Topic: Heath Ledger - In Loving Memory

[Matt Nasty]

How they cheerfully       print the worst possible interpretation they can find When they could just as easily       tell the truth with a little more thought You left a will       before you reached the stars,       before you met your match You gave to those you love the few       earthly possession that meant little       compared to your legacy You would surely have updated it       when there was time for matrimony And you trusted the blood relationship,       the love so obvious to everyone,       even to fools Why people resort to the lowest form of       making a living when it's not living at all When hurting innocent people       with thoughtless careless words In times like these,       your noble carriage is missed most of all.

great post andrew , i wish i could right poems ive tried but something is always not right with them.
im sorry i can do more but this is all i have to offer everyone for now 

R.I.P heath, im hopeing you know the love we are sending you but im sure where ever you are looking right now you will see love, you are sorely missed but never forgoten and until we meet again you will remain safely in our hearts.

[ayasha]

How they cheerfully
      print the worst possible interpretation they can find
When they could just as easily
      tell the truth with a little more thought
You left a will
      before you reached the stars,
      before you met your match
You gave to those you love the few
      earthly possession that meant little
      compared to your legacy
You would surely have updated it
      when there was time for matrimony
And you trusted the blood relationship,
      the love so obvious to everyone,
      even to fools
Why people resort to the lowest form of
      making a living when it's not living at all
When hurting innocent people
      with thoughtless careless words
In times like these,
      your noble carriage is missed most of all.

Beautiful Andrew, as everything you do 

[FlwrChild]

"In times like these,
your noble carriage is missed most of all."

lancecowboy, so beautifully said, the whole thing.

[Hayley]

How they cheerfully       print the worst possible interpretation they can find When they could just as easily       tell the truth with a little more thought You left a will       before you reached the stars,       before you met your match You gave to those you love the few       earthly possession that meant little       compared to your legacy You would surely have updated it       when there was time for matrimony And you trusted the blood relationship,       the love so obvious to everyone,       even to fools Why people resort to the lowest form of       making a living when it's not living at all When hurting innocent people       with thoughtless careless words In times like these,       your noble carriage is missed most of all.

Absolutely beautiful..

great post andrew , i wish i could right poems ive tried but something is always not right with them.
im sorry i can do more but this is all i have to offer everyone for now 

R.I.P heath, im hopeing you know the love we are sending you but im sure where ever you are looking right now you will see love, you are sorely missed but never forgoten and until we meet again you will remain safely in our hearts.

A hugs just as good zankou and having been a lurker, you have too said many beautiful and comforting words.

And I hope he knows somehow too...

[Matt Nasty]

A hugs just as good zankou and having been a lurker, you have too said many beautiful and comforting words.

And I hope he knows somehow too...

im sure he does know, im certain of it

[Hayley]

im sure he does know, im certain of it

You'll have to excuse me today, I'm pretty sure there is another world or life and Heath's there and can see eveything (& hopefully knows how many people miss him) but sometimes my faith in it, just falls a little.

[Matt Nasty]

You'll have to excuse me today, I'm pretty sure there is another world and Heath's there and can see eveythign (& hopefully knows how many people miss him) but sometimes my faith in it, just falls a little.

their is no need to be sorry for the way you feel, just have faith in anything you want and remember no one here will judge you hear just because you have different views its just not the done thing here.

 

[Hayley]

their is no need to be sorry for the way you feel, just have faith in anything you want and remember no one here will judge you hear just because you have different views its just not the done thing here.

 

Aww thanks

[FlwrChild]

He's right. There's no right or wrong way to feel. And some days it's easier to see and feel the positives than others. Either way, we're all on this ride together. Everyone's feelings make up the whole, and the whole is something I'm very glad to be a part of.

[Hayley]

He's right. There's no right or wrong way to feel. And some days it's easier to see and feel the positives than others. Either way, we're all on this ride together. Everyone's feelings make up the whole, and the whole is something I'm very glad to be a part of.

Aye, I am very glad I found this place too..and hopefully becoming part of it.

I think I'm just down today, because I've been trying hard to move on from the state of disbelief that Heath's not physically here now and try and push him to the back of my mind a little so I could get thigns I needed to done, when my Dad asked me how I was doing (& it's the first time he's asked me since the day) and he's never expressed any sort of belief in an afterlife or anything and wasn't even a big fan of Heath but he just turned round and said "I hope he gave someone up there a talking to, becuase he's been taken way too soon, and upset so many people. He had so much left to do".

