Topic: Heath Ledger - In Loving Memory

[Matt Nasty]

It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time.  I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(


He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~

So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process.

[Emzan]

I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....

[Matt Nasty]

I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....

emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul

[myprivatejack]

It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time.  I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(


He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~

So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process.

And that's the best thing we must do,for ourselves and for him and his memory.We really have to feel happy for everything he gave to us while he was here,and everything he had left to us now that He's in another side of the Universe.If we hadn't known him,now we couldn't enjoy all this everything that has remained,and it's what must prevail now before the sorrow for having lost more things onwards.Sometimes it's better to have known the beauty and the love than never having known them;you don't cry then,but you've never enjoyed them either.

[Emzan]

emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul

thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it

[myprivatejack]

I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....

Emilie,if you can´t still,just don´t watch BBM, don´t do it.Time will tell you when you´ll be ready to watch it or any Heath movie with sweet sorrow,but being able to stand it.Just try to do what FlowrChild and me say in our posts; try to be happy for what Heath has left and given to you,to all of us,and happy to having known him.It´s difficult,I know,but it´s a way you must to walk to.

emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul

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[myprivatejack]

thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it

If you are stupid for this,I´d like that there will be more stupids like you in the world...

[Matt Nasty]

thanks for the comment, but I still feel awful and stupid sitting here and crying over a person I didn't know but I can't help it

i agree with myprivatejack if this is stupid then the world is a stupid place remember you are not alone in this we all feel the same.

[myprivatejack]

i agree with myprivatejack if this is stupid then the world is a stupid place remember you are not alone in this we all feel the same.

And the world is really an stupid place,but not for this reason.We need more stupid persons who are able to cry for a unknown person who has made this world a little better.

[FlwrChild]

I agree. We're all crying for ourselves, for Heath, and for his family and friends. And that just means that we're compassionate people with open hearts. I wouldn't have it any other way.

[Matt Nasty]

I agree. We're all crying for ourselves, for Heath, and for his family and friends. And that just means that we're compassionate people with open hearts. I wouldn't have it any other way.

me neither

[Emzan]

thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...

[Matt Nasty]

thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...

just dismiss what this so called "friend" said sometimes people cant understand what you are going through simply because they are not going through it with you thats the wonder of this place everyone is going through it with you.

[lancecowboy]

thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...

No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.

You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.

[Matt Nasty]

No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.

You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.

nice post andrew

[Emzan]

thanks for all the nice comments, I feel much better now
 

[hpv]

That's an amazing tribute to Heath that contains all of his movies with BBM music :

http://www.sendspace.com/file/mdo2ro

[keren_b]

I know how you feel Emzan  

[Emzan]

I know how you feel Emzan  

 

[myprivatejack]

thanks for all the commets and I don't say that you are stupid because maybe you cry over Heath, but I was called stupid a couple of weeks ago by someone I thougt was my friend because I was crying over him and I guess I didn't let that comment just slip away...

Then,this so called "friend" was not as you believed.He or she wasn´t able to understand your feelings,what is a friendship proof.Or wasn´t sensitive enough to understand them.In any case,you should feel sorry for this person,not for yourself.

No worries, Emzan. Tell him to listen to Garth Brooks Standing Outside the Fire.

You are warmed by the flames that Heath built, that we all share. He is standing in the cold, outside the fire. Sometimes, some people don't get it, and I have stopped trying to explain it. It's not something that makes sense, that's logical. It's something that's either in the heart or not. Heath had it in him, plenty and more than enough to spare. Those who don't want to open their hearts, as FlwrChild said, to receive this wonderful gift, are the ones who lose out on something that money can't buy.

Beautifully explained,Andrew,just as always...

[Emzan]

Then,this so called "friend" was not as you believed.He or she wasn´t able to understand your feelings,what is a friendship proof.Or wasn´t sensitive enough to understand them.In any case,you should feel sorry for this person,not for yourself.

Beautifully explained,Andrew,just as always...

[jessi]

Moving on doesn't mean, shouldn't mean, forgetting, more like not dwelling.  Like the couple of times I've see pap stuff on michelle, going to work, taking walks with her daughter.  Nothing can bring heath back, but he wouldn't want anyone who loved him to stop their life.  He's part of all we are now, and I look forward to being able to enjoy his work again, even with pain.  Life is much enjoyment with pain.  Sometimes I'll smile or cry, or both, and like losing anyone I have loved, often caught with great surprise when it comes.  He's part of my world.  I have grandkids and a daughter in another state.  they are always in my mind, sometimes in thought, sometimes just there.  heath is always there, sometimes in thought, but part of my world made so much richer by him.  Part of my pain, and what you can't fix, you stand.  He has moved on, living in a place we can't be yet.  He doesn't want us, no he doesn't, to stop our life, just love and remember him.  Make him a good part of us, better for knowing him.
This is probably why some banners are taken down, some threads closed.  But there needs to be a place to come together for those still trying to adjust to standing what is so hard to stand.
jessi

