dear Cleo :ghug:
you write with so much passion and soul!
Sometimes, when I watch Heath's pics, I have this stupid idea, like about BBM that maybe something could change, that maybe if we do something than maybe he could still be here ^*() ..... but nothing could be done. The truth is so merciles. :\'( :\'( :\'(
We are all in this pain together Cleo! :ghug:
Thankyou for your kind words Loreen..I think we all get these ideas but reality strikes and its all gone..We gota stand it and we will...
Heath we love u so much...
Hugs to all :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I just got done reading all of the quotes that "EW" did for Heath and wow..I, I don't even know what say. Some of the thoughts on Heath I knew already, some I never knew. It makes me so sad to see such an amazing person, such an unbelieve soul, just ripped away from the world. But then I take a step back and think. I have heard people saying that he was almost an old soul, coming to change the world until his time was done. Sometimes I have that belief that may be that was the way it was Heath. He lived his life, full of life and when it was time for him to go, he would. I try to hold that concept close but when moments like this, when you realize that you miss him so much, that you realize again and again that he really is gone...I let go.
Earlier this week, I was saying to many of my friends that 1/22 is going to be hard on me, that I'm barly going to say much of everything. Then later that night, I was speaking to my best friend and asked if she'd be willing to go through a day of silence, for Heath's sake. She didn't pause at all and said, "There's nothing else that I would've love to do". I was almost stunned by her sudden reaction....now I have asked another friend to do it as well and she didn't hestiate either. I'm thankful to have such a warm and comforting group of friends..
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I just want to thank you all I don't think I would have gotten through this year without the support of my fellow Brokies and Heathens.
I can't believe it's been a year since that sweet guy was with us. Doing what he loved to do best, make movies. Being his goofy, silly, sensitive loving self.
It might be silly to say that I can love someone I never knew in person. And I have this strong feeling that if I'd known him we would have been friends. And there couldn't be much better than being friends with him (if you've read what his friends had to say about him) he was a gentle, tender soul that left us way too soon. And sometimes it hurts so much I can hardly stand it. :\'(
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I just got done reading all of the quotes that "EW" did for Heath and wow..I, I don't even know what say. Some of the thoughts on Heath I knew already, some I never knew. It makes me so sad to see such an amazing person, such an unbelieve soul, just ripped away from the world. But then I take a step back and think. I have heard people saying that he was almost an old soul, coming to change the world until his time was done. Sometimes I have that belief that may be that was the way it was Heath. He lived his life, full of life and when it was time for him to go, he would. I try to hold that concept close but when moments like this, when you realize that you miss him so much, that you realize again and again that he really is gone...I let go.
Earlier this week, I was saying to many of my friends that 1/22 is going to be hard on me, that I'm barly going to say much of everything. Then later that night, I was speaking to my best friend and asked if she'd be willing to go through a day of silence, for Heath's sake. She didn't pause at all and said, "There's nothing else that I would've love to do". I was almost stunned by her sudden reaction....now I have asked another friend to do it as well and she didn't hestiate either. I'm thankful to have such a warm and comforting group of friends..
That is wonderful. I don't think I could go through a day of silence since there is a child in the house. BUT I will light a candle and put on some things that will remind me of Heath. I have a pair of the red fingerless striped gloves he liked to wear (a friend got them for me at the Marc Jacobs store in Manhattan) and someone else made a leaf necklace for me, similar to the leaf tattoo he had on his right hand.
yes Jan 22nd is going to be very tough. Ironically that is the same day they announce the Academy awards nominees. I know Heath will be on that list.
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It might be silly to say that I can love someone I never knew in person. And I have this strong feeling that if I'd known him we would have been friends. And there couldn't be much better than being friends with him (if you've read what his friends had to say about him) he was a gentle, tender soul that left us way too soon. And sometimes it hurts so much I can hardly stand it.
No, it's not. I know exactly what you're saying and it's hard for me to communicate with people who don't understand. Heath really did have some really strong people behind him. It must've been more than a loss of a friend to them as well as for the people who has always adored and respected his work..
That is wonderful. I don't think I could go through a day of silence since there is a child in the house. BUT I will light a candle and put on some things that will remind me of Heath. I have a pair of the red fingerless striped gloves he liked to wear (a friend got them for me at the Marc Jacobs store in Manhattan) and someone else made a leaf necklace for me, similar to the leaf tattoo he had on his right hand. Yes Jan 22nd is going to be very tough. Ironically that is the same day they announce the Academy awards nominees. I know Heath will be on that list. :ghug:
Thanks. It's great that your doing something as well. I have a Heath wristband that I wear everyday. It's amazing because sometimes I will forget to put in one after a shower or getting in the morning and now without a thought in her mind, my mom will walk all the way to get and hand it to me, no words asked.
I know. When I heard that it's on the same day, I couldn't believe it. It's going to be hard for all of us to watch the show and at the same time realize that he wasn't there to receive it..
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I just want to thank you all I don't think I would have gotten through this year without the support of my fellow Brokies and Heathens.
I can't believe it's been a year since that sweet guy was with us. Doing what he loved to do best, make movies. Being his goofy, silly, sensitive loving self.
It might be silly to say that I can love someone I never knew in person. And I have this strong feeling that if I'd known him we would have been friends. And there couldn't be much better than being friends with him (if you've read what his friends had to say about him) he was a gentle, tender soul that left us way too soon. And sometimes it hurts so much I can hardly stand it. :\'(
I know how you feel, Linda.
I think next Thursday is going to hit us all very, very hard :\'(
But I truly believe we'll get through it, together...the same we got through the last twelve months :ghug:
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I just want to thank you all I don't think I would have gotten through this year without the support of my fellow Brokies and Heathens.
I can't believe it's been a year since that sweet guy was with us. Doing what he loved to do best, make movies. Being his goofy, silly, sensitive loving self.
It might be silly to say that I can love someone I never knew in person. And I have this strong feeling that if I'd known him we would have been friends. And there couldn't be much better than being friends with him (if you've read what his friends had to say about him) he was a gentle, tender soul that left us way too soon. And sometimes it hurts so much I can hardly stand it. :\'(
You took the words right out of my mouth, Linda. Perfectly said.
Our beautiful boy...given to us for a while. And better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all, huh?
kathy
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I just want to thank you all I don't think I would have gotten through this year without the support of my fellow Brokies and Heathens.
I feel the same way.
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I feel the same way.
I can't tell you how much I feel the same, too. :ghug:
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That is so true Laura...these words reflect my hearts feelings too..I cant believe that Heath is gone and I miss him so very much but he is alive in my heart forever..
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:ghug: Cleo :ghug:
It's morning here, and I've not long been out of bed. I'm not sure if I was dreaming of Heath or not, but the first thought in my mind as I woke up was an an image of him from the final scene of Candy. I could almost hear that beautiful voice as if it were right there. It was saying, "When you're granted a reprieve, I think you should remember...how thin it really is." Just like he said in the film.
I don't know why, but it just pierced me. That scene always makes me cry, as it is...when Heath cries, I cry, always without fail,...but this was far worse, more deeply felt for some reason.
And what makes it more...I don't know...I'm not even coherent or awake yet...but I suppose what I'm trying to say is that the feeling was just so strong, and what makes it even more poignant is that I had "Shelter For My Soul" in my head at the same time. The haunting and beautiful song from Ned Kelly that has always moved me something fierce.
Man, I still can't shake the intense feeling that this has left me with.
Anyway, just needed to vent. Apologies for spamming the thread for the second time with my half-asleep, incoherent ramblings at 6:30 am...
On this day last year, our Heath was still here and that just hurts so much to consider. He was here, but only had four days left in this world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: Cleo :ghug:
It's morning here, and I've not long been out of bed. I'm not sure if I was dreaming of Heath or not, but the first thought in my mind as I woke up was an an image of him from the final scene of Candy. I could almost hear that beautiful voice as if it were right there. It was saying, "When you're granted a reprieve, I think you should remember...how thin it really is." Just like he said in the film.
I don't know why, but it just pierced me. That scene always makes me cry, as it is...when Heath cries, I cry, always without fail,...but this was far worse, more deeply felt for some reason.
And what makes it more...I don't know...I'm not even coherent or awake yet...but I suppose what I'm trying to say is that the feeling was just so strong, and what makes it even more poignant is that I had "Shelter For My Soul" in my head at the same time. The haunting and beautiful song from Ned Kelly that has always moved me something fierce.
Man, I still can't shake the intense feeling that this has left me with.
Anyway, just needed to vent. Apologies for spamming the thread for the second time with my half-asleep, incoherent ramblings at 6:30 am...
On this day last year, our Heath was still here and that just hurts so much to consider. He was here, but only had four days left in this world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Dear Laura, I like your post so much, you explain what you feel, I appréciate :clap: In spite of my own problems, I am still crying about Heath's death...(to young to die :\'() :^^)
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Dear Laura, I like your post so much, you explain what you feel, I appréciate :clap: In spite of my own problems, I am still crying about Heath's death...(to young to die :\'() :^^)
:ghug: Simone :ghug: Thank you, friend. I will continue to keep you, your husband and family in my prayers. :ghug:
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On this day last year, our Heath was still here and that just hurts so much to consider. He was here, but only had four days left in this world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
God... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
(((Laura))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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On this day last year, our Heath was still here and that just hurts so much to consider. He was here, but only had four days left in this world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Well, Laura, you've got company in your tears... That's what I keep thinking, also, that this time last year Heath was still with us...
Tonight I have a lazy Sunday night, a holiday off work tomorrow, and I'm going to watch Casanova. I only saw it once, and it is just the thing -- amusing and lighthearted, and a totally gorgeous Heath.
kathy
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Thanks for the consoling words, Tammy and Kathy. :ghug:
Kathy, that is a good idea -- hopefully the lighthearted tone will help lighten your own heart. Good choice.
And of course you're totally right about a way gorgeous Heath as Casanova. <^(
It's now 4:25 pm here, I'm almost finished with work for the day...yet the intense feeling of missing Heath that I woke to hasn't really subsided at all. :\'(
Kathy, I may have to do the same as you tonight. :) I'm in need of some lighthearted and gorgeous Heath fare, too.
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something i made...
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something i made...
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that's so beautiful maggie...
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something i made...
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So beautiful, Maggie. :ghug:
Heath is a treasure of the most precious kind, you are right.
So very treasured...
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something i made...
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:\'( <^( <^( <^(
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:ghug: Cleo :ghug:
On this day last year, our Heath was still here and that just hurts so much to consider. He was here, but only had four days left in this world. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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The day I saw the newspaper headlined an actor died. I ignored it thinking it was not important at all to me who died. But the day after when I saw the tv and heard the news. I could not believe! It was the most beautiful face I have ever seen . My feet frozed. my hands cold and my eyes shed tears.
This is 19th of January here in the Philippines. and Heath was till in London shooting some scenes for the film Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus .
He is going to fly the next day to New York and will dine and have a fine steak at one of his favorite hang outs.
he will be doing some groceries the day of January 22.....cook a small ala-carte for his dinner.
Good hot bathe and good massage. listen to sweet music . that song he rendered in 10 things I hate about you... and maybe he wil like the song Michael Buuble rendition of " Just The way You Look Tonight". and get some good sleep.
A phone rings at 8 AM from his director friend of his Four Feathers movie.. they will talk bussiness. schedule another project after Imaginarium.......... How I wish ....................................... :\'(
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The day I saw the newspaper headlined an actor died. I ignored it thinking it was not important at all to me who died. But the day after when I saw the tv and heard the news. I could not believe! It was the most beautiful face I have ever seen . My feet frozed. my hands cold and my eyes shed tears.
This is 19th of January here in the Philippines. and Heath was till in London shooting some scenes for the film Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus .
He is going to fly the next day to New York and will dine and have a fine steak at one of his favorite hang outs.
he will be doing some groceries the day of January 22.....cook a small ala-carte for his dinner.
Good hot bathe and good massage. listen to sweet music . that song he rendered in 10 things I hate about you... and maybe he wil like the song Michael Buuble rendition of " Just The way You Look Tonight". and get some good sleep.
A phone rings at 8 AM from his director friend of his Four Feathers movie.. they will talk bussiness. schedule another project after Imaginarium.......... How I wish ....................................... :\'(
Oh, God, how we wish, how we wish.
:ghug: White Angel :ghug: Your post made me cry. :\'( Just the very idea that he was even here this 19th of January last year. :\'( Here, still beautifying the world with his presence. Here, alive.
My heart is broken.
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Oh, God, how we wish, how we wish.
:ghug: White Angel :ghug: Your post made me cry. :\'( Just the very idea that he was even here this 19th of January last year. :\'( Here, still beautifying the world with his presence. Here, alive.
My heart is broken.
Laura. I was in a cafe yesterday posting about Heath , I then see again some of his movies reminishing memories of our dearest boy and read comments about his roles in those movies. Majority of those who made comments showed sympathy and respect and they said , where there is Heath. it must be a good movie. Heath got all the admiration of those hearts who care and love him and so we are Laura and the brookies out there.
It is 10:25 PM , 20th of January, 2008. Heath is not in good shape to shoot the film but he is trying his best with the help of those thick checkered socks and sweater and hood not to aggravate his condition due to cold weather in London where they are shooting in the open.
Heath never made a sigh or got enough of his job in this movie inspite of his condition. Blood running in his veins is of a real trooper. a good actor.
He is well love by his fellow actors and crews on the set.
He is well love by his fans waiting for the latest about Heath.
Shall I hear the latest about Heath?
Will he come for the premiere of Imaginarium?
Will he walk on the red carpet and escape the spotlights flashing here and there?
I still lie to myself .
I am sorry but I just can't let him go.
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It is 10:25 PM , 20th of January, 2008. Heath is not in good shape to shoot the film but he is trying his best with the help of those thick checkered socks and sweater and hood not to aggravate his condition due to cold weather in London where they are shooting in the open.
Heath never made a sigh or got enough of his job in this movie inspite of his condition. Blood running in his veins is of a real trooper. a good actor.
Oh, God... :\'( Such a haunting, sad image. Him in his checkered socks in the cold London winter. Ill, with walking pneumonia, but a trooper. Still committed to his craft. So staunch and beautiful.
So oblivious. :\'(
Shall I hear the latest about Heath?
Will he come for the premiere of Imaginarium?
Will he walk on the red carpet and escape the spotlights flashing here and there?
White_Angel....I can't even describe how much your pain-soaked questions rip my heart out.
*Devastated*
I am sorry but I just can't let him go.
((((White_Angel)))) Neither can I.
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something i made...
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Beautiful image and words,Maggie ¡ :^^) It's a great truth,because this memory is the only that remains of that person...But I'm still wondering to myself; why must we have only memories of him?... :\'(
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...It is 10:25 PM , 20th of January, 2008. Heath is not in good shape to shoot the film but he is trying his best with the help of those thick checkered socks and sweater and hood not to aggravate his condition due to cold weather in London where they are shooting in the open.
Heath never made a sigh or got enough of his job in this movie inspite of his condition. Blood running in his veins is of a real trooper. a good actor.
He is well love by his fellow actors and crews on the set.
He is well love by his fans waiting for the latest about Heath.
Shall I hear the latest about Heath?
Will he come for the premiere of Imaginarium?
Will he walk on the red carpet and escape the spotlights flashing here and there?
I still lie to myself .
I am sorry but I just can't let him go.
White Angel,I think all of us have lied to ourselves more than one time during this long year without him.We have imaged how his attending to his last movie premiere would have been,how he had answered to the many talk shows he would have gone,how he would have lived his new projects...
Because HE'S ALIVE STILL.He's alive and he will be forever alive while we think in him and we remember him.Nobody is really and completely dead if an only person misses him,and this is not Heath's case;he lives inside us,inside thousands of persons. :ghug:
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I'm an emotional mess this morning. I stayed up pretty much all of last night to watch Obama's Inauguration, and to make my Anniversary tribute for Heath, for my YouTube channel that's dedicated to him. The pride and joy of seeing the new American President being sworn in, and the pain of making the Heath tribute have combined to leave me feeling an odd elixir of mixed emotions.
But I think, more than anything, what hurts is that Heath should have been here for this historic day. He should have been here to witness something so pivotal, something that would no doubt have pleased him immensely. :\'(
Sigh. Long, drawn-out, sad sigh.
I don't know. I can't seem to stay away from this thread lately; I keep spamming it up with my ramblings. I guess I just need to think out loud about all this, or I fear I may burst or something.
Well, here's the tribute I made tonight. I'll surely do another on the 22nd, and will post that here, too.
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=iAsCdIcZeew&feature=channel_page
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I'm sure it's a beautiful tribute Laura, but I can't bring myself to watch it. I feel like I can't deal with any of it right now. it's just too painful.
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I'm an emotional mess this morning. I stayed up pretty much all of last night to watch Obama's Inauguration, and to make my Anniversary tribute for Heath, for my YouTube channel that's dedicated to him. The pride and joy of seeing the new American President being sworn in, and the pain of making the Heath tribute have combined to leave me feeling an odd elixir of mixed emotions.
But I think, more than anything, what hurts is that Heath should have been here for this historic day. He should have been here to witness something so pivotal, something that would no doubt have pleased him immensely. :\'(
Sigh. Long, drawn-out, sad sigh.
I don't know. I can't seem to stay away from this thread lately; I keep spamming it up with my ramblings. I guess I just need to think out loud about all this, or I fear I may burst or something.
Well, here's the tribute I made tonight. I'll surely do another on the 22nd, and will post that here, too.
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=iAsCdIcZeew&feature=channel_page
It's a lovely tribute Laura, but I am even sadder after watching it. :\'(
(OMG, sorry I pressed the wrong emoticon - it should be the crying one - ~) ) Now it's OK!
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It's the beautiful tribute he deserves,Laura¡ ^f^ But,I'm sorry,I recommend Keren not to watch it,not now,during these days..."Hallelujah" is a song that always makes me think in him,a song that always takes me where my heart is... :\'( And,even if I love all the images,combining his interviews with his voice and the music,well,sorry again...adding,f.e,Daniel Day-Lewis speech is a stab on the back-I hope you understand what I mean... #) -. I was strong at the beginning and I finish by crying:but it's logical,so I hope you don't hate me,Laura... :-\\
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It's beautiful, Laura. :\'( :ghug: :^^)
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Well, here's the tribute I made tonight. I'll surely do another on the 22nd, and will post that here, too.
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=iAsCdIcZeew&feature=channel_page
Laura, that tribute was beautiful :\'( :\'(
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Thanks Laura ***snif*** :\'(
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i know there are tones of tributes but i've done one tribute in the memory of his lifetime work...i would like to shaare with u all... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X957oi-ynHA&feature=channel_page
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****edited by moderator, please do not post paparazzi pictures or links to such pictures, specially pictures of Matilda****
and this one i've made in the memory of his beautiful love with Michelle and i put one of my fav songs... can't understand why they didn't stay togeder until the death would separate them...maibe if they didn't split he wouldn't need antidepresion drugs and he would still be with us...so sad...
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Dear Laura, I have seen your wonderful tribute and it makes me :\'( :^^)
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****edited by moderator, please do not post paparazzi pictures or links to such pictures, specially pictures of Matilda****
and this one i've made in the memory of his beautiful love with Michelle and i put one of my fav songs... can't understand why they didn't stay togeder until the death would separate them...maibe if they didn't split he wouldn't need antidepresion drugs and he would still be with us...so sad...
Can't understand too dear Candy...But we don't know, perhaps Michelle has her reasons :s)
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I will just keep this in my pocket all day tomorrow... It is one like I made that we left in the desert last March.
kathy
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One year already?
Over the year, I wonder if sadness has any expiration date. Could it last longer because of more love or quickly disappear with less? Simply not so. I know eventually I have to let you go but I just don’t know how. My sadness never disappears for your leaving. Instead, time forces it to quietly slip into a corner of my heart and often hits me off guard. It makes me miss you even more. On this day of your parting a year ago, all I can think of is - I don’t want to say goodbye.
I understand now why Ang Lee only needed to stare at you for 45 minutes without you even speaking a word for the role of Ennis Del Mar. The entire YOU spoke louder than anything. Thank you for being you and giving us this life-changing experience of Brokeback Mountain. I know one day I will see you in the place where blue bird sings with whiskey spring. I will be honored to have some drinks with you.
For now - whenever my sadness strikes, I will be looking for the brightest star in the sky. Fly free with your wings.
:ghug: to everyone and your heartfelt words. Here is my little tribute to Heath for what he has given us.
(https://ennisjack.com/video/heath.gif)
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I will just keep this in my pocket all day tomorrow... It is one like I made that we left in the desert last March.
Beautiful one and great idea. I will carry this with me - something we took away from the desert.
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Kathy, Ethan, those are just gorgeous. Thank you for sharing. :ghug:
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One year already?
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Yup, one year already :(
Beautiful one and great idea. I will carry this with me - something we took away from the desert.
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Got one too and I recall crying buckets when I got it in the mail, I just forgot about Kathy saying she was gonna mail them to us. :\'(
Thanks guys for being here and all. :ghug:
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Beautiful one and great idea. I will carry this with me - something we took away from the desert.
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What a beautiful idea Ethan, and the banner you made is lovely.
I started to write that I'd keep my bottle of sand with me tomorrow also, but I don't think I'd be able to stand the fear of it getting messed up or lost...
And I've also come to find, that the only reminder I need...is to simply wake up....
Reminded that he is gone....but to also remember that I am lucky to still be here.
:ghug: to my brokies today.
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One year already? ...
Over the year, I wonder if sadness has any expiration date. .....
:ghug: to everyone and your heartfelt words. Here is my little tribute to Heath for what he has given us.
(https://ennisjack.com/video/heath.gif)
Ethan, the banner is amazing but owhh. so sad...!! :\'( :\'( :\'(
YES..t's been a year already..(sigh) but it feels like yesterday, :\'(
such an unbelievable thing, it's hard for me to put it to words... I could say it better in my language.
תהיה נשמתך צרורה בצרור החיים... ת.נ.צ.ב.ה.
R.I.P. my sweet angel in the camp up the mountains in heaven,
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To all the brokies on this sad anniversary of yearning, I offer my love and hugs to everyone!!
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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thank you ethan.. this is beautiful... ^f^ :ghug:
my thoughts and a hug to all of you... :ghug:
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I don't really know what to say...
This year has gone by so fast and I can still remember it like yesterday when I found out that you're not here anymore. My heart break for the millionth time and my eyes hurt because of the crying... :\'( :\'(
I know I will see you some day and that day I will thank you for changing my life, you have no idea how much you mean to me.
To all my Brokies :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Everyone :ghug:
As soon as I saw the banner, I just lost it. I'm sobbing and will have to come back later when I'm not such a mess.
Ethan, you couldn't have put it any more beautifully. :\'(
And those items you'll keep with you all day, Kathy, Ethan.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm somehow going to have to go away and muster some strength to write a poem for our dear boy, now.
Oh God, my heart is just shattered...it feels like it's happening all over again. He was still here exactly one year ago...but the tether binding him here was getting so damn thin....
The notion kills me.
He would likely have been tossing and turning in bed now, unable to sleep, and getting closer and closer to departing this plane. :\'(
My heart is broken. It is so damn broken. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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i know there are tones of tributes but i've done one tribute in the memory of his lifetime work...i would like to shaare with u all... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X957oi-ynHA&feature=channel_page
Chrisy, this is absolutely beautiful, sweetie. Thank you so much. :ghug:
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One year. one year in which you were always on my mind. at this hour last year you were still alive, I wonder what you were doing. I wonder if you were asleep or awake. one can never tell, with you. I wish I could turn back the time and be there and stop you before you took those pills, and tell you what they were going to do to you. You had no idea. you just wanted to sleep...
Thank you for everything that you've given us, for sharing your special gifts, for shining so bright. Rest in peace my love.
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One year. one year in which you were always on my mind. at this hour last year you were still alive, I wonder what you were doing. I wonder if you were asleep or awake. one can never tell, with you. I wish I could turn back the time and be there and stop you before you took those pills, and tell you what they were going to do to you. You had no idea. you just wanted to sleep...
Thank you for everything that you've given us, for sharing your special gifts, for shining so bright. Rest in peace my love.
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((((Hugs you so tight))))
you just wanted to sleep...
Oh, God...I'm shattered.
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This is absolutely amazing, in his own words.... <^( :\'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTOrXF-LGyI
I'll watch it later, sweetie, if I can fortify myself enough. I can't afford to sob any harder right now. :\'(
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I will just keep this in my pocket all day tomorrow... It is one like I made that we left in the desert last March.
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This is a wonderful idea Kathy......
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:ghug: Everyone :ghug:
As soon as I saw the banner, I just lost it. I'm sobbing and will have to come back later when I'm not such a mess.
Ethan, you couldn't have put it any more beautifully. :\'(
And those items you'll keep with you all day, Kathy, Ethan.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm somehow going to have to go away and muster some strength to write a poem for our dear boy, now.
Oh God, my heart is just shattered...it feels like it's happening all over again. He was still here exactly one year ago...but the tether binding him here was getting so damn thin....
The notion kills me.
He would likely have been tossing and turning in bed now, unable to sleep, and getting closer and closer to departing this plane. :\'(
My heart is broken. It is so damn broken. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
((((((((((((((Laura)))))))))))))))
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One year. one year in which you were always on my mind. at this hour last year you were still alive, I wonder what you were doing. I wonder if you were asleep or awake. one can never tell, with you. I wish I could turn back the time and be there and stop you before you took those pills, and tell you what they were going to do to you. You had no idea. you just wanted to sleep...
Thank you for everything that you've given us, for sharing your special gifts, for shining so bright. Rest in peace my love.
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((((((Keren)))))) :\'( :\'( and everyone, on this day, the saddest of all days...... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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(((((((Christie)))))))
It is a hard day. I have a candle burning next to a picture of him... :\'(
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Our beautiful boy - I miss you so much. But I'm sending up a prayer of thanks for everything you gave us and the memories which will never die.
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Is there anything interesting up there in heaven? :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone, today and always.
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(((((((Christie)))))))
It is a hard day. I have a candle burning next to a picture of him... :\'(
It is a hard day, but at least we have this place, and each other.... :ghug: :ghug:
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Loreen, it's beautiful :\'(
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Loreen, it's beautiful :\'(
Keren, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Our beautiful boy - I miss you so much. But I'm sending up a prayer of thanks for everything you gave us and the memories which will never die.
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Is there anything interesting up there in heaven? :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to everyone, today and always.
There is definitely someone interesting and beautiful up there in heaven! And he's been there for a year now! :\'(
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I miss you
Miss you so bad
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keren :ghug: and christie :ghug:
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I've had this picture as my mobile phone background for the last year. It's so beautiful, and it reminds me of Heath every time I look at it.
I'm also wearing stripey socks today in tribute.
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I'm wearing my stripey gloves...
IN LOVING MEMORY
Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me
I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
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Ethan,Kathy,Henia,Candy,Keren...thank you so much for your beautiful tributes.And to all of us,thank you too for being here today,for being each other's support and relief in this so sad day.I have written in the Spanish channel that he's not with us HERE;but he will always be in the wind,in the rain,in the stars,in this spring that saw him be born,in this winter that saw him die...in our hearts,in each one of us.We must be today more united than ever,FOR HIM,for our Heath.
OT:OMFG¡I didn't want to,but now I'm crying oceans...I can't avoid it,I can't... :\'( :ghug:
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Ethan,Kathy,Henia,Candy,Keren...thank you so much for your beautiful tributes.And to all of us,thank you too for being here today,for being each other's support and relief in this so sad day.I have written in the Spanish channel that he's not with us HERE;but he will always be in the wind,in the rain,in the stars,in this spring that saw him be born,in this winter that saw him die...in our hearts,in each one of us.We must be today more united than ever,FOR HIM,for our Heath.
OT:OMFG¡I didn't want to,but now I'm crying oceans...I can't avoid it,I can't... :\'( :ghug:
OK, now you made my cry too! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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OK, now you made my cry too! :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Loreen, :ghug: Keren :ghug: and everybody :ghug: Please,be strong ¡.
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Beautiful Keren :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Oh Keren, thats so beautiful...... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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dear friend,
i write to you because i saw that you are not here anymore...and because you are gone...and i don't know how to tell u what i feel if not this way.i'm glad that know u can have fun without sufering...now you can be happy all the time and now u can not cry animore.so that is good.i'm sure u're having a great time up there in heaven.i hope u're not to busy with your funs up there.becose when we are going to come in there after u u will not have one second to rest muhahahahaaaa:)) u know how many people love you?u should be proud of yoursef this means u made a good job down here.u were a beautiful person inside and of course outside,a wonderful daddy,a loveble lover,an adored son,a trustful friend,a caring brother and a workaholic wich for us it was really good cos i am obsesed with your work...or me you have been an artist,my inspiration,my help when i was down and your optimism really helped me.i learned from your words,experience and from yor life u helped me seeing the beauties of this life and u made me realize ho important is to live every second like u did.4 all this and much more i wanted to thank you and i wish u to have fun for eternity like u always wanted.i love u my dear friend and i know that one day we'll meeti in a way or another!!!!
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dear friend,
i write to you because i saw that you are not here anymore...and because you are gone...and i don't know how to tell u what i feel if not this way.i'm glad that know u can have fun without sufering...now you can be happy all the time and now u can not cry animore.so that is good.i'm sure u're having a great time up there in heaven.i hope u're not to busy with your funs up there.becose when we are going to come in there after u u will not have one second to rest muhahahahaaaa:)) u know how many people love you?u should be proud of yoursef this means u made a good job down here.u were a beautiful person inside and of course outside,a wonderful daddy,a loveble lover,an adored son,a trustful friend,a caring brother and a workaholic wich for us it was really good cos i am obsesed with your work...or me you have been an artist,my inspiration,my help when i was down and your optimism really helped me.i learned from your words,experience and from yor life u helped me seeing the beauties of this life and u made me realize ho important is to live every second like u did.4 all this and much more i wanted to thank you and i wish u to have fun for eternity like u always wanted.i love u my dear friend and i know that one day we'll meeti in a way or another!!!!
Very beautiful, Candy! Real words from your and our souls! :\'(
Thanks dear! :^^)
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Very beautiful, Candy! Real words from your and our souls! :\'(
Thanks dear! :^^)
i wrote with some mistakes sorry hope u could read it.i posted it without reding it once again...
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Wonderful,Keren¡ A wonderful memorial... :^^) :\'(
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u know how many people love you?u should be proud of yoursef this means u made a good job down here.u were a beautiful person inside and of course outside,a wonderful daddy,a loveble lover,an adored son,a trustful friend,a caring brother and a workaholic
Yes,he was,and for all these reasons we have loved him so much and we still and will love him forever.
u made me realize ho important is to live every second like u did.4 all this and much more i wanted to thank you and i wish u to have fun for eternity like u always wanted.i love u my dear friend and i know that one day we'll meeti in a way or another!!!!
Thank you so much for this so touching and moving tribute,Candy ¡.It's what we had wanted to tell him too¡. :^^)
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Beautiful, Keren. A very fitting tribute.
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I don't get chance to come here as often as I would like these days, but today I just had to come to this special place to be with you all. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to you all. Just thinking of his beautiful face breaks my heart. Saw him in Ned Kelly last night, and it broke my heart. Tonight he'll be in Canndy, and it will no doubt break my heart. there is something about him that draws you in and makes you love him, no matter what character he plays. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thinking of you always and forever Heath baby.
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You are not gone or forgotten, Heath. You are remembered, and remembered dearly.
People not yet born will know you. They will know you from your Art and will remember.
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People not yet born will know you ....i'm sure of that... :ghug:
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I don't get chance to come here as often as I would like these days, but today I just had to come to this special place to be with you all. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to you all. Just thinking of his beautiful face breaks my heart. Saw him in Ned Kelly last night, and it broke my heart. Tonight he'll be in Canndy, and it will no doubt break my heart. there is something about him that draws you in and makes you love him, no matter what character he plays. :\'( :\'( :\'(
Thinking of you always and forever Heath baby.
Amen. That´s exactly what I feel!!! I love you Heath and miss you more than ever!
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:ghug: To everyone. I just can't believe a year has passed. It seems like yesterday. :\'(
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I knew I shouldn't have come on here when already feeling teary :\'(
I don't get on here that much at the moment, but had to today. How can it be a year already.
I'll come back and attempt to post something more coherent later, but there's some beautiful words and tributes being payed to Heath here today.
Take care, you all are in my thoughts todays, as is Heath's family and friends, and of course, Heath himself.
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Peace :ghug: Everyone :ghug:
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I didn’t want to come here, because I knew it’d be too much. But I needed to hug everyone and being hugged in return, so I tried to be strong, but as soon as I saw the banner I totally lost it and started to sob…
So I closed my laptop without reading a post.
I was helping my mother to eat while she was watching the news. I just heard that our baby got the Oscar nomination. I cried my eyes out in front of my mother, and she thought I was sad because of my lost job. How to explain what can’t be explained? How put in words what only can be felt?
Anyway…
I tried one more time to be brave and come here and write something beautiful about the sweetest man ever, but as you see I’m not doing ok.
My head aches.
I read these two posts and now my chest hurts so bad and I can’t breathe, so I won’t read anything else…I can’t be here today. I’ll be hidden in a corner and will return tomorrow or the day after tomorrow…..
One year already?
Over the year, I wonder if sadness has any expiration date. Could it last longer because of more love or quickly disappear with less? Simply not so. I know eventually I have to let you go but I just don’t know how. My sadness never disappears for your leaving. Instead, time forces it to quietly slip into a corner of my heart and often hits me off guard. It makes me miss you even more. On this day of your parting a year ago, all I can think of is - I don’t want to say goodbye.
I understand now why Ang Lee only needed to stare at you for 45 minutes without you even speaking a word for the role of Ennis Del Mar. The entire YOU spoke louder than anything. Thank you for being you and giving us this life-changing experience of Brokeback Mountain. I know one day I will see you in the place where blue bird sings with whiskey spring. I will be honored to have some drinks with you.
For now - whenever my sadness strikes, I will be looking for the brightest star in the sky. Fly free with your wings.
:ghug: to everyone and your heartfelt words. Here is my little tribute to Heath for what he has given us.
:ghug: Everyone :ghug:
I'm sobbing and will have to come back later when I'm not such a mess.
Ethan, you couldn't have put it any more beautifully. :\'(
And those items you'll keep with you all day, Kathy, Ethan.... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I'm somehow going to have to go away and muster some strength to write a poem for our dear boy, now.
Oh God, my heart is just shattered...it feels like it's happening all over again. He was still here exactly one year ago...but the tether binding him here was getting so damn thin....
The notion kills me.
He would likely have been tossing and turning in bed now, unable to sleep, and getting closer and closer to departing this plane. :\'(
My heart is broken. It is so damn broken. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
This week is becoming a nightmare. I just want to wake up.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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You are not gone or forgotten, Heath. You are remembered, and remembered dearly.
People not yet born will know you. They will know you from your Art and will remember.
I quote your post Thomas, it's so true !
^f^ :ghug: :^^)
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It does feel like it just happened. Heath you touched our hearts like no one else and you'll never ever be forgotten
rip
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((((((((Tammy))))))))
Come back to us when you feel you can - you know we're always here for you.
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We shouldn't just remember him in sadness. I look at the smiling face in our banner and in my heart I am grateful.
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We shouldn't just remember him in sadness. I look at the smiling face in our banner and in my heart I am grateful.
I'm grateful, too, Thomas. The gifts he gave us will never grow old...I remembered that when I was watching Brokeback last night and marvelling, once again, at his incredible portrayal as Ennis.
He may have only touched our lives briefly, but he touched us all deeply and he'll stay alive in our hearts forever.
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I wanna try and watch Brokeback soon... maybe not all of it, I don't think I can take it, but some of it at least. I watched A Knight's Tale last night because I wanted to fall asleep with a smile.
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I didn’t want to come here, because I knew it’d be too much. But I needed to hug everyone and being hugged in return, so I tried to be strong, but as soon as I saw the banner I totally lost it and started to sob…
So I closed my laptop without reading a post.
I was helping my mother to eat while she was watching the news. I just heard that our baby got the Oscar nomination. I cried my eyes out in front of my mother, and she thought I was sad because of my lost job. How to explain what can’t be explained? How put in words what only can be felt?
Anyway…
I tried one more time to be brave and come here and write something beautiful about the sweetest man ever, but as you see I’m not doing ok.
My head aches.
I read these two posts and now my chest hurts so bad and I can’t breathe, so I won’t read anything else…I can’t be here today. I’ll be hidden in a corner and will return tomorrow or the day after tomorrow…..
This week is becoming a nightmare. I just want to wake up.
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Tammy,please,be strong; for your mother-don't give her such a great pain...-,for him and,above all,for you.And don't be here if this hurts you too much,You know we are here for supporting each other,but we understand you prefer to be far from this thread.As a matter of fact,sorrow is with us,no matter where we are today... :ghug:
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You are not gone or forgotten, Heath. You are remembered, and remembered dearly.
People not yet born will know you. They will know you from your Art and will remember.
Lovely words Thomas!
If I may add-
As much as we suffer and cry for losing him, the same happines we should feel cos he is in peace now. I strongly believe that God had his reasons to take him at that moment. We don't know what those reasons are. Also I believe that we leave this place just in the time when we are ready! And Heath was ready! We can cry (God knows I cried and I am crying right now), but He chooses the best time for each of us.
So, don't be so devastated, don't be so sad, cos Heath IS here and he can feel our sorrow. Well, to be even more boring, I read also that a strong sorrow and not letting someone go, can make his/her soul suffer, cos we transmit our feelings, our negative energy to that person.
Sorry if I am boring and stupid here - my intention was to make all of us (me included) a little more comfortable with the fact that we won't see Heath until dear God chose the exact time for us to leave. Before that, we should be extremely proud to enjoy Heath's tremendous work.
Love you Heath! <^(
Love you Brokies! <^(
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We shouldn't just remember him in sadness. I look at the smiling face in our banner and in my heart I am grateful.
You're right as always,Thomas...We should't remember him in sadness,but with the happinness of having had him in our lives,even for a while.With the happinnes of having received all what he has given to us with his performances.We would have been unlucky if we hadn't ever known him...but it still hurts so much... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Lovely words Thomas!
If I may add-
As much as we suffer and cry for losing him, the same happines we should feel cos he is in peace now. I strongly believe that God had his reasons to take him at that moment. We don't know what those reasons are. Also I believe that we leave this place just in the time when we are ready! And Heath was ready! We can cry (God knows I cried and I am crying right now), but He chooses the best time for each of us.
So, don't be so devastated, don't be so sad, cos Heath IS here and he can feel our sorrow. Well, to be even more boring, I read also that a strong sorrow and not letting someone go, can make his/her soul suffer, cos we transmit our feelings, our negative energy to that person.
Sorry if I am boring and stupid here - my intention was to make all of us (me included) a little more comfortable with the fact that we won't see Heath until dear God chose the exact time for us to leave. Before that, we should be extremely proud to enjoy Heath's tremendous work.
Love you Heath! <^(
Love you Brokies! <^(
Oh,no,Loreen,you're not stupid nor boring¡Nobody it's stupid here; we all are trying to relief and confort each other the best we can.And trying to understand also why he had gone,even if we can't now...
I have also read about the positive energies people can send to their beloved ones who aren't here and I think you're rather right; today I have said to some Brokies that he wouldn't like to see us so devastated,but remembering him,as Thomas says,with the happiness of having known him.His soul can't be suffering for us,wherever he's now,but with the peace he deserves... :^^)
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Lovely words Thomas!
If I may add-
As much as we suffer and cry for losing him, the same happines we should feel cos he is in peace now. I strongly believe that God had his reasons to take him at that moment. We don't know what those reasons are. Also I believe that we leave this place just in the time when we are ready! And Heath was ready! We can cry (God knows I cried and I am crying right now), but He chooses the best time for each of us.
So, don't be so devastated, don't be so sad, cos Heath IS here and he can feel our sorrow. Well, to be even more boring, I read also that a strong sorrow and not letting someone go, can make his/her soul suffer, cos we transmit our feelings, our negative energy to that person.
Sorry if I am boring and stupid here - my intention was to make all of us (me included) a little more comfortable with the fact that we won't see Heath until dear God chose the exact time for us to leave. Before that, we should be extremely proud to enjoy Heath's tremendous work.
Love you Heath! <^(
Love you Brokies! <^(
I believe this also. I think he would rather see us happy than sad. Let's celebrate his life even as we remember his passing.
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You're right as always,Thomas...We should't remember him in sadness,but with the happinness of having had him in our lives,even for a while.With the happinnes of having received all what he has given to us with his performances.We would have been unlucky if we hadn't ever known him...but it still hurts so much... :\'( :\'( :\'(
People have different ways of remembering. Some certainly must remember through tears. It's OK. We remember in a way that is true to who we are. He would appreciate that very much.
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Today I am wearing a brown-and-black-striped sweater similar to one that he used to wear. I am also wearing a necklace with the letter H. Tonight when I get home from work, I will light a candle for him.
I'm just glad that I have this place to come to, with people who understand my grief. :ghug:
Heath - you will never be forgotten. You will live on forever, in your body of work, and in your beautiful daughter. Rest in peace, dear man. :\'(
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Oh,no,Loreen,you're not stupid nor boring¡Nobody it's stupid here; we all are trying to relief and confort each other the best we can.And trying to understand also why he had gone,even if we can't now...
I have also read about the positive energies people can send to their beloved ones who aren't here and I think you're rather right; today I have said to some Brokies that he wouldn't like to see us so devastated,but remembering him,as Thomas says,with the happiness of having known him.His soul can't be suffering for us,wherever he's now,but with the peace he deserves... :^^)
I believe this also. I think he would rather see us happy than sad. Let's celebrate his life even as we remember his passing.
Thank you for understanding my thoughts and to support my wish to celebrate life, in any form. ^f^
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I didn’t want to come here, because I knew it’d be too much. But I needed to hug everyone and being hugged in return, so I tried to be strong, but as soon as I saw the banner I totally lost it and started to sob…
So I closed my laptop without reading a post.
I was helping my mother to eat while she was watching the news. I just heard that our baby got the Oscar nomination. I cried my eyes out in front of my mother, and she thought I was sad because of my lost job. How to explain what can’t be explained? How put in words what only can be felt?
Anyway…
I tried one more time to be brave and come here and write something beautiful about the sweetest man ever, but as you see I’m not doing ok.
My head aches.