And it made me laugh and sad at the same time. And some of it are sentiments that have been said many times in various places..  But of course, it just brought Heath right back to the forefront of my mind (though he's usually the first and last thing I think about everyday as well as many times in between.

I do believe that there is something after this life..and that Heath's there and can see everything thats going on and knows how much he's missed and when people think about him etc, in a way which we just can't comprehend. And it's something I've been doing a lot of reading up on since Heath's passing, I suppose in some ways to try and reassure my belief, adn deal with Heath's passing in believing he lives on somewhere, but sometimes as with all faiths it just slips a little, when I really start thinking about Heath.

And thats the wrong thing to do, dwell on his passing, and not on everything he gave us that will continue to inspire us for years to come.

I apologise for this long ramble   

And one last thing I loved the Into The West video you posted FlwrChild..much appreciated

[FlwrChild]

Thank you. LuvJackNasty was the brainchild behind that one. I was just honored to be invited on the creative journey.

[Tony]

   In all of our tributes to Heath, and in the awful grief we have had, it's occurred to me that we may have left out that he was moving, more
and more, into social and ethical issues that were very important to him.
  Together with Michelle Williams, he was promoting the "One" charity, to end hunger completely, in our time.  He also was signing on to a
campaign to block use, by the U.S. Navy, of experimental sonar believed to kill dolphins (and we've had 7 dead dolphins here, near Norfolk,
just in the past few days), and he was planning to join others in hopes of blocking the $200 Billion mega-construction project, which he believed
would forever destroy the charm of Brooklyn.
  He had so many things he wanted to do creatively, including directing movies, and promoting music, it's hard to believe, but he was also
hoping to make a difference in the world on social issues.  In fact, the more I think of it, the more it looks like he was a rose just beginning
to bloom, and that makes the cold frost of his death all the worse.
  Maybe a real tribute to Heath, then, might be to look around, have a heart, and try to make a difference in some way, no matter how small.
Am not much good at that stuff, myself, but I will try, if I can.  At any rate, it should be out there----Heath was moving towards being more
active in helping this old, troubled world.  Following through on the same warm feelings that had him helping someone fix a flat tire, near his
home.  He was on his way to more.  Not just movies.  To helping people.  Makes the loss so much the worse.

[FlwrChild]

Tony, I have frequently found that doing something helpful in someone's name after they die, especially if you know of particular efforts they were involved in, can be very healing. And what better tribute to anyone than to help make the world a better place in their honor and continue that journey that they were on themselves?

Perhaps in that way, we can see the positive over the loss.

[Tony]

   Flowerchild, amen to that.  If I can find a way, I will.  Eleanor Roosevelt said it is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.
I'll try, as you suggest, when I can.

[ksxks]

I know what you mean mpj.

This is why, though it might be selfish of me, I'm really glad that he played a character that aged. Because we get a little glimpse, a little sense, even if it was fabricated and not necessarily true to what he'd look like in RL at that age, of what he might look like then. It's also probably why I've been looking at as many recent pictures as possible lately, along with the 'classics', because I had a need these last few weeks to see him as old as I could, if that makes any sense.

I've also noticed in a few interviews and pictures I was watching over the last few weeks, some tendancies and traits that make me think he might have looked a lot like his father as he aged. I'll never know for sure, but it was kind of a nice thought when it occurred to me.

This is important to me, too, that we don't have the pleasure of seeing Heath get older -- it breaks my heart.  But you said it perfectly, Barb, about wanting to see him as "old" as we're going to see him.  That will be in The Imaginarium, I guess.  Anyway, that is why I chose this picture of Heath (below), the picture that was in the Warner Bros. tribute, because he looks actually older than most any picture I've seen of him, and I love it.  Also chose it because he's smiling.  (This is the thing I left out in the Valley of Fire.)

Also, about his father.  When I would see pix of him, I would add a little hair and take off the glasses, and I can see a resemblence.  (And it will be interesting to see how Mathilda looks in her 20's, but a father and daughter can't quite be as similar.)

kathy

[ksxks]

There are so many beautiful tribute videos out there for Heath already, but I just couldn't resist doing one of my own. Once it was in my head, I knew I wouldn't get it out until I made it and got it posted. I hope you like it.

