Topic: Heath Ledger - In Loving Memory

[ksxks]

To Ethan and LJN  and all of you.  thank you for being there.  When I am offline I was feeling so alone.  My friends I am living with could never comprehend what I am going through. But knowing that all of you do and that I can come here to lean on you, cry with you,  receive comfort (as well as give it)  has helped beyond any words I could say.

I love you guys thank you

Linda 

Me, too, Linda.  I couldn't stand it without being here with everyone.  A special hug to you from me...

kathy

[ksxks]

I agree Keren, this bog is a true testament to Heath and the gifts he gave us.  The tributes from Luke Davies and Neil Armfield are amazing.  In particular, Luke's description of how happy Heath was, and how in love with Michelle he was.  That was incredibly beautiful.   

I loved all of this also, on Theresa's blog.  But you know what really gets to me?  The one article about Heth as a dad tripping around NY with Matilda on his shoulders, being so "motherly" with her, so patient, such a gorgeous dad.  Quotes from people who would see him around the streets with her -- such a beautiful man...

How many of us remember from when we were two years old and before?  Who knows if she will keep having the actual memories of him, but it is absolutely certain that he is in her, and she is of him, and I pray she has a wonderful life.  But her daddy's shoes are impossible to fill...

Sorry -- I've got myself in tears again.

kathy

[Rønnaug]

Sorry -- I've got myself in tears again.

don't be sorry sweetie

[ksxks]

Yesterday, I was searching for some closure from this tragedy. It’s a difficult time for someone like me who doesn’t believe in God. Sometimes I wish I could. Things maybe would be easier.
But then yesterday night I dreamed of him. I usually don’t remember much of what I dream about. But there was him, so young, triumphant, full of love, life and hope in his future. He looked straight at me and asked: “You know what they say, how you can never go back home?” I nodded. “You can” he said then. "Through the magic of the movies".
And then today, sitting here, in front of my laptop I watched his films, his photos and some youtube videos. I watched as the story, his story, unfolded in front of me and then the ending came. And when the last image appeared on the screen, I smiled. There was just him. Heath.
Heath laughing, looking at the camera over his shoulder. Young and powerful enough to make my stomach flinch and my throat constricts. Heath in the way I will always remember him.

“what though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight. Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendour in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind.” William Wordsworth

p.s. To all of you. thank you for being here. this community was the only thing that kept me sane in the last four days. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, it brought me so much comfort.
(sorry about my poor English, but as you can guess it isn't my mother tongue)

This is very beautiful, anya.  I love the dream you had, and you are fortunate to have had it.

kathy

[ksxks]

I know what you mean.  When I first found this site it was after I had seen BBM.  I was so confused, devastated with the ending, and looking for answers to so many questions I had.  I was numb for both those characters.  My husband had no interest in watching the movie or discussing it so I'm so happy to have found this forum.

To go through the grief again is terrible. It's by far worse since Heath was a real person. I got my arms around (finally) that BBM was a performance by him.  You know?  I have a terrible time understanding death.  Thank goodness he made that movie though. It is meaningful for so many people in different walks of life.  But something about him being in NY like me, sort of made it feel a little more personal for me....hard to explain. I guess knowing he was nearby made the movie sort of feel bearable...  That whole blur thing between the actor and the character - reality/movie...

Sigh. I'm just so crushed for him. I think he'd feel so badly about this accident. Kicking himself. But thank goodness, in heaven you feel peace and happiness.....

I'm actually smiling a bit, at your last paragraph.  I think that's true, that he'd say, damn, shit, I didn't mean to f*ck that up, not at all!

kathy

[ksxks]

I was happy to hear about the dream, too. I've been hoping for one like it since I received the news. It is comforting that someone has seen him in a dream and it was a positive one at that.