I read these two posts and now my chest hurts so bad and I can’t breathe, so I won’t read anything else…I can’t be here today. I’ll be hidden in a corner and will return tomorrow or the day after tomorrow…..
This week is becoming a nightmare. I just want to wake up.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
Aww, sweetie...:\'(
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This week is becoming a nightmare. I just want to wake up.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I first thought, that's exactly how I feel about this whole year, but this year also brought a lot of happiness, especially overcoming my fear of flying just so I could meet many of you...but sometimes I do just wish I could wake up, could you imagine....to just wake up and realize it was all just a nightmare....though who could make up something so awful....not even the most evil subconscious could.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I wanna try and watch Brokeback soon... maybe not all of it, I don't think I can take it, but some of it at least. I watched A Knight's Tale last night because I wanted to fall asleep with a smile.
I thought of watching Brokeback today also, I was watching it on dvd today last year when I stopped it midway because I didn't feel like watching the sad part, and the bottom of the screen was scrolling that Heath was found dead. You'd think it'd seem too shocking to believe, but I just believed it right away, I just knew from now on we lived in a world he forever gone from.
:\'( I just erased a bunch of stuff I wrote...I think optimism should be more of the theme of the day....I think I'm gonna go eat a banana nut muffin ;) :)
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I didn’t want to come here, because I knew it’d be too much. But I needed to hug everyone and being hugged in return, so I tried to be strong, but as soon as I saw the banner I totally lost it and started to sob…
So I closed my laptop without reading a post.
I was helping my mother to eat while she was watching the news. I just heard that our baby got the Oscar nomination. I cried my eyes out in front of my mother, and she thought I was sad because of my lost job. How to explain what can’t be explained? How put in words what only can be felt?
Anyway…
I tried one more time to be brave and come here and write something beautiful about the sweetest man ever, but as you see I’m not doing ok.
My head aches.
I read these two posts and now my chest hurts so bad and I can’t breathe, so I won’t read anything else…I can’t be here today. I’ll be hidden in a corner and will return tomorrow or the day after tomorrow…..
This week is becoming a nightmare. I just want to wake up.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Tammy, I don't know what to say.... :\'( :ghug:
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It's a year since your memories are in our heart
It's a year since that night with so much loneliness,
since that silent shout that died inside your neck,
since that endless journey with no coming back,
since you filled with sorrow your vital pack.
Everybody,then,had been blind to see
the answer that shadowed your amber eyes.
Nobody,then,could give you a courage's stick
to lean on while walking for your stony path.
You were then like a lonely Ennis del Mar,
always longing for what could have been,
without the strength to recover the "it is"
of the only truth that kept you alive...
In exchange,someone far beyond the Earth
called you that night to enlighten his world
by enjoying your talent and your youth.
And then you began to play your new role,
far away from us,but full with hope...
It's a year since the Universe has a new star
that shines much more that the rest.
It's a year since we keep on looking at the sky,
where this light frames kindly your face.
And,although we know you are in the light breeze
that caresses and watches Matilda's sleep,
we'd want you here,to be in your own Brokeback,
riding strongly along the happinness way,
even if a reality serves us of some relief:
that you're riding forever along with Jack,
...It's a year since our gardens have a plant
that is growing day by day inside our veins
and that is watered constantly with our tears.
We all feel this plant is named after you: HEATH.
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Each one of us has their own believes and way of seeing things. Since I am not religious and I don't believe in god, I find no comfort in the thought that god took him. I don't believe it was his time to go. For me it was a terrible, stupid accident, and there is no explanation for that. It just shouldn't have happened.
But I do believe that he wouldn't have wanted to see people crying and sad. He never wanted to cause sorrow. I will always remember him, and I'll try to do that with a smile. I am greatful for the short time that we've had you, Heath... I just wish you could stay longer. I'll always miss you.
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I posted this words in another thread too, but I felt that together with Heath's photo today, it would mean much more!
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Each one of us has their own believes and way of seeing things. Since I am not religious and I don't believe in god, I find no comfort in the thought that god took him. I don't believe it was his time to go. For me it was a terrible, stupid accident, and there is no explanation for that. It just shouldn't have happened.
But I do believe that he wouldn't have wanted to see people crying and sad. He never wanted to cause sorrow. I will always remember him, and I'll try to do that with a smile. I am greatful for the short time that we've had you, Heath... I just wish you could stay longer. I'll always miss you.
Dear Keren, I understand you :^^) :ghug:
Even you don't believe in God, you probably believe that Heath's soul exists in another form and that death is not the end. Cos if death is the definite end, than nothing would make sense for each of us.
I know that Heath is alive, and in peace! If not, all his work would've been in vane! And it's not! IT'S NOT!
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In exchange,someone far beyond the Earth
called you that night to enlighten his world
by enjoying your talent and your youth.
And then you began to play your new role,
far away from us,but full with hope...
It's a year since the Universe has a new star
that shines much more that the rest.
It's a year since we keep on looking at the sky,
where this light frames kindly your face.
And,although we know you are in the light breeze
that caresses and watches Matilda's sleep,
we'd want you here,to be in your own Brokeback,
riding strongly along the happinness way,
even if a reality serves us of some relief:
that you're riding forever along with Jack,
OMG, did you write this MPJ?? It so very beautiful and so comforting! I really love it! <^(
He is a shiny star now.... Heath!
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Dear Keren, I understand you :^^) :ghug:
Even you don't believe in God, you probably believe that Heath's soul exists in another form and that death is not the end. Cos if death is the definite end, than nothing would make sense for each of us.
I know that Heath is alive, and in peace! If not, all his work would've been in vane! And it's not! IT'S NOT!
indeed, it doesn't make sense to me. not one bit.
But the fact that he's dead doesn't mean to me that his work was in vain... he gave the world the gift of his talent, and this gift will stay here forever. Years from now people will look at his work and marvel at how brilliant he was. his work was a part of what created this forum, what brought me here, so surely it was not in vain.
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OMG, did you write this MPJ?? It so very beautiful and so comforting! I really love it! <^(
He is a shiny star now.... Heath!
Yes,it's mine...It's boring and full with grammar mistakes,but at least it's fully felt today...Thank you for your kind words,sweetie¡. :^^)
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It was around this hour, a year ago...
My beautiful boy, I will always love you.
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It has been a year...
It was a cold winter day
When you were taken away.
But through your life and your art
You will always be in our hearts.
We celebrate you now
As you receive the praise you’re due.
And mourn the hole you left
On the day that we lost you.
So many things call you to mind:
A glimpse of a star,
The echo of a song,
The sight of striped clothes,
We feel you with us still.
You didn’t leave us behind.
366 days could never be enough
To heal all the hurt or dry all the tears.
But we will keep moving forward,
Carrying you with us through the years.
You left a footprint on our universe
With your creative gifts and generous heart.
You will forever remain
Our cowboy,
Our Casanova,
The knight of our heart.
In love and fond memory for a beautiful soul who branded himself on all our hearts.
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It has been a year...
We celebrate you now
As you receive the praise you’re due.
And mourn the hole you left
On the day that we lost you.
******
You left a footprint on our universe
With your creative gifts and generous heart.
You will forever remain
Our cowboy,
Our Casanova,
The knight of our heart.
Very beautiful, FlwrChild! ^f^
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:\'( :\'( :\'(
Year has gone by and there's not a day, when I don't think about you. We miss you always, sweet sweet Heath :\'(
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It has been a year...
The knight of our heart...
<^(
Thank you FC, so appropriate!!!
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I've been trying all day to watch BBM but I just can't. I can't even look at the DVD cover without crying :\'(
I miss you more then you will ever know Heath...
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It's been a year... and I still don't have the words, all I can say I'm so very sad. But not just that, I'm also grateful that he existed and during his life he touched so many people through his work. And I still keep on thinking, why he touched me so much, a man I never personally get to know. And I won't never forget. That has never happened to me before and probably never won't happen again. There are so many feelings inside me right now that I don't know how to express them... I just miss you so very much Heath Ledger!
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i dont know how to put my feelings in too words really...but heath i miss you...everyday your in my heart and mind and i will love you always.
im not coming on here much today because i dont think i will cope well. but id like to share this tribute video i made
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=aRxZ-edIOW8
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Beautiful tribute video Matt. :)
I tired to do a video but I just couldn't. It was to hard watching parts from movies and pictures of him :\'(
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Nice thing Matt! O0 :(
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This sure is a hard day for us. So far, am not able to think of much to say, except am glad we are here for each other. For those who are not doing so well, and who hurt from the day itself, all my love and a warm hug.
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Don't stand by my grave and weep,
For I am not there.
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond's glint in the snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
In the soft blush of the morning light
I am the swift bird in flight.
Don't stand by my grave and cry,
I am not there,
I did not die.
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One year ago, at this same hour I received a call from a Brokie sister here...
...then I knew the unthinkable happened, at first I was numb.
The tears came later,
they are still flowing.
There's a hole in my heart since you left,
You know whut?
You changed my life.
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Thank you Heath!
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Quote from Chris Nolan,
accepting Heath's Golden Globe Award
for Best Supporting Actor
" He will be eternally missed but
he will never be forgotten."
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Little darlin'....I miss you more than ever today. I miss you and love you and I wish you were here with all of my being.
I wish, too, that I could give each and every one of you that's hurting today the warmest, tightest hugs ever. I'm sending my love out to all of you. :ghug:
I had expected this day to be hard, but just not this hard. It's morning here, and I woke up crying, and knew instantly that I wouldn't be going to work today.
The first sound I heard as I got up was Heath's name on TV, and in my mind's ear. I saw his father being interviewed by the Australian Today Show's Richard Wilkins, and felt so crushed I couldn't breathe. Kim Ledger said that none of the family members have been able to erase Heath's phone number from their phones because it was so easy to believe, at times, that he was simply away on location, and that they almost expected him to call them sometimes. I just can't say how much that devastated me...
I felt the need to write a couple of poems about this sad day.
Winter Sun
We've made the journey round the Sun
In an orbit made of blue,
We've traveled round the Sun one time
Since the day it set for you.
The sad, cold Sun, she gazes down
From the empty vault of sky,
Her wintry rays
Throughout this day
Just cannot come nigh.
The pale orb in that arc above,
That vast, and boundless space,
She reaches wanly down to us
But cannot warm Earth's face.
Year To The Day
A year to the day
My alarm this morn
Was not a shrill, thin
Sound.
Instead, a vise around my
Chest
A winch so tightly
Bound.
Year to the day
A summer morn
But winter
Nonetheless,
'Twas winter then
'Tis winter now
'Tis winter in my
Chest.
It's a year to the day
I hear your name
The first sound of the
Morning,
Upon my lips
And on TV
This date of saddest
Mourning.
A year to the day
But no less hard
Our hearts are no less
Pained,
A year to the day
But the pain, it blooms
It never seems to
Wane.
It grows like heather on the moors
Blooms unbound,
Untamed
Girt by purple heather
But
There's beauty in the
Pain.
Your father there, upon my
Screen
A whole year to the Day
He can't erase your number yet
In case you'll call today.
Year to the day
My heart cracks more
To a pulp it has been
Beaten.
The sunshine
Casts sad rays upon
My breakfast left
Uneaten.
It's a year to the day
I can't let you go
I cannot let you go
I love you, Heath
And miss you, Heath
I will not let you go.
A breeze outside it stirs the
Trees
A summer, winter
Breeze
Upon this zephyr I'll send my love
Let it drift to heights above
With heavy hearts, the show goes on,
Your presence lights the way.
But what I'd give to have you back
This year unto the day.
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Don't stand by my grave and weep,
For I am not there.
I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond's glint in the snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
In the soft blush of the morning light
I am the swift bird in flight.
Don't stand by my grave and cry,
I am not there,
I did not die.
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((((Steffi))))
That is so beautifully comforting. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I was just about to post the link to another anniversary tribute I made for YouTube, but as I went to grab the link, I saw that the video had already been removed due to those petty little misgivings the record labels have. I had only just uploaded it last night.
This has upset me even more than I already was, because I had worked on that video until late into the night, losing a lot of sleep, and putting so much love and effort into it.
So it compounds the sadness a great deal to know that my tribute to that special man was pretty much in vain. :\'(
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Thank you all for your comfort by your words and simply being here. As one of Heath's favorite songs, I know he is singing this to all who love him dearly.
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right
Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it's all right
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes...
Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZtQh5EIgWQ
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I was just about to post the link to another anniversary tribute I made for YouTube, but as I went to grab the link, I saw that the video had already been removed due to those petty little misgivings the record labels have. I had only just uploaded it last night.
This has upset me even more than I already was, because I had worked on that video until late into the night, losing a lot of sleep, and putting so much love and effort into it.
So it compounds the sadness a great deal to know that my tribute to that special man was pretty much in vain. :\'(
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((((Ethan)))) Thank you so much.
Just reading the lyrics... It brings a beautiful measure of comfort, honey, so thank you.
And actually listening to it just fills my heart so full.
It's an all-time, much-loved, personal favourite of mine and is so special to me, now more than ever.
:ghug:
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i dont know how to put my feelings in too words really...but heath i miss you...everyday your in my heart and mind and i will love you always.
im not coming on here much today because i dont think i will cope well. but id like to share this tribute video i made
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=aRxZ-edIOW8
Beautiful, thank you Matt :^^)
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Aw, thank you, honey. It is indeed unfortunate, but you should know that I watched the video that you posted, Heath in his own words, and was just so, so moved by it. Thanks so much for sharing it here. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Ethan... :ghug:
Here comes the sun....... little darling...... :\'( :\'(
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i dont know how to put my feelings in too words really...but heath i miss you...everyday your in my heart and mind and i will love you always.
im not coming on here much today because i dont think i will cope well. but id like to share this tribute video i made
http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=aRxZ-edIOW8
Beautiful, Matt. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Thank you so much for obviously putting your heart into this greatly touching video.
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It was around this hour, a year ago...
My beautiful boy, I will always love you.
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OH dear x I love this one so much im gonna use it x
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I have a special playlist on my Ipod..listened to it quite a lot today x
Was thinking of all of us, mourning our boy
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Thanks for everything,
lil' darlin'
See ya' round.
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I'm sat here with a candle burning and Lords of Dogtown on and I struggle to comprehend Heath's not in this world anymore and that he's been gone a year. Plenty of tears have been cried today in sadness and then pride over the Oscar nod.
This day was always going to be hard, but I'm glad to see I'm ot the only one who found it harder than they could have imagined.
The why question is one I'm sure haunts most of us and will never ever be answered. Why someone who had given/shared so much and yet still had so much left to do was taken so young. The list of things we'd give up in a heartbeat to have him back.
Heath changed our stars and lives forever. I'm grateful that I lived in Heath's time and got to see an actor grow and take on a wide variety of roles, constantly challeging himself and his audience/fans. He'd rather do a small indie type film with a story to tell than the big blockbusters for a fast buck. He seemed a throw back to the old school of acting like Brando and Paul Newman and made him unique and standout from his peers. He's left an incredible body of work, that will ensure he is never forgotten, even by those not even born yet.
And his personality - a geuinely down to earth gentle giant - open minded and harmless. Funny and self depricating. Big hearted. Someone who knew his roots and kept friends and family close to his heart. A guy who threw himself wholeheartedly into everything he did.
I really can't believe its been a year - seems like only yesterday, and as I've said before, still seems like a dream. For me, the best way to honour Heath, is to live as he did. Live for every second and follow our dreams. And let him to continue to inspire us in different ways.
I've rambled enough now, you've all been in my thoughts today, as has all of Heath's family & friends. There's some beautiful words been said and poems written by folks here..that I like to think are raising a smile somewhere. Long may this place continue.
To Heath, where ever you are right now, you are missed more than ever, but will always be in our hearts and thoughts. Take it easy out there. Till we meet again x
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I'm usually not at a loss for words but a year ago today I was and a year later I still cant form words to describe how something like this could be :-\\ I heard that death notice over and over and it still didnt make sense to me and it never will
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I'm usually not at a loss for words but a year ago today I was and a year later I still cant form words to describe how something like this could be :-\\ I heard that death notice over and over and it still didnt make sense to me and it never will
Hello there x
Yep, it doesnt make sense and never will, life is so unfair
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I "wrote" this last year for the newsletter...and wanted to post it again....I am using some of Heath’s quotes from his movies, I am sure you will recognise some of them. They are modified to fit my message, and I sincerely hope I am not offending anyone by using them so freely. I apologize in advance.
When something like this happens you are lost. You don't know who you are anymore and what you're capable of.
But if you can't fix it, dear brokies, you gotta stand it.
Through his work, Heath’s talent, youth and beauty will last forever.
Some quotes will always make me smile, others have just started to make me cry.
Today, the pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle.
I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter.
Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to.
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide.
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... we carry your heart, we carry it in our hearts.
It's because of you Heath, that we are like this! We've always loved you. You've changed things... forever.
There's no going back. There ain't no reins on this one.
...and I guess we'll see you around, huh?
Rest in peace,
Your faithful squires.
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Thank you all for your comfort by your words and simply being here. As one of Heath's favorite songs, I know he is singing this to all who love him dearly.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZtQh5EIgWQ
This song brought me back to some old times... it hurt...
I didn't know that it was one of Heath's favorite songs, but that "little darling", and so old familiar sound simply broke my heart. :\'(
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I thought I was fine but why hadn't I remember about the banner? Wow, just to see that banner being placed again makes all the memories of his death so much more...real.
Today, amoungst only a select few of my close friends, I did a day of silence for Heath. I walked through my classes without saying a word. Of course, there were times when I HAD to talk but for the most part, I was silent and I let everyone know why. I wrote a note saying about Heath's death and the silence and too many people gave it back to me saying, "Has it been that long?"..many were so shocked that a year as passed. I can't believe it as well. I always wondered what it would be like and here it is and I don't know what to do or how to react. I will try to stay positive but I know, the feelings of loss will rush back to me.
Heath, I hope you're peaceful up there heaven and looking over all of us, especially your daughter. You ment the world to us with your strength, your willingness to take on life by the reins, and for just being you. And by this, your work, your passion, your outlook on life, you will always be remembered.
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When a good man dies
The earth nods, heaves a sigh
And goes right back to work.
Perhaps selling improvisations
Or taking on impossible odds,
Grandiose dreams by sheer force
Of will become reality.
Who ever would have believed this script
In a world where the brisk business
Of birth, death, renewal and chance
Comes in on the money every time.
When a good man dies
The earth nods, heaves a sigh
And just goes back to work.
You can’t trick fate
But you can mold it with passion,
Bend it by ambition
And turn it toward a better world.
(Author ... Unknown)
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I guess I thought you'd be here forever
Another illusion I chose to create
You don't know what ya got until it's gone
And I found out a little too late
I was acting as if you were lucky to have me
Doin' you a favor I hardly knew you were there
But then you were gone and it was all wrong
Had no idea how much I cared
Now being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
But I don't want to
Living without you
It's all a big mistake
Instead of getting easier
It's the hardest thing to take
I'm addicted to ya babe
You're a hard habit to break
After all of these weeks
I'm still tryin' to shake it
Doin' much better they say that it just takes time
But deep in the night it's an endless flight
I can't get ya out of my mind
Being without you
Takes a lot of getting used to
Should learn to live with it
I don't want to
Being without
Is all a big mistake
Instead of getting any easier
It's the hardest thing to take
I'm addicted to you
You're a hard habit to break
Chicago - Hard Habit To Break
(tinkering by Roco)
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Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong there in heaven...
Would you hold my hand
if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
if I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay there in heaven...
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please...begging please
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more tears in heaven...
Would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong there in heaven...
TEARS IN HEAVEN ... by Eric Clapton
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Since you've been away
I've been down and lonely
Since you've been away
I've been thinking of you
Trying to understand
The reason you left me
What were you going through?
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
As I look around
I see things that remind me
Just to see you smile
Made my heart fill with joy
I'll still recall
All those dreams we shared together
Where did you run to, boy?
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Sometimes I've wondered
I didn't understand
Just where you were trying to go
Only you knew the plan
And I tried to be there
But you wouldn't let me in
But now you've gone away boy
I feel so broken hearted
I knew the day we started
That we were meant to be
If only you'd let me!
I've cried so many tears
Gotta face now all my fears
We let time slip away
I need you boy
Here today!
There was so much you gave me
To my heart
To my soul
There was so much of your dreams
That were never told
You had so much hope
For a brighter day
Why were you my flower
Plucked away
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
Ooh ooh
I'm missing you
Tell me why the road turns
("Missing You" - Diana Ross)
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One year without you, still hurt
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One year without you, still hurt
Amen.
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Wanted to come spend some time with all of you who know just what today means. To cry some and to share. Am greatful to have this place to be. To remember Heath. Dont know what to say other than what has already been said over and over.
Thank you, Heath, for all the things you never even knew you did for me.
^f^
:f) :c)
Amen, Amen to that friend.
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A year went by so fast..Yet I always remember you, even more so during my classes where I constantly play with your wrist band.
Hope everything is amazing up there in Heaven for you, Heath.
Cause it sure seems like hell most of the time down here.
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I know you are much bigger than I can ever imagine
Your love touched more people than I will ever know
Yet from time to time out of the blue
I feel your presence and your touch
Like lightning that strikes me flat
And I know my life is changed
For the better, again, forever
Because you were here
Because you are in me
Love you, Always
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I first thought, that's exactly how I feel about this whole year, but this year also brought a lot of happiness, especially overcoming my fear of flying just so I could meet many of you...but sometimes I do just wish I could wake up, could you imagine....to just wake up and realize it was all just a nightmare....though who could make up something so awful....not even the most evil subconscious could.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I thought of watching Brokeback today also, I was watching it on dvd today last year when I stopped it midway because I didn't feel like watching the sad part, and the bottom of the screen was scrolling that Heath was found dead. You'd think it'd seem too shocking to believe, but I just believed it right away, I just knew from now on we lived in a world he forever gone from.
:\'( I just erased a bunch of stuff I wrote...I think optimism should be more of the theme of the day....I think I'm gonna go eat a banana nut muffin ;) :)
That's the spirit, Jessica!
You know, I didn't know your story of the moment you learned about Heath last year. That is amazing -- terrible yet somehow fitting moment...
kathy
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((((Ethan)))) Thank you so much.
Just reading the lyrics... It brings a beautiful measure of comfort, honey, so thank you.
And actually listening to it just fills my heart so full.
It's an all-time, much-loved, personal favourite of mine and is so special to me, now more than ever.
:ghug:
Me, too! Thank you so much, Ethan.
kathy
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Wanted to come spend some time with all of you who know just what today means. To cry some and to share. Am greatful to have this place to be. To remember Heath. Dont know what to say other than what has already been said over and over.
Thank you, Heath, for all the things you never even knew you did for me.
^f^
:f) :c)
Beautiful, Ranchand. Just so. Heath was so giving, yet he gave a whole lot more than he even knew.
kathy
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Well it's 9 pm here, so the Australian anniversary date is finally drawing to a close.
Been a long, sad day - from the moment I rose and saw Heath's father on our Today Show (I posted about that a few pages back this morning), up until now, it's just been a very difficult day, and the flashbacks to a year ago would not quit. It just felt like I was reliving that unthinkable day, all over again. I found I could barely eat a thing all day.
On this day last year, around this time, I was lighting some candles around my room for him, having locked myself away from everyone I know after a long, hard day of disbelief, shock, realization, then crushing, crushing grief. The awful news was what I woke up to on my radio that morning, and I remember just feeling completely sick. But I somehow forced myself to go to work, regardless, and over the course of the day I kept fully expecting to hear it was just some very sick rumour...I'm pretty sure I convinced myself that it was a callous hoax. It was only on the drive home from work that I suddenly had to pull over and bawl my eyes out, the truth sinking in, and I just sat there and cried, fighting the urge to throw up. The delayed reaction was just overwhelming.
But while today was awfully sad, there were also moments of joyful reflection sprinkled throughout, too. I think that's thanks to all of you guys here, and your outpouring of love in this thread. :ghug:
However, at the moment, I'm feeling extra down, because this evening my Nana had a heart attack and stroke, and I've just come back from visiting her. Thankfully, they were on the mild side, but it was just heartbreaking to see that she's lost a lot of usage of her whole left side and is slurring her words. Hopefully, she'll improve - happily, the doctors are hopeful - but this just couldn't have come on a worse day. :\'(
I'll be glad when tomorrow morning comes.
Thank you all, for being here. Hugs to all of you. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Beautiful words, poems, tribute videos, thoughts, and pictures from everyone. Too many to quote, but I was touched by each and every post. :ghug:
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I'd like to thank you all for the support and the affection that I received yesterday from my fellow Brokies,and I guess I can say that all of your have felt as well as me in this case. %) And thank you all also for the beautiful tributes you posted during these days; mine,very poor and full of mistakes,all the rest touching,some beautiful...but at least,posted with the best language:the one of love.
They have been the best love's proof to a man who appeared suddenly in our life-at least,in mine,because I didn't know him formerly...-to change it by learning how to love and how to hold on to our dreams and wishes.And who has made possible that all of us have met and made some friendship's bonds far beyond borders and cultures. :ghug:
I'd like also to have a memory for someone who must have had a bad time these days also:Jake.Surely,several of you have already seen some photos of him yesterday precisely-I can't post them because they're paps pics-,when he went to the doctor.I saw him with a rather sad look in his face and I suppose he had Heath in his mind during all the day... :\'( He must have remembered that man who was his friend and who wanted him to be somehow joined to him forever by making him his little daughter's godfather.He didn't know it then-poor Heath¡...-,but he made Jake to be closer,not only to the baby's destiny,but closer and joined to his own memory forever.Every time he looks at Matilda,Jake will see his friend and he will remember him each day of his life.Forever.Always.Like us.
And that's all,because I'm making myself crying,what's rather stupid on the part of me...Thank you again for loving him so much ¡. <^(
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Today when I was going to school I took one of the newspapers on the bus and on the front page there was a picture of Heath as the Joker and it said "will he get the Oscar?"
I started to cry, not much, but enough to make the woman how sat behind me ask if I everything was alright. I said no and she took my hand and said that it will probably be okay and then she smiled at me. I thought that was very nice of her.
When I arrived at school my friend stood there and I guess she could tell that I had been crying because she just opened her arms and gave me the biggest hug and said that she was there if I wanted to talk. I really have the best friend ever! There are no words that can describe how much she have helped me trough this year...The same goes for everyone on here. Without you I don't know what I would have done so I just have to say thank you all so much %)
And thank you to Heath, without you I would have never met so many nice people.
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Today when I was going to school I took one of the newspapers on the bus and on the front page there was a picture of Heath as the Joker and it said "will he get the Oscar?"
I started to cry, not much, but enough to make the woman how sat behind me ask if I everything was alright. I said no and she took my hand and said that it will probably be okay and then she smiled at me. I thought that was very nice of her.
When I arrived at school my friend stood there and I guess she could tell that I had been crying because she just opened her arms and gave me the biggest hug and said that she was there if I wanted to talk. I really have the best friend ever! There are no words that can describe how much she have helped me trough this year...The same goes for everyone on here. Without you I don't know what I would have done so I just have to say thank you all so much %)
And thank you to Heath, without you I would have never met so many nice people.
oh at least ur friends don't try to make u feel better with bad jokes like his dead aniway or stuf likke that...and in ur country u find newspapers about heath.here there was some news last year when he died and that was all.no one year tributes or anything else...
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From mpj:
"And thank you all also for the beautiful tributes you posted during these days; mine,very poor and full of mistakes,all the rest touching,some beautiful...but at least,posted with the best language:the one of love.
They have been the best love's proof to a man who appeared suddenly in our life-at least,in mine,because I didn't know him formerly...-to change it by learning how to love and how to hold on to our dreams and wishes.And who has made possible that all of us have met and made some friendship's bonds far beyond borders and cultures."
That is beautifully written and for the very reason that you said. And please don't criticize what you write. Some of us can't even conquer a second language at all. And if people can see into your heart through your words (which we can with you), you have accomplished your task. Thank you for this. :^^)
From Emzan:
"Without you I don't know what I would have done so I just have to say thank you all so much. %)
And thank you to Heath, without you I would have never met so many nice people."
I echo this sentiment. Truly you are all the best family anyone could have, and to know that there is a place full of people who will accept you and embrace you, whoever you are and however you feel, is a gift and a comfort that can't be measured. Especially this past year when so many people just didn't understand. :ghug:
Yesterday's flood of posts, with hugs and poems, videos and pictures, smiles and tears, was indeed a testament, both to a man who was an essential part of the birth of our little universe and to the loving community we developed into. I couldn't be prouder to be a part of it or more grateful to know you all. There are too many gems to quote, as they were all heartfelt expressions of affection, so I'll just sum it up with this one:
From Ranchand:
"Thank you, Heath, for all the things you never even knew you did for me."
Amen.
And Jess, I hope you enjoyed your muffin.
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:ghug: Candy.
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Thank you so much,Barb¡ I mean,as I have sometimes said,you know that it's better or worse written,but at least it's deeply felt... :^^)
Emelie :ghug: Candy :ghug: Please,don't cry; he must be happy in his new home and he won't if we only remember him with tears.
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MPJ :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Thank you so much :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: to you too...
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So many have spoken here, there are no words that wouldn't be repeating. But all our thoughts are alike, we all miss him.
I recently welcomed a hurting Brokie to the forum and told him to be patient, it all would ease over time and the pain would go away, leaving the good memories in its place.
Well, so far I have been terribly wrong. My heart is still cracked and I still feel the pain, the loss for a man I never knew, and what he left us to remember, and how he brought so many people together in their sorrow and in his memory.
Feeling the pain and sorrow may not happen as often, but it is still as strong as ever. And the tears flow just as freely. But thats OK with me, because the memory of Heath and all the wonderful moments he gave us will always be there to give me smiles and comfort. And just like it does for so many others.
Thank you, Heath, for everything!
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Heath, this is for you...
http://il.youtube.com/watch?v=ZvIOqmjtXQM
Till my body is dust
Till my soul is no more
I will love you
Love you
Till the sun starts to cry
And the moon turns to rust
I will love you
Love you
But I need to know
Will you stay for all time
Forever and a day?
And I'll give my heart
Till the end of our time
Forever and a day
And I need to know
Will you stay for all time
Forever and a day?
And I'll give my heart
Till the end of our time
Forever and a day
Till the stars fill my eyes
And we touch the last time
I will love you
Love you
I will love you
Love you
I will love you
Love you
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Yesterday passed too fast and today is almost done as well.
For me, it seems like yesterday, I couldn't grasp the impact of the one year anniversary. I remember last year, it wasn't that day that hit me, it was the morning after. I remember getting up from my bed and all of the emotions, all of the realization that Heath is no longer with us, resting on my shoulders. Now, a day after the anniversary, it seems like it's happening to me again.. :-\\
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Yesterday passed too fast and today is almost done as well.
For me, it seems like yesterday, I couldn't grasp the impact of the one year anniversary. I remember last year, it wasn't that day that hit me, it was the morning after. I remember getting up from my bed and all of the emotions, all of the realization that Heath is no longer with us, resting on my shoulders. Now, a day after the anniversary, it seems like it's happening to me again.. :-\\
Lis, come here :ghug: :ghug:
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Yesterday passed too fast and today is almost done as well.
For me, it seems like yesterday, I couldn't grasp the impact of the one year anniversary. I remember last year, it wasn't that day that hit me, it was the morning after. I remember getting up from my bed and all of the emotions, all of the realization that Heath is no longer with us, resting on my shoulders. Now, a day after the anniversary, it seems like it's happening to me again.. :-\\
Lis :ghug: It seems as if everything,all the bad impressions and feelings be repeated,no?.But you must carry on and remember him with an smile.It's the only thing we must offer to him... :^^)
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Lis :ghug: It seems as if everything,all the bad impressions and feelings be repeated,no?.But you must carry on and remember him with an smile.It's the only thing we must offer to him... :^^)
I agree with you whole heartly, mpj. And that's exactly what I try to do. Keep on going, enjoy life for all that's it worth. I think it's something Heath would've wanted. I just have my moments. They happen quiet suddenly and seemed to end the same way...
Thank you everybody for your kind words :^^) :ghug: :ghug:
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(((((((Theresa)))))))
I've been thinking about you a lot these days, since you personally knew him, and you must have so many memories of him that you keep close to your heart and treasure. I hope that the loving people around you help ease the pain, even a little xxx
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Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide!
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go,--so with his memory they brim!
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, "There is no memory of him here!"
And so stand stricken, so remembering him...
By Edna St. Vincent Millay
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
(Thank you, Lola, for sharing this with us)
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(((((((Theresa)))))))
I've been thinking about you a lot these days, since you personally knew him, and you must have so many memories of him that you keep close to your heart and treasure. I hope that the loving people around you help ease the pain, even a little xxx
Darlin Keren! How wonderful to see you here. I have thought about all of you more than you could possibly know over the last year. It's been a year of hiding and "licking my wounds" mostly for me, but I am emerging and going forward. It has been a year of great pain, but also of tremendous love and support. I have started a little blog in memory of him in which I've shared a few personal stories and memories. Just celebrating his life. I send tons of love to all of you. I've missed you.
Theresa
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It's been a year of hiding and "licking my wounds" mostly for me, but I am emerging and going forward. It has been a year of great pain, but also of tremendous love and support. I have started a little blog in memory of him in which I've shared a few personal stories and memories. Just celebrating his life. I send tons of love to all of you. I've missed you.
Theresa, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I did wonder how are you coping with this painful loss of a friend,glad to hear from you, I'd love to read your blog.....
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:\'(
Baby, with all the awards mentioning your name, I wish you could have been there and accepted them. You will get the biggest award possible for an actor and then it will be over. Your talent will never pursue in other projects, your personality will not mingle with new characters who could have carried your impersonation.
THIS IS SO UNFAIR..............................
I love you, I love you forever
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Dearest Theresa, ^f^
I remember you. I remember your post in the Candy thread. I remember the wonderful blog you were writing before Heath died. I remember what you wrote there when our baby left us. I remember all the beautiful things Keren, Michelle, and the other girls said about you and your friendship with Heath. I remember the day I found out, thanks to you, that Heath knew this forum....I cried a river...
Thank you for everything, friend.
I can't even start to imagine the hell you went through the last year.
Hold on. You have lots of friends here and out there. :ghug: :ghug:
Love and big hugs.
Tammy.
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Theresa, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I did wonder how are you coping with this painful loss of a friend,glad to hear from you, I'd love to read your blog.....
HPV!
I can't tell you how lovely it is to again see your names and posts. How are you darlin'? It comes in waves. I'm doing well though. It seems to hit me when I least expect it. A photo, a fleeting memory. I think those are the worst, when a sweet little memory will just flash through my mind. But I am getting to now where I can smile at the memory and feel great love and warmth in my heart at the privilege of having them. It's a day to day thing. The intensity doesn't change, I think it's just that you take each incident as it comes and get through it.
The blog is my way of celebrating the gift of joy he gave to me and also a way to share and cope. I'd love you to read it if you'd like. It's very young, just started a little over a week ago, so I have so much to add to it. I'm writing personal little snippets as the strenght to do so comes (you know, on those good days). This is the link if you'd like to visit. I'd love to share it with you. http://heathledgerrememberances.wordpress.com/ (http://heathledgerrememberances.wordpress.com/). It's nothing fancy, just from the heart.
Hugs
Theresa
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Dearest Theresa, ^f^
I remember you. I remember your post in the Candy thread. I remember the wonderful blog you were writing before Heath died. I remember what you wrote there when our baby left us. I remember all the beautiful things Keren, Michelle, and the other girls said about you and your friendship with Heath. I remember the day I found out, thanks to you, that Heath knew this forum....I cried a river...
Thank you for everything, friend.
I can't even start to imagine the hell you went through the last year.
Hold on. You have lots of friends here and out there. :ghug: :ghug:
Love and big hugs.
Tammy.
Oh Tammy, how precious you are. Now the tears are filling my eyes, but don't misunderstand, they are sweet tears at being embraced by old and treasured friends. Friends who understand your hurt. Heath was so impressed with EnnisJack. Yes, he definitely knew of you guys and was touched by your support of him. You never dogged him or fell for the untruths. This made him smile. It was fans like you that made his road in the industry easier to walk.
And, thank you so much for your sweet words about the websites I had. They were a labor of love and I was and am so proud of them because they attracted the most wonderful people, like yourselves. People that over the years I have come to cherish so much. Thoughts and memories of all of you have gotten me through some very painful times this year and I will always be beholding to you for that. What I would give to once again hear that voice on the phone, touch that sweet cheek or get a hug. But when I start feeling sorry for myself like that I just remember how very privileged and blessed I was to have had them in the first place in order to know what it is like to miss them.
We have all hurt so much, in so many different ways through this and his dear family knows a pain that we can't even imagine. But what a testiment to Heath that none of us will let him or his legacy be forgotten.
Hugs
Theresa
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Darlin Keren! How wonderful to see you here. I have thought about all of you more than you could possibly know over the last year. It's been a year of hiding and "licking my wounds" mostly for me, but I am emerging and going forward. It has been a year of great pain, but also of tremendous love and support. I have started a little blog in memory of him in which I've shared a few personal stories and memories. Just celebrating his life. I send tons of love to all of you. I've missed you.
Theresa
I've been following your blog, I admire your dedication and I think you're doing such a wonderful job of preserving his memory. I hope it helps your healing process, too... a heart needs a lot of time for that. I remembered some of your personal stories, like the time you brought Ingrid to meet Heath and how charming and sweet he was then. thank you so much for sharing it with us. Our boy was a real treasure... and I'll always be greatful to you for introducing him to our forum, I hope he could feel even a little of the tremendous love that we have for him here.
I wish you all the best in your personal and professional life... I'm sure Heath would've been proud of you and your accomplishments. I know he was always so supportive of his friends.
Keren xx
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What I would give to once again hear that voice on the phone, touch that sweet cheek or get a hug. But when I start feeling sorry for myself like that I just remember how very privileged and blessed I was to have had them in the first place in order to know what it is like to miss them.
We have all hurt so much, in so many different ways through this and his dear family knows a pain that we can't even imagine. But what a testiment to Heath that none of us will let him or his legacy be forgotten.
Hugs
Theresa
(((Theresa)))
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Beautiful words and so true. I admire your strength and your endless love and devotion. You were, you are, a true friend of Heath.
Wish you the best now and forever. You deserve it. Thank you for sharing your new blog with us. It's beautiful and so damn moving.
(((hugs you so tight))) :ghug:
Tammy.
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I've been following your blog, I admire your dedication and I think you're doing such a wonderful job of preserving his memory. I hope it helps your healing process, too... a heart needs a lot of time for that. I remembered some of your personal stories, like the time you brought Ingrid to meet Heath and how charming and sweet he was then. thank you so much for sharing it with us. Our boy was a real treasure... and I'll always be greatful to you for introducing him to our forum, I hope he could feel even a little of the tremendous love that we have for him here.
I wish you all the best in your personal and professional life... I'm sure Heath would've been proud of you and your accomplishments. I know he was always so supportive of his friends.
Keren xx
Thank you. He was magic and I loved him dearly and always will.
He knew how all of you felt and held that very close to his heart, it was precious to him, though I will say, Heath being Heath, never felt worthy of it. But he was.
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(((Theresa)))
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( Beautiful words and so true. I admire your strength and your endless love and devotion. You were, you are, a true friend of Heath.
Wish you the best now and forever. Thank you for sharing your new blog with us. It's beautiful and so damn moving.
(((hugs you so tight))) :ghug:
Tammy.
Thank you sweetheart. It pales to the worth of the actual man, but it is done with love. I am so proud to have you all sharing it with me. What a great thing to have a meeting of like hearts in honor of one so beloved. That's what this forum is all about. It's a great thing. We know know countries here, no religious boundaries, no politics, just love and a shared love and admiration for a great man.
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Heath was so impressed with EnnisJack. Yes, he definitely knew of you guys and was touched by your support of him. You never dogged him or fell for the untruths. This made him smile. It was fans like you that made his road in the industry easier to walk.
He knew how all of you felt and held that very close to his heart, it was precious to him, though I will say, Heath being Heath, never felt worthy of it. But he was.
Thank you so much Theresa, you have no idea how much it means to me to read these things. Honestly, I have tears in my eyes now. You see, over this past, terrible year there were so little things that I could find comfort in... I'm not a religious person so I can't take comfort in the thought that he's in Heaven now and looking on us from above, because unfortunately for me I don't believe in such things. and I always wondered if he knew how much he was loved. So to know that he felt some of this love, that we actually managed to bring a smile to his face, that we had this little chance to give something back to the man who gave us so much without even knowing... well, that means the world to me, and comforts me more than anything else. And yes, he sure was - and still is - worth it. Every bit of our love and our gratitude.
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Hi, Theresa. Only having joined this wonderful community late last year, I've yet to meet you yet, but want to tell you how touched I am by your recent posts here in this thread. I wasn't aware that any Brokies had known Heath personally, and it brings me so much joy to know that you apparently did. I'm glad to see that you're well aware of how truly blessed you are.
I can more than understand your need to go into hiding to lick your wounds this past year; grief can certainly do that to a person. But I'm also so pleased that you've returned to the place where you will always be in understanding, compassionate and loving company. Amongst friends who share your love and grief. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I had no idea that Heath had known about this marvelous place... When I read your words on how he appreciated it so much, and felt unworthy of our praise...gosh, it brought such a lump to my throat, tears to my eyes for the umpteenth time in the past week. But this was a beautiful kind of pain, a happier manner of tears.
I am SO happy that he knew of this place, this beautiful community which in large part is born of his love, his passion, his gift.
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The blog is my way of celebrating the gift of joy he gave to me and also a way to share and cope. I'd love you to read it if you'd like. It's very young, just started a little over a week ago, so I have so much to add to it. I'm writing personal little snippets as the strenght to do so comes (you know, on those good days). This is the link if you'd like to visit. I'd love to share it with you. http://heathledgerrememberances.wordpress.com/ (http://heathledgerrememberances.wordpress.com/). It's nothing fancy, just from the heart.
Hugs
Theresa
Thank you for the link :^^)
Loved so much what you wrote:
"The point I’m trying to make is that in my efforts to celebrate life, I have again touched base with some of these precious people. I have heard from people from the Ennis Jack Forum today who have sent me such support and kindness. It is such a sweet experience for me to hear from these good people again, these people of like hearts, who also want to celebrate Heath’s life and not dwell on his death."
