BabyTammy, am wide awake now, and am now hurting more because there were actually four warnings, I gave. Mentioned last night,
that I had posted, on pg. 432 of photos, that he looked extremely sad, in the pictures from London, and then one, mid-page. I softened it,
so as not to seem to wrongful, but was seriously worried.
They are now saying he had complained of a sleep disorder after making TDK, and was only getting 2-3 hours of sleep (interview-N.Y. Times)
and was exhausted and emotionally drained. And I warned of that in this forum on page 34 of the Joker thread, but, again, watered it down,
so as not to be offensive. Watered it down, but spoke up, in 2 posts on that page.
But I also e-mailed Heath, as soon as I had the internet, last year, and asked him to look after his emotional and physical health, as I had
read BBM took a lot out of him. No reply. When I was accepted by his staff as an add-on to his MySpace site, they posted my picture (along
with a bunch of other new add-ons) with the message from me that he should get plenty of rest. It's a matter of record, on that site.
So, now, am in great pain, because I gave not one but four warnings, that I sensed something was wrong. And yet I never took it to the
level of extreme warning, for fear of being made fun of. I tried, 4 times, 3 of which can be seen, but I failed to go with my gut instinct, that
this was a sensitive guy who took too much on himself.
Never heard of the Times interview until last night, but it was a direct complaint to the reporter, and maybe even a cry for help. Asking for
someone to see him as more than a celebrity, but as a human being. Knowing I gave 4 warnings gives me even more grief, because 3 of them
were published or posted, and I played the game- I watered them down, afraid of being tagged as out-of-line, and negative.
What's done is done. I loved him enough to notice, but maybe not enough to raise hell and hope someone, anyone would hear. His staff-
anyone. Exhaustion. 2-4 hours of sleep each night. Why didn't the reporter speak up?
Again, what people say- something was meant to be--No. Not this. I will leave off, grieving all the more, that no one close to him stepped in.
