I feel like I knew him, although I never met him. I feel like he was a part of my life, someone who was actually present in them, and now is missing. I feel like he was a personal friend. he gave me so much, without knowing. and I was so proud of him, and was looking forward to keep following his career, because I knew he had so many more great things to give us. now, every time I read about his plans and all the things that he was involved in, and wanted to do... it's like a stab in the heart. it's like Michelle Williams said, in some ways it just gets worse. with each day I love him more and I miss him more. His loss feels so personal. I still think about him every day, and I still cry. I just don't talk about him so much anymore with the people around me, because I've learned they don't want to hear about it.