I know I posted earlier but I haven't really talked on here in awhile...I just can't, brings too much pain sometimes..
Tonight I had some of my friends over and it was wonderful
We hung out in my room, told stories, eating ice cream, and talking about Heath and his movies
What was so great is that the whole time, we talked about him in a present tense, like he never passed
I showed them pictures from this site and the videos that he directed...they were blown away
I put up the Nick Drake vid. and they were just in shock, listening to the acostic guitar and lyrics
I remember my friend watching it, putting a hand out, saying to us, "I wish I could just put my hand out and grasp his hand..follow him into that world" and my other friend shaking her head saying "He is such a beautiful young man"
When I showed them a memorial vid. of Heath with the song "Slipped Away" and in one picture, it showed Heath in the body bag...my friend almost started to cry, but she regained herself and tried to smile
It's been than 2 months and Heath's birthday is coming up...my sister might have her child on that day, i'm going to the city, where Heath lived, on that same day...will I be able to bare such sadness and happiness, alone in that fast paced city? :\'(