OMG! After reading all your posts about FC, I am devastated again. That scene was disturbing for me because it was the last time that Ennis and Jack were together! But I never thought about it in a way that Jack's death had already started there, that he was dead inside for Ennis rejected him so many times. Oh! I feel so so so sorry for Jack! His pain is my open wound, and after reading this thread, you even put the salt on that wound! :\'( :\'( :\'(
For so many times in the movie Jack was the one who should be comforted, but instead - he always comforted Ennis. I remember first time in the mountain after reunion, he was rejected by Ennis. He was so down, but he caressed Ennis's face with his hand so gently. Even in FC, as much as he was beaten and defeated, pushed away, again HE was the one who hold Ennis and calmed him down.
I can not say that I do not feel for Ennis, as he's the one who was left in pain (Jack went to Brokeback mountain!

), but Jack's obvious pain during the years of their hidden love affair, make me so beaten up, so sorrowful that I can hardly breathe! He was a man in such a need of love and the person he loved the most was never able to return in the same manner. Even so, Jack functioned so well! He could adopt to any situation. Unlike Ennis, who was a very destructive person, Jack kept his marriage, although was ready to leave Lureen at any moment. But he manage to deal with any situation... except with the person he loved the most - Ennis.
Jack was so alive, so lovely and so deeply unhappy!
Dear dear Jack! :\'(
My PBS is coming back in it's worse! :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'( :\'(