The only thing I've noticed is last night out of nowhere my printer started turning on and off by itself. I mentioned it to my friend when it happened and she said "That was Heath, ya now. Saying hello, seeing how you are." Then went on to tell me that one of the biggest signs someone is with you is when electronics start doing things like that and I'm normally a huge skeptic, but seeing as I've had this printer for months and it's never done anything like that until last night, I tend to believe it, and I'll take it. After that I said "Hello, Sweet Face. I am OK." Just in case 

I love it.  I will pay more attention to my electronics!  Maybe it was when he was flying over where you live, going home...

kathy

[ksxks]

I'm more or less religious person, or maybe it is better say spiritual - I have this need to believe to things we can't see by our physical eyes. I have one friend who is even more spiritual than I am, I mean she sees things and is if not clairvoyant but something little bit like that. She has often told me things that would happen in my life, and very often she has been right and her "messages" have come true. What I'm trying to explain now?  No, neither she not me have had any ideas, intuitional feelings about Heath beforehand, no. But I have a very strong feeling that Heath is somewhere surrounded by love and light. When I close my eyes I see him smiling and surrounded by very warm color of rose. And I have these aching chakra feelings. My heart chakra is pulsating very hard at the moment.

Sorry, I don't mean to upset anyone or attack different kinds of beliefs and views; we have all our own ways to think about things. I just want to tell how I feel now.

I'm with you on this stuff, Carmilla.  It's good to pay attention to where you feel things, what chakra.  (I'm still clenched in my solar plexus, I feel -- will have to figure out what that's about.)  I love Heath surrounded by rose-colored light...

kathy

[Snuit]

Hey Ethan and LJN,

Thank you so much for posting these. Did you two happen to bump into Meryl and John from Bettermost? They went there too, and took a pic of your beautiful memorial to Heath with the messages from everybody...

http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html

Sending you all lots of hugs and healing energy from one forum to the other...  :\'(

Mel

[masetane]

I'm actually smiling a bit, at your last paragraph.  I think that's true, that he'd say, damn, shit, I didn't mean to f*ck that up, not at all!

kathy

Yeah, I don't know why I think this way. But seriously, I really think he would be pissed at himself, for his daughters sake, that he screwed up by complete accident.  He didn't even get a life with his child. I'm angry for him too.  It sucks.

Sigh. I'm still just so upset. He's not headline news at all today but i don't want him forgotten. I keep staring at the words "died" and "death" and can't believe they are talking about this YOUNG 28 year old man.

[Carefree Wind]

Carefree Wind, this is a lot to ask, I know, but in time, when you can, could you send photos here of wherever Heath is laid to rest?
Or Asali?  It would mean so much to so many of us.

If it is indeed possible for me to visit Heath's final place of rest, then by all means I shall certainly do so. Nothing will keep me from doing this for you all.

It is my hope that, even though Heath's funeral, will most likely be a private family affair (as it should be), that at least, it will be announced which cemetary he will at last rest in, so anyone can visit and pay their respects to this wonderful man.

I'm not even certain that details of when his funeral will be held, will even be made public. But yes, it would be an honour to do this for you all, and to hopefully take some photos as well, for you all to see.

Perhaps it may help with the healing process too, well actually, I am sure of it. 

Ledger funeral plans still undecided
27th January 2008, 10:33 WST

Details of the funeral of Hollywood star Heath Ledger remain a mystery and may be limited to his immediate family, his uncle says.

The actor's parents Kim and Sally Ledger flew to New York, where they attended a private memorial service in Manhattan with close friends and their son's former fiancee Michelle Williams and daughter Matilda.

A large pine crate containing Ledger's body was taken from the Frank E Campbell funeral home in New York to begin it's long journey home.

The former Perth boy's uncle Mike Ledger said the funeral arrangements had not yet been decided.

"Kim will be bringing Heath home, but in terms of memorials services, it's up to Kim and Sally," Mr Ledger told News Limited.

"We know the chapel at Guildford (Grammar School) is available if Kim wants it. But they may even keep it very private. We may not even go to the funeral ourselves."

Mr Ledger ruled out suicide.

"We know he would never have done anything like that on purpose. It was just a tragic mixture. We're sure it will all come out in the (autopsy) report."
http://www.thewest.com.au/aapstory.aspx?StoryName=454640

[lamusica]

I went to the movies today, and all I could think about was how Heath would have done the main male's part.  I guess we will always compare actors to him.  Can anyone ever measure up? Of course, this all brought on the tears again.  Can't get passed this one. :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(

[masetane]

OH I was under the impression that Heath's parents only went as far as California.  I'm glad they were able to visit him and glad the NY papparazzi didn't catch on. At least I haven't heard of anything reported here.