Link to download:

http://rapidshare.com/files/96573043/Heath_Ledger_Tribute.wmv.html

photobucket link to watch (thank you LuvJackNasty ):




The quotes go by a little quickly, but I hope it still works.

Barb, this is so beautiful!  I am amazed at you, for being able to do this...though I know that such things are healing, while perhaps painful at the same time.  I really love this -- the song, the quotes, the shots you chose, the drawing at the end...  Thank you so much.

You know I was away last weekend, and it's been this whole week before I could come back here to this thread.  Not that I haven't thought about and talked about Heath a lot during these days.  But now...and after watching this...I feel back in that teary, heart-crying place, mourning still...

kathy

[ksxks]

If I never saw a tribute or read from any site or cried with another over such a loss, shared grief, I could never forget heath ledger.  Nothing can make me do that, unless I forget my own child and love ones.  As I've said, he's in my being, a part of me.

I've gone to the cemetary where his body laid briefly so many times since we moved to West LA and then here, since I accidently found that resting place of so many, famous and not.  It is so peaceful.  I have a friend buried there.  It is so hard knowing his body was there, knowing those that so loved him tired to find solace there.  I'll go back, for his birthday, and mourn and celebrate two of my losses, both before their time, both who gave so much and still had so much to give.  And I'll go there and think of you guys, of us who are going on, better for heath in our lives.

jessi

That is beautiful, Jessi, that you've gone to that cemetary.  Not only where his body laid at rest, but where there was so much loving energy there, from all his people...

But then, when any of us walks the streets of LA, NY, London, Sydney, Perth, anyplace where he's been, we are breathing in some of the molecules he breathed out...  I guess all over the world that would apply.  "A butterfly in China" and all that.

As tpe read LJN's piece at the Valley of Fire, Jessica and I were holding the PJ bottoms that he had worn, and that felt good.

kathy

[ksxks]

I have this painting at my home now;  made after photograph, size is 60x80 cm.  I haven't yet decided whether to get frames to it or on which wall  to hang it.

I love this, Carmilla!  Very smart.  I love how Heath had so many moods and looks.  Love this one, for sure.

kathy

[ksxks]

Having an awful day for some reason. Heath seems to be everywhere here. I actually got to go to Vegas and be with the Brokies for a while. It was nice immediately because I realized that these gatherings were about Ennis and Jack, and our love for this film; and not so much about Heath and Jake. The only time Heath truly was an acknowledged part of it was when we were having the memorial that you all have seen photos from. We placed items and each our own rock within the small space and hugged and cried, and really that was the main time Heath was truly there. Otherwise it was talk of "Ennis". We weren't ignoring, just reminiscing in a positive way. But now, it's back home to reality, and back to missing Heath, and everything he gave...and it's awful. I know we didn't really know him, but the idea of him somehow filled a void in all of us, and while he's gone, that stupid void is still hanging around waiting to be filled; and the guilt that something has to fill it is almost unbearable. How do you replace someone that is so important to you? I keep trying to tell myself that there is nothing to replace; that what Heath gave us, he left on film for us to have forever, and there isn't really a point in mourning because I haven' t really lost anything I ever truly had; but that doesn't help, or make me feel any better. My computer had been broken since early January, I just got it back yesterday, and when I signed on to my internet through my main account it showed the previous sites I had gone on(before any of this happened). It was so strange to go back to a time when he was alive and see how much he was a part of my day. Though of course there were many sites and my work done on the computer, after every couple of sites was a site that somehow involved him, it was just the natural part of my day...I'm not sure where to go from here, it hurts to be so sad, but feels so guilty when I'm happy; but I'm going to choose to be happy; it's what Heath wanted for himself, I can only imagine that's why he was on so many meds...to find some sort of peace in the chaos of reality. I'm striving to achieve that peace without the prescribed help; for now you Brokies are my addiction, and I love you all

I hope you are feeling somewhat better now, since you wrote this a few days ago.  I know what you mean, too, gong back to before January 22,.  It is a shock to realize how one moment changes everything.

I don't know, though, about in LV.  Maybe we didn't all talk about Heath and Jake as a group that much, but for me, anyway, Heath was very much on my mind (and Jake, too).  I think it was on all our minds, knowing we were going to do the tribute in the desert.  And you and I did talk about them.  But now that you say it, I realize we do still carry on with Ennis and Jack, and I like that fine.  As far as this all goes, as much as we talked constantly, there really is never enough time to say it all.  Just the fact of our getting together at this time was all about Heath for me, also.

kathy

[LuvJackNasty]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)

[Matt Nasty]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today.

thanks it was bautiful im crying now though, thank you so much for sharing this with us,


 

[christie wood]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today.

