just watched the first 40 minutes of Monster's Ball ( it's been over 3 years since I've watched this movie..I've already forgotten half of it! ) and my God, I burst into tears 3 times...first when P.Diddy's character says 'I've always believed that a portrait captures a person far better than a photograph. It truly takes a human being to really see a human being.' The second sentence just got to me...then when he was executed...and then during the whole part where Heath and Billy Bob's character fought and ultimately, when Heath's character said: 'Well I've always loved you' and shot himself. after that scene, I turned the TV off 'cause I just couldn't watch it anymore, it was too hard.
Heath really was shier perfection. He acted beautifully, a simply marvelous portrayal of a lonesome, deeply sensitive and fragile human being who simply longs for affection, love, conversation, warmth. A person who wants to feel he belongs, who wants to know that there's more to this life...and that it does have a purpose. A person who simply longs for a connection, but all his gets is- resentment and total lack of understanding.
I got all of this just from Heath's portrayal. I cared for his character. I'll be damned, but during those 36 minutes that he was in the movie, I came to genuinely care for the character our Heath created and wanted to follow him 'till the very end, as Daniel Day-Lewis marvelously pointed out. But that final scene....when you realize that the last words he heard were 'I always hated you' from him own father, whom he had always loved...my God, that was so gripping, raw and heart-wrenching that I just couldn't stop crying...and then the realization that Heath himself is no longer with us hit me real hard....and it became unbearable.