It's a treasure box... <^(
This comment(about Oscar nomination) broke my heart .... :\'(
“To us (his family) it seems like nearly yesterday, and we are all still nursing broken hearts,” Kate Ledger said.
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Hi, Theresa. Only having joined this wonderful community late last year, I've yet to meet you yet, but want to tell you how touched I am by your recent posts here in this thread. I wasn't aware that any Brokies had known Heath personally, and it brings me so much joy to know that you apparently did. I'm glad to see that you're well aware of how truly blessed you are.
I can more than understand your need to go into hiding to lick your wounds this past year; grief can certainly do that to a person. But I'm also so pleased that you've returned to the place where you will always be in understanding, compassionate and loving company. Amongst friends who share your love and grief. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I had no idea that Heath had known about this marvelous place... When I read your words on how he appreciated it so much, and felt unworthy of our praise...gosh, it brought such a lump to my throat, tears to my eyes for the umpteenth time in the past week. But this was a beautiful kind of pain, a happier manner of tears.
I am SO happy that he knew of this place, this beautiful community which in large part is born of his love, his passion, his gift.
It's so nice to meet you Laura. This is an incredibly special place and they have always held a very special place in my heart. To me, personally, they are the epitome of a Heath fan. Each and everyone of them and I could myself so blessed to know them. I see you are from Oz. I am blessed to have good friends from the East and West of your great country. My friend Luke Davies is originally from Bondi Beach, but now lives here in LA where he is continuing to write his amazing books and working on more screenplays. He wrote Candy. He is now making a wonderful short film that I've had the privilege of reading the screenplay to, called Air, which he is making with some of the members of The Masses. Funny how small the world is and how some things come full circle. Him working with Heath on Candy and then making his first film of his own and his directorial debut with members of The Masses. And, then I had Heath in the West of Australia and several of his friends there and I are still close. I just received a care package from Perth yesterday with a gift of my favorites, Tim Tams and Caramel Crowns, lol. I'm afraid I am addicted to both and we don't have them in the USA of course. Everytime my little buddy would come back to LA I would receive a gift of Tim Tams, lol. Now the tradition is being carried on by other friends.
He did know how all of you felt and it humbled him, in the best of ways. He never had any use for the rabid, gossip loving, sensationalism, but true fans he held in the highest of esteem and always always made time for when the opportunity presented itself. He had the most amazing gift for putting them at ease and making sure he put them at ease, even when things were frantic around him. That's why you see so many pictures of him taking his own photo with fans. He never took the loyalty of fans for granted.
I'm so glad you found this place. It is a special place indeed.
Theresa
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Thank you for the link :^^)
Loved so much what you wrote:
"The point I’m trying to make is that in my efforts to celebrate life, I have again touched base with some of these precious people. I have heard from people from the Ennis Jack Forum today who have sent me such support and kindness. It is such a sweet experience for me to hear from these good people again, these people of like hearts, who also want to celebrate Heath’s life and not dwell on his death."
It's a treasure box... <^(
This comment(about Oscar nomination) broke my heart .... :\'(
“To us (his family) it seems like nearly yesterday, and we are all still nursing broken hearts,” Kate Ledger said.
Please know that everything that I put there is to honor him and those who love him, fans, friends and family. Yes, he died. We cannot change that, no matter how desperately we try. But he should not be defined by his death. He should be defined by his life. And, God did he ever live. I do not want my grandchildren to come along in years to come and all they know of him is what is the emphasis on Marilyn Monroe or James Dean, that he died young and tragically. I want them to know how amazingly, how brilliantly he lived. He deserves no less.
Love
Theresa
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Please know that everything that I put there is to honor him and those who love him, fans, friends and family. Yes, he died. We cannot change that, no matter how desperately we try. But he should not be defined by his death. He should be defined by his life. And, God did he ever live. I do not want my grandchildren to come along in years to come and all they know of him is what is the emphasis on Marilyn Monroe or James Dean, that he died young and tragically. I want them to know how amazingly, how brilliantly he lived. He deserves no less.
Love
Theresa
Great words Theresa! ^f^
I couldn't agree more! This is the goal we have to achieve for him and for his magnificent legacy!
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Great words Theresa! ^f^
I couldn't agree more! This is the goal we have to achieve for him and for his magnificent legacy!
Exactly. That is the key. WE. It is the fans who are so devoted who can carry on in his name with dignity and joy and share that legacy and keep that flame burning. WE can keep him from fading to obscurity or just being another name that in 10 years is associated with his death only. I am determined on the blog to post all the old and obscure stuff. I'm putting up video today and will continue to. Old, rare video that I have and have never put up before from his younger days so that the new fans, who didn't find him until BBM or later will know where it all started and get to know him from the skin out. It will take me some time as I have hundreds of pieces of video but I am determined to get them up.
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You're so right Theresa. I feel that I want everyone around me to know how special and wonderful he was, I want them to know and to remember that. I keep a folder with all the articles and the tributes that were written about him by his friends and colleagues - Luke Davies, Neil Armfield, Terry Gilliam, Shekhar Kapur, Chris Nolan... all of them. all the quotes from his friends and his family who share their memories of him. I was talking to a friend of mine today and I told her, if you've read all those tributes, you'd understand. You'd understand why I'm still so affected by him, why I can't forget him, because he was so brilliant and talented and such an amazing human being, so special. I'm overwhelmed every time I read these things. Everyone who worked with him tells of how perceptive and intelligent and mature he was, so wise beyond his years, "an old soul". everyone says how incredibly humble and sweet he was, so full of life and positive energy, so charismatic and charming, what a big generous heart he had, his amazing ability to give. You hear that over and over again, from everyone who knew him. Both Shekhar Kapur and Terry Gilliam said he was like an angel who came down to earth, and that speaks volumes. You read all these things and you feel what a rare soul he was, how incredibly special and gifted. The outpouring of love from everyone who knew him is amazing... and I desperatly want everyone around me to read all that, to get to know what kind of person he was, and then they'd realize why I love him so much.
I can't imagine Heath fading into obscurity. not him. Because he wasn't just a pretty face or a sex symbol, he was so much more than that. Years from now his work will still be here to remind people of how gifted he was, but it's up to us to also remind them how soulful he was, what a rare human being. That's why I treasure so much all these little personal stories of people's encounters with him, they reveal so much of his inner beauty. He deserves to be remembered this way.
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(((((((Theresa)))))))
I've been thinking about you a lot these days, since you personally knew him, and you must have so many memories of him that you keep close to your heart and treasure. I hope that the loving people around you help ease the pain, even a little xxx
Me, too, Theresa. Since last year you have also been in my thoughts. As painful as it is to me, how much it must be painful to you. Or maybe, to those fortunate enough to have been an actual physical friend or coworker, maybe having been with him in RL gives at least something you have inside you. As opposed to those who never met him, who now never will... But anyway, T, hugs to you.
kathy
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So beautiful, Keren, your words. It is so true that beyond his work, it is what Heath's friends and working associates say about him that makes him an even more beautiful human being, beautiful and rare.
And Theresa, I love what you are doing, and reminding us fans that we can keep his legacy alive. And to "not be defined by his death." That is an important thing to remember, and also to help in our healing. Thank you.
kathy
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Me, too, Theresa. Since last year you have also been in my thoughts. As painful as it is to me, how much it must be painful to you. Or maybe, to those fortunate enough to have been an actual physical friend or coworker, maybe having been with him in RL gives at least something you have inside you. As opposed to those who never met him, who now never will... But anyway, T, hugs to you.
kathy
(((((((kathy)))))) How great to hear from you. He left an indelible signature on the lives of everyone who knew him and the loss is deep and unfillable. But he also left hope and joy. It sustains us. He set such an amazing example.
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So beautiful, Keren, your words. It is so true that beyond his work, it is what Heath's friends and working associates say about him that makes him an even more beautiful human being, beautiful and rare.
And Theresa, I love what you are doing, and reminding us fans that we can keep his legacy alive. And to "not be defined by his death." That is an important thing to remember, and also to help in our healing. Thank you.
kathy
Thank you so much sweetie. He inspired us to look at every day of life as a great adventure and to never be afraid to try something new. To him, if you were afraid or timid about something, that was all the more reason to overcome it and give it a go. I honestly never thought I could do any of this again after he was gone, but I try to follow that example and plunge right in. Facing what has happened is a tremendous fear for me still but I'm learning to dive in and conquer it and not let it conquer me. And what better catalyst than celebrating that amazing life.
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Thank you so much sweetie. He inspired us to look at every day of life as a great adventure and to never be afraid to try something new. To him, if you were afraid or timid about something, that was all the more reason to overcome it and give it a go. I honestly never thought I could do any of this again after he was gone, but I try to follow that example and plunge right in. Facing what has happened is a tremendous fear for me still but I'm learning to dive in and conquer it and not let it conquer me. And what better catalyst than celebrating that amazing life.
:ghug: Theresa :ghug: Thank you for that. I never thought of it that way. I can see now fear is a catalyst to help us face what we need to confront most. Festering un-confronted fear was what led Ennis to homophobia that denied him his sweet life with Jack.
I love this revelation about Heath. Thank you. :ghug: ^f^
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:ghug: Theresa :ghug: Thank you for that. I never thought of it that way. I can see now fear is a catalyst to help us face what we need to confront most. Festering un-confronted fear was what led Ennis to homophobia that denied him his sweet life with Jack.
I love this revelation about Heath. Thank you. :ghug: ^f^
You are very welcome.
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I am so touched reading all the above posts...It made me so very emotional...Thankyou so much for being there..
I knew Heath after he passed away.That hurts me alot as all those years I dint knew him...I was amazed to see his films and I connected with what he wanted to show us so well..I feel very strongly for him..There r so many videos made on youtube for Heath...Heath comes to my mind so often when I listen to so many songs. He is always there...
I remember not being online on 22nd of Jan as I was out of town and could not access internet but I remember thinking of heath so much and praying that he lives forever in peace in heaven and for u all who feel as hurt as me...Hugs to u all...
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Dear Theresa - have visited your new blog and it looks like a very good start. Meanwhile, a question: on another forum you mentioned you have a vote in the SAG awards (and we knowwww......who gets your vote). But how many of the SAG voters also vote in the Oscar race? Or, more to the point, WHO are the members of the Academy? Mostly actors and directors? Tony.
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Dear Theresa - have visited your new blog and it looks like a very good start. Meanwhile, a question: on another forum you mentioned you have a vote in the SAG awards (and we knowwww......who gets your vote). But how many of the SAG voters also vote in the Oscar race? Or, more to the point, WHO are the members of the Academy? Mostly actors and directors? Tony.
Hi Tony!
Yes, we do have a vote in our house. My daughter, Christa Woomer, is an actress (a lot of people know her as the Planters Unibrow Lady though she's truly not ugly, lol and her Ellen Degeneres and Beyonce Knowles commercial among others and a couple of her movies), but I digress. Yes the vote in our household was proudly cast for Heath. And, what a great question you asked about who from SAG votes for Oscars. The voters from the Oscars come from many entertainment areas, producers, directors, actors, writers, cinematographers, etc. The number of SAG voters that vote for Oscars varies. You have to be invited to join the Academy voting committee. There are 6,000 members. Or, 6000 voters.
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Thanks, Theresa. Seems to me, then, the SAG awards may be more of a prediction of the Oscars, then would be the Golden Globes. Oh, yeah - can't resist this: your daughter is a knock-out, but nobody else but me would see some similarities to Maggie Gyllenhaal, in that she has strong facial features, like Maggie.
I do hope they have some special remembrance at the SAG's. Heath was, after all, an actor's actor. One of their own. Hope so.
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Thanks, Theresa. Seems to me, then, the SAG awards may be more of a prediction of the Oscars, then would be the Golden Globes. Oh, yeah - can't resist this: your daughter is a knock-out, but nobody else but me would see some similarities to Maggie Gyllenhaal, in that she has strong facial features, like Maggie.
I do hope they have some special remembrance at the SAG's. Heath was, after all, an actor's actor. One of their own. Hope so.
Aren't you a sweetheart. I let my daughter read your comment and she said to please thank you and to tell you, you are so sweet.
I think that there will be something nice tonight I really do. I know that they honored him last year, and I doubt that there will be another this year, however, I truly believe he will be the winner as actors appreciate an incredible job in a role like no one else can, and I think that moment will be incredibly special.
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Aren't you a sweetheart. I let my daughter read your comment and she said to please thank you and to tell you, you are so sweet.
I think that there will be something nice tonight I really do. I know that they honored him last year, and I doubt that there will be another this year, however, I truly believe he will be the winner as actors appreciate an incredible job in a role like no one else can, and I think that moment will be incredibly special.
I looked up your daughter, too -- I love her looks! She's not just lovely, but uniquely full of character. And a bit of a bad-ass. And I mean that in the best way -- cool and intriguing.
My best friend's husband is on the Oscars voting, so I'll be interested to know how he votes.
But back on topic, I'm watching the SAG Awards right now. I liked the "Trailblazers" special little tribute thing they did -- cool look at all different kind of trailblazers in TV and movies. And I'm so glad they showed Ennis and Jack (in the Dozy Embrace) in the "gay" segment. And that it ended with the Joker! Awesome.
I just have the most fond memories of the SAG awards when Heath and Jake were there that year. That was so charming, when they introduced BBM. (I thought it was weird that they had to do that, but I've since figured out that the stars of a film are always the one who introduce it.)
So...I want to see what is in the stars tonight for Heath... Back later.
kathy
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Dreamed about Heath tonight, again... :\'(
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I'm just totally overjoyed by his win. Christa was too. (and thank you for the sweet compliment. She really is a love. A comedic actress by trade.) She has just pulled so hard for him for every award so she felt really exceptionally pleased at the privilege of participating in the outcome of this one.
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I'm just totally overjoyed by his win. Christa was too. (and thank you for the sweet compliment. She really is a love. A comedic actress by trade.) She has just pulled so hard for him for every award so she felt really exceptionally pleased at the privilege of participating in the outcome of this one.
Me too,Theresa¡ &**) I'm really glad about all this award's rain that is pouring over our boy ¡.And thank you so much for your comments these last days ¡; I didn't know you before,but it's as if I knew you from a long time already... :^^) My best regards to your daughter too ¡.
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You're so right Theresa. I feel that I want everyone around me to know how special and wonderful he was, I want them to know and to remember that. I keep a folder with all the articles and the tributes that were written about him by his friends and colleagues - Luke Davies, Neil Armfield, Terry Gilliam, Shekhar Kapur, Chris Nolan... all of them. all the quotes from his friends and his family who share their memories of him. I was talking to a friend of mine today and I told her, if you've read all those tributes, you'd understand. You'd understand why I'm still so affected by him, why I can't forget him, because he was so brilliant and talented and such an amazing human being, so special. I'm overwhelmed every time I read these things. Everyone who worked with him tells of how perceptive and intelligent and mature he was, so wise beyond his years, "an old soul". everyone says how incredibly humble and sweet he was, so full of life and positive energy, so charismatic and charming, what a big generous heart he had, his amazing ability to give. You hear that over and over again, from everyone who knew him. Both Shekhar Kapur and Terry Gilliam said he was like an angel who came down to earth, and that speaks volumes. You read all these things and you feel what a rare soul he was, how incredibly special and gifted. The outpouring of love from everyone who knew him is amazing... and I desperatly want everyone around me to read all that, to get to know what kind of person he was, and then they'd realize why I love him so much.
I can't imagine Heath fading into obscurity. not him. Because he wasn't just a pretty face or a sex symbol, he was so much more than that. Years from now his work will still be here to remind people of how gifted he was, but it's up to us to also remind them how soulful he was, what a rare human being. That's why I treasure so much all these little personal stories of people's encounters with him, they reveal so much of his inner beauty. He deserves to be remembered this way.
Keren, you always seem to save me from writing lengthy posts here, because you seem to speak not only from your own heart but also straight from mine. As always, I find myself agreeing with your every word.
It has sure been a very sad and emotional past week for all who loved and continue to love Heath. The 22nd was hard enough, a very difficult day for me, especially with my grandma suffering a heart attack and stroke that afternoon really exacerbating the sadness. Over the Aussie long weekend my Nana began to improve, and we were all so optimistic, but sadly, in the early hours last night, she suffered another stroke and passed away. And as such, I'm just so devastated. Obviously, at losing my dear, beautiful Nan, but this awful and unexpected loss somehow serves to confound my PHS; a ramification of this new grief. :\'( I suppose that hearing about his SAG win has helped somewhat, though. Another truly deserved accolade for our beautiful boy.
Thanks to those of you who were so kind as to PM me with your well-wishes after reading about my Nana last Friday. Your thoughts and prayers were a big source of consolation during such a sad period. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Me too,Theresa¡ &**) I'm really glad about all this award's rain that is pouring over our boy ¡.And thank you so much for your comments these last days ¡; I didn't know you before,but it's as if I knew you from a long time already... :^^) My best regards to your daughter too ¡.
Thank you so much. Coming back here feels like coming home.
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Keren, you always seem to save me from writing lengthy posts here, because you seem to speak not only from your own heart but also straight from mine. As always, I find myself agreeing with your every word.
It has sure been a very sad and emotional past week for all who loved and continue to love Heath. The 22nd was hard enough, a very difficult day for me, especially with my grandma suffering a heart attack and stroke that afternoon really exacerbating the sadness. Over the Aussie long weekend my Nana began to improve, and we were all so optimistic, but sadly, in the early hours last night, she suffered another stroke and passed away. And as such, I'm just so devastated. Obviously, at losing my dear, beautiful Nan, but this awful and unexpected loss somehow serves to confound my PHS; a ramification of this new grief. :\'( I suppose that hearing about his SAG win has helped somewhat, though. Another truly deserved accolade for our beautiful boy.
Thanks to those of you who were so kind as to PM me with your well-wishes after reading about my Nana last Friday. Your thoughts and prayers were a big source of consolation during such a sad period. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Oh honey how heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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http://il.youtube.com/watch?v=GmWW789-nTA
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I'm posting this tribute again for everyone who haven't read it yet... it just speaks volumes of the kind of guy Heath was. One of these little personal stories that I love so much.
http://nottheredbaron.deviantart.com/art/Heath-and-Heather-75602428
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Dreamed about Heath tonight, again... :\'(
me too, had not happened in ages though!
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Oh honey how heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss.
(((((((((Laura))))))))) :\'( :\'( :\'( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Thank you so much, guys. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: The outpouring of sympathy from the Brokies has been unbelievable, and so comforting. I'm just about to go answer all the PMs I've received from a big bunch of beautiful Brokies in the last day. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Don't you lovely people ever change. That's an order. :) The world needs every compassionate, caring, loving person like you that it can get.
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So sorry Laura to hear about your sad loss...... :ghug:
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I'm posting this tribute again for everyone who haven't read it yet... it just speaks volumes of the kind of guy Heath was. One of these little personal stories that I love so much.
http://nottheredbaron.deviantart.com/art/Heath-and-Heather-75602428
I love this Keren...its such a lovely recollection of Heath, what a lovely and warm person he must have been to know...
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So sorry Laura to hear about your sad loss...... :ghug:
Thanks sweetheart. :ghug:
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So sorry Laura to hear about your sad loss...... :ghug:
Me too, Laura. Hope you're coping :ghug:
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Keren, you always seem to save me from writing lengthy posts here, because you seem to speak not only from your own heart but also straight from mine. As always, I find myself agreeing with your every word.
It has sure been a very sad and emotional past week for all who loved and continue to love Heath. The 22nd was hard enough, a very difficult day for me, especially with my grandma suffering a heart attack and stroke that afternoon really exacerbating the sadness. Over the Aussie long weekend my Nana began to improve, and we were all so optimistic, but sadly, in the early hours last night, she suffered another stroke and passed away. And as such, I'm just so devastated. Obviously, at losing my dear, beautiful Nan, but this awful and unexpected loss somehow serves to confound my PHS; a ramification of this new grief. :\'( I suppose that hearing about his SAG win has helped somewhat, though. Another truly deserved accolade for our beautiful boy.
Thanks to those of you who were so kind as to PM me with your well-wishes after reading about my Nana last Friday. Your thoughts and prayers were a big source of consolation during such a sad period. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Dear Laura,
I am so sorry to hear about your gandma..I can imagine your pain as I am also very close to my Grandma,..Heath's loss was devastating to all of us...I know that this is a very difficult period for ya...I have faith that things will get much better for ya in time..Hold on dear and God will get u out of this...My prayers r with ya and your family.... :ghug:
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Me too, Laura. Hope you're coping :ghug:
Dear Laura,
I am so sorry to hear about your gandma..I can imagine your pain as I am also very close to my Grandma,..Heath's loss was devastating to all of us...I know that this is a very difficult period for ya...I have faith that things will get much better for ya in time..Hold on dear and God will get u out of this...My prayers r with ya and your family.... :ghug:
Thanks so much, guys. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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OMG. Keren, that's gorgeous <^( :\'( <^( :\'(
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God, Keren, this is a killer..... :\'( :\'( :\'( That so sweet smile..... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I didn't make it, I found it on myspace. I thought it was so beautiful...
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Thats beautiful, thanks for posting Keren :)
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So beautiful. Thanks, Keren. :^^) :ghug:
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Good morning everyone.
Please forgive me if this is in the wrong place. I ask please that the mods move it if this is wrong and accept my apologies for misposting it.
I'm coming to you guys to ask your help in spreading the word for me for something I have decided to do in Heath's honor.
I am blessed to have gifts that Heath gave me that I cherish dearly. And, one of the causes that I write plays and make movies about is Human Rights and Gay Rights. I have decided to auction off a very rare gift I was given by Heath and donate 50% of the proceeds of the profit it earns to help the ACLU's legal battle to revoke Prop 8, the law against same sex marriage. The item is a rare Brokeback Mountain Oscar book that Heath gave me personally and is autographed by him. It is in pristine condition and has been in a shadow box to protect it since he gave it to me. I will be putting it on ebay. I have to read up on how their auctions work before I list it which will probably be this weekend. I will provide a legal, notarized Affidavit as to it's authenticity, where it's origin. I truly believe that Heath would want this to be done with this book and he would want the proceeds to fight this awful travisty of a law. I believe that we must sacrifice things we love in order to make a difference in the lives of others and Heath believed the same thing. It would mean the world to me for this book to better the lives of my gay brothers and sisters, people whose lives Heath touched. I have to walk the walk and talk the talk.
What I ask from you, is please spread the word that the book will be out there for auction and what the purpose of that auction is. Please spread it to forums or other places on the web where you think it is appropriate. I have not yet decided the charities that will receive the remaining 50% of the profits after the costs of the auction, but Prop 8 will receive it's 50% before costs.
I will provide you with more information, if that is ok with Chuck to put it here, as soon as I have things more concrete which should be the next couple of days.
Thank you all for your help and God bless you all.
Theresa
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I watched the BAFTA awards few days back and Heath won the best supporting actor for his role in "The Dark Knight"..When his name was declared my face began to glow and when the award was taken on his behalf, I began to cry.. :\'( :\'(
I swear, I have never ever cried for an Actor in my entire life..In the past we have lost so many Actors and Artist and I felt sad about it but never cried and felt heart broken and empty..I felt it for Heath and suddenly the picture of BBM flashed in front of my eyes and also certain videos that were made by fans on youtube on him and I felt like something huge is missing out in my life..I never understand that how come someone who I have not even met personally and who does not even know me and I am feeling so horrible and so empty without him..I think the answer is the love I feel for him and the pain I empathise with what he went through before he passed away...I will always love and miss Heath and he is alive in my heart...I feel his presence often...It is a strong feeling of attachment and love which I share with Heath and our Angel is always with us giving us the strength to survive our loss..
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I watched the BAFTA awards few days back and Heath won the best supporting actor for his role in "The Dark Knight"..When his name was declared my face began to glow and when the award was taken on his behalf, I began to cry.. :\'( :\'(
I swear, I have never ever cried for an Actor in my entire life..In the past we have lost so many Actors and Artist and I felt sad about it but never cried and felt heart broken and empty..I felt it for Heath and suddenly the picture of BBM flashed in front of my eyes and also certain videos that were made by fans on youtube on him and I felt like something huge is missing out in my life..I never understand that how come someone who I have not even met personally and who does not even know me and I am feeling so horrible and so empty without him..I think the answer is the love I feel for him and the pain I empathise with what he went through before he passed away...I will always love and miss Heath and he is alive in my heart...I feel his presence often...It is a strong feeling of attachment and love which I share with Heath and our Angel is always with us giving us the strength to survive our loss..
Cleo, dear! :ghug:
The same here.... :\'(
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I suppose we have we have projected the love that we felt for his character of Ennis to himself-simply that, without commenting that he was a person whom one could love for being just like he was… -. Perhaps no one of us have identified so much an actor with a character, nor we had identified ourselves so much with an actor. :c)
For that reason we have felt so much the pain for Ennis and,after that,so much the pain for Heath; certainly,we had loved him the same because he was deserved of it, but that identification gives it another perspective... Cleo,we felt just like you,so I only can tell you :ghug:
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What I ask from you, is please spread the word that the book will be out there for auction and what the purpose of that auction is. Please spread it to forums or other places on the web where you think it is appropriate. I have not yet decided the charities that will receive the remaining 50% of the profits after the costs of the auction, but Prop 8 will receive it's 50% before costs.
I will provide you with more information, if that is ok with Chuck to put it here, as soon as I have things more concrete which should be the next couple of days.
Thank you all for your help and God bless you all.
Theresa
On the part of me,there's absolutely no problem,Theresa;I'll tell it to any other places where Brokies are.Yes,I know Heath would be happy by helping so many people even not being already here...Do you know what? you're wholly lucky for having counted on his friendship;you must treasure it all the days in your life. :\'( :^^)
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I suppose we have we have projected the love that we felt for his character of Ennis to himself-simply that, without commenting that he was a person whom one could love for being just like he was… -. Perhaps no one of us have identified so much an actor with a character, nor we had identified ourselves so much with an actor. :c)
For that reason we have felt so much the pain for Ennis and,after that,so much the pain for Heath; certainly,we had loved him the same because he was deserved of it, but that identification gives it another perspective... Cleo,we felt just like you,so I only can tell you :ghug:
Sometimes, when I look Heath's pics and videos, I can not recognize him in Ennis. He was lost in the character of Ennis. He did something that none could do with that tacit character - he literary became Ennis. Therefore, when I'm down and my PBS is raging, I think that in BBM - Jack and Ennis both died! :\'(
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On the part of me,there's absolutely no problem,Theresa;I'll tell it to any other places where Brokies are.Yes,I know Heath would be happy by helping so many people even not being already here...Do you know what? you're wholly lucky for having counted on his friendship;you must treasure it all the days in your life. :\'( :^^)
Thank you, I do treasure it more than I can say. I will always aspire to be even a fraction of the human being that he was. And, thank you for your support in this. Word of mouth is a powerful tool. Hopefully we will have a successful auction.
Theresa
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Sometimes, when I look Heath's pics and videos, I can not recognize him in Ennis. He was lost in the character of Ennis. He did something that none could do with that tacit character - he literary became Ennis. Therefore, when I'm down and my PBS is raging, I think that in BBM - Jack and Ennis both died! :\'(
:\'( :\'( :\'( Me too
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Sometimes, when I look Heath's pics and videos, I can not recognize him in Ennis. He was lost in the character of Ennis. He did something that none could do with that tacit character - he literary became Ennis. Therefore, when I'm down and my PBS is raging, I think that in BBM - Jack and Ennis both died! :\'(
I think that's a part of why it was so difficult for all brokies - when Heath died, it was as if Ennis died too.
But mainly the loss of Heath himself as a person, as a human being, someone we respected and loved... :\'(
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min, Ranchand, keren :ghug:
I am sad because of Heath of course, and as I find out more things about him my PHS hits deeper. He wasn't Ennis, just the opposite - open and happy and loving person. It's just that by loosing him, we lost our dear Ennis too, cos the impact of his perfectly performed character was unspeakably profound. I know that all of you understand ! :^^)
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PS: PHS is Lance's abbreviation (i think) and I believe that it's appropriate, just like PBS
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I suppose we have we have projected the love that we felt for his character of Ennis to himself-simply that, without commenting that he was a person whom one could love for being just like he was… -. Perhaps no one of us have identified so much an actor with a character, nor we had identified ourselves so much with an actor. :c)
For that reason we have felt so much the pain for Ennis and,after that,so much the pain for Heath; certainly,we had loved him the same because he was deserved of it, but that identification gives it another perspective... Cleo,we felt just like you,so I only can tell you :ghug:
I agree with ya Alicia..I think we have connected with Ennis to that level that we have felt Heath actually living and identifying with the character so deeply and losing Heath was like losing Ennis and even more worse as we lost such a great Actor and above all a great human being...We lost soemone we love and someone who actually gave us so much to cherish forever...
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Sometimes, when I look Heath's pics and videos, I can not recognize him in Ennis. He was lost in the character of Ennis. He did something that none could do with that tacit character - he literary became Ennis. Therefore, when I'm down and my PBS is raging, I think that in BBM - Jack and Ennis both died! :\'(
My heart broke readng this post Loreen..There is so much pain that u have expressed in this...I agree that we lost Jack and Ennis..Heath actually gave us Ennis and actually lived Ennis..I feel he put all the pain he had in his own life in that Character and transformed himself into Ennis...Heath's death made the pain of Ennis even more hurtful..The connection was intense and many times when I watch BBM, I see that no more in real life Heath will wear those cowboy clothes and it is all in reel now and in our memory..It hurts too much...
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My heart broke readng this post Loreen..There is so much pain that u have expressed in this...I agree that we lost Jack and Ennis..Heath actually gave us Ennis and actually lived Ennis..I feel he put all the pain he had in his own life in that Character and transformed himself into Ennis...Heath's death made the pain of Ennis even more hurtful..The connection was intense and many times when I watch BBM, I see that no more in real life Heath will wear those cowboy clothes and it is all in reel now and in our memory..It hurts too much...
Cleo, babe! :ghug:
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Good morning everyone.
Please forgive me if this is in the wrong place. I ask please that the mods move it if this is wrong and accept my apologies for misposting it.
I'm coming to you guys to ask your help in spreading the word for me for something I have decided to do in Heath's honor.
I am blessed to have gifts that Heath gave me that I cherish dearly. And, one of the causes that I write plays and make movies about is Human Rights and Gay Rights. I have decided to auction off a very rare gift I was given by Heath and donate 50% of the proceeds of the profit it earns to help the ACLU's legal battle to revoke Prop 8, the law against same sex marriage. The item is a rare Brokeback Mountain Oscar book that Heath gave me personally and is autographed by him. It is in pristine condition and has been in a shadow box to protect it since he gave it to me. I will be putting it on ebay. I have to read up on how their auctions work before I list it which will probably be this weekend. I will provide a legal, notarized Affidavit as to it's authenticity, where it's origin. I truly believe that Heath would want this to be done with this book and he would want the proceeds to fight this awful travisty of a law. I believe that we must sacrifice things we love in order to make a difference in the lives of others and Heath believed the same thing. It would mean the world to me for this book to better the lives of my gay brothers and sisters, people whose lives Heath touched. I have to walk the walk and talk the talk.
What I ask from you, is please spread the word that the book will be out there for auction and what the purpose of that auction is. Please spread it to forums or other places on the web where you think it is appropriate. I have not yet decided the charities that will receive the remaining 50% of the profits after the costs of the auction, but Prop 8 will receive it's 50% before costs.
I will provide you with more information, if that is ok with Chuck to put it here, as soon as I have things more concrete which should be the next couple of days.
Thank you all for your help and God bless you all.
Theresa
My God, Theresa....I don't even know what to say. You're made of awesome. ^f^
You're SO lucky for having gifts that Heath gave you....I think I'd give anything, I'd do anything just to have a tiny thing he wore or just touched with the tips of his fingers....And, selfish as I am, I don't think I could give that easily such a big treasure....And that's why you left me stunned here, and totally marveled. Damn, girl, I admire you now more than ever. What you're doing here is beyond generous, and I just know that Heath would have done the same and I'm sure he's proud of you wherever he is now, you bet.
Wish I could buy that amazing book....but I can not.... :\'( :\'( But yeah, I'll spread the word, count on me.
Thank you, Theresa, for doing this. It's beautiful and will teach a important lesson of love, tolerance and respect.
Take care, baby. :ghug: :^^)
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My God, Theresa....I don't even know what to say. You're made of awesome. ^f^
You're SO lucky for having gifts that Heath gave you....I think I'd give anything, I'd do anything just to have a tiny thing he wore or just touched with the tips of his fingers....And, selfish as I am, I don't think I could give that easily such a big treasure....And that's why you left me stunned here, and totally marveled. Damn, girl, I admire you now more than ever. What you're doing here is beyond generous, and I just know that Heath would have done the same and I'm sure he's proud of you wherever he is now, you bet.
Wish I could buy that amazing book....but I can not.... :\'( :\'( But yeah, I'll spread the word, count on me.
Thank you, Theresa, for doing this. It's beautiful and will teach a important lesson of love, tolerance and respect.
Take care, baby. :ghug: :^^)
Thank you so much for your sweet words. It is heart rending, yes, but it makes me smile to know that it is going to be a part of something so incredibly important and that BBM and Heath will, even in some small way, continue to change the world. This is a battle we must fight as brothers and sisters whether we are gay or straight. It is an injustice that simply has to stop and I don't think any great battle has ever been won without sacrifice on the part of many many people. It is the putting together of these small bits that will finally win justice. Thank you so much for your support in this. I feel privileged to have the opportunity. I have been given so much by this man that I feel the need to give in return, in his honor.
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Theresa...wow, I think I'll just quote Tammy here.
My God, Theresa....I don't even know what to say. You're made of awesome. ^f^
You're SO lucky for having gifts that Heath gave you....I think I'd give anything, I'd do anything just to have a tiny thing he wore or just touched with the tips of his fingers....And, selfish as I am, I don't think I could give that easily such a big treasure....And that's why you left me stunned here, and totally marveled. Damn, girl, I admire you now more than ever. What you're doing here is beyond generous, and I just know that Heath would have done the same and I'm sure he's proud of you wherever he is now, you bet.
Wish I could buy that amazing book....but I can not.... :\'( :\'( But yeah, I'll spread the word, count on me.
Thank you, Theresa, for doing this. It's beautiful and will teach a important lesson of love, tolerance and respect.
Take care, baby. :ghug: :^^)
An amazingly generous gesture, Theresa. I agree with you that Heath would fully approve. Good luck with it all, and I'll try and spread the word as best I can. Be sure and keep us posted if you can!!
I'm so glad you fully recognize how blessed you are, hon.
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Theresa...wow, I think I'll just quote Tammy here.
An amazingly generous gesture, Theresa. I agree with you that Heath would fully approve. Good luck with it all, and I'll try and spread the word as best I can. Be sure and keep us posted if you can!!
I'm so glad you fully recognize how blessed you are, hon.
Thank you so much, your kind words mean so much to me. The auction has started and the bidding has started and is going well. I appreciate everyone's kindness so much.
Theresa
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Thank you so much, your kind words mean so much to me. The auction has started and the bidding has started and is going well. I appreciate everyone's kindness so much.
Theresa
I wish you all the luck in the world with this, Theresa. As others have said, it's an amazing thing to do, and I'm certain Heath would have approved wholeheartedly.
I wish I could bid...
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I watched the part from "10 things I hate about you" where Julia Stiles reads her poem... and it put me in the mood of writing a little something of my own.
10 Things I Love About You
I love your deep brown chocolate eyes,
All the emotion that they show
I love your dimples when you smile
And the way your whole face glows.
I love your low and sexy voice
your deep laughter when you joke
I love how your hands go everywhere
Every time you start to talk.
I love your shy and humble ways,
How down to earth you are
I love your liberal, open mind
And your generous, gentle heart
I love your wacky style of clothing
Bright colors & stripes instead of suits
I love it how on red-carpet events
You wear your scruffy boots ;D
I love your rare and special talent,
Your passion for your art
The way your acting brought me joy
But also broke my heart.
But I hate it that you've gone away
And the world turned cold and black
And I hate it that with all this love
I still can't bring you back.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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I watched the part from "10 things I hate about you" where Julia Stiles reads her poem... and it put me in the mood of writing a little something of my own.
10 Things I Love About You
I love your deep brown chocolate eyes,
All the emotion that they show
I love your dimples when you smile
And the way your whole face glows.
I love your low and sexy voice
your deep laughter when you joke
I love how your hands go everywhere
Every time you start to talk.
I love your shy and humble ways,
How down to earth you are
I love your liberal, open mind
And your generous, gentle heart
I love your wacky style of clothing
Bright colors & stripes instead of suits
I love it how on red-carpet events
You wear your scruffy boots ;D
I love your rare and special talent,
Your passion for your art
The way your acting brought me joy
But also broke my heart.
But I hate it that you've gone away
And the world turned cold and black
And I hate it that with all this love
I still can't bring you back.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
awww its beautiful and heartbreaking...
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I watched the part from "10 things I hate about you" where Julia Stiles reads her poem... and it put me in the mood of writing a little something of my own.
10 Things I Love About You
I love your deep brown chocolate eyes,
All the emotion that they show
I love your dimples when you smile
And the way your whole face glows.
I love your low and sexy voice
your deep laughter when you joke
I love how your hands go everywhere
Every time you start to talk.
I love your shy and humble ways,
How down to earth you are
I love your liberal, open mind
And your generous, gentle heart
I love your wacky style of clothing
Bright colors & stripes instead of suits
I love it how on red-carpet events
You wear your scruffy boots ;D
I love your rare and special talent,
Your passion for your art
The way your acting brought me joy
But also broke my heart.
But I hate it that you've gone away
And the world turned cold and black
And I hate it that with all this love
I still can't bring you back.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Keren, that's beautiful :^^) I loved the whole thing, but the bit in bold really made me smile because it's one of the things I really did love about our boy.
But the last verse broke my heart :\'( :\'(
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I watched the part from "10 things I hate about you" where Julia Stiles reads her poem... and it put me in the mood of writing a little something of my own.
10 Things I Love About You
I love your deep brown chocolate eyes,
All the emotion that they show
I love your dimples when you smile
And the way your whole face glows.
I love your low and sexy voice
your deep laughter when you joke
I love how your hands go everywhere
Every time you start to talk.
I love your shy and humble ways,
How down to earth you are
I love your liberal, open mind
And your generous, gentle heart
I love your wacky style of clothing
Bright colors & stripes instead of suits
I love it how on red-carpet events
You wear your scruffy boots ;D
I love your rare and special talent,
Your passion for your art
The way your acting brought me joy
But also broke my heart.
But I hate it that you've gone away
And the world turned cold and black
And I hate it that with all this love
I still can't bring you back.
:\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: keren :ghug: i love it when the love Heath inspired is shared with so much intensity.
:t) ^f^
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Thank you so much for your sweet words. It is heart rending, yes, but it makes me smile to know that it is going to be a part of something so incredibly important and that BBM and Heath will, even in some small way, continue to change the world. This is a battle we must fight as brothers and sisters whether we are gay or straight. It is an injustice that simply has to stop and I don't think any great battle has ever been won without sacrifice on the part of many many people. It is the putting together of these small bits that will finally win justice. Thank you so much for your support in this. I feel privileged to have the opportunity. I have been given so much by this man that I feel the need to give in return, in his honor.
I agree with everyone here Theresa, this is a wonderful gesture on your part and I really hope it does make a difference. :)
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I agree with everyone here Theresa, this is a wonderful gesture on your part and I really hope it does make a difference. :)
Thank you so much sweetheart. I've got my fingers crossed.
Hugs
Theresa
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Sorry for not keeping up with the warmth and excitement in this forum. I guess you could say that I went AWOL. :-\\
I wrote a poem a few months after Heath took off on his own. I tried to make it universal in scope, but I was thinking of Heath.
Left Wanting to Say
You left before I knew it,
I couldn't say good-bye.
I know you couldn't help it,
But I wished to see you fly.
You're out among the galaxies,
Dimming them with your light,
A brightness never fading leaves
A trail of glitter and might.
If I had only told you,
Would it make a difference now?
Your wonder and art were true,
Lasting pieces of you which howl.
I'm sure you guys more than anyone could interpret this
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Sorry for not keeping up with the warmth and excitement in this forum. I guess you could say that I went AWOL. :-\\
I wrote a poem a few months after Heath took off on his own. I tried to make it universal in scope, but I was thinking of Heath.
Left Wanting to Say
You left before I knew it,
I couldn't say good-bye.
I know you couldn't help it,
But I wished to see you fly.
You're out among the galaxies,
Dimming them with your light,
A brightness never fading leaves
A trail of glitter and might.
If I had only told you,
Would it make a difference now?
Your wonder and art were true,
Lasting pieces of you which howl.
I'm sure you guys more than anyone could interpret this
That's beautiful Rick :ghug: I like to think of him as the brightest light in the sky.
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Happy Friday Everyone! We are having an Oscar party - just my family (my daughters and granddaughters) and having the red carpet, dress up (but in Heath type fashions), a gift bag (from the Dollar store) and an award for who gets the most correct guesses on the Oscar ballot. We're all quite excited. We're even making Oscars in a Blanket for an appetizer.
Hugs
Theresa
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I may be the only one not excited, not anxious to watch, but I wanted to express that in case others felt like I do and thus, alone. I know we all realize how incredible he was. He was a legend to me long before we lost him, hey, that's documented, lol. I can't take him not being at all the glory stuff, getting his bag of goodies, seeing what he wore, his speech, nope, you guys do what you feel moved to do, and I will also.
Dawn and dusk don't belong on the same page.
Life should be a long novel.
Sunrise and sunset have all day.
Light's given till night to be seen,
not just a morning.
Not just the beginning,
just the first rays of legend, of dreams.
jessi
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For me, it is not about the fact that Heath would totally hate all the bruhaha, he certainly would hate it. It was not him, but for me it is about his family and how much it will mean to them and to the baby. Heath would be honored, yes, but he never cared about the frou frou stuff. However, I have promised myself to celebrate a life well lived and not dwell on a death that came so much too soon. He was full of life so I want to celebrate that. It's not about ceremonies or statues for me, personally, it is about the fact that he earned this. He was just that damned good. No one is giving him any of this out of sentimentality, he earned every accolade and award he has gotten. Though I can completely understand those who feel that they cannot look forward to the ceremony and such. However, I am very thankful for the Ledger family that they will be given this memory, this moment to see how beloved and respected their beautiful son was. I hope it lightens their burden for even a moment and brings them a smile, however, bittersweet the moment may be. I hope they feel him as close to them as their next breath. God bless each of them.