[trekfan]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

[orangetruck]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

Wow.
And that same sunlight blinds me from the words that try to come out.  :\'(
So beautiful.

[frenchcda]

Beautiful, this remind me of a quote   " happiness is best when shared " last words from Christopher McCandless
as in his journey learn that wisdom comes when the light shines into you by what you call by its name

[Raisa]

Amazing! So incredibly beautiful.

[jacks_key]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

That is monumentally beautiful.

[chameau]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

 :\'(

Thank you Linda 

[carbyville]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

This is sooo amazing. Thanks for directing us to this picture, Linda 

[NoReins]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

That is one stunning photo. I hope whoever took it doesn't mind, but I just copied it to my mobile phone for my wallpaper. I wanted something that was a tribute to Heath without being too obvious about it. This way, I'll know...and everyone else will just see it as a beautiful picture.

[orangetruck]

That is one stunning photo. I hope whoever took it doesn't mind, but I just copied it to my mobile phone for my wallpaper. I wanted something that was a tribute to Heath without being too obvious about it. This way, I'll know...and everyone else will just see it as a beautiful picture.

That's a very admirable and appropriate outlook. 

[lancecowboy]

To Heath

You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.

Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.

How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.

But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.

I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.

You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.

[lancecowboy]

Ethan, Michelle,

thank you for all that you have done. It means a lot to me to see the love and support for Heath.

Love,

Andrew

[orangetruck]

To Heath

...

Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.

...

Oh, Lance..
That was really beautiful.
True story. 

And thank you Ethan & Michelle. 

[janicka]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

Thank you.
I stopped breathing for a while...... It is the most beautiful tribute I have ever seen.

[Rosie]

Hey Ethan and LJN,

Thank you so much for posting these. Did you two happen to bump into Meryl and John from Bettermost? They went there too, and took a pic of your beautiful memorial to Heath with the messages from everybody...

http://bettermost.net/forum/index.php/topic,16573.50.html

Sending you all lots of hugs and healing energy from one forum to the other...  :\'(

Mel

Thank you Mel, for the pics, the hugs, and the healing energy,  back to you and Bettermost.

[Rosie]

I thought I would post this info over here.   Someone on DC is in Alberta and went to Campsite #2 (the 'tent don't look right' site)

Here is a photo they took.



the way the sun is coming over the mountain it feels like Heath is looking down on all of us

Linda

Linda, that is beautiful.    :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( 

[Rosie]

To Heath

You taught us through Ennis how to live, how to love, how to grow.
You showed us by your life how to be gentle and kind, be generous and genuine.
You reminded us by your departure to a better life, that life is brief, and seize the day.

Because tomorrow may never come, and there is no other chance, to say I love you.
Because I do. Because you gave Ennis the power to change lives, to change minds.
Because of you, the world is a little gentler, a little kinder, a little more understanding.

How I wished I had told you when you were still here.
How I wished I had sent a get well soon to wish you well while you were down.
How I wished I had sent a card, just to show you that you are loved and remembered.

But now, you are gone.
Now I have no where to send my wishes.
All that comforts me now, is that I know you are there.

I feel you are still in my heart.
I know you are smiling at all the love sent your way.
And you are finally at peace, surrounded by love and loving memories.

You have always been gifted and giving, even to the end.
You will always be loved, liked this, always.

Oh that is beautiful.  :\'( :\'(

[sweetlilg]

Linda

aw this is so beautiful!!!

[Carefree Wind]

That photo of the flowers in the snow, is absolutely beautiful. I think it encompasses all of the feelings that have been expressed in this thread, since news broke of Heath's untimely passing.

The sadness and the love. Also hope, that Heath is now at rest and peace, and that in time, peace shall once more find us too.

Like the sun breaking through the sadness, and shining down upon beauty and hope, so it shall shine again once more into the hearts of all who love(d) him.