Topic: Heath Ledger - In Loving Memory

[NoReins]

That is a beautiful poem, FlwrChild. Thanks for sharing it.

[FlwrChild]

It just kind of grabbed me. I really do think mostly of all the good things - all the gifts that Heath brought to the world, that we've all wrapped ourselves up in. But every now and then a stray thought comes to me that makes me tear up again, so this poem felt a little familiar.

[myprivatejack]

Wonderful poem,FlowrChild;yes it's just we all are feeling and will always feel for our Heath.

[keren_b]

Your name, your face, your voice,
Used to sweep me off my feet
Now each and every thought of you
Brings me to my knees

That was such a beautiful poem FC, thank you for quoting it. :\'(

These lines that I bolded describe just how I feel. I want to go back to the point where I can think of him with a smile, just be greatful for all that he'd given us without feeling this deep sadness. But I still have my breaking points. When I watch him on films it's okay, it doesn't make me cry, because I just can't think of him as dead when he's right there in front of me, so alive. But the tribute videos... The BAFTA tribute brings me to tears, and so does the video that Ethan made. Just when I think that I'm doing better, that I'm able to think about him with a smile, something comes along and brings me to my knees again.

[FlwrChild]

That's it exactly Keren. And it can be the smallest little thing -  a quote from a movie, a picture, seeing one of those magazines at the grocery store. All in time, I'm sure. Meanwhile, 

[cowgirlKt!]

  everyone.

I agree mpj, better to share these things than to worry about overposting. It's been comforting, even while I cry, to see the videos and poems, and just to read your thoughts and feelings, over the last few weeks. It's a true celebration both of Heath and of our ties here.

I found this poem written by a poster over at imdb and just wanted to share it here. By CrowBat2005. Whoever you are, it's a beautiful poem that expresses what I'm sure a lot of us are feeling.

The Thought of You

It hurts as much as the first time
It feels like the first day
Each and every thought of you
Makes my smiles turn to dismay

Your name, your face, your voice,
Used to sweep me off my feet
Now each and every thought of you
Brings me to my knees

I shake it from my mind
So positive thoughts can surface
It was an honor for the earth to bear you
Your life had its own purpose

You had love and care
Which you both gave and received
Humble, quiet, friendly
Such beauty is hard to believe

Suddenly, true words fill my mind
I feel the emptiness of my heart
And once again the thought of you
Makes me feel the earth's mourning of such an art

When your absence slips my mind
I live in blissful ignorance
Then the very thought of you
Shoots reality into existence

everyone for your kind comments on my painting it really makes me smile.   just glad everyone got to see my tribute i did from the heart.One girl at work nearly cried when she saw it and doesnt even know Heath well...i was impressed my emotions thru the painting reached out to her in that way.
Thanks for sharing this poem with us its really nice

[Koka]

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

[trekfan]

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

Absolutely beautiful quote and photo.    very fitting and I think also healing

Linda

[trekfan]

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

does anyone know where this quote is from?

[Koka]

does anyone know where this quote is from?

if by 'where' you mean 'which interview', I'm sorry to disappoint you but I have absolutely NO idea whatsoever.

*sigh*

it's just so beautiful...the quote I mean...

I know I keep saying this over and over again, but Heath was ( nope, still can't get used to the past tense.... ) wise beyond his age and had a rare sensitivity only few people could truly comprehend.

[trekfan]

if by 'where' you mean 'which interview', I'm sorry to disappoint you but I have absolutely NO idea whatsoever.

*sigh*

it's just so beautiful...the quote I mean...

I know I keep saying this over and over again, but Heath was ( nope, still can't get used to the past tense.... ) wise beyond his age and had a rare sensitivity only few people could truly comprehend.

someone told me it's from the cover of vanity fair he did

[ayasha]

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

This is a so very beautiful lesson of humility  :\'(

[guyinjax]

WARNING WARNING WARNING

Hey Fellow Brokies ...

I've been reading on the internet about a bad virus planned to be launched tomorrow.  From what I understand it comes with the title: Postcard.

For us Brokies, the danger is obvious!!

Moderator(s):  PLEASE feel free to move this post to where ever you feel it will do the most good.  I kinda thought a lot of us were reading these posts so that's why I posted this here.

