Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me to write and post more. I was deeply shocked the first time I saw the painting. In fact, I had to switch the page off, either by clicking the back button, or closing the browser tab. I can't recall what I did. I just remember seeing it a few days after Jan. 22, and was so shocked, and scared by it, that it made me feel uneasy for days. Having the interview with Vincent explaining the motivation behind the different aspects of the design was like having this forum to discuss the movie after Brokeback Mountain. All the pain and emotions overflowing had a place to go, had a name, had reins.
I really appreciate the opportunities to explore this and other topics so freely, and with so much support. I think it is why I am finally coming to terms with the sadness and grief. I felt that last night, even though I could not recall any of it in the morning, I had a dream of being in the presence of Heath. It was not Ennis. I think it was my intense focus on Four Feathers, and the painting, to understand Heath better, and finally, all the weeks of news articles, tributes, and everything, all came together, and I saw the iceberg beneath the surface, I FELT the presence even in his absence. It is hard to explain, but for days I have been feeling this presence. I think I finally understand what it means, to always remember, to always have Heath in my heart. I hope this will never end.
Hi Andrew, I wasn't shocked the first time I saw the painting, but that was because I saw it in the interview with Vincent were he explains the motivation behind the painting.
I thought from the first time I laid eyes on it that it was beautiful but a little haunting because it looks so real.
It looks like he is going to step right out of the painting...but that is why it's so haunting.
I think if I had not heard the interview that I was shocked too.
With your love for Heath and the with passion you speak about him, I know he will stay in your heart forever.
You are not the only one, he will stay in my heart forever too, this man has changed my life.
It is such a wonderful thing that we can all be together like this, even if I would never meet anyone of you, you are all my Heath's and you all will stay in my heart forever, in a way you all have changed my life too.
Thanks everyone for being here