I just feel like I have to get it out or I'm going to burst. I need to know that I'm not alone in this...
Today is the 22nd again... 16 months without our boy. and today his last movie, The Imaginarium Of Dr. Parnassus, is screened for the first time in Cannes festival.
Some people have already seen it this morning, more are going to watch it tonight. I'm sitting here, waiting anxiously for the reviews, and this waiting is nerve-wracking and I feel like I'm going to burst into tears any minute now. ok, I'll admit it, I'm already crying.
This is the last movie, Heath. That's it baby. There won't be any more. This is the last chance we'll ever get to see you on the big screen again in a new role. To hear you speak in your beautiful voice lines that we haven't heard before and sweep us off our feet into a new magical world. There will be interviews and press conferences, but you won't be there. There will be photos and we'll see Terry and Johnny and Jude and Colin and everybody else, and there'll be a big black hole where you were supposed to be. No one is able to fill that hole, no one.
I want to see this movie so badly, but I'm also dreading it because I'm afraid I'm going to cry through the whole damn thing, knowing that it's really over.
I've just read this among the reviews that are starting to come out:
As Gilliam’s “The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus” premiered at the Cannes Film Festival, the filmmaker said Ledger almost co-directed the film.
“Heath was enjoying himself so much, and he was ad-libbing a lot, which I don’t normally allow ... but Heath was just brilliant at it, and he got everybody else going,” Gilliam said. “Everybody was just energized by Heath. He was extraordinary. He was almost exhausting because he had so much energy.
“That just passed on to everyone else. Everyone’s part grew because they were full of Heath’s energy,” Gilliam said. “What I thought was interesting was to watch people filling the void that Heath left. Everybody was just growing to make sure that there was no void left in the space that Heath had left us.”
The movie closes with the dedication: “A film from Heath Ledger and friends.”
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