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I'm often in the minority, that's fine.
Understand, just because the Oscars do not interest me and I have no desire to watch doesn't mean I dwell on his death or that my life has not well moved on. No one who was not close to him can ever celebrate and revere his life more than I do. No one. Just, I know I'm not alone and knowing that sometimes gives comfort to others. If not, I've still shared. This has nothing to do with his family or baby or what he's earned or anything other than he's gone and I'll let everyone else celebrate and honor this way.
jessi
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For me, it is not about the fact that Heath would totally hate all the bruhaha, he certainly would hate it. It was not him, but for me it is about his family and how much it will mean to them and to the baby. Heath would be honored, yes, but he never cared about the frou frou stuff. However, I have promised myself to celebrate a life well lived and not dwell on a death that came so much too soon. He was full of life so I want to celebrate that. It's not about ceremonies or statues for me, personally, it is about the fact that he earned this. He was just that damned good. No one is giving him any of this out of sentimentality, he earned every accolade and award he has gotten. Though I can completely understand those who feel that they cannot look forward to the ceremony and such. However, I am very thankful for the Ledger family that they will be given this memory, this moment to see how beloved and respected their beautiful son was. I hope it lightens their burden for even a moment and brings them a smile, however, bittersweet the moment may be. I hope they feel him as close to them as their next breath. God bless each of them.
Oh, Theresa, you really think of it so deep and so right.
I am one of those who won't be able to watch and to enjoy it to the full, even I know that He will be there in spirit, and even I know that God had plans for each one of us long long time ago. Still, I won't be that brave.
I admire you for the strength you show all the time, coz even you were so close to him and or maybe just because of that, you can stay upright and celebrate his life as if He is still among us. Kudos to you, dear!
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Oh, Theresa, you really think of it so deep and so right.
I am one of those who won't be able to watch and to enjoy it to the full, even I know that He will be there in spirit, and even I know that God had plans for each one of us long long time ago. Still, I won't be that brave.
I admire you for the strength you show all the time, coz even you were so close to him and or maybe just because of that, you can stay upright and celebrate his life as if He is still among us. Kudos to you, dear!
Everyone deals with hurt differently. There's no wrong way or right way to grieve. Grief is hard regardless. It's a painful, painful thing. It's all very bittersweet. But I truly hope it brings his family a moment of tremendous pride. I truly do. And a smile. Thank you so much for your sweet words Loreen. I think that you are right that my direction or strength (which believe me I don't feel very strong at all, lol) comes from my being in a little bit different situation with it.
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Happy Friday Everyone! We are having an Oscar party - just my family (my daughters and granddaughters) and having the red carpet, dress up (but in Heath type fashions), a gift bag (from the Dollar store) and an award for who gets the most correct guesses on the Oscar ballot. We're all quite excited. We're even making Oscars in a Blanket for an appetizer.
Hugs
Theresa
What a cute idea! You and your family rock! I never thought of having a red carpet :) And especially, dressing in our Heath outfits (stripes anyone?).
Will you post some pix please?
kathy
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What a cute idea! You and your family rock! I never thought of having a red carpet :) And especially, dressing in our Heath outfits (stripes anyone?).
Will you post some pix please?
kathy
Absolutely. I'll try to remember to ask my daughter to take some. We're all set and have even gone to the dollar store and gotten the stuff for our red carpet gift bags like tooth brushes that play Cheetah Girl Music and sling back socks and all kinds of obviously valuable booty!
Theresa
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I'm going to wear my Joker socks tonight when I watch the Oscars.
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I'm going to wear my Joker socks tonight when I watch the Oscars.
OMG! I'm sooooo jealous! I don't have any Joker socks. I would give my eye teeth to have Joker socks for tonight. How cute is that going to be! You go girl! :clap:
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I'm wearing my Joker t-shirt and I've got stripey socks on too :)
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I'm wearing my Joker t-shirt and I've got stripey socks on too :)
Beautiful! I love it!
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I'm going to wear my Joker socks tonight when I watch the Oscars.
You just remind me I have a pair of these too... huh we got them at the same time when we met Brussels, huh? ???
I'm for sure wear mine too. :)
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I'm on my way to an Oscar Night party in San Francisco.
I will be wearing my Heath Ledger shirt, and I made the insciption from the memorial into a name tag.
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I'm on my way to an Oscar Night party in San Francisco.
I will be wearing my Heath Ledger shirt, and I made the insciption from the memorial into a name tag.
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Oh John! I do love your style my dear. You'll be fabulous!
Theresa
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You just remind me I have a pair of these too... huh we got them at the same time when we met Brussels, huh? ???
I'm for sure wear mine too. :)
Excellent! This is just the best that you are all being so fantastically loving and supportive of tonight. Heath was a lucky man to have such fans!
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Don't miss our Live Oscar chat, it began. :)
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=15180.msg889524#msg889524
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Why do I discover how much I love Heath only after he's gone? It's been a year since he died and only now am I mourning for him, because only recently have I watched BBM and have never got a chance to see any of his films before except the dark knight.
The tears were uncontrollable when watching the Oscars today. :\'(
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I love the quiet beauty of our pix with poems page, my refuge, I'd never written poetry 'till BBM, but I hope no one minds if I slip one in here.
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Rest in love deep in my heart.
The wake of your spirit
washes over days
and sunsets are richer, dawns nearer.
Deep in my heart,
part of my soul,
your spirit ripples.
I'm like one tiny insignificant star,
where your wonder shines on.
One of many,
one of the least, tiniest of all,
here with my fingers,
there with my voice,
deep in my heart
your legend goes on.
jessi
2/22/09
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Jessi. Beautiful.
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
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Thanks! :\'(
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Thank you Ethan! :\'(
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
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:ghug: :\'( :^^) That's an amazing work of love, Ethan. :\'( Thank you so much for sharing it. I love it. :ghug: :^^) ^f^
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Ethan, this is beautiful.
jessi
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Ethan, that video is stunning. A beautiful, fitting tribute to the man who, more than any other I think, is the reason we're all here in this place.
And I'm in tears again :\'( :\'(
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Jessi. Beautiful.
Thank you, tony.
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
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Thank you Ethan, thank you so much :\'(
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
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Thanks again for that wonderful video dear Ethan...so emotionnal :clap: :\'(
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So proud of you Heath...
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:ghug: you are all welcome.
Here is the link to download (right click and save the link as)
http://ennisjack.com/video/heath_award_tribute.wmv
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:ghug: you are all welcome.
Here is the link to download (right click and save the link as)
http://ennisjack.com/video/heath_award_tribute.wmv
:t) You are awesome, as always. ^f^
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
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My god, Ethan, I am stunned... You are so beautiful to have made this. I love everything about it, and all the details of your editing. The voiceover of Sally (or is it Kate?) -- I love how you did that. I lost it, though, after the segment of all the clips announcing Heath the winner of all the awards...to then see him get up out of the audience and go up on the stage and read the acceptance speech -- I had to just stop it there, wait for tears to pass so I could see again...
I love all the close-ups you chose. What especially got to me was beautiful Casanova looking up in wonder at the fireworks. And I love, love how you finished it. "As long as we can ride it."
Bless you, bless Heath, bless us all.
kathy
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I was postponing to watch this video, trying to find a right moment! But there's no right moment. It hurts at any time. :\'( :\'( :\'(
You did an amazing job Ethan. Thank you!
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ethan.... :\'( :\'(
thank you so much.... :ghug:
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
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So beautiful, my friend. This touched me very deeply. The tears I shed watching it were just like the ones I shed yesterday during Heath's win - both happy and sad.
Thank you so much, Ethan.
I loved it so much, I sent this out to my 200+ YouTube Heath fan friends. I hope you don't mind...I just felt that all who love Heath should see this lovely tribute.
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:ghug: to all of you. Thank you for your comments here and at YouTube.
Laura - no I don't mind at all. Thank you for doing that. We have a lost a true talent and this video is only my humble tribute for what he has accomplished and what he had given us.
The voiceover of Sally (or is it Kate?) -- I love how you did that. I lost it, though, after the segment of all the clips announcing Heath the winner of all the awards...to then see him get up out of the audience and go up on the stage and read the acceptance speech
Kathy - thank you and :ghug: The voices are Heath's sisters, Christopher Nolan, Gary Oldman, Sally Bell, Heath's interview with Charlie Rose.
I kept thinking what he would do or say if he were here to accept the awards. It must have been very tiring to make acceptance speech for all these award shows. I saw a clip of "Access Hollywood" yesterday when the host asked the father right after the Oscar what Heath would say. His father's response is "Glad it is you doing it, not me."
I like how he just looked up when he was on the stage.
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:ghug: you are all welcome.
Here is the link to download (right click and save the link as)
http://ennisjack.com/video/heath_award_tribute.wmv
Thank you so much,Ethan ¡ You have done such a wonderful job that it's just as great as our Heath deserves¡.Even if I must confess that I haven't seen it until the end,still not now... :\'(
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Congratulations to Heath & his family on his Oscar win. :clap: A deserving winner if ever there was one. Hope its made you smile Heath wherever you are.
Now I've got my tissues ready to watch Ethan's video.
EDIT: Absolutely beautifully done Ethan. A wonderful if heart wrenching tribute to a great man. :cr)
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I made this video dedicating to all of you and celebrating Heath's life and accomplishment. Thank you all for your heartfelt thoughts.
Below is the link to YouTube.
(https://ennisjack.com/forum/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi41.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fe266%2Fethanwow%2Fpost%2Fheath_award.jpg&hash=0e6bdbcff84acc6e41d89e1b5752ba6a6fa3be58) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_T500KcaiY)
Thank you SO much Ethan. I have not words for this. I totally lost it when Sonny said "I've always loved you". :\'( :\'( :\'( And seeing Heath there when he accepted the Bafta and seeing Ennis....well...that was SO hard. :\'( :\'( :\'(
This was simply made of awesome. BEAUTIFUL, my friend, just that. ^f^
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Congratulations to Heath!!! I can hardly express what I feel now, it is probably a mixture of a great deep sadness and proud. I am very happy because has deserved the Oscar award since the BBM was made.
I have seen some pictures of Jake and Sean Penn talking to each other at the post Oscar party. I would really wonder what they were talking about because they both looked rather serious......Anyway, I realised that they both have played gays (on screen) and both died.....
Does anyone know why Jake doesn´t talk to media about Heath at all? I hoped I saw him at the Oscars, but he was not there....
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Congratulations to Heath!!! I can hardly express what I feel now, it is probably a mixture of a great deep sadness and proud. I am very happy because has deserved the Oscar award since the BM was made.
I have seen some pictures of Jake and Sean Penn talking to each other at the post Oscar party. I would really wonder what they were talking about because they both looked rather serious......Anyway, I realised that they both have played gays (on screen) and both died.....
Does anyone know why Jake doesn´t talk to media about Heath at all? I hoped I saw him at the Oscars, but he was not there....
I think it's because the media is public and he just doesn't want to move his sorry from private. I think Maggie is the same way, from a couple of interviews I watched and what she said.
jessi
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I think it's because the media is public and he just doesn't want to move his sorry from private. I think Maggie is the same way, from a couple of interviews I watched and what she said.
jessi
That would seem to be the case, jessi. Maggie spoke about Heath only when put on the spot and asked (and she answered so beautifully, about how it was too hard to talk about deep emotions with all the hoppla of the red carpet going on). Jake has not yet been in an interview setting, and when he does start to be, perhaps he'll ask them to please not ask about Heath. Or maybe we'll finally hear some words from him. But I don't need to hear it from him in public to know how he must be feeling, this whole past year... :\'(
kathy
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Dear Ethan, Once again you have made a lovely, touching video about Heath that has started the tears rolling once again. Beautiful work. Kudos!
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Thanks, Tammy and lamusica.
Thank you SO much Ethan. I have not words for this. I totally lost it when Sonny said "I've always loved you". :\'( :\'( :\'( And seeing Heath there when he accepted the Bafta and seeing Ennis....well...that was SO hard. :\'( :\'( :\'(
This was simply made of awesome. BEAUTIFUL, my friend, just that. ^f^
Tammy - :ghug:
Here is a quote from Christopher Nolan at the Golden Globe accepting Heath's award.
"After Heath passed on, you saw a whole rift in the future of cinema, but with the extraordinary response to his work that we've seen all over the world, I for one started to be able to look a bit less at that gap in the future and a little bit more at the incredible place in the history of cinema that he built for himself with his talent and with his dedication to his artistry."
Just like Nolan, I too started feeling the same way. He is amazing for what he had given us with his talent.
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That vid was so sad :\'( thank you ethan. And i'm crying now. Can't believe he's really gone. :\'(
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Saw the video a couple of days ago but never got on to comment. It was amazing, heart-breaking, sweet, and tragic. Thank you. ^f^
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I just watched a document about Heath. Now I'm just thinking, that he seemed so sweet person and... Can't really believe he is gone.
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With the approaching thirtieth birthday anniversary for Heath Ledger,
this song takes on new meaning for me, echoing the quote from Kahlil Gibran:
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being,
the more joy you can contain.
The song says, "how does a memory last this long
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends"
The song is not released yet, but you can hear it on http://myspace.com/musicsand in the profile playlist.
So I Can Feel You Again - by Ryan Laird
i never listened to the sound of rain
that i don't miss you i don't see your face
it's never what i need cuz what it does to me
it's always the same
a million pictures running through my mind
i reminace on all the better times
clear as a summer night i know that i can never fight
there is nothing to gain
it takes a hold on me so strong
how does a memory last this long
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learnt to love the pain
so i can feel you again
myabe i'm selfish not to let you go
and it goes againt everything i know
i am just not ready to stop loving you any time soon
if god has just give me my way, you'd be here with me today
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learnt to love the pain
so i can feel you again
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learnt to love the pain
so i can feel you again
i can feel you again
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"so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends"...
"I am just not ready to stop loving you any time soon"
These lyrics speak of what I feel. Thank you for posting Andrew.
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"so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends"...
"I am just not ready to stop loving you any time soon"
These lyrics speak of what I feel. Thank you for posting Andrew.
They speak for me, too, Keren. Thanks so much for sharing, Andrew. Listening to it, or just reading they lyrics - either way, this song has a profound effect on me.
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Ohh, Steffi...how precious. Like the other image of Heath's name in the sand at Cottlesloe Beach, this brought tears to my eyes instantaneously.
Absolutely beautiful, but so sad. So special. This picture has a way of pulling on my heartstrings in a very bittersweet way.
Thank you for sharing this with us.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
And...I hadn't realized you were in Australia right now, hon. :) Any chance you're coming to the east coast? If you're visiting Melbourne, or just Victoria at large, I'd love to meet up with you!
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Thank you Steffi. I get shivers when I think that he used to walk on these beaches himself, swim in these water, and now all is left is his name in the sand. :\'(
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Thank you Steffi. I get shivers when I think that he used to walk on these beaches himself, swim in these water, and now all is left is his name in the sand. :\'(
:ghug: :ghug: to you Keren and anyone who need them.
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Thank you Steffi. I get shivers when I think that he used to walk on these beaches himself, swim in these water, and now all is left is his name in the sand. :\'(
oh :'< so beautiful thing you said. It got me tears. :ghug: to you.
Can't believe it's his birthday soon and he's not here. :\'(
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:ghug: steffi :ghug:
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A gorgeous picture Steffi......
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Thank you for posting " So I can feel you again" Andrew.
http://www.myspace.com/musicsand
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You are welcome, whiteangel. I am waiting for Ryan Laird to release his first album, and hopefully this song. You can join his fan club and leave comments for him, to encourage him to release the song. He is a really good singer/songwriter. There are other songs of his that I love, but this one is especially poignant.
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beautiful but so sad :\'(
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I was watching a movie just now while I ironed shirts and ran laundry. "Henry Poole is Here." And all of a sudden a song starts playing in one of the scenes and I realize it's Morning Yearning. A slight gulp and before I know it I have tears on my face. Just when you think it's fading into the background of your consciousness, settling in as a gentle melancholy mixed with appreciation and fondness, it creeps back in and finds its way to your sensitive spot. As I told a friend just now, I guess I don't mind crying for him sometimes still, he's worth it. :ghug:
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I was watching a movie just now while I ironed shirts and ran laundry. "Henry Poole is Here." And all of a sudden a song starts playing in one of the scenes and I realize it's Morning Yearning. A slight gulp and before I know it I have tears on my face. Just when you think it's fading into the background of your consciousness, settling in as a gentle melancholy mixed with appreciation and fondness, it creeps back in and finds its way to your sensitive spot. As I told a friend just now, I guess I don't mind crying for him sometimes still, he's worth it. :ghug:
This kind of things can get you, that's for sure... :ghug: :ghug: and the tears can show up when they're least expected.
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I was watching a movie just now while I ironed shirts and ran laundry. "Henry Poole is Here." And all of a sudden a song starts playing in one of the scenes and I realize it's Morning Yearning. A slight gulp and before I know it I have tears on my face. Just when you think it's fading into the background of your consciousness, settling in as a gentle melancholy mixed with appreciation and fondness, it creeps back in and finds its way to your sensitive spot. As I told a friend just now, I guess I don't mind crying for him sometimes still, he's worth it. :ghug:
:ghug: ((((Barb)))) :ghug:
Know just what you mean, bud. Although I do usually feel it as a quiet melancholy these days, mixed in with the love and appreciation, every so often, triggered by things like a song I associate with him, an unexpected headline on Yahoo as I check my email, or the heartfelt words in this very thread, tears will suddenly come out of nowhere, as the still-felt surreal shock of it all sinks in once again.
But, like you say, Barb, he is so worth these tears that claim you from time to time.
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But, like you say, Barb, he is so worth these tears that claim you from time to time.
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Totally.
Got nothing else to say...
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I was watching a movie just now while I ironed shirts and ran laundry. "Henry Poole is Here." And all of a sudden a song starts playing in one of the scenes and I realize it's Morning Yearning. A slight gulp and before I know it I have tears on my face. Just when you think it's fading into the background of your consciousness, settling in as a gentle melancholy mixed with appreciation and fondness, it creeps back in and finds its way to your sensitive spot. As I told a friend just now, I guess I don't mind crying for him sometimes still, he's worth it. :ghug:
Barb and whoever needs it :ghug: ...You're absolutely right;he's so deeply in our hearts that we can't help but thinking about him whatever we read,hear or watch...But yes,you mustn't mind crying for him because he's worth it and deserves it.It's the least and littlest homage we can offer to him now... :\'(
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:ghug: Thanks all. What a wonderful place this is. :ghug:
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Barb and whoever needs it :ghug: ...You're absolutely right;he's so deeply in our hearts that we can't help but thinking about him whatever we read,hear or watch...But yes,you mustn't mind crying for him because he's worth it and deserves it.It's the least and littlest homage we can offer to him now... :\'(
So beautifully said... :\'( I don't really find words to say what I'm feeling right now. :\'(
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So beautifully said... :\'( I don't really find words to say what I'm feeling right now. :\'(
Thank you,Darnando ¡. ^f^ But you know I usually say that deeply felt words are not beautiful or ugly;they are simply felt.
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14 MONTHS ALREADY...
TIME IS PASSING,BUT THE FEELING IS INCREASING...ALWAYS ON MY MIND.
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14 Months...You are gone but still alive in my mind
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Death of a young person
No words can ease the heartbreak,
no tears or memories can take
away the loss of one who's gone,
of one you've loved since he was born.
No one can help us while bereft
from grief that one we loved has left;
has travelled from where we could see
to where his heart and soul fly free.
So when we're able to, we dwell
on all the love we knew so well;
and know that God has taken home
the one He loaned us for so long.
Joyce P. Hale
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I didn't realize it has been 14 months 'til I came here... God, why does time go so fast? Suddenly I'm wondering I'm fifty or something...
Anyway, so beautiful pics.
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Awww, man, I've had the same kinda feelings before, believe me. There are moments where I stop and think, "Wish Heath coulda seen this." I especially felt that in watching the Obama Inaugaration.
Even more so watching the beautiful speech his family gave for him at the Oscars.
But hey... It was a tragedy, true... but it's good to have a laugh, right? I just made a video (I had to split it in half for length) for some Heathen friends of mine on youtube, to cheer them up. I think this would be an excellent place and time to post the links.
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But hey... It was a tragedy, true... but it's good to have a laugh, right? I just made a video (I had to split it in half for length) for some Heathen friends of mine on youtube, to cheer them up. I think this would be an excellent place and time to post the links.
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(Forgive me if I have a dirty, childish sense of humor. :-\\)
Yea maybe it's good to have laugh sometimes but I'm not over enough yet to see the funny side. And I think there isn't any funny side...
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:ghug: Darnando. I understand.
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Yea maybe it's good to have laugh sometimes but I'm not over enough yet to see the funny side. And I think there isn't any funny side...
:ghug: Darnando, I am with you there. It's been years since my own loss, and even after more than a year, Heath's absence is still colored by sorrow. I try to balance the sorrow with joy in real life whenever I can.
I guess there is always the part of me that would be respectful while visiting a cemetery, to be in the presence of eternity. :ghug: ^f^
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Aww thanks guys :ghug:
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Todays it's Heaths birthday, I remember this day last year. I think I was still in shock that he was dead and I couldn't believe that he was really gone. I think the last couple of weeks I have started to accept that he is gone and I don't feel sad all the time and I don't feel like I want to cry every time I see a picture or a video of him, maybe because I have stayed away from pictures and videos of him for awhile.
Tonight there is a tribute for Heath on Swedish TV and I want to watch it but I'm afraid that I will loose it and feel the pain all over again and I don't know it I can take it. But I know myself, and I'm going to watch it anyway even if it hurts like hell. I don't understand myself, I didn't even know Heath, and still I feel like he was a part of my family and a piece of me died when he died. :\'(
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(((((Emzan))))) :ghug: :ghug:
Yes, it's like a piece of us died with him. we should be celebrating this day, and it's hard.
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HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY, HEATH
Wish you were here... :\'(
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Death of a young person
So when we're able to, we dwell
on all the love we knew so well;
and know that God has taken home
the one He loaned us for so long.
Joyce P. Hale
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Happy birthday our beautiful boy!
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All I am missing is you
I go to places we liked to go
I do the things we liked to do
Familiar faces we both new
All I'm missing is you
Don't ask me how I'm getting along
Cause there's really nothing new
Everything's about the same
Since you've gone
All I'm missing is you
The same old memories are just as strong
Same old dreams don't come true
That same old feeling goes on and on
All I'm missing is you.
Don Williams
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Heath, wherever you are, honey, I hope you feel more strongly than ever before our love for you on your Birthday.
Happy Birthday, baby. I'd give anything to have you here on your milestone 30th birthday...
Something I just wrote now, as I listened to the light rain on my roof and thought about our darling boy.
April rain is needling down
The windows are forlorn
It should have been a milestone -
This date that you were born.
The Autumn night, it cries for you
Are Perth's skies, too, forlorn?
And the vault above your Northern home -
Is it weeping this Spring morn?
Dispersed throughout the Hemispheres
We that loved you, love you still
And quietly we celebrate your Day
Springtime warmth, Autumn chill
The April rain beckons me
Through the window panes forlorn
I think I'll wander into it
Bless this day that you were born.
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All I am missing is you
I go to places we liked to go
I do the things we liked to do
Familiar faces we both new
All I'm missing is you
Don't ask me how I'm getting along
Cause there's really nothing new
Everything's about the same
Since you've gone
All I'm missing is you
The same old memories are just as strong
Same old dreams don't come true
That same old feeling goes on and on
All I'm missing is you.
Don Williams
So true, Tammy baby, so true. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: ((((Hugs you tight))))
Prince sums up a lot of how I feel right now in Sometimes It Snows In April.
Sometimes it snows in April
Sometimes I feel so bad, so bad
Sometimes I wish life was never ending,
and all good things, they say, never last
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Heath's birthday today (it's already over here in Australia, while for our European and American Brokies, it's in full swing) inspired me to get the word "Love" tattooed on my wrist this afternoon. I'd thought about getting a replica of the heart he drew, or a little dragonfly like he had or just something else to symbolize him, but I ended up thinking that the unequivocal most precious word in English would be able to symbolize not only Heath himself, but all he stood for, too. So this way, inspired by him, partially representing him, this tattoo is an umbrella for, well, pretty much anything and everything important to me. Family, friends, Brokeback Mountain, all of you guys. A little word covering such an expansive girth.
Thank you, Heath, for continuing to be my inspiration.
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Heath's birthday today (it's already over here in Australia, while for our European and American Brokies, it's in full swing) inspired me to get the word "Love" tattooed on my wrist this afternoon. I'd thought about getting a replica of the heart he drew, or a little dragonfly like he had or just something else to symbolize him, but I ended up thinking that the unequivocal most precious word in English would be able to symbolize not only Heath himself, but all he stood for, too. So this way, inspired by him, partially representing him, this tattoo is an umbrella for, well, pretty much anything and everything important to me. Family, friends, Brokeback Mountain, all of you guys. A little word covering such an expansive girth.
Thank you, Heath, for continuing to be my inspiration.
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Laura this is such a beautiful thing to do. :ghug:
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Laura, your tattoo is indeed a lovely way to honor him and all that is good in your life and heart as well. And your poem was heartbreakingly beautiful and so perfectly suited to this day. Thank you. :^^)
:ghug: :ghug: to all today who remember Heath with love, gratitude and some lingering sadness.
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Oh, Laura... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: ((((squeezes you breathless))))
Beautiful very emotional poem, and what you did with the tattoo..... :\'( <^( :\'( <^( That's was precious, friend.
I also got my Heath tattoo a 4th. It was July 4th 2008, the day our brokie friend Rajel died, so today is a big sad day for me. I have in my wrist the tattoo that reminds me of Heath and also reminds me of Rajel, just like the 4th's of every month. Oh hell, I am gonna start to ramble. I just wanted to say that your posts moved me to the core. Thank you, babe. :^^)
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My Deartest Heath,
Happy Birthday to u my Angel..
I know that u r in heaven and u know that u r loved by all of us..
We miss u and always will...
You r very precious to us and r always in our prayers and thoughts..
God will hold u in his arms forever...
Our hearts know what we have lost and it seems like impossible sometimes..
We get a strong feeling that u r still there and then we r right also because u r there in our hearts forever..We will never let u go..
We miss your physical presence so much that its hurts alot...
Lots of luv to u forever and ever our Sweet Angel...
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Happy 30th Birthday Heath! <^( ^f^ &**) %)
Sometimes it's hard to believe your still not here. On days like today, for a just a moment, I think you are - smiling and blowing out your 30 candles. May all your prayers and wishes come true, even from the heavens above.
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Happy 30th Birthday Heath! <^( ^f^ &**) %)
Sometimes it's hard to believe your still not here. On days like today, for a just a moment, I think you are - smiling and blowing out your 30 candles. May all your prayers and wishes come true, even from the heavens above.
I Quote this..Its really hard to believe this...
Our Heath is resting in peace in Heaven forever...
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Destiny Choose
Didn't expect it, to arrive so soon,
I don't think I'm ready, as I stare at the moon.
Always believed in forever twenty-one,
Where is my youth with that eternal fun?
Constantly thinking about what is ahead,
During long drives in traffic, repeatedly dread.
Focused and ready to enhance my Career,
Share insights with friends, over a beer.
Life at 30, they expect the right course,
I dream of freedom, with mountains and horse.
So much advice, they try to confuse,
I clear my mind, my own destiny choose.
By Martin Dejnicki
Heath,I wish that your life at 30,in your new home up in Heaven,has its right course also.At least,you have now your freedom...
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Heath, wherever you are, honey, I hope you feel more strongly than ever before our love for you on your Birthday.
Happy Birthday, baby. I'd give anything to have you here on your milestone 30th birthday...
Something I just wrote now, as I listened to the light rain on my roof and thought about our darling boy.
April rain is needling down
The windows are forlorn
It should have been a milestone -
This date that you were born.
The Autumn night, it cries for you
Are Perth's skies, too, forlorn?
And the vault above your Northern home -
Is it weeping this Spring morn?
Dispersed throughout the Hemispheres
We that loved you, love you still
And quietly we celebrate your Day
Springtime warmth, Autumn chill
The April rain beckons me
Through the window panes forlorn
I think I'll wander into it
Bless this day that you were born.
Laura, this is so beautiful. Really special, the forlorn mood, whether spring or autumn...
And wasn't it yet another beautiful aspect of Heath, that he was at home in many places in the world.
kathy
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Thanks for the nice words, Brokies. And Kathy, yes, I agree with you, friend. Heath was just loved everywhere he went, wasn't he...
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I just feel so bad right now, it wasn't able to me to come to this forum yesterday... And now I'm here, I read all your posts, and I'm totally crying. Thank you all for your beautiful words and, how over sentimental it sounds, I'm glad I have someone to share this sorrow with. What I'm saying I cried like a maniac yesterday (I watched Brother Grimm's, btw) and I can hardly realize he's not here. But anyway, happy (belated, though :() birthday Heath darling. Wish you were here.
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One of the sweetest things about Heath is the way he communicated with his fans. Some of you may not know it, but on several occasions Heath left messages on fansites and thanked his fans.
I've been spending time on the Dr. Parnassus forum that Theresa set up, and I'd like to thank all the members there who posted messages from Heath, that they'd come across and saved over the years. I thought I'd share some of them with you.
This message from Heath was posted on 16 September 2002 - this is the link to the site, and if you scroll down you can see the message at the bottom of the page (thank you rolie for finding it!)
http://www.heathledger.net/_main/component/option,com_easybook/Itemid,47/startpage,40/
Heath 16 September 2002 02:00 |
Hi Jayne and SCOTT! just joking Skye. It was fun meeting you guys in Toronto. My first time to visit a fan site dedicated to myself. Feels strange. I looked around and you guys have so much info on me it's amazing. A lot of photos too. I'm very flattered. Just want to say thank you very much for all your time and effort. Jayne you are a great web designer. I hope to see you again sometimes in the near future. Perhaps the next premiere. My sister or myself will get in touch with you. To all my fans, thank you for supporting me and Jayne's site. Peace, Heath
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This one was posted on Heath Ledger Central, a site that was run by Theresa, a big fan and a personal friend of Heath. She also ran the site "Addicted To The Movie Candy", a site that helped to promote the movie Candy and helped it get a wider release - same as she's doing now for Heath's last movie. During that time Heath also sent personal messages to members who's been particularly active and helpful on the Candy site, he was very appreciative of the efforts. He posted this message on HLC on Jun 26 2006, 07:25 PM, under the name HAL:
HAL
post Jun 26 2006, 07:25 PM
Post #1
I have just stopped over at the Addicted To The Movie Candy blog and forum. Have you seen that place. Really cool! I love that header with the swimming pool. Fascinates me how it looks like water. Very pertinent I think too.
I wanted to thank everyone who is registering there on the forum. This project is very dear and a lot of work but it means a lot to everyone involved. Good going on joining and helping.
I hope you are all well and happy. I hope you enjoy Candy, I'm really proud of this film.
All is well and fine with me and mine and I hope the same for all of you.
Also, T asked me to address something that she says has become an issue. Yes Jake and I are really friends though neither of us gets why that is a deal and yes we see each other. You know how the press is, they never think we might just be having the same kind of friendship as anyone else, most of life is normal not a movie script and because they are not looking for the normal they don't even notice what happens right under their noses. Old Hollywood manufactured romances and friendships just don't exist past the movie set if at all. When told that it had become an issue I was really confused by it's importance. But that's the press for you. If you can't say something nice, great you will sell more publications. It's so funny.
Hope you are well and happy.
Peace
Heath
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Heath 16 September 2002 02:00 |
Hi Jayne and SCOTT! just joking Skye. It was fun meeting you guys in Toronto. My first time to visit a fan site dedicated to myself. Feels strange. I looked around and you guys have so much info on me it's amazing. A lot of photos too. I'm very flattered. Just want to say thank you very much for all your time and effort. Jayne you are a great web designer. I hope to see you again sometimes in the near future. Perhaps the next premiere. My sister or myself will get in touch with you. To all my fans, thank you for supporting me and Jayne's site. Peace, Heath
OMG, now when he's not with us any more to find out more and more evidence of how human and dear soul he was....really moving!
Thank you Keren for posting this! ^f^
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This message was posted on the I'm Not There site on Feb 8 2007, 10:05 PM.
Wow. Everything looks great. It has been a while since I've been able to stop by and see how it's going. You have all done a lot of work and it looks fantastic. Thank you for all of your hard work and support.
I wanted to stop in and say hi before things get so busy.
Keep up the good work, you're going to love this movie.
I really like the section about faith. You are becoming pros at this. You've all become great friends too and that's so important. Be good to one another.
Peace
Heath
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OMG, now when he's not with us any more to find out more and more evidence of how human and dear soul he was....really moving!
Thank you Keren for posting this! ^f^
You're welcome. He was so down to earth, such a sweet and generous soul. I don't think many actors would take the time to thank their fans like that and let them know how much they appreciate their support.
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I have just stopped over at the Addicted To The Movie Candy blog and forum. Have you seen that place. Really cool! I love that header with the swimming pool. Fascinates me how it looks like water. Very pertinent I think too.
I wanted to thank everyone who is registering there on the forum. This project is very dear and a lot of work but it means a lot to everyone involved. Good going on joining and helping.
I hope you are all well and happy. I hope you enjoy Candy, I'm really proud of this film.
All is well and fine with me and mine and I hope the same for all of you.
Also, T asked me to address something that she says has become an issue. Yes Jake and I are really friends though neither of us gets why that is a deal and yes we see each other. You know how the press is, they never think we might just be having the same kind of friendship as anyone else, most of life is normal not a movie script and because they are not looking for the normal they don't even notice what happens right under their noses. Old Hollywood manufactured romances and friendships just don't exist past the movie set if at all. When told that it had become an issue I was really confused by it's importance. But that's the press for you. If you can't say something nice, great you will sell more publications. It's so funny.
Hope you are well and happy.
Peace
Heath
(t) (t) (t) This beautiful human being is really going to be missed eternally by many of us whom he touched not only with his brilliant performances, but with his honest kindness.
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Oh, wow, thanks for these posts keren! Honestly, I didn't know Heath really appreciated his fan that much. But, it isn't so big surprise, I mean, it's easy to believe something like that about him. :)
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Hope that you'll enjoy one of his interviews about BBM. I know that I did.
Heath Ledger Not a Label Queen
Heath_ledgerTime begins priming folks for Heath Ledger's understated performance in Brokeback Mountain in an article that charts the sequence of cinematic duds he's appeared in...as well as the resurrection of his career in the landmark cowboy film.
Ledger makes some comments that are very similar to the much-commented-on statements that Jake Gyllenhaal made in articles that appeared last week with regard to the approach to the characters of Ennis del Mar and Jack Twist:
Says Ledger: "I don't think Ennis could be labeled as gay. Without Jack Twist, I don't know that he ever would have come out. I think the whole point was that it was two souls that fell in love with each other."
This is perhaps a better articulation of what Jake was trying to say. While the Brokeback story and characters would undeniably be labeled as "gay" from our modern perspective, back then the labels weren't as prevalent.
Even now, Ledger offers, the labels of gay and straight, are too strict and marginalize people who may have attractions to both sexes:
"I don't think it's that black-and-white, and I think because we label it so harshly, there's just a lot of confused people running around thinking, Oh, f___, which side am I on?"
In a recent article in Newsweek, Ledger explained why he feels some straight men get uncomfortable at the notion of a film about cowboys in love: "I suspect it's a fear that they are going to enjoy it. They don't understand that you are not going to become sexually attracted to men by recognizing the beauty of a love story between two men."
Link: http://towleroad.typepad.com/towleroad/2005/11/heath_ledger_no.html
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Thanks Keren for posting these lovely messages from Heath....I remember reading them at the time and just thinking what a great guy Heath was for doing that...its nice to be reminded of them :)
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Thanks,Keren,for showing us one more time how humble and friendly Heath was... :^^) Indeed,not so many Hollywood stars are willing to "descend on earth" to get in touch with his or her fans,talking to them as an equal.And I'm glad also that some stupid gossips about his friendship or not with Jake have been shut up by the same Heath.How a great human being he was¡ :\'(
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Thank you also for this Heath interview about BBM,Loreen ¡ :^^) He said some great truths about Ennis and his feelings,showing that he really understood what was passing on his character's mind and heart.. :c)
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I received a couple of those said messages, but when the Candy website got deleted, so did my messages.
same as above they always ended with Peace Heath... sigh
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I received a couple of those said messages, but when the Candy website got deleted, so did my messages.
same as above they always ended with Peace Heath... sigh
Well... I've got a surprise for you honey. your messages (at least one of them) may have been deleted, but they're not lost. Remember you passed the message on to Christie because Heath couldn't pm her personally? well, she saved it, and so did I, and here it is. Heath's message to our froggy.
I am by for a visit with T and we have been going over the site together and she has been talking to me about all of you who have helped so much. I didn't want to let this time pass without personally thanking you for all you have done and for standing by Candy like you have. I don't know if all of you realize what an impact you have had, but it has been huge for a little movie like this and we all appreciate it so much.
T tells me you will see the film this weekend in London. I hope that you like it. It's a really great story and I'm very proud of it.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
I tried to reach your friend Christine but it didn't work. T says that her message box is full. So would you please tell her and Maxine how much I appreciate everything they have done. Have fun in London.
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
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Well... I've got a surprise for you honey. your messages (at least one of them) may have been deleted, but they're not lost. Remember you passed the message on to Christie because Heath couldn't pm her personally? well, she saved it, and so did I, and here it is. Heath's message to our froggy.
I am by for a visit with T and we have been going over the site together and she has been talking to me about all of you who have helped so much. I didn't want to let this time pass without personally thanking you for all you have done and for standing by Candy like you have. I don't know if all of you realize what an impact you have had, but it has been huge for a little movie like this and we all appreciate it so much.
T tells me you will see the film this weekend in London. I hope that you like it. It's a really great story and I'm very proud of it.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
I tried to reach your friend Christine but it didn't work. T says that her message box is full. So would you please tell her and Maxine how much I appreciate everything they have done. Have fun in London.
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
OMG, these words are so precious, so priceless... (:) (:) (:) and he is so dear... (was so dear :\'()...
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Link: http://towleroad.typepad.com/towleroad/2005/11/heath_ledger_no.html
:t) Loreen for the link, very interesting O0
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:t) Loreen for the link, very interesting O0
Hi dear, you're welcome! ^f^
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Heath, wherever you are, honey, I hope you feel more strongly than ever before our love for you on your Birthday.
Happy Birthday, baby. I'd give anything to have you here on your milestone 30th birthday...
Something I just wrote now, as I listened to the light rain on my roof and thought about our darling boy.
April rain is needling down
The windows are forlorn
It should have been a milestone -
This date that you were born.
The Autumn night, it cries for you
Are Perth's skies, too, forlorn?
And the vault above your Northern home -
Is it weeping this Spring morn?
Dispersed throughout the Hemispheres
We that loved you, love you still
And quietly we celebrate your Day
Springtime warmth, Autumn chill
The April rain beckons me
Through the window panes forlorn
I think I'll wander into it
Bless this day that you were born.
Wow - that was just lovely!
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Well... I've got a surprise for you honey. your messages (at least one of them) may have been deleted, but they're not lost. Remember you passed the message on to Christie because Heath couldn't pm her personally? well, she saved it, and so did I, and here it is. Heath's message to our froggy.
I am by for a visit with T and we have been going over the site together and she has been talking to me about all of you who have helped so much. I didn't want to let this time pass without personally thanking you for all you have done and for standing by Candy like you have. I don't know if all of you realize what an impact you have had, but it has been huge for a little movie like this and we all appreciate it so much.
T tells me you will see the film this weekend in London. I hope that you like it. It's a really great story and I'm very proud of it.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
I tried to reach your friend Christine but it didn't work. T says that her message box is full. So would you please tell her and Maxine how much I appreciate everything they have done. Have fun in London.
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
That is just the coolest thing ever. God, I'm gonna start crying again... :\'(
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Well... I've got a surprise for you honey. your messages (at least one of them) may have been deleted, but they're not lost. Remember you passed the message on to Christie because Heath couldn't pm her personally? well, she saved it, and so did I, and here it is. Heath's message to our froggy.
I am by for a visit with T and we have been going over the site together and she has been talking to me about all of you who have helped so much. I didn't want to let this time pass without personally thanking you for all you have done and for standing by Candy like you have. I don't know if all of you realize what an impact you have had, but it has been huge for a little movie like this and we all appreciate it so much.
T tells me you will see the film this weekend in London. I hope that you like it. It's a really great story and I'm very proud of it.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
I tried to reach your friend Christine but it didn't work. T says that her message box is full. So would you please tell her and Maxine how much I appreciate everything they have done. Have fun in London.
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
God, I've heard about this since I first joined the forum, and now I've finally read it I still can't believe it. I am so moved that I am totally speechless. :\'( :\'( :\'( Thank you very much for this, Keren. What a treasure.
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He was just one of a kind. I still can't believe he's gone.
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I know what you mean, Keren...it still doesnt seem real.... :\'( :\'(
I remember the message that Froggy sent to me, I nearly fainted with the shock, when I read it and realised who it was from. Heath sent me another one, just before I went to see Candy at the London Film Festival.
Dear Christie,
I am by for another quick visit. T is making me post. I mean I enjoy it, but I don't want her to know that. I so love to see her when she's frustrated with me.
I am sorry that I missed you earlier with my note of thanks. I just wanted you to know that I appreciate everything that you have done to help promote Candy. I'm very proud of this movie and it's a great thing to see others care for it.
I hope you enjoy the film this weekend.
Peace
Heath
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I know what you mean, Keren...it still doesnt seem real.... :\'( :\'(
I remember the message that Froggy sent to me, I nearly fainted with the shock, when I read it and realised who it was from. Heath sent me another one, just before I went to see Candy at the London Film Festival.
Dear Christie,
I am by for another quick visit. T is making me post. I mean I enjoy it, but I don't want her to know that. I so love to see her when she's frustrated with me.
I am sorry that I missed you earlier with my note of thanks. I just wanted you to know that I appreciate everything that you have done to help promote Candy. I'm very proud of this movie and it's a great thing to see others care for it.