Thats really beautiful Michelle.....can't believe it still, after all this time....it doesn't seem real to me.  :\'( :\'(

[babytammy7]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today.

So beautiful Michelle, so so beautiful and heartbreaking.  :\'(  :\'( Thank you sweetie. I hope you're feeling better. 

[myprivatejack]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today.

Really nice,Michelle; nice and sad...It still hurts too much,no? But I´m sure he knows all the love he has carried with him,I must believe it and you too...

[gambrinus]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today.

That's just beautiful. Brought a tear to my eye.

[jessi]

Ashes to ashes, heart to hearts,
remember him in memories,
make them,
make them what you find
through his eyes.
Make them the roles played,
not ones made for a star,
nor ones claimed to be brave,
but for stretching, reaching,
so much filling his heart,
so much to say.
Remember him as humble,
as a dad,
someone true, real, full of life. 
A genius.   
An old soul.
Remeber he has peace from 
this world,
yet, 
his spirit never gone,
never finished,
Heath was always part of forever,
and he's busy stretching,
so much to do, learning and seeing
being, for always,
for who needs sleep in heaven.
 

[Lis]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)

OMG! Amazing but heart wrenching  :\'(

[maggie]

7 weeks  :\'( I made this earlier today. (poem is not mine-I found it online by anonymous)

Beautiful...just beautiful...the collage and the poem.             

[LuvJackNasty]

Ashes to ashes, heart to hearts,
remember him in memories,
make them,
make them what you find
through his eyes. 
Make them the roles played,
not ones made for a star,
nor ones claimed to be brave,
but for stretching, reaching,
so much filling his heart,
so much to say.
Remember him as humble,
as a dad,
someone true, real, full of life. 
A genius.   
An old soul. 
Remeber he has peace from 
this world,
yet, 
his spirit never gone,
never finished,
Heath was always part of forever,
and he's busy stretching,
so much to do, learning and seeing
being, for always,
for who needs sleep in heaven.
 

 :\'( This is beautiful Jessi. Thank you for sharing it. 

[ksxks]

I  know exactly how you feel, and I can hardly take it anymore. I cry every single day. All I have to do is think of his name, and I fall apart. I have gotten way too involved on myspace with all of the Heath people. I'm pretty much the most active person on there as far as adding photos, providing links to new interviews, posting news before most people receive it for some reason, and I created a 20-question Heath survey, the results of which I just posted today. I know that I need to leave there, but whenever I mention it, people on my friends list with whom I've never exchanged a word, practically beg me to stay and tell me how much they appreciate everything I do. So, I feel really good helping people, which also makes me cry, but the satisfaction of doing that is not quite as much as the pain it's causing me.

I spend my days torturing myself by finding and adding new photos to my albums to share with everybody, and at the same time just staring at the photos and completely falling apart.

I don't want to isolate, but I can't deal with all the exposure either. I don't know what to do. I'm sick of missing this man so much. I was totally in love with him before his death, and I too feel like I've lost the most important person in my life. I feel like I'm mentally disturbed and should be put away. But then I read posts like this one that remind me I'm not alone.

I'm sick of crying everyday. I'm sick of grieving. I've made no progress since his death. I'm miserable and often think of putting myself out of my misery with the temptation of all the pills that Heath took sitting right in my nightstand. I know I wrote about this before, but the pain is unbearable. He is the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing when I go to sleep.

I've been trying to watch my favorite political comedy shows before bed, and that does help. I just need to withdraw from this horrible addiction.

Thanks for reading this. I needed to put my feelings in writing, even if it's just for me.

You guys are all great, and believe me, for all of those who grieve for Heath, I feel your pain and I hate to think of any of the wonderful people on here feeling as horrible as I do.

Take care. :\'(

You know what, heathlover, how about you come here and you don't have to GIVE anything.  All the people on myspace really appreciate what you're giving them, but you can come here and just BE.  You need a place where you get taken care of, where you are not filling other people's needs.  So you can come here for that.  We don't need you to do anything -- just be here and hopefully find what you need. You can just say whatever you want, or just read if you don't feel like talking.

kathy