And I still think that no matter what happened to them later, it was all worth it. People often warn that the "folly" of today will be paid for tomorrow. In certain instances, I have always believed that not taking heed to what the morrow may bring is justified. How many times have we thrown ourselves into relationships that required in due time a debt of tears? Given the hindsight and a chance to relive things, I am sure that many of us would nonetheless commit them again. I think this was the case with Ennis and Jack: even if they had the hindsight of what was to come, they probably would have left things unaltered.
I agree with this wholeheartedly Tpe.
In the end I wonder if Jack felt the love he shared with Ennis was worth all the pain. Unlike the Genesis story ,there was no serpent whispering in Ennis's ear, but sins of his father were.
Jack was the forbidden apple, and Ennis's guilt and shame were actually his father's Not his. He is a product of what his father instilled, words and deeds.a child tricked out of free will and thought. but once Ennis took a small bite of what was forbidden in FNIT, certain adult truths were realized by him. How could something that feels so right be so wrong? Starts to question what he'd been taught, but the fear and shame owned him.
He could not seperate himself from it as a grown man of the next generation., and live his life outside the rules so ingrained in him ,yet at certain times, despite his fear, he broke free ie: SNIT, reunion,etc.( example) where Ennis sat on the log outside the tent and came to some kind of terms with whatever this thing was. This was deep. Throws another log on the fire, walks freely, hat in hand , into the arms of this magicman Jack Twist. Practically flew down those stairs to accept again what he knew was missing from his life for 4 years, eventually admitted that he could not rein in the feelings he had for Jack ,offering him Earl and Rich's story as the reason he held back.
He came to a realization that a part of Jack was part of him, and he did'nt want to live without him. Sometimes he was able to put aside his fear and take an even bigger bite of the apple and imo sealed his fate tighter to Jack. To their surprise, love had found them and in those moments, there were no consequences. I think Ennis found the freedom to love Jack but not the freedom to show it openly. If he could've gone full throttle, even Jack would be suprised I think. He would have smotherd Jack in all the love and happiness he could stand.. .MO