I hope you enjoy the film this weekend.
Peace
Heath
OMG Christie,
I didn't know how lucky you were girl to get so beautiful words from Heath! (t) (t) (t)
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OMG.... did i miss this? did i forget this? how could i have? wasn't i here when it happened?
i knew heath knew about ej... but to have such wonderful messages.. and not only now in the light of what has happened.... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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Oh,my,Keren and Christine¡ I didn't know even that Heath knew this forum...You're so lucky for having these messages from Heath,that now are like a real treasure...I repeat that the most I read from and about him,the most I realise he was a kind,friendly and lovely person and that all of us have had a great loss.You have made me cry again... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I feel like I knew him, although I never met him. I feel like he was a part of my life, someone who was actually present in them, and now is missing. I feel like he was a personal friend. he gave me so much, without knowing. and I was so proud of him, and was looking forward to keep following his career, because I knew he had so many more great things to give us. now, every time I read about his plans and all the things that he was involved in, and wanted to do... it's like a stab in the heart. it's like Michelle Williams said, in some ways it just gets worse. with each day I love him more and I miss him more. His loss feels so personal. I still think about him every day, and I still cry. I just don't talk about him so much anymore with the people around me, because I've learned they don't want to hear about it.
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Well... I've got a surprise for you honey. your messages (at least one of them) may have been deleted, but they're not lost. Remember you passed the message on to Christie because Heath couldn't pm her personally? well, she saved it, and so did I, and here it is. Heath's message to our froggy.
I am by for a visit with T and we have been going over the site together and she has been talking to me about all of you who have helped so much. I didn't want to let this time pass without personally thanking you for all you have done and for standing by Candy like you have. I don't know if all of you realize what an impact you have had, but it has been huge for a little movie like this and we all appreciate it so much.
T tells me you will see the film this weekend in London. I hope that you like it. It's a really great story and I'm very proud of it.
I also wanted to tell you how nice it is to see a Brokeback Mountain site like ennisjack. T took me there earlier today and I was really pleasantly surprised to see something so different from the rest. It's a very cool place and you should be very proud of it.
I tried to reach your friend Christine but it didn't work. T says that her message box is full. So would you please tell her and Maxine how much I appreciate everything they have done. Have fun in London.
Be well and happy
Peace
Heath
thank you :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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(((Froggy))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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He was just one of a kind. I still can't believe he's gone.
Thank you SO much for posting these, keren. Beautiful Heath...
kathy
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It is April 22. again I woke up and thinking you are just around.
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Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
~Robert Frost~
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Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
~Robert Frost~
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Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
~Robert Frost~
That's so beautiful Barb.
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This one is a little more upbeat. I meant to post it on his birthday but didn't want to feel like I was 'overposting.'
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I hope you are in a peaceful and happy place.
We feel you here still and will love and remember you always.
Look in on us now and then, will you?
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This one is a little more upbeat. I meant to post it on his birthday but didn't want to feel like I was 'overposting.'
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I hope you are in a peaceful and happy place.
We feel you here still and will love and remember you always.
Look in on us now and then, will you?
Gorgeous! <^(
What is "overposting" when it comes to the memory of Heath?! :*(
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This one is a little more upbeat. I meant to post it on his birthday but didn't want to feel like I was 'overposting.'
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I hope you are in a peaceful and happy place.
We feel you here still and will love and remember you always.
Look in on us now and then, will you?
I love it, it's gorgeous. Thank you.
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Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
~Robert Frost~
Beautiful and sad,Barb ¡ :\'( :\'( :\'(
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This one is a little more upbeat. I meant to post it on his birthday but didn't want to feel like I was 'overposting.'
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I hope you are in a peaceful and happy place.
We feel you here still and will love and remember you always.
Look in on us now and then, will you?
As Loreen has said,nothing can be "overposting" when it deals with our Heath... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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&**) Dr. Parnassus definitely made the official list of competitors and will premier at Cannes!!!!! $)
YAY!
Theresa
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That's wonderful. Thank you Theresa. ^f^
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&**) Dr. Parnassus definitely made the official list of competitors and will premier at Cannes!!!!! $)
YAY!
Theresa
Oh that's so great! Thank you for letting us know Theresa!
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OMG, it started as a rumor, but turned up to be the truth! :clap: :clap: :clap:
So happy to hear that! (:) (:) (:)
Can we say that the effort paid off, Theresa? :*(
:^^)
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I hope you are in a peaceful and happy place.
We feel you here still and will love and remember you always.
Look in on us now and then, will you?
This is really beautiful, FlwrChild. I feel like I am looking through a window into a different world.
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&**) Dr. Parnassus definitely made the official list of competitors and will premier at Cannes!!!!! $)
YAY!
Theresa
That's wonderful! &**) I am so glad all your hard work paid off! :ghug: :^^) :cr)
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Beautiful and so sad pics, thank you guys. :\'(
Theresa that's wonderful :clap: :cr)
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Oh that's so great! Thank you for letting us know Theresa!
You're very welcome. Only one thing though, you will notice that The Imaginarium Of Dr. Parnassus is listed as a Out of Competition film at Cannes. It is important that you understand the meaning of that so that you will understand the film is not part of the official program though it will screen. Likely only once as a premier from what I am understanding. Below is the definition of an Out Of Competition Film at Cannes.
Not strictly an official section per se, the Festival's practice of screening films 'out of competition' has been around since the very beginning, but has increased in popularity (and numbers) over the past few years. Films shown in this category generally do not fit into any other section of the festival. They are typically special events or films that the Festival feels deserve the honour of screening at Cannes, but do not justify a position in the official program (or perhaps do not meet the selection criteria).
I hope this helps explain.
Theresa
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Thanks Theresa and at least we will get the first reviews... I can't make it but be a little scary and I'm not talking about the French press.
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Thanks Theresa and at least we will get the first reviews... I can't make it but be a little scary and I'm not talking about the French press.
what do you mean?
i am glad somehow it gets in public at cannes..
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I think this is great news :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap:
Thanks for letting us know, Theresa ^f^
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Thanks for the good news,Theresa ¡ Heath would be happy... :^^) :\'(
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Thanks for the good news,Theresa ¡ Heath would be happy... :^^) :\'(
MPJ, babe -don't you think that we can say that Heath is happy! :ghug: :^^)
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I'm just thrilled it's getting to where the public can see it and I hope it just blows them away and they love it.
I'm so glad you guys got to see some of his messages. I thought they were all lost as well as I never kept them since his dying never crossed my mind. I always thought there would be more time, more visits, more laughs. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that it would be any different. So, I had grieved the loss of them. Thankfully, on his thread over on the Parnassus site are many fans who were there to support Candy who had saved messages and posts and they started posting them. I just cried I was so thrilled. And, I'm so happy that all of you got to share them.
Theresa
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Of course you had no reason to think it would be different, Theresa... the thought that someone so wonderful and so young and full of life would suddenly die is just incomprehensible. If someone told me a year and a half ago that I'd be grieving over him now... it still feels surreal. His messages for his fans are another testament to us of the kind of person he was, and we'll cherish them forever. But you have much more than that Theresa, you have all the personal memories of the times you spent together and the laughs you shared. and this is the most precious gift he gave to you, just being a part of your life.
Thank you for the wonderful job you're doing on the Parnassus forum. We can see in his messages how thankful Heath was for everything you did to support Candy, how much he appreciated the support from all his fans, so I know he'd feel the same about the Parnassus site and all the fans supporting it. Being there, posting, promoting the cause and just sharing our love for him, is a way to do something in his memory, something we know for sure he would be greatful for, even if he's not here anymore to say "thank you".
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Of course you had no reason to think it would be different, Theresa... the thought that someone so wonderful and so young and full of life would suddenly die is just incomprehensible. If someone told me a year and a half ago that I'd be grieving over him now... it still feels surreal. His messages for his fans are another testament to us of the kind of person he was, and we'll cherish them forever. But you have much more than that Theresa, you have all the personal memories of the times you spent together and the laughs you shared. and this is the most precious gift he gave to you, just being a part of your life.
Thank you for the wonderful job you're doing on the Parnassus forum. We can see in his messages how thankful Heath was for everything you did to support Candy, how much he appreciated the support from all his fans, so I know he'd feel the same about the Parnassus site and all the fans supporting it. Being there, posting, promoting the cause and just sharing our love for him, is a way to do something in his memory, something we know for sure he would be greatful for, even if he's not here anymore to say "thank you".
You are so sweet. Thank you. Believe me I cherish every memory. Having the forum for everyone and promoting the film is such a privilege for me. It means a lot to me to be able to not only do something for him but for all of his fans who have been so devoted. We're all in this together.
Theresa
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The Forever Friend
On my own, but mostly the savannah,
Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,
Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,
The glistering waters of the high seas
Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.
I looked around but you weren't anywhere...
You used to say that you would never die,
But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.
Now the sea is wild with despair,
Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,
Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.
I saw you at the end,
You and I, brother and sister of nature,
Brother and sister of heaven and earth,
Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,
Bitterly falling one after one into a river,
Then the river of life turned red in blood.
My eyes watched in horror.
Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,
You disappeared without saying good-bye,
Not a word came out of your mouth.
You became like desolation in its grave.
When once the skies were a realm of stars
And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,
You were there to share the calmness;
But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass
And only the savannah remains.
Artur Hawkwing
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*sigh* :\'(
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Keren :ghug: .This poem is for you...
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Keren :ghug: .This poem is for you...
Thank you Alicia :ghug:
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La mort n'est pas l'obscurité, c'est une lampe qui s'éteint car le jour se lève.
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Death is not darkness, it is a lamp that goes out for the day rises.
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La mort n'est pas l'obscurité, c'est une lampe qui s'éteint car le jour se lève.
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Death is not darkness, it is a lamp that goes out for the day rises.
This is so beautiful, Mikele. Merci. :ghug: :^^) ^f^
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La mort n'est pas l'obscurité, c'est une lampe qui s'éteint car le jour se lève.
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Death is not darkness, it is a lamp that goes out for the day rises.
C'est magnifique,Mikele¡ ^f^ Merci de le partager/Thanks for sharing it ¡.
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That's my pleasure to share with u... ;)
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I just feel like I have to get it out or I'm going to burst. I need to know that I'm not alone in this...
Today is the 22nd again... 16 months without our boy. and today his last movie, The Imaginarium Of Dr. Parnassus, is screened for the first time in Cannes festival.
Some people have already seen it this morning, more are going to watch it tonight. I'm sitting here, waiting anxiously for the reviews, and this waiting is nerve-wracking and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears any minute now. ok, I'll admit it, I'm already crying.
This is the last movie, Heath. That's it baby. There won't be any more. This is the last chance we'll ever get to see you on the big screen again in a new role. To hear you speak in your beautiful voice lines that we haven't heard before and sweep us off our feet into a new magical world. There will be interviews and press conferences, but you won't be there. There will be photos and we'll see Terry and Johnny and Jude and Colin and everybody else, and there'll be a big black hole where you were supposed to be. No one is able to fill that hole, no one.
I want to see this movie so badly, but I'm also dreading it because I'm afraid I'm going to cry through the whole damn thing, knowing that it's really over.
I've just read this among the reviews that are starting to come out:
As Gilliam’s “The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus” premiered at the Cannes Film Festival, the filmmaker said Ledger almost co-directed the film.
“Heath was enjoying himself so much, and he was ad-libbing a lot, which I don’t normally allow ... but Heath was just brilliant at it, and he got everybody else going,” Gilliam said. “Everybody was just energized by Heath. He was extraordinary. He was almost exhausting because he had so much energy.
“That just passed on to everyone else. Everyone’s part grew because they were full of Heath’s energy,” Gilliam said. “What I thought was interesting was to watch people filling the void that Heath left. Everybody was just growing to make sure that there was no void left in the space that Heath had left us.”
The movie closes with the dedication: “A film from Heath Ledger and friends.”
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thank you (((ranchand))) :ghug:
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“That just passed on to everyone else. Everyone’s part grew because they were full of Heath’s energy,” Gilliam said. “What I thought was interesting was to watch people filling the void that Heath left. Everybody was just growing to make sure that there was no void left in the space that Heath had left us.”
That's our boy. :\'( :\'(
Oh, Heath...
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Keren, I don't know what to say. No words I say will make you feel better. I can't bring him back. I wish I can....but I can not.
I've been avoiding LJ the whole day, because people are posting about Parnassus and Cannes and I can not deal with it all. Not right now. I know that I am being a coward, but I decided a while back that the only way to keep my heart whole is running away from pics and articles about Heath. And still I am there every time Linda write huge posts with pics of him, or when Mireille post her drawings of Heath. Kinda weird, I know.
Just wanted to say that I know what you are feeling, that all brokies here are feeling like that too, even if sometimes it seems that you are alone here. It's not true. Heath will never leave our hearts. It's impossible.
You know I wanted to see this film in London, because I know that it won't be possible here in Spain.....and reading about people being able to see it, well, it tears my heart apart. That's why I can not read those articles either....It's like reading about something that maybe I won't ever have, you know. :-\\ :-\\
We are here for you, babe. You know that, right? I know you loved him so much, I know you still do, and it pains me deeply seeing you this down. I know what it's losing someone you love. I only can give you my words and hugs.
Hold on, Keren. People say that all the love you give comes back to you. I believe in that. You'll get all the love you deserve. I am sure about that. :ghug: :^^) %)
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Tammy, your words mean so much to me. Maybe you're doing the right thing by avoiding all this, maybe I'm just masochistic... I read everything about him and I look at his photos and post them every day, and maybe it's not so good for me but I can't stay away from it, even when I end up crying my eyes out. I can't explain to anyone around me why it hurts so much. Now with all the talk about the movie everything is too much, and I still keep going back for more. go figure.
Thanks for your support honey :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: Keren :ghug: Tammy :ghug:
I was reading an article about the film's premier in Cannes and I could feel the tears starting up.
There's no reins on this one.
Just gotta hold on for as long as we can ride it.
:ghug:
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:ghug: to all. It really is such a strange combination of wanting to be immersed in it and wanting to hold it at bay, isn't it? I have already read some review nuggets and I'm not sure what to do with them. In the end it doesn't matter because I'll see the film as soon as I can and will of course make up my own mind. But it is those moments of excitement (getting to see one of the clips from Cannes on youtube) sitting side by side with those same moments that bring a tear to the eye (realizing this is indeed the very last film) that can be a bit unsettling. :ghug:
Here's to you Heath and all your friends, from this film and every other you've given us. It has been a wonderful, far too short, exhilerating, heartbreaking ride and we will continue the ride long after you're gone because you inhabit our hearts and always will. :c)
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:ghug: to all. It really is such a strange combination of wanting to be immersed in it and wanting to hold it at bay, isn't it? I have already read some review nuggets and I'm not sure what to do with them. In the end it doesn't matter because I'll see the film as soon as I can and will of course make up my own mind. But it is those moments of excitement (getting to see one of the clips from Cannes on youtube) sitting side by side with those same moments that bring a tear to the eye (realizing this is indeed the very last film) that can be a bit unsettling. :ghug:
Here's to you Heath and all your friends, from this film and every other you've given us. It has been a wonderful, far too short, exhilerating, heartbreaking ride and we will continue the ride long after you're gone because you inhabit our hearts and always will. :c)
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((((Keren)))) ((((Everyone)))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Ohh, honey....I just wish I could offer you more than a cyber hug, Keren. I know exactly, precisely, fully where you're coming from, hon. No way are you alone in feeling this way. I know that in recent times I have been less conspicuous in the Heath threads here, but that is only because I simply had to force myself to take a respite from the crushing grief for a while. It was what should have been his thirtieth birthday that was the culmination of more than a year of cold hard grief that really did it. I simply had to step back for a while, take a breather...or risk going nuts. So, like Tammy, I guess I kinda ran away for a while, knowing full well that nothing had changed deep down, that I was merely band-aiding the still-intense sadness. I knew that it was truly only in the most superficial way imaginable that I'd "accepted" what had happened. I managed to hold onto that illusion for over a month, as the apparently endless grief, and other turmoils in my life, simply forced me to for a time. It's only been the last week or so that I've felt it creeping back to less sub-conscious recesses of myself, the old grief....and pretty much as strongly as ever. Perhaps less loud and staring-you-in-the-face than before, slightly less of a cacophony maybe, but essentially just as intensely as ever. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
And particularly, since I've been really ill the last few days with a flu from hell, it's really been coursing though my veins again, the incredulity, the missing, the knowledge that Heath's final film is pending release, and that black hole you spoke of, Keren. To quote from the Johnny Cash/Trent Reznor song, "Hurt" (that will forever remind me of Ennis Del Mar now), it's back again - "the old familiar sting".
We hear you, sweetie, and we're here for you. Like Theresa said, we're all in this together.
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Here's to you Heath and all your friends, from this film and every other you've given us. It has been a wonderful, far too short, exhilerating, heartbreaking ride and we will continue the ride long after you're gone because you inhabit our hearts and always will. :c)
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Amen, Barb.
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((((Laura))))
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This is the last movie, Heath. That's it baby. There won't be any more. This is the last chance we'll ever get to see you on the big screen again in a new role. To hear you speak in your beautiful voice lines that we haven't heard before and sweep us off our feet into a new magical world. There will be interviews and press conferences, but you won't be there. There will be photos and we'll see Terry and Johnny and Jude and Colin and everybody else, and there'll be a big black hole where you were supposed to be. No one is able to fill that hole, no one.
(((Keren))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I know, its just too awful and sad to realise that this is it and no more..... :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
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:ghug: to Keren, Laura, Tammy, & all else that need it :)
Yes, it's his last acted in film, but I truly believe in the coming years, once his friends' & family's pain has transcended into a bearable numbness, we will start to see documentaries with him by his many friends.
Heath was an extremely creative soul, and he surrounded himself with similar people; filmmakers, artists, & actors that shared in his love for the entertainment industry. There are so many images of him with his friends and co-workers, all holding their own cameras, capturing what the were doing through their own eyes. These friends and family also have footage he shot himself, we've seen some through, "the Masses" and I think through the next couple years, more of their images, and more importantly, his images, will continue to be released to the public. I think it will be very surprising just how long it will be before we've ever seen the last of him....if that's even possible......it will probably be long after we are all also gone.
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
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La mort n'est pas l'obscurité, c'est une lampe qui s'éteint car le jour se lève.
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Death is not darkness, it is a lamp that goes out for the day rises.
:\'( Merci Mikele :ghug:
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
Wow, I'm speechless :\'(
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
((((Mini)))) I can so understand you, and I know it's hard for you to work up the excitement and the enthusiasm for Dr P because it just hurts too much. But you're still doing it. Many of us loved him so dearly, and each one of us deals with it differently. Some of us want to talk and read and post, and some of us just feel like hiding in a corner and crying. I've been reading your posts in other places and I know there hasn't been a day you didn't think of him, I know how deeply your pain goes.
There isn't much we can say or do to make the pain easier. all we can do is be here for each other. To make sure that we have a place where we can speak out our pain without being judged, to know that others understand us, and to give each other all the support that we can. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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:ghug: miniangel :ghug:
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
:ghug: Miniangel :ghug:
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
:ghug: You're so right;he deserved to have a long and beautiful life.And we deserved to be selfish to enjoy all the good performances he could have given to us during this long life.But the only relief I have,in my personal case,is that he keeps on winning battles after his death,as some Medieval knights,even if he has lost the war for life.It's the same,he has won forever the battle of people's love;there's no death that can't avoid this. :\'( :\'( :\'(
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I can't read those! You say it too beautifully... Sometimes I get a hard feeling that I can't take this... Then I come here and read those... Pain doesn't leave me, I bet it never does... But, as cruel it is, it really helps - to know I'm not alone... So many else are thinking same thoughts as me... Why, oh why he had to leave... I think it's the farthest thought... Like you guys said - he was so, so beautiful man and he'd definitely deserved a long and beautiful life. But we can't change what's happened, we can't never have him back... But it worms my heart, to know, I'm so not alone... What I'm trying to say... Thank you for sharing this horrible pain, without finding this amazing forum I could be much worse condition right now... I'm not saying this just to make you feel pride or something, I'm just telling how I feel right now... So, thank you.
And to Heath...
I miss you every day.
I hope we would have you back.
It's never gonna happen...
I miss you, darling,
more than ever.
:\'(
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Heath gave us so much, it's time we give something back. Please read this:
http://ennisjack.com/index.php?topic=12652.msg932840#msg932840
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I just feel like I have to get it out or I'm going to burst. I need to know that I'm not alone in this...
Today is the 22nd again... 16 months without our boy. and today his last movie, The Imaginarium Of Dr. Parnassus, is screened for the first time in Cannes festival.
Some people have already seen it this morning, more are going to watch it tonight. I'm sitting here, waiting anxiously for the reviews, and this waiting is nerve-wracking and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears any minute now. ok, I'll admit it, I'm already crying.
This is the last movie, Heath. That's it baby. There won't be any more. This is the last chance we'll ever get to see you on the big screen again in a new role. To hear you speak in your beautiful voice lines that we haven't heard before and sweep us off our feet into a new magical world. There will be interviews and press conferences, but you won't be there. There will be photos and we'll see Terry and Johnny and Jude and Colin and everybody else, and there'll be a big black hole where you were supposed to be. No one is able to fill that hole, no one.
...
Oh damn... I know, I know. This is almost too much to stand... But so it is. At least we all go through it together.
kathy
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:ghug: to Keren, Laura, Tammy, & all else that need it :)
Yes, it's his last acted in film, but I truly believe in the coming years, once his friends' & family's pain has transcended into a bearable numbness, we will start to see documentaries with him by his many friends.
Heath was an extremely creative soul, and he surrounded himself with similar people; filmmakers, artists, & actors that shared in his love for the entertainment industry. There are so many images of him with his friends and co-workers, all holding their own cameras, capturing what the were doing through their own eyes. These friends and family also have footage he shot himself, we've seen some through, "the Masses" and I think through the next couple years, more of their images, and more importantly, his images, will continue to be released to the public. I think it will be very surprising just how long it will be before we've ever seen the last of him....if that's even possible......it will probably be long after we are all also gone.
I was thinking this, too, and I sure do hope we'll see lots more of Heath that we haven't seen.
Have either of us mentioned here about being at Five Leaves? When you said that surely Heath had been in that space, when they were planning on someplace to open a bar. It gave me chills, to be there where he had been, and where his friends have continued on for him...
kathy
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I don't often come to EJ although I've been a member forever, but this morning I felt the need to sneak in and just unload some of the weight in my heart. Bear with me, folks.
As Heathens go, I'm one of the older ones around, and my more maudlin moments I sometimes think that's a good thing because it means I'll probably head off into the next great adventure sooner than most other fans, and then - if I'm lucky - I might find out why Heath left us, find out what he's been up to, maybe even get to say hello again. Some days it gets that bad. Mostly I just miss him miss him miss him miss him.........
The premiering of Dr Parnassus this weekend has brought all the waves of sorrow crashing down upon me yet again. I feel directionless. I know I should be out there, talking up the film and giving Heath the last hurrah that he deserves but more often than not I just want to curl up and have a good cry.
He was a beautiful man and he deserved to have a long and beautiful life. The great big hole he has left in so many lives is evidence of how wonderful he was. I miss him.
I think I'll go and light a few candles and then pull myself together and give the Dr P bandwagon another push.
Bye for now.
Glad you stopped by...and I'll be along with you, finding out, perhaps, sooner than most of the others here whence Heath has gone...
kathy
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Missing you is hard to do
I should have held your hand
When you told me to you know
I should have been more happy
For what I lost is so uncontrollably
I love you more
Then word can say
I miss you more and more
Each day
I think of you
And wish you were here
Making my tears
Disappear
Without you now
You must know
That know matter what I do
Or where I go
I will always think of you
In good times and in bad
You were there for me
When I needed a hand
You were there for me
When I needed to breath
Please wait for me
In heaven you see
For my day will come
If it does
And when it happens
Will you hold my hand
Will you see me too
Will I still be
The best to you
I will prove to myself
That I am the best I can be
And every time I think of you
I will make it through
Another day will pass you see
For the love,lust,and Happiness
You have brought to me
That can't change
No never too me
Brittany Ann Craddock
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That's so beautiful mpj... Thanks for sharing it with us... :\'(
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Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that return as real as before
Loving that never ends
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring tears as well as joy
Sorrow is just preparing smiles to take root
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that real never go away
Loving is as natural as can be
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring smiles also bring tears
Sorrow waters the soil so flowers will bloom
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that strong cannot be hiddened nor ignored
Loving is to honor in words and in deed,
... as well as to never forget
Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
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Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that return as real as before
Loving that never ends
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring tears as well as joy
Sorrow is just preparing smiles to take root
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that real never go away
Loving is a natural part of me
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring smiles also bring tears
Sorrow waters the soil so flowers will bloom
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that strong cannot be hiddened nor ignored
Loving is to honor in words and in deed,
... as well as to never forget
Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
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So, so beautiful, Andrew... Thank you.
kathy
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Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that return as real as before
Loving that never ends
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring tears as well as joy
Sorrow is just preparing smiles to take root
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that real never go away
Loving is as natural as can be
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring smiles also bring tears
Sorrow waters the soil so flowers will bloom
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that strong cannot be hiddened nor ignored
Loving is to honor in words and in deed,
... as well as to never forget
Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
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Like Kathy said: so, so beautiful. Thanks, Andrew. :ghug:
I have always particularly loved peering-into-the-heavens-Ennis, too. And it just matches this lovely poem so beautifully...
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Missing you is hard to do
I should have held your hand
When you told me to you know
I should have been more happy
For what I lost is so uncontrollably
I love you more
Then word can say
I miss you more and more
Each day
I think of you
And wish you were here
Making my tears
Disappear
Without you now
You must know
That know matter what I do
Or where I go
I will always think of you
In good times and in bad
You were there for me
When I needed a hand
You were there for me
When I needed to breath
Please wait for me
In heaven you see
For my day will come
If it does
And when it happens
Will you hold my hand
Will you see me too
Will I still be
The best to you
I will prove to myself
That I am the best I can be
And every time I think of you
I will make it through
Another day will pass you see
For the love,lust,and Happiness
You have brought to me
That can't change
No never too me
Brittany Ann Craddock
((((Alicia)))) Thank you. :ghug:
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You're welcome,dear Laura ¡ ^f^
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MPJ and Lance... just beautiful!!! Moved me to tears!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(...
Don't like to be so pathetic, but when you see his pic and those moving words together it is just unbearable... I am off this thread... :i
:\'( :\'( :\'(
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Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that return as real as before
Loving that never ends
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring tears as well as joy
Sorrow is just preparing smiles to take root
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that real never go away
Loving is as natural as can be
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring smiles also bring tears
Sorrow waters the soil so flowers will bloom
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that strong cannot be hiddened nor ignored
Loving is to honor in words and in deed,
... as well as to never forget
Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
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Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
Beautiful words,Andrew,as beautiful as our boy... :\'( :\'( :\'(
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MPJ and Lance... just beautiful!!! Moved me to tears!! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(...
Don't like to be so pathetic, but when you see his pic and those moving words together it is just unbearable... I am off this thread... :i
:\'( :\'( :\'(
Oh,Loreen,I didn't mean to make cry¡ But it's logical that each one of us has their own way of honouring Heath and sometimes one can't stand the other's way.As we have said before,each way is as good as any other,even,of course,not reading anything in this thread if you suffer too much. :^^)
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Oh,Loreen,I didn't mean to make cry¡ But it's logical that each one of us has their own way of honouring Heath and sometimes one can't stand the other's way.As we have said before,each way is as good as any other,even,of course,not reading anything in this thread if you suffer too much. :^^)
I know that it's stupid, but I usually stay far from Heath's threads. Only sometimes I dare to peek and to post... :(
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I know that it's stupid, but I usually stay far from Heath's threads. Only sometimes I dare to peek and to post... :(
It's not stupid at all... %( There're some Brokies,like Keren,who needs being here every day and others who,simply,can't stand it.This doesn't mean that ones or others loved Heath more;only that each one has their own way of mourning. :ghug: and to who can need it.
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I know that it's stupid, but I usually stay far from Heath's threads. Only sometimes I dare to peek and to post... :(
It's not stupid at all... %( There're some Brokies,like Keren,who needs being here every day and others who,simply,can't stand it.This doesn't mean that ones or others loved Heath more;only that each one has their own way of mourning. :ghug: and to who can need it.
As it is written in the short story, "They were respectful of each other's opinions, each glad to have a companion where none had been expected." This here forum is a big valley of peace and friendship, as friend Tony once said. It's a big valley with many sunny spots, some filled with laughter and good humor, others are secluded and quiet with a bubbling brook and a picturesque garden of fragrant flowers and eternal candle flames, surrounding a few stone benches here and there, embracing the peace and quiet conducive to a moment of remembrance, of grateful memory.
You are welcome, friend Loreen, to find your own place in this valley. Feel free to explore all the corners, stake out your own claim, set up your own homestead, because you bring to us your love for a movie, and we are grateful to share in your love.
:ghug: :^^) :c) ^f^ I hope you feel better where ever you linger.
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As it is written in the short story, "They were respectful of each other's opinions, each glad to have a companion where none had been expected." This here forum is a big valley of peace and friendship, as friend Tony once said. It's a big valley with many sunny spots, some filled with laughter and good humor, others are secluded and quiet with a bubbling brook and a picturesque garden of fragrant flowers and eternal candle flames, surrounding a few stone benches here and there, embracing the peace and quiet conducive to a moment of remembrance, of grateful memory.
You are welcome, friend Loreen, to find your own place in this valley. Feel free to explore all the corners, stake out your own claim, set up your own homestead, because you bring to us your love for a movie, and we are grateful to share in your love.
:ghug: :^^) :c) ^f^ I hope you feel better where ever you linger.
You just know with words.... <^(
Thank you! :^^)
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At first the dictum in german words and than I wil try it in english. If someone find a better words, please translate! Thanx!
Menschen treten in unser Leben und begleiten
uns eine Weile. Einige bleiben für immer,
denn sie hinterlassen ihre Spuren in unseren
Herzen.
Now the translation:
People come into our lives and guide
us for a while. Some will stay for ever,
because they leave their traces in our
Heart.
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Beautiful words,Bumblebee¡ ^f^ They are just made for our Heath...Thank you¡.
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Beautiful words,Bumblebee¡ ^f^ They are just made for our Heath...Thank you¡.
I agree - beautiful! :c)
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17 months already
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Forever young
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Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that return as real as before
Loving that never ends
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring tears as well as joy
Sorrow is just preparing smiles to take root
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that real never go away
Loving is as natural as can be
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that bring smiles also bring tears
Sorrow waters the soil so flowers will bloom
Remembering is more than memory
Feelings that strong cannot be hiddened nor ignored
Loving is to honor in words and in deed,
... as well as to never forget
Remembering is more than memory
... is loving you like this, always.
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So beautiful, Lancecowboy. Very!!
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Goodbye At Last
by Barbi D
Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.
Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
For you were no where in sight.
You were my first real love
And this I will never forget
How you left without a warning
No good-byes, my only regret.
Wherever I may be now
Always searching for another so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my love to someone like you.
If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.
No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.
I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.
This is given to you in honor
Of all that we did share
I just wanted you to know, dear,
How much I really did care.
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Beautiful words and pictures, everyone. :) Thank you all for continuing to keep our boy, Heath, alive in our hearts. :ghug:
Also, I love what you said about our glorious valley of peace and friendship, Andrew. So beautifully put, my friend. :ghug:
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Coincidence or not? I just realized I watched The Patriot yesterday and yesterday was... 4th of July! ???
Good movie BTW, it was waiting for me to watch it for almost a year... the pile of unseen DVD is going down. :)
And yes I have many more unwatched with Heath. I just take my time, each time I watch a ''new'' movie with him the sense of loss gets worse. :-\\ :\'(
Thank you Heath!
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Coincidence or not? I just realized I watched The Patriot yesterday and yesterday was... 4th of July! ???
Funny :D I've never seen Patriot, but I'd really like to. :)
:ghug: to you chameau and to everyone whoever needs it.
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R.I.P you truely were an amazing actor. :\'(
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18 months. Who would have thought that this is how it would end... :\'(
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Aw Keren :ghug: :ghug: And that's a beautiful picture. :c)
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That's so beautiful picture keren. :\'(
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Glad you stopped by...and I'll be along with you, finding out, perhaps, sooner than most of the others here whence Heath has gone...
kathy
tonight i watched heath ledger, a tribute and although it was quite good, showing a lot of his interviews, it made me sad :\'(. why did someone so talented & beautiful have to leave this earth at such a young age? it just doesn't make any sense. maybe on the other side there will be more understanding of why these things happen.
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Wow! Myprivatejack, what a great animation!
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MPJ, beautiful! }s{
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That's beautiful Alicia, thank you.
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Coincidence or not? I just realized I watched The Patriot yesterday and yesterday was... 4th of July! ???
Good movie BTW, it was waiting for me to watch it for almost a year... the pile of unseen DVD is going down. :)
And yes I have many more unwatched with Heath. I just take my time, each time I watch a ''new'' movie with him the sense of loss gets worse. :-\\ :\'(
Thank you Heath!
best way to enjoy them...yet you have to be ready to watch some of them :-/
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Wow! Myprivatejack, what a great animation!
that is indeed a great one x
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Sleepless nights still.
I had to stay awake.
My thoughts was of a beautiful smile ..
.. a handsome look
...his eyes ...
I open my computer and set my soul free searching for those articles..
.. those captured moments ..
.. words speaks as it was written..
Those loving words expressed with tears..
.. and whispers..
The Distant Horizon
by aquarious3508 Feb 17, 2008; 06:34pm :
Dearest Ledger Family,
My sincerest condolences go out to you during this time of profound loss. Truly, the world has lost a loving son, playful brother, and nurturing father. If appropriate, I would like to dedicate a passage in memory and honor of Heath. Please accept these few words as a symbol of not only my sympathy, but also all of my heartfelt well wishes…
Twilight’s somber grace has fallen upon a life all too brief. As we mourn the loss of a once radiant soul, the world seems a little less bright. The golden sun’s rays do not warm us as they once did. The wind seems to gently blow around us instead of caressing us. The trees do not dance as lively as they used to and the ocean’s waves no longer sparkle with life as they crash upon the shore. And yet, upon a horizon quite distant from us there exists a pure and eternal peace. In this place there is only joy and light-hearted laughter amongst a warming white glow. There are sporting games to be played and amazing stories to be told of life and of love. The spirits of lush trees and forests dance and sing alongside the hearty roaring of an endless ocean of glittering waves. Amidst all of the pleasures and passions of this distant horizon, there is a radiant soul that gazes lovingly from his place atop the horizon. Upon the gentle winds, a voice echoes softly as if to say…”I am all right.”
-Ellen Sunden
West Lafayette, Indiana
Still breaks my heart.....
This touching words dedicated to our dearest Heath...
the endless thoughts of him........
It was an old post.. but it always treasure good memories ..
and make us at peace. Heath is somewhere .. away from our eyes but he stays with us..
.. whispering with the wind.
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"As we mourn the loss of a once radiant soul, the world seems a little less bright."
That's exactly it. Beautiful words, and heartbreaking indeed. thanks for sharing it, white angel... I wish he could see how much we love him. I don't know if he had a clue how deeply he touched people's hearts.
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Still breaks my heart.....
This touching words dedicated to our dearest Heath...
the endless thoughts of him........
It was an old post.. but it always treasure good memories ..
and make us at peace. Heath is somewhere .. away from our eyes but he stays with us..
.. whispering with the wind.
This article and your words have made me cry still,White Angel... :\'( It's like a sword that have crossed our hearts since January 22nd 2008.Even if,as you say,he's with us,somewhere,away from our eyes,but not from our souls. :ghug:
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By Boreanaz12
REST IN PEACE,OUR SWEET EYES ANGEL...
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I have found this in a Spanish forum about BBM.Maybe it's not the best made,but it has made me cry... :\'( :\'( :\'(
***Edited by moderator - sorry, pictures of Matilda are not allowed on the forum since they are paparazzi shots.***
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How amazing is that!!! :clap: (:*
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Wow! That's awesome. :o
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A really boring new TV show premiered tonight called "The Vampire Diaries". I watched it because it said Ian Somerholder was in it(which he didn't arrive until 45mins in just to realize I don't care for him anymore).
Anyway, In the first couple mins of the episode the girl's best friend is complaining that she thinks she's psychic and names off a bunch of things she predicted, and she, very offhandedly like it was nothing, says Heath Ledger, implying she knew he would die, and it was not an issue, just supposed to be cool that she predicted it or something....I don't know, it was stupid, and it bothered me.
The main girl in the episode lost both her parents and there is this conversation at the end of the episode where she's telling her brother he needs to stop acting out because nobody feels sorry for them anymore that their parents are dead. She complains that the rest of the world has moved on, and it's not important enough for others to care or be respectful of the fact that THEY might not be over it yet....and I thought, yeah, maybe you should listen to your own show's writing...
Anyway, my rant for the day, don't listen to me, I threw my back out and am in excruciating pain, and refuse to take the painkillers....three guesses why.
It's just strange that only a little over a year and 1/2 later, it's just become a piece of hollywood trivia. A simple offhanded comment for the next generation. They'll never get it, and we'll never be able to explain it to them. Not really.
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Sadly, that's the way it works in Hollywood. The initial shock wears off, and then you can use it as writing material in stupid comedies. But Heath still lives in many hearts around the world, it's up to us to remember him.
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It's strange, I just don't think there should be a time limit on respect. During the commercial break there was an ad for The Beatles new video game, and they computer generated all these people walking and joking with the Beatles in the famous shot of them cross the street. Which, it would be one thing if the just computer generated Paul and Ringo, who are alive and can give their consent, but to have George, who died a few years ago, I believe from cancer, and John Lennon, who was shot and killed in 1980....it just seems so wrong to use it as entertainment....regardless of time passed. And to think they are already using Heath that way...it just gets to me.
Anyway. Let be, let be.
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I agree with you jessicat, there should not be a time limit on respect. And we cannot control what other people do. We can boycott the project that over step the line. For me, I won't watch Vampire Diaries, now that I know.
Let be, let be. :ghug: Thanks for letting me know about the show. I hope you feel better soon. Remember to stretch once in a while, even when you sit through hours of BBM videos and EnnisJack :^^) :c) ^f^
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"It's strange, I just don't think there should be a time limit on respect."
Couldn't have said it any better, Jess. The comforting thing to me is knowing that whatever other changes we go through over the years here at this forum, the respect, love and genuine appreciation for the people who brought BBM to life, the truly gifted and special people they are/were, and the gift they gave us, will never waver.
And I know just what you mean. Those casual references always disturb me, for the exact same reasons. No one would want other people to refer to their own loved ones in such a careless manner. Why does anyone think it's ok to do so to others?
:ghug: to all who still hold him close in their hearts. And all of their loved ones as well. :ghug:
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"It's strange, I just don't think there should be a time limit on respect."
And I know just what you mean. Those casual references always disturb me, for the exact same reasons. No one would want other people to refer to their own loved ones in such a careless manner. Why does anyone think it's ok to do so to others?
Of course not, I totally agree with you Barb. What bothers me is that these words aren't coming from the immature teenagers saying them on screen...it's coming from the adult writers who should know better.
In the new interview Michelle Williams just did for the October 2009 Vogue, she mentions how she was at the coffee shop and a 6 year old little girl "very innocently" asked Matilda "are you so sad that your daddy died like Michael Jackson."
Michelle excused it by saying the girl was only six, but at exactly what age do you just become a heartless jerk. The writers should have known it was way to soon to use this as a simple pop culture reference; if ever.
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Of course not, I totally agree with you Barb. What bothers me is that these words aren't coming from the immature teenagers saying them on screen...it's coming from the adult writers who should know better.
In the new interview Michelle Williams just did for the October 2009 Vogue, she mentions how she was at the coffee shop and a 6 year old little girl "very innocently" asked Matilda "are you so sad that your daddy died like Michael Jackson."
Michelle excused it by saying the girl was only six, but at exactly what age do you just become a heartless jerk. The writers should have known it was way to soon to use this as a simple pop culture reference; if ever.
I don't know -- I don't find fault with what that girl said. First, it's like she learned about daddies dying from Michael's daughter Paris on TV, when she spoke those poignant little-girl words at that service. And however she knew who Matilda was and that her daddy had died also, she was relating to that. If an adult said that to Matilda it would be appalling, but I think that was an innocent enough comment from little girl to little girl. Or am I not reading this right?
kathy
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Hey Kathy, I haven't talked to you in so long :^^)
No, you're certainly not wrong, that 's what I was saying, that from a child it was "innocent" as Michelle put it...it's the adult writers of the tv show that should have known better.
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I agree with everything you've said, Jess. The adults should be more responsible and more respectful.
On another note, I saw the post in the Parnassus thread linking to Peter Travers' Rolling Stone review saying that this could be Heath's second posthumas Oscar nod. I felt so proud just at the idea but at the same time my throat swelled up because it hit me all over again that this is it. :\'( Much like TDK, I will definitely have to go see Parnassus with particular friends only or by myself.
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I've just read the interview Michelle has done for Vogue..its very moving. She talks very eloquently about her loss and how she is trying to deal with that and bringing up Matilda alone.
There was a quote from her that really brought a tear to my eye:
".....but every time I really miss him and wonder where he's gone, I just look at her."
:\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/ (http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/)
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I've just read the interview Michelle has done for Vogue..its very moving. She talks very eloquently about her loss and how she is trying to deal with that and bringing up Matilda alone.
There was a quote from her that really brought a tear to my eye:
".....but every time I really miss him and wonder where he's gone, I just look at her."
:\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/ (http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/)
Thanks, Christie. The article really makes sense of Michelle's journey through grief in the last couple years, as it was said, not just the grief of a death, but also the grief for a marriage. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(
I am surprised that she kept the house in Brooklyn, with all the reminders of Heath, but then again, she spoke of wishing to having those Victorian ring with hair in it, so it's probably just as well for her to hold on to something, and live upstate, visiting occasionally when she needs to. :( I hope she gets over her accident-proneness. It's good that she has many good friends to keep an eye on her.
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I've just read the interview Michelle has done for Vogue..its very moving. She talks very eloquently about her loss and how she is trying to deal with that and bringing up Matilda alone.
There was a quote from her that really brought a tear to my eye:
".....but every time I really miss him and wonder where he's gone, I just look at her."