I hope it's all a big nothing, and that I've sounded the alarm bell for no reason.  Still, better to be safe.

From what I've read, however, this virus, described by Norton AntiVirus and CNN, will simply kill your computer in an instant by destroying your hard drive.

It's not worth taking a chance.

The recommended action is if you see an e-mail in your inbox with the title Postcard ... delete it immediately.
I'd really hate to learn that one of us lost a computer because we wanted to see our favorite postcard!

Take care all.

[LuvJackNasty]

That was such a beautiful poem FC, thank you for quoting it. :\'(

These lines that I bolded describe just how I feel. I want to go back to the point where I can think of him with a smile, just be greatful for all that he'd given us without feeling this deep sadness. But I still have my breaking points. When I watch him on films it's okay, it doesn't make me cry, because I just can't think of him as dead when he's right there in front of me, so alive. But the tribute videos... The BAFTA tribute brings me to tears, and so does the video that Ethan made. Just when I think that I'm doing better, that I'm able to think about him with a smile, something comes along and brings me to my knees again.

  Keren. I know what you mean. I went back into my archives and have pulled up old appearances and I actually smiled and laughed, but when they were over this deep sadness hit all over again and I'd start to cry. Even my BBM stuff either in my room or at my desk at work is hard to look at sometimes- just that alone is enough to trigger the tears. One day we will get back to where we can look back and smile and it won't hurt as much. When that day will be is anyone's guess; and it will be different for all of us.

[LuvJackNasty]

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

Thank you Koka 

[LuvJackNasty]

Thanks GuyinJax. I generally don't open email unless I recognize the sender- the rest gets tossed. I don't like to take chances but I'm glad you brought that to everyone's attention- better to be on the safe side. 

[lancecowboy]

Koka, this is beautiful and wise. Thank you for sharing this marvelous quote, how Heath kept his perspective and priority. His wisdom constantly amazes me.

speaking of the pic jakelandia posted, here is a little something very near and dear to my heart:

[ksxks]

Time To Say Goodbye

Cliffy, this is just gorgeous.  You chose unique images and moments...and of course the beautiful song, exalted sorrow...

Thank you.

kathy

[ksxks]

hey guys!

I'm posting this on cowgirl's ( aka Katie's ) behalf. She already mentioned painting this ( starting it before Heath passed, and finishing it afterwards ) and the painting getting published in STAR magazine. I offered to post it for her since she still doesn't know her way around posting pictures and such technicalities.

Thank you for doing this, koka, because I couldn't go see it on katie's facebook or wherever it was.

Katie -- this is beautiful!  And I'm so glad you sent it in to Star magazine and it got printed!  Plus, I really appreciate drawing and painting, in these days when images are so readily available, people do less and less original artwork.  It just must have been so shocking (besides how shocking Heath's death was in itself) that here you were, doing this painting, and then...  And I'm glad you had it in you to finish it.  It's quite fine.  (I do some pencil drawing, so I appreciate it even more, feeling your process as I look at it.)

kathy

[ksxks]

Keren. I know what you mean. I went back into my archives and have pulled up old appearances and I actually smiled and laughed, but when they were over this deep sadness hit all over again and I'd start to cry. Even my BBM stuff either in my room or at my desk at work is hard to look at sometimes- just that alone is enough to trigger the tears. One day we will get back to where we can look back and smile and it won't hurt as much. When that day will be is anyone's guess; and it will be different for all of us.

It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone.  It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay.  How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person?  Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay.  Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!

kathy

[white_angel]

It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone.  It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay.  How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person?  Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay.  Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!

kathy

 I agree with you. it is not okay and it will. not be okay.

I love Heath and I know someday we will meet.

[Koka]

Koka, this is beautiful and wise. Thank you for sharing this marvelous quote, how Heath kept his perspective and priority. His wisdom constantly amazes me.

I know, it never ceases to amaze me as well!

[hpv]

It is just NOT "okay" for me that Heath is gone.  It just is, just is reality, but it is not okay.  How can it ever be okay, to be deprived from here on of his talents and his beautiful person?  Sure, I can live my life, and sure, I can get pleasure from seeing Heath's pictures or film, but it is not okay, just not okay.  Maybe in twenty years it will be...but maybe in twenty years I will be with him!

