Forum video tribute - 10 minutes
http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UpwlBGFK10
Oh Ethan….You’ve just broke my heart. Thank you so much for this awesome treasure, utterly beautiful and sad. Oh my…..I can’t cry hard enough….. :\'( :\'( :\'(
And now what a so fine man DDL is!!! I was really stunned watching him so moved in Oprah show. He was all devastated, saying so sweet things about Heath. And then, today, I've watched his tribute on SAG awards and, oh Jesus, I was so touching, crying so much that I couldn't see DDL’s face on the screen. His words were so gorgeous, delicate, so true and precious. I was so overwhelmed and totally sad watching him almost crying, so hurting, struggling with his emotions. He was so in love with Heath's work and he was proud of that. He’s a real gentleman.
I wanted to kiss that wonderful man; I wanted to shout at him
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you. He is brave, a very sensitive, honest and amazing human being, and a truly free spirit like Heath was. In fact I could see Heath when I was looking at DDL, the feeling so intense and breathtaking. I cry every time I think about it. I'll treasure DDL words in my heart for the rest of my live. I think I owe him some huge thing for this marvellous gift he gave us. He, like all of us, didn't know Heath, and still he loved him like we all do; so I was a real wreck hearing his broken voice and thinking about we all are not the only crazy brokies, 'cause the impressive genius DDL was a real brokie too:
In “Brokeback Mountain,” he was unique, he was perfect. And that scene in the trailer at the end of the film is as moving as anything that I think I’ve ever seen. That was extremely heartbreaking. :\'( :\'( :\'(
What a generous soul. I’m beyond touched. I only can think about all the marvellous things that Heath could have done if he were still alive, like meet DDL. I bet they had been great friends....
Eating, sleeping, working, talking and walking, just
LIVING, seems to me like a so impossible thing to do these days. Sometimes I try to make things right, I try to work hard and to take care of my family; and when I think that I’m doing it almost OK, then suddenly Heath’s face just hit my thoughts hard, and I feel my heart punched and as if I’m going to vomit, and then once again… goodbye to work, to take care of the ones I love, to eat or to act like a normal person; just goodbye to be a simply human being and not a ghost with huge purple bags under the eyes.
I’m doing everything wrong…with my family and friends (my Babe, I’m so sorry....so sorry…), but I just don’t know what to do but cry. I’m really fighting against this pain with all my strength (any strength was left after Heath’s death?) but everyday I feel more weak and confused, and the sadness seems hugger and Heath’s eyes sweeter. **sigh** I need to breathe. I’m looking for a reason for this bitterness deep inside of me, trying to find a way out of this dark labyrinth that I am. How can I be so shattered? That scares the hell out of me.
I just want an answer, and a solution to cure this illness: To be in love with those dreams that Heath made me dream, with the true love that Heath brought into my life through Ennis Del Mar and I didn’t know that it could exist.
Just give me a f**ing reason and I’ll try to believe that I have to be happy again one day.
Oh my sweet Baby, I can’t believe you’re gone. Damn. :\'( :\'( :\'(
