I love inflicting this kind of pain. 

Get this, which I read about chocolate, but applies to Jake: "It has...that certain
je ne sais quoi -- a distinct, alluring quality, yet not completely defined.... But equally alluring may simply be the sense of indulgence we get.... It tortures you with pleasure."
As you said, Thomas. It is almost pain, the pleasure in partaking of images of Jake's beauty. Every time I see yet another gorgeous, thud-inducing picture, it's like, please, how much more am I supposed to be able to take?!
kathy