Oh, Kathy, you got me there...it's defiantly not OK...
plus we are  the same era..  :\'(

[hpv]

I must share something,
Yesterday I watched an interview with Johnny Depp about the movie Sweeney Todd, anyway it just strike me how his behavior during the interview resembles Heaths', it was like identical but with another face... the same gestures combing his hair with his fingers,moving nervously on his chair,changing his hands position all the time, all fidgety... well you know what I mean! It got me thinking that maybe they have so much in common, such a talented,intelligent, young men.. thankfully one is still with us...
(BTW, the movie "Sweeney Todd" is kind of musical...but Johnnys' acting is amazing!!)

[FlwrChild]

Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.

So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal.  Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.

I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath.

[Koka]

Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.

So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal.  Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.

I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath.

This has to be one of the most AMAZING posts I have read in a while. Beautiful thoughts, amazingly expressed and put into words. And yes, you are absolutely right- Heath made the best of his life. I personally believe that there are no 'accidents'- everything happens for a reason and everything happens at just the right time. Of course, it may NOT seem the right time for us ( Heath's passing still doesn't FEEL like 'the right time' ), but it obviously was for that person. and that's the greatest paradox of all--> how to conciliate the fact that we know the person we love, but has gone, is actually OKAY ( if we feel in our gut that death itself is nothing 'bad', but a mere physical transition which we, as human beings, perceive as such ) and the fact that WE are not okay, because WE are the ones who are 'left behind' and who are forced to move on without the person in question. We gotta stand it. That's the difficult part....

oh, and the most amazing part of your post was this:

'God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life.'

I like that thought VERY much 

[Rosie]

Oh I agree with you Koka...that was a wonderul post FlwrChld. 

[lancecowboy]

Happy Valentine's Day, Heath, and Everyone.

 

Thanks, FlwrChild. Heath filled his life with his life, and our hearts with his love.

  Everyone 

[keren_b]

Ok, sorry for being long-winded, but I was watching an interview with Heath and something struck me. I was looking at one of his tatoos and thinking about when he got them and such (it was an older interview, so I realized he's had that wrist one for a long time). And it just spun into the thought that if he were destined to live only 28 years, he did it just right. I mean, he did what he wanted to do, even when other people sometimes tried to tell him not to. He made his own career choices when his early management thought he should play it safe, and look at the treasure trove we have now because of that. He marked himself the way he wanted and felt comfortable with. He loved openly and enthusiastically, even when it thrust him into that spotlight he didn't like because it was with someone famous - he didn't stifle any of that to avoid discomfort. Boy, when he was in love, you knew he was in love. And he had the chance to experience what he said was the best thing in his life - being a parent. God , I just can't help thinking how right it is that he filled his life with, well, his life. Seems like it could be a great example of how to stay true to yourself and make the most of every moment. He could have molded himself differently for a lot of people or a lot of reasons, but I bet when he crossed that threshhold, he felt good about every decision he ever made. You know, it's said that you should plan for tomorrow, but live for today. I think we sometimes forget the second half of that. And sometimes worry so much about what other people might think of us that we let our best chances for our happiest moments pass us by. Geez, it's a lesson well learned from both Heath (on how to do it right) and Ennis (on how not to do it). I'm actually feeling a breath of...I don't know...fresh air or energy or something.

So I put a challenge to a friend. Let's make a deal.  Do something this month just for you, something you want to do, and do it whether anyone else thinks it's a good idea or not. Look where our instinct has gotten us so far. Let's trust that and take a leap. I know, I'm probably sounding manic, but it's in my head now and I think I'm going to listen to it.

I was still crying over song lyrics this morning, but I'm going to try to keep this resolution. And when I achieve it, I'll think of Heath.

Thank you so much for this post, Barb. I can hardly write a reply, because I'm choking with tears. Through Ennis, Heath showed us the wrong way to live, but he also showed us the right way. Two sides of the coin. And yes, he did it just right...

[LuvJackNasty]

  Barb. I'm so glad you decided to share that in the open fourm.