:\'( :\'( :\'(
http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/ (http://www.style.com/vogue/feature/2009_October_Michelle_Williams/)
I do the same thing, you know. I admit I'm kind of obsessed with Matilda, just insofar as checking to see any new pictures. I totally feel back for contributing to the paparazzi evil by enjoying seeing the pictures, but she just does my heart good, to see her little sweet happy spirit. I love how she's often skipping and dancing, both feet off the ground! Makes me think of Heath, of course, and also I have such respect for Michelle and the job she's doing with Matilda.
kathy s.
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I did a one day round trip Saturday to Toronto to meet MissisaugaRed and... watch the Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus at the Toronto International Film Festival.
Click on the picture below to go to the thread where we started to post about the event.
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Farewell and thank you Heath!
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(((((cham)))))
Heath keeps visiting us and sending us messages.
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This weekend is a "Movie weekend with Heath Ledger" on Croatian national TV - "Casanova" on Saturday and "Brokeback mountain" on Sunday... It will be so bittersweet to see him.
I'll watch "Casanova"... OK; I'll probably watch BBM too! I already persuaded a friend of mine (straight male :cb: ) to watch it. Not that he knows anything about my brokie state of mind, but he knows that I like the movie and he appreciates Heath too... :i
The good thing is that national TV is broadcasting both movies at 22.00, while last time a private TV, broadcast at midnight.
Heath... <^( :_( <^(
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This weekend is a "Movie weekend with Heath Ledger" on Croatian national TV - "Casanova" on Saturday and "Brokeback mountain" on Sunday... It will be so bittersweet to see him.
I'll watch "Casanova"... OK; I'll probably watch BBM too! I already persuaded a friend of mine (straight male :cb: ) to watch it. Not that he knows anything about my brokie state of mind, but he knows that I like the movie and he appreciates Heath too... :i
The good thing is that national TV is broadcasting both movies at 22.00, while last time a private TV, broadcast at midnight.
Heath... <^( :_( <^(
:ghug: That's great, loreen. I hope they will have more Heath Ledger weekends, and show A Knight's Tale, and Four Feathers. They are really good. And if each time they show Brokeback Mountain, then perhaps more people will watch it, and attitudes will change.
Thanks for sharing the news, and have a good weekend. :ghug: :^^) :c) ^f^
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Thanks, mpj. This is beautiful. :^^) :c)
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That's really beautiful Alicia, thank you.
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Wow, this is gorgeous...the pictures of Heath are really lovely but it's the colouring of it, its really quite calming and nostalgic.... <^( <^( <^(
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Gosh, I haven't been to this site for quite a while, not since the anniversary of Heath's death, but again I find myself drawn here with the release of the film. I had the TV on in the background the other day when suddenly I heard Heath's beautiful and distinctive voice and it turned out to be an advert for the film, and my stomach lurched. Oh Heath, all the old emotions are being stirred up again. Just needed to share it with you guys because I know you get it.
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We certainly do. :ghug:
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Gosh, I haven't been to this site for quite a while, not since the anniversary of Heath's death, but again I find myself drawn here with the release of the film. I had the TV on in the background the other day when suddenly I heard Heath's beautiful and distinctive voice and it turned out to be an advert for the film, and my stomach lurched. Oh Heath, all the old emotions are being stirred up again. Just needed to share it with you guys because I know you get it.
Of course,we get it...And we're here for you and for whoever could feel this attraction to anything that talks about Heath,but at the same time avoid it because it's still too hard to stand...Because it's not exaggerated if I say that a part of our lives went away with him. :_(
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Gosh, I haven't been to this site for quite a while, not since the anniversary of Heath's death, but again I find myself drawn here with the release of the film. I had the TV on in the background the other day when suddenly I heard Heath's beautiful and distinctive voice and it turned out to be an advert for the film, and my stomach lurched. Oh Heath, all the old emotions are being stirred up again. Just needed to share it with you guys because I know you get it.
You bet we get it and many of us feel the same. It's not easy now with his new film coming out, but I hope you'll get to see it soon. From everything I hear it's a wonderful tribute to Heath's spirit. I can't wait to see it myself.
I've been reading some interviews with Terry Gilliam lately, where he talked about Heath. He said how he was sure they would make so many movies together because each of them got what the other was about, and suddenly he lost a partner and a friend. He said that this movie got done only thanks to Heath, and called Heath his "guardian angel". It just made me so so sad. He meant so much to so many people, and they miss him so much. :_( :_(
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Thanks guys, as always your support is greatly appreciated. I just don't know if I can go and see the film (if I can even find it in a cinema near me). Part of me desperately wants to, but I also know it's going to kill me. Even coming back to this site again is quite a wierd feeling, the whole BM and Heath thing just stirs up such strong emotions in me - well, I don't need to try and explain that to you all, because ofcourse you know what I mean, even though I can't explain it. It's just utterly mortifying that we will not see him in anything else ever again. :_( :_(
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Thanks guys, as always your support is greatly appreciated. I just don't know if I can go and see the film (if I can even find it in a cinema near me). Part of me desperately wants to, but I also know it's going to kill me. Even coming back to this site again is quite a wierd feeling, the whole BM and Heath thing just stirs up such strong emotions in me - well, I don't need to try and explain that to you all, because ofcourse you know what I mean, even though I can't explain it. It's just utterly mortifying that we will not see him in anything else ever again. :_( :_(
Yes, certainly no need to explain. It just hurts to see his pictures, that such a beautiful spirit is not with us...
I'm always hoping that his pals at The Masses have pics and video that one day they can share with us.
kathy
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Oh Kathy, wouldn't that be wonderful? That tribute vid they did for him was beautiful. :ghug:
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Heath loved to take pictures and document things, I'm sure sure there's so much of him that we haven't seen.
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Sometimes I look at the name of this board and just this phrase, "In Memory Of Heath Ledger" is like a punch to my heart. It's like I can't believe that I'm reading these words, it's not right. It shouldn't be. How is it possible? And all of a sudden it sinks in, and I start crying just from reading the title of this thread.
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Sometimes I look at the name of this board and just this phrase, "In Memory Of Heath Ledger" is like a punch to my heart. It's like I can't believe that I'm reading these words, it's not right. It shouldn't be. How is it possible? And all of a sudden it sinks in, and I start crying just from reading the title of this thread.
Keren :ghug: Yes,the other day I was thinking this too...It seems as if everything was a bad joke,or a marketing strategy,or...I don't know,but there're moments when I still can't believe there's almost 2 years that he passed away.Not in the case of somebody who has given so many good moments and,specially,a role as Ennis,that has made so many lives change for good.It's not fair,but often life and death aren't... :_(
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Sometimes I look at the name of this board and just this phrase, "In Memory Of Heath Ledger" is like a punch to my heart. It's like I can't believe that I'm reading these words, it's not right. It shouldn't be. How is it possible? And all of a sudden it sinks in, and I start crying just from reading the title of this thread.
It's "1979-2008" that stops me....like, what the hell are they talking about, oh, wait.
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Sometimes I look at the name of this board and just this phrase, "In Memory Of Heath Ledger" is like a punch to my heart. It's like I can't believe that I'm reading these words, it's not right. It shouldn't be. How is it possible? And all of a sudden it sinks in, and I start crying just from reading the title of this thread.
Please my dear don't cry, keep him alive in your mind :)
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I came across this item in today's Globe and Mail (Toronto):
An Australian rapper who was a boyhood friend of Heath Ledger has released a music video the star directed shortly before his death.
N'fa Forster-Jones posted the 3-minute,31-second clip for his song Cause an Effect on his YouTube and MySpace pages on Thursday
Forster-Jones, who had been friends with Ledger since they were toddlers, said the video was shot in one day in the garage of Ledger's beachside apartment.
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We merged your thread to this existing one since the subject was not about the character of Ennis Del Mar and by the way, do you have any link to this video?
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This is the link to the video, it's great to hear everything that N'fa has to say about Heath and their working process. They were friends since they were kids and he makes a beautiful tribute here.
Making of video 'Cause An Effect' (dir-Heath Ledger) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QqWHqDwCn-I&feature=player_embedded#normal)
** There is one pap shot in the video. Since it's only one photo in a video of over 10 minutes and we figured this is something worth sharing with the members, the mods have decided to allow it.
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Thanks for sharing, Keren, Chowhound.
After all this time, videos like these still hurt to watch....
But I'm glad to have seen this one, and thank you for it, guys. :ghug:
N'fa is a wonderful artist, and seems truly worthy of the honour of having been Heath's lifelong friend...
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Sometimes I look at the name of this board and just this phrase, "In Memory Of Heath Ledger" is like a punch to my heart. It's like I can't believe that I'm reading these words, it's not right. It shouldn't be. How is it possible? And all of a sudden it sinks in, and I start crying just from reading the title of this thread.
((((Keren)))) :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I know....I know.... :(
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Alicia, those collages of Heath are beautiful. Thank you so much. :ghug: :^^)
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22 MONTHS WITHOUT YOU,MY LOVE;YOU KEEP ON SAILING IN THE SEA WHERE NOBODY FEELS THIS SORROW THAT SURROUNDED YOU IN YOUR LAST TIMES.NOW YOU'RE HAPPY FOREVER...
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22 MONTHS WITHOUT YOU,MY LOVE;YOU KEEP ON SAILING IN THE SEA WHERE NOBODY FEELS THIS SORROW THAT SURROUNDED YOU IN YOUR LAST TIMES.NOW YOU'RE HAPPY FOREVER...
beautiful
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I know this will be taken the wrong way, but am too shaken to not say it. We had warning. Go to page 432 of the photos section, showing
Heath in London. Please, PLEASE, look closer at those where he looked sad. We still do not know the cause of death, but in those pictures
were an inexpressible sadness, and deeper than just a bad mood. I did post that I was worried, and now am suffering even more because
somebody should have seen that, around him, and done anything and everything possible. If it turns out to be true that he was depressed,
it only goes to say he was too good for this world. For all the glamor, and the success, he really was sensitive, shy, easily hurt.
I did worry, from those pictures and the disarray of his web site, and other warning signs, but never expected this. This is a terrible tragedy.
I can't find the page!!! Help me please!!!
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I love you sweet Cowboy Heath!!!!
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I can't find the page!!! Help me please!!!
Hey, EJ4eva - the photos you are looking for would now be in the archives of "Oh baby pix", in the cast & crew, Heath section, and the moderators could tell you if they could still be accessed.
But the same photos keep showing up on the several forums, of Heath in that purple beanie, sitting next to Lily Cole, in London, and a few of him looking fairly scraggly, on the streets of New York, so, they continue to be posted.
They first showed up in November/December, prior to his death, so it was more the issue of those of us who felt something was wrong, and said so.
On every forum it was pretty much a hurtful issue. Many fans had an extremely tight defense perimeter against a deliberate over-dose, and so, were fighting off any reference to depression or personal life troubles. They equated empathizing with depression and/or turmoil with movement towards the wrong conclusions (not accidental).
Since then, though, we've learned he was very ill, and exhausted, and had an extremely painful sleep disorder, and discussion of his life hurts have been more out there. The latest being Terry Gilliam's references to Heath's personal troubles. It's now possible for those who were worried about those pictures not to be accused of something more than empathy. It's pretty much out there, that some things were going wrong.
In the process of exploring the months before he passed, much was also developed about how, despite his hurts, he was very much embracing life and full of plans for the future. He was planning to open that tavern in Brooklyn, for example. And he was scheduled to meet Steven Spielberg, to discuss a film, on 1/23/08.
It was an accident. But there are lingering hurts in some of his fans about whether it could have been prevented. That's not ever going to die away completely, but most have focused on celebrating his career and gifts. One thing everyone who cared about him seems to agree on: he should not be forgotten.
And he hasn't been. If I can help with any questions, please send a PM. and I'll try to help. But the mods know where the old photos and comments went, and they would, am sure, be glad to help. Good luck - Tony.
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:ghug: Tony :ghug: ej4eva :ghug:
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I remember leaving A Knight's Tale early
and sneaking in to see Pearl Harbor,
the former just not being serious enough
for me at the time. I wanted something
big, dramatic, epic-in-scope, like Gladiator
or Braveheart, something inspirational.
Pearl Harbor was a bust - I kept guessing
at endings I thought would come but never
did. A few years later I saw Ned Kelly at
a house owned by some people from a church
I used to attend religiously.
I was the only one who really dug it, I think, for more
than Orlando Bloom or for Ledger's curly locks
and so on. Here was the inspiration I was
looking for, the sympathetic antihero
trying to make things right. Then there
was The Brothers Grimm, a great film to look
at if nothing else, with its earth tone reds
and grays, its trees straight out of Sleepy Hollow.
Looking back I think I saw every one of his
movies with a different girl, from 10 Things
which I saw with my sister. You could trace
my entire romantic development by the
curve of his career. And now he's gone.
It's strange how things can affect you that
you know probably shouldn't. How the absence
of someone you rarely even think about,
let alone know, can make you feel your own
mortality. But it happens. Heath Ledger is dead.
No more movies, no more dates who stare
at Ledger's head two stories tall. All that's left
are the DVDs, remnants, memories of things
that used to be brand new, unseen. Years later
I saw A Knight's Tale in its entirety and was
impressed by Ledger's acting, especially toward
the end when his character refuses so adamantly
to give up, to give in and run away, to quit.
Heath Ledger's dead, and I'm afraid there'll be no sequel.
By Simon A. Thalmann
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I don't want to say goodbye
Let the stars shine through
No, I don't want to say goodbye
All I wanna do is live with you
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This is the month, the beginning where we always say "Happy New Year" and yet it will always also be the saddest month of all to many of us who loved sweet Heath. Still hard to believe he's really not with us anymore... :_(
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This the the month, the beginning where we always say "Happy New Year" and yet it will always also be the saddest month of all to many of us who loved sweet Heath. Still hard to believe he's really not with us anymore... :_(
Yes, I can't help but thinking about 2008 and how so shortly after it started, everything fell apart. I will never forget the moment I got the news. :_(
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This is the month, the beginning where we always say "Happy New Year" and yet it will always also be the saddest month of all to many of us who loved sweet Heath. Still hard to believe he's really not with us anymore... :_(
Yes,we wish each other a happy new year that it has just begun because it's what we would like for our beloved beings.But we never can imagine that someone of these beloved beings can go away after so few days and after so short years of living...And in a month that it's one of the hardest ones,because the happiness and lights of Christmas are over,weather is rougher and colder,and it will be during many weeks more...In this situation,Heath's passing extinguished all our lights of joy and froze the heat of our past Christmas celebrations.And still it does. :_(
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Yes, I can't help but thinking about 2008 and how so shortly after it started, everything fell apart. I will never forget the moment I got the news. :_(
i won't either.. the day is nearing, and the memory is as vivid as ever. i have been crying for an entire day :_(
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i won't either.. the day is nearing, and the memory is as vivid as ever. i have been crying for an entire day :_(
Fausta, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Fausta, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
The entire month of January makes me kind of depressed. He was so talented and a beautiful person, it just wasn't fair. But death is seldom fair is it(?) especially to the young.
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The entire month of January makes me kind of depressed. He was so talented and a beautiful person, it just wasn't fair. But death is seldom fair is it(?) especially to the young.
Yes,you're right,RW; death is never fair,specially when one has a lot of years before them.Even if it's also a part of life,what we can't understand nor accept...If you need it too, :ghug: :^^)
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The moment that devastates me the most is the image of his friends and family on the beach, seeing him off... That's a real killer!!!! :_( They were trying to be joyful, but the real joy was missing ... it was far far away, somewhere in heavens... :_(
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TWO F!@#$G YEARS WITHOUT YOU...DAMN ¡
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MPJ! :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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I am dreading tomorrow. I'll never forget when I heard the news - I was in my car, on my way home from work. The radio said Heath Ledger was found dead, and I thought surely I had heard wrong. When I got home, I raced to the computer, and there it was, all over the internet, the horrible news. I literally fell to the floor, screaming and crying. I've never in my whole life had a reaction like that to someone's passing - not even someone I knew!
It was such a shock. It was weeks before I could even talk about it to anyone in RL. Thank goodness I had this place to come to, and the LiveJournal community.
It still hurts, two years later... :_( :_( :_(
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Yes it was a day which we all painfully remember and will forever be.
"What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us."
Lots of hugs to all of you :ghug:
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Damn, two years .. :_(
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I am dreading tomorrow. I'll never forget when I heard the news - I was in my car, on my way home from work. The radio said Heath Ledger was found dead, and I thought surely I had heard wrong. When I got home, I raced to the computer, and there it was, all over the internet, the horrible news. I literally fell to the floor, screaming and crying. I've never in my whole life had a reaction like that to someone's passing - not even someone I knew!
It was such a shock. It was weeks before I could even talk about it to anyone in RL. Thank goodness I had this place to come to, and the LiveJournal community.
It still hurts, two years later... :_( :_( :_(
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
My reaction was very much the same... like the sky came crashing down on me. It will always hurt. :_(
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2 years...damn :_( :_( :_(
We'll never forget you, Heath.
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.. and i will never forget the feeling i had this terrible 22 january... :_(
you'll always be with me... :_(
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"Brokeback mountain" had left in me an immense sorrow,
an unbearable cognition how irrecoverable the time is...
Once you let the chance slip away, you can never get it back.
Coz it passed.
Coz it floated away in the fast river of life.
I was devastated beyond the human's limitations.
Ennis Heath had gone without me knowing him well,
without me enjoying his fabulous talent when he was alive.
I truly felt his greatness only when he was already gone.
So irreparable time! So much sadness in me...
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Little darlin, rest in peace
in my loving heart,
like this, always ...
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I remember that it was very late here in Spain,so I was going to bed; but in the last moment,as if I have guessed that something has happenned,I went to my email account to take a last glance.And then I saw in my yahoo account first page the news...
My first reaction was not believing it and entering here to ask to tell me that it wasn't true,that it was some kind of stupid joke that somebody has done here in Spain because information didn't arrive well from USA...The following day was horrible,even if my Brokie coworker and me counted with the understanding and help of the rest of mates in our office,as I already explained in its moment...
And now that two years have passed,sometimes I have the same feeling; that everything has been a nightmare,a bad joke or an stupid marketing invention.And that some day he will appear telling that he had needed to escape from Hollywood noise and gossip to find himself...What a nonsense,no?.But if it were true... :_( :_( :_(
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Not nonsense, MPJ! Only soft human nature that can not easily tolerate such a devastating news. We simply try to avoid the worse information, which unfortunately is the truth... :(
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Never forget. Love forever xxx
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Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile
-"Smile" Sung By: Michael Jackson(R.I.P.)
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Heath, you will always have a special place in my heart. No words can describe how I felt the day I found out that you were gone. It's still hard to believe that you're not here with us but you're in a better place now. You're our beautiful angel and you will never be forgotten!
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No matter how many months and years I've left this beautiful site, no matter how many new emticons I see here when you write a message, no how many new members join and others are lost, and no matter how many years it's been since Heath Ledger's death, I still will remember how this place was my first home.
This place was where I grieved, where I felt comfort, and where I made new friends during the months after Heath's untimely death.
I remember where I was when Heath died. In my living room, playing a handheld game that I had just found and hadn't played in years. Mom was on the computer and dad was watching the news. I was too focused on the game when my mom told me to look up at the TV screen. Then she typed up something online and showed it to me. It said that Heath was found dead in his Soho apartment. I immediatly asked to go and I was the first one to post on here about it. I was speechless and my heart dropped that day. I must've been on here the rest of the night just watching the news expand around the world. It was heart-breaking.
Last night, at 12:00 in the morning on Janurary 22, 2010, I was in a movie theater looking up and seeing Heath Ledger on my screen..alive and incredible. It was the very last showing of the Imaginarium at our local theater. Everyone that I went with praised the film but the most popular comment abou the film was..."Why did he have to die?". I told everyone later on that night (we were sleeping over a friends house) that it today was the day Heath died, and everyone was stunned. I still remember him..and always will.
It might be two years, but Heath will forever be in my heart.
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Two years -- it showed me that humans are (mostly) programmed to survive, even when the bottom has dropped out of their world. Heath changed my life, he changed the lives of so many people I have come to know and love. The tears I continue to shed and the longing which is always in my heart are just a tiny reflection of what a great and unique man he was.
Light a candle in remembrance of Heath. (http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=heath)
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Miss ya cowboy...
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...I will always remember you.
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Where I live it has been raining all week, it is like the heavens are crying. And then today the sun broke through and it made me feel a little better. I thought of these wonderful words by Eric Clapton:
Tears In Heaven
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please
Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.
* Dear Sweet Heath you will always be loved & missed *
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I felt very sorry that on the 22nd I was away camping, sans internet access. Exacerbating the already-there sadness that I'll doubtless always feel on the 22nd of January, was the keen awareness that I couldn't be here at camp, sharing my feelings with my Brokies, like I did on the first anniversary of our Heath's passing.
So, this is the first chance I've had to come pay my respects, and it does pain me that they come late. :(
Well...what to say; I miss him and love him still, we all do. :_(
Although two years have served to - very gradually - lessen the intensity of the pain and grief, they have not managed to make me love him less. The contrary. Two years without Heath's bodily presence have only served to grow my love for him. The grief is quieter these days, I've reached as much "acceptance" as I probably ever will, but I love him more than ever. The quieting of the intense, overwhelming grief of the first year deprived of Heath - which almost overshadowed, in a way, my love for him - has allowed me to feel closer to him, to feel him around more strongly, and see him in everything around me. In the absence of that crushing grief that is always the strongest in that first year, I no longer exactly feel like he is even gone. How can I truly feel he is gone, when I can feel his beautiful spirit around me whenever it is I take a moment to sense it?
We love you, Heath, just like this, always.
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Jack and Alma were crying because of you in "Brokeback", they are crying because of you in real life.
Heath, it is so sad. Why did you leave us?
You will be forever in my dreams ...
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I don't remember if that video was shared here, but Heath is so sweet and happy in that one <^(
What Hurts The Most (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNbhFMhYYrw&feature=rec-r2-2f-8-HM#noexternalembed-normal)
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I don't remember if that video was shared here, but Heath is so sweet and happy in that one <^(
What Hurts The Most (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNbhFMhYYrw&feature=rec-r2-2f-8-HM#noexternalembed-normal)
I love this video, it always makes me smile.
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I love this video, it always makes me smile.
I love it too,but I don't know if it makes me smile or cry... :-\\
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I miss you so much....... Today more than ever probably.
Tears are coming from my eyes all day this Sunday.
Why did you have to go, and with that hard way... is breaking my heart, more and more each day that passes.
Why? ........ :_( Why you left all these people behind? :_( Why you left... me? :_(
I love you. xxx
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Heath, knowing you're not with us anymore
watching Brokeback Mountain is more painful than ever.
Life is full of sadness and sorrow. BBM was depressing enough after Jack died, we thought it couldn't get worse and then...
we've lost our Ennis as well.
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Last night I had a dream about Heath. He was starring on stage in NY and it seemed so real for a few moments when I woke up I thought he was there. I think he was the type of actor that would have done well on the live stage as well as motion pictures.
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Last night I had a dream about Heath. He was starring on stage in NY and it seemed so real for a few moments when I woke up I thought he was there. I think he was the type of actor that would have done well on the live stage as well as motion pictures.
You're right, Heath was a great talent, we would see him quite high on the movie ...
He gave self a lot of in movie, and it destroyed him, no?
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You're right, Heath was a great talent, we would see him quite high on the movie ...
He gave self a lot of in movie, and it destroyed him, no?
Heath was a gifted actor. He loved acting, he enjoyed it, it made him live. Destroyed him? I don't think so. His art was his passion. His death was an accident.
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^ I agree. :_(
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I think Ferdinand meant to say that Heath put all of himself in every role he played. This has been said by all the people who worked with him, that his intensity and dedication to the craft is unparalleled and rare.
It was also mentioned by those who were on the set of Parnasus that Heath would, towards the end, stay on the set for hours and helped move the scenery and set, instead of going home to rest. There was a kind of hectic energy that swirled around him.
Although his dedication to his craft did not destroy him, the exhaustion that came with it, that was the result of not taking care while being sick, helped to contribute to the accidental overdose.
No matter how it happened, it was tragic. The world lost a talented actor, and a great human being.
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I love hearing about the dreams that people have of him, as it keeps a little of him alive in our hearts. I like the idea of him appearing on stage and think it would have been a treat to see. I hope the dream made you feel good. :ghug:
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Just so, Heath put all of himself in every role. I'm not saying he didn`t enjoyed in his roles and in acting generally. As he said - the role of Batmen exhausted him, and we all know how well it played him. Yes, we lost a very talented actor, a great human being.
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I love hearing about the dreams that people have of him, as it keeps a little of him alive in our hearts. I like the idea of him appearing on stage and think it would have been a treat to see. I hope the dream made you feel good. :ghug:
:^^)
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Heath got his love for performance from the school plays and stage productions in high school. In a book some where, there is reference to one of his roles, that made everyone stood up and took notice of the extraordinary characterization that he portrayed. Even then, he had an instinctive understanding of a character's soul and the charisma to connect with the audience, to make them understand, too. As I have often said and reflected, how much we lost that cold tragic day. :( :_(
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I love hearing about the dreams that people have of him, as it keeps a little of him alive in our hearts. I like the idea of him appearing on stage and think it would have been a treat to see. I hope the dream made you feel good. :ghug:
B, I've had a number of dreams of Ennis or Jack or Heath or Jake. But here's a weird one I had recently: I was hanging out with Heath, and he was totally fun...but then I discovered it wasn't actually Heath, or like an A/U version of Heath -- a total con man who wooed older women for money!
kathy
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B, I've had a number of dreams of Ennis or Jack or Heath or Jake. But here's a weird one I had recently: I was hanging out with Heath, and he was totally fun...but then I discovered it wasn't actually Heath, or like an A/U version of Heath -- a total con man who wooed older women for money!
kathy
I have yet to dream of Heath or Ennis. But it's interesting you mentioned an alternate universe because I was only the day before watching the videos for Star Trek's Mirror, Mirror episode. Although I have not yet watched the Parnasus movie, I suspect the magic mirror had something to do with the symbolism, too. And from the limited trailers I watched, of the character Heath played, specifically the sales pitch to the ladies crowded around him, about the price of dreams...what you experienced may not be too far from the truth. I envy your visit from Heath. :^^) :c) ^f^
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I have yet to dream of Heath or Ennis. But it's interesting you mentioned an alternate universe because I was only the day before watching the videos for Star Trek's Mirror, Mirror episode. Although I have not yet watched the Parnasus movie, I suspect the magic mirror had something to do with the symbolism, too. And from the limited trailers I watched, of the character Heath played, specifically the sales pitch to the ladies crowded around him, about the price of dreams...what you experienced may not be too far from the truth. I envy your visit from Heath. :^^) :c) ^f^
Do you know what? I really cannot believe I didn't make the connection between Heath of my dream and Tony in Dr. Parnassus, but that's exactly who it was!! Thank you for the reminder. I see it all now...
(Ah, yes, I've always liked the Mirror episodes of Star Trek.)
I also really value my number of "visits" with Heath, both before and after...
kathy
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Two days ago, I watched BBM for the first time....I have been in a daze ever since. I feel like I was a shadow on the wall, watching the most intimate passions that belonged to only two people...
Film is a way to tell a story...Story telling has been an art probably since the beginning of man. This story has a very sad effect on me...
I had never seen a Heath Ledger film before... Now, I see why he is so missed. This poem came to mind, it is from another story told in cinema - 4 Weddings and a Funeral.
Funeral Blues
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-- W H Auden
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I saw 4 Weddings And A Funeral so I know that poem, and it is very fitting and describes very well what I felt on that horrible day in January over 2 years ago. In fact, I remember that someone posted this poem here in the days after Heath died.
Jorae, we all understand the effect that Ennis and Jack's story has on you, because it has affected us the same way. We're here because this story changed our lives. And as for Heath... he was a gifted actor and an extraordinary human being, and in BBM he touched us all deeply. We will always miss him and we will never forget him.
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Two days ago, I watched BBM for the first time....I have been in a daze ever since. I feel like I was a shadow on the wall, watching the most intimate passions that belonged to only two people...
Film is a way to tell a story...Story telling has been an art probably since the beginning of man. This story has a very sad effect on me...
I had never scene a Heath Ledger film... Now, I see why he is so missed. This poem came to mind, it is from another story told in cinema - 4 Weddings and a Funeral.Funeral Blues.
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
-- W H Auden
Welcome to you, jorae. I'm glad you finally saw BBM -- and you are in the right place to share those overwhelming feelings about such an overwhelmingly beautiful and poignant movie. I have always loved this poem, too, and it does express the sadness we have felt/are feeling, over Ennis and Jack, and over Heath, too.
kathy
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Thanks Keren and Kathy...
It's 3:30am and I just can't sleep...now if I could only stop eating...
Luv...jorae
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Thanks Keren and Kathy...
It's 3:30am and I just can't sleep...now if I could only stop eating...
Luv...jorae
Jorae ^f^
Welcome!!!! :ghug:
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Jorae :ghug: Glad you have been finally able to watch the movie,so I understand perfectly you are overcoming all the feelings we know so well...And I also understand that you have chosen this beautiful poem that reflexes so well other feelings we,unluckily,also know so well: the ones about Heath's passing.People who spend one's life making the others feel happy or sad,this doesn't matter ¡; people who make other people feel alive shouldn't die until their oldest age,because we need them to make this world a little nicer,don't you think so?. :_(
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A SWEET EYES ANGEL'S SMILE...THE MORE MONTHS PASSED,THE MOST ALIVE YOU ARE INSIDE US.WE'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. :_( :_( :_(
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Why didn't God trust just one person on earth
To fix the mistake heaven forgot to catch...
Eyes like two perfect Milk Duds…
With the smile of a Golden Retriever...
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I find this is the only place I can say that I dream of ( I think it's really more of his energy, spirit) I guess some might think I'm crazy since I never knew him personally but he will appear when I'm not even thinking on him. He's never really left completely.. I do believe that.
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I dream of him. I don't think you're crazy. I'm certain he is still around.
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Don't think you're crazy at all, I feel like it's totally natural to dream of him. I wish he would visit me in my dreams more often...
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Trust me, sometimes I pray to help me in something ... and when I find it hard ... I hope he hears me in my prayers ...
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RW,I don't think you're crazy at all either...How could I think so if I was the first one in confessing here he talked to me in my dreams?...He was somebody who gave a change in our lives with his concrete role in BBM and a lot of good and happy times with the rest of his performances; for all this,somebody whom we felt (and feel) very close to us,even if we never knew him in person.What can be strange in thinking in him during the day and in dreaming on him by night,then?. :ghug:
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I find this is the only place I can say that I dream of ( I think it's really more of his energy, spirit) I guess some might think I'm crazy since I never knew him personally but he will appear when I'm not even thinking on him. He's never really left completely.. I do believe that.
People are always finding what other people do as crazy. I am stupefied by....twittering. That someone grieves someone they never met, then, is certainly going to attract criticism, but, who cares?
Love for someone, even in these circumstances, is nothing to apologize for. I do think, though, that it's important to let that great love be a support, and also a gentle pushing, to love others that might have been overlooked in a person's daily life.
Finally, this is the Ennis/Jack forum. Love for Heath, would not be a rarity, here.
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Love for someone ... is nothing to apologize for. ... let that great love be a support, and also a gentle pushing, to love others that might have been overlooked in a person's daily life.
:clap: That's something that I can imagine Heath would have said. :c) ^f^
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People are always finding what other people do as crazy. I am stupefied by....twittering. That someone grieves someone they never met, then, is certainly going to attract criticism, but, who cares?
Love for someone, even in these circumstances, is nothing to apologize for. I do think, though, that it's important to let that great love be a support, and also a gentle pushing, to love others that might have been overlooked in a person's daily life.
Finally, this is the Ennis/Jack forum. Love for Heath, would not be a rarity, here.
Yes Tony, I agree with you. I've lost a lot of people I've loved. My father when I was a young teen, my mother 15 years ago, a sister-in-law and a brother-in-law within the last few years. They also all died tragically. It does make you want to hold on to the ones you have with you and appreciate them all the more.
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Today is Heath's birthday. It feels weird to say "Happy Birthday" because there's nothing really happy about it, when he's not here to celebrate it. He should've been 31 today... :(
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Happy Birthday, Heath...
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Then let's celebrate the day his mother brought him to our lives and every minute he did make our world a better place xx
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It still feels so unfair, doesn't it. No less painful than this date was last year, when Heath should have turned thirty, a milestone. :_(
I'm with you, Froggy. Let's do our best to rejoice in April 4th and reflect on the myriad ways he brightened and enriched the world.
Hugs to anyone who might need them. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
Miss you always, Heath...
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The pain of Jan 22 doesn't go away with time, just less debilitating after getting used to it, like the background noise.
April 4 will always be a happy day, like Christmas, for the gift of Heath that makes all his movies possible, all the great things that he did possible.
I count myself lucky to have been given those gifts, Brokeback Mountain most of all. As I pointed out before, I believe the movie was only made possible because of a series of convergent events, from Adam Sutton's life to Annie Proulx visiting the Mint Bar in Sheridan, to those two cowboys playing pool in the bar just as Annie was in an observant mood, and the inspiration that drew her to thinking of writing a story, and the hand that seemed to have reached out to help her write it, to the crew and everyone associated with the making of the movie, but most of all, the life of Heath Ledger who was a miracle of a man, wise and loving and perfect for the role of Ennis Del Mar at the perfect time that the story needed telling. April 4 was the beginning of those convergent events.
Life is no less painful just because there is happiness; it is no less happy just because there is pain.
Life is a cloth weaved with threads of pain and happiness. We would be poorer to see only the pain, and ignore the happiness.
Thanks Laura, and I add my hugs to yours. :ghug: :c) ^f^ }s{
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Perfectly said, Andrew. :ghug: :^^)
You always have the perfect words, bud. I'm definitely not going to ignore the happiness.
I wish I could write more; I really feel a need to talk about Heath a bit right now...it's been quite a while. But I'm in the throes of a major flu and don't have the strength. :( Sooo ill, ugh... >:(
So, I guess it'll have to suffice to just say that, while the pain only gets less debilitating with time, like Andrew said, rather than vanishes, I certainly tried my best yesterday (4/4 is just over in Oz) to be happy on Heath's birthday, just like I tried last year. He was too special to allow the still-poignant, ever-poignant missing to blot out the gratitude that he was here at all.
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Then let's celebrate the day his mother brought him to our lives and every minute he did make our world a better place xx
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Happy Birthday to Heath and hugs to my fellow Heathens :ghug:
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Happy Birthday to Heath and hugs to my fellow Heathens :ghug:
Same to you... :ghug: Andrew has said it very well,as always: this must be a happy day because it was the one when Heath was born.And I'd add that,if we are sad for not being able to watch another new movie by him in a day like this,we'll lost the immense happiness for having known him and enjoy his talent during these years.It's only a matter of putting in a balance what must have a greater weight for us...
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Just watched The Dark Knight on this day of your birth. What a great performance, you are very missed.
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Thanks Laura :^^) Grazias mpj :^^) Hugs keren, trekfan, rmw, froggy EURman :ghug:
I can't imagine celebrating Heath's Birthday with anyone else but you. :ghug: :^^) :c) ^f^
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Happy birthday, sweetheart. You will always be with us.
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Yes Tony, I agree with you. I've lost a lot of people I've loved. My father when I was a young teen, my mother 15 years ago, a sister-in-law and a brother-in-law within the last few years. They also all died tragically. It does make you want to hold on to the ones you have with you and appreciate them all the more.
Hi, Rimasworld - am very sorry I missed your post, until just now. You definitely have had a rough time, and maybe that has made you, along with others here, with similar hurts, sensitive to the loss of Heath Ledger, all the more.
Anyway, the posts for this very special day have been heartfelt and heartwarming.
Happy Birthday, Heath......I know you're around somewhere, and I hope you know, we have not forgotten.
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On Heath's birthday, also Easter -- a re-birth-day to some. And there was a fairly major earthquake here close to San Diego, and I rather liked that idea -- a quickening, a rock-and-rolling, on Heath's birthday. 4/4 was also my father's birthday.
Loved your words, Lance, as usual...
kathy
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Then let's celebrate the day his mother brought him to our lives and every minute he did make our world a better place xx
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I can't imagine celebrating Heath's Birthday with anyone else but you. :ghug: :^^) :c) ^f^
Yeah, exactly right!!!
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So I'm racking my brain for a year now with this thought and as here the subject is HEATH ♥ I'd like to share it with you so that I can now what other people who supports him think.
I suppose some of you will think I'm "crazy" and what I think is stupid :-\\
So here is what my teenage brain makes me think. We all know the quote of Heath saying "I feel good about dying because I feel alive through her" ,we all know he did not commit suicide! and we've seen how much Matilda looks like him and to what extent he would have gone for her.So what I was wondering (take in account that i do believe in the power of the unconscious mind) what if unconsciously Heath didn't woke up because he knew (inside him) that matilda was just like him and he knew he could live through her.I know that just sounds crazy.But I do think that as he knew it he "was able" to pass away ;you know I think (and maybe that 's complete bull****) it is just like mothers who are dying just when their new-born are breathing because they know or feel they'll live through them.
I hope you won't think i'm totally insane :-\\
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:ghug: hemarole Welcome to the forum. I don't think you are "crazy" or anything else. I think you are very perceptive and thoughtful.
I remember the line you quote. I watched the interview on youtube. I think Heath was one of the most conscious and aware person there ever was. He was totally conscious and aware of what he said, because he always tried to live life to the fullness, even as a parent. He was also very thoughtful, an old soul, who saw life from a perspective rare and special. For him to watch his first child growing up, and to witness his influence on her, whispering to trees and hugging animals, he understood the great human condition that every parent goes through watching his or her child, to feel the bond, the love, and he expressed it in his own unique way. Just like everyone else, Heath must have thought about mortality and death, especially after a child was born. I am sure he had life insurance and will drawn up. In fact we know he did. Perhaps the interview was ony a day or two away from the visit to the lawyers' office to draw up his will, or to the agent's office to sign up for life insurance. In any case, he thought about the same questions that every mortal parent thought about, and being honest and frank, he expressed his feelings and thoughts on the subject, without any other agenda, consciously or otherwise.
In fact, with a movie yet to complete, another movie in the works, the restaurant business about to start, and all the plans he had for Matilda, it is unimaginable that there were any subconscious thought of not waking up. I am certain he struggled for breath and tried to get up, as the house keeping heard breathing noises from the room earlier in the morning. It was the overdose of medication which kept him from waking up.
People may say whatever they wish, even saying that it was predestined, that he knew his life would end, whatever. The truth is, we will never know for sure. No answer is more right than any other. Only the answer that makes sense to each of us personally, trying to explain the facts that we know for sure, the best we can.
Is there a special bond between Heath and Matilda? Absolutely. Was that on Heath's mind as he exhaled his last breath, that he was content leaving this earth because he lived on through Matilda? Who knows? Whatever went through his mind, will be revealed when we all meet again in the last days. Meanwhile, I think Heath would want us to devote our energy to living life as he did, making the most of what we have, for the people around us.
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So I'm racking my brain for a year now with this thought and as here the subject is HEATH ♥ I'd like to share it with you so that I can now what other people who supports him think.
I suppose some of you will think I'm "crazy" and what I think is stupid :-\\
So here is what my teenage brain makes me think. We all know the quote of Heath saying "I feel good about dying because I feel alive through her" ,we all know he did not commit suicide! and we've seen how much Matilda looks like him and to what extent he would have gone for her.So what I was wondering (take in account that i do believe in the power of the unconscious mind) what if unconsciously Heath didn't woke up because he knew (inside him) that matilda was just like him and he knew he could live through her.I know that just sounds crazy.But I do think that as he knew it he "was able" to pass away ;you know I think (and maybe that 's complete bull****) it is just like mothers who are dying just when their new-born are breathing because they know or feel they'll live through them.
I hope you won't think i'm totally insane :-\\
:ghug: Not stupid or insane to have these thoughts my friend. I think about him a lot and he comes to me in dreams, even though I never had the pleasure of knowing him personally. I think many parents feel they will live on in their children, but I also feel Heath felt he had so much more to give his child and all of the people who loved him. He was like so many out there who do not know the dangers of prescription medications and how lethal they can be when combined. I will always believe it was an accident... it is the 3rd cause of death behind heart disease and cancer.
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Don't worry,Hemarole;nobody thinks nothing "strange" about you.We only can think that you are a very sensitive person,and that's not bad,and less still in this so materialistic and wild world.Personalising in myself,the other Brokies know that I dreamt about him,he talked me about his last days and that he kissed me in the cheek to tell me goodbye.As you see,I don't know who is crazier... :i
As regards to your opinion,my fellows have answered it so well that I'm afraid I can't but quote each one of their words.Only add that Heath loved life very much and much more still he loved Matilda;too much as to not figthing for his life until the very last minute...As RW has said,it was only an stupid accident due to an excessive faith in medications :_( ; but it's sure that when he realised that he was going to travel very far from his little daughter,he quite fighting happy to think that he kept on living through her.I'm not a mother,but I'm sure this is something that parents believe deeply inside;the same than an artist lives in his/her work,what best work that having created another human being to survive you?...
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Hey guys thanks so much for your answers - They help a lot and I'm glad you didn't judge me! :t)
It feels so good to be among people that even though don't necessarily agree with you ,don't make fun of you because you know I can't even talked about it seriously with my family or friends because they're just narrow-minded and they think I'm just obsessed and it is stupid and insane and as I've never met him what I feel for him is stupid!
So thank you very much indeed! ;D
Personalising in myself,the other Brokies know that I dreamt about him,he talked me about his last days and that he kissed me in the cheek to tell me goodbye.As you see,I don't know who is crazier... :i
Concerning what you said myprivatejack , don't worry I've also made strange dreams about Heath. I don't remember all of them but one struck me because I think it was the first ever with him and Matilda.
What I remember is that one moment when I was talking with him, he asked me about Matilda and I don't know why I had this picture of her with me when she was about 3 years old so I showed it to him and I remember his face when he saw the picture and he was so happy because she looks happy too and looks so much like him,he was just saw proud .I remember him crying of joy :) and I think it was the most beautiful dream I've ever made!