[Matt Nasty]

Moving on doesn't mean, shouldn't mean, forgetting, more like not dwelling.  Like the couple of times I've see pap stuff on michelle, going to work, taking walks with her daughter.  Nothing can bring heath back, but he wouldn't want anyone who loved him to stop their life.  He's part of all we are now, and I look forward to being able to enjoy his work again, even with pain.  Life is much enjoyment with pain.  Sometimes I'll smile or cry, or both, and like losing anyone I have loved, often caught with great surprise when it comes.  He's part of my world.  I have grandkids and a daughter in another state.  they are always in my mind, sometimes in thought, sometimes just there.  heath is always there, sometimes in thought, but part of my world made so much richer by him.  Part of my pain, and what you can't fix, you stand.  He has moved on, living in a place we can't be yet.  He doesn't want us, no he doesn't, to stop our life, just love and remember him.  Make him a good part of us, better for knowing him.
This is probably why some banners are taken down, some threads closed.  But there needs to be a place to come together for those still trying to adjust to standing what is so hard to stand.
jessi

well said jessi 

[hpv]

thanks for all the nice comments, I feel much better now
 

Dear Emzan, you can always depend on our forums' support whatever the problem, it never fails that someone here, will be for you, with a hug, kind word and a open heart! 

Wonderful post jessi, and I rest my case...

[keren_b]

That's an amazing tribute to Heath that contains all of his movies with BBM music :

http://www.sendspace.com/file/mdo2ro

That's really amazing.

[Emzan]

Dear Emzan, you can always depend on our forums' support whatever the problem, it never fails that someone here, will be for you, with a hug, kind word and a open heart! 

Wonderful post jessi, and I rest my case...

I know that I can always come here and every time I do I feel so much better, thank you all for being here

[Matt Nasty]

I know that I can always come here and every time I do I feel so much better, thank you all for being here

im sure everyone is glad to be here for each other  i know i am

[babytammy7]

It really is all the difference just to have this group, in this place, to come to during this time.  I feel a little bit better today, although I did shed a few tears in the car when I'm Already There came on the radio: :\'(


He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already there
~ ~ ~ ~

So it comes and it goes, but at the end of the day, he's still gone and we're still here. So I wrap up my sorrow over the first, inside of my gratitude for the second, and try to smile for everything he had while he was here and everything he gave us that we still have, and each day is a little better than the one before. Thanks to all of you for being a part of my healing process.

Barb, I don't know what to say.  :\'(  :\'(  :\'(

[Hayley]

I just watched BBM and I didn't get to the end, I was crying to much and I still do. everything feels so wrong and I don't know what to do. my heart is broken and I can't belive that he's really gone :\'( he just can't be....

emelie i feel the same its such a shame that he is gone but for all he is gone he will never be dead i've mentioned it before and i will again now grieving is normal we are all doing it but we must stick together untill it is more bearable grief never dissapears but it does get easier even if it takes a long time, remeber heath lives on in us and his work and for all it is awful that he is gone he is surely in a better place now and we will meet him again i know its not much of a cancelation but for all it is awful he is gone physically and we cant see him again in this life i firmly beleive he is still with us in mind and soul

I know exactly how you feel Emzan, everything else is the same and yet nothing feels right and that makes it so hard to comprehend that Heath is no longer physically here. And when I start dwelling on it, the harder it is to believe. I watched A Knight's Tale with some friends last night, and while watching it I pushed it largely to the back of the mind, but somewhere at the back there was the thought 'He's not here anymore'

But much like Zankou1991, I firmly believe (& it's largely whats helped me since the news) that Heath, his spirit lives on somewhere, in a better place that we just can't see. And it hurts that we can't see him or will never see a new movie or interview or photograph. And yet we're lucky, becuase in time, we'll be able to watch his films and see him and hear him and smile. Until we meet again in the place that awaits us. But till then we are left with the memories and his films and while the pain will ease with time, his work will ensure that all of us here will never forget him and be continued to be inspired by Heath for many years to come.

[Matt Nasty]

I know exactly how you feel Emzan, everything else is the same and yet nothing feels right and that makes it so hard to comprehend that Heath is no longer physically here. And when I start dwelling on it, the harder it is to believe. I watched A Knight's Tale with some friends last night, and while watching it I pushed it largely to the back of the mind, but somewhere at the back there was the thought 'He's not here anymore'

But much like Zankou1991, I firmly believe (& it's largely whats helped me since the news) that Heath, his spirit lives on somewhere, in a better place that we just can't see. And it hurts that we can't see him or will never see a new movie or interview or photograph. And yet we're lucky, becuase in time, we'll be able to watch his films and see him and hear him and smile. Until we meet again in the place that awaits us. But till then we are left with the memories and his films and while the pain will ease with time, his work will ensure that all of us here will never forget him and be continued to be inspired by Heath for many years to come.

well said hayley and welcome to the forum i hope you like it here it truely is wonderful