
to everyone
I understand how you all feel. Sometimes you just want to dissapear and not feel the pain and I don't know if that will ever change. In a way I hope it does because I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of feeling empty, I'm tired of feeling like someone just ripped my heart out. But why do I feel this way? I think its because Heath mean so much to me and if these feelings started to go away is that a sign that I don't care as much about his as I once did?

Emzan

It will get better, not because we don't care as much as before.
For me, the pain and anguish of losing Heath was like losing hope and dreams, almost turning to despair. The friendships and support in the forum helped me to realize that death is just a horizon from our point of view, and there is more beyond when the time comes. Meanwhile, our hopes and dreams carry on, especially the hopes and dreams attached to the people we miss...because they are honored and remembered through our struggle to change our stars, making our hopes and dreams come true.
The pain will go away, because we learn that, life is bittersweet, and after the bitterness, we can savor the sweetness, because that's what Heath always wanted for the people in his life.