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:ghug: Hemarole mpj :ghug: You have wonderful dreams. :^^) :c) ^f^
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Hey guys thanks so much for your answers - They help a lot and I'm glad you didn't judge me! :t)
It feels so good to be among people that even though don't necessarily agree with you ,don't make fun of you because you know I can't even talked about it seriously with my family or friends because they're just narrow-minded and they think I'm just obsessed and it is stupid and insane and as I've never met him what I feel for him is stupid!
So thank you very much indeed! ;D
You nailed it, and this is just how I feel too. We may not always have the same opinion but we respect each other and we can understand each other's feelings. Most people in real life think that I'm obsessed with Heath and they can't understand my grief over someone I've never met, because they can't understand my love for him... this is the only place where I can be trully open and honest about how I feel, and that means so much. In the days after Heath's passing, this place kept me going - I could come here and cry and pour my heart and I knew people here understood me, and no one thought I was crazy because they all felt the same. Just having that meant more than anything.
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Hey guys thanks so much for your answers - They help a lot and I'm glad you didn't judge me! :t)
It feels so good to be among people that even though don't necessarily agree with you ,don't make fun of you because you know I can't even talked about it seriously with my family or friends because they're just narrow-minded and they think I'm just obsessed and it is stupid and insane and as I've never met him what I feel for him is stupid!
So thank you very much indeed! ;D
Concerning what you said myprivatejack , don't worry I've also made strange dreams about Heath. I don't remember all of them but one struck me because I think it was the first ever with him and Matilda.
What I remember is that one moment when I was talking with him, he asked me about Matilda and I don't know why I had this picture of her with me when she was about 3 years old so I showed it to him and I remember his face when he saw the picture and he was so happy because she looks happy too and looks so much like him,he was just saw proud .I remember him crying of joy :) and I think it was the most beautiful dream I've ever made!
Yes,this is the main point of this forum;being able to feel just the way you are ¡.Period.Nobody makes fun of you because,in this case,that would mean as much as making fun of oneself.And how can we laugh at anybody who feels the same emotive bond with two persons for the simple fact of being our boys on screen? It's difficult to understand if we haven't felt you,it's true...But it's what we have and how we are ¡. :ghug: By the way,your beautiful dream has made me cry..I'm sure that would have been the way Heath had reacted if he was able to see his little daughter from the place he's now. #)
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Just because I know you'll understand what I felt i'd like to share my frustration with you guys.Since July 2009 ,I'm wearing a necklace in which i've engraved (well a guy did it for me ;D - I'm not sure fo the english word engrave in this situation but I'm sure you'll understand me anyway!) a pic' of Heath on it so that he's always with me <^( and today one of my friend apparently just happened to notice it and god i hate how she react you know she said " Seriously ?!" as if the fact of wearing this necklace i completey stupid .I felt she was almost making fun of me. And I was so fustrated .I don't get why when people don't understand that you can be attached to someone you haven't met in real life , they act like whateveryou do that touch to him is stupid .I mean in a way I'm sad for them because they don't what they are missing.
Well anyway I just needed to share it with you and I'm wondering if you have ever felt like me once ? Because unfortunately It was not the first time for me :-\\
ps: I'll post a pic of my necklace whenever i can ;)
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:ghug: Hemarole. That must be so frustrating. But there are a lot of us here who have various keepsakes or mementos to serve as reminders and tokens of affection. I think it's perfectly reasonable and completely understandable and it's too bad there are so many people who would be so quick to laugh off a sincere gesture of any kind. I'd rather be one of us than one of them. And my guess is he would too. :c)
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Hemarole, I know exactly how you feel. Unfortunately, I got some similar reactions myself from people who couldn't understand the way I feel about Heath, and showed no respect for my pain. It's sad to admit, but now I just try not to talk about him with people outside this forum - the people here are the only ones who understand. :(
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Keren_b I do quite the same now.When some people are brought to talk about Heath or something link to him now I just say he was a wonderful actor and so on but I don't talk about my feelings :-\\
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Just because I know you'll understand what I felt i'd like to share my frustration with you guys.Since July 2009 ,I'm wearing a necklace in which i've engraved (well a guy did it for me ;D - I'm not sure fo the english word engrave in this situation but I'm sure you'll understand me anyway!) a pic' of Heath on it so that he's always with me <^( and today one of my friend apparently just happened to notice it and god i hate how she react you know she said " Seriously ?!" as if the fact of wearing this necklace i completey stupid .I felt she was almost making fun of me. And I was so fustrated .I don't get why when people don't understand that you can be attached to someone you haven't met in real life , they act like whateveryou do that touch to him is stupid .I mean in a way I'm sad for them because they don't what they are missing.
Well anyway I just needed to share it with you and I'm wondering if you have ever felt like me once ? Because unfortunately It was not the first time for me :-\\
ps: I'll post a pic of my necklace whenever i can ;)
Hemarole,I understand how frustrating must this reaction be for you :ghug: .But,if it serves for some relief,I'm afraid to tell you that this friend mustn't be so good friend as you believed if she can't understand nor respect your feelings.I know that it's very common among people to think that feeling so attached to someone you have never met personally can be done for teenagers,not for adult persons...And why not,I ask them?.If you like someone's art-be this acting,painting,writing or whatever-and he or she has made you feel good with this art,is it so strange to feel him/her like a kind of friend? I think they are a little narrow-minded people in this sense; they believe things are in this way and can't be in the contrary because they have been taught so.Maybe they aren't able to go beyond what is in the surface and try and understand the intimate reasons of someone.But,at least,they should show some respect and let jokes and laughs for things less important:so,don't worry and if you want,feel free to share your feelings with us.We can't laugh at ourselves... ;)
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Thinking of Heath, reminded of this song, echoing the quote from Kahlil Gibran:
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being,
the more joy you can contain."
The song says, "how does a memory last this long
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends"
The song is not released yet, but you can hear it on http://myspace.com/musicsand (http://myspace.com/musicsand) in the profile playlist.
So I Can Feel You Again - by Ryan Laird
i never listened to the sound of rain
that i don't miss you i don't see your face
it's never what i need cuz what it does to me
it's always the same
a million pictures running through my mind
i reminisce on all the better times
clear as a summer night i know that i can never fight
there is nothing to gain
it takes a hold on me so strong
how does a memory last this long
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learned to love the pain
so i can feel you again
maybe i'm selfish not to let you go
and it goes against everything i know
i am just not ready to stop loving you any time soon
if god has just give me my way, you'd be here with me today
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learned to love the pain
so i can feel you again
so i just hold you down a road that never ends
and i just keep you in my heart that never mends
and now i have learn to love the rain
and then i learned to love the pain
so i can feel you again
i can feel you again
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Beautiful and so sad... :_( Thanks for sharing it ¡
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The words are beautiful, the song is beautiful. Thanks, lance!
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Such a beautiful song ! Thanks for sharing it :)
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I caught some of the reporting on the Heath Ledger scholarship award in L.A., and it really jumped out what his sister Kate said. She said she thought of him every day and talked to him every day.
I hope she always does. I believe she always will. It's not grief, IMO. It is a sound, firmly grounded family love, and I wish there were more of that going around. In our hearts and in our minds, we ought to send out a big hug, for that lovely lady, so faithful to her brother's memory. I know it made me feel better to read that, and I wish her well, so very much!
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Thanks for posting that Tony. It's really touching, Heath and his sister were so close. She must be missing him so much.
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Yes, they were very close. And I guess all we can do is understand, and wish her well. And, of course, it probably helps her to know he meant so much to others, too! I believe she knows that, though.
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I hope she does. I hope she knows that many of us remember him and still think about him often.
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Thanks for posting that Tony. It's really touching, Heath and his sister were so close. She must be missing him so much.
I can't imagine what it must be like for her. :_( They had a special bond that few people share, except perhaps soul mates. Then again, Heath's father also called Heath his best friend, his soul mate. They talked on the phone almost everyday. I can't imagine what it must be like, to come to the appointed hour of that phone call everyday, and not able to hear Heath's sweet voice, happy laughter. No matter how much we miss him, no matter had sad we feel, nothing compares to the loss of people who had Heath in their lives, daily, like sunshine on a cloudy day, like the rain after a drought, and then have him snatched away... :_(
It takes a long time for the void to fill-in, with the love from other places, other people. The bigger the void, the longer it will take to fill.
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Beautifully put,LC ¡ :clap: Yes,I guess that the relationship,the bond that joined Heath with his family was of that kind that remains unbreakable no matter how far we're from our beloved beings.Because it's not a physical kind,but a psychical,moral and loving bond,that grows with the memory.And this bond lasts forever,so neither the most cruel death,as is the one who arrives at a very young age,can't break it. :_( :_( :_(
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:ghug: :ghug: to everyone as we continue to remember someone so special and the people in his life who loved him so much.
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ALREADY 29 MONTHS...TIME FLIES LIKE AN ARROW,BUT IT CAN'T TAKE YOUR MEMORY FROM US.REST IN PEACE,MY SWEET ANGEL...
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Actually it's 29 months already... two years and 5 months. It's hard to believe how the time passes. :(
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Actually it's 29 months already... two years and 5 months. It's hard to believe how the time passes. :(
Sorry,Keren...29 months...I don't know what I was thinking about... :-\\
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It's just hard to believe that all this time has passed, isn't it?
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It's just hard to believe that all this time has passed, isn't it?
Yes,it is...Maybe I have make this mistake because very often he's alive in my head and heart... :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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This is sad but also very beautiful... Heath crossing over.. I know he lives on some where..
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This is sad but also very beautiful... Heath crossing over.. I know he lives on some where..
I suppose he may live now in a better world,altogether with all our beloved beings that we have lost in this one.But I'm sure,much more still,that he lives on our hearts,souls and heads and I believe and wish he will live there forever... <^(
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I miss Heath. I don't come here often, but you can be sure I miss him a lot. I have a pop painting (black and white) of him above my bed in my bedroom. I'll never forget him. :_(
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I miss Heath. I don't come here often, but you can be sure I miss him a lot. I have a pop painting (black and white) of him above my bed in my bedroom. I'll never forget him. :_(
That's cool...Heath was one of those talented, real people that do not come along often enough and the fact that he left this world way too soon makes it so hard to understand. I find myself wondering what he would have been like as an older man and the joy he found in his acting would have brought us so much more to keep in our memories. I 'm sure he would have been such a great dad to Matilda and maybe more children. Some times it just makes me so sad that he had to leave his loved ones and all of us who loved him and his work. I feel like I can express my feelings toward him in here because everyone understands.
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I miss you :_( :_(
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To think how many hours of joy you could have brought to us and never will,makes me sad...I will always love you,my favorite cowboy.
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It's just hard to believe that all this time has passed, isn't it?
It is so hard to believe. Isn't it Keren? It still feels like an awful dream that I think everyone wants to wake up from. The time that passes just doesn't take away that feeling that it just can't be real.
Theresa
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After some weeks or so of not purposely looking at pictures of Heath...right now it is breaking my heart and I have tears for the loss of him, tears for everyone who loves him and who he loved. And yes, one of the things that stabs at my heart the most is his not being able to be with Matilda as she grows up, and her not having this most incredible dad ever.
This picture, MPJ, is quite exquisite. But I thought to myself (and now my tears are drying from laughter): okay, fine, staring off into the infinite is great and all...but our Heath was too damn busy for too much of that! "Wherever" he is, somehow his brilliantly creative spirit must be active somehow.
kathy
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After some weeks or so of not purposely looking at pictures of Heath...right now it is breaking my heart and I have tears for the loss of him, tears for everyone who loves him and who he loved. And yes, one of the things that stabs at my heart the most is his not being able to be with Matilda as she grows up, and her not having this most incredible dad ever.
I know... :_(
I miss him. Sounds absurd, to miss someone I've never met. But he should be out there, working on some project, or just being a dad, and the idea that he's not... the mind still can't really grasp that.
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It's just hard to believe that all this time has passed, isn't it?
I haven't been around this thread, and really this entire forum in quite some time, but I was just passing through and decided to take a look at this thread and noticed this post. Time is flying. It's really and truly flying. It's hard to believe that by now it has been 2 1/2 years and we're quickly approaching year 3. It certainly doesn't feel like it has been that long but when you sit and let your mind think for awhile.. it definitely has been almost 3 years.
Fortunately, I have been able to get myself to a place where his passing doesn't affect me negatively the way it once did. I'll always wish he'd still be here, but I've also accepted that he's gone and it sounds strange, but one of the best things in the world is to move forward and look back on Heath and the short time he was here and smile in remembrance instead of letting it get you down and ruin your day.
Hope you're all doing well :^^)
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I haven't been around this thread, and really this entire forum in quite some time, but I was just passing through and decided to take a look at this thread and noticed this post. Time is flying. It's really and truly flying. It's hard to believe that by now it has been 2 1/2 years and we're quickly approaching year 3. It certainly doesn't feel like it has been that long but when you sit and let your mind think for awhile.. it definitely has been almost 3 years.
Fortunately, I have been able to get myself to a place where his passing doesn't affect me negatively the way it once did. I'll always wish he'd still be here, but I've also accepted that he's gone and it sounds strange, but one of the best things in the world is to move forward and look back on Heath and the short time he was here and smile in remembrance instead of letting it get you down and ruin your day.
Hope you're all doing well :^^)
Oh carby, it's good to see you here! I remember we talked on the phone shortly after Heath had passed, and even back then you were determined not to let it get you down, not to sink into depression... and you also had your new baby to concentrate on. I understand your reasons to stay away, and maybe that's one of the things that helped you get to where you are.
Thinking about Heath doesn't depress me the same way it used to. I used to cry so much... not anymore. And yes, I mostly remember him with a smile, but with it often comes this little stab at my heart. I think about him in gratitude, but it's always mixed with sadness on some level.
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Thinking about Heath doesn't depress me the same way it used to. I used to cry so much... not anymore. And yes, I mostly remember him with a smile, but with it often comes this little stab at my heart. I think about him in gratitude, but it's always mixed with sadness on some level.
I know exactly what you mean, Keren, this is how i feel about Heath now. And it's so sad, and completely unbelievable, that in a few months it will be 3 years since he died... :-\\ :(
I found myself watching the Logo "Making of" BBM special yesterday - I don't think I've watched that since the heady days when I'd just discovered BBM for the first time and I was watching everything I could get my hands on that was BBM-related. It was wonderful to see again and remember the excitement of going behind the scenes to find out what went on in making this masterpiece. But there was one part that really stopped me short. A wrangler employed to get Heath and Jake into shape as authentic cowboys described how well they did in the short time they had to learn the ropes, mainly because they did most of the stunts themselves, and he said that if anyone needed actors in the future with experience such as this, then they would know who to cast - and it then showed Heath, in character as Ennis, looking so natural riding his horse - and those words and the image of Heath made me sad beyond words, because he's no longer here. :_( :_( :_(
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I know exactly what you mean, Keren, this is how i feel about Heath now. And it's so sad, and completely unbelievable, that in a few months it will be 3 years since he died... :-\\ :(
I found myself watching the Logo "Making of" BBM special yesterday - I don't think I've watched that since the heady days when I'd just discovered BBM for the first time and I was watching everything I could get my hands on that was BBM-related. It was wonderful to see again and remember the excitement of going behind the scenes to find out what went on in making this masterpiece. But there was one part that really stopped me short. A wrangler employed to get Heath and Jake into shape as authentic cowboys described how well they did in the short time they had to learn the ropes, mainly because they did most of the stunts themselves, and he said that if anyone needed actors in the future with experience such as this, then they would know who to cast - and it then showed Heath, in character as Ennis, looking so natural riding his horse - and those words and the image of Heath made me sad beyond words, because he's no longer here. :_( :_( :_(
That's exactly the kind of things that gets me too. I should watch that "Making of" special again.
I read something in today's newspaper, some reporter talked about movies and said that these days people don't go to see movies because of the actors, but because of the directors behind them. He mentioned movies like Avatar, where the hero is not a specific actor but people wanted to see it because it's a James Cameron movie. He said that the big names in the movie industry today are not the actors but the directors - Cameron, Nolan, the Cohen brothers. And all I could think of was, you wouldn't be saying that if Heath was still here. Because Heath would've been the one quality actor whose name would still draw people to the cinema. And what made The Dark Knight such a blockbuster wasn't just Christopher Nolan's name that was attached to it, it was above all Heath as the Joker. There might not be many actors these days who can do that, but Heath could. He was that good, and I had the feeling that even this reporter would have to admit it.
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That's exactly the kind of things that gets me too. I should watch that "Making of" special again.
I read something in today's newspaper, some reporter talked about movies and said that these days people don't go to see movies because of the actors, but because of the directors behind them. He mentioned movies like Avatar, where the hero is not a specific actor but people wanted to see it because it's a James Cameron movie. He said that the big names in the movie industry today are not the actors but the directors - Cameron, Nolan, the Cohen brothers. And all I could think of was, you wouldn't be saying that if Heath was still here. Because Heath would've been the one quality actor whose name would still draw people to the cinema. And what made The Dark Knight such a blockbuster wasn't just Christopher Nolan's name that was attached to it, it was above all Heath as the Joker. There might not be many actors these days who can do that, but Heath could. He was that good, and I had the feeling that even this reporter would have to admit it.
I know, I think that too, and it's that sense of a loss of talent and his fans who will never see him on screen again, to see what he would do next, and after that, and after that..........we'll never get that chance again :_(
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Oh carby, it's good to see you here! I remember we talked on the phone shortly after Heath had passed, and even back then you were determined not to let it get you down, not to sink into depression... and you also had your new baby to concentrate on. I understand your reasons to stay away, and maybe that's one of the things that helped you get to where you are.
Thinking about Heath doesn't depress me the same way it used to. I used to cry so much... not anymore. And yes, I mostly remember him with a smile, but with it often comes this little stab at my heart. I think about him in gratitude, but it's always mixed with sadness on some level.
I remember that day on the phone like it was yesterday, that's for sure. It's crazy to think that my son was just 7 days old when it happened. He's 2 1/2 now and if I want to let myself get down I just look at him and I see how big he's gotten and realize he's almost a reflection of just how long Heath has been gone, so I try not to let my mind wander to a dark place like that.
I'd be lying if I tried to say that I was quickly able to pull myself out of sadness over Heath, because that absolutely was not true at all. I barely remember most of 2008 because I was so down. The worst part is, I barely remember the first few months of my son's life because of Heath's death, coupled with postpartum depression. It was a mess, an absolute mess.
It took me a little over a year to really start working towards not dwelling on something I can't change. It was right after the Oscars, I believe. Granted, I had a few other things going on in my life that acted as catalysts in getting myself back on my feet again. I am very much a person that learns lessons from everything that happens to me in life. I am a far different person than I was 2 1/2 years ago, but for the better now.
There are still days where I just cannot comprehend what happened, especially days that I see a picture or read something about Matilda. It is completely unfair for her to grow up without Heath in her life and that'll be something that I will never get over. My heart hurts for that little girl every single day. I can't imagine either of my children not having their father in their lives, especially my own daughter, who is only about a month younger than Matilda is. I see first hand the things that Heath is missing out on and it breaks my heart.
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I remember that day on the phone like it was yesterday, that's for sure. It's crazy to think that my son was just 7 days old when it happened. He's 2 1/2 now and if I want to let myself get down I just look at him and I see how big he's gotten and realize he's almost a reflection of just how long Heath has been gone, so I try not to let my mind wander to a dark place like that.
I'd be lying if I tried to say that I was quickly able to pull myself out of sadness over Heath, because that absolutely was not true at all. I barely remember most of 2008 because I was so down. The worst part is, I barely remember the first few months of my son's life because of Heath's death, coupled with postpartum depression. It was a mess, an absolute mess.
It took me a little over a year to really start working towards not dwelling on something I can't change. It was right after the Oscars, I believe. Granted, I had a few other things going on in my life that acted as catalysts in getting myself back on my feet again. I am very much a person that learns lessons from everything that happens to me in life. I am a far different person than I was 2 1/2 years ago, but for the better now.
There are still days where I just cannot comprehend what happened, especially days that I see a picture or read something about Matilda. It is completely unfair for her to grow up without Heath in her life and that'll be something that I will never get over. My heart hurts for that little girl every single day. I can't imagine either of my children not having their father in their lives, especially my own daughter, who is only about a month younger than Matilda is. I see first hand the things that Heath is missing out on and it breaks my heart.
That must be so hard. Your children are a constant remainder for you and thinking about it is absolutely heartbreaking. Like you said, knowing what he misses with his daughter, all the things you get to experience and he can't. That's the biggest tragedy, his little girl was more important to him than anything. :_(
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Carbyville, :ghug: The date of your son's birthday will be forever something very special for you,and not only because he's your son; a new life's arrival was joined with the death of a young person,too young for not being able to give all what he had inside anymore... :_( But Heath can be also an example for enjoying your son's luck for having such a loving parents and try to be such a good person as you are and as Heath was for his daughter.Every single tragedy can mean an impulse to improve our life,as Heath had done and would have wanted for his family,friends and for all of us,his fans. :_( :_( :_(
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Carbyville, :ghug: The date of your son's birthday will be forever something very special for you,and not only because he's your son; a new life's arrival was joined with the death of a young person,too young for not being able to give all what he had inside anymore... :_( But Heath can be also an example for enjoying your son's luck for having such a loving parents and try to be such a good person as you are and as Heath was for his daughter.Every single tragedy can mean an impulse to improve our life,as Heath had done and would have wanted for his family,friends and for all of us,his fans. :_( :_( :_(
MPJ, this is so wonderfully put, especially the bolded sentence. What wonderful insight! :^^)
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MPJ, this is so wonderfully put, especially the bolded sentence. What wonderful insight! :^^)
:t) so much for your kind words,Carbyville ¡ I don't know if I had written them in a beautiful way,but I can declare that I did it in the truest way,that's it...In this sense,Heath's premature passing away must learn us to create everyday a better and more creative life for ourselves and our beloved beings.Miss you,my angel. :_(
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I just watched some videos of Heath on youtube. What finally broke me was a tribute video to the song "he was a friend of mine" and that just brought back the tears. :_(
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I just watched some videos of Heath on youtube. What finally broke me was a tribute video to the song "he was a friend of mine" and that just brought back the tears. :_(
Keren, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Yes,he was a friend of us; even if we did never meet him,it was as if we were real friends since several years ago... :_(
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TIME IS PASSING,BUT YOU ARE STILL ALIVE IN OUR MINDS AND SOULS...
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i saw michelle on magazine W Cover with Ryan Gossling.i dont know why but i feel very bad bout Heath
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I haven't been to this thread in a while but felt drawn to come in today and have a peek. And then I realized it's the 22nd. Strange coincidences.
mpj, that's a beautiful picture. :ghug:
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Dear Alicia, your picture is wonderful !
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He is still alive in our hearts O0
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Heath has been in my thoughts a lot lately and not when I'm thinking about Brokeback or any movie he was in. All of a sudden he's just there, some times I can even feel a presence. I hope that doesn't sound weird but that's how it seems to me. He was so special.
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Heath has been in my thoughts a lot lately and not when I'm thinking about Brokeback or any movie he was in. All of a sudden he's just there, some times I can even feel a presence. I hope that doesn't sound weird but that's how it seems to me. He was so special.
Oh wow, that sounds really special! I saw a tv-program the other day (http://www.sbs6.nl/web/show/id=1315192/langid=43 (http://www.sbs6.nl/web/show/id=1315192/langid=43)) where this girl was able to see and talk to her parted uncle, and feel the presence of a lot of other people. She was very young and would not deal with it at this moment in her young live. So her 'portal' was closed (for the time being).
I think it would be wonderful to feel Heath so close. Precious! <^( Enjoy!
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It's not weird at all rimasworld. You feel what you feel and what a nice presence to sense around you. :ghug:
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SO FAR AWAY AND,HOWEVER,SO CLOSE...
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I spent some time reading about Heath yesterday, something I haven't done in a long time. It made me feel sad and empty. Then it hit me again today, and as if it wasn't bad enough, I decided to watch the tribute video that we made for him when he passed. Maybe it's the upcoming 3rd anniversary, I don't know, but I think about him and feel a pain in my chest.
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Keren, :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: I think all of us have had or still have this feeling one day or another...Sometimes,no matter how long a person is away from us;on the contrary,the longer it's,the sadder we feel...
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I still feel sadness, Keren. Especially after hearing Michelle talk about him. I can't believe it's almost 3 years
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I know... :_(
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I know... :_(
yup :(
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I think about him a lot. He had this presence about him like I knew him even though I didn't have that honor.
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With the 3rd anniversary of Heath's death so close, I watched Casanova last night in tribute (couldn't face Brokeback or any other movie where he played a troubled character)
God, he was beautiful... :_(
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I've been watching a lot of tribute videos lately, interviews, the awards he won for The Dark Knight... he's on my mind so much. I can't believe that it's three years already, it doesn't feel that long to me. I still remember the moment I found out so clearly.
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You will be eternally missed, but you will never be forgotten. :_(
Heath Ledger - Hallelujah - Anniversary Tribute (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAsCdIcZeew#)
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Still grieving, boy do I miss you, your potential, your dimples, your craft.
You are being missed...forever :-(
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It's storming this morning in usually beautiful South Florida. At first I thought, "seems right, a beautiful day would not make sense today." But then I thought, actually that's not right, a beautiful day is more like he lived his life.
I'd like to think if he were here today he'd being doing something fun, like surfing or something. Of course he'd likely be working, making some amazing movie we'd all be looking forward to, thinking to himself, "I'll have fun tomorrow, there's plenty of time." So if any of you all feel like doing something great today....stop thinking about it, and go do it!
Luv y'all today and everyday :ghug:
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I was trying to think of something to say here today, then I heard this song.
Heath did so much in his 28 years and he will be remembered, always.
"Only Remembered"
Fading away like the stars in the morning
Losing their light in the glorious sun
Thus shall we pass from this earth and its toiling
Only remembered for what we have done
Only remembered, only remembered
Only remembered for what we have done
Thus shall we pass from this earth and its toiling
Only remembered for what we have done
Only the truth that in life we have spoken
Only the seeds that in life we have sown
These shall pass onwards when we are forgotten
Only remembered for what we have done
Only remembered, only remembered
Only remembered for what we have done
Thus shall we pass from this earth and its toiling
Only remembered for what we have done
Who'll sing the anthem and who'll tell the story
Will the line hold, will it scatter and run
Will we at last be united in glory
Only remembered for what we have done
Only remembered, only remembered
Only remembered for what we have done
Thus shall we pass from this earth and its toiling
Only remembered for what we have done
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His legacy lives on....let's celebrate what he had achieved. :ghug: Heath, thank you.
Heath Ledger Post-Award Best Supporting Actor Joker Tribute - Oscar SAG BAFTA Golden Globe 2009 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_T500KcaiY#)
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His legacy lives on....let's celebrate what he had achieved. :ghug: Heath, thank you.
Yes he does and yes we will
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THREE YEARS...DAMN ¡ :_( :_( :_(
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rip sweetheart. forever in our hearts
:^^) :-*
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Time to get going, cowboy...
Anything interesting up there in heaven? :_( (:*
Rest in peace...
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I will never forget you Sweet Angel
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Heath I know your beautiful energy lives on some where beyond this earth but I miss you so much and wish you were still here with us. I was so sad the day I heard of your sudden passing and I am still sad knowing we will never see your sweet face until maybe we meet on the other side. But I love feeling your presence when I am not even thinking about you and that gives me hope and even a little happiness. R.I.P Dear Heath
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His legacy lives on....let's celebrate what he had achieved. :ghug: Heath, thank you.
Heath Ledger Post-Award Best Supporting Actor Joker Tribute - Oscar SAG BAFTA Golden Globe 2009 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_T500KcaiY#)
Ethan, thank you so much for posting this. Perfect to fill me with Heath in all his glory today. :_( <^(
kathy
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His legacy lives on....let's celebrate what he had achieved. :ghug: Heath, thank you.
Heath Ledger Post-Award Best Supporting Actor Joker Tribute - Oscar SAG BAFTA Golden Globe 2009 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_T500KcaiY#)
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I will never forget you Sweet Angel
Thank you, Cham and Ethan for this!!! :^^) <^(
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[In Loving Memory...] Heath Ledger Tribute (3 Years Today) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRutgRd4lLM#ws)
RIP :( Can't believe it's been three years already! :(
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[In Loving Memory...] Heath Ledger Tribute (3 Years Today) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRutgRd4lLM#ws)
RIP :( Can't believe it's been three years already! :(
mrhoax, I moved your post to this thread, it seemed like the right place. Thank you for this beautiful video. :ghug:
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[In Loving Memory...] Heath Ledger Tribute (3 Years Today) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRutgRd4lLM#ws)
RIP :( Can't believe it's been three years already! :(
Thank you, mrhoax. It is beautiful. :ghug:
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May your journey continue with joy and happiness in the time & place where you appear.
Requiem aeternum, per omnia.
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Thanks for the lovely video, MH. I love all the quotes, the images, the music, but most of all, the last bit, when Heath walks to the light. Brilliant. Well done.
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Thanks for the lovely video, MH. I love all the quotes, the images, the music, but most of all, the last bit, when Heath walks to the light. Brilliant. Well done.
I can't but quote Lance's words,one by one ¡ Thank you for this lovely memory of our Heath ¡ :^^)
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I don't know what has happenned to me this January 22Th...Some other Heath's anniversaries hadn't touched me-I'd say better "beaten"me...-like this last one.Even if during some of them I had been overcoming a depression or,at least,some hard times from which I feel much more recovered,I hadn't been so sad as now.I'm thinking about him all day long since the day before his 3rd anniversary and most of the time,I can't avoid crying as I did when everything was more recent.
Maybe because this last 22nd has been,as we say here,"a round date"; it's to say,not 2 years and 6,8 or 10 months,but the exact date when he died.3 years already...What obliges you to remember when and where you received the news,how you felt just after this,all the feelings that all of us shared those days,all the things that were said...Yes,surely everything is due to this,but it's sure too that I'm suffering from a kind of PBS or better said,a kind of PHS... :_(
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MPJ, :ghug: I understand what you means. It will be the day for many of us to remember.
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:ghug: :ghug:
It's hard to believe it's been three years. It still seems almost like a horrible dream. But it really is heartening to see the love and celebration expressed here by all of you. Cham, I especially loved that image of Heath over the fountain in the park. :^^)
Rest in peace beautiful boy. And thank you for sharing your gifts with us while you were here.
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I can't believe it's been 3 years either. When I watched the GG I was thinking Heath should be there being honored like the rest of the actors, only he'd have been more outstanding.
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Thank you guys! <3
Heath deserved to be remembered in every light <3
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Today,our Heath would have been 32...Happy birthday,honey,wherever you are now... :_( :_( :_(
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*sigh* :_(
It should've been a happy day, but it can't be when he's not here to celebrate it.
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*sigh* :_(
It should've been a happy day, but it can't be when he's not here to celebrate it.
:_(
I thought about him all day yesterday. But couldn't even bring myself to post...
Can't believe he was robbed of turning 32. Can't believe it was two years ago I got my Heath-inspired tattoo on the 4th of April.
The pain's still raw for me. :( I can't post about it much anymore, but it is still unbelievably intense...
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: ((((Hugs))))
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*sigh* :_(
It should've been a happy day, but it can't be when he's not here to celebrate it.
:ghug: too bad we don"t have a sad hug emoticon xxx
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they had TDK last night on TV...
and again, what an amazing performance... (:*
but i kept looking at his hands, at the little wink of his eyes and that little mischievous smile of his, coming through despite that terrific mask... ::)
gawd i miss him.... :_(
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they had TDK last night on TV...
and again, what an amazing performance... (:*
but i kept looking at his hands, at the little wink of his eyes and that little mischievous smile of his, coming through despite that terrific mask... ::)
gawd i miss him.... :_(
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I had a dream about Heath last night. I can't remember too many details... I dreamed that he was hanging around with me and a couple of my friends, it was after the break up from Michelle and he was really down. We tried to look after him and helped him hide from the paparazzi. I just wasn't ready for the wave of pain that assaulted me when I woke up... all at once I was hit by the realization of how much I love him and miss him and it really hurt. Couldn't get him out of my head all day. :_(
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I had a dream about Heath last night. We were riding around in a very small red car and he was driving. The streets were like going up and down rolling hills. I think we might have been in San Francisco. We were laughing and talking, having a really great time and then I woke up. It seemed so real...
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I had a dream about Heath last night. I can't remember too many details... I dreamed that he was hanging around with me and a couple of my friends, it was after the break up from Michelle and he was really down. We tried to look after him and helped him hide from the paparazzi. I just wasn't ready for the wave of pain that assaulted me when I woke up... all at once I was hit by the realization of how much I love him and miss him and it really hurt. Couldn't get him out of my head all day. :_(
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Keren and RW, :ghug: :ghug: I also dreamed on him few time after his passing away and,gosh ¡ it seemed so f@#ng real... :_(
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Keren and RW, :ghug: :ghug: I also dreamed on him few time after his passing away and,gosh ¡ it seemed so f@#ng real... :_(
Yes and many times I don't remember my dreams, but these are really vivid. Strange how you can feel the presence of someone you didn't even know personally. My partner used to say to me that he felt like he was going to die, could sense it. This was over the last year. The doctor who he had been going to for quite a few years did a stress test which showed a dark area on his heart. He said come back in six months and he would do another. Well, my partner didn't like that and went for a second opinion and in 1 week he was in the hospital having 2 valves replaced that we not functioning. The doctor who did the surgery told him if he hadn't gone for a second opinion he would have not doubt died. His premonition was right. I am so thankful he didn't die.
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I'm happy for both of you,RW ¡ :ghug: Yes,sometimes people have a kind of premonition,haven't they? We feel or guess something is going to happen to us or to a beloved being; the same than sometimes we feel or guess too the presence and the attitude of someone who isn't here anymore...Maybe it's due to this part of our brain that rules our esoteric side or whatever you call it...But I coincide with you in that the dream about Heath was really vivid.Surely because we felt he was a close-far friend. :_(
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I'm happy for both of you,RW ¡ :ghug: Yes,sometimes people have a kind of premonition,haven't they? We feel or guess something is going to happen to us or to a beloved being; the same than sometimes we feel or guess too the presence and the attitude of someone who isn't here anymore...Maybe it's due to this part of our brain that rules our esoteric side or whatever you call it...But I coincide with you in that the dream about Heath was really vivid.Surely because we felt he was a close-far friend. :_(
Yes MPJ he did seem like a friend, I think because everyone who knew him told of how kind and beautiful he was as a person. I will never understand why those people have to leave us so soon.
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I was watching TIODP today and the last time we will ever see Heath on screen is when he is going through the mirror into another dimension. Although the scene is not sad I teared up because this is almost what really happened to him.
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A dream I had about Heath: It was like he was on a fashion runway, and was all these different personae. He was definitely not alive in terms of this world, but was nonetheless a physical presence, though with an ethereal light. He was going up and down the runway as, e.g., a starship captain [I was at a Star Trek convention], a very femme-y fashion model, a total grunge guy, a businessman, others I can't remember. Of course he was so beautiful, no matter what his guise.
I was the only person there, and when he was on a break I went up to him to talk. It was so wonderful. I told him I loved him, and was sorry he passed on. He said, don't be. He said he was very, very fine and happy, and also that he had the yin to his yang, was with his soulmate.
I carried him around in my head and heart all that next day...
kathy
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oh kathy.... :ghug:
what a beautiful yet strange dream...
.. was with his soulmate.... :s)
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Yes,it's a beautiful dream...He's with his soulmate... :_( :_( :_( If it's true that he's happy now in his new home,I'd be happier too ¡...
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I had to come in here and read these wonderful posts because I was upset today. I made the mistake of re-reading the events of that Jan 22 and for the life of me I cannot understand why that massage woman waited so long to call 911 when she found Heath in bed unresponsive. Why did she call that Mary-Kate who was clear across the US in California? How could she help the situation? I got very disturbed and angry reading this again. I know we can "What If(?)" forever but what if things had been different that day and someone had made that 911 call immediately, would it had made a difference? I miss him so much and can just imagine how much his family and friends do. Reading your posts gives me some peace and hope that he is happy and still enjoying a life somewhere else.
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I understand how you feel, rimasworld... I try to avoid articles or videos about the circumstances of his death myself because I know how much it would upset me. If it makes any difference, I don't think that phone call changed anything either way, I think he was already dead when she found him... :_( but yes, I do ask myself sometimes "what if" - what if someone had found him earlier, when it was still possible to save him. It's so painful to think about it. He just wanted to sleep... and he couldn't know that he would never wake up. :_( :_(
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Grace Woodroofe - H (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y8F1LYoFymw#)
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This is so beautiful and heartbreaking. I looked up who Grace is. I never knew that Heath helped her with her career. Why oh why did he have to leave us so soon? :_(
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Keren, that's just beautiful. :_( I can go long stretches where I don't even think about him that much and then...there he'll be. Just the other day I was wandering through the aisle of the video store and there he was twice over - the boxes for Candy and Casanova staring me in the face. And as I always do, I had to stop for a moment and just look at him. There are still songs that bring him instantly to mind as well. This one I imagine will be an eternal tear jerker.
You will never be forgotten if you touch people and in doing so leave a little piece of yourself behind for them.
He did that for us and for that we can always be grateful. :ghug:
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This is so beautiful and heartbreaking. I looked up who Grace is. I never knew that Heath helped her with her career. Why oh why did he have to leave us so soon? :_(
Yes, the lyrics are heartbreaking. Grace was a friend of Heath`s little sister Ashleigh, and that`s how he got to hear her music. He loved it so much that he actually flew her over to the U.S. to work with her on her album. He also directed a video for her - a cover of David Bowie`s Quicksand. I`m still waiting to see it.
You will never be forgotten if you touch people and in doing so leave a little piece of yourself behind for them.
So true. And it`s amazing how many lives he`d touched.
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Nothing brings Heath to mind like standing next to the place where he stood, sitting at the spot where he sat, watching him/Ennis looking excitedly on the stair's landing, bouncing two three steps at a time to get at Jack. It was always a tearful moment on the pilgrimage, especially next to the stairs, next to the post office (seeing not just one scene, but two, of his mailing "You bet" and whistling away, then the heartbreaking returned postcard marked Deceased), at the table, number 25, in the diner, sitting on the little grassy slop, waiting on Jack. Strangely enough, lying on the rocks, next to the sweet life river, it was merely just like any other spot, or the Basque bridge was the same. I guess some parts of the movie has more resonance within than others.
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I know what you mean. Heath was in my heart the whole time during this trip.
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I know what you mean. Heath was in my heart the whole time during this trip.
Yeah, sometimes it was hard talking with you, because I always felt like on the verge of tears. I guess that was just as well, because I was told recently that I talked too much. :c)
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Nothing brings Heath to mind like standing next to the place where he stood, sitting at the spot where he sat, watching him/Ennis looking excitedly on the stair's landing, bouncing two three steps at a time to get at Jack. It was always a tearful moment on the pilgrimage, especially next to the stairs, next to the post office (seeing not just one scene, but two, of his mailing "You bet" and whistling away, then the heartbreaking returned postcard marked Deceased), at the table, number 25, in the diner, sitting on the little grassy slop, waiting on Jack. Strangely enough, lying on the rocks, next to the sweet life river, it was merely just like any other spot, or the Basque bridge was the same. I guess some parts of the movie has more resonance within than others.
I know what you mean. Heath was in my heart the whole time during this trip.
((((Andrew and Keren)))) I can't even fathom what that must have been like......
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Keren, that's just beautiful. :_( I can go long stretches where I don't even think about him that much and then...there he'll be. Just the other day I was wandering through the aisle of the video store and there he was twice over - the boxes for Candy and Casanova staring me in the face. And as I always do, I had to stop for a moment and just look at him. There are still songs that bring him instantly to mind as well. This one I imagine will be an eternal tear jerker.
You will never be forgotten if you touch people and in doing so leave a little piece of yourself behind for them.
He did that for us and for that we can always be grateful. :ghug:
((((Barb)))) Hi sweetie!! It has been so, so long.....I have missed camp so much. I've been in touch with the Facebook Brokies, but Brokies like you that I'm not connected to on FB, I have just missed loads. :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
I know just what you mean. I can go stretches without thinking about him, but then....there he is. A song, a word, anything can remind me. Even a new guy I've been seeing reminds me sooo much of Heath...there is quite the resemblance, and he has exactly the same eyes, I kid you not. So lately I've been thinking of Heath more than usual. I miss him.....
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: Hope you're well, Barb, and Brokies!! xoxo
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after the trip i was wondering how long it would take, but now it happened... i dreamed of heath... :-\\
a very young heath..
we were sitting at a panoramic window, i held his hand, no i really clang to it.. he was smiling, and telling me about filming, that sometimes you get hurt. he showed me his upper left tigh where he had a burn mark (?)
i started to quietly cry and didn't want him to see, but he just embraced me, and hugged me.. said that i didn't have to feel sorry for him..
but i rather felt sorry for me... :-\\
somebody called him, and he took my hand and said, come with me.. but i somehow lost him in a rush of people..
must say that i woke up sad, really sad... :-\\
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tizi... :ghug:
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tizi... :ghug:
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Here are a few tributes and their stories that were posted on Findingbrokeback. Very moving. :_(
http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/HeathTribute.html (http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/HeathTribute.html)
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A cowboy hat worn by Brokeback Mountain star Heath Ledger sits on Table 25 in the Java Shop alongside roses sent by an admirer following the actor’s death.
THE MACLEOD GAZETTE
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Tribute to dead actor sent to Java Shop
FRANK MCTIGHE
MACLEOD GAZETTE EDITOR
The death of a Hollywood star touched Fort Macleod.
A rose was delivered every day for four days last week to Table 25 in the Java Shop, made famous by Heath Ledger in a scene from Brokeback Mountain.
“They have been delivering one flower a day,” Java Shop owner Vasant Patel said Friday.
Ledger, who starred as Ennis del Mar in the award-winning 2005 movie, died January 22 in an apartment he rented in the SoHo district of New York City.
Patel, who placed the cowboy hat Ledger wore in Brokeback Mountain on the table beside the roses, said Table 25 has been popular since the movie debuted.
“People want to see where he sat down and ate,” Patel said.
The groundbreaking movie about two gay cowboys gained fans world-wide, and they made pilgrimages to Fort Macleod to see first-hand scenes where the movie was shot.
“I had a lady from Japan,” Patel marveled.
Brokeback Mountain fans would often come to the Java Shop, determine which table was the one at which Ledger sat, and then order apple pie just as Ennis del Mar ate in the scene. “They come from all over the world,” Patel said.
People often made a day trip from Calgary to visit Table 25, while others came from as far away as Germany and Switzerland.
The scene filmed in the Java Shop was a pivotal one in which Ennis del Mar was confronted by his girlfriend Cassie and officially ended his relationship with her. People who sought out the real-life places in which the movie was shot found the Java Shop welcoming.
“You could go in and become a part of it for a short time,” said Lauren Gurney, who has done research for the Internet site www.findingbrokeback.com (http://www.findingbrokeback.com).
“There was life there, life that was welcoming to fans of the movie. You could make a connection if you wanted to, or just sit there with your apple pie and coffee and replay the scene in your mind.”
In an e-mail interview, Gurney said it’s not surprising the movie is so popular. “It’s a tragic love story, first and foremost, and it resonates with people for different reasons, depending upon what baggage they bring to the theater with them,” Gurney explained.
“For many, this was their life playing out on the screen, and not only for homosexuals. Opportunities missed or not taken, feelings denied or covered up—these themes apply to everybody. For others it was about a certain part of their being that was lost somewhere while growing up, and they wanted to regain that. Whatever the personal reason, it packed a huge emotional punch for a great number of people.”
The daily roses were delivered to the Java Shop from Village Greenery and Gifts in Fort Macleod.
The actor’s death gained international attention on Internet discussion boards on Web sites dedicated to Brokeback Mountain, including www.davecullen.com/brokeback (http://www.davecullen.com/brokeback) and www.bettermost.net (http://www.bettermost.net).
http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/Memoriam_Frame.html (http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/Memoriam_Frame.html)
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As “Mouk” wrote:
“Here are a few words to explain the flowers in the snow [at Campsite #2]…
After a deeply moving visit of the filming sites in July with the Bettermost “Pilgrimage” [www.bettermost.net] I had planned to return to Alberta for my second BBM anniversary, on January 26th, to be “closer to Ennis and Jack” who have done so much for me and many of us. Little did I know that it would be in tears that I would walk down Ennis’s fight hill on my way to the Camp where they were once “flying in the euphoric, bitter air, ... suspended above ordinary affairs ...” [1]
It was a glorious afternoon, the snow was glittering, so pure, covering the bridge, the spot where they had embraced, the fire area, the mountains all around. The river was full of life, flowing fast between its icy banks. Close to where Ennis had set up the tent, I found a spot sheltered from the wind and from non Brokie eyes. There I put spring flowers for hope and also live flowers because Heath will live within us as long as we are alive. We owe him so much! The colours were among those he seemed to like: orange, yellow and red—those of a sunset. Or a sunrise. The bridge was visible in the distance as Heath would have seen it from the tent, the only sounds were the wind, the river and chirping birds. There was such peace and beauty, and something so special in the air and in the light, I would not be surprised if Heath was hovering, smiling over what he had done for us.
I spent a long time there with him, remembering what he had given us; remembering also the happy times spent in this Camp with fellow Brokies in the summer. And thanking Heath on behalf of all of us. As I was lost in my thoughts I suddenly had the eerie feeling that something was happening: the live flowers were slowly turning away from the light, towards the cut tulips and bending over them—the living taking care of the one whose life was cut too short.”
Heath Ledger Remembered
http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/Memoriam_Frame.html (http://www.findingbrokeback.com/Memoriam/Memoriam_Frame.html)
During the course of our travels within southern Alberta, and our interviews with those who made Brokeback Mountain, we were told many things about Heath Ledger by those who had the rare privilege of working with him. He is fondly remembered by them as a deeply committed artist, a generous friend, and one who dearly loved this life. We are honored to share a few of their recollections here.
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Ang Lee insisted on perfect lighting for the Basque Bridge scene. In the hours that the cast and crew waited patiently for the sun and clouds to cooperate, Ledger took off his shirt and hung from the underside of the bridge, clowning around, greatly amusing the crew.
Ken Zilka (Roughneck #1) said that Ledger was so determined to make the Thanksgiving street fight realistic that he accidentally broke Zilka’s nose. And, of course, Ledger insisted on doing his own stunt work for the cliff jump.
David Trimble (the Basque) remembers the experience of working with Ledger and Gyllenhaal as “amazing.”
“Massive auras, massive auras in terms of, well, they’re brilliant, they’re gorgeous. Let’s just call it for what it is—they’re gorgeous human beings. And that’s part of what the aura is. And so, you’ve got to work with them, so you’ve got to get inside that aura. And once you get in you realize that they’re just a couple of kids, having a good time, enjoying what they’re doing, and fun. Just as interested in me as I was in them. Had some great conversations, had some great laughs, and yeah, they’re just a couple of really good looking young guys. Super fun to work with and super relaxed.”
First Assistant Director Pierre Tremblay said Ledger accidentally landed on top of Michelle Williams while they were shooting the toboggan scene, injuring her knee. Tremblay recalls that Heath insisted on riding with her in the ambulance to the hospital in Canmore, presumably the first spark of their romance.
The proprietor of the Red Coat Motel in Fort Macleod, where a photo portrait of Ledger is proudly displayed, said Heath and Michelle shared a room while they stayed there, joking, “If only I’d saved the sheets!” To deter paparazzi, Ledger was registered as “Keith Fletcher.”
The bartender at the Blue Bar in Carseland (Signal Bar) said Ledger was “a bit of a [pain]” because he would not talk to anyone while he was preparing himself emotionally for that scene, so determined was he not to be “the one who fucked [the movie] up.”
The owner of the Lonesome Ranch said Ledger was very focused during his time there, working extensively with his diction coach, intently trying to sound “downtown Wyoming.”
Roberta Maxwell said that when her lines were to be shot, Ledger volunteered to be there, instead of a double. He was still in tears from doing his scene upstairs. She was touched by his gesture, an unusual professional courtesy, and has said it contributed greatly to her own performance.
In June 2004, while the production was based in Fort Macleod, Ledger visited the seedy Queen’s Hotel bar (Cassie’s Bar) and stayed up late, drinking with the locals. Some of the guys we met there remembered that. Unfamiliar with the Brokeback story line at the time, they jokingly offered to double for Heath in his movie’s sex scenes.
Larry Reese (Jolly Minister) mentioned to Heath that his daughter was a big fan of his earlier films. Without prompting, Ledger later presented Reese with a hand-written message of thanks to Reese’s daughter, an extraordinary kindness on the part of a celebrity who was mercilessly hounded for his autograph.
The owner of the Twist Ranch said that Heath waived union / guild work rules to allow the filmmakers to shoot late one day when they were trying to complete the critical scenes at that location.
During the shooting of the difficult fireworks scene in Fort Macleod, it rained very hard. The babies (twins were rotated to comply with child welfare regulations) were crying a lot. “Ledger held them like a father and calmed them down. He loved kids,” said a crowd extra who was positioned nearby.
A coincidence, Ledger’s sister gave birth to a set of twins while he was making the film. He is remembered as having been very frustrated that he could not be with her in Australia at the time.
Hannah Stewart (Alma, Jr., age 3) needed to have her hair darkened for the role. When she looked in the mirror after the dye job, she started to cry. Her father remembered that it was Heath who stepped up to calm her down and stop her from crying, saying that Ledger had a way with children that was “magical.”
And, as has been reported, it was Ledger’s inspiration to reverse the shirts for the final scene, never imagining that it was to become his own, enduring valediction. Yes, he really did get it, didn’t he?
A dedicated, loving, and vibrant presence has now passed on, but his legacy will endure, not simply in the form of a monumental work of art, but in the hearts and minds of those whose lives have been forever changed by it.
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after the trip i was wondering how long it would take, but now it happened... i dreamed of heath... :-\\
a very young heath..
we were sitting at a panoramic window, i held his hand, no i really clang to it.. he was smiling, and telling me about filming, that sometimes you get hurt. he showed me his upper left tigh where he had a burn mark (?)
i started to quietly cry and didn't want him to see, but he just embraced me, and hugged me.. said that i didn't have to feel sorry for him..
but i rather felt sorry for me... :-\\
somebody called him, and he took my hand and said, come with me.. but i somehow lost him in a rush of people..
must say that i woke up sad, really sad... :-\\
I suppose you woke up very sad,Tizi. The same than happenned with my dream about him,he would like you to come with him,but it's not your time still...Anyway,come here... :ghug:
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“For many, this was their life playing out on the screen, and not only for homosexuals. Opportunities missed or not taken, feelings denied or covered up—these themes apply to everybody...That's very right,one of the main reasons for the movie's success; and the way Heath went into Ennis's skin,too.Isn't strange that people from around the world come and visit the place he was sitting...Beautiful detail the one of the hat and the flowers; it has almost made me cry... :_(
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Soon,there will be four years since he became another star in the sky...
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after the trip i was wondering how long it would take, but now it happened... i dreamed of heath... :-\\
a very young heath..
we were sitting at a panoramic window, i held his hand, no i really clang to it.. he was smiling, and telling me about filming, that sometimes you get hurt. he showed me his upper left tigh where he had a burn mark (?)
i started to quietly cry and didn't want him to see, but he just embraced me, and hugged me.. said that i didn't have to feel sorry for him..
but i rather felt sorry for me... :-\\
somebody called him, and he took my hand and said, come with me.. but i somehow lost him in a rush of people..
must say that i woke up sad, really sad... :-\\
I only just read this...I dreamed of him a few nights ago. I think because Keren and I went to a few of his NYC spots :( still hurts
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I only just read this...I dreamed of him a few nights ago. I think because Keren and I went to a few of his NYC spots :( still hurts
it does, doesn't it?
i had a rush of emotions at broome street and all around where he used to live and walk... :_(
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it does, doesn't it?
i had a rush of emotions at broome street and all around where he used to live and walk... :_(
I know what you mean. I stood there looking at his apartment in Broome street and it was so hard to think that this was were he died. :_( And then walking to Washington Square where he liked to hang out and thinking, he probably used to walk these streets...
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yes, quite strange feeling... because 10 min before i was just happy jumping around in that wonderful town.. and then, there, i had the strangest feelings... :_(
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I know what you mean. I stood there looking at his apartment in Broome street and it was so hard to think that this was were he died. :_( And then walking to Washington Square where he liked to hang out and thinking, he probably used to walk these streets...
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I understand what you mean,girls...Being in front of this building where he lived,so full of memories from him,and where he died,must have been not only an strange feeling,but a devastating feeling too... :_(
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yes, quite strange feeling... because 10 min before i was just happy jumping around in that wonderful town.. and then, there, i had the strangest feelings... :_(
I could not stay in front of the building I was so shaken, I had to cross the road, and I spent most of the time turning my back to the building I was so uncomfortable :(
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I watch TIODP again last night. It's sad to think that this was his final work but I am also thankful we have these few but very good movies to view time and again. It's mixed emotions of loss & happiness when I see his films.
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I watch TIODP again last night. It's sad to think that this was his final work but I am also thankful we have these few but very good movies to view time and again. It's mixed emotions of loss & happiness when I see his films.
That's a very good way to put it, rimasworld.
:ghug: to everyone.
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This is important so please read!!!!
Everybody, please sign this petition and say NO to a movie about Heath's death. This kind of movie only invites rumors and speculations, and we've had enough of those in the days after his passing. It will be hurtful to his family, his friends, and anybody who loves him. Michelle Williams is also strongly against this movie since she fears it would only hurt Matilda. One day a movie celebrating Heath's life and achievements will be appropriate, but certainly not a movie that focuses on the circumstances around his death. Please sign this petition and help by spreading the word - forward it to your friends, post it on your facebook page, whatever. Thank you!
http://www.webpetitions.com/signatures/say-no-to-a-movie-about-heath-ledger-s-death/8604 (http://www.webpetitions.com/signatures/say-no-to-a-movie-about-heath-ledger-s-death/8604)
This is the content of the petition:
"Recently we found out there are plans to make a movie about Heath Ledger's death..
We, the fans, are not happy to hear about these plans. This movie will be based on speculations only, it will hurt Heath's daughter Matilda, his parents, his sisters and other family. It will also hurt his true fans. Therefor, this movie will not at all contribute to anything good.
We ask everybody to sign the petition and spread it around the world. These plans for this awful movie must be stopped!
We will try to approach as many movie companies and producers and other people who matter in this industry as we can. But we need your help also. Spread this link, make everybody sign the petition.
Heath and his loved ones do not deserve to be hurt this much more."
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Thank you for sharing this, Keren.
I respect the fact that other people might feel differently on this but I will be signing because I think that respecting his privacy is the least we can do. I doubt very much any production would be accurate and even if it were, I don't think it's any of our business. How many of us would want the details of our private lives spread out for the world to see after we died? I'm going to choose to show him the same respect in death that I gave him while he was alive. And for me, that means to support the protection of his privacy and that of his daughter.
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I a agree with you dear Keren O0
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This is important so please read!!!!
Everybody, please sign this petition
Thank you for sharing Keren, I sign and share! O0
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One Of The Brightest Stars (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE#)
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sad too x
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One Of The Brightest Stars (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE#)
Thank you for this, Keren. :_( :_( :_( <^( <^( <^( :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Time flies...yet the pain remains.
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I remember that day, four years ago, so vividly. We had our carpets cleaned and the house stank of chemicals. I was in a bad mood until I turned on the television and saw the terrible news. I watched for a few hours, as they played interviews and some early footage of Heath flying in a small plane.
In the afternoon I listened to ABC radio. For hours people paid tribute to this young man who had touched hearts. It was an outpouring of grief and love. He will not be forgotten.
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Four years...Damn ¡ :_( :_( :_(
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Time flies...yet the pain remains.
So true.
Heath Ledger - Hallelujah - Anniversary Tribute (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iAsCdIcZeew#)
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http://youtu.be/7XTsR4n0FsE (http://youtu.be/7XTsR4n0FsE)
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Four years...damn :_( :_( :_(
We will always remember you, Heath.
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DEAR HEATH !...
FOUR YEARS !!! DAMNED !!! :_( >:D
YOU MISS ME !!! AND YOU MISS TO JACK !!!
"s;" :s: :cb: }s{
LOT OF KISSES FROM THE FOXY !!! :h}
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Four years...damn :_( :_( :_(
We will always remember you, Heath.
Yes, we will :_( :_( :_( :_( :_(
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He was a gifted actor and a loving person. We who knew him through his movies and interviews will miss him and remember him. Sadly his little girl will be just like us.
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Heath, you are missed! :_(
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I was watching an old episode of The Ghost Whisperer this weekend and thought this quote from the main character to someone she was helping was particularly appropriate:
“You’re not dead. As a matter of fact nobody ever dies. You want to know why? Because you’re gonna live inside everybody who ever knew you. Everyone you ever touched, no matter how little. And the people who love you - your family, your friends - they’re never going to stop thinking about you. Or talking about you. They’re never going to forget you ‘cause that never goes away. You’re never going to die because you were loved. Because you loved. You’re gonna live forever. We all will.”
Rest in peace, Heath. And thank you for all you gave us while you were here.
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Such an appropriate quote..thanks x
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Words from Terry Gilliam about Heath...
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"Any time I try to describe Heath it becomes a series of clichés, because he was extraordinary and, unfortunately, most of those clichés have already been used up on lesser people.
He was one of those blessed human beings who have the facility to do so many things at the same time. When he wasn't acting, he was directing music videos and supporting young musicians. He was working on the script for a film he was preparing to direct. He had an incredibly artistic side, and he was practically a grand master at chess. That's why, when he died, it was as if half of the world had collapsed.
None of us could deal with it. It was impossible - that was the problem. It was absolutely impossible that this could be a fact. But there it was. I was working in the art department when I heard the news, and we stayed there all afternoon. At sunset, thousands of ravens flew over the window and I thought: those are the ravens from The Brothers Grimm, and they are all going to salute Heath.
In terms of his acting, it still rankles with me that he's dead because he would have been streets ahead of anyone else in his generation. He just kept getting better and better. He was fearless. On Parnassus, he was improvising all the time and it was better than what we had written. I don't normally encourage that kind of improvisation, but in a sense I felt Heath was writing this film. He was an incredibly funny performer when he wanted to be - his comic timing was just extraordinary - and then he could break your heart the next minute.
Usually, with actors, it's all about themselves. But it was never like that with Heath. He was completely supportive of everything else around him. He got better performances out of other actors - he just drew it out of them. He was utterly generous and always aware of everyone else, and he behaved as if there was nothing special about him - he was just a guy.
When he died, there were all these nonsensical stories coming out about Heath Ledger, James Dean and River Phoenix, all destroyed by the system - but that's bullshit. What happened was an absurd accident. I still don't understand it. I know he was exhausted - the last thing he said was that he was so tired and just wanted to sleep. You actually think at certain times angels come down to earth and Heath might have been one of them. And then he's gone and you think: this is all wrong, all the other people should be dead. He should be leading us all into a wonderful world of adventure."
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This is important so please read!!!!
Everybody, please sign this petition and say NO to a movie about Heath's death. This kind of movie only invites rumors and speculations, and we've had enough of those in the days after his passing. It will be hurtful to his family, his friends, and anybody who loves him. Michelle Williams is also strongly against this movie since she fears it would only hurt Matilda. One day a movie celebrating Heath's life and achievements will be appropriate, but certainly not a movie that focuses on the circumstances around his death. Please sign this petition and help by spreading the word - forward it to your friends, post it on your facebook page, whatever. Thank you!
http://www.webpetitions.com/signatures/say-no-to-a-movie-about-heath-ledger-s-death/8604 (http://www.webpetitions.com/signatures/say-no-to-a-movie-about-heath-ledger-s-death/8604)
This is the content of the petition:
"Recently we found out there are plans to make a movie about Heath Ledger's death..
We, the fans, are not happy to hear about these plans. This movie will be based on speculations only, it will hurt Heath's daughter Matilda, his parents, his sisters and other family. It will also hurt his true fans. Therefor, this movie will not at all contribute to anything good.
We ask everybody to sign the petition and spread it around the world. These plans for this awful movie must be stopped!
We will try to approach as many movie companies and producers and other people who matter in this industry as we can. But we need your help also. Spread this link, make everybody sign the petition.
Heath and his loved ones do not deserve to be hurt this much more."
I sign this petition.
Heath and is family deserve respect.
He was such a great person, and a wonderful actor. So sensitive and unique.
We will always remember him.
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Marie
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TODD HAYNES: "This is an unimaginable tragedy. Heath was a true artist, a deeply sensitive man,
an explorer, gifted and wise beyond his years. There is no finer person on this earth."
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Heath Ledger | eternally missed but never forgotten. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajBQO65r1hk#)
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Sometimes it hits me - the impossibility of him being gone. I think of the early days here, how much fun I had on the "Oh baby" thread and how I swooned over his pictures there, how I craved every piece of new information about him. I was looking forward to more wonderful roles in future movies. I was waiting for the Oscar I knew he was going to win one day. If someone told me then that in a couple of years I'd be mourning his death... it's something that the mind can't grasp. How can someone like him, so young and talented and invincible, just die all of a sudden??
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Sometimes it hits me - the impossibility of him being gone. I think of the early days here, how much fun I had on the "Oh baby" thread and how I swooned over his pictures there, how I craved every piece of new information about him. I was looking forward to more wonderful roles in future movies. I was waiting for the Oscar I knew he was going to win one day. If someone told me then that in a couple of years I'd be mourning his death... it's something that the mind can't grasp. How can someone like him, so young and talented and invincible, just die all of a sudden??
Yes Keren, he was so young and so talented, I think that Heath didn't want to become a big movie star, ironically he became one, the pressure was too high then, I think that Heath was too sensitive for the Industry... :_(
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You're Just Too Good To Be True
Can't take my eyes off of you
You'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I Thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
But If you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
I love you baby and if it's quite all right
I need you baby to warm the lonely nights
I love you baby, trust in me when I say
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray
Oh pretty baby, now that I've found you stay
And let me love you baby, let me love you
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
You'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
In loving memory of Heath, song from '10 things I hate about you'
heath ledger singing "cant take my eyes off you" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6XGUhzfutc#)
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Thank, Forever. Heath was so amazingly talented, multi-talented...athletic and a great singing voice... :_(
:_( I bought the DVD for 10 Things soon after his death, but never managed to watch it. That, and The Order are two DVDs that are still in their wrapper. I've watched Knight's Tale many times, Four Feathers a few times, and Casanova as well, but never felt strong enough to get into other movies. Lords of Dogtown put me into depression for days and weeks. I had to quit watching Ned Kelly after half-hour.
I think I will watch 10 Things to find out how it ends. There's no rein on this one. Love is never ending. :( :_(
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I'm sure this article has been posted before, but I just came across it and decided to post it again for those of you who might have missed it, because I love it so much. I love hearing Heath's friends talking about him, and hearing about Heath's regular day-to-day life away from the cameras. Reading this also brought back memories from my short visit to NY, our lovely breakfast at the Five Leaves, our visit to Washington Square Park... If I had more time there I would've loved to go to more of these places where he used to hang out.
A Brooklyn Restaurant, in Heath Ledger’s Memory
After the actor Heath Ledger died in January, the fate of a restaurant and bar he had planned to open in Brooklyn was thrown into question. Then in July, his family announced that it would release money from his estate to complete the business.
On Sept. 17, the restaurant-bar, Five Leaves, opened at 18 Bedford Avenue, near the Greenpoint-Williamsburg boundary. In an interview, Mr. Ledger’s business partner, Jud Mongell, and Scott Campbell, a tattoo artist who was also a friend of the actor’s, traced the evolution of their friendship with Mr. Ledger, who they say relished his friendships with ordinary people.
Mr. Mongell said he was introduced to Mr. Ledger at a beach party in Australia more than two years ago, not long after the filming of the influential drama “Brokeback Mountain” (2005), for which Mr. Ledger was nominated for an Oscar.
Two weeks after the beach party, they met again at a wedding, and standing in the corner of the dance floor, they chatted the night away and discovered similarities in their lives, Mr. Mongell recalled. “I had lived in L.A. and N.Y., and so did he,” Mr. Mongell said. “I went to Burning Man, he went to Burning Man -– all this stuff came up.”
From music to motorbikes, tattoos to coffee, and even daughters who were the same age, the men linked one conversation to the next. Mr. Mongell and Mr. Ledger both had plans to move to New York in the following months. They broached the idea of opening a coffee shop together and decided to stay in touch.
“When I got to New York, I thought I should give that dude Heath a call, but I figured he was probably real busy,” Mr. Mongell said. “I was sure he’d screen me.” But Mr. Ledger’s phone barely rang twice before he answered, eager to pick up where they had left off, Mr. Mongell recalled.
Mr. Ledger was on his way to Saved Tattoo in Williamsburg for the first time, where he was to meet Mr. Campbell, on the recommendation of Helena Christensen, the Victoria’s Secret model.
“It’s funny because the first time he came in, I didn’t even know who he was,” Mr. Campbell said, recalling that he was unable to fit the actor into his very busy schedule that day. While Saved Tattoo is notorious for having waiting times as long as three months, Mr. Campbell asked the actor to come back a week later for the bird tattoo he wanted.
“Heath would come hang out at the tattoo shop all the time, and they started talking about doing something around here,” Mr. Campbell said. (Mr. Ledger showed up for his appointment, but he already had the bird tattoo on his arm because he said he hadn’t been patient enough to wait. But he wasn’t happy with the tattoo, so he kept the appointment with Mr. Campbell, who fixed it.)
The next day, when a photographer stopped by the tattoo shop asking about Mr. Ledger’s tattoo, Mr. Campbell realized who he was. “Oh yeah, sorry mate,” Mr. Campbell recalled Mr. Ledger saying when told about the photographer. “I just did this movie, ‘Brokeback Mountain.’ ”
Mr. Campbell did a half-dozen more tattoos for Mr. Ledger. “I don’t know how many times he would call me at, like, 8 a.m., 6 in the morning with tattoo ideas — he would be jet-lagged, just flew in from somewhere on a completely different time schedule, and he would be like ‘Ohhh! I just saw this in a book. I decided what I want to get tattooed! I was like, ‘Okay, cool, we will get around to it!’ ”
Mr. Ledger would insist that he would be there in 20 minutes or so, Mr. Campbell said. “I’m like, Heath, it’s 7 in the morning; just call me later,’ ” he recalled. “I’d hang up the phone, and like half an hour later, he’d be knocking on my door, like, ‘Let’s go!’ ”
The actor soon introduced Mr. Mongell to Mr. Campbell, and the three became fast friends.
As his celebrity status escalated in the aftermath of “Brokeback Mountain,” Mr. Ledger yearned for genuine human interaction, his friends said.
“We would all hang out in the West Village, and he was just like the guy with a cigarette,” Mr. Campbell said. “He loved when anyone would react to him as a normal person. He really appreciated that.” Mr. Ledger would give out his cigarettes and strike up conversation with just about anyone, he said. But the minute anyone said, “You’re Heath Ledger,” the conversation would become stilted, he said.
“He’d be like, ‘Yeah, that’s right’ and he would let that conversation just end there,” said Mr. Mongell. “And then they could either have regular conversation or there would be no more conversation.”
Mr. Ledger would open up more to fellow Australians, Mr. Campbell said. “Australians have this amazing camaraderie,” he said. “They run into each other anywhere, and if you’re Australian, it’s like, ‘Cool, what do you need? Do you want my wallet? What?’ Amazing.”
Mr. Ledger lived in Boerum Hill with the actress Michelle Williams and their daughter, Matilda, until the couple separated. During that time, he spent much of his free time in Greenpoint and Williamsburg, where he discovered the triangular-shaped space for the future restaurant-bar while skateboarding, Mr. Campbell said.
At one point, Mr. Ledger made an offer to buy out an elderly Polish woman running a barbershop in the neighborhood. “He even pitched an offer for the whole building,” Mr. Mongell said. “He was going to build a commune for all of his friends,” Mr. Campbell added.
The original idea of a coffee shop morphed into a plan for an Australian-meets-American restaurant-bar that would serve local and organic fare. “This would have been Heath’s hangout,” said Mr. Mongell, who now runs Five Leaves with his wife but still refers to Mr. Ledger as an equal partner in the business. Mr. Ledger’s father, Kim, is managing the business’s finances.
Over time, the Williamsburg community became desensitized to Mr. Ledger’s celebrity presence. He would show up at the local lounge Zebulon to watch soccer with the bartenders or show up at Union Pool with the crew from Dumont Burger. He took the wheel of the DJ booth and laid down a few tracks at the hipster hangout Enid’s for a birthday party of fewer than a dozen people. “After a while, Heath had all his regular spots around here, and no one would call Page Six anymore when he walked in the door, because nobody cared,” Mr. Campbell said. “He was the Williamsburg dude.”
Mr. Campbell said that Mr. Ledger loved having friends around. Mr. Campbell raided the actor’s closet and slept on his couch. There were always people coming and going at Mr. Ledger’s place, drinking tea, using the computer and gathering around for dinner. Mr. Ledger was always manning the barbecue grill or making espresso. “If he could cook at his house with an ocean of people laying on the living room floor watching movies, that was his heaven,” Mr. Campbell said. “That and his daughter, Matilda -– she was everything to him.” Aside from his production company endeavors, Mr. Ledger also planned to build a drive-in at an old garage to watch movies with his daughter.
Mr. Mongell, who described himself as Mr. Ledger’s “boring” friend who organized play dates for their daughters and was always talking business, said the actor truly lived the New York experience. He taught his daughter how to skateboard. He rode his bike over the Williamsburg Bridge. He visited farmer’s markets. He played chess in Washington Square Park, and he brought coffee for the paparazzi.
“He really just took New York and rolled with it,” Mr. Mongell said. “He was just one of us, man.”
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Forever, thanks for posting the video, I never seen it before!
Keren, thanks for sharing this article, loved it!
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Heath Ledger | eternally missed but never forgotten. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajBQO65r1hk#)
wonderful video!
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Thank, Forever. Heath was so amazingly talented, multi-talented...athletic and a great singing voice... :_(
:_( I bought the DVD for 10 Things soon after his death, but never managed to watch it. That, and The Order are two DVDs that are still in their wrapper. I've watched Knight's Tale many times, Four Feathers a few times, and Casanova as well, but never felt strong enough to get into other movies. Lords of Dogtown put me into depression for days and weeks. I had to quit watching Ned Kelly after half-hour.
I think I will watch 10 Things to find out how it ends. There's no rein on this one. Love is never ending. :( :_(
My God Lance I thought that I was a very HSP (translation, high sensitive person) but when I read your post I realize that you are a Super high sensitive person! I surfed today to the website of highsensitivity.org and guess what? Heath was a HSP too! The article said that Heath during the promotion of BBM in His hometown Australia cried the all night through because some photographer during the premiere had insulted him and threw water to his face. Poor Heath! He was really too sensitive for the industry and for fame too...
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Forever, thanks for posting the video, I never seen it before!
Keren, thanks for sharing this article, loved it!
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Your welcome BBMsheep! But as a matter of fact this is not a video clip but the film '10 things I hate about you' with Heath and Julia Stiles, the film is a modern adaptation of The Taming of the Shrew of William Shakespeare. I rewatched the film yersterday and I can tell you that the presence and the charisma of Heath overshadows the other actors!
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My God Lance I thought that I was a very HSP (translation, high sensitive person) but when I read your post I realize that you are a Super high sensitive person! I surfed today to the website of highsensitivity.org and guess what? Heath was a HSP too! The article said that Heath during the promotion of BBM in His hometown Australia cried the all night through because some photographer during the premiere had insulted him and threw water to his face. Poor Heath! He was really too sensitive for the industry and for fame too...
Yes, that was during the BBM premiere in Sydney. A couple of paparazzi had sprayed him with water-guns, you know, those little plastic ones... it was so humiliating >:(. He took it really hard, he said that it broke his heart and totally crushed him. That's also why he finally left Australia - he had a house that he bought there on Bronte beach, he hoped to bring Michelle and Matilda there, but after that incident he told his father to sell the house. His father asked him to give it 48 hours and think it over, not decide on an impulse... then his dad told the newspaper that Heath called him again two days later and said "Dad, it's been 47 hours and 57 minutes. Sell the house".
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Yes, that was during the BBM premiere in Sydney. A couple of paparazzi had sprayed him with water-guns, you know, those little plastic ones... it was so humiliating >:(. He took it really hard, he said that it broke his heart and totally crushed him. That's also why he finally left Australia - he had a house that he bought there on Bronte beach, he hoped to bring Michelle and Matilda there, but after that incident he told his father to sell the house. His father asked him to give it 48 hours and think it over, not decide on an impulse... then his dad told the newspaper that Heath called him again two days later and said "Dad, it's been 47 hours and 57 minutes. Sell the house".
Poor Heath! I didn't know about his house in Australia, and then I search informations... In fact Heath since that he bought this house was continually chased by paparrazi, the article said that it became an unbearable harassment for Heath! Sensitive or not I think that everyone in those circumstances would have had a nervous breakdown!
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Nolan not referencing Ledger in Batman
Director Christopher Nolan decided against referencing Heath Ledger’s character of The Joker in the new Batman film, insisting acknowledging the "real-life tragedy" of the late star was "inappropriate".
"That is something I felt very strongly about in terms of my relationship with Heath and the experience I went through with him on The Dark Knight. I didn't want to in any way try and account for a real-life tragedy. That seemed inappropriate to me. We just have a new set of characters and a continuation of Bruce Wayne's story, not involving The Joker."
http://au.news.yahoo.com/thewest/entertainment/a/-/movies/13810189/nolan-not-referencing-ledger-in-batman/ (http://au.news.yahoo.com/thewest/entertainment/a/-/movies/13810189/nolan-not-referencing-ledger-in-batman/)
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This is a link to a blog with different tributes and interviews and stories about Heath. Among them there's Todd Haynes speech when he dedicated the Robert Altman Award to Heath - it's a very emotional dedication, I looked for this video for ages and couldn't find it on youtube, I'm so glad that I found it here. And there is also an interesting interview with Vincent Fantauzzo about working with Heath on his famous portrait. I wasn't sure on which memorial thread to post it, so I'm posting it on both of them.
http://fiveleavesleftbehind.blogspot.com.au/2008_11_01_archive.html (http://fiveleavesleftbehind.blogspot.com.au/2008_11_01_archive.html)
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Great find indeed. thanks xxx
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All the tributes there are very moving, and if you go through the blog archive there are more.
I thought this analysis of "The Patriot" was very poignant:
"Everything is in place for Gibson to die and for Ledger to avenge him, because the whole point of these archetypal tales is to transmit ancestral truths to young people: your father is going to die, so before he dies learn every trick he has up his sleeve, and then raise good children, love your wife and kill the villain. But, because Gibson was a star of greater magnitude than his Australian compatriot, and because Gibson was directing the film, it was the young Ledger, not the middle-aged Gibson, who died. There was something shockingly wrong about this, something that violated the basic laws of drama. Ledger wasn't supposed to die before Gibson died, not in a motion picture, not in real life. It's not fair. It's not right. It's a terrible way to end what was otherwise a very uplifting story."
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All the tributes there are very moving, and if you go through the blog archive there are more.
I thought this analysis of "The Patriot" was very poignant:
"Everything is in place for Gibson to die and for Ledger to avenge him, because the whole point of these archetypal tales is to transmit ancestral truths to young people: your father is going to die, so before he dies learn every trick he has up his sleeve, and then raise good children, love your wife and kill the villain. But, because Gibson was a star of greater magnitude than his Australian compatriot, and because Gibson was directing the film, it was the young Ledger, not the middle-aged Gibson, who died. There was something shockingly wrong about this, something that violated the basic laws of drama. Ledger wasn't supposed to die before Gibson died, not in a motion picture, not in real life. It's not fair. It's not right. It's a terrible way to end what was otherwise a very uplifting story."
I agree.. and for this reason I do not like this movie and can't watch it. And the fact that Heath died and Gibson became such an unlikable person is real life just makes it worse for me.
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it's this time of the year... :_(
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it's this time of the year... :_(
I miss him :_(
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Miss him too, it will be 5 years tomorrow... :(
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:(
A thought for our beloved Heath ^f^
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"Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.
And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.
And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance."
Dear Heath
Sing loud
Climb high
Dance happy.
We love you.
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"Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing.
And when you have reached the mountain top, then you shall begin to climb.
And when the earth shall claim your limbs, then shall you truly dance."
Dear Heath
Sing loud
Climb high
Dance happy.
We love you.
Yes, we do :ghug: :ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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Happy trails cowboy, wherever your spirit rides . . . .
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loving him...may get another tattoo this year
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Another year without you...
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Another year without you...
:ghug: :ghug: :ghug:
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It's still so hard to believe you are not with us in this world. Your work was awesome, you were awesome and still are where ever you are now. We miss you dear Heath.
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Another year without you...
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Miss you, Heath.
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Still so unbelievable... :_(
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Me on Bondi Beach, Sydney, one of Heath's favorite places.
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In case you don't know, I love this picture of you, Keren! ;)
Beautiful and moving. Thanks for sharing it here.
We miss him, huh? :-\\ :ghug:
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Me on Bondi Beach, Sydney, one of Heath's favorite places.
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This is so great, Keren. I envy you and rdx, who visited Perth. One day. :c)
Time definitely heals. But even when saplings take root where a great tree fell in the forest, they can't take up all the space left empty by the absence of the fallen tree. They can only take solace from the sunlight streaming in, through the window of sky made possible by the absence of the once great tree.
May the warmth of Heath's heart, and the brilliancy of his talents, stay forever in our memory.
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Yesterday I was looking at pictures of Heath and Matilda. It made me sad and happy at the same time. He really loved his little girl.
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Ten years ago your movie made history.
Telling people's stories they never wanted the world to know.
Your reticent laconic performance gave away more secrets than casual observers could know.
Your uptight clenching emotional character made people unfold their heart and blossomed into full lives.
But few knew the knight in shining armour,
the King's officer in red coat and proper trim,
the tough cowboy in jeans and leather,
the joker behind a mask of mirth and anarchy,
was broken and hurting, yearning for a song to sing, a horse to ride, a sky to test his wings.
If only we knew. If only I knew.
😕😢 I wish I knew how to quit you. Seven years, just not long enough to forget. Forever is not long enough. ❤️ Always.
http://www.people.com/people/heath_ledger
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Dear Heath
They say that anger is one of the stages of grief. It took me some years to get to this stage. I'm angry because like your father said, it was your own damn fault. I'm angry that you became so dependent on those pills and you were careless enough to take them all together, even though people had warned you it was dangerous, because you thought that your body could take it. I know you only wanted to sleep but look what happened, you went to sleep and you never woke up. I'm angry because you should have been here and done great things with your life. I'm angry because it's still unbelievable to think that you're gone, and every time I see you on screen looking so alive, it's still hard to believe.
But anger doesn't contradict love. I know you had your flaws and you made mistakes in your life, and there were things that I found hard to accept, but I still love you and I miss you a lot. You're forever in my heart.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SamgfxCXwD4
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"Heath's excitement for the masses was as contagious as it was deep. It seemed to me that the masses was the flesh and bone embodiment of Heath's artistic passions and dreams."
Ben Harper
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGIbUn5s828
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Thanks for these posts, Keren! The Masses video is a gem.
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Can't believe he's been gone 9 years. I saw a picture of Matilda recently and she looks so much like him.
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One Of The Brightest Stars (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvXAdmNaaGE#)
1, 3, 5, 7, 9…
Numbers are meaningless
When grief and love transcend
Time and space beyond into eternity
Only music that connects with soul and mind
Heal the brokenhearted and return peace to them whole.
Thanks, keren_b, after so many years, it still heals. <^(
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Heart still heals. But it's not healed yet.
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It‘s unbelievable that it‘s 10 years tomorrow.....
I remember that day so vividly, I cried for hours...
Still thinking of you..... :-\\
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I often think about what could have been. Like Terry Gilliam said, "he should be leading us all into a wonderful world of adventure".
(https://i.imgur.com/AXV13yz.jpg)
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I often think about what could have been. Like Terry Gilliam said, "he should be leading us all into a wonderful world of adventure".
(https://i.imgur.com/AXV13yz.jpg)
This is a gorgeous picture Keren, I've never seen it before. <^(
I love that quote from Terry Gilliam too....we know how much Heath respected Terry, and the feeling was obviously mutual.
<^( <^( :_( :_(
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Thanks for the photo and the quote, Keren.
Already 10 years. :(
I will be forever grateful for his role of Ennis that changed our lives.
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He's one of those people you will never forget.
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Hard to believe it's been 10 years. The legacy lives on.
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I want to dedicate this song to Heath, because it's beautiful and the lyrics are perfect for him.
It's called Saturn and it's performed by a group called "Sleeping at Last". If there was ever a more appropriate name...
"Saturn"
You taught me the courage of stars before you left.
How light carries on endlessly, even after death.
With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite.
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.
I couldn’t help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I’d give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.
I couldn’t help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I’d give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.
With shortness of breath, I’ll explain the infinite
How rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3lWwMHFhnA&feature=share
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Wow. That is so fitting in every way. Thank you for sharing it.
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Wow. That is so fitting in every way. Thank you for sharing it.
I can't believe I've only just discovered this song, it's beautiful. It will always make me think of Heath.
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There is also a beautiful tribute video to Heath that someone made with this song - that's how I first heard it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lo20IyihJOQ&feature=share
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Naomi Watts posted this on her instagram yesterday:
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Christopher Nolan reflects on Heath Ledger’s Joker in The Dark Knight on the 10th anniversary of Heath’s death:
“…He would sort of give me hints about what he was going to do. We would talk about it a bit. And I would try and be an audience for him and sort of engage with him, what he was doing. But a lot of it was about unpredictability, and I think he wanted to play his cards close to the chest. He would very gradually reveal to me the ‘voice’ and the way he was going to do things – but not in one go, like, ‘Here’s the Joker.’
“We watched him sort of develop it, with the wardrobe and the makeup, and I kind of got to be a part of that creative process, which was great fun, but on-set, there were always moments like that clapping or things he would do with his voice. His voice was so unpredictable. He created this bizarre pitch. I’ve seen a lot of people try and imitate it since. But we never quite knew if he was going to go high or if he was going to go low. You never knew what that guy was going to do, and that’s what was terrifying about him.”
“I took huge pride in having been in any way involved with this great performer and his legacy. He was an extraordinary person and an extraordinary actor. And for him to be recognized in that way, I think, was very meaningful for his family and meaningful, I think, for film history. What he contributed, and he contributed in many different ways to film history, but that it be marked in that way, I was very proud to be a part of it.”
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There is also a beautiful tribute video to Heath that someone made with this song - that's how I first heard it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lo20IyihJOQ&feature=share
This is a gorgeous song and video. I'd never heard this song before but the lyrics are so beautiful and sad and definitely made me think of Heath...thanks for posting. ^f^
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Miss you still Heath. Wish you were here making us smile :) and cry :_( watching your movies. You were one of a kind.
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Dear Heath,
I will never stop missing you. I'm just glad I can visit you in your movies from time to time.
Love,
Rima
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Dear Heath,
I will never stop missing you. I'm just glad I can visit you in your movies from time to time.
Love,
Rima
:ghug: :ghug: Rima
He was one of a kind.
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Christopher Nolan reflects on Heath Ledger’s Joker in The Dark Knight on the 10th anniversary of Heath’s death:
“…He would sort of give me hints about what he was going to do. We would talk about it a bit. And I would try and be an audience for him and sort of engage with him, what he was doing. But a lot of it was about unpredictability, and I think he wanted to play his cards close to the chest. He would very gradually reveal to me the ‘voice’ and the way he was going to do things – but not in one go, like, ‘Here’s the Joker.’
“We watched him sort of develop it, with the wardrobe and the makeup, and I kind of got to be a part of that creative process, which was great fun, but on-set, there were always moments like that clapping or things he would do with his voice. His voice was so unpredictable. He created this bizarre pitch. I’ve seen a lot of people try and imitate it since. But we never quite knew if he was going to go high or if he was going to go low. You never knew what that guy was going to do, and that’s what was terrifying about him.”
“I took huge pride in having been in any way involved with this great performer and his legacy. He was an extraordinary person and an extraordinary actor. And for him to be recognized in that way, I think, was very meaningful for his family and meaningful, I think, for film history. What he contributed, and he contributed in many different ways to film history, but that it be marked in that way, I was very proud to be a part of it.”
Was lovely to read this again
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15 years... I still miss you Heath :_(
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He's one of those people you will never forget.
Ennis-the role of a lifetime